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" THE STORY OF OUR LIVES FROM YEAR TO YEAR."—SHAKESPEARE. ALL THE YEAR ROUND. A WEEKLY JOURNAL. CONDUCTED BY CHARLES DICKENS. WITH WHICH IS INCORPORATED HOUSEHOLD WORDS. N*'- 109.] SATURDAY, MAY 25, 1861. [PB,ICE 2d. experienced the first moment of relief I had GREAT EXPECTATION'S. hnown since the night of his arrival. BY CHAHLES DICKENS. Never quite free from an uneasy remembrance • of the mail on the stairs, I had always looked about me in taking my guest out after dark, and CHAPTER XLI. in bringing him back; and I looked about me IN vain should I attempt to describe the now. Difficult as it is in a large city to avoid astonishment and disquiet of Herbert, when he the suspicion of being watched, when the mind and I and Provis sat down before the fire, and I is conscious of danger in that regard, I could recounted the whole of the secret. Enough that not persuade myself that any of the people I saw my own feelings reflected in Herbert's within sight cared about my movements. The face, and, not least among them, my repugnance few who were passing, passed on their several towards the man who had done so much for ways, and the street was empty when I turned me. back into the Temple. Nobody had come out What would alone have set a division between at the gate with us, nobody went in at the gate that man and us, if there had been no other with me. As I crossed by the fountain, I saw dividing circumstance, Avas his triumph in my his lighted back windows looking bright and story. Saving his troublesome sense of having quiet, and when I stood for a few moments in been "low" on one occasion since his return— the doorway of the building where I lived, be on which point he began to hold forth to Her fore going up the stairs. Garden-court was as bert, the moment my revelation was finished— still and lifeless as the staircase Avas when I he had no perception of the possibility of my ascended it. finding any fault with my good fortune. His Herbert received me with open arms, and I boast that he had made me a gentleman, and had never felt before, so blessedly, what it is to that he had come to see me support the cliarac- have a friend. When he had spoken some sound ter on his ample resources, was made for me words of sympathy and encouragement, we sat quite as much as for himself; and that it was a down to consider the question. What was to be highly agreeable boast to both of us, and that done ? we must both be very proud of it, was a conclu The chair that Provis had occupied stiU re sion quite established in his OAVU mind. maining Avhere it had stood—for he had a bar " Though, look'ee here, Pip's comrade," he said rack way with him of hanging about one spot, to Herbert, after having discoursed for some time, in one unsettled manner, and going through one " I know very well that once since I come back round of observances with his pipe and his negro- —for Jialf a minute—I've been low, I said to head and his jack-knife and his pack of cards, Pip, I knowed as I had been low. But don't and what not, as if it were aU put down for him you fret yourself on that score. I ain't made on a slate—1 say, his chair remaining where it Pip a gentleman, and Pip ain't agoing to make had stood, Herbert unconsciously took it, but you a gentleman, not fur me not to know what's next moment started out of it, pushed it away, due to ye both. Dear boy, and Pip's comrade, and took another. He had no occasion to say you two may count upon me always having a after that, that he had conceived an aversion for gen-teel muzzle on. Muzzled I have been my patron, neither had I occasion to confess my since that half a minute Avlien I was betrayed own. We interchanged that confidence without into lowness, muzzled I am at the present time, shaping a syllable. and muzzled I ever wiU be." " What," said I to Herbert, when he was safe Herbert said, " Certainly," but looked as if in another chair, " what is to be done ?" there were no specific consolation in this, and "My poor dear Handel," he repUed, holding remained perplexed and dismayed. We were his head, "I am too stunned to think," anxious for the time when he would go to his " So Avas T, Herbert, when the blow first fell. lodging, and leave us together, but he was evi StiU, something must be done. He is intent dently jealous of leaving us together, and sat upon various new expenses—horses, and car late. It was midnight before I took him round riages, and lavish appearances of all kinds. He to Essex-street, and saw him safely in at his must be stopped, somehow.** own dark door. When it closed upon him, I fC You mean that you can't accept ?" VOL. V. 109 194 [May 25,1801.] ALL THE Y^EAR ROUND. [Conducted by "Howcan I?" I interposed, as Herbert paused, himself, I should be wretched as the cause, hoAv- " Think of him! Look at himr!" ever innocently. Yes; even though I was so An involuntary shudder passed over both of us. wretched in havMig him at large and near me, "Yet I am afraid the dreadful truth is, Her and- even though I would far far rather have bert, that he is attached to me, strongly attached worked at the forge all the days of my life, than to me. Was there ever such a fate !" I Avould have ever come to this ! " My poor dear Handel," Herbert repeated. But there was no raving off the question. "Then," said I, "after all, stopping short What was to be done ? here, never taking another penny from him, " The first and the .main thing to be done," think Avhat I owe him already! 'Then again: said Herbert, " is to get him out di England. I am heavily in debt—very heavily for me, Avho You will have to go with Mm, and then he may haA^e now no expectations at all—and I have be induced to go," been bred to no calling, and I am fit for nothing," " But get him where I wiU, could I prevent "Well, well, Avell!" Herbert remonstrated. 'his coming back?" "Don't say fit for nothing.** "My good Handel, is it not obvious that with " What am I fit for ? I knOAv only one thing Newgate in the next street, there must be far that I am fit for, and that is, to go for a soldier. greater hazard in your breaking your mind to And I might have gone, my dear Herbert, but him and making him reckless, here, than else- for the prospect of taking counsel with your Avhere, If a pretext to get him away could be friendship and affection." made out of that other convict, or out of any Of course I broke doAvn there; and of course thing else in his life, now," Herbert, beyond seizing aAvarmgrip of myhand^ " There, again!" said I, stopping before Her pretended not to know it. bert, Avith my open hands hela out as if they " Anyhow, my dear Handel," said he presently, contained the desperation of the case. " I know " soldiering won't do. If you Avere to renounce nothing of his life. It has almost made nie this patronage and these favours, I suppose you mad to sit here of a night and see him before would do so with some faint hope of one day re me, so bound up with my fortunes and misfor paying Avhat you have already had. Not very tunes, and yet so unknown to me, except as the strong, that hope, if you went soldiering! Be miserable wretch who terrified me two days iu sides, it's absurd. You^would-be infinitely better my childhood!" in Clarriker's house, small as it is. I am work Herbert got up, and linked his arm in mine, ing up towards a partnership, you know." and we slowly walked to and fro together, study Poor feUow ! He Uttle suspected with whose ing the carpet, money. " Handel," said Herbert, stopping, "you feel " But there is another question," said Her convinced that you can take no further benefits bert. "This is an ignorant determined man, from him; do you ?" A\-ho has long had one fixed idea. More than "PuUy. Surely you would, too, if you were that, he seems to me (I may misjudge him) to in my place ?" be a mau of a desperate and fierce character." "And you feel convinced that you must break "IknoAvhe is," I returned, "Let me tell with him ?" you what evidence I have seen of it." And I " Herbert, can you ask me ?" told him what I had not mentioned in my narra " And you have, and are bound to have, that tive ; of that encounter with the other convict. tenderness for the life he has risked on your " See, then !" said Herbert; "think of this ! account, that you must save him, if possible, He comes here at the peril of his life, for the from throwing, it away.