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Volume 1 The Memoir: Bound: An Expatriate’s Journey to China and Beyond Christine Velde ii Contents Declaration PART I: THE JOURNEY: SHANGHAI .................................................................................. 5 Prologue: Memories .......................................................................................................... 6 Into the Exotic .................................................................................................................. 15 Expat Trauma ................................................................................................................... 21 Ghosting ........................................................................................................................... 37 Ghost Voice .................................................................................................................. 45 Tide Players ..................................................................................................................... 46 The Apartment .................................................................................................................. 60 Ghost Voice .................................................................................................................. 69 Homebound……………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. 72 Transitions ....................................................................................................................... 80 Anxieties ........................................................................................................................... 86 Retrospection ................................................................................................................... 94 PART II: ADELAIDE ......................................................................................................... 101 Restless ........................................................................................................................... 102 The Departure ................................................................................................................ 108 Ghost Voice ................................................................................................................ 116 Bound ............................................................................................................................. 118 Unbound ......................................................................................................................... 124 New Growth ................................................................................................................... 132 PART III: THE SHADOW JOURNEY: SHANGHAI .......................................................... 141 Introduction .................................................................................................................... 142 Early Days: 2012 ........................................................................................................... 147 The Teacher: Grace ....................................................................................................... 154 The Artist: Isla ............................................................................................................... 157 The Strategists: Sophie ................................................................................................... 163 The Strategists: Thomas ................................................................................................. 166 The Entrepreneurs: Amelia ............................................................................................ 174 The Entrepreneurs: James And Millie ........................................................................... 178 The Architect: Damian ................................................................................................... 182 The Writers: Deng .......................................................................................................... 187 Christine Velde Bound: An Expatriate’s Journey to China and Beyond iii The Writers: Liam .......................................................................................................... 190 The Writers: Siri ............................................................................................................. 194 Hong Kong And Macau .................................................................................................. 198 PART IV: THE RETURN ................................................................................................... 201 Closure ........................................................................................................................... 202 Reflections ...................................................................................................................... 207 Epilogue: Shanghai as a Catalyst and Why They Don’t Want to Go Home! ................. 211 Christine Velde Bound: An Expatriate’s Journey to China and Beyond 4 DECLARATION I certify that both components of this thesis, the memoir and the exegesis, contain no material which has been accepted for the award of any degree or diploma in any university or other tertiary institution and, to the best of my knowledge and belief, contain no material previously published or written by another person, except where due reference is made in the text. In addition, I certify that no part of this work will, in the future, be used in a submission for any other degree or diploma in any university or other tertiary institution without the prior approval of the University of Adelaide and where applicable, any partner institution responsible for the joint- award of this degree. I give consent to this thesis, when deposited in the University Library, being available for loan and photocopying, subject to the provisions of the Copyright Act, 1968. I also give permission for the digital version of my thesis to be made available on the web, via the university‟s digital research repository, the library catalogue, and also through web search engines, unless permission has been granted for the university to restrict access for a period of time. Christine Velde February 2014 Christine Velde Bound: An Expatriate’s Journey to China and Beyond 5 PART I: THE JOURNEY: SHANGHAI Christine Velde Bound: An Expatriate’s Journey to China and Beyond 6 PROLOGUE: MEMORIES Memories Songs that stop and start again, loveliest, or most tender Night, bringing a sky full of stars On the stem of memories, who doesn‟t have Two or three elegant flowers, draped with sentiments, Nameless, spreading The scent of wild lotus, Every petal a bright moon in a quiet place. (Lin Huyin, in Julia C. Lin, ed., Twentieth-Century Chinese Women’s Poetry, 2009:6) Adelaide: Summer 2012. The breeze played across my shoulders as I walked towards the Pioneer Women‟s Memorial Garden in Adelaide where the 2012 Writers‟ Festival was being held. I stopped in front of a large sandstone and bronze statue of a woman. It wasn‟t the timeless figure which attracted me, but an open book on the other side of the memorial with words carved in stone: “The hours vanish, yet are they recorded?” I found the tent I wanted and wriggled myself around on the wooden seat to get comfortable. The crowd hushed as writer Robert Dessaix began his talk: Pushing against the dark: Writing about the hidden self. He talked about the concept of “voodoo” which he explained as an “inner essence”, a “soul”, something that transcends a bodily existence in the Christine Velde Bound: An Expatriate’s Journey to China and Beyond 7 world. Dessaix said that through writing he was trying to bring hidden things to the surface by “pushing against the dark”. He did not mean our dark sides, but the darkness we feel stealing over us as we grow older, which eventually blots out those whom we have loved and those who we have been. For Dessaix, writing was an act of resistance against the fact that we are all going to die. He wrote to stave off time and nothingness. Perhaps I too was pushing against the dark to not only shed some light around my foreign experiences in my beloved Shanghai, but also to ensure that they will be remembered through the act of writing. As his talk came to a close, my tears welled up. I put on my dark sunglasses, stood up and glanced around at the crowd which was deathly quiet in the summer sun. All that could be heard was the rustling of the leafy oak trees and the sound of a church bell from the nearby cathedral. I walked steadily down King William Street to the city mall to catch a tram home to the seaside suburb of Glenelg. As I gazed up at the leafy green trees on both sides of the street, I felt giddy and my vision blurred. The tall Adelaide buildings loomed above me and seemed to merge into Shanghai skyscrapers – shimmering, dancing before my eyes. Christine Velde Bound: An Expatriate’s Journey to China and Beyond 8 I started like a person awakening from a dream when the tram pulled in to the platform. I glanced around and thankfully noted that there were relatively few passengers. I settled down into my seat and from the books in my bag pulled out one by the Chinese writer, Jianying Zha: Tide Players. As I turned the pages, my mind drifted to Shanghai in 2010: it was also summer, back then … *** Shanghai: 2010. We giggled as we jumped the fence outside the pavilion. It reminded me of being in a sheep paddock in the Adelaide Hills. Amongst the crowds of Chinese people, a mother handed an empty Coke bottle to her