CHAPTER 1

The rain always puts me in the mood to fuck. The roars of the wind and the sound of the lumps of hard rain pounding the roof just gets me all ngly inside. I remember last night when Tony came over and candied my yams honey. That nigga can get this pussy anyme he wants, and he knows it too. Perfect fat ass, big country ass dick, the most beauful smile, and that Negro got the preest toes I’ve ever seen... can’t pay me to keep them out of my mouth. Something was different last night when we fucked. He was an animal… beang this pussy like it stole something! He mulated my cakes. “What’s my fucking name?” “Whose pussy is this?” He’d never been so aggressive with me. I liked that shit though. I couldn’t put words together. I could feel his balls laying the smack down on my ass repeatedly as he connued to mash my potatoes. I watched us from the ceiling mirror. That arch in his muscular back and the sweat dripping from his ght ass had a bitch elated. I squeezed him as ght as I could because I didn’t want this night to ever end. “I’m cumming, babe!” He pulled that pipe out of my walls and nued all over my stomach and chest, then laid on top of me and kissed me on the mouth. “I love you,” I said. We laid in each other’s arms and fell asleep.

I woke up to the sound of breaking glass. Looking out the window I could see that tranny ass bitch Khia busng the windows out of Tony’s brand new Porsche. “Baby, Wake up!” I screamed. I can’t believe this stupid bitch had the audacity to show up at my mother fucking house and break my man’s windows. I definitely do not need this shit on a Monday morning before work. This bitch had crossed the line and she needed to be dealt with. I ran through the garage to get to the driveway and the first thing I saw was the metal chain that Tony and I somemes use in our sex games. I grabbed it and approached the trollop. “Bitch! What the fuck are you doing?” Before she could answer and found myself choking the life from the late queen. Tony made his way out to pull me off the girl. “I should slap the shit out of’ you for bringing this bitch to my house, Tony!” “Baby, I told this crazy fag I don’t want anything to do with her!” I was so mad I begin to shake. It’s hard being in love with a man that can’t stay faithful to your ass. However, when I’m with him, I feel complete. I can’t shake this negro.

Let me give you the back-story on me and Tony. It was New Year’s 2007 at Club 901 in downtown Memphis. The girls and I had decided to go out and make the best of the night and that’s where we ended up going. The line to get in was around the block, but I knew the club owner so you know we went straight to the front of the line. I felt like a million bucks that night. You couldn’t tell me I wasn’t the shit. I was labeled down, and my face was beat to the heavens! I could barely take myself… I bumped into this guy. Lord knows he had the sexiest eyes I’ve ever seen. “Excuse me.” He said. His hand grabbed my hand. He held it for one-point-five seconds as he connued to walk by. I found myself turning around to stare at him. Our eyes met each other and at that moment he licked his sexy ass lips. I almost had to change my underwear right, then there. For the rest of the night we connued to flirt from across the room. Upon leaving, he approached me in the parking lot. We ended up fucking that night. His dick felt like it was made for my pussy. The perfect fit. The rest is history.

So I headed inside to get ready for work, sll in disbelief that this bitch came to my house. Tony followed behind me… “Baby, don’t do anything crazy!” “Fuck that hoe, I’m going to work! Now get that bitch off my lawn before I come back out or your ass is geng it too!” I was determined not to let this thirsty queen ruin my day. I grabbed my briefcase and keys and was out the door on my way to work. Did I menon that I am V.P. of Markeng/Adversing of Cibank, the Houston branch? I got it all, and these bitches can’t take me! So, I’m at work going over the final dra of our newest ad campaign when two officers walk into my office. “Are you Mr. Branson?” one of the officers asked. “Yes, How may I help you?” “You can help us a lot by coming with us quietly. We need to take you downtown and we do not want to make a scene.” I could see my nosey ass secretary, Mya, looking through my window. She was probably on Office Messenger spilling this tea already. By this me I had already knew Khia had reported me. It’s okay though… I got money and I know all the right people. Hell! I used to date a judge in downtown Houston. I wonder how his sexy ass is doing. Hmm… Nonetheless, I le with the officers to go downtown and got booked.

I spent three hours in that dump before I could call my Judge connect and get that charges erased. This meant payback. I don’t know who the girl thought I was, but she clearly got the right bitch to fuck her world all the way up. I try to be a classy bitch, but folk just make it so hard these days. This shit is really about to get messy. I had Tony to pick me up from the jailhouse. The ride home was a very quiet one. He knew not to say anything to me. I can be very envious and evil when upset. I could see him sneaking a glance and me every few minutes to see if I was calming. That negro didn’t know what to say. If I were him, I wouldn’t have said anything to my crazy ass either. It was pushing 3 o’clock in the aernoon. I needed to go back to the office and make sure my secretary hadn’t spread any rumors. “Drop me off at the Office,” I said to Tony. He sll didn’t say a word. We arrived at my office and I exited his busted up ass Porsche. Looking at it made me even more furious. “What me you coming home baby?” Tony asked. I smiled and walked off. I wanted his ass to be confused. He doesn’t need to know what I’m feeling right now. He watched me walk into the building before he drove off.

I walked back into the office and Mya gagged. “Mr. Branson!” my secretary exclaimed, “I wasn’t expecng you back today!” “Oh! Someone did a hit and run on my car. I had to go take care of that.” I knew she didn’t believe me, but I didn’t care. I’m her fucking boss. I knew she would get that around to the rest of the office. Hell, I don’t need these fools knowing all my tea, honey! I was just there to make an appearance; I had no intenons on staying there. I went into my office and grabbed my keys which I le behind earlier today. I told my secretary that I had more business to handle away from the office and to forward all calls to my cell phone. I got to the car and I just couldn’t contain my anger anymore. I screamed as loud as I could while repeatedly throwing my head into the headrest of my seat and punching the steering wheel. I begin to cry uncontrollably. All I could think about was how red of the shit I was. I’ve been so good to Tony and he connues to embarrass me by messing with these low class ass bitches. Got these bitches looking me all upside my head like I’m crazy every me we go out? I had to make an example out of some bitch, and Ms. Khia was about to be the first. “Get it together Jeff, get it together!” I wiped my eyes and began laughing out of anger, but wasn’t shit funny.

My stepfather owns a junkyard in west Houston. I needed to pay him a visit for my plan to work. I drove to the Westside to meet my stepdad. “I need to use one of your cars for about an hour,” I told him. He’s a very mid man and never asks quesons. I know he had to find it crazy for me to be asking to use one of these busted ass vehicle he owns and I drive a top of the mother fucking line Mercedes E class. Nonetheless, he gave me the keys to a 98 Buick Regal. “Thanks step daddy, this’ll do.” I le en route to North Houston where Khia stayed. North Houston is heavily populated with gay people. They have sum cute apartments for the low over there, I guess that’s why the girls flock over there to give the appearance that they have coins in real life. I know beer though. Can’t trick me, honey! I knew where this bitch lived because I followed Tony’s ass one night and busted him trying to meet up with him. Just my luck, when I turned into this bitch’s apartment building, she was standing outside talking on her cell phone. Probably spilling the tea about how she pressed charges against my ass. I stopped my car and waited for her to step out into the middle of the parking lot. When she got to a point where I could get a good view of her, I mashed the gas and ran that bitch the hell over. All I could hear what the sound of her body rolling over the hood of my car and her screaming. I looked in my rearview mirror and could see her rolling on the ground, so I didn’t kill her. Hell, I didn’t want to, just wanted to let her know that she was fucking with the right bitch to get her block knocked off. I rushed back to the Westside and took my stepdad the car. I gave him $1000 in cash and told him to crush the car. He laughed because he know I ain’t shit. My worked was done honey! What a great way to end the day. Hell, it was just about five o’clock so I could sll make it home in good me and have dinner with my man. I got back in Lucy, my Mercedes, and went home to Tony.

