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------Date: 2002-11-17 22:14:00 Subject: Green Party

Why the Greens are also celebrating Election '02 (Buoyed by a handful of grass-roots victories, the Green Party claims the midterms showed the hollowness of its Democratic rival.)By Michelle Goldberg, in Salon.

Nov. 18, 2002 | Republicans aren't the only ones feeling validated by the 2002 elections. For many Green Party leaders, the Democrats' defeat and the conventional wisdom explaining it confirm criticisms they've been making about the Democratic Party for years -- that it lacks backbone and has betrayed its progressive base.

"There's no question that [the] election results demonstrate the structural weaknesses that the Democratic Party has," says Ben Mansky, co-chair of the Green Party steering committee. "It's dependent on corporate money for financing, and therefore the leadership is unable to deliver the political agenda that so many progressives expect." Some pundits are calling on Democrats to reenergize their activist base, but parts of that base may have already defected.

After the messy 2000 election, some liberal Democrats hoped Greens would guiltily defect, or return, to the Democratic Party. There is no evidence that happened. "There were no prominent people who switched or major debates about strategy," says Green Party political coordinator Dean Myerson.

Instead, the party has grown, posting small but significant victories in the midterm elections.

------Date: 2002-12-12 12:31:00 Subject: Trent Lott

When I first heard the news of Trent Lott making a snafu at Strom's birthday bash, I was willing to give him the benefit of the doubt. After all, I've put my foot in my mouth on more occasions than I care to remember.

However, on further examination, FAIR, I agree with those who support his stepping down from the majority leader position.

User Comments:

MaryAnn ------The Daily Show had the best take on this: hey, he only says these things every 22 years. He's like the Halley's Comet of bigotry. Yaga http://www.journalscape.com/yaga ------Apparently he said almost the exact same thing back in 80 when he and Strom were stumping for Reagan. Regardless of whatever apology he makes, I'd have a hard time accepting it until he also explains exactly what he meant by "all these problems" we seem to be in.

Kenny http://www.journalscape.com/kenny/ ------That's pretty harsh.. I mean, he may have been trying to convey a different feeling or thought, but seriously a politician should think before saying kind words about a racist.

------Date: 2002-12-13 09:19:00 Subject: Barney Cam

I always watch C-Span in the mornings. I think Washington Journal is one of the best shows around, because the people running it do their darndest not to feature their point of view, but rather let the viewer decide. Fox News could take some lessons as they brag "we report...you decide"...yeah right!

Anyway, Fridays are always my favorite WJ day as Brian Lamb hosts the show most times that day. Today, he had an assortment of subjects, but my favorite was his feature about the Barney Cam. If you haven't already, check it out! a small camera attached to Barney, President Bush's dog.

------Date: 2002-12-16 09:13:00 Subject: Al Gore

I was really surprised by Al Gore's announcement last night that he's not running for president in 2004. I assumed that his book tour and recent vocal opposition to the policies of the current administration were a preface to the inevitable - that there would be a rematch of 2000.

Now, this seems to open up the field, and I'm hoping that the Dems that are considering a run for it will focus on the issues and not "eat their own" so to speak.

And did anyone catch Al on SNL? He was pretty good, I think. I was a little disappointed that Darrell Hammond didn't go one on one (playing Gore) with Gore. But the West Wing sketch was funny (and sad), the Stuart Smalley bit was good as always, and I really liked the Hardball bit!

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Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Yeah, the skits with Al Gore were pretty funny. But the Weekend Update, the other skits, and Phish all stunk. So are you pumped yet?

Lieberman in 2004!

or, um...

Gephardt in 2004! Yay!

or how about:

Kerry in 2004! Woo-hoo!

No, I guess none of those sound all that great...

------Date: 2002-12-16 10:31:00 Subject: Good Cause, Bad Website

I have a friend who bases his opinion on an issue, in some part and probably a major part, by the quality of their website. When I was trying to get him to look at the Green candidates in the last election, he complained about the Green Party website...it just didn't match up to the bells and whistles that the Dems and Reps had on theirs.

My question to him...how do grass roots organizations have a chance if everyone felt this way?

Being in the web development business, I can understand that it doesn't take a huge amount of brains to develop a good website. On the other hand, my expertise in doing this may be matched equally by someone who doesn't know a thing about HTML, but has all the facts on an important issue of the day. The more I learn, in fact, I want to almost run the other way when I see a fancy, Madison Avenue type site trying to get my $$$$s, my votes, or my mind!

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Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------This isn't about the topic at hand, but about this journal in general. I think it's awesome that you are keeping this kind of journal and I look forward to reading it!

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------All right, dammit...my ears were burning.

I don't judge the worthiness of a cause or candidate on how pretty their website is. I was complaining about the content of the site.

If you recall, I said that the national Green Party site is well-organized and informative, unlike their Texas pages or especially, the pages for the Texas candidates. I thought they were severely lacking in substantive content, stuff like, oh...where the candidates stood on issues affecting Texans.

So don't go paintin' me with that brush, sister. I'll be watching. ;)

Kenny http://www.journalscape.com/kenny/ ------It's unfortunate that the website makes people feel that way, but I can understand. If you saw a candidate (let's assume for this example it's a guy) and he was wearing dirty pants and his hair was messed up and he didn't speak English properly, you wouldn't vote for him. I guess it's kind of the same with the website, like if the person didn't care enough to present themselves in a nice fashion to the voters, then do I really want them representing us to the world?

I'm split on the issue though, it really should be about substance.. however, impressions are a strong human reaction.

------Date: 2002-12-18 08:36:00 Subject: Frida

It may be too early for me to declare my favorite movie of the year, what with some blockbusters coming out shortly. I also didn't see too many movies this past year...not as many as I would have liked, anyway.

But I'll have to say that my personal favorite as of right now is also on AFIs list so I don't feel too off base.

The movie I enjoyed the most of the ones I saw this past year was Frida. It may have been, in part, because when Luke & I were in NYC in September attending the New Yorker Festival, we were able to see Julie Taymor. In my opinion she's a genius! Soon after seeing her speak, we went to see The Lion King at the New Amsterdam. Again, I was overwhelmed. I'm not that much into musicals, but this was way beyond that.

Given my newly found admiration of Taymor's work, I was very anxious to see Frida, and I'll have to say that I wasn't let down. The performances were fantastic! The story was interesting! And, once again, I was bowled over by Taymor's ability to bring art to life!

Of the upcoming movies, though, I'll have to say that About Schmidt might make me change my mind. Jack Nicholson's always a favorite with me.

But at the end of the day (year), I'm thinking I'll still like Frida best!

User Comments:

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Yeah, I hate musicals too.

Selma Hayek, on the other hand, is hot and spicy, no matter how many eyebrows she has.

Still, I'm content to wait for it on video.

Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------I still haven't seen Frida, though I certainly want to. I too enjoyed Julie Taymor. It's easy to tell that she is very talented and pasionate at what she does. I also am not too interested in musicals, but I was blown away by the Lion King.

As far as a favorite movie of the year, well, that is hard to say. I will have to get back to you on that.

------Date: 2002-12-19 08:30:00 Subject: Yahoo Person of the Year?

This blog is not so much about the winner of the Yahoo Person of the Year but rather about the other nominees.

Now I know that this is not scientific, and it was just a poll conducted by people who access Yahoo, but really...these are the only people that they could come up with???

1. Barry Bonds

2. Britney Spears

3. Colin Powell

4. Eminem

5. George W. Bush

6. Howard Stern

7. J. K. Rowling

8. Kofi Annan

9. The Osbourne Family

10. Serena Williams

Maybe I'm just too much into world affairs to take 1,2,4,6,7,9 and 10 seriously, but I'm wondering...am I that far out of touch?

Like I said, I'm not disagreeing with the top choice all that much. I'm just hoping that Time Magazine doesn't let me down and that they have a better slate of candidates to choose from.

User Comments:

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Yeah, I think it was a good choice, too.

Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------Time didn't let me down for Person of the Year 2002!

Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Yeah, hopefully Time Magazine won't do what they did last year and give it to someone like Rudy Gulliana. That was a mistake if I have ever seen one.

It's almost like the person of the year is "who has had their name in the most headlines" or something like that. I don't know, I am just rambling here.

Kenny http://www.journalscape.com/kenny/ ------Alright, JournalScape Person of the Year.... here we go. :)

Matthew ------I think Reese Witherspoon should be the person of the year. EVERYONE loves Reese.

-matt

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------I'm just wondering why Yahoo is doing a "Person of the Year".

Wouldn't it be perfect for them to have a vote for "Yahoo of the Year"?

------Date: 2002-12-24 14:14:00 Subject: Jill's Rules of Reading

I just watched a recent taped episode of Charlie Rose and he was interviewing Elmore Leonard. In the interview, Mr. Leonard talked about Elmore's Rules of Writing. Although I don't consider him to be the best writer ever by any stretch, I found his rules pretty interesting.

It got me to thinking, since I don't write all that much, but I love to read, maybe I should come up with my own list.

So here goes....

Jill's Rules of READING

1. Never get in bed with a book...it'll last longer than you will.

2. Never buy a book under 200 pages...after all, you can finish it on 4 good visits and 6 lattes at Borders.

3. Never read while walking your dogs...dumpsters have a way of popping up in your path and the bruise is ugly.

4. Never expect that when you loan out a book, that you'll ever see it again.

5. Likewise, when someone loans you a book, it's yours!

6. Never read a book with Fabio (or someone who looks like Fabio) on the cover.

7. Never read a book of the movie, after you've seen the movie. It's a waste of time.

8. Audiobooks, even the unabridged ones, are not as good as reading the book, but they do serve a purpose on those dull commutes or jogs. 9. Don't assume that just because a book is on the bestseller list that it has to be good (e.g. JOURNALS, by Kurt Cobain).

10. A good library nearby (if you use it) is a lot more valuable than a college education, and much cheaper.

Happy reading!

User Comments:

Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------Yeah, and I also realized that reading a book after you've seen the movie is not always a waste of time....sometimes, you just have to have a little more than what you got at the local cinema and the book fills in the gaps nicely. I should have probably thought through this a little more.

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Hey, Merry Mythmas, Jill!

I'd seen Leonard's rules a while back, and they're generally good ones, if what you're after is streamlined, action-oriented prose. The "said" rule is sound for everyone, though. And adverbs in general should be avoided like the plague. But not everyone needs to limit physical description, of people or places. This is a stylistic choice, and as he points out with exceptions to nearly every one of his "rules", if you do it well, go for it.

Also, I liked your reading rules (though I like short books).

------Date: 2002-12-26 12:10:00 Subject: Washington Journal

I wake up most mornings to the sound of news, which I quickly turn off. Then I grab my remote so that I can turn my TV on to C-Span to watch Washington Journal. It's a live broadcast from 6-9 (my time) everyday. I was thrilled to see that even on Christmas Day, they were live. It's very comforting, somehow.

The announcers on the show spend some time reading the morning papers from across the world and pick out timely and interesting pieces and topics. I always hear something pretty interesting and new. The revolving group of hosts are a pretty low-key bunch and they are paid (probably not that much) for staring into the camera and listening to callers voice their opinions about things.

Most mornings they have at least one guest, sometimes more. There are names I recognize, and some I don't. It's a great way to ease into the day and I've made it a habit!

Today, I heard an interesting phrase that I've been pondering for awhile now. The guests were discussing the recent lawsuit involving the guy that is suing McDonalds because he didn't know that Big Macs would make him "Big Fat," so to speak. They had a vegan doctor debating the head of a restaurant association who was defending fast food chains. The most interesting comment was from the restaurant guy...he said "this is the kind of lawsuit that gives frivolous lawsuits a bad name."

Think about it...I have. ;-)

------Date: 2002-12-28 12:33:00 Subject: Get over it

Someone once said that you will never get over a death until you see it as a life completed, rather than a life interrupted.

I'm thinking that this is probably pretty helpful, but I'm also thinking that this is probably pretty impossible, at least for me.

Although I find that it's easier to accept an older person's death (what's old?...older than me!), there is still a big part of me that wants that person here still, available to me.

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Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------Don't be taken aback. The older I get, the more philosophical I become, it seems. Death is a scary issue for me, both my own, and others that are close to me. I don't like goodbyes, and death is a pretty final one!

Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------This was an interesting post that seemed to come from nowhere. Did someone you know pass on recently? Some of those simple little sayings about life seem to have the best meaning. My favorite is the old Native American idea of:

"We are not inheriting the world from our parents, we are borrowing it from our children."

Just those simple phrases that totally throw "conventional wisdom" out the window. Or here is another one, slightly more 'on topic'.

If you’re frightened of dying, and your holding on, then you will see devils tearing your life away. But if you’ve made your peace, then the devils are really angels freeing you from the Earth.

------Date: 2002-12-29 09:23:00 Subject: Bill Clinton

I dreamed about Bill Clinton last night. No, not that kind of dream.

I think I've been watching too much C-Span. He was coming to me for advice on what to do with the rest of his life. I suggested that he be more Carter-esque, and use his power and influence to help eradicate AIDs in Africa. Or lead the US as a bully pulpit to end racism, since he often gets credit for being the "first black president."

But he said he had 2 house payments to make and a child to put through college. He needed to make money. So I gave him my brother Ted's advice....find a job you like and the money will take care of itself.

That must have struck a cord, as he just smiled as he walked away.

User Comments: matthew mckibben ------Your dreams are a lot more coherant than mine are. If I had this dream, Bill Clinton would have been in an evening gown sipping on an IBC Root Beer.

I agree with your advice to the former Commander in Chief. Since his legacy is all but wasted, he might as well make his legacy be his "post term" career. Kind of like Carter. I'd be willing to bet that most people will remember the work he's done now as opposed to the work he did as President.

I'd like to see Bill Clinton manage a McDonalds for one. Maybe he could manage a Payless Shoes store. Can't you see him in his brown pants and tan shirt with a dark brown tie.

-m

------Date: 2002-12-29 18:41:00 Subject: If heaven exists

So I go to my sunday school today and the topic is "If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?" Now I'm a big fan of Inside the and I knew the topic before I arrived, so I studied the actors' responses to the survey that James Lipton asks them each week. They're posted on the website.

Most of the actors questioned just said something boring, like "Welcome" or "Glad to see you." I liked Tom Hanks' response best..."ah, ah, ah. Back you go." That was kind of like what I would say.

But after giving it more thought, I said that god would say to me "See, you made it to 100 years old and you finished reading all the books on your bookshelves. Welcome to my library."

A friend in the class said that he would like to envision more of a "library of people," rather than a library of books. I like that idea too.

It was interesting though. The atheists in the group had a real problem with the question and kept coming up with things that they wanted to say to god, not so much hearing what god had to say to them.

User Comments:

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------How about:

"Ha! Didn't think you'd make it in, did you, you unbelieving sonofabitch! Well, we've lowered our standards a little. Make yourself at home: plenty of food and drink, and the oiled-up supermodels are over there..." :)

------Date: 2002-12-30 11:43:00 Subject: Ain't it great?

In reading the NY Times today, I came across this article When Christmas Is a Wednesday, 2 Workweeks Can Evaporate by ELISSA GOOTMAN.

In it, she says With both Christmas and New Year's Day falling on Wednesdays, the week-or- so-long hiatus that normally takes place between the holidays has stretched into two weeks. Sure, not everyone technically has both weeks off, but look at it this way: the Tuesdays are bound to be unproductive, as Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve are practically holidays themselves. Knowing that, how much are you going to accomplish on the Mondays? The Wednesdays are the official holidays, the Thursdays are for recovering from the holidays, and the Fridays are, well, Fridays.

How sweet it is!

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Matthew McKibben ------This is TOO good. I love this long holiday. Sure, I'll probably go broke trying to pay my bills next month but this time off is WONDERFUL!

-m

------Date: 2003-01-03 00:15:00 Subject: Chicago

MaryAnn, Robert, Michael and I spent NY eve in Atlanta with Chicago, the movie. It was really good. Now you all know that I'm not that much into musicals, but I loved The Lion King in NY in September and MA thought this would be a good way to usher in the new year 2003. I went along.

I really enjoyed it. Richard Gere was really good, CZ Jones was terrific and I liked Rene Z, although everytime I see here, I just think of Bridget Jones and "you complete me" so I have a hard time getting past this with her. She was my least favorite part in the production, but I really, really liked the rest of it. I wished that they hadn't had to cut out any of the numbers for the movie and that sometime in the near future I can see the live performance of this musical in NYC.

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------Great movie. I LOVED it. I wrote a mini-review of it on my website.

------Date: 2003-01-03 13:12:00 Subject: Oh baby!

I'm having a great time here in Atlanta with my firstborn child MaryAnn and her cool hubby Robert. The best part of the whole visit has been sharing in their plans/chatter/preparation for the late January/early February arrival of "little Dana," my third grandchild.

Yesterday, MaryAnn and I celebrated her 31st birthday by going to Babies 'R Us and finishing the shopping. I can say proudly that I'm no longer shocked when I enter this store, as I was the first time. At that time, I just couldn't believe that one could fill a whole mega-store with baby items. If anyone has any doubt about what an advantage it is to be born American, they just need to go to one of these stores.

Anyway, now I know what a Diaper Genie is, and where to find one in the store. I even figured out that we needed the "wide-mouthed" refills, instead of the "narrow-mouthed" ones. And I was the disposable diaper expert (thanks to Katie), as I confidently told MaryAnn - "it's Pampers or Huggies. Those are the best!"

After having four perfectly normal healthy children of my own without the advantage of this baby superstore, I know that it's possible to have a baby without all of this stuff. But if all this stuff helps moms and dads spend more quality time holding/hugging/loving their children, then I'm all for it!

User Comments: matthew mckibben ------I'd like to make a toast. To Mary Ann and Robert who are expecting their first child.

and

To myself, who hopes to not have a spawn of my own for a good long while.

-Matt

------Date: 2003-01-08 13:19:00 Subject: The Last Waltz

The 70s were a great decade for me (marriage, a move to Houston, the birth of 4 healthy babies, etc.) and I wouldn't trade my experience in the 70s for anything, but I'm finding out more and more how much I missed while I was enjoying my life.

My boss gave me, along with my co-workers, an Amazon gift certificate and I spent mine on the 25th Anniversary edition DVD of The Last Waltz..."the finest of all rock movies" according to Newsweek.

I was a fan of The Band before I became a respectable wife and mother. Oh, they weren't in my top 5 or probably even my top 10. But spending time with them again in 2003 has been a really nice experience. And with the appearances of Bob Dylan, Neil Young and Eric Clapton, I can almost forgive them for inviting Neil Diamond to the gig.

Totally not trusting my taste in things until it's confirmed by the experts, I visited Rotten Tomatoes, a site that I check often for movie reviews. I was surprised to find that both the Tomatometer and the Cream of the Crop gave it a rating of 100% Fresh! So now I can really enjoy it, can't I?

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------I have heard nothing but good things about "The Last Waltz." Many people even say that it's their favorite Scorsese movie which says A LOT since he's one of the best. I'm a "The Band" fan. Not one of my faves by any stretch of the word, but they're pretty awesome. It sounds really cliche but "The Weight" is one of the all time great songs.

And you can't go wrong with Bob Dylan. Let's face it, the man's the best.

-Matthew

------Date: 2003-01-09 12:02:00 Subject: Food for thought

I have many joys in life, but really, eating out is not one of them. Oh sure, I'll occasionally accompany co-workers on their noonday quest for a fast, cheap, delicious place to eat, but it's always, for me, more for the company than the food.

And it seems that whenever I have company or a request to bring a dish, I'll find a reasonable, acceptable restaurant to visit or an Eatzi's type place to buy the "homemade" dish. But that's usually more for others than it is for me, too, as I'd just as soon have a few slices of cheese and a few crackers (usually quite old) from my cupboard. But can I really offer company these things???? Well, no! And besides that, my little teeny, tiny kitchen is not conducive to preparing big meals.

In trying to identify why I feel this way, when so many people around me really dig eating out, I've come up with some possible reasons:

1. I'm cheap. I can spend 6 or 7 bucks on a lunch out or buy a loaf of bread and a jar of peanut butter and have lunches for days, maybe even weeks.

2. I'm not cheap...I'd just rather spend my money on something else. A week's worth of lunch money will buy a book from Amazon, 1/2 of a plane ticket to Tulsa, 2 movie tickets plus popcorn and a diet Coke (now that's "restaurant" food I can't pass up!).

3. You never know where it's been. I'm not really that anal retentive, but then again, I've read Kitchen Confidential and watched enough Marvin Zindler reports to know that even in the best of restaurants you can find gooey, greasy grime on the ice machine. 4. Waist watcher. I don't care what meal I select, and even if I only eat half of the humongous portions that they serve these days, it's next to impossible for me to watch my waistline when I eat out. You just never know the ingredients of those secret sauces.

5. The check. It's usually an uncomfortable moment that I just hate. Unless you get separate checks, which is a pain for the waitstaff, divvying it up usually is not ever fair (and you know how I love fair) as people at the table just remember the menu price of their food and throw that into the pile without regard for tax and tip. Then the person who is in charge of counting and collecting the money has to beg for more from everyone. Sometimes, when I'm the collector, to avoid this, I've just "eaten" it.

6. Food is just not that important to me. Now I love good food whenever I have it (my son-in-law Robert is a gourmet cook and I just recently enjoyed some very wonderful meals from his kitchen) but day-in, day-out, give me pretty basic, non-fancy food and as long as it makes the hunger pangs go away, I'm set.

7. People are starving in Africa. This really doesn't keep me from dining out, but it does make me pause to see how much we Americans eat and how big our portions are. A little voice inside me just says "it's just wrong".

8. I can't decide. This is a toughy for me. When I do go out to eat, especially to a buffet, I want one of EVERYTHING! This goes against #7 and my feelings about that so I am conflicted about what to do. I don't like being conflicted.

9. Where do you want to eat? When I do go out to eat, I'll most always defer to the choice of restaurants of the people I dine with. Oh sure, I really do have some places I prefer over others, but then again, is it really that important to make a big deal of it and the places they are suggesting aren't going to kill me (except for the gooey, greasy, grimy slime on the ice machine -- see #3).

10. Minimum wage. Why don't restaurants pay their employees at least a minimum wage? And give them benefits? And give them the dignity of making a career in food service, if that's what they enjoy? It's just not fair, and you know how I like fair -- see #5).

So, where do you want to go for lunch?

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------I eat out WAY too much. I think I personally keep every Tex-Mex rest. in Denton opened off my patronage. It put a serious dent in the good ol pocketbook. It's fun sometimes but most of the time, it gets really old. It's too greasy, too heavy, too expensive, and the portions are incredibly too large. I'm going to devote my efforts to eating healthier and cheaper this semester.

But I like a good Marshalls BBQ sandwich every once in a while.

I'm really liking your posts. Keep up the good work.

------Date: 2003-01-12 00:02:00 Subject: Daily Show - Good/SNL - Bad

OK, maybe it's just because I was working on mediator stuff while I was kinda watching SNL tonight, but I don't think so.

THIS WAS THE WORST SNL THAT I HAVE EVER SEEN!

I really liked Avril Lavigne, but that was it! The rest of it really sucked!!! I guess if I had to pick, the Charlie Rose skit was the best, but still, it was really, really bad!

I have a theory. I think Jon Stewart's The Daily Show has gotten all of the good writers from SNL. It's consistently great!

Or maybe they just haven't found anyone to pick up the slack for . I mean, he's no Phil Hartman, and Phil Hartman's no John Belushi, but still...

Where are the Not Ready for Primetime Players when you need them?

Sure, Jimmy Fallon is as cute as a bug and Darrell Hammond does some really great impressions (but they seem to be not writing stuff for him lately...it was Horatio Sands night last night) and the women are OK, but I miss Cheri Oteri and Jan Hooks (and why does anyone think a routine featuring an impersonation of Diana Ross is a topical one for the year 2003?)...come on!

This show has so jumped the shark on steroids!

User Comments: matthew mckibben ------Just an awful show sometimes. Usually, it's bad beyond belief. I think they should trim about a half hour off the show. That'd help with ratins and also with the weak ass writing staff.

I think that all the great comedy writers have gone to "The Daily Show" and to "The Conan O'Brien Show." If I remember correctly, a lot of the talent from the old SNL days work on both shows.

------Date: 2003-01-13 08:54:00 Subject: I can see clearly now

I was walking Jack and Marina this morning and saw a neighbor walking her dog. This isn't unusual, but what was unusual about it was that she was wearing glasses. I'd never seen her wear glasses before.

It got me to thinking about glasses. I remember when I first got mine, back in the 3rd or 4th grade. I was so excited about it and remember walking out of the optician's office and noticing how clearly I could see. At first, it looked like I was walking downhill all the time, but I got used to it. I wasn't too concerned about vanity yet, or impressing boys, so I was a happy "four eyes".

Then, my teenage years hit and I bought into the old saying that "guys don't make passes at girls who wear glasses" so I got contact lenses for the first time. I struggled with them and put up with all kinds of discomfort, but, in my mind, it was worth it.

After I became a wife, and especially a mother, I just didn't have time for all the frustration of contacts so I returned to glasses and wear them still today. I've been through all kinds of styles...the big 70s ones that almost covered your whole face, the kinder, gentler wire rims that barely covered my eyes, and now I'm in the Ashley Banfield/Tina Fey type design. If money was no object, I'd have all different kinds of glasses, as I enjoy the various styles available today.

Finally, I just have to say that I'm very grateful that I'm in a place where I can have vision correction. Just how much would I miss out on, if I couldn't see clearly, not to mention how dangerous would I be to myself and others, especially behind the wheel of a car!

I also think about all the people in the world who go through life without having the opportunity to have vision correction. I know in the big scheme of things, having 20/20 vision is not as important as having your next meal, but then again, I have both, and for that, I'm very grateful. User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------The 70's and 80's were by far the worst decade for glasses. Everyone had those glasses that covered three quarters of our faces. For me, the smaller the better. I like the John Lennon/Granny glasses personally.

I'd like to try the LASIK sometime. I hear that it's pretty cheap now and can be paid in installments. Can't beat that deal.

------Date: 2003-01-14 09:48:00 Subject: Evil is as evil does

For the most part, I want to keep this post pretty lighthearted, but occasionally something comes to mind that I just can't shake. This is one of those times.

I received an email recently relaying the events of a traffic accident that could have had tragic results (the driver that was hit was dragged out of the car and beaten by the other driver, with the promise of worse things ahead, until a passerby intervened and the other driver fled).

I replied to this email that the way I see it, the "good guys" still outnumber the bad guys and for all the horrible events of our time, we just need to focus on that. That person who came to [the driver's] rescue is a "saint" in my opinion and we just can't let evil win! Yes, as much as I don't want to admit it, there is real evil in the world

In even replying this way, I faced real conflict with myself. There have been times when I thought that there was no such thing as evil, and others (like the aforementioned event) where I think evil's present in our world. It's a question that I struggle with every day.

Today I'm on the side that doesn't believe that people are evil, per se, but that they make really, really evil choices. Let's look at the DC snipers for instance.

Didn't the fact that they hid from authorities and took the time to customize a vehicle so that they could wreak their havoc without even leaving the comfort of their car say that they knew right from wrong, and they chose wrong and continued killing random people? Wasn't this evil?

If they had just shown up at a shopping center and started blowing people away in full view of everyone, I would have been more willing to believe that they were just crazy, insane people that didn't know a good choice from a bad (evil) one.

What do you think?

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------I'll add this and be done:

I think that my perceptions of good and evil are partly inspired and based on fantasy stories like "The Lord of the Rings" and the "Star Wars" movies.

In those movies, good and evil come to fruition through fully realized evil characters. Characters beyond all moral reproach like the Emperor in Star Wars and Sauron and Sauromon in LOTR.

But I think that we also get the human representation of good and evil through other characters. Darth Vader who is described as "twisted and evil" by Obi Wan Kenobi has feelings of doubt and good in him as felt by his son. Smeagol/Gollum is a character that many would classify as evil yet he too has some good in him.

I know, it's kinda a silly analogy, but I guess it fits.

Matthew McKibben ------I was actually thinking about this very subject today as I walked through campus. Not this topic of what happened, but the topic of good vs. evil.

One of my main arguments with the classification of "good" and the classification of "evil" is that it tends to put the individual being spoken about on some kind of above human plane. Like to say that the Dalai Lama is the epitome of "good" and Adolf Hitler is the epitome of "evil" places both people on a plane higher than human existence.

They are humans with human actions, human desires, and human goals. Does doing evil things make one inherantly evil and does doing good things make someone inherantly good? Good and evil are the opposite ends of the spectrum. Good being a (1) and evil being a (10). I firmly believe that all human beings (including Hitler and Ghandi and Mother Theresa or whomever)fall directly in the middle. I think that there is just as much potential to create in our bodies and minds as there is potential to destroy.

There is a lot of talk nowdays in the entertainment world about Adolf Hitler. CBS is planning a mini-series on his early years, John Cusack starred in a recent movie called "Max" which deals with Hitler's early days as an artist, and there is even a rumor of a major motion picture in the early stages of production about Hitler. But with all this talk about Adolf Hitler, a lot of Jewish groups are understandably cautious about any movie that tries to portray "this monster as human." I totally see why they would feel cautious and worried. Any group of people that had their own government systematically round them up and gas them, would and should have every right to feel cautious about a movie that would attempt to place a human face on Hitler.

But at the same time, it is VITAL that we finally break down this wall that we've built around Hitler where we classify him as "evil incarnate." He did really fucked up things to millions of people. But Hitler himself was not evil. Hitler was a human being. And the sooner we start realizing that Hitler was a human being, the sooner we can start to deal with the fact that we are Hitler and we are Mother Theresa. A famous Jewish scholar (whose name escapes me right now) said that in order to best understand Hitler, it is important to realize that all he ever wanted to be in this life was an artist. This meaning that we all carry the potential for great and awful things but that sometimes, there are forces beyond our control that can lead people down one path over the other.

There is potential in us to do great and wonderful things and there is also the potential for us to destroy and kill. Humans have the capability to both create and destroy life in the same breath.

Was Hitler evil? Was Ghandi good? Hitler was no more evil than the people who elected him and the people he led to their deaths. Ghandi was no more good than the people he led to liberation. I do believe in evil and I do believe in good. They are yin and yang with each other. But I do not and can not believe that good and evil as we know them, can manifest themselves in mankind.

Jill http://www.jilllsusan.com ------Bottom line, I'm very uncomfortable classifying people as either good or bad (evil). I think this is what Luke is saying and I agree with him.

That's why when I wrote the original email response, I said that I hated to admit that there was evil in the world...I didn't say I hated to admit that there were evil people in the world.

I don't want to set myself up as judge of a person. After all, until I've walked a mile in their moccasins, so to speak, how can I possibly know all about them? How can I judge them and call them an evil person? Or a good one, for that matter? I think labelling people is not only inaccurate, but destructive.

On the other hand, I think I have the right to say that a particular action on their part was evil, based on my moral compass.

Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Your right Derek. People can't be good. I never said that they could be.

And Maryann, sorry!

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Luke writes: "So my main point is that acts can be wrong, bad, inhumane, and even if you would like to use the word "evil", but that people are not evil, or cannot be evil."

But Luke, using your logic, could anyone be said to be good? A man dives into a freezing river to save a drowning girl. Oh, he isn't really a good person...a myriad of factors (his childhood, his brain chemistry, etc.) influenced his "decision".

If people aren't really evil, then by extension they're not really good either. You can't have it both ways.

MaryAnn ------I know the woman involved in this incident, so it is hard for me to think about this question abstractly... but I just have to say to Luke, why is 'husband' capitalized and 'wife' not in your e- mail? Shame on you! Down with patriarchy! LOL ;-)

Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------"Do the motivations, or lack thereof, mitigate or lessen the moral categorization of the act?"

An act may be wrong or bad or stupid or immoral or inhumane or pointless or cruel or dare I say "evil", but a person is not evil.

"For example, if a man kidnaps a little girl and brutally disfigures her (e.g. by pulling out her teeth with pliers), do his motivations matter in categorizing his actions as evil or not?"

Read above.

"And what if it happened that the man very well knew the difference between right and wrong, was a functional, intelligent adult, and committed such an act? Would that satisfy as evil?"

Read above. Although I find it extremely hard to believe that anyone who is a "functional intelligent adult" who is not insane and knows the difference between right and wrong" would be able to do that. The only person who could do something that bad, wrong, immoral, inhumane, vile, whatever else, would either be mentally ill, or would have a reason why he felt that he could do that and get away with that. No one is socialized to do that, so we couldn't say it was society. But rape is wrong and bad and evil and all that right? Well at a time it was alright for Husbands to rape wives. In some cultures it still is. In many places it is alright for Husbands to beat wives. But isn't beating or raping someone bad, or even evil?

But is the man evil who is doing something he has been socialized as the right thing to do? Or is he just doing what he has always been told was right?

Forget about cultural relativism, rape and domestic violence is always wrong in my book. But I can't beleive that a person is just evil, and THAT is their motivation to do something bad.

So my main point is that acts can be wrong, bad, inhumane, and even if you would like to use the word "evil", but that people are not evil, or cannot be evil.

As I told mom in an email today, unless you believe that a baby can be born evil, I don't think that people can be evil, because something along the way made them do the 'evil' act.

Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------I think motivations do matter when it comes to classifying something as evil, but I know that this is a slippery slope. That sets someone (me) up as judge and jury of the act.

But then again, would Robin Hood have been considered evil? I think not, if he's stealing from the rich to give to the poor. But Ken Lay is definitely evil...stealing from the poor to give to the rich (himself)!

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Luke writes: "It seems to me that when horrendously brutal and "evil" things happen, the people who are perpetrating the crime are either psychologically insane, desensitized to the violence, reacting to the way they have been socialized, or counteracting against pent up rage and oppression." Do the motivations, or lack thereof, mitigate or lessen the moral categorization of the act?

For example, if a man kidnaps a little girl and brutally disfigures her (e.g. by pulling out her teeth with pliers), do his motivations matter in categorizing his actions as evil or not?

And what if it happened that the man very well knew the difference between right and wrong, was a functional, intelligent adult, and committed such an act? Would that satisfy as evil?

Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------An interesting question, mom, to say the least. I am of the mind that there is no such thing as evil, in the real world that is. Maybe in the artistic, literary, or "religious world" though.

Labeling people evil, in my mind, is a simple way of dealing with situations and compartmentalizing the bad things that may be going on.

It seems to me that when horrendously brutal and "evil" things happen, the people who are perpetrating the crime are either psychologically insane, desensitized to the violence, reacting to the way they have been socialized, or counteracting against pent up rage and oppression. I would wager that it is probably usually a mix of all of these.

Who is to really say why people do what they do. I don't know, maybe there are evil acts but not really evil people??? Overall the term evil doesn't really mean anything though, I don't know. I am just kind of rambling.

I will have to think more about this one, and maybe post something to my site about it. Though if I had to answer absolutely, I would say that "No, there is no such thing as 'evil' in the world".

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Sure, I believe in evil. I believe there are evil acts and evil people who perpetrate them.

Some people want to mock Bush for being "morally simplistic" in his speech, but to a certain extent I find that rhetoric, if suitably applied, to be refreshing.

Yes, a dictator like Kim Jong-Il who uses food as a weapon, starving children for political purposes, is evil. A dictator like Hussein who gasses villages to test chemical weapons, who tortures and murders political opponents, who uses rape as a weapon is evil.

What else would you call such behavior? "Not very nice"?

------Date: 2003-01-15 08:41:00 Subject: You've got mail

So I go into my Yahoo mail this morning as usual and check that I have 9 or so messages in my Inbox and 1 message in my Bulk Mail box. Yahoo does a pretty good job of separating the spam mail from the email that you want to read and dumps the Spam into the Bulk Mail box and the "good" email in the regular Inbox. I always go to the Bulk Mail box first so that I can hit the Check All/Delete buttons and go on about my day, starting with reading the "good" email.

Today the Bulk Mail message's subject line read as follows: Don't Let the IRS Seize Your Pay Check. Sounds pretty interesting and perhaps something I might need to check into. But the Sender line read as follows: [email protected].

Which leads me to my question...if you're going to go to the trouble of spamming the entire Yahoo world, why don't you at least set yourself up in Hotmail with a better user name?

Who knows, maybe I would have been more inclined to read this if the sender was [email protected] or [email protected]. But big_jon82002? Probably, most definitely not!

------Date: 2003-01-16 15:03:00 Subject: Smoking Gun or ...?

According to CNN today, U.N. weapons inspectors Thursday found 11 empty chemical warheads and another one that needed further evaluation, all in "excellent condition," according to a U.N. spokesman.

"It is neither chemical, neither biological," Hossam Amin, head of Iraq's National Monitoring Directorate, said. "It is empty warheads. It is small artillery rockets. It is expired rockets. They were forgotten without any intention to use them, because they were expired since 10 years ago."

Amin dismissed any allegation that the find is significant, calling the material "forgotten."

Isn't that always the way it is? Anyone who has ever decorated their home for the holidays and then packed the stuff away after New Years can attest to this fact.

It's usually some time in the middle of January before you find that one last ornament that just didn't quite make it to the box in the attic!

User Comments:

Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------Good one Ted!

Ted Fulmer ------Jill wrote: "It's usually some time in the middle of January before you find that one last ornament that just didn't quite make it to the box in the attic! "

Jill - you misspelled "armament" :)

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Yup...great minds, indeed. ;)

------Date: 2003-01-19 00:07:00 Subject: Could this really be true?

I was reading Harpers today and came across this on their index..."Minimum number of neutered pets worldwide that have been implanted with fake testicles: 100,000."

Now I don't want to go off on a rant here, but this is totally ridiculous, if it's true.

Really, I can kinda believe this, if it's true, because as I have joked (truthfully), I have spent more money getting my bichon frises groomed than I ever did on myself at any hair salon, and spent many more dollars at the vet on my animals than I did on my 4 kids, but still...

Is this frivolous or not? But then again, I'm not a neutered male animal. But I'm still thinking this is way over the top!

------Date: 2003-01-20 15:25:00 Subject: I write, I fold, I lick, I stamp

I was watching a Charlie Rose interview with Steven Soderbergh and George Clooney this morning while I was getting ready for work.

In it, they were talking about the movie Solaris. Soderbergh wrote the screenplay and sent it to Clooney for his feedback. (By the way, Soderbergh said that he didn't have Clooney in mind to play any of the parts when he wrote it.)

After reading it, however, Clooney thought that he would enjoy and be good at playing the main character. So what did he do? Did he pick up the phone and call Soderbergh? No. Did he email him? No.

Instead he wrote him a long letter outlining his case and mailed it to him. What a unique thought!

Rose asked Clooney why he did it that way and he said that there are just things that require time and attention. He added that when you take the time to sit down and write a letter, then fold it, seal it, stamp it and find a mailbox to mail it in, you've been able think about the worth and viability of the contents.

Soderbergh agreed, saying that when he got the actual letter from Clooney, he had time to mull it over and make a better decision about his response than he would have if Clooney had just called or emailed him. And although I haven't seen the movie, it sounds like it was a good pairing, as it's gotten more positive reviews than negative ones.

My mother gave me a box of letters several years ago that I had written her in the early days of my marriage and during the period when I was having babies. They have given me many moments of delight, surprise, reflection, sadness, but most of all, perspective.

In this "throw away" culture and times of rapid response, I must admit that I'm not ready to discard my email account(s) and phone(s). But an actual letter sometimes is nice and a relic of the past that I hope doesn't completely go away.

User Comments:

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------God, you're so, like, 20th century, Jill. ;)

------Date: 2003-01-21 12:00:00 Subject: We're number 1!

In reading the headines of the Dallas Morning News today, I came across this article with the headline "Dallas commuters lead the pack in car pooling" and the subtext "City is tops in U.S. as 18% share rides; traffic, Hispanic workers cited."

This made me smile, as I thought that maybe, just maybe, we are finally "getting it" after all.

Now don't get me wrong. I still realize that Texans, and especially Dallas Texans, have never met an SUV or F150 that they didn't like, but then again, it sounds like Dallasites are putting those humongous gas guzzlers to work by carpooling. So that makes it alot easier to swallow, so to speak.

So celebrate yourself, Dallas, and keep up the good work!

User Comments:

MaryAnn ------Luke asked with tongue in cheek, "So just what do you suggest, government regulation?!?!?"

Just read an article about the physician-assisted suicide law in Oregon and how John Asscroft has tried to challenge it repeatedly because he's personally opposed to it. Government intervention suits them just fine if it imposes their own personal morality. The hypocrisy is unbelievable. P.S. Viva Roe v. Wade!

Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Wow! Steve Case responded to my blog. I'm famous! I'm rich! He likes me, he really likes me!

Steve Case http://aoltimewarner.com/corporate_information/bio/CaseSteph.adp ------I heard that!

Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------"...and as long as our gummint makes it optional for polluters to clean up their act--that'll be the day"

So just what do you suggest, government regulation?!?!? Once we go down that road, it's "Next stop, Red China".

No no no, the market, my dear, will regulate itself. Take it from me .

MaryAnn ------Good for Dallas! That's really neat. Houston is probably near the bottom. It's a shame; we love that city and would consider moving back there but would not want to raise a child in the smoggiest city in the U.S. Especially since the awl bidness seems to have such power there that innovative anti-pollution proposals don't get much of a fair shake (and as long as our gummint makes it optional for polluters to clean up their act--that'll be the day).

------Date: 2003-01-22 14:30:00 Subject: Now/Not now

OK, let me get this straight....I'm supposed to pray really, really hard for my boss Mary Ann to have her baby today or tomorrow (today's her due date) and I'm supposed to pray really, really hard for my daughter MaryAnn not to have her baby today or tomorrow (she's due Feb. 4).

I hope I can handle this. I hope that I'm up to the task. I hope I don't get confused. And I hope God (of many names, and mystery beyond all our naming) doesn't get confused either. ;-)

------Date: 2003-01-23 20:34:00 Subject: I'm involved...are you? How come there are so many people in this country that are so totally uninvolved with issues and things going on around them?

I am a member of several mediation organizations and soon to be on the board of my homeowners group. In fact, I just got back from an annual meeting of the HOA group and we didn't even have a quorum of people there so that we could vote on anything. And that's after all owners were sent a proxy form to fill out (simple, easy fill out) with a SASE to return it in so that if they chose to not attend, the board could place a vote for them.

When I send out invitations to our monthly mediation meetings and ask for an RSVP so that we can estimate the amount of food to purchase for our "light dinner," I usually get about 20 RSVPs and about 40 or 50 people actually show up! It's maddening when all they had to do to RSVP was to hit the reply button on their computer and say "yes, I'm coming."

Is this just bad manners, or do people not want to commit to stuff or what?

My observation is that it's the busy people that continually do all the work in organizations and groups I'm involved with.

Has it always been this way? Will it always be this way? Should I just deal with it?

------Date: 2003-01-24 21:44:00 Subject: TGIF

Is there anything more perfect than Friday night?

I really, really love Friday nights! Especially Friday nights that occur on paydays. I get paid every other Friday, so every other Friday is especially wonderful as I have a whole 2 days ahead of me to squander, relax and enjoy, knowing that I've put in a productive 2 weeks and gotten rewarded for my hard work with a good chunk of change!

And the Friday nights on the no paycheck weeks are almost as good, 'cause I still have the R & R ahead of me and the cool thought that I'll have a paycheck waiting for me in less than a week!

Yes, Friday nights...full of possibilities. Would that every hour of my days could be as wonderful and special as Friday nights!

User Comments: Matthew McKibben ------Best night of the week. And you can quote me. ;-)

-Matt

------Date: 2003-01-25 15:26:00 Subject: Boo! Hiss!-story

I went to a two hour session about the African American Museum here in Dallas this morning at my church. Phillip, the curator of the museum, gave an interesting talk about the history of the museum and showed some slides of the artwork exhibited there. It's wonderful, and I can't wait to visit next weekend when a group from my church will go there as the second part of this informative session this morning.

During the history part of the talk, he said that Dallas (yes he said Dallas TX!) had the first African American Museum in the country in 1936! Wow...was I ever proud of that!! It was housed in one of the art deco buildings at Fair Park and was known at that time as the African American Museum of Life and Culture.

But then, as he continued the history of the museum, it got ugly. Seems that during the early days of the museum, blacks could only access the place on "Black Family Day, Black School Children Day, and June 19th." The rest of the time, the museum sat empty.

So with all this non-use, the city fathers, in their infinite wisdom, decided that the site of the museum could be put to better use. It would be a wonderful place for a public swimming pool, in their minds, so they tore it down and built the pool there. (So much for art and history and culture!)

But wait, it gets worse. When the civil rights movement back in the 60s started catching on and the city fathers realized that they would have to allow blacks the opportunity to use the public pool, they filled the pool in with concrete and built a parking lot for the Music Hall at the site. (You just can't have too much concrete now, can you?)

Thankfully, in 1974, Bishop College decided to appropriate part of their space for another museum and in 1980, a bond election was held to fund the new building at Fair Park. And that's where it stands today. It's part of the Smithsonian and is the only African American museum in the Southwest US.

So the next time you are in the Fair Park area of town, check it out. Better yet, plan a trip to visit it and I think you'll be glad that you did!

------Date: 2003-01-26 23:26:00 Subject: Just another manic Sunday

So I'm trying to be a well-rounded gal, and I turn on the Super Bowl (who's playing again?) and at least try to catch some groovy commercials and the halftime show. Disappointment, 21st century style! Is this what it's come to? Sting with Gwen Stefani, preceded by a lip-syncing Shania Twain? Oh no!!!

Oh well, I was paying bills at the same time, so it wasn't a total loss. But then again, the whole Super Bowl thing is so highly overrated, in my opinion. I'm sorry, but I just can't get excited about PRO football anymore. Especially any game that's got a Florida team involved.

I saw a wonderful play today at the Dallas Theater Center...Tom Stoppard's "The Real Thing". It was funny, witty and wonderful! And in the In Perspective afterwards, I was able to be dubbed "the favorite person in the room" by Professor Daniel Mendelsohn of Princeton, as I asked him about a recent review that he wrote in the NY Review of Books and he was beaming that someone in the audience had actually read his work!

A strange thing happened on my way to the play however. I was getting the mediator mail at the post office on Oak Lawn and parked next to me was a van that was painted (like a company van) with the following: "Women Who Fear God International" along with a local phone number. Now what's that all about???? They'd have to have really tinted windows before I'd jump aboard! ;-)

------Date: 2003-01-27 19:09:00 Subject: 65 for 45

I left work a little early today to go to Fieldwork Dallas to attend a 45 minute interview about skin medications for which I received $65! Now I call that a good use of my time.

I've enjoyed being a part of market research on occasions in the past with this company and I'm always excited, when, after the initial phone interview with me, the screener says "OK, you qualify, would you like to come in for an hour on ___day and we'll pay you $___ for participating?"

I've participated in quite a few studies over the past few years. One was about wine (I liked this one, as I not only got paid for it, but got a bottle of wine, too). Then there were the others about hotels and dashboards and potato chips (this one was pretty yucky as we actually had to taste "steak" flavored potato chips...yuck!). But on the whole, it's a neat experience. I get to be opinionated and someone actually *listens* to me and I even get paid for it! Is this a great country or what??? User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------65 for 45 sounds like the title of a Dylan song.

One time a drug dealer paid me a couple grand to try some heroin and crack. Man oh man, was THAT good research. ;-)

Jill ------No, it was a cream for dry skin. They wouldn't tell me the name or the drug company's name, but there were honest to god doctors behind the 2-way mirrors...oooh, I hope I didn't scratch or pick at something in their presence!

They didn't even have it there for me to see. I just had to answer questions about their marketing campaign.

An easy 65 if I've ever seen one!

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Yeah, yeah...what we really want to know is what kind of medication it was. Wart remover? Leprosy cream?

Did you have to actually use it?

------Date: 2003-01-28 12:56:00 Subject: OK, fork 'em over!!

You know you have at least one, probably more. Maybe you're storing your old socks in them, or photos, or recyclables, or your porn.

Maybe you're using them to carry your lunch back and forth to work.

Or collecting the oil when you do a 'do it yourself' oil change. They're the perfect size for a small baby's bed (MaryAnn & Robert...I'm looking in your direction) or they make a neat cat or dog bed, with a little blanket thrown in for fluffiness.

Whatever you're using them for, fork 'em over! With 19,980,000 of them missing nationwide, I just know that you have at least one!

------Date: 2003-01-29 16:21:00 Subject: For my children always

You do not have to be good.

You do not have to walk on your knees

For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.

You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.

Tell me about your despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.

-from "Wild Geese" by Mary Oliver

User Comments:

MaryAnn ------I've always loved that poem!

------Date: 2003-01-30 21:04:00 Subject: Uncomfortably numb

I arrive just in time for work today to make my 10 o'clock meeting, only to find that it has been postponed to a day of another's choosing. Most days I would celebrate this good turn of events, but today, I really, really want structure and to not be interrupted.

So I begin... I check email. I can act on those and delete those and file those and be done with those. But then, I come across one that requires more than reaction and thought, but feeling, and there I am again. Back where I started.

OK, then, I'll answer my phone when it rings. And that will keep me centered on corporate things, not private and painful things, and I'll be able to vacate the reality of the past few days. But uncertainty shows up in phone calls, and my mind is left wandering to places I want not to go, and I feel anger and guilt and loneliness and regret.

Center, Jill, just center. Maybe the hollowness comes from hunger, so find bread, simple, pure and stable. Pick at it, swallow it down, all the time wondering if it will fill me up, but knowing that it probably won't.

Only a few more hours left of this workday and maybe if I can just be really productive, I'll fool myself into thinking that nothing has changed. So I try, and try again, but again, I can not focus on what is set before me, but rather only on what has gone before this day and the day before.

So finally, the closing bell rings and I can go home to four furry friends who need my attention and there, I will find peace and tasks to keep me busy and my mind occupied so that I don't float to other places. But alas, it doesn't happen. I watch a video tape for 30 minutes, only to rewind it when I realize that I couldn't for the life of me report to anyone what in the world it was about.

I search my books and journals for comfort, knowing that I have lived through other days like these, and wanting to find confirmation for what I know, or thought I knew. That this, too, shall pass. But every page I turn to speaks to me, yet not in the words I need to hear.

So I wait for time to pass and events to pass and memories to fade...

And I look forward to the day, when once again, I'll progress from uncomfortably to comfortably numb.

------Date: 2003-02-02 20:24:00 Subject: The Circle of Life

I've just recently arrived home from attending the memorial services of the father of my children in Houston. He died suddenly and unexpectantly last Tuesday, January 28th.

I'm glad to be home. I'm exhausted.

I'm sentimental.

I'm reflective.

I'm sad, so sad.

I'm happy (that my children are my children and that they do as they do).

I'm glad that I was introduced to the concept of "one day at a time" and that I live it, most days.

I'm warm because of all the hugs that I received yesterday morning from so many that were in my past, but are in my present now.

I'm hopeful that "war is over" because I want it and I hope others want it too.

I'm unforgiven, but that's "OK."

I'm alive.

I'm wanting a return to normalcy (whatever that is).

I'm excited about the impending birth of my third grandchild, LD.

I'm relieved that Katie & Dan and the kids arrived home safely.

I'm appreciative of my brother Ted and my sister Sherry who sat and talked with me this afternoon for hours just to make sure that "I" was going to be OK.

I'm blessed that I have my mother nearby to lend perspective to life and death at her age of 76.

I'm these and so many other things tonight. More than I can mention here. And although it will take time, probably a lifetime, to process all the events of the last few days in my heart and in my mind, I'm grateful that MaryAnn sent this to me:

Fear not that which is now,

Fear not that which is to come.

Life, Death and Being are as one,

It is a circle. There is no beginning and no end.

For that which is the beginning is the end of the other.

And that which is the end is the beginning of the other. Surely the lessons of life are the wisdom of death.

Those who live in the knowledge of what the circle truly is have peace beyond measure.

-from the book Graces by June Cotner

Finally, for tonight (and always)...good night Jim...rest in peace.

------Date: 2003-02-03 21:45:00 Subject: Mine!

I really, really, wonder if I was this way when I was 2 1/2 and 5.

I was lucky enough to get to spend the last couple of nights with Jessie and Joey, my 5 year old granddaughter and my 2 1/2 year old grandson. I shared an air mattress with Joey, and Jessie had the couch nearby. The first night, Jessie was really tired and she slept peacefully and quietly. Joey, on the other hand, was a little restless and several times during the night I'd awaken to what I believed was a wide awake, alert Joey, as he was shouting "Mine" or laughing out loud about something or even saying some sentence, which, for the life of me, I couldn't tell you the meaning of right now.

The final night, Saturday night, was an adventure...Jessie, again on the couch, and Joey sharing the air mattress with MaDear. About every hour on the hour, Joey would make a complete 360 degree revolution, half way through kicking me and yelling at the same time at the top of his lungs, "NO!!!"

I would just say "Joey, get back on your pillow and be quiet" and Jessie would say "Joey, don't talk so loud" and we'd both wait for the calm to come after the storm, so to speak.

And then I'd have to go to the bathroom and make my way back to bed, where I'd find my MP3 player of episodes of NPRs Fresh Air and I'd lie there awake, and wondering how Katie and Dan do this night after night and just how sleep deprived people with young children actually survive in this stressful world. When I got to my own bed Sunday night, with only Jack & Marina to cuddle with, and Dalai and Dharma doing their cat, nocturnal things all night, I just relished in the fact that it was going to be a good night, full of peaceful, quiet, wonderful bliss, but then again, I *did* miss the thrill of it all with my JJs.

------Date: 2003-02-04 15:55:00 Subject: Would you want to know?

First, let me say that I listened to the memorial service for the Columbia space shuttle astronauts today. They, along with their families, are on my mind and in my heart. I hope that the families, and especially the 15 children that they left behind, find peace and comfort in the days ahead.

Now comes the point of this blog. When I got to work today, Darrell gave me this senario:

    You are aboard the space shuttle and mission control in Houston determines that upon take- off, the shuttle was damaged beyond repair. Although you'll be able to safely spend the next 2 or 3 weeks in space, there is no chance for your safe return to earth. You also know that you can't just cruise through space indefinitely so your end is near.

    Would you want them to inform you of this, and if so, when during the trip (the first day, some time into it, or the day of your attempt to return to earth)?

My answer: I would not want to know. If I was in the position to be on a space shuttle mission, I'm assuming that this would be because it was the fulfillment of a lifetime dream. And because I was fulfilling this dream, I would be extremely happy. By knowing that I was going to die on this trip, I would be robbed of that happiness, as I just wouldn't be able to not let that fact overshadow my days.

What about you? Would you want to know?

User Comments:

Jill http::/www.jillsusan.com ------I agree totally, MaryAnn! When we were talking about this this morning, Derek said "Jill, would you really be here at ClubCorp this morning if you knew that today was your last" and I said "yes."

Truth is, I probably wouldn't have come to work today if I knew that I would not wake up tomorrow morning, but on the other hand, don't we go through life knowing that we may not officially know this is out last day, but it could be. I try to live each day, as if it was my last. I tell everyone I know that I love them (if I do) and I say the things to them that I would say, as if it's my last conversation with them.

And I'm a peacemaker...I make peace if I can, because I may not have the chance to do it again.

Yes, MaryAnn, maybe, indeed, we should all say all those things!

MaryAnn ------I would not want to know either. The only reason I would want to know would be so I could say all the things to my loved ones that I wanted to say--should I not return. But since a shuttle mission is a risky thing in itself anyway, I would like to think I would have said those things already.

Hmm... a trip around the sun on this big blue ball is itself a risky thing too. Maybe I should say all those things.

------Date: 2003-02-05 19:36:00 Subject: Calling in sick, when you're not

I woke up at my usual time this morning...sometime around 4-5 AM, knowing that I don't have to get out of bed until, at the latest, 7:00ish. So I turned on C-Span, which is my custom, so that the drone of political BS can lull me back to sleepy time.

I found myself back asleep, but before going there, I really, really decided I should call in sick and take a day off from work. I've gotten horribly behind in personal stuff, and mediation stuff, and website stuff that I need to do. Plus, I'm on call, so to speak, as I await the arrival of my 3rd grandchild and an impromptu trip to Atlanta. So, before I succumbed to the precious zzzzzzz's that awaited me, I was resolved to do it! And with that resolve, I fell asleep.

Now all of you know just how wierd and funky those dreams are that you have during your last hours of sleep. This morning, mine were no different.

My boss is out on maternity leave and she's divvied out her managerial tasks to all of us. Diane is the one who we call when we're sick or going to be late. So, in my crazy dream this morning, between the hours of 5 AM and 7 AM, I dreamed that Diane came for a visit and busted me. No, I wasn't sick. I was faking it and she knew it!

In happier days, say the late 1990s, I could have just said "big deal...I'm still calling in and catching up" but with the worst hiring slump in 20 years, I got my butt to work. And grateful, I was, for a job to go to!

------Date: 2003-02-06 09:18:00 Subject: What's so good about Clinton & Bush?

First, let me say that I am not a huge fan of Bill Clinton, and second, let me say that I'm not a huge fan of George W. Bush either. But, having said that, I think both men have their good points and I'm going to focus on those today.

Clinton started from humble beginnings and overcame some really bad stuff in his life to become the most powerful man in the world. I think, if nothing else, this gives a lesson and sets an example to others that have such difficult and humble beginnings. From Clinton, they can learn that it can be done, and that brings encouragement to many. And encouragement is always a good thing.

Bush knows how to comfort people in their time of grief in an "it's not about me" kind of way. He displayed that in the time period after the 9/11 attacks and he displayed it again during the memorial service for the shuttle astronauts. His eulogy of the victims of the shuttle disaster was contrasted with Clinton's eulogy of the victims of the OK City bombing this morning by the "god squad" (Msgr. Thomas Hartman and Rabbi Marc Gellman) on Imus this morning. Rabbi Gellman pointed out that in Clinton's eulogy, he used the word "I" 10 times and "Hillary & I" 5 times. Bush used the word "I" only once.

I appreciate the positive side of these two men today.

------Date: 2003-02-07 22:59:00 Subject: What I Want Is

What I Want Is

-by C. G. Hanzlicek

What I want is

Enough money

To have what I want What I want is

My own hill

And beneath that hill

A pond

In the pond a lazy

Bass or two

And duck feathers

Resting on the mud

Of the shore

Between the hill

And mud a patch

Of grass where I

Can lie and count

My seven trees

My seven clouds

And count the coyotes

Coming down the hill

To drink

Coyote 1 Coyote 2 ------Date: 2003-02-08 19:52:00 Subject: Drivers wanted

OK. I really, really like driving a VW Beetle.

I don't know why. Maybe it brings me back to when I first learned to drive. I didn't have much faith then that I could keep a vehicle in the narrow path of a lane, so I was thrilled that I could learn driving a small little foreign car. Parallel parking was a dream! And so, stick shift and all, I spent time on the road with my father...."daddy"...and he taught me well how to drive that wonderful German car!

When it came time to buy my first car, I had no choice but to make it a '72 Super Beetle. I think it was the first year they made that model. It was Baby Blue and smelled so wonderfully new when I drove it. It was MINE!

Soon, thereafter, I married and moved to Houston and soon became pregnant and a Beetle just isn't a family car, is it?

So we traded it in. I had other cars, but soon returned to the VW Van...Skipper, I called her. I think back to her fondly and wonder now how I could be so careless as I let my four precious children wander around, un-seat belted! Thank you, god, for watching over them, even though their mother (and father) were so clueless!

And so, when I needed a car in 1998, I rejoiced that the Beetle had returned and I drove one, ready to enjoy the fun and spirit that only VW owners know.

And today, after the lease of my 1998 Beetle expires, I return again to the Beetle. It's a 2003 model, Blue Lagoon is the color and it's got a kick-ass stereo system. And it's mine (and the bank's) with a 2.9% interest rate! Driver's wanted????....that would be me!

------Date: 2003-02-09 17:50:00 Subject: Yes! Y'all!!

I really, really like my church! I always seem to hear something that I need to hear there. Today, we talked about death and dying and how different faiths deal with the subject. It was interesting and timely and informative, but most of all, just a good sharing time. After the church services, we voted on acceptance of Daniel Kanter as our new minister, to join Laurel on our church staff. We have the largest UU congregation with only one minister....until today. Our church voted, almost unanimously (and I'm thinking the 5 abstentions and the 3 No's were just to make it interesting, stacked up against the 322 Yes votes) to make Daniel a permanent part of our "family."

Daniel is from Boston and he, along with his wife and small daughter love the northeast. But today, he became a Texan! It was so cute. After we voted, and Daniel said "yes!" Daniel, his wife and daughter donned honest to goodness "cowboy" hats.

Just 3 more people who realize that there is no place else but Texas!

User Comments:

Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------Quite the contrary...you're not stupid about this...I am!

I think you've pointed this out to me before, but each old and outdated brain cell sprouts one grey hair and I'm getting more grey each day! ;-)

Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Pet peave meter just went off.

Y'all is spelled "Y'all", not "Ya'll". The word stems from "You all".

Sorry to be so stupid about this. I need sleep.

Luke~

------Date: 2003-02-11 23:35:00 Subject: For MaryAnn

Now that I am forever with child How the days went

While you were blooming within me

I remember each upon each--

The swelling changed planes of my body--

And how you first fluttered, then jumped

And I thought it was my heart.

How the days wound down

And the turning of winter

I recall, with you growing heavy

Against the wind. I thought

Now her hands

Are formed, and her hair

Has started to curl

Now her teeth are done

Now she sneezes.

Then the seed opened.

I bore you one morning just before spring--

My head rang like a fiery piston

My legs were towers between which

A new world was passing.

From then

I can only distinguish

One thread within running hours

You...flowing through selves

Toward you.

--by Audre Lorde ------Date: 2003-02-16 13:05:00 Subject: Caroline Susan

I am spending just the best 7 days ever! Wednesday morning early, I got THE call from Robert that MaryAnn had delivered a 7 pound, 10 ounce healthy baby girl at 3:28 AM on Feb. 12, 2003. I readied myself for an afternoon flight to Atlanta and got to MaryAnn's hospital room at Northside by about 5:30 PM. That's when I was first introduced to my 2nd granddaughter Caroline Susan. Needless to say, she's beautiful and perfect in every way!

Robert headed home later that evening for a good night's sleep, and I was privileged and lucky enough to get to spend the night with my girls. I didn't get much sleep, but then again, who cares??? After all, I can sleep anytime, but it's not often (and especially these days) that I can just be totally, ecstatically happy and excited about such a wonderful event.

Robert came back to the hospital early Thursday morning and I went back to their home Thursday evening to take care of kitties and get some rest myself. I just crashed...I was so tired, but such a good tired!

On Friday, I attended a chapel service at Columbia, where Michael was preaching and then Marta'd out to Northside again, to help the "new" family in their homecoming. We arrived home at around 5:30 PM and it was fun to see the kitties explore the new person in their life.

The last couple of days have been filled with sleeping, eating (yes, Robert cooked another gourmet meal of beef stroganoff last night), holding, watching, kissing, photographing, caring for, worrying about (for a time there, we were all slightly concerned that Caroline was not urinating as often as she needed to be, but she's way behond that now!), swaddling, changing, bathing, and just generally oohing and aahing over Caroline!

I'm on the downhill turn of my visit and I'm trying not to project how hard it's going to be for me to get on that plane on Tuesday to return to Dallas and say goodbye to Caroline, if only for just a short few days. I'm lucky enough to have a conference here in Atlanta and will be back on the 22nd!

Here are the first pictures of Caroline!

Day One

With Mommy Close Up & Personal 1

Close Up & Personal 2

Close Up & Personal 3

Caroline & Mommy

Caroline & Daddy

Caroline & MaDear

Just Home

User Comments:

Bruce Turne ------Great pics of a beautiful "new" girl. We always welcome a future taxpayer with open arms.

Seriously, this is the Lion King in real life...enjoy

Claudia Dixon ------What a little miracle she is. I didn't notice that you looked tired, Jill, just glowing with that whole experience.

Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yes, that picture of Caroline with her MaDear was taken after I had spent the night in the hospital on Wednesday night so Robert could go home and rest. I didn't get much sleep, slept in my clothes and hadn't even combed my hair, but you know, with the ClubCorp logo nearby, I dealt! ;-)

Derek James http://www.derekjames.net ------Hey, that's a fine-lookin' baby. :) Congratulations to the family (and I noticed someone sporting their ClubCorp shirt while holding the baby...).

------Date: 2003-02-19 22:34:00 Subject: Puddin'

How life goes sometime....

I got back into town last night, after spending 6 days with my new granddaughter and daughter and son (in-law) in Atlanta, only to find that Sherry, my pet sitter-sister was pretty stressed out, not that I was back but that she was still dealing with a blind and deaf 16 year old dog, who, when she made a move, emptied her bladder in an unknowing way, wherever she felt like it.

I got to work, and tried to concentrate, but I knew what I had to do. I had to make the call. Sherry couldn't, but I had to.

So this afternoon, I took Puddin' in and she fell asleep, thanks to modern medicine and a vet that understood, and she's gone in this lifetime. It was peaceful and quick and painless. I kissed her and told her that we loved her and she was gone.

Sad, so sad. We miss you Puddin' and hope you are in a place where you see, you hear, you are enjoying your supper and playing with Snoopy, and Dallas, and Patches, and Misty, and Irish, and Fargo and ......

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------:-(

She was a good dog. She'll be missed.

------Date: 2003-02-20 22:15:00 Subject: Name the Baby!

I'm in a 'baby state of mind' still, with my recent visit with Caroline in GA and my upcoming trip to see her again (and, oh yes, work) in Atlanta this weekend.

So, I'm sitting around thinking how much newborn babies, just look like, well, newborn babies. Some say they look like Winston Churchill. I think they pretty much look alot alike. I mean, there are differences, but until they start filling out a little...they are scrunched up newborns!

So I put together this picture and sent it out to the family for their "name the baby" answers. Sherry did best...great aunt!

And in case you are wondering, here are the answers.

------Date: 2003-02-22 22:22:00 Subject: It's OK to be smart

I was at DFW today, getting ready for my trip to Atlanta, and and I saw a young girl (pre-teen probably) with a backpack on, and on the backpack was a rather large button that said "It's OK to be Smart" and I just had to think this one over for awhile.

What would prompt someone to think that it wasn't OK to be smart? Is it a guy/gal thing? Would a guy be likely to sport a similar button? Or was it just bragging on her part? Maybe she wants the world to know that she's smart! I don't know, but when I passed her by, I paused and said, YES! It's MORE than OK to be smart! In fact, it's preferable.

------Date: 2003-02-24 20:16:00 Subject: We are family...I got all my sisters with me!

I'm in Atlanta with Caroline and MA & Robert and am having a really, really enjoyable visit. I'm here for Training 2003 and spent all day yesterday helping Bryan Chapman with his presentation on Tips, Techniques and Tools for Online Learning. The conference this year is not as well attended, but the the people here are more enthusiastic...I think happy that their companies have spared the training dollars for them to attend. It's nice to see companies that think that training is a priority.

I'm also enjoying my visit with Mary Caroline, Robert's mom. We have been bonding (again) and enjoying watching our wonderful children as parents. It's so gratifying.

I'm so lucky that my children have all made wise choices with their partners, SOs and spouses. I really, really am enjoying this extended family that I've been so lucky to be associated with!

------Date: 2003-03-02 15:28:00 Subject: The Invitation

The Invitation

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.

I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.

I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.

I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own. if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true.

I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself.

If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.

If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,“Yes.”

It doesn't interest me to know where you live, or how much money you have.

I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here.

I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.

I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

© Oriah Mountain Dreamer, from the book The Invitation published by HarperSanFrancisco, 1999

User Comments: Mr. Cloudy ------Thanks for posting this. I've been reflecting upon such things lately and pondering what could change me into the sort of person that this reading speaks of. A kind of person who is sturdy, alive and warm while denying nothing of the fear and pain that we all face.

------Date: 2003-03-05 08:26:00 Subject: A study showed...

This morning on C-Span, I heard a commentator say that "a study showed that Stalin died of poisoning 50 years after his death".

Man, that must have been some really slow acting poison! ;-)

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------That's pretty interesting. But here's a study that's even more interesting. It says that death is still our nation's number 1 killer at a 100% rate.

:-)

------Date: 2003-03-08 14:41:00 Subject: Saturday at home

After being gone from my home all weekends, except for one, in February, it's good to be here today. Oh, don't get me wrong. I really enjoyed my time away from here in February too, but I've really grown to love my space, my 750 square feet of stuff and things I like.

There was a time when I really didn't want to be anywhere near my home. I just found too many things that called out to me to do around there...."dust me, feed me, launder me, clean me, organize me" etc. Is it just because I'm a little bit older and maybe my hearing's gone out (all those rock concerts!) or what that I don't hear those voices anymore?

I'm thinking that with age comes priorities and now, the age I'm at, I just don't find it too important to have a completely clean, organized, dust-free place in which to reside. Rather, I like my little place, and I especially like that I have a Saturday where I can do whatever I want in it!

------Date: 2003-03-12 21:05:00 Subject: Coming up for air!

I've had such a hectic last few days, that finally, I can say that I'm coming up for air!!! One of the things I did recently was go to the Department of Motor Vehicles (DMV) and transfer the title of my '98 VW Beetle from the leasing company/bank to me. I decided to buy it (rather my son Luke has decided to buy it, but it's in my name so we could do a seamless, flawless financing) so I had to visit the DMV to transfer the title. The leasing company was really good about getting all the paperwork in order so that was a no brainer! But walking into the DMV, I see the usual long lines of people at 8:30 AM (where do all these people come from...I'm thinking I've visited at a *good* time!). So I take my place in the line.

Then, I notice there is another line. One that says "Information" and it is specifically people transferring titles. There is a person behind the desk who will check all your paperwork and make sure all is complete before you're given a number to go stand in another line. I think I've hit pay dirt!!! There are only 2 people ahead of me in this line, so I go, willingly and excitedly to this line. Of course, the 2 people in this line don't speak English and they don't have all of their paperwork. So the person behind the counter spends about 20 minutes with each of them, kind of doing a sign language/pantomime of what forms they still needed to get to complete their transaction with the DMV.

So finally, I'm at the head of the line. The DMV person looks at my paperwork, approves it and gives me the lucky number of 13! I'm on my way!

I go sit and wait and see that they are now serving #10. I'm almost going to be called on. Only 2 more ahead of me! So I wait, and wait, and wait. I have time to look at all the DMV people behind the counter. There are about 15 of them in all, but only 3 are actually helping customers. The rest are trying hard not to make eye contact with any of us waiting in line and are typing away on their keyboards, looking too busy to deal with customer service...

...EXCEPT FOR ONE OF THEM. There is actually one of them that is not helping customers or typing away/not making eye contact with customers. This lady is moving a ladder around the area and hanging big, huge yellow smiley face signs from the ceiling. She elicits feedback from all her co-workers (they *can* make eye contact with her and help her, evidently) about which ceiling tile to hang them from and they all engage in a rather happy and upbeat dialogue about the hanging...evidently, the smiley faces are already working on the workers of the DMV.

I'm just thinking that they could readily discard the hanging smiley faces and wait on us customers...I'm thinking that if the purpose of the hanging smiley faces was to induce smiley faces from their customers, wouldn't waiting on their customers and giving real customer service achieve the same thing????

Oh well, my tax dollars at work! They can hang smiley faces, not wait on me until they're ready, and make me wait because they're the DMV and I'm not!

------Date: 2003-03-13 12:44:00 Subject: Questions

A sign out by my church states that "it's better to have unanswered questions than to have unquestioned answers." I think that's pretty good, don't you?

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------ooooooo...... me like

I like it when churches wax philosophical.

We've been talking a lot about church in my philosophy class. Mainly we've been talking about how most churches are too afraid to lose membership to actually propose "changing the world." Basically, it's become more of a social gathering instead of a gathering for social change. We just finished reading Martin Luther King's "Letter from a Birmingham Jail" addressed to clergymen of the Southern states. In it, he says asks that people start using the church as a place to institute social change instead of just a place for social gatherings and fellowship. He says that fellowship is not enough. I couldn't agree more.

------Date: 2003-03-17 22:52:00 Subject: WAR! What is it good for?

Absolutely nothing!

OK, as a peacemaker and mediator, I'm just bummed out really badly tonight that our nation is entering into another war. This makes the 4th major war in my lifetime, and that's not counting all the other "little" skirmishes we have been involved in!

Tonight, I'm praying for the safety of our soldiers and the innocent people in Iraq and hoping that it's overwith soon!

And I'm praying and hoping that this will be the last war, but realistically, I doubt it.

John and Yoko said "War is over, if you want it" but alot more people than me wanting it is going to have to happen before that's true! This is a sad day!

User Comments: luke http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Both of you hippies need to live in the now. War is real people, and we need wars to control the population.

Never mind the fact that the 20th century saw some of the worst wars in the history of humankind and yet the population quadrupled. But anyway, they have to label some century as the bloodiest (i just hope the 21st century doesn't steal the title).

Alright. All seriousness aside. This war is pissing me off too. It was interesting because I started watching the speech a few minutes after he started. I started watching when he was saying things like...

"..This nation has funded terrorist groups, esp. Al Quaida. This nation is a threat to their neigbors. This nation has not worked with the UN. This nation has rejected the use of diplomacy to deal with it's problems. This nation has developed weapons of mass destruction etc etc etc..."

It's funny because I thought he was talking about the US! It wasn't until he mentioned Saddam that I realized he was talking about "the modern day Hitler" of Saddam.

Matthew ------es...a trully sad day. :-(

"If people demanded peace instead of another television, then there'd be peace."

-John Lennon 1940-1980

------Date: 2003-03-20 21:42:00 Subject: How do I expect... countries to get along, if we can't even get along with our neighbors?

I just returned from a homeowner's meeting for my condo. I'm in "training" to be on the board next year so I attend each meeting each month.

At the last meeting, my downstairs neighbor complained about the "excessive" noise coming from my apartment. No, I've given up my sub-woofer and my exercise equipment. The excessive noise she complained about was my clock radio in my kitchen (set at NPR, for Jack & Marina) and my TV (even after I invited this particular neighbor to my home to affirm that no, it wasn't too loud and they were both at acceptable levels) and my walking. Since I've gotten hardwood floors, I don't even wear shoes in my place anymore, as I kick them off the minute I enter and only put them on as I leave.

Anyway, of course, when she was here to hear my radio and TV and agree with me about the levels not being too loud, I asked her if she had a resolution about how I could eliminate the walking noise for her. She didn't have an answer to that so I thought she would just have to deal with it.

I knew I was just being optimistic about all this when I got a phone call from her on Saturday night as I was running bath water for Joey and Jessie and brushing teeth. She screamed at me "do you know how loud you are being?" and I just listened to her rant and rave about how she just knew that I was talking about her with my sister and how she knew that I was trying to break up her marriage and how she hasn't been able to sleep at all at night and how she cries all night because I make so much noise.

Needless to say, she gave the same song and dance to the homeowner's group tonight and finally, when one of them asked her what she wanted, she said that she just wanted me to respect her.

So I'm trying really hard to do that, but I'm thinking that if anyone is that sensitive to noise that #1 --- they shouldn't be living in a downstairs apartment and #2 --- they shouldn't be living in a multi- family dwelling and #3 --- they should get a life!

User Comments:

Mike Losack ------Hey Jill,

I feel for you. I have apartment security, and there are some residents who can be so unreasonable. Luckily my apartment mangement recognizes this fact, and will eventually tell these peoplethat their complaints are not valid. thereafter they are simply ignored until they finally move. You are right in saying that this woman should not be living in a multi-family dwelling. She should have a house on a hill in the country. I live downstairs, I hear noise, I just deal with it. Hang in there.

Mike Losack

Derekjames http://www.journalscape.com/derekjames/ ------You have to respect her?

Hm...that's gonna be hard. ;)

------Date: 2003-03-21 20:04:00 Subject: Giving Thanks

I just love this....

Giving Thanks, from The Great Boomer Bust, by Katy Butler

I went to dinner with my brother Peter in the flat he shares in the Haight-Ashbury. He is 36, a perpetual student, and lives on about a quarter of what I spend. There's always peace and quiet at his place, a sense of being an expected guest. He knows how to use a pressure cooker and where to find prized items at Goodwill; when he wants to see a show, he works as an usher. When I arrived, the table was set and the lights turned low; there were wine glasses filled with mineral water, cloth napkins folded carefully at each place, and two candle stubs glowing. When it was time, we sat down for homemade lentil soup, warm sourdough rye from the neighborhood bakery, salad, and baked potatoes. I felt so cared for that I ate bread as though it were a rare food, tasting the grains against my palate instead of wolfing it down. There was a sort of Zen luxuriousness about the whole meal; we squeezed maximum enjoyment out of minimum consumption. My deepest needs warmth, light, quiet, companionship were satisfied. I didn't miss anything.

I thought of my own life my constant conversations with myself about wanting a child, a new couch, a weekend cottage, a bigger house on a quieter street and realized my discontent was cheating me of the life I had. "If it's by choice and it's not overwhelming, having no money can be a way of entering more deeply into your life," my brother said as he served me some more soup.

Not long after that, I bought myself a new raincoat, a year's supply of shampoo, and a pressure cooker. I quit my job as a reporter to become a freelance writer. I wrote to the direct mail association and asked them to take me off the catalog lists. I sold my ancient, infuriating old Mercedes and bought a dull but reliable used Honda. I bought a second-hand copy of Laurel's

Kitchen, I learned to cook beans, and started using my library card.

I decided that if the economy was going to deprive me of things I deeply wanted, it would not also take my free time.

I began facing the life I had, not the life I dreamed of having or thought I deserved to have. I turned off lights. I started to cut the link between consumption and pleasure, between consumption and self-worth.

First published in Mother Jones Magazine, June 1989. ©1989, Katy Butler, Mill

Valley, California.

------Date: 2003-03-22 19:21:00 Subject: I'm grateful, I think

So my son Matthew calls me and tells me the Camp Pendleton band is in Iraq. I scream into the phone "What do you mean the band is in Iraq? I thought you told me there was no chance that you could go!"

And he says that he 'probably' won't be called, and right now, that's good enough for me.

Matthew has about 6 months left of inactive duty in the Marine Corp (he's done on Sept. 11, 2003) and I'm just hoping and praying that they won't call him up.

Of course, Matthew says if he *does* have to go that he would probably just be called on to check id's and security for the higher ups there, but I'm just now hearing that the 101st got attacked by a grenade wielding American soldier. There is no safe place in war, or otherwise, I guess, for that matter.

------Date: 2003-03-25 21:41:00 Subject: Things I do to get my mind off the war

1. Look at pictures of Jessie, Joey & Caroline.

2. Take my dogs for a walk and watch them sniff and examine and sniff and examine and sniff and examine every blade of grass along the way.

3. Take a bath, with bubbles and dim lighting. 4. Light a candle and enjoy the scent.

5. Read The New Yorker cartoons.

6. Call or email a friend.

7. Watch my cats chase a bug.

8. Say my children's birthdays one at a time and think of all the good things about them, one at a time.

9. Walk and smile and say hello to everyone I meet along the way.

10. Clean the dust off my ceiling fan.

11. Listen to Jeff Foxworthy's CD "You might be a redneck if..."

12. Buy a new brand of Merlot and try to imagine the grape vine that it came from.

13. Listen to Norah Jones.

14. Read poetry.

15. Write poetry.

16. Fill my ice cube trays.

17. Recline.

18. Watch the "Wizard of Oz"...again.

19. Go to the Dallas Museum of Art.

20. Plan a vacation to NYC in September.

These are just some of the things I do to get my mind off the war...what do you do?

