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ALSO BY FILIP MARINOVICH

Zero Readership (2008) And If You Don't Go Crazy I'll Meet You Here Tomorrow (2011) Wolfman Librarian (2015) To Cecilia Wu To my parents ...... And in memory of Uncle Dragon ...... CONTENTS

The Suitcase Tree 11

UNCLE DRAGON REQUIEM Dragan and Branka 15 When Uncle Dragon Passed 16

UNCLE DRAGON REMAINS Dogens and Dragons 23 Manic Mixture 8 from Outer Space 26 Jeudi Da Sensorium Rum 30 Vendredi Samadhi Starring Sandra Dee 34 On Fucking Reality 34

THE FUNERAL MIME SPEAKS FROM THE ASTEROID CHIRON Obi Wan Threnody 43 Posthumous Puberty Protein Powder 45 Virgo to the Two Pisceans 47 The Sinking of the Tectonic 51 The Necrophile Tourguide 53 Uncle Lungs 57 Job Interview with Maker 59 Anasamadhi Pathology 62

TWENTY FOUR HOURS WITH FRANCIS BACON IN THE CHESTNUT TREE OF HEAVEN Cinnamon Theremin 73 Lava 74 Francis Bacon Critiques my Painting 75 Between the Globes 78 Thrownness Duet 93 “FOR OCCUPATION—THIS” Dear Autodefenestrated Self 99 George Washington Pisces 102 From the Daybooks of Fasterbean Damages 104 Fasterbean Damages 107 Between the Heaves of Storm 110 Shakespearian Motley College 112

PARTNERS WITH THE TREES A Sectary Astronomical 119 At Veselka 122 Coyote Bananas 125 Lavender Bender for Joanne Kyger 130 Dogen’s Two Thrownnesses 137 Hamlet Le Pendu 140 Manic Mixture 7 Failures in the Fish 124 Hockney Water 146 Mercredi Skiis 148 The Halibut Arms 150 Sleeping Through the Days and Communicating with Emigre Friends 153 Synopsis Cyclops 157 Why I Am Not Straight 159 Red Condom in the Ramble 161 Pigeontimacy 163 Dear Mom 170

FOUR DAYS IN BELGRADE JFK Airport Diner with Mother 177 My Aunt Architecture 178 Over International Cellphone 180 Email from Belgrade 181

TRIPTYCH IN CAPRICORN, AQUARIUS, AND PISCES Absent Sophia 193 Count Mouth 198 School of Silencers 201 -..-.---.---.--.-.-----.....---.-.-.--.-.--.--.--.--.-....--.-.- BACKMATTER 203