I had the biggest smile on my face when I walked in the house. I gave my boo and big hug and kiss. I could tell by the look on his face that he was surprise that I was in such a good mood. “Baby, you ok?” he said. “Everything is perfect!” I said, sll smiling and looking into his big brown eyes. I begin to cook dinner. Boneless grilled chicken breast and Cajun grilled caish served with macaroni and cheese. Yeah, I love cooking for my man. We ate dinner together. Once he finished I turned on sports center for him and gave him a foot massage. “Baby, I love you and I’ll give up everything I have for you.” I wanted to reassure him that I wasn’t going anywhere. That lile thing he had with Khia is over now. I made sure of that earlier today. I climbed onto the couch with him and laid in his arms. We fell asleep.

We awoke early the next morning to abrupt knocks on the front door. I had a smirk on my face because I already knew it would be the police. I sent Tony to the door to give me me to wipe the smile off my face and trade it with a serious look. I could hear Tony calling me to the door. The officer asked me did I know a Cedric Gray. Cedric is Khia’s real name. I told the officer that I knew him and asked what the problem was. He explained that “Mr.” Gray was a vicm of a hit and run yesterday evening and that he was in crical condion at the hospital and when he came to he menoned my name as someone who he thought it could be. I explained to the officer that Khia, I mean Cedric and I had an altercaon earlier yesterday morning, but aerwards, I spent the rest of the evening at home with Tony. “Isn’t that right, Tony?” “Yes, officer!” Tony said. “Well, Mr. Gray described the car as an old model Buick Regal and I didn’t see that car here when I pulled up. It is possible that it could be a standard hit and run case!” The officer told me to not leave town because he had to connue his invesgaon. I told him that I would be here and to let me know if anything turns up! I was killing myself laughing on the inside. I knew the officer wasn’t going to find shit on me. By this me, that car had been smashed into oblivion at my fathers’ junkyard. The officer le and we closed the door behind him. Tony gave me the most serious look I’ve ever goen from him. “What the fuck did you do?” he demanded. “I didn’t do anything!” I said. Tony got mad and walked back into the living room. He was talking out loud to himself. “Fuck! Crazy BITCH!” he yelled. He was mad at me honey! “Want some breakfast?” I asked in a calm, monotone voice. “What the fuck? How can you…? Fuck!” he couldn’t get his thoughts out completely. I approached him and gave him a hug trying to calm him down. I really didn’t understand why he was mad. I did this for us! I was protecng our family! I did nothing wrong in my eyes. When it comes to my man, I have to protect home. There are three things that I refuse to play about: my money, my car, and my man. Fuck with any one of those and I’ll have to cut a hoe… no shade.

Tony le the house slamming the door behind him. I didn’t think he would be this mad. Hell, he ought to be thanking me! Aer all the shit he has put my ass through these past few years he should be grateful I haven’t le his snking ass. That’s my baby though and I love him. He knows this pussy is his and it ain’t going nowhere. We ain’t breaking up for shit!

Coming in from work the next day I noced some things missing from the house. Tony’s car was not outside either. He’s normally makes it home before I do in the evening. The more I looked the more I noced that the things that were gone belonged to Tony. I called his cell but there was no answer. I called his mother and asked if she had heard from him. She said that he moved in and would be staying with his brother, Jacob. I know this ungrateful negro does not have the audacity to up and move out on me. I hopped in the car and rushed across town to his brother’s low-rent ass apartment. I mean really, of all place Tony could have stayed, he chose his low-class ass brother to move in with. Ugh! So now I’m pounding on the door like a runaway slave. I can hear Tony yelling to his brother, “Tell that psych bitch I ain’t here!” “I know you in there Tony, I can hear you, stupid!” His musty ass brother came to the door… “Tony ain’t here!” “Nigga get yo dumb ass out the way…SHIT!” I pushed him to the side and walked right past him. Tony sexy ass was sing on the couch with his arms folded with this serious look on his face. “Go on Jay… I’m not fucking with you no more!” “But, baby I love you. I did this for us! Stop playing and come home!” Tony was not budging. I pleaded with him over and over to forgive me and to come home. He did not say other word to me… just sat there and look straight ahead at the wall on the opposite side of the room trying his best not to make eye contact. I’ve never cried this hard over any man before, but I love this fool. I can’t live without him. I finally gave up and drove home. I feel asleep in a pillow full of tears.

I woke up the next morning feeling like hell. I’d decided to get myself together, beat this mug honey, and put on some sexy ass clothes. I was going to get my man back if it was the last thing I did on this good green earth. I made my way back over to Jacob’s apartment to see Tony. Jacob answered the door and informed me that Tony had gone to the hospital earlier that day to visit a friend. That immediately enraged me because the only person that I knew who was in the hospital was Khia. I know this nigga ain’t going to visit this hoe in the hospital. I flew across town to the hospital. I asked the front desk lady what room Cedric Gray was in… I told her I was his brother. When I walked into the room Tony was not there. Khia was the only person in the room and she was laying in the bed. I could hear the machine starng to beep more rapidly. This bitch was in fear of me. It’s really laughable. “Has Tony been here?” “Maybe he has…” she said in a sarcasc tone. “Bitch, don’t give me that! I asked your simple ass a queson! Have you seen my man?” She got quiet and tried to ignore me. “Look here girl… stay your late ass away from my man. I’d hate for something else to happen to you!” I turned away and walked out of the room. On my way out of the building I ran into Tony walking in. He had a confused look on his face. “What the hell are you doing here?” he asked… “What did you do?” This really angered me. How dare he queson me? He shouldn’t even be here checking on this bitch. “Fuck you Tony! How you gone move out on me and be up here spending me with this bitch? Do you even care about our relaonship?” “I’m not about to do this with you right now! This is neither the me nor place”, he said as he walked past me. The ride home was a long and lonely one filled with tears. I think I could be losing this man for good. I have to do something.