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------Hmmmmm...... things I do to take my mind off the war? It's kinda hard to answer since it's ALWAYS in the back of my mind.

but here's a short list

1. watch movies on either dvd or at the theater. 2. i think that it's important for me to counterbalance the war with a lot of positive messages so i've been listening to a lot of good positive music. Marvin Gaye, Bob Marley, Stevie Wonder, etc.

3. i also think that it's a good idea for me to counter this war with some good anti-war music so i've been listening to a lot of Dylan, the Beatles, Rage Against the Machine, Marvin Gaye, Jimi Hendrix etc etc.

4. i've always liked going to the park war or no war, so i've continued to go to the park regardless.

it's kinda tricky for me to say what i'm doing to keep my mind off of things because i've been so in tune to it all. i'm constantly checking up on it at work. when i watch tv it's been war coverage mostly. i haven't found myself to the point where i feel like it's too much, but i'm sure that's not far off.

i gotta get back to work.

Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Good list mom. I take the dogs on a walk, listen to music, watch movies, play video games (the new Zelda game mainly!!!), talk with friends, occassionally study (ha!). Although it's hard to keep the mind from waundering back to Iraq every once in a while.

------Date: 2003-03-26 21:50:00 Subject: Pacifism

I found this interesting in the latest New Yorker...

"I see that a man I know to be a ruffian is pursuing a young girl,” Leo Tolstoy wrote in “The Kingdom of God Is Within You.”“I have a gun in my hand—I kill the ruffian and save the girl. But the death or the wounding of the ruffian has positively taken place, while what would have happened if this had not been I cannot know. And what an immense mass of evil must result, and indeed does result, from allowing men to assume the right of anticipating what may happen. Ninety-nine per cent of the evil of the world is founded on this reasoning—from the Inquisition to dynamite bombs.”

To read more, go to this article.

User Comments:

Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------For a pretty good discussion on this very topic, visit my friend Derek's weblog.

------Date: 2003-03-27 15:17:00 Subject: Wingman

If you regularly watch the popular TV show, "," as I do, then you're already aware of its clever, dead-on satire about American culture, family life, and religion. In one memorable episode, young Bart Simpson, a proverbial bad seed, finds himself in the care of his fundamentalist and evangelical neighbors, the Flanders family. Naturally, Ned and Maude (the parents) have carefully monitored the leisure activities of their obedient sons, Rod and Todd, so Bart is bored stiff around these goody-goodies.

The situation perks up a bit when the boys haul out their favorite (and only) video game called Bible Busters. The objective is to convert all heathens (depicted on screen as cavemen) into Bible-toting Christians, who stand erect in three-piece suits. This conversion is accomplished by zapping the heathen dead on with a Bible shaped salvo.

Bart is, of course, a master at blood-and-guts video games. He eventually takes over the controls, but struggles to make a clean hit. Finally, he zaps a heathen and exclaims, "I got him! I got him! " Rod examines the screen and shots Todd an awkward sideways glance and responds, "Uh, No Bart. You just winged him... and made him a Unitarian."

User Comments:

Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------A friend of mine at my UU church said that, after watching this episode, a friend of his looked up Unitarianism on the Internet and found our church and attended it the following Sunday and joined it shortly thereafter! Way to go, Bart!

------Date: 2003-03-30 21:34:00 Subject: Day of Silence

I participated in a day of silence at my church yesterday. I had signed up for it a couple of months ago when they were introducing the Adult RE (Religious Education) programs for the spring "semester" and it sounded like a good idea at the time. I'm game for almost anything new that I haven't tried and I thought, "what the heck...I'll give it a go."

So I woke up early, a sacrifice for me these days, watched a little war coverage and was determined to get a few errands in before the day at the church. So I returned my cable converter (I've finally joined the land of the satellite dish and TIVO!),stopped at the vet to get J & M & D & D some Science Diet, and stopped at Angela's Cafe on Inwood to grab me a bite to eat (I'd heard about this place in the Guide a couple of months ago and I've been trying to find an excuse to try it ever since) before my day of silence began.

I arrived at the church early and instead of deciding what to bring to the day, I just brought my whole 'book bag.' My book bag is something I carry back and forth to work everyday. It contains various magazines, books, newspaper articles that Sherry gives me, a couple of data CDs, a few floppy disks, MaryAnn's PIF and Burke Presby's CIF, pictures of Jessie and Joey and Caroline, my daytimer which has my bills and important info, and a couple of gum wrappers, crumbs from various breakfast, lunches and dinners that I've consumed in the car, etc.

I brought the book bag, along with Chris Hedges' book War is a Force that Gives Us Meaning and Anne Lamott's book Bird by Bird , as well as my New Yorker Desk Diary that I carry everywhere, with the latest copy of the New Yorker stashed away, just in case I have a minute to read the cartoons, or the most interesting sounding article that I can find.

So there I go...into the church....loaded down...bag lady in training!

We start the day with the facilitator whispering the agenda for the day, but telling us this is our day and we don't have to follow an agenda at all, if we don't want to. Then we go into the silence. Our charge, if we want to accept it, is to find 'intention' for our meditation. Oooh, that's a hard one for me. So much intention...so little time.

So I mulled this over for awhile and finally settled on "I am enough" which was the theme of a sermon that I listened to lately. I lit a candle for the sand garden (the fourth one to be lit, as that's my lucky number) and then continued to be silent for the rest of the first hour, as I watched everyone else, eyes closed, really getting into it...alot better than me, I was sure! When everyone started to leave for various other areas of the church "campus" for activities that had been laid out for us (art, clay, sewing, nature trails, food, green tea, yoga, etc.), I stayed in the chapel that we'd started out in and proceeded to organize my book bag, and read yesterday's mail that I had been carrying around for a whole 24 hours. Already I was blowing it! Maybe "I am enough, as long as I have my mail read" should have been my meditation intention.

Anyway, once I got through that, I decided to lighten my load. I took my book bag back to my car and decided I'd only carry around my 2 books, my New Yorker Desk Diary (with the latest issue of The New Yorker) and the packet the facilitators gave us. I was ready to get serious now!

I went to the church library and read the long intro to the "War" book and then it was time for yoga. Since I was already there, I got down on the floor with the rest of the participants and for the next hour I inhaled and exhaled and stretched and posed and generally really got into it. I really like yoga and everytime I do it, I vow to do it more regularly.

By the time that was over, I was pretty mellowed out and ready to just go with the flow. I read a little more and then it was time for lunch. It was wonderful...all the stuff I like...breads, salads, tea, you know, Cafe Express kind of stuff!

I tried eating my lunch outside, but it was a little chilly, so I ended up in the parsonage in a room with about 5 other people. This was the hardest part of the day for me, as I sat there with these other people and just thought it was so strange that we weren't conversing. I always seem to be the one, if no one else will do it, to start conversations when I'm with a group, so I just had to keep shoving food in my mouth. Finally I found a graceful way to leave the room so I didn't have to deal with my strange feelings of not bringing this silent group together in conversation!

Then it was time to read again, and then we all went into the sanctuary and had another facilitated meditation. The girl that led this one said that she found it hard to be still when she meditates so she proceeded to help us relax, one body part at a time. I think the whole group got so relaxed that I'll call this the "sleeping" meditation, as I'm pretty sure the breathing I heard was snoring and not just simple exhaling and inhaling! Maybe this is what this meditation thing is really all about, I thought. Just a good nap after lunch.

After this, the day was almost over. I had a few more minutes to read the Bird book intro, and then we met as a group "to leave the silence and go back into our day" in the parsonage living room. We planted seeds (either Basil or Sunflower) in little styrofoam cups (not very Unitarian, I was thinking) and then we evaluated the day. I gave the day good marks/myself failing ones.

Oh yes, I was silent, but I'm thinking that maybe I didn't have the deep, inward thinking, revelatory day that most had. So what is wrong with me? I used to be such an achiever!! And then it hit me. Maybe I'm finally OK with my life. Maybe I don't have some flaw that I want to fix, some child that I want to fix, some man that I want to fix, me that I want to fix.

Maybe I'm finally getting it. Maybe I'm finally living and breathing and believing what my friend Red in Houston always said...that "everything everywhere is alright already."

In the silence, or in the Metallica/Rage Against the Machine/heavy metal loudness, I'm OK with my life right now. And more importantly to me, I'm OK with Jill right now.

If it took this day at the church to help me realize this, then it was a day well spent!

------Date: 2003-03-31 21:14:00 Subject: You heard it here first

OK, so I'm watching CNBC and the "News with Brian Williams" (I really like him, he's so tanned!) and Forrest Sawyer (who's holding down the homeland front for Brian while Brian's embedded somewhere in the Middle East) is talking to some "expert" about the war when he says "we don't know what we're talking about...we're just speculating" and then he proceeds to continue asking him about the war and strategy and other stuff.

I'm not kidding...he really said that!

All of this happened after I was already amazed this past weekend while watching C-Span when I heard another expert say that he "didn't know anything about that" but then proceeded to go on for another 5 minutes or so and definitively answer a question from a Washington Journal journalist.

I just love the first amendment!

------Date: 2003-04-01 09:09:00 Subject: Happy April Fool's Day!

In case you're interested, here's what Urban Legends says about the origin of April Fool's Day.

And if you're not interested, here's a New Yorker cartoon to give you a giggle.

------Date: 2003-04-01 11:05:00 Subject: Fancy Ketchup

I stopped at Angela's Cafe the other day and ordered breakfast to go...scrambled eggs, hash browns and biscuits...my idea of heaven on a Saturday morning.

Anyway, the lady behind the counter loaded my to go bag with jelly and napkins and eating utensils and little packets of 'fancy ketchup' (for my hashbrowns, I'm guessing).

What exactly is fancy ketchup? I consulted Websters and found out that fancy, used as an adjective means "not plain" so I'm thinking in the case of this little packet of ketchup, that by adding distilled vinegar, high fructose corn syrup, corn syrup, salt, spice, onion powder, and natural flavoring to tomatoes, the manufacturers took plain old ketchup and made it 'fancy.'

But I'm wondering if they hadn't added all those ingredients to tomatoes anyway, it wouldn't have been ketchup, would it?

Point is, if I'm going to enjoy fancy ketchup, I want more for my money. Maybe throw in a little hat with flowers, a little lace, something sleek and satin, or at the very least, a petticoat or two?

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------Wow....that was very Twainian. Maybe there's a Huck Finn in there somewhere, just waiting to get out.

Good writing.

:-)

------Date: 2003-04-03 13:05:00 Subject: Day by day by day by day by.... Do you ever have one of those moments when you think "I'm losing it" and you get this sudden feeling of dread?

Well, I did this morning. I was getting ready to go to work. I put Jack and Marina in the kitchen, was giving them their cookies and turning on NPR for their listening pleasure for the day, when all of a sudden, I looked at my "Believing in Ourselves" page a day calendar. It said Wednesday, April 2, so I boldly tore off the page and had it displaying today, April 3rd.

That's when I quit believing in myself! Wait a minute, it's not Thursday, it's Wednesday. Or is it? That's when the dreaded "I'm losing it" feeling began. There was a sudden feeling of anxiety, as I thought, how, right now, do I find out exactly what day it is? I turned around to look at the monthly John Lennon calendar that I have hanging on my pantry door. OK, I know it's not April 1st...that was a given. But looking at the whole 30 days in April didn't give me any better clue as to whether this was the 2nd or the 3rd.

So I just walked out the door and drove to work, still not knowing whether I had 2 days until the weekend or just 1. After firing up my computer, I said a quick prayer "Outlook, don't fail me now!" and quickly learned that it was indeed Thursday April 3rd. I had been right all along and should have trusted my actions (to rip off Wednesday) and my instincts (that it was Thursday). But it still made me feel creepy.

I checked with a couple of my co-workers and they all agreed that this has happened to them, so I feel better now.

And I'm also attributing part of my brain 'fart' to having a clear calendar this week. Oh yeah, I had the usual work, but I had no evening meetings or extra curricular activities planned, so each day just kind of blended into the next.

I'll not let that happen again! I'll have my girl call your girl and we'll do lunch!

------Date: 2003-04-03 21:20:00 Subject: He said what?

So, I'm just into about 5 minutes of my stairmaster workout at the gym right after work. I'm already fantasizing about going home, walking my dogs, doing a few chores, very few, and then sitting down with a glass of wine and Tivo'ing my evening away, when I hear someone say to one of the trainers at Heart Healthy, "so were you here the other day when the guy died?"

Now, my concentration has been interrupted. I'm thinking...what guy died? what was he doing? was he doing the stairmaster, as he had done time and time again, day after day? was he new to the gym? should I be doing this today? maybe I should go get the stress test from my doctor soon? is this really helping me...exercising after work? should I just go home, hug my dogs and cats and forgetaboutit..exercising, I mean?

Oh well, I didn't find out the details of this remark and I just went about continuing my workout and hoping for the best. Stress, always present...even when we're not looking for it!

------Date: 2003-04-04 09:37:00 Subject: Saving Private Saddam

I woke up during the night at about 3:30 AM and turned on CNN to see what was going on with the war.

They were showing a couple of Army medics tending to a wounded Iraqi soldier. Evidently, a CNN crew saw that this fellow was alive, amidst many dead Iraqi soldiers, and brought it to the attention of the medics.

He had been there about 5 or 6 hours, they figured, and he was wounded in the leg and buttocks, but not life threatening injuries, although he probably would have died if he hadn't been rescued and helped by the medics.

Although CNN didn't show his face, the reporter said that the fellow was obviously relieved and grateful for the medical attention he was receiving. They were cleaning his injuries and giving him an IV, before they carried him off the battlefield (there was still active combat going on during all of this) on a stretcher to the nearest 'mash.'

I'd like to think that this kind of thing would be happening, without the embedded media there to record it for posterity, but I guess I'm not totally convinced about that.

And I'd also like to think that the other side would treat our wounded soldiers just the same, but again, I'm not convinced at all that this is happening.

And finally, if one minute two guys are bitter opponents and the next minute they are tending to each other with care and concern, why can't we just skip the first step (opposition) and go directly to the second step (care and concern)?

------Date: 2003-04-05 20:07:00 Subject: Brainstorming in the live music capital of the world

I took an early morning flight to Austin this morning to attend a strategic planning meeting of the Texas Association of Mediators. I'm membership director and webmaster for this group and really enjoy it, although it's a lot of work, especially from November to about this time of year. That's when our annual conference occurs and our over 350 members renew their membership. I usually don't have a spare minute in my spare minutes.

Today, we had a facilitator help us re-vamp our mission statement and identify some strategic objectives to fulfill the mission. It took us about 7 hours, but we have a good roadmap for the days and months and years ahead.

I enjoy flying to Austin and if you haven't been to Love Field lately, you won't believe how classy the place looks, with it's new remote parking garage, the 'skywalk' to the terminal from the new garage and the groovy new signs...updated and so eye-appealing!

Austin's a really cool place to visit, too, but I'm always taken aback by the signs everywhere that promote it to be the 'live music capital of the world.' Now I love Willie, Waylon and the boys as much as the next guy, and I've heard some pretty good music in Austin, but 'live music capital of the world'???? I'm thinking, probably not.

But then again, what would be?

------Date: 2003-04-06 21:15:00 Subject: Hailstorming in the shopping center capital of the world

I got back from Austin just in time yesterday evening. As I was pulling into my condo parking lot, I noticed lightning in the western sky. My sister greeted me, as I was exiting my car, and said "I'm glad you made it back from Austin before the tornado hits!"

Huh? Tornado? Well it is springtime in North Texas so I need to be prepared for anything, at any minute, right?

All I was intent on doing was walking Jack and Marina before the rain hit.

Mission accomplished. Walk done and now I could just sit and chill and Tivo and try to stay awake until a reasonable hour to go to bed. But then, all 'hail' broke loose!

Literally hail the size of anemic baseballs started hitting my second floor roof and wind and tinier hail and rain and it was really something!!! My kitties didn't like it, not one bit, and since they are the ones closest to their animal instinct roots in my house, I had to pause a little as they vied for the safest position in my place...between the back of the potty and the bathroom wall...a place with only room enough for one (one kitty that is!). So I switch to The Weather Channel, only to have my satellite go out...Ted says it's something called rain fog, I think. Maybe it's better I don't know what's happening. So I ride it out.

It ended soon, but before it did, I felt a little like I'd ended up in Baghdad! It was pretty scary...the sound of it all.

It almost makes me wish for the summer days ahead...stable, 100 degree plus weather, with no chance of rain or hail or anything pleasant...just pure hot and heat and simmer!

October...where are you when I need you?

------Date: 2003-04-08 22:16:00 Subject: 4/10s

Last year my company's CIO decided sometime around the 4th of July weekend that all of us in IT could work 4 ten-hour days until Labor Day, if we so chose. (It's cheaper and easier than giving us all raises, after all.)

I grabbed this idea and ran with it and took Mondays off and had a ball. A three-day weekend, every week! Life was good.

Well, last week, our CIO decided to start our 4/10s the day after Daylight Savings Time took effect 4/8 and so I was delighted to have Monday off yesterday. Of course, today, I had to pay the piper...10 solid hours of productivity and nose to the grind stone!

I made it through and am now just really dead tired and ready to go to bed!

But before I do that, I'll let you know that I think I made a good decision. Having all of Monday off and getting to start the work week with only 4 days instead of 5 days ahead of me today was a delight!

Monday is always better when it's a Tuesday!

------Date: 2003-04-09 23:10:00 Subject: Rejoice! OK, I'm agreeing with Jon Stewart on this one. Unless you are really far to the left or really far to the right, it's hard not to find that today was a good day.

I know that we'll have tough times ahead, but seeing people tearing down statues of Saddam (I think we can all agree that he was a seriously bad man) was, at least to the author of this site, a welcome and joyous sight!

------Date: 2003-04-10 17:34:00 Subject: Breadcrumbs

Are they useful on a website?

I didn't even know about them until last night, when I was meeting with the website committee for my church's re-design of its website.

They are called breadcrumbs and according to Google, they are a form of navigation where the current location within the website is indicated by a list of pages above this page in the hierarchy, up to the main page. For example, if you were browsing the products at a department store, you might see the following hierarchy when you're on the Sneakers page:

Home > Products > Clothes > Shoes > Sneakers

Each of the categories above the current page is usually a link to the corresponding category page.

The term "breadcrumbs" is a reference to the Hansel and Gretel tale where they leave breadcrumbs as they wander the forest so they can find their way home. The metaphor is imperfect because the breadcrumbs do not represent the actual path the user took, but instead the optimal path from the home page to the current page in the hierarchy.

Well, anyway, just when I thought I 'knew it all' about websites, I learned something new last night.

I think they are pretty cool, but I'm also thinking that I'll just let my browser's Back button (with the accompanying down arrow) do the work for me, and not rush to include them on my sites.

User Comments: Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------I try to do this on all of the pages on my site. It's kind of a courtesy to the users.

Kenny http://www.journalscape.com/kenny/ ------I really like them on a website. A good navigation menu is really important.

------Date: 2003-04-11 11:23:00 Subject: The Cost of War

Terry Gross was interviewing David Horsey, the 2003 Pulitzer Prize winner for editorial cartooning, today on her show. I quickly stopped what I was doing and made a quick trip to his page on the Seattle Post- Intelligencer site. I was blown away by his cartoons, and I'm sorry to say that I hadn't known about him, until today.

This one, in particular, made me pause...

I also added one to my April 9th entry "Rejoice" if you want to check it out. It seemed to fit.

User Comments:

Nobody ------I like how the war widow holds out her left hand like the Virgin of the Pieta. She's holding her husband like Mary held Jesus. I wonder if the boy's posture referances another work.

------Date: 2003-04-14 11:26:00 Subject: You are not forgotten!

Great news! Iraqi troops south of Tikrit handed U.S. Marines a stunning surprise Sunday: seven American POWs were released in relatively good condition after three weeks of captivity.

It's important, though, to remember that the number of Americans still missing and unaccounted for from the Vietnam War is 1,887 (as of April 7, 2003).

You are not forgotten! I found two pretty good sites to track the status of our POWs and MIAs...this one and this one.

------Date: 2003-04-15 13:39:00 Subject: "I told u I was hardcore."

    Those were the last coherent words Brandon Vedas, 21, typed into the computer in his Phoenix bedroom as he showed off for Internet pals watching on a Web cam by swallowing more and more prescription drugs.

    Vedas died online as a crowd of virtual onlookers egged him to "eat more!" A chilling record of the Jan. 12 chat reads like an Internet version of the notorious 1964 Kew Gardens, Queens, stabbing of Kitty Genovese as her neighbors watched from their windows.

    In Vedas' case, some did try to help — begging him to stop, to call 911, to get his mother from the next room. After he passed out, some tried frantically to figure out his location while others argued against getting involved.

    But the technology that brought as many as a dozen chatters into the intimacy of Vedas' bedroom was unable to tell them where he was. Internet Relay Chat is anonymous, and no one in the drug users' chat group knew the last name of the young man who called himself Ripper.

    By his own account, bragging in the hour before he died, Vedas ingested large doses of Klonopin, Methadone, Restoril and Inderal, along with marijuana and 151-proof rum.

    Vedas, who worked in computer support at the University of Phoenix, knew a lot about the dangers of mixing drugs. But he also bragged delusionally about his "high tolerance."

    On the night of Jan. 12, Vedas urged chat pals to log onto his Web site and watch him go through his stash. "Bottoms up, fellas!" he crowed.

    "Don't OD on us, Ripper," said one of the onlookers watching Vedas swallow pill after pill.

    "That's not much," said a teenager from rural Oklahoma who calls himself Smoke2K. "Eat more. I wanna see if you survive or if you just black out."

    In the macho atmosphere of the druggie chat room, Vedas seemed to have something to prove. "This is usual weekend behavior. U all said I was lying," he said.

    He said it was safe and noted, "My mom is in the next room doing crozzwordz."

    As he took more and more, Vedas' typing became disjointed. His chat pals cheered him on.

    "Ripper — you should try to pass out in front of the cam," suggested one gleeful voyeur.

    Vedas even tried to protect himself against disaster.

    "In fase anything goe wrong," he said, typing his cell phone number. "Call if I look dead."

    Soon, he did.

    Soon, he was.

    "I am online with 911. Is this the right choice?" asked one chatter. "NO NO NO NO NO," said another. "I talked my way out of it," came the reply. "I didn't give them any info."

    In the end, there was nothing they could do.

    Vedas' cell phone was off or not loud enough to rouse anyone else in the house. They looked up his Web site registry, but he had listed his home number as 555-1234.

    And the online chatters didn't know his real name or location.

    His mother found him at 1 p.m. the next day sprawled on his bed. The tech whiz's computer had shut down and locked itself automatically, so it wasn't until more than a week later that the family found out his death had had witnesses.

I first read about this story in the May 2003 issue of Harper's Magazine. They have the transcription of the January 12 Internet Relay Chat session. I found out more details from The Daily News. I'm thinking anyone who reads this story would be sickened and saddened as I was. And it may even make them be a little more careful with both prescribed and unprescribed drugs.

But maybe not...

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------Wow. That's a really messed up story. That's a story that sticks with someone for a while after reading it.

Tragic, to say the least.

MaryAnn ------This is just about the saddest thing I've ever read... in addition to be tragic all the way around, I'm pretty sure it is some kind of allegory.

------Date: 2003-04-16 22:27:00 Subject: What would you loot?

OK, I know that I would never, ever do this, but let's just say that I was in a country...Iraq...and they had just ousted the evil, awful leader and for just a short period of time there was not leader, and I had been downtrodden and thinking I was owed something and there were all sorts of things I could snatch for myself, that would sort of repay all the misery I had suffered for lo these many years....what would I chose to lug back to my humble abode?

Which store would I chose to go to? Maybe Borders, or Barnes and Noble? No, I already have a bookshelf full of books.

Maybe a clothes store, say The Gap or Old Navy...no, I already have a closet full of clothes and just how many outfits can you wear in a day?

Maybe a jewelry store, but then again, I don't really need to know what time it is (who needs a watch?) and jewelry...who needs it either?

Maybe Best Buy...but then again, I have a great and reliable (knock on wood) computer and enough TV sets to watch...after all, there are only so many hours in a day!

A bank...now you're talking! But since the evil dictator ruled the country, there probably wouldn't be any money to pick from a bank...what money there was probably is sheltered somewhere in some French bank account!

Oh well...I've made it this many years without taking something that doesn't belong to me...guess I won't start now.

But then again, if I had the chance, what would I loot?

What would you loot?

User Comments: anya ------disturbed by matt's plan? definitely. surprised? not in the least.

but since matt's already looted all the good stuff...i think i would just loot matt's apartment and save myself a few trips ;)

Matthew McKibben ------I'm really surprised that Mattell (or whomever makes Barbie dolls) hasn't come out with an "Anti- war Protestor Barbie" complete with "Riot Gear Ken." You could have Barbie with a bandana over her face while Ken shoots tear gas into the crowd. I'd buy that.

MaryAnn ------Is anyone else disturbed that Matthew has given this topic so much thought?! BTW, you can give all the Barbie dolls to Jessie. We are hoping to postpone Barbie as long as possible while probably not banning them outright. After all, forbidden fruits are the sweetest. Besides I played with Barbies and I am a badass feminist.

Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------Wow! I'm impressed. Sounds like you've got a plan!!

Now if we could only get one of our local sports teams to win a championship, you could implement it (ala LA Lakers style). ;-)

Matthew McKibben ------Hypothetically:

If I could convince myself that looting wasn't wrong, I'd probably rob:

a) Best Buy-I'm really wanting that 13,000 dollar flat screen television, brand new 5 disc dvd changer with BOSE surround sound system, 100 disc cd changer, all the dvd's and cd's I could fit into my basket. A Playstation 2, GameCube, and X-Box with all the games I could fit into my car.

then I'd head over to

b) Toys R Us: I'd fit all the Star Wars toys I could into my basket. I'd even get some Barbie Dolls so that I could give my nieces some new dolls (see I'm not all bad). Then I'd pick up this R2-D2 droid that I've been hearing all about that has some kind of AI capabilities and can more or less function on it's own. If looting isn't an option for you then it retails at 99.99 dollars. I guess the hefty expense is just to ensure that George Luca$ never has to loot ILM's toy chest.

then I'd head over to c) Petsmart: and Free all the animals. You can't have looting without a little chaos, and nothing says chaos better than loose animals.

then I'd head over to the zoo

d) for the same reason posted above. But this time the animals would be bigger and I could kidnap a little monkey for my own diabolical schemes. Monkeys are smart, I can convince it to help me loot.

then I'd head over to

e) Marshalls BBQ and steal me some food

after eating I'd go to

f) random clothing stores to pick out my new wardrobe. In my quest to fill the power vacuum that regime change brings, I'd buy lots of Berets and old military uniforms.

But you can't have a regime of your own without going to

g) Wal Mart- and buying out their arsenal of weapons. Nothing says dictator better than standing above your adoring masses and firing your weapons into the air. then I'd head over to the bank

h) and take out some of the federal govt's money. Nothing says ruthless dictator better than getting financial backing from the United States Federal Govt. ;)

-matt

------Date: 2003-04-17 10:34:00 Subject: The Revenge of the Net Evaders

Does anyone but me get annoyed when you're faced with the possibility of future communication and the people you need to communicate with don't have email?

I am the membership director for a couple of mediation organizations and often I need to communicate with my members about upcoming events. Most of the people have email and I can just compose the message, hit the 'send' button and I'm good to go.

But there are a surprising number of people in both groups that don't have email. Because they don't choose to be a part of the 21st century, I have to take my valuable time and convert the message to paper, stuff, lick, stamp and mail their meeting announcements via snail mail. Each time this happens, I find myself getting put out with the non-email types, thinking, how stone age can you get??? Not having email in this day and age.

But according to a new study from the Pew Internet and American Life Project, 42 percent of American adults say they are not connected to the Internet, and a surprising number live in a household where other relatives are regular Internet users, or they have close friends who regularly go online. Yet they refuse to join the crowd.

Of those who do not use the Internet, the study found, 74 percent have relatives or close friends who do. And 20 percent of the nonusers are what the study calls Net evaders: people living in Internet-connected homes where other relatives go online.

The Net evaders have their reasons for remaining offline. Some are short on free time and fear that it will take over their lives - that once they take the plunge, they will never resurface. Others simply prefer to send and receive handwritten correspondence. Still others lament the loss of face-to-face contact associated with the rise of the Web. A few confess to ignorance and intimidation. And there are those who manage, through wired surrogates, to take advantage of the Internet indirectly for research or communication.

Now I can imagine the fear of the net taking over my life. In fact, I was urged by a friend some time ago to respond and make comments on his weblog, and I told him that I had resisted doing that because once I took the plunge I'd be hooked and soon he'd find me in a gutter somewhere, having lost my home and hearth because I was too busy commenting on weblogs to hold down a job.

That, in fact, hasn't happened and I'm proud to say that I can show restraint. And while I can understand the Net Evaders worrying about their precious time, I just wish they'd be a little more benevolent and worry about my precious time and the time it takes for me to provide them with their precious handwritten correspondence!

User Comments:

Nobody ------Some folks just can't afford it. The library (the only place I've *ever* seen free Internet resources) is not someplace most folks think of going to do what is "fashionable."

For plenty of Americans computers are just too expensive, and regular payments to an ISP make the concept rediculous. Most of my neighbors have a hard enough time making ends meet. No one has even bothered to explain the uses in a computer, let alone the Net.

Then there are folks like my parents who just don't trust the things not to bring filth into their homes. (I've explained both the V-chip for cable and Netsetter for the computer but they persist in excluding cable and Internet from the house.)

------Date: 2003-04-17 10:57:00 Subject: Fashionable Floods

Now that spring is upon us and the weather is warming here in Big D, alot of the women in my office are wearing those mid-calf length pants.

I'll have to admit that I resisted buying into this craze last year, thinking it would only last one season and besides that, I'm not really dictated by the fashion gods anyway. Being a tall gal (5'7"), many times in my past I've purchased jeans and other long pants, only to have them shrink with each washing and drying and sooner or later they'd end up as "floods". Disgusted, I'd throw them in a bag and contribute them to Goodwill! They'd be just perfect for some 5'4" body!

Now, however, I'm thinking I should have just held onto them and I'd be fashionable. But to be honest, they still just look like "floods" to me, so I'm not sure I'd be able to get over that!

------Date: 2003-04-18 21:50:00 Subject: Good Friday with Grand Kids

I arrived in Tulsa today to be greeted by Joey and Jessie with huge smiles on their faces when they saw their MaDear coming their way.

It's so wonderful to see that, even though we're miles away from each other, they know me and are glad when I visit.

I spent the rest of the day "playing" with them. Jessie is full of imagination and Joey and I entered into her fantasies. She directs us, which is good for me, because I don't have much of an imagination.

Joey is growing out of the last of his baby fat and he's looking like a 3 year old already, even though he still has a few weeks to go.

They both are full of energy and I realize now that they're in bed that I'm exhausted from trying to keep up with them! But it's a good tired...I'm so thankful for my grandchildren!

User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------I'm envious. I can't wait until June when I can come up and hang out with the Jessie and Joey meisters. Tell them they don't even know what fun is until their Uncle Matt gets up there. ;-)

------Date: 2003-04-22 14:45:00 Subject: We'll show 'em how to do democracy!

I was just listening to NPR and they were talking about Iraq's oil-for-food program. The oil-for- food program was exploited in the most cynical manner by members and clients of the palatial Saddam regime, who used the money to enrich themselves while starving and neglecting the population.

The news reporter was interviewing our "wonderful politicians" to ask them how we can bring honesty and sanity to the new Iraq so that, in the future, the Iraqi people can enjoy the fruits of their labor. I'm thinking, that's like asking the fox to guard the hen house! If you don't believe me, go here or here.

We're all screwed!

Except for the lucky people that work for SAS. Did you see 60 Minutes last night about that really cool company?

------Date: 2003-04-23 12:49:00 Subject: Well I'm movin' on Up!

For all of you that remember that TV series, The Jeffersons, you can sing along with the following:

    Well I'm movin' on Up!

    To the east side!

    To a dee-luxe office in the sky.

    I'm movin' on up!

    To the east side!

    I've finally got a piece of HR pie!

    Fish don't fry in the kitchen,

    Beans don't burn on the grill.

    Didn't take much tryin'

    Just had to sit here and chill.

    Now I'm up in the big leagues,

    Gettin' my turn at bat! As long as I live,

    It's People Strategies, baby!

    There ain't nothin' wrong with that!

    Hooray, I'm Movin' on Up!

    To the east side!

    To a dee-luxe office in the sky!

    I'm Movin' on Up!

    To the east side!

    I've finally got a piece of HR pie!

Now for the explanation...seems my boss Mary is being promoted to VP or Director of Training (not sure which) and instead of just IT training, she'll be in charge of all of ClubCorp training. She needed one of her team to volunteer to go up (to the 8th floor) with her and move from IT to People Strategies (HR). Since I'm always looking for opportunities to update my resume, I volunteered and she's glad, as she would have picked me anyway, I think.

I'm cool with it as it beats getting laid off and I'm looking forward to the new opportunity (although I'm going to miss being next to the rest of my group that's staying on the 6th floor and in IT, but I'll still be 'working' with them on projects, at times). I'll be doing alot of what I'm doing now and interfacing more with the business sponsors (higher ups) in the company so that's always a good thing, I guess.

This 'promotion' didn't come with a pay raise, but then again, in today's economy, I'm just happy to be employed!

Oh, and BTW, my new office will be on the east side, as opposed to the west side (which it is now)....a lot better feng shui and 'facing' my grandkids!!

User Comments:

Derekjames http://www.journalscape.com/derekjames/ ------Ah, so that's what you were talking about. Are you and Mary moving, or is the whole crew?

Matthew ------Congratulations!!!! Won't be long until you're running the place. And I believe it's "Well I'm a Movin on up." The 'a' is pronounced as an 'uh.' ;-)

matt

Katie ------Congrats!

------Date: 2003-04-24 16:09:00 Subject: One of the A words-which one are you?

Are you an agnostic, an atheist or just apatheistic?

I just read an interesting short essay about "apatheism" in Atlantic Monthly. In searching for a link to this essay, I came across this blog about it.

    Don't care much about your religion and care even less about the religions of others? Then you're an "apatheist," according to The Atlantic Monthly's Jonathan Rauch. Most agnostics are apatheists, but most apatheists are not agnostics--because a believer can still be an apatheist. It's what makes it possible for Rauch to have "Christian friends who organize their lives around an intense and personal relationship with God, but who betray no sign of caring that [Rauch is] an unrepentantly atheistic Jewish homosexual." The piece isn't online, but Rauch claims that apatheism is rising, and that it's a very good thing:

    "...the rise in apatheism is to be celebrated as nothing less than a major civilizational advance. Religion, as the events of September 11 and after have so brutally underscored, remains the most divisive and volatile of social issues. To be in the grip of religious zeal is the natural state of human beings, or at least of a great many human beings; that is how much of the species seems to be wired. Apatheism, therefore, should not be assumed to represent a lazy recumbancy, like my collapse into a soft chair after a long day. Just the opposite: it is the product of a determined cultural effort to discipline the religious mindset, and often of an equally determined personal effort to master the spiritual passions. It is not a lapse. It is an achievement."

In search for more, I went into Websters Online, but apatheistic wasn't listed. However, The American Dialect Society (whatever that is) published their words of the year and making an appearance in the creative catagory was apatheist, someone believing that God or gods exist but are not of any use.

Interesting, I think, to say the least, yet not surprising. I see alot of apathy these days in many areas...does not surprise me it's flowed over to theism. User Comments:

Rferb ------Excuse my ignorance: is this a newly coined word, or has it been around...also, what is the correct pronunciation?

Rferb wes http://www.djlocutus.com ------< apatheist who cares<<<

i just "discovered" apatheism (iornically it was on the american dialect society website... when i was doing research for a paper.. anyway) i now realize that i haven't been atheist or agnostic, as i had thought for most of my live, but i am in fact apatheistic. however i do care about religion. this might sound like a contradiction... but it's not. i think other people's religions are fascinating, especially the really involved ones. however when it comes to the question of god(s) i'm really not concerened (personally). this is great, i've already told some of closest friends about it. i really hope this is a growing trend in the world.

Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------I was still somewhat asleep this morning when I turned on C-Span and a caller (apparently an atheist) was questioning Brian Lamb as to why he grilled a previously caller about their source to the claim that Colin Powell was an atheist.

She said, "if the caller had said that Powell was a Methodist, would you have asked for a source of this information?"

Good point, and I imagine he wouldn't have and I can kind of see now why this stuff can be pretty frightening to a "non-believer", but a believer in separtion of church and state.

Derekjames http://www.journalscape.com/derekjames/ ------Q: So are you ignorant or just apathetic?

A: I don't know and I don't care.

Well, I'm definitely not apatheistic (good to see people are still out there busily making up new words). I care very much about religion. So I'm still very firmly an agnostic, though not an apatheistic agnostic (which is utterly lame). Why not just call yourself a "Brain-dead Sleepwalking Zombie" instead?

------Date: 2003-04-26 12:01:00 Subject: I finished a book!

Now this doesn't sound like a comment that needs an exclamation point following it, but it's rare that I do...finish a book that is.

I don't know whether it's short attention span, adult attention deficit disorder, no time, too much Tivo time or what, but I have a hard time making it through even the easiest to read book.

But this time I did. I just finished "Last Man Down" about one of the 911 FDNY firefighters that was trapped in a stairway in the north tower of the WTC. It was an interesting read and the whole time I was reading it, I was just imagining that scene over and over again of the buildings falling. I still can't believe that anyone made it out alive.

One of the most interesting (and sad) parts of the book was the story about when the guy was making his descent down the stairs (before the fall, but the south tower had already tumbled). On each floor from about the 23rd one down, he would scan the floor for survivors before he headed down to the next floor. On one floor, he came across a firefighter, sitting in one of the offices, calmly smoking a cigarette. Seems this guy didn't make it out, and the author felt that he didn't want to. He'd had lots of financial, family problems so this guy just was going to go down with the building. Evidently, this happens, although rarely (hopefully). Sad, so sad...

Having finished this book, now I'm encouraged to start another. This one is interesting too..."Jarhead"...a memoir of a Marine in the first Gulf War. Not your usual rah-rah, but how it really is. I don't want to call it anti-war, but it's definitely not pro-war either. And of course, the whole time I'm reading it, I'm thinking about my son Matthew and the things he didn't tell me...probably a good thing!

------Date: 2003-04-28 10:04:00 Subject: Do it anyway

We talked about paradoxes and religion yesterday in my Sunday School class at First U, and someone brought along this:

    The Paradoxical Commandments

    -by Kent M. Keith

    People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered. Love them anyway.

    If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives. Do good anyway.

    If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.

    The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.

    Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable. Be honest and frank anyway.

    The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest ideas. Think big anyway.

    People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs. Fight for a few underdogs anyway.

    What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway.

    People really need help but may attack you if you do help them. Help people anyway.

    Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth. Give the world the best you have anyway.

It hit home.

------Date: 2003-05-01 18:19:00 Subject: Preposition Therapy

I'm finding out that I like The Atlantic Monthly magazine almost as much as I like The New Yorker, and that's quite a lot!

In the May 2003 issue, I found the following information:

    ...consider a study published this year by psychologists at the University of Texas at Austin. The findings, published in the journal Psychological Science, suggest that people who use a diverse array of pronouns have stronger immune systems, lower levels of stress, and less need to see the doctor than people who say "I" "I" "I" all the time. The study speculated that the willingness to perceive the world from many angles is a healthier outlook than solipsism. Can preposition therapy be far away? You, me, us, them: this is a form of enhancement we can all embrace.

You can find the whole article called "The Olden Mean" (When the posthuman future meets our pre-posthuman selves" here.

Now, I say, ur, rather, you need to use more pronouns when you talk about us and them, according to me, and you'll live longer and healthier!

------Date: 2003-05-05 19:49:00 Subject: Saving face

On May 2nd, I turned the page of my calendar to find this quote from Lauren Bacall:

    I think your whole life shows in your face, and you should be proud of that.

Then, today, when I had my TiVo on while I was enjoying the day off, I heard someone else say:

    The face you have at 50 is the face you've earned.

I guess I feel better now.... User Comments:

Matthew McKibben ------Movie star addition:

The face you have at fifty is the face you purchased. :-)

------Date: 2003-05-06 13:35:00 Subject: Only the nose knows

Some people have really interesting jobs. In the May 5th 2003 New Yorker Talk of the Town there's an interesting article about a guy named John Caglione, Jr. who won the Oscar for makeup in 1991 for his work in the movie "Dick Tracy," in particular Tracy's nose. He also made the cones for the Coneheads on SNL.

But before you think that this kind of work just comes to you without effort or a learning curve, read this from Caglione's own words:

    When I was twelve, I sent my brother to the emergency room. One night, when he was maybe twenty, I tried to make a cast of his face. This is before I knew about alginate. I had this stuff called dental stone. I put it on my brother, but I didn’t know that as it sets it goes up to about 220 degrees Fahrenheit. I nearly baked him! We tried to chisel it off, but the stuff was like granite. I had stuck straws through his nostrils so he could breathe, but it was hot under there. I remember my dad and I dunked his face in water in the bathroom sink, and when the water came out of the nostril holes my brother looked like a fountain. So we took him to the emergency room around midnight. The doctors just ripped the stone straight off. It took his eyebrows and his mustache with it—and it was the early seventies, so he also had these big long sideburns. He still has a chunk of the mold on his bureau; it’s weird to see the eyebrow emerging from the dental stone. It’s a perfect eyebrow, every follicle ripped right out.

Why do I think of my sons when I read this?

User Comments:

Matthew ------quote

Why do I think of my sons when I read this? answer

Because I did this to Luke last night. Didn't you hear about it? ;-)

Matthew

------Date: 2003-05-07 09:29:00 Subject: Please call me by my true names

Thich Nhat Hanh is very big around UU. And so is Joseph Campbell. So it's only fitting that Unitarians try to tie the two together somehow.

During the last group meeting studying Joseph Campbell, the facilitator read this poem by Thich Nhat Hanh:

    Please call me by my true names

    Don’t say that I will depart tomorrow- even today I am still arriving.

    Look deeply: every second I am arriving to be a bud on a spring branch, to be a tiny bird, with still fragile wings, learning to sing in my new nest, to be a caterpillar in the heart of a flower, to be a jewel hiding itself in a stone. I still arrive, in order to laugh and cry, to fear and to hope.

    The rhythm of my heart is the birth and death of all that is alive.

    I am the mayfly metamorphosing on the surface of the river.

    And I am a bird that swoops to swallow the

    mayfly.

    I am a frog swimming happily in the clear water of a pond.

    And I am the grass-snake that silently feeds itself on the frog.

    I am the child in Uganda, all skin and bones, my legs as thin as bamboo sticks.

    And I am the arms merchant selling deadly weapons to Uganda.

    I am the twelve-year-old girl, refugee on a small boat, who throws herself into the ocean after being raped by a sea pirate.

    And I am the pirate, my heart not yet capable of seeing and loving. I am a member of the politburo, with plenty of power in my hands.

    And I am the man who has to pay his “debt of blood” to my people dying slowly in a forced-labor camp.

    My joy is like Spring, so warm it makes flowers bloom all over the Earth.

    My pain is like a river of tears so vast it fills the four oceans.

    Please call me by my true names, so I can hear all my cries and laughter at once, so I can see that my joy and pain are one.

    Please call me by my true names so I can wake up and the door of my heart could be left open, the door of compassion.

I really liked this explanation of spiritual literacy (kind of the 'theme' of this piece), given by Frederic and Mary Anne Brussat.

    One of the greatest steps to enlightenment is realizing the interconnectedness of every single living thing in the universe. The realization that you do not exist in a void... you are not only you, you are everything. Everything is you and whatever you endeavor has consequences beyond your widest imaginings. No event or choice in your life stands on its own. So you are forever arriving and even in the moment that you truly feel you belong in a certain place is the moment you start leaving. The moment you feel you know everyone, you meet someone new. The moment you realize you have friends you become isolated. The instant you find true love you lose it. The recognition of yourself as a moving part of the universe - that when someone hurts you hurt too, that even if a tree hurts you hurt, that there is a universal pain, but also a universal joy. That pain and joy are so inextricable from each other that they can not exist independently. That laughing and crying are the same thing. You are the abused and the abuser. Then reality becomes clear and we recognize our responsibility to live, to make decisions, to be absolutely compassionate or be nothing.

Wow! I may not ever get there, but I can strive to get there, and by striving, I am there, right?

------Date: 2003-05-07 16:13:00 Subject: If only we were as hearty as the worm

The NY Times had this little article about the C. elegans worm:

    The Indestructible Worm

    When last we checked in on the tiny soil worm known as C. elegans, it had reached a pinnacle of scientific success. Not only was it the first animal to have its genome deciphered, but it had also become the favored laboratory specimen for studying how cells divide, differentiate and develop into organs, a role that contributed heavily to last year's Nobel Prize in medicine.

    Now C. elegans has achieved another spectacular feat. Hundreds of the worms were on the space shuttle Columbia when it disintegrated. They survived the breakup, the fiery descent through the atmosphere and the jarring collision with the ground and kept on reproducing until they were found three months later.

    Whether this was mostly luck, or because their canisters rode in a sheltered spot on the shuttle, or because of the worms' hardiness, is not clear. Their survival lends plausibility to the notion that life might have descended on Earth from other worlds in ancient times. If a tiny soil worm could do it, why not a hardy bacterium from a distant world, hitching a ride on a space rock or, dare we think it, sent by an advanced civilization?

------Date: 2003-05-08 09:47:00 Subject: 3 branches of government

Bill Maher was on the Hardball College Tour with Chris Matthews the other night and said this when asked about political focus groups:

    "I think the 3 branches of government now are Photo-ops, Attack Ads, and Focus Groups."
I know it's a cynical thought, but I can't say that I disagree with him.

User Comments:

Matthew ------Nice quote. Can't say I disagree either.

-matt

------Date: 2003-05-09 11:27:00 Subject: Live the questions now

Rainer Maria Rilke, in Letters to a Young Poet, says the following:

    I would like to beg you...as well as I can, to have patience with everything unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves...Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will gradually, without noticing it, live your way into the answer.

This has been so true in my life. Many times things have happened to me that, at the time, seemed disastrous, or at the very least disabling. Wasted time was spent trying to figure out the answers to my dilemmas, only to find that if I live the questions, the answers always come.

User Comments:

Derekjames http://www.journalscape.com/derekjames/ ------"have patience with everything unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves"

That's exactly what I do. I don't claim that the unsolved is solved, and I question everything.

"Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them." Huh? I would say that by seeking answers, you are also finding ways of living them.

"And the point is, to live everything."

And what does "living everything" entail?

"Live the questions now."

How do you live a question? If you explore a question, you're seeking answers, which is exactly what he told us *not* to do just a second ago.

"Perhaps you will gradually, without noticing it, live your way into the answer."

Uh, okay. By living the questions, right? Like, what does that mean, dude?

------Date: 2003-05-11 14:50:00 Subject: Mother's Day Proclamation

-by Julia Ward Howe (27 May 1819 to 17 October 1910)

    Arise, then, women of this day!

    Arise all women who have hearts, whether your baptism be that of water or of fears!

    Say firmly: "We will not have great questions decided by irrelevant agencies, "Our husbands shall not come to us reeking with carnage, for caresses and applause.

    "Our sons shall not be taken from us to unlearn all that we have been able to teach them of charity, mercy, and patience.

    "We women of one country will be too tender of those of another country to allow our sons to be trained to injure theirs."

    From the bosom of the devasted earth a voice goes up with our own. It says, "Disarm, Disarm!"

    The sword of murder is not the balance of justice! Blood does not wipe out dishonor nor violence indicate possession.

    As men have often forsaken the plow and the anvil at the summons of war, let women now leave all that may be left of home for a great and earnest day of counsel.

    Let them meet first, as women, to bewail and commemorate the dead.

    Let them then solemnly take counsel with each other as the means whereby the great human family can live in peace,

    And each bearing after her own time the sacred impress, not of Caesar, but of God.

    ------Date: 2003-05-14 22:35:00 Subject: Jumping the shark? probably....

    Ok, I'm slow, I know!

    More than a year ago my best friends in Houston recommended I watch "West Wing" 'cause it was their favorite show.

    Then, my sweet daughter MaryAnn recommended it to me, saying it was one that she TiVo'd every week.

    I still didn't listen. After all, I had Charlie Rose and The Daily Show and Inside the Actor's Studio and I just couldn't handle more TV.

    But, after spending a couple of weeks in Atlanta around the time of Caroline's birth, I watched it with MA & Robert and got hooked.

    It's been a show I look forward to since Feb. 12, 2003.

    I just have to say now though, after watching the season finale, that I arrived too late at the party. In this episode, Pres. Bartlett evokes the 25th amendment after his daughter is abducted and "Republican Speaker of the House " takes over powers of the presidency....Ack!

    Once again, I'm just too little, too late!

    User Comments:

    Matthew McKibben ------it's always painful to watch a favorite show of yours jump the shark...."the simpsons" i'm looking in your direction.

    -matt

    MaryAnn ------I've heard lots of speculation about shark-jumping for that show. I thought it was riveting TV last night even though it is very different than it used to be. Sorkin is also leaving the show which could be the death knell.

    I thought it was interesting because it mirrors real life. I remember thinking after 9/11--if George W. Bush had been offered the job of baseball commissioner back in the late 90s (which he really wanted)... and if those several hundred voters in Florida had voted differently... if the Supreme Court had had different people on it... and so on and so forth, the world would be very different today. Now on WW you have a similar dynamic. If the president didn't have MS... and if the VP hadn't had to resign... etc. etc. That's just so interesting to me, how seemingly unrelated events create a domino effect. John Goodman character=Newt!

    Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Never seen it, though based on your description it sounds like it might be.

    ------Date: 2003-05-15 11:51:00 Subject: Eeuuww, or however it's spelled

    Now I'm not making a value judgement here, if any of you happen to appear at my doorstep after doing this, but then again, maybe Matthew was way ahead of his time back on that little red fire engine in Southside Park so long ago....

    User Comments:

    Jill/Mamala ------I'm not going to ask you why "chicks dig scars." ;-)

    Matthew ------I am THE trendsetter!!!! I still have two little teeth marks in my tongue from that incident. Chicks dig scars.

    -matt

    ------Date: 2003-05-19 15:31:00 Subject: I wish I could be so bold!

    So I'm sitting on MARTA (Atlanta's light rail system)going to the airport, early in the morning, after spending a wonderful weekend watching MaryAnn graduate with an M.Div., Robert lovingly plan their move to Springfield, and Caroline doing what she does best....stealing hearts everywhere.

    I've got my nose deep into the latest issue of Vanity Fair, reading about the Oscars from Dominick Dunne's point of view when all of a sudden I hear a voice around me say something. I continue to read on about how Halle Berry hated the wide open mouthed kiss (with tongue) that Adrien Brody laid on her after she announced his name for Best Actor for "The Pianist," (she says he wouldn't have done that to Meryl Streep if she had been the presenter) when I became conscious that perhaps someone was trying to get my attention.

    I looked up and there was a young girl, probably in her mid-teens, riding alone next to me (across the aisle). She said, "Ma'am, do you have any gum?" I always carry gum, so I dug in my purse and supplied her with a piece of Peppermint Trident. She was happy.

    I'm thinking, unless it was life or death for me to bum something off a stranger, I'd never, in a million years, do this. And I'm also hoping that if it was life or death, that my adrenalin would take over for me, because I'm not so sure I'd even ask for help then from a perfect stranger on a train!

    All in all, I think the gum chewing stranger on the train is a lot healthier than me, in at least this way.

    User Comments:

    Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Yeah but maybe she was a serial killer.

    ------Date: 2003-05-22 23:03:00 Subject: Boston with the UUs

    I have an early morning (6:30 AM, aacckk!) flight to Boston tomorrow morning. I'll be back on Tuesday at 6 PMish.

    Should be really, really fun and informative and rainy, according to weather.com., but oh well, I won't melt and it may even make my hair curly...cool!

    User Comments:

    Matthew ------I'm green with envy. I've always wanted to go to Boston. I hear it's a gorgeous city. I hear it's not much of a college town though. ;-)

    matthew

    ------Date: 2003-05-27 22:00:00 Subject: Back from Boston

    I'm back (and blown away) from Boston!

    I'll write more later, but for now, all I can say is that the next time you meet a Unitarian, thank them for your American democratic heritage! I'm thinking seriously that if we didn't have those rebel, Unitarians in our history, we'd all be paying taxes to King George and, instead of badmouthing Bush, we'd be badmouthing Blair, right about now!

    User Comments:

    Matthew McKibben ------If there is ONE American philosopher that stands out in American History, it's Ralph Waldo Emerson who also happened to have been raised a Unitarian. Go figure.

    I think some of our founding fathers and mothers were also Unitarians, or at the very least a lot of them were deists, which is essentially the same thing as Unitarian. Thomas Paine, I'm looking in your direction. Thomas Paine was in many ways, the most radical of founding fathers.

    MaryAnn ------...if the Unitarians gave the revolution its oomph, then the Presbyterians came along afterward and made everything "decent and in order". lol

    Derekjames http://www.journalscape.com/derekjames/ ------Did they go and fill you with a bunch of Unitarian historical revisionism and propaganda? :)

    ------Date: 2003-06-03 16:45:00 Subject: Typhoid Jill

    No, it's not SARS, but I've done it this time.

    My dear friends in Houston graciously allowed me to stay in their home over the weekend so that I could be conveniently located to all of MaryAnn's ordination activities.

    Before hitting H-town, however, I developed a sore throat, which progressed into a devil of a summer cold, two days before my arrival there.

    I didn't let that deter my plans, however, as I've always believed that old wives' tale about "how by the time you have symptoms of an illness, you're no longer contagious."

    Yeah, right!!!!!

    I just got an email from one of my Houston hostesses and she's nursing her sore throat now and quizzing me on just how this thing progresses and how much more pain and suffering she has to endure before it's gone.

    Now who's to say that she got 'my' illness, as it is a big and cruel world out there, but then again, maybe I'm getting my due, as when I arrived back at my office, I screamed and yelled at a co- worker (not seriously, mind you) about how he gave me his dastardly cold!

    If I hear about one more person (from last weekend) getting this thing, I'm really going to be sick (in the heart and soul) that I inflicted such pain and suffering on others!

    Sorry, in advance....I'm really, really sorry!

    ------Date: 2003-06-04 13:45:00 Subject: Survivor Guilt

    Well, it happened.

    The much anticipated layoffs in my department happened yesterday. Of the 6 of us, 3 are left. Actually, the 3 that got laid off have a job until August 12th if they want it, and after that, 2 months severence, so I'm thinking (hoping) that they will be able to get great jobs soon!

    I'm one of the 'lucky' ones that didn't get hit, but that's always a double edged sword.

    I've never really liked good-byes and after spending 8+ hours a day with these people, they've become 'family' so this is difficult.

    On the other hand, it seems every time I've either quit a job willingly or had the job 'quit' me, I've ended up in a better place. I'm confident that this will happen to my 3 amigos here!

    ------Date: 2003-06-06 08:14:00 Subject: I will not die an unlived life

    I will not die an unlived life

    - by Dawna Markova

      I will not die an unlived life

      I will not live in fear of falling Or of catching fire

      I choose to inhabit my days

      To allow my living to open me

      Making me less afraid

      More accessible

      To loosen my heart

      So that it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise

      I choose to risk my significance.

      To live so that that which comes to me as seed

      Goes to the next as blossom

      And that which comes to me as blossom

      Goes on as fruit.

    ------Date: 2003-06-06 08:27:00 Subject: The time will come...

    Love After Love

    by Derek Walcott

      The time will come when, with elation you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror and each will smile at the other's welcome,

      and say, sit here. Eat.

      You will love again the stranger who was your self.

      Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart to itself, to the stranger who has loved you all your life, whom you ignored for another, who knows you by heart.

      Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

      the photographs, the desperate notes, peel your own image from the mirror.

      Sit. Feast on your life.

    ------Date: 2003-06-06 08:31:00 Subject: The last of "poetry Friday"

    Attitude is Everything by Francis Altazar-Schwartz

      Chapter 1

      I walk down the street. there is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

      I fall in.

      I am lost...I am helpless.

      It isn't my fault.

      It takes forever to find a way out.

      Chapter 2

      I walk down the same street.

      There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

      I pretend I don't see it.

      I fall in again.

      I can't believe I am in the same place. Bit it isn't my fault.

      It still takes a long time to get out.

      Chapter 3

      I walk down the same street.

      There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

      I see it is there.

      I still fall in....it's a habit.

      My eyes are open.

      I know where I am

      It is my fault.

      I get out immediately.

      Chapter 4

      I walk down the same street.

      There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

      I walk around it.

      Chapter 5

      I walk down another street.

    ------Date: 2003-06-10 21:35:00 Subject: Seen any cute dogs & cats lately?

    Well, here they are! Dalai, Dharma, Jack & Marina!!!

    ------Date: 2003-06-10 22:07:00 Subject: Seen my wonderful sons lately?

    The Way of Love

    -by Rumi

    The way of love is not a subtle argument.

    The door there is devastation.

    Birds make great sky-circles of their freedom.

    How do they learn it?

    They fall, and falling, they're given wings.

    User Comments:

    Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------You don't look old, you look 25! And it's still under 30, so I can still trust you...

    Matthew McKibben ------What a couple of rascals!!!! How come a I'm starting to look so old. It's not fair. ;-) -matt

    ------Date: 2003-06-11 17:12:00 Subject: Lame excuses

    You all know the drill....

    "the dog ate my homework"

    "my aunt died"

    "my child is sick"

    etc., etc.

    My friend Derek and I were talking about why people (me included) feel the need to give an excuse when they have to bow out of a scheduled, planned get-together. Why can't they just say that they aren't in the mood or they've changed their mind or go to hell!

    But no, we all have to come up with an excuse, which oftentimes, is pretty lame!

    Derek's bridge night is going to be one short because his friend "just bought a computer and has 15 days to decide whether or not he is going to keep it so he needs tonight's hours to evaluate it." Yeah, right....

    Perhaps Derek's friend Cory was the recipient of the best lame excuse I've heard. When inviting a girl that he was interested in out for dinner, she declined saying "that she had leftover lasagna in her 'fridge and if she didn't eat it that very evening, it would go bad."

    You've just got to love it!!!

    User Comments:

    Matthew McKibben ------Isn't bridge an old ladies game? ;-) j/k

    I'm the king of lame excuses. Give me a circumstance, I'll find an excuse.

    :-)

    Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------How about:

    I have to defrag my harddrive.

    ------Date: 2003-06-12 12:20:00 Subject: The Three Goals

    The Three Goals

    By David Budbill

    The first goal is to see the thing itself in and for itself, to see it simply and clearly for what it is.

    No symbolism please.

    The second goal is to see each individual thing as unified, as one, with all the other ten thousand things.

    In this regard, a little wine helps a lot.

    The third goal is to grasp the first and the second goals, to see the universal and the particular, simultaneously.

    Regarding this one, call me when you get it.

    ------Date: 2003-06-12 12:27:00 Subject: Hope

    Hope by Lisel Mueller

    It hovers in dark corners before the lights are turned on, it shakes sleep from its eyes and drops from mushroom gills, it explodes in the starry heads of dandelions turned sages, it sticks to the wings of green angels that sail from the tops of maples.

    It sprouts in each occluded eye of the many-eyed potato, it lives in each earthworm segment surviving cruelty, it is the motion that runs the tail of a dog, it is the mouth that inflates the lungs of the child that has just been born. It is the singular gift we cannot destroy in ourselves, the argument that refutes death, the genius that invents the future, all we know of God.

    It is the serum which makes us swear not to betray one another; it is in this poem, trying to speak.

    ------Date: 2003-06-12 12:30:00 Subject: The Peace of Wild Things

    THE PEACE OF WILD THINGS by Wendell Berry

    When despair for the world grows in me and I wake in the night at the least sound in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be, I go and lie down where the wood drake rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.

    I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives with forethought of grief. I come into the presence of still water.

    And I feel above me the day-blind stars waiting with their light. For a time

    I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.

    ------Date: 2003-06-13 09:54:00 Subject: It's Friday and I'm not getting on a plane!

    I woke up this morning with a sense of panic. It's Friday, after all, and I don't have a suitcase packed. In fact, my suitcase is rebelling, as on my trip last week to Tulsa, the handle broke and it's now in the suitcase repair shop, taking a breather from my hectic schedule too!

    For the past 4 weekends, I've travelled to Atlanta, Boston, Austin/Houston and Tulsa and the trips have been just some of the best experiences of my life.

    I got to enjoy the Columbia graduation and baccalaureate (Caroline), an ordination (Jessie, Joey and Caroline) and a gymnastics recital (Jessie and Joey). Oh yeah, and of course being around my fab four didn't hurt either!

    But as much as I enjoyed the past four weekends, I must say that I'm looking forward to a quiet weekend at home coming up. Jack and Marina will be happy about it too! Not to mention Dalai and Dharma!

    I say all this and also say at the same time that I can't wait until mid-July's trip to DC!

    User Comments:

    Matthew ------You hung out with the Beatles?????? ;-)

    Gotta amscray!

    matthew

    MaryAnn ------It's also Friday the 13th!!!

    ------Date: 2003-06-15 17:21:00 Subject: Father's Day

    I was pleased to learn this morning in church that Father's Day wasn't a holiday initiated by Hallmark.

    Seems it originated way back in the early 1900's with a young girl that was raised by her father, after her mother died at an early age. She thought up the celebration while attending a Mother's Day service and celebrated it about a month later, in June. LBJ signed the order to make Father's Day a holiday on the third Sunday in June back in 1966, and I'm glad he did.

    After all, I should remember and appreciate my own father and grandfathers and the father of my children every day, but at least I have one 24 hour period each year, specifically set out for that purpose. That's pretty neat.

    Today, in church, our intern pastor read the following passage. It's a lesson Robert Fulghum got from his grandfather. I thought it was pretty neat!

      My grandfather Sam called me up last Tuesday to ask me if I'd take him to a football game. Grandfather likes small town high school football-- and even better the eight-man ball played by cross roads team. Grandfather is a fan of amateurs and small scale.

      Some people are concerned about how it is that good things happen to bad people and there are those concerned about how bad things happen to good people. But my grandfather is interested in those times when miracles happen to ordinary people.

      Here again he likes small scale. When a nothing team from a nothing town full of nothing kids rises up with nothing to lose against some up market suburban outfit with new uniforms, and start chucking hail Mary bombs from their own goal line and their scrawny freshman tight end catches three in a row to win the game, well, it does your heart good.

      "Murphy's Law doesn't always hold," says grandfather. Every once in a while, the fundamental laws of the universe seem to be momentarily suspended and not only does everything go right, nothing seems to be able to keep it from going right.

      Ever drop a glass in the sink when you are washing dishes and have it bounce nine times and not even chip? A near miss at an intersection, the lump that turned out to be benign, the heart attack that was only gas...

      My grandfather says he blesses God each day when he takes himself off to bed, having eaten and not been eaten once again. Now I lay me down to sleep, in the peace of amateurs for whom so many blessings flow, I thank you God for what went right. Amen.

    ------Date: 2003-06-15 22:29:00 Subject: Oh, what the hell...

    Matthew and I had this discussion recently about replying to a blog where he totally disagrees with most of the premises presented... I say, just go for it!

    I think that just by disagreeing, it doesn't discount the other person in any way. Just as they have a right to their opinion, so does everyone else in the world. I am often troubled by people in this world who hold strong opinions, but yet, when challenged, shrink to tears, or don't want to defend their opinions (is it fear that they can't, that they won't hold up to scrutiny, or what?)

    Anyway, one of the things I enjoy in this world is honest debate. I've talked about discussing subjects at length with my co-worker Derek and although we hold different opinions on a lot of topics, I always find that it challenges me to defend my opinion, which is very good. Do I have the right information? Do I really believe what I'm saying and standing for? etc. etc.

    When we disagree, I don't take it as a personal attack, even though Derek sometimes rolls his eyes or tells me that what I just said didn't make any sense. I've learned long ago that that kind of stuff, in a debate, is often used when the other person doesn't have a good comeback. And sometimes, I need to go back and find better information to support my belief. That's always a good thing!!

    And sometimes, I can even be persuaded to change my mind or point of view. And how neat is that?

    User Comments:

    Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------EXACTLY! Derek, you're a genius!

    Derekjames http://www.journalscape.com/derekjames/ ------Well yeah...obviously I agree with you here. This is one of the reasons I have a blog in the first place.

    Some bloggers only want either acolytes or to draw flame. I like honest interaction. I like to hear people tell me what they really think, and then I get to do the same.

    In Christopher Hitchens' book Letters to a Young Contrarian he points out that even between two people who seem to be intractable entrenched in their own ideologies, most intelligent people never come away from a debate/argument/discussion without some change or refinement to their own point of view. Healthy debate, he argues, is a crucible for your own views...and I agree.

    ------Date: 2003-06-16 10:39:00 Subject: From Blossoms

    From Blossoms by Li-Young Lee

    From blossoms comes this brown paper bag of peaches we bought from the boy at the bend in the road where we turned toward signs painted Peaches.

    From laden boughs, from hands from sweet fellowship in the bins, comes nectar at the roadside, succulent peaches we devour, dusty skin and all, comes the familiar dust of summer, dust we eat.

    O, to take what we love inside, to carry within us an orchard, to eat not only the skin, but the shade, not only the sugar, but the days, to hold the fruit in our hands, adore it, then bite into the round jubilance of peach.

    There are days we live as if death were nowhere in the background; from joy to joy to joy, from wing to wing, from blossom to blossom to impossible blossom, to sweet impossible blossom.

    ------Date: 2003-06-16 17:25:00 Subject: Make Love, Not War

    I saw this guy, Chris Hedges, on Charlie Rose and thought he was interesting. I bought his book, "War is a Force that Gives Us Meaning". Here, he answers some readers' questions.

    It's all about the love!

    I wondered if the love Hedges suggests as an alternate path to life than war-making was a new idea for him or is part of his religious legacy flowering again? ... I do hope he will be able to share more of his thinking on what he sees as the path that turns away from war, why he called it love. ayohn3 5/23/03 9:21am

    Chris Hedges: Love is the only antidote to war, not love in the abstract but love in the particular. This does not mean that we can, through love, eradicate war. But love protects us from the contagion and euphoria of war, for in the love of the other we find a wholeness and a completeness that gives us meaning and more importantly happiness. We do not, if we have love, need to seek this outside of our relationships. Love protects us from the cruelty of war. It protects us from the racism and intolerance and drive to dehumanize the other that comes with blind patriotism. When we can see love in others, even our enemy, that is like our own, we can forgive. And in forgiveness we can create a new narrative, one that saves us from the cycle of violence. I do not see love, however, as an alternative to war. I am not a pacifist. I see it as a protection from the contagion of war and from hate and from the lust of war, all those forces that can stunt and destroy a civilized society in wartime.

    What is your definition of love? bdhpoet 5/20/03 7:49pm

    Chris Hedges: God

    What "acts or behaviors of love" are sufficiently intense to offset or balance war-lust (for want of a better term)? ayohn3 5/20/03 7:42pm Chris Hedges: The love between two people can offset the lust for war, for we will sacrifice security for those we love, just as comrades will sacrifice themselves in war. The difference is that dying for a friend or one we love is bitter and hard. It is not like dying for a comrade. There is no ecstasy in this death. Friends and lovers lose, perhaps forever, the precious dialogue that comes with love, the dialogue that touches our inner core. Friends fear death. They do not exalt in it like comrades. This is why love is the most potent antidote to war.

    Why do you, Mr. Hedges, conflate love and friendship? Why do you limit the definition of friendship the kind of affinity that has traditionally been reserved for love? Why do you believe that the battlefield is not the place where such friendship could occur? jackson_dyer 5/22/03 10:32pm

    Chris Hedges: It is almost impossible in war to build or sustain love, everything around you conspires to destroy tenderness and beauty and replace it with violence and smut, all those things that turn human beings into objects. Real friendship -- and I mean the kind of friendship that happens to us a few times in our lives -- is love. Many of us, if we were honest, would admit we never had a friend. The most fortunate of us have very few. In the friend we find self- awareness, self-possession, the opposite of comradeship which is the suppression of self- awareness for the intoxication of the cause. This confusion in war between friendship and comradeship is common, but the comradeship of war is not friendship. It is not love. It is part of war's intoxication. This is why once the war is over these comrades again become strangers to us. It is why after war we fall into despair. Without the external threat to bind us as comrades, to make us feel as one entity, one people, without the cause to give us a single purpose in life, there can be no comradeship. War, especially at its inception, looks and feels like love but it is death. And so much of the worship and excitement of war and comradeship is at its core necrophilia.

    ------Date: 2003-06-20 10:27:00 Subject: Drivers Wanted

    I was doing my usual 30 minutes on the Stairmaster last night at Heart Healthy, listening to my headphones and watching the TV screen, and realizing that if I wasn't impatient with commercials before TiVo, I certainly am now. I was switching channels whenever there was a commercial break and found that most of the stations I was going to took their commercial breaks at the same time.

    So that left me with trying to fill up my mind with something other than the sweat and toil and physical exertion that I know comes with my daily workout. What to do???

    And then it hit me. When I use the stairmaster at Heart Healthy, the view in front of me through the expansive windows is of the LBJ freeway [that's the 635 loop (now the inner loop, thanks to the Pres. George Bush freeway {as opposed to the Pres. George W. Bush freeway} that is at least looping the north side of town)]. It was rush hour and the traffic was moving remarkably well. So I started a game with myself. Which color Beetle would be the most popular color that I'd see on LBJ at rush hour on a Thursday in Dallas for the next 30 minutes?

    I was surprised at what I saw! First came the Blue one (like mine), then the Pea Green one (which was a color I considered before I settled on the Blue one), then another Blue, then a Black one (with that little handle dealy that covers the back so it looks like you could pick it up by it's bootstraps!), then another Blue one, then a Silver one, then another Blue one, then another Blue one, then another Blue one!

    I was shocked. In the course of about 30 minutes, I saw no White ones (sorry, Luke), no Red ones, no Yellow ones, no Orange ones, no custom color ones (but I did see a 60s model in a groovy shade of pale)!!

    How can this be?

    I guess this isn't a very scientific study, after only one evening of Beetle color watching, but I'll be back this evening for another 30 minutes!

    Aaaahhhh, life is good!!

    ------Date: 2003-06-23 22:17:00 Subject: Drivers NOT Wanted

    Volkswagen to end production of old-style Beetle car this year

    BERLIN (AP) - Volkswagen said Friday it will stop making the original rear-engined Beetle later this year, bringing the curtain down on the nearly 70-year history of the classic "bug."

    Production of the last old Beetles at the VW plant in Puebla, Mexico, will "end this summer," spokesman Fred Baerbock said, adding that an exact date was not set.

    He said there had been sinking demand for the original model, made only in Puebla since 1978.

    The first version of what would become known as the Beetle was developed in 1934 under the guidance of Adolf Hitler, who wanted to build a "people's car" - or in German, a Volkswagen. It first entered mass production after the Second World War.

    Over the decades, the VW became a favourite of both thrifty postwar Germans and 1960s American hippies before competition from Japanese compacts elbowed it aside.

    Volkswagen sold more than 21 million of the cars over the decades, but says it produced less than 30,000 at Puebla last year.

    Puebla will continue to produce the New Beetle sedan, a modernized successor to the cult car, which hit the market in 1998 and has a chassis based on the VW Golf.

    © The Canadian Press, 2003

    Can you say sad, very sad?? Although I'm crazy about my New Beetle, this story still makes me sad.

    Probably, though, they'll quit making them, only to re-tool them someday and charge us nostalgic, rich boomers an arm and a leg for the real thing! Ok, besides being sad, I'm a tad bit cynical too.

    ------Date: 2003-06-23 22:27:00 Subject: Because I Love You

    Because I Love You by Jewel Kilcher (Sept 1997)

    It's time now to leave

    Quiet the mind of it's chatter

    Still the riot in your heart

    Disarm the tongue of it's dagger

    Tell your arms not to worry so

    And listen.....

    Step into it Lift your face into the strong wind

    Least we miss it's meaning

    Such cold beauty exists here

    Do you see it?

    Like the landscape

    Frozen & waiting to be born

    Let me bundle you in clothing

    And soft things

    Because I love you

    I will not send you out into the night

    With teeth marks & pride I have stripped you of

    We will prepare each other

    We will make up our own ceremony

    I will draw a compass on your belly

    Tell me that its OK

    Before you turn me loose

    Into the endless sky

    Let me kiss you & then send you on your way

    For Winters can be long

    And I will need a friend

    ------Date: 2003-06-24 09:25:00 Subject: The Paradox of Faith

    Religion is the vision of something which stands beyond, behind, and within the passing flux of immediate things; something which is real, and yet waiting to be realized; something which is a remote possibility, and yet the greatest of all present facts; something that gives meaning to all that passes, and yet eludes apprehension; something whose possession is the final good, and yet is beyond all reach; something which is the ultimate ideal, and the hopeless quest.

    -Albert North Whitehead (1863-1947)

    ------Date: 2003-06-24 09:31:00 Subject: Whole Lotta Love

    Sometimes impulse buying really pays off...

    I was in Best Buy this weekend, 'just looking' and came across Led Zeppelin's newest (oldest, really) CD, How the West was Won and pulled out the old credit card and it was mine.

    I plopped it into my CD player and was pleasantly surprised at the quality of the live music from the 70s. I don't know what they did to take these bootlegs purr, but do yourself a favor and get your hands on a copy of this CD, or better yet, the DVD.

    Whole Lotta Love's over 23 minutes long and, dare I say, as erotic as ever! It's almost like I can't wait to hear the next cut and drive the next mile, as long as I have this CD to accompany me.

    Life is good!

    User Comments:

    Matthew ------Ahhhhh yes!!! Led Zeppelin!!! They are a new discovery of mine. I had always heard about cool the music of Led Zeppelin was and I remember thinking that the Led Zeppelin that I heard on the radio was pretty bad ass. So their cd's are my new work in progress. I have I, II, III, and IV already. Man. They really kick ass and a half.

    -matthew

    ------Date: 2003-06-26 10:32:00 Subject: O happy day!

    This headline couldn't have made me happier today! I just don't think that what goes on between consenting adults in the privacy of their own bedroom should be the business of anyone but those same consenting adults in the privacy of their own bedroom. Maybe enlightenment is actually happening after all...even if in small bits and pieces.

    ------Date: 2003-06-26 22:28:00 Subject: Bare

    Annie Lennox was on Charlie Rose last night and after watching her, I was impressed, not only with her wonderful singing voice, but her charm, wit and pathos.

    I succumbed to the marketing and bought her newest CD "Bare" and it's enjoyable listening, especially as I climbed stair after stair on the Stairmaster at Heart Healthy tonight.

    It certainly speaks to me about love and loss.

    User Comments:

    Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------I am against stealing (sharing), although that being said, I've done my share of sharing (stealing).

    Oh, not of music, but I've 'shared' computer software and other things that I won't go into right now.

    So, basically, you could just label me a huge hypocrite!

    Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Speaking of buying cds, what do you think of all this "cracking down on file sharing" business? I am pretty sure I know where you stand on the issue, but...

    ------Date: 2003-06-27 16:05:00 Subject: Boston Photos

    I'm going to a get together tonight with some church friends that went to Boston with me about a month ago.

    We're supposed to bring the photos that we took and share them with each other.

    I just realized that I so totally suck when it comes to taking pictures. Oh, I did OK with the exposure and all, but I came back with only one picture of the 'thing' I care most about in this world -- people, and came back with a butt-load of pictures of the 'thing' I care least about in this world -- pictures of gravesites (even if they were famous ones like Emerson, Thoreau and Hawthorne).

    What would Freud say?

    ------Date: 2003-06-28 13:35:00 Subject: Nonviolent soldier

    I would say that I'm a nonviolent soldier. In place of weapons of violence, you have to use your mind, your heart, your sense of humor, every faculty available to you...

    -Joan Baez

    User Comments:

    Matthew ------Where's her warbling voice when we need her? j/k

    ------Date: 2003-06-29 01:04:00 Subject: The Whale Rider

    Matthew, Anya and I just got back from seeing "The Whale Rider" at the Inwood. What a smart, intelligent, beautiful, empowering story! And the young girl that plays the lead is just about one of the best actresses I've seen in a long time. The scene with her performing in the school play, looking out in the audience for her missing grandfather, was powerful and heartbreaking at the same time.

    Do yourself a favor...pass on at least one summer blockbuster and go see this flick. I don't think you'll be sorry that you did!

    ------Date: 2003-07-03 12:06:00 Subject: Don't patronize the hired help

    I was at lunch yesterday with my co-workers and we got into a big discussion about the appropriate banter with waitstaff.

    Our waiter was particularly good, I thought, and as is my habit, I engaged him in a brief exchange while he was serving us, fueled by a tattoo on his serving hand, which, at first glance, I thought were my initials "JM". When I remarked about it, he corrected me and said, "no, it was WC" and then proceeded to tell me that when he was in high school, a group of his friends went and got them done together and it stood for "wild child".

    As he was explaining this, he did so in the strongest of Texas accents, and my curiosity was aroused as to whether it was East or West Texas. On his next visit to our table, I was planning to ask him where he was from, and told my co-workers so.

    At that point, we got into a long, drawn out discussion about the appropriateness of engaging in 'personal' discussions with service people. The consensus seemed to be that if you wanted to say anything to them, that you should just compliment them on the job they were doing, instead of anything the least bit personal. I disagreed.

    I feel that although it's not OK to delve into the deep, personal lives of people you come across on a daily basis, it's OK and really good that you engage on more than a surface level with folks. I think the more I understand people (and they understand me) the more that conflict and prejudice and intolerance disappear, so I always look for opportunities to do so.

    I guess at the end of the discussion, we agreed to disagree.

    However, later that night, I accompanied Matthew and Anya to Taco Cabana, and, while handing my credit card to the cashier, he asked me if I was from Boston (I had used my Fleet Mastercard, and their headquarters is in Boston). I smiled and said, "no, but I love the place. Are you from there?" and we engaged in a brief exchange about Albany, NY and New Hampshire and the East Coast, all while my credit card was being authorized. At the end of the transaction, I knew a little more about him and he knew a little more about me.

    Oh sure, our paths will probably never cross again, but he knew that I saw him as a person, not just an object behind a counter and I know that he saw me as a person, and not just a pain in the neck customer!

    I'll keep doing what I'm doing, I think.

    User Comments:

    Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Yo go mom! We live in such an impersonal society. I see no harm in chit chatting with anyone, just as long as both people are reading body language to know when the other person wants to stop. Because it is annoying to get a waiter who just keeps talking after you have expressed interest in talking.

    But in general, I think you are in the right here. When I worked at Subway and such, I always enjoyed the little customer chit chat.

    ------Date: 2003-07-03 14:53:00 Subject: I make wide right (left) turns

    Just was out to run a few errands and noticed (again) something that irritates me.

    Why is it that drivers of sedan size cars (or smaller) feel the need to veer into the adjoining lane to make a simple left or right turn? I mean, we're not talking an 18 wheeler here!! Grrrrr...

    User Comments:

    Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------No, I was just referencing that skit with Seinfeld on it, where it was the game show of stand up comedians. Anyway, this post about wide turns seemed like one of those Seinfeld type stand up comedian "real life revelations".

    Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Airplane food...what's that?

    Have you been on a Greyhound bus, I mean an airplane, recently? ;-)

    Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------"...And airplane food. What is the deal with Airplane food?!?!"

    ------Date: 2003-07-03 15:01:00 Subject: The T-shirt rule

    It's a hot summer day here in Dallas and I've got the day off. I awake to throw on my summer 'uniform'...shorts, t-shirt and sandals (when I'm not barefoot).

