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INSTITUTE ON HUMAN RIGHTS AZERBAIJAN NATIONAL ACADEMY OF SCIENCES I WILL KILL THE WAR BAKU - 2014 I will kill the war Author of the idea and supervisor CLOSE TO …REPENTANCE Prof. Rovshan MUSTAFAYEV Doctor of Political Sciences - I just wanted to tell you, my dear kid, though sometimes you think as a grown-up, much older Scientific editor of new edition than me, about something that looks like "our con- Aytan MUSTAFAYEVA science" (there is such a phrase). No, this is not the Director of the Institute on Human Rights repentance yet; I mean not quite repentance, but of Azerbaijan National Academy of Sciences (ANAS), something close to it. PhD in Law, member of Parliament You know, my generation, formed in conditions of severe communist illusions, had a special feel- Translator ing for the good. And to preserve it, we kind of Nigar ALIKHANOVA borrowed the universal irony from the works of the great J.D. Salinger - a symbol of my generation. Ironic attitude to life has become a kind of our credo, a way of self-defense, and even the idea of self-preservation. That, of course, was "weather- It is bad; it is really bad of course that you failed to bring your won- cock" attitude because of despair or simply a mask, derful children's laughter to life. But you did bring something more well, you understand what I mean, my kid. And important - a sense of real responsibility for the fate of the children to come. That's why future kids will never get lost in the rye of our life; now, turning to you, I cannot help recalling the they won't burn and won't fall in the cliff. You, my child, will not let it Salinger hero, teenager Holden Caulfield, although happen. As the ripe rye are not a cemetery, but bread, joy, prosperity for many reasons you are very different. And I am and celebration. And when that happens, all the people will welcome the long-awaited killing - the killing of the "bearded war". recalling not his stupid actions but one very impor- tant thought: "Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye ISBN 978-9952-8176-6-9 3 I will kill the war I will kill the war and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's and would make us feel murderous reality. I am around - nobody big, I mean - except me. And I'm saying this on purpose because I remember, kid, standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I your scary story word for word: "When bearded have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start Armenians rushed down from the mountains to to go over the cliff -I mean if they're running and the village, the adults told the kids: "Run and they don't look where they're going I have to come hide in the rye field, they won't find you there". out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I'd We, the children, ran towards the huge ripe field. do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. At first we were all screaming and crying, but I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really then fell silent so that the bearded could not like to be…". notice us. At some point, we got completely lost I am citing you this passage from the in the rye; everyone was pulling his/her own Salinger's novel "The Catcher in the Rye" only way. But when we heard the gunfire behind us, because we did not pay much attention to it in we realized that we should run forward without due time. Everything was different with other turning back. The sun soon became very hot, we ironic and cool "tricks" from the novel that set- were thirsty, especially the little ones. I said that tled in our minds a lot better, but very this pas- if we could pick the crispy grass - chayir, we sage constantly flew out of memory. It was not could rub it in our hands to lubricate the lips perceived seriously… I certainly think that the with wet fingers. So everyone did it - thus, we problem was not with Salinger, but with us, we had something "to drink". By the time the gunfire could not guess his lesson coded in time - I don't ceased, we were very tired. We sat down. We all know. But the main thing is different: none of were scratched. And if it were not for the "beard- my generation could even imagine then that ed" war, it could seem that we were playing and some ten summer school holidays later just this just ran away too far. The spikes were ripe, and little passage would show us all our inconsis- the time to mow came the day before. Suddenly tence, while life would raw irony from my peers, we heard a strange sound, like a hiss. The sound 4 5 I will kill the war I will kill the war came nearer; I stood up and saw that the field dren dying in the rye. And while we were busy we were hiding in was burning. The wind drove with our psychoanalysis, the souls of the children the flames directly to us. I shouted, and I called dying in the boiling rye, as on paper, reflected the the big for help. Everybody shouted, too. And cruel pictures of blood and death. again, none of the big came to the rescue. Later You know, we've gathered some in this book. on, in the hospital, I learned that the bearded Probably the day will come and all children's art Armenians had seen us in the rye and set it on of the vile war period will be published. The fire". "bearded Armenians", of course, have punished us We are those "big", of course, my kid, not your for a virtual approach to life. But they failed to do parents, who were tortured by bandits in the the main thing - to kill that new sense of reality defenseless village. "None of the big came to the that came into our lives with your generation, my rescue" - of course, it is, my kid, about those who kid. Even without reading Salinger you learned a in their younger years borrowed from Salinger testamentary lesson of the writer and experienced only the saving mask, the irony, failing to learn the it in your own life. That's why, I'm sure, the future main precept of the writer: "That's all I'd do all childhood is out of danger - there is someone like day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all". But you to protect it. It is bad; it is really bad of course no one at that time could foresee the collapse of the that you failed to bring your wonderful children's Union and those "bearded Armenians" killing chil- laughter to life. But you did bring something more dren. Well, we never divided people by their important - a sense of real responsibility for the nationality. Karl Marx and Friedrich Engels were fate of the children to come. That's why future kids the only "bearded" in our minds along with some will never get lost in the rye of our life; they won't promising commencing artists… burn and won't fall in the cliff. You, my child, will Perhaps the thing is not only in Salinger, but not let it happen. As the ripe rye are not a cemetery, mainly in us, who failed to grasp the main lesson but bread, joy, prosperity and celebration. And of the writer and did not come to rescue the chil- when that happens, all the people will welcome the 6 7 I will kill the war I will kill the war long-awaited killing - the killing of the "bearded war". We failed to do it, my kid… It's a shame and I'm sorry for that. Everything I've told you is not repentance yet. ...AND CONVENTION But something close to it, like "my and your con- ON THE RIGHTS science". OF THE CHILD Rovshan MUSTAFAYEV ...States Parties recognize that every child has the inherent right to life... ...United Nations Organization in the Universal Declaration of Human Rights pro- claims that childhood is entitled to special care and assistance... ...Convention on the rights of the child pro- claims that everyone is entitled to all the rights and freedoms without distinction of any kind, such as race, language or religion... 8 9 I will kill the war I will kill the war YAVER ALIYEV, 7 YEARS OLD: "The light in our house went out, but I could not fall asleep. When the shooting started, we went downstairs to the neighbor's basement, after a while we ran into the woods. Armenian militants noticed us and next to the Finnish houses we came Article 2, p.1. States Parties shall respect and under fire and everybody lay on the ground. ensure the rights set forth in the present The soldiers ordered us to stand up and line up Convention to each child within their jurisdiction in a row. They divided the wounded and without discrimination of any kind, irrespective unwounded into two parts. Then we were taken of the child's or his or her parent's or legal to Khankendy. The Turk Ahmed-dai was guardian's race, colour, sex, language, religion, beheaded there.