been crying for the past hour and a half. But, Nelson Diary Entry 1: introduced me to rap and he’s the reason I started I never knew I could be this sad. I just got back from a rapping. You wouldn’t be reading this if it wasn’t for funeral; it was a funeral for my uncle Ronnie. Let me tell Ijoij Ronnie, even if it was packed with all the same s**t, you you who Ronnie is first, he was my uncle but he was very wouldn’t care, your just reading this cause it’s funny when close in age to me. We were only a few months older than I get beat senseless, that’s the next page. me and he was my uncle. And at first, that’s all he was. But then we became friends, he was like my best friend I could tell him anything. He got me into music and the hip- hop life. He introduced me to rappers like LL Cool J, Nas, The 2 Live Crew, and AZ. Back then we had tapes not C.D.s so Ronnie and I would get all our favorites emcees Diary Entry 2: tapes and memorize them. Ronnie and I both liked LL Cool My mom just kicked me out AGAIN. I don’t even know J the most, we liked him a lot cause you could break what I did this time. Here’s what happened…I have a lot dance to his music. Ronnie and I would carry around a of time to write considering welcome mat and break dance anywhere to earn a little I’ll be out all night probably. So it started off yesterday bit of pocket change. We also strived to beat each other at school. Lemme’ just say Detroit schools are pretty at break dancing. That was the thing that was in at that rough. But I was in the lunch room at a table with 2 of my time so it was cool if you could break dance. Ronnie was a friends, we were all social losers. Knowing that this will huge influence on me and if it wasn’t for him I would have make the difference, we’re all white. But, we were free probably never gotten into hip hop considering I liked styling together, the kid on my left was beat-boxing for country music and the blues. a beat and the kid on my right was hitting his chest and Rest in peace to Ronnie Nelson, he died in 1992, and he drumming on the table trying to match the kid on my left. was only 19. For those of you who want to know how he I was rapping off the top of my head. I was doing good, died…he killed himself. Popped his top of with a shotgun, until some big kid walked up behind my and grabbed the funny thing is that it was an open casket funeral. I’ve Diary Entry 3: back of my head and smashed it into the table. My head I’m so damn tired! Last night was my first recording facing the table, I was drooling, and I slipped out the session with Dr. Dre. He’s pretty chill, and he knows what words “what the f**k” and he grabbed me by my shirt he’s doing. Hanging with him in the studio is great, it’s all collar and said “white boys can’t rap”. He was black, scary laidback and everybody takes their as hell, and about a foot taller than me. I punched him in time. Maybe we took too long, cause I got home at like 3 the stomach then he dropped me in a response and I A.M., but whatever. Dre just finds an old song that isn’t punched him across the face. In the end, let’s just say it even English and cuts a part from it, and calls it sampling. didn’t end up well. I got a broken rib and a bloody lip, he He works his magic, then turns it into a great beat. On got a black eye and a few cuts. I got suspended, and I the ride home from the studio, Dre and I were talking didn’t wanna tell my mom so when she figured out I was and he said I need to be a character. home, she thought I was skipping school. That was the exact opposite than I expected. This is when I noticed being a good, white rapper isn’t gonna be fail and I’m going to have to take a lot of sacrifices to make it far. But, I believe in myself and I think I can take it because thanks to being bullied for years and Proof I’m tough for a white skinny kid. Right now, I’m outside walking to the Hip Hop Shop to meet Proof, is that a good enough I need to have a specific style. I told him I imagined sacrifice? myself as a psychopath who makes listeners laugh. I freestyled a little rap of the top of my head and it was crazy and funny at the same time, when I finished Dre looked me in the eye and started cracking up. At that moment I knew I was in the path of success. My image is going to reflect over D12, because we can’t be making gangster raps and then have the white boy on the cover. people start actually noticing me and talking to me. It just doesn’t work out. So we go with rapping about What’s different from now and a month ago. What’d I drugs and the stupid s**t we can think of. We just kept get a tan? (Kidding) It just pisses me off that people pay that picture in our head of being the sick f**ks. attention to me now that I’ve made some change. I’m just the same old Marshall. What do you think if we talk for a little I’ll pay you or something? What do you get out of talking to me? But besides that, my life is growing into Diary Entry 4: something and I’ve made it this far in hell and it’s time This life is slowly getting better. I keep hearing good for the fun part! news after good news. First of all, I wanna thank Proof. About 8 months ago, he started taking me to the Hip Hop Shop everyday. I can’t believe how much it’s paid off! It made my rapping skill 100% better. Something about making fun of someone and if I did it good hearing hundreds of people saying “ohhhh” just pleases me. It Diary Entry 5: makes me feel like I’m doing something good. Anyways, I What the hell?! Hailey is only 4 years old, and I’m already just released my first album signed to Interscope dealing with the b******t of being a father. Kim and I Records, and it was more fun than it was work. It got a have been saving up a college fund for Hailey so she can lot of good feedback, which is great for my first album live a better life than mine. My life was so bad growing up basically…besides that album I made when I was 14, but I can’t even put Hailey at the same level (Kidding). But that doesn’t count. My new album is called “Slim Shady anyways, back to the college fund. We figured as parents LP” and it has sold 400,000 copies in the first 2 weeks! we got to put up with Hailey’s crap until she hits college, That’s better than the 15 copies my first album sold. A then she’s out for good. So we mine as well make it as lot has changed in such a little amount of time. I moved good as we can, right? Kim and I have been saving up for out of that s**t hole trailer to a nice apartment. Also, almost a year, and we just reached a little bit above one thousand bucks. That was the hardest money I’ve ever made. Hailey just got into preschool so we figured we’d take some change out of her college fund and take her out to dinner. So we did, it was great to see the smile on her face…especially with that pancake syrup all over her face (Laughing). We come home and what do we fricken see? The door to our piece of crap trailer kicked in. I say to Kim stay in the car so I can see what’s most valuable thing we have is the little amount of food in the fridge and Hailey’s The dream was that Hailey was 18 and she had a baby. thing we have is the little amount of food in the fridge She was in the same position as me, she couldn’t mature and Hailey’s college fund. So I check that first, I can’t down. So I was home alone with my grandson while Hailey find it!! I remembered putting it back in my mattress. was out getting smashed. It was like Deja-Vu for my mom Somebody stole it! At first, I was so pissed I was gonna (Kidding.) grab the car and go find whoever did it and kill them (Kidding).