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10 Questions for Tarik O’Regan omposer Tarik O’Regan Csays classical music is experiencing a “Golden Age” that fills him with excitement to be alive and working in the company of peers he admires. In this recent PHOTO: THATCHER KEATS interview with Amanda Holloway for Sinfini Music, O’Regan touches On Manifest Destiny on a great sense of energy in the By contemporary music field, a trend ulitzer Prize-winning author Philip Roth In the summer of 1964 I was 31, the that we have observed in our was greeted with loud applause and a author of two books, Goodbye, Columbus residency program. Our admissions standing ovation as he accepted the and Letting Go. Alimony payments incurred panels are seeing fresh voices in P inaugural Yaddo Artist Medal at our May 14th by a childless three-year marriage in my musical composition with diverse City Benefit. Roth, who had his first twenties had emptied my pockets and backgrounds and innovative ideas. residency at Yaddo in 1964 and then returned stoked my spleen. I had barely been able Increasingly, composers who come six times over the next eight years, wrote most to write a worthwhile sentence during the to Yaddo are part of a collaborative of Portnoy’s Complaint, The Breast, and The previous two years (and didn’t yet know team – working with a writer, a Great American Novel at Yaddo. He dedicated that the drought was going to last some visual artist, or a filmmaker on The Breast to Yaddo and its then Executive two years more.) projects that often blur the lines Director Elizabeth Ames as “the best friends Instead, I had been enmeshed – to be of definition – and we’re noticing a writer could have.” Fellow Yaddo artist and more precise, I should say “ensnailed,” an increase in applications from longtime friend introduced Roth given the reduction in volume one composers working in musical and presented him with the medal. His remarks sustains in such dessications – I had theater and jazz. O’Regan, 36, followed and it is our great pleasure to share been ensnailed in a descending spiral of is currently working on projects them with readers of the Yaddo News. (continues on next page) with the Dutch National Ballet, (continues on page 4) ABOVE: Philip Roth greets an appreciative audience upon receiving the inaugural Yaddo Artist Medal. Philip Roth Then – the transformation. NO – the (continued from front cover) transfiguration. At Yaddo, there was no courtroom appearances where an aging, cheery matrimonial judge urging me cherubic municipal judge, who intended helpfully toward Hollywood. There were only to be charitable when I reported to no courtroom appearances headlined, him that I was broke, advised me Poloniusly as mine had been, in the New York from the bench that rather than publishing Daily News, “Walks Out on Platinum” – short stories in the Paris Review for $50 a meaning Blond. And there were no reviews piece I should instead write for the movies. intimating that my second book proved Philip Roth at Yaddo in Go West, young man, he triumphantly my first to have been no more than the December 1968 informed me like Horace Greeley – out excrescence of a precocious child, no © Bob Peterson West my manifest destiny would indubitably censuring reviewers to bring me up on the be to rake in tons of money for a single charge of beginner’s luck. distraction, futility, treachery, and, not film script. The judge read me wrong: my Instead, there was a sandwich and a least, from the encompassing miasma of manifest destiny was Yaddo. celery stalk in a lunch pail. Instead, there everyday malice. One could not but sense Two years earlier, in 1962, a massive was a Monkish bed amid the tchotchke- weariness down to the bone with flawed novel replete with the weightiest epigraphs laden grandeur of the mansion. Instead, humanity and enfeeblement approaching I could find from Thomas Mann and there was an unprepossessing cabin- collapse before a demented world. How Simone Weil, a book so solemn and morally studio tucked off by itself in the summer agitated an emergency can one life be? in earnest that it might have been taken weeds. And, at workday’s end, there was Yaddo beckons. to be a voluminous plea proferred for a a pool where I swam my laps each day Those fellow colonists: secreted novitiate in the Society of Jesuits – Letting as if to be ritualistically cleansed of the in Saratoga Springs from everything Go, as it was called, had been gently bewilderment that was at a boil over wickedly conspiring to prevent them from dismissed by Time and Newsweek for Humpty-Dumpty’s first great fall. At 4 p.m. practicing in peace their sullen art, any failing to keep the “promise” of Goodbye, daily I immersed myself in the pool as if I number of them taking merciful refuge Columbus. Lastly, a two-year stint as might wash away all my stupidity. from tribulations that, as they are chillingly a writer-in-residence at Princeton had And then there were those others described to me over a late-night beer at come to an end and there was no other wandering about, those strangers, the Spuyten Duyvil, are more dire even than sugarplum in sight. twenty-five or thirty of them, who, like me, my own – punishing tales of degradation, So it was that in the summer of 1964, astonishingly found themselves revived in a both personal and professional, that bring exactly a decade out of college and flash by as humble as a man-made artifact the darkness of Russian literature to mind. feeling more like a tramp down on his luck as a Yaddo lunch pail. (I cannot mention And yet breakfast mitigates all. The than a young writer who four years earlier often enough the salutary effect of the very next morning the once disheartened had received a National Book Award, I Yaddo lunch pail.) will perk right up, knife and fork in hand, arrived at the gates of Yaddo, discouraged, Who were these fellow colonists? As before a generous stack of syrup- sad, not a little desperate, still bearing I would discover in chats after playing drenched pancakes, invincible now, happily the emotional traces of a final courtroom Ping-Pong at West House or between trips invulnerable within the paneled walls of the defeat whose injustice I would eagerly to the betting booth at the harness races, grand dining room where, decades earlier, lament to as many as would listen, and more than a few were hiding within the the patrician financier fearing that it might require something sheltering shadow of the ancient spruces took dinner with his poet wife, Katrina – like a feat of magic for me to recover such from their biographies: some retreating splendid exemplars each of the gentility of force as I was all but sure had originally from enslavement to philistine wives or late-Victorian refinement burnished by the been in me. I allude to the force that Dylan worse, others from a not-so-secret aversion splendor of the Gilded Age. Thomas tells us, “through the green fuse to maddeningly selfish husbands or worse, The superfluous artist vindicated! At last drives the flower.” I could swear that I’d still others from zany lovers, serpent- the existence to which our calling entitles once had it. toothed children, dim-witted colleagues, us! Why shouldn’t we dine like the rich! My patient sidekick through all this unscrupulous rivals, illiterate students, “Give me your tired, “entreats Mother leveling, my Sancho Panza, was an Olivetti dunning bill collectors, unmet deadlines, Yaddo, “your poor…the wretched refuse… Lettera 22, a loveable manual portable noisy upstairs neighbors, and cramped yearning to breathe free. Send these, the typewriter of that era on which, alas, I living quarters, artists and would-be-artists homeless, tempest-tossed to me!” could write nothing but crap. in flight from a superabundance of triviality, A fellow Yaddo sponger salutes you.