    Finding the shorts to wear is pretty simple. I only have about 5 or so pairs of shorts and they're all neutral colors so I can just pick one and be done with it. But finding the right t-shirt...now that's a different story. Am I in a "make a statement" mode (Million Mom March, Green Party, RAWA, First Amendment)? Or do I want to show my connection with youth and wear one of the multitude of concert t-shirts accumulated over my lifetime (Metallica, Beck, Woodstock)?

    Maybe I'll just look benevolent and wear one of the t-shirts that the blood centers give donors when they give up a pint!

    If I think I'll run into law enforcement during my daily routine, putting on the Torch Run or Carrollton PAL shirts may come in handy.

    Then again, I could advertise for big BAD corporations and wear Macromedia, GM (a gift from my cousin), Thinq, or all those Turkey Trot shirts that are sponsored by ABC or IBM or The Dallas Morning News.

    I admire my sons Luke and Matthew and their girlfriends for picking out really cool t-shirts from thrift stores and making not only a fashion statement, but sometimes a political one at that (or a religious one, really???).

    And speaking of picking up shirts at thrift stores, one of the things that I have a hard time doing is getting rid of t-shirts. Does it matter that my daughter MaryAnn graduated from Rice almost 10 years ago that I should still proudly wear my Rice t-shirts? Or what about all those t-shirts I got from runs that I did when I took up jogging after my first divorce? That's almost 20 years ago, so they're a little dated, aren't they?

    Giving up t-shirts is just about as hard for me as giving up the memory of the event connected with it. I just don't want to do it.

    So, I'll continue to keep and wear my t-shirts proudly and when I die in the 2040s sometime, whoever takes care of such things can do whatever they want with them.

    ------Date: 2003-07-04 09:25:00 Subject: Google rocks!

    If you haven't done this little exercise, I recommend it for a laugh:

    1) Pay a visit to Google.

    2) Type in (without using any quotes): weapons of mass destruction

    3) Click the "I'm Feeling Lucky" button.

    After you've done this and you'd like to read more, go here.

    ------Date: 2003-07-04 23:09:00 Subject: A Fairy Tale for the Assertive Woman

    (thanks, MaryAnn, for this...a little tale of independence for the 4th of July!)

    Once upon a time, in a land far away, a beautiful, independent, self assured princess, happened upon a frog as she sat contemplating ecological issues on the shores of an unpolluted pond in a verdant meadow near her castle.

    The frog hopped into the Princess' lap and said: Elegant Lady, I was once a handsome Prince, until an evil witch cast a spell upon me. One kiss from you, however, and I will turn back into the dapper, young Prince that I am and then, my sweet, we can marry and setup housekeeping in yon castle with my Mother, where you can prepare my meals, clean my clothes, bear my children, and forever feel grateful and happy doing so.

    That night, while dining on lightly sautéed frog legs seasoned in a white wine and onion cream sauce, she chuckled to herself and thought: I don't f****** think so.

    ------Date: 2003-07-05 17:47:00 Subject: "not" capturing the Friedmans

    So I watch all the movie critics on Charlie Rose the other night, talking about the summer movies. All of them, without an exception, recommended Capturing the Friedmans and said it was by far the best movie of the season, if not the year.

    I'd read all the press and synopsis of this movie and even saw the trailer for it and thought, yuck, this is American Idol, the Osbournes, and Survivor all wrapped into one flick. But I was persuaded to see it, by the glowing reviews from the experts.

    All I can say is I should have trusted my instincts. I don't get it...how could I be so out of step with people who are experts on flicks? Oh well, it was nice to get out of the house!

    ------Date: 2003-07-06 22:01:00 Subject: A Mighty Wind

    Just couldn't complete my 4 day, July 4th weekend with the bad taste in my mouth that seeing Capturing the Friedmans left yesterday so today after church, I headed on over to the Angelika and took in Chrisopher Guest's latest flick.

    I'm glad I did!

    User Comments:

    Matthew McKibben ------ea

    a

    oe's

    WHHHHAAAAAAAAA HAAAAAPPPENED?

    Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Yes, wasn't it a great movie?

    ------Date: 2003-07-09 10:33:00 Subject: A Fair Fight

    I was just having a discussion with one of my co-workers. He made a statement that I disagreed with and I told him so. The next statement out of his mouth was something like this -- "Jill, you've been unusually cranky this past week." At that point, my buttons were pushed. Am I wrong, or is it just my bad experiences talking, that men (in general) do this alot when conversing (arguing a point) with females? By "this" I'm talking about taking the point past the point and making it all about the individual and their (fill in the blank)...this time it was my "crankiness."

    User Comments:

    Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------Yes, that's exactly what I should have said...I'll be better prepared next time, thanks to my savvy daughter!

    MaryAnn ------Yes... how are you supposed to respond? "Yes, I am feeling cranky which must mean that I am wrong in the point I just made. Thank you for showing how my mood is clearly impairing my ability to carry on a conversation." Or something like that.

    I don't know if that's a gender thing but it is certainly annoying.

    ------Date: 2003-07-09 22:28:00 Subject: Only metrosexuals need apply

    Maureen Dowd had quite a unique article today in the NY Times. If you missed it, here 'tis:

      Incredible Shrinking Y

      By MAUREEN DOWD

      Why, oh Y, are men so insecure?

      The darlings have been fretting for some years now that they may be rendered unnecessary if women get financial and biological independence, learning how to reproduce and refinance without them. What if nature played a cruel trick and demoted men, so they had to be judged merely by their appearance, pliability and talent for gazing raptly at the opposite sex, no matter how bored?

      New research on the Y chromosome shows that my jittery male friends are not paranoid; they are in an evolutionary shame spiral. As Nicholas Wade wrote in The Times: "Although most men are unaware of the peril, the Y chromosome has been shedding genes furiously over the course of evolutionary time, and it is now a fraction of the size of its partner, the X chromosome. . . . The decay of the Y stems from the fact that it is forbidden to enjoy the principal advantage of sex, which is, of course, for each member of a pair of chromosomes to swap matching pieces of DNA with its partner."

      Mr. Wade said that biologists in Cambridge, Mass., had made a remarkable discovery: "Denied the benefits of recombining with the X, the Y recombines with itself."

      The ultimate guys' night out. Simply put, the Y chromosome figured out a Herculean way to save itself from extinction by making an incredibly difficult hairpin turn and swapping molecular material with itself.

      Self-love as a survival mechanism: the unflinching narcissism of men may send women into despair at times, but it has saved their sex for the next 5 million or 10 million years.

      But, according to Olivia Judson, science's answer to the sensual British cook Nigella Lawson, men may need more than narcissism to survive.

      Dr. Judson, a 33-year-old evolutionary biologist at Imperial College in London who has written a book about animals in a Dear Abby style, or Deer Abby, under the pen name Dr. Tatiana, says the worm has turned. "For a long time, it was assumed that promiscuity was good for males and bad for females in terms of the number of kids they could have," she explains. "But it wasn't until 1988 that it really started to become evident that females were benefiting from having sex with lots of males, with more promiscuous females having more and healthier offspring."

      In her book, Dr. Judson writes about powerful babes, noting that females in more than 80 species, like praying mantises, have been caught devouring their lovers before, during or after mating. "I'm particularly fond," she told me, "of the green spoon worm. . . . The male is 200,000 times smaller, effectively a little parasite who lives in her reproductive tract, fertilizing her eggs and regurgitating sperm through his mouth."

      And then there's the tiny female midge, who plunges her proboscis into the male midge's head during procreation. As Dr. Judson told the journalist Ken Ringle, "Her spittle turns his innards to soup, which she slurps up, drinking until she's sucked him dry."

      The Economist recently reported on a variation of the creepy-crawly girl-eats-boy love stories. The male orb-weaving spider kills himself before the female has a chance to. Biologists now believe that the male orb-weaver dies when he turns himself into a plug to prevent other males from copulating, thus ensuring his genes are more likely to live on.

      In a new book called "Y: The Descent of Men," Steve Jones, a professor of genetics at University College in London, says males, always a genetic "parasite," have devolved to become the "second sex."

      The news that Dolly the sheep had been cloned without masculine aid sent a frisson through the Y populace, he writes, because men began to fear that science would cause nature to return to its original, feminine state and men would fade from view.

      The Y chromosome, "a mere remnant of its once mighty structure," is worried about size. "Men are wilting away," Dr. Jones writes. "From sperm count to social status and from fertilization to death, as civilization advances, those who bear Y chromosomes are in relative decline."

      Perhaps that's why men are adapting, becoming more passive and turning into "metrosexuals," the new term for straight men who are feminized, with a taste for facials, grooming products and home design.

      Better to be an X chromosome than an ex-chromosome.

    I'm still trying to figure out whether or not I actually know any metrosexuals...I'm thinking NOT! but wish I did.

    ------Date: 2003-07-09 22:44:00 Subject: The Incredible "shrinking?" Y

    See my previous blog...and then go here.

    I just love the Brits!

    ------Date: 2003-07-11 11:07:00 Subject: 28 Days Later

    I went to see this movie yesterday. I was kind of scared about going to see it, as the subject matter is intense and it promised to be kind of icky and full of gore (not Al)...you know what I mean. After reading the stuff about it on rottentomatoes.com, I decided to go after work with my friend and co-worker Derek.

    The story had so many holes in it that, far from being scared or anxious or grossed out, I found that I was more in a giggly mood by the end of it.

    I just don't get it. This had an 88% rating on the above mentioned site and Capturing the Friedmans had a 96% rating from the critics on the same above mentioned site.

    What happened to their taste, or mine, in movies and how could we be at such opposite ends of the spectrum?

    Oh well, as they say, there's no accounting for taste!

    ------Date: 2003-07-12 15:18:00 Subject: A Mouthful of Air

    I just recently finished the book "A Mouthful of Air" written by Amy Koppelman. As many of the reviewers on Amazon said, "I couldn't put it down" either.

    Having dealt with depression off and on over the past 20 years, and having had moments of postpartum depression with at least 4 of my 5 pregnancies, I found it easy to empathize with the main character. The fact that she was young and rich and living in NYC didn't make me feel her pain any less.

    What with all the fuss about "The Lovely Bones" over the past year or so, I'd recommend this novel over that one any day.

    Word to the wise, though...have a hankie ready if you do pick it up! because you won't be able to put it down and you'll need it, sooner or later.

    ------Date: 2003-07-12 15:35:00 Subject: An old radical adage states that... the will to command is not as corrupting as the will to obey. There, I've given you a topic....discuss!

    User Comments:

    Pat ------Great quote from Hitchens on Orwell. It's no profound thing for me to point out that Oceania and Animal Farm are only possible as long as Winston Smith loves Big Brother and Boxer will work harder.

    This also sheds some light on Hitchens' own recent break with the left. Hitchens despises and dismisses those resistant Middle Easterners who would willingly live under Saddam Hussein's grisly totalitarian regime or under the stifling direction of Iran's mullahs. If the will to obey is more corrupting than the will to command, then to call legitimate the preference of some Iraqis to live under Baathist rule as opposed to a temporary, if protracted, American occupation is at least as appalling as the detestable defense of Hussein's own sovereign rights. matthew mckibben ------*rubs fingers through goatee*

    hmmmm...... sleep on this i will

    -yoda

    ------Date: 2003-07-14 11:26:00 Subject: Sometimes a Man Stands Up

    Sometimes a man stands up during supper and walks outdoors, and keeps on walking, because of a church that stands somewhere in the East.

    And his children say blessings on him as if he were dead.

    And another man, who remains inside his own house, dies there, inside the dishes and in the glasses, so that his children have to go far out into the world toward that same church, which he forgot.

    -Rainer Maria Rilke

    translated by Robert Bly

    User Comments:

    Guru http://www.journalscape.com/guru/ ------Okay, danke!

    :>

    Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------I believe it's not part of another poem, but one in and of itself.

    A friend of mine gave it to me in its present form...he had read it at his father's memorial service.

    It moved me, too!

    Guru http://www.journalscape.com/guru/ ------In translating this, Mr. Bly has probably earned a number of laps off Purgatory, should it exist.

    Is the poem title the same as the post title, or is a section of something longer?

    ------Date: 2003-07-14 11:37:00 Subject: In the Beginning Sometimes simplicity rises like a blossom of fire from the smooth silk of your own skin.

    You were there in the beginning you heard the story, you heard the merciless and tender words telling you where you had to go.

    Exile is never easy and the journey itself leaves a bitter taste. But then, when you heard that voice, you had to go.

    You couldn't stay by the fire, you couldn't live so close to the live flame of that compassion you had to go out in the world and make it your own

    so you could come back with that flame in your voice, saying listen... this warmth, this unbearable light, this fearful love...

    It is all here, it is all here.

    -David Whyte

    ------Date: 2003-07-16 14:25:00 Subject: Napster, 60s style

    I just got this email from my 'baby' brother Ted (he's 5 years younger than me)-

      I'm sitting at my desk today - conf calls etc - and some of the time I'm able to wear my headphones and have the "jukebox" on random. Just now the song that played was "The Night Before" from the HELP! soundtrack.

      I had a flashback to Northaven - Rodger MacDonald had purchased the album and brought it over to our house, we played it on that console stereo in the living room while dangling a microphone (from the old reel to reel tape recorder that Dad had won) next to a speaker to tape it.

      A long way from Napster, huh?

    Need I say more? In my day....

    User Comments:

    Matthew McKibben ------Both songs kick butt, but which one in particular were you talking about MA?

    -Matt

    MaryAnn ------That song kicks butt and is worth getting any way you can.

    Matthew McKibben ------Coincidence? I was listening to Tom Petty's cd, "The Last DJ" last night and his song "The Last DJ" contains the lyric:

    "As we celebrate mediocrity/All the boys upstairs want to see/How much you'll pay for what you used to get for free"

    YEAH!!! Preach it brother Tom. matt out

    ------Date: 2003-07-19 00:01:00 Subject: There's no good answer

      Can we be sure that terrorism and WMD will join together? If we are wrong, we will have destroyed a threat that, at its least is responsible for inhuman carnage and suffering. That is something I am confident history will forgive. But if our critics are wrong and we do not act, then we will have hesitated in face of this menace, when we should have given leadership. That is something history will not forgive.

    -Tony Blair

    User Comments:

    Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------I've been called the "most naive person" in the whole wide world, but I'm still hopeful about the future of Iraq. I 'remember' (just barely, in real life, but I've read my history) when Germany and Japan were ruled by brutal dictators and I'm thinking that today, most, if not all Germans and Japanese would agree that even with the problems both countries have now, they're far better off than they were at anytime with Hitler and Hirohito.

    Now the Middle East might be a different ballgame entirely, but I'm still not ready to throw in the towel on this one.

    Matthew McKibben ------Never forget that when Iraq was committing most of the murders that Blair and Bush were referencing, the United States and Britain were some of Iraq's staunchest allies and suppliers of military hardware. Never forget that we welcomed the slaughtering of Iranians in our on going fight with Muslim fundamentalism. Never forget that it wasn't until Iraq invaded an oil baring ally that we decided to intervene. Never forget that after Gulf War I, we barred most types of efforts of Iraq to rebuild itself, even though their infrastructure was basically laid to waste. And lastly, never forget that after 12 years of sanctions, well over 500,000 Iraqi children and countless hundreds of thousand more adults have died under the brutal and genocidal sanctions that prevented Iraq from rebuilding it's infrastructure that was destroyed during GW I. Saddam was brutal. And I'm sure the person that replaces him will turn out to be just as brutal. People tend to get angry when someone considers them a commodity above a human being.

    Yaga http://www.journalscape.com/ ------As I am unsure if WMD will join together with the Christian Fundamentalism that esposes the murder of abortion doctors, gays, and various other cultural minorities, I feel morally bound to invade the bible Belt. If I am wrong, I will have destroyed a threat that, at its least, is responsible for inhuman carnage and suffering. That is something I am confident history will forgive.

    Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Yes, Tony Blair is quite the poetic statesman. He has such an eloquent way of putting things. But I wonder if "history will forgive" the way his nation and the United States have slowly killed millions of Iraqis over the last 12 years (sanctions) only to finally oust Saddam because of oil.

    "That is something history will not forgive."

    ------Date: 2003-07-22 12:02:00 Subject: It's a great day!

    Not to embarrass my 'baby' son, but today's a great day for his mom. You see, today's the day that Luke is starting his first full time job after college (ok, he has one more class to complete, but an IM from him last evening stated that he "thought that he aced his last test" so this is just a technicality).

    There were times when I thought this might be in my future...

    ...OK, not really, but there is no rhyme or reason to this mom's fears about her children so it could have been back in the dark recesses of my mind somewhere.

    Anyway, this mother of 4 is feeling pretty confident about all her children these days (and I'm trying to stymie the doom and gloom that always seems to pop up when things are going too well for me and them) and just celebrate today as a great day!

    User Comments:

    Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------"Anyway, this mother of 4 is feeling pretty confident about all her children these days"

    Even moi? I'm better at deception than I thought. ;-) Matthew

    ------Date: 2003-07-24 22:03:00 Subject: Checking the news

    So my co-workers and I are going out to lunch at PF Changs to celebrate a birthday, when I decide to go to Yahoo and check the news one last time before I get into the car to head that way.

    What do I see but the gross out pictures of Saddam's dead sons, right before my very eyes. No warning...no link to click to view them if I so choose...no, they were right there in front of me.

    Now, I spent some time working in Crime Scene at Carrollton PD, so I've seen my share of yucky pictures, but I think this was poor judgment on the part of Yahoo. After all, many people, alot more sensitive than me, go there for their dose of daily news, and many people, if they have the choice, would choose not to view this kind of stuff. Once it's implanted on one of your brain cells, it's there forever.

    Pleasant dreams, right??

    User Comments:

    Matthew McKibben ------Yeah. That sounds mighty irresponsible of Yahoo to post those pictures. CNN did it the right way by having the pictures be under the advisory of "viewer discretion advised."

    The pictures were pretty ugly. War is ugly. I think that other news agencies around the world have been airing pictures like that since the "war" began.

    -matt

    ------Date: 2003-07-26 12:52:00 Subject: Toking

    From the July 14, 2003 issue of Business Week:

      Scientists know that many illegal drugs, as well as alcohol, can cause irreversible brain damage. But according to a recent study, marijuana poses no such threat. Researchers from the University of California at San Diego compared the mental performance of 704 long-term pot smokers, who were tested while not high, with 484 nonusers. They found that even heavy marijuana use did no permanent harm to a variety of key functions including language, reaction time, motor skills, or perceptual and reasoning abilities. The only exception: a small decrease in the pot smoker's ability to learn new information. The findings, published in July's Journal of the International Neuropsychological Society, suggest that short-term use of cannibas for medical purposes is unlikely to cause harmful side effects.

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------Well...last night I watched an educational movie called "Reefer Madness" that said that Marijuana is bad for you. Smoking one joint is enough to send even the sanest people to committ brutal acts against your fellow human being.

      And to quote the guidance counsellor from 'South Park', "Drugs are bad...mmmkay."

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------I kinda figured you'd weigh in on this one, Mike.

      You're right...and that's something to remember. You, indeed, can find a survey that supports almost anything these days.

      I was just surprised to see this one in the conservative magazine Business Week! I was wondering why and where they were going with this one.

      But then again, maybe they had someone in the "filler" room who wanted to feel better about his free time activies! ;-)

      Mike Losack ------I have researched this issue extensively,and believe me, there are studies that support any position one wants to take on the marihuana issue. I have found that the outcome of the study depends on who conducts the study. Without knowing who conducted this particular study my first guess would have been Berkley. I wasn't that far off. I'm sure the real answers lie somewhere in the middle of the extremes, however from my personal observations there is no doubt in my mind that long term use of marihuana affects brain function. To what extent? Who knows?

      Matthew McKibben ------from Anya: "Take that modern science."

      So it's been proven that pot really doesn't increase or decrease motor skills or communication skills. Probably the only things that pot does increase are junk food eating and Discovery Channel watching.

      ------Date: 2003-07-26 13:40:00 Subject: He said what?

      From the transcript of the Larry King Show on July 22, 2003 (with Bob Dole & Bill Clinton):

        KING: What do you do, Mr. President, with what's put in front of you?

        CLINTON: Well, here's what happens: every day the president gets a daily brief from the CIA. And then, if it's some important issue -- and believe me, you know, anything having to do with chemical, biological or nuclear weapons became much more important to everybody in the White House after September the 11 -- then they probably told the president, certainly Condoleezza Rice, that this is what the British intelligence thought. They maybe have a difference of opinion, but on balance, they decided they should leave that line in the speech.

        I think the main thing I want to say to you is, people can quarrel with whether we should have more troops in Afghanistan or internationalize Iraq or whatever, but it is incontestable that on the day I left office, there were unaccounted for stocks...

        DOLE: That's right.

        CLINTON: ... of biological and chemical weapons. We might have destroyed them in '98. We tried to, but we sure as heck didn't know it because we never got to go back in there.

        KING: Yes. CLINTON: And what I think -- again, I would say the most important thing is we should focus on what's the best way to build Iraq as a democracy? How is the president going to do that and deal with continuing problems in Afghanistan and North Korea?

        We should be pulling for America on this. We should be pulling for the people of Iraq. We can have honest disagreements about where we go from here, and we have space now to discuss that in what I hope will be a nonpartisan and open way. But this State of the Union deal they decided to use the British intelligence. The president said it was British intelligence. Then they said on balance they shouldn't have done it. You know, everybody makes mistakes when they are president. I mean, you can't make as many calls as you have to make without messing up once in awhile. The thing we ought to be focused on is what is the right thing to do now. That's what I think.

      User Comments:

      Jillsusan http://www.jillsusan.com ------Since I try to be a positive/can-do person, I agree with you. The war has been fought (although some would say we're still fighting it) and we have to look at the situation going forward.

      The fact that Clinton minimizes statements made by the President is so Clinton-esque, don't you think?

      Of course, that depends on what the meaning of the word is is. ;-)

      Brainsalad http://www.journalscape.com/brainsalad ------I find myself agreeing with Clinton, mostly. The focus now ought to be on what should be done in Iraq and Afghanistan next. When was the last time there was any media focus on the situation in Afghanistan? Our best defense against future terrorism is to make these countries into success stories that others will seek to emulate.

      I would disagree with the level to which Clinton minimizes the importance of the statements made by the President. The President needs to be a source of accurate information to the Congress and the people of our nation. I think we are better off when we have a president who is willing to present the complete truth, even when that means admitting that some information is not completely verifiable.

      ------Date: 2003-07-26 14:10:00 Subject: Edward Norton

      When someone asks me if there's an actor that I'll always run to see his movies, I answer "Edward Norton." I've enjoyed all of his movies, (even Death to Smoochy, so you could say I'm a big fan!

      Last night, I TiVo'd the Charlie Rose show from Thursday night when Norton was the guest. He wasn't on there talking about a movie promo. Rather, he was on there talking about Friends of the High Line and The Enterprise Foundation.

      These are two pet projects of Norton's and I was really impressed by his passion and activism. So many times these days, celebrities seem to make empty cries of protests, and I figure they come on talk shows and talk about their causes, but that's all they do. It seems a little less than sincere to me. Norton, on the other hand, has put his money and his time behind both of these organizations for change.

      And, as a peacemaker, what impressed me most, especially in the case of the High Line project (an abandoned rail line, that nature has re-claimed), is that he is trying to build consensus in the neighborhood, showing not only 'greens' but businesses how preserving the area can benefit them all.

      One more thing Norton said during the interview, which struck me as something I need to remember..."the Declaration of Independence was a document of protest"...ah, yes...indeed!

      ------Date: 2003-07-28 21:34:00 Subject:

      I was sorry to hear that Bob Hope passed away, but then again, what a great, long life he lived! As someone who is planning on living to a healthy age of 100, I'm going to use him as a role model.

      I remember watching his shows with the military guys overseas when I was young. It was one of my favorite "Christmas" shows. He'd always have some inside jokes about the particular base or military brass and he'd always have a gaggle of beautiful women with him, that would ooh and ahh over him. Then, he'd pick the shyest guy in the bunch to come up on stage and one of the girls would sing or dance with him, as others looked on jealously.

      His jokes were sometimes really corny, but his delivery was top notch.

      Bob...thanks for the memories. User Comments: austingirl ------Re: planning to live to 100 like Bob Hope. Me, too.

      Here's the plan: Laugh a lot, stay happily married to the same person your entire life, and get the best, and most cutting edge medical care money can buy. I think this was Bob's receipe for longevity.

      I would only add get in shape and stay in shape, no matter what, as early in life as possible.

      At least I can afford comedy videos, running shoes, and a gym membership! Now, if I could just find me a good man, and a decent job with good benefits, I'd be all set! ;-)

      ------Date: 2003-07-30 23:58:00 Subject: Oh! Hi! Oh!

      Family reunion calls, and that's where I'll be for the next few days. I'm looking forward to it, even if the best of families take the "fun" out of dysfunctional. ;-)

      Mines' better than most, and I wouldn't trade them for any other family I know.

      ------Date: 2003-08-04 23:16:00 Subject: I'm back

      And the kitties were glad to see me and I'll pick J & M up at 7:30 AM. A great trip...glad to be home...more later...

      ------Date: 2003-08-06 23:22:00 Subject: quietly...without fanfare...he's done duh, duh duh duh, duhhhhhhh, duhhhh...(think the graduation march here)

      Congratulations Luke! You did it! and I'm so proud of you!!! That would be Luke McK....Bachelor's degree!

      It's a great day!

      User Comments:

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------As if there was ever a doubt!!!!!

      Luke is my hero!!!

      -matt out

      Uncle Ted ------CONGRATULATIONS LUKE! Feels good, I bet!

      ------Date: 2003-08-08 09:08:00 Subject: Barney air

      As if August wasn't miserable enough in Texas (it's been 108 degrees the last couple of days here in Dallas), I wake up this morning with a report on NPR that for the first time ever, we're at "Level Purple" in Dallas and Houston.

      In other words, don't breathe when you're outside!

      I'm so looking forward to October!!!

      User Comments: matthew mckibben ------Yeah...... I can't wait til the weather cools down to a nice "high of 75." -matt

      ------Date: 2003-08-11 12:25:00 Subject: Dove that ventured outside

      I've started going to a class at my church called Spiritual Conversations. In it, we read and discuss poetry. Most of it has been very meaningful to me...this one is no exception.

      Dove that ventured outside, flying far from the dovecote: housed and protected again, one with the day, the night, knows what serenity is, for she has felt her wings pass through all distance and fear in the course of her wanderings.

      The doves that remained at home, never exposed to loss, innocent and secure, cannot know tenderness; only the won-back heart can ever be satisfied: free, through all it has given up, to rejoice in its mastery.

      Being arches itself over the vast abyss.

      Ah the ball that we dared, that we hurled into infinite space, doesn't it fill our hands differently with its return: heavier by the weight of where it has been.

      -Rainer Maria Rilke: Uncollected Poems

      ------Date: 2003-08-11 12:37:00 Subject: Less reason not to give yourself away

      A Sabbath Poem by Wendell Berry, from A Timbered Choir, The Sabbath Poems 1979-1997 (Washington, DC: Counterpoint, 1998)

      No, no there is no going back. Less and less you are that possibility you were.

      More and more you have become those lives and deaths that have belonged to you.

      You have become a sort of grave containing much that was and is no more in time, beloved then, now, and always.

      And so you have become a sort of tree standing over a grave.

      Now more than ever you can be generous toward each day that comes, young, to disappear forever, and yet remain unaging in the mind.

      Every day you have less reason not to give yourself away.

      ------Date: 2003-08-11 12:41:00 Subject: Peaking too soon

      ------Date: 2003-08-12 11:07:00 Subject: It's fiscally unsound, but I want it

      I was reading my email from Progressive.org about their upcoming issue and this part of the email just struck me as funny and ironic --

        Also, if you're getting one of those $400 checks from George Bush, consider

        (if you can afford it) donating part of that to The Progressive. We're tax-exempt, and we'll put it to good use exposing the biases of Bush's economic policy and and the recklessness of his foreign policy.

      Seems to me if you really think Bush's economic policy is biased and you still received one of those checks, wouldn't it make more sense to send it to a totally non-biased place...kind of to even things out a bit?

      But then again, is there such a thing as 'non-biased' place in this world?

      Or you could just not cash it, so that the money stays in the US Treasury, thereby cancelling out Bush's "biased economic policy."

      I won't face the dilemma of what to do with the check, as I didn't make the cut this time. :-(

      ------Date: 2003-08-12 13:09:00 Subject: Coming soon to a toy store near you

      In September, KB Toys will begin selling an action figure depicting President Bush when he landed on the USS Abraham Lincoln.

      Check the whole story out!

      User Comments:

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------oh wow...that's really bad. it's funny that the doll has an "action grip" hand as if it's capable of holding a gun.

      i'm still waiting on the governor bush doll with the accompanying lethal injection inmate and gurney. -matt out

      ------Date: 2003-08-13 10:22:00 Subject: A walk in the park

      I blogged about the terribly hot and yucky weather here in Dallas last week, so thought I'd blog about the nice weather we had yesterday (until the thunderstorm last night, anyway). No, I didn't feel 'fall' in the air, but at least the summer winds were a little cooler...so much so that I actually walked around Golfing Green and enjoyed all the ducks in the pond, happy smiles on fellow joggers' faces, and almost no sweating from my effort!

      I'm not going to get too used to it, though, as temperatures are headed back to the 90s today and I bet we'll see at least one more 100 degree day before Summer 2003 is all said and done.

      But it was nice while it lasted!

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Yeah, that happened in Houston too. Although it was definitely still Summer, it has felt pretty good the past couple of days. Some of this is relative of course, but it's nice nonetheless.

      ------Date: 2003-08-14 14:24:00 Subject: Ms. Piggy at the Trough

      From the LA Times, comes this story about Arianna Huffington, one of the 135 candidates for governor who has criticized 'fat cats' for avoiding taxes, but paid no individual state income tax and just $771 in federal taxes during the last two years. She denies taking advantage of loopholes and unfair deductions.

      According to the Times, she

        lives in an 8,000-square-foot home in Brentwood above Sunset Boulevard that is valued at about $7 million. She socializes with many wealthy and prominent people.

        But the returns show that at least for the last two years, her income was far outweighed by losses that she reported were incurred by Christabella Inc., the private corporation she owns and uses to manage her writing and lecturing business.

        In announcing her candidacy last week, Huffington blamed California's fiscal crisis, in part, on the corrupting influence of special interest groups that have helped "corporate fat cats get away with not paying their fair share of taxes."

        Failing to close corporate tax loopholes, she argued, would "be a slap in the face of all the hard- working taxpayers being forced to dig deeper and deeper in their pockets so the well-connected can pad their bottom line."

      Yes, indeedie!

      Ms. Huffington's most recent book discusses tax loopholes and abuses by the wealthy and it's entitled Pigs at the Trough...I guess it takes one to know one.

      ------Date: 2003-08-18 17:58:00 Subject: Back to School

      How old do you have to be before you quit seeing life in terms of semesters, summer vacations and back to school in the fall?

      I've been out of school a loooooonnnnngggg time, but today, the kiddos that live around me started back to school, and I got this funny, excited feeling in me about all the first days of school that I've been through. It was neat.

      A mother nearby was taking pictures of her children in their new school duds and fancy new backpacks. It reminded me of the shopping trips I used to make with my own kids and the dilemma about whether to get the "Dukes of Hazzard" lunchbox or "Spiderman". Those were great days.

      I even miss going to zillions of stores, trying to find the exact school supplies that the teachers demanded that my children have on day 2!

      In reality, though, it's also nice to not have to do that shopping, and in reality, it's nice that my life is not really divided into semesters anymore, or getting homework done every night.

      Maybe, in a way, that's what makes it so romantic to me.

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------I can kind of relate. This is the first fall since I was 4 or something that I haven't been getting ready to start classes again. It's a very bittersweet feeling indeed! I already miss it, yet also am so glad I am out. If your feelings are any indication of how I will feel, I will never really get over it.

      ------Date: 2003-08-20 12:55:00 Subject: We need to talk about Kevin

      I just finished reading Lionel Shriver's book, "We Need to Talk about Kevin" and I'm having 'good book' withdrawal. Although some of the subject matter was pretty grim (it's a series of letters from Eva, the mom of one of those Columbine type killers, to her husband Franklin) it was so well written and it had some issues to really think about. You know, the whole nature vs. nurture thing, the whole 'whose fault is it when kids turn out bad' thing, the whole 'Mom' thing, the whole 'affluent society' thing, the whole 'family' thing, etc. etc.

      Although there was much in the book that I couldn't identify with (thank god!), there was surprisingly much in the book that I could. And of course it was set in NYC, so you know that I love that!

      Anyway, I liked the book so much that I ordered past novels by Ms. Shriver from the Amazon (used) Marketplace and have 3 more novels waiting for me.

      I just hope that they are as captivating and 'realistic' as this one.

      It's always so great when you find a new writer that just says it like you wish you could.

      User Comments:

      LOGANSARAH ------I JUST FINISHED READING THIS BOOK TOO! I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MEANT ABOUT BOOK WITHDRAW. I JUST FINISHED THE BOOK LAST NIGHT AND COULDN'T WAIT TO GET ON LINE TODAY TO FIND INFO ON MORE OF HER BOOKS.

      WHEN I FINISHED THE NEXT TO THE LAST CHAPTER YESTERDAY AT LUNCH I WAS AWSTRUCK. I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING AT THE END. I GUESS I WAS SO CAUGHT UP IN THE BOOK THAT I DIDN'T SEE THE CLUES UNTIL READ THE ANSWER. KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

      I CAN'T WAIT TO READ MORE OF HER STUFF. I HOPE THEY ARE ALL AS GOOD AS THIS ONE. IT'S LIKE REALISTIC HORROR. DEAN KOONTZ, STEVEN KING, TYPE OF THINGS WITH MORE REALITY.

      I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT THIS BOOK AND ARTHOR THAT I'M RATTLING. I'M GLAD I FOUND YOUR JOURNAL ENTRY. IT'S NICE TO KNOW SOMEONE ELSE HAD THE SAME REACTION I DID.

      ------Date: 2003-08-22 09:42:00 Subject: Because I'm worth it

      Well, I succumbed to vanity...

      About a year or so ago, or maybe more like 2 years ago (around 9/11/01) I made the decision that I just didn't want to 'waste' time dying my hair anymore. I wasn't totally grey, but I did have a nice (kind of) salt and pepper blend. Guys with that hair color look so great (for the most part)...actually, guys over 50 with any hair look pretty good, but that's another story.

      Anyway, I went through the pain and suffering of letting my natural color grow out. Halfway through this process I had my hair cut in layers, to speed up the process of getting it to the natural color.

      And for awhile I really liked it. But lately, I noticed a totally grey streak forming on one side of my face, really in the bangs area on the left. My grandmother had the same streak, and although Gannie was a beautiful woman, I always thought that grey/white streak looked a little funky.

      So, earlier this week, I decided that I was going to go back to L'oreal-ing my hair every few weeks or so. I did it last night.

      So much for truth and honesty when vanity is at stake!

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------And I shaved my head.

      jk jk

      Matthew McKibben ------I too have a grey streak forming on the side of my head. Maybe I'll dye my hair as well. Maybe Carlie Simon wrote "You're so Vain" in reference to me. She still hasn't said who she was talking about. ;-)

      ------Date: 2003-08-22 10:21:00 Subject: Beyond Belief

      I'm reading a pretty good book now by Elaine Pagels called Beyond Belief - The Secret Gospel of Thomas.

      It's an interesting read as she's comparing and contrasting the Thomas gospel with MML & J (Matthew, Mark, Luke and John).

      Even though it's not really an 'accepted' gospel, according to most Christian theology, as a Unitarian, I really pretty much like it.

      According to Thomas:

        "If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you."

      According to Pagels, the strength of this saying is that it does not tell us what to believe but challenges us to discover what lies hidden within ourselves; and, with a shock of recognition, I realized that this prespective seemed to me self-evidently true.

      I agree.

      ------Date: 2003-08-22 10:55:00 Subject: Conan's Harvard Commencement Speech

      Conan was recently on Charlie Rose and Charlie was going on and on about this...it's worth the read!

        I'd like to thank the Class Marshals for inviting me here today. The last time I was invited to Harvard it cost me $110,000, so you'll forgive me if I'm a bit suspicious. I'd like to announce up front that I have one goal this afternoon: to be half as funny as tomorrow's Commencement Speaker, Moral Philosopher and Economist, Amartya Sen. Must get more laughs than seminal wage/price theoretician.

        Students of the Harvard Class of 2000, fifteen years ago I sat where you sit now and I thought exactly what you are now thinking: What's going to happen to me? Will I find my place in the world? Am I really graduating a virgin? I still have 24 hours and my roommate's Mom is hot. I swear she was checking me out. Being here today is very special for me. I miss this place. I especially miss Harvard Square - it's so unique. No where else in the world will you find a man with a turban wearing a Red Sox jacket and working in a lesbian bookstore. Hey, I'm just glad my dad's working.

        It's particularly sweet for me to be here today because when I graduated, I wanted very badly to be a Class Day Speaker. Unfortunately, my speech was rejected. So, if you'll indulge me, I'd like to read a portion of that speech from fifteen years ago: "Fellow students, as we sit here today listening to that classic Ah-ha tune which will definitely stand the test of time, I would like to make several predictions about what the future will hold: "I believe that one day a simple Governor from a small Southern state will rise to the highest office in the land. He will lack political skill, but will lead on the sheer strength of his moral authority." "I believe that Justice will prevail and, one day, the Berlin Wall will crumble, uniting East and West Berlin forever under Communist rule." "I believe that one day, a high speed network of interconnected computers will spring up world-wide, so enriching people that they will lose their interest in idle chit chat and pornography." "And finally, I believe that one day I will have a television show on a major network, seen by millions of people a night, which I will use to re-enact crimes and help catch at-large criminals." And then there's some stuff about the death of Wall

        Street which I don't think we need to get into....

        The point is that, although you see me as a celebrity, a member of the cultural elite, a kind of demigod, I was actually a student here once much like you. I came here in the fall of 1981 and lived in Holworthy. I was, without exaggeration, the ugliest picture in the Freshman Face book. When Harvard asked me for a picture the previous summer, I thought it was just for their records, so I literally jogged in the August heat to a passport photo office and sat for a morgue photo. To make matters worse, when the Face Book came out they put my picture next to Catherine Oxenberg, a stunning blonde actress who was accepted to the class of '85 but decided to defer admission so she could join the cast of "Dynasty." My photo would have looked bad on any page, but next to Catherine Oxenberg, I looked like a mackerel that had been in a car accident. You see, in those days I was six feet four inches tall and I weighed 150 pounds. Recently, I had some structural engineers run those numbers into a computer model and, according to the computer, I collapsed in 1987, killing hundreds in Taiwan.


        After freshman year I moved to Mather House. Mather House, incidentally, was designed by the same firm that built Hitler's bunker. In fact, if Hitler had conducted the war from Mather House, he'd have shot himself a year earlier. 1985 seems like a long time ago now. When I had my Class Day, you students would have been seven years old. Seven years old. Do you know what that means? Back then I could have beaten any of you in a fight. And I mean bad. It would be no contest. If any one here has a time machine, seriously, let's get it on, I will whip your seven year old butt. When I was here, they sold diapers at the Coop that said "Harvard Class of 2000." At the time, it was kind of a joke, but now I realize you wore those diapers. How embarrassing for you. A lot has happened in fifteen years. When you think about it, we come from completely different worlds. When I graduated, we watched movies starring Tom Cruise and listened to music by Madonna. I come from a time when we huddled around our TV sets and watched "The Cosby Show" on NBC, never imagining that there would one day be a show called "Cosby" on CBS. In 1985 we drove cars with driver's side airbags, but if you told us that one day there'd be passenger side airbags, we'd have burned you for witchcraft.

        But of course, I think there is some common ground between us. I remember well the great uncertainty of this day. Many of you are justifiably nervous about leaving the safe, comfortable world of Harvard Yard and hurling yourself headlong into the cold, harsh world of Harvard Grad School, a plum job at your father's firm, or a year abroad with a gold Amex card and then a plum job in your father's firm. But let me assure you that the knowledge you've gained here at Harvard is a precious gift that will never leave you. Take it from me, your education is yours to keep forever. Why, many of you have read the Merchant of Florence, and that will inspire you when you travel to the island of Spain. Your knowledge of that problem they had with those people in Russia, or that guy in South America-you know, that guy-will enrich you for the rest of your life.


        There is also sadness today, a feeling of loss that you're leaving Harvard forever. Well, let me assure you that you never really leave Harvard. The Harvard Fundraising Committee will be on your ass until the day you die. Right now, a member of the Alumni Association is at the Mt. Auburn Cemetery shaking down the corpse of Henry Adams. They heard he had a brass toe ring and they aims to get it. Imagine: These people just raised 2.5 billion dollars and they only got through the B's in the alumni directory. Here's how it works. Your phone rings, usually after a big meal when you're tired and most vulnerable. A voice asks you for money. Knowing they just raised 2.5 billion dollars you ask, "What do you need it for?" Then there's a long pause and the voice on the other end of the line says, "We don't need it, we just want it." It's chilling.

        What else can you expect? Let me see, by your applause, who here wrote a thesis. (APPLAUSE) A lot of hard work, a lot of your blood went into that thesis... and no one is ever going to care. I wrote a thesis: Literary

        Progeria in the works of Flannery O'Connor and William Faulkner. Let's just say that, during my discussions with Pauly Shore, it doesn't come up much. For three years after graduation I kept my thesis in the glove compartment of my car so I could show it to a policeman in case I was pulled over. (ACT OUT) License, registration, cultural exploration of the Man Child in the Sound and the Fury...

        So what can you expect out there in the real world? Let me tell you. As you leave these gates and re-enter society, one thing is certain: Everyone out there is going to hate you. Never tell anyone in a roadside diner that you went to Harvard. In most situations the correct response to where did you to school is, "School? Why, I never had much in the way of book larnin' and such." Then, get in your BMW and get the hell out of there.

        You see, you're in for a lifetime of "And you went to Harvard?" Accidentally give the wrong amount of change in a transaction and it's, "And you went to Harvard?" Ask the guy at the hardware store how these jumper cables work and hear, "And you went to Harvard?" Forget just once that your underwear goes inside your pants and it's "and you went to

        Harvard." Get your head stuck in your niece's dollhouse because you wanted to see what it was like to be a giant and it's "Uncle Conan, you went to Harvard!?"

        But to really know what's in store for you after Harvard, I have to tell you what happened to me after graduation. I'm going to tell you my story because, first of all, my perspective may give many of you hope, and, secondly, it's an amazing rush to stand in front of six thousand people and talk about yourself.


        After graduating in May, I moved to Los Angeles and got a three week contract at a small cable show. I got a $380 a month apartment and bought a 1977 Isuzu Opel, a car Isuzu only manufactured for a year because they found out that, technically, it's not a car. Here's a quick tip, graduates: no four cylinder vehicle should have a racing stripe. I worked at that show for over a year, feeling pretty good about myself, when one day they told me they were letting me go. I was fired and, I hadn't saved a lot of money. I tried to get another job in television but I couldn't find one.

        So, with nowhere else to turn, I went to a temp agency and filled out a questionnaire. I made damn sure they knew I had been to Harvard and that I expected the very best treatment. And so, the next day, I was sent to the

        Santa Monica branch of Wilson's House of Suede and Leather. When you have a Harvard degree and you're working at Wilson's House of Suede and Leather, you are haunted by the ghostly images of your classmates who chose Graduate

        School. You see their faces everywhere: in coffee cups, in fish tanks, and they're always laughing at you as you stack suede shirts no man, in good conscience, would ever wear. I tried a lot of things during this period: acting in corporate infomercials, serving drinks in a non-equity theatre, I even took a job entertaining at a seven year olds' birthday party. In desperate need of work, I put together some sketches and scored a job at the fledgling Fox Network as a writer and performer for a new show called "The Wilton North Report." I was finally on a network and really excited. The producer told me the show was going to revolutionize television. And, in a way, it did. The show was so hated and did so badly that when, four weeks later, news of its cancellation was announced to the Fox affiliates, they burst into applause.

        Eventually, though, I got a huge break. I had submitted, along with my writing partner, a batch of sketches to Saturday Night Live and, after a year and a half, they read it and gave us a two week tryout. The two weeks turned into two seasons and I felt successful. Successful enough to write a TV pilot for an original sitcom and, when the network decided to make it, I left Saturday Night Live. This TV show was going to be groundbreaking. It was going to resurrect the career of TV's Batman, Adam West. It was going to be a comedy without a laugh track or a studio audience. It was going to change all the rules. And here's what happened: When the pilot aired it was the second lowest-rated television show of all time. It's tied with a test pattern they show in Nova Scotia.


        So, I was 28 and, once again, I had no job. I had good writing credits in New York, but I was filled with disappointment and didn't know what to do next. I started smelling suede on my fingertips. And that's when The Simpsons saved me. I got a job there and started writing episodes about Springfield getting a Monorail and Homer going to College. I was finally putting my Harvard education to good use, writing dialogue for a man who's so stupid that in one episode he forgot to make his own heart beat. Life was good.

        And then, an insane, inexplicable opportunity came my way . A chance to audition for host of the new Late Night Show. I took the opportunity seriously but, at the same time, I had the relaxed confidence of someone who knew he had no real shot. I couldn't fear losing a great job I had never had. And, I think that attitude made the difference. I'll never forget being in the Simpson's recording basement that morning when the phone rang. It was for me. My car was blocking a fire lane. But a week later I got another call: I got the job.

        So, this was undeniably the it: the truly life-altering break I had always dreamed of. And, I went to work. I gathered all my funny friends and poured all my years of comedy experience into building that show over the summer, gathering the talent and figuring out the sensibility. We debuted on September 13, 1993 and I was happy with our effort. I felt like I had seized the moment and put my very best foot forward. And this is what the most respected and widely read television critic, Tom Shales, wrote in the

        Washington Post: "O'Brien is a living collage of annoying nervous habits. He giggles and titters, jiggles about and fiddles with his cuffs. He had dark, beady little eyes like a rabbit. He's one of the whitest white men ever. O'Brien is a switch on the guest who won't leave: he's the host who should never have come. Let the Late show with Conan O'Brien become the late, Late Show and may the host return to Conan O'Blivion whence he came." There's more but it gets kind of mean.

        Needless to say, I took a lot of criticism, some of it deserved, some of it excessive. And it hurt like you wouldn't believe. But I'm telling you all this for a reason. I've had a lot of success and I've had a lot of failure. I've looked good and I've looked bad. I've been praised and I've been criticized. But my mistakes have been necessary. Except for Wilson's House of Suede and Leather. That was just stupid.


        I've dwelled on my failures today because, as graduates of Harvard, your biggest liability is your need to succeed. Your need to always find yourself on the sweet side of the bell curve. Because success is a lot like a bright, white tuxedo. You feel terrific when you get it, but then you're desperately afraid of getting it dirty, of spoiling it in any way.

        I left the cocoon of Harvard, I left the cocoon of Saturday Night Live, I left the cocoon of The Simpsons. And each time it was bruising and tumultuous. And yet, every failure was freeing, and today I'm as nostalgic for the bad as I am for the good.

        So, that's what I wish for all of you: the bad as well as the good. Fall down, make a mess, break something occasionally. And remember that the story is never over. If it's all right, I'd like to read a little something from just this year: "Somehow, Conan O'Brien has transformed himself into the brightest star in the Late Night firmament. His comedy is the gold standard and Conan himself is not only the quickest and most inventive wit of his generation, but quite possible the greatest host ever."

        Ladies and Gentlemen, Class of 2000, I wrote that this morning, as proof that, when all else fails, there's always delusion.

        I'll go now, to make bigger mistakes and to embarrass this fine institution even more. But let me leave you with one last thought: If you can laugh at yourself loud and hard every time you fall, people will think you're drunk.

        Thank you.

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------I just realized that I didn't spell "speech" correctly in my comment. LOOK MA! I GRAJUIWATED FRUM UNT!!!

      Matthew McKibben ------That speech is so funny and really does much to showcase why Conan is the only late night talk show host that I watch on any regular basis. If I had TiVo, I'd record the first 30 minutes of his show every night. He does have a 10th anniversary show coming up in September that will probably be really funny.

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------HIGHlarious speach! He is the funniest late night talk show host, that's for sure.

      ------Date: 2003-08-22 11:37:00 Subject: Kirk Varnedoe-Gone,but not forgotten

      I learned so much from his appearances on Charlie's show...I'll miss him!

      From the NYTimes:

      The Curatorial Voice: Kirk Varnedoe

      By VERLYN KLINKENBORG

        It's natural enough to talk about the eye of an art historian. But when it comes to Kirk Varnedoe, who died this week at the age of 57, it's just as important to talk about his voice. His eye, after all, will live on, embodied as it is in the additions he made to the collection of the Museum of Modern Art, where he was the chief curator of painting and sculpture from 1988 to 2001. What has really gone with his premature death is his living voice and everything it represented.

        Nearly everyone who met Kirk Varnedoe felt his volubility, the sometimes astonishing flow of words and ideas at his command. There were set pieces in his conversation, favorite stories, well-trod paths. But mostly there was the feeling that a newly begun sentence could wind up going almost anywhere, crossing the plains into an unknown country or doubling back on a settlement that suddenly looked different than it did the first time we passed it. The great talkers — and he was one — are great because they are always embarked on a voyage of discovery.

        There was a fine, dark gravel on the streambed of Kirk Varnedoe's voice. Occasionally, a Southern note from his childhood would float to the surface like a perfectly formed bubble. He was a conveyor of knowledge, not a hoarder. No idea, no fact, became quite real to him unless he had passed it along to someone else first. Despite his volubility, I was always struck by the tangibility of the words he used, whether he was talking about college football, which he had played and coached, or modernism, which he had spent most of his life studying. It was as if he were laying words down on the table one by one as he used them, like brushes in an artist's studio. That was why students crowded into his classes and why the National Gallery of Art had overflow audiences for his Mellon Lectures earlier this year. Something synaptic happened when you listened to Kirk Varnedoe, and, remarkably, something synaptic happened when he listened to you. You never knew what you might discover together.

      User Comments:

      Lemuel ------I learned of Kirk's death today, Feb 4, 2004. In 1972 I was traveling through Spain on a motorcycle and met Kirk. He was riding a white Moto Guzzi and we rode together for a week through Andalucia. I have a picture in my mind that I have carried through my life. We are sitting on a hillside next to a monastery in Spain looking over a broad valley. It is a perfect afternoon and we are having a sort of impromtu picnic. Crusty bread, cheese, spanish mustard, red wine. It was probably the finest moment in my life and even today I'm not exactly sure why that is so. We later rode up and visited him in where he was living that summer. He took us through the Impressionist Museum and was able to impart facinating and formidable insights understandable even to an individual who understood as much about Impressionist Art as a pig does about Sunday. I have followed the trajectory of his career through the years and we corresponded at infrequent intervals. When he wrote that he had been diagnosed with cancer several years ago I was concerned but he sounded optimistic. The world is made dimmer with the loss of such a bright light. I am so sad.

      Paulette Mills ------I was privileged to attend the Mellon Lectures given by Professor Varnedoe this past spring. I discovered him while watching Charlie Rose one night. He impressed me as no other person ever has. ideas flowed from him in an articulate, comprehensible stream. The crowd was so large at the first lecture that I was unable to get in. I arrived two and a half hours early for the remaining lectures and was never the first in line. Each week the people in line with me always spoke of the brilliance of this man and his ability to convey the essence of a work of art. His method was by no means simple, he weaved a complex tapestry of place, time, and trends in the art world. I don't think anyone who attended was left unchanged. I certainly wasn't.

      Paulette Mills

      ------Date: 2003-08-24 19:14:00 Subject: Shut the door!

      Katie and I were talking this weekend about the differences betweeen men and women. She pointed out something that she learned from Dan (or *with* Dan) several years ago.

      It had to do with the differences between men and women. A man can compartmentalize... in other words, he can divide the world into rooms and easily shut or close the door on any or all of the rooms, whenever he so chooses. A woman, on the other hand, sees the world as one big room (and maybe with no door).

      Using this world view allows a man to go and thoroughly enjoy a rented DVD or a video game when there are dirty dishes in the sink when a woman in the same house will, in the back of her mind, be viewing the DVD with that nagging "I need to go finish the dishes" feeling!

      Oh my!~

      User Comments:

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------You're right Luke! I should have been more precise in my wording, but I still contend that my premise was right. At least from my experience with my two marriage relationships with men.

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------I still think that the main reason why A. Men don't care as much about the house not being kept up and B. men perform "differently" (ie, better) in math, science, and engineering is a lot about how we are raised.

      Either way, my main problem was with the wording. "A man can compartmentalize" and "a woman sees the world as one big room".

      These seemed too much like "absolute" statements.

      Perhaps something like "men tend to compartmentalize more than women" or something like that.

      Keith http://www.woollymammoth.com/keith ------I just don't care whether the dishes ever get done.

      Matthew McKibben ------I think that I tend to agree with Mom on this post. Even though men and women are socialized differently and that biologically we are all pretty similar, I do think that our brains are pretty different in how they function. I don't know specifics, but I know that men tend to use one side of their brain and women use the other. And I know that both of the different "lobes" handle different types of tasks that men and women undertake. This is why, generally men and women perform differntly in areas such as math, engineering, science, etc. etc. Socialization plays an important role obviously, but generally speaking, I think that the way that men's and women's brains operate might be able to explain something like compartmentalizing that men and women do or don't do.

      -matthew

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------I can't help but disagree with this post, and I think it is a little "genderist".

      As much as possible I try to avoid things like "Men can do this better and women can do this better". I don't think it's simply a matter of "men compartmentalize, so they can put off doing the dishes while they watch a movie" or something like that and that women don't or *can't* do the same thing.

      We are much more alike, and both men and women have the same ability to put things off, we are just socialized to do things differently.

      The relatively small biological differences between men and women are exagerated through socialization. Men are pretty much taught that if we don't clean something, a woman will do it for us.

      That's just my opiny.

      luke~

      ------Date: 2003-08-24 19:20:00 Subject: Forget what you want to do...you just can't make a living!

      I was welcoming new members at church this morning when I overheard this conversation between members....

      A couple of mothers were talking about their freshman age college students trying to start at colleges.

      One mother was saying that her son wanted to be an architect, but that she had put him in touch with her architect buddies and they had all advised him that he 'couldn't make a living' doing that anymore.

      After all, all of the architects that she knew "only made $50,000 a year"!

      Since when did $50,000 a year become low income???

      This was an eye-opener for me!

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Damn. $50,000 is plenty for me!

      I like the following statements.

      "It's better to have a life, than a living"

      and

      "It's better to work to live than to live to work." Follow your bliss! It's never too late!

      ------Date: 2003-08-26 14:44:00 Subject: What can make me feel this way?

      So I just got on the elevator with some guy I'd never seen before. They were playing The Temptations "My Girl" on the sound system and I just had to think what great music Motown produced in the 60s and 70s! It's timeless and terrific.

      It made me remember that classic SNL sketch about the guys in the bathroom, all sitting down, about 4 of them, behind closed doors. One starts singing The Drifters' "Under the Boardwalk" and before you know it, they all join in on the chorus.

      Maybe next time, in that elevator, I'll just start singing and see what happens. ;-)

      User Comments:

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------no, but it'd been cool if he did!

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------So did the guy start singing or something?

      ------Date: 2003-08-27 23:07:00 Subject: Did you ever notice...? that when you see a car that has a dent in it go passed you, you can pretty much see how they got the dent, just by some of the stupid things the driver is doing?

      I was coming home tonight from a meeting and this car ran the red light, and on the driver side rear of the car, he had a pretty major size dent!

      Wonder how that happened???? NOT!

      ------Date: 2003-08-28 23:52:00 Subject: Call me a Socialist

      I was watching C-Span this morning and Laura Flanders of Working Assets Radio was on... She covered lots of topics, but the one that hit home to me most was the subject of corporate executive compensation.

      Did you know that in the past 20 years, executive salaries have increased from 42:1 to 281:1 (in other words, 281 times the average workers salary now)?

      To me, this is disgusting!!

      And what's worse is that companies that have taken their companies offshore or laid off the most workers are enjoying 231% increase in executive compensation (Carly Fiorina of HP, I'm looking in your direction...you laid off 25,000 workers, but you're rich, so who cares?)

      User Comments:

      Derekjames http://www.journalscape.com/derekjames/ ------So move to France, you commie frog wannabe!

      Just kidding...I couldn't survive in corporate America without Jill there to gripe to. :)

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yeah, France rocks....

      'course this is after George Will totally slammed the French for taking off the 4 weeks. He showed the French lounging on the Riviera, and then proceeded to tell us how they hate our guts because they are jealous of us and our great economy. Huh?

      Another statistic Will gave was rather alarming. The French get 4 weeks off a year. Americans get an average of 16 days, and most Americans, according to Will, don't even take the 16 days!

      Hey, send them (the days) to me! I have grandkids in other states to visit and watch grow up!

      MaryAnn ------Meanwhile in France, they value their workers so much that not only do people get 4 weeks paid vacation, but there is a government program that helps subsidize vacation costs for the poor, so they can actually go somewhere with their family. Interesting.

      Matthew McKibben ------you socialist

      sickening aint it? the salary stat, not you being a socialist. i guess i'm just a chip off the ol' block.

      matthew

      ------Date: 2003-08-29 00:01:00 Subject: Ticketmaster sucks!

      I was purchasing tickets this morning online for The New Yorker Festival. Most of them could be purchased through Ticketmaster.com. Actually, that was the *only* way to purchase the tickets.

      I bought 2 tickets for 4 different venues, but I had to pay 4 service charges (actually 8...2X4) and 4 different postage fees.

      This totally sucks, but if I wanted the tickets I had no choice. Go through Ticketmaster or you don't go. Is this America????

      Where's a good anti-trust, anti monopoly lawsuit when you need one?

      User Comments:

      Mark ------MLB Tickets at Ticketmaster: What a joke. They are a pathetic group of monopolistic losers/idiots. I logged on at 12:30 today (the day and minute the World Series tickets went on sale) and I was confirmed for 4 tickets. The next screen threw me off. I tried again. I got confirmed for tickets again, and then the next screen threw me off again. I tried for 2 hours until their final screen “all tickets are gone” came up. Their 8th grader website threw me off 8 times total in the process. Ticketmaster could not possibly suck anymore and it is high time the MLB drops the losers. The MLB should realize that they don’t need those incompetent fools anymore. I will be sending this to the Marlins, Reds and Yankees.

      Mitch (Chicago, IL) ------I have had anti-Ticketmaster feelings for years dealing with them for concert and sporting event tickets. They are a monopoly, they take advantage of customers, and their policies are completely unfair. If anyone has any information ( a web site, organization, law suits... whatever) please pass it along to me. This company is evil and is a classic example of what's wrong with corporate America. Let's bring them down!

      Matthew McKibben ------"Nobody" is my hero of the day!!!

      -matt

      Nobody ------Dude, Pearl Jam already tried that. They took it all the way to the Supreme Court to show that it was literally impossible to hold a tour without going through Ticketmaster. (They used several venues that weren't services by Ticketmaster, but many of those venues are smaller than the arenas Pearl Jam was selling out at the time. Many of them panicked and either cancelled the shows or postponed them until PJ ponied up tons of insurance.)

      Anyway the Supreme Court shut Pearl Jam down.

      Fucking ticketbastard...

      ------Date: 2003-08-29 00:05:00 Subject: Grandchildren

      I just love my grandchildren!

      I have them on screensavers, both at home and at work, and every time I see their beautiful, smiling faces I just want to rejoice!

      I'm so blessed!

      This MaDear is so glad to be MaDear!!! User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------This uncle's proud to be an uncle too. The more nephews and nieces the better. Someday I'm going to recruit all of them into my own Nephew and Niece Army and we're going to take over the world.

      muahahahahaha

      ------Date: 2003-09-01 20:33:00 Subject: Laboring on Labor Day

      OK, today I complete another 3 day weekend where I had big hopes of getting mucho stuff done (and some much needed R&R) and I'm finding that it's almost time to hit the hay and I still have projects left to do.

      But I'm going to take my own advice and consider what I did get done this weekend:

      Laundry

      Hostessing a Party for Friends

      Visiting with my sons and their girlfriends

      Grooming Jack and Marina

      Going to Church and Sunday School

      Picking up the Mediator Mail

      Clearing out my Yahoo Inbox

      Cleaning the litter box and the litter off the bathroom floor

      Getting caught up on Sunday nght for the sleep I missed on Friday night

      Editing and creating pages for my church website

      Resolving an issue with a member of my homeowner's association

      Watching a couple of episodes of West Wing and Meet the Press

      Emailing my daughter MaryAnn Whew! OK, now I'm tired. This list far exceeds the tasks I didn't get done. Good job!

      User Comments:

      MaryAnn ------And I appreciated the e-mail!

      In fact I was just telling Robert that we needed to start thinking about what we did accomplish rather than what is still left to be done. Caroline takes up a lot of time, but hey--keeping a 6 month old alive and fed and clean and well-rested is hard work! We also enjoy her too. Did I tell you she's creeping/crawling?

      ------Date: 2003-09-03 22:44:00 Subject: So much TiVo, so little time

      I'm almost maxing out my TiVo. When I bought the thing, I had to choose between the 40 hour (really 35) and the 80 hour. Naturally, the 40 hour was cheaper and I sat there and considered that I spend 8 hours a day/5 days a week at a job...do I really need to have more than that recorded to watch?

      So I opted for the 40 hour (35 hour) TiVo.

      And now, since I've had meetings after work every day this week, and the last 3 day weekend was spent either entertaining or working on my volunteer stuff, I've almost maxed out the space.

      It's all those West Wings, and a pay-per-view movie (Talk To Her), and good ole Charlie Rose.

      Aaackk...what pressure. Oh well, I deleted some Simpsons episodes and some Inside the Actor's Studio...after all, they'll be repeated for sure. And thank god the Daily Show is re-runs this week. I might just make it!

      But what about the Chicago DVD with all the extras and the Bowling for Columbine (with a whole DVD full of extras) that I purchased a couple of weeks ago...when will I ever get to that?

      ODAT...one day at a time....oh yes.... ------Date: 2003-09-03 22:51:00 Subject: Rattle and hum

      Mary, my boss and new mother, and I were talking today about motherhood. It's quite an adjustment and we were talking about that.

      I related motherhood, and the feelings you get with the birth of your child, with a constant humming that some people have in their brain.

      Let me explain.

      During pregnancy, something happens to you. You have this thing inside you (a wonderful miracle) and in the birthing process, it enters the world.

      But it's always with you, even when it's not. It's like that freeway noise that I have constantly at my condo (living near 35 and 635 as I do) or the airplane noise I hear (only after 9/11/01 did I realize that I even have airplane noise, since when the airlines were not flying did I notice that it was there always...)

      That's what motherhood is like. You can go days/weeks without being with your child, but it's a constant hum...they are with you always. Are they ok? Are they safe? Will you ever see them again? How can I watch over them when they are soooo far away?

      And another thing...relationships with men (their father) changes...

      It's not that men are so needy. But when I dote and pay attention to my child, it takes time away from the relationship with my mate. But when they/my mate dote and pay attention to my child, they are paying attention to me.

      It's like an arm cut off, or an organ transplant.

      I have a friend that had the upper most part of his finger cut off in an accident. Even though it wasn't there, he always felt like it was there...when he typed on a keyboard, he felt like he was typing on the tip of that finger...phantom stuff and all.

      It's like that when you have a child. It may not be in me still, but it's an extension of me, no matter what. What is done to them is done to me, and it's that constant hum....rattle and hum...phantom stuff and all.

      ------Date: 2003-09-07 00:56:00 Subject: I'm kinda proud of this

      If you'd like, visit this site.

      This is my church website that I, along with a team of 3 others, created. We're still adding links and troubleshooting, but it's almost there and I think you'll find that it's a good site, compiled by willing volunteers who love UU and especially First UU of Dallas and want to spread the word to the world!

      User Comments:

      MaryAnn ------Here I am! :-) I like the color scheme a lot. Good job. I wouldn't even know where to start on something like that!

      Matthew McKibben ------All that's missing is MA's response and the Fab will be reunited with the Four.

      :-)

      Matthew

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Great job mom!

      Matthew McKibben ------as am i

      Katie ------That's really nice! I'm impressed.

      ------Date: 2003-09-08 22:06:00 Subject: September Song

      September is such a great month! Is it just because it follows the horrible month of August????

      Really, 31 days of hotter than hell temperatures...even at night.

      Summer is ok, most of the time. Life gets a little easier then...only one church service, daylight savings time, you don't have to worry 'bout what to wear (as little as possible, please), and if you travel during August to anywhere, you can pack light!)

      But oh, it's such a long month! Unless you're wanting it to last forever, 'cause you're going to start school soon (and that means homework).

      Anyway, September comes and you wake up that first day when you go outside and realize that it's cooler outside than it was when you left your place...yes god (or someone) actually left the thermostat lower outside than yours inside....what a relief.

      Yes, I made it through another Texas summer. Oh, rue that I am grateful to have endured...

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------You should try poetry sometime. Your post had some really nice, poetic moments.

      -Walt Whitman

      ------Date: 2003-09-09 21:53:00 Subject: What kind of craziness is this?

      So I have a cell phone and Luke has a cell phone and we have unlimited usage after 9 or 10 or something like that....

      So do we call each other and talk?

      NO! We are instant messaging.

      I can surf and update websites and watch TiVo, etc. inbetween posts and so can he.

      It's the 2000s after all. Why do something so 90s as pick up the phone and call, when you can so totally do it "all" with IM?

      ------Date: 2003-09-10 22:54:00 Subject: Tribute

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------Beautiful picture.

      ------Date: 2003-09-11 19:46:00 Subject: Two_ness

      From the cover of the latest New Yorker magazine...

      ------Date: 2003-09-11 19:51:00 Subject: Killing in the Name

      Matthew, I'm glad for this September 11th!

      John Brown

      -Bob Dylan

        John Brown went off to war to fight on a foreign shore.

        His mama sure was proud of him!

        He stood straight and tall in his uniform and all.

        His mama's face broke out all in a grin. "Oh son, you look so fine, I'm glad you're a son of mine,

        You make me proud to know you hold a gun.

        Do what the captain says, lots of medals you will get,

        And we'll put them on the wall when you come home."

        As that old train pulled out, John's ma began to shout,

        Tellin' ev'ryone in the neighborhood:

        "That's my son that's about to go, he's a soldier now, you know."

        She made well sure her neighbors understood.

        She got a letter once in a while and her face broke into a smile

        As she showed them to the people from next door.

        And she bragged about her son with his uniform and gun,

        And these things you called a good old-fashioned war.

        Oh! Good old-fashioned war!

        Then the letters ceased to come, for a long time they did not come.

        They ceased to come for about ten months or more.

        Then a letter finally came saying, "Go down and meet the train.

        Your son's a-coming home from the war."

        She smiled and went right down, she looked everywhere around

        But she could not see her soldier son in sight.

        But as all the people passed, she saw her son at last,

        When she did she could hardly believe her eyes.

        Oh his face was all shot up and his hand was all blown off And he wore a metal brace around his waist.

        He whispered kind of slow, in a voice she did not know,

        While she couldn't even recognize his face!

        Oh! Lord! Not even recognize his face.

        "Oh tell me, my darling son, pray tell me what they done.

        How is it you come to be this way?"

        He tried his best to talk but his mouth could hardly move

        And the mother had to turn her face away.

        "Don't you remember, Ma, when I went off to war

        You thought it was the best thing I could do?

        I was on the battleground, you were home . . . acting proud.

        You wasn't there standing in my shoes."

        "Oh, and I thought when I was there, God, what am I doing here?

        I'm a-tryin' to kill somebody or die tryin'.

        But the thing that scared me most was when my enemy came close

        And I saw that his face looked just like mine."

        Oh! Lord! Just like mine!

        "And I couldn't help but think, through the thunder rolling and stink,

        That I was just a puppet in a play.

        And through the roar and smoke, this string is finally broke,

        And a cannon ball blew my eyes away."

        As he turned away to walk, his Ma was still in shock At seein' the metal brace that helped him stand.

        But as he turned to go, he called his mother close

        And he dropped his medals down into her hand.

      Copyright © 1963; renewed 1991 Special Rider Music

      ------Date: 2003-09-15 00:00:00 Subject: First Lesson

      First Lesson

      -by Philip Booth

        Lie back daughter, let your head be tipped back in the cup of my hand.

        Gently, and I will hold you. Spread your arms wide, lie out on the stream and look high at the gulls. A dead- man's float is face down. You will dive and swim soon enough where this tidewater ebbs to the sea. Daughter, believe me, when you tire on the long thrash to your island, lie up, and survive.

        As you float now, where I held you and let go, remember when fear cramps your heart what I told you: lie gently and wide to the light-year stars, lie back, and the sea will hold you.

      ------Date: 2003-09-15 23:21:00 Subject: Anger and tears

      That's what I'm feeling today.

      I want to scream, I want to hit something, I want to escape, I want to help, I want to be strong, I want to make it all go away, I want to sleep, I want to get drunk, I want to love, I want to have more time, I want to forget, I want to remember, I want.....

      User Comments:

      MaryAnn ------Do it.

      ------Date: 2003-09-16 23:51:00 Subject: I've made it through another layer

      A layer of grief, that is....

      Yesterday, all the world seemed to really suck.

      Today, I got a positive message from Ted, a phone call from Caroline/MaryAnn, a phone call from Katie/a couple of other friends of mine called me and then called Sherry/and I got a group of wonderful pictures of my precious grandchildren...

      With, and through their eyes, the world is OK!

      Sherry, I'm ready to take up the fight with you.

      ------Date: 2003-09-22 13:09:00 Subject: You probably didn't even know that I was gone...

      ...but I'm back.

      Luke and I had a great trip to NYC. We managed to dodge the hurricane going into the city, and once there, it was a nice weather weekend.

      We watched panels on the media and screenwriting and listened to Dave Eggers and ZZ Packer read excerpts from their latest works of fiction. The whole gang from "The Mighty Wind" movie performed a concert Saturday night, and it was fun to be there in the middle of with a sold out audience for this cool event.

      Luke and I managed to down a few calories...Afghanistan food the first night (not in our own private room though) (inside joke), cheesecake at the Brooklyn Diner, Greek food and Italian sausage at the street fair, bagels and cream cheese, and a 'slice' at Penn Station.

      We didn't get mugged, even when we went to the 'evil' lower east side on Friday night.

      And we both agreed that the upper east side (Madison Ave) is a place we don't care about visiting again.

      We checked out the Whitney and enjoyed it immensely.

      Our hotel (Portland Square) was little more than a NY version of Motel 6, but it was safe and sound and convenient to Times Square and everything, really.

      All in all, we had a great time! We're hoping more can join us next year for our annual trek to the Big Apple!

      User Comments:

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Maggie writes: Were the panels and Eggers part of the NY is Book country festival?

      Close, but no, they were part of The New Yorker Festival.

      And yes, I'm counting you in for next year Matthew.

      And MA, babies LOVE the big apple! I've already promised Jessie a trip to the Statue of Liberty so 'Tusan' would love the boat ride too! Joey too! What fun! Maggie ------Were the panels and Eggers part of the NY is Book country festival?

      MaryAnn ------Sounds like a family tradition in the making! But who will take care of Caroline?

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------I'm glad that you had a great time. Next year, you can count me in. :-)

      ------Date: 2003-09-23 14:58:00 Subject: "My" Symphony

      To live content with small means;

      To seek elegance rather than luxury, and refinement rather than fashion;

      To be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy, not, rich;

      To listen to stars and birds, babes and sages, with open heart;

      To study hard; to think quietly, act frankly, talk gently, await occasions, hurry never;

      in a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious, grow up through the common

      This is my symphony.

      William Henry Channing's Symphony: from the 1906 collection, "Editorials From The Hearst Newspapers"

      ------Date: 2003-09-25 23:06:00 Subject: Leisure time

      Does anyone ever have it anymore?

      I was going over the things I have planned for the weekend...hosting my son and his girlfriend late tonight and tomorrow night...then Seminary for a day at my church on Saturday morning...then a football game with Matthew Saturday night, possibly...then it's church on Sunday, facilitate my SS class discussion, attend my Assoc. Pastor's installation or Hamlet at the Dallas Theater Center (I can't do both), then update websites, play with pets, relax for the week ahead...Aaackk!!!! OK, I'll just find a little time to have some leisure time, no, really, I really will do this, really.....

      User Comments: matthew mckibben ------going to a football game isn't leisurely? ;-)

      matt

      ------Date: 2003-09-30 10:14:00 Subject: Patriot Act

      I attended a seminar at my church given by one of our members who's an attorney about the Patriot Act. Pretty scary....

      Yet, not coordinating intelligence is pretty scary as well...

      I wish I could be so sure of my feelings on things like this as strong liberals or conservatives are, but I remain conflicted.

      ------Date: 2003-10-01 00:03:00 Subject: How weird is this?

      On the same day, I check my sister into the hospital for cancer surgery and go to see "Hamlet" at the Dallas Theater Center.

      The play was great! and I'm hoping that the doctors operating on Sherry are a little more on the ball than what I observed from admitting her. Oh yeah, the people were really nice...it's just that the left hand doesn't know what the right hand is doing most of the time.

      I'll be there for her and be her advocate. You need that nowadays, if you have a stint in the hospital.

      ------Date: 2003-10-02 21:59:00 Subject: It was a little more than a month ago...

      ...that I was celebrating that, at least for awhile, I would not have to take care of anyone but myself (and my pets, I guess). Now don't get me wrong. I'm a caretaker, in the strictest sense of the word.

      But my baby son had graduated from college and he had gotten a job and I was in that 'place' between taking care of kids and taking care of my parent(s). I was even telling people that I was hoping this period would last, at least a little while.

      And then, it happened. My sister is very ill...who would have thought that?

      I still maintain that things would be a lot less complicated if god did things in chronological order, but that's not to be.

      So, here I am again, in my role as caretaker of my sister and others, but it's ok. That's who I am. Been there...done that...can do it again and will!

      User Comments:

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------Like the advice you always give us, don't try to do too much. You are just one person. Although you can do a lot, don't lose sight that we have a great family unit in the Dallas area (as well as in Oklahoma and Houston) who would do anything for anyone at the drop of a hat.

      I'm a resource just waiting to be tapped.

      ------Date: 2003-10-08 09:37:00 Subject: Dreamland

      I went to a meeting last night at my church about lucid dreaming. I think I fall, most of the time, in the category he described as "too stressed" to remember dreams, but I want to try to change that.

      Not that I want to start remembering everything I dream about, but I think it would be healthy for me to at least remember some of them.

      He recommended a dream journal (Luke, you were way ahead of him on that one) and doing some intentional things to aid the process. An exercise we did during the class almost put me to sleep, so, at the very least, this will be helpful in relaxation.

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org/dreams ------Yeah, Dream Journals are great. Though I haven't updated mine in a while, and trust me, I have had some dreams lately! matthew mckibben ------"score one for the relaxation king."

      -taken from "The Ben Stiller Show

      ------Date: 2003-10-14 10:49:00 Subject: Party switching

      This helped me commit again....

        Grass is Not Always Greener on the Other Side

        The Green Party of New Mexico is made up of people from across the political spectrum but united around Ten Key Values. There has always been and will continue to be a difference of opinion over electoral strategy and the party welcomes that diversity. While most Greens in New Mexico and around the country are committed to creating a multi-party democracy and running as many Green Party candidates as possible in every election, a small minority from time to time chose to support candidates of other parties.

        Most Greens in New Mexico and across the county will not be supporting

        Dennis Kucinich or any other Democrat for President. They will be supporting the Green Party candidate for President, whether it is Ralph Nader or one of the four other declared candidates. Most Greens want an alternative to Democrat and Republican candidates and are very focused on the long term goal of building a new political force in the United States,² stated Joe

        Lacayo, Co-Chair GPNM.

        "We thank David Bacon for his 2002 run for Governor," continued Lacayo, "and while we disagree with his decision to register Democrat to support Dennis

        Kucinich that is his decision. While other Greens may also make this decision, most Greens realize that for Kucinich to energize his campaign he has to attract Democrats, not Greens."

        Democrats are 52% of the registered voters in NM; Greens are 1% statewide, although registration is 4% in several counties. Kucinich consistently ranks in last place among the Democrat candidates, somewhere between 0 and 2%.

        GPNM respects the diversity and independence of its members and will welcome back any Greens that try out other parties.

        "We are strong in the knowledge that we are part of a national and international movement that stands for peace, non-violence, economic and social justice. The Green Party opposes the death penalty, stands for real election reform, saving the environment, honoring the rights of indigenous people, a living wage for all workers and universal health care," said Carol

        Miller, Co-Chair.

        The Green Party of New Mexico will have a June 1, 2004 primary election to select delegates to the Presidential Nominating Convention, to be held in

        Milwaukee, Wisconsin from June 24 - 26, 2004.

      User Comments:

      Nobody ------One of the things that deeply impressed me about Peter Camejo was that not only where his ideals in line with my own, he was very happy to give up the spotlight to someone else if that someone else was going to support his ideals.

      He wasn't running because he wanted power but because he wanted certain things done differently in the state. If someone else from a major party took up the standard from him, he would support that person.

      I find that a very enlightened approach and it's a major reason why I'm changing my affiliation to Green this month. Thanks for posting this article.

      ------Date: 2003-10-14 18:49:00 Subject: This just makes sense!

      From Citizen Works today...

        Dear Citizen:

        Congress is expected to pass President Bush's $87 billion supplemental appropriations request for Iraq this week, which includes $20 billion for rebuilding Iraq.

        In the House, Rep. Sherrod Brown (D-Ohio) has drafted an amendment to the supplemental spending bill that would ban companies that have moved their headquarters to offshore tax havens to avoid paying U.S. taxes from receiving government contracts in Iraq.

        In recent years, several dozen U.S. companies have “reincorporated” in offshore tax havens, exploiting a tax loophole that now costs the Treasury billions of dollars in revenue each year. According to the General Accounting Office, four of the top 100 federal contractors – Accenture, Tyco, Foster Wheeler, and McDermott International – are now incorporated in an offshore tax haven. Bermuda-based Accenture, for instance, has more than $1 billion in federal contracts ($278 million in 2001 alone, according to the GAO), including a five-year contract to revamp the IRS’s own web site.

        Put simply, companies that move offshore to a PO Box headquarters to avoid paying their fair share of taxes should not be rewarded with American taxpayer money. Please let your member of Congress know TODAY that you support Rep. Brown’s amendment to the supplemental Iraq appropriations request to ban tax escapees from receiving any contracts in the rebuilding of Iraq.

        To contact your representative - http://www.house.gov/writerep

        For more background on corporate tax escapees: http://www.citizenworks.org/corp/tax/corp_tax_dodgers.php

        Keep up the good work,

        Your Friends at Citizen Works

      ------Date: 2003-10-17 22:45:00 Subject: Ikebana

      My church offers so many good classes, that over the last 2 years, I've signed up for most, if not all, of them.

      Ikebana is the latest one that I attended (and will finish the class tomorrow) and it's just so cool.

      I've never had a green thumb and living in a one bedroom condo, I don't have space or time for gardening.

      But this seems like something I can sink my teeth into.

      All you need is an interesting shallow dish, a kenzan, a pair of gardening shears, and a few flowers or branches or other greenery.

      Using these simple ingredients, you're able to design and produce a wonderful, minimalist flower arrangement, Japanese style. And it's spiritual and meditative at that!

      For someone whose life is complex and busy, the simplicity of this is very comforting and quieting and serene.

