Gay Community News: July 31, 1982. Volume 10, Number 3
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---------------------- Gay Community News'. July 31 1982 • Page 7 --------------------- Odyssey of a Unicorn----------- By Nancy Walker monals, of course, are not privy to made right by the simple act of sit• rary measures v.,cre necessary to day evenings and attend to my clas On Wednesday, July 7, 1982, my the "energyts" intentions, but ting in a special place. If this sounds continue publishing without sifieds. Now that comfortable so1her and I had breakfas1, as sometimes we willingly go along for religious, if sining silently in the breaking our long-established rhy routine is over. usual, to the tune of my insistent 1he ride, so to speak. back of a church does the same for thm. There were no tears at the Our office was a meeting place '"Hurry up, let's go; I'm gonna b; During the two days before the devout Christians as sitting at my meeting, but as I looked at the fami for organizations who needed to late for work." Sether sits looking disastrous fire, for no reason I desk did for me, I am not at all liar faces, I saw many red eyes. We meet in emergency situations. lt placid, saying nothing. I gulp down could have explained, I was extra surprised. were hurt emotionally, but we had was home to most of its workers my scrambled eggs and cheese, ordinarily unnerved. Everything Therefore, after my sother's work to do and we were going to do who looked on their efforts at GCN saving a small portion for Henry, made me jumpy, even things that announcement finally penetrated it. not as a job but as a way of life. It 1he mySlery pel, and jump up. My usually did not upsel me. Monday the inner layers of my conscious When the meeting was over, J was our place and it had a very sother says, "Get your stuff was bad enough, but by Tuesday, ness on that fatal Wednesday, I went with a number of comrades special ambiance. It was in no way toge1her [I go to work every day late afternoon, I was in a wept my little weep but went to back to Bromfield Street to survey beautiful. There was nothing looking for all 1heworld like 1hebag considerably agitated condition work as usual. I think some corner the remains. 1 don't think I could whatever lavish or luxurious about lady to end all bag ladies] and goou1 and I mentioned how rotten I was of my heart was frozen, it must have have gone alone. It was a devastat it. II was a hard.;:limb up adifficuh the door. I 'II be finished before you feeling to Maxine Feldman, our been or else I would not have been ing experience. Though ever since I mountain to gel there. It was hot as are . ., This irritates me because she new Promo Homo. She had her able to function at my job. began working at GCN l have been hell in summer(wecould not afford is always right. I have two gears: own business to attend to, and I was A meeting had been arranged for worried about fire, I could not have to pay the electric bills even if some• first and reverse. She purrs along typing up the classifieds, preparing I :00 pm 1ha1 day, and when I imagined how hideous the after- . one gave us an air conditioner) and mostly in fourth. It's not fair, but them to go to the typesetter, a task I arrived at the meeting site, I saw a math of fire would be. often cold in winter. We had only there you are. Domestic bliss is pre have performed religiously for over number of GCNpeople in the eleva If you have seen war films, you cold water. From the standpoint of dicated, I chink, upon lwo people five years, and for over five years, tor and yelled for them to wait for know what bombed out buildings physical com tort, there was none. loving each other, but at different after I finished lyping lhe ads, I put me, which they did, but explained look like, particularly ones But love, ah love, there was a super speeds and with vastly unlike nerv the forms away in my filing cabinet, that the elevator wasn't working, so destroyed by incendiary bombs. abundance of that. We loved the ous systems. a single drawer affair, painted we had to walk up to the third floor. Our offices looked just like that. office. And we worked together Because she loves me and lavender, sitting on one end of my Our newly defunct offices had been The ceilings had melted and fallen wi1h a great deal of mu1ual affec believes in her heart of hearts that desk. On Tuesday, July 6, 1982, a on the second 0oor. It was. a very in. There were jagged pieces of tion and respect even when we something unspeakable will hap little voice in my head said, "Take hot day, and I had all I could do 10 wood, glass and metal covered with disagreed. pen to me if I am forced to use the T them home with you." I asked the schlepp myself into the meeting. As soot and slime all over t.he noors. In my mind's eye, I can see every (Boston's over-priced, highly unre little voice why, and it replied that it I entered, I said, "It's about those We were hoping to find the cause of detail of I he room I spent so much liable transit system), she drives me didn't know why, bu1 I should just stairs ... " And everyone broke the fire and to see what, if anything. time in during the past six years. No to work. Nodoubt,overtheyears, I take them home. So, I took them up. Maxine Feldman told me that could be salvaged. doubt, my colleagues have the same have mentioned her unflappable home in my briefcase, wondering before I came in several people had Much of what was in closed metal mental images, though everyone's good nature; taxi service is simply why lhe hell I was doing such an been wondering what Nancy cabinets could be saved and the emotional connections with the one instance of it. unnecessary thing. Walker would say, and Maxine removal operation began on the office are different. Our individual On this particular morning, the The following day I learned why said, "She'll ask us to get a new spot. I stood, petrified of falling experiences there are far from hottest day of the summer, to date, the little voice had spoken and, even office without stairs.'' So, I came in and being impaJed on some of the identical. But weshareourloss with we were listening to the news. The more importantly, why I had on cue. debris, looking at what had been each other and the wider announcer was talking about a listened. What accounts for that? As I was rushing to the meeting I my precious desk, my fortress, my community. seven alann fire in Boston's South How do we explain behavior so wondered how other pe_ople would long-term friend in need. It had The newspaper is not just a col End, the area we were driving contrary to our normal patterns? feel about our loss. Working at proved to be a friend in deed and, lective of hardworking people. It is through at that very moment. My The classifieds are one of the three GCN is a very intense experience. because it too was made of metal, also, by extension, the people it sother said, "Amy Hoffman.called main sources of income for the No one who cares about the paper the mail and other items inside its serves. The significance of GCN is this morning.'' ''Shush,'• l replied, paper, and, had they gone up in cares only a little bit about it. We drawers would eventually dry out that it makes a bridge between 11I wanna hear the news." She smoke, we would have had to make care for it with a depth of emotion and beat least partially useful. But I distant individuals. It creates com waited a beat and then repealed, good for all the money paid for reserved for no other activity, no felt in that moment as if someone munity and keepsallofusinformed •• Amy called this morning.'' those classifieds. My having them other institution in our lives. For very close to me had been of each other's joys and sorrows, "All right, obviously you want to unscathed was a real financial me personally, GCN is, ·and has murdered. accomplishments and failures. For tell me something. Why did Amy break, and I was relieved to be able been for over six years, the second Of course, I knew the paper me, 1he paper represents a network call?" "Your office burned; it was to reconstruct my pages by the sim most imponant thing in my life. would go on, and we would find of love and understanding. It is a completely destroyed. Amy didn't ple expedient of typing them over The one thing I was sure of was new quarters and it would only be a serious and determined attempt to want you to learn about it on the again at home on Wednesday that we would put out Volume Terr, matter of time before we were all make necessary human connec radio. She said yo1t shouldn't go evening. Number One on Friday, come hell back to a semblance of normal ope tions, to prevent gay men and lesbi there." 0 WHAT??7tf!" "Your If I had consciously known that I or high water, both of which had ration.