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University of Texas at El Paso DigitalCommons@UTEP Open Access Theses & Dissertations 2014-01-01 The Rhetorical Making Of A Personhood: A Vietnamese Woman's Journey Into Literacies And Subjectivities Viethang Thi hP am University of Texas at El Paso, [email protected] Follow this and additional works at: https://digitalcommons.utep.edu/open_etd Part of the Rhetoric Commons Recommended Citation Pham, Viethang Thi, "The Rhetorical Making Of A Personhood: A Vietnamese Woman's Journey Into Literacies And Subjectivities" (2014). Open Access Theses & Dissertations. 1327. https://digitalcommons.utep.edu/open_etd/1327 This is brought to you for free and open access by DigitalCommons@UTEP. It has been accepted for inclusion in Open Access Theses & Dissertations by an authorized administrator of DigitalCommons@UTEP. For more information, please contact [email protected]. THE RHETORICAL MAKING OF A PERSONHOOD: A VIETNAMESE WOMAN’S JOURNEY INTO LITERACIES AND SUBJECTIVITIES VIETHANG THI PHAM Department of English APPROVED: ____________________________________ Helen Foster, Ph.D., Chair ____________________________________ Kate Mangelsdorf, Ph.D. ____________________________________ Lex Williford, MFA ________________________________ Charles Ambler, Ph.D. Dean of the Graduate School Copyright © by VietHang Thi Pham/Phạm Thị Việt-Hằng 2014 To my parents: Mr. Phạm-Quang-Hiếu and Mrs. Đỗ-Thị-Khanh And to my father’s birth year, Year of the Horse, and UTEP’s 100th anniversary, 2014 THE RHETORICAL MAKING OF A PERSONHOOD: A VIETNAMESE WOMAN’S JOURNEY INTO LITERACIES AND SUBJECTIVITIES by VIETHANG THI PHAM, Master of Arts in English and in Language and Linguistics DISSERTATION Presented to the Faculty of the Graduate School of The University of Texas at El Paso in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirements for the Degree of DOCTOR OF PHILOSOPHY Department of English THE UNIVERSITY OF TEXAS AT EL PASO December 2014 ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS During my eighteen years in American academe, I have been so blessed to study with many professors who have taught me with their hearts, shown me the limitless horizon, and told me that I-M-POSSIBLE at times when my confidence was very thin and fragile. For their invaluable knowledge, teaching, advice, and support, I am profoundly grateful. THANK YOU, the English Department’s Selection Committee at UTEP, for giving me a titanium chance to realize my daring dream of being a Ph.D. with my background as a mature ESL student. THANK YOU, Dr. Maggy Smith, for warm-welcoming me when I was but a distant applicant. Your constant kindness and support stayed in my heart and fueled my efforts. THANK YOU, Dr. Helen Foster, my dissertation director and a DREAM POSSIBILIZER, for being my colossal support. Your tireless assistance, mentorship, and devotion nurture me in full flourish. THANK YOU, Dr. Kate Mangelsdorf, my dissertation second reader and a mine of resource, for helping me refine my voice, one class after another. Your heartful feedback, advice, and understanding energized my learning and research. THANK YOU, Dr. Lex Williford, my dissertation third reader and a rescuer, for accepting the invitation to be on my committee long before we met. Your suggestions, coated in rich-layered knowledge, invited me to shine through highlights that reflected my true selves in my voice. I am equally THANKFUL to Dr. Lucia Dura for her genuine kindness and heartful support and to ALL my professors in the Rhetoric and Composition Program at UTEP and at California State University, Long Beach, especially my English thesis committee--Dr. Melissa v Fiesta, Dr. Elisabeth Young, and Dr. Lori Smuthwaite--, my Linguistics project advisor, Dr. Malcolm Finney, and Dr. Robert Hertz and Dr. Helen Chau Hu, for opening my eyes and mind with your teaching, encouragement, and words of wisdom. THANK YOU infinitely, Dr. Fiesta, for showing me the horizon and for helping me to find my voice, with which I have begun exploring the universe of possibilities. The doctoral program would have never been in my mind had you not introduced it to me; I thus keep thanking you. THANK YOU, Dr. Finney, your genuine heart and mentorship have brought me back to your office years after my graduation and made the Linguistics Department a place to learn, grow, and remember. I very much appreciate the cohort-ship of my classmates and the helpfulness of the English Department’s staff and UTEP’s, as well. My cohort’s friendliness and collaboration have made learning enjoyable. THANK YOU, Byron and Lou, for helping me out when I needed, and, Lindsay and Betty, for embracing me into your family circle. A very special THANK YOU is reserved for David Fabish, Dean of Liberal Arts at Cerritos College; your strong support throughout the years has helped me grow professionally. A hefty THANK YOU is saved for my godson/friend, Tom Hong Do, for your ALL TIME bestest godson-ship and friendship during our pursuit of higher education since we were classmates in Fall 2003 at California State University, Long Beach; your never-take-a-day-off support has smoothed