Disidentifications Among Racialized, Ethnicized, and Colonized Allosexual Activists in Montreal
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“Between Rage and Love” “Between Rage and Love”: Disidentifications Among Racialized, Ethnicized, and Colonized Allosexual Activists in Montreal Alan Wong A Thesis In the School of Graduate Studies Presented in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirements For the Degree of Doctor of Philosophy (Special Individualized Program) Concordia University Montreal, Quebec, Canada July 2013 ©Alan Wong, 2013 “Between Rage and Love” CONCORDIA UNIVERSITY SCHOOL OF GRADUATE STUDIES This is to certify that the thesis prepared By: Alan Wong Entitled: “Between Rage and Love”: Disidentifications Among Racialized, Ethnicized, and Colonized Allosexual Activists in Montreal and submitted in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the degree of Doctor of Philosophy (Special Individualized Program) complies with the regulations of the University and meets the accepted standards with respect to originality and quality. Signed by the final examining committee: Dr. Alan Nash Chair Dr. Kirsten Emiko McAllister External Examiner Dr. Rachel Berger External to Program Dr. Steven High Examiner Dr. Daniel Salée Examiner Dr. Edward Little Examiner Dr. Yasmin Jiwani Thesis Supervisor Approved by Dr. Brad Nelson Graduate Program Director May 3, 2013 Dr. Brian Lewis Dean of Faculty of Arts and Science “Between Rage and Love” iii ABSTRACT “Between Rage and Love”: Disidentifications Among Racialized, Ethnicized, and Colonized Allosexual Activists in Montreal Alan Wong, Ph.D. Concordia University, 2013 This dissertation is an interdisciplinary analysis of activists in contemporary Montreal whose bodies are marked by the intersections of sexuality, race, ethnicity, colonization, gender, and class. I apply José Esteban Muñoz’s theory of disidentification, as read through Giorgio Agamben’s conceptualization of “whatever being,” to life story interviews collected from eight activists as well as to my own life narrative in order to interrogate and explore our construction of singular spaces—disidentificatory spaces— for ourselves. Within these spaces, we discover meaningful ways to belong without subjecting ourselves to the discursive demands of identification or non-identification. By focusing my study on three institutional aspects of our lives—family, citizenship, and activism—I show how our histories provide us with citations that disrupt the dominant narratives that aim to structure our lives in increasingly invasive, oppressive, and violent ways. In this respect, Montreal is an intriguing site for such disruptions to take place: a multicultural city in the North/West built on colonized land wherein sexual rights and freedoms commingle with language and nationalist politics to become a constant source of tension among its denizens. Thus, I argue that an expression of affect and emotion produced within a disidentifactory space is vital for minoritized subjects to negotiate this messiness, for disidentification itself is a messy process. I conclude by demonstrating that engaging with this messy process is necessary to the production of new forms of sociality, laying the path to a hopeful future that Muñoz calls “queer utopia.” “Between Rage and Love” iv Acknowledgements This tome is the product of eight years of blood, sweat, tears, and maniacal laughter, and I would not have survived the experience were it not for some key figures in my life. First and foremost, I must thank my friend and Ph.D. supervisor Yasmin Jiwani, who endured many a whiny phone call from me and often let me get away with murder. My other committee members—Steven High, Ted Little, and Daniel Salée—as well as my other professors at Concordia—Lori Beaman, Bina Freiwald, Lorna Roth, Viviane Namaste, and Terri Lituchy—also have my undying gratitude for steering me through my courses and helping me to formulate my ideas for this project. On the administrative end, Darlene Dubiel cannot receive enough praise from me; she has been the bedrock of the Special Individualized Program from day one of my journey. To me, she is the epitome of patience and calm. Thanks also go to each of the four directors of the SIP during my time in the program: Nina Howe, Monica Mulrennan, Brad Nelson, and especially David Howes, who went above and beyond helping me to secure funding to get me through my studies. As well, Kimberley Manning deserves mention for a last-minute book recommendation that is helping me to think more concretely about some of the underlying themes in my work. Also, I would be remiss if I did not mention the contributions of Rachel Berger and Kirsten Emiko McAllister, who helped save my defense day at the eleventh hour by accepting to be my external examiners. With respect to my friends, I must express my appreciation