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He howled and What isfloorforever. mindfullness.The dog is off the leash into the spaghetti, the and in the park and I stir my limbs peeling parade is on, and my skinstrips are confetti leprosy off my facemask all by themselves, no need to help them, thin when you know the barrier between places especially a whole chorus the departed dogs, never left, there’s they, the doorbell ring kids and two yard front the them in of mat doorstep on your front skeleton bird and leave a small \\\ 38 \\\ | . .. bangs getOctoberlongandgarishashempathic. skeleton barrette youcan holdyourhairbackwithwhenthe it’s abluebird corpse,notcarcass, it’s areal livingbluebird and run off, back into the dark, and you wonder if it’s a sign, . | /// 39 /// \\\ 40 \\\ | THE FUNERAL MIME SPEAKS FROM THE ASTEROID CHIRON \\\ 42 \\\ | | /// 43 /// OBI WAN THRENODY THRENODY OBI WAN To stand ourselves and then each other, if it even then each other, stand ourselves and To hoarder Chaos border What order? goes in that order. 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California. No, that friend. That friend who fled for fled who friend That friend. that No, California. | /// 47 /// VIRGO TO THE TWO PISCEANS PISCEANS THE TWO TO VIRGO I know. I want more time there. When I went upstairs to 5c time there. I want more I know. where the fire alarm was chirping I bledout of the ceiling. Finally now it’s to get that thing down from my finger silent except in my mind. Excuse me do you think I could squeeze in. No worries. Now worries. Will we get run I’m having naughty thoughts: I want a sleepover party with with party sleepover a want I thoughts: naughty having I’m just the three of us. I wonder if the coffeeshop to the not givepotential shades shooters a clear are shot. down in a Josie has many times then after Halloween. the day It’s thought paper student. diminished Greek whirlpool to be though that Beyond in. come conversation, Rapiertongued is. 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Everybody so onedge after yesterday eight himself wefoundoutthespirit.HAZTAC truckred with introduced first he When how. know don’t I life, GETS he makes mefeel:you’re so deservingoflove,allus.Like, because I,amusemyself,couldn’t comprehend howhe to betoldmakeupmyeyesandbesexylookatyou a fussforReasonitselftothrow eyelinertubesatme.Iwant across from meintheneighboringapartment.Imakesuch I hopeyouare lookingat mefortobedme,havechildren paces. If you find someone so quickly, this is then as abuilt tilltwoweeksago.EvenAugustworriedabouther friend, America’s weddinggirl.Thebareness ofyourankles.Muscle I likehowyouare silent sometimes itmakesmefeellike hearses oftheminute. over inthestreet bythe passing makeshiftinstantaneous | /// 49 /// Insistence on an audience is a male entitlement psychosis. Insistence on an audience is a male myself. Yesterday why I perform for one mouse to cure That’s computer mouse, ha ha, the owl store: in the used record I will be shot on the walk on its mouse pad. I wonder if Sowin or will the protective trick or treaters home through Balkan shield bagpipes ancestors save me with their Celtic no bullet can penetrate. Your abuser lover is coming to town in three weeks. What weeks. What coming to town in three abuser lover is Your Avid gives chase. Avoid. him. If he you going to. Avoid are avoidance flight pattern fugue state eyelashes. I thought but. I’m cement and a hangingman I was a comminicator wet cement of the egg from fresh suit in a Haz Tac hatching not negative to be listened to. And it’s sidewalk. Who deserves just it’s digging deeper into. I think confrontational it’s in a in in my pants confrontational I think you’re helpful way. sensitive to me and a constructive bender way genitally I would rather do my congenitally clumsy seductionways. nothing than tell you I love you I’ve been rejected so long. I suggested you polite: been I’ve how about also it’s And smoke alarm. and take out the chirping into 5c could break Masculine consequence. as finger the from bled and it did I tear gas private didn’t sphere. want You to help me find a only when I cried: woke up slept in bed. You bandage. You I can’t find the Band-Aids in the top of your backpack. In returning this way I learned how it feels to be a Veteran wound fresh for ask I when ignored and War Trojan the from dressing. compassionate compassionate to yourself first if need it to the ones who and warming outward evolve real your compassion will it. abuse you to deserve and don’t \\\ 50 \\\ | it’s happening.Let’s seeusthree. touching eachotheristheonlycure formeIvisualizeitand touch youit’s sucharushandtobewiththetwoofyou Halloween. Usedtobemyfavoriteholiday. Ionlywantto | /// 51 /// THE SINKING OF THE TECTONIC TECTONIC OF THE THE SINKING BLOCK FLUENCY. Kicked out of English. Egg. Eggless. Kicked BLOCK FLUENCY. inside I can I’m sores to say it and now that all day Waiting not think and the sacrum painful to inside. It’s the swords poetry disguised as poetry, has its own ideas about prose, effort No sham. hackward bleak night Sunday angry, prose, at least I’m and effort at watering the seeds that say: “Hey, THANK stops me from not mad like I was that time.” What at effort from me stops What YOU. THANK effort right YOU all? Effort and Grief and what do you call it? Deathbeatific greetings. What stops my efforting madness? Thank you start again. Be gentle let’s and specific this time. Laziness. 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Ievenwanted the salubriouslybrchki birchy of wavewatersofthecavern back outintotheworldtotelltaleofhealingwellin Taurus went,andthere anointedthewounded andletthem Wellspoken Deliverance Guardian Oxygen.Oxygeneiato friendly luckysaltimbanquewindfrom RilkeHeaven’s Trinity Voiceover Goiterspeakingfrom theneckof | /// 57 /// UNCLE LUNGS LUNGS UNCLE what? Reject! No: every one who auditioned will Judgy is a problem. Judgy is not where you want to be you want where Judgy is not a problem. Judgy is have one. No, you an emotion. Have season. holiday this in Cemetery if you visit me Greenwood I will visit you at Drive, the home of my sister Seminary at Valhalla Vanilla years could be twelve hours or twentyfour vikings. Listen, it to a ski trip in is essential? My father goes What now. from his bathrobe and leaves Retrograde California for Mercury It does not turn me on. 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\\\ 78 \\\ | BETWEEN THEGLOBES in real lifeImean but I’msomucholderthanyou was Iinsideyou sure can Iaskyouananatomicalquestion you’re spanker spank aborn I likealittlepainandspank meharder please cut againstyourwooden drawingdeskedge don’t worryifmyfront thighsget in mythroat and there isnotime I pullonyourbellrope I wantyoutogapeme is sohottome this littleintergap but weare nothingbutinbetween with anyonebutyou I don’t wanttodothis of condomsandlube handy paperbag can wekeepthishere teasing thehole no youwere teenagers atagon bury yourlatexnozzlecock we are thesameage | /// 79 /// hornspanker harder please hornspanker harder my prehensile bottom my prehensile accepts your pink tile stick freely and with glow palms on me now can I rock shaking the wigrack tree from freewigs under our tectonic shiftings never and shed silk nightshifts we were wearing to begin with ! hey can I I’m not going to go inside I just want hey can I I’m not going to go inside to get between the globes take care of this you say as you hold my balls and cock of this you say as you take care of this I say take care I will and you body I want it forever your whole caressing every time you cum in me please get younger spurt you will be a teenager by the fourteenth my genius now and I will be in the infancy of my body when you look at me lightning strikes through breed expect anything restrictions yet I don’t bamming it into me only to see you again and again as I turn my back to you and you conglobe me masterclassplease wonderful belly thank you for your with it forever I want you to breathe \\\ 80 \\\ | chestnut prismzoom I giveittoyou you canhave and that’s what and that’s whatIam slavic soul hasforeclosedpostmodernism onanysoulatallletalone tho yousayit’s notgayIdon’t knowwhatisitslavic and Ipaintitrainbowwithmygaypridedick empire statebuilding as youcumsohard youshootmetothetopofblinking so myscream breaks theskylight and takemefrom behindrighthere intheskylightroom blowing across itfrom thewindow drawingdesk draftingtablewiththedraught I wantyoutopress myfaceagainstyourwooden oh divinetoecallousesnuzzleagainstmydickagain you catscradleoffmydickwithyourpainter’s hands o themicroscopic mammoths inthetipdrop precum nylonstrand when wepouroursyrupinit we willbuildhere andeatit a cabinofclayandwafflesmade oh thismustbeinnisfree the aislescreaming withus we haveallthecondomsneedforfree between theaislesnoonewillsee in thepharmacycumsupermarket so whatcanIdowhenI’mpinkinginyou | /// 81 /// my prehensile bottom accepts my prehensile tectonically orange briefs stripped tectonically orange briefs stripped spelunker poker dealer spelunker poker take your shorts down just a little I love it when you over your ass them back up and then you pull dick body shorts on your whole floppy foreskin I need chicken you have to heat it my whole body feels like an erection them I like your nipples you should pierce anything oh no I would never pierce I was just thinking you could advertise your hotness to the world you oh I would nevertise I only want plays itself in the chestnut zone amentone clavier that would be eggs up legs over your shoulders my throw and plunge your self into the freezer go as soon as I get home to ready away and back into me away and wraith grace in me stalactite creaming top the who’s bottom of this cave ceiling and who’s \\\ 82 \\\ | . . right underthe vulva folds purplish with from hisdick “It’s babies” glittering undertheperseidmeteorshower amen flaskof80proof roof wrinkles . .. kneading theO— he fucksandspanks— of vowelglobes conglobular doctor tree chestnut . ridge ass that my has TO THEFINERHOTELRESTAURANT PURVEYORS OFFRUIT& VEGETABLES MANHATTAN FRUITEXCHANGE ...... | /// 83 /// well there you’re emeritus you’re well there is sucking your cock heart cut my thighs a p.h.d. in oh it feels like a bathtub oh you can get it that far you should be an opera singer down your throat in another key reopened my rose images known as 8 o’ clock in the morningimages known as 8 o’ clock in the top me I want him to all I want spyglue applicator snake sliding in and out of me ribcage slide carousel

