“A ALTERNATIVES” Directions / Mood Boards

2012 / 2013 Sally Johnson

SHOOT @ Detroit - Casino - lots of LEDs???

Think through materials for arts production - I will be making work on-site for this scene - need to have a moment of “studio” crisis.

I need to zoom into a freak out - mania followed by a confidence crumble.

PLAYLIST: Malaria! - Thrash Me Britney - Lucky <---- total mood, like RE: the music video AS Wings of Desire.

THIS IS A SUBJECT

I wake up in Hollywood. - We use Gemma’s roof - It’s a moment of reflection but also unrest - I feel as if I’ve accomplished nothing, I’m not making anything, my work isn’t working - I’ve got to pull it together.

A FEW IDEAS FOR POSSIBLE PROJECTS:

Abortion Alternatives (tentative title)

- A reality television style film about a pop star (me) deciding to use her baby as a “body work” / site of performance. - Conflict: child becomes publicity tool - child is never real

Say Maybe to the Baby

- A reality short about a woman at Planned Parenthood making a decision about what to do with her pregnancy - More topical / political / biographical / portrait-y

SOMETHING ABOUT A CHILD - arguments with anti-futurity -arguments with anti-essentialism -arguments

“He”

So, I think here I’m really wondering: WHAT IS FEMINIST ABOUT ANY OF THIS?

Ke$ha is a punk but in a detournement for dummies kind of way - like she’s a bad influence but I’m still buying her t-shirt.

Glamour might not be a useful framework here, at least not the making-avatar selfie or the mirrored hyperbole. But mimicry is real, Irigaray was right, it’s a thing.

NEXT: I want to take control of my body and use it as a prop for the work - a dance sequence

SO - I still want to be pregnant in the project. I’m thinking about “my body my choice” yeah, but also, what about pregnancy as symbol? Like a body modification? A pregnancy as accessory, a displacement device... This is the fault of aspiration, I think, a wanting for love and purpose. This is the breaking point of latent potential. But what is “choice” -?!?!!? WHO does that word belong to, really? Whose language is that?

Wanna be a great dark man, Being but a lesbian. You are perfect, you are sheer, If you are a red-haired queer.

That’s life, one dies. C’est la vie, ma cherie, But it really doesn’t matter.

No G.D.M. No great dark man No G.D.M. No great dark man

There won’t be a great dark man, If I am a red-haired queer. You are perfect, you are sheer, If you are a red-haired queer.

Tel Aviv, have a sniff. C’est la vie, ma cherie, But it really doesn’t matter.

Yellow teeth between pink lips, Eyeline shadow with a crazy look, The jewel behind the lobe of ear, Rouge on my face hides my beard, Long violet fingernails, I adore those magic tales. I don’t mind, I don’t mind.

OKAY so now’s the moment.

I have the baby on the moon.

I want the future here. I want a Hype Williams sound set I mean - I actually want the dialogue to prompt NASA as the creative director

Let’s be reasonable though and suggest that they denied and Virgin Galactic accepted for an endorsement deal. I’m on their phone plan, I could totally be the face of their space thing.

We should shoot a highly articulated dance scene in the ship before we land on the moon.

Once on the moon I think I should have the baby.

Immaculate conception / hysterical pregnancy: A gift to the world on a stage they can all see and feel.

By this time the performance should be clearly read as POP DIVA.

The baby moment is reparative, I like it, we’re both stars.

And we’re alone

I don’t think I have an actual critique. Ray of Light was the best album, It’s all Lordes.

I’m not speaking as a woman I’m not speaking AT a woman I’m speaking to the IDEA of woman