Tony’s birthday is tomorrow. I took it upon myself to buy two ckets to the Houston Rockets game and make reservaons for dinner at his favorite restaurant. Tony and I have never been apart on his birthday since we’ve met three years ago. I was not about to break that tradion. I knew this would be a hard day for Tony. He would be feeling the same way that I am feeling. Horrible. This me when I got to Jacob’s apartment, Tony came to the door. I could tell that he had been crying. I embraced him as hard as I could. “Baby, I’m sorry! I love you so much! I have a surprise for you.” He got dressed and we were on our way. I drove while he reclined in the passenger seat. Just like a nigga. This shit turns me on like nothing else. These basic moments really get me going. Quality me with the hubby is like nothing else. We made it to the Rockets game right on me. I got us some really good seats. This smile on my man’s face was worth every cent that I paid for these ckets. I am not a sports fan in the least bit, but I’m down for my man, and if that means wasng two hours of my life watching some overpaid, sweaty, sexy ass negroes run up and down a court, then that’s what I’ll do damn it. Tony was holding my hand the enre me. These moments make me realize how much I really love this fool. Hell, I wish I could have his babies in real life. I strictly believe in the NO CHILD LEFT BEHIND ACT! We le the game and made it to our ten o’clock reservaon. Dinner was really nice. We really got the chance to clear the air. There had been so much tension between us lately… I couldn’t take it. I’ve never been so scared to the point that I thought I would lose this man, for good. We made love tonight. Good, sweet, eye-twitching love….

When we arrived to the house, Tony picked me up at the door and carried me over the threshold into our house. He very gently shut the door using his foot and then carried me into the bedroom and soly laid me on the bed and began kissing me while removing my clothes. My body was calling out for his like a hungry child that needed to be fed. His so and succulent lips caressed mine. Tony was a magnificent kisser. He begin to suck my boom lip as he palmed the back of my head with his le hand. My body swarmed in pleasure as I succumbed to his every touch. His hands begin to make there was down my chest and to my nipples. He teased my erect nipples between his thumb and index fingers. I was already ready to pop. Just looking at Tony makes gets me moist. He slowly climbed atop me and forced me down onto the bed and rested my head on the pillows and started sucking on my neck. Circular moons of his tongue made the hair on the back of my neck stand up. “Close your eyes.” He calmly stated. I obliged. His wish was my command. I felt his presence moving downward over my chest again. Suddenly, I shuered in pure exoc pleasure as his tongue brazenly caressed my le nipple. A hard sigh escaped from my lips as he bite my nipple. He knows how I like that rough shit. The bites le my chest and slowly made their way down my stomach, around my navel, and down to my pelvis. The hairs of his chin ckled the head of my dick as he licked around the base of my pelvis region. I wanted him more than ever. Suddenly, a burst of insane passion consumed me as he swallowed me whole, into his deep, dark, juicy throat. I was engulfed in between is perfect lips with a fantasc pleasurable sensaonal and he bobbled his way up and down and around my sha. Tony was an expert at oral gymnascs. The pleasure went on and on and on unl I came to a point of almost peaking and he abruptly stopped and squeezed the base of my dick to stop me from climaxing so soon. “Not just yet baby.” He looked at me, sternly. I felt my body calming as the feeling of the climax started to dissipate. We gazed in each other’s eyes, both expecng and wanng and feigning the other. He turned me over to my stomach and his tongue entered my ass. Again, I cried out in passion and pleasure. I twisted my waist and grabbed ahold of the back of his head with the palm of my right hand, pulling him deeper inside of my flavorful hole of pleasure. His long felt like it was growing inch by inch inside of me. I couldn’t take the suspense anymore. “Make love to me, baby. Please.” My plea was urgent and desperate and longing. He quickly obliged my request and entered my, inch by inch by inch, unl all of him was deeply sheltered inside of my secret place. “You okay, baby?” He whispered in my ear. I moaned in pleasure in an enthusiasc confirmaon. His hands were planted firmly on each side of my waist and slowly we developed a rhythm of complete and total euphoria. In… Out…. In… Out… In…. Out…. Back…. Forth…..Back….Forth….Back…. Forth… Back…. Forth. The thrust of his pelvis against my backside was gaining more and more momentum. The pleasure was unsustainable. I buried my face deep into the pillows and bit down as hard as I could. The momentum kept increase unl the sounds of sex filled the air. Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap! As his thighs smacked against the back of mine. Tears of passion begin to fill my eyes. Again, I began to fill my climax surfacing again… but I wasn’t ready. I didn’t want this pleasure to finish just yet. Quickly, I pulled forward to release him from my secret place and turned over onto my back. My legs were gaped and forced back onto the bed. Again, he slowly entered me inch by inch. I watched eagerly as my hungry hole devoured all nine inches of him inside of me unl there was nothing le. His hands were on the back of my thighs holding my legs down and then the rhythm slowing started again. In..Out..In…Out…In…Out…In…Out…In…Out… Back…Forth… Back….Forth….Back…Forth…. Faster… Faster… Faster. The sounds of our love once again consumed the atmosphere. Smack! Smack! Smack! Smack! Smack! As his balls punished my backside like a runaway slave. We connued to gaze deeply into each other’s eyes. Tony has such beauful, dark eyes… It reminds me of staring into the night skies and looking at the stars. Again, my climax was coming back and this me with a vengeance I could not contain. “Oh shit! I’m about to cum!” “Me too!” He cried out. The pumps grew longer and harder. And just and I was cumming, he pulled out and came with me all over my chest and face. What a delicious ending! He laid on top of me, right in the middle of the mess he made. “I love you, baby.” “I love you, too.” His slide down behind me and pulled me into his chest. We laid there exhausted and I listened to him breathe. His breath became slower and deeper unl he fell asleep. Soon, I was asleep in his arms as well.

Khia was released from the hospital today. I didn’t know unl this crazy hoe showed up at my job. Imagine my surprise! “Mr. Branson, there’s a Cedric Gray here to see you…” my ignorant ass secretary said. “Send him in.” I begin to laugh because I knew it was about to be some shade thrown. I was never one to read the girls at my job, but what the hell, I needed pracce. Khia walked in and begin to speak. “Give me juuusss a sec!” I interrupted. That bitch needed to know that I was sll in charged. “Now… how can I help you?” She giggled as she walked forward approaching my desk. “I just wanted to stop by and let you know that I am out of the hospital and beer than new now. I came by so you could see for yourself!” she said. “Awe Khia you sll look red and your face sll looks a lile swollen. You should be out and about just yet! Oh, and did they ever find any suspects or have any leads as to who could have done this to you?” I said with a concerned look on my face. “No!” she exclaimed, “but when they do it will be hell to pay of whoever did this to me!” “I’m sure!” I said with the biggest smile on my face. “Well Khia, I’m about to go to lunch now. I’d really love to stay and chat but I’m supposed to meet Tony for lunch! He’s taking me to Ra Sushi! See yourself out, will you?” I grabbed my things and le. “Mya, could you see Mr. Gray out… I’m going to lunch.”