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Idon’t knowJacquesof but Idon’t knowwhatitis and there isnorightonetheonly intothewrongWill youdownloadme?I’vebeenborn sex Covered with rainbow stickers, can I sleep in your laptop? | /// 107 /// FASTERBEAN DAMAGES FASTERBEAN Answer the question! Why did you not read and praise you not read Answer the question! Why did my work as soon as I sent it to you, though you were five for your presentation hours away in Cambridge preparing University? at Aardvark I’d rather not be concernedI’d rather The continuing with this. a to his way on Damages Fasterbean of adventures recording contract. I cannot cap it yet. I’m just beginning to even shows, a whole fall tour, more to know it, and need begin to inch near the studio We’ll and take Skepticism. a meetingTraffic. and pour flay the new down the tracks. coffee ears into to each see other’s howreally hot it is and it, Fasterbean Damages, it. 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You canhear thedrippingin the nukebutton.Recording insession.Quiet please. horryborry Amen.Recording sessionredbutton on.Not with thebrightestofredthread futuresutures Amen.Oh from lonelinessbysewingyourselfbackintoherwomb you adolescent,comebackintoMotherand saveher layer Bangpopandyouare notallowedtodothatyet, Mayday youare apilotwhobreaks thesoundburialmound a datewithhertoTash MaydanParkbecauseMayday your pubertysummerandMotherwillnotlet you goon courtyard wallwithTanya theviolinplayerthroughout to thebackyard where you can chalkuptheBelgrade together in different pieces with different doorways through certificate awaitsswording, cutitinhalf all thirteenbolipainvolumesofitandyourtransmigration with calm to sort through the papers of your birthcertificate here? You are now, takeout yourworkandbeginagain stepped overintothatotherworldand--isanybodysitting pepsi sparta separate from the dead as we think. Here I just That. But no! We’re not so separa deadparate seepy sepsis blanket thatseparatesthelivingusfrom thethemthat.That. toward SawveinendofOftober gossamerthinningofthe bar-chords of Fasterbeam Hauntages travel lore of bending much formetothrottle, it throttles meintopresent ancestry too is envy my Because to. attend first must you thing the the midstofyourownworkandare mostvulnerable: thatis Being, You musthaveyourprioritiesstraightenedbymeand maintentant: theworkIassign you whenare in andbringitback | /// 109 /// Fasterbean Fasterbean Damages airplane stuntwork to gather core earth’s deep into the the groundbarrier flying through the and bathe in meta-Orphic rock metamorphic and till it is renamed Discontinuity magma of the Mohorovichich loneliness Spontaneity so the vanity of the Marinovich Bliss Fasterbean Damages turnscan dissipate as back into his Earthbirthbigbangbongo the of core the in self silkworm and fresh is Grove Francis in make you bread The Nebula. to me Thank you for remembering safe for supplication. trackwork Earth The missiles of the entire your grain silo. into they we will freeze where to Pluto have been relocated Shells or again. 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Waking upoverthelongcup,shuttle to Kneekirk.Husbands Australia fivehoursbefore wegetthere forthefirsttime. to gobackNudeWhirlwind.Maybewecan leaves andIhadafeelingofmadhatteronce.Buthave itinerary onthetourcoveringmostofNewEnglandinred behind, youcan’t carryitandgettothenextplace on the this, Alicia?Thedraftraftstotheotherside.Leaveraft But these are obvious slobberings. Where was I going with only therichandrichestdustpercent. health ofthenation,atrickledownI.V. dripintotheveinsof todestroyseeming Obamaerahibernation usallforthe crocus locust, and police state exuberance awakens from Ocean wavewashesawaythedustofgreendollar here,” looking over the sea of blue tarp tents. The Zuccotti Ariana said“Ibetthere are alotofpeoplefallinginlove Brenda toldmetogoZuccotti, thatIwouldn’t getarrested. | /// 111 /// sprayed it once more, and stomped it splat on the kitchen it splat on and stomped it once more, sprayed Thusfloor. the death penalty has proven itself effective in my destroyed kitchen. The exonerated flies of the afterlife and strafe cupboard the kitchen forth wingless from march me with their dead wings flying from machine gun turrets eye of an insect the gibbous bubble sky, in the plane belly having vengeance on my deathdrive flesh, unbackedsince up last night when I finally signed up for the cloud and synched and backed up my files so that my love and I can enjoy a long and happy afterlife in the backup files of the vaporized sky, by heat, light, and the solar flares giving us or metacognitive eggnog experiences now, precognitive, as we foretell the fly guests we will kill in our dreams,and bitten to the bone by wake up to pay for it with wrists actionfruit flies. \\\ 112 \\\ | SHAKESPEARIAN MOTLEY COLLEGE garden, portendingafuture ofdawnmusic,wakeup the serpentscoiledaround ouranklesintherutabagpipe as splendor same the with them shed can’t we since off in off close proximity toeachotherandweshowerour skins fall disguises how show to is sentence same the two speciesare notcomparable,whytheyappearin children, butdidbirthalot of booksintothe world.The birth to gave never but Beograd, Grafika Ars company, but how did he know labor? He made his own printing Dragon said on the banks of the Sava in Belgrade, “Don’t beanartist,thoseare laborpains!”Uncle above, andonlyifyoubegitforatleastninemonths. fellowship grantedbytheCassiopoieinconstellation motion collaboratingthrough thesustainedintensity head youcanonlygetinatrainwiththewheelsandrocky in yourpants,topheadsofstate,suchhead,thekind Cary Grant,thewholeMountRushmore MountainRange me in the sleeper car like I was Eva Marie Saint and you rainstorm, makeloveinatrain,cross country, youinfecting a after pavement, wet like just I tolerance, high a have I aunt. place. Butthat’s likedoubledatingyourmotherand say itisafriendlyentranceportalintoanintimidating The People’s Library at OccupyWall Street: many people occupation. 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Two friends find it hard to part, our get itoutofthatcycleknockwurstandcabbagestarving which willagainimmediatelydevolveintobureaucracy. Howto usallintoarevolutionhanging outoftheloungeactandturn scrolltongue stretching intoouterspacewhere youcanlickthe bad, thisisnotthedistantfuture pastofyourwetdream dossier totes rippedopen,wouldyoulikeacloakingdevice,welltoo a leftpasttheMedicineTent atZuccotti.Temporal-Spaciode Ionian islandcove.ZakynthosBay, stormracked,ifyoutake Io Io Ai ai io io ripped offbystrong Octoberwindgust Back inZuccottiParkbluetarptent,that’s agoodcover, itgets Ai aiio | /// 115 /// I don’t don’t I to return no one has want to be a librarian where I still care so they want you to read any books and can bring the ones speech, not screens, the thundercommons we can share we don’t where evolving into voicings from but screams language, a hearths, and heaths, a heat know in our heads, the gut. sun when you speak from with a palm reading to look forward to later in the light of forward to look with a palm reading tell salt lamp, for you cannot quartz rose a Himalayan pink sale the yard at your intuiton you sold it, without your future tennis rackets. 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And root outthepsychopathic pedophilesinmyown Spotlight movietoseehowIcanbeajournalist But Ieatlatenightapplesaucejarandwatch I don’t drinkorsmokeweekends anymore It’s timetogoalready I justbarely slippedfree ofthenooseandnow Spray yourbluedetergent juiceinmyface Todaynightfornight fortforpleasedonot | /// 125 /// COYOTE BANANAS COYOTE No you no me no ears no nature of our predecessors no predecessors our of nature no ears no me no you No No obstacles because eyes no nose no tongue tuberose. is What fete. The yet. And beobstacled. be to mind no As it leaves Our consciousness. celebrate now. to there the Aeon with the Aeon. The Aeon cannon fires to help ships escape past the imperial blockade. Darth the rebel old little him. The inside man little has no good Vader Wizard behind the green weak man does not pull levers things. Maybe Controlling there. of Oz curtain. No one’s a shadow government or two. 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Brown powderwecome at mefornoreason, slowly losinghiscalmmappermind. with him,eatingdinnerslisteningtohimbarkback For thenexttwoweeksIliveunderwater, watchingmovies says. wagging pronouncement shock:Ihaveprostate cancer, he Dad utterstheDadspeechdeathbuttersticktongue extraordinaire. Justbefore weorder dinneratVeselka Diner month of twofaced coinhead sparkly bait liar and deceiver not anymore. Dadtoldme inthemiddleofJanuaryJanus to dothingsIwanteddo.Fatherwillprevent you.But kid but already loved naming things because I was not free Cactus Face and he said don’t call me that and I was just a beforeto kisshimmornings heshavedandIcalledhim is delicious! This strawman tastes like my dad when I used But whattodoin those last120seconds. This strawberry | /// 127 ///