      User Comments: Matthew McKibben ------But is it Cheea Pet cool? j/k

      I'm looking forward to seeing it when I come down sometime soon.

      :-)

      matt out

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------I have an application I downloaded called "e-ikebana". It is a virtual ikebana program that allows me to make one on my computer. I can download it to my PDA, which is perfect for my fast paced "on the go" meditations.

      When I get bummed out because my stocks are at a loss, I just look down at the animated gifs and think about meditation and spirituality. It's a lifesaver.

      just kidding just kidding. :)

      Sounds cool though...

      ------Date: 2003-10-20 22:10:00 Subject: Praise the lord

      So Sherry is on day 3 past her chemo, and she's not sick...just a little tired, but who isn't these days??? I'm so glad that she's handling this ok.

      ------Date: 2003-10-23 13:12:00 Subject: This just doesn't make sense

      Just went to lunch with my boss and co-worker. We tried a new place -- Duke's Roadhouse Cafe in Addison. We were looking for a Blackeyed Pea type of place and this seemed, according to Dallas Guidelive, to be similar. Upon entering, however, we realized it was a little less homey-like and alot more sports bar like, but oh well, it still looked like it might have a chicken fried chicken meal to suit Derek.

      I ordered the baked potato and Derek got his c-f-c. Mary, my boss, is on the Atkins Diet and wanted a hamburger, without the bun, and wanted to substitute the dinner salad for the french fries. They just couldn't do that. She'd have to pay a dollar upcharge.

      Now I'm thinking a couple of leaves of iceberg lettuce and a tomato slice or two with a little ranch dressing for good measure couldn't possibly cost the restaurant more than a handful of french fries. And they could have saved and used the bun for another customer. But still, they wouldn't do it.

      So, this was lose/lose. Mary didn't get what she really wanted and won't go back and the restaurant didn't get what they really wanted...repeat business in a competitive restaurant world.

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------It kind of seems like something from that Jack Nicholson movie, where all he wanted was (toast I believe?).

      Anyway...

      Matthew McKibben ------Actually, in today's tough socio-economic climate, a head of lettuce runs about 20,000 yen.

      Advantage....Matthew. j/k

      that is pretty silly though

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Advantage: Maryann...

      MaryAnn ------That would be Burger King.

      Ashamed that I know that...

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------That's the problem with Atkins.

      Just kidding. That was pretty stupid of the restaurant. Probably just some uptight people who are anal about "following the rules". If the place really cared about it's customers it would have accomodated.

      Oh well, there's always McDonalds, where you have it *your* way...

      ------Date: 2003-10-24 08:56:00 Subject: Help wanted

      My boss forwarded me this...only those qualified need apply!

        Senior Technology Scientist I - Breath Freshening Wrigley Location- Chicago Factory Description - Performs and applies high intermediate to advanced level breath freshening technology research into new technologies for chewing gum and confectionery products to provide the basis for new product development or product improvements, and serves as the primary contact with the international breath freshening community Requirements - PhD in Organic, Medical, Biochemistry or related with 5-10 years industrial experience in developing products effective against bad breath from concept to market. Must have demonstrated experience identifying activities effective against bad breath, formulating actives in mints, gums, films, mouth wash or toothpaste.

      So tell me...did you even know that there was an "international breath freshening community"???

      ------Date: 2003-10-29 16:42:00 Subject: Buddhism 101

      I attended the first of a 3-part series at my church this past Monday about Buddhism.

      Seems many UUs are very interested in the subject. Usually, we get about 10-20 people who sign up for an evening course like this at my church.

      But not a course about Buddhism!

      We had over 50 people crammed into Raible Chapel and at least 10 or 15 on the 'wait list' for the next time this is offered. WOW!

      One of my fellow UUs remarked that he wondered if the class would be overflowing like this if the Buddhists offered a class about Unitarian Universalism.

      Doubt it, seriously doubt it, but then again, churning and churning water doesn't produce butter.

      ------Date: 2003-10-30 22:41:00 Subject: Bowling for credibility

      OK, this is from the San Francisco Chronicle...hardly your right wing rag...

        EDITORIAL, Bowling for credibility, Thursday, October 30, 2003

        MICHAEL MOORE, the polemic filmmaker who likes to wear his "progressive'' politics on his plaid sleeves, has made a fortune from bashing doyens of corporate greed. But apparently the provocative Moore doesn't mind the perks of celebrity -- even when they bear the label of big- time corporate America. Moore recently touched down in California as part of his national book tour. He's traveling in style -- in a private jet provided by Time Warner, and in SUVs courtesy of his publisher, Warner Books. The company also threw in some bodyguards -- as we know from his movies, America is a pretty darn dangerous place.

        For his part, Moore sees no contradiction between his private life and his public image, suggesting that the only reason he's feeding at the corporate trough is because it's there. "I would never pay for this,'' Moore told the Los Angeles Times, adding that the irony is not lost on him.

        When you make your living bashing malicious corporate CEOs, it's best not to remind people that you're using giant media companies to carry your message.

        After all, the bottom line is all about profits, not prophets.

      It is easy for men to talk one thing and think another.

      - Syrus (Publilius Syrus), Maxims

      User Comments:

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------Yeah, damn everyone. Everyone's a hypocrite. I hate articles like this because it points out both a sad truth about the message giver.

      But the main reason why I hate article like this is that it boxes people in to some kind of perfection that no one can achieve. If you're not Gandhi or Jesus Christ, they're going to find something to degrade your message. Even if those two fellas were doing their thing today, I bet they would somehow be dragged down by some kind of media or politician. What articles like this do is lead people to saying, "Well what's the point of me doing anything different if someone like ______isn't even doing what they're preaching?"

      It's as if Michael Moore driving around in an SUV to promote his book or using body guards, disregards everything good that he's achieved. But on the subject of the body guards, I mean, he DID just make a movie about "gun loving" gun nuts, and he's said that he's received quite a few death threats. I don't think it's hypocritical of him to use bodyguards to protect his security. His discourse on the culture of fear and him using bodyguards to protect himself from a real and present danger are two different issues.

      And for him using corporations, Michael Moore has never said that all corporations are bad. He isn't that stupid. His main gripe is with the coporations and people who put profits and corporate interests above all else. I don't think "Random House" fits that bill. I have never heard of a book publishing company making missiles or dumping toxic waste into the Pacific ocean.

      just my two cents

      ------Date: 2003-11-01 19:45:00 Subject: Where hatred ends up

      The Hindus have a legend concerning a mythical bird called Bherunda. The bird had a single body, but two necks, two heads and two separate consciousnesses. After an eternity together, these two heads began to hate each other and decided to harm each other. Both of them swallowed pebbles and poison, and the result was predictable: The whole Bherunda bird went into spasms and died with loud cries of pain. It was brought back to life by the infinite mercy of Krishna, to remind people forever how all hatred ends up.

      We should remind ourselves of this legend each day. As soon as one of us succumbs to the temptation to hate another, we will all end up like the Bherunda bird.

      With this difference. There will be no earthly Krishna around to liberate us from our new misfortune.

      -Address by Vaclav Havel, Oslo Conference on "The Anatomy of Hate"

      ------Date: 2003-11-03 00:05:00 Subject: Happy Birthday Matthew

      How can this be? My son...26 years old???? I remember when he was born. How happy I was that I had a son! Oh, not that my 2 daughters didn't make me so extremely happy, but then again, a son. That was special too.

      I had the daughter thing down. Dolls, dresses, and all that. But a son...

      How would I ever know how to mother a son?

      Matthew made it easy. His smile melted my heart...still does. And his sensitivity was almost feminine...if sensitivity has a sex.

      I love you Matthew. And wish you the happiest of birthdays!

      ------Date: 2003-11-07 21:33:00 Subject: Radical Forgiveness Ceremony

      This is what I'm doing tomorrow....

        Based on a Native American healing circle ceremony and the tools and principles of the book 'Radical Forgiveness, Making Room for the Miracle' by Colin Tipping, this largely non-verbal process preserves privacy and anonymity, yet has proven itself to be extremely powerful and effective in allowing people to forgive themselves and others, and to find peace and happiness.

        Participants walk the circle once to silently honor and witness their 'story' of what happened to them. As they see others walk too they realize they are not alone, and they honor each others' pain. After hearing a special Radical Forgiveness story, participants walk the circle again and ask inwardly to come to a new place of forgiveness and peace. This really works! People leave with tears of joy and smiling faces. Please come! It is entirely non-threatening and will quite likely change your life forever!

      ------Date: 2003-11-07 21:41:00 Subject: This Much I Do Remember

      It was after dinner.

      You were talking to me across the table about something or other, a greyhound you had seen that day or a song you liked,

      and I was looking past you over your bare shoulder at the three oranges lying on the kitchen counter next to the small electric bean grinder, which was also orange, and the orange and white cruets for vinegar and oil.

      All of which converged into a random still life, so fastened together by the hasp of color, and so fixed behind the animated foreground of your talking and smiling, gesturing and pouring wine, and the camber of you shoulders

      that I could feel it being painted within me, brushed on the wall of my skull, while the tone of your voice lifted and fell in its flight, and the three oranges remained fixed on the counter the way that stars are said to be fixed in the universe. Then all of the moments of the past began to line up behind that moment and all of the moments to come assembled in front of it in a long row, giving me reason to believe that this was a moment I had rescued from millions that rush out of sight into a darkness behind the eyes.

      Even after I have forgotten what year it is, my middle name, and the meaning of money,

      I will still carry in my pocket the small coin of that moment, minted in the kingdom that we pace through every day.

      - Billy Collins

      ------Date: 2003-11-07 21:47:00 Subject: Today, like every other day

      Today, like every other day, we wake up empty and frightened.

      Don't open the door to the study and begin reading.

      Take down a musical instrument.

      Let the beauty we love be what we do.

      There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.

      -Rumi ------Date: 2003-11-07 21:49:00 Subject: So Much Happiness

      It is difficult to know what to do with so much happiness.

      With sadness there is something to rub against, a wound to tend with lotion and cloth.

      When the world falls in around you, you have pieces to pick up, something to hold in your hands, like ticket stubs or change.

      But happiness floats.

      It doesn't need you to hold it down.

      It doesn't need anything.

      Happiness lands on the roof of the next house, singing, and disappears when it wants to.

      -Naomi Shihab Nye

      You are happy either way.

      Even the fact that you once lived in a peaceful tree house and now live over a quarry of noise and dust cannot make you unhappy.

      Everything has a life of its own, it too could wake up filled with possibilities of coffee cake and ripe peaches, and love even the floor which needs to be swept, the soiled linens and scratched records...

      Since there is no place large enough to contain so much happiness, you shrug, you raise your hands, and it flows out of you into everything you touch. You are not responsible.

      You take no credit, as the night sky takes no credit for the moon, but continues to hold it, and share it, and in that way, be known.

      ------Date: 2003-11-07 21:54:00 Subject: What to Remember When Waking

      In that first hardly noticed moment in which you wake, coming back to this life from the other, more secret, moveable and frighteningly honest world where everything began, there is a small opening into the new day which closes the moment you begin your plans.

      What you can plan is too small for you to live.

      What you can live wholeheartedly will make plans enough for the vitality hidden in your sleep.

      To be human is to become visible while carrying what is hidden as a gift to others.

      To remember the other world in this world is to live in your true inheritance.

      You are not a trouble guest on this earth, you are not an accident amidst other accidents.

      You were invited from another and greater night than the one from which you have just emerged.

      Now looking through the slanting light of the morning window toward the mountain presence of everything that can be, what urgency calls you to your one love? What shape waits in the seed of you to grow and spread its branches against a future sky?

      Is it waiting in the fertile sea?

      In the trees beyond the house?

      In the life you can imagine for yourself? In the open and lovely white page on the waiting desk?

      -David Whyte

      ------Date: 2003-11-07 21:58:00 Subject: Life While-You-Wait

      -by Wislawa Szymborska

      Life While-You-Wait.

      Performance without rehearsal.

      Body without alteration.

      Head without premeditation.

      I know nothing of the role I play.

      I only know it's mine, I can't exchange it.

      I have to guess on the spot just what this play's all about.

      Ill-prepared for the privilege of living,

      I can barely keep up with the pace that the action demands.

      I improvise, though I loathe improvisation.

      I trip at every step over my own ignorance.

      I can't conceal my hayseed manners.

      My instincts are hammy histrionics.

      Stage fright makes excuses for me, which humiliate me more.

      Extenuating circumstances strike me as cruel. Words and impulses you can't take back, stars you'll never get counted, your character like a raincoat you button on the run--- the pitiful results of all this unexpectedness.

      If I could just rehearse one Wednesday in advance, or repeat a single Thursday that has passed!

      But here comes Friday with a script I haven't seen.

      Is it fair, I ask

      (my voice a little hoarse, since I couldn't even clear my throat offstage).

      You'd be wrong to think it's just a slapdash quiz taken in makeshift accommodations. Oh no.

      I'm standing on the set and I see how strong it is.

      The props are surprisingly precise.

      The machine rotating the stage has been around even longer.

      The farthest galaxies have been turned on.

      Oh no, there's no question, this must be the premiere.

      And whatever I do will become forever what I've done.

      ------Date: 2003-11-07 22:00:00 Subject: Bear with me...I'm in a poetry state of mind

      Long week...short weekend ahead.

      I'm looking for inspiration and I find it in poetry.

      For now, I'm going to go cuddle with my cats and dogs.... User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Wow, she posted....

      ...I'm speechless...

      Matthew McKibben ------Maybe i'll write some for you...

      :-D

      ------Date: 2003-11-08 17:08:00 Subject: This just in

      I just finished Bob Schieffer's unabridged audiobook This Just In: What I Couldn't Tell You on TV. It was 13 CDs full of about 40 years of anchoring and reporting on stories for CBS News.

      I'm not a huge Schieffer fan, but I do think he's a decent person and a pretty good newsman.

      During the course of 'hearing' this book, I found myself being taken back to Watergate, the JFK assassination, 9/11, Carter and Ford's presidencies, etc. It was interesting and shed some new light on those events and others.

      Probably the most profound thing that I learned from the book (and my friend Derek denies that this happens) is that Congress works to not settle certain perennial issues (such as abortion and gun control) since they have such fractious groups on either side that throw big sums of money their way, depending on which side they are on. Both parties do it and profit from it.

      You only need to look at the vote this week on Bush's 87.5 billion dollar relief package to Iraq and the, excuse the expression, pussy way that congress dealt with the vote (they did a voice vote and only 6 senators showed up and only Robert Byrd voted no!) to believe that our 'representatives' play some pretty foul games with the power we've invested in them to maintain their standing and office.

      ------Date: 2003-11-11 12:26:00 Subject: "Happy?" Veterans Day The New York Times published the following today...

      ------

      November 11, 2003 VETERANS DAY

      The Things They Wrote

      Veterans Day honors all who have served in the military — in peace and in war, at home and abroad, living and dead. Today is the 50th anniversary of the holiday renamed by President Dwight D. Eisenhower in 1954 to "solemnly remember the sacrifices of all those who fought so valiantly, on the seas, in the air, and on foreign shores, to preserve our heritage of freedom." Before 1954 the holiday was called Armistice Day.

      Observation this year of Veterans Day comes as about 130,000 troops — 102,000 active military and 28,000 reserve — remain on duty in Iraq. As of yesterday, according to the Pentagon, 394 have died in the war.

      Below are excerpts from among the final letters home of some soldiers who died there.

      ------

      Excerpts of letters from Army Capt. Joshua T. Byers, 29, of Anderson, S.C., who was killed on July 23 when a bomb detonated under his vehicle.

      Thursday, June 5

      Dear Mom and Dad,

      A couple of days ago, my squadron commander told me that I would be taking command of Fox Troop in June, after all. . . . SWEET! I left my conversation with him walking on air! Not only will I soon be a cavalry troop commander (the most lethal combination of fire power that a captain can be in command of, in any service), BUT I will have the opportunity and the incredible responsibility of commanding in combat. I have to admit that I am really nervous and just pray that I am up to the task out here to lead 120 men in combat operations.

      I will give them everything I have to give — I love them already, just because they're mine. I pray, with all my heart, that I will be able to take every single one of them home safe when we finish our mission here. Friday, June 20

      It seems like I've been here for so much longer than I have. My life away from here seems so far away. In some ways, I don't think I'll ever have it back completely. I think war takes certain things from you, or maybe it gives certain things that change your perspective. I love being in command. It's so great to lead again. I love taking care of my men and accomplishing our missions together here. I am blessed.

      Thursday, July 3

      In the past two nights we've been attacked each night while on patrol. No casualties for us. . . . I see more bravery in a day here than I had seen in my entire life prior to this. I'm healthy and doing fine — although I really want to get that redeployment order and come home (as everyone does) — I don't dwell on it. We are accomplishing our mission here and I think I'll take a lot of pride in that for the rest of my life. Although the sacrifice is great, the rewards of service are so much greater.

      Friday, July 18

      Life here continues to be challenging, but we're all hanging in there. We got a blow to our morale a few days ago when the corps commander visited us (three-star general). He said there was no way we were going home in less than nine to 12 months. Man, that's going to suck. We're working on month No. 4 right now and it already seems like we've been here forever and a day. I still love being a commander. I love leading troops and taking care of them. It is a huge responsibility and I feel the weight of it every day. I send the thing I love most out here — my men — into harm's way every day and every night. I just do my best to ensure they're ready, trained, equipped and properly led in every situation.

      Monday, July 21

      We conducted a huge operation in the desert about a week ago. We had intel that suggested that the bad guys were hiding weapons and ammo out in the desert and bringing it into the city to attack us. We swept all of the desert north of us and found lots of weapons/ammo. . . . Two of the targets that we captured turned out to be first cousins of Saddam Hussein. I love you both with all of my heart! I'm working very hard here — adding honor to our country and to our family name!

      Love, Josh

      ------

      Excerpt of an e-mail message to his wife, Theresa, from Army Master Sgt. Kevin N. Morehead, 33, of Little Rock, Ark., who was killed Sept. 12 during a raid on enemy forces. The message was sent July 7.

      Hey Baby,

      I do enjoy planning for the future. It gives me a lot of hope to be able to plan for our success. Sometimes I think that maybe I wouldn't come up with these plans if I wasn't deployed. Being here focuses my attention on home and I have time to come up with lots of avenues for us. It has been one blessing for me being here. I think if we can get the things done that I have come up with we will be able to have a prosperous life ahead of us. I don't want you to worry about how we are going to make it after I get out. . . . I want us to be able to enjoy our life and do things that we want to do.

      I think after we get these bills settled and get on track this winter with the property and the house, next spring I am going to get us another boat. We had a lot of fun when we had a boat. I remember when me, you and Jesse used to go to the lake and camping. Those were really fun times. I would eventually like to get a camper or an R.V., too. . . . I know how you like to have a nice place to stay. If we got a nice camper, then it would almost be like staying in a hotel room with A.C. and a private shower and a queen size bed. I love you very much. I can't wait to get on with our lives. I really look forward to our future together.

      Kevin

      ------Excerpts of letters from Army Pfc. Rachel K. Bosveld, 19, of Oshkosh, Wis., who was killed Oct. 26 in a mortar attack.

      Tuesday, Oct. 14

      Mom,

      I'm doing fine, Mom. Yes, I did get into a sort of accident, if that's what you call it. We were hit by an IED (improvised explosive device) or RPG (rocket-propelled grenade), which set our truck on fire because it struck the battery and fuel line. My neck and shoulder were pretty banged up for about two weeks. My shoulder popped (dislocated) and I jammed my neck as well. I lost my hearing in my left ear for a few weeks. My hearing in general isn't good at all anymore. I've been through my share of explosives. I'm sending pictures home to be developed of my truck (or what's left of it). I took a few of me with the truck, so you could all see that I'm O.K.

      It's still pretty warm during the day, but gets very chilly at night. Could you try and find one of my hooded sweatshirts to send to me? Right now I'm soaking my feet. My feet take a beating in these boots. My feet are all cut up and sore. . . . Feels soooooo good now, anyway. I guess I haven't been taking as good care of myself this month. We have a physical training test I'm getting ready for. This month and last we haven't gotten much time to do P.T. So I work, sleep, work, P.T., work — oh, and eat. Well Mom, my 20-minute soak is up. Take care. I love you. Don't worry so much about me, Mom, my intuition has already saved a few lives here and my own as well.

      Monday, Oct. 20

      I'm doing great this week. Sure, I've dodged lots of bullets and such, gotten little to no sleep and eaten nasty food, but I am doing great. I got to drive a tank! I got a tour, learned how to operate everything, load everything, and I got to DRIVE IT! I was tooth from ear to ear! I'm getting a Purple Heart for the accident, along with eight other people in my platoon. . . . Someone is always getting injured here. There have been no fatalities so far in my company, though, just lots of injuries. So, how are you? Eighteen days till my birthday! I can't wait! No one probably even knows when it is over here. Well, bye for now, just wanted to let you know I'm O.K. and I miss you. I love you, Rachel

      ------

      Excerpt of a letter from Army Pvt. Robert L. Frantz, 19, of San Antonio, who was killed June

      17 when he was struck by a grenade. The letter was postmarked June 15.

      Dear Mom,

      I got the first package, and the letter you sent me. Sorry if I haven't been writing so much. I pull 12-hour guard shifts from 7 at night till 7 in the morning, and then I go on patrols some time in between those hours, and when I am not doing that I am usually sleeping.

      Someone shot at us last night. I was getting ready to go to sleep and I hear a pop, pop, and then the bullets ricocheted off the building right outside the window I was standing in front of. . . . It kinda sucks, when all you can think about is there's someone out there trying to kill you or your buddy next to you, and all you can do is hope you kill them first.

      I got to stay the night in Saddam's wife's palace the first night I was in Baghdad. That thing is huge. I want to see what his main palace looks like. . . . I took some pictures, hopefully they'll come out. We've had random gunfire within a 100-meter radius all night, every night, since I have been here. It kinda scares you the first couple nights, but you tend to get used to it. Well, Mom, I gotta go. Tell everyone I love them and miss them very much.

      Love always and forever, Robby

      ------

      Excerpt of a letter from Army Pfc. Jesse A. Givens, 34, of Springfield, Mo. Private Givens was killed May 1 when his tank fell into the Euphrates River after the bank on which he was parked gave way. This letter was written to be delivered to his family if he died.

      Melissa is his wife, Dakota is his 6-year-old stepson and Bean is the name he used for his son, Carson, who was born May 29.

      My family, I never thought that I would be writing a letter like this. I really don't know where to start. I've been getting bad feelings, though and, well, if you are reading this. . . .

      The happiest moments in my life all deal with my little family. I will always have with me the small moments we all shared. The moments when you quit taking life so serious and smiled. The sounds of a beautiful boy's laughter or the simple nudge of a baby unborn.

      You will never know how complete you have made me. You saved me from loneliness and taught me how to think beyond myself. You taught me how to live and to love. You opened my eyes to a world I never dreamed existed.

      Dakota . . . you taught me how to care until it hurts, you taught me how to smile again. You taught me that life isn't so serious and sometimes you just have to play. You have a big, beautiful heart. Through life you need to keep it open and follow it. Never be afraid to be yourself. I will always be there in our park when you dream so we can play. I love you, and hope someday you will understand why I didn't come home.

      Please be proud of me. Bean, I never got to see you but I know in my heart you are beautiful. I know you will be strong and big-hearted like your mom and brother. I will always have with me the feel of the soft nudges on your mom's belly, and the joy I felt when I found out you were on your way. I love you, Bean.

      Melissa, I have never been as blessed as the day I met you. You are my angel, soulmate, wife, lover and best friend. I am sorry. I did not want to have to write this letter. There is so much more I need to say, so much more I need to share. A lifetime's worth. I married you for a million lifetimes. That's how long I will be with you. Please keep my babies safe. Please find it in your heart to forgive me for leaving you alone. . . . Teach our babies to live life to the fullest, tell yourself to do

      the same. I will always be there with you, Melissa. I will always want you, need you and love you, in my heart, my mind and my soul. Do me a favor, after you tuck the children in. Give them hugs and kisses from me. Go outside and look at the stars and count them. Don't forget to smile.

      Love Always,

      Your husband,

      Jess

      ------Date: 2003-11-11 14:30:00 Subject: Boxers or Briefs?

      We've always known that the best place to get information about a presidential candidate is on "Rock the Vote" right?

      Well, accoring to the Los Angeles Times, CNN planted question at debate, student says

        NEW YORK -- CNN planted a question about computer preferences at last week's debate of the Democratic presidential candidates at Faneuil Hall in Boston, according to the student who posed the query and wrote about it yesterday in an online forum of the Brown (University) Daily Herald. During the debate, cosponsored by the nonprofit Rock the Vote organization, Alexandra Trustman asked the candidates whether they preferred the PC or Mac format for their computers.

        Trustman wrote yesterday that she was called the morning of the debate and given the topic of the question the CNN producers wanted her to ask. She wrote that she was "confused by the question's relevance" and constructed what she thought was a "much more relevant" question.

        But when she arrived in Boston for the debate, she wrote, she was "handed a note card" with the question and told she couldn't ask her alternative "because it wasn't lighthearted enough and they wanted to modulate the event with various types of questions."

        CNN did not respond to repeated requests for comment.

      This is discouraging...just when I thought all those relevant and intelligent questions were those of the kids in the audience! User Comments:

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yes, I just loved the Daily Show's take on it.

      They continue to be just right on!

      MaryAnn ------Did you see The Daily Show talking about those 30 second spots that each of the candidates did? And I loved how they described how each was dressed--the cool English teacher who directs the school play, and the NARC! lol

      ------Date: 2003-11-12 23:18:00 Subject: You *can* teach an old dog new tricks

      So last night, I used clippers and cut my sister's hair to 1/2 (or slightly less) inch length.

      And today I learned to give my sister an injection in her stomach of Interferon (3Xweekly).

      Two new career paths that I may be qualified for...hairdresser to chemo patients or home health "nurse" to chemo patients.

      And tonight, I deal with it all in my "grief class" at church.

      Only to come home and find two wonderful messages on my answer machine. One from Joey/Jessie (Katie)and one from MaryAnn about the good news of Caroline's 9 month pediatric visit and the games she plays.

      To every thing, turn, turn, turn

      There is a season, turn, turn, turn

      And a time to every purpose under heaven...

      ------Date: 2003-11-13 21:25:00 Subject: Winter clothes Now that the weather has turned cold again, and people have drug out the winter clothes and actually donned them, it's interesting to note that when you live in a state like Texas, that has a very short winter season, winter clothes last a long, long time.

      I'm lucky if the clothes I wear in the summertime make it through a couple of years without showing the wear and tear and stylish decline. But my winter clothes I can wear winter after winter without showing much wear. After all, if we're lucky, we only really have a few days of winter weather at most to snuggle into sweaters and coats. Because of this, these clothes just last forever!

      Unfortunately, the styles don't! I can find a sweater in my closet that has that horizontal stripe of colors so prevalent in the 70s and early 80s. I can find the sweater dress that we loved to love in the early 90s. And both look as good as new! How can I possibly find it within me to throw them out?

      And then there are the shoes...the boots I wore in winters of the late 80s.

      Truly, I think you'll all agree that to find a styling dude in winter you need to visit New York or Minnesota or our Canadian neighbors to the north. If you want to see stylish winter clothes, don't mess with Texas. We just wear those clothes year after year and they never wear out...not with our 2 or 3 days of winter each year.

      ------Date: 2003-11-21 15:20:00 Subject: Koala "Bare"

      I was having lunch with Derek today at our local El Fenix and we got a choice table by the restrooms. I had a good view of the doors for both the men's and women's rooms and noticed that there was a sign on the women's room door that read Koala Bear Kare® Baby Changing Station available inside but there wasn't one posted on the men's room door.

      I turned to Derek and with a smug attitude said, "why don't they have those baby changing stations in mensrooms?" expecting him to say what we already know...that it's 'expected' that women change their babies' diapers.

      Instead he surprised me and said that, in fact, many men's rooms have those changing stations (just not the one at this local establishment).

      I smiled and was pleased.

      You've come a long way baby! User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Katie, I guess that's the true sign of a dedicated mother; the only break you get is when you are in the bathroom!

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------So true. Sometimes in the past I have sent Jessie or Joey to the bathroom with Dan (so I can get a break). Inevitably, they will walk back out and say it was too gross and I end up taking them anyway!

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Yeah, they are getting them more and more in Men's restrooms. That's a good sign!

      Although, with the sanitary conditions that *most* Men's restrooms are in, I don't think a baby should even come *close* to a men's restroom!

      ------Date: 2003-11-23 22:38:00 Subject: Screenplay, courtesy of Google

      I'm headed to DC this T-giving weekend and with a TiVo full of stuff, I had to empty the thing out this weekend or I'd just lose out on all the upcoming's week's shows.

      So I chose to take all the West Wings on there (all 13 of them) and transfer them to VHS format (Derek is going to love it that he has 13 episodes to watch over the 4 day weekend upcoming).

      Anyway, while I was recording them, I was 'working' on my computer and doing other things. But I did catch enough of the tit-for-tat to know that what Derek said the other day was true. That at the simple stroke of a search engine, any screenwriter can fill an hour episode with obscure facts and minutiae...that while making shows interesting and the banter good between the cast members, the shows are, in a way, 'ruined' by Google.

      Oh yeah, it's really cool to think that a president, like Bartlett, can convert Fahrenheit to Celsius, just like that, or know the percentage of (fill in the blank) on a moment's notice.

      But really, does anyone these days really have all this information at their fingertips?

      OK, I guess they do, but only if they have a keyboard handy, internet access and Google. Otherwise, I rather doubt that it just pops out of their head while walking the halls of the West Wing.

      Still, it makes for a great show! And look out future Trivial Pursuit challengers...I may just take you on!!

      ------Date: 2003-12-02 11:07:00 Subject: Christmas clothes

      I have a dress that is "Christmassy" that my sister gave me a couple of years ago. It sits in the back of my closet most of the year, but it gets heavy wearing from December 1st through the New Year's holiday, which for this year lasts through January 4th!

      I always like wearing this dress, and today, when I was kind of gloomy that my long T-giving weekend had finally come to an end and I had to return to the grind at ClubCorp, I brightened somewhat as I put it on...kind of like running into an old friend.

      ------Date: 2003-12-02 11:11:00 Subject: Bad Santa

      Speaking of Christmas, does anyone other than me want to see this movie?

      User Comments:

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------You tell me when your school stuff is over and done with and/or you have some free time. Looking forward to it.

      Matthew McKibben ------So when are we going to go? ;-)

      -matt

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------You can count me in. I'm not sure when I'll be able to make it down. Probably early next week sometime. I'd be more than happy to see it. matt out

      ------Date: 2003-12-04 08:34:00 Subject: I'll give you a topic...discuss

      At my "Living with Loss" class last night, we were given this assignment:

        It is no accident that the world's greatest and best loved poems are of love and death. Both the highs and the lows of our emotional lives are felt passionately whenever we become intimately connected or we lose what we most dearly love.

        Write your own poem about loss. Do not concern yourself with rhyme or meter. The best poetry is often eloquent prose.

        The first line of your poem is:

        Grief came knocking at my door one day...

      Here's mine:

        Grief came knocking at my door one day.

        I didn't want to let it in, but it entered anyway.

        It stayed long past its welcome.

        It used up all my clean sheets and towels.

        It ate all my food and drank all my wine.

        It watched bad TV programs way into the night,

        And listened to music so loud that I could not hear myself think.

        When friends came to visit, they could not enter because my house was already full.

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------*working on mine--will be up soon hopefully* -matt

      ------Date: 2003-12-04 08:41:00 Subject: Nascar dads

      It's the first I'd heard of them...first, at a rather long meeting and looking over the shoulder of a co- worker who was trying to look like they were actually engrossed in note-taking but instead were reading an article about them in the Dallas Morning News.

      And then, when I was watching my daily dose of "The Daily Show" Jon Stewart filled me in on this latest, hottest demographic.

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------Shouldn't this be called "the mullet demographic?"

      ------Date: 2003-12-07 09:20:00 Subject: Something to think about and possibly act on.

      User Comments:

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Busted by Derek.

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Don't be sorry Mike...you made some good points and I always appreciate passionate responses to my postings! You're right to point out that the Pentagon budget is 100% federally funded. Good point!

      Mike Losack ------Sorry Jill,

      I'm not with you on this one. Personally I think the Feds should keep their nose out of public school altogether. That is a state and local issue. They could take those 7 cookies and give it back to us to solve our own public school problems. Maybe then more people could afford healthcare. Basically I think the Federal Government should provide national security and roads. I personally have no problem with the Pentagon budget. Of course it will be larger than the other catagories since it is 100% Federally funded. All of those other issues also receive State, Local, and/or private funding. As for the terrorists only spending 1 cookie. Hell, their guys are eating bugs and rats in the mountains! I think our guys deserve better than that. OK, I'm off my soapbox.

      Ted ------Hey, that's cool. As a former "oreo cookie and bologna sandwiches" guy, I related to the graphic.

      ------Date: 2003-12-09 10:44:00 Subject: Bah humbug

      I was in the elevator here at work yesterday with several women who spent the whole ride up to the 8th floor (stopping on every floor on the way) complaining and moaning about all they had to do lately. Comments like "I've finished shopping...now I have to wrap. I hate wrapping" and "I spent the whole weekend decorating and now I'm exhausted and we haven't even finished the tree yet" and "I'm not ever putting up lights on my house again...it just put me in a bad mood".

      I just kinda 'sat' back and smiled as I am really loving this season. 'Course you wouldn't know it by the way I've (not) decorated my house or shopped til I drop.

      Basically, I've become an observer of all the December holidays and that's given me a good vantage point to really enjoy all of it!

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Sounds like you have the right attitude for how to enjoy the season.

      ------Date: 2003-12-10 16:03:00 Subject: What HTML color are you?

      you are darkviolet

      #9400D3

      Your dominant hues are blue and magenta. You're the one who goes to all the parties but doesn't quite fit in at every one... you know what you want, but are afraid of what the world might think of it. You're a little different and that's okay with them, and if you're smart it's okay with you too. Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right.

      Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.

      the spacefem.com html color quiz

      P.S.-Thanks to Anya for this!

      User Comments:

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------I don't know what's more scary; that mom did this quiz or that she referenced Anya's journal. ;-)

      matt

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------So you finally did one of those ridiculous online quiz things.

      If blogging is "nutrition", then online quizes are the junk food.

      ------Date: 2003-12-13 14:42:00 Subject: Getting stuff done

      It's amazing how productive one can be when they spend a whole day at home. I've had a very busy fall, and haven't had many of those, but today, I'm here and it's nice to have a chance to re- group.

      Just call me "productive Jill"! :-)

      ------Date: 2003-12-14 12:37:00 Subject: Bring him to justice

      I must say that I was very glad when I woke up this morning to find that they had captured Saddam Hussein.

      I hope now that he will be brought to trial for all of the hundreds of thousands of people that he or his regime murdered.

      It's a good day to see that justice can prevail.

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------It's extremely rare that a leader such as Saddam can actually be found alive and brought to justice. You think of all the tyrants of the world and how many have actually been brought to justice, the only one I can think of is Milosevic.

      Let the media circus begin. You know people like Michael Jackson and Kobe Bryant have to be thanking their lucky stars that the media spotlight keeps geting shifted from their trial.

      What a strange year it's been.

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------I just hope that it really does.

      ------Date: 2003-12-15 15:21:00 Subject: Pet Santa

      I had to run into Petsmart yesterday to get a few things for my animal friends and I was greeted at the door by 'Santa'. He looked pretty good and authentic and I thought it was a neat gimmick to have him at the front of the store greeting people, Walmart style.

      Little did I know that his employers had more in store for him than greeting people. In fact, he was there for people to have their pets pictures taken with Santa.

      Now, I love my four legged friends as much as the next person, but c'mon, people....does this strike anyone else besides me as just a little bit absurd? Or maybe that's why they call him Santa Claws. ;-)

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Yeah, Jamie and I saw a Santa at a Petsmart here. Pretty crazy, but a good way to make money.

      The Santa we had was in drag. It was a female Santa, though I am guessing that the with the Polaroid pictures no one would be able to tell.

      ------Date: 2003-12-16 23:59:00 Subject: My heart sings...

      ...when I see pictures (or better yet, the real thing) of my daughters with their children. It doesn't get any better than that!

      ------Date: 2003-12-18 08:23:00 Subject: Let Saddam Live

      From the Washington Post today...my thoughts entirely. Now before you think I don't think he should be punished, that's not the case. After due process, lock him up and throw away the key. But let's set the example here. Of course, I agree with Cohen...probably that's not going to happen.

        Let Saddam Live

        By Richard Cohen

        Thursday, December 18, 2003; Page A35

        This column may be the most futile of my long career. I am about to plead for Saddam Hussein's life. I do so not because I have the slightest doubt that he is a killer, responsible for taking the lives of many thousands, but because sparing his life would send a message to the world that judicial death -- so often abused -- is no longer acceptable.

        Such a day will come, no doubt about it. The death penalty is already illegal in most of Europe, and renunciation of it is required for admission to the European Union. Many other countries keep the death penalty on their books but have not had an execution in so long that the prospect of one is remote.

        This, of course, is not the case in the United States. Here, the death penalty not only remains on the books but executions are common. Along with such pariah nations as Sudan, the United States still executes children (under 18) and the mentally feeble -- and, inevitably, the innocent.

        President Bush has already endorsed the death penalty for Hussein. "I think he ought to get the ultimate penalty," he told ABC's Diane Sawyer. But Bush, a primitive in such matters, was somehow not the first to call for Hussein's death. That honor may belong to Joe Lieberman, who, in the manner of John Ashcroft with the Washington snipers, said the United States ought to shop for a jurisdiction that permits the death penalty. For some reason -- probably an oversight -- he did not suggest Virginia or Texas.

        Instead Lieberman merely ruled out the International Criminal Court in The Hague, because it is not empowered to impose the death penalty. The court is now trying the former Serbian leader Slobodan Milosevic -- and has already convicted others from the wars in the former Yugoslavia -- but it sorely lacks a gallows, and for that matter a torture chamber.

        "So my first question about where he's going to be tried will be answered by whether the tribunal can execute him," Lieberman said in response to a question from Tim Russert on "Meet The Press." Calling Hussein evil, the Connecticut senator said, "This man . . . has to face the death penalty."

        Probably most of the Democratic presidential candidates agree. In the United States the right of the government to take life is almost universally accepted -- if not applauded. In Europe there is no such consensus. That's because in the past century, much of the continent suffered under fascist or communist governments that routinely murdered their own citizens, often "legally." It's true, of course, that these governments also jailed and tortured people without killing them, but only death is irrevocable. Life in prison is a lifetime of punishment.

        In many ways Iraq was the equivalent of a European totalitarian country. Call it Baathist if you will, but Iraq under Saddam Hussein was essentially fascist, with the death penalty meted out willy-nilly, sometimes for serious crimes, sometimes for trivial infractions such as possession of a cell phone. The Iraqis no doubt expect to treat Hussein as he treated them. It would be marvelous if they were disappointed. We can do better than an eye for an eye. We can establish the principle of limited government that should be so dear to American conservatives such as Bush: Among the things government should not do is take a life. Except for the principle, I don't care about Saddam Hussein's life. I care about him the same way I care about your more prosaic murderer -- not at all. But the principle is important. The death penalty vindicates the killer's mentality: Life can be taken. When a California killer named Hung Thanh Mai, who had murdered a cop at a routine traffic stop, faced the jury during the penalty phase of his trial, he said he was prepared to die.

        "Personally, I believe in an eye for an eye," he said. "I believe in two eyes for an eye. If you take down one of my fellows, I'd do everything to take down two of yours."

        President Bush, Joe Lieberman and much of America will probably have it their way. Saddam Hussein will be tried -- probably in Iraq -- found guilty and executed. In his reptilian brain, he will understand. He would have done the same thing himself.

      ------Date: 2003-12-18 16:15:00 Subject: What's right with this picture?

      Derek, Darrell and I had lunch today at Cantina Laredo (one of my favorite Mexican restaurants) at Preston Royal.

      Sitting next to us was a table with 3 guys, enjoying Tex/Mex and (obviously) each other's company, laughing and joking with each other and conversing all through the meal.

      One guy was Asian, one was Caucasian, and one was Black.

      Upon seeing this (and it really happens everyday, doesn't it?) I just felt good about the melting pot that is the United States of America.

      Oh, of course, I know that we still have racist people around, but I think there's more tolerance than we notice sometimes.

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------make that two :)

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Mmmm... Cantina Laredo.... Mouth salivating.....

      ------Date: 2003-12-18 16:20:00 Subject: Chirac has it wrong this time

      I woke up to the sounds of C-Span's Washington Journal host's rustling of the morning papers.

      Today, she was reading an article from the NYTimes about Jacques Chirac wanting to pass a law against the wearing of scarves (Muslim), scullcaps (Jews), and 'large' crosses (Christians) in public schools.

      Derek posted about it and I totally agree with his position (except for the part where he says, "Let's be clear: I don't like religion...haven't for a long time.") On this point, he's entitled to his opinion, but I think it's based on a few bad 'fundamentalist' apples instead of the vast majority of people who get hope, strength and happiness and a bunch more positive things from their religious faith.

      But he's right on with this:

        But I believe very strongly in the principles of freedom of religion and the separation of church and state.

        I strongly believe the government itself should be secular. It should not play favorites with regard to religion, and it should not engage in religious practices as an institution (that means no reference to god on our money, no ten commandments statues in our courthouses, no oaths on bibles before giving testimony, no religiously-based Federal holidays).

        However, the government has a very large stake in protecting the rights of citizens and groups to freely practice their beliefs. That means if I want to go out and pray aloud in a park, or preach on a street corner, or put a giant Star of David on my front lawn, the government has an abiding duty to protect my ability to do so.

        ...
        You can't, and shouldn't even try, to impose secularism on individual citizens. You should strive to ensure that the institution itself does not sponsor any religious activity (e.g. leading prayers), but the government should go out of its way not to interfere with an individual's religious freedom, unless it has a very strong, overriding need to do so.

      ------Date: 2003-12-21 23:43:00 Subject: They got it right this time

      I'm pleased with this...

      ------Date: 2003-12-22 00:33:00 Subject: Sweet Darkness

      -by David Whyte

      When your eyes are tired the world is tired also.

      When your vision has gone no part of the world can find you.

      Time to go into the dark where the night has eyes to recognize its own.

      There you can be sure you are not beyond love.

      The dark will be your womb tonight.

      The night will give you a horizon further than you can see.

      You must learn one thing,

      The world was made to be free in.

      Give up all the other worlds except the one to which you belong.

      Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet confinement of your aloneness to learn

      anything or anyone that does not bring you alive

      is too small for you.

      ------Date: 2003-12-23 15:36:00 Subject: Pardon me

      New York pardons late Lenny Bruce

      American comedian Lenny Bruce has been granted a posthumous pardon by the state of New York 40 years after he was convicted in an obscenity case.

      Bruce was charged after a performance in 1964 during which he was said to have used more than 100 obscene words.

      He was convicted after a six-month trial. But he died of a drugs overdose in 1966 before serving any time.

      State governor George Pataki said the pardon represented New York's commitment to freedom of speech.

      User Comments:

      Joseph Haines http://www.journalscape.com ------Ah, political opportunism. You know, it really chaps me to no end that some friggin' politician will take a martyr to their cause that, were they still alive, said politician wouldn't go near.

      Sigh.

      ------Date: 2003-12-27 11:09:00 Subject: Fear

      Yes, in the deep dark midnight, it creeps in...and what to do.

      Anne Lamott relays the short vignette of the little girl who cried every time she tried to fall asleep in the dark. Her mother would tell her, "Don't be afraid. God is there in the dark with you." at which time the little girl says, "But I need someone with skin on."

      Don't we all?

      ------Date: 2003-12-27 12:54:00 Subject: Blame Canada

      Sheesh...here we go again...

        WASHINGTON (Reuters) - The U.S. Agriculture Department said on Saturday it believes the dairy cow infected with mad cow disease was imported to the United States from Canada in 2001.

      ------Date: 2003-12-27 12:57:00 Subject: Plastics

      From the 1967 movie The Graduate Walter Brooke (Mr. McGuire): I just wanna say one word to you. Just one word.

      Dustin Hoffman (Ben Braddock): Yes, sir.

      Walter Brooke (Mr. McGuire): Are you listening?

      Dustin Hoffman (Ben): Yes, I am.

      Walter Brooke (Mr. McGuire): "Plastics."

      From December 27, 2003 Reuters -

        U.S. retailers kicked off their annual after-Christmas blitz on Friday, hoping that shoppers would rush in to spend their plastic gift cards in time to salvage a disappointing holiday season.

      User Comments:

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------Hmm..."The Graduate." Now that's a good movie. Every young person should watch that movie. It should be required viewing in high school. ;-)

      ------Date: 2003-12-29 22:44:00 Subject: Well, so that is that by W.H. Auden

        Well, so that is that. Now we must dismantle the tree,

        Putting the decorations back into their cardboard boxes -

        Some have got broken - and carrying them up to the attic.

        The holly and the mistletoe must be taken down and burnt,

        And the children got ready for school. There are enough

        Leftovers to do, warmed up, for the rest of the week -

        Not that we have much appetite, having drunk such a lot,

        Stayed up so late, attempted - quite unsuccessfully -

        To love all of our relatives, and in general Grossly overestimated our powers. Once again

        As in previous years we have seen the actual Vision and failed

        To do more than entertain it as an agreeable

        Possibility, once again we have sent Him away,

        Begging though to remain His disobedient servant,

        The promising child who cannot keep His word for long.

      User Comments:

      MaryAnn ------I've always loved this snippet.

      ------Date: 2003-12-30 14:22:00 Subject: What's Better?

      Thanks to my friend Derek , he guided me to this site, a great time waster for the almost last day of 2003!

      ------Date: 2003-12-30 15:11:00 Subject: PowerPoint is Evil

      Ran across an article today on CNN.com that referenced this article in the November issue of Wired.

      And this article reference the Gettysburg Address PowerPoint...funny if you haven't seen it before, and also a good lead in for my predictions for 2004.

      ------Date: 2004-01-01 00:53:00 Subject: Happy Google 2004

      I just love Google. Not only is it the very best search engine ever, it just makes me smile to see how they dress up their logo according to special days on the calendar.

      Here's the one for today!

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Just kidding of course. I always like to look at the little logos they make. It's pretty clever indeed.

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------They just do that to brainwash you....

      puppets....

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------By far the funniest thing that I've seen regarding the ol' 2004 was Comedy Central's parody of the Y2K scare. They had this fake ad that said that the computers were going to go on the fritz and think that it was 1904 instead of 2004. It was funny.

      Google rules. :)

      matt out

      ------Date: 2004-01-06 15:49:00 Subject: The natural order of things

      During my recent stay in Virginia with Caroline (and her parents) I had the chance to give her a daily ride in her stroller, due to the mild 'winter' weather there.

      She really enjoyed the walks and I did too. The whole time I was pushing the stroller up and down the hills of Springfield, I just kept thinking that strollers were just perfectly made for babies and grandparents. For babies, they offer a comfortable way to see the sights before they are old enough to walk and for grandparents, they are the perfect height to act as a walker. Of course, I'm way too young for a walker (and hopefully will never have to use one) but if and when I do, I'm just going to have to find a baby to stroll around....oh the vanity of it all!

      ------Date: 2004-01-06 15:54:00 Subject: More room in coach

      ...just not at the gate.

      I returned yesterday evening from Springfield on American Airlines. The flight was delayed in leaving BWI Airport about an hour (weather problems, I think). So instead of arriving at DFW at 6:30 PM, I got there at 7:15 PM...not bad...I'd still have time to unpack, drink a glass of wine, and cuddle with my pets before bed.

      Well, no.

      Seems that we sat on a remote part of the runway for almost an hour before there was a gate cleared for us to park at.

      Now I don't want to go off on a rant here, but how, with approximately 90 gates at DFW assigned to American Airlines, is it possible that they couldn't find one for us?

      Grrrrr....!

      User Comments:

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------I hate when that happens. I would rather sit in the airport for 3 extra hours than sit on an airplane for an extra hour. It has an almost clostorphobic (sp????) affect on me to be strapped to my seat on an airplane that is sitting on the ground. It's strange because I am fine when I am in the air. I think it is elevated by having to entertain two children for an extra hour while they are strapped to a car seat.

      That is not as annoying as when we were on our way back from the reunion and we had to wait on the plane while the proper paparwork came through. At least there could legitimately be no open gates, but there is NO reason why they should not have the paperwork there on time (esp since we left late!). ------Date: 2004-01-06 16:12:00 Subject: Does anyone else think this is really, really cool?

      This is the first color image of Mars taken by the panoramic camera on the Mars Exploration Rover Spirit, released today.

      User Comments:

      Andreas Black ------Dude, Matt, we'll be neighbors. Yours is the flat, sandy patch to the .

      Matthew McKibben ------Maybe they have oil there.

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Is that Mars or west Texas?

      Matthew McKibben ------Hey Andreas Black, quit squatting on my land. ;-)

      I was AMAZED at that picture. It's very surreal to see a picture like that. It's almost like...another planet.

      Andreas Black http://www.journalscape.com/andreas ------Yup, it's very cool. If you look just below the horizon and slightly to the left, you can see where I want my future house to be. :)

      ------Date: 2004-01-07 16:10:00 Subject: PropertyRoom.com

      I've purchased only one item from Ebay...a keyboard for my Palm Pilot for 99 cents. It was brand new and works great! When I purchased it, I wondered if it was 'hot' but rationalized that it was probably just an older model (I always catch onto things a little late).

      Anyway, I recently read an article about this site. It is an online auction for items that end up in police property rooms. Since I spent 6 1/2 years working in the Carrollton PD property room, I know all about what kind of stuff ends up there, and believe me, I'm not interested. But I think it's a heck of an idea for getting rid of all that stuff for people who are interested. By the way, I accessed the site by typing in "propertyrooom.com" but that URL is forwarded to "stealitback.com"...good one! ;-)

      User Comments: matt ------i too have been on www.propertyroom.com and the deals are incredible! the stealitback logo is defn catchy as well...

      Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------I'd say both.

      But then again, it put things in perspective to see people coming in claiming what they thought was the most valuable stuff in their life and for me to realize that I wouldn't want those items under any circumstances.

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Were you not interested because of the items or the circumstances of why they were there?

      ------Date: 2004-01-11 21:29:00 Subject: From ...

      a blog

      But this is me....

      If I were a...?

      -If I were a month I would be: October

      -If I were a day of the week I would be: Saturday

      -If I were a time of day I would be:9 PM

      -If I were a planet I would be: the earth

      -If I were a direction I would be: West

      -If I were a liquid I would be: wine

      -If I were a tree, I would be: oak -If I were a flower, I would be: sunflower

      -If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Sunny & clear

      -If I were a musical instrument, I would be: violin

      -If I were an emotion, I would be: in love

      -If I were a vegetable, I would be: acorn squash

      -If I were a sound, I would be: blues guitar

      -If I were a car,I would be: volkswagon

      -If I were a song, I would be: Imagine

      -If I were a food, I would be: Valomilks

      -If I were a place, I would be: NYC

      -If I were a material, I would be: velvet

      -If I were a scent, I would be: Beautiful

      -If I were a subject in school, I would be: debate

      -If I were a cartoon character, I would be: Lisa from the Simpsons

      -If I were a shape, I would be: Square

      -If I were a number, I would be: 4

      Finish the sentence...?

      -I am: dazed & confused

      -I want: world peace

      -I have: too much to do

      -I wish: my sister did not have cancer

      -I hate: fundamentalism

      -I miss: seeing my kids and grandkids on a regular basis

      -I fear: dying alone

      -I hear: you

      -I search: Google

      -I wonder: why bad things happen to good people

      -I love: MKMLJJC, jlm -I ache: when people don't get along

      -I always: want more

      -I am not: Republican

      -I dance: when I hear rock music

      -I sing: happy birthday when everyone else does

      -I cry: when I'm not expecting to

      -I am always: ready to hear someone out

      -I write: when I want to remember something

      -I win: I don't care about winning

      -I lose: a thought almost daily

      -I confuse: myself when I'm going someplace in Irving or Arlington

      -I need: a hug daily

      -I should: I don't should on myself

      Yes or no...?

      -keep a diary: a blog, is that close enough?

      -like to cook: no, burned myself out in the 70s

      -have a secret you have not shared with anyone:no

      -set your watch a few minutes ahead: no, who am I trying to kid?

      -bite your fingernails: no, but I bite my cuticles

      -take a shower everyday: no, I love baths

      -have a(any) crush(es): no, not now

      -think/know you've been in love: of course, definitely!

      -want to get married: been there, done that

      -have any tattoos?: no, but I'm open to it

      -have any piercings?: yes, just the boring ear thing

      -get motion sickness: yes, on rides at amusement parks, but I'm cool on a plane

      -think you're a health freak: no, but I'm inspired by my son-in-law Robert -get along with your parents: yes, I overlook alot

      -like thunderstorms: no, they're scary here in North Texas

      Who is...?

      -the weirdest person you know: no one I know is weirder than me

      -the loudest person you know: James Hetfield

      -the sexiest person you know: jlm

      -your close friends: barbara, priscilla, jlm

      -the person that knows the most about you: jlm

      -your crush: dark eyed bad boys

      -most boring teacher: Ms. Kneif

      What is...?

      -your most overused phrase on IM: "ILY"

      -the last image/thought you go to sleep with: A New Yorker cartoon

      User Comments:

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------If I were a...?

      -If I were a month I would be:

      -If I were a day of the week I would be:

      -If I were a time of day I would be:

      -If I were a planet I would be:

      -If I were a direction I would be:

      -If I were a liquid I would be:

      -If I were a tree, I would be: -If I were a flower, I would be:

      -If I were a kind of weather, I would be:

      -If I were a musical instrument, I would be:

      -If I were an emotion, I would be:

      -If I were a vegetable, I would be:

      -If I were a sound, I would be:

      -If I were a car,I would be:

      -If I were a song, I would be:

      -If I were a food, I would be:

      -If I were a place, I would be:

      -If I were a material, I would be:

      -If I were a scent, I would be:

      -If I were a subject in school, I would be:

      -If I were a cartoon character, I would be:

      -If I were a shape, I would be:

      -If I were a number, I would be:

      Finish the sentence...?

      -I am: -I want:

      -I have:

      -I wish:

      -I hate:

      -I miss:

      -I fear:

      -I hear:

      -I search:

      -I wonder:

      -I love:

      -I ache:

      -I always:

      -I am not:

      -I dance:

      -I sing:

      -I cry:

      -I am always:

      -I write:

      -I win: -I lose:

      -I confuse:

      -I need:

      -I should:

      Yes or no...?

      -keep a diary:

      -like to cook:

      -have a secret you have not shared with anyone:

      -set your watch a few minutes ahead:

      -bite your fingernails:

      -take a shower everyday:

      -have a(any) crush(es):

      -think/know you've been in love:

      -want to get married:

      -have any tattoos?:

      -have any piercings?:

      -get motion sickness:

      -think you're a health freak: -get along with your parents:

      -like thunderstorms:

      Who is...?

      -the weirdest person you know:

      -the loudest person you know:

      -the sexiest person you know:

      -your close friends:

      -the person that knows the most about you:

      -your crush:

      -most boring teacher:

      What is...?

      -your most overused phrase on IM:

      -the last image/thought you go to sleep with:

      Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------No, I got it from here...

      http://www.journalscape.com/pleaselobotomy/2004-01-08-17:30 Take it...I'd love to read your answers!

      Matthew McKibben ------was this a survey or something or was it one of those on-line quizzes?

      curious because i may want to take it too.

      matt

      ------Date: 2004-01-15 17:10:00 Subject: If I were an Iowan, I'd rather have the 100 bucks

      Just heard on NPR, that by the time Iowans go to the caucuses on Monday to vote for one of 9 (make that 8, now that CM Braun, has indeed decided that there still is a "men only" sign on the White House and withdrawn from the race) Democratic candidates for President, that each Iowan will have had $100 spent by the candidates running for each vote cast.

      Sheesh...I'd rather have the dough! Or at the very least, wouldn't it have gone to better use if it'd been given to some worthy charity somewhere.

      Something's wrong here...

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Amen to that!

      ------Date: 2004-01-20 16:12:00 Subject: The agony of defeat...

      Guess who? (audio file will play)

      User Comments:

      Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------Wow...Mike guessed correctly in record time...it is, indeed, Blah Blah Blah! Good job, Mike!

      We're screwed it that's the best the Dems have to offer.

      Mike Losack ------Blah Blah Blah

      ------Date: 2004-01-27 01:22:00 Subject: Paper due tomorrow (today)

      Shades of school....

      I had to be productive girl today at work, so I got there early (before 8) and started in right away...worked through lunch & dinner...then brought it home and am just now finished.

      I'm thinkin' I'll probably get over-ruled by my boss and the way she'd do the project, but oh well, I put my best foot forward...

      Eyes tired, mind wired, hope I don't get fired, in corporate stuff I am mired....

      User Comments:

      Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------Sounds like a Bob Dylan song or something.

      You got that right....!

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------"Eyes tired, mind wired, hope I don't get fired, in corporate stuff I am mired...."

      Sounds like a Bob Dylan song or something. ------Date: 2004-01-27 23:45:00 Subject: I'm not voting for a Munster!

      User Comments: ted ------LOL! You are bad.

      Now I'll not be able to see JFK(lite) without thinking of Herman Munster.

      ------Date: 2004-01-28 10:45:00 Subject: Discouraging thought for the day

      Just watched the Richard Perle interview on The Daily Show and learned that almost, if not all, of the large law firms in DC represent at least one wealthy Saudi.

      Why does this make my stomach churn?

      Guess it's 'cause I've connected the dots and I don't like the picture they make.

      But it does help clarify why our lawmakers have not really done much since 9/11 to deal with the Saudi influence on Al Qaeda and other terrorist groups in the Middle East.

      ------Date: 2004-01-29 13:36:00 Subject: My brother did me one better!

      See my January 27th post "I'm not voting for a munster".

      Just got this via email from my bro'... No, not Herman Munster, ...but Francis Muldoon, from "Car 54, Where Are You?"

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------Your son can do you both one better if I can only find out how to post pictures. :-)

      Maybe I can send a link or something.

      ------Date: 2004-01-29 13:51:00 Subject: All Return Again

      All Return Again

      -Ralph Waldo Emerson

      It is the secret of the world that all things subsist and do not die, but only retire a little from sight and afterwards return again. Nothing is dead; men feign themselves dead, and endure mock funerals and mournful obituaries, and there they stand looking out of the window, sound and well, in some new strange disguise. Jesus is not dead; he is very well alive; nor John, nor Paul, nor Mahomet, nor Aristotle; at times we believe we have seen them all, and could easily tell the names under which they go.

      ------Date: 2004-02-02 12:40:00 Subject: Moving into February....

      Well, the long gray month of January is over and now one of my favorite months of the year is here. I love February. That may have something to do with my love of the number 4...after all, most years, it has an even 4 weeks, and even when there's an extra day because of leap year like this year, it's cool because it's like getting a bonus day. Kind of like the day in the fall when we get the extra hour because of daylight savings time.

      Time for a little poetry...

        There comes a little space between the south side of a boulder and the snow that fills the woods around it.

        Sun heats the stone, reveals a crescent of bare ground: brown ferns, and tufts of needles like red hair, acorns, a patch of moss, bright green....

        I sank with every step up to my knees, throwing myself forward with a violence of effort, greedy for unhappiness-- until by accident I found the stone, with its secret porch of heat and light, where something small could luxuriate, then turned back down my path, chastened and calm.

      Depression in Winter, by Jane Kenyon.

      ------Date: 2004-02-04 10:32:00 Subject: Internal Bleeding While our law makers in Washington DC are busy campaigning, raising funds for their campaigns, or trying to decide the fate of Justin and Janet, real issues are being ignored.

      I watched C-span this morning and saw Robert Wachter, the author of his book Internal Bleeding: The Truth Behind America's Terrifying Epidemic of Medical Mistakes describe how the equivalent of a jumbo jet full of Americans die each day (that's almost 100,000 people a year folks) due to a flawed hospital system. He explained that because of the fragmentation of care in modern medicine, errors are often due to communication problems that arise during patient "handoffs." He also pointed out that medicine lacks the kind of safeguards used in other high-tech industries like the commercial airline business.

      How come all we hear about healthcare in this country is how many American don't have it (somewhere around 40 million at last count). With this scary stuff going on in hospitals, maybe these people are better off than they realize.

      Seriously, though, I would love to hear all of our elected officials raise questions (and provide answers) to questions such as this, instead of the soundbites and talking points that they feed to us on a regular basis.

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------See...that's why I don't go to the doctor. ;-)

      j/k

      That is pretty disturbing indeed. It really goes to show you how much a "safe image front" the medical industry puts up, if something so glaring isn't coming to out to the forefront.

      matt out

      Jamie ------I can't tell you how many times (I really leagally can't) I have been reviewing a medical file on one of our kids and have found someone elses records shoved in the middle of their chart. Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Plus I think it is an almost overwhelming issue. The problem is so huge, so expensive, with so many competing interests, that I for one wouldn't no where to start.

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------It's like on one wants to touch the issue because they don't even want to get in to how deeply flawed it is.

      Pretty scary stuff.

      ------Date: 2004-02-06 23:16:00 Subject: The Hours

      Great movie! Really enjoyed it. Is there no role that Nicole Kidman can't play, or Meryl for that matter?

      And Ms. Moore, she's one heck of a 50s wife.

      I was hesitant about this movie, thinking it would probably be too long and too depressing. But I found it neither of the two.

      What a good way to spend a Friday night!

      User Comments:

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------Oh yes! A good movie all around. I really liked "The Hours" too! Any movie with Meryl Streep, Ed Harris, Julianne Moore, Nicole Kidman, and John C. Reilly is good by default.

      ------Date: 2004-02-06 23:33:00 Subject: Red books and blue books

      From Andrew Sullivan

        A fascinating graphic of how hermetically sealed we are becoming one from another. We don't even read the same books any more, depending on our blue-red identity. I agree ... that there's nothing wrong with a divided country. It can be fun! But a divided country where both sides don't even talk to one another? That's a little more worrying.

        Valdis Krebs uses data from Amazon to draw a network map of books related to current politics. Two books are linked if they were bought together. Like other maps this one shows the red and the blue. Notice how few books link the clusters. Click on the image to expand.

      divided2004.gif

      ------Date: 2004-02-07 22:13:00 Subject: The Fog of War

      Snuck off today and met Derek at the Inwood to see this movie. 85 year old Robert Strange (no really, that's his middle name) McNamara spends about an hour and a half recalling events and his part in WW2, the Cuban missile crisis, and of course, Vietnam.

      It's a fascinating study and well done by Erroll Morris.

      I think in today's time, this is a relevant film for everyone to see. In fact, I think it should be required viewing by every voting American!

      ------Date: 2004-02-07 22:22:00 Subject: I don't care what you think! but maybe you do... PollingReport.com

      This site gathers many of the major polls—NBC, CBS, CNN, AP, and more—in one handy place for your perusal. Who should win in 2004? How concerned are we about mad cow disease? It's all here.

      Go there now!

      ------Date: 2004-02-10 09:30:00 Subject: Let him win

      Since when do politicians need to 'let' someone else win. Perot should have dropped out of the race so Bush 1 could win a second term. Nader should have dropped out so Gore could win. Now, they're calling for Dean to drop out so Kerry has smooth sailing to the Democratic nomination (although I think they should be just as concerned with Clark and Edwards, but that's just me).

      Wouldn't it be nice if we had candidates for president that could win on their own merits instead of the only one left at the end of the day?

      I swear, the more I know, the more I'm getting disenfranchised about the whole political process in this country.

      User Comments:

      Jill ------From my brother...

      "You(r) latest weblog entry:

      I think you may have meant disenchanted rather than disenfranchised, no?" Yes, I stand corrected.

      ------Date: 2004-02-11 09:37:00 Subject: What have you done for me lately?

      Well, with Clark dropping out of the presidential race on the Democratic side and it's looking more and more like John Kerry will be the nominee to face Bush (although I'm still very much in the Edwards camp), there is one issue that I just don't want to hear any more about.

      It's the subject of military service.

      Yes, we all know Kerry was a war hero in Vietnam.

      And yes, we all know that Bush (as well as Kerry) was born with a silver spoon in his mouth and had his Dad pull strings to get him into the Guard to keep him safe from Vietnamese jungles and the Viet Cong (hey, I would have pulled every string possible if either one of my 2 sons were faced with having to fight in that fog of war).

      But that was 30 + years ago. I'm not the same person I was then and I doubt either one of these 2 guys is either.

      So I hope that the national debate on these 2 candidates focuses on today's issues and today's problems and today's vision of how each of them will solve those problems. As Kerry himself said during the 1992 controversy over Bill Clinton's efforts to evade the draft: "We do not need to divide America over who served and how."

      There simply are too many dangers facing this country abroad - and too many fundamental disagreements between the candidates on how best to meet them - to be focusing an inordinate amount of attention on who did what 30 years ago.

      User Comments:

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------I don't have a problem with people going against popular sentiment and doing what (they feel) is right but tell me how he came to his decisions about both Gulf Wars? If anything, the first one was alot more justified (even the French and the Germans thought so) than the second one, and he voted against the first and for the second. I just don't get it.

      Matthew McKibben ------I couldn't disagree more. I think if anything his stances on these war issues shows his ability to stand up for what he believes in. Is it wishy washy? Or is it him going against popular sentiment and doing what he feels is right? I don't know. But I lean towards the latter.

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Re: your last paragraph...

      And it's because of this that I don't support John Kerry. He fought in a war, then protested the war that he fought in, did not vote for a war that most of the free world supported when a nation invaded another nation (Gulf War I), and then supported a war that was pre-emptive (Gulf War II).

      He's squishy beyond belief and I don't trust him.

      Matthew McKibben ------I somewhat agree and disagree with your post. I think that there are definitely more important issues to deal with at the moment.

      But this issue over service runs deep and is like an onion. The more you peel, the more it stinks. If for nothing else, this issue is a bellwether of sorts in that it shows a trend of just how much information the Bush Administration has distorted over the past 3 years. The Bush Administration has shown a complete lack of cojones in admitting when it was wrong. When the shit hits the fan, the Bush Administrations points more fingers than a traffic guard directing traffic. And I feel that if Bush would just hone up to the fact that he skipped duty in Alabama, this stuff would just go away. But what's become the issue now is that he's refusing and refusing and refusing to either address the issue head on, as well as dodge around the issue with the skill of a parapallegic pantomime. This issue is just one of many that the Bush Administration has shown a complete lack of "honing up" to the facts.

      And when you add that on top of the fact that sending troops to war is the gravest of situations a president can face, I think that it's very important to look at the Commander's previous military experience. It's no surprise that a lot of the people opposed to this war, both left and right, were former service members who fought in everywhere from Guadalcanal to Panama City. And I think it's because they know what it's like to hold your buddies hand while he bleeds to death in some rice patty. And it angers them beyond belief that a president who would willfully skip out on service during a time when our country was at it's most divided, would have the gall to send American service men and women into harm's way.

      just my two cents

      ------Date: 2004-02-12 22:13:00 Subject: Caroline's first birthday

      What a joy to come to DC today and be with Caroline (and her parents) for her first birthday. She had a little party with her daycare buddies at Sonia's (cupcakes, balloons, and 'dancing') and then her dad made wonderful soup and chocolate cake with one candle on it and she was all eyes as we sang 'Happy Birthday' to her (along with some church friends of MA's) and then she opened presents. But mostly, she just showed us how good she can walk across the room, and ride her 'airplane', and give us that great big toothy grin.

      She's a doll! and I'm so glad she came to us one year ago.

      ------Date: 2004-02-13 17:27:00 Subject: I was there....

      ...for Caroline's first taste of Peeps...the Valentine heart-shaped ones that are vanilla creme flavored....needless to say, she loved them! We have more in common than our middle names!

      I'll post the picture as soon as I get it developed. Yeah, I know...I'm so 20th century.

      ------Date: 2004-02-14 09:00:00 Subject: We're not number 1...kinda

      From the New York Times today,

        Texas, generally considered the leading death penalty state, actually sentences a smaller percentage of people convicted of murder to death than the national average, according to a new study. It found that the conventional view failed to take into account the large number of murders in Texas.

        As a percentage of murders, Nevada and Oklahoma impose the most death sentences, at 6 and 5.1 percent. In Texas, the percentage is 2 percent. The rate in Virginia, another state noted for its commitment to capital punishment, is 1.3 percent. The national average is 2.5 percent; the median is 2 percent. "Texas's reputation as a death-prone state should rest on its many murders and on its willingness to execute death-sentenced inmates," wrote the authors of the study, published in a new publication, the Journal of Empirical Legal Studies. "It should not rest on the false belief that Texas has a high rate of sentencing convicted murderers to death."

      And as it pertains to race,

        Using the same analysis, the study concluded that blacks are actually underrepresented on the nation's death row. Blacks commit 51.5 percent of all murders nationally but constitute about 42 percent of death row inmates, the study found.

      Finally, we just had to be number one at something, but we weren't...

        Texas had about 38,000 murders from 1976 to 1998 in which people older than 16 were arrested, according to the study, which relied on F.B.I. data. Only California had more, about 50,000. The number of murders in Texas, more than anything else, explains the 776 death sentences that were issued during roughly the same period, the study concluded.

      Ok, here's where we excel...

        Prisoners on death row in Texas are more likely to be executed than in many other states. As of this week, Texas has executed 319 people since 1976. California, by contrast, sentenced 795 people to death from 1976 through 2002 and has executed only 10.

      I still stand firmly against the death penalty. But I say that we should have lifetime sentences for murderers, and by lifetime, I mean lifetime.

      ------Date: 2004-02-14 19:41:00 Subject: Joy and Sorrow

        Then a woman said, "Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow."

        And he answered:

        Your joy is your sorrow unmasked. And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.

        And how else can it be?

        The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

        Is not the cup that hold your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?

        And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?

        When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.

        When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

        Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."

        But I say unto you, they are inseparable.

        Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

        Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.

        Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.

        When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

      -Kahlil Gibran, in “The Prophet”

      ------Date: 2004-02-15 23:28:00 Subject: Fuzzy Kerry

      Since I'm in DC this weekend, and since MA & Robert subscribe to the Sunday Washington Post, I had the privilege of reading their editorial pages.

      This pretty much expressed my thoughts (and apprehensions) about John Kerry...

        Time for Clarity

        JOHN KERRY has become the favorite for the Democratic presidential nomination without a detailed or clarifying debate on many issues. This has happened in part because the leading Democratic candidates had relatively few differences on foreign or domestic policy; in part because their multi-candidate forums allowed little time for in-depth discussion; and in part because most have chosen to avoid direct attacks on each other since the primaries began last month. Most of the rhetoric has been directed at President Bush, and exit polls show that many voters have been more interested in which candidate has a better chance of unseating the incumbent than in where he might take the country. Mr. Kerry has surged to the forefront in part because of his biography and in part because he avoided the political misjudgments and verbal gaffes that caused voters to reject onetime front-runner Howard Dean. Now, with the nomination seemingly within his reach, the Massachusetts senator must begin to more fully explain where he stands on the major challenges facing the country.

        That task is particularly important for Mr. Kerry because of his fuzziness on issues ranging from Iraq to gay marriage. Some of the blur is caused by a record of political activity stretching back more than 30 years, including 19 in the Senate; in such circumstances it's not hard for opposition researchers to unearth contradictions. But even a more independent assessment of Mr. Kerry can lead to puzzlement. He says he opposes gay marriage, yet voted against the federal Defense of Marriage act. He voted for the North American Free Trade agreement yet now talks in protectionist terms, promising he will provide American workers "a fair playing field" while accusing Mr. Bush of "selling them out." Would a President Kerry seek additional free trade agreements in Latin America and elsewhere? What's his position on whether his own state should adopt a constitutional amendment to ban gay marriage? So far, the answers aren't clear.

        The most important confusion surrounds Mr. Kerry's position on Iraq. In 1991 he voted against the first Persian Gulf War, saying more support was needed from Americans for a war that he believed would prove costly. In 1998, when President Clinton was considering military steps against Iraq, he strenuously argued for action, with or without allies. Four years later he voted for a resolution authorizing invasion but criticized Mr. Bush for not recruiting allies. Last fall he voted against funding for Iraqi reconstruction, but argued that the United States must support the establishment of a democratic government. Mr. Kerry's attempts to weave a thread connecting and justifying all these positions are unconvincing. He would do better to offer a more honest accounting. His estimation of the cost of expelling Iraq from Kuwait in 1991 was simply wrong; and if President Bush was mistaken to think in 2003 that there was an urgent need to stop Saddam Hussein from stockpiling weapons of mass destruction, Mr. Kerry made the same error in 1998.

        More important, Mr. Kerry should clarify what he believes should be the objectives of the U.S. mission in Iraq going forward -- and what military and aid commitments he is prepared to make. In his last substantive speech on the subject, in December, the candidate called for replacing the U.S. occupation authority with a United Nations mission and recruiting NATO and other allied troops "so that we get the targets off the back of our soldiers." But there is no prospect of a U.N. administration; its envoys are instead negotiating the terms under which an Iraqi government will succeed the U.S. authority. The Bush administration has meanwhile invited NATO to share responsibility in Iraq, only to receive a cool response from Germany and France. Mr. Kerry spoke of "completing the tasks of security and democracy" in Iraq. But he hasn't yet offered a realistic plan for how he would do it or committed himself to the likely cost in American troop deployments and dollars. If he is to offer a credible alternative to Mr. Bush, he must explain how he would manage the real and dangerous challenges the United States now faces in Iraq -- without the fuzzing.

      And then George Will piled on, but I can't say that I find fallacy in his screed....

        The 1st 28 Questions For Kerry

        In the more than 250 days until Nov. 2, John Kerry can answer questions that linger despite, or because of, all he has said so far. Such as:

        Other than denoting your disapproval, what does the adjective mean in the phrase "special interest"? Is the National Education Association a special interest? The AFL-CIO?

        You abhor "special tax giveaways for the privileged and special interests." When supporting billions in ethanol subsidies, mostly for agribusinesses, did you think about corn-growing, caucus- holding Iowa?

        Is the National Rifle Association a "special interest"? Is "special" a synonym for "conservative"?

        When you denounce "lobbyists" do you include those for Planned Parenthood and the Sierra Club? Is "liberal lobbyist" an oxymoron? All the Americans affected by laws you pass -- that is, all Americans -- refuse to pipe down and mind their own business so that you can mind their business for them. Often they hire lobbyists to exercise their First Amendment right to "petition the government for a redress of grievances." Can you despise lobbyists without disparaging that right?

        You say the rich do not pay enough taxes. In 1979 the top 1 percent of earners paid 19.75 percent of income taxes. Today they pay 36.3 percent. How much is enough?

        You say the federal government is not spending enough on education. President Bush has increased education spending 48 percent. How much is enough?

        In January 1991, after Iraq extinguished Kuwait's sovereignty, you opposed responding with force rather than economic sanctions. Have such sanctions ever undone such aggression?

        On Jan. 11, 1991, you said that going to war was abandoning "the theory of deterrence." Was it not a tad late to deter Iraqi aggression?

        The next day you said, "I do not believe our nation is prepared for war." How did unpreparedness subsequently manifest itself?

        On Jan. 22, 1991, responding to a constituent opposed to the Persian Gulf War, you wrote "I share your concerns" and would have given sanctions more time. Nine days later, responding to a voter who favored the war, you wrote, "I have strongly and unequivocally supported President Bush's response to the crisis." Did you have a third position?

        You say the Bush administration questions "the patriotism" of its critics. You say that as president you will "appoint a U.S. trade representative who is an American patriot." You mean the current representative, Robert Zoellick, is not a patriot?

        You strongly praise former Treasury secretary Bob Rubin, who strongly supports NAFTA and free trade. Have you changed your mind about him or about free trade (as you have changed your mind about the No Child Left Behind Act, the 2002 war resolution, the Patriot Act, etc.)?

        You oppose immediate termination of U.S. involvement in Iraq, and you opposed the $87 billion to pay for involvement. Come again? In 1994, the year after the first attack on the World Trade Center, you voted to cut $1 billion from counterterrorism activities. In 1995 you proposed a $1.5 billion cut in intelligence funding. Are you now glad that both proposals were defeated?

        You favor civil unions but not same-sex marriage. What is the difference? What consequences of gay marriage worry you? Your state's highest court says marriage is "an evolving paradigm." Do you agree? You say you agree with what Dick Cheney said in 2000: States should have a right to "come to different conclusions" about same-sex marriage. Why, then, were you one of only 14 senators who opposed the Defense of Marriage Act, which protects that right? Massachusetts opponents of the same-sex ruling are moving for a referendum to amend the state constitution to define marriage as between a man and a woman. How will you vote?

        You favor full disclosure of political spending. Organized labor is fighting new regulations requiring full disclosure to union members of the political uses of their mandatory union dues. As president, would you rescind these regulations?

        Praising McCain-Feingold restrictions on political contributions, you said: "This bill reduces the power of the checkbook, and I will therefore support it." In December you saved your sagging campaign by writing it a $6.4 million check. Why is your checkbook's unfettered freedom wholesome?

        You deny that restricting campaign contributions restricts speech. How much of the $6.4 million did you spend on speech -- in the form of broadcast messages?

        Billionaire George Soros says he will spend whatever is necessary to defeat President Bush. As one who believes -- well, who says -- there is "too much money" in politics, are you appalled?

        There are 28 more questions where these 28 came from.

      ------Date: 2004-02-15 23:49:00 Subject: V-day movie

      What would Freud say?

      I was here in DC, alone (except for sweet Caroline sleeping soundly upstairs) and chose to watch the movie "Unfaithful" on Valentine's Day.

      ------Date: 2004-02-20 16:19:00 Subject: Nader's running Looks like Nader's in the race for the presidency in 2004. This time, he says he won't run as a Green Party candidate because that party won't nominate a candidate until June, and he says that's too late in the process to be effective.

      Nader told CNN, "If I do run, it will be as an independent. One out of every three Americans calls themselves independent. We want to give them the kind of candidacy, if I announce it, that will resonate there."

      A formal announcement by Nader is expected this weekend.

      "He's felt there is a role for an independent candidate to play," Linda Schade, a spokeswoman for Nader's presidential exploratory committee.

      Some are wondering what effect, if any, Nader's entry into the race will have on the other candidates, particularly as Kerry and Edwards both try to attract independent voters. Nader's 2000 presidential run is blamed by many Democrats for tilting a close election in favor of George W. Bush.

      "I don't think it will have a tremendous amount of effect," Edwards told reporters Friday. "I think if we have a candidate across the ticket that's appealing to independents, appealing to the kind of people that might be attracted to a Nader campaign, then we'll be fine. And I think I am exactly that kind of candidate."

      Exactly! That's why I like Edwards.

      User Comments:

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------I think that his campaign will be a slightly more profiled version of his 1996 Presidential bid, as opposed to his very high profiled 2000 Presidential campaign. I don't think he's going to have the funds, the wide grass roots support, the energy, the backing of a political party, or enough broad appeal to really make a dent one way or another.

      I think that this is a different ballgame than 2000. I think that the Democrats are stronger this year than in 2000. I think that both Kerry and Edwards are really strong candidates, and HOPE that they join forces on the same ticket.

      my two

      MaryAnn ------I like this spin from Salon:

      Benjamin says Nader will not run the same campaign he did in 2000, when he stressed the similarities between Democrats and Republicans, a move that still rankles many on the left. "He'll talk about how bad the Bush administration is and he'll add to the anti-Bush sentiment," she says. "It could be a win-win. Ralph gets his message out, he makes the Democrat look like the moderate, he beats up on Bush, and he's strategic about where he campaigns by staying away from the swing states."