every stage of my advance. Another hefty THANK YOU is for my childhood friend, Trần-Đình-Hồng, for your super duper niceness; your over-half-of-a-century friendship and caring have sibling-nized us, and your cooking-from-the-heart has always brought me home. Another hefty THANK YOU is offered to Mr. and Mrs. Vũ-Ngọc-Tín and their children, Tuấn-Hoa, Hiền-Vinh, Tiến-Vân, Nga-Tuấn, and Ngọc-Phú, for their warm embrace vi and robust support; while your family’s history colorizes to my narrative, your largesse ensures and sustains my support for scholarship and professional development-s. Another hefty THANK YOU is for Lulu Flores and her beautiful-soul family; your kind embrace before, during, and after my stay in El Paso and my schooling at UTEP has gilded my doctoral student’s experiences and made them prized memories. I would also like to thank all of my students; your struggles, efforts, and trust have pushed me to strive, so I can be a good teacher whose perseverance and success inspire you to keep dreaming, trying, and reaching. And I gift-wrap a FABULOUS appreciation for my TERRIFIC tutees/godchildren, Sylvia, Sophie, Vincent, Nicolas, and Spencer. Your love, embrace, and respect warm my heart, whereas your hard work, responsibility, and willingness to learn confirm the value of my teaching approach and invite me to soar. I’ve enjoyed assisting you during your pursuit of a future profession, and witnessing your growth as a student and a person is such a privilege. THANK YOU for decorating my life and my family’s with your love and gazillions laughter. My as-immense-as-infinity THANK YOU is reserved for my parents, the home/nest of my Vietnamese cultural self. Wherever you are, in this world and beyond, you are ALWAYS in my GRATEFUL heart. THANK YOU for teaching me love, humanity, and equality. I have been living every word of your teaching, “công Cha, nghĩa Mẹ, ơn Thầy,” [meaning one is indebted to one’s father for his rearing, one’s mother for her nurturing, and one’s teacher for his/her teaching]. THANK YOU for being the role models of sacrifice, patience, and perseverance. I am EXTREMELY HONORED to be your daughter, and I am VERY PROUD to carry your last name into American academia to be recognized as one of its scholars. vii My as-thick-as-love-through-the-test-of-time THANK YOU goes to my husband/half, Đỗ-Vũ-Hoàng, and my son/prize, Đỗ-Vĩnh-Hoàng. Your immeasurable love, silent sacrifice, and ceaseless support have enabled me to reach my goal and to materialize my dreams, one at a time. None of my successes would be possible without you; because of you, I M POSSIBLE. Hence, all of my successes, the solid proofs of our endurance in all sizes, are OURS, indeed. THANK YOU, each and all of you with every beat of my blissful heart. viii ABSTRACT In the form of an autoethnography, an examination of “the private troubles of individuals” and their connection to “public issues and to public responses to those troubles” (Denzin viii), this dissertation demonstrates the impact of a country’s history on its people’s lives. According to Bourdieu’s theory, changes in field trigger changes in habitus and capital; this interrelatedness “offers an epistemological and methodological approach to a historicized and particular understanding of social life” (Thomson 81). From an eyewitness’ perspective, this writer/ethnographer narrates her stories/experiences in Việt-Nam and in America to shed light on her cultural and linguistic struggles, her transitions through endurance, and her individual perseverance as a Vietnamese baby boomer immigrant in American society and especially in academia. While stories/experiences are personal, the historical background is not. This work contributes to the field of Rhetoric and Composition by introducing a voice/a writing that belongs to the Vietnamese baby boomer immigrants whose displacement experiences-- social, academic, and personal-- have not been heard as a voice of the first generation, in the first-person singular pronoun. ix TABLE OF CONTENTS ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS……………………………………………………..………………..v ABSTRACT……………………………..………………………………………….……..……..ix TABLE OF CONTENTS………………………………………………….……………………...x LIST OF FIGURES………………….……………………...…….………...…………………...xii Chapter INTRODUCTION……………………...………………………………….……………………...1 1. LOOKING BACK, CONTEMPLATING, AND MOVING FORWARD: THE INTERWEAVING OF LIVES AND HISTORY…….…………………………………….....7 1.1 Looking Back: My Eyes on History – Then ……………………….…………………7 1.2 Contemplating: Intellect in Pause……………………………………………………50 1.3 Moving Forward – Rebuilding a New Start………………………………………….62 2. LIVING PRESENT IN PAST IMPRINTS…………..……....................................................67 2.1 My Academic Struggles in the Upper Secondary Level…………………...………...80 2.2 Santa Ana College (SAC): Introduction to English Academia……………………....98 3. STEPPING INTO THE ENGLISH WONDERLAND…..………………………………..110 3.1 In Academe: Stepping In……..…………………………………………………….110 3.2 In Academe: Stepping On…………………………………………………..............134 3.3 In Academe: Stepping Up……..……………………………………………………159 3.4 Of Special Interests………………………………………………………................169 x 4.