I le the office and met Tony at Ra. I gave him the tea on what Ms. Thing just tried to pull back at my office. I was le feeling some kind of way that this musty ass trollop showed up at my job in real life. How dare she come to my place of work? And the gag was that this bitch was in full drag. If those bitches at the office didn’t know my tea already, they would have known today. It’s disrespecul to come to someone’s job with mess. I can be messy as hell at mes but I am always a classy hoe. I would never show up to someone’s job with drama. I could tell that Tony was concerned about what was going to happen next. I was more so irritated with the fact that Ms. Thing won’t take a hint and leave my man alone. I mean, I clearly just ran this bitch down on the side of the fucking road like a stray dog and she sll wants to fuck with me. It was clearly me to pull out the big guns. I saw Nelly and LeJon dysfunconal asses walking up so I quickly changed the subject maer! Can’t have the girls slaying my name all over Houston honey! “Hey y’all! How y’all doin'?” I said in my Wendy voice. LeJon is my best friend since as far as I can remember and Nelly is his red ass boyfriend. I really don’t care for him but I place nice out of the love I have for my LeJon. We all met up for lunch every Tuesday at a different restaurant around the city. Nelly is a restaurant reviewer so it’s kind of work for him, but it allows us all to catch up in each other’s lives and shit. We talk about of jobs, sex lives, drama and shit like that. Now of course I wasn’t going to tell the girls about the Khia situaon because one, I didn’t have enough me, and two, I wasn’t ready to spill those teas just yet. I quickly became irritated by LeJon’s incessantly need to say “Baby baby baby!” to Nelly. Ugh, being around those two love sick dogs just makes me want to throw up. Now, I love my Tony with all my heart, but I’m not overly icky with it like these two girls. That’s just disgusng. I really needed a cocktail… and I got three. Ciroc and orange juice on the rocks! My favorite! I drank two glasses. Hell, that’s all my pete ass could handle without becoming psy. I did have to go back to the office and finish the day out. We stayed there for about forty-five more minutes listening to LeJon go on and on about their sex life and how he has the best head game in the world and what tricks he uses to get Nelly to nut quickly, etc. It was a really immature conversaon and I was really over it… hence the three drinks. Despite the horrid conversaon, the food and service was actually prey well. I hope Nelly gave these folks a good review. This was one of the best restaurants we’ve visited in a while. The live instruments, the open balcony with the pigeons gawking… it kind of reminded me of Cabo’s downtown.

Nonetheless, I finally made it back to work… Maybe I shouldn’t have had that third drink. I always take an extended lunch. The other bitches at my job can’t take me because I’m beauful, classy, and smart as hell. I’ve earned this bank millions of dollars and I’ve only been here a lile over two years. Hell, if I were them I’d hate me to. But I deserve extended lunches and longs vacaons and things of that sort. I work really hard and I’m really good at what I do. “Are you feeling okay, Mr. Branson?” Mya asked. “MHmm”, I reluctantly mumbled. I didn’t want to risk her smelling the alcohol on my breath. I’m sure she knew my drunk ass was drunk, though. I sat at my desk staring at my screen for the next five minutes to get myself together. Ugh, I so wanted to go home and cuddle with my man. “Focus, bitch! Focus.” I said to myself. I really need to concentrate on how I was going to handle this Khia bitch. I may have been a lile woozy but I had not forgoen what had gone down earlier that day prior to lunch. You always got to stay three steps ahead of these bitches. Know what they’re going to do before they do it. Psychic tea! Amen? Aww! Everyone knows that Khia performs at Barni’s every Friday night. I hate that bitch but she slays the girls when it comes to voguing. She wins just about every show she does. We could actually be friends if that bitch could keep her nasty ass hands off of my man. Anyway, something had to be done to this bitch. She had to be taught a lesson. The audacity of that dry as queen to first show up at my house and damage my man’s car and now for her to come to my job. I don’t have me for this queen. I got a trick for these girls who think they can get away with these types of stunts and shows! I consider myself to be a classy ass, high sadiddy ass bitch, but I do have a couple of alley ass hoes in my corner. Ms. Tristen alley ass is ride or die for me. Hell, all I have to do is say the word and she could take care of Miss Thing for me. Everybody has that one friend that you be scared to take to the restaurants, the car shows, the balls… hell, any high end event, because you just know this bitch don’t know how to act. She’s ratchet fish! Well, this friend is Tristen. This girl doesn’t mind going to jail. She’s been umpteen mes already. If you name it, she’s just about done it! When I first met this girl she was in a relaonship with my then best friend Cody. That didn’t last two long because Cody is a messy hoe! You know people that live, breath, and sleep mess. That’s Cody. Ugh, I detest that queen. Anyhow, Tristen went to jail for beang this trade ass for trying to talk to Cody. I felt bad for the boy because Ms. Tristen throws hands with the best of them. I needed to give Tristen a call. I dialed this bitch’s digits hoping that she would answer. She changes numbers like she changes her drawers. “What’s going’ on?” she answered in her deep New Orleans accent. “Gurrrrrrlllllll! I got sum tea!” I said. I know this bitch loves mess just as much as I do… and that’s why we fucks with each other. So I filled her cup with the tea on Ms. Thing and all the shit she has been trying with me and my man. We were on the phone talk talk talk talk talking away for the next hour plong and scheming on how we would once and for all rid my life of Khia. So the gag was that Tristen and some more of his trade homeboys would catch Khia aer the club on Friday night and beat her mother fucking ass. Of course I would be at home with Tony so my name wouldn’t be in the mix when the shit hit the fan. Good, right? We had just set this bitch up for failure whether she knew it or not!

So Friday came and I made sure today was just as normal as possible. I got up and cooked breakfast for Tony as usual. Mama always said the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. I already had his heart I just wanted to make sure I kept it. My baby be hungry when he wake up and if he don’t have his breakfast he has a bad atude. A bitch got to keep a happy home! I woke Tony up before I went to work and we ate breakfast together. He asked me if I wanted to go out that night. I giggled on the inside. I told him that I wanted to spend my night laying around with him watching movies and that I didn’t want to go out tonight. Can we say, “Alibi?” We agreed that we would stay in that night and get some movies from the Red box. I kissed him goodbye and went off to work. The day at the office was light as it is every Friday. Everybody is always anxiously awaing the weekend to come around. I called Tristen again to go over the plan. He assured me that Khia had what she deserved coming to her that night. I was excited that this mess was finally about to be over with. I was finally about to be rid of this deviance once and for all. She had ruined my life enough and that was all about to end. Aer this ass whipping she was about to receive tonight, there was no way she would ever try to come for my man again.

I was overly enthused at work today. Everyone kept asking me why I was so happy. “He must’ve got some good dick last night!” I heard Mya whispering to another secretary as I walked by. If they had only knew what I was up to. Hell I couldn’t help but be happy. My life as I knew it was about to get so much beer. This was all I needed so that Tony and I could have the perfect life together. Free of any outside issues. We had plans to achieve. We were going to build another house together, adopt our first child, and even get married! I couldn’t let this one bitch ruin my life goals. She had me all the way to the fucked up.