2 Yaddo Summer News 2014 The Art of Our Medal

hen the idea of Yaddo honoring and was elected to Yaddo’s Board of a seminal artist first came up, Directors in 2011. WJames Siena – the notable painter and sculptor who serves on our “The medal was based on an engraving I Board – generously agreed to make did in 2004, coming out of a body of work the medal itself a thing of beauty and (Upside Down Devil…the title came to inspiration. me in a dream) begun as early as 1996,” Siena explained. “I actually engraved PHOTO: THATCHER KEATS The front of the Yaddo Artist Medal, the lines that make up the art side of produced by the Walla Walla Foundry the medal, and the folks at the foundry “It’s a great pleasure for us to begin a in Walla Walla, Washington, features a created the relief image based on the new tradition by presenting Philip Roth relief image divided into five sections, length of the individual lines.” with the first Yaddo Artist Medal,” said symbolizing the artistic disciplines Yaddo President Elaina Richardson. “It’s represented at Yaddo – film, literature, Selected excerpts from Yaddo’s long been our custom to award a medal musical composition, performance, and handwritten founding document appear in for achievement and service to two the visual arts. The production process their original cursive form, with help from graduating seniors at Saratoga High began by creating a 3D model based on Harlan & Weaver Intaglio, on the back of School, and we’d wanted for some time designs submitted by Siena, which aided the medal: to expand on that tradition in a way that in considering a variety of fabrication reflected our core history, and century- options. A combination of machining, long commitment, to encouraging, etching, and hand finishing was used to supporting, and inspiring the work fashion the medal to achieve of artists and writers. The the highest possible level of Yaddo Artist Medal will detail in the finished piece. be awarded annually at our New York City benefit Siena is a New York-based to an artist of outstanding artist whose complex, rule-based linear talent whose achievements and abstractions have situated him firmly commitment to their field within the trajectory of exemplifies Yaddo’s own American art. He has lectured tradition of excellence and and taught at art institutions community. In this way, we throughout the country and is represented hope to pay tribute to all the artists who by Pace Gallery. Siena has twice been a have been part of the Yaddo story since guest artist at Yaddo, in 2004 and 2007, our founding in 1900.”