      Matthew McKibben ------Oh you like Edwards because he's hot. ;-)

      j/k

      ------Date: 2004-02-23 22:22:00 Subject: More than a slippery slope, to him

      So I tuned into Rush today to hear his take on what's happening in the world (I do this periodically, just to keep what I listen to 'fair and balanced') and he's talking about the issue Russert raised with Schwarzenegger yesterday about the idea of running for president since he's been a citizen of the US for more than 20 years, even though he wasn't born here (which currently disqualifies him from running or serving).

      Rush is against them changing the qualifications and dramatically said, "If they change the rules, then Osama bin Laden could be president of the US"....well, no! but I'm thinking that alot of his listeners found this argument pretty powerful! ------Date: 2004-02-23 22:35:00 Subject: Love the one you're with

      I just don't get it....

      According to Andrew Sullivan's weblog

        GORE DID IT: The former vice-president's un-Midas touch is now given even more credence by Joe Trippi, in the New York Times Magazine:

        If you were to give one reason for the campaign's collapse, what would it be?

        TRIPPI: You have a party that's tried to make every rule that it can to stop an insurgent. But at the same time -- it's not Al Gore's endorsement -- what I'm saying is, him endorsing us was a good thing. But at the same time, the unintended consequence of it was that the second Al Gore endorsed Howard Dean, alarms went off in newsrooms and at every other campaign headquarters. At the campaign headquarters, they all had meetings and said, ''We've got to stop Howard Dean right this second.'' That's what the Al Gore endorsement meant. It meant, We've got to kill this guy or he's going to be the nominee.

        C'mon, Joe. Stop being so nice. Gore killed off Dean. Some big Democrat should get Al to endorse Nader - soon.

      Is this the same Al Gore that won the popular vote in 2000 and had the presidency stolen from him by the Supreme Court and Katherine Harris? Now, he's responsible for killing a candidacy just by endorsing it?

      Now I'm all over "So if you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with" but the Democrats take this to a whole new level!

      ------Date: 2004-02-23 22:46:00 Subject: A simple question

      Jesus said nothing about homosexuality. But he was adamant about the impermissibility of divorce. How can the Protestant right ignore his direct teachings on one and yet demand Constitutional action against the other? On their own Biblically inerrant terms? Can someone clue me in here?

      User Comments:

      MaryAnn ------I don't know; it's a mystery to me.

      However, I just had a conversation with a guy who was talking about the three sins of abortion, divorce, and homosexuality. Which I actually appreciate in a way because at least it is consistent (not trying to make an exception for divorce for the sake of pleasing the culture). Kinda like people who are pro-life in the sense of against abortion AND the death penalty. I think there's something to admire in that.

      Matthew ------Katie, Dan, Mary Ann...

      we're looking in your direction

      :-)

      ------Date: 2004-02-24 14:33:00 Subject: The Electoral College

      I'm one of the minority, I'm sure, that would like to see the Electoral College go away. Living in Texas as I do, and knowing that Bush will overwhelmingly carry the Lone Star State in the 2004 election, I feel pretty much like my vote won't count, no matter who I vote for.

      Thanks to my brother for sending me this map that is skewed to show a representation of the contiguous 48 + 2 sized by the number of electoral votes. It's fun to play with anyway. I actually mapped out a strategy that would put Nader the winner. ;-)

      User Comments:

      Matthew McKibben ------Make that three!

      :-)

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Well consider me part of your minority!

      The Electoral College is pretty ridiculous if you ask me.

      ------Date: 2004-02-25 01:39:00 Subject: Is it kind, is it true, is it necessary

      If we all used this criteria (is it kind, is it true, is it necessary) before we spoke, we'd all be alot better off, don't ya' think?

      User Comments:

      Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------I first heard it at AA. Most of the stuff that really carries me through my days is either from AA, poetry, or UU wisdom text.

      Matthew McKibben ------I agree! Where'd you get that from? Did you think it up? I like it a lot. :-)

      ------Date: 2004-03-01 13:54:00 Subject: Civil Marriage is a Civil Right

      UUA president William G. Sinkford was in town yesterday and spoke at my church prior to the ordination of the area's newest UU pastor, Anthony David of Pathways Church in mid-cities. I agree with this statement that he recently issued in response to the proposed constitutional amendment regarding gay marriage:

        Amending the United States constitution to deny same-gender couples the rights and responsibilities of marriage would be to enshrine discrimination into the document that provides the foundation for our democracy. While the constitution has been amended in the past, it has never been altered with the express intent to deny equal protection to an entire class of citizens, and now is no time to start. Instead, successive generations of Americans have found new ways to honor the spirit of the constitution by extending its promise to an ever-widening circle of American citizens. The document that granted freedom and full citizenship to African Americans and gave women the right to vote must not be used as a weapon with which to attack the families of our country's gay and lesbian citizens.

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------Amen to that! :-)

      ------Date: 2004-03-02 21:14:00 Subject: Ick

      So it looks like Kerry's the candidate....

      I'm blue, and I don't mean like one of the 'blue states'....

      Edwards has withdrawn from the race...

      Dean is out....

      Kucinich doesn't have a chance....

      and so on and so on....

      Guess I'm voting for Nader for sure now.

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Make that two of us...

      ------Date: 2004-03-03 08:18:00 Subject: Stuff I don't need

      How relevant is a calendar on the wall that when, on March 1st, I go to change it to the new month and end up changing it not from February to March, but from January to March?

      User Comments:

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Calendars... who use caldendars anymore? Isn't that what PDA's are for!!

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------I've certainly been there.

      ------Date: 2004-03-03 16:12:00 Subject: Make that a double

      Just read a story from Reuters that Dietary Folate May Lower Ovarian Cancer Risk.

        The results of a study conducted in Sweden indicate that high levels of folate obtained from food sources may protect against ovarian cancer. The benefits were found to be primarily among women who consumed at least two drinks of alcohol per week.

        Previous reports have shown that dietary levels of folate, a B vitamin also known as folic acid, are inversely related to the risk of breast and colorectal cancer. In contrast, few studies have looked at the association between folate intake and ovarian cancer risk.

        ...

        Overall, women with the highest level of folate in their diet (at least 204 micrograms/day) were 33 percent less likely to develop ovarian cancer than those with the lowest levels (less than 155 micrograms/day).

        Among women who consumed more than about two drinks per day, the risk reduction seen with high folate intake was much higher -74 percent. In contrast, high folate intake provided no protection against ovarian cancer in women who consumed lesser amounts of alcohol, the investigators point out.

      User Comments:

      Jill ------As an addendum to this blog, I went online to research what foods have folic acid. Looks like I won't ever go on the Atkins Diet....

      Folic acid, or folate, a B vitamin, is in bread, pasta, rice, flour and cereals. Some cereals contain 100 percent of the total daily value. A daily multivitamin is also an option, according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Foods naturally high in folate include fruits and orange juice from concentrate, green leafy vegetables and dried beans and legumes. Folic acid has no known toxic level; even if you were to eat a bowl of fully fortified cereal, take a supplement, eat fortified foods and foods rich in folate, women of reproductive age would not have a problem, according to the CDC.

      It also may have other benefits. High levels of homocysteine, an amino acid, are associated with an increased risk of heart disease and stroke. Folic acid lowers homocysteine levels, although it is not known whether it also lowers the risk of heart disease and stroke, the CDC says. It also may play a role in protecting against cervical, colon and possibly breast cancers, according to the March of Dimes.

      ------Date: 2004-03-04 17:19:00 Subject: Spring in North Texas

      Although it's not officially Spring yet, we just had our first taste of 2004's afternoon spring showers. There was a tornado warning in Denton County (that's just great....Matthew find a safe place under a mattress in a bathtub NOW!...) and I'm pounding away on the computer and hoping to god that a bolt of lightning doesn't strike the building, and then proceed to the cable that lets my computer talk to other CCorp computers and doesn't, in the end, electrocute my whole body, starting with one finger at a time as it hits each key on my keyboard.

      Seriously, I am always kind of sad to see winter fade away each year. I like the colder weather that we get here from November through February, and I sleep so well when I can snuggle down under the covers of my fluffy down-filled duvet. Last night, to accomplish this, I had to turn on the ceiling fan and soon I'll have to get out the oscillating fan and have it hold steady on me.

      In a month or two, I'll have both fans going all the time and pointing towards me. I'll still be hot and will climb out of the sheet that provided some security and lay with arms and legs outstretched, hoping that I can elevate myself off the bed just enough to completely surround my limbs with hot, fanned air, that may, possibly, make me a little cooler.

      ------Date: 2004-03-07 21:17:00 Subject: I want a life credit

      So Rev. Kanter talks about a 35 year old friend of his family this morning in church that committed suicide on Thursday this week....

      ...I want a credit for this life that was taken by its owner and give it to the people I wish were still here...my father...the father of my children...JFK, Jr....any child that is preceded in death before their parents....Senator Paul Wellstone....[fill in the blanks]....etc.

      ------Date: 2004-03-09 00:12:00 Subject: Whereas....

      Whereas the Constitution of the United States and the Bill of Rights are sacred documents intended to ensure that all Americans have equal rights and equal protections under the law, and

      Whereas the US Constitution should not be used to limit the rights of any group of Americans,

      We the people of (Precinct ______, or Senatorial District ______) do hereby call upon our Congressional Representatives and Senators to vote against the proposed U.S. Constitutional Amendment that defines marriage and limits the rights of gay and lesbian families.

      ------Date: 2004-03-09 00:34:00 Subject: Bush 1

      So I fly into Austin this morning (what a great day to be alive and in Austin Texas!) and participate in facilitation of Leadership 101 Training for my company with 30 or so supervisors (Executive Chefs, Golf Pros, Club Managers, etc.)

      One of our exercises, scheduled for late in the afternoon, is a communication exercise involving the construction of about 30 paper airplanes. After construction, I take the class outside to test fly and see who wins.

      Just as the 30 or so mostly men arrive on the patio, a representative of the resort that we're staying in comes up to me and says "the secret service aren't thrilled about the activity here"....huh?

      Upon further examination and questioning (I just have to question), I find that President Bush (the father) is here to speak with the Dell meeting attendees and the place is covered with dark glasses, dark suits with earphones.

      We fly our planes, give Lottery Tickets to the winner, and a round of golf is played by the presidential father, and for a fleeting moment, I feel like a small part of history as an actual president is walking where I walk.

      User Comments:

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Mamala wrote:

      "For the record, I would have stood up and applauded, out of respect, if nothing else, for the office of the presidency and the service of the man who occupied it."

      I respect your point of view, however, I don't think that just because someone is the President that they deserve any respect. Especially a President like King George the first and especially the second.

      For me it is better to respect a person than a position or "role".

      Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------For the record, I would have stood up and applauded, out of respect, if nothing else, for the office of the presidency and the service of the man who occupied it.

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------haha...i had forgotten about that. i remember one time we went and saw Ronald Reagan speak somewhere about "enterprise" or something. All I remember is that we were young, and we were bored. Why did we go in the first place?

      And Jamie's post is hilarious. Of all the places to see someone, in the bathroom at the Cheesecake Factory would have to be THE single funniest place to see someone like that. jamie ------I saw Barbara Bush in the bathroom at The Cheesecake Factory in the Galleria.

      Luke McKibben http://www.lukemckibben.org ------Culture of fear.

      I remember going to an Astros game with Matt and Dad. We had good seats, right behind the season tickets people behind home plate.

      King George the First and his wife "Barb" showed up and everyone stood up to cheer. The three of us stayed in our seats. ------Date: 2004-03-12 22:09:00 Subject: See MaDear, I told you

      I was walking to the park today with Joey and Jessie. Jessie was actually riding her bike and remained about 20 yeards ahead of Joey and I. One of the reasons for this is that Joey was "mowing" as he made his way to the park...he was pushing his play lawnmower.

      As Jessie yelled "hurry up", Joey and I, lagging behind looked ahead. Joey saw a telephone pole about 5 yards ahead and said it was in his way. I assessed the road ahead and told Joey there was plenty of room to go around the pole and stay off the street and on a steady course to catch up with Jessie.

      I decided to position myself about halfway between the two of them. Within moments, I heard a little bump and turned around to see that Joey had run his lawn mower into the pole, at which point he said, "See MaDear, I told you [I would run into this]".

      I just had to chuckle and say to myself that children can be so adult-like at times.

      How many times have I, in my life, known that obstacles were in my path, but also knew that I had plenty of options of paths around them, only to take the very path that headed straight toward the very thing standing in my path that would stop me cold.

      Ex-husbands, ex-boyfriends, ex-supervisors, ex-etc., etc.....I'm looking in your direction.

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------i always like hearing about how my nieces and nephews are developing their personalities. i think it's cute. they're like miniature little adults.

      ------Date: 2004-03-13 23:31:00 Subject: The Pundit on the Desktop

      This was clever....

        Ars Magna, the software program that always answers in anagrams, has been giving some thought to the presidential election. When we say senator, for instance, it replies treason; and if we ask it about tax policies, it comes back with axe politics. Recently, we settled in for an interview about the 2004 presidential race: So, Ars, the next big political event will be the Democratic convention. What do you think the party really wants?

        To intervene; chad not comic.

        How will the convention respond to the Massachusetts senator?

        Chorus: Statesman! Asset!

        Do you personally have an opinion about Senator John Kerry?

        John? Ornery streak.

        The Republicans are attacking Senator Kerry now for changing his mind about important issues. He criticizes the administration's Iraq policy, yet just a year ago he voted to go to war in the Gulf again.

        Gather in awful gain.

        As you may know, Senator Kerry has been called a Boston brahmin.

        O, man! Birth snob!

        What can his so-called Band of Brothers — Vietnam veterans — offer him?

        Net verve, stamina.

        Let's turn to the Republican National Convention. What might be its message to the country?

        Continual privation can ennoble.

        And what will President George W. Bush say to his party?

        Whee! Progress in budget!

        Do you agree?

        Progress? Huge new debit! The president once billed himself as a compassionate conservative. How do you interpret that now?

        Conspire to save a vast income.

        Mr. Bush assures us the economy will turn around soon, and Fed Chairman Greenspan —

        Spending framer an ache!

        It seems you don't like the chairman's proposal for Social Security and Medicare cuts.

        Edit care? Scum!

        Later in the year, we'll have the Bush-Kerry debates. What should we expect?

        Test, hey? Bash, drub. Reek.

        Do you think Ralph Nader should be allowed to take part in the presidential debates?

        Despise alternate bid!

        It appears the Republicans' big issue will be national security. What do you think of the Patriot Act?

        A pathetic tort.

        As for the Democrats, they'll keep raising the Florida debacle of 2000. We've read that some states will use the touchscreen voting machine. Do you worry that it might skew the outcome?

        Oh, much concern! Investigate!

      By MIKE MORTON and SABRA MORTON

      Mike Morton is a software engineer. Sabra Morton is a writer.

      ------Date: 2004-03-16 17:32:00 Subject: Be your own Ralph Nader

      Probable Democratic presidential nominee John Kerry will likely face a challenge on the left from Ralph Nader soon, but 32 years ago, Kerry showered his possible electoral spoiler with praise in a speech at the College.

      Kerry implored Dartmouth students "to be their own Ralph Nader" in opposing the Vietnam War, urging the audience to "break the cycle of non-involvement."

      Kerry, who had recently served as president of the Vietnam Veterans Against the War, spoke on Jan. 10, 1972 at the Top of the Hop, where he urged students and Americans who opposed the Vietnam War to involve themselves in politics with greater zeal. Regarding Ralph Nader, Kerry said that opponents of the war "must be public citizens in every aspect of our lives," as Kerry apparently thought Nader did.

      User Comments:

      Luke ------But if Nader takes his own advice he is in the wrong?

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------It's a good thing Kerry took his own advice. :)

      ------Date: 2004-03-17 11:16:00 Subject: Putting it in Context

      I'm enjoying my free subscription to Time magazine (using those scraggler frequent flyer miles from airlines like Delta and Northwest, that I hardly ever fly anymore).

      They have an ongoing article called "Putting it in Context" where they take stuff that both Bush and Kerry have said or advertised in the past couple of weeks and report on the validity of it. Here's the latest.

        THE CHARGE: A President sets his agenda for America in the first 100 days. John Kerry's plan: to pay for new government spending, raise taxes by at least $900 billion. --GEORGE W. BUSH, in a campaign ad running in 18 states that attacks his opponent's tax plan

        THE CONTEXT: A September 2003 study of the Democratic candidates' health-care proposals put an $895 billion price tag on Kerry's 10-year plan, which would bring insurance to 26.7 million people who don't have it now. The Bush campaign claims there is no way to pay for that generous plan other than by raising taxes. But Kerry has never said he would raise taxes by $900 billion. He has advocated raising taxes on the wealthiest 2% of Americans — those who make more than $200,000 a year — while giving middle-class earners tax cuts. Kerry's campaign says it is still studying how his health-care plan would be paid for, and it will release details in the coming weeks as analysts reconcile budget projections with Kerry's proposal. THE CHARGE: [President Bush] thought that Americans wouldn't notice what's happening in our country to the people who make up this country. Thought they wouldn't notice that every minute, two jobs are lost. --JOHN KERRY, speaking to supporters last week in West Palm Beach, Fla.

        THE CONTEXT: The statement would be fair if it were in the past tense, but it's not accurate about what's happening in the present. Kerry first introduced this charge back in November, when the nation had lost more than 3 million private-sector jobs since the start of the Bush presidency. (The number has since dipped under 3 million.) The 1,500,000th minute of the Bush presidency ticked by in December. Divide the jobs lost by the number of minutes and — presto!--two jobs a minute. But hirings began overtaking firings last September, and the economy has been creating jobs for a net increase since then of 364,000. So right now, the country is actually gaining jobs at a rate of about 1.4 per minute.

      ------Date: 2004-03-20 21:08:00 Subject: All we are saying...

      ...is give peace a chance....

      User Comments:

      Jill ------It was a graphic associated with the RoadWomen email regarding the Peace March in Houston this past weekend.

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------Wow...that's really neat looking. Where'd you find it?

      Luke McKibben ------That's kind of scary looking.

      No really, it's cool though.

      ------Date: 2004-03-24 21:46:00 Subject: Spring has sprung

      Just got back from my trip to North Carolina and was walking Jack and Marina. Spring is here and people have their windows open...amazing the sounds you hear. A grandma that has custody of her teenage granddaughter scream and yell at each other. A Hispanic couple on the other side of the brick wall that separates my condo from the neighborhood of houses nearby are yelling and screaming at each other. Dogs bark and planes are flying overhead. The freeway still has traffic at 9 PM and it's a sound I almost miss.

      And then I give my sister with cancer her Interferon injection and hold her in a hug as she's worn out from the battle and crying and wanting desperately for one day of energy, feeling good, and cancer in remission.

      Welcome back, Jill....

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------If I ever wonder where all of us youngens got our writing talent, all I need to do is look at both of my parents.

      I really liked what you just wrote. You have a talent at writing. :)

      ------Date: 2004-03-28 16:45:00 Subject: How the other half lives

      I'm at The Homestead since last night about midnight and will be here until Wednesday evening. It's a historical place and has some wonderfully tall ceilings, 250+ year old hardwood floors, and it doesn't hurt that the weather is good with clear, sunny skies and temperatures in the mid 60s.

      My room looks out over the roof of one of the dining rooms so it's not that great of a view, but I do see part of a hill behind me...guess this is one of the rooms they give employees, but who's complaining.

      I spent most of the morning watching TV and working on my mediator websites. I hate that my room doesn't have hi-speed internet, but oh well, dial-up keeps me humble. Trouble is, I'm probably going to exceed my Earthlink charges this month and that will be costly, not to mention that there is no local dial-up number so I'm paying long distance when I connect. Oh well...

      Anyway, I ordered room service this morning for breakfast (the first time I have ever done that in my 'short' lifetime) and that was fun...man, that coffee tasted tasty!!

      User Comments:

      Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yeah, right...

      I'm sitting in the hotel room, eating the Pringles from the mini-bar, and watching E's 2 hour special about Brittney...live it up?

      You betcha!

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------You gotta live it up mamala!

      :)

      ------Date: 2004-04-05 23:48:00 Subject: Apples don't fall very far from the tree

      I'm having a great time spending time with my youngest granddaughter and my oldest child (and her husband).

      Caroline is so smart. She studies everything and doesn't blindly eat that green vegetable or canned fruit or marvelous dish that her dad prepares, just because she should. If she doesn't want it, she just purses her lips tightly together and that's that!

      And then there is Robert, who, when I tell him I'm having trouble sending email, proceeds to give me the fix and tell me why it needs to be fixed in the first place.

      Of course, my daughter MaryAnn is smart to marry this guy (and I can't brag enough about her excellent sermon on Sunday...one that even a Unitarian can grab onto) and all the other wonderful things she does and the sensitivity she shows her good friend who's just had a stressful birthing experience and knows just the right words to give to her....

      And then there is Luke, who got a promo today And Matthew whose writing skills are a joy to behold

      And Katie, who walks her Mom through yet another email/website challenge....

      Wow...am I blessed or what???

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------you rule mom! you never fail to bring a smile to my face.

      :-)

      ------Date: 2004-04-15 23:16:00 Subject: What do you think?

      IN DEFENSE OF BUSH: Victor Davis Hanson makes an argument about how the current president has reversed over two decades of appeasement of Middle East terror. Money quote:

      George W. Bush, impervious to such self-deception, has, in a mere two and a half years, reversed the perilous course of a quarter-century. Since September 11, he has removed the Taliban and Saddam Hussein, begun to challenge the Middle East through support for consensual government, isolated Yasser Arafat, pressured the Europeans on everything from anti-Semitism to their largesse to Hamas, removed American troops from Saudi Arabia, shut down fascistic Islamic "charities," scattered al-Qaida, turned Pakistan from a de facto foe to a scrutinized neutral, rounded up terrorists in the United States, pressured Libya, Iran, and Pakistan to come clean on clandestine nuclear cheating, so far avoided another September 11 — and promises that he is not nearly done yet.
      That record is far more impressive when you consider what came before him.

      - 1:43:22 AM

      User Comments:

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Ted writes You and I have talked before about listening to people you don't agree with - I still check in on Rush Limbaugh a couple of times a week to see if my long held views can stand challenge. and this is just one of the many things I love and respect about you Ted.

      I, too, try to keep up with different points of view and not just read the line that supports what I already "know". I regularly read Andrew Sullivan's weblog and this made me think.

      Luke ------Uh, no...

      Anyone who tries to boil something as complicated as terrorism as simple "evildoers" doesn't deserve the credit that this author wants to give him.

      What he has done is make the world less secure. He has reversed many strong alliances we have had with other countries. Started two wars (one with a country not remotely responsible for "911", a war for Oil). Not to mention the damage he is doing domestically with regard to a constitutional ammendment against gay marraige, chipping away at women's rights, etc...

      Unfortunately, the only part of the article I think is accurate is the last line:

      "[he promises] that he is not nearly done". It's scary to think what more he has in store before he is (hopefully) removed from Office in January 05! matthew ------oh crap...stupid journalscape.

      i just posted a lot and it didn't work.

      nevermind

      :-( Ted ------What an interesting thing to read on your weblog - especially after several days off.

      You and I have talked before about listening to people you don't agree with - I still check in on Rush Limbaugh a couple of times a week to see if my long held views can stand challenge. I don't know how your came across Hanson's writings, but I know after reading it I'll certainly be thinking about it today.

      Good find!

      ------Date: 2004-04-17 15:44:00 Subject: GMail

      Directly taken from my friend Derek's blog

        Kenny recently hooked me up with a trial account for GMail, Google's new web-based mail service. And it's pretty damned cool. You get 1 freakin' gigabyte of storage space, and instead of filing messages, they all go in one big searchable mail archive.

      If you want to be a beta user, go to Kenny's log and request an invitation. I think he's still handing them out. That is, if you're not 'scared' about the privacy issues...for info about that, go to Derek's blog.

      User Comments: ian ------hi,

      how can i use gmail as well? are there any more invitations out there? thanks

      Luke ------A little update. As I was signing into my blogger (owned by google) I got an invitation to join gmail. So now I have an account too!

      Luke ------Yeah, this seems real awesome to me, and as soon as they open it up I am going to get one and be done with it.

      It's not like Yahoo! and Hotmail and email sites like that probably don't look in people's files anyway. I consider anything online as not really personal or safe anyway.

      And besides, I have always been more than satisfied with google and their services.

      I wonder how long it is until Google starts web hosting. Seems natural for a search engine and all.

      Anyway, I think G-Mail is awesome, and can't wait to get an account.

      Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------I'm not sure about that, but it's really, really awesome! matthew ------hmmmm....i'm going to have to check that out. do they have e-mail list services?

      -matt

      ------Date: 2004-04-20 11:07:00 Subject: I wish you enough

      So I got this email from someone I'm not even sure I know, but I liked the sentiment....

        I Wish You Enough

        Recently, I overheard a Mother and daughter in their last moments together at a regional airport. They had announced her departure and standing near the security gate, they hugged and she said, "I love you. I wish you enough."

        They kissed and she left.

        Standing there, I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy, but she welcomed me in by asking, "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?"

        "Yes, I have," I replied. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?" I asked.

        "I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, the next trip back will be for my funeral," she said.

        "When you were saying good-bye I heard you say, "I wish you enough." May I ask what that means?"

        She began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone."

        She paused for a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail,she smiled even more. "When we said 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them," she continued. Then, turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.

        I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

        I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

        I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

        I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

        I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

        I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye."

        She then began to sob and walked away.

      If you're reading this, I wish you enough.

      ------Date: 2004-04-21 09:59:00 Subject: Verbatim

      User Comments:

      Luke ------Yeah, he's special...

      ------Date: 2004-04-22 09:59:00 Subject: You break it, you own it

      ST. PETERSBURG, Fla., April 20 (UPI) -- Pottery Barn of San Francisco says there is no such rule in its stores that if "you break it, you own it," as cited in Bob Woodward's book, "Plan of Attack."

      Woodward attributed the remark to Secretary of State Colin Powell, who was warning President Bush of the consequences of invading Iraq.

      The real Pottery Barn, owned by Williams-Sonoma Inc. of San Francisco, said it is getting tired of the nonexistent rule being quoted in the news, The St. Petersburg Times reported Tuesday.

      "This is very, very far from a policy of ours," said Pottery Barn public relations director Leigh Oshirak. "In the rare instance that something is broken in the store, it's written off as a loss."

      Oshirak said some store managers have called her about the news reports. Pottery Barn has more than 170 stores selling home furnishings.

      "It's upsetting and absurd that that analogy has been put out there," Oshirak. "You'd think that somewhere along the line they would have checked."

      ------Date: 2004-04-25 21:28:00 Subject: March for Women's Lives

      Can't be prouder of my two sons that they were there!

      User Comments: matt ------it was such a great experience. hopefully there is never a need for another march, because hopefully things will work out and reproductive rights will be secure for ages to come. but if there ever is another need for a march like this, you are SOOOO there. :-)

      matt

      Luke ------Wish you were there with us though...

      ------Date: 2004-04-29 22:39:00 Subject: Can I just say....

      ...that today just sucked?

      Well it did and it still does....

      User Comments: matthew ------what's wrong mom? be expecting a call from me later.

      -matt

      ------Date: 2004-05-01 21:45:00 Subject: John Kerry Must Go

      From the Village Voice.... WASHINGTON, D.C.— With the air gushing out of John Kerry's balloon, it may be only a matter of time until political insiders in Washington face the dread reality that the junior senator from Massachusetts doesn't have what it takes to win and has got to go. As arrogant and out of it as the Democratic political establishment is, even these pols know the party's got to have someone to run against George Bush. They can't exactly expect the president to self-destruct into thin air.

      With growing issues over his wealth (which makes fellow plutocrat Bush seem a charity case by comparison), the miasma over his medals and ribbons (or ribbons and medals), his uninspiring record in the Senate (yes war, no war), and wishy-washy efforts to mimic Bill Clinton's triangulation gimmickry (the protractor factor), Kerry sinks day by day. The pros all know that the candidate who starts each morning by having to explain himself is a goner.

      What to do? Look for the Dem biggies, whoever they are these days, to sit down with the rich and arrogant presumptive nominee and try to persuade him to take a hike. Then they can return to business as usual—resurrecting John Edwards, who is still hanging around, or staging an open convention in Boston, or both.

      If things proceed as they are, the dim-bulb Dem leaders are going to be very sorry they screwed Howard Dean.

      User Comments:

      Dickie_Cronkite http://www.journalscape.com/Dickie_Cronkite/ ------My favorite part of that article is the very end:

      Additional reporting: Alicia Ng and Phoebe St John

      "Reporting"?? What the hell did they "report"?

      Matthew ------How can the press criticize Kerry's medal/ribbons issue without blinking an eye at George Bush's lack of service in any substantial way?

      How can they attack Kerry's being a rich person, yet not examine Bush in the same way? He DID go to both Harvard and Yale. Although not as wealthy as Kerry, Bush's father was the CIA director, Vice President, and President of the United States. So while not being as wealthy as Kerry, Bush isn't exactly hurting in the political power department. And when it comes to trying to look like a down to earth person, I'll take Kerry's panderings over Bush's, "I'm a Texan because I wear blue jeans, boots, and eat BBQ."

      And how can the press criticize Kerry's "wishy washy" stances and not look at Bush's record in office with the same colored glasses?

      THAT's why, the only media outlet that I trully thing is doing a credible job of calling both people on their own crap is "The Daily Show." Because they take articles like the one you posted, and flip it on it's ear and get Bush while they're at it. Why criticize the media for what they did to Howard Dean, and not criticize it now for doing the same thing to John Kerry?

      But they both suck I guess. So it's almost besides the point. I'm still voting Kerry though. I think that sometimes, weak senators have become the strongest presidents. Don't forget that as a senator, LBJ waffled on Civil Rights. JFK wasn't exactly the greatest senator or president, but it's hard to deny that he had a strength in the presidency that few had, or else we wouldn't still be talking about him 40 years after his death.

      And what are they talking about him losing steam? He's still beating Bush in many polls. And if the March for Women's Lives proved anything, it's that if there are enough people mad at Bush's policies to gather 1 million strong in the nation's capital, then whoever is running against him has as good a shot as anyone.

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Have you seen the commercials that MTV is "sponsoring" on all the major networks? They are designed to try to get young people to vote in the coming election..... "Choose or Lose" is their slogan. As with most voting campaings, they are not promoting one candidate over the other (though it is pretty obvious which side they are most likely rooting for). Anyway, their commercials have changed in tone over the past few weeks. They now feature a young man saying, "I don't like either candidate... I'm just going to choose the better of the two... but it's only slightly better." I was wondering if this change in their advertising campaign was representative of the current political sentiment.

      Luke ------Well, as long as people still have Nader to blame things on, I guess it doesn't matter how ill equiped Kerry is to win.

      ------Date: 2004-05-04 09:06:00 Subject: Curb your Enthusiasm

      I just recently found this wonderfully, edgy, funny series. Yeah, I know...I'm always the last one to the party.

      I watched another funny episode last night.

      I've been told that it's alot like Seinfeld (which I've never really watched either...I know, I'm the only one in America that hasn't watched it) but truth be told, I've yet to watch a whole episode of any of the reality shows either (I catch a little bit of some of them when I do the kitty litter/shot routine at Sherry's)...yes, I'm a dinosaur!

      Anyway, as soon as I complete the viewing of the remaining West Wings on my TiVo, I think I'll grab some Seinfeld episodes and see if I enjoy them as much.

      I can sure use some laughs these days!

      User Comments:

      Luke ------Not many dinosaurs have TiVo.

      ------Date: 2004-05-04 22:56:00 Subject: Get real

      Conflict is everywhere and I got 'written up' and the dogs are barking and the cats need food and dust bunnies are flying and jerky soldiers are treating the 'enemy' like dirt and I want a drink and it's getting hotter by the day and Democrats hate Republicans and Republicans hate Democrats and my bills are stacking up and my paycheck is too short and my sister just wants to have enough platelets to be able to have her chemo tomorrow,

      and so on and so on and so on....

      User Comments:

      Luke ------Sounds like you had a rough day.

      At least you will have a new job soon. ------Date: 2004-05-07 22:58:00 Subject: Say it isn't so...

      Gore TV Deal Is Stalled At The 11th Hour; Major Investor Pulls Out

      ------Date: 2004-05-11 20:48:00 Subject: Exxon Mobil says this...

      So I'm watching the CEO of Exxon Mobil on Charlie Rose and he's saying "for every million barrels of oil we moved on a tanker, we spilled 1 teaspoon."

      ------Date: 2004-05-11 22:15:00 Subject: Ask Matthew

      He's a genius!

      When we spent the day together on Mother's Day, he mentioned a cure for hiccups...kind of a pressure/acupuncture/Eastern religious type of thing...

      Tonight I had the hiccups...tried it...and it worked!

      Good info, Matthew!

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------behind every good man, there's a better woman.

      that's anya's trick. i'm just riding on her coat tails. :-)

      ------Date: 2004-05-13 22:07:00 Subject: From Andrew Sullivan...

      WHY THE BIG MEDIA CONTINUE TO LOSE THEIR AUDIENCE: Neal Boortz observes:

      This morning in most of the newspapers I scanned during my preparation for the show the top story was still the Iraqi prison abuse scandal. Nick Berg had already disappeared from many front pages, but the prison abuse stories remain. May I suggest to you that there is a reason for this? Maybe it's just this simple: The prison abuse scandal can damage Bush, the Nick Berg story can only help him. Given the choice many editors will chose the stories that serve their cause, getting Bush out of the White House, rather than one that hurts it.

      Such cynicism about the media, these days. But he's right. The Berg video wasn't shown on TV, and -- as Boortz notes -- the big media leaders seem almost desperate to keep the story on Abu Ghraib, even to the point of running already discredited fake porn photos purporting to be from Iraq. (And issuing lame and incomplete pseudo-apologies when caught out.)

      But on the Internet, where users set the agenda, not Big Media editors and producers, it's different. As Jeff Quinton notes, Nick Berg is the story that people care about:

      Right now the 10 phrases most searched for are:
      nick berg video
      nick berg
      berg beheading
      beheading video
      nick berg beheading video
      nick berg beheading
      berg video
      berg beheading video

      "nick berg"
      video nick berg

      Likewise, Rod Dreher of the Dallas Morning News reports that that's what his readers care about:

      Our letters page today is filled with nothing but Berg-related letters, most of them demanding that the DMN show more photos of the Berg execution. Not one of the 87 letters we received on the topic yesterday called for these images not to be printed. My sense is that there's a big backlash building against the media for flogging the Abu Ghraib photos, but being so delicate with the Berg images. People sense that there's an agenda afoot here. As somebody, can't remember who, wrote yesterday, "Why is it that the media can show over and over again pictures that could make Arabs hate Americans, but refuse to show pictures that could make Americans hate Arabs?"

      These guys are marginalizing themselves with their agenda-driven coverage. And they're so out of touch they don't realize it. As Andrew Sullivan notes:

      My gut tells me that the Nick Berg video has had much more psychic impact in this country than the Abu Ghraib horrors. I even notice some small evidence for this. Every political blog site has just seen an exponential jump in traffic - far more than anything that occurred during the Abu Ghraib unfolding. My traffic went through the roof yesterday, and, according to Alexa, so did everyone else's. People who have tuned the war out suddenly tuned the war in. They get it. Will the mainstream media?

      My prediction: Nope, and they'll continue to lose audience to the Internet.

      User Comments:

      Lisa ------The media has been obviously right-biased, so to say that they have a liberal agenda is ridiculous. For example, The Bushes are good friend with the Bin Ladens and helped them to safely leave the country right after 9/11. If this had been Clinton, dontr you think he'd have been immmediately impeached for ttreason? Hell, he was over a blow job.

      But the issue is the beheading...and I think that showing it WON'T work to Bushes favor because we CANNOT fight that way and it shows how we are now less safe than before as well as letting the situation spiral out of control and last but not least..that we never should have gone over there in the first place. We were after Osama...whom we have NOT caught yet. This war is about money and power and the extremist know that and hate us even more for it. We should have just let them continue to fight amongst themselves. I suggest you read articles about how we GAVE Saddam weapons and chemicals in the 80's...hell Rumsfield was in on it! If you don't believe me...it's fact, you can find it.

      So we give a horrible leader weapons when we need him and then go to war for "democratic and humanitarian" reasons when we no longer need him and it doesn't serve our interest. We gave him the weapons he used on his people! Get educated...read!

      Jill ------Good point Ted, and one I argue with my co-worker about constantly. He said with the wealth of media sources out there, to say that "the media" has an agenda is idiotic.

      But my take-way from this whole blog are the last lines of it..."People who have tuned the war out suddenly tuned the war in. They get it. Will the mainstream media? My prediction: Nope, and they'll continue to lose audience to the Internet." which I think is the most hopeful phrase of all. With media consolidating to a few conglomerates, the fact that we have this glorious internet makes it more possible for freedom of thought (and speech) throughout the whole world! And I say that's a great thing!!

      Ted ------

      Jill quoted:

      >refuse to show pictures that could make Americans hate Arabs?

      You know, sometimes I think we get the media we deserve. Imagine if they had shown the whole video...then we'd hear a chorus of complaints about the graphic video being 'forced down our throats'. What's an editor to do?

      But let's give these people the argument for a moment - the media is anti-bush/anti-war. And they (the media) decide to 'come around' and get with the program. They dedicate themselves to becoming "the American Al-Jazeera". What would the Bush administration do with that support? What have they wanted to do but didn't because they lacked popular support?

      I'm sorry but to me this argument (the media have an agenda) rings hollow.

      ------Date: 2004-05-15 09:08:00 Subject: Proud as punch

      ...and just what does that expression mean?

      Anyway, I'm a proud Mamala this morning after attending the RHEMA Bible Training Center graduation last evening and watching Katie and Dan graduate. Way to go!

      ------Date: 2004-05-16 18:02:00 Subject: I can laugh about this now

      So Sherry and I just got back from Tulsa where we had a really nice weekend. It's no secret that I don't like to fly. Only the love of my grandchildren (and kiddos) make me do it willingly and happily.

      I get through the whole experience by sitting in an aisle seat and pretending I'm in a business meeting with all the other folks on the plane. I pretend I have to get up at any moment, all prepared and stuff, to talk about one issue or another.

      So I dig deeply into a magazine article, or organize my daytimer, or listen to the tunes on my ipod with gusto, and figuratively transplant myself into "another world"....it gets me through the night, so to speak.

      Anyway, today when we arrived at Love Field, we followed the pilot of our Southwest Airlines plane away from the gate and he had a "bumper sticker" on his flight bag that said "I've used up all of my sick days. Now I have to call in dead"...

      This would be a clever bumper sticker if it belonged to little old me, that usually doesn't even have a passenger in my car, much less 137 other people, like a SWA jet.

      But I'm kinda surprised that this guy thought that may be funny for his passengers to see.

      Maybe it's just dark pilot humor. When I was working with the crime scene guys at the police department in Carrollton, you'd be surprised at what we all joked about!

      So be it...I'm safe and sound on the ground.

      User Comments:

      Luke ------Easiest way to get to New York is on a plane! Glad you have a good time, and that you are back safe.

      ------Date: 2004-05-20 17:27:00 Subject: It's a great day!

      Grandkids (and kids), here I come!

      ------Date: 2004-05-23 23:12:00 Subject: Another reason to vote for Nader

      From the transcript of Meet the Press today, comes this...

        MR. RUSSERT: David Broder, we all thought we were going to go to Boston in the last week of July for the nomination of John Kerry. And now a trial balloon has been floated by the campaign of the Democratic candidate, saying, "Well, we'll probably have a Democratic rally there and a great event, but he may not formally accept the nomination of his party," because he can then delay having to receive public campaign funding until, say, Labor Day and continue to raise a lot of other hard money, contributions which will allow him to compete with George Bush. What's going on?

        MR. BRODER: What's going on is money, money, money. I have to say that we used to blame Republicans as being the party where money really drove everything. It's the Democrats that are allowing money to drive everything. They moved up the primary campaign dates so that they could have more time in the spring to raise money. Now, they want to move back the nomination time so they can raise more money in the fall. It is ridiculous. They are destroying institution after institution of political significance by this preoccupation with chasing money.

        Ken Melman from the Bush campaign called yesterday and said, "If the networks go along with this scheme and cover the four nights of the Democratic Convention as a political rally, which does not produce a nomination, we will demand four nights of coverage of our rallies there." And I said to him, "Why don't you just move your date back? You have the president defer his accepting the nomination for another five weeks, and then you can go on raising money, and we'll end up with two parties, neither of which has an official nominee, and Ralph Nader will be the only candidate out there."

      ------Date: 2004-05-26 00:33:00 Subject: A Real Commencement Speech

      From Andrew Sullivan, Jon Stewart nails it.

      ------Date: 2004-05-28 11:15:00 Subject: Where do you get liberal talk radio in Dallas? I succumbed...

      I've purchased a subscription to XM radio.

      For less than 10 dollars a month, I'm listening to Al Franken and Jon Stewart right now, while I type this and work (yeah, right) and earlier today I listened to C-Span and Brian Lamb interview Tim Russert, and if I want I can switch to BBC World News, or listen to the WW2 veterans talking about their experience at their Memorial Dedication in DC, or maybe tune into Nascar.

      So far, I really, really like it and I can't think of a better way to spend 10 bucks! Well, maybe a nice bottle of Merlot....

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------i LOVE satellite radio. Both Sirius and XM are really good brands. If and when I get a new car, satellite radio is how I'll go.

      ------Date: 2004-05-28 13:45:00 Subject: The Greatest Generation Speaks

      I'm looking forward to a long weekend, and hoping that during part of it, I'll keep in my memory those who have come before me that sacrificed to allow me to live in the land of the free and the home of the brave.

      C-Span (both 1 & 2) is going to spend most of the next 3 days with the WW2 veterans and their memorial dedication. Many are calling this weekend in DC the Greatest Generation's Woodstock.

      I'm listening to one of the GG-ers right now telling about his experience in the Pacific front and being a POW. It's fascinating and a story that is being lost, as 1000 of these guys are dying per day.

      I'm looking forward to spending more time with these guys this weekend.

      ------Date: 2004-06-02 10:23:00 Subject: Providence and North Texas storms

      Can I just say that I'm glad my son Luke arrived safe and sound at Dallas Love field last night, about an hour before one hell of a storm? User Comments:

      Matthew ------don't worry katie, you won't *actually* see a tornado until you buy that R.V. you've been talking about. ;-)

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------DMN annoys me. I would have to sign up for an account to see the story you linked. I know it is free, but I just don't like to fill out an online form with my personal information in order to read the news.

      I can probably top that news story though. Saturday night, for the first time in our 7+ years living in Tulsa, we actually woke the kids up at 2:00 in the morning and stuffed into our bedroom closet (along with our bike helmets, the comforter from our bed, our gym shoes, etc) due to the tornadic weather coming down our street. Thankfully, we were safe, but it was a little nerve-racking. Incidentally, Jessie is quite ready to move from tornado alley now!

      ------Date: 2004-06-04 20:42:00 Subject: Get out the vote

      From the latest Time magazine,

      105 million -Number of votes cast in the 2000 presidential election out of 156 million registered voters

      65 million -Number of callin votes recorded for the two finalists on American Idol (some people voted twice)

      Why do these numbers depress me?

      User Comments:

      Mike Losack ------Yes it is somewhat depressing, but the voting pool for American Idol is WAY larger than the registered voting pool, since there are no requirements of age, citizenship, etc. The comparison is really apples and oranges. Don't be too depressed. :-)

      Katieg ------I just pictured Kerry vs Bush in a Idol-style sing-off with Randy, Simon, and Paula offering criticism. Now that would be entertaining. ------Date: 2004-06-06 19:39:00 Subject: Keep Austin Weird

      Between this and this, I had a great weekend in Austin.

      User Comments:

      Ted ------You went to the ROTRALLY? I want to hear more about this!

      ------Date: 2004-06-07 01:37:00 Subject: Ronald Reagan

      From Meet the Press today, Peggy Noonan recalls...

        He was a doll. He was just a deeply courteous boss. He was so nice. Tim, you know what I was thinking about him this morning, is a funny thing about Reagan. I don't think you can say this of any other president. You knew Reagan was coming in the halls of the White House because suddenly you would hear laughter. That's how you knew the boss was on his way. He always had an entourage, and he was always saying something and people were always cracking up around him. So I was thinking very much about his humor.

        But he was a doll to work with. I wrote a very big--well, my first speech for him, I was so excited. It was for something very small like the teacher of the year, but I was a brand-new speech writer and so I was keen to make an impression. I wrote a 20-page speech that was a defense of the West and a damnation of the Soviet Union. I sent it to Reagan. The poor man got it. He knew it was utterly inappropriate. It was just wrong in every way. Instead of sending it back to me and saying, "This is a bunch of garbage," he neatly put a line through about 80 percent of what I wrote, then rewrote a few things, then wrote a note to me at the end that said, "What a wonderful speech this is. Unfortunately, it's a little too long. I had to shorten it. I hope you don't mind." And I was so stupid, I believed him. It took me months to figure out, "Oh, man, this is a courteous boss."

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------As far as discussing the man, I think that mostly negative stuff should be off limits. If we're discussing Reagan's Presidency, then I think EVERYTHING should come into play. I've never been a supporter of people being sainted in death.

      Jill ------Yeah, I think death does that...mixed feelings indeed.

      Luke ------mixed feelings...

      ------Date: 2004-06-09 13:13:00 Subject: Quotes of the Day

      Getting caught up on old Charlie Rose shows...here's what I've heard so far, among other things...

      I believe in God because I believe in God-given talent. - Quentin Tarantino

      Most conflict is not between right and wrong, but rather between right and right. - Tom Stoppard

      ------Date: 2004-06-15 23:28:00 Subject: How I spent my Summer vacation

      Watching Caroline slide...

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------She's not that easy of a subject. If I had been taking the pictures, I'm sure she would have been crying. ;-)

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yes, the tiny camera strikes again. On my laptop, they aren't too clear, but I'm hoping they looked all right. And yes, the subject was an easy one...much like my JJs.

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------I was just curious how you took these pictures. Did you use your tiny digital camera? If so, I am very impressed! Though how can you go wrong with Caroline as the subject of your photos!

      ------Date: 2004-06-17 21:25:00 Subject: Trippin'

      Was watching PBS with Caroline this morning and came across this show....

      All I can say is it's a very unusual children's show and Caroline loved it!

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------What are you talking about, I see this type of stuff all the time. Maybe it's been TOO good of a summer. ;-)

      just kidding obviously

      matt

      ------Date: 2004-06-23 00:45:00 Subject: V-time

      From this blog come this-

      I haven't seen Fahrenheit 9/11, but I know that Mr. Moore alleges that Bush spent 42% of his first eight months in office (before 9/11) on vacation, and that he proudly declares that this figure came from the Washington Post. I couldn't find a Post article on this from 2001, but I did find this one from 2002--which says that Bush spent 42% of his term to date (Sept. 3, 2002) at vacation locations:

      Bush has spent a whopping total of 250 days of his presidency at Camp David (123 days), Kennebunkport (12) and his Texas ranch (115). That means Bush has spent 42 percent of his term so far at one of his three leisure destinations.

      It's obvious that these "vacation days" include weekends. (You can do the math: 250/x=42/100; x=595 days=1.63 years). Okay, 42% is a lot of vacation, but weekends account for 29% of our time. I'm sure that a lot of this "vacation" time is just Bush going to Camp David for the weekend. Can we really fault the President for going to Camp David on weekends? If you take out weekends, you get 42%-29%, or 13% of the time that Bush was on vacation.

      Okay, this is still a lot, although 13% looks a lot better than 42%. Over a year, 13% is about 6.76 weeks of the year--which is still much more than most of us. But we know that Bush's vacations are generally working vacations. For example, he has hosted visits from leaders like Putin, Fox, and many others there. This hardly seems like a real vacation.

      As Hitchens points out today, there are a lot of problems with Fahrenheit 9/11. It's pretty clear that Moore's "vacation time" allegation is one of them.

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------I read some stuff on Michael Moore's site that refutes some of the claims that Hitchens made in his article.

      Mike Losack ------A good example of "Fair and Balanced" reporting.

      ------Date: 2004-06-27 23:49:00 Subject: A woman scorned

      From Andrew Sullivan.... QUOTE FOR THE DAY I: "I have not yet read Mr. Clinton's book, but you can bet that my Judicial Watch attorneys will. I have learned that Bill Clinton has repeated his lies about me, and I am sickened by his continued disregard for the truth. Bill Clinton pretends to be contrite, but he continues to bear false witness against his neighbor. He is a national disgrace." - Gennifer Flowers, Bill Clinton's former long-term mistress.

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------What a jackass Clinton is/was.

      ------Date: 2004-06-27 23:54:00 Subject: The Geists do Mexico

      ------Date: 2004-06-27 23:58:00 Subject: 2 of my favorite people

      ------Date: 2004-06-28 00:05:00 Subject: 2 more....

      User Comments: matthew ------gosh they're soo BIG!!! they grow up too fast.

      -matt luke ------cute.

      ------Date: 2004-06-28 00:10:00 Subject: And 2 more...

      ------Date: 2004-06-30 11:09:00 Subject: My thoughts exactly... Nicholas Kristof has written an excellent op-ed in the NYTimes today that I am in total agreement with.

        So is President Bush a liar?

        Plenty of Americans think so. Bookshops are filled with titles about Mr. Bush like "Lies and the Lying Liars Who Tell Them," "Big Lies," "Thieves in High Places" and "The Lies of George W. Bush."

        A consensus is emerging on the left that Mr. Bush is fundamentally dishonest, perhaps even evil — a nut, yes, but mostly a liar and a schemer. That view is at the heart of Michael Moore's scathing new documentary, "Farenheit 9/11."

        In the 1990's, nothing made conservatives look more petty and simple- minded than their demonization of Bill and Hillary Clinton, who were even accused of spending their spare time killing Vince Foster and others. Mr. Clinton, in other words, left the right wing addled. Now Mr. Bush is doing the same to the left. For example, Mr. Moore hints that the real reason Mr. Bush invaded Afghanistan was to give his cronies a chance to profit by building an oil pipeline there.

        "I'm just raising what I think is a legitimate question," Mr. Moore told me, a touch defensively, adding, "I'm just posing a question."

        Right. And right-wing nuts were "just posing a question" about whether Mr. Clinton was a serial killer.

        I'm against the "liar" label for two reasons. First, it further polarizes the political cesspool, and this polarization is making America increasingly difficult to govern. Second, insults and rage impede understanding.

        Lefties have been asking me whether Mr. Bush has already captured Osama bin Laden, and whether Mr. Bush will plant W.M.D. in Iraq. Those are the questions of a conspiracy theorist, for even if officials wanted to pull such stunts, they would be daunted by the fear of leaks.

        Bob Woodward's latest book underscores that Mr. Bush actually believed that Saddam did have W.M.D. After one briefing, Mr. Bush turned to George Tenet and protested, "I've been told all this intelligence about having W.M.D., and this is the best we've got?" The same book also reports that Mr. Bush told Mr. Tenet several times, "Make sure no one stretches to make our case."

        In fact, of course, Mr. Bush did stretch the truth. The run-up to Iraq was all about exaggerations, but not flat-out lies. Indeed, there's some evidence that Mr. Bush carefully avoids the most blatant lies — witness his meticulous descriptions of the periods in which he did not use illegal drugs.

        True, Mr. Bush boasted that he doesn't normally read newspaper articles, when his wife said he does. And Mr. Bush wrongly claimed that he was watching on television on the morning of 9/11 as the first airplane hit the World Trade Center. But considering the odd things the president often says ("I know how hard it is for you to put food on your family"), Mr. Bush always has available a prima facie defense of confusion.

        Mr. Bush's central problem is not that he was lying about Iraq, but that he was overzealous and self-deluded. He surrounded himself with like-minded ideologues, and they all told one another that Saddam was a mortal threat to us. They deceived themselves along with the public — a more common problem in government than flat-out lying.

        Some Democrats, like Mr. Clinton and Senator Joseph Lieberman, have pushed back against the impulse to demonize Mr. Bush. I salute them, for there are so many legitimate criticisms we can (and should) make about this president that we don't need to get into kindergarten epithets.

        But the rush to sling mud is gaining momentum, and "Farenheit 9/11" marks the polarization of yet another form of media. One medium after another has found it profitable to turn from information to entertainment, from nuance to table-thumping.

        Talk radio pioneered this strategy, then cable television. Political books have lately become as subtle as professional wrestling, and the Internet is adding to the polarization. Now, with the economic success of "Farenheit 9/11," look for more documentaries that shriek rather than explain.

        It wasn't surprising when the right foamed at the mouth during the Clinton years, for conservatives have always been quick to detect evil empires. But liberals love subtlety and describe the world in a palette of grays — yet many have now dropped all nuance about this president.

        Mr. Bush got us into a mess by overdosing on moral clarity and self-righteousness, and embracing conspiracy theories of like-minded zealots. How sad that many liberals now seem intent on making the same mistakes.

      User Comments:

      Luke ------Now what if I call you a liar? ;)

      Jill ------Luke/Matthew-you're both right! We're having an honest intelligent debate right here so certainly the concept is not dead, is it?

      Luke ------I just don't buy that there was a golden age when people on the left or the right didn't call someone a liar (which to me isn't necessarily a bad thing to call someone when it's true). Bush would call himself a Cowboy, so whatever ("Bring it on"?!?!). And the man is not intelligent. I don't think I am using a kindergarten epitath by saying that. There really isn't a fair debate in this country and there probably hasn't ever been. But the main reason we haven't had a fair debate is because one has not been allowed.

      I also don't quite see what's wrong with being a conspiracy theorist. Sure, most conspiracy theories may not be true, but to me it's more dangerous to automatically discount a theory because it doesn't seem likely than it is to call the President a liar when he IS ONE. Or to call him a Cowboy when he IS ONE. Or to call him ignorant because, well, you be the judge of that!!!

      And almost everything I have read on the subject offers a solution. It may not be in a headline, and the word "liar" might be in the subject, but there are plenty of solutions being offered.

      Not to mention that to me people questioning authority and power IS part of the solution, even if a direct solution is not given.

      Matthew ------have we ever had honest debate in this country though? it seems to me that the only time that we may have had this...was during the time before the founding fathers wrote the declaration of independence. It was then, we had progressives such as Thomas Paine, getting the same exact air time as conservatives like Adams. And they were able to hold real, honest intelligent discussions.

      I'd say, that maybe FDR was able to accomplish real, honest debates as well. But the times are few and far between. Jill ------No, I would love to see anyone criticizing anything offer a solution to what they are criticizing. Unfortunately, mostly what we get these days are labels (liar, stupid, cowboy, etc. etc.) and conspiracy theories. That's unnerving to me.

      To me, this article reiterated my point that we no longer have honest debate and critical thinking, which lead to real alternatives in the voting booth.

      Instead, we seem to have (either from the right or the left) "nuances, kindergarten epithets, self- righteousness, and embracing conspiracy theories of like-minded zealots."

      Luke ------So are you saying that only people who should offer solutions are people who are running for president? I thought this article was about Leftists slinging mud at the President by calling him a liar? Not about the fact that the Democrats don't offer any real alternatives.

      Jill ------Matthew-Nader is probably 'overstating' how many Democrat votes he is going to get also, judging by his recent appearance at the Black Caucus and the lawsuits that have been filed against him by Democrats in Oregon, etc.

      Jill ------Luke-of the 3 you named that offer solutions, unfortunately only one of them is running for president. But that one has my vote so far.

      Matthew ------I was referring to how he has denied that he taken money from Republican funded political machines.

      And he's WAY overstating how many votes he's taking away from Republicans.

      Luke ------I really do think the president has the power to polarize the country. Yes. And I don't see anything wrong with people criticizing Bush or calling him on his lies, even hating him for that matter. He's screwing up the environment, foreign and domestic policy. He's heterosexist, dangerously fundamentalist, unintelligent and a liar. One could say that I simply "lost my ability to agree to disagree", but when wars are being faught for Oil and White Supremecy, and when someone is fighting the basic rights of human beings tooth and nail, he deserves the criticism he is getting, and more.

      While you may be able to say that the Democrats aren't offering real alternatives (what else is new?), you can't say that no one who criticizes Bush has a solution. Michael Moore's recent book pointed to solutions. Noam Chomsky has named solutions. Ralph Nader offers a real alternative solution.

      Jill ------Has he really said that? When he announced his candidacy, he said he would pull votes from both parties. Why wouldn't he take $$$ from former supporters of both parties as well?

      Or maybe he's just taking Howard Zinn's advice...Howard Zinn to Voters: "Do all in your power to assure that Nader achieves ballot access"

      Matthew ------other than the one that he doesn't take money from republican groups?

      Jill ------I guess what I'm saying here is that what I want to hear from opponents of Bush (or anyone for that matter) is what the policies are that Bush (or anyone for that matter) promotes that people so dislike and why they are voting against him, or for someone else and why that someone else would be any better. That's what I'm not hearing in the debate these days. And it's frustrating to say the least.

      So, if Bush is in bed with the Saudis, what decisions has he made as president to benefit the Saudis and hurt the US?

      If Bush lied about his military service in the 70s, how has this negatively impacted any policy that he has made since he's been president in 2001-2004? What is Kerry's answer to stopping Al Qaeda? Getting the international community involved? Involved in what? A war? Guns for hire to put a bullet in their heads late at night? What? Please tell me. I'm not saying that Bush has all the answers...but frankly, I haven't heard any from the Democratic side on this...just criticism and blame that Bush has done it wrong. If what they want is to get the UN involved (or the French) I'm thinking "good luck"...heck, the French won't even help Afghanistan and send troops so they can have safe, free elections. And the last time I looked, the UN didn't have an army.

      Again, Bush's domestic agenda is reason enough for me to not vote for him. But unless I hear another good alternative from the Democrats about defeating terror(ists)(ism), I'm perplexed as to what the alternative should be. Somebody, please advise....

      And finally, tell me a lie that Nader has told. I'm just curious.

      Matthew ------one more thing...

      all politicians are liars. from nader to kerry to bush to clinton to nixon to etc etc etc.

      but what the rub is, is that THIS administration has taken the game to a completely new level.

      Matthew ------yes i am for learning all the information from hillary and bill's years in office. although they are hardly as liberal as the republicans make them out to be.

      even if bush believed at the start that iraq war that the war was making us safer, the facts NOW prove otherwise. i don't remember the report that came out a week or two ago, but the report more or less said that terrorists attacks have increased, as well as al queda's membership. the lie exists in the bush administration's refusal to acknowledge the report that their own administration put out. he still...to this day...says that this war is making us safer. the evidence proves otherwise. if it's not a lie, then it's ignorance. either/or, they're intolerable and dangerous. either he's lying, or he's ignorant. or he's both. and if his ignorance is putting us at risk, then he's gotta go. Jill ------Matthew writes- And one lie that I can't forgive him for (and one worth voting him out of office for), is that he said and continues to say that he's a compassionate conservative. I'm for voting him out of office because of his faith-based programs, his support of the amendment to ban same-sex marriages, his refusal to relax federal restrictions on stem cell research, and more. And I agree that he should, at the very least, reprimand Cheney for his remark. But Matthew, are you willing to call Hillary Clinton a liar because she didn't divulge what went on in private at her healthcare meetings back in 1992/3? The same principle applied there.

      And if Bush truly believes that the war in Iraq is making us safer from international terrorism (whether or not you agree with this) does that inherently make him a liar for saying it?

      Luke-Do you really feel that one person (Bush) is responsible for polarizing this country? I remember when we could have honest debate about issues and agree to disagree without the hatred from both sides...as Kristof said It wasn't surprising when the right foamed at the mouth during the Clinton years, for conservatives have always been quick to detect evil empires. But liberals love subtlety and describe the world in a palette of grays — yet many have now dropped all nuance about this president.

      Luke ------Bush lied. End of story. That's no conspiracy, that's fact.

      Bush is responsible for polarizing the country, not leftists who ask questions and call him on his lies.

      Matthew ------I don't think it's so much that Bush is a liar in so much that he's just plain shady.

      Whether it's his military service record with pages missing and names blacked out, or the report on 9-11 that had 28 pages of transcripts (probably about Saudi Arabia) taken out, that he and his administration refuse to tell journalists and the American public just what happened in those meetings with Halliburton, and his insistence that the war in Iraq has made us safer from international terrorism. It's not so much that they're outright lies (although the distinction between distorting the truth and lying is teeny tiny), it's more that they're just plain shady. And one lie that I can't forgive him for (and one worth voting him out of office for), is that he said and continues to say that he's a compassionate conservative. His past 4 years have proven otherwise.

      And he's also lied that he was going to bring a new level of integrity and civility to the White House. Dick Cheney saying "Fuck off" on the floor of the Senate is the symptom of a much bigger problem at how the Bush Administration has nearly completely polarized our country. A Uniter??? If this is unity, I'd hate to see division.

      ------Date: 2004-06-30 12:43:00 Subject: Separated at birth

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------haha

      that's funny.

      the irony being that someone's probably trying to "wack" Allawi, in the same way that they're always trying to get Tony.

      ------Date: 2004-07-01 09:51:00 Subject: Happy Canada Day!

      O Canada!

      Our home and native land!

      True patriot love in all thy sons command.

      With glowing hearts we see thee rise,

      The True North strong and free! From far and wide,

      O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.

      God keep our land glorious and free!

      O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.

      O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.

      User Comments:

      Jill ------Ok, you guys really got it when I took you to Canada back in the late 90s and showed you another way!

      Luke ------I love the sticker that says "Re-Defeat Bush"

      Matthew ------A place I may be moving to if Bush is re-elected. ;-)

      ------Date: 2004-07-01 09:56:00 Subject: Ideal v. Real

      Ted Ralls had a good opinion piece yesterday.

      He pretty much outlined what I want:

        In an ideal world, Americans of every political stripe would enjoy a forum to discuss the issues of the day. In an ideal world, communists and conservatives and militiamen and socialists and centrists and Christianists and atheists and libertarians and anarchists would all get the chance to express their opinions and propose changes in law and policy in the media as well as the corridors of power. In an ideal world, vigorous debate would never degenerate into name- calling or threats. In an ideal world, a losing political party would play the role of the loyal opposition as it plotted its return to power. In an ideal world, an imaginative, freewheeling, independent media would cast a wide net, broadening our national dialogue to include the previously disenfranchised.
      His vision of the real world is a little more harsh than I would admit to (witness the ability of congress to pretty much stop all of Bush's judicial appointments, the upcoming defeat of the FMA, etc)...

        In the real world, however, a narrow subset of right-wing conservatives controls the Supreme Court, White House, Congress and most state legislatures. In the real world, no American to the left of John McCain--including John McCain--has a chance to propose a law and see it signed into law. In the real world, newspapers, magazines, radio and television outlets are owned by a shrinking pool of conservative corporations motivated by short-term profits and cozy ties to the right-wingers who run the government. In the real world, the Democratic Party has given up hope of recapturing either the House or the Senate, and Democratic politicians vote along with the Republicans. In the real world, anyone who questions the president's justifications for starting wars, or questions whether he even has the right to call himself "president," should expect to be insulted and ridiculed, blackballed, smeared as a traitor and threatened with death by conservative commentators.

      ...but it does help explain the shrill tone of the opposition.

      ------Date: 2004-07-02 10:10:00 Subject: Riddle me this...

      Ok, so I'm reading this editorial piece in the NYTimes today and read the following:

        A Wall Street Journal/NBC News poll published yesterday found that a majority of Americans now believe the war has increased the threat of terrorism. A New York Times/CBS News poll earlier this week found that 47 percent of respondents believe the terror threat has increased, while only 13 percent say it has declined. Thirty-eight percent of the respondents in that poll said the war had not made a difference.

      Now, I've never claimed to be a math wiz or anything, but when the piece says "a majority of Americans now believe the war has increased the threat of terrorism" and the actual percentage of Americans that either believe the threat has declined or not changed since the war in Iraq adds up to 51 percent, isn't that less than the 47 percent of respondents who believe the terror threat has increased? So wouldn't their premise be wrong here? Help me out somebody...

      User Comments:

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Just proof once again that you can make numbers say just about anything you want them to.

      Luke ------Well they are referring to two different polls. Wall Street Journal/NBC News: "a majority of Americans...."

      New York Times/CBS News: "47 percent, 13 percent, etc..."

      They may also be thinking about the largest group. While not a true majority, the largest group was 47 percent. You see?

      ------Date: 2004-07-02 11:13:00 Subject: Bye, bye Brando

      Just heard the news that Marlon Brando has died at age 80. In his later years, his acting and roles were off again, on again. But in his early days, he was super.

        His (private) life may best be defined by a line from "The Wild One," in which Brando, playing a motorcycle gang leader, is asked what he's rebelling against.

        "Whattaya got?" was his famous reply.

      RIP.

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------It isn't hyperbole to say that he is one of the all-time greats.

      Marlon Brando, Jack Nicholson, Al Pacino, Denzel Washington, Meryl Streep, Robert DeNiro, Edward Norton, Katherine Hepburn, Johnny Depp He's the tops of the list. At the very least, he's one of the most influential actors of all time.

      ------Date: 2004-07-05 23:46:00 Subject: Faith, the Fourth, and gay marriage

      I had the opportunity to stay home most of the day today and sit and work at my computer and at the same time watch C-Span. It was there that I saw Ellen Goodman interviewed by Linda Wertheimer (from NPR).

      Where have I been? I've not known about her before, but I plan on checking the Boston Globe site regularly from now on so I can read her columns. She speaks to me!

      Anyway, here's her latest column...

        Faith, the Fourth, and gay marriage

        By Ellen Goodman, Globe Columnist | July 4, 2004

        IT'S JUST days before the wedding, and Dorothy Austin is on her cellphone trying to track down a Dixieland band to lead the procession from Harvard's Memorial Church to the Lowell House yard.

        The odds of finding a band for the Fourth of July are getting longer by the minute. But they are nothing compared to the odds against marriage that she and Diana Eck faced 28 years ago when they first met.

        Now the table in Lowell House, the student residence where this pair have been co-masters for nearly a decade, is covered with place cards. As she moves the cards in search of the perfect seating arrangement for 400 guests, Diana laughs, "We're the brides, the mothers of the brides, and the wedding planners rolled into one."

        Dorothy was in her car on Nov. 18 when Diana called and said, "The court just ruled in our favor. We can get married." "We never thought we'd see this in our lifetime," they both say. So it's no wonder that this couple chose the Fourth of July for their wedding date and planned to end the ceremony singing "my country 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty."

        Same-sex wedding bells have been ringing all over this state since they became legal on May 18. They enrage some Americans and engage others in celebrations. Yet there's been a shared assumption that this debate pits the more devout against the less devout, the religious against the secular.

        But the wedding of these two women challenges this accepted divide. You see, Dorothy Austin, 60, is an ordained Episcopal priest and associate minister of Harvard's Memorial Church. Diana Eck, 58, is a professor of comparative religion and head of the Pluralism Project at Harvard who has spent her life exploring what religious diversity means for American democracy.

        These two women are deeply -- and also widely -- religious. And neither is willing to cede faith to the religious right.

        In many ways their marriage is part of a long trajectory of social changes around both their work and love. When Dorothy, whose mother was a mill worker in Fall River, was young, her vocation was closed to women. When Diana came east from Montana to Smith College, she didn't think of becoming a professor as much as marrying a professor.

        Having come this far, they are very aware of how controversial their marriage still is. The Sunday after their wedding has been designated as "Protect Marriage Sunday" by the religious right. Sometime during the week of July 12, a constitutional amendment banning same sex marriage will come before the US Senate with an endorsement of the Conference of Catholic Bishops and the Southern Baptist Convention. Meanwhile, Jerry Falwell has sent out missives telling preachers to "lift up the God-ordained institution of marriage in their ceremonies" by fighting same-sex marriage.

        Both women, minister and religious scholar, emphasize that the Massachusetts court gave gay couples the right to a "civil marriage," not a "sacred marriage." Indeed, says Diana, in the most religiously diverse nation in the world "it's important we get that distinction right."

        But at the same time, they have a very different view of religion itself than does the religious right. "Our religious traditions," Diana Eck has written, "are dynamic not static, changing not fixed, more like rivers than monuments."

        To this pair, America is not just a country where church and state are separate. It's a country in which many faiths flourish and must coexist. And while some faiths reject same-sex marriage, others are ready to bless them.

        For people of faith, same-sex marriage presents "the whole issue of how we cope with difference" says Diana, who acknowledges that "thoughtful religious people of every denomination have struggled with this. "My work is thinking about religious difference and whether we'll be able to work and live creatively with it. Religion is not something that should be divisive, to create ever more fractures in a society. Religions can work at bridge-building and connections."

        For her part as an Episcopal priest, Dorothy adds, "We shouldn't relinquish the religious tools to the right." She then breaks into the language of her ministry: "This is a moment of prophecy -- of mercy, justice, love, comfort. We need religious traditions and the people in them."

        So, before the Dixieland band -- if they find one -- plays, there will be readings from both Corinthians and the Massachusetts decision. There will be three ministers on the pulpit, and friends from enough religions to form their own pluralism project will fill the church.

        In the background there will also be the ecumenical words of Dorothy's late grandmother, who blessed their union decades ago when she said: "Them that mind don't matter, and them that matter won't mind." Amen.

      User Comments:

      Reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Amen is right!

      Ellen Goodman is great--glad you found her.

      Equally unwilling to cede faith to the religious right,

      Reverendmother

      ------Date: 2004-07-07 09:23:00 Subject: Control Room v. F911

      Having a 3 day weekend this past weekend afforded me the opportunity to check out 2 of the movies that have been on my list to see...Michael Moore's "F911" and the documentary "Control Room" made by the "Start-up.com" guys about Al Jazeera. I really, really enjoyed both of these movies, but for different reasons. 1. Both of them covered stuff about the war in Iraq. 2. Both had clips of Bush and Rumsfeld.

      3. Both had information that I had not heard before in the mainstream media.

      4. Both were fair and balanced.

      Ok, 3 out of 4's not bad.

      Control Room was fair and balanced for the most part, but F911 didn't even attempt to be. I was prepared for that, however, having read so many articles online about the flick. What I wasn't prepared for was my enjoyment of F911. I figured that I'd just be angry the whole time that both sides weren't be presented. You know me...there's always two sides to every coin.

      But because F911 was so over-the-top one sided, I was able just to sit back and enjoy it for what it was...Moore's view of his world.

      As far as documentaries go, though, F911 doesn't even qualify. Look for Hollywood to recognize that and give next year's Oscar for Best Documentary to anyone but Moore. (You know me...as someone once said about me, "you're the most naive person I know").

      User Comments:

      Jill ------Rev-Great explanation, and one that I totally agree with!

      Your story about the woman from the Unity Church rang true to me, as I've seen this happen in my own church. UUs rush to condemn the religious right, but make excuses for the fundamentalist Muslims that thought that Allah guided them (and those planes) into the WTC and the Pentagon.

      Reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------This is hard to say in few words, but I'll try.

      I (like the rest of us) am a product of this post-modern age we live in. As such, I have been trained to be skeptical of absolute black and white thinking (i.e. U.S.A. good, our enemies bad). I do appreciate the grey, and I think that tolerance and diversity are worthy values to be upheld in our society.

      The problem is that in our (culture's) rush to tolerate diverse points of view, we refrain from condemning anything at all. Simply stated, I think there are certain moral absolutes.

      The next problem of course is that my moral absolutes are not the same as someone else's (assuming that they have any--and actually I think everyone has them, whether they cop to them or not). And too often the only way we know to deal with that is to say, "Oh well, everyone has different absolutes so maybe there are no real absolutes." Which brings us full circle.

      My guess is that Michael Moore feels that the Bush administration is so far beyond the pale in terms of his moral absolutes that he would never in a million years think to give any validity to the "other side," because there *is* no validity to the other side. (I'm not agreeing or disagreeing with him; I'm just speculating on what may or may not be in his head.)

      I worked with a woman one summer who was part of the Unity Church of Christianity and her utter rejection of any concept of evil, or anything bad really, led to truly bizarre (to me) notions like the idea that Hitler was just misguided, but he was trying to do the right thing and that's got to count for something.

      Matthew ------Well that's what I'm saying. It's not about one side being good and the other being evil. One side being right and the other wrong.

      But when you have two sides that both *think* that they're right, sides are drawn. Especially when things are really polarized like they are now.

      Jill ------Good point, Matthew, but I didn't say the 2 sides of the coins had to be opposites...one dark, one light or one good, one evil. Isn't it possible to have two grey sides that are opposing?

      Matthew ------Well I think the danger of having two sides, is that sometimes the "grey" gets cut out. And when there are two sides and only two sides, adversarial relationships tend to happen.

      Jill ------Rev writes "But I do have a question about this... are there really two sides to *every* issue? I fully grant that there is more complexity to the issues facing us than Moore, Limbaugh, Fox News, Salon, or anyone else is capable of or interested in addressing. But I think that's a little different than saying there are two sides to every issue. I find that naive, potentially dangerously so. to which I answer...

      It's difficult for me to make absolute statements about "every" situation, but yes, I do think in the case of the war with Iraq, there were definitely 2 sides to that.

      And I'm interested in hearing more about your statement about the naivety and danger of finding two sides.

      Reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------I have also noticed that, Katie. I would say the problem isn't bias one way or another, but a real lack of depth.

      I don't think the media are pro-Bush per se, but I do think the media viewed the push toward war very uncritically, to say the least. People demonstrating against the war were portrayed as wild- eyed fringe radicals, too few in number to even take seriously. Now that public opinion is changing on the war, the media are following suit.

      Regarding asking why MM didn't show Saddam as a bad man, I think that misses the point, which is that "Saddam is a madman who terrorizes his people" was at best a secondary argument for going to war. The case for war was built primarily around supposed WMDs, supposed links to Al Qaeda, etc. My sense is that the "He was just a bad guy" argument gained more prominence as the strawman came a-tumblin' down. But I do have a question about this... are there really two sides to *every* issue? I fully grant that there is more complexity to the issues facing us than Moore, Limbaugh, Fox News, Salon, or anyone else is capable of or interested in addressing. But I think that's a little different than saying there are two sides to every issue. I find that naive, potentially dangerously so.

      Luke ------Fact: Corporations run the "mainstream media".

      Fact: Corporations are interested in making money more than anything.

      Fact: Corporate interests, while not always conservative, usually are.

      There's never been any credible evidence given that the mainstream media has a liberal bias. Lots of people say that, but it fundamentally isn't true.

      The power elites in this country have already succeeded in making the word "liberal" a bad one. Consequently, the mainstream media often due whatever they can to prove that they aren't liberal. (as do politicians. Remember when Clinton flew back to Arkansas while campaigning in 92 to put a mentally retarded men to death to prove that he wasn't "Soft on Crime". And look at how Kerry tells his audiences what he thinks they want him to hear).

      But I guess in one sense it does depend on your perspective. Take NPR for example. Often NPR is seen as the shining light of mainstream liberal journalism. I happen to see NPR as pretty centrist, with only occassional tilts to the left and right (more to the right than most people would like to think). But if I was a "conservative Democrat", I would probably see NPR as dead on the money.

      One fact that CANNOT be disputed is that the mainstream media is run by corporations.

      Corporations who are interested in their bottom line. Corporations who profit off of war, fear, the status quo, and Corporate subsidies (usually handed to them on a silver plate by Democrats and Republicans). Matthew ------When I said that the media was pro-Bush, I probably mis-spoke. I don't think the media is pro- Bush.

      I feel that the media is beholden to the corporate interests who run them. And that there is no liberal or conservative bias in the mainstream media.

      But where the rub is for me, is that with the mainstream media is so in tune to the bottom $ line, that they have refused to dig deeper into what the administration is telling them. Because the times that they have dug deeper, they were accused to being un-patriotic and anti-American. And when you're an "unpatriotic" news agency, the bottom line gets hit. And it becomes the norm, to be lazy.

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------It is always so strange to me how both sides of the coin sees the media as unbalanced in the other direction. Most conservatives think that the media (with the exception of Fox News of course) is ultra-ultra-liberal. I almost fell of my chair one time when I read a comment in a blog Matthew wrote about the media being pro-Bush.

      So if both sides think the media is pro-the-other-side, does that mean that the media is really fair and balanced? Hmmm.. somehow I doubt that.. but it is an interesting phenomena!

      Matthew ------But what Luke is saying (i think) is that we've already heard all of the terrible stuff that he's done. We know this. How many times have we seen the children of Iraq playing in the streets?

      Rush Limbaugh often says that he's the balance. In his eyes, the mainstream media is liberal. So in his eyes, he's the balance. I think Michael Moore may think of himself in the same way. We've seen all this before. What he's bringing (finally) is balance.

      Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------You're probably right. It is a documentary, in the strictest definition. According to Webster...

        Main Entry: 1doc·u·men·ta·ry

        Pronunciation: "dä-ky&-'men-t&-rE, -'men-trE

        Function: adjective

        1 : being or consisting of documents : contained or certified in writing

        2 : of, relating to, or employing documentation in literature or art; broadly : FACTUAL, OBJECTIVE

        - doc·u·men·tar·i·ly /-m&n-'ter-&-lE, -"men-/ adverb

      The only part of the definition which didn't match that I had a problem with is the "OBJECTIVE" part.

      It seems for that to have been true with F911, Moore would have had to have shown just a teensy, eensy bit of the atrocities toward the Iraqi people, at the hands of Saddam Hussein. Not just the kite-flying scene that he picked.

      Luke ------Couldn't we say that all that we normally hear is Bush' "one side" from the corporate media? And that Moore's film being "one sided" was just showing the side that is never shown?

      I saw no problem with it being "one sided" because it showed things for how they really are instead of showing things how the powers that be want them to be shown.

      Hellsyeah it was a documentary.

      ------Date: 2004-07-07 10:53:00 Subject: Happy Days are Here Again

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------Come on get happy!

      -Danny Partridge

      ------Date: 2004-07-08 10:15:00 Subject: I'd love to see more of these

      Former Enron CEO Ken Lay (L) is led into the Federal Courthouse in Houston by FBI agents after surrendering to authorities after being indicted for wire fraud and conspiracy July 8, 2004.

      User Comments:

      Shrub ------Uh, "Kenny-who?" Never met the man. Now watch this drive.

      CG Autnie ------Shrub must've shed a tear or two for ol' Kenny Boy today.

      Jill ------"There's an old saying in Tennessee — I know it's in Texas, probably in Tennessee — that says, fool me once, shame on — shame on you. Fool me — you can't get fooled again." —George W. Bush, Nashville, Tenn., Sept. 17, 2002

      MaryAnn ------Interesting times we live in.

      Now watch this drive.

      Matthew ------*in Sean Connery voice* "Shuck it Trebek."

      Luke ------Amen.

      ------Date: 2004-07-10 20:30:00 Subject: 7 deadly social sins, per Gandhi

      1. Politics without principle

      2. Wealth without work

      3. Commerce without morality

      4. Pleasure without conscience

      5. Education without character

      6. Science without humanity

      7. Worship without sacrifice

      User Comments:

      Reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------don't forget

      Garfunkel without Simon.

      Now watch this drive.

      Matthew ------and

      8. Buffalo wings without beer.

      9. Pink Floyd without laser show. ;-)

      ------Date: 2004-07-13 11:20:00 Subject: Democrats

      "Always standing up for what they later realize they should have believed in"-Jon Stewart, July 12, 2004

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------Kucinich and Dean are both as principled as they come.

      Luke ------Jon Stewart is unstoppable.

      Stewart/Moore in 04. Has a nice ring doesn't it?