I made it home aer work to the smell of popcorn and fried chicken. A strange mix but I know that chicken is the only thing that Tony knows how to make. He is hella funny when he tries to cook. He takes his sweet me out of fear of messing up. He actually measures every single ingredient to make sure everything is perfect. I love my baby! “Baaaabbbbbyyyy!” he said when I walked into the kitchen. “What is this?” I asked. “You said you wanted a night in with movies, right? So I cooked dinner and made popcorn. I already went to the red box and got 4 scary movies… I know those are your favorite.” This moment couldn’t have been any more perfect. It turns me on when he cooks for me. A real man… a manly man in an apron over a hot stove! Oh! I think I just nued on myself! He kissed me on the neck and told me to go in the room and change into some more relaxing clothes. Tonight was all about me and him. I love days like this. I changed and came back into the kitchen and by this me he had our plates ready. We ate first and had a lile small talk about work and shit. Nothing major. He then grabbed this big ass bowl of popcorn off the counter that he had made. We went to the living room and cuddled on the couch and watched movies for the rest of the night. We ended up making love on the couch and fell asleep in each other’s arms. CHAPTER 2

I woke up the next morning feeling like a step-ford wife. Tony’s arms were sll ghtly wrapped around mine. God knows this was perfect. I laid there for the next twenty minutes listening to him breathe and staring at his face. He was so perfect to me. I licked my thumb on my right hand, which was free, and straightened his bushy eyebrows, then scrapped away his lile eye buggers. “Perfect”, I thought. His eyes opened and found mine glazing back into his. He smiled. There was no need for words. I leaned forward and met his big succulent lips with mine. I leaned back and stared him in the eyes again, then proceeded to kiss him on the forehead. “Good morning, big daddy”, I said. Tony and I begin to hysterically laugh. “I knew yo ass was gone say some shit like that”, he giggled. He grabbed my ample behind, as I was sll naked from the session that we had the night before. He rolled on top of my and started kissing me on the neck. That led to him sucking my nipples and my naval and then down to my dick. Tony gives the best head. I really can’t describe how he makes me feel but I always nut so quickly. I nued within two minutes. He came back up to my mouth and gave me a taste of my own medicine. He’s such a freak and that part of the reason I love this negro. I felt his strong hand slide underneath me to flip me over. He started eang my debbies like crazy while he played with his dick to get it up. I was so wet. I could feel his dick before he even put it in. “Give it to me daddy”, I moaned. And give it to me is what he did. He slide his dick in me and my ass welcomed every inch of it as her own. I squeeze every muscle within my ass around his dick so he could have nothing but pleasure from me. I closed my eyes as he wore me out from the back. All I could hear other than Tony’s moans and groans were the sounds on his pelvis smacking my ass and his hands slapping my thighs. It lasted all of 5 minutes before he pulled out and flipped me over and dropped those kids off on my stomach. I wasn’t disappointed… hell, I know this pussy is good. Tony wanted to lie on top of me and hold me again, but I can’t let nut dry up on me, it irks me out. I got up and went to hop in the shower. By the me I got out Tony had fallen back to sleep again so I decided to make breakfast for him. I knew the smell of sausages and eggs would wake that ass right on back up. As I was scrambling the eggs he came and hugged me from behind and kissed me on the neck. I told him to go and shower and by the me he is done the food would be ready. When he got out we ate breakfast together and had our typically Saturday morning breakfast discussions. I told him that I wanted to go down on Westheimer and get some shopping done for a few hours. Tony doesn’t like to go shopping with me because he says that I’m just like a woman and I take all damn day. Secretly, I didn’t want him to go anyway because I needed to get the lowdown about what happened last night at the club. We finished breakfast and went to the back and got dressed for shopping. I called Terrius and told him to meet me at the Galleria so he could give me the tea. Tony wanted to spend the day at home doing chores and watching TV. I think he had some work he needed to get done as well on this new project he was working on. My baby was about to start his own business. Nonetheless, it should be enough for him to do to keep busy unl I made it back home later that evening. I had to go get this tea.

Terrius and I met up at the Galleria and he begin giving me the low down about what happened last night. Apparently, that night at the club Khia performed as usual. Terrius and his boys of course were there in full affect and ready to do what they needed to do. Now I refer to Terrius as “girl” because we are friends and that just what most gay people reference each other as; but Terrius is trade. When you look at him, he gives boy. Females are always surprised and a bit upset when he tells them that he’s gay. He is very aracve and muscular and is actually very popular on the gay scene because of these reasons. It’s very hard to find a true “top” these days and Terrius fits that’s descripon. Well, at least to the girls that don’t know him. No shade.

Khia exited the club by herself talking on her cellphone… She was probably seng up a date for the night. I believe that hoe turns tricks in her spare me, because from what I know she is a full me drag. No full me drag I know has a day job, so this bitch has to get her chips somehow. She was always the last one out because she’s always trying to pooch the trade boys that stay around late to get their dicks sucked or whatever the case may be, so it isn’t a very hard task to catch her by herself. Terrius and his gang jump her from behind before she even knew what hit her. From what I hear it was prey ugly. They wore that bitch in and le her on the side of the curb bleeding and unconscious.

Of course I was gagging at all this tea. I knew Terrius was capable of doing something of this nature but I was kind of taken aback. I had never asked him to do anything of this sort for me, but I knew he was a ride or die bitch. We were in Urban Ouiers, the fag outlet, and overhead Ms. Khia’s name from a group of punks that were standing around talking. My eavesdropping ass found out that miss thing was in fact in the hospital in crical condion. My heart kind of got a bit heavy. I wanted them to beat that hoe up but not bad enough to go to the hospital and definitely not to end up in crical condion. I approached the guys… “Excuse me for budding in, but did I hear that Khia got jumped last night and was in crical condion?” “Girl yes, heard that bitch got her life mother fucking handed to her last night bitch! She downtown at memorial hospital and I heard its real bad”, the tall, skinny one answered. He kind of pissed me off because he had on brown chucks with black skinny jeans. Lord, have mercy on his poor, misguided soul. “Thank you!” I said as I walked back over to give Terrius those teas. “Isn’t this what you wanted bitch?” “No! I didn’t want him to end up in the hospital in crical condion. Come on bitch, let’s go!” I could feel eyes cung into the back of my head as I walked past that group of punks. I really begin to panic. Oh my goodness, what have I done? I sent a text to Google to get the number to Memorial hospital. I called registraon and found that Khia was actually in the hospital. “May I ask who’s calling”, the registrar asked? “Um, my name is Kelvin Long, I’m Cedric’s brother.” “Yes Mr. Long, Cedric was admied last night in crical condion and has slipped into a coma. We’ve been trying all morning to reach his next of kin but we haven’t been able to contact anyone. He’s in room 428, you should really come and be with him. It has been shown that coma paents can sense when family is around and it may help them recover quickly.” The only thing that I would help Cedric do is meet his maker even more quickly, I thought in the back of my mind. I hung up the phone without saying another word. I told Terrius what happened. I needed to go home this instant. I didn’t know whether or not Tony knew what happened at this point. I know that he and Khia have mutual friends so it would only be a maer of me before he found out what happened.