3 Tarik O’Regan and keyboard (c) pencil on Tallis, Lassus and Byrd. Then a jump (continued from front cover) manuscript paper (d) improvisation to the sort of modernists that are Washington Chorus, BBC National with musicians (e) other? probably heard in the music of many Orchestra of Wales, Sydney Dance When does composing begin? The people, but who for me are Stravinsky, Company, American Opera Projects, choices above are really to do with Bartók, Britten and Schoenberg. And the Hallé orchestra, and Chamber Choir the moment you put your ideas down. the minimalist composers: Steve Reich, Ireland. He divides his time between When I write now, it’s on a computer Philip Glass, Michael Nyman and lesser- New York City and Cambridge, England. or laptop, at home in my studio in New known composers such as the British In April, his short opera The Wanton York or Cambridge, or on a plane. But minimalist Andrew Poppy. Sublime, with a libretto by fellow Yaddo there are all these other aspects of 2) Composers who don’t write music artist Anna Rabinowitz, premiered with composing, beginning when someone like me, but whom I’m very influenced by Ear Heart Music and American Opera says, “We’re thinking of asking you to regarding certain aspects of their work, Projects at Roulette in New York City. write this piece of music.” And the minute particularly the handling of drama, and Here, O’Regan shares his thoughts on they say that, inevitably you will start pacing, which is so crucial to music. The being a composer today. thinking – thinking of the space, of the list includes Harry Birtwistle, Salvatore people performing, of what else is on Sciarrino, Kaija Saariaho, George When (and why) did you first write the program. All these things begin the Benjamin, Olga Neuwirth, and American music? process of composing. composers Sebastian Currier, Alvin I wouldn’t have started writing music if I Singleton and Morton Feldman. hadn’t been made to do it. I know there Do you know where your ideas 3) And lastly I want to emphasize the are images of people who’ve always come from? excitement of being alive and around with wanted to be a composer, but I really A musical idea is influenced in some a bunch of really amazing peers. wasn’t that person. It was part of doing way by everything that’s happened up We’re going through a bit of a golden GCSE (General Certificate of Secondary to that point. I’m very aware of the fact age, I think, and the fact that all these people are out there writing In a way there’s a silent perception in the music world that composers music and people are coming to hear shouldn’t repeat themselves; it’s felt to be not properly evolving the art it, that validates what I do, and is hugely influential in its own way. So I’ll form. I feel more like an architect. I’ve evolved by slowly looping my way mention a few people whose work I’ve forward without feeling that I’ve had to completely reinvent things. come across in the UK and the USA, Joseph Phibbs, Joby Talbot, Helen Education) music, and I was encouraged that your own life is your unique set of Grime, Anna Clyne, Huw Watkins, Vijay by very good teachers. As a performer experiences. That is your window onto Iyer, Christopher Cerrone, and Sarah I went from being a drummer to being the world, and if you’re a creative artist Kirkland-Snider. I wish I had space to a percussionist in an orchestra and you’re just painting what you see out of mention more! studying at the junior department of the that window, or composing what you see Royal College of Music. When you’re out of that window. You may think you’re Which non-musical influences are really into music, you develop a sensibility using a specific set of colors to paint that important to your music? for what you think is great music, then image, or a particular set of sounds, and Architecture. Architects don’t feel the you have a go at doing it yourself, and it may be purely musical, but the image need to reinvent the wheel with each its crap! It doesn’t sound anything like that you are trying to recreate is one building. Having done something in what you adore. And what pushes you made up entirely from the vantage point one project you don’t scrap it and do on is trying to narrow that gap between of your own life. something completely different on the your first attempt at writing music and next one; there’s a very conscious sense that sensibility you’re drawn to. There’s Do you find inspiration from other of evolving one’s style by overlapping something addictive about it. Ira Glass, composers? If so, which? innovation. In a way there’s a silent who hosts This American Life, speaks Yes! I’ve split them into three groups. perception in the music world that very eloquently on this very phenomenon. 1) The composers I listen to and whose composers shouldn’t repeat themselves; influences I can hear in my own music. it’s felt to be not properly evolving the What is your composing method: Medieval and Renaissance composers art form. I feel more like an architect. I’ve (a) sitting at a piano (b) a computer such as Machaut, Dufay, Gombert, evolved by slowly looping my way forward

4 Yaddo Summer News 2014 without feeling that I’ve had to completely Direction shred… I love finding new ones reinvent things. on the internet.