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If that really happened I would find a way to contact you happened I would find If that really time psychic I’m a part this thing where and plus I have Filip Marinovich stars as a Serbian emigre in Manhattan in Manhattan a Serbian emigre stars as Filip Marinovich curse, any of an ancient that, because who believes will with the man he loves (Kent Smith) physical intimacy turn into a feline predator. him \\\ 158 \\\ | cupboard drawereyes. hide. Giddywithlife.AGideon’s Bibleineachofmyhotel like Iwanttokillmyself.wasnotonvideobutwanted red. I work with caterers all night. Within two weeks I was you Iloveorigins.InCentaurculture it’s traditionaltowear Thank projectile. like flew like tears think I frame. Stillborn yourrings Ilove say: by theway. It’s crazy. Ithoughtlostthestone.Stillreign. to chemicals misfiring of infirmary simultaneously oneachphonescreen intheimbalance | /// 159 /// WHY I AM NOT STRAIGHT STRAIGHT NOT WHY I AM No friend, no work, as we like to say this deep in the as we like to say this deep No friend, no work, we rise, little boys and girls with where oven gingerbread workplace of paid slave witches and witch doctors of the the abusive hollering administrative assistant labor where is never fired because just expired. “That’s Drama beingjust Drama.” that persona minute three a have I helpful! Not is now, of anything developing behind me aware you Are coming on to me? Stop hitting on me, my own funeral pyre beach. Troy a on kindling Thou flames. and logs oiled you Corsica, large for a not me. I’m here that’s Whatever, notes that whack you beloved blend with dark chocolate assume when you end and get you breathing on the rear the stillbirth position just outside the womb. day’s Wake Benumb you. No. The up and let you be you be you be you. fuel O-rings stinks of future ice on my right booster rocket to my fuselage the threat leakage and will show engineers before I lift off, or my name isn’t the Challenger Ronald The dove of war Reagan AIDS Denier Reentry Columbia. with its beak in two swoops down and claims my eyeballs you and our Good luck to you? How are Hi! swift moves. I throw the trash out first thing Tax TuesdayI morningthrow the Tax and trash out firstthing already there’s a Gay Pride Rainbow flag in the garbage slap and sassy and symbolic so be to have life does WHY me first thing this afternoon as I emerge from nocturnal cafe? chamber unenclosed sidewalk combat lair insomnia interior of encroaching the is the ex and where Where dementia in my infinitely work a marketable made I director: gerontophile my in confide I rom- life? sodomite com did you do any work? but friend. Okay, \\\ 160 \\\ | and bearyouinfiniteimmigrantbabies. you canevencomeinmeasIchangegenderscontinuously and office oval kleptocratic the of out cronies your all and a desertislandfortherest ofmydaysifitwouldtakeyou let’s begayandgoaway. Iwouldgladlygiveyouheadon his royal xenophobeness. Let’s be OUT together, Trump, raves, host floorshow orange radioactive glittering the as makes life on the planet impossible yet infinitely distracting on Tax Daywhenweeachpayourdonationstothestatethat freshlyincarceratedfingertips our of health the for inkpads foam non-toxic with skinbags fellow by taken fingerprints the bigbang,grounded, infantilized on tarmac,gettingour been foundinourbloodwork: that willnottakeusawaybecausesomethingstrangehas airport interrogation chamberwithourticketsforthe plane honeymoon all the time, and we just have to show up to the with thebestofthem:BloodsportVenice hecallsit,asifit’s I likemynewshrink.Heisaninkwellandtalksmarriage soIcouldgettomyshrinkontime. work earlythismorning how totakespleenbyforce andneverfeelitagain.Ihadto on voicing theirconcerns end of air, its resumption, and the various incoming clients remaining contestants.Treasured Severance,measure the weare allimmigrantsfrom | /// 161 /// RED CONDOM IN THE RAMBLE IN THE RED CONDOM My head sounds like a door. My head sounds like a door. If you’re happy and you know it happy and If you’re wanna show it, and you really happy and you know it if you’re bite your butt, your feet, your nuts. If you’re happy and you know it bite yourself. happy and If you’re you know it bite your ear. happy and If you’re

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Alien signalsare relatable I vowtocure themall Sexual fluidsare transmittable I vowtoexchangethemall Sexual fluidsare exchangeable | /// 163 /// an urban haibunan urban PIGEONTIMACY my friend conrad says ganesha is placed at the start of my friend conrad says ganesha temples the entrance so you laugh as you come in reading the pigeons are the aeneid in the airshaft have come near us yes the pigeons before like they never have a sidelong glance at the fearful district of intimacy to let it come into focus sidewise perhaps kinder scaring me but the pigeons are I’ve never seen so many in the airshaft interpreter call the bird on line one get me birdterpreter is busy interpreter the bird geysercufflinksfoam at intimacy with worms limestone it intimacy just to get very portmanteau about invites speechtrains and wordslobstacles of the ganesha variety of laughter \\\ 164 \\\ | abound ingreen purpledarkblue feathers and taboosofintimacy new yorkcitypigeontotem refrigerator earth chlorofluorocarbon free now naturallycool birds reclaim coolingunit and itwastheirsatlast on myairconditioner today twopigeonswere mountingmatinghumping pigeontimacy dear pigeons cuddleintheairshaft climate changeandfreezing temperature of courseitisasign is itasignIask I’ve neverseenthismanybefore cecilia saystheres somanypigeonsnow if youunslouchhowdoesthespinalantennareceive it if youslowdownhowdoesitchange over thefastintimacythatfeelssofake snow flakesfallingqueerlyand pathetically intimateandintimatelypathetic queer andfeminine because youloveyourmotherandare sensitive by yourfather you canhaveyourheadknockedoff ganesha overcomes obstacles | /// 165 /// what is this an omen of om “we don’t fly south in the winter fly south “we don’t you better to torment in order we the karmabirds of your actions birdfruit with our warbling war will wake you up you wage on each other every day you of the war to remind how full is it of obstacles know how to embrace you don’t obstacle of cold we embrace the in the airshaft by loving each other utopia not but it’s we compete for each other two males will fight for the female mate for genders have words we pigeons don’t to confuse us perch airconditioning a time on a grey at we gather three watches and two will fight while the third off or killed one will be wounded and frightened to consummate and two will remain york city new of intimacy tormentors pigeon new make and it” we the sentinel beings decree so the pigeon chorus speaks one day I saw a dead pigeon opposite directly on the airconditioner of me and cecilia window the bedroom its dark blue back to us in the snow \\\ 166 \\\ | me what willshesaynext who I’mcuriousabout someone I’mbecoming who Idon’t knowyet it isindeedsomeoneelsedoing in thetimeofmakingituplive and “it’s noneofmybusinesswhatIwrite” “read itasifsomeoneelsewrote it” it helpstoremember sensei’s in thisfunembarrassingintimateaction in theflippingpages rearranging chancelinesasIencountered them and improvised livecomposition I flippedthrough mynewbook off paper and ratherthandotheusualthingofreading poems and hecame I invitedmyfathertopoetryreading wednesday nightofthisweek and bumbleintothejam blurt outyourowncooingtap you pretentious pigeonwith keypad pretend in theryokanhermittradition when youplaythewintershut-in pigeons how doyouembracethedead battling mating callingsinging pigeontimacy | /// 167 /// “well you didn’t have any stage presence tonight any stage presence have “well you didn’t distracting your flipping the pages was very do it loud like ginsberg you didn’t staring off into space you were your usual actor self” you weren’t guillaume apollinaire knew it apollinaire guillaume bachelor pad means in french garconniere boyplace sexism in that but he intuited the his attic apartment and renamed pigeonnier a pigeon and knew it because he was beyond gender of a doubt beyond the gender slide to the other side wakened pigeon beyond the top and flight coo coo coo and after the reading I went out with my father and two friends to dinner to celebrate and talk and laugh to do in these my father did what he often likes situations embarrass me he said I my eyes welled up with rage as two friends: of my quietly told him in front a quiet place I’m working on coming from \\\ 168 \\\ | usually yourbooksare messy andbigger she saidit’s soconservative andsmall I gavemyfriendelizabeth acopyofmynewbook tonight Idon’t care and thursdayfriday I wassoangrywithhimwednesdaynight and stuffyourearswithpurpleearplugsfather sleep so interror thetvuphigher youturn you canhearyourselfthink it’s soquietinthere in ahighupapartmentpigeonscan’t reach and televizedsportsrecaps chaserofdigitizednewspapers internet what withthatnight’s later the fathersaidheunderstoodbutquicklyforgot and nailstocuriousfurniture ongolgothalandfill to orienthimselfwithamaphedrawsupandframes not afixedpointforanabusivefather and quietisawaytoseehowI’mbecoming perhaps I’mintimacy identity isveryfunny not apigeon I’m 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I asked her are you being my father now you being are I asked her you serious or are this this week twice why am I getting when someone abuses you and you absorb abuser to stop pain and horror you feel genitally end daily negotiation with abuser you became to stop survivor pain by talking to yourself intimately \\\ 170 \\\ | DEAR MOM and lieunder tundracrust who diedintheEighties I weepforRamblelovers and touriststakebird snapshots when latexflowersbloom I likemenandtokiss Mom target tobea up I sign dropping poems winter blitzkriegRilkepilot under theflightpathof nest builtup twig andhay speak of Praxis Cardinal now let Theory Bird we’ve heard for dearepistolarypractice ice underfoot cruise themBibliana as birds whynot thunder thesameroof for poppenjaymuscle I cruisetheRamble grab thefence | /// 171 /// teacup you hold out teetotalers now just looking at snow drink from the drink from I want to drink a palmfull of snow with a shot of into it dark rum poured Dear Mom when you receive this letter me picture walk the Ramble walk the Ramble let it translate beak to beak moulting we’re under teabag trees both since we’re will have to do for now until I’m snowblind Oedipus killing unknown man argument in roadside you say you don’t understand you say you don’t I want to kiss I want to female the reddish-grey male cardinal bright red Mom airmail sent to you unsend send back \\\ 172 \\\ | Nilip Marinovichspeaking this isyourson Nil after thisoneis the lifepromised us when willyou the swingingdoornow if youdon’t walkthrough I swing Birthday SuitQueen Queen inabluesuit Queen ofHeartsSpadesClubsDiamonds I’m aQueen between QueenandKing Lucky Pierre Reverdy your son a girlandboy in bedbetween AMERICA CANYOUMAKEADONATION I’M HEREFORBOYSANDGIRLSOF EXCUSE MESIRSORRY TOBOTHERYOU | /// 173 /// \\\ 174 \\\ | FOUR DAYS IN BELGRADE \\\ 176 \\\ | | /// 177 /// JFK AIRPORT DINER WITH MOTHER MOTHER WITH DINER JFK AIRPORT will not be heard will not be heard on the keys hand with a third in sweatpants. Belgrade was bombed in the 20th century— typewriter My wrapped Mom, What’s in that enormous suitcase of yours? suitcase in that enormous What’s know if your aunt I don’t that will let you pound at night. times sleeping typewriting 44 dead mind the my out the don’t by help but who shines. but that \\\ 178 \\\ | MY AUNT ARCHITECTURE IF YOUARENOTSUREOFWHETHER me greet to row first the in stand to used Grandfather where I can’t seeanyonewaiting forme remember toliveinparadise today.” “Everybody will from ZurichtoBelgrade: Grandfather speakstomeontheplane so howcouldIseethem? continue tobedead my grandparents coming backtoBelgrade “Would ithelpifIbeatyouup? ask me: 3AM BelgradeIsobatyourround diningroom tableyou and donotstopme. rollaway duffelbag walking myenormousgreen the guards lookatme I enterthegreen channel an airportsign: When Iland ENTER THEREDCHANNEL. YOU HAVE SOMETHINGTODECLARE Would itbeChristmasthen?” | /// 179 /// I text Uncle Unexpected I text Uncle in the painful language” I’ll see you soon untranslatable— Puns are do you know Serbian—