I raced across town as quickly as possible. The enre me I could only hope that no one knew that it was Terrius behind what happened, because everyone knew that he is my best friend. People aren’t stupid, they can link that shit together. I was really about to have an anxiety aack. Tony could not find out that I had anything to do with this or he would never speak to me again. I needed to act as normal as possible when I got home so he wouldn’t know that I knew anything. I got to the house and Tony’s car was sll outside. This was a good sign, because if he knew what happened he would probably be at the hospital with that hooker whore. I walked in the house, but I didn’t immediately see Tony. “Babe? Is that you”, I heard him calling out from the computer room? I walked in there to find him working on his business plan. When he turned around to see me I could tell he knew something was up from his expression. “Oh my God, what’s wrong baby”, he demanded! “You look so pale.” I was a bit nauseous. I can’t believe that I stooped so low and now someone was in crical condion because of my insecuries. “I’m fine baby”, I said with a forced smile, “Why do you ask? And do I really look pale?” “Yes! You look worried and scared… Are you sure everything is ok?” “Yes”, I reaffirmed him, “It’s just horribly hot outside babe… you know how the heat makes me.” I could tell by the change in his expression that he wasn’t fully convinced that I was ok yet. I was never a good liar and never ever good at hiding my feelings from my facial expressions. “Come on”, I said, “I have something I want to show you.” He followed me into the living room and I gave him the suit I bought him at Nordstrom’s. This nigga knows he can hang a suit. Tony is in the gym at least four days a week. He normally goes right aer I leave for work and then comes back home. He does the majority of his work from home lately. He’s been spending a lot of me on this new project he has underway and trying to make sure this business plan is perfect for the bank. I keep telling him that if he comes to Cibank that I will make sure he gets whatever he needs, but Tony is a very independent type of man. He only wants to use Cibank as a last resort; he wants to do this for himself. I can take pride in that. I love me a good go-geer. I asked him if he needed me to do anything for him but he declined. When he’s in his working zone he doesn’t really like to be bothered. He and I are a lot alike in that way. We work best by ourselves without a lot of distracons. He told me that he ordered take out and that they should be here any minute. He said he le money in the pey cash jar in the kitchen and that I could use that to pay for it. I then le him to his biddings unl the food guy showed up. I called him into the kitchen so we could eat together. The dinner table was quiet tonight. Ironically, all I could think about in the back of my head was miss thing and that I was the reason she was in the predicament that she was in at this very moment. I knew from conversaons with Tony, that Khia didn’t have any family that would be with her at the hospital. She had been disowned by her parents for being gay and hadn’t talked to them in over five years. I felt horrible. Things weren’t supposed to go down like this. She was just supposed to get a good beang, just enough for her to get the message to leave my man alone. I’m sure Tony was quiet because he was sll working out the logiscs of whatever he was working on in his head. He barely noced that I was quiet. This was a good thing though… I didn’t need him to pick my brain tonight. Aer dinner, I told him that I was going to call it an early night. I’m sure that he assumed that I was probably red from shopping all day. I rered to bed but couldn’t go to sleep. I laid there in bed and watched to clock. Three hours went by before Tony made his way to the bed for the night. He rolled into bed behind me and put his arms around me as he does every night and kissed me on the back of the neck. “I love you baby, you know that right?” I said. “Yes baby I know it… What are you sll doing up?” “I just woke up about fieen minutes ago”, I lied. I hated lying to him but he couldn’t know what I had done. He couldn’t know what a horrible person I was. I feel asleep with the feel of his hard chest on my bare back and his hand gripping my upper, inner thigh.

I woke up that Sunday morning expecng to go to church and repent for my sins, as if that would help my situaon, but when I rolled over Tony wasn’t there. I felt heavy like the load of a fiy pound jug had been placed on my shoulders. I walked into the front room and heard Tony speaking francally over the phone with someone. I begin to have a panic aack. At that moment I had knew that he knew what happened to Khia. I p-toed back into my room and went into the bathroom and shut the door. I needed to calm myself down really quickly so I could play this off. I turned on the hot water in the sink and also turned the shower on full blast. The steam from both the shower and the sink would help me breathe. I used to have to do this when I was a lile boy and suffered from asthma aacks. The steam would open my airways so that I could breathe again. The same thing helped me when I had panic aacks. I could not breathe, I felt heavy, and my vision blurred. I disrobed and sat on the bathroom floor with my eyes closed, hing my head repeatedly against the wall. “Shit shit shit shit shit!” I whispered to myself. I could feel my hands and legs trembling. I was in a scary place. “Ok!” I said to myself, “Breathe…” I sat there another five minutes before geng I actually calmed down. I turned the shower and faucet off and collected myself. I stared at myself in the steamy mirror for about two minutes before pung back on my robe. When I opened the door Tony was sing on the bed facing the bathroom door waing for me to come out. “Baby”, his voice trembled… “Something terrible has happened and I need you to not get mad at what I am about to tell you.” “Okay, sure.” I said calmly as I clutched the top of my robe together with my le fist. “Khia was jumped the other night aer the club and she is in a coma at downtown Memorial hospital. I know you’re going to be upset, but bae I need to go see her and make sure everything is ok.” Of course I was mad as hell, but I had to play this smart and cool to not blow my cover. I told him to go ahead and check on her and that I would be up there as soon as I could to check on him and be there for support. I really just needed him to leave before another panic aack happened. I was overwhelmed by the enre situaon. Tony embraced me and told me he loved me and thanked me for not having an atude about the situaon. He kissed me on the forehead and walked out. I sat on the bed and sighed in relief. I heard the front door close a few seconds later. Things could have really been worse than it was. Tony could have automacally assumed that I was behind Khia’s brutal jumping. The only reason he didn’t assume it is because I was at home Friday night with him watching movies while Terrius did my dirty work. I sat on the bed another five minutes collecng myself before I got up to get dressed.

I eventually made my way downtown to the hospital to meet Tony. When I got there I saw a few club heads downstairs in the lobby. I didn’t speak to them because I knew why they were there. Those messy ass hoes didn’t care about the situaon, they just wanted to gossip. I went to the fourth floor and walked into the room and it became so quiet upon my entrance. I didn’t like this feeling at all. Tony was sing in the far right corner with his head down laid in his hands. A hand full of Khia’s friends were surrounding her and they were all looking at me upside my head like I had done something wrong. I could tell that my presence was not wanted. “What are you doing here? You need to leave!” Christen, Khia’s ace boon coon said. “I’m just here to support my man, that’s all” “You two don’t even get along so what are you trying?” he persisted. “Leave him alone. We are not here for that today”, Tony interrupted. My man will forever and always take up for me. “Humph!” Christen murmured as he rolled his eyes. I hadn’t really paid any aenon to Khia unl this very moment. I looked at her lying sll in her hospital bed. Her face was black and blue and every inch of her face was swollen. The connuous beeping from the venlator sent chills through my spin. I had a bad feeling about all of this. We sat up there for the next few hours. Christen and the rest of the girls were constantly discussing who and why someone would do this to Khia. They couldn’t understand how someone could do this do her. They made it seem like she was an angel. I was actually a bit sick to my stomach. It was geng late so I whispered to Tony that we should leave because we both had work the next day. We said our goodbye’s and le. Tony menoned that he’d be back to visit someme tomorrow.

