Medicine Bag: an Autoethnographic Account of Learning to Use Memory and Indigeneity As Resources in College Advising
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Graduate Theses, Dissertations, and Problem Reports 2018 Medicine Bag: An Autoethnographic Account of Learning to Use Memory and Indigeneity as Resources in College Advising R. Saya Bobick Follow this and additional works at: https://researchrepository.wvu.edu/etd Recommended Citation Bobick, R. Saya, "Medicine Bag: An Autoethnographic Account of Learning to Use Memory and Indigeneity as Resources in College Advising" (2018). Graduate Theses, Dissertations, and Problem Reports. 5224. https://researchrepository.wvu.edu/etd/5224 This Dissertation is protected by copyright and/or related rights. It has been brought to you by the The Research Repository @ WVU with permission from the rights-holder(s). You are free to use this Dissertation in any way that is permitted by the copyright and related rights legislation that applies to your use. 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Department of Curriculum & Instruction Morgantown, West Virginia May 2018 Keywords: Autoethnography, Indigenous, Feminist, Cultural Competency, Memory, Storytelling Copyright 2018 Abstract Medicine Bag: An Autoethnographic Account of Learning to Use Memory and Indigeneity as Resources in College Advising R. Saya Bobick Autoethnography was used to investigate lived experiences of self to connect the individual to the cultural (Ellis et al., 2011). My life’s recollections were gathered together in a metaphorical personal medicine bag. The use of memory work and storytelling/histories helped to “reframe the old understandings of history and memory” (Clare & Johnson, 2000, p. 210). The conceptual framework was situated within an autoethnographic approach that included three components. The first component was Indigenous ideas, which included memory as a process of decolonization, telling stories past-present-future, and oral traditions/histories. The second included feminist ideas about memory with descriptions of memory work theory. The framework’s third component was the process of culturally competent academic advising. Narratives were used to empower and resist othering as explained by Fine (1994) in Working the Hyphens. The use of autoethnography provided space within the research process for issues of multiple identities in marginalized spaces. My findings helped to answer how complex, shifting, and sometimes fluid intersections of my identities influenced the formation of decolonizing advisory relations in my role of academic advisor. Autoethnographic memory work facilitated a deeper understanding of the roles of my identities in these relations. Opportunities to thoughtfully engage with social concepts were revealed through autoethnography, Indigeneity, and memory work. This scholarly spiritual expedition filled the metaphorical medicine bag to exhibit fragmented thoughts, ideas, experiences, and memories that informed my role as an advisor. My medicine bag now carries the woven threads that inform Indigenous, feminist, and culturally competent approaches to academic advising. MEDICINE BAG OF MEMORIES iii Dedication For Helen and George, my parents “You see, we may encounter many defeats, but we must not be defeated. It may even be necessary to encounter the defeat, so that we can know who we are. So that we can see, oh, that happened, and I rose.” – Maya Angelou MEDICINE BAG OF MEMORIES iv Acknowledgements To my committee members, Dr. Melissa Sherfinski, chair, Dr. Samuel Stack, Dr. Sharon Hayes, and Dr. Christine Schimmel, my deepest appreciation for your affirmation and encouragement throughout this process. My unconventional scholarly study was possible thanks to your participation and agreement. I would especially like to express my deepest gratitude to my chair, Dr. Melissa Sherfinski, for your time, expertise, invaluable support, and generosity of spirit. Your assistance made all of this possible. I would like to acknowledge three of my former professors who have since passed away that played crucial roles at the beginning of this procedure, Dr. Patricia Obenauf, Dr. Ruth Kershner, and Dr. Daniel Hursh. You have all contributed to my journey of learning and it was an honor to have known you. I am thankful for those I met during my WVU graduate studies. Dr. Kasi Jackson, Cathy Jasper, Dr. Jennifer Orlikoff, and Dr. Brian Jara were the positive and encouraging faces of the Women’s & Gender Studies