      ------Date: 2004-07-13 21:43:00 Subject: This land is your land

      Bush and Kerry do a duet

      ------Date: 2004-07-13 21:53:00 Subject: Some Kind of Monster

      "We come now to create our album of life. Throughout our individual and collective journeys, sometimes through pain and conflict, we've discovered the true meaning of family. As we accomplish ultimate togetherness, we become healers of ourselves and the countless who embrace us and our message. We have learned and we understand. Now we must share." - the "Mission Statement" for heavy metal group Metallica's new album, drafted by their "performance- enhancement coach." (Taken from the latest GQ review of the new documentary, "Some Kind of Monster.")

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------I'm there.

      Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------Mark your calendar for July 30th-The Magnolia!

      Matthew ------As soon as it comes to Dallas, we're going right? ------Date: 2004-07-15 16:40:00 Subject: Opinion-hurling

      I'm reading a really neat book right now. It's a collection of essays by Ellen Goodman called Paper Trail.

      In reading her introduction, I can tell that she and I are definitely on the same page, so to speak.

        Opinion-writing and opinion-speaking over the course of these years have become something closer to a combat sport: opinion-hurling. We moved into a time when politics became polarized and political debate became more like a food fight. The Olympic sport of opinion-hurling found a stadium on talk radio and cable TV, the playing fields of certitude.

        ***

        Americans have felt ambivalent about many issues of the past decade -- from abortion to gay marriage, from welfare reform to globalization -- but rarely heard that ambivalence in the media. On the panels and round tables that dot TV, they only see two sides of an issue when people filled with certainty and untinged with doubt are invited to duke it out.

        ***

        ... I listen to talk radio. The voices of the anchor and the call-in audience seem linked by anger as much as politics. I am not sure why certitude is so much the rage. And rage is the right word.

        ***

        I've tried to stay on my own, somewhat separate trail through this increasingly noisy corridor. The columns on these pages were written for people who argue with both hands, the one and the other, and occasionally end up with them clasped together.

      User Comments:

      Mr. Cloudy ------I like what she says here. On the whole, tho, I would guess people are entertained by conflict and anesthetized by hearing someone espousing their views in a tone that sounds like the matter is beyond doubt.

      Reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------When I'm driving to church on Sunday mornings I occasionally have C-Span radio on. It's the call in show where "if you support the Democrats, call this number, if you support President Bush, call this number, if you support third-party candidates, call this number."

      I have to quickly turn it off. Lots of bile, not a lot of listening. Matthew ------I don't know. It could be a number of factors causing the shrillness of public discourse these days.

      I think that today in many ways mirrors what the sixties was like. People have taken sides. And the people that have taken sides are being vocal about their stances. Maybe today is like the 60's minus all the hippy-drippy love-ins and acid trips.

      I think a lot of it may be in response to the political administration and the world events. As a country, we've had A LOT on our plates in the past 4-10 years.

      We've had an impeachment, 2 terrorist attacks in the United States, 2 international wars, and a President who is pretty far to the right.

      We've also had an increased popularity in shows like the "O'Reilly Factor" and "Hardball" where people are broken down into two distinct sides, each one vying for the last word.

      ------Date: 2004-07-15 23:25:00 Subject: No one lied...

      "No one lied. No one made up the intelligence. No one inserted things into the dossier against the advice of the intelligence services. Everyone genuinely tried to do their best in good faith for the country in circumstances of acute difficulty. That issue of good faith should now be at an end ... But I have to accept, as the months have passed, it seems increasingly clear that at the time of invasion, Saddam did not have stockpiles of chemical or biological weapons ready to deploy ... I have searched my conscience, not in the spirit of obstinacy, but in genuine reconsideration in the light of what we now know, in answer to that question. And my answer would be that the evidence of Saddam's WMD was indeed less certain, less well-founded than was stated at the time. But I cannot go from there to the opposite extreme. On any basis he retained complete strategic intent on WMD and significant capability. The only reason he ever let the inspectors back into Iraq was that he had 180,000 US and British troops on his doorstep ... Had we backed down in respect of Saddam, we would never have taken the stand we needed to take on WMD, never have got progress on Libya ... and we would have left Saddam in charge of Iraq, with every malign intent and capability still in place and every dictator with the same intent everywhere immeasurably emboldened. For any mistakes made, as the report finds, in good faith, I of course take full responsibility. But I cannot honestly say I believe getting rid of Saddam was a mistake at all." - Tony Blair, yesterday. It's a classy, honest, intelligent and sincere rebuke to the anti-war arguments. If only the president had the character and strength to say something as candid.

      ------Date: 2004-07-15 23:26:00 Subject: Red states/Blue states

      I love Internet quizzes and here's the latest from Slate, determining how red-state or blue-state you are.

      This was what I scored....

      ------Date: 2004-07-16 10:18:00 Subject: Fear of flying

      A friend of mine recently sent me this, after we had had a minor disagreement about how best to handle our situation. I want to remember this always.

        It would be fantastic if we came into this world knowing how to perfectly deal with every situation that might come up. Unfortunately we don't. We get thrown into situations and we fly by the seat of our pants and usually fly blind at that.

      ------Date: 2004-07-18 20:36:00 Subject: The Door in the Floor

      I went to see this movie today after church. I really enjoyed it. Jeff Bridges is one of my favorite actors and he shows a total range of emotions in this movie. He looks great, BTW, and it almost makes me think that guys my age can be sexy after all!

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------Thanks for the mini-review. I've heard good things about this movie. I too am a Jeff Bridges fan. He's a badass!

      ------Date: 2004-07-18 20:43:00 Subject: Religion & 12 step programs

      This was the topic of my UU Sunday School today. It was interesting, and when I shared, I talked about how in almost, if not all, meetings that I have been in, we ended the meeting by standing, holding hands, and saying the Lord's prayer. No one else in the room had had this experience. Am I just imagining this?

      User Comments:

      Mr. Cloudy ------I haven't been to a lot of official meetings, but the ones I went to ended with the Serenity prayer, not the Lord's prayer.

      MaryAnn ------Pretty standard in my experience.

      Katieg ------That sounds very familiar to me, but my memory is about like yours so I could be wrong!

      ------Date: 2004-07-19 12:42:00 Subject: Fun with Paint

      (click) Try this it's fun

      ------Date: 2004-07-20 23:13:00 Subject: 2 photos

      ------Date: 2004-07-21 13:43:00 Subject: Finding Nemo-Matthew style

      ------Date: 2004-07-22 18:40:00 Subject: Think about this the next time you order chicken

      From Andrew Sullivan....

      FINGER-LICKING BRUTALITY: More evidence that many parts of our agricultural industry - even with chickens now - is, with respect to treatment of animals, a moral disgrace. Money quote:

      The group said its investigator also obtained eyewitness testimony about employees "ripping birds' beaks off, spray-painting their faces, twisting their heads off, spitting tobacco into their mouths and eyes, and breaking them in half -- all while the birds are still alive."
      Just incredible - but perhaps unavoidable in a food industry that often treats animals with contempt and cruelty. (If you care about these issues, can I recommend again Matthew Scully's moving and important book, "Dominion.")

      User Comments:

      Reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Bell and Evans Chicken rules!

      ------Date: 2004-07-23 11:04:00 Subject: Can I vote for her instead?

      “We need to honor women in all their complexity.

      It’s time that we acknowledge the wisdom women have acquired by managing the chaos of daily life.

      Women are realists, the glue that holds society together.

      They bring a reverence to life that’s instinctual, not just intellectual.”

      - Teresa Heinz Kerry

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------Unfortunately not. I'd vote for her. In the meantime, you can vote for her husband. ;-)

      *trying to turn you Democrat*

      ------Date: 2004-07-23 23:13:00 Subject: I've ordered my copy of the 9/11 Commission Report, have you?

      From the Wall Street Journal comes this...

        The Pre-emption Commission

        The virtues of the Patriot Act, among other surprises.

        Friday, July 23, 2004 12:01 a.m. So the doctrine of pre-emption has its uses, after all. In a world of conflicting intelligence, uncertain consequences and potential foreign opposition, it is still sometimes necessary for America to attack an adversary before it attacks us.

        That, reduced to its essence, is the main conclusion of yesterday's 567-page report from the 9/11 Commission. The September 11 attacks may have been a shock, it says, but they never should have come as a surprise. Our government--and the entire political class--knew enough to act against al Qaeda and Osama bin Laden, but it did not because of "failures of imagination, policy, capability, and management." Though the bipartisan report can't quite bring itself to use the words, it would seem that the Bush anti-terror doctrine lives.

        These columns have been rough on the Commission, especially for the partisanship that has marked its deliberations. But perhaps our pounding helped, because its unanimous final report seems on our first reading to be better than the process that produced it. Its narrative history is especially helpful, filling in much of the record of what the government knew, when it knew it, and what it didn't do about it.

        We refer readers specifically to the recitation of non-action that starts on page 11 of the executive summary. Beginning in 1997, the U.S. tried diplomacy to get the Taliban to drop al Qaeda and Pakistan to drop the Taliban, but the efforts failed. We now know that only an ultimatum turned Pakistan, and only military force toppled Mullah Omar.

        The report discloses that the CIA failed to infiltrate the terrorist Islamic network with even a single spy. The FBI failed to share crucial information about terrorist suspects. In other words, our security bureaucracies became hidebound and self-protective over the years, and their cultures need a thorough shaking up.

        The report is especially damning in its revelations about the law enforcement mindset toward terrorism that prevailed before 9/11. Top CIA analysts--many of whom are now critical of the Bush Administration--thought it was a manageable problem. FBI investigations were "geared toward prosecution," the report notes, and hampered by "perceived legal barriers to sharing information." Part of this was due to the infamous "wall of separation" between intelligence and law enforcement that was reinforced in 1995 by Clinton Deputy Attorney General (and 9/11 Commissioner) Jamie Gorelick. The Patriot Act took down that wall, and the report amounts to a rousing endorsement of that much-maligned legislation.

        Notably, the Commission performs a service by defining the threat we now face in refreshing fashion. "The enemy is not just 'terrorism,' " it says. "It is the threat posed specifically by Islamic terrorism." Bush Administration officials say the same thing privately, but they have been reluctant to state this publicly lest they offend the broader body of peaceable Islam. But it is hard to defeat an enemy without defining who it is. And the fact that Islam has a problem with its radical factions is something that Muslims themselves have to face up to.

        This failure to speak candidly has ramifications at home, too, specifically in the Transportation Department's continued failure to endorse racial profiling in airport security checks. The policy reduces the government's credibility among ordinary Americans who understand that the policy defies common sense. Commissioner John Lehman noted at one hearing that any airline that set aside more than two Middle Eastern-looking passengers for secondary security clearing at any one time still faces large anti-discrimination fines.

        The report also sheds new light on the issue of "state sponsors" of terror, especially Iran and Iraq. The Iran information--including pass-through rights without border stamps for al Qaeda-- should give pause to those who think diplomacy alone will mollify the mullahs.

        As for Iraq, the final report retreats from its interim judgment that there was no "collaborative relationship." The Commission now says it found no "collaborative operational relationship" to attack the U.S., but it does record extensive and troubling contacts. This includes the news that Richard Clarke, the former NSC aide, himself believed that Iraq had ties to the chemical plant in Sudan that was linked to al Qaeda and bombed by Bill Clinton. The report quotes Mr. Clarke as speculating to a superior about an "Iraq-al Qida [sic] agreement" on the chemical plant. Our readers may recall that Mr. Clarke more recently said there was not a shred of evidence of such ties.

        As for the Commission's many proposals, they deserve to be examined, though count us skeptical on the idea of unifying all intelligence agencies under the control of a Cabinet-level intelligence czar. It might change bureaucratic incentives for the better, but it might also create a new and equally dangerous kind of groupthink. At the very least Congress should wait until the intelligence review commission led by former Senator Charles Robb and federal appeals court Judge Laurence Silberman reports next year.

        The details, however, should not obscure the Commission's larger message about the dangers of not acting against a looming threat. After a year of recriminations against a President who chose to act against another threat, in Iraq, the report may even do some good.

      ------Date: 2004-07-27 13:13:00 Subject: The best speech from Day One of the Democratic Convention was delivered by Haleema Salie, a Muslim-American of Sri Lankan descent. She lost her daughter who was 7 months pregnant and her son-in-law on American Airlines Flight 11.

        Those we lost that day were husbands and wives, children, neighbors and friends. We thought we would have them longer. We thought we had more time. As the families we stood in clothes of mourning and wiped our children‘s tears. The whole country grieved with us and we leaned on their support.

        In our grief, and its ground-shattering aftermath, we truly understood that as Americans everything had changed and we will not have the luxury of time and innocence again. Tonight, I come here to ask that you never forget our loved ones, to remember that they were people exactly like you and me each with their own story. Dignity asks that you give them a human face.

        And then I want to ask that you remember September 11th as the day we were one. It was the day we acted as if we were responsible for each other. Human life was valued above all else. It was and must remain the defining moment that reminds us what unites us is stronger than what divides us.

        For the sake of those innocent souls we lost and for the soul of our country, life moves forward as it must. We bring our memories but we turn our faces towards the future towards our children, towards the ongoing stream of life.

        Now, as we turn our faces toward a new day and a new world the strength of who we were on 9/11 should stay with us, a light in the darkness, to show us the way.

      User Comments:

      Mr. Cloudy ------A very nice reminder that there are deeper things in life than politics -- that's good news.

      ------Date: 2004-07-27 13:45:00 Subject: The list you've been waiting for...

      Democratic convention accredited blogs
      Reason

      ------Date: 2004-07-27 13:52:00 Subject: See you in Crawford?

      For details, click here or here .

      User Comments: jillsusan http://www.jillsusan.com ------no, don't think so, but if you go, take pix!

      Matthew ------Are you going? I'm contemplating going.

      ------Date: 2004-07-28 09:27:00 Subject: The best speech from Day Two of the Democratic Convention

      Candidate for U.S. Senate in Illinois, Barack Obama, delivered the keynote address at the Democratic National Convention in Boston Tuesday night. Here is a transcript of his remarks.

        Thank you so much. Thank you.

        Thank you, Dick Durbin. You make us all proud.

        On behalf of the great state of Illinois...

        ... crossroads of a nation, land of Lincoln, let me express my deep gratitude for the privilege of addressing this convention. Tonight is a particular honor for me because, let's face it, my presence on this stage is pretty unlikely.

        My father was a foreign student, born and raised in a small village in Kenya. He grew up herding goats, went to school in a tin-roof shack. His father, my grandfather, was a cook, a domestic servant to the British.

        But my grandfather had larger dreams for his son. Through hard work and perseverance my father got a scholarship to study in a magical place, America, that's shown as a beacon of freedom and opportunity to so many who had come before him. While studying here my father met my mother. She was born in a town on the other side of the world, in Kansas.

        Her father worked on oil rigs and farms through most of the Depression. The day after Pearl Harbor, my grandfather signed up for duty, joined Patton's army, marched across Europe.

        Back home my grandmother raised a baby and went to work on a bomber assembly line. After the war, they studied on the GI Bill, bought a house through FHA and later moved west, all the way to Hawaii, in search of opportunity.

        And they too had big dreams for their daughter, a common dream born of two continents.

        My parents shared not only an improbable love; they shared an abiding faith in the possibilities of this nation. They would give me an African name, Barack, or "blessed," believing that in a tolerant America, your name is no barrier to success.

        They imagined me going to the best schools in the land, even though they weren't rich, because in a generous America you don't have to be rich to achieve your potential.

        They're both passed away now. And yet I know that, on this night, they look down on me with great pride.

        And I stand here today grateful for the diversity of my heritage, aware that my parents' dreams live on in my two precious daughters.

        I stand here knowing that my story is part of the larger American story, that I owe a debt to all of those who came before me, and that in no other country on Earth is my story even possible.

        Tonight, we gather to affirm the greatness of our nation not because of the height of our skyscrapers, or the power of our military, or the size of our economy; our pride is based on a very simple premise, summed up in a declaration made over two hundred years ago: "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal...

        ... that they are endowed by their Creator with certain inalienable rights, that among these are life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness." That is the true genius of America, a faith...

        ... a faith in simple dreams, an insistence on small miracles; that we can tuck in our children at night and know that they are fed and clothed and safe from harm; that we can say what we think, write what we think, without hearing a sudden knock on the door; that we can have an idea and start our own business without paying a bribe; that we can participate in the political process without fear of retribution; and that our votes will be counted -- or at least, most of the time.

        This year, in this election, we are called to reaffirm our values and our commitments, to hold them against a hard reality and see how we are measuring up, to the legacy of our forbearers and the promise of future generations.

        And fellow Americans, Democrats, Republicans, independents, I say to you, tonight, we have more work to do...

        ... more work to do, for the workers I met in Galesburg, Illinois, who are losing their union jobs at the Maytag plant that's moving to Mexico, and now they're having to compete with their own children for jobs that pay 7 bucks an hour; more to do for the father I met who was losing his job and chocking back the tears wondering how he would pay $4,500 a months for the drugs his son needs without the health benefits that he counted on; more to do for the young woman in East St. Louis, and thousands more like her who have the grades, have the drive, have the will, but doesn't have the money to go to college.

        Now, don't get me wrong, the people I meet in small towns and big cities and diners and office parks, they don't expect government to solves all of their problems. They know they have to work hard to get a head. And they want to.

        Go into the collar counties around Chicago, and people will tell you: They don't want their tax money wasted by a welfare agency or by the Pentagon.

        Go into any inner-city neighborhood, and folks will tell you that government alone can't teach kids to learn.

        They know that parents have to teach, that children can't achieve unless we raise their expectations and turn off the television sets and eradicate the slander that says a black youth with a book is acting white. They know those things. People don't expect -- people don't expect government to solve all their problems. But they sense, deep in their bones, that with just a slight change in priorities, we can make sure that every child in America has a decent shot at life and that the doors of opportunity remain open to all. They know we can do better. And they want that choice.

        In this election, we offer that choice. Our party has chosen a man to lead us who embodies the best this country has to offer. And that man is John Kerry.

        John Kerry understands the ideals of community, faith and service because they've defined his life. From his heroic service to Vietnam to his years as prosecutor and lieutenant governor, through two decades in the United States Senate, he has devoted himself to this country. Again and again, we've seen him make tough choices when easier ones were available. His values and his record affirm what is best in us.

        John Kerry believes in an America where hard work is rewarded. So instead of offering tax breaks to companies shipping jobs overseas, he offers them to companies creating jobs here at home.

        John Kerry believes in an America where all Americans can afford the same health coverage our politicians in Washington have for themselves.

        John Kerry believes in energy independence, so we aren't held hostage to the profits of oil companies or the sabotage of foreign oil fields.

        John Kerry believes in the constitutional freedoms that have made our country the envy of the world, and he will never sacrifice our basic liberties nor use faith as a wedge to divide us.

        And John Kerry believes that in a dangerous world, war must be an option sometimes, but it should never be the first option.

        You know, a while back, I met a young man named Seamus (ph) in a VFW hall in East Moline, Illinois. He was a good-looking kid, 6'2", 6'3", clear eyed, with an easy smile. He told me he'd joined the Marines and was heading to Iraq the following week.

        And as I listened to him explain why he had enlisted -- the absolute faith he had in our country and its leaders, his devotion to duty and service -- I thought, this young man was all that any of us might ever hope for in a child. But then I asked myself: Are we serving Seamus (ph) as well as he's serving us?

        I thought of the 900 men and women, sons and daughters, husbands and wives, friends and neighbors who won't be returning to their own hometowns. I thought of the families I had met who were struggling to get by without a loved one's full income or whose loved ones had returned with a limb missing or nerves shattered, but still lacked long-term health benefits because they were Reservists.

        When we send our young men and women into harm's way, we have a solemn obligation not to fudge the numbers or shade the truth about why they are going, to care for their families while they're gone, to tend to the soldiers upon their return and to never, ever go to war without enough troops to win the war, secure the peace and earn the respect of the world.

        Now, let me be clear. Let me be clear. We have real enemies in the world. These enemies must be found. They must be pursued. And they must be defeated.

        John Kerry knows this. And just as Lieutenant Kerry did not hesitate to risk his life to protect the men who served with him in Vietnam, President Kerry will not hesitate one moment to use our military might to keep America safe and secure.

        John Kerry believes in America. And he knows that it's not enough for just some of us to prosper. For alongside our famous individualism, there's another ingredient in the American saga, a belief that we are all connected as one people.

        If there's a child on the south side of Chicago who can't read, that matters to me, even if it's not my child.

        If there's a senior citizen somewhere who can't pay for their prescription and having to choose between medicine and the rent, that makes my life poorer, even if it's not my grandparent.

        If there's an Arab-American family being rounded up without benefit of an attorney or due process, that threatens my civil liberties.

        It is that fundamental belief -- it is that fundamental belief -- I am my brother's keeper,

        I am my sisters' keeper -- that makes this country work. It's what allows us to pursue our individual dreams, yet still come together as a single American family: "E pluribus unum," out of many, one.

        Now even as we speak, there are those who are preparing to divide us, the spin masters and negative ad peddlers who embrace the politics of anything goes.

        Well, I say to them tonight, there's not a liberal America and a conservative America; there's the United States of America.

        There's not a black America and white America and Latino America and Asian America; there's the United States of America.

        The pundits, the pundits like to slice and dice our country into red states and blue States: red states for Republicans, blue States for Democrats. But I've got news for them, too. We worship an awesome God in the blue states, and we don't like federal agents poking around our libraries in the red states.

        We coach little league in the blue states and, yes, we've got some gay friends in the red states.

        There are patriots who opposed the war in Iraq, and there are patriots who supported the war in Iraq.

        We are one people, all of us pledging allegiance to the stars and stripes, all of us defending the United States of America.

        In the end, that's what this election is about. Do we participate in a politics of cynicism, or do we participate in a politics of hope?

        John Kerry calls on us to hope. John Edwards calls on us to hope. I'm not talking about blind optimism here, the almost willful ignorance that thinks unemployment will go away if we just don't think about it, or health care crisis will solve itself if we just ignore it.

        That's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about something more substantial. It's the hope of slaves sitting around a fire singing freedom songs; the hope of immigrants setting out for distant shores; the hope of a young naval lieutenant bravely patrolling the Mekong Delta; the hope of a millworker's son who dares to defy the odds; the hope of a skinny kid with a funny name who believes that America has a place for him, too.

        Hope in the face of difficulty, hope in the face of uncertainty, the audacity of hope: In the end, that is God's greatest gift to us, the bedrock of this nation, a belief in things not seen, a belief that there are better days ahead.

        I believe that we can give our middle class relief and provide working families with a road to opportunity.

        I believe we can provide jobs for the jobless, homes to the homeless, and reclaim young people in cities across America from violence and despair.

        I believe that we have a righteous wind at our backs, and that as we stand on the crossroads of history, we can make the right choices and meet the challenges that face us.

        America, tonight, if you feel the same energy that I do, if you feel the same urgency that I do, if you feel the same passion that I do, if you feel the same hopefulness that I do, if we do what we must do, then I have no doubt that all across the country, from Florida to Oregon, from Washington to Maine, the people will rise up in November, and John Kerry will be sworn in as president. And John Edwards will be sworn in as vice president. And this country will reclaim it's promise. And out of this long political darkness a brighter day will come.

        Thank you very much, everybody.

        God bless you.

        Thank you.

      User Comments:

      Luke ------Yeah, overall this was definitely the best speech I have heard so far. I still don't buy that Kerry is "the man" for this, but oh well.

      MaryAnn ------HIs sections on "if there's a child on the south side of Chicago..." and also "we coach little league in the blue states" were brilliant and make me proud to vote Democratic.

      ------Date: 2004-07-28 22:02:00 Subject: The Crawford Wives

      From Andrew Sullivan...

        A below-the-belt but relatively amusing NARAL ad

      ------Date: 2004-07-28 22:30:00 Subject: The best speech from Day 3 of the Democratic Convention

      Wow...this is a hard one. I'm not sure I really liked any of the speeches tonight, but I'm giving it to Edwards.

      Some of my favorite lines...

        And we will have one clear unmistakable message for al Qaida and the rest of these terrorists. You cannot run. You cannot hide. And we will destroy you.

        ***

        We will double our Special Forces, and invest in the new equipment and technologies so that our military remains the best equipped and best trained in the world. This will make our military stronger so we're able to defeat every enemy in this new world.

      The Pentagon will sleep well tonight.

      User Comments: Matthew ------Well what's wrong with increasing the special forces? What's wrong with a strong military?

      And Sharpton by far gave the best speech last night.

      Jill ------It seems as the messages and speeches have gotten closer to the actual candidates, I've enjoyed them less and less.

      We'll see if this holds true tonight with the Dem-a-god's arrival.

      Reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------I actually give Sharpton the best speech, although Edwards was good too. (I actually didn't watch as much as yesterday.)

      You guys' talk about the controlling of the message and the so-called "show of unity" has given me an idea for a blog that I'm hoping to write today.

      Luke ------"And we will have one clear unmistakable message for al Qaida and the rest of these terrorists. You cannot run. You cannot hide. And we will destroy you"

      I cracked up when he said that one! I kept waiting for him to say "now watch this drive".

      And also, when he started talking about the Special Forces and whatnot I thought I passed out and woke up listening to the Republican National Convention. Way to go!

      "ED-WARDS! ED-WARDS! U-S-A!! U-S-A!!" ------Date: 2004-07-29 09:35:00 Subject: When Punchline Trumps Honesty

      From Tuesday's WSJ, comes this editorial by NPRs Scott Simon...

        When Punchline Trumps Honesty

        There's more McCarthy than Murrow in the work of Michael Moore.

        BY SCOTT SIMON, Tuesday, July 27, 2004 12:01 a.m.

        Michael Moore has won the Palme d'Or at the Cannes Film Festival, and may win an Oscar for the kind of work that got Stephen Glass, Jayson Blair, and Jack Kelly fired.

        Trying to track the unproven innuendoes and conspiracies in a Michael Moore film or book is as futile as trying to count the flatulence jokes in one by Adam Sandler. Some journalists and critics have acted as if his wrenching of facts is no more serious than a movie continuity problem, like showing a 1963 Chevy in 1956 Santa Monica.

        A documentary film doesn't have to be fair and balanced, to coin a phrase. But it ought to make an attempt to be accurate. It can certainly be pointed and opinionated. But it should not knowingly misrepresent the truth. Much of Michael Moore's films and books, however entertaining to his fans and enraging to his critics, seems to regard facts as mere nuisances to the story he wants to tell.

        Back in 1991 that sharpest of film critics, the New Yorker's Pauline Kael, blunted some of the raves for Mr. Moore's "Roger and Me" by pointing out how the film misrepresented many facts about plant closings in Flint, Mich., and caricatured people it purported to feel for. "The film I saw was shallow and facetious," said Kael, "a piece of gonzo demagoguery that made me feel cheap for laughing."

        His methods remain unrefined in "Fahrenheit 9/11." Mr. Moore ignores or misrepresents the truth, prefers innuendo to fact, edits with poetic license rather than accuracy, and strips existing news footage of its context to make events and real people say what he wants, even if they don't. As Kael observed back then, Mr. Moore's method is no more high-minded than "the work of a slick ad exec."

        The main premise of Mr. Moore's recent work is that both Presidents Bush have been what amounts to Manchurian Candidates of the Saudi royal family. Mr. Moore suggests (he depends so much on innuendo that a simple, declarative verb like "says" is usually impossible) the Saudi government, having soured on their pawns for unstated reasons, launched the attacks of Sept. 11.

        "What if these weren't wacko terrorists, but military pilots who signed onto a suicide mission?" Moore asks in the best-selling "Dude, Where's My Country?" "What if they were doing this at the behest of either the Saudi government or certain disgruntled members of the Saudi royal family?" Central to Mr. Moore's indictment of the current President Bush is his charge that the U.S. government secretly assisted the evacuation of bin Laden family members from the U.S. in the hours following the Sept. 11 attacks, when all other flights nationwide were grounded. He supports this with grainy images of indecipherable documents.

        But on our show on Saturday, Richard Clarke, the government's former counter-terrorism adviser and no apologist for the Bush administration, told us that he had authorized those flights, but only after air travel had been restored and all the Saudis had been questioned. "I think Moore's making a mountain of a molehill," he said. Moreover, said Mr. Clarke, "He never interviewed me." Instead, Mr. Moore had simply lifted a clip from an ABC interview. Perhaps Mr. Moore just didn't want to get an answer that he didn't want to hear. (See how useful innuendoes can be?)

        In what is perhaps the most wrenching scene in the film, an Iraqi woman is shown wailing amid the rubble caused by a bomb that killed members of her family. I do not doubt her account, or her sorrow. I have interviewed Iraqis about U.S. bombs that killed civilians. People who agree to wars should see the human damage bombs can do.

        But reporters who were taken around to see the sites of civilian deaths during the bombing of Baghdad also observed that some of those errant bombs were fired by Iraqi anti-aircraft crews. Mr. Moore doesn't let the audience know when and where this bomb was dropped, or otherwise try to identify the culprit of the tragedy.

        Mr. Moore tries hard to identify himself with U.S. troops and their concerns. But he spends an awful lot of effort depicting them as dupes and brutes. At one point in "Fahrenheit 9/11," someone off-camera prods a U.S. soldier into singing a favorite hip-hop song with profane lyrics. Mr. Moore then runs the soldier's voice over combat footage, to make it seem as if the soldier were insensitively singing along with the destruction.

        In another scene, U.S. soldiers make savage jokes about the awkward effects of rigor mortis on one part of the corpse of an Iraqi soldier. I do not doubt the authenticity of those pictures. But I also have no particular reason to trust it. A few basic details, like where and when the video was shot, are considered traditional reporting techniques (especially after the front-page photos of British soldiers brutalizing Iraqi prisoners turned out to be frauds). A few other basic facts might have informed the audience. Was the Iraqi killed in battle? By a suicide bomb? Moore says the U.S. soldiers are good boys turned coarse in an immoral war. But I have also heard those kind of ugly and anxious jokes about corpses from overstressed emergency room physicians. In the New York Times, Paul Krugman wrote that, "Viewers may come away from Moore's movie believing some things that probably aren't true," and that he "uses association and innuendo to create false impressions." Try to imagine those phrases on a marquee. But that is his rave review! He lauds "Fahrenheit 9/11" for its "appeal to working-class Americans." Do we really want to believe that only innuendo, untruths, and conspiracy theories can reach working-class Americans?

        Governments of both parties have assuaged Saudi interests for more than 50 years. (I wonder if Mr. Moore grasps how much the jobs of auto workers in Flint depended on cheap oil.) Sound questions about the course, costs, and grounds for the war in Iraq have been raised by voices across the political spectrum.

        But when 9/11 Commission Chairman Kean has to take a minute at a press conference, as he did last Thursday, to knock down a proven falsehood like the secret flights of the bin Laden family, you wonder if those who urge people to see Moore's film are informing or contaminating the debate. I see more McCarthy than Murrow in the work of Michael Moore. No matter how hot a blowtorch burns, it doesn't shed much light.

        Mr. Simon hosts NPR's "Weekend Edition Saturday" and is the author of theforthcoming "Pretty Birds," a novel about the siege of Sarajevo, from Random House.

      User Comments:

      Luke ------What a silly article.

      Keith http://www.journalscape.com/keithsnyder ------> Do we really want to believe that only innuendo, untruths,

      >and conspiracy theories can reach working-class Americans?

      No. I want to believe working-class Americans can be reached by a government that tells the truth.

      Problem is, there's not one around. Which leaves a huge opening for others to step in and try to make sense of it all--or (in Moore's case) to put forth an explanation with an emotional coherence to it, if not an intellectual coherence. My problem with articles like this one isn't that they're wrong--it's that the best they can do is "Nuh-uh!!"

      Fine, so it's nuh-uh. I'm willing to accept that. So please, somebody... rather than poking holes in other people's stories, give me an alternative story that makes sense.

      ------Date: 2004-07-30 09:45:00 Subject: The best speech from Day Four of the Democratic Convention

      I'm giving this one to Alexandra Kerry...

        It's great to be here tonight. It hasn't been easy to sift through years of memories about my father and find those few that might best tell you who John Kerry really is. Let me just begin with one July day when Vanessa and I were kids. It's a silly story, but it's true, and it's one of my favorite memories of my father.

        We were standing on a dock waiting for a boat to take us on a summer trip. Vanessa, the scientist, had packed all her animals including her favorite hamster. Our over-zealous golden retriever got tangled in his leash and knocked the hamster cage off the dock. We watched as Licorice, the unlucky hamster bubbled down to a watery doom. That might have been the end of the story. But my dad jumped in, grabbed an oar, fished the cage from the water, hunched over the soggy hamster and began to administer CPR. There were some reports of mouth-to-mouth, but, I admit that's probably a trick of memory. He was never quite right after that, but Licorice lived. Like I said, it may sound silly. We still laugh about it today. But, to us it was serious and that's what mattered to my father.

        Years later, when I was driving back to college with him, brooding as only a nineteen-year-old can, my father told me to look outside. He said, "Ali, this is a beautiful day. Feel the sun. Look at the country you live in." The passion of his words makes me remember them, still, ten years later. He said: "I know men your exact age, who thought they had the same future you have. Whose families were never born, who never again walked on American soil. They don't feel this sun. Ali," he said. "If there's something you don't like, something that needs to be changed, change it. But never, ever give up. Remember that you are alive. And that you are an American. Those two things make you the luckiest girl in the world."

        Even now, I look back at that and think about what my dad's been through in his life. Because he's quiet about those things, my sister and I had to sneak upstairs, when we were kids, to read his letters from Vietnam. Who knew a 23 year-old could have seen so much, so young? To every little girl her father is a hero. It's taken some getting used to, that my father actually is one. And not just in the obvious ways. Because he likes to listen as much as he likes to talk; because he's studious in the way someone is when everything in the whole world interests them; because he leads by example; because he trusts people with the truth and doesn't pander or play to our baser instincts.

        And let me tell you this, when he loves you-as he loves me and my sister and his family, as he loves the men who fought beside him-there is no sacrifice too great. When he cares for you, as he cares for this country, there are no surer hands, and no wiser heart.

        And so when he teaches you, by the life he has led, as he has taught me and my sister all of our lives, there is no better lesson: That the future of this country is not only his life's work. It's mine and yours. It is all of our life's work, all of us.

        And if we want our children to breathe clean air and drink clean water, if we want them to control their own bodies, if we want them to protect the liberties and opportunities that are our birthrights, we must be involved in the struggle. Because on that day, my father was right, we are the luckiest people in the world. We walk on this soil. We feel this sun. And we are Americans. And now, we'd like to present, our dad, John Kerry!

      ------Date: 2004-07-30 13:18:00 Subject: They should have picked Dean

      From the San Francisco Chronicle comes this ...

        They should have picked Dean

        - Debra J. Saunders, Friday, July 30, 2004

        Boston -- AT THE DEMOCRATIC National Convention, the gulf between rhetoric and reality is breathtaking.

        John Kerry and his surrogates have spent the week telling America that if Kerry and John Edwards are elected, America will not go to war, as the script reads, "because we want to, we only go to war because we have to."

        But Sens. Kerry and Edwards did not have to vote in favor of the resolution authorizing the use of force in Iraq. Yet they did. Now they say they were misled -- which suggests that they now think America didn't have to go to war. Why should Americans listen to them now?

        Bottom line: The Democratic Party did not have to nominate a candidate who supported the war, but Democratic voters for some reason chose to do so.

        Item: According to a New York Times/CBS News poll, three-quarters of Democratic voters opposed the war.

        Item: The same poll found that 86 percent of convention delegates opposed the war.

        Item: 100 percent of the Democratic ticket voted with GOP President Bush on Iraq.

        Nonetheless, this convention is packed with politicians who are boasting about the tremendous party unity they see everywhere. House Democratic leader Nancy Pelosi of San Francisco said that the party is more united than she has seen it in 40 years. Three in 4 Democrats disagree with the nominee on the biggest issue out there -- and that's unity?

        "It's not just a toning down of rhetoric, but a turning inside-out of reality," said Massachusetts GOP politico Todd Domke.

        No lie. Here's an example, a line from the Democratic Party platform chapter entitled "A Strong, Respected America," which faults members of the Bush administration because "They do not understand that real leadership means standing by your principles and rallying others to join you."

        Au contraire, Bush understands leadership. He stood by his principles, he rallied Kerry and Edwards to join him, and he thereby brought the opposing party to his war.

        Kerry and Edwards followed.

        Bush led. Veteran Kerry observer Domke told me months ago the Democrats should have picked Dean.

        I now see how right Domke was.

        I see it as I watch a group of well-meaning delegates gush about how excited they are, how united they are, because they chose a man with whom nearly 9 out of 10 of them disagree on the most fundamental issue -- the war.

        It must hurt. The delegates can't argue their most deeply held belief -- that the war was wrong -- because they nominated a man who voted to authorize it.

        Think: America is in the middle of a war, and speakers at the Democratic National Convention can't really address this war in an honest manner. Many can't say what they really believe.

        They have to pretend they will go along with positions they detest.

        For a campaign to succeed, Domke noted, its energy has to come from both the message and the candidate. "It turns out that with Howard Dean, (the Democrats) would have had not just a messenger they could believe, but a message that they obviously do believe in."

        It's true that Thursday night showed America a man with a compelling story, a worthy biography and an admirable war record, but his story can't change the minds of those who disagree with his policies.

        If the Democrats wanted an anti-war nominee, they should have picked one.

        Instead, they chose a man who is committed to seeing the war in Iraq through.

        They threw out their principles when they picked John Kerry. They wanted to win so badly that they have been willing to stake their party's future on a man whom they must attack in a matter of months, if he stays true to his words of today.

        And how united will their party be then? It's tragic -- I say, even though I support Bush -- to see committed people turn their back on their most cherished principles because they thought it was the clever way to beat Bush.

      I couldn't agree with this more!

      User Comments:

      Dickie_Cronkite http://www.journalscape.com/Dickie_Cronkite/ ------Reverendmother really covered my reactions to that column perfectly (phew, thanks!) I would only add that to pidgeon hole Kerry by his "Yes" authorization vote doesn't take into consideration the complexities behind that decision. But am I totally comfortable with his "Yes" vote? No. Am I more in tune with some of our brethren Deniacs? Sure. Would Dean have won, if nominated, even if he and the Kucinich's represent the party's conscience (like Byrd in the Senate)? No way. Does this mean the party's "selling out"? I strongly say Hell no. Look at the nature of our political and electoral system - it's not Parliamentary and thus you HAVE to move to the center if you're a realist, and want to bring about actual change in the U.S. Sucks I know, but that's the way it is here. I wrote about this in a 'Nader' post a few days ago...

      Reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------I couldn't agree with this more!

      Oh, you support George Bush too? ;-)

      This convention is packed with politicians who are boasting about the tremendous party unity they see everywhere... Three in 4 Democrats disagree with the nominee on the biggest issue out there -- and that's unity?

      First of all, for better or worse, the war in Iraq is not the biggest issue for the Dems. The biggest issue is their belief that Bush is taking the country in the wrong direction. The war in Iraq is just one major example. The sketchy nature of the run-up to war is at issue for most Democrats, as I understand it, more than the war itself. That is, I find it hard to believe that 3 out of 4 Democrats are pure and true pacifists; my guess is most of them are just-war theorists. Which is to say that force is justified in very specific cases. What we (were told and thought we) knew then indicated WMDs, ties to Al Qaeda, an imminent threat, Bush was at least feigning interest in what the UN was thinking, etc. etc. etc. Hindsight is 20/20 of course; 3/4 of Democrats did not oppose the war 18 months ago.

      Anyway... yeah. It is unity. What it's *not* is uniformity, which people seem to get confused time and again. One can feel unity with a group without being in lockstep on all their beliefs. But, it is easy and satisfying to label that as selling out.

      I daresay that members of the beloved Green party in other countries routinely "unite" with members of other parties in order to form coalitions--these other parties may be considerably less progressive than the Greens are. Is that selling out? Or is that being collaborative? I suppose I know your answer!

      "A Strong, Respected America,"... faults members of the Bush administration because "They do not understand that real leadership means standing by your principles and rallying others to join you."

      Um, I think that's exactly what Kerry and Edwards are doing...!? Would it be better if they told the party faithful what they wanted to hear? Instead they are saying, here is where I stand and why it's good for America. Come along with me. And people are. Of course there are disagreements. And they'd better hold his feet to the fire when he's elected. We all should.

      It must hurt. The delegates can't argue their most deeply held belief -- that the war was wrong -- because they nominated a man who voted to authorize it.

      First of all, I would wonder about her motives as a Bush supporter in claiming "the war is wrong" as the predominant rallying cry of the Democrats. Again, the predominent rallying cry of the Dems is, "Bush has been a horrible president, the country's a mess, the man needs to go and we've got the man and the plan to make it happen." Also, "the war was wrong" is such a simplistic way of putting it. Does she mean the act of going to war at all?

      Does she mean going before the inspectors had finished their work?

      Does she mean going without the UN?

      Again, I seem to remember people supporting the war in Iraq in record numbers, based on what we were told at the time. (I personally didn't.)

      I find the article rather patronizing in tone. Poor Democrats, selling out their ideals just to win an election... it's a very simple and simplistic view of things. Life is rarely so.

      Matthew ------Didn't you support the war though?

      ------Date: 2004-07-30 21:49:00 Subject: Again, I couldn't agree more...

      From the Boston Globe comes this...

        Rushed speech, lost opportunity

        By Thomas Oliphant, Globe Staff | July 30, 2004

        FOR REASONS he might like to explain, John Kerry last night raced through an acceptance speech that was way too long for a time slot he knew about for weeks.

        Desperate to stay within the broadcast networks' paltry 60 minutes, Kerry stepped on his best thoughts and lines and blurred important proposals and distinctions, committing the sin of interfering with his own ability to communicate with an electorate eager to learn much more about President Bush's opponent. At a Democratic convention planned to showcase a candidate and his basic approach to two huge situations -- a bogged-down military adventure in Iraq and a fragile economy -- Kerry obscured his presentation in a blizzard of hard-to-follow verbiage dictated by the clock.

        Perhaps the public will let him off the hook, but the fact remains that Kerry essentially blew an opportunity he may not get again until the debates with Bush this fall. He and his advisers can and will argue that the cold facts of economic and foreign policy life will dominate political opinion in the weeks ahead; nevertheless, a golden opportunity slipped away.

        It almost never happens, but Kerry appears to rank at the bottom of a short list of the most significant Democratic orators that was headed by (take your pick) running mate John Edwards and Illinois Senate candidate (and keynoter) Barack Obama and included the Rev. Al Sharpton and Senator Edward Kennedy.

        Yesterday morning there were reports from Democratic and Kerry campaign officials that the speech remained roughly 20 minutes too long despite a process of thinking, writing, and editing that had been going on in earnest at least since his selection of Edwards on July 6.

        At first it appeared that the process was achingly slow and dominated by a candidate determined to sketch out the basic outline and content of his speech alone with a yellow pad. With assistance, a body of text approaching 10,000 words was collected and then expanded upon by a campaign determined to add more material to show how "tough" Kerry intends to be in fighting terrorism.

        Kerry was not delivering a practice State of the Union Message last night. He was giving a thematic overview. The purpose was not to make new proposals but to present himself as a public servant, an advocate of effective and honest conduct of a new kind of war, and a proponent of a more robust economy that will raise ordinary Americans' living standards.

        In parts it was beautifully written (trees as "the cathedrals of nature"). In parts it was horrid -- the snappy salute at the outset and the distinctly nonpresidential announcement that "I'm John Kerry, and I'm reporting for duty."

        Because Kerry was racing, the audience in the convention hall responded with its loudest noise to points about civil right and civil liberties dear to liberals' hearts but not central to Kerry's election strategy -- there will be a new attorney general, no assaults on the Constitution, and no partisan use of the American flag.

        That's reassuring, but Kerry muffed an opportunity to hone great material into a powerful address. He and his campaign can do better than this, and his supporters have a right to demand that they do.

        Thomas Oliphant's e-mail address is [email protected].

      ------Date: 2004-07-30 22:21:00 Subject: The Corporation

      This film lives up to all its hype!

      User Comments:

      Moody'sTabernackle http://www.journalscape.com/Moody'sTabernackle/ ------Noam Chomsky rules!

      ------Date: 2004-08-02 23:02:00 Subject: Some Kind of Monster

      Saw it yesterday and it was a great flick for the Metallica fan in me!

      User Comments:

      Jill ------I guess I'd not want to recommend it, as I'm a fan and I loved it, but it's hard to be objective about it.

      Let's just put it this way...it wouldn't hurt! ;-)

      Matthew ------Was it good for non-Metallica fans?

      ------Date: 2004-08-03 09:31:00 Subject: Break not the circle

      We sang this hymn in church a couple of Sundays ago and the words spoke to me....

        Break not the circle of enabling love, where people grow, forgiven and forgiving; break not that circle, make it wider still, till it includes, embraces all the living.

        Come, wonder at the love that comes to life, where words of humour are with freedom spoken; and people keep no score of wrong and guilt, but will that human bonds remain unbroken.

        Join then the movement of the love that frees, till people of whatever race or nation will truly be themselves, stand on their feet, see eye to eye with laughter and elation.

      ------Date: 2004-08-06 09:45:00 Subject: When 3 letter words can be as dangerous as 4 letter ones

      NEW ORLEANS - It wasn't a four-letter word, but it was close enough to cause a stir at the National Scrabble Championship Thursday.

      In the final round, eventual champion Trey Wright played the word "lez," which was on a list of offensive words not allowed during the tournament.

      Normally, no word is off-limits, but because the games were being taped for broadcast on ESPN, certain terms had been deemed inappropriate, including the three-letter slang for lesbian.

      "There are words you just can't show on television," Scrabble Association Executive Director John Williams said.

      Wright, a 30-year-old concert pianist from Los Angeles, played the word and then drew two replacement tiles so quickly that the referee didn't notice at first. When he did, he said the slang term had to go.

      ESPN officials told Williams the word could stay, but the issue was that Wright had already selected new tiles. "He violated the rules. But there were also people who were upset that the word was played," Williams said.

      Eric Chaiken, a tournament participant and director of "Word Wars," a documentary about the Scrabble championship, said the definition of "offensive" was open to interpretation.

      "The ultimate absurdity is that you can't play the word 'redskins' on ESPN," he said.

      Williams spoke with Wright and his opponent, David Gibson, then called an emergency meeting of the Scrabble Advisory Board. The board unanimously agreed to remove the word. Wright then returned the two tiles he had selected and played a different word, Williams said.

      "We kind of took two steps back," he said.

      Wright, using more innocent words like feijoa (an evergreen shrub) and zebu (a domesticated ox), won the best-of-five final round in three games and pocketed a $25,000 prize.

      "Meaning has no consideration when I play," Wright said.

      User Comments:

      Jill ------Ah-so! Yeah, it is absurd.

      Luke ------""The ultimate absurdity is that you can't play the word 'redskins' on ESPN," he said."

      That should be clear enough.

      Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Luke-can you clarify?

      Luke ------What a silly article.

      ------Date: 2004-08-09 09:16:00 Subject: Cause and effect

      "We cannot live only for ourselves. A thousand fibers connect us with our fellow men; and among those fibers, as sympathetic threads, our actions run as causes, and they come back to us as effects."

      -Herman Melville

      ------Date: 2004-08-09 10:23:00 Subject: The last laugh on "free trade"

      Did anyone but me have to chuckle at this 60 Minutes story last night? (I think this was a repeat of a broadcast earlier in the year, but I missed it the first time around.)

        Name an American brand. Any brand, and any kind of product.

        Clothing, computer chips, car parts. Just name it and we’ll tell you something about it. It’s probably being counterfeited in China as we speak.

        For years, China has been the workshop of the world. And for years, American and other western firms have set up shop in China to tap into the enormous, cheap labor force.

        The question is: Once the Chinese know how to make an American product, what’s to stop them from copying it?

        The answer?

        Nothing at all.

        And what's to prevent the Chinese from shipping these counterfeits back to the United States? Not much.

      With all these American companies outsourcing to other countries, I just had to chuckle that maybe some of this is coming back to bite them!

      Of course, it does have its downside as the story ends by reporting that dozens of children from one eastern Chinese city died after being fed counterfeit baby formula and I hope they can stop that. But the Guccis and the Calloways and the Nikes...hey, it's just too bad...you reap what you sow, no pun intended.

      ------Date: 2004-08-11 19:42:00 Subject: ClubCorp No More

      Yes, it's true. Yesterday I was laid off at ClubCorp. They gave me one of their fondest farewells! Oh, how sweet it is....

      I'll miss the people, at least some of them, and the wonderfully great 5 minute commute, and my co-worker (he's the only one left out of 5 of us), but beyond that, good riddance.

      User Comments:

      Mr. Cloudy ------ClubCorp is certainly worse off for this decision. No matter how you slice it, it sucks.

      I hope that something promising falls your way soon.

      Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------Although it sucks that you have to look for a new job, it sounds like the last few months have been stressful.

      I'll call you tomorrow when it's not so late to talk more in depth.

      ------Date: 2004-08-12 14:50:00 Subject: Margical History Tour

      Nothing like an episode of The Simpsons to bring you out of a funk, at least temporarily, anyway.

      Laughter really, truly *is* good medicine.

      This episode was a good one for me today! And it's a little history lesson at that!!

      ------Date: 2004-08-12 14:53:00 Subject: 2.5 billion According to Time Magazine,

      2.5 billion Gallons of water it would take a day to support 4.7 billion people at the UN daily minimum.

      2.5 billion Gallons of water used a day to irrigate the world's golf courses.

      ------Date: 2004-08-16 00:08:00 Subject: Good things about today

      1. Walks with Caroline

      2. Robert's brisket

      3. Talks with MaryAnn

      4. Conversations with Sherry

      5. High speed internet access

      6. The Sunday Washington Post

      7. Diversity in this Springfield VA neighborhood

      8. My friend Donna, listening to my end of the conversation, and then saying exactly what I would have said

      9. My dream about my best friend

      10. Purple yarn knitted into a sweater

      ------Date: 2004-08-19 09:15:00 Subject: Day 9 of unemployment (but who is counting)

      It was a mere one week and two days ago that I got laid off. So how am I feeling?

      Great-the stress is gone from trying to please people that can't be pleased

      Afraid-that I won't be able to find a job that I like or that likes me

      Relaxed-no time clocks to punch, no traffic to wade through every morning or evening Centered-one week (almost) with my granddaughter can do that for me

      Less hypocritical-no more working for a company that caters to rich, spoiled golfers, with all the environmental impact those golf courses make

      Free-that I can go and do a week in DC and no one is waiting on the other side for me to do their dirty work

      Wondering-how I will pay for my life choices if I don't find a job before the severence runs out

      Angry-that my boss has posted the "new" position (that replaced me) that I'm totally qualified for

      Working through the feelings-because I know I have to

      ------Date: 2004-08-20 18:49:00 Subject: Home again, home again, giggedie, gig

      But not for long...

      I've spent almost a whole week in northern Virginia with my youngest granddaughter and I had so much fun!

      OK, if you don't want to hear me bragging, you can stop reading now!

      "She-who-is" is wonderful!

      She can:

      • Answer "Si" and nod her head affirmatively to a question you ask of her

      • Recognize the letter "O" during bathtime

      • Sing "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" all the way through, over and over again, during a walk in her stroller

      • Growl like Baby Bear on
      • Give the best hug to her MaDear every time it's requested

      • Make me laugh when lately I've not felt like laughing much

      • Melt my heart, which she did on a daily/hourly basis.

        I'm so grateful I had the opportunity to make this trip.

        User Comments:

        MaryAnn ------We have these foam letters that stick to the side of the bathtub. Apparently she knows "O" but I think it's a coincidence--unless she's reading Oprah's magazine or something!

        We couldn't have made it through this busy time without Mom. She even did some projects that have been on hold for a long time. What a gift.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------What is the significance of the letter "O" during bathtime? Just curious.

        ------Date: 2004-08-22 00:35:00 Subject: My Day

        Alarm

        Awake

        Airplane

        Austin

        Airplane

        Ambulate

        Amuse

        Asleep

        User Comments:

        MaryAnn ------Up and back the same day? I guess that's why I didn't get you on the phone last night.

        Matthew ------That's quite "a" day.

        Brian ------Awesome

        ------Date: 2004-08-25 18:46:00 Subject: Can I just say....

        ...campaign finance reform was a joke!

        User Comments: matthew ------it's taken the negative ads away from the party's and into the hands of "evil doers" and "shadowy groups."

        ------Date: 2004-08-26 22:10:00 Subject: Unemployed no more

        Consulting Partners came through for me...

        After 3 interviews and 16 days of leisure, I landed a position at Lennox in Richardson. They wanted me to start on Monday at 8:30 AM but looks like I'll go in tomorrow at 11:00 as they are anxious to put me to work.

        If I didn't know better, I'd think that there was an angel looking out for me, but then, I have some really good friends who are looking for jobs and have been for quite some time, so I'm thinking, it must be just pure dumb luck.

        User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------PS - We close on our house tomorrow.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Tell us more, tell us more! What will you do? Is this permanent or short term?

        ------Date: 2004-08-28 00:18:00 Subject: Hole in the Wall Blues and buds...it's good!

        ------Date: 2004-08-29 02:25:00 Subject: C-Span rules!

        I'm mesmerized...

        I just watched an hour and 1/2 of a debate about Gay & Lesbian issues on C-Span that was WONDERFUL!

        OK, I wanted to go to bed early tonight, but this kept me up...catch it if you can!

        User Comments:

        Matthewmckibben ------C-Span DOES rule if for nothing else than the fact that they just show the convention unedited. No pundits, no Bob Dole, no Bill O'Reilly. Just straight up coverage.

        ------Date: 2004-09-02 20:55:00 Subject: September Song

        I'm always so glad when I turn the calendar page from August to September. Although I don't want to spend my life wishing away some of my days, and I can even enjoy some of the lazy, hazy, crazy days of summer, September's cooler weather and the promises of fall not far ahead always invigorate me.

        Life is good!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Amen to that! :-)

        ------Date: 2004-09-06 15:21:00 Subject: Happy Labor Day

        Heard in church yesterday...

        It was god that gave us Sundays, but it was Labor Unions that gave us weekends.

        ------Date: 2004-09-10 22:20:00 Subject: Reality 1000...what does that mean? Really...

        That's the number of dead soldiers in Iraq.

        I feel sad about it and wonder "how many deaths will it take till he knows that too many people have died?"

        When I was waiting in line Monday morning early for my trip to Atlanta, I saw a shaven headed 20-something guy kissing his girlfriend/wife goodbye (as she cried) and watched his family members shake hands with him, hug him, wave good-bye to him, as he goes through security and TSA searches his bags and he heads to his gate, for ports unknown to me but probably in harms way. god go with him.

        ------Date: 2004-09-14 23:06:00 Subject: When you're sick and out of town

        So I'm sick (cold and fever) and in Atlanta and working contract work and wondering if life will ever slow up and thankful that I have a job and enjoying the peace and quiet of a hotel room and looking forward to getting back to Dallas but secretly hoping the hurricane will keep me here in Atlanta so I can just hibernate and hole up in the hotel room here.

        Whatever happens, I'll deal.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------two more words:

        Get.Well.

        Reverendmother blogs.salon.com/0004134 ------Two words:

        Room.Service.

        ------Date: 2004-09-15 21:42:00 Subject: Ivan, you're the man

        So I've succumbed. I'm staying in Atlanta this weekend because I really, really don't want to fly through a hurricane and I think it's just pointless to go home to Dallas for just a few hours so here I'll sit. Things could be worse...

        User Comments:

        Jill ------some of my most favorite letters from you (Matthew) during that time were ones that described just what you just commented on...

        Matthew ------When I was in the Marines, we'd fly from Okinawa to different parts of the mainland. Numerous times, while we were at our destination, a typhoon would either roll through Okinawa or the place where we were staying, thusly preventing us from leaving on a jet plane back home.

        So we'd just hole ourselves up in our rooms, buy all the junk food we could, and just have the time of our lives.

        ------Date: 2004-09-16 21:02:00 Subject: Why I love Teresa

        "Clothing is wonderful, but let them go naked for a while, at least the kids," said Heinz Kerry, the wife of Democratic presidential candidate John Kerry (news - web sites). "Water is necessary, and then generators, and then food, and then clothes."

        User Comments:

        Jill ------Ouch, Mike....good point!

        Mike Losack ------I am assuming she is talking about aid to hurricane victims? I'm sure the pedophiles will agree with her 100%.

        Matthew ------People felt the same way about Hillary as well. And sadly, many of these people are the same ones who used to criticize Chelsea. For what? She was a teenager under the media spotlight, and everyone's criticizing the way she looks??? What's up with that?

        Reverendmother blogs.salon.com/0004134 ------I was in a coffee shop recently and overheard two people talking about her. The woman said something about "Teresa--that is, tuh-RAY-suh, or whatever she wants to be called." Um, she "wants to be called" tuh-RAY-suh because THAT'S HER NAME.

        There seem to be people out there who are just genetically predisposed not to like her. Criticize what she says, does or believes if you want, but that comment really bugged because it's based on--what? Nothing of substance.

        ------Date: 2004-09-22 10:11:00 Subject: Fall in Atlanta

        This is my fourth week in Atlanta. The doc project lead is leaving for another contract job in Amsterdam (cool!) and it looks like I'll be the new lead for the rest of the project. They've added another doc specialist to work with me, so it won't fall completely on my shoulders, which is good. I should be getting quite a few more good weeks of hours in.

        In the meantime, it's not completely all work and no play for me, but almost.

        I actually walked in a neighborhood near my hotel after work last night and it felt so good to get moving and breathe in the cool, crisp air of the first day of fall!

        Mad season, my season!

        User Comments:

        MaryAnn ------I do miss Atlanta weather. Four mild seasons...

        Conrats on the 'promotion'!

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------The project lead, huh? Too bad you were so unqualifed for that Club Corp work..... NOT! ------Date: 2004-09-22 21:17:00 Subject: From ROADwomen

        If America were Iraq, what would it be like? by Juan Cole, Professor of History, University of Michigan

        President Bush said Tuesday that the Iraqis are refuting the pessimists and implied that things are improving in that country.

        What would America look like if it were in Iraq's current situation? The population of the US is over 11 times that of Iraq, so statistics would have to be multiplied by that number.

        Thus, violence killed 300 Iraqis last week, the equivalent proportionately of 3,300 Americans. What if 3,300 Americans had died in car bombings, grenade and rocket attacks, machine gun spray, and aerial bombardment in the last week? That is a number greater than the deaths on September 11, and if America were Iraq, it would be an ongoing, weekly or monthly toll.

        And what if those deaths occurred all over the country, including in the capital of Washington, DC, but mainly above the Mason Dixon line, in Boston, Minneapolis, Salt Lake City, and San Francisco?

        What if the grounds of the White House and the government buildings near the Mall were constantly taking mortar fire? What if almost nobody in the State Department at Foggy Bottom, the White House, or the Pentagon dared venture out of their buildings, and considered it dangerous to go over to Crystal City or Alexandria?

        What if all the reporters for all the major television and print media were trapped in five-star hotels in Washington, DC and New York, unable to move more than a few blocks safely, and dependent on stringers to know what was happening in Oklahoma City and St. Louis? What if the only time they ventured into the Midwest was if they could be embedded in Army or National Guard units?

        There are estimated to be some 25,000 guerrillas in Iraq engaged in concerted acts of violence. What if there were private armies totalling 275,000 men, armed with machine guns, assault rifles (legal again!), rocket-propelled grenades, and mortar launchers, hiding out in dangerous urban areas of cities all over the country? What if they completely controlled Seattle, Portland, San Francisco, Salt Lake City, Las Vegas, Denver and Omaha, such that local police and Federal troops could not go into those cities?

        What if, during the past year, the Secretary of State (Aqilah Hashemi), the President (Izzedine Salim), and the Attorney General (Muhammad Baqir al-Hakim) had all been assassinated?

        What if all the cities in the US were wracked by a crime wave, with thousands of murders, kidnappings, burglaries, and carjackings in every major city every year?

        What if the Air Force routinely (I mean daily or weekly) bombed Billings, Montana, Flint, Michigan, Watts in Los Angeles, Philadelphia, Anacostia in Washington, DC, and other urban areas, attempting to target "safe houses" of "criminal gangs", but inevitably killing a lot of children and little old ladies?

        What if, from time to time, the US Army besieged Virginia Beach, killing hundreds of armed members of the Christian Soldiers? What if entire platoons of the Christian Soldiers militia holed up in Arlington National Cemetery, and were bombarded by US Air Force warplanes daily, destroying thousands of graves and even pulverizing the Vietnam Memorial over on the Mall? What if the National Council of Churches had to call for a popular march of thousands of believers to converge on the National Cathedral to stop the US Army from demolishing it to get at a rogue band of the Timothy McVeigh Memorial Brigades?

        What if there were virtually no commercial air traffic in the country? What if many roads were highly dangerous, especially Interstate 95 from Richmond to Washington, DC, and I-95 and I-91 up to Boston? If you got on I-95 anywhere along that over 500-mile stretch, you would risk being carjacked, kidnapped, or having your car sprayed with machine gun fire.

        What if no one had electricity for much more than 10 hours a day, and often less? What if it went off at unpredictable times, causing factories to grind to a halt and air conditioning to fail in the middle of the summer in Houston and Miami? What if the Alaska pipeline were bombed and disabled at least monthly? What if unemployment hovered around 40%?

        What if veterans of militia actions at Ruby Ridge and the Oklahoma City bombing were brought in to run the government on the theory that you need a tough guy in these times of crisis?

        What if municipal elections were cancelled and cliques close to the new "president" quietly installed in the statehouses as "governors?" What if several of these governors (especially of Montana and Wyoming) were assassinated soon after taking office or resigned when their children were taken hostage by guerrillas?

        What if the leader of the European Union maintained that the citizens of the United States are, under these conditions, refuting pessimism and that freedom and democracy are just around the corner?

        ------Date: 2004-09-22 22:40:00 Subject: From Andrew Sullivan...

        CIVILIAN DEATHS: Here's a point worth remembering:

        The anti-war website Iraqbodycount.net estimates that between 11,487 and 13,458 Iraqis have been killed since the start of the war. Added to that are 1049 coalition deaths listed. That is a staggering 14,507 deaths since March 19 last year - a horrendous average of 28.5 people, real human beings, a day for the 509 days.
        How could this ever be justified? Wouldn't Iraq have been better off without this?
        It is estimated that Saddam killed between 500,000 and 1 million of his own people in the 13 years since the Gulf War, not including the effects of the sanctions. The lower number averages out to be 105 a day.
        Assuming Saddam had stayed in power, as the anti-war movement would have had, and assuming his regime did not fundamentally change, Saddam could have killed between 53,445 and 106,890 innocent people in the same 509 days.
        In other words, the war probably cost between 38,938 and 92,383 fewer lives than the so-called peace would have cost.

        ------Date: 2004-09-22 22:48:00 Subject: A 15 minute quiz

        Again, from Andrew Sullivan...

        THE CANDIDATES AND YOU: Do we simply vote for the guy we most think we resemble? An interesting pop-quiz/political survey. Takes 15 minutes. Take a procrastination break.

        - 6:56:14 PM

        ------Date: 2004-09-23 16:39:00 Subject: Google says "Happy Birthday Ray"

        I love this!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Google is so clever with their designs.

        ------Date: 2004-09-28 21:30:00 Subject: This might be good news

        ARE THE JIHADISTS LOSING? A new book says so. The key is the way in which these murderous theocrats are now killing more Muslims than infidels. Would any sane Muslim want to live in Falluja? Money quote:

        "The principal goal of terrorism - to seize power in Muslim countries through mobilization of populations galvanized by jihad's sheer audacity - has not been realized," Kepel writes. In fact, bin Laden's followers are losing ground: The Taliban regime in Afghanistan has been toppled; the fence-sitting semi-Islamist regime in Saudi Arabia has taken sides more strongly with the West; Islamists in Sudan and Libya are in retreat; and the plight of the Palestinians has never been more dire. And Baghdad, the traditional seat of the Muslim caliphs, is under foreign occupation. Not what you would call a successful jihad.

        User Comments:

        Reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Interesting--this is a bit different than what R heard on the radio recently (C-SPAN?) that talked about Islamic fundamentalists who deliberately go after their "near enemies," like mainstream/moderate Muslims, as a stage in the jihad.

        So I'm not sure the jihadists would see as a bad thing that Muslims are being killed, because they're not the right kind of Muslims, if you get my meaning.

        I think the point was that this is not solely about a land grab or power, it is about a religious purification of sorts.

        This is a paraphrase of second-hand information, but I thought it was worth mentioning.

        ------Date: 2004-09-29 18:30:00 Subject: No he didn't say that.... ;-)

        "And the question in my mind is how many additional American casualties is Saddam worth? And the answer is not very damned many. So I think we got it right, both when we decided to expel him from Kuwait, but also when the president made the decision that we'd achieved our objectives and we were not going to go get bogged down in the problems of trying to take over and govern Iraq... All of a sudden you've got a battle you're fighting in a major built-up city, a lot of civilians are around, significant limitations on our ability to use our most effective technologies and techniques. Once we had rounded him up and gotten rid of his government, then the question is what do you put in its place? You know, you then have accepted the responsibility for governing Iraq." - vice president Dick Cheney, 1992.

        User Comments:

        Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------and Kerry's the flip flopper right?

        ------Date: 2004-10-05 11:56:00 Subject: October

        It's just my favorite month of the year, it really is.

        So far, this has been a really, really good month.

        I'm continuing my job in Atlanta and loving the fact that I'm getting severence from ClubCorp AND contractor income here.

        I had a fast, quick trip to Houston and got to spend time with all of my children and grandchildren, not to mention my good friends Bobbie and Dalia. Sherry made it through the trip well too.

        I arrived safely in Atlanta yesterday, even after a T-storm start at DFW and a delay of 3.5 hours.

        I got 8 hours of sleep last night.

        It's a beautiful fall day here today and plan on getting a walk in before I watch the VP debate tonight.

        Life is good! and better, now that it's October!!

        ------Date: 2004-10-07 12:44:00 Subject: Friendship

        "To talk and laugh. To do each other kindnesses. To read pleasant books together; to pass from lightest joking to talk of deepest things, and back again. To differ without rancor, as a man might differ with himself... these, and such like things, proceeding from our hearts as we gave affection and received it back, and shown by face, by voice, by eyes, and by a thousand pleasing ways, kindled a flame which fused our very souls together, and, of many, made us one." - Augustine, on friendship, in the Confessions.

        ------Date: 2004-10-09 20:49:00 Subject: What a great name for a book title

        He's just not that into you

        ------Date: 2004-10-11 19:30:00 Subject: Happy Birth Day

        It really seems like only yesterday that I, about this hour, was on my way to the hospital over a bumpy Southwest Freeway to Memorial Hospital Southwest to give birth to my fourth child.

        I'd done it before, but that didn't take away from the excitement I felt about what was about to take place. This was before the days of common sonograms and knowing what sex you'd deliver months before the actual date. I was hoping (yes I was) for a son to be a buddy for Matthew, and was thinking that Katie wouldn't mind having another little brother to mother.

        When Luke was born, it was fulfillment. Yes! I had 2 and 2 and I always liked even numbers and the balance that I thought that created.

        And now, he's 25 and married and life has changed. That day, I never even looked past that day.

        And it's here.

        User Comments:

        Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------ditto

        can't we just stop the clock? before we know it, we'll all be grey haired and bed ridden.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------Something about "Lukey" being 25 and married makes me feel really old!

        ------Date: 2004-10-15 10:16:00 Subject: Je ne regrette rien

        (translated "I do not regret anything") Today, I'm ok, you're ok.

        ------Date: 2004-10-18 21:17:00 Subject: If it's Monday, I must be in Atlanta

        I'm really enjoying the job here in Atlanta, but have only 2 weeks left (after this week). Really, I think I could probably work this job the rest of my life, but I won't be able to.

        I'm hoping I can find another job as neat as this one when this one ends.

        User Comments:

        Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------As does Denton...wait...nix that unless you want to wait table at Texas Roadhouse.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------I hear Colorado Springs has some great jobs available!

        ------Date: 2004-10-19 11:11:00 Subject: When cities run out of names for streets

        I was driving to work today in Atlanta and heard on the radio that there was bad traffic on "Naturally Fresh Blvd".

        Now, how does a street get named "Naturally Fresh Blvd"?

        I know that Atlanta has conjugated the noun "peach" to the limit and has every iteration of it on many streets here. I'm sure they have numbered streets. I'm sure they've used the presidents' names somewhere (Washington, Jefferson, etc.), then the colleges (Amherst, Vanderbilt, etc.), and the writers series (Tennyson, Milton, Coleridge). Maybe they have even run through girls' and boys' names (Ann, Robin, Pat Ln.).

        But what happened when the concrete on this patch of land was laid, and how did it happen, that someone said "let's name it "Naturally Fresh Blvd" and everyone else in the room said "yeah, that's a great idea"!

        User Comments: anya ------it really does sound like a feminine deodorant. not the kind of product that i would want associated with my business, but maybe that's just me. my favorite stupid street name is thanks to the wonderful people in waco: new road. "so guys, what should we name this new road?" "how about new road?" "eh, works for us!"

        Luna ------Sounds like a feminine deodorant. Eek. Wonder if they were paid to name it that?

        Brian ------Sounds like a street named after a detergent ad.

        ------Date: 2004-10-21 09:51:00 Subject: What Flu Vaccine Shortage?

        I just love C-Span...did I say that already?

        Watching Washington Journal this morning, they had a guest on..the AP Science Editor. In a calm, cool voice she explained many of the issues that the mainstream and cable media have been shouting about for a couple of weeks now.

        Basically, about 100 million Americans are at risk for getting the flu and it turning into a serious, if not life-threatening illness. We currently have 50 or so million doses of the vaccine available for that group. On first glance, it would appear that we are seriously short and panic should arise. But on further follow-up, it appears that historically about half of that 100 million that are at risk opt not to get a flu vaccine.

        In other words, in the past, when the flu vaccine was delivered to cover the at risk individuals, only about half took advantage of it and the rest of the vaccine was discarded.

        Again, I ask, "what flu vaccine shortage?"

        User Comments:

        Reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Oh, I wasn't clear on the timing. My bad.

        (And I have heard about a company donating its vaccines to clinics serving seniors--nice!) C gets hers tomorrow or Saturday, at her regular doctor. I'll be glad when it's done--she's still in the high-risk category (20 months old). Although if it doesn't happen I'm not going to panic. She's hearty.

        Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------In defense of the company I'm working with (and me), we got these shots the day before all the press about the shortage. I came in the next day (and you can verify this with co-contractors that I work with) saying that "I felt bad...especially if my mother and my grandchildren were denied their shots" because I got one.

        Reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Wait a minute--companies are still giving flu shots to employees who aren't even in the high-risk population? I personally think that's irresponsible.

        If enough companies do that then there actually will be a problem:

        100 million at risk, only half take advantage of vaccine=50 million.

        50 million vaccines available, minus however many non-risk people getting vaccine...

        It doesn't add up.

        Also, I've heard some things to suggest (even before the Chiron thing happened) that more people were intending to get vaccinated, given the number of deaths of elderly in Colorado.

        But it does shoot some holes in the classic conservative "less govt" mindset, that people will do the right thing if we get out of their way. Mmm, not so much.

        Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------I had an experience similar to Maggie's.

        I'm contract working in Atlanta and they were giving flu shots to their employees here. After the employees had had their chance to get one, they came to a room full of contractors and asked us if any of us wanted one, that they'd be more than happy to comply. Several of us (including me) got our shots then. The next day in the USA Today in the hotel where I'm staying was front page headlines of the shortage problem.

        I agree with MaryAnn that distribution may be a problem, but I also think this is being way hyped by the media, causing irrational panic in some/most.

        Maggie http://journalscape.com/maggie ------I was at my OB's on Tuesday and was offered a vaccine. It blew my mind. Everyone I've talked to is either worried because they can't get one, or are grateful because they were lucky enough to get one just before the supply ran out. I declined; I think there's other people out there who need it more than I. From what I've heard on the street, there's a bit of a shortage, but it seems like the media is really hyping this up.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------I have never had a flu vaccine, mainly due to my needle phobia. I at least have an excuse this year... "I am skipping my flu shot so those that need it more can have theirs."

        Reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I just finished a Bible study with a bunch of LOLs (little old ladies) who are very worried. None of their doctors have the flu vaccine available, and the grocery stores around here had had some flu clinics but now have abruptly stopped with no word on when they will reopen.

        There may be enough vaccine, but distribution seems to be a huge problem--one woman said a person had been on line since 4 a.m. That ain't good.

        ------Date: 2004-10-21 17:08:00 Subject: Cardinals are dumb

        I've just been sitting here watching a determined cardinal try to dive bomb the 1/2 inch glass on this office building here in Stone Mountain for about the last 5 minutes. He's still at it, and I'm thinking if, in fact, he did get in here, what then would he do? (BTW, I'm sure "it's" a "he", don't ask me why). ;-)

        Actually, it's been fun to watch his determination, and I'm trying not to look at this as a bad omen for tonight's game.

        Go Astros!

        User Comments: matt ------and only red cardinals beat the astros and make matt an unhappy man-boy. :-(

        Reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------R tells me that only male cardinals are red.

        ------Date: 2004-10-23 20:16:00 Subject: From my sister Sherry

        With all the sadness and trauma going on in the world right now, it is worth reflecting on the death of a very important person which almost went unnoticed last week. Larry LaPrise, the man who wrote "The Hokey Pokey," died peacefully at age 93.

        The most traumatic part for his family was getting him into the coffin. They put his right leg in. And then the trouble started.

        ------Date: 2004-10-26 09:02:00 Subject: Thought for the day

        People often fail because they trade what they want most for what they want now.

        ------Date: 2004-10-26 09:13:00 Subject: O God, You are the Wayside Resting Place

        From The Anchoress

          Monday, October 25, 2004

          O God, You Are the Wayside Resting Place

          Likewise, the spirit also comes to the aid of our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. Romans 8:26

          Inexpressible groanings seem to be the stuff of my life these days. My groans combined with whines as I watched my Yankees go down to an ignoble defeat to the dreaded Red Sox. They are half-hyperventilated as I consider this election season and the need for the winner of this election - whoever that might be - to win with a margin of mandate.

          My groans mingle with tears at the bedside of my brother as he slowly, slowly retreats into himself in these last days.

          I watch my brother, now in hospice as we have reached that point, and I realize how small our lives are, and how a prolonged death makes them ever smaller. A few months ago it became clear that S could no longer drive, and so the car became meaningless to him, and the world began to shrink. Then he couldn't go out, and so his clothes were irrelevant, and the world became four rooms and a bath. Then he could no longer cook and his staggeringly well-equipped kitchen became so-much excess. (When one is only eating soup or soft-boiled eggs, a simple hotplate will do; when you're mostly drinking Ensure, all you need is a cooler.)

          And meds. Bottles and bottles of meds. You need them, and they begin to take over. The world is smaller, but the nightstands are not large enough. The object d'arts are put away and replaced with bottles of multi-colored pills, retractable needles with pre-measured doses, large bottles of pasty yellow stuff that is supposedly liquid...the world becomes your bedroom and your bathroom, your tv and your meds. You pop opium-based painkillers while watching Emeril cook with your Kitchen Aid mixer and wonder how he got into your stuff. Then, when your brother hurts his back lifting you because you are literally too weak to move, your world shrinks again, until it is only your bedroom, and then only your bed. Emeril is silent. The burners are turned low. The whole large world, which you had launched yourself into recklessly, with abandon, the world you had yourself enlarged with your art and your playfulness and your noise has become compressed and concentrated and hushed.

          This is not merely a matter of space and proportion, of physical layout. When you are admitted to hospice, you land in an open, airy, colorful room with a lovely view of the autumn leaves, and the heartening, kind and cheerful chatter of nurses and nuns, but you are still inward and small. Your physical space has expanded but your body and mind have moved further away. My brother's world now is reduced to an hourly hit of pain meds and an occasional lucid moment. I watch him move to a fetal position, and wonder if the process of dying is taking him not only inward but backward. He converses, but his conversations are interior. His lips move but he says nothing. His agitation is soothed by the merest touch. He opens his eyes and announces he is going. I ask him where he is going and he replies that he is going to Florida. I bid him a safe journey and Godspeed, and he closes his eyes and fades back out. But he is still here, lingering. S has his things about him, his own quilts and pictures and tshochkes, and he is suspended between two worlds, half in and half out of heaven. I lean in and tell him he's got his boarding pass and is cleared for take-off whenever he's ready to leave...and he stays, and he groans and we groan and pray. Evening comes and morning follows. The next day.

          The support is heartening. The family is rallying, even the cousins are coming to help, to take a shift, to give S a manicure or a back rub or a flower. But with all of that, I think to myself so often, where would we be without prayer? And I thank God for those inexpressible groans which have the effect of enlarging our view, and giving our spirits some room to breath, of giving our souls some respose. As the world becomes the road to and from hospice and the room and the bed, prayer expands our breath, keeps us from suffocating. It brings balance.

          O Daystar…

          O Living Water…

          O Key of David…

          O Christ…

          I praise you for you are my God. I thank you, for you have heard my plea.

          O Man of Jerusalem

          - City of Bread -

          O Lord of Life

          - Saving Cup –

          I now walk with you

          And each step is illuminated, made new, for

          You are the Path of Light.

          You are the Wayside Resting Place.

          You are the Glory of the City of God. In your greatness and your compassion have mercy on me in my smallness, and my humanity. Bless me as I bless your Holy Name, and keep me in your sight as I rest a while in you. Amen.

          (Closing prayer: The Way of the Cross in Times of Illness)

        ------Date: 2004-10-27 09:21:00 Subject: Banging your head against the wall

        I'm getting a good lesson about determination (or should I say obsessive/compulsive behavior) from that bird I blogged about last week. He's spent the better part of the last 4 days that I have been here in the office in Stone Mountain flying at/into various areas of the plate glass window that is closest to the tree that acts as his runway.

        I went over to the window to try to scare him away, as I think he must be hurting himself, the way that he ferociously hits the glass. But he just looked at me with that "why don't you just let me in?" look.

        And of course I have to take the actions of this bird as a lesson for me. How many times have I done the same thing, over and over again, expecting different results? Too many to count. And most of these times, I, like the bird, just wanted to be let in.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Banging heads against the wall is one thing Red Sox fans will no longer have to do.

        ------Date: 2004-10-28 15:28:00 Subject: Mama mia, mama mia

        From Andrew Sullivan:

        BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY: The 2004 election version.

        ------Date: 2004-10-29 23:07:00 Subject: Wow...I should leave home more often

        I had Ed Harris AND Bradley Whitford on my answer machine when I got home tonight...'course they just wanted me to vote for Kerry. Ahem...

        ------Date: 2004-10-30 23:04:00 Subject: We'll see, won't we From the NY Daily News comes this...

          See tape as boost for Prez

          By Thomas M. DeFrank

          Saturday, October 30th, 2004

          With his typical flair for drama, Osama Bin Laden inserted himself directly into the presidential election yesterday, and both parties believed it would boost President Bush's reelection hopes.

          Bin Laden popping up like a malignant jack-in-the-box four days before the balloting may bolster John Kerry's argument that Bush should have finished wiping out Al Qaeda before turning his attention to Iraq.

          But it also refocused the nation on terrorism, which polls show helps Bush. And it reminds voters of their horror on Sept. 11 and Bush's well-received response, as well as obliterating the recent flood of bad news for Bush.

          "We want people to think 'terrorism' for the last four days," said a Bush-Cheney campaign official. "And anything that raises the issue in people's minds is good for us."