That night at the house was another quiet night. I’m sure Tony’s mind was on Khia and my mind was on not being found out. I couldn’t risk losing my man aer all I had been through to keep him. There was no way that I would ever tell him what I did. Not ever.

I couldn’t sleep that night. I tossed and turned and felt horrible to next morning. I wanted to call in but I really needed to go in and work on geng the Chandler account. The Chandler’s are one of Houston’s wealthiest family’s… they own Westheimer. This account would bring a quarter of a billion dollars to Cibank. And I would be a paid bitch. I got my shit together and le the house. I was in a somber mood today. On the way to work I was listening to the ‘I Am…’ side of ‘I Am… Sasha Fierce.’ I could tell that today would be a long day. I acted completely normal at work today and put on a smile for the people. I didn’t need them to know the drama that consumed my personal life. I called Tony to see if he would meet me for lunch at Cabo’s but he didn’t pick up and didn’t return my call. I assumed he was probably at the hospital again with Khia checking upon her. I’d be lying if I said it didn’t burn me up inside that Tony sll cared so much about miss thing. I know they have a past and I cannot change that, but he is with me now. Fuck them other hoes. I realized that Tony was probably not going to call me back by the me I le the office for lunch so I called LeJon to see if he would go out with me. I didn’t need to be alone today. I needed comfort.

LeJon could tell that I was uneasy during lunch today and kept asking me what was wrong. I told him what happened to Khia and how it has affected Tony. Of course, I didn’t menon that I was behind the whole set up… he didn’t need to know all of that. I didn’t want my “good boy” image that he has of me to be tainted. ‘Jon assured me that everything would be okay and that Khia would walk out of the hospital fine. As much as I despised miss thing I didn’t want her to die or anything of that nature. We finished lunch and I went back into the office to finish the day out. I spent the day in my office with my door closed and had Mya to hold all my calls. I was focused on my work for the Chandler account and I already had enough going through my mind. I didn’t need any office distracons today. I felt that if I buried myself into my work that I could escape from my reality… at least unl 5 o’clock rolled around.

I received a text right before I got off from Tony telling me to come to the hospital before I went home. I really didn’t want to go, but I wanted to be supporve to my man. I made it to Memorial, but I sat in the car for a few minutes. I had the weirdest feeling once I pulled into the parking lot. I walked into the hospital and went up to the room in which Khia was. Before entering I could hear people crying and sobbing. The coldest chill I’ve ever felt went through my body at that very moment. I walked in to see Tony, Christen, and several other people all crying these eyes out over Khia’s dead body. I walked up to Tony and embraced him as strongly as I could. He began to cry even harder. I can’t stand to see my man cry. I immediately broke down into a fist full of tears. I ran out the room as fast as I could. I had to escape the craziness of this all. This could not be real. I could hear Tony calling my name but my feet would not let me stop. I kept running unl I made it to my car. I had to get away from that hospital. I had basically commied murder in my eyes. I burned the highway up geng home. I was crying so hard I could barely see where I was going. I grabbed my cell phone to call ‘Jon and told him to meet me at my house. When I pulled into the driveway I sat there and cried even more. I hated myself for what I did. How could I be so low as to do this to someone? I pride myself for being an upright person for the most part, but I had let myself slip to a new low. I didn’t know if I could come back from this. A few minutes later LeJon pulled up… He walked past my car and saw me sing in the driver’s seat crying sll. I got out and gave him the biggest hug and we went into the house. We sat on the couch and he repeatedly asked me what was wrong but I could uer a word through my tears. He pulled me up and ushered me to my room and tucked me in the bed. “Tell me what happened”, he said anxiously. I started from the beginning, even though he already knew most of the story between Tony and Khia. I told him everything from beginning to end. I could tell from the way he was looking at me that he wanted to tell me how wrong I was for having Terrius and his friends jump Khia, but he didn’t say anything. And that’s what friends are for… but I know eventually he would say something about it. Now was just definitely not the me. We heard a whimpering sound coming from right outside the door of the room. LeJon and I looked mysteriously at one other because we thought we were the only ones at home. I got up to check out the noise and found Tony folded up against the wall on the outside of my room door crying his eyes out. “Hey babe…” I said nervously, “How long have you been here?” “Long enough to know who’s the blame for Khia’s death.” he said in a low, dreadful tone voice. “I came home to find out if you were ok and found out that you are the one behind Khia’s death!” I stood there silently and looked at him. “Baby I did this for ….” “Shut. The Fuck. Up!” he interrupted… “You psycho bitch! Get the fuck away from me!” “Baby wait… let me explain”, I said as I grabbed his hands. He pulled back away from me and told me to get out of his way. He got up and punched the wall over and over again. I knew he really wanted that wall to be my face, and from the way I was feeling it might as well have been. I stood back and watched in fear. I’d never seen him with his much anger and rage in his eyes. I expected this type of reacon if he ever found out that it was me behind this whole thing, but he was never supposed to find out that it was me behind what happened to Khia. He raged through the house knocking over everything in his path. I could hear glass shaering and things tumbling over from the back. I stayed out of his way and let him vent. This went on for a minute or two before I heard the front door open and slam shut.

And just like that I had lost Tony again, maybe for good this me. I fell to the floor and clutched my chest. I felt as if my heart shaered into a thousand pieces. My chest hurt so bad that I literally thought that I was going to die right there in the corridor outside of my bedroom. LeJon came and raised me up and placed his bended legs under my back and wrapped his arms around me. He kept speaking to me but was drowned out by the tears that filled my ears from my connuous waterworks. At the moment I just wanted to be le alone. I couldn’t handle anything. I really wanted to die. It should have been me instead of Khia that died that day. I had become a different person... someone that I didn’t even recognize and didn’t even like. I didn’t know if I could be saved or if there could be any turning back at this point. I got up off the floor, went in my room and laid in bed. I told ‘Jon he could leave because I needed to be alone. I laid in that spot for hours. I kept geng phone calls from Terrius… I’m sure by this me he heard about Khia’s death and was probably in a panic as well. At this very moment I didn’t care if I was found out. If Tony didn’t come back to me then I would turn myself in to the police as the one who was behind miss thing’s death. I would march right down to the police department and do it and I was so serious. Tony is my life and it isn’t worth going on without him. I revolve my world around his… he is my soul mate. I fell asleep with my face buried in my wet pillow.

I called into work the next morning. I couldn’t deal with that today… that Chandler account would just have to wait. I felt a lile calmer aer a good night’s rest. The first thing I did was call Tony and of course he didn’t answer my phone call. He sent me a text that read, “Please don’t call…” I replied with, “I really need to talk to you.” I needed to make sure that he didn’t say anything to anyone about my involvement in Khia’s murder. I guess I worked through my issues while I was sleep the previous night because clearly going to jail was not an opon for me. Tony didn’t reply to my text but it was okay. I knew where he was and believe me I would show up to his brother’s house later that evening aer I took care of a few things. I called Terrius back and told him to meet me at my house around noon. We had to go over our stories and be on one accord because the police would be invesgang. Terrius assured me that no one saw them jumping Khia last weekend aer the club but we sll needed to make sure that he had an alibi just in case. I knew that I would be visited by invesgators because I’m sure some hoe would menon my name as miss thing’s number one enemy.