to Sorouja Moll for her proofreading help and to Renata Militzer for assisting me with my transcriptions of the French interviews. With regards to emotional support, in addition to the people I just mentioned, a gigantic shout-out goes to Ed Lee, Dana Salter, Ainsley Jenicek, Lena “Between Rage and Love” v Palacios, Erin Jessee, Anna Sheftel, Graeme Williams, Stacey Zembrzycki, Kenza Oumlil, Michelle Aguayo, Krista Riley, Mariam Esseghaier, Wai-Yant Li, Valeria Contreras, Elisha Lim, Nada Raphaël, Joëlle Sfeir, Rachel Jean-Pierre, Vanessa Dorvily, Kimura Byol, Alexis Musanganya, Evangeline Caldwell, Jaideep Mallick, Jeffrey Kushner, Riyas Fadel, Arshad Khan, Eloisa Aquino, Jenny Lin, Von Lark, Nisha Sajnani, Lucy Lu, Paul Gareau, Joliane Allaire, Warren Linds, Mira Rosenberg, Lisa Ndejuru, Catherine Dajczman, Laura Mora, Deb Simon, David Ward, Gada Mahrouse, Caroline Kunzle, Shirley Roburn, Janik Bastien, Mona Greenbaum, Remy Nasser, Sam Khoury, Aziz Choudry, Coco Riot, Siân Jones, Rachel Jones, Marna Pihl, David Oyagi, and Doug Bonnett. Having family around in Montreal has been critical to keeping me sane, thus thank you Aunt Claire, Uncle Warren, Aunt Mary, Uncle Don, Cyn, Rob, and especially Karen. Big Uncle Al hugs for Vicki, Alanna, Dan, Jared, Kienan, Melanie, and Shelby. Love to my sisters Jean, Pauline, Gail, and Debbie. And of course, I wouldn’t be here without my parents, so I hope I have done them proud. I dedicate this work to them. Finally, I would like to express my indebtedness to all the narrators who shared their life stories with me for this project. Although the majority of you ultimately didn’t make it into the final written product, my conversations with you were rewarding on so many levels, and you have definitely made me feel like I am part of a fantastic community. “Between Rage and Love” vi Table of Contents List of Figures…………………………………………………………………….....vii List of Acronyms…………………………………………………………………….vii Chapter One Introduction: Belonging, With a Difference.………………..1 Chapter Two Performing Belonging: Towards a Disidentificatory Space...9 Chapter Three Listen and Learn: Familiarity, Feeling, and the Intimate Insider in the Life Story Interview………....39 Chapter Four Family Disidentifications…………………………………....80 Chapter Five Citizenship Disidentifications Part A: Myths of Citizenship………………………...113 Part B: Stories of Lived Citizenship…………………150 Chapter Six Activism Disidentifications………………………………….198 Chapter Seven The Past, the Present, and the Future: A Utopian Conclusion……………………………….248 References…………………………………………………………………………...254 Appendix A: Sample Consent Form for Narrators………………………………….288 Appendix B: Interview Guide for Project…………………………………………...290 Appendix C: Resource List for Narrators…………………………………………...292 Appendix D: Interview Schedule……………………………………………………293 Appendix E: Ethics Certificate……………………………………………………....298 “Between Rage and Love” vii List of Figures Figure 1: GLAM poster project “Together Under One Roof……………………….214 List of Acronyms CQGL……….Conseil québécois des gais et lesbiennes GLAM………LGBTQ Asians of Montreal (formerly Gay & Lesbian Asians of Montreal) LGBTQ……..Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transsexual/Transgender, Queer LHE…………Living Histories Ensemble QAIA………..Queers Against Israeli Apartheid QPOC……….Queer People of Colour REC…………Racialized, Ethnicized, and Colonized “Between Rage and Love” 1 Chapter One Introduction: Belonging, With a Difference Anecdotes are the lifeblood of the community. Yasmin Jiwani (personal conversation) What the map cuts up, the story cuts across. Michel de Certeau (1984, p. 129) Montreal is in my blood. My family’s presence in this city dates back three generations, when both my paternal grandmother’s father and my maternal grandfather’s father left their respective villages in Toisan,1 one of the poorest areas in China at the time, to make what was surely a treacherous journey across the vast waters of the Pacific and the varied landscapes of Canada to arrive at their ultimate destination, Montreal. Although I was born in the heart of the Ottawa Valley, I view this as something of a temporal fluke; if my mother had waited a mere month longer before moving from Montreal to join my father in the tiny town of Deep River, Ontario, then I would be calling the former, rather than the latter, my place of birth. While I spent many a vacation in Montreal as a child, it was not until I attended McGill—the larger of the city’s two Anglophone universities—for my undergraduate studies that I was able to gain a sense of what it was like to live here over a sustained 1 Also known as Taishan in Mandarin, this area is part of region in China called Szeyap. The dialect, Toisanese, is a “sub-variety of Cantonese” (Leung, 2010, p. 38). “Between Rage and Love” 2 period of time. In short, I was hooked. I steeped myself in the romanticism