ANGELS BEND CLOSER Walk on Water

ANGELS BEND CLOSER walk on water

I was standing at the back of a crowd come up my brother at the edge of the sea, a multitude come up my sister a single word come up my children a hush would fall and walk on water with me

I prayed that your gaze might fall on me I’d give anything to hear your voice that my longing might part the sea of faces to touch your hand, your hem, anything and in my misery I knelt down in hopelessness, I turned and walked away hopelessness, hopelessness come up my brother I’d give everything to feel your grace come up my sister to wash your feet, kiss your hem, anything come up my children I knelt down in thankfulness and walk on water with me and then I felt virtue flow to me

I walked away from that crowd come up my brother out along a long and dusty road come up my sister I saw a woman come up my children she was lying there in pain and walk on water again crying out to me oh, that was the night of nights but I was so absorbed I stood against the sea in my own loneliness in that strange starlight are you not my brother? I felt the wind upon my face I guess not yet I thought I heard my name oh, to turn back the hands of time I thought I heard our names I’m drowning in my shame living statue duet with k.d. lang let me be a living statue as you flowed through those before me holding all that life does send now I separate my rings let me be a living statue I consider this the lily knowing when to brace or bend I accept all that this brings the eye within the hurricane facing fully to the wind the spire within the spiraling storm not turning from the hardest parts a gauge of love’s eternal promise let me be a living statue whispered through each dawning morn fearless, though my pounding heart let me be a living statue let me be a living statue stark against indifference holding all that life does send let all life move through me freely let all life move me freely joy and sorrow joy and sorrow pure, intense pure, intense let me know the faith let my blessings simply be that knows no bounds to know each moment blessing me no meager-more my chosen sound let me be a living statue the sound of exultation a pillar of love’s firmament ever-upward countenance let me be a living statue though the jagged winds despair holding all that life does send to ever rise above the sound let me be a living statue so the human soul in rising up knowing when to brace or bend still panics that we’ll drown let my blessings simply be to know each moment blessing me and let me be a living statue holding all that life does send dante baby baby, baby baby baby baby baby, baby baby baby you went home for Thanksgiving and when you reached the subway braced for the darkness you stumbled up the stairs of the disconnected life confused by a different kind of pain braced for the attacks from the easy chair you drifted toward the track and when it was time to leave and no one had your back you went to say goodbye but the angels pressed a flash went up your spine through the frightened crowd instead you said, no one, no one someone screamed, a baby cried nobody, nobody no one told you, no one told you no one ever taught you but you know but somehow you’ve always known baby baby, baby baby may you never be so alone again may the subway tracks rise up and as you went to leave and throw you back to friends he half rose up from his easy chair and tiny flames licked the walls may you feel the angels and up your mother’s calves bend closer a storm was comin when you call and you better get out of there fast may you see your own beauty you went to say goodbye as you see in us all a flash went up your spine instead you said I thank you but beyond all this, beyond all this for the things you sacrificed the nobleness of gristle he tried to curse you the magnificent of grist but instead he begged forgiveness and you held him as he cried there’s just one thing you need recall you are the rage of a lion and it is this in a cage at night you always have and always will be well the roar of a mother bringing her baby back to life in my dream

I’m running along with my father I’m running along with my sister he’s running like a boy our pigtails flying free we’re running along in slow motion we’re racing ahead and he falls in the leaves of our sweet baby brother like a child strong and free there is joy on our faces in my dream we are sure of our places in my dream in my dream in my dream I’m running along with my mother she’s laughing like a girl and the dog runs ahead of us she’s telling me about always almost-out-of-sight all her hopes and dreams pulling us further there is light in her eyes into the golden autumn light she is open, she is wise a lighthouse for the family in my dream following that sweet familiar tail in my dream pulling us closer on the troubled family trail in my dream it’s October and the leaves are floating down I’m running along with my family like tiny yellow boats we’re running through the leaves each finding we’re running along in slow motion their own unique, particular way we are happy, we are laughing to the ground no one’s missing we are holy in my dream in my dream in my dream we are holy in my dream positively beautiful if I ever see you again positively beautiful I will make sure that I say to you beautifully positive I’m so grateful to know you, my friend positively astonishingly so grateful to walk this earth with you inspiringly beautiful