          A senior GOP strategist added, "anything that makes people nervous about their personal safety helps Bush."

          He called it "a little gift," saying it helps the President but doesn't guarantee his reelection.

          In the closing weeks of the campaign, Kerry has accused Bush of "letting Bin Laden escape" when he was cornered at Tora Bora by "outsourcing" the job to unreliable Afghan warlords instead of using U.S. troops. And he has mocked Bush for never mentioning the Al Qaeda leader after pledging to get Bin Laden "dead or alive."

          But the new tape - which is so nakedly political that it should end with the words "I'm Osama Bin Laden and I approved this message" - makes it difficult for Kerry to keep hammering Bush on the subject without appearing to be capitalizing on terror. Kerry eliminated those lines from his speeches yesterday evening.

          "If Kerry had been making this a bigger issue, as he should have been, it would definitely translate to his benefit," said a Democratic strategist with ties to the Kerry camp.

          Kerry's staff looked somber.

          "It's very important for us to move forward. We're going ahead and doing our events as we would," said spokesman Mike McCurry.

        ------Date: 2004-11-01 21:29:00 Subject: Vote on Tuesday, November 2nd! if you haven't already done so in early voting.

        And may the best candidate win and may the country re-group behind him and support him for the good of our country.

        User Comments:

        Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------That's rich!

        The only commercials we see in non-swing states are local candidates. I've had to go to the internet to see presidential campaign commercials.

        I've worn a button since Sunday (non-partisan) just telling people to "Use your vote or lose you voice"...it's funny to see the reaction of people when they read it. Without telling me who they are voting for, they all seem to be telling me that they see an urgent need to vote this year. I think that's a good thing.

        Honestly, I think the best scenario (probably) for unifying the country would be a Kerry win and a continuation of a Republican Congress. But I'm not predicting that, and I'll be up all night tonight, as yes, this is a political junkie like me's 'super bowl'.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------Yeah - November 2... the end of campaign commercials!

        We saw the funniest commercial this weekend. It was for one of those local candidates who probably only had enough money to run one or two commercials in the last few days before the election. Anyway, he showed some "secret" footage of his opponant's wife stealing his campaign signs from a street corner. I don't remember the candidate or what they were running for, but the commercial made me laugh.

        ------Date: 2004-11-02 08:40:00 Subject: I take the pledge

        From Andrew Sullivan comes this...

          Jeff Jarvis has the details. Bottom line:
          After the election results are in, I promise to:
          : Support the President, even if I didn't vote for him.
          : Criticize the President, even if I did vote for him.
          : Uphold standards of civilized discourse in blogs and in media while pushing both to be better.
          : Unite as a nation, putting country over party, even as we work together to make America better.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------I don't think I'll be taking that pledge. I didn't like George W. Bush before the election and I don't like him now. I don't care how many votes he wins by, this election is a travesty. The fact that he used the Gay Marriage issue as a wedge says a lot about him as a person.

        The only thing I'm pledging is that I am getting pretty sick and tired of living in this conservative ass society. Whatever happened to moderation and compromise? Oh I forgot, that went out the window the second Bush and Co. set foot in the White House.

        ------Date: 2004-11-02 09:32:00 Subject: Just when you thought this election year was nasty...

        ...back in the 1800s they were saying that a "vote for Thomas Jefferson was a vote against god"... ------Date: 2004-11-02 14:28:00 Subject: Votenfraude

        In the inevitable jitters and bitten nails of Election Day, here's a suggestion. Think of someone you really can't stand who favors your candidate. Now imagine how bad he's gonna feel when your guy loses. Feel better? No? Well, it was worth a try.

        The assimilation of other voters' agony has had a bumper year in 2004. Call it "votenfreude": the notion that you're voting to enjoy other voters' electoral misery. I had a bout of it a while back, when I read the novelist Amy Tan's comment in Slate on the reason she's supporting John Kerry. "I'm voting for Kerry, because I have a brain and so does he," she wrote. There's a part of me that wants George W. Bush to win just so that Amy Tan will have a bad day. Oh and Michael Moore. And Noam Chomsky. And Paul Begala. And Alec Baldwin. And that sanctimonious lesbian I harangued at a "peace" demo in Provincetown last year. And Paul Krugman. I could go on and on. In fact, I think I'll spend today compiling a list of people I can't stand and imagining their expressions if Bush pulls it off. Did I forget Barbra Streisand?

        I'm lucky, of course. There are almost as many people on the religious right I feel the same way about. So my own votenfreude gets to be really complicated. I want Kerry to win for what I hope are clear reasons, independent of anyone else's response. But the joy that I'll inevitably feel imagining the despondency of James Dobson and Jerry Falwell may well eclipse any rational belief that the country has made the better of two choices. Given how much angst Karl Rove has unleashed on many individuals over the years, watching him melt down in front of a Kerry landslide would be a moment of exquisite--if completely indefensible--pleasure.

        These are all harmless, if morally suspect, post-election scenarios. But what's really stunning is how many people have actually premised their votes on whom they will tick off the most. Yesterday, David Frum played to my weak spot by declaring:

        If John Kerry wins the presidency on Nov. 2, Champagne corks will be popping all over Europe. Radio and television broadcasters worldwide will assure their audiences that the United States has repented and given up its aggressive, provocative ways. "Neoconservative unilateralism" will go out of style; multilateralism and consultation will return to vogue. The international conference circuit will buzz with activity. The leaders of the European Union will plan a royal welcome for President Kerry on his first tour abroad.

        Well, we wouldn't want that, would we? Personally, the thought of a very good champagne being opened in the Elysee Palace after a Kerry victory would do a lot to convince me to vote for W. Every time I think of various BBC producers popping open a bottle of Bolly, I do my best to banish the thought. Then there's the Osama card. Here's a crude piece of "analysis" from National Review, informing us how happy Osama would be if Kerry were elected:

        A Kerry victory would also give power to the growing idea among jihadists that democracies and their constituent voters can be intimidated. No commuter-train bombings were required, the arch-terrorist would argue to his cadre of supporters; a mere appearance was enough to scare the American voter into changing governments. And then he would stake his claim on a messianic cult-like vision that he has been sent by his God to rule the earth and bring the likes of George W. Bush to account for their misdeeds against Muslims everywhere.

        The Osama card works both ways, of course. Here's the estimable Will Saletan explaining how:

        Bin Laden would like to see Bush thrown out of office, like that Spanish prime minister with the mustache who served as our beard for the Iraq invasion. If Bush loses, Bin Laden thinks he'll have another scalp to hang on his wall, or cave, or whatever it is. He'll claim to have brought down the president. Except he won't bring down the president. More likely, by showing up four days before our election, he'll scare Americans into re-electing Bush.

        So make Osama miserable by voting for Kerry? Er, that would be the inference, I think. But a better idea is to forget what Osama believes. Ignore Michael Moore. Do your best to put images of a grinning or suicidal Rick Santorum out of your mind. Just figure out who you think is best for the country. Grit your teeth. And vote. Then let the gloating begin.

         

        Andrew Sullivan is a senior editor at TNR.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------haha

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------I think the other key is realizing that it is not the end of the world if one guy wins over the other. That is what makes America great... there are checks and balances, various branches of government, state versus national rights, new presidential elections every 4 years, etc.... all to ensure that no matter who is president, we still have a voice.

        It is kind of weird being in Mountain time zone when the presidential results come in. I feel like I get to hear the results "earlier" than everyone else (the west coast polls close at just 5:00 local time!). Don't worry, though... I won't ruin it for you and tell you who wins. ;-)

        Matthew ------I was thinking about that the other day in Aunt Sherry's hospital room. It'd be good for her spirits to see a Bush victory.

        Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------wow...I hadn't even finished formatting this blog before you beat me to what was going to be my point... Why I want Bush to win:

        Sherry, Katie, Dan, Kirk, Kathy

        Why I want Kerry to win:

        Matthew, Anya, MaryAnn, Robert, Ted, Chris reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------The other side of this is knowing that people you care about are supporting the other guy, and taking at least some small enjoyment in their happiness. One of our administrative people here at the church is a Bush supporter, and she's a dear person. So if things don't go the way I hope they will, at least I know that she will be happy. It does provide a small consolation.

        ------Date: 2004-11-02 17:25:00 Subject: The Poor Voter on Election Day

        To-day, of all the weary year,

        A king of men am I.

        To-day, alike are great and small,

        The nameless and the known;

        My palace is the people's hall,

        The ballot-box my throne!

        The rich is level with the poor,

        The weak is strong to-day;

        And sleekest broadcloth counts no more

        Than homespun frock of gray.

        To-day let pomp and vain pretence

        My stubborn right abide;

        I set a plain man's common sense

        Against the pedant's pride.

        The wide world has not wealth to buy

        The power in my right hand! --John Greenleaf Whittier

        ------Date: 2004-11-06 21:40:00 Subject: I'd like to teach the world to sing...

        ...in perfect harmony..

        I really like this post from Thinking as a Hobby as I'd like to think we're not as polarized as the red state/blue state map shows us.

          Via Boing Boing, here's a popular vote map showing the proportions of voters as a mix of red and blue.

          Note that I'm often accused of only thinking in black and white. Here's a nice fuzzy image for you.

          Texas is a nice shade of purple. Even though Bush is from here, the vote still split around 60/40.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Yeah...too bad Bush is going to rule as if he won 90% to 10%.

        ------Date: 2004-11-09 22:08:00 Subject: The Coolest Maps

        When you look at a simple geographical/political representation of the country, you can get overwhelmed by the red states, simply because they are much bigger than the blue ones. And that, in itself, can lead us to imagine that the country is more conservative than it actually is, or more consistently Republican. That's why these cartograms are so enlightening. Check 'em out

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Here's another one. Red State/Blue State correlated to Slave States/Free States, pre-Civil War.

        ------Date: 2004-11-11 12:01:00 Subject: Thank a veteran today!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------You'd be proud of me if I was in jail mom. ;-)

        In all seriousness, thanks though. For all the good and bad that military service brings, I am glad that I served. Now if only I can quit this whole "aging" thing. ;-)

        Mamala ------Did I tell you lately how proud I am of you Matthew? And thank you! reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------You're not gettin' the firstborn!

        Matthew ------No thanks needed here. But if you must, send all checks, cash, money orders, and first born to my address. ;-)

        ------Date: 2004-11-11 20:50:00 Subject: In defense of the red states

        They do extremely well in the Catalogue for Philanthropy's Generosity Index. The top five states for charity giving, relative to their own wealth, are: Mississippi, Arkansas, Oklahoma, Louisiana and Alabama. The least generous? Wisconsin, New Jersey, Rhode Island, Massachusetts, and New Hampshire.

        User Comments:

        Brian T ------Well, as long as you base "giving" on itemized deductions on your tax form, maybe.

        I'm not sure Adjusted Gross Income versus Itemized Deductions is the best method of determining "generosity". ------Date: 2004-11-15 21:38:00 Subject: My last election map - I promise

        YOUR OWN PRIVATE IDAHO: Another electoral map showing what unites us as well as what is tearing us apart. Yes, there are blue-staters in Wyoming!

        User Comments: thefoulragandboneshopoftheheart ------You, uh, do know that this Ninja whatever map isn't an actual, accurate depiction of election results, right? Because the creator has simply taken every state and made a group of the opposite party coloring in the middle of it to suggest greater unity than perhaps the partisan responses to the election have allowed. It's not the point that's undermined. The map's meant to be an illustration of the concept, but you can see that through a county by county map of the US just as well, without the fabrication:

        2004 County by County Election Map

        ------Date: 2004-11-16 22:13:00 Subject: In Oklahoma

        From Andrew Sullivan...

        Check out this conclusion to a superb Washington Post story of conflicting emotions as homosexuality comes out in the heartland. A protest by the vile Fred Phelps leads to a backlash against those who would berate a young gay man in the congregation, Michael Shackleford:

        Inside the church, the congregation was standing and the six-piece guitar band was rocking. The Lord reigns ... Great is the Almighty. The music and energy built until Pastor Eubanks bounded onstage. "Welcome to the reign of life," he said. "Amen?" "Amen!" the crowd shouted, whistling and clapping. "There is darkness and there is light and we are in the middle of the light," Eubanks said, to more thunderous applause. "Say it: God loves us all. All of us!"
        After the service, several people came up to hug Janice. One woman held her in an embrace that lasted two minutes, whispering to Janice the whole time. A burly man with a crew cut gave Michael a thumbs-up. "Man, you be who you are," Shannon Watie said, holding his Bible. "We got your back."
        Not everything is black and white. Or red and blue.

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------What nside said. nsidemymind ------Thank you for sharing that article. I was in discussion with my co-worker and asked her what she thought about people who led a homosexual lifestyle going to church since she's religious. personally, i don't have a problem with it. i feel like what two people do behind closed doors or in the parking lot of wal mart is thier business. she actually told me that she didn't think homosexuals should be allowed in the church unless they were coming to confess their sin and change their lifestyle. i really had a problem with what she said because i was always to understand that all were welcome in the house of the Lord. I said to her: so you think it's okay for an adulterer or a murderer to come and sit next to you in church and praise the Lord but not a homosexual. she stood firm in her answer which is fine with me, everyone is entitled to their own opinion but when did society become so self righteous that we're weeding out who is worthy of going to church and who isn't? it's rediculous and prejudice.

        during the clinton campaign i learned that oklahoma was a republican state so it doesn't suprise me one bit that the people here(yes i live in oklahoma) are against it. i think that question they had regarding gay marriages was silly....i had flashbacks of this book i read in 10th grade english called 1984. the government has no right dictating who we should live our lives with. i thought, and correct me if i'm wrong that we as americans were entitled to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness and if our happiness is persued with someone of the same sex, that's none of the governments concern.

        ------Date: 2004-11-18 10:20:00 Subject: Semper Fi

        Maybe it's because I make minor mistakes daily...

        Maybe it's because I'm not a very brave person...

        Maybe it's because I haven't sacrificed a day of my life for the security of my country...

        Maybe it's because all of the above and more....

        But I thought this opinion from the Wall Street Journal makes sense -

        The story of Fallujah isn't on that NBC videotape.

        Thursday, November 18, 2004 12:01 a.m. EST Some 40 Marines have just lost their lives cleaning out one of the world's worst terror dens, in Fallujah, yet all the world wants to talk about is the NBC videotape of a Marine shooting a prostrate Iraqi inside a mosque. Have we lost all sense of moral proportion?

        The al-Zarqawi TV network, also known as Al-Jazeera, has broadcast the tape to the Arab world, and U.S. media have also played it up. The point seems to be to conjure up images again of Abu Ghraib, further maligning the American purpose in Iraq. Never mind that the pictures don't come close to telling us about the context of the incident, much less what was on the mind of the soldier after days of combat.

        Put yourself in that Marine's boots. He and his mates have had to endure some of the toughest infantry duty imaginable, house-to-house urban fighting against an enemy that neither wears a uniform nor obeys any normal rules of war. Here is how that enemy fights, according to an account in the Times of London:

        "In the south of Fallujah yesterday, U.S. Marines found the armless, legless body of a blonde woman, her throat slashed and her entrails cut out. Benjamin Finnell, a hospital apprentice with the U.S. Navy Corps, said that she had been dead for a while, but at that location for only a day or two. The woman was wearing a blue dress; her face had been disfigured. It was unclear if the remains were the body of the Irish-born aid worker Margaret Hassan, 59, or of Teresa Borcz, 54, a Pole abducted two weeks ago. Both were married to Iraqis and held Iraqi citizenship; both were kidnapped in Baghdad last month."

        When not disemboweling Iraqi women, these killers hide in mosques and hospitals, booby-trap dead bodies, and open fire as they pretend to surrender. Their snipers kill U.S. soldiers out of nowhere. According to one account, the Marine in the videotape had seen a member of his unit killed by another insurgent pretending to be dead. Who from the safety of his sofa has standing to judge what that Marine did in that mosque?

        Beyond the one incident, think of what the Marine and Army units just accomplished in Fallujah. In a single week, they killed as many as 1,200 of the enemy and captured 1,000 more. They did this despite forfeiting the element of surprise, so civilians could escape, and while taking precautions to protect Iraqis that no doubt made their own mission more difficult and hazardous. And they did all of this not for personal advantage, and certainly not to get rich, but only out of a sense of duty to their comrades, their mission and their country.

        In a more grateful age, this would be hailed as one of the great battles in Marine history--with Guadalcanal, Peleliu, Hue City and the Chosin Reservoir. We'd know the names of these military units, and of many of the soldiers too. Instead, the name we know belongs to the NBC correspondent, Kevin Sites.

        We suppose he was only doing his job, too. But that doesn't mean the rest of us have to indulge in the moral abdication that would equate deliberate televised beheadings of civilians with a Marine shooting a terrorist, who may or may not have been armed, amid the ferocity of battle.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Despite the confusion and the fog of war, we absolutely cannot have Marines opening fire on injured people. That is just horrible. War is friggin ugly as hell, but that should never be used as a justification for acts that are against the law.

        taken from a news site:

        The footage showed a man slumped on the floor of the mosque, where rebels had earlier been shooting at US troops.

        When the troops realised one man was not dead, a Marine opened fire.

        Before his death, the man had been half sitting against the wall, wearing an orange headscarf.

        As the troops enter the mosque, some are heard shouting obscenities and one says: "We have got two in there." As the cameraman followed the Marines inside, one is heard to say: "These are the two wounded that they never picked up."

        One Marine is heard shouting: "He's faking he's dead."

        There was another shout: "He's breathing."

        Gunfire rang out, and one Marine said: "He's dead now."

        At the point when the gunshots were fired, NBC and other networks blacked out the footage.

        "The Marine then raises his rifle and fires into the man's head. The pictures are too graphic for us to broadcast," Sites said.

        The Associated Press said the blacked out portion of the video tape showed the bullet striking the man. His blood splatters on the wall behind him and his body goes limp.

        Sites said the shot prisoner "did not appear to be armed or threatening in any way".

        Semper Die ------This article is bullshit! It just attempts to justify and sanitize war.

        ------Date: 2004-11-24 11:52:00 Subject: Let Us Give Thanks

        My pastor posted this to our church newsletter as she waited for her granddaughter’s imminent birth, and, at the same time, received news that a lifelong friend had suddenly died.

        Let us give thanks for a bounty of people.

        For children who are our second planting, and though they grow like weeds and the wind too soon blows them away, may they forgive us our cultivation and fondly remember where their roots are.

        Let us give thanks:

        For generous friends . . . with hearts . . . and smiles as bright as their blossoms;

        For feisty friends as tart as apples;

        For continuous friends, who, like scallions and cucumbers, keep reminding us that we've had them;

        For crotchety friends, as sour as rhubarb and as indestructible.

        For handsome friends, who are as gorgeous as eggplants and as elegant as a row of corn, and the others, as plain as potatoes and so good for you.

        For funny friends, who are as silly as Brussels sprouts and as amusing as Jerusalem artichokes, and serious friends, as complex as cauliflowers and as intricate as onions;

        For friends as unpretentious as cabbages, as subtle as summer squash, as persistent as parsley, as delightful as dill, as endless as zucchini, and who, like parsnips, can be counted on to see you throughout the winter;

        For old friends, nodding like sunflowers in the evening-time and young friends, coming on as fast as radishes;

        For loving friends, who wind around us like tendrils and hold us, despite our blights, wilts and witherings;

        And, finally, for those friends now gone, like gardens past that have been harvested, but who fed us in their times that we might have life thereafter; for all these we give thanks.

        -Max Coots

        ------Date: 2004-11-25 12:52:00 Subject: The first Thanksgiving proclamation

        Whereas it is the duty of all nations to acknowledge the providence of Almighty God, to obey His will, to be grateful for His benefits, and humbly to implore His protection and favor; and Whereas both Houses of Congress have, by their joint committee, requested me "to recommend to the people of the United States a day of public thanksgiving and prayer, to be observed by acknowledging with grateful hearts the many and signal favors of Almighty God, especially by affording them an opportunity peaceably to establish a form of government for their safety and happiness:"

        Now, therefore, I do recommend and assign Thursday, the 26th day of November next, to be devoted by the people of these States to the service of that great and glorious Being who is the beneficent author of all the good that was, that is, or that will be; that we may then all unite in rendering unto Him our sincere and humble thanks for His kind care and protection of the people of this country previous to their becoming a nation; for the signal and manifold mercies and the favorable interpositions of His providence in the course and conclusion of the late war; for the great degree of tranquility, union, and plenty which we have since enjoyed; for the peaceable and rational manner in which we have been enable to establish constitutions of government for our safety and happiness, and particularly the national one now lately instituted' for the civil and religious liberty with which we are blessed, and the means we have of acquiring and diffusing useful knowledge; and, in general, for all the great and various favors which He has been pleased to confer upon us.

        And also that we may then unite in most humbly offering our prayers and supplications to the great Lord and Ruler of Nations and beseech Him to pardon our national and other transgressions; to enable us all, whether in public or private stations, to perform our several and relative duties properly and punctually; to render our National Government a blessing to all the people by constantly being a Government of wise, just, and constitutional laws, discreetly and faithfully executed and obeyed; to protect and guide all sovereigns and nations (especially such as have show kindness to us), and to bless them with good governments, peace, and concord; to promote the knowledge and practice of true religion and virtue, and the increase of science among them and us; and, generally to grant unto all mankind such a degree of temporal prosperity as He alone knows to be best.

        Given under my hand, at the city of New York, the 3d dy of October, A.D. 1789.

        (signed) G. Washington

        ------Date: 2004-11-26 22:42:00 Subject: A Hopeful Iraqi Future?

        As Andrew Sullivan says...here's hoping...

          The trickle of good news from Iraq is beginning to gain momentum, it seems to me. I'd cite several things: the relatively subdued Shiite and Kurdish response to the suppression of the Falluja revolt; the forgiveness of 80 percent of Iraq's debt (can you imagine the media hype if John Kerry had negotiated that?); the larger-than-expected load of captured armaments in Falluja; the capture of Zaraqwi's aide, Abu Saeed; and now, the latest desperate propaganda tape by Zarqawi. What Zarqawi is doing is complaining that some Sunnis - those not committed to the global Jihad so much as defending their own privileges and fighting the occupation - are going soft. Negotiations with Allawi might bear some fruit, thus isolating Zaraqwi even further. The barbarism of Zarqawi may also be alienating more moderate Iraqis - and many Shiites whose co-religionists have been targeted by insurgent violence. The elections, even without overwhelming Sunni involvement, will doubtless add momentum to the interim government and the prospect of holding Iraq together. Yes, huge obstacles remain; and the threat of civil war (which is the flipside of Kurdish and Shiite ambivalence toward watching the Sunnis get clobbered) is still intense. But it seems to me that the light at the end of this tunnel just grew a little. Here's hoping.

        ------Date: 2004-11-27 14:48:00 Subject: Pillow talk

        I had a wonderful dinner with the Fisher/Dana family last night. We talked and talked and talked some more.

        Gregg is so wise. He recommended that I do the things that I do, and when I lay my head down on my pillow at night, I can sleep well, confidently knowing that in the past 24 hours, I was who I am.

        Thanksgiving is everyday with friends/family such as this. ------Date: 2004-11-27 14:52:00 Subject: I can take this to heart

        "We cannot change the past, but we can change our attitude toward it. Uproot guilt and plant forgiveness. Tear out arrogance and seed humility. Exchange love for hate --- thereby, making the present comfortable and the future promising." - Maya Angelou

        ------Date: 2004-11-28 09:55:00 Subject: Maureen takes a free pass

        OK, if Maureen can take a "columnist" free pass and make most of her op-ed piece a reprise of a spam email, I can post her column in totality on my blog... Come on, Maureen...

          Blood Is Thicker Than Gravy

          By MAUREEN DOWD

          I've been surprised, out on the road, how often I get asked about my family. They're beyond red - more like crimson. My sister flew to West Virginia in October to work a phone bank for W.

          People often wonder what our Thanksgiving is like.

          It's lovely - if you enjoy hearing about how brilliant Ann Coulter is, how misguided The New York Times's editorial page is, and how valiant the president is as he tries to stop America's slide into paganism.

          This year, my brothers were on the warpath about news reports that Maryland public schools did not teach about Thanksgiving from a religious perspective. "Who do they think the Pilgrims thanked?" demanded Martin. "God."

          There are moments - when my brothers are sharing some snarky thing Rush Limbaugh said about me, or the latest bon mot from Pat Buchanan, with whom they grew up - that I'm tempted to stuff my ears with my mom's potato stuffing, or go off and read a book by David Sedaris about normal family life. People often ask me why President Bush inspires such passionate support. My brother Kevin, a salesman who lives in Montgomery County, Md., can answer that; here is a recent e-mail message, trimmed for space, he sent to friends:

          "Ladies and Gentlemen,

          Now, just as four years ago, I breathe a huge sigh of relief and rejoice in the common sense of the American voting public. Congratulations to President Bush for winning re-election in a poker game played with a stacked deck. No candidate, including Richard Nixon, ever had to endure the biased and unfair tactics of our major media in their attempt to influence the outcome of an election. ... He never complained, just systematically set about delivering the same consistent message. You may remember that four years ago, I felt physically ill watching the Democrats try to legislate their way to the presidency. ...

          A very big thank you to Michael Moore, Susan Sarandon, Rob Reiner, Bill Maher, Barbra Streisand, Alec Baldwin, Al Franken and Jon Stewart for your involvement. You certainly energized the base. Now, please have the courage of your convictions and leave the country.

          To Bob Shrum - Cut your fee.

          To Mike McCurry, Joe Lockhart and Paul Begala - You don't seem quite as smart without a great candidate.

          To The New York Times and The Washington Post - If Bush and Reagan were so stupid, how did they both go four for four in elections involving two of our biggest states and the presidency without your endorsement?

          We do not live in a secular country. There are all sorts of people of faith that place moral values over personal freedoms. They are not all 'wacky evangelicals.' They are people who don't like Howard Stern piping a hard porn show over the airwaves and wrapping himself in the freedom of the First Amendment. They don't like being told that a young girl does not have to seek her mother's counsel about an abortion. They don't like seeing an eight-month-old fetus having his head punctured and his brains sucked out. They don't like being told the Pledge of Allegiance, a moment of silent prayer and the words 'under God' are offensive to an enlightened few so nobody should be allowed to use them. ... My wife and I picked our sons' schools based on three criteria: 1) moral values 2) discipline 3) religious maintenance - in that order. We have spent an obscene amount of money doing this and never regretted a penny. Last week on the news, I heard that the Montgomery County school board voted to include a class with a 10th-grade girl demonstrating how to put a condom on a cucumber and a study of the homosexual lifestyle. The vote was 6-0. I feel better about the money all the time. To Dan Rather - Good luck in your retirement.

          To Gavin Newsom - Thanks for all of the great shots of the San Francisco couples embracing their mates at City Hall in direct defiance of the law.

          To P. Diddy - 'Vote or Die' might need a little work.

          To John Edwards - Thanks for being there.

          To my friends - only 1,460 days until the next election. Stay vigilant. The Democrats, CBS, the NY Times and the Post may think Hillary is the perfect antidote for all those 'stupid' voters out there.

          Best regards, Kevin"

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Hey, my sermon this morning was basically a bunch of old chestnuts and a canned stories strung together... you gotta do that sometimes. Especially on a holiday weekend. People liked it anyway.

        ------Date: 2004-11-30 12:24:00 Subject: How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb

        Can I just say that this is a great album?

        U2 just keeps getting better and better!

        You know you're listening to good music when you wish your morning commute to work was just a little longer!

        ------Date: 2004-12-03 23:55:00 Subject: Baked Potato Soup

        Is there any better comfort food than that? And Saltgrass has the best!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------hmmmmmm....can't say i've had it. my curiousity is piqued.

        ------Date: 2004-12-09 02:01:00 Subject: C-span mugs

        They make me happy.

        Am I a nerd, or what?

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------yes

        ------Date: 2004-12-09 22:49:00 Subject: Consulting Partners

        I really, really like being a contractor/consultant for Consulting Partners. Tonight, we had holiday party and it was fun to see the powers that be that keep me busy and "making the big bucks". They say they will be able to place me easily in the weeks ahead. I hope so.

        I'll miss Lennox, but it will be nice to move on. It feeds my AADD.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Mom? With AADD? NEVER!!!!

        Good to read the good news.

        ------Date: 2004-12-17 17:19:00 Subject: Person of the Year-Who will it be?

        According to Reuters,

          White House adviser Karl Rove topped the unofficial list of contenders for Time's 2004 Person of the Year, according to a panel assembled by the magazine on Tuesday to debate the question.

          Along with Rove, widely credited as the architect behind President Bush's re-election, other candidates suggested by the panel included the president himself and filmmakers Mel Gibson and Michael Moore.

          Time does not prepare or publish a formal list of nominees. Instead, the weekly magazine said its editors choose the person of the year after significant reporting by the staff.

          The selection may well be none of the names suggested at Tuesday's panel, the editors said. The choice remains secret until it appears, this year, on the Dec. 20 issue cover.

          In the meantime, the selection becomes a parlor game in America to guess who fits the criteria of "the person or persons who most affected the news and our lives, for good or for ill, and embodied what was important about the year, for better or for worse."

          The person also must be alive, the editors said.

          Another suggestion was "The Terrorist." Time has selected such entities as "The American Soldier" in 2003, the "Endangered Earth" in 1988 and "The 25 and Under Generation" in 1966.

          Another proposed entity for 2004 was "The Blogosphere," the online Web log journals that helped redefine the role of the media. Other suggestions were God and the prophet Mohammed.

          Gibson was proposed for directing "The Passion of the Christ," a controversial film seen by many as anti-Semitic. Moore made "Fahrenheit 9/11," a film highly critical of the Bush administration which was a huge box office hit.

          The panel featured Time commentator Andrew Sullivan, NBC News anchor Brian Williams, activist Rev. Al Sharpton (news - web sites), Alessandra Stanley, television critic for The New York Times, and FBI (news - web sites) agent Coleen Rowley, one of the 2002 Persons of the Year which went to "The Whistleblowers."

          The Person of the Year tradition grew out of an editorial embarrassment in 1927 when the magazine failed to put pilot Charles Lindbergh on its cover after his historical solo trans-Atlantic flight.

          At the end of that year, during a slow news week, the editors decided to make him man of the year to remedy the oversight, said Eileen Naughton, president of the Time Group.

          Some selections have been notoriously unpopular, such as Adolf Hitler in 1938, Joseph Stalin in 1939 and 1942 and the Ayatollah Khomeini in 1979.

          Bush was named Person of the Year in 2000.

        What's your choice?

        ------Date: 2004-12-17 20:14:00 Subject: ADDOCD

        I have ADDOCD which means I'm constantly changing what I'm obsessing about.

        -Dennis Miller

        ------Date: 2004-12-20 12:38:00 Subject: A poem for winter solstice

        I love the dark hours of my being.

        My mind deepens into them.

        There I can find, as in old letters, the days of my life, already lived, and held like a legend, and understood.

        Then the knowing comes: I can open to another life that's wide and timeless.

        So I am sometimes like a tree rustling over a gravesite and making real the dream of the one its living roots embrace:

        a dream once lost among sorrows and songs.

        ~ Ranier Maria Rilke ~

        (Rilke’s Book of Hours:Love Poems to God, translated by Anita Barrows and Joanna Macy)

        ------Date: 2004-12-20 12:39:00 Subject: Gold, common sense and fur

        Rev Daniel read this is church yesterday...

          My husband and I had been happily (most of the time) married for five years, but hadn't been blessed with a baby. I decided to do some serious praying and promised God that if He would give us a child, I would be a perfect mother, love it with all my heart and raise it with His word as my guide.

          God answered my prayers and blessed us with a son. The next year God blessed us with another son. The following year, he blessed us with yet another son. The year after that we were blessed with a daughter. My husband thought we'd been blessed right into poverty. We now had four children, and the oldest was only four years old. I learned never to ask God for anything unless I meant it. As a minister once told me, "If you pray for rain, make sure you carry an umbrella."

          I began reading a few verses of the Bible to the children each day as they lay in their cribs. I was off to a good start. God had entrusted me with four children and I didn't want to disappoint Him.

          I tried to be patient the day the children smashed two dozen eggs on the kitchen floor searching for baby chicks. I tried to be understanding when they started a hotel for homeless frogs in the spare bedroom, although it took me nearly two hours to catch all twenty-three frogs. When my daughter poured ketchup all over herself and rolled up in a blanket to see how it felt to be a hot dog, I tried to see the humor rather than the mess.

          In spite of changing over twenty-five thousand diapers, never eating a hot meal and never sleeping for more than thirty minutes at a time, I still thank God daily for my children.

          While I couldn't keep my promise to be a perfect mother, I didn't even come close, I did keep my promise to raise them in the Word of God. I knew I was missing the mark just a little when I told my daughter we were going to church to worship God, and she wanted to bring a bar of soap along to "wash up" Jesus, too.

          Something was lost in the translation when I explained that God gave us everlasting life, and my son thought it was generous of God to give us his "last wife."

          My proudest moment came during the children's Christmas pageant. My daughter was playing Mary, two of my sons were shepherds and my youngest son was a wise man. This was their moment to shine. My five-year-old shepherd had practiced his line, "We found the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes." But he was nervous and said, "The baby was wrapped in wrinkled clothes."

          My four-year-old "Mary" said, "That's not 'wrinkled clothes,' silly. That's dirty, rotten clothes." A wrestling match broke out between Mary and the shepherd and was stopped by an angel, who bent her halo and lost her left wing.

          I slouched a little lower in my seat when Mary dropped the doll representing Baby Jesus, and it bounced down the aisle crying, "Mama-mama." Mary grabbed the doll, wrapped it back up and held it tightly as the wise men arrived. My other son stepped forward wearing a bath robe and a paper crown, knelt at the manger and announced, "We are the three wise men, and we are bringing gifts of gold, common sense and fur."

          The congregation dissolved into laughter, and the pageant got a standing ovation. "I've never enjoyed a Christmas program as much as this one," Pastor Brian laughed, wiping tears from his eyes. "For the rest of my life, I'll never hear the Christmas story without thinking of gold, common sense and fur."

          "My children are my pride and my joy and my greatest blessing," I said as I dug through my purse for an aspirin.

        -By Linda C. Stafford ------Date: 2004-12-24 08:49:00 Subject: It doesn't get any better than this

        OK, it could, if one more granddaughter was here with me (but I'll usher in the new year with her next week). In the meantime, I'm having a great time celebrating Christmas with the JJs. It brings back the fun and excitement of many Christmases past with their mom (and her sibs) and the fun and excitement, and yes, hectic times we shared around this holiday.

        Merry Christmas Eve, you all.

        ------Date: 2004-12-26 20:15:00 Subject: The Objection To Being Stepped On

        -by Robert Frost - 1962

        At the end of the row

        I stepped on the toe

        Of an unemployed hoe.

        It rose in offense

        And struck me a blow

        In the seat of my sense.

        It wasn't to blame

        But I called it a name.

        And I must say it dealt

        Me a blow that I felt

        Like a malice prepense.

        You may call me a fool,

        But was there a rule

        The weapon should be Turned into a tool?

        And what do we see?

        The first tool I step on

        Turned into a weapon.

        ------Date: 2004-12-26 20:16:00 Subject: The Hardship of Accounting

        -by Robert Frost

        "Never ask of money spent

        Where the spender thinks it went

        Nobody was ever meant

        To remember or invent

        What he did with every cent"

        ...a good poem for post-Christmas, don't you think?

        ------Date: 2004-12-26 20:23:00 Subject: Power to the (blog) People

        James Lileks thinks blogs will replace opinion journalism altogether:

        The Internet is going to make gigs like this obsolete, once enough people realize that some guy in his basement is capable of turning out commentary as insightful as a tenured eminence who was handed a column 30 years ago and has spent the last 10 coasting on a scoop from the Reagan years.

        ------Date: 2004-12-27 16:56:00 Subject: Quote of the day

        I write to find out what I'm thinking - Joan Didion

        ------Date: 2004-12-27 22:29:00 Subject: Jessie and I play "Life"

        So we played Life Jr. and she took the non-college track and I took the college track (more earning potential was promised to me from the game instructions). At the end, she had 7.5 hundred thousand and I had way less than that! I watched as she patterned herself after her mom and dad, as she maneuvered through the game and made decisions..."they (her imaginery 4 kids) don't need summer camp" "I can home school the kids" "yay, I can buy an RV"....

        You really need to play this game...it teaches you all about values of your opponents.

        ------Date: 2004-12-28 21:37:00 Subject: She's going to bitch me out

        I went to the doctor today and had a blood test to see what horrendous level my cholesterol is at.

        I just know it's going to be bad, despite the Lipitor...

        Why, oh why, did I inherit this 'high cholesterol' gene?

        Anyway, I can't blame genes entirely...I do so love the cheesy, buttery things in life.

        Oh well, I will succumb to the usual 'new year' deal and say that I can do better in 2005.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Don't make me bitch you out either Mamala. :-(

        j/k

        Let me know if there's anything I can do to help out with healthy eating. Go Vegan. I've never met a vegan who didn't have good cholesterol counts.

        Jill Susan ------I was right, and she did. But she was justified. Triglycerides - 900! (150 or less is good)

        Cholesterol - 250! (despite the Lipitor)

        Basically, she told me if it's not green or grown in the ground, I can't eat it. :-(

        ------Date: 2004-12-28 21:47:00 Subject: Bye, bye Susan...I'll miss you

        Susan Sontag, the novelist, essayist and critic whose impassioned advocacy of the avant-garde and equally impassioned political pronouncements made her one of the most lionized presences - and one of the most polarizing - in 20th-century letters, died yesterday morning in Manhattan. She was 71 and lived in Manhattan.

        ------Date: 2004-12-28 21:50:00 Subject: Alexander the movie

        Daniel Mendelsohn on the subject, excellent as usual. (As a counterpoint, here's an unusually revealing interview with Oliver Stone on the film's, um, less-than-stellar reception.)

        ------Date: 2005-01-01 22:24:00 Subject: Politics and Prose

        I got to DC early yesterday so had time to go from the airport to Union Station on the Metro, check my bags, head out to the Van Ness/UDC stop on the Red Line and visit this really cool bookstore that I see authors touting their books on C-Span. I know, I'm a geek, especially when it comes to books. I admit it...I'm a book-a-holic, but guess I could have worse habits (and at one time or other, I probably did).

        Anyway, I spent the better part of 4 hours there, and just had a great time. If there is a heaven, for me, there will be a store just like this one, waiting for me there.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------*adds to places I must see* ------Date: 2005-01-01 22:28:00 Subject: C, J & J

        I've had a great holiday season. Not only have I had time to spend with 3/4 of my children, but I've had the best time with my grandkids. I especially like bath time and seeing their wonderfully perfect little bodies in the warm water (with temperatures outside frosty) and seeing them delight in play. C got crayons to use to color the sides of the tub (I'm wondering if this doesn't cause some disconnect somewhere if she decides later on to use them or the real crayons on the wall in other parts of the house). J & J still enjoy a bath together, although it's getting harder and harder for them to both have room enough to move. They splash and play together so well, that it will certainly be sad when they do decide that because of size or modesty, it's time for separate bathtimes.

        Is it just because of the Aquarian in me that delights in this bathtime play of my wonderful offsprings' offspring?

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------yes....the torch MUST be passed post haste.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------We need to get those 3 kids together in a bath tub for the classic "see-no-evil, hear-no-evil, speak-no-evil" picture.

        ------Date: 2005-01-01 22:35:00 Subject: Too soon old, too late smart

        "Any relationship is under the control of the person who cares the least"

        ------Date: 2005-01-02 13:24:00 Subject: How I learned to stop worrying and love Christmas

        My DC daughter was down (as in 'blue funk') last night, now that the holidays are nearly over. It's a feeling that I've had time and time again, so I recognize her feelings well. I've been 'round and 'round with my attitude about the Christmas season, but I've finally grown into really liking the season. As they say at the end of an AA meeting, "take what you like, and leave the rest" and I do that about Christmas.

        Maybe it's the unitarian influence that I've grabbed onto as my pastor likes to emphasize the winter solstice and the season of lights this time of year. I like that. I can now really, really enjoy all the lights lit up on architecture and trees, no matter how tacky or classy. Or maybe it's the reds and the greens and the golds and the silvers. I'm a "winter" as the cosmeticians say so those colors really, really appeal to me, even though I'm a sucker for the golds and oranges of fall. Seeing those big red bows on things, or shiny ribbons hanging from things you don't normally see ribbons hanging from, are a delight.

        It's a time when it's really ok to goof off a little. People at work are using up the last of their vacation time and the company I'm working with this Christmas season decided it was a good idea to let all of us that are there and holding down the fort wear jeans the last two weeks of 2004. Those "casual days" at work have translated into "occasional work" at work, just because we can.

        Last, but certainly not least, the holidays are a good excuse for me to indulge in things that I wouldn't normally indulge in... things like un-guilty time spent with my grandkids and kids (normally, I'm thinking about what I *should* be doing, but the holidays give me permission to let go of that), the latest holiday epicurean delight (I'm basking in the wonderful smells right now of a homemade marble chiffon cake, made by my son-in-law to celebrate the birth of my #1 child 33 years ago). My biggest indulgence, however, is in the optimism I feel for this new year that is just a little over a day old. It's going to be a good year, one day at a time.

        User Comments:

        Martha http://msongbird.blogspot.com ------I never fully appreciated Christmas lights until I moved to dark, dark Maine. Growing up in Southeastern Virginia and in Northern Virginia, I just didn't experience the same level of darkness, of shortness of day. And for me it's the white lights. Somehow the white twined in the evergreen is magical to me.

        ------Date: 2005-01-02 14:12:00 Subject: How MaDear stole Christmas

        So I wanted to help out, but it's not always easy when you're at someone else's house, even if that someone else is you're very own daughter.

        I decided I'd help take down and put away the holiday decorations. It would be fun, I thought, to have C help me. We started with the ceramic Christmas tree I made ages ago that has little different colored plastic birds placed on it. C really got into it...she was most proficient and enjoyed the task until I started putting the tree itself into the box for storage. "No, MaDear!" she said, as I tried to explain to her that it was time for the decorations to go bye-bye. It then dawned on me that maybe I really, really didn't want her to associate *me* with the end of the fun and magic of Christmas so together we re-decorated the tree and played with the birds and sang "Jingle Bells" one more time.

        User Comments:

        Martha http://msongbird.blogspot.com ------A very wise choice, in my opinion. You make me miss my mom. She died before my daughter was born, but she was just the best sort of grandmother with my sons. I have a great picture of her with my oldest when he was about 4. They had spent the morning building a replica of the Peaks Island, Maine, ferry landing out of blocks, shells, driftwood and toy cars.

        Thanks for sharing your sweet story.

        Matthew ------ya big push over. ;-)

        ------Date: 2005-01-05 12:34:00 Subject: passage

        Christopher Hitchens, in a eulogy of Susan Sontag, wrote the following:

          Between the word "public" and the word "intellectual" there falls, or ought to fall, a shadow. The life of the cultivated mind should be private, reticent, discreet: Most of its celebrations will occur with no audience, because there can be no applause for that moment when the solitary reader gets up and paces round the room, having just noticed the hidden image in the sonnet, or the profane joke in the devotional text, or the secret message in the prison diaries. Individual pleasure of this kind is only rivaled when the same reader turns into a writer, and after a long wrestle until daybreak hits on his or her own version of the mot juste, or the unmasking of pretension, or the apt, latent literary connection, or the satire upon tyranny.

        Writers of the world, take a bow!

        ------Date: 2005-01-07 23:30:00 Subject: Driving by Brookhaven

        Part of my Associate Degree from El Centro came from classes I took at Brookhaven, a college in Farmers Branch that is part of the Dallas County Community College District.

        So tonight I'm driving home from work and as I pass by Brookhaven, I note the sign out on the east side of the campus. It reads "Want a new carrer? Come to the free real estate seminar."

        Oh surely this was just a case of running out of E's. By the time I round the curve and come to the front entrance sign on the south side, I look hopefully at the sign. Again, it's wanting me to come to a real estate seminar to obtain a new carrer.

        Again, I can always hope they just ran out of E's. But what I am thinking is that whoever put up those letters, just didn't know.

        ------Date: 2005-01-08 23:12:00 Subject: Do yourself a favor...

        ...go see "A Very Long Engagement"

        ------Date: 2005-01-11 08:46:00 Subject: Hello darkness, my old friend

          Hello darkness, my old friend. I've come to talk with you again.

          Because a vision softly creeping left its seeds while I was sleeping and the vision that was planted in my brain still remains within the sound of silence.

          In restless dreams I walked alone, narrow streets of cobblestone

          ‘neath the halo of a street lamp, I turned my collar to the cold and damp when my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light that split the night and touched the sound of silence.

          And in the naked light I saw ten thousand people, maybe more.

          People talking without speaking, people hearing without listening.

          People writing songs that voices never shared, no one dared disturb the sound of silence.

          "Fools," said I, "you do not know, silence like a cancer grows.

          Hear my words that I might teach you, take my arms that I might reach you."

          But my words like silent raindrops fell and echoed in the wells of silence.

          And the people bowed and prayed to the neon god they made and the sign flashed out its warning in the words that it was forming.

          And the sign said "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls and tenement halls and whispered in the sound of silence."

        - Paul Simon, Art Garfunkel I treated myself to "Old Friends Live on Stage" CD recently and have been enjoying it tremendously during my commute to work. It reminds me of the MTV Unplugged series (back when it was good). Give it a listen, especially if you're a boomer, and want to be brought back. It doesn't get any better than this.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------I always like it when musicians can put aside their differences for their fans. Kudos to them for doing so.

        Mr. Cloudy ------Couldn't agree more. Put this song together with "Bridge" and "I am a Rock" and name me 5 other of the Rock era who have a better trio. The list would be very short in my book.

        ------Date: 2005-01-12 16:16:00 Subject: I have one, but I still think it's silly

        So how far are we going to take these 'cause ribbons' on our cars?

        You see them for "Support our Troops" and "God Bless the USA". Recently, I saw one that was brown and had little paw prints on it and said "Rescue". Then I saw one this morning on a car that was a dainty pink one with no words on it so I'm thinking either the words faded or it was assumed that all would know by now that it's for breast cancer. I haven't seen any red ones yet (for HIV/AIDS) but I'm sure they are around.

        The one that graces the left side bumper of my car is teal in color and says "Ovarian Cancer Awareness" which my sister bought for me at the O-Cancer fun run last fall. At this point, if my sister with cancer asked me to wear it on my face, I probably would. Thankfully, she didn't and I put it where it belongs...on my car.

        But I still think these are kinda silly.

        User Comments:

        Jill ------Breast cancer's not silly...no cancer is.

        But putting a ribbon magnet on your car is, IMO.

        Jamie ------I have one of the referenced "dainty pink" ones. It is for breast cancer and I don't think it is silly. anya ------i think we should make up some little ribbon stickers that have "no more ribben stickers!" written on them. people might even buy them! extra points if they completely miss the irony ;)

        ------Date: 2005-01-14 20:45:00 Subject: Breyer v. Scalia

        I know...I'm a neek (that's a combination of Geek/Nerd.)

        If you didn't see the Scalia/Breyer show on C-Span yesterday, you missed a good one.

        Check it out on their website.

        User Comments:

        Mamala ------This was all about using Foreign Law to base opinions on cases in our country. They sat in 'easy chairs' and just had a conversation, and really, it was fascinating to see these 2 brilliant men and their interchange.

        This isn't a really good Cliffs Notes summary, but it's all I have. You just need to watch it. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------How about the Cliffs Notes version?

        Busily yours,

        RM

        ------Date: 2005-01-17 21:20:00 Subject: I have a dream

        Martin Luther King, Jr.: "I Have a Dream"

        delivered

        28 August 1963, at the Lincoln Memorial, Washington D.C.

        I am happy to join with you today in what will go down in history as the greatest demonstration for freedom in the history of our nation.

        Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand today, signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves, who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of their captivity.

        But one hundred years later, the Negro still is not free. One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languished in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land. And so we've come here today to dramatize a shameful condition.

        In a sense we have come to our nation's capital to cash a check.

        When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every

        American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed the unalienable rights of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note, insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation,

        America has given the Negro people a bad check, a check which has come back marked

        "insufficient funds."

        But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation. And so we have come to cash this check, a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice.

        We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of Now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to make real the promises of democracy. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quicksands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood. Now is the time to make justice a reality for all of God's children.

        It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment. This sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end but a beginning. Those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if  the nation returns to business as usual.

        There will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights. The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges.

        But there is something that I must say to my people who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice. In the process of gaining our rightful place we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred. We must ever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force.

        The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to a distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny. And they have come to realize that their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom. We cannot walk alone.

        And as we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall always march ahead. We cannot turn back. There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights,

        "When will you be satisfied?" We can never be satisfied as long as the Negro is the victim of the unspeakable horrors of police brutality. We can never be satisfied as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We cannot be satisfied as long as a Negro in

        Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote.

        No, no, we are not satisfied and we will not be satisfied until justice rolls down like waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.

        martinlutherkingIhaveadream2.jpg

        I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow jail cells. Some of you have come from areas where your quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecutions and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive.

        Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to South Carolina, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed. Let us not wallow in the valley of despair, I say to you today, my friends. And so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

        I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: We hold these truths to be self-evident that all men are created equal.

        I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.

        I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.

        I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. I have a dream today!

        I have a dream that one day, down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of interposition and nullification; one day right down in Alabama little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers. I have a dream today!

        I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, and every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed and all flesh shall see it together.

        This is our hope. This is the faith that I will go back to the South with. With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day. And this will be the day, this will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with new meaning, "My country 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the Pilgrim's pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring!" And if

        America is to be a great nation, this must become true.

                        

        And so let freedom ring -- from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire.

                        

        Let freedom ring -- from the mighty mountains of New York.

                        

        Let freedom ring -- from the heightening Alleghenies of

                        

        Pennsylvania.

                        

        Let freedom ring -- from the snow-capped Rockies of Colorado.

                        

        Let freedom ring -- from the curvaceous slopes of California.

                        

        But not only that.

                         Let freedom ring -- from Stone Mountain of Georgia.

                        

        Let freedom ring -- from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee.

                        

        Let freedom ring -- from every hill and molehill of Mississippi,

                         from every mountainside, let freedom ring!

        And when this happens, when we allow freedom to ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual,

                        

        "Free at last, free at last.

                        

        Thank God Almighty, we are free at last."

        User Comments:

        Lisa http://www.lisamanzi.com ------Thanks for posting that, i don't think i've ever read the entire text.

        Matthew ------changed

        Matthew ------I agree with Revmom's assesment. His letters from a Birmingham Jail should be like a bible to any good activist, or anyone who hopes to change the world. I don't remember if it was from that essay or not, but he made a direct plea with his fellow clergy folk to use their churches as lightning rods for social change. That really stuck with me for some reason. Good stuff. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------There was a great op/ed in the Post this weekend about how people sometimes over-emphasize the I Have a Dream speech, as gloriously good and rhetorically powerful as it is. And what people really need to read along with "Dream" is Letter from a Birmingham Jail, which presents the other, perhaps more real, messy and difficult side of the struggle for civil rights. It's a brilliant, intellectual work that talks about the complacency and silence of the "good people" being more problematic than the evil words of the "bad people."

        I'm not saying that's what you're doing in printing the speech here, but I just thought it was interesting.

        ------Date: 2005-01-19 20:02:00 Subject: Magic

        I've been in a lock-in with high level IT managers at the company I've been contracting with all week. It's exciting to see how dedicated they are to their company and their career. When the clock rolls around to 6 PM (when we started out at 8 AM sharp) and they say, shocked "that they can't believe it's 6 PM already" I have to admire not only their work ethic, but their dedication to get the job done and done well.

        Yes, it's a form of magic to me.

        ------Date: 2005-01-22 23:06:00 Subject: Lock-in/Lock-out

        I've had the week from hell/heaven, ok, I'm glad to have a job. I was at my consultant job from early, early morning to late, late evening every day this past week. Today, I had a workshop at my church from 9-3 and when I got home at about 5, I thought I'd had an early day.

        Life is good.

        ------Date: 2005-01-24 19:28:00 Subject: What part of >>> do you not understand?

        I think I speak pretty clearly and don't use long words or anything like that.

        Recently it has come to my attention that I have too much on my plate, so to speak. In doing an inventory of my extra-curricular activities, I was honest with myself and decided that I would drop the things that I'm currently doing that don't bring me 'joy'.

        One of these that qualified was maintaining a website for a local mediator group (one that I haven't attended in at least a couple of years). Another was my homeowner's association board position. I've dropped them both. Before I could even resign the mediation position I got an email from the chapter president saying that she realized that I was soooo busy and that she had found someone to take my place.

        Yay! I didn't have to quit! They had replaced me before I would even have the chance to let them down. Life was good.

        So I met at a local Starbucks for the big handoff. I had my laptop, my thumb disk filled with files, and I was ready to hand the website over to this willing volunteer.

        I knew I was in trouble when she asked me "What is this .html file extension on these files? What does that mean?" But she had done a family website using a site builder so I just encouraged her to go forward with the technology that she was familiar with. Life was still good, but getting worse.

        Today, I get an email from her saying that they like the site that I did, they don't want to change anything, that she wants to know what application I used for developing the site (Dreamweaver..., not your totally user friendly app, for the novice) and when we could get together again for me to train her on this new tool.

        Aaack!!!

        So now I'm spending part of my time tonight composing in my head an email response to her that basically asks "what part of 'I don't have time' did you not understand?'"

        User Comments:

        Mamala/MaDear ------Yes...I'll stay strong. J & J here (with their Mom and Dad) are incentive enough. I wrote the tough email this morning explaining that I would only be available via email and that it had, indeed, taken me "years to learn about websites" so perhaps, they really need to put in the hours and move on (without me).

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------Be strong!!!! Be strong!!! Say no!!!! I'm proud of you for doing this. And you need extra spare time for when your oldest two grandkids live there for a few months.

        Maggie http://journalscape.com/maggie ------Exactly.

        This is where NMP (not my problem) is very effective, though there's probably more polite ways to put it....

        Good luck with emptying your plate.

        ------Date: 2005-01-24 19:48:00 Subject: Finding Neverland

        This is truly a case where the trailer defies what a great movie this is!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------One of the year's best IMO!

        ------Date: 2005-01-24 20:13:00 Subject: Loss

        From Andrew Sullivan...

        WHATEVER, HE SMILED: When a sister loses her brother to AIDS, a world cracks. And now, a blog can express the grief and peer forward in hope. Hang in there, Lizzie. Keep the faith. Do you know Leonard Cohen's song, "The Anthem"? It helped me get through my own AIDS deaths.

        ------Date: 2005-01-28 15:37:00 Subject: For my children, on January 28, 2005

        A Summer Day -by Mary Oliver

          Who made the world?

          Who made the swan, and the black bear?

          Who made the grasshopper?

          This grasshopper, I mean - the one who has flung herself out of the grass, the one who is eating sugar out of my hand, who is moving her jaws back and forth instead of up and down - who is gazing around with her enormous and complicated eyes.

          Now she lifts her pale forearms and thoroughly washes her face.

          Now she snaps her wings open, and floats away.

          I don't know exactly what a prayer is.

          I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down into the grass, how to kneel down in the grass, how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields, which is what I have been doing all day.

          Tell me, what else should I have done?

          Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?

          Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Mary Oliver kicks so much ass.

        ------Date: 2005-01-30 23:47:00 Subject: Quote of the Day

        "Are you a Sunni or a Shiite?" "I'm an Iraqi."

        ------Date: 2005-02-04 20:53:00 Subject: This feels so good; why don't I do it more often?

        Now that I have your attention, I have been exercising lately, back to my routine, at least 30 minutes a day. So far, my blood pressure has gone down 10 points, I wake up feeling alive, the endorphins kick in during/right after my walk, and life is good.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Exerc..what????

        never heard of it.

        Jill ------I'm doing it in the evening. I just can't move in the morning and have finally given up trying to...morning person, I'm not. If the weather is good, I'll walk around the complex, and if not, I'll hit the gym about 8ish. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------What time of day are you doing it?

        Sounds great! I know that once I get the initial push past the inertia I will feel the same. It's the first step that's always the hardest.

        Katieg ------Hmmm... I'll just have to take your word for it. :-)

        ------Date: 2005-02-08 08:37:00 Subject: "Darn, I got a green one"

        Or so 'says' my dog Marina this morning as I handed her the green Milk Bone dog biscuit before I left for work. Well, really, she handles it pretty well. But I'd be pissed.

        You see, I buy the Milk Bones that come in 5 delicious flavors...Peanut Butter, Bacon, Beef, Chicken and VEGETABLE. Now I'm thinking that dogs love all these flavors, except for VEGETABLE. Maybe I'm wrong.

        But as I randomly reach into the box for treats for Jack and Marina each morning, all the biscuits are pleasing colors of light tan, dark tan, beige, ivory and GREEN. There is no disguising the VEGETABLE flavored one or trying to say I didn't notice that the dog that got this one just got cheated!

        And to top it all off, and this is slightly gross, I'll 'see' it again as I'm a good neighbor and pooper scoop the slightly greenish-tinged pet waste.

        I'm thinking this kind of disappointment is much like the disappointment I feel when I get a center piece of a flat-sheet birthday cake, the "pan-side pieces" of brownies, a bowl of Raisin Bran with no raisins, or a handful of mixed nuts with just peanuts!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Poor Marina. Don't make me come get my dog! ;-)

        Mr. Cloudy ------Very funny and too true. I can just imagine the inner dog dialogue: I rolled over for this?!?

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------And what I don't get it is that Mom likes the heel of bread, so why did we ever have to get stuck with it???

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------But how would you know that you got the heel when it was so cleverly hidden?

        MaryAnn ------Not to mention when you're a kid and you get a sandwich with the heel of the bread...

        No, I'm not at all bitter.

        ------Date: 2005-02-10 12:41:00 Subject: From where I sit...

        ...I can see people coming and going downstairs from their cars to the parking garage. I try not to spend too much time doing this, but there are just some days when I sense the movements and turn to look.

        Several times a day, a woman comes in riding a motorized wheelchair. She appears healthy (although she is extremely overweight) and generally looks pretty good natured. I always wonder what put her there, in that wheelchair, and say a little prayer that "there, but for the grace of god, go I."

        Today, when I went down to the company cafe to grab a bite to eat, I noticed that a motorized wheelchair was plugged into an outlet near the cafe.

        And there she was, standing in the line for her food. After getting her order, she walked over, seemingly effortlessly, to the drink fountain to grab a super-size Regular Coke.

        As I got my food and walked by the wheelchair again, I noticed a pack of Marlboros in her basket.

        I'm trying not to be judgmental because I really despise that part of me.

        User Comments:

        Luna ------I know just what you mean. Sometimes I just want to say, "stop putting junk in your body, it's not good for you!", but then I remember that they're adults and that it's not polite to yell...

        :)

        Keith http://www.journalscape.com/keithsnyder/ ------I don't quite understand. Are you assuming that the cigarettes somehow put her in the wheelchair? reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Are you judgmental of your judgmental nature?

        ------Date: 2005-02-10 16:34:00 Subject: It sucks to be second! According to Scotsman.com

          after her marriage [to Prince Charles], Camilla Parker Bowles will become the most senior female royal behind the Queen. As HRH Duchess of Cornwall, Camilla will take precedence within the Royal Family as the wife of the Prince of Wales and heir to the throne.

          But unlike her sister-in-law the Princess Royal, her importance solely relies upon marriage.

          She will have no constitutional role but will be invited to state and national occasions at the Queen’s invitation.

          She will not be known as the Princess of Wales, a title which for many people worldwide still conjures up memories of the Prince’s popular first wife, the late Diana, Princess of Wales.

          When he becomes King, she will be known as Princess Consort.

        Conjures up a great image, doesn't it?

        ------Date: 2005-02-16 15:12:00 Subject: Does God owe us an apology?

        From the March 2005 issue of the Progressive, comes this by Barbara Ehrenreich

        God Owes Us and Apology

          The tsunami of sea water was followed instantly by a tsunami of spittle as the religious sputtered to rationalize God's latest felony. Here we'd been placidly killing each other a few dozen at a time in Iraq, Darfur, Congo, Israel, and Palestine, when along comes the deity and whacks a quarter million in a couple of hours between breakfast and lunch. On CNN, NPR, Fox News, and in newspaper articles too numerous for Nexis to count, men and women of the cloth weighed in solemnly on His existence, His motives, and even His competence to continue as Ruler of Everything.

          Theodicy, in other words--the attempt to reconcile God's perfect goodness with the manifest evils of His world--has arisen from the waves. On the retro, fundamentalist, side, various men of the cloth announced that the tsunami was the rational act of a deity enraged by (take your pick): the suppression of Christianity in South Asia, pornography and child-trafficking in that same locale, or, in the view of some Muslim commentators, the bikini-clad tourists at Phuket.

          On the more liberal end of the theological spectrum, God's spokespeople hastened to stuff their fingers in the dike even as the floodwaters of doubt washed over it. Of course, God exists, seems to be the general consensus. And, of course, He is perfectly good. It's just that his jurisdiction doesn't extend to tectonic plates. Or maybe it does and He tosses us an occasional grenade like this just to see how quickly we can mobilize to clean up the damage. Besides, as the Catholic priests like to remind us, "He's a 'mystery' "--though that's never stopped them from pronouncing His views on abortion with absolute certainty.

          The clerics who are struggling to make sense of the tsunami must not have noticed that this is hardly the first display of God's penchant for wanton, homicidal mischief. Leaving out man-made genocide, war, and even those "natural" disasters, like drought and famine, to which "man" invariably contributes through his inept social arrangements, God has a lot to account for in the way of earthquakes, hurricanes, tornadoes, and plagues. Nor has He ever shown much discrimination in his choice of victims. A tsunami hit Lisbon in 1755, on All Saints Day, when the good Christians were all in church. The faithful perished, while the denizens of the red light district, which was built on strong stone, simply carried on sinning. Similarly, last fall's hurricanes flattened the God-fearing, Republican parts of Florida while sparing sin-soaked Key West and South Beach.

          The Christian-style "God of love" should be particularly vulnerable to post-tsunami doubts. What kind of "love" inspired Him to wrest babies from their parents' arms, the better to drown them in a hurry? If He so loves us that He gave his only son etc., why couldn't he have held those tectonic plates in place at least until the kids were off the beach? So much, too, for the current pop- Christian God, who can be found, at least on the Internet, micro-managing people's careers, resolving marital spats, and taking excess pounds off the faithful--this last being Pat Robertson's latest fixation.

          If we are responsible for our actions, as most religions insist, then God should be, too, and I would propose, post-tsunami, an immediate withdrawal of prayer and other forms of flattery directed at a supposedly moral deity--at least until an apology is issued, such as, for example: "I was so busy with Cindy-in-Omaha's weight-loss program that I wasn't paying attention to the Earth's crust."

          It's not just Christianity. Any religion centered on a God who is both all-powerful and all-good, including Islam and the more monotheistically inclined versions of Hinduism, should be subject to a thorough post-tsunami evaluation. As many have noted before me: If God cares about our puny species, then disasters prove that he is not all-powerful; and if he is all-powerful, then clearly he doesn't give a damn.

          In fact, the best way for the religious to fend off the atheist threat might be to revive the old bad-- or at least amoral and indifferent--gods. The tortured notion of a God who is both good and powerful is fairly recent, dating to roughly 1200 BC, after which Judaism, Christianity, Buddhism, and Islam emerged. Before that, you had the feckless Greco-Roman pantheon, whose members interfered in human events only when their considerable egos were at stake. Or you had monstrous, human-sacrifice-consuming, psycho-gods like Ba'al and his Central American counterparts. Even earlier, as I pointed out in my book Blood Rites, there were prehistoric god (desses) modeled on man-eating animals like lions, and requiring a steady diet of human or animal sacrificial flesh.

          The faithful will protest that they don't want to worship a bad--or amoral or indifferent--God, but obviously they already do. Why not acknowledge what our prehistoric ancestors knew? If the Big Guy or Gal operates in any kind of moral framework, it has nothing to do with the rules we've come up with over the eons as primates attempting to live in groups-- rules like, for example, "no hitting."

          Yes, 12/26 was a warning, though not about the hazards of wearing bikinis. What it comes down to is that we're up shit creek here on the planet Earth. We're wide open to asteroid hits, with the latest near-miss coming in October, when a city-sized one passed within a mere million miles of Earth, which is just four times the distance between the Earth and the moon. Then, too, it's only a matter of time before the constant shuffling of viral DNA results in a global pandemic. And 12/26 was a reminder that the planet itself is a jerry-rigged affair, likely to keep belching and lurching. Even leaving out global warming and the possibility of nuclear war, this is not a good situation, in case you hadn't noticed so far.

          If there is a God, and He, She, or It had a message for us on 12/26, that message is: Get your act together, folks--your seismic detection systems, your first responders and global mobilization capacity--because no one, and I do mean no One, is coming to medi-vac us out of here.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy ------I think she makes a lot of good points that most of the religious people in our country still have not wrestled with. So, they are old points in a way -- been around for a while -- but for as long as they have been around, there are still millions who live insulated from them and worship precisely the kind of God she runs through the grinder. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Sigh. Barbara Ehrenreich has gotten really tedious in recent years. What does she want us to say? Yes, dear. You're absolutely right. You have penetrated my dense religion-poisoned, logic- deprived brain and I now see the light, thank God (whoops, old habits die hard).

        This was also a rather thinly-veiled crib of a Slate article that came out right after the disaster called "Boycott God." I guess that in itself is evidence that this argument has gone on forever and very little new is said on either side.

        ------Date: 2005-02-19 22:04:00 Subject: I saw him at a glance

        I walked today on the golfing green track and saw a guy that looked just like him, back when he was 12 or so, back when he was talking to me, back when I thought nothing could tear us apart. He had shorts on, and a t-shirt, and curly hair. When he passed by me he waived and smiled. It was familiar and it felt good.

        ------Date: 2005-02-27 21:25:00 Subject: What was I thinking? when I purchased this CD?

        I had a $5 gift coupon that was burning a hole in my pocket so I hit Best Buy on my way home from a great mediator conference yesterday.

        I immediately started with the Metallica aisle as I always do to see if something new had come out as I love those boys!

        But seeing nothing there I veered over to the cover groups that do Metallica and came across this CD which I snatched up and bought.

        Again, what was I thinking?....

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------What were you thinking? ;-)

        I can't wait to hear it, honestly.

        Jillsusan ------Yeah, that makes me feel better about my purchase, and maybe it'll grow on me, but on initial hearing, I'm not a believer yet. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------It got great Amazon reviews!

        ------Date: 2005-03-06 23:17:00 Subject: Bank building

        It's likely that if I pass a building project in a commercial/business part of Dallas that it will be a new bank building going up.

        What's up with that?

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Everytime I see broken ground, I always wonder if maybe they're building the long hoped for Fuddruckers restaurant that Denton sorely needs, but alas, it is another Bank or Credit Union.

        Is there no justice?

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------The same thing is happening here. Banks and credit unions are popping up on every corner. I don't get it either.

        ------Date: 2005-03-06 23:19:00 Subject: Prime Minister's Questions

        I'm watching Tony Blair and the British House of Commons on C-span and thinking how wonderful it would be if our very own congress and president went through such a regular exercise.

        Something tells me if you could get them to do it, it wouldn't be nearly as much fun, or informative as the Brits do it.

        In my next life, I want to be British.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Nix the next life part, and go British now. Then you can hang out with Gwynneth Paltrow and Madonna. :-)

        ------Date: 2005-03-08 11:02:00 Subject: Quote of the day

        A non-violent revolution is not a program of seizure of power. It is a program of transformation of relationships, ending in a peaceful transfer of power. - Gandhi User Comments:

        Matthew ------In response to ImaPinkBubble:

        *in Dr. Evil voice*

        "Rrrrrriiiight!"

        ImAPinkBubble http://www.journalscape.com/ImAPinkBubble/ ------Really? Well my commetn of the day is

        MWAHAHAHA I am an evil cupcake - which Im quite proud of shouting it out at the top of my voice in French lesson :P

        ------Date: 2005-03-17 23:21:00 Subject: Oh, how I've been there...

        So I'm watching C-span and the hearing with Porter Goss and the committee. You see Porter reading his statement and behind him sits his aids. And one of them is so wanting to listen and look alert, but alas, he's just not able to stay awake through the whole affair. He does all the things we all do. He looks around. But his eyelids droop.

        I'm getting sleepy just looking at this poor guy...

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/notshychirev ------Or one of my little old ladies on Sunday...bless her heart. Nothing deflates pastoral ego like someone dozing off during the Easter sermon.

        Matthew ------Sounds like a college kid during the last few weeks of school.

        ------Date: 2005-03-23 11:46:00 Subject: The Woman in Jesus's life So, what's the deal?

        I have "air-miles" complimentary subscriptions to Newsweek, Time and US News and World Reports and they all have articles about Mary and how protestants are embracing her.

        Having been a Catholic, I know she was honored. But I don't remember her 'not' being honored while I was a Protestant.

        Now, I'm a Unitarian and we honor everyone (or not). ;-)

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/notshychirev ------I remember hearing, in my Baptist church growing up, that Mary was a vessel.

        It's hard to see a vessel as a hero. I think the more work we do with out folks about what the social and political climate of the 1st Century was, people will have a chance to see what a hero Mary was. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Mr. Cloudy, do you have a blog? I'd read it.

        Mr. Cloudy ------I remember reading how the protestant reformation de-populated the spiritual universe (I think maybe it was a brief note by Peter Brown somewhere) because it tended to obliterate veneration of the saints of the church among its adherents. While protestantism promoted a more direct relation to God, it perhaps had the unintended consequence of making the world almost seem less friendly to those who know themselves as having shortcomings. I wonder if there isn't a reclamation going on that will restore the saints in general as a way of personalizing religion -- providing us with a variety of persons/personalities/real human beings to fellowship with.? Although Jesus is said to be fully human by the church, the claim that he was divine puts a certain space between him and us. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Mary is certainly not vilified in Protestant circles, but is largely ignored as a biblical hero in her own right (as opposed to just the woman who bore Jesus).

        ------Date: 2005-03-29 10:21:00 Subject: It's all in how you look at it

        As I was filling the gas tank in my VW the other day, I watched the ticker climb higher and higher until it stopped at almost $25! Aaaack! With gas well over $2.00/gallon, I guess I just better get used to it and like it.

        Helping me to get perspective on this matter comes recent guests on Charlie Rose. According to Vijay Vaithees, after all, gasoline is still the cheapest liquid sold at your neighborhood gas station/quik-e-mart.

        OK, but somehow when I plunk down a dollar for a 20 oz. Diet Vanilla Coke, it doesn't seem all that bad.

        Guess I'm going to have to have an attitude adjustment...

        User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg ------It was interesting how many gas stations I passed on the way up here last weekend that had "$.06" as the price for the gas. In other words, they did not have a way to put a "2" in the price (there was only space for a 1). I can just imagine the conversation when they erected the signs.... "We can just put a 1 up there... the price will never reach $2!"

        NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/NotShyChiRev/ ------When you own, or operate, every step of the process from the ground to the pump, as most of the majors do, you can make huge profits even with the lower prices...

        In town this morning, at one of the admittedly highest stations in ChiTown, I saw medium grade gas for 2.42 a gallon!

        ------Date: 2005-03-29 22:06:00 Subject: Gilda's Place

        I went to Gilda's Place with Sherry this evening to hear a talk about nutrition. It's a really neat place and right in my favorite part of town, near downtown.

        We heard a talk about nutrition and as I sat there and listened and observed the women with cancer and their desire to do whatever it takes to get rid of it, I thought about how I take my good health for granted so much of the time and how I abuse my body with food and drink more than I care to admit.

        It's enough to make me want to eat the entire Ben and Jerry's and get wasted!

        ------Date: 2005-03-31 10:07:00 Subject: Perfection Is there anything more perfect in this world than the purple tulips outlining my path to work?

        Oh yes, my children and grandchildren.

        But today, those purple tulips came in a close second.

        ------Date: 2005-03-31 10:31:00 Subject: One person

        To the world you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world.

        Terri Schiavo, rest in peace.

        ------Date: 2005-03-31 23:49:00 Subject: Back to my unit

        That's what I hear from the soldiers that have lost limbs in Iraq on C-Span this week.

        How can that be? These guys and gals are learning to deal with prosthesis and have given 'all' to their country, but yet, as they recover in Walter Reed, they strive to heal so they can get back to their unit in country.

        Heroes? Yes, they are!

        ------Date: 2005-04-03 14:58:00 Subject: Shopping with C

        So I was determined to buy a toy for C, my DC granddaughter.

        We found an Elmo puzzle that looked exciting to her, but it had over 25 pieces and said it was for 3+ years (C's just turned 2).

        Searching further, we found all kinds of toys with bells and whistles and sounds and flashing lights. She looked at them from afar and was intrigued but said "NO!" as I brought them closer to her reach.

        It looked like the search might not succeed, when, on our way out of the toy department I saw hoola hoops hanging on the wall. We had just played with one the day before at KinderMusic, learning all kinds of imaginative ways to play with this simple toy. She was delighted when I showed it to her and she couldn't have been happier.

        Sometimes (most time, probably) simple is best!

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/NotShyChiRev/ ------Excellent taste for a toddler.

        But with all those amazing genes, who could doubt it?

        Matthew ------Kudos to C for keepin it real with the oldies and goodies.

        ------Date: 2005-04-06 17:16:00 Subject: Woodstock

        I came upon a child of god

        He was walking along the road

        And I asked him, where are you going

        And this he told me

        I’m going on down to yasgur’s farm

        I’m going to join in a rock ’n’ roll band

        I’m going to camp out on the land

        I’m going to try an’ get my soul free

        We are stardust

        We are golden

        And we’ve got to get ourselves

        Back to the garden

        Then can I walk beside you

        I have come here to lose the smog

        And I feel to be a cog in something turning

        Well maybe it is just the time of year Or maybe it’s the time of man

        I don’t know who l am

        But you know life is for learning

        We are stardust

        We are golden

        And we’ve got to get ourselves

        Back to the garden

        By the time we got to woodstock

        We were half a million strong

        And everywhere there was song and celebration

        And I dreamed I saw the bombers

        Riding shotgun in the sky

        And they were turning into butterflies

        Above our nation

        We are stardust

        Billion year old carbon

        We are golden

        Caught in the devil’s bargain

        And we’ve got to get ourselves

        Back to the garden

        -Joni Mitchell

        User Comments: matthew ------I stand corrected. Great song.

        Random Crosby, Stills, and Nash trivia...Woodstock was their first live performance. Talk about a grand entrance. :-) Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Interestingly, Paglia said Joni was slammed for the lines about "bombers turning into butterflies" for being too idealistic.

        sigh

        Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------They did the "famous" version. Joni wrote it. I was listening to Camille Paglia today on Bob Edward's radio show and she has picked it as one of her top 43 favorite poems and she played Joni's version of it...quite lovely.

        Matthew ------I thought that was a Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young song. I could be wrong though. Either way, it's a great song.

        ------Date: 2005-04-08 10:52:00 Subject: Planned Parenthood

        Having a sister with ovarian cancer, my family practice MD no longer wants to do "well-woman" checkups on me and referred me to several OB/GYNs in the area. One was going to take up to 4 months to schedule an appointment, the other about 3 months if I was willing to see her nurse practitioner.

        This kind of stuff is what brought me to my family practice MD in the first place. After all, I was way past the baby-making business and couldn't just about anyone do this? Well, I guess not.

        What to do? I remember working with a gal that got her yearly checkups at Planned Parenthood (PP). She said that they were cheap and she felt OK about the exams she got there. She told me this several years ago, but the information was stowed away in the back regions of my mind, I guess.

        So, after hearing of the long waits at the private Drs, I was shocked and surprised when I called PP and they could see me the very next day and at the early morning hour that I preferred.

        I went today and I must say that I was VERY happy with the exam that I received. The nurse practitioner that I saw was about my age, very friendly, and willing to actually listen to my concerns. She seemed to want to spend as much time with me as I needed. Wow...this was definitely not what I was expecting. PP also does blood tests for cholesterol checks and diagnoses and treats urinary tract infections (good to know since I don't get them often but when I do, I now know where to go). Their fee is on a sliding scale, but even so, I only spent $69 today.

        Anyway, I'm very happy with their service and will recommend it, much like I do when I find that the generic brand toilet paper works just as well as the Charmin or the generic brand toothpaste satisfies just like Crest!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------At one point, G.H.Bush was "pro-choice." But then once he signed on with Reagan, he changed his tune. That's what I've always read anyways.

        Luke http://www.lukalicious.com ------"George H.W. and Bar were even on the board of PP Texas at one point. But that was before."

        "Before the dark times. Before the empire!" reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------PP rocks.

        George H.W. and Bar were even on the board of PP Texas at one point. But that was before.

        Matthew ------Although I've obviously never used their services, I've heard nothing but great things from everyone I know who does use their services. Planned Parenthood often has a negative connotation associated with it mainly because of the dirt that's been thrown its way by people who don't really have a grasp on ALL the services that they provide.

        ------Date: 2005-04-08 17:11:00 Subject: Ace and Gary

        Did you know that Stephen Colbert is the voice of Ace for Saturday Night Lives's animated shorts "Ace & Gary: The Ambiguously Gay Duo"?

        Who does Gary? (and don't say Ace) ;-)

        User Comments: CG Auntie ------Have no idea the answer to your question, but I just have to say thank God for the Daily Show!

        ------Date: 2005-04-14 16:51:00 Subject: Road Kill

        Yesterday, on my way to work, I was happily going down Alpha and enjoying the wonderfully, sunny spring morning. It was cool and crisp and clear and what I like to describe as a "Dallas type day" when all of a sudden, probably 50 yards in front of me was the evil black SUV tooling along at the same time that a squirrel was crossing its path.

        It all happened so fast but I saw it happen and the poor thing's tail twitched several times and then by the time I was near it, it was still.

        It upset me terribly.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------I read this great short story in a "Twilite Zone" anthology about all of these people on a bus being visited by the animals that they had killed. Typical stuff, deer, dogs, cats, etc. In typical short story fashion, the last person to be visisted was visited by the ghost of a girl that he had run over. It seemed cool at the time, but now it seems kinda hack.

        I hope that I never run over any kind of animal. *shudders*

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------My secret shame in college was that I actually killed a dog that darted out suddenly from between two parked cars right in front of my car. I stopped and went door to door til I found the house...They were very kind to the blubbering college boy who had just killed their pet. I mourned for weeks.

        I can still see every moment of it in my head and it was 20+ years ago.

        Matthew ------I've said it once, I'll say it a thousand times, someone needs to teach these squirrels to look both ways before crossing the street. I have yet to run over any animal. *knocks wood* reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I ran over a squirrel once.

        Cried like a baby.

        ------Date: 2005-04-22 12:09:00 Subject: Rubber Ducky

        It was a beautiful Spring morning this morning and I was walking Jack and Marina as I always do when I came upon the site of 3 mallard ducks happily swimming in our complex's pool.

        I know that the powers that be will boot them out before they actually open the pool for the summer season, but, really, I got more enjoyment and serenity seeing this site than I will ever receive from seeing hot, sweaty adults lathering sunscreen on their already bronzed bodies or children yelling "marco" ---> "polo" at each other in the midst of the August heat.

        Sometimes I wish the animals would have won.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Yikes. :-|

        Katieg ------I have to say that I have a thing against ducks. I was baby sitting for this boy when I was a teenager. I never liked babysitting much (except for my siblings and cousins), and this kid was particularly challenging for me. I never knew what to do with him to keep him entertained.