Yes exactly who would want to know American English? exactly who would want to know Yes Who would want to know the language of a violent to know the language of Who would want warmongering race? “Arrived. dear reader— it? yourself superior for not knowing do you consider \\\ 180 \\\ | OVER INTERNATIONAL CELLPHONE razed place concrete the floods destroyedfloods the bombs the after again Yugoslavia the flooddidnotaskanyone What are youscared of Mom asks are youBosnianCroatian orSerbian like free wireless I hearvoicesofthedeadinmyhead you can’t keepdoingthis | /// 181 /// EMAIL FROM BELGRADE BELGRADE EMAIL FROM The Ottoman Empire had a tradition of constructing walls The Ottoman Empire of skulls obey to chill the populace and make them we have dollars for this same purpose back “home” in the big glass domeland a la carte bumper cars of keggers shopping markets and But my grandfather’s voice was encouraging so I thought so voice was encouraging But my grandfather’s everything would be okay. nobody checked my When I landed I felt lucky because so why would to declare bags and indeed I had nothing they but you never know here it about it till you read you could disappear and not know dead on the news how you’re at body your check said I like fast happen that could it the airport unscathed if you want to survive here and etches the the invisible scalpel enters sideways of oil magnates signatures on the inner walls of your skull. I heard my grandfather going to be okay. everything’s Belgrade tell me on the flight the sky not voice coming from did sound like his fromIt really Zurich to my head and I realized these were the same flightpaths warplanes over Belgrade taken by so many times than I can count century more bombed in the 20th the ashes 39 from said “Belgrade rose one history book times.” Dear Julien, Dear Julien, \\\ 182 \\\ | The Williamsburg Waterfront itintotheBalkan versionof and turn The BelgradeWaterfront on theSavariverandcall it the UnitedArabEmirates wantstobuytheland and hetoldmehowthe country isinruinsandEagleHillsof And welaughedatthesigninparkinglot okay let’s go.” just fiveminutesago and hesaid“WhendidyoucomeIdidn’t evenseeyou at anysecond like hemightfalloverdead and hehasabigred rash behindhissilverbeard andlooks antvanity not adheringtothefactsofjournalist mouth Icanspeakthrough who IcallUnexpectedinmypoemstomakeitamythos recognize I went back in and finally spotted my uncle who I can barely propositioned byahuge grey cabbie I wandered around inaquietpanicoutsidewhere Iwas I sawnoone or myauntsmilingandwavingwithherlongred hair waving tomeinabigbroadbrimmed strawsunhat where Iusuallyseemygrandfather standinginthefront row through customsandout tothegreeting place duffle bag and whenIlandeddraggedmytooheavywheeled “Show messagehistory”nothankyou PAY ONFOOT | /// 183 /// INVEST IN SERBIA INVEST IN SERBIA And I went up in the elevator with my too heavy And I went up in the elevator with suitcases pulled up by ropes elevator for two people at most along the way creaking dividers between the floors floor I could see the concrete so heavy get stuck the bags were and prayed I wouldn’t and then he dropped me off at my Aunt Vesna’s, Vesna’s, me off at my Aunt and then he dropped up, rather coldly said come didn’t right there “It’s the elevator to the fifth floor take a left and then when you get apartment.” take a u-turn to your aunt’s but no one has money to do absolutely anything.” to do absolutely anything.” but no one has money floods. the now and war the then war the then war the First The flood didn’t ask “Excuseme person Bosnian or a Croatian are you a Serbian a so I can decide whether to tear the shingle roof off your of house and stuff it in the bottom the Adriatic sea,” and there was Merman Realtor on the side of the road of the road on the side was Merman Realtor and there in the shade of picnicing taxi driver village and the by the airport cypresses on stick standing still buildings bombed NATO the all and peglegs legs matchstick said “The country is ruins and Uncle Unexpected all these signs \\\ 184 \\\ | way foryears.” “Why ofcourseyouhave AuntieI’vebeenwearingitthis you likethatbefore.” “My howstrangeyoulooktomeinthatbeard Ineversaw and thenmyAuntNenacameintovisitsaid and peaceatthelast a miraculousfirsttimefivewaytieintheBalkan states and everyonefinishesfirstinthe regattarace cross theriver to thumpmeonthethroat andsingasongforboatsto with thegreen children running outofthepages encyclopedias I didn’t knowmyinnereyelids wouldbeopeningtheirfrosty why didIthinkwouldneedallthosebooks after thecarryingoftooheavybags my spinetoglistenandhealin for baked Grandma flakes pastry emerald the with green on myback shingles roof flooded with crying crocodile little tiny a I’m The crocodile who breastfed metodaygot a sonveryeasily now youmusteathaha,” “Should Iheatitupagainyesthisiswhatyouaskedfor for andthenmeatsoup the tableforarichlunchofcheesepiemyfavoriteI’dasked and myauntwelcomedmeimmediatelystartedsetting | /// 185 /// The pathetic nature of feeling The pathetic nature most excited about writing here but not being able to live here it is the continuous present lessons gives me short breathing until I am hyperventilation itself and then home tomorrow playing tennis in Washington court in Toronto no place like home there’s Where am I. What city is this. am Where Friends, is this. What country, is no friend. Oh, my Friends, there friend here. a Is there quotation A Greek it. can glide across chiseled into a brick so the salamander I accept that they died but why aren’t they here to welcome they here died but why aren’t I accept that they me nevertheless I stayed is that apartment they lived in where and where every time I came here Uncle Unexpected and and which my idiot povertyridden Father Fearless old boiler out of. sold and dismantled and took the I asked her how she was how she was I asked her said and she how I am “Well it is okay Not very well but hahahahhaha,” died and like my grandmother who She laughed exactly who to my surprise my grandfather and neither is is not here \\\ 186 \\\ | oh yesIjustdidwithabreath I don’t knowifI’lleverrecover from and nowI’mlookingatmyself withsomedisdain York for ZurichandNew leaving Belgrade flight return on thefirst me how Icalledmymothercryingandcommanded her tobook told myaunteverything avoid to and Iwenttothekitchen filtered tapwater of dehydration liters three drinking from got upmanytimestopee couldn’t doit So Itriedtosleepfrom tomidnightbut two intheafternoon you haven’t sleptin24hours. meaning ofcourseyoudon’t knowwhatyourname is and myAuntNenasaid“OhwellthankGod,” and wenttobed “I don’t knowwhatmyname is,” and Igavemyapologiestoauntssaid and fuckmethere soIwon’t havekids put adiaphraminmyear home ismydiaphragm home iswhere thebreath is | /// 187 /// and she said “A person should love himself and she said “A person should love but not in a jinx way to help others. himself by trying love and respect but really art greatest find yourself in the right job is the To and to not live toward and to know who you are expectations of others but to naturally be who you that.” easily from are and everything flows and inscaped gardening I’m crying at the kitchen table and inscaped gardening to my Aunt Vesna “This is the first time I’ve been here since so hard.” died and it’s my grandparents “That I can understand,” she says and I felt better just hearing that outer outer outer now it’s the end of the second day I only have tomorrow have tomorrow the end of the second day I only now it’s to see people my family who I miss so much found myself with but to reconnect here and who I came overwhelmed completely me and blessing of the dead choking by the presence me in the same present space fuck disdain what did it ever do but give people ulcers ever do but give what did it fuck disdain in I’m leaving flight is booked my aunt how the and I told two days \\\ 188 \\\ | and metryingtospellCzechoslovakiabackwards. after ahalfhourofhearingvoicesAmericansbabbling to sleep and IwenttobedtookaNyquilwhichmercifully putme but totalunionofextremest oppositiespolaritiestripolarities how tosatisfythemallbecausetheywillnotacceptanything but youare somanyselves youdon’t know but whathappenswhenyoutrytoloveandrespect yourself and Iwondered ifIwasn’t beingchastizedbymyaunt because IhadconfessedtothatcousinI’mbisexual And Iwondered ifmycousin herdaughterhadtoldI’mgay | /// 189 /// \\\ 190 \\\ | TRIPTYCH IN CAPRICORN, AQUARIUS, AND PISCES \\\ 192 \\\ | | /// 193 /// ABSENT ABSENT SOPHIA Sophia’s not home for the weekend, where is she? Your own Your she? is where weekend, the for home not Sophia’s child. Triangulate. The icebergs that float out of the polar visit. Is that like skinbag womb of triangulation. Skinbag I had to deal with Manson visiting privilege? When I entered had I entered I When Thorneat master dorm the Dormitory. at Thorneto deal with Manson the dorm master Dormitory. take advantage of me by calling me at 5:30 in But don’t the morning to pick up your junk. I out the No parties no nothing. Work have a family party. a it’s party tonight: would hope You a shot put now. transportation since you’re get annihilated with Don’t you would be an adult about it. starved for sexhalation. inhalation without exhalation. I’m on. This is me wanting to be with The adult part is you’re Sunday hangover a party. you. And at the same night there’s version of Sophia. triage. Me dealing with a hangover Hangoversion bangoversion lalangoversion. I know what open physical Grace was trying to do: the yoyo the do: to trying was Grace physical open what know I this relationship, fast that in starting things spins so ahead of can tell Elizabeth. Everything You we talk about it. whatever, that: knows Sophia And death. impede to done is you tell I privacy. says is with an agenda. Open whatever Elizabeth Oedipus with his Pirana. Pinata. Piracy. Always on defense. “Parade Float outside preaches: pink yellow blue feelings red for Micturition Ammunition, ready Judgement Creature, You No response. over.” do you copy, by, listening hard with yourself, Hamlet. ongoing relationship need to have an have a different right courseYou in every single port and a nuncle who tries to control motherfatheruncle ranunculous things. of reminded be to need you how know You laughter. Everytime I clear out of the field, therapy continue, doesn’t around. I’m done. I liked going this time \\\ 194 \\\ | westernized commodified time. 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I take awayyour powers!” I was angry not your kitchenandwhackedmewithitontheleftshoulder in hand my from flower the took you and offering peace a purple tulip I pluckedfrom oneofthecampusgardens as the graduation party for our class I offered you a fresh spring one exceptmyterribleLacaniananalystOnanabouthowat word abouthowyoumentally abusedus.Inevertoldany ...... ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