I saw you when you were broken if ever I see you again I saw you when you were down I will make sure that I say to you I saw you pick yourself up and turn your life around that I love you in the morning to positively, beautifully and in the afternoon make a joyful sound I love you in the evening I marvel, I amazed be and underneath the moon but most of all, I love you if I ever see you again for wanting to see true I will make sure that I say to you I marvel, I amazed be my life was a leaf in the wind ‘til I saw what was possible with you if I ever see you again I will say all these things I saw you when you were broken with a single rose I saw you when you were down dear, dear friend I saw you pick yourself up and turn your life around to positively, beautifully make a joyful sound I marvel, I amazed be anytime the hardest thing and in your darkest hour I’ve ever done I will always be nearby was to stand back through Love’s power when I wanted to run after your tiny, unprotected back I’ll always be here but stand back I must I’ll always be here as you learn to trust I’ll always be here your wings for you your heart someday when I’m long gone anytime anytime that you want me I’ll still always be here I’ll always be here somehow … anytime anytime that you need me I’ll always be here maybe in the wind or maybe in the rain and in your darkest hour or maybe in a song I will always be nearby or maybe in the sunshine through Love’s power the beauty of a rose a feather falling near you anytime anytime that you call me the kindness of a stranger I’ll always be here to show that I hear you anytime anytime that you miss me I’ll always be here I will always I will always be here for you always morag oh darlin’ … but the wondrous thing is oh darlin’, the gift of your sensitivity and as we learn to do such things help is everywhere is truly a gift with all our heart and soul and might arise from your mossy bed and it comes in the strangest of ways though you’ll be told with the intensity of single sight leave your lichen dreams behind so poetic and poignant is the fare it is a weakness, a handicap we’ll see things we’ve never seen before the deer have left clear trails for you to find like in springtime in fact, you’ll be the sound of the ocean they say we will do this and much more lift the bough to the left when peeper frogs before we see it we will have the healing hands press the bough to the right rise from the mud (you’ll keep us safe and on track) to help the ones we love today has something special for you they’re happy, they’re laughing but this also means which will be every living thing they’re calling for love at the top of their lungs you’ll be standing in the village square oh darlin’, there’s a man a-knocking like you thought you never could feeling nauseous and deaf oh darlin, only touch the things that turn you on on your door at midnight most days and they did instead you’ll just be picking up what’s left let whatever makes you dark and he’s a handsome stranger with lots of wisdom healing is in the air after all the hangings that took place there dull and drained be gone and he’s come to help you on your way even if people criticize and say you’re wrong life is a precious ring given to us by love oh my darlin, when things don’t make sense oh my darlin’, you have so to polish and shine with all we learn when things feel desperate and insane this makes for a life that’s beautiful and bright much love ahead of you with all we earn all beauty doomed a life that shines with your own light somedays you’ll feel like you can fly like perhaps forgiving others and remember the choice a life where you wake up everyday or like Hercules standing against the azure sky getting on with loving ourselves instead that’s always yours to make excited to be up and on your way and other days you’ll feel like and shining will be the eyes of your friends in the blink of an eye, the all-seeing eye you don’t have the will to carry on holding your perfection when you can’t you can choose to change and that makes for a love of this world to carry out your dreams when you recant your soul coal into diamonds where separation has no place you’ll choke on truth and descend into darkness with compassion and love is replaced by the sound of bells and your body will get sick instead on your way to the miracle of spring and greater understanding instead … and wings, and the upsweep to grace

