UC Riverside UC Riverside Electronic Theses and Dissertations
Title Tiny Revolutions: Lessons From a Marriage, a Funeral, and a Trip Around the World!
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Author Downs, Margaret
Publication Date 2014
Peer reviewed|Thesis/dissertation
eScholarship.org Powered by the California Digital Library University of California ! ! UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA ! RIVERSIDE! ! ! ! ! Tiny Revolutions: ! Lessons From a Marriage, a Funeral,! and a Trip Around the World! ! ! ! A Thesis submitted in partial satisfaction ! of the requirements! for the degree of ! ! Master of !Fine Arts ! in!! Creative Writing ! and Writing for the! Performing Arts! by!! Margaret! Downs! ! June !2014! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Thesis Committee: ! ! Professor Emily Rapp, Co-Chairperson! ! Professor Andrew Winer, Co-Chairperson! ! Professor David L. Ulin ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Copyright by ! Margaret Downs! 2014! ! ! The Thesis of Margaret Downs is approved:! ! !!______! !!! !!______! ! Committee Co-Chairperson!! !!______! Committee Co-Chairperson!!! ! ! ! University of California, Riverside!! ! !Acknowledgements ! ! Thank you, coffee and online banking and MacBook Air.!
Thank you, professors, for cracking me open and putting me back together again: Elizabeth Crane, Jill Alexander Essbaum, Mary Otis, Emily Rapp, Rob
Roberge, Deanne Stillman, David L. Ulin, and Mary Yukari Waters. !
Thank you, Spotify and meditation, sushi and friendship, Rancho Las Palmas and hot running water, Agam Patel and UCR, rejection and grief and that really great tea I always steal at the breakfast buffet. !
Thank you, Joshua Mohr and Paul Tremblay and Mark Haskell Smith and all the other writers who have been exactly where I am and are willing to help. !
And thank you, Tod Goldberg, for never being satisfied with what I write. !Dedication! ! ! For Misty. Because I promised my first book would be for you. !
For my hygges. Because your friendship inspires me and motivates me. !
For Jason. Because every day you give me the world.!
For Everest. Because. !Table of Contents! ! ! !You are braver than you think !! ! ! ! ! ! 5! !When you feel defeated, stop to catch your breath !! ! ! 26! !Push yourself until you can’t turn back !! ! ! ! ! 40! !You’re not lost. The trail is. !!!!!!!51! !Eventually sleep will come !! ! ! ! ! ! ! 56! !Don’t let the monkeys get you down !! ! ! ! ! 67! !Ordeals shape us !! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! 82! !Life is worth celebrating !! ! ! ! ! ! ! 87! !Your path may be the opposite of where others are going !! ! 100! !Don’t force the moments that are meaningful !! ! ! ! 121! !Home is where the Buenos Aires is !! ! ! ! ! 133! !One straw can be broken, but together they are strong !! ! 143! !We are just animals !!!!!!!!157! !Honor your tribe !! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! 167! !When you see a toilet, pee in it !! ! ! ! ! ! 190! !Look at the hills ahead !! ! ! ! ! ! ! 201! !Some things can’t be understood, only experienced !! ! ! 209! !You never know what your gifts are until someone receives them !! 229! !There is no right way to measure pain !! ! ! ! ! 235! Heaven and earth can meet halfway !! ! ! ! ! 251 SECTION 1: MOVEMENT! !
My plane lands in Cairo. I’ve had the window shade down the whole 12 hours, all the way from the United States to Egypt. I didn’t even look at the ocean. The only words I spoke were to the flight attendant, when I declined beverage service.!
I shuffle off the plane in navy flip-flops and hiking pants that upzip just above the knee to turn into shorts at a moment’s notice. The hood of my sweatshirt is pulled up over my head, my long, unruly curls tucked inside the fabric. I know I look antisocial, maybe even like someone up to no good, and I don’t care. If anyone bothered to look, they’d see red eyes and a clenched jaw, not the kind of person you’d want to make conversation with anyway. !
The last time I landed in Cairo, it was a different story. I had the window seat then too. I pressed my face to the smudgy plastic, watched the green band of Nile slice through the billowy, beige fabric of land. As the aircraft descended, all of it appeared to breathe -- the mountains, the dunes, the shifting sands. It was like a golden exhale. Even closer to the ground, the light of the city shifted with glass and metal, glowing like a tiger’s eye stone. My cheeks flushed with warmth, my eyes felt clear and open. I chattered with the people at baggage claim. I made conversation with the taxi driver. I was anxious to absorb the color, sound, history of this place, excited to see how this country could change me.!