Thank you to Lynne DeSilva-Johnson [Elæ] for all their inspiration, hard work, and patience.

Thank you to the editors of the magazines PRELUDE, Stu Watson, THE RECLUSE 13, Stacy Szymaszek, Simone White, Nicole Wallace, Laura Henrikson, LIVE MAG, Jeffrey Cyphers Wright, and FEBRUARY, Paul Legault, where several poems from THE SUITCASE TREE were first published.

Thank you to Jeffrey Joe Nelson and Jed Shahar, whose GREETINGS reading series has been a fantastic performance laboratory for new works for twenty years now.

Thank you to the Roshi Enkyo O’Hara, Joshin Sensei, and the entire Village Zendo Sangha.

Thank you to my comrades at Shakespearian Motley College.

Thank you to Lee Ann Brown and Tony Torn for giving Shakespearian Motley College a home at TORN PAGE.

Thank you to Alicia Jo Rabins for initiating me into THE GRIND and to Ross White for keeping it running so many years. Thank you to Christina Davis for challenging me to write more about Occupy Wall Street and giving me a platform to perform the work.

Thank you to Trace Peterson and Paolo Javier for freestyling with me at Odessa.

Thank you to Eileen Myles for teaching me “Pathetic Inventory.”

Thank you to CAConrad for teaching me in the midsummer blaze of Madison Square Park.