oh darlin’, there’s a man a-knockin’ on your door at midnight these days mama hereby mama, are you listening? don’t worry about my health or my weight please put your tea towel down my body is just fine this is the most important thing I’ve ever said don’t worry about what other I love you as my mother people think of me I love you as no other just laugh about my ways but the pain we cause each other is killing me and be glad that I have faith and for what time is left can we hereby agree let’s just enjoy each other’s company with love and dignity from now on my life is fine let us hereby agree and you are free with love and dignity you know, anytime you come to me with love from now on my life is fine my arms will always be open and you are free all the times I lay my head upon your lap don’t cry, mama your hand upon my forehead brought such comfort this is not goodbye such treasured memories not at all as are so many still try, mama but across this kitchen table words are hurting be light, mama like with your friends, mama can we hereby agree be light with me too with love and dignity from now on my life is fine you know, anytime you come to me and you are free with love (or not) you know, anytime you come to me with love my arms will always always always my arms will always be open my arms will always be open to you geranium

I don’t remember a box I don’t remember a bow I don’t remember a bow I do remember a box I do remember the box much smaller than you a gunnel when you were born ribs your father stumbling once thump of paddle carrying your box across the lawn

I do remember women’s voices I do remember the minister’s shoes and being carried across the water and a lawn-mower nearby shoreline a drop of dew white pine geraniums ravens and the crumpled kleenex wilderness in my mother’s hand beside

I don’t remember where I was I don’t remember where I was when I first was lifted up when I first was lifted up I don’t remember where I was I don’t remember who I was when I first held the cup when I first held the cup I only know that you were there I only know that you were there I looked into your eyes I looked into your eyes and there I saw a world so … and there I saw a world so beautiful so full of love and hardship, too I held my breath and with the breath of God I came rushing through hide not your light beyond plus one the first time I saw you I love you, yes I do the waving hands as the train arrives you would not stop to talk I love everything about you the silent awe of a brand new life your fierce determination I love how you laugh in your sleep the wagging tail of a little friend was going to get you to the top how you smell of roses when you weep oh, all the precious things we love plus one then the mountain became I love your style as a blade of grass your wide-open prairie smile beyond beyond beyond lowering you to the delphin sea hide not your light under a bushel beyond beyond beyond can one’s heart can one’s heart break the last time I saw you the rescued worm in the April shower can one’s heart break you’d changed your name to Liberty the perfect shell from the robin’s bower even as it bursting be? your fierce determination the ancient tree watching o’er the home as you twisted to break free oh, all the precious things we love plus one I love you, yes I do and when you finally unfurled in glorious victory I love everything about you can one’s heart beyond beyond beyond I love how you laugh in your sleep can one’s heart break beyond beyond beyond how you smell of roses when you weep can one’s heart break and the sweet and sad of our mortal toil I love your style even as it bursting be? become the lights of our mortal coil your wide-open prairie smile lighting your way ‘til day is done hide not your light under a bushel I love you, yes I do I love everything about you the out bound train as it rounds the bend the next time I saw you what you might consider a weakness or a flaw the silent room when the music ends I saw that you had changed we consider uniqueness, real and right for you the wagging tail ‘til the very end you’d pulled the darkness ’round you we love your style oh, all the precious things we love plus one and hid yourself away your wide-open prairie smile liquified by ancient tides hide not your light under a bushel… beyond beyond beyond you waited quietly beyond beyond beyond can one’s heart someday you might oh, all the precious things can one’s heart break need your own light we love plus one can one’s heart break to see even as it bursting be? all the precious things hide not your light under a bushel we love plus one everything you knew as a child