What do you say when asked to What’s your ideal night out? describe your music? I’m a real city person and I travel a lot It depends how facetious I’m feeling. for my work. Luckily so does my partner, Sometimes I just say “guess!” And then I who’s an academic. There’s something agree with anything they say. Generally, utterly exhilarating about that first night though, I say, “I’ll send you a link on the walking in a city you’ve never been to internet and then you can have a listen.” before and having that first meal. You feel Well, Hello! We are pleased to welcome two new as if you’re really living! Members of The Corporation of Yaddo – Laura Callanan, an independent Your own life is your unique set Contemporary music can be consultant, author, and teacher in the daunting to newcomers: what do you of experiences. That is your field of social innovation; and Barry suggest they start with? Johnson, a principal at 32 Advisers window onto the world, and if We’ve more access to more music on our LLC with 25 years of experience computer, on our phone, on our tablet, you’re a creative artist you’re as a corporate business executive, than at any time before. So what I’d do entrepreneur, and economic diplomat. just painting what you see out of is look up any of these living composers Callanan is currently Scholar in that I’ve mentioned and listen to their that window, or composing what Residence at UC-Berkeley/Haas School work. Book tickets for the Proms (a of Business, a Visiting Fellow at New you see out of that window London music festival founded in 1895), York University/Wagner School of Public go to all the new pieces or listen to them Service, and a Senior Fellow with The Do you think about the listener when on the radio. That’s going to give you a Foundation Center. She previously was you’re composing? much greater sense of what’s going on. a consultant with McKinsey & Company, Yes, I do. Which is not to say that I don’t And get to grips with what’s going on a Senior Adviser at the United Nations try and forget about them sometimes! in popular music, especially electronic Development Programme, Executive Whether a composer cares what the dance music, both the more mainstream Director of The Prospect Hill Foundation, listener thinks is different to the act of stuff and the more experimental variety and Associate Director at The Rockefeller thinking about the listener. Even actively (sometimes, if controversially, referred Foundation. She recently was awarded choosing to disengage from the listener, to as IDM or Intelligent Dance Music), a Rockefeller Foundation Bellagio as I occasionally do, or ignore the role of where there’s a lot of innovation Fellowship to continue her work on artist the listener, is a form of thinking about happening. There’s a lot more interaction social entrepreneurs. them too. now between the world of dance music Johnson leads the Inbound Investment and the classical concert world. And & Global Market Access advisory practice What’s your musical guilty pleasure? listen for the music in a film you like. of 32 Advisors LLC. He also is a Fellow in Shreds. You’ve got to look it up on the That’s new music, even if we don’t think the University of Texas-Austin’s Institute internet! Basically, someone uploads a of it like that. No two pieces are going to for Creativity and Capital, the innovative famous concert, and they just redub all be the same and I’d be wary of pointing think tank helping to catalyze regional the music in a really bad way, or subtly someone in one direction, so see as economic development through cross- manipulate it. But it’s done as an homage. much as possible that’s happening now. society collaboration. Prior to joining 32 There’s a great one of Keith Jarrett. With the internet there’s no excuse. Advisors, Johnson served in the Obama There’s a fantastic Miles Davis and Learn more at: www.tarikoregan.com Administration in senior advisory capacities. John Coltrane one, and a hilarious One or www.sinfinimusic.com His government service was preceded by extensive management experience in the Website: Subscribe now to our email list to receive private sector, where he helped launch Connect regional, national, and international news about Yaddo “intrapreneurial” businesses within some of and our artist guests. Visit www.yaddo.org to sign up. It is quick and easy the world’s leading corporations, and was Facebook: Find us on Facebook and “Like” us for founding President of MSBET, the joint to stay in touch fun and interesting news from Yaddo. venture between Viacom’s BET Networks with Yaddo Twitter: Follow us @YaddoToday. and the Microsoft Corporation.

