Unreliable Narrator 1 /4 Unreliable Narrator /4 May 2020 “The people in this book, this play, this TV serial are not meant to represent any actual painters, cartographers, mechanics anywhere.” - Ray Bradbury Here we have the third in a loose trilogy of lockdown zines that commenced with Christina’s Nowhere Fan 5, was continued by Ian Millstead’s Griff 9 and concluded with this here volume. All three are much delayed and produced under pandemic lock- down, and well…feature stuff by me. So, if you ever fancy having a holiday from pubbing you ish, ask me to write something for you. Seriously though, I’ve never been a prolific writer but being di- THIS SPACE NOT IN USE agnosed with social anxiety and depression and ending up on anti-depressants killed my creative urges entirely. After a grim couple of years, I gave up work to finally return to study, had a lot of therapy, and with care and support from Christina, and my family and friends got a lot better. I’m still battered and bruised and suffer the occasional crippling bout of anxiety, but on the whole I’m able to lead a normal-ish life now, mostly. Even though I’ve kicked the meds I still struggle with creativity. Writing, playing music, doing art, has felt impossible for a long time. Everything I attempted that didn’t address my mental Written, edited and blurbed onto health struggle felt shallow - how could I write up fannish gos- the screen by Doug Bell. Available for The Usual at: sip when I struggled to keep myself together on a daily basis? On top of that it would have meant ignoring that Beat-like sensi-
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