you’re sitting in a cafe, feelin’ good, havin’ fun everything that you love you’re watching a tiny sparrow everything that you trust hopping on the table everything beautiful and you’re feeding it some crumbs you look up and see someone watching you as you knew in the beginning with disgust and fake hygienic fear so you shall know once again you knock the table over as you stand up saying as you finally overturn the tables it’s just a sparrow of the press of throng in the temple within is there anyone sane around here? there’s a fire building inside you burning off dross and straightening everything you knew was good and true out the track when you were just a child you’re starting to hear music again it hasn’t gone away and when you lose your taste for salt everything you knew was right to do you won’t look back when you were just a child it hasn’t gone away everything you knew was good and true when you were just a child we watched you catch your first fish it hasn’t gone away and then we watched you cry everything you knew was right to do we watched you make a wish for the world when you were just a child as you freed a butterfly it hasn’t gone away then you closed your beautiful forehead everything you knew was good and true and opened up your book of life when you were just a child trying on the clothes of being it hasn’t gone away a rebel, leader, conformist, pleaser, victim everything you knew was right to do just tryin’ to get it right when you were just a child it’s just been waiting for you everything you knew was good and true when you were just a child it hasn’t gone away it’s just been waiting for you everything you knew was right to do when you were just a child it hasn’t gone away send me someone to love send me someone send me someone send me someone send me someone send me someone to love send me someone to love someone whose kiss I could understand someone who won’t become immune and who would understand mine to my charm over time someone whose hips I could understand someone whose first strength and who would understand the rhythm of mine is the strength of their spine someone who understands the power someone who won’t mind of making love divine a ménage-a-trois send me someone to love you and me and God for God is great, God is good in bed send me someone send me someone send me someone send me someone to love send me someone send me someone someone whose lips I could understand tonight and who would understand the language of mine someone whose silence I could understand and who could understand the love within mine someone who cares more for seeing true than wanting to be right send me someone to love great train you know, when the great train when all sisters and brothers of freedom comes stand together no one will be left behind against separation from each other not the least of sparrows when in all living things we can hear nor those on their darkest flight the angels sing all shall be lifted up into the light when we know, really know that love is everything and the stable doors will open and from cages bird will fly and the butterfly flies between and the animals will talk to us like they used to buildings bright not like this across the empty lots and through the like THIS barbed wire then up towards the snowy mountain pass when the great train of freedom comes holding holding when every village bell starts to ring like THIS when every whistle blows in the valleys below like THIS when people look up listening when in all living things and angels shall enter the building we can hear the angels sing with music on their lips when we know, really know placing stars on our foreheads like a kiss that love is everything not like this like THIS you know, this great train of freedom has come a long, long way when the great train of freedom comes over a long, long time when wealth will be who you are right to where we stand not what you have here when common sense will guide instead of fear together when we can stand today with honesty and love before the mirror DANTE (4:36) Lief Mosbaugh: oboe backing vocals Christine Kim: cello (choruses) Ali Hughes: Curt Bisquera: drums Jane: vocals, keyboards, David Travers-Smith: e-flat peck Jocelyn Barth: backing vocals Kevin Fox: cello (verses) David Travers-Smith: bass musicians organ, guitar horns, keyboard bass, moog at Ken Myhr: electric guitars David Travers-Smith: trumpets, (keyboard), solina, drum WALK ON WATER (6:20) Larry Tuttle: electric bass beginning, percussion Larry Treadwel: electric guitar flugelhorns, e-flat peck horns, programming (chorus) Jane: vocals, piano, organ, nylon