department. I am also appreciative of the opportunity to know Ms. Carroll Wilkinson as the Women’s Studies librarian during my time there, as well as Ms. Bonnie Brown, coordinator of the Native American Studies program. I am grateful to have worked for Dr. Richard Montgomery and his wife at Fieldcrest Hall. While there I was privileged to meet and work beside the outstanding Travis Hapney. Your enduring friendship is one of my most valued since returning to school. I acknowledge many friendships made in graduate school such as Sera, Zoa, Leilani (now deceased), and Allyson, among others. Dr. Melissa Chesanko modeled in her daily life the concepts of feminism. So fortunate to have met such dynamic women. MEDICINE BAG OF MEMORIES v “When I dare to be powerful – to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid.” –Audre Lorde I would like to express my gratitude for other educators I was fortunate to have encountered in my life. I have always held my learning experiences with them close to my heart. In elementary school, Mrs. Goll, Miss Sennett, Mrs. Hartley, and Miss Waro. In junior high, Mr. Billingsley, and in high school, Mrs. Mamula--true examples of academic lifelines for me. During these times, I had cherished friendships with Anne, Karen, and Diane, among others. As an undergrad, Mrs. Elizabeth Douglas, Dr. John Cruzan, and Mr. Rudy Fatula were encouraging instructors in a sea of uncertainty. I remember fondly my college roommate, Erma, and dear friend, Rosemary--you both were a few of the reasons I thrived while there. I am extremely grateful to my current supervisor, Mr. Scott Carlton, for giving me a chance to serve as an academic advisor. You said you saw in me great desire; thank you for this challenge and opportunity. Also appreciative of Claire and my many professional academic advisor colleagues--I am in awe of your professionalism, expertise, and collegiality. “We do not want riches but we do want to train our children right. Riches would do us no good. We could not take them with us to the other world. We do not want riches. We want peace and love.”—Red Cloud (Mah piya Luta), Oglala Lakota This research would not have been possible without the light, spirit, and acceptance of the dear elder Indigenous women at the senior center. Oh, how you graciously opened a door of profound friendship to me. Karen B., I will never forget you calling me back that morning, and welcoming me with open arms. My time with you has been some of the dearest memories that I hold. How blessed I am to call you friend! Times working shoulder to shoulder with you and your sister, Honey, or with you and Cara Leta, are precious to me. Cara Leta B., you graciously opened your home to me; I am humbled by your friendship also. Karen & Cara Leta—I am honored to have met such strong, caring, talented, and loving women! MEDICINE BAG OF MEMORIES vi “Oh Great Spirit, whose voice I hear in the winds, and whose breath gives life to all the world - hear me - I come before you, one of your children. I am small and weak. I need your strength and wisdom. Let me walk in beauty and make my eyes ever behold the red and purple sunset. Make my hands respect the things you have made, my ears sharp to hear your voice. Make me wise, so that I may know the things you have taught my People, the lesson you have hidden in every leaf and rock. I seek strength not to be superior to my brothers, but to be able to fight my greatest enemy, myself. Make me ever ready to come to you, with clean hands and straight eyes, so when life fades as a fading sunset, my spirit may come to you without shame.”—a prayer from Yellow Hawk (Ci-tan-gi), San Arc Lakota I would like to thank family members, Uncle Johnny, and my dearly departed Uncle Bronko & Aunt Saya for your friendship and encouragement throughout my life. I am also thankful for the support of Sandi and Jim, my sister-in-law and brother-in-law: model educators all through their lifetimes. To Lou and Dady, thank you for your unconditional friendship and support—it was my lucky day to have met the two of you! I dedicated my paper to my parents, Helen and George. They were my first educators and instilled in me a love of learning. I am so thankful for them. To my dear son, Steve, you are a light and a gift in life; a true blessing from above. You are valued, courageous, intelligent, powerful, and loved. To my husband, Tom, your love, assistance, encouragement, and support bless my life. I am so happy and honored to share the journey with you.