5 and Columbia In Memoriam University, she Linda Collins returned for six Linda Collins, a talented writer and subsequent Yaddo generous and visits, the last in active Member of 1997. Her work The Corporation has appeared of Yaddo for more in numerous than 25 years, died publications, January 7, 2014, in including New York City. Commentary, Collins published Kenyon Review, several stories St. John’s Review, Linda Collins was instrumental in securing a home for the Yaddo Archive Collection at The Hudson Review, in her 20s, most notably one called , which celebrated the opening of the records to the public with a “Intimacy” in Mademoiselle, and then 2008-2009 exhibition, “Yaddo: Making American Culture” (shown here), that drew more than and Intersection. stopped writing for a period of 15 years 70,000 visitors. Acquisition of the collection was made possible by a grant from Collins’s Elected a family foundation, the Morris and Alma Schapiro Fund. The NYPL will continue to receive the to raise her children, to study classics, Yaddo Records at least through the year 2026, the centenary of the year Yaddo received its Yaddo Member and to teach Greek and Latin literature first artist guests. Learn more at http://archives.nypl.org/mss/4795 in 1987, Collins at Columbia University and New York finished two short stories that appeared demonstrated insightful leadership and University. She first visited Yaddo as a in her book Going to See the Leaves, support, in particular in securing a home guest artist in the fall of 1984. During a collection of stories written over 10 for the Yaddo Archive Collection with The that residency, she worked on a novel and years. A graduate of Barnard College New York Public Library.

Terry Adkins intellectually. A professor of fine art at York (2012). Most recently, his work was The lauded artist, the University of Pennsylvania, he was featured in the 2014 Whitney Biennial, in a musician, and known for assemblage sculptures and solo exhibition at the Anchorage Museum, educator Terry performances with his longtime band, The and in the exhibition “Radical Presence,” Adkins, a Member Lone Wolf Recital Corps. He worked in a organized by Contemporary Arts Museum, of The Corporation variety of mediums, incorporating his affinity Houston, which traveled to the Grey Art of Yaddo since for music, history, and literature into his art. Gallery, New York, The Studio Museum in 2007 and a former Adkins had solo exhibitions at the Harlem, and to the Walker Art Center in Yaddo guest artist, died February 8, 2014, Whitney Museum of American Art, New Minneapolis. Sculptures by Adkins are in at his Brooklyn home at the age of 60. York City (1995), the SculptureCenter, the permanent collections of numerous Adkins was a great champion of younger Long Island City, New York (1997), and The institutions, including the Museum of artists and an exceptional teacher and Frances Young Tang Teaching Museum Modern Art in New York City and Tate artist who enjoyed challenging others and Art Gallery, Saratoga Springs, New Modern in London.

YADDO ALSO AFFECTIONATELY professor at MIT for 22 years and for 32 Professor Emeritus of English at Yale RECALLS other members of our years at University of California, Santa University; and composer Lee Hyla, community who passed away in recent Barbara; novelist, performer, and spoken- who received the Stoeger Prize from months: composer and jazz pianist word poet Maggie Estep, who helped the Chamber Music Society of Lincoln Charles E. Argersinger, Emeritus popularize slam poetry on MTV, HBO, Center, a Guggenheim Fellowship, Professor of Music at Washington State and PBS, and published several books, two National Endowment for the Arts University, founder of the WSU Festival including mystery novels set in New fellowships, the Goddard Lieberson of Contemporary Art Music, and a former York City; poet and literary critic John Award from the American Academy of teacher at Cal State Bakersfield and Hollander, known for his translations Arts and Letters, the St. Botolph Club DePaul University; poet Barry Spacks, from Yiddish as well as his own poems, Award, and the Rome Prize, taught a St. Botolph Club Award recipient who taught at Connecticut College, at New England Conservatory, and in who published 11 books of poetry and Hunter College, and the Graduate Center 2007 was appointed the chair of music two novels, served as Santa Barbara, at The City University at New York and composition at Northwestern University’s California’s first poet laureate, and was a was at the time of his death Sterling Bienen School of Music.

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