I got up and showered and put on clothes then made me some breakfast. I sll felt like hell but I didn’t need to look like it too. Appearances are everything right now. I knew people would be watching me to see if anything about me would change. By the me I finished eang Terrius was knocking at the door, or so I thought. When I opened the door it was the police. Houston PD was really on their shit, hell the girl just died yesterday evening and they were already at my house. I’m sure the girls, Christen, would love nothing more for me to go down for this and rot in jail. “Mr. Branson, it’s nice to see you again”, the familiar looking officer said as he reached out his hand for me to shake. I think he’s going. I shook his hand as I connued to stare at his face. I realized that this was the same officer that came the last night, right aer I ran Khia over. “It’s good to see you again as well… May I ask, what’s the occasion?” “We’re invesgang a murder, Mr. Branson, and we just have a few simple quesons for you to answer.” “Murder?” I swallowed, “W…W… What? Who?” “Where were you last Friday night around 4:30am?” “I spent the night in with my boyfriend. We were watching movies all night.” A smirk formed on the officers’ face aer I said that. He was definitely going… clocked boots. “Is he here… your boyfriend?” “No… he spent the night at his brothers’ apartment. I could give you his cell number if you’d like.” “That’d be great if you could give us that informaon as well as a physical address to his brothers’ apartment.” I saw Terrius’s car pulling up into the driveway. I went into the kitchen to grab a pin and a scky note to get the officers the informaon they needed. I didn’t mind telling them where Tony was or giving them his number. I knew he was mad at me but he wouldn’t turn me in. He’d reluctantly confirm my alibi for me. Aer all I told the truth… he and I spent our Friday night together watching movies and making love on the couch. I went back to the door and handed the officers the scky note and sent them off. Terrius walked past them and came into the house. I shut the door behind him. We silently stared at one another for a few seconds. I dropped my head and looked at the floor for a few seconds. “Girl… these bitches trying to set me up for failure. Miss Thing just died yesterday and they already got the police showing up at my door. Tony and I were in the night y’all jumped her though so he can confirm that I was here that night.” “Bitch what we gone do hoe?” Terrius asked. We sat in the dining room and went over our plans. I told him that we needed to act normal like nothing happened. We didn’t need to talk about what happened at all. We could risk someone overhearing like Tony had done last night. I was confident that this whole thing would blow over as long as Tony could keep his mouth shut. Terrius le shortly aer to get back to work. I told him not to worry because the police would never catch us and everything would work out. Tony sent me a text a few hours later saying that the police had been by his brothers’ house to queson him. I figured that’s where he was because he’s a home body and really doesn’t hang out like that. I tried calling him back but he sll didn’t answer.

The week went by and I sll hadn’t heard anything from Tony. I knew he needed his space so I didn’t go over to his brothers’ house for the enre week. I wanted him to be calm and come back to me on his own. I went to work for the rest of the week to keep up appearance and actually ended up geng the Chandler account earlier today. It was Friday and I haven’t been with my boo since Sunday night so I decided to drop by his brothers’ house. I saw his car in the parking lot when I got there. I didn’t approve of him parking over here. This neighborhood wasn’t all that great. Hell, we had just got his Porsche out the shop last weekend from when miss thing beat it up. I knocked on the door to the apartment and Jacob answered the door. He just stared at me with his judging eyes. I knew that Tony must have told him what happened. “What are you doing here Jeff? Tony’s in a really bad place right now and he doesn’t want to see you. You shouldn’t be here.” he said in a very forceful tone of voice. “I need to see him Jay… it’s been all week and he hasn’t been answering my phone calls or responding to my text.” “We put yourself in his shoes… how do you think he is feeling right now?” I could only imagine what my nigga was going through. Tony didn’t know that side of me… hell, I didn’t know that side of me. I’m sure this whole ordeal caught him off guard. I told Jacob to tell Tony that I loved him and to please give me a call when he got the chance. I le and went back to the house.

I was home watching TV late that night to calm my nerve and try to make me sleepy. My brain was restless and I couldn’t make myself fall asleep. I was worried about Tony. I knew he felt betrayed by me. It hurts me that I hurt him. I got a text from LeJon telling me a hurry and come to 2020, another gay club downtown, because Tony was there looking for Terrius. ‘Jon told me that Tony was acng very strange and that he could see the anger in his eyes. He wanted revenge… and since he wouldn’t hurt me, Terrius would be the next best thing. I knew something was up because Tony never goes to the club. That just isn’t him. He was there to get pay back. I scurried to put my clothes on and rushed downtown to the club. When I pulled up I could saw a crowd of punks standing in a circle outside. I already knew what the tea was. I slammed my car in park in the middle of the street and brushed my way through the crowd to find Tony on top of Terrius with a knife at his throat. Tony was really about to fuck up our cover. The girls knew that Tony doesn’t come out and they also knew that he and Khia use to be and item before he and I met. They could put two and two together. I ran and grabbed Tony from behind and get him off of Terrius. “Give me the knife Tony… You don’t want to do this bae!” “Get the fuck back and take your ass back to the house!” he yelled at me. I wouldn’t let him go. I could not let him hurt my friend or for that maer do something that I know he would regret. I couldn’t let him make the same mistake that I had made. Tony is a good man with morals… I couldn’t allow him to become tainted like I had become. I whispered in his ear… “You’re a good man bae… get up and let’s go. Give me the knife.” He began crying again and I held him. I know he was hurt and it was all my fault. I couldn’t believe that this situaon escalated this far. The next thing I knew I was grabbed from the back and was being drug through the crowd. I could feel mulple punches and stomps coming from all direcons. Everything was happening so fast I didn’t know what to do. I covered my face because I couldn’t let this mug get ruined. I couldn’t believe he girls had tried this. They really hated me for Khia’s death and I knew they blamed me. Hell, aer all it was my fault. No one could prove that I was behind it but everyone knew what the deal was. I was really geng my ass whipped by a lot of girls. I curled in a ball and connued to cover my face as the kicks and stomps connued to come. I immediately felt a sense of relief and heard running and all at once the blows stopped coming. I looked up and saw Tony, Terrius, and Lejon standing over me. Terrius had his piece out and started shoong in the air. This crazy bitch would shoot the girls. Tony picked me up and carried me back to my car and put me in the passenger seat. He instructed LeJon to drive me straight home and he would be right behind us. We all sat at my house that night, including Tony. He comforted me. My back and legs were in excruciang pain from all the stomps and punches I took. I’m sure that lile jumping only lasted every bit of thirty seconds but it felt like forever. My face was sll flawless… I’m glad I had sense to cover that up at least. I laid across the couch as Tony’s placed hot, damp towels on my back trying to comfort me and take away my pain. He eventually sent Terrius and LeJon home and said he needed to talk to me alone.

Once they le, we sat there quiet for the next five minutes. I didn’t have the nerves to roll over off my stomach and look him in the eyes. I could fee