Autoethnographic Reflections on Identity, Family, and Leadership. Tracy John Skipp
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Nowhere Man i Nowhere Man NOWHERE MAN: AUTOETHNOGRAPHIC REFLECTIONS ON IDENTITY, FAMILY, AND LEADERSHIP BY TRACY JOHN SKIPP B.U.S., International Affairs, University of New Mexico, 1995 M.A., Foundations of Education, University of New Mexico, 2001 DISSERTATION Submitted in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirements for the Degree of Doctor of Education Educational Leadership The University of New Mexico Albuquerque, New Mexico July, 2010 ii Nowhere Man © 2010, Tracy John Skipp iii Nowhere Man Dedication This dissertation is dedicated to my family, friends, teachers, and colleagues from whom I have learned so much and who have always made school an exciting and safe place to be. iv Nowhere Man Acknowledgments Credo ut Intelligam "I believe so that I may understand." — Saint Augustine of Hippo My father told me when I was still pretty young that the more educated he became the more he realized he did not know. These words make much more sense to me now than they did when I was young. As I advance in years, there are many things I feel comfortable in saying that I know, but there are yet far many more that I cannot explain. One is how I have quite accidentally managed to surround myself with so many gifted, inspirational, and supportive people in my life because I most certainly would not be writing this if it were not for their belief in, and sacrifice for, my success. My family, my friends, colleagues, and teachers have all been instrumental in making school a safe and exciting place to be – a place where I could thrive. My children, who played a significant role in this study, were all the proof I needed that there are miracles, and they inspire me more than they realize. There are a few people who stand out and deserve special mention: Michelle, as a collaborator and confidante, without you this creative idea would have withered on the vine long ago. Your quiet brilliance, outrageous humor, and sound advice have inspired me to a life better than I had dreamed possible just a year ago. Allison, as a mentor and task master, you have inspired me to do my best work, and that was far beyond what I believed it could be. Steve and Michael, you believed in me from the start, and I hope one day I can be worthy to carry on the vital work you have begun. Your collective footpath in the field of social justice has inspired me and dramatically altered my life’s work — you are inspired teachers, and noted scholars. Mark, as a teacher and mentor, your example led to this work in more ways than just by example; you are an inspired intimate leader, and cherished friend. I will always be striving to live up to your standard. To my children, Tracy, Brennan, and Megan, you have inspired this work and are well on your way to being sensitive and caring spiritual leaders no matter what path you choose in life. Allow yourself the luxury of making mistakes and always look for the opportunity to be a v Nowhere Man light in someone else’s life. You will never regret the effort spent on someone else’s behalf — I love you more than I can say! One can never underestimate the importance of an inspirational place to write. I have been privileged to have access to some of the best. Sitting among the thousands of hand sewn texts in the Clark Field Archive; contemplating the view from the reading room in Widener Library; thinking on the balcony, though the air was so thick with history among the trees of Egrove Park; eating and sharing ideas at the dining room table of the main house at the Santa Fe Institute, all these places I have been allowed to share as I wrote this story. As a secular Franciscan, I would like to share with you a prayer, or blessing, that I read every morning for courage and strength, and hope that others may find it inspirational as well. Franciscan Prayer May God bless you with discomfort at easy answers, half-truths, and superficial relationships, so that you may live deep within your heart… May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people, so that you may work for freedom, justice, and peace… May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation, and war, so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and turn their pain into joy… May God bless you with enough foolishness to believe that you can make a difference in this world, so that you can do what others claim cannot be done… And the blessing of God who creates, redeems, and sanctifies be upon you and all those you love and pray for this day and forever more… Amen. vi Nowhere Man NOWHERE MAN: AUTOETHNOGRAPHIC REFLECTIONS ON IDENTITY, FAMILY, AND LEADERSHIP BY TRACY JOHN SKIPP ABSTRACT OF DISSERTATION Submitted in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirements for the Degree of Doctor of Education Educational Leadership The University of New Mexico Albuquerque, New Mexico July, 2010 vii Nowhere Man NOWHERE MAN: Autoethnographic Reflections on Identity, Family, and Leadership By Tracy John Skipp B.U.S., International Affairs, University of New Mexico, 1995 M.A., Foundations of Education, University of New Mexico, 2001 Ed.D., Educational Leadership, University of New Mexico, 2010 ABSTRACT The purpose of this self study was to discover the values and attitudes I model as a leader to support people in doing their best work. Specifically, do I practice leadership intimacy as defined in this study? Leadership intimacy is defined by addressing these research questions: What values do I lead by? And, what attitudes and practices do I model as a leader? Autoethnography is a qualitative genre of research I used in this study. It describes the researcher and his or her personal experiences within a social context, in this case a research university. Autoethnography is often described as “exploring a particular life, to understand a way of life.” In this study, I reflected upon vignettes that illustrate how my values and attitudes as a leader have been shaped. These formed the basis for deeper reflection, discussions, and interviews to explain my practice. Interviews were conducted using the 360 degree model to collect data. The data were then analyzed using idea units. Idea units are discrete ideas that can be found in writing regardless of the language used to describe them. Coding for idea units in any narrative follows the same pattern or procedure regardless of the idea being coded. The attitudes and values most often cited were those demonstrating metanoia, humility, and viii Nowhere Man solicitude. I learned each one of these values from my children. As I reviewed each of these values, it became clear that a framework where life informs work informs life is the engine that drives leadership intimacy. KEYWORDS: leadership intimacy, values, autoethnography, 360-degree interviews, vignettes, idea units. ix Nowhere Man Table of Contents Credo ut Intelligam........................................................................................................... v Franciscan Prayer....................................................................................................... vi ABSTRACT....................................................................................................................viii Preface................................................................................................................................ 1 Letter to the Reader.......................................................................................................... 1 Personal Profile........................................................................................................... 1 Geographic Profile...................................................................................................... 3 One Last Detail ........................................................................................................... 4 Chapter One ...................................................................................................................... 6 Context for the Study........................................................................................................ 6 Setting for the Study — The University.......................................................................... 9 A Corporate and Social Actor..................................................................................... 9 The Economics of Knowledge.................................................................................. 12 Betwixt and Between ................................................................................................ 15 Statement of the Problem............................................................................................... 18 Purpose and Significance of the Study.........................................................................