Curt Bisquera: drums Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual Drew Jurecka: violin keyboard programming for vox Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual guitar, drum loops, bells Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual instruments Rebekah Wolkstein: violin continental, drums instruments Rebecca Jenkins: backing vocals instruments Brandon Chui: viola Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual Ali Hughes: backing vocals MORAG (6:55) Amy Laing: cello instruments SEND ME SOMEONE David Ramsden: backing vocals IN MY DREAM (6:21) Jane: vocals, piano Lief Mosbaugh: oboe TO LOVE (4:05) Jocelyn Barth: backing vocals Jane: vocals, piano, nylon guitar Rebecca Jenkins: backing vocals David Travers-Smith: e-flat peck BEYOND PLUS ONE (3:57) Jane: vocals, piano John MacArthur Ellis: Pauline Kim: viola Ali Hughes: backing vocals horns, keyboard bass, moog at Jane: vocals, piano, organ, guitar, John MacArthur Ellis: electric, steel guitars Christine Kim: cello Kevin Fox: cello, acoustic guitar beginning, percussion background vocals pedal steel Rich Moore: bass David Travers-Smith: trumpets, Elijah Abrams: bass Curt Bisquera: drums Pauline Kim: violin, viola Pauline Kim: violin, viola manitoba maple-tag shakers Larry Tuttle: electric bass GERANIUM (4:37) Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual Christine Kim: cello Christine Kim: cello Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual Rich Moore: bass harmonics Jane: 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Erin Gorfain) percussion instruments Ali Hughes: vocals Jocelyn Barth: backing vocals LIVING STATUE (5:02) Mark Goldenberg: acoustic guitar Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual Mary Margaret O’hara: backing Chris Bilton: piano (the Jane: vocals Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual instruments HIDE NOT YOUR vocals beautifully played last verse) k.d. lang: vocals instruments Bells: St. Paul’s, London (on Jane LIGHT (5:22) Maria Doyle Kennedy: backing Ken Myhr: electric guitars Rebecca Jenkins, Ali Hughes, Jennifer Condos: electric bass and Gwyllym’s walk) Jane: vocals; piano vocals Drew Jurecka: violin Maria Doyle Kennedy, Jocelyn Curt Bisquera: drums (chorus) Ali Hughes: vocals Jocelyn Barth: backing vocals Rebekah Wolkstein: violin Barth: backing vocals at end Jay Bellerose: drums MAMA HEREBY (6:35) Rebecca Jenkins: vocals Ken Myhr: electric, acoustic Brandon Chui: viola Ken Myhr: electric guitars Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual Jane: vocals, piano, keyboard, Maria Doyle Kennedy: vocals guitars Amy Laing: cello (strum, pedalled) instruments pizzicato strings, nylon guitar k.d. lang: vocals Kevin Breit: acoustic, electric Lief Mosbaugh: oboe Kevin Breit: electric guitar Pauline Kim: violin, viola Mary Margaret O’hara: vocals wah guitars Aubrey Dayle: drums (melodic) ANYTIME (5:09) ballad Christine Kim: cello David Ramsden, Hallie and Larry Treadwel: 12 string Curt Bisquera: drums Joe Phillips: acoustic bowed bass Jane: vocals, piano, hammond, James Roe: oboe Jacob Switzer, Hannah electric guitar David Travers-Smith: trumpets, Drew Jurecka: violin nylon and electric rhythm guitars David Travers-Smith: e-flat Bussiere: additional vocals Rich Moore: bass (verse) flugelhorns, e-flat peck horns, Rebekah Wolkstein: violin Rebecca Jenkins: backing vocals peck horns Ken Myhr: electric guitar Larry Tuttle: electric bass keyboard bass, cymbal swells, Brandon Chui: viola Ali Hughes: backing vocals Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual Rich Moore: bass Drew Jurecka: violin moog bass part in verse 5,6, Amy Laing: cello Jocelyn Barth: backing vocals instruments Kevin Breit: mandolin, mandola Rebekah Wolkstein: violin phone bells David Travers-Smith: trumpets, Ken Myhr: electric guitars John MacArthur Ellis: mandolin, Brandon Chui: viola Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual e-flat peck horns Drew Jurecka: violin ANYTIME (4:08) R&B ukulele, 12-string, classical Amy Laing: cello instruments Carolyn Fazio: synths, virtual Rebekah Wolkstein: violin Jane: vocals, piano, hammond, John Switzer: tambourine Lief Mosbaugh: oboe crickets: God instruments Brandon Chui: viola nylon and electric rhythm guitars Pauline Kim: viola Aubrey Dale: drums (verses) Amy Laing: cello Rebecca Jenkins: backing vocals WORDS AND MUSIC THANK YOU Jane Siberry dellamarie parrilli for egging me on with your positivity and huge PRODUCTION Jane Siberry talent; michael verdick for such fine and final work. 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