Thank you to Stacy Szymaszek for the Daybook Workshop.

Thank you to Julien Poirier for longtime poetry comradery.

Thank you to Cecilia Wu for my life.

Thank you to my parents for everything. ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Filip Marinovich is the author of WOLFMAN LIBRARIAN, AND IF YOU DON’T GO CRAZY I’LL MEET YOU HERE TOMORROW, and ZERO READERSHIP (all from Ugly Duckling Presse). His new book THE SUITCASE TREE is fabulously now in your hands from The Operating System. He conducts the ongoing poetry jam session SHAKESPEARAN MOTLEY COLLEGE at Torn Page in Chelsea Manhattan. THE FRENETIC ARCHITECTURE OF DELIVERY: A CONVERSATION WITH FILIP MARINOVICH

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VARIATION ON A THEME BY RAM DASS

One is much Suchness We are in drag as the multiple

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Greetings comrade! Thank you for talking to us about your process today! Can you introduce yourself, in a way that you would choose?

I’m Wolfman Librarian, AKA Loup Garou, the lariat on cue.

Why are you a poet/writer/artist?

I’m not. But rather, somewhere between wolf and human... the suchness...um...the myriad doth spring forth. . .the gazelle dolphin. . .yet another of the extinct pink on light blue elf cues to come in and take away my garden. Bring it back! I know it’s not mine but bring it back anyway. Thou! Thourt that the one HUM. Yaourti in the Greek tradition...drizzled with golden prophecy beamhoney and walnuts...when I ordered this in Hania, Kriti--the waiter made bull snort noise and hoof stomp dance to show me it was coming. Pity it was not he coming upon my face for Thrace. Such dish: grace.

When did you decide you were a poet/writer/artist (and/or: do you feel comfortable calling yourself a poet/writer/artist, what other titles or affiliations do you prefer/feel are more accurate)?

Decoded in the frenetic architecture of delivery, ongoing and transforming through the unknown not-knowings.

What’s a “poet” (or “writer” or “artist”) anyway? What do you see as your cultural and social role (in the literary / artistic / creative community and beyond)?

Songster of subversivest incest inroads into the royal family to make unrest a palimpsest of possibilities PRESENT.

Talk about the process or instinct to move these poems (or your work in general) as independent entities into a body of work. How and why did this happen? Have you had this intention for a while? What encouraged and/or confounded this (or a book, in general) coming together? Was it a struggle?

Never independent, toujours interdependent... interpenetrative interpretations unspooling the kite string of moment-- momentous gaucheries in the combat field alignment of stars alighting on the face at any given time, especially now as Mars the red orange swims through Pisces and splits the fish cord and those fish gotta find their own chord changes now based on faith let loose in the jamways--watch out for the pits--teeth break on that--but if you’re not all gums by now perhaps you’re not crunching hard enough on the fears and digesting them into the most delicious beers ever fermented in the mouth of Meerkat Lear. Did you envision this collection as a collection or understand your process as writing or making specifically around a theme while the poems themselves were being written / the work was being made? How or how not?

Envision my soak as one long epic poke and being poked back in episodes--a top and bottom interlude catalog shifting through the thorough grammatical and etymological changes magnified through epistolary bifocals of the Epistolariat Committee of Letters (Komintern, sic.) A bathtub homecoming for Agamemnon is assured in these lines, nay, is rather precipitated, and the razor snowflakes of Klytaimnestra will slice that daughter-slaying fatherflesh of his so far down the bathtub drain we’ll need a week’s worth of Braino to blue it back up in the gurgle gargoyles of Neptune.

No, but seriously.

No, but there is no no seriously. No separation between prose and poetry--no explaining explanations because no symmetry- -nothing born--nothing dies--and yet here I smile with flesh full of flies--a hotel for death to escape into on one of its long hangover weekends when it must mend to become to the manor born once again with the bats. Is Batman in this? Because if not I refuse to read on! But perusal is imminent. You can tell by the tents under his eyes--Perusal’s--that Perusal Arousal chap hath been in the Stacks studying so long the eyeballs goopdrip into the canvas and spandex banners anonymous arise--as long as the arising is listened to presently--the episodes unfurl and one is not separate from the other--such be the antidote of Poetry to the separation society of any organized Church and State Knot Constellation. Reclaim desire together as the myriad empowerments venturing forth into the embellishment mattress of nations--soon to be torn apart by us poet wolves for making love on the bare floor as the nerves hum under the tremendulous tablecloth of Frank O’Hara Candor Afterlife presently now reappearing as thoughtgong struck in the golden center by a music mallet with no hand attached to it. Theme is discovered by accident on the way but also might be pre-ordained only to be thrown away in the winds of composition practice as the anthro chance chorus chimes in with its wise madness from every chiming coffee cup--we poets begin our lives in radness--thereof come dependency and recovery and Sadge adzes to cut through addiction rope and be whole again and listen patiently to the screams and whispers and songs of the holes even when they do you troll. And oh how they troll. But one must hear out and calm one’s inner troll so’s not to become it. So the Clairaudience of bliss presents itself to anyone willing to breath the breath with the breath. Unto breathlessness even. One emptiness. Empty of permanent abidance or New York State Residence. Fugue State Residents to come, welcome! Please step this way for our in the hills dance!

What formal structures or other constrictive practices (if any) do you use in the creation of your work? Have certain teachers or instructive environments, or readings/writings/work of other creative people informed the way you work/write?

Boa constrictors best avoided. Though the lines might become them. Most encouraging environment the one I created myself with a rag tag slowly discovered tribe: Shakespearian Motley College (which evolved from Reading Poets by Sun Sign and Queering Poets by Sun Sign)--these are “seminars” I teach, but really more like poetry jam sessions I conduct where we read poems together, aloud, by authors of whatever sign the sun happens to be in, (for example: Dickinson, Celan, and Myles for Sagittarius) and then we do “freewrites” and challenge ourselves to go as far into outer space as we can. Courage, candor, candelabra. To transgress against all our fears, emboldened by each other, playing in the band, writing to be banned and savored, wordspells as desire liberators.

Speaking of monikers, what does your title represent? How was it generated? Talk about the way you titled the book, and how your process of naming (individual pieces, sections, etc) influences you and/or colors your work specifically.

I saw a rollaway suitcase hanging from a tree growing out of the graves in front of St Marks Church and -- WHOOOSH -- Arrival of a Something. Investigate. Titles come after. All of this retrospectacle a fiction--what else could it be? I am not that person anymore. But the one now becoming is happy to be with you here and hopes you are having a good day--even in these our collapsing states of consciousness continually regenerated by faith and hopefully excercise regimen against whatever regime’s in pretend power--to fete it out of the way--to let our feet ferry us where we play--far beyond all pepper spray! Occupay! Soleil coup coupe.

What does this particular work represent to you as indicative of your method/creative practice? your history? your mission/ intentions/hopes/plans?

I’m curious what it might suggest to you and don’t wish to stand in your way. That’s true hospitality. Giving space. And time. And a stoop of wine. Or a stoop of any kind. Where are we going to congregate if not there? Only where it’s monetary? We need spaces to play together without money vaccuuming everyone clean of eyes. No more eyesocket surprise. The one eyeball winks in the night flight to San Francisco tray table--but is it unfolded or folded back up--and who can tell when we’ve reached cruising altitude if there’s endangered cruising shore. Let the extinct cruisers return and teach us how to score is not to score but to give and listen and dance between the orange cones until they are no more. “No obstructions in the mind because no-mind.”--The Heart Sutra.

What does this book DO (as much as what it says or contains)?

This book loves you up if you ask it to. It’s yours to do with what you want to do. If you sing it it might melt cage bars with you. This book’s no book But a friend who talks by listening to you. Crooner echo zoomlense in blue.

What would be the best possible outcome for this book? What might it do in the world, and how will its presence as an object facilitate your creative role in your community and beyond? What are your hopes for this book, and for your practice?

More Life.

Let’s talk a little bit about the role of poetics and creative community in social activism. I’d be curious to hear some thoughts on the challenges we face in speaking and publishing across lines of race, age, privilege, social/cultural background, and sexuality within the community, vs. the dangers of remaining and producing in isolated “silos.”

Poetry: made of, by, and for Interbeing--across all the arcs- -throughout the allness in all its uniquenesses--celebrated openly--celebrated into existence again and again--by defiance and soulfullness and trust--today--yes. Now blesses us with its one chance and one and one again segments. Through all the messiness--the breath--thanks.

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WHY PRINT / DOCUMENT?

The Operating System uses the language “print document” to differentiate from the book-object as part of our mission to distinguish the act of documentation-in- book-FORM from the act of publishing as a backwards-facing replication of the book’s agentive *role* as it may have appeared the last several centuries of its history. Ultimately, I approach the book as TECHNOLOGY: one of a variety of printed documents (in this case, bound) that humans have invented and in turn used to archive and disseminate ideas, beliefs, stories, and other evidence of production.

Ownership and use of printing presses and access to (or restriction of printed materials) has long been a site of struggle, related in many ways to revolutionary activity and the fight for civil rights and free speech all over the world. While (in many countries) the contemporary quotidian landscape has indeed drastically shifted in its access to platforms for sharing information and in the widespread ability to “publish” digitally, even with extremely limited resources, the importance of publication on physical media has not diminished. In fact, this may be the most critical time in recent history for activist groups, artists, and others to insist upon learning, establishing, and encouraging personal and community documentation practices. Hear me out.

With The OS’s print endeavors I wanted to open up a conversation about this: the ultimately radical, transgressive act of creating PRINT /DOCUMENTATION in the digital age. It’s a question of the archive, and of history: who gets to tell the story, and what evidence of our life, our behaviors, our experiences are we leaving behind? We can know little to nothing about the future into which we’re leaving an unprecedentedly digital document trail — but we can be assured that publications, government agencies, museums, schools, and other institutional powers that be will continue to leave BOTH a digital and print version of their production for the official record. Will we?

As a (rogue) anthropologist and long time academic, I can easily pull up many accounts about how lives, behaviors, experiences — how THE STORY of a time or place — was pieced together using the deep study of correspondence, notebooks, and other physical documents which are no longer the norm in many lives and practices. As we move our creative behaviors towards digital note taking, and even audio and video, what can we predict about future technology that is in any way assuring that our stories will be accurately told – or told at all? How will we leave these things for the record? In these documents we say: WE WERE HERE, WE EXISTED, WE HAVE A DIFFERENT STORY

- Elæ [Lynne DeSilva-Johnson], Founder/Creative Director THE OPERATING SYSTEM, Brooklyn NY 2018 2019

Ark Hive-Marthe Reed I Made for You a New Machine and All it Does is Hope - Richard Lucyshyn Illusory Borders-Heidi Reszies A Year of Misreading the Wildcats - Orchid Tierney The Suitcase Tree - Filip Marinovich We Are Never The Victims - Timothy DuWhite Of Color: Poets’ Ways of Making | An Anthology of Essays on Transformative Poetics - Amanda Galvan Huynh & Luisa A. Igloria, Editors

KIN(D)* Texts and Projects

A Bony Framework for the Tangible Universe-D. Allen Opera on TV-James Brunton Hall of Waters-Berry Grass Transitional Object-Adrian Silbernagel

Glossarium: Unsilenced Texts and Translations

Śnienie / Dreaming - Marta Zelwan/Krystyna Sakowicz, (Poland, trans. Victoria Miluch) Alparegho: Pareil-À-Rien / Alparegho, Like Nothing Else - Hélène Sanguinetti (France, trans. Ann Cefola) High Tide Of The Eyes - Bijan Elahi (Farsi-English/dual-language) trans. Rebecca Ruth Gould and Kayvan Tahmasebian In the Drying Shed of Souls: Poetry from Cuba’s Generation Zero Katherine Hedeen and Víctor Rodríguez Núñez, translators/editors Street Gloss - Brent Armendinger with translations for Alejandro Méndez, Mercedes Roffé, Fabián Casas, Diana Bellessi, and Néstor Perlongher (Argentina) Operation on a Malignant Body - Sergio Loo (Mexico, trans. Will Stockton) Are There Copper Pipes in Heaven - Katrin OttarsdÓttir (Faroe Islands, trans. Matthew Landrum) 2018

An Absence So Great and Spontaneous It Is Evidence of Light - Anne Gorrick The Book of Everyday Instruction - Chloë Bass Executive Orders Vol. II - a collaboration with the Organism for Poetic Research One More Revolution - Andrea Mazzariello Chlorosis - Michael Flatt and Derrick Mund Sussuros a Mi Padre - Erick Sáenz Sharing Plastic - Blake Nemec In Corpore Sano : Creative Practice and the Challenged Body [Anthology] Abandoners - L. Ann Wheeler Jazzercise is a Language - Gabriel Ojeda-Sague Born Again - Ivy Johnson Attendance - Rocío Carlos and Rachel McLeod Kaminer Singing for Nothing - Wally Swist The Ways of the Monster - Jay Besemer Walking Away From Explosions in Slow Motion - Gregory Crosby Field Guide to Autobiography - Melissa Eleftherion

Glossarium: Unsilenced Texts and Translations

The Book of Sounds - Mehdi Navid (Farsi dual language, trans. Tina Rahimi Kawsay: The Flame of the Jungle - María Vázquez Valdez (Mexico, trans. Margaret Randall) Return Trip / Viaje Al Regreso - Israel Dominguez; (Cuba, trans. M.Randall)

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First meant “instruction” or “evidence,” whether written or not. noun - a piece of written, printed, or electronic matter that provides information or evidence or that serves as an official record verb - record (something) in written, photographic, or other form synonyms - paper - deed - record - writing - act - instrument

[Middle English, precept, from Old French, from Latin documentum, example, proof, from docre, to teach; see dek- in Indo-European roots.]

Who is responsible for the manufacture of value?

Based on what supercilious ontology have we landed in a space where we vie against other creative people in vain pursuit of the fleeting credibilities of the scarcity economy, rather than freely collaborating and sharing openly with each other in ecstatic celebration of MAKING?

While we understand and acknowledge the economic pressures and fear-mongering that threatens to dominate and crush the creative impulse, we also believe that now more than ever we have the tools to relinquish agency via cooperative means, fueled by the fires of the Open Source Movement.

Looking out across the invisible vistas of that rhizomatic parallel country we can begin to see our community beyond constraints, in the place where intention meets resilient, proactive, collaborative organization.

Here is a document born of that belief, sown purely of imagination and will. When we document we assert. We print to make real, to reify our being there. When we do so with mindful intention to address our process, to open our work to others, to create beauty in words in space, to respect and acknowledge the strength of the page we now hold physical, a thing in our hand, we remind ourselves that, like Dorothy: we had the power all along, my dears. the PRINT! DOCUMENT SERIES is a project of the trouble with bartleby in collaboration with the operating system