        Anyway, he liked fishing so I took him out to this pond near his house to fish. This duck came up to us and was "walking" around us (and probably hoping for food). Suddenly, the duck chomped down on the fishing hook. It was stuck in his beak, and it was squawking loudly. I had no idea what to do. It eventually swam off. I felt terrible for the poor thing. Ever since that experience, I really don't like to be around ducks. Post Traumatic Stress, I guess.

        Rhubarb http://www.journalscape.com/rhubarb/ ------And then, suddenly, they go bottoms up for a morsel of food, resurface, and shake the water from their feathers. All so matter-of-factly, as if the beauty of nature were just an everyday thing. Which it is. Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Some of my fondest memories with my kids in the younger days were going to the duck ponds for a visit. There's something about floating that just makes them cool. And you often can't see their feet moving when they swim so they almost seem motorized, but most of all leisurely.

        ------Date: 2005-04-26 14:06:00 Subject: C.U.R.E.

        I spent most of the weekend with my sister at this conference here in Dallas.

        Over the 16 hours that we spent there, I learned many things. Here's just some of them:

        • Fatigue from chemo is worse than pain from cancer/surgery for most cancer patients.

        • VEGF (Vascular endothelial growth factor) is necessary for tumor growth. If you can cut off the blood supply to the affected area, you kill the growth.

        • Participating in trials is often the best way to get the newest/best drugs/treatment.

        • The Josh Groban song "You Raise Me Up" always makes my sister cry.

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------Blessings for wholeness all around....and "You Raise Me Up" sometimes still gives me the lumpy throat....

        Matthew ------Now I know where my sisters get their awesome sister skills from. You're an angel, but we all already knew that. :-)

        ------Date: 2005-04-29 12:32:00 Subject: "blog" gives "blogging" a bad name

        Was watching Friday's edition of C-span's Washington Journal (it's really the best on Fridays because Brian Lamb is on [Can I just say that I'm not usually attracted to guys my age or older, but I think Brian is one groovy dude] this morning and saw Matt Drudge make his annual appearance, his 10th one to be exact.

        Conservative or liberal, I think we all owe Drudge a high five as he really got this whole 'blog' thing off the ground 10 years ago. But given his roots, he said that bloggers should reject being called "bloggers" and that their "websites" should not be demeaned by being called "blogs". He said this was just MSMedia's way of delegitimizing us.

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I have a blog (obviously), but I don't consider myself a blogger in the sense that the MSM uses the word. I'm not in it to break stories, or even comment on news (except in rare cases).

        However, I would think that bloggers should constantly strive for excellence, and thus raise the connotation of the term, rather than insist that people stop using it. It's here to stay.

        ------Date: 2005-05-01 23:39:00 Subject: The wisdom of buttons

        She wears "Choose Hope"

        I wear "Cancer Sucks"

        A Ct-scan last week

        An appointment with the oncologist Monday morning

        She hopes for no more surgery

        I hope for no more cancer

        I fear

        I dread But, then, it's not about me

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/NotShyChiRev/ ------Jill,

        In those moments, isn't it SUPPOSED to be about you at least for a moment? Any time we wrestle with our finite-ness, we are so very human...and so very much in touch with being a unique creation.

        And...'Cancer Sucks' is a statement of liberation! Sometimes we need hope to be strong...and sometimes we need to be liberated from assumptions and fears in a way that doesn't rely solely on hope, but on an empowering, loud "f*&$ you" to the forces that oppose us--even the forces of freaked out cells in our own bodies.

        Maybe I'm not being adequately pastoral here... but I'm not your pastor, so what the hell...

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I hope there was good news. I know what you are saying - that it isn't about you, but those of us who care about you know it is about you too, for this is a shared journey for all concerned.

        ------Date: 2005-05-03 13:32:00 Subject: On the 8th anniversary of my father's death

        The Well of Grief

        (David Whyte)

        Those who will not slip beneath the still surface on the wall of grief

        turning downward through its black water to the place we cannot breathe will never know the source from which we drink, the secret water, cold and clear,

        nor find the darkness glimmering, the small round coins thrown by those who wished for something else.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I was moved by this poem. Thanks for posting it. Peace.

        ------Date: 2005-05-05 16:05:00 Subject: Why I like sleepovers

        Now that J & J are residing in the North Texas area, I've had the good pleasure of having them almost weekly for sleepovers. I'm enjoying this time with them so much.

        J#2 amazes me with his imaginative play. He loves a book that I purchased over a year ago "The Day the Babies Crawled Away" and we read it almost every night that he's with me before he goes to sleep. Last Sunday, however, he carried it to church and he pulled out his Larry and Bob action figures and "incorporated" them into the story as he turned each page. It was wonderful.

        J#1 wakes up happy and ready to seize each day. This past Sunday, I woke her and she exclaimed, beaming "MaDear, I had the best dream!" I asked her what it was about and she said "A buffet!" I asked her what was the best item on the buffet and she said "Hot Dogs!"

        Most days I wake up with C-Span and the troubles of the world confronting me. It's nice to take a break from this routine!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------hahaha

        mmmm....hot dogs....*drools* NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------mmmmm

        Dreams of food...

        Sign of healthy mind, I'm betting.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------J#1 is definitely my girl.... Dreaming about buffets!

        ------Date: 2005-05-05 23:35:00 Subject: I'd like to thank my agent...

        I'm watching the Brits and their election results on C-span and each and every one of the victorious politicians is thanking their "agent."

        Leave it to the Brits to make election night like our Oscars!

        BTW, looks like the British red states beat the British blue states...oh my....

        User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------I'm sure J#2 will be upset that he missed quality cspan time with you!

        ------Date: 2005-05-08 21:47:00 Subject: The Lanyard

        The Lanyard

        -by Billy Collins

        The other day I was ricocheting slowly off the blue walls of this room, moving as if underwater from typewriter to piano, from bookshelf to an envelope lying on the floor, when I found myself in the L section of the dictionary where my eyes fell upon the word lanyard.

        No cookie nibbled by a French novelist could send one into the past more suddenly— a past where I sat at a workbench at a camp by a deep Adirondack lake learning how to braid long thin plastic strips into a lanyard, a gift for my mother.

        I had never seen anyone use a lanyard or wear one, if that’s what you did with them, but that did not keep me from crossing strand over strand again and again until I had made a boxy red and white lanyard for my mother.

        She gave me life and milk from her breasts, and I gave her a lanyard.

        She nursed me in many a sick room, lifted spoons of medicine to my lips, laid cold face-cloths on my forehead, and then led me out into the airy light

        and taught me to walk and swim, and I, in turn, presented her with a lanyard.

        Here are thousands of meals, she said, and here is clothing and a good education.

        And here is your lanyard, I replied, which I made with a little help from a counselor.

        Here is a breathing body and a beating heart, strong legs, bones and teeth, and two clear eyes to read the world, she whispered, and here, I said, is the lanyard I made at camp.

        And here, I wish to say to her now, is a smaller gift—not the worn truth

        that you can never repay your mother, but the rueful admission that when she took the two-tone lanyard from my hand,

        I was as sure as a boy could be that this useless, worthless thing I wove out of boredom would be enough to make us even.

        ------Date: 2005-05-09 15:17:00 Subject: Sunny California

        I often listen to online streaming while I'm at work. Sometimes I can't get the local feed and search for other locations on the web to provide me with my streaming needs. I mostly choose California stations, as I figure, since it's the 'technology' state, they will have the most advanced and error-free feeds. I've found this to be true and it works pretty well.

        However, sometimes I am listening away and forget that I'm hearing news reports, commercials, and weather reports from the left coast.

        The other day, I got all excited as I listed to a Trader Joes' commercial and momentarily celebrated the prospects of shopping at this store locally (I love going there while I'm in DC) until I remembered that the Trader Joes that they were advertising was a little far for me to run to on the way home from work. Today, I heard them say that the weatherman was reporting that they had seen their last rainfall until next year. How neat is that?

        ------Date: 2005-05-10 22:59:00 Subject: Huffington Post

        My friend Derek pointed me to this...I think I'm hooked already!

        ------Date: 2005-05-15 06:00:00 Subject: In the span of 6 short weeks

        Mother, Sherry and I were here for a visit with C and her parents just 6 short weeks ago.

        Thankfully I'm back this weekend while Cs parents attended the U2 concert in Philly (yes, and I *did* get a T-shirt!)

        In these six weeks away from C, she's learned to do the following:

      • tease me by offering me a piece of tasty food, and then, just when I am ready to chomp down, pulls it away and giggles

      • called me to come get her from her nap/bedtime by saying "wake up MaDear"

      • peddle her tricycle

      • use the potty (when she thinks about it), and she's really into toilet paper

      • spell her name with the bathtub crayons (OK, she doesn't do this exactly right, but she does say all the letters of her name, a little scrambled, but, hey's it's a long name)

      • and much, much more...

        User Comments:

        AEF ------Thanks for the update on C- its been six and a half weeks for us as well. Glad she is doing some neat things.

        ------Date: 2005-05-15 06:19:00 Subject: Conflicted about grey

        I'm at the end of yet another 3 - 4 week time period when the old grey roots start rearing their ugly 'head' on my head. And it's at this time period that I go through yet another few moments of inner conflict. I say to myself that I really hate the mess and time it takes to color my hair. It's certainly a good 30-45 minutes that I'd rather spend doing something else.

        And I should be secure enough with who I am and how old I am that having grey hair shouldn't bother me.

        And I really, really don't want to turn into one of those "old" ladies that colors her hair this ridiculous shade of reddish/brown that you just *know* is not her real hair color (maybe I'm there already)...

        But then again, there's only just a handful of women I know with grey hair that pull it off successfully and ALL of them have short, really short haircuts that I've never been able to pull off...my hair is just too thin with no body at all.

        Several years ago I went through that awful process of getting back to my natural color (salt and pepper grey and brown and it was amazing how many people liked it and how many people didn't and were very vocal about it (especially the ones that didn't like it).

        One day, I was passing a mirror and glanced at my reflection. "Who was that old lady in the mirror?" I thought as I headed directly to the nearest store to purchase my L'Oreal color of choice (because I'm worth it, don't you know).

        So here I am again on another weekend when I have to make the decision once again to cave in to my vanity or allow me to be me, in all my grey haired glory. Trouble is, the culture I live in and was brought up in, never has found anything glorious about grey hair, unless, of course, you're a man.

        User Comments:

        Songbird http://msongbird.blogspot.com ------I started going grey in my early 30's and have been coloring for ten years now. Sometimes I wish I had never started, and I feel the same conflict at root times. Like today, for instance. At least I got over paying someone to do it for me, which really felt like an obscene way to spend money. Or maybe it was just that my hairdresser's price went up to an obscene new level.

        And then there is the husband who likes long hair...so growing it out seems impossible.

        I say do whatever makes you feel best, on balance. anne ------recently i told my husband that when i turn 60 i'm going to stop coloring my hair. he objected, saying he really likes the tie-died (oops i meant colored w/ highlites) me. i'm taking it 5 weeks at a time.

        NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/NotShyChiRev/ ------I say, if you do it for you...go for it.

        If you do it for "them," screw 'em...cuz M & K are right.

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Have you read the poem about when I am old I shall wear purple?

        For me, now mostly bald (which is pretty much like being mostly dead and having no Miracle Max around to revive you), I've come to appreciate the convenience of having no hair to mess with -- all shaved to a 1/2 inch and nothing to think about -- and I at least know no one will accuse me of the dreaded comb-over. Hope you are happy with whatever choice you made.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------"You are so beautiful to me"

        Matthew ------Go with the Loreal. It makes you look beautiful.

        Go with the grey. It makes you look beautiful.

        :-)

        ------Date: 2005-05-15 21:10:00 Subject: One

        I think this is a good thing.... One

        ------Date: 2005-05-17 11:50:00 Subject: Speeding through the golf zone

        On my way to work and home, depending on the route I take, I pass through several school zones. I gladly slow down to an exact 20 mph speed limit, as I remember when my children were school age and would want *everyone* that entered their school zones to do the same.

        Again, depending on which route I take, I also pass through a "golf" zone with signs alerting me that I should slow my speed to 20 mph so that the golfers can cross the street, either by foot or by cart, to get to their next hole.

        Well, no.

        I continue my 35 to 40 mph speed and am thinking, defiantly, that if some peace officer wants to ticket me for this, I'll gladly pay the fine. So far, luckily, that hasn't happened.

        I'm sorry. Maybe I have an irrational dislike of golf and golfers. Maybe my ClubCorp experience has tainted my view of this game and its proponents. But I just can't bring myself to think that there is anything fair about me, on my way to a productive job in the morning or home from that same productive job in the evening, slowing down so that some retired rich guy in green plaid polyester pants with the rest of his life ahead of him to play golf doesn't have to wait for me to pass to continue on to his game.

        School zones? Yes. Golf zones? NO!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------"You've got the need. The need, for speed."

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------You go mom!

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Made me laugh! I've never heard of this. Maybe they need to build an overpass.

        ------Date: 2005-05-19 16:45:00 Subject: Check Engine Light My "check engine" light was on in my car when I got in it to go home on Tuesday.

        Even though my car's been driving fine and I have less than 15,000 miles on it, I took it in to the dealership today to have it checked out.

        They replaced a temperature guage-part-thingy at no charge, since it's still under warranty.

        But they got my 30 bucks for an oil change at the same time and managed to convince me that I needed my brake system flushed for another 109 dollars.

        The skeptical side of me says that this whole "check engine" thing is just a way for them to get me in to the dealership for a service that I probably don't need.

        On the other hand, being a single female, I need a reliable car and I'm at their mercy.

        In my next life, I'm taking shop class instead of home ec.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------I think you're robbed. There really isn't much reason to get your brakes flushed when you only have 15,000 miles on it. But I could be wrong.

        Jillsusan http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------I think Katie is right, and Gramps, I was taken.

        Gramps ------I feel so fortunate that I have found a nearby mechanic whom I trust, because I too have had the experience of paying a dealer's service bill for work I wasn't sure was really needed. I have never had a brake system flushed as a routine procedure, which may or may not mean anything about how your dealer treated you, but it makes me wonder.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Dan thinks you were robbed! :-( anne ------we have a car whose check engine light comes on if we don't screw our gas cap on tightly enough. to get the light off again we have to take it to the dealership to have them turn it off. you might want to make sure you screw the gas cap on tightly...just in case your car is a cousin of ours. ------Date: 2005-05-20 14:50:00 Subject: It's a dog's life

        While, of course, I'm thrilled that J & J are in town (even if it is just for a short time period while their mom and dad plot out their next area to bring their business to). I think my pets (even Dalai) are enjoying having them around more often too.

        Last night while their parents enjoyed the latest Star Wars movie on opening night, the JJs, as I like to call them, came over and we had a fun evening.

        We started out by walking (with Jack and Marina) to McDonalds and getting Happy Meals for our trip to the park. We sat on new spring grass and enjoyed an outdoor picnic on the greenbelt in front of the condo that their mom, her sister, and I lived in while she was in high school.

        After that, we went to the park. Having Jack and Marina along attracts lots of attention. The park was full of neighborhood kids and alot of them wanted to see the doggies up close and personal. It's cute to see J#1 take on a maternal/teaching role to these kids, some of them hesitant and shy around even my foo-foo dogs, as she assures them that "they don't bite" and "pet them on their back" or "this is the way you hold their leash."

        We stopped at McDonalds for ice cream for the walk home. J#2 and I got a cone and J#1 got a small shake. It was pretty warm last night and the minute we walked out of McDs, the ice cream on the cones started melting fast. I told J#2 to start eating his cone fast. Well anyone who knows him knows that what's 'fast' to him is our 'slow'. But he tried his best to do it. That's when I looked down at him and saw that immediately after I said "hurry" he basically stuck his whole face into the cone of ice cream. It was downhill from there and being the dumb person that I am, without napkins (save the environment and all) the mess just got messier.

        The fun part of being a grandma is that you can just go with it. The more deluged J#2 got with dripping ice cream (on his shoes, shirt, pants, legs, arms, etc) the more we all just had a good time and J#1 could smuggly say, as she looked at her younger, messy brother, "that's why I get shakes". Next time, we probably all will.

        When J#2 finished his cone, I told him to just "wipe his sticky hands on his shirt"...something I'm quite sure I never told his mom or her siblings back when I was just a mom.

        And this 'mini-disaster' turned into the best part of the walk for Jack and Marina, as Jack followed behind J#2 and attempted to lick up every drip and Marina enjoyed giving J#2 a 'bath' with her tongue on his sticky legs and hands.

        User Comments: anne ------when my dad was a boy one brother got to lick the bowl after cake-baking or icing making. then another brother got to lick the face of the bowl-licker. your story makes me recall dad's story one fondly.

        Matthew ------You're a good grandma. And no, you never let us "wipe our hands on our shirts." I'm sure we did anyway though.

        ------Date: 2005-05-20 17:23:00 Subject: An analogy you probably shouldn't make

        When Pepsico President and CFO Indra Nooyi agreed to deliver the commencement address to Columbia University's MBA class of 2005 last Sunday, it sounded like a good idea at the time. From her address....

        PepsiCo has apologized and flagged Ms. Nooyi's remarks as being "misconstrued." ------Date: 2005-05-20 23:52:00 Subject: Postcards from the Edge

        THE TRUTH: Do you have a secret? Write it on a postcard and post it here. I couldn't stop reading them.

        ------Date: 2005-05-24 11:13:00 Subject: 92.7

        92.7...that was my score...not that far short of 100, which is what my target is.

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        User Comments:

        Matthew ------I second that.

        Katieg ------100 Sounds good to me!

        ------Date: 2005-05-25 09:44:00 Subject: Did you ever know that you're my hero?

        From my sister who prefaced the forward of this with "I agree completely with the sentiment and try real hard to live it."

          The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than success, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, gift, or skill. It will make or break a company...a church...a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10 percent what happens to me and 90 percent how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes.

        User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------I totally agree!

        ------Date: 2005-05-27 16:12:00 Subject: Thought for the day

        The way to cope with what I *don't* have is to embrace what I *do* have.

        User Comments:

        AEF ------..and good friends who love hearing from and about you!!

        Matthew ------like 4 children who love you.

        ------Date: 2005-05-30 10:39:00 Subject: JAGs thoughts for the day

        "When I eat strawberries my stomach smells like fish sticks"

        "My other grandma lets me have 2 rice krispy treats for breakfast"

        more to come, I'm sure.... User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------He is too CUTE!!!

        ------Date: 2005-05-31 13:52:00 Subject: Deep Throat revealed

        So the guy that claims he's Watergate's "deep throat" in Vanity Fair's upcoming issue is having a hard time getting his story confirmed by Woodward and Bernstein.

        Seems the three of them agreed back in the 70s to not disclose the identity until he was dead. And at 91, he's just wanting his 10 minutes of fame.

        Woodward says he's keeping his word.

        Ben Bradlee at the Washington Post says he's not talking either.

        Bernstein???

        User Comments: sara http://www.journalscape.com/beautiful_brown_eyes ------that would get me a A in history. lol. thanks!

        Bernstein http://www.journalscape.com/Dickie_Cronkite/ ------Yup, it's him.

        ------Date: 2005-06-01 09:04:00 Subject: Just plead stupidity

        C-Span's Washington Journal was all over the story about the Supreme Court's ruling on the Arthur Andersen case .

        The unanimous decision by all 9 justices ruled in favor of Arthur Andersen's appeal against its conviction for shredding Enron documents in 2001 as federal regulators were about to move against the tottering energy company. According to Marilyn Geewax, business reporter for Cox Newspapers, what saved these guys was pleading stupidity.

        OK, let me get this right.

        Didn't we hear from this same corporation and others that the reason why they pay their CEOs such high salaries is that they hire the best and the brightest?

        Throw away your Harvard MBAs! Hide those framed diplomas! Clear your bookshelves of any books higher than 3rd grade level!

        Then, you too, will be ready for your day in court!

        User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Aargh!

        Matthew ------Makes ya sick doesn't it? :-(

        ------Date: 2005-06-01 22:50:00 Subject: Just plain stupid

        From Andrew Sullivan...

        DISCHARGED: The military desperately needs soldiers. It even more desperately needs good soldiers. But this wounded serviceman who won a Purple Heart in Iraq and was eager to return was discharged today. The reason? He's gay. None of his fellow soldiers minded. But policy must be upheld. Only gay liars are allowed in the military. Even if you win a Purple Heart, honesty and integrity violate the military code.

        User Comments: anne ------one time in a store i heard a dad say to his son, "don't ever let me catch you lying again." (i noticed he didn't say don't lie again.) somehow that line seems to fit your posting.

        ------Date: 2005-06-05 21:52:00 Subject: Keep Austin "Austin"

        Sherry and I spent the weekend in Austin with Donna (I had a board meeting to attend with TAM part of the time).

        During our weekend there, Donna and I took a walk in an older neighborhood near downtown. We noticed how well manicured the lawns were, except for one. I made the comment that "I bet that house was not a popular one in the neighborhood" and Donna said "Yeah, I wouldn't want to live near that house."

        Upon further examination, we noticed that the homeowner was out working in this yard that appeared overgrown and mish-mashed.

        Now, I'm reflecting back that this yard, although not the well-manicured, St. Augustine grass, monkey-grassed, hedges-neatly-trimmed yard as others in the neighborhood, was probably representative of native Austin.

        Yes, this yard *was* Austin.

        ------Date: 2005-06-07 14:56:00 Subject: Jill, the "intellectual"

        Is it OK to label yourself an "intellectual"?

        I was sitting at Donna's breakfast table on Sunday and she made that remark about herself.

        I agreed with her that I was one too, and how I thought it was neat that since we've been friends for about 40 years (aack!) now, we still believe in and value some of the very same things. In fact, I think we've grown more alike than apart.

        I've labeled myself alot in my lifetime (I'm fat, busy, tired, a wife, a mother, etc.) but until my friend labeled herself an intellectual, I would never have admitted it about myself.

        User Comments: anne ------it's funny about labels, isn't it? for years i wrote poetry but would never say i was a poet. then i went to an art show where there was lots of very strange installation art that looked like piles of stuff from my basement (and i often like strange installation art). i came home and wrote a poem that ended with "if that's art, then this is poetry." still i couldn't call myself a poet until people started paying me $50-$75 a pop to write custom special-occasion poems for them. when i got paid for it, i claimed it.

        later i gave up the business part of poetry (though i'm still writing lots) i've found myself backing away from the word poet again.

        because i'm intimidated by the word intellectual and don't think it really fits me, i call myself bookish if i'm feeling good about myself and nerdy if not.

        Matthew ------Mom makes J and J watch C-Span??? Weird. ;-)

        Mom, you're definitely an intellectual. You shop at Borders, you have an iPod, a VW Bug, and more political books than are at James Carville's house. :-)

        Katieg ------Is that why you make J-J watch all that CSPAN? reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Same issue with the word "artist." People are reluctant to use the term, as if calling oneself an artist means one is claiming to be Michelangelo. Hey, I'm not saying I'm a great artist, but I'm an artist.

        ------Date: 2005-06-14 10:08:00 Subject: Lock 'em up and throw away the key

        OK, let me get this right.

        The only 'celebrity' to do jail time is Martha Stewart?

        I'm looking in your direction O.J., Robert Blake, Kobe Bryant, Michael Jackson! We've (women) come a long way baby...

        ------Date: 2005-06-14 10:17:00 Subject: "Sorry" seems to be the hardest word

        I know it's 'just words' but I'm glad the senate did this.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Have you visited the online lynching postcard exhibit. Truly chilling -- professional photos made into postcards. I think it's here

        I agree this is a good thing. Will our grandchildren look back with disgust on us for our inactions? I guess I can only hope each new generation will be more willing to look themselves in the eye and do something at the time. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Interesting that 78 out of 100 senators signed on as co-sponsors... I wonder why the illustrious senators from Texas were not among them?

        ------Date: 2005-06-16 12:06:00 Subject: When the planets align

        So I've been walking around since Sunday morning, feeling just awful, as I had a thought to check UNTs website about when August (and Matthew's) graduation was. I had booked flights for myself and a couple of family members in August and just had this awful thought waking up Sunday morning that perhaps the trip was going to conflict with this one-time event in Matthew's life.

        Found a calendar and saw that indeed it was at the same time that I was going to be out of town. DARN!

        What to do, what to do?

        Today I checked Orbitz to see how much it would set me back to change the flights (about $300) but then again, it's not every day that my child gets a BA from UNT! OK, I'll do it. But before I hit the "confirm changes" button, I checked back at UNTs site.

        Summer graduation is August 13th!

        Yay...I'll be back by then. No changes necessary.

        Don't kNow what calendar I was looking at last Sunday, but from UNTs home page, it's loud and clear that this August 13th date is *the* date.

        This is a good day indeed!

        ------Date: 2005-06-17 16:16:00 Subject: No Smoking Gun?????

        By Michael Kinsley, Sunday, June 12, 2005

          After about the 200th e-mail from a stranger demanding that I cease my personal coverup of something called the Downing Street Memo, I decided to read it. It's all over the blogosphere and Air America, the left-wing talk radio network: This is the smoking gun of the Iraq war. It is proof positive that President Bush was determined to invade Iraq the year before he did so. The whole "weapons of mass destruction" concern was phony from the start, and the drama about inspections was just kabuki: going through the motions.

          Although it is flattering to be thought personally responsible for allowing a proven war criminal to remain in office, in the end I don't buy the fuss. Nevertheless, I am enjoying it, as an encouraging sign of the revival of the left. Developing a paranoid theory and promoting it to the very edge of national respectability takes a certain amount of ideological self-confidence. It takes a critical mass of citizens with extreme views and the time and energy to obsess about them. It takes a promotional infrastructure and the widely shared self-discipline to settle on a story line, disseminate it and stick to it.

          It takes, in short, what Hillary Clinton once called a vast conspiracy. The right has enjoyed one for years. Even moderate and reasonable right-wingers have enjoyed the presence of a mass of angry people even further right. This overhang of extremists makes the moderates appear more reasonable. It pulls the center of politics, where the media try to be and where compromises on particular issues end up, in a rightward direction. Listening to extreme views on your own side is soothing even if you would never express them and may not even believe them yourself.

          So, cheers for the Downing Street Memo. But what does it say? It's a report on a meeting of British Prime Minister Tony Blair and some aides on July 23, 2002. The key passage summarizes "recent talks in Washington" by the head of British foreign intelligence (identified, John Le Carre- style, simply as "C"). C reported that "Military action was now seen as inevitable. Bush wanted to remove Saddam, through military action, justified by the conjunction of terrorism and WMD. But intelligence and facts were being fixed around the policy. . . . There was little discussion in Washington of the aftermath after military action."

          C's focus on the dog that didn't bark -- the lack of discussion about the aftermath of war -- was smart and prescient. But even on its face, the memo is not proof that Bush had decided on war. It says that war is "now seen as inevitable" by "Washington." That is, people other than Bush had concluded, based on observation, that he was determined to go to war. There is no claim of even fourth-hand knowledge that he had actually declared this intention. Even if "Washington" meant actual administration decision makers, rather than the usual freelance chatterboxes, C is saying only that these people believe that war is how events will play out.

          Of course, if "intelligence and facts were being fixed around the policy," rather than vice versa, that is pretty good evidence of Bush's intentions, as well as a scandal in its own right. And we know now that this was true and a half. Fixing intelligence and facts to fit a desired policy is the Bush II governing style, especially concerning the war in Iraq. But C offered no specifics, or none that made it into the memo. Nor does the memo assert that actual decision makers had told him they were fixing the facts. Although the prose is not exactly crystalline, it seems to be saying only that "Washington" had reached that conclusion.

          And of course Washington had done so. You don't need a secret memo to know this. Just look at what was in the newspapers on July 23, 2002, and the day before. Left-wing Los Angeles Times columnist Robert Scheer casually referred to the coming war against Iraq as "much-planned-for." The New York Times reported Defense Secretary Donald Rumsfeld's response to an earlier story "which reported preliminary planning on ways the United States might attack Iraq to topple President Saddam Hussein." Rumsfeld effectively confirmed the report by announcing an investigation of the leak.

          A Wall Street Journal op-ed piece declared that "the drums of war beat louder." A dispatch from Turkey in the New York Times even used the same word "inevitable" to describe the thinking in Ankara about the thinking in Washington about the decision "to topple President Saddam Hussein of Iraq by force."

          Poor Time magazine, with a cover date of July 22 but actually published a week earlier, had the whole story. "Sometime last spring the President ordered the Pentagon and the CIA to come up with a new plan to invade Iraq and topple its leader." Originally planned for the fall, the war was put off until "at least early next year" (which is when, in fact, it happened). Unfortunately, Time went on to speculate that because of a weak economy, the war "may have to wait -- some think forever," and concluded that "Washington is engaged more in psy-war than in war itself."

          Some people you have to hit over the head. Hey, you folks at Time, why are you ignoring the Downing Street Memo?

        ------Date: 2005-06-18 23:57:00 Subject: Deep Thoughts, by Joseph A.

        "MaDear, when you were my age, how old were you?"

        Upon picking up Jack & Marina from a day of grooming at Pretty Paws, "they have that new car smell".

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Those are classic.

        ------Date: 2005-06-21 15:09:00 Subject: If you liked The Da Vinci Code, you'll love the Downing Street Memo

        From Slate, comes this...

        By Christopher Hitchens, Posted Tuesday, June 21, 2005, at 9:42 AM PT

          A few weeks ago, at an airport in Europe, I saw Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code staring at me across the bookstore bins. I had seen it many times before and averted my gaze, but I was facing a long delay, and I suddenly thought: May as well get it over with.

          Well, of course I knew it would be bad. I just didn't know that it would be that bad. Never mind for now the breathless and witless style, or the mashed-paper characters, or the lazy, puerile reliance on incredible coincidence to flog the lame plot along. What if it was all true? What if the Nazarene had had issue, in fleshly form, with an androgynous disciple? The Catholic Church would look foolish but, then, it already looks foolish enough on the basis of the official story. "Opus Dei," according to Brown, is a sinister cult organization. Excuse me, but I already knew this, so to speak, independently.

          Over the past month, I have hardly been able to open my e-mail without a flood of similarly portentous tripe concerning the "Downing Street Memo(s)." This time, it is not the interior of a Templar Church but the style of a clerk in the British Foreign Office that furnishes "the key to all mythologies." A former CIA hand named Ray McGovern has challenged me to debate about the "smoking gun" contained in the Downing Street palimpsests, and I have agreed, in principle. Other correspondents have helpfully added other "smoking guns" as e-mail attachments. A man named Morgan Reynolds, a former chief economist at the Bush Labor Department and now an instructor at Texas A&M, has proof that the World Trade Center was laid low by a "controlled demolition" and not by the hijacked planes. This is a refreshing change from the Gore Vidal view that the Bush administration knowingly grounded all military aircraft in order to give the al-Qaida teams a clear shot. But perhaps both those theories are congruent: One wouldn't want to exclude any options if one were a Republican seeking to incinerate the downtown business HQ of capitalist globalization.

          I am not one of those who uses the term "conspiracy theory" as an automatic sneer of dismissal. Conspiracies do occur. I spent a lot of my life at one point trying to show that William Casey of the Reagan-era CIA had made a private deal with the Iranian hostage-takers in 1979, inducing them to keep their prisoners until the Carter administration had been defeated, and I still firmly believe that something of the sort (which eventually culminated in the Iran-Contra underworld) was at least attempted. So do many senior members of both parties in Washington, with whom I am still in touch.

          But the main Downing Street document does not introduce us to any hidden or arcane or occult knowledge. As Fred Kaplan wrote in Slate last week, it explains no mystery. As protagonist Jim Dixon observes in another context in Lucky Jim, it is remarkable for "its niggling mindlessness, its funereal parade of yawn-enforcing facts, the pseudo-light it threw upon non-problems." On a visit to Washington in the prelude to the Iraq war, some senior British officials formed the strong and correct impression that the Bush administration was bent upon an intervention. Their junior note- taker committed the literary and political solecism of saying that intelligence findings and "facts" were being "fixed" around this policy.

          Well, if that doesn't prove it, I don't know what does. We apparently have an administration that can, on the word of a British clerk, "fix" not just findings but also "facts." Never mind for now that the English employ the word "fix" in a slightly different way—a better term might have been "organized."

          We have been here before. In an interview with Sam Tanenhaus for Vanity Fair more than two years ago, Paul Wolfowitz allowed that, though there were many reasons to seek the removal of Saddam Hussein, the legal minimum basis for it was to be sought, inside the U.S. government bureaucracy and at the United Nations, in the unenforced resolutions concerning WMD. At the time, this mild observation was also hailed as a full confession of perfidy.

          I am now forced to wonder: Who is there who does not know that the Bush administration decided after September 2001 to change the balance of power in the region and to enforce the Iraq Liberation Act, passed unanimously by the Senate in 1998, which made it overt American policy to change the government of Iraq? This was a fairly open conspiracy, and an open secret. Given that everyone from Hans Blix to Jacques Chirac believed that Saddam was hiding weapons from inspectors, it made legal sense to advance this case under the banner of international law and to treat Saddam "as if" (and how else?) his strategy of concealment and deception were prima facie proof. The British attorney general—who has no jurisdiction in these 50 states—was worried that "regime change" alone would not be a sufficient legal basis. One appreciates his concern. But the existence of the Saddam regime was itself a defiance of all known international laws, and we had before us the consequences of previous failures to act, in Bosnia and Rwanda, where action would have been another word for "regime change." Many in the British Foreign Office, like many in the American State Department and the CIA, felt more comfortable with the status quo as they knew it (which might explain the hapless references elsewhere in the memos to Iraq's "Sunni majority"). But theirs is only one opinion among many. How odd that the American left, when it is not busy swallowing the unpunctuated words of the CIA, follows this with another helping of wisdom from the most reactionary institution of the British state.

          If such a "left" is not careful, it will end up consoling itself in futile bitterness and resentment in the way that the Old Right used to do: by brooding on the hellish manner in which FDR told the Japanese to "bring it on" at Pearl Harbor. (The anti-war right of today, led by Pat Buchanan, was raised and nurtured on this very fantasy, as were Gore Vidal and the other Charles Lindbergh fans.) I am in favor of taking such theories at face value, as a thought experiment, to see how they pan out. It is clear that Roosevelt hoped that the Japanese empire would make a mistake and furnish a pretext for war: The plain evidence of this hope is what keeps the conspiracy theory alive. I myself rather doubt that he would have wanted to start such a war with the loss of the Pacific Fleet, but still, he did think a confrontation was inevitable, as indeed it was. And William Casey may have seen the chance for a double coup: taking credit for the release of the Iranian hostages and discrediting into the bargain. But if it had all come out at the time, and been proven, would this change my attitude to Japanese imperialism or to Iranian hostage-taking theocracy? Certainly not. The demand would be to impeach those responsible in Washington and to form a national bipartisan alliance to fight even harder against our enemies, and in defense of our friends.

          Full circle, then: The outrage about the nondisclosures in the Downing Street memos has led Congressman Walter Jones of North Carolina to demand that we tell the al-Qaida forces in Iraq exactly when we intend to give up. Jones is the right-wing bigmouth who once wanted to rename French fries "freedom fries." He was a moral and political cretin when he did that and, not to my surprise, he has been unable to stop being a moral and political cretin since. He and his new friends are welcome to each other. They illustrate exactly how the credulous search for Da Vinci codes is the sign of feeble minds.

        ------Date: 2005-06-23 18:38:00 Subject: Highway Robbery

        I'm working the Texas Mediator Credentialing Association booth today and tomorrow at the Wyndham Anatole, near downtown Dallas at the Texas State Bar Convention/Meeting. It's a good gig and I'm actually billing these hours.

        But, the downside is that on breaks and in the exhibit hall, I don't have internet access. Oh, it's available all right. I can actually purchase access from the hotel for $100 A DAY!

        You've got to be kidding me!!!!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Indeed. That's about 99 dollars more than they should be charging, since I'm sure it doesn't cost them much to host internet access.

        Luke ------Lame!

        ------Date: 2005-06-28 13:16:00 Subject: Santorum's right about this one

        A republican sponsored bill I can back completely.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------That guy's name sounds like a location in hell...

        Demon: Where do you want this new batch of doomed souls we got, your vileness?

        Devil: Throw them in the fire pit in Santorum! That should teach them!

        ------Date: 2005-06-28 13:18:00 Subject: The Flash Mind Reader

        Looking to waste a little time?

        Spoiler below spoiler

        No matter which two-digit number you pick, adding the digits and subtracting from the original number will result in a factor of 9: 81, 72, 63, 54, 45, 36, 27, 18, or 9. (Go ahead and pick any two-digit number - it's just one of those neat mathematical factoids.)

        Go to the site and look at the symbols next to the numbers I've listed above - they're all the same. The smart part about the flash mind reader, however, is that the symbols change every time you click "try again." Again, those numbers listed above will always have the same symbol next to them, although the symbols will change from attempt to attempt.

        In short - yes, it's a huge waste of time, but at least now you aren't one of those people clicking and clicking and clicking, wondering how a computer can read your mind.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------Neat!

        ------Date: 2005-07-01 23:02:00 Subject: hide & go seek

        So I hid my brand new digital camera somewhere before I left town last so that my pet sitters wouldn't be tempted and I'd have it on my return.

        I got the bee in my bonnet today to get it so that I could have it to take pix of J & J before they leave town.

        I spent the better part of 2 HOURS looking for it, because I had forgotten where I'd hid it....ugh....

        Has that ever happened to you? That you hid something so well that you had to look for it yourself?

        I finally found it, but oh, I'd sure love to have those 2 hours back that I used trying to find it...

        User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------That has happened to me too many times to count!

        ------Date: 2005-07-01 23:10:00 Subject: Look at me, I'm Sandra Dee

        Or rather Sandra O...that's Sandra Day O'Connor. Thank you for your service and I hope you're replaced by a woman, but then again, I rather doubt it...

        ------Date: 2005-07-02 08:43:00 Subject: The Boss from Hell

        The latest issue of Fast Company has a great article about the boss from hell, described as one that "ridicules colleagues, has a grandiose sense of self-worth, and fails to accept responsibility for their own actions"...sound like anyone you know? This question is aimed specifically to my 2 ex-coworkers that may possibly read this blog.

        It's been almost a year since I left this boss and as with any dysfunction, the longer I am away, the more I'm able to view it as an experience that I'm lucky to have escaped from!

        My boss now, however temporarily as I'm still doing contract work, is so much the opposite...a really great, supportive, giving individual that wants me to succeed! How cool is that?

        btw, you need an access code to read the issue online and I'll share mine with you...fcjulypsycho

        ------Date: 2005-07-03 23:19:00 Subject: Act Normal

        "Act normal"...that was the command I gave to my grandson J as I was taking pictures of him and his sister this morning before they left town and it would be days/months before I could see them again...

        He was hamming it up before the camera...making funny faces and goofy looks. I took a couple of shots of him doing these silly things, and then I asked him to "act normal".

        He obliged me with a nice smile and I took my shots.

        Later in the day, however, I got this really guilty feeling. Why did I say that? Wasn't he indeed 'acting normal' when he was making those goofy faces and being J?

        Sorry....

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------So now when he grows up to be a pencil pusher for "Cubicle Incorporated," instead of the next Jim Carrey, I'll tell Jo-Jo that it was because of his MaDear's attempts to normalize him. ;-)

        ------Date: 2005-07-07 14:14:00 Subject: London bridge...it won't fall down

        From Andrew Sullivan comes this...

          LIVINGSTONE RESPLENDENT: Yes, it's old Red Ken himself, the famously left-wing mayor of London. Here's what he just said:
          "This was not a terrorist attack against the mighty and the powerful; it is not aimed at presidents or prime ministers; it was aimed at ordinary working class Londoners, black and white, Muslim and Christians, Hindu and Jew, young and old, indiscriminate attempt at slaughter irrespective of any considerations, of age, of class, of religion, whatever, that isn't an ideology, it isn't even a perverted faith, it's just indiscriminate attempt at mass murder, and we know what the objective is, they seek to divide London. They seek to turn Londoners against each other and Londoners will not be divided by this cowardly attack... I wish to speak through you directly, to those who came to London to claim lives, nothing you do, how many of us you kill will stop that flight to our cities where freedom is strong and where people can live in harmony with one another, whatever you do, how many you kill, you will fail."
          Amen a million times. How dumb are these fascists to take on the Brits and the Americans? Sure, we fight with each other; but up against this kind of evil, our divisions are petty. I also admire Livingstone's ability to see how liberal and left-wing Londoners who have helped build an amazingly vibrant, diverse and tolerant city are particularly affronted by these medieval monsters. Maybe this will help build support for a war that is as unavoidable as it is unlosable. I don't mean we won't continue to differ over means and methods and tactics and strategy. We will. That's our strength. But right and left, we are in this together.

        User Comments:

        JillSusan ------Another one of my favorite Brits weighs in...

          My son flew in from London at the weekend, and we were discussing, as we have several times before, why it hadn't happened yet. "It" was the jihadist attack on the city, for which the British security forces have been braced ever since the bombings in Madrid. When the telephone rang in the small hours of this morning, I was pretty sure it was the call I had been waiting for. And as I snapped on the TV I could see, from the drawn expression and halting speech of Tony Blair, that he was reacting not so much with shock as from a sense of inevitability.

          Perhaps this partly explains the stoicism and insouciance of those Brits interviewed on the streets, all of whom seemed to know that a certain sang-froid was expected of them. The concrete barriers around the Houses of Parliament have been up for some time. There are estimated to be over 4 million surveillance cameras in the United Kingdom today, but of course it had to be the Underground—"the tube"—and the good old symbolic red London bus. Timed for the rush hour, and at transit stations that serve outlying and East London neighborhoods, the bombs are nearly certain to have killed a number of British Muslims. None of this, of course, has stopped George Galloway and his ilk from rushing to the microphone and demanding that the British people be removed "from harm's way" by an immediate withdrawal from Iraq. (Since the Islamists also demand a withdrawal from Afghanistan, it surprises me that he doesn't oblige them in this way as well, but perhaps that will come in time.)

        ***

          Older Londoners are of course raised on memories of the Nazi blitzkrieg, and a younger generation remembers living through a long campaign of bombings by the Provisional IRA. This latest challenge is far more insidious, however, because the ambitions of the killers are non- negotiable, and because their methods so exactly match their aims. It will be easy in the short term for Blair to rally national and international support, as always happens in moments such as this, but over time these gestural moments lose their force and become subject to diminishing returns. If, as one must suspect, these bombs are only the first, then Britain will start to undergo the same tensions—between a retreat to insularity and clannishness of the sort recently seen in France and Holland, and the self-segregation of the Muslim minority in both those countries—that will start to infect other European countries as well. It is ludicrous to try and reduce this to Iraq. Europe is steadily becoming a part of the civil war that is roiling the Islamic world, and it will require all our cultural ingenuity to ensure that the criminals who shattered London's peace at rush hour this morning are not the ones who dictate the pace and rhythm of events from now on.

        ------Date: 2005-07-07 22:45:00 Subject: Team Britain: Fuck Yeah!

        explained.

        Driving on the wrong side of the road! FUCK YEAH!
        Greasy fish dripping through a newspaper! FUCK YEAH!
        Page Three! FUCK YEAH!
        Alfred Hitchcock! FUCK YEAH!
        Eric Clapton! FUCK YEAH!
        Going to see Mark Knopfler Tonight in London! FUCK YEAH!
        Crabtree and Evelyn! FUCK YEAH!
        Shortbread from Marks and Spencer! FUCK YEAH!
        Rudyard Kipling! FUCK YEAH!
        Lord Stanley and his Cup given to Canada! FUCK YEAH!
        Tweed with patches on the elbows! FUCK YEAH!
        And The Magna Carta! BIG FUCK YEAH!
        I added mine...Go add yours to the list...

        User Comments:

        Dani http://www.journalscape.com/bluefeather ------That's bloody buggery brilliant! :)

        ------Date: 2005-07-08 15:21:00 Subject: @&*^$&(())&^%$#$

        uh-oh

        User Comments:

        Luke ------"@&*^$&(())&^%$#$" indeed!

        We're fucked. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I'm thinking this is all deliberate, so W can mollify the right wing by nominating an ideologue, yet also show good faith to everyone else (that is, the vast rest of the country) and nominate a moderate.

        And when I say moderate, I mean a "well it could be worse" conservative. I can hardly wait.

        ------Date: 2005-07-08 22:46:00 Subject: We're not afraid

        Another wonderful collective blog of images - sending a message to the medievalist murderers of New York, Bali, Aldgate and Baghdad. Check it out

        User Comments: brownEYES ------WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS THE MIGHTY MIGHTY CAMPIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

        ------Date: 2005-07-08 23:56:00 Subject: Quote of the day

        An elderly Brit says this:

        If we didn't kowtow to the Nazis, we certainly won't kowtow to this lot.

        ------Date: 2005-07-10 16:48:00 Subject: Partners in Crime

        I really should trust my instincts.

        When I left for church today, one of the loaves of bread that I purchased yesterday (2 for 1) at the Empire Bread Co. was sitting on the edge of the kitchen counter, in front of my microwave. I thought about finding a "safer" home for it, as I keep Jack and Marina in my kitchen while I'm away. But then, they are Bichons and little dogs...how in the world could they get at it?

        On my return home, however, I found that they had. I saw a couple of pieces of bread laying on the floor (which only means that they were full, to the brim) and the rest of the loaf laying on the floor, a crumpled up piece of mess with shredded plastic wrapping and not one totally whole piece of bread to be found.

        There's just no way that Jack and Marina got to this without the help of Dharma or Dalai, my kitties who are now guilty (or at least I pronounced them that) of teaming up with them to perpetrate the crime.

        Oh well, the sour dough loaf was untouched and it was delicious with my salad at lunch!

        User Comments:

        Jill ------They made it just fine, and surprisingly, it must have been really, really good bread as no noticeable aromas...

        I feed them Science Diet, in part, because it promises to reduce the size of the output. I'm never really sure that it works, but after the bread fiasco, I think it may just do what it says it is supposed to do.

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I'm wondering how well they made it to their first trip outdoors the next morning and whether you had to de-fumigate the house. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------So cute!

        Did I tell you CG Auntie's mother has a new bichon? Her name is Coco.

        ------Date: 2005-07-15 21:27:00 Subject: Albuquerque Rocks!

        I'm on my way to Vegas via Southwest Airlines, so you know I'm having to take a hop here, a jump there to get there from Dallas.

        On my stop in Albuquerque, I've got about an hour to wait for my 20 minute flight to Vegas. I powered up my computer to see what wireless is available so that I can check email.

        It's free wireless internet compliments of the City of Albuquerque.

        Just how cool is that???

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------Places where you have to pay:

        Houston Hobby

        Kansas City

        St. Louis

        Stunningly stupid place where it isn't available at all:

        Atlanta

        Luke ------It's cool I guess. A free laptop, now that would be cool. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Asheville NC airport has that as well. Very cool.

        ------Date: 2005-07-16 15:08:00 Subject: I blamed it on the grandkids

        In order for me to take this "free" trip to Vegas (I used SW Airline credits for free flights and agreed to sit through a sales presentation, about 1 1/2 hours, for time share vacations). I was dreading this...you know what a people pleaser I am and how I hate to say "no"...

        A really nice fellow gave me the pitch...wouldn't I like to quit wasting all my money on hotels and take all that money that I spent on vacations to "build equity"...

        It made sense, if you're the type of person that I'm not...one that takes weeks and weeks of vacations to exotic places.

        After I told him that I pretty much use any time off I have to go bond with my grandkids, he pretty much said "well this kind of thing is not for everyone"...Yes!

        I came away feeling like he didn't blame me for wasting his time, but rather thought a. she's a good person and b. maybe when the grandkids are a little older I can sell her a time share at Disneyland so she can gather them all up and spend a week or 2 there each year.

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------Yeah...the timeshares in Orlando are better than in Orange County....and easier to "bank" if you want to go somewhere else. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------As much as I loathe the rest of Florida, I'd put in a vote for DisneyWORLD, not land.

        ------Date: 2005-07-16 15:14:00 Subject: The Human Body

        I'm sitting here working from my hotel room during the heat of the day...yes, I know.... Anyway, I *do* have a good view of the pool and am watching the people out there relaxing and tanning and getting a swim, but mostly smoking and drinking and preparing for their evening ahead.

        So far, I haven't seen one "perfect" body on any of the people there, and there is really a wide discrepancy of body shapes and sizes.

        I'm wondering if this would be true if I was in a resort in Europe. Would I see more perfect bodies? You know, the ones that you see on the cover of Cosmo or GQ.

        I'm thinking that maybe there is no such thing as perfection, or then, maybe we're all perfect, just the way we are (kudos to Mr. Rogers, I do so agree with you!)

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I recently went to Galveston and I did not see much in the way of perfection either. Of course, maybe all of the beautiful people are only at the beautiful beaches.

        Jillsusan ------I'm headed to a show this evening...so there. And just saw an Elvis impersonator so I've been there, done that. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------So get out of your room! Go to a museum or something. Or a mall, even.

        ------Date: 2005-07-16 16:25:00 Subject: Why I'm not Catholic, among other reasons

        From Andrew Sullivan comes this...

          IS THE PURGE IMMINENT? The usually reliable Catholic Reporter's John Allen reports that a long-awaited (and long-feared) document is now in Pope Benedict's hands. The document would put the Vatican's full authority behind banning all gay men from seminaries and the priesthood, regardless of their commitment to celibacy or faithfulness to Church teachings. Their very existence as involuntary homosexuals would make them ineligible for the priesthood. Money quote:
          [T]he document will reject a solution that some seminaries, religious communities and bishops have tended to adopt in recent years - that it doesn't matter if a candidate is gay, as long as he's capable of remaining celibate. "I suspect some people, in good will, have gravitated to this idea," one bishop said. "But that's not what the church is saying, and this document will make that clear." To date, there's been no indication of what the pope intends to do.
          Just ponder what this might mean. The Church concedes that gay people are involuntarily gay; the Church asks them to commit to a life without sex or physical or emotional intimacy; if they are priests, the conundrum is resolved anyway: celibacy is mandatory for gays and straights alike, and, so the very distinction becomes moot.

          THE TURN TOWARD BIGOTRY: But now the policy could become something much, much different: even if gay priests live up to all their responsibilities, even if they embrace celibacy wholly, even if they faithfully serve the Church, they would still be deemed beneath being priests, serving God, or entering seminaries. Why? Because, in pope Benedict's own words, they are "objectively disordered," indelibly morally sick in some undefined way, and so unfit, regardless of their actions, to serve God or His people. It is no longer a matter of what they do or not do that qualifies or disqualifies them for the priesthood; it is who they are. Not since the Jesuits' ban on ethnic Jews, regardless of their conversion or Christian faith, has the Church entertained such pure discrimination. The insult to gay Catholics is, of course, immeasurable. It is also an outrageous attack on the good, great and holy work so many gay men and lesbians have performed in the Church from its very beginnings. Father Mychal Judge, for example, the fire-fighters' priest who died in the ruins of the World Trade Center ministering sacraments to fire-men, would retroactively be deemed unfit for the priesthood. So would literally thousands and thousands of gay priests, bishops, cardinals and popes over the centuries. The old doctrine, however cruel and inhumane, at least concentrated on moral acts and made no distinctions between who committed them. It laid out clear rules and insisted that gays and straights abide by them equally. The proposed policy would instead focus on a human being's very core - and exclude him or her as a result. That kind of discrimination is the definition of bigotry. This is the Church? This is God's voice for human dignity and equality in the world? This is an institution that says all are welcome at the Lord's table? I can only hope and pray that pope Benedict doesn't go there. And if he does, I hope that heterosexual Catholics will rise up and defend their gay priests and friends and family members against this unconscionable attack.

          (P.S. I am leaving aside, of course, the long history of discrimination and subordination of heterosexual women in the Church. It is equally indefensible, in my view, but the arguments for and against women priests has a different lineage and history that, for now, is best discussed in a different context.)

        User Comments: inotellingwhoitellingwhen ------Earth-11-june.gif (29337 bytes) brownEYES http://www.journalscape.com/beautiful_brown_eyes ------ you know one thing we wont be sending our young boys to church no more. lol! ewwwwwwwwwww!!!

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------This one still has me seething. Mychal Judge is one of my great heroes...

        Here's my request...if the Catholic church decides once and for all that it doesn't want anything or anyone gay in its churches....there are a few things we'd like returned... or destroyed...as a part of the purge.

        We'll start with everything Michelangelo or da Vinci ever made for the church...and every building, work of art, document or benefit received/built/purchased by the church during the tenure of Pope Julius III.

        ------Date: 2005-07-18 15:46:00 Subject: Viva??? Las Vegas

        Well, I'm back, despite a 3-hour flight delay in Vegas yesterday, which made me miss my Austin to Dallas flight so I spent last night, courtesy of SW Airlines, at a Comfort Suites, which, btw, was better accomodations than my hotel in Vegas.

        I just had to see for myself what all the fuss was about that so many people venture there at least yearly, sometimes more.

        First, the pros:

        1. The sky is really clear and blue and the surrounding moutains are really cool to look at.

        2. People, for the most part, were really nice.

        3. Alot of the stores in my hotel were open 24/7!

        4. It was kinda smarmy, but I loved the Bellagio fountains.

        5. Cops on bikes everywhere made me feel incredibly safe while walking alone on the strip.

        Now, the cons (and I'll try to hold it to 5):

        1. Greed on display is just not fun for me to watch, and you have to really search to find a smiling, happy face at the tables and slot machines there.

        2. 115 degrees (and it doesn't matter that it's a dry heat).

        3. Why, on god's green earth, don't they have mass transit to and from the strip to the airport? I mean, tourism is their biggest industry so it's just blatantly f*** the ozone/bow down to the Saudis watching all those cabs and hotel shuttles carrying two or three people each when it'd really be quite easy to hook up the monorail that goes from one end of the strip to the other to the airport.

        4. Call me a prude, but I think that there are just some times of the day when you shouldn't drink alcohol, and I don't care where you are, I don't want to breathe your second hand smoke! Take it outside!!!

        5. All those guys on street corners, tapping the cards that advertise "girls to go" and "strippers on call"...hey, they are someone's little girl, guys!

        I know, I know...my idea of a good time on vacation is The New Yorker Festival or a tour of the monuments in DC. Boston is really great with all of its museums and all. I don't even mind a little mindless fun on the beaches in San Diego (I love the Pacific!) or shopping and walking in San Francisco, with their average temps in the perfect 70s. There are other nice places I've been to as well, many I would love to re-visit.

        But Vegas, I gave you a chance, but it's just not a love connection, sorry. Knowing you, though, you won't miss me much.

        User Comments:

        Katieg ------When we were in Vegas for a 3 hour layover last year, they were working on connecting the monorail. Don't know whatever happened with that, but maybe there is hope!

        Glad to have you back!

        ------Date: 2005-07-18 16:16:00 Subject: Set Love Free

        If you read my previous entry about my delayed flight from Vegas to Dallas (via Austin) because of the Wright Amendment you've got to know that I think it's ridiculous that SW Airlines still is having to deal with this stupid legislation!

        User Comments:

        Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------They don't....jk/jk/jk

        Matthew ------Quick, mom. Make sure and post that my other three siblings make perfect sense too before we revolt. j/k j/k

        ;-)

        Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------You're making perfect sense, as you most always do, Matthew!

        Matthew ------It's "SHOWDOWN" time.

        American Airlines lobby vs.

        Southwest Airlines lobby

        I'm putting my money on Southwest Airlines. I'd also guess that there are more loyal constituents with Southwest Airlines than there are with American Airlines. Meaning, that there are probably more people, loyal to SW, willing to call their congress people to get this thing overturned. (I'm not making any sense this morning...or ever)

        ------Date: 2005-07-19 23:53:00 Subject: How old am I???...

        ...when the new nominee for Supreme Court is only 50 years old???

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------He likes Key Lime pie? Ok, my protest sign is already formed in my mind. Surely this is not the kind of discriminating mind we want on our supreme court.

        Matthew ------lay off the drugs, mamala. ;-)

        JillSusan http://www.jillsusan.com ------So I never dream, but last night I dreamed that Supreme Court nominee John Roberts came to my house and we went out for conversation and key lime pie...

        Matthew ------Changing the face of the court for years upon years to come.

        ------Date: 2005-08-02 14:10:00 Subject: August Poem ---

        --- by Marilyn McIntyre

        Augorophobia

        august

        scorched lawns

        trees turn brown with fright

        holidays and beaches and reparing to the cool

        august

        oppressive, painful despair

        inside looking out

        mugged breathe sweats

        air of the great outdoors

        cats sullen

        blue jays drop their jays

        crows too beat to caw

        august

        let me out of here

        august

        my mind curled like rock

        drugged and writhing

        soul up there at rest in the crook of the old oak tree

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------wow

        Matthew ------good stuff.

        Katieg ------Great, powerful poem

        ------Date: 2005-08-07 10:31:00 Subject: I was invited to the party, but I wasn't there to dance

        I had another dream involving Supreme Court nominee John Roberts last night...I really, really, really watch too much C-span, don't ya think?

        Anyway, it was very vivid. All the Washington insiders were there, including W (sans Laura) but I didn't recognize any of them. They all brought there kids and it was soon apparent to me that I was in charge to make sure none of them drowned in the inside pool on the lower level of the Roberts mansion. The pool was great...not too deep, but it was separated into 2 parts where when I was on one side I couldn't see what was happening to the kids on the other side. I was busy rushing back and forth, usually with at least one kid in tow. My brother Ted was there, though, sitting in a chair with "black teeth" disguise, reading a liberal book with huge letters so that anyone from the party glancing at him would know that he didn't share their philosophy.

        Soon the party was on the streets of DC, where a car suddenly accelerated and headed over an embankment. We all rushed over to get a view and there was my mother sitting there, going through photographs and as calm as ever, saying that she was in the process of moving.

        I glanced back and saw Sherry coming down the street chasing after (in the way that Sherry could possibly be chasing after anyone about a month ago) Jack and Marina.

        Then I heard my cousin Ann say "is it time for you to take your medicine Sherry?" and the dream ended with me back in action. Any Freuds out there?

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------As another who sleeps with the tv on from time to time...when I forget to set the sleep timer...I can tell you that snippets from the tv will sometimes worm their way into my dreams...Was the TV on that night, and if so, what was on? :-)

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I can't interpret the dream, but I just want to tell the dreamer that as you give yourself to your sister, we offer ourselves to you in any way that you can draw strength from.

        "Black Teeth" Ted ------I'm not sure what to think about the black teeth part, but the large type book with liberal tendencies seems right on.

        Otherwise, given what you've been dealing with the last seven days, the dream makes perfect sense to me.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Wow - I think you could read something into that - I'll leave it to Anya. I have had Aunt Sherry related dreams the past few nights. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------No, except that given that you sleep with the TV on it's a wonder you don't always have such psychedelic dreams! I don't sleep well with noise.

        Matthew ------Anya's good at dream analysis. I'll tell her about the dream.

        ------Date: 2005-08-13 23:00:00 Subject: "Plastics"

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------My, my...

        Where are Treat Williams and Nell Carter and when do they get naked and start singing? (for yet another movie reference)

        Congrats to a proud parental unit and a peacenik graduate!

        Matthew ------People always wonder what he did from adolescents to age 32. Maybe he went off to college and joined a fraternity.

        Luke ------Twas awesome to see Jesus graduate.

        Maggie http://journalscape.com/maggie ------LOL!

        I love it.

        Sara: Rent The Graduate.

        Sara http://www.journalscape.com/beautiful_brown_eyes ------

        I DONT GET IT. WHAT DOES IT MEAN?

        reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Thanks so much for sharing!!!!!

        ------Date: 2005-08-17 11:09:00 Subject: Burying my head in the (news) sand

        Spending the last 3 weeks at my mother's home most of my non-working time and all of my sleeping time has been an experience I will not long forget. Besides the obvious and constant urge to "take away the bad stuff" from both my sister and my mother, I've found little time for myself. But a couple of nights ago, I just had to do it and I'll continue to for as long as I'm there.

        I'm giving myself 30 minutes a day, or rather 20+/- minutes if I don't watch the commercials (I soooo miss my TiVo). When mother and Sherry (although Sherry is usually asleep) tune into the 10 pm news and the reporters start talking about the war, traffic accidents, autism in children, murder and mayhem in Dallas, spoiled professional athletes, and whatnot, I sneak into my mother's living room and turn on "The Daily Show."

        Few things make me LOL these days, but I usually am able to chuckle at at least several of the Stewart/Colbert/Corddry/Helms/Bee/Black shenanigans during those wonderful 20+/- minutes and I can feel my breathing more relaxed, my blood pressure levelling off at a good 120/80, and for a few minutes, just a few minutes, I'm leaving reality behind.

        User Comments:

        ChicagoRev ------I second Mr. Cloudy's motion.

        Katieg ------Good - you need to take time for yourself.

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I think humor is grace coming in through the back door. Comedians ought to be eligible for sainthood, they save all of us so often.

        ------Date: 2005-08-23 13:21:00 Subject: Best 361 College Rankings

        I was listening to the news yesterday on the way home from work when they reported that The Princeton Review had just come out with their latest college rankings. The reporter stated that The University of Wisconsin at Madison was the Best Party School. Then he went on to explain a little about the report itself.

        Almost as an aside, at the end of his report, he added that Reed College in Portland, Oregon was listed #1 academically.

        I guess this news outlet knows where its listeners' priorities are.

        ------Date: 2005-09-03 21:00:00 Subject: Broken Hearted (for New Orleans)

        -By Eric Clapton and Greg Phillinganes

        When the wind blows down this hard,

        Many a bond is broken.

        See the water lie on the ground

        From where the heavens opened.

        Lord, how will you get through this night

        With your dreams departed?

        And who alone will comfort you?

        Only the broken hearted.

        So you’ve gone beyond your means,

        Every wound is open,

        Your best laid plans are out of reach,

        And all your fears unspoken.

        Sweet revenge is spoken then;

        In the twilight it is gone.

        To living lies with no escape,

        Lord, I would rather be alone.

        I press my fingers to the wood

        To tell you of my dreaming,

        To sing you songs from olden times,

        To keep the love light gleaming. ’cause there’s a place where we can go,

        Where we will not be parted.

        And who alone will enter there?

        Only the broken hearted.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Thanks for posting this. I've never heard this song, but very much plan to do so now.

        Peace.

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------J,

        Thinking of you and the whole family tonight...wrapping you in thoughts and prayers of light and peace. netter ------from the album "Pilgrim", one of my most very favorite.

        ------Date: 2005-09-11 19:23:00 Subject: For Sherry

        I read this poem at Sherry's memorial service on Thursday...I miss her so much....

        My Sister by Lisa Lorden

        My sister is my heart.

        She opens doors to rooms

        I never knew were there,

        Breaks through walls I don't recall building.

        She lights my darkest corners

        With the sparkle in her eyes.

        My sister is my soul.

        She inspires my wearied spirit

        To fly on wings of angels

        But while I hold her hand

        My feet never leave the ground.

        She stills my deepest fears

        With the wisdom of her song.

        My sister is my past.

        She writes my history

        In her eyes I recognize myself,

        Memories only we can share.

        She remembers, she forgives

        She accepts me as I am

        With tender understanding.

        My sister is my future.

        She lives within my dreams

        She sees my undiscovered secrets,

        Believes in me as I stumble

        She walks in step beside me,

        Her love lighting my way.

        My sister is my strength She hears the whispered prayers

        That I cannot speak

        She helps me find my smile,

        Freely giving hers away

        She catches my tears

        In her gentle hands.

        My sister is like no one else

        She's my most treasured friend

        Filling up the empty spaces

        Healing broken places

        She is my rock, my inspiration.

        Though impossible to define,

        In a word, she is...my sister.

        User Comments: profess ------Very sorry to learn of your loss. The best poet I know for grieving is Edna St. Vincent Millay. I hope this will help.

        LOW-TIDE

        These wet rocks where the tide has been,

        Barnacled white and weeded brown

        And slimed beneath to a beautiful green,

        These wet rocks where the tide went down Will show again when the tide is high

        Faint and perilous, far from shore,

        No place to dream, but a place to die,--

        The bottom of the sea once more.

        There was a child that wandered through

        A giant's empty house all day,--

        House full of wonderful things and new,

        But no fit place for a child to play.

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------e-Hugs to you in this time of grief. Thinking of you often.

        ------Date: 2005-09-16 11:11:00 Subject: The Way We Were

        As I replay over and over again in my mind the last few days of my sister's life, I come upon friends of hers that tell me over and over again how they had wanted to visit her during those last days, but just couldn't as they wanted to remember her "as she was" and then they pick some moment in time and remind me of her vitality then.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------That is the same reason why I chose not to see my dad at his wake. I had seen him a few weeks before and he was alive and happy.

        ------Date: 2005-09-20 14:57:00 Subject: Living with the Dead

        I missed this the first time around (September 11, 2005) but it's just as meaningful today, this day.

        From the New York Times and written by Alice Sebold--

          AND where do the dead go after they have sucked down their last breaths and drowned in the rafters of their homes? After they have died in the aftermath of fiery explosion? Do they gather, as some believe, together, and ascend to an otherworldly level; or do they remain, watching; or disappear altogether? Do they wait to hear the stories we will tell?

          The truth is, none of us knows what the dead do. But on earth, where we remain, the living become the keepers of their memory. This is an awesome and overwhelming responsibility. And it is simple: we must not forget them.

          These first weeks after Hurricane Katrina, this fourth anniversary of the attacks on the World Trade Center and the Pentagon, are not the dangerous days. The dangerous ones are ahead of us - always. They are the days when if we are not careful the dead will fall away from us because of our neglect.

          There are the grieving families who will never forget. The co-workers and neighbors who survived, who, like those left living at the end of war, may be haunted for the rest of their lives. Why was one person taken and not another?

          What I would wish for us is that we would turn away from being obsessed by numbers or by politics, and sit with our dead. That we would listen to what they have to tell us instead of doing the easier things: tossing back and forth volleys of blame, recrimination and muscular public bluster.

          No, New Orleans will not come back as it was. And yes, it will come back.

          No, a new building is not the World Trade Center, but there can still be a new heart for downtown Manhattan.

          But no matter what, you cannot bring the dead back. They are gone.

          What can the living do in the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina and 9/11, where loss has greeted us twice on a national scale in such a short span of years?

          Do the dead wish you to suffer? Do they want you to watch CNN and Fox News for days on end? Do they want your guilt or pity? All of these things are like jewels to them. In other words - valueless where they have gone.

          Instead, a woman wants her husband not to forget her but to go on and live. A child longs for a lost mother's arms again. A man grows peaceful when his partner finds new love. Some of the dead, I imagine, get enraged at these things. They are dead after all. They get to do and feel - I hope - what they want to.

          The living who were close to the dead have a well-marked path of grief to walk down. But what about the rest of us? What can we, the distant - those of us who live in Nebraska or California or the very tip of Maine - do?

          You are in your kitchen or your backyard or stuck on an endless elevator ride. You are sitting with a book in the park. Perhaps it is an image you remember having seen. A handmade grave of sheets and bricks. "Here Lies Vera. God Help Us." Perhaps it is the voice from a message left on an answering machine. "They have told us to remain at our desks. I'm O.K., Mom. I love you."

          Perhaps it is less specific: Bodies falling from high windows, bodies floating in muddy water. Bodies wrapped in dirty bedding and tucked along the sides of bridges and highways. The faces of the missing, taped and tacked up on a wall.

          Whatever it is that comes to you in three months, six months, a year or more, don't turn the page of your book and forget, don't stab the elevator button trying to hurry up the trip. Stop.

          These tragedies, it's worth remembering, grant us an opportunity to understand what is perhaps our finest raw material: our humanity. The way we at our best treat one another. The way we listen to one another. The way we grieve.

          Who can forget the funerals of the firemen lost in the twin towers? Who can imagine the funerals to come in the weeks and months ahead in Louisiana and Mississippi? We won't be present, in front of our television or through the newspaper, for all of them. The press itself cannot, beyond a certain point, do anything but name and count the dead.

          So grieve for the particular lives that come to you. Think of the grandmother slumped in her wheelchair under a plaid blanket, or the body of a young financial analyst from West Virginia who was never found but whose smiling face still greets us from a Web site of the dead. Let them guide you to understand that it is our absolute vulnerability that provides our greatest chance to be human.

          Look up from this newspaper you are reading, ignore the morning traffic you may find yourself in tomorrow, turn off the television one day this week and watch the moon. Think of the dead of 9/11 and of Hurricane Katrina. Stay there a moment. Remember them.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I like this article. I find that watching too much news on tragedies seems to dehumanize everyone involved, no matter how heart-wrenching some of the specific stories are -- somehow watching them at the safe remove of my living room makes it harder to separate them from just watching some movie that moves me. This article points a way forward that is sure to keep the humanity alive in us.

        ------Date: 2005-09-21 14:18:00 Subject: A woman's place

        A dear family-in-law woman wrote to me recently and suggested that I get a copy of "We are our Mother's Daughters" by Cokie Roberts. In it, dear "A" explained, Cokie writes about the death of her older sister and how, with that death, her (Cokie's) place in the family changed.

        How much this is true of my life now!

        In growing up and "planning" my life and what I would "be", I never dreamed that I would be my mother's oldest (living) child, my brothers' only (living) sister.

        Oh sure, if I really thought about it, with my way of wanting things to work out chronologically, I guess some day I would have imagined that it was only logical that Sherry would have died before me and I would assume those roles.

        But then, I would have also imagined that my mother would have gone way before Sherry and my brothers would have been much less "young".

        I guess the most difficult times in my life have been when I have found myself in the stage or part of life that I had not imagined me ever being in. A divorced mother of four. A mother with an empty nest. A grandma. Me without an older (living) sister/sibling.

        And in trying to understand why I never imagined these places that I'd be in, I have to wonder what made me *not* imagine these things.

        With each of those un-imaginable parts, I did manage to work my way to acceptance of my new role and in different ways. Months and months of therapy helped me cope with the divorced mother of four role. A career transition helped me fill my "empty nest". Clearly, the grandma part is wonderful now, but I did have to take on the grandma-name "MaDear" to ease the transition. You would think by now I'd have a huge handle on how to adjust to this new place in my family that I find myself in. Right now, however, I just feel like I've walked onstage of a very strange play, not knowing the lines I'm supposed to deliver.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Right now, however, I just feel like I've walked onstage of a very strange play, not knowing the lines I'm supposed to deliver.

        A very tender and beautifully delivered line that ought to be part of a play. An all the more moving because you are not trying to "act" a part.

        Matthew ------Let me know if there's anything I can do to help out.

        Katieg ------We are here for you as you find your new place. I love you!

        ------Date: 2005-09-27 13:13:00 Subject: The New Yorker Festival

        I plan on detailed blogs about the many great events that I saw this past weekend at the New Yorker Festival, but here are just a few of the highlights:

      • Stephen King, dressed down and funny, despite his dark gloomy subjects

      • Jonathan Franzen, reading his essay about birds, the environment and his divorce

      • Zadie Smith, looking gorgeous and sounding very British as she read from her new novel "On Beauty"...I never, ever "allow" myself to read fiction, but I bought her book and had her autograph it and I'm enjoying the read

      • Malcolm Gladwell...the guy is so interesting and smart and his talk on precociousness is hopefully going to be an article soon, as I want to hear/read it again

      • John Updike - ok, the guy's in his late 70s and he has a better memory than I do now or probably ever did

      • The New Yorker cartoonists, creating and drawing right before my very eyes, much in the style of the improv of "Whose Line is it Anyway?"

      • The brilliance and bravery of Jon Lee Anderson, and his "master class" on reporting

      • Hearing Trey Parker, Matt Stone, Brad Bird, David R. Willis and Matt Maiellaro talking about "Animation and Anarchy" with clips from their work ("The Incredibles", "South Park" and "Aqua Teen Hunger Force")

      • The 20 or so New Yorker writers reading their funny, funny pieces ("My Dog is Tom Cruise" and Anthony Lane's "Review of Revenge of the Sith" were the greatest)

      • Tracy Chapman, in interview and song

      • Larissa MacFarquhar (so much better than when I saw her several years ago) talking about interviewing Michael Moore and Noam Chomsky

      • The welcoming style of Cressida Leyshon

      • David Remnick...I mean, he's just good to look at

        Besides the events, I also:

      • survived a 110 mph cab ride on the NJ turnpike

      • enjoyed a bagel, spaghetti and meatballs, bratwurst (with a mustard bar), and of course, a Cinnabon at the airport

      • found my way around town on the subways without too much trouble

      • successfully "negotiated" the price down from one of those electronic store vendors

      • and much, much more... I NY!

        User Comments:

        Katieg ------Welcome back!

        Matthew ------Damnit. Stephen King, the South Park guys, Brad Bird, the Aqua Teen Hunger Force people were there???? WHY didn't I go? Oh well. There's always next year.

        ------Date: 2005-10-05 09:10:00 Subject: Please, Supremes, vote AGAINST the feds

        WASHINGTON Oct 5, 2005 — The Supreme Court will revisit the emotionally charged issue of physician- assisted suicide in a test of the federal government's power to block doctors from helping terminally ill patients end their lives.

        Oregon is the only state that lets dying patients obtain lethal doses of medication from their doctors, although other states may pass laws of their own if the high court rules against the federal government. Voters in Oregon have twice endorsed doctor-assisted suicide, but the Bush administration has aggressively challenged the state law.

        User Comments:

        Jon McCachren ------Its cases like this that reveal that Bush is not a real conservative. He advocates the expansive reach of Federal Law to see that every issue is resolved in his constituents' favor. The real conservative would see this as a state issue and leave Oregon to adress their own health and welfare issues. The solicitors argument is so technical it almost concedes the big point. . . that an Oregon Doctor might do what he thinks best as long as he doesn't use Federally regulated drugs to do it.

        RM, your point is also a good one, that they don't really want strict constructionist judges. They want judges that will enact their own ideology. That wouldn't necessarily be so bad if it wasn't so hypocritical. Oops, another illustration that these Bushies are wolves in conservative's clothing. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I also find it fascinating that then-Sen. Ashcroft tried TWICE in congress to amend the controlled substances law to make the Oregon thing illegal. Tried, and failed. There were also other actions that failed. So I guess you could say that the administration is trying to do in the courts what they couldn't do legislatively... hmm... does this sound familiar?

        Let's hope they don't find any activist judges to help them in their quest.

        ------Date: 2005-10-07 09:08:00 Subject: Happy Bday Washington Journal

        C-Span's Washington Journal turns 25 years old today and they're doing 25 straight hours of caller phone-in starting this evening at 7 CST. Don't think I'll make it the whole 25 hours, but I'll watch it this evening.

        For added fun, take a drink every time Brian Lamb says "caller, what's your point?"

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------haha

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------I'll see if J&J want to tune in.

        Matthew ------You should call in. :-)

        ------Date: 2005-10-10 15:52:00 Subject: She out-Dixie-Chicks the Dixie Chicks

        From Jill's ipod today...

        Wasteland of the Free

        Artist:Iris Dement

        Living in the wasteland of the free... We got preachers dealing in politics and diamond mines and their speech is growing increasingly unkind

        They say they are Christ's disciples but they don't look like Jesus to me and it feels like I am living in the wasteland of the free

        We got politicians running races on corporate cash

        Now don't tell me they don't turn around and kiss them peoples' ass

        You may call me old-fashioned but that don't fit my picture of a true democracy and it feels like I am living in the wasteland of the free

        We got CEO's making two hundred times the workers' pay but they'll fight like hell against raising the minimum wage and If you don't like it, mister, they'll ship your job to some third-world country 'cross the sea and it feels like I am living in the wasteland of the free

        Living in the wasteland of the free where the poor have now become the enemy

        Let's blame our troubles on the weak ones

        Sounds like some kind of Hitler remedy

        Living in the wasteland of the free

        We got little kids with guns fighting inner city wars

        So what do we do, we put these little kids behind prison doors and we call ourselves the advanced civilization that sounds like crap to me and it feels like I am living in the wasteland of the free We got high-school kids running 'round in Calvin Klein and Guess who cannot pass a sixth-grade reading test but if you ask them, they can tell you the name of every crotch on mTV and it feels like I am living in the wasteland of the free

        We kill for oil, then we throw a party when we win

        Some guy refuses to fight, and we call that the sin but he's standing up for what he believes in and that seems pretty damned American to me and it feels like I am living in the wasteland of the free

        Living in the wasteland of the free where the poor have now become the enemy

        Let's blame our troubles on the weak ones

        Sounds like some kind of Hitler remedy

        Living in the wasteland of the free

        While we sit gloating in our greatness justice is sinking to the bottom of the sea

        Living in the wasteland of the free

        Living in the wasteland of the free

        Living in the wasteland of the free

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I do love that song... they played it on KPFT all the time--I always thought it was Lucinda Williams though! Thanks for setting me straight ------Date: 2005-10-13 11:11:00 Subject: How to be a Poet

        How to be a Poet

        (to remind myself)- Wendell Berry

        Make a place to sit down.

        Sit down. Be quiet.

        You must depend upon affection, reading, knowledge, skill - more of each than you have - inspiration, work, growing older, patience, for patience joins time to eternity. Any readers who like your poems, doubt their judgment.

        Breathe with unconditional breath the unconditioned air.

        Shun electric wire.

        Communicate slowly. Live a three-dimensioned life; stay away from screens.

        Stay away from anything that obscures the place it is in.

        There are no unsacred places; there are only sacred places and desecrated places. Accept what comes from silence.

        Make the best you can of it.

        Of the little words that come out of the silence, like prayers prayed back to the one who prays, make a poem that does not disturb the silence from which it came.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Nothing better than a poem to describe how to write a poem. Great post. sara http://www.journalscape.com/beautiful_brown_eyes ------ DEEP.

        ------Date: 2005-10-18 21:16:00 Subject: Tupac

        Can I just say that the best 40 minutes (that's TiVo time) in television lately, as far as I'm concerned, is at 10 to 11 pm CST when you have The Daily Show and The Colbert Report (pronounced col-bear re-poor) back to back?

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------Like Matthew, I'm still on the fence on Colbert...I've enjoyed the show, though he sometimes seems a bit like an actor who needs one more week of rehearsal....the flubs with the teleprompter are a bit jarring...

        So far, I've only noticed one common joke between the two shows...that's remarkable...and I love the 'interviews' with other reporters/analysts...I'm always chomping at the bit to see what horrible thing he will say...

        My fear is that it is a format that isn't designed for the long haul...But I'm willing to go along for the ride, if for no other reason than I fear "The Daily Show" will be injured if it is forced to be in contact again with that Carolla piece of crap...

        Matthew ------I pretty much agree with the sentiment that it's like a two for one deal, but I have mixed feelings on Colbert's show. I'll post more on this later, after I've seen a few more episodes. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------So you liked it? We enjoyed it too, although we think it will continue to hit its stride. It had a totally different energy than Jon's show, which is good. The gravitas competition was funny.

        ------Date: 2005-10-22 09:27:00 Subject: I've fallen and I can't get up

        That's what my mother said on Monday about noontime, as she lay on the floor in her kitchen until I arrived around 5:30ish on my usual 'check on her' visit that I make daily.

        I had a meeting planned at the church for later that night and had considered not even stopping by, as lately I've felt that maybe I need to not make her dependent on these daily visits. But something told me I should go, and thank god I did.

        She has a broken hip and had surgery on Wednesday. Last night my brothers and I sat in the hospital waiting room trying to decide whether her total lack of trying to get better/eat anything/confused state at times is due to the meds they're giving her or whether she's losing her will to fight back.

        Time will tell...

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------Blessings for wholeness...of body and spirit...

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Very sorry to hear this, but very glad you did stop in. My thoughts are with you. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I hope she's getting some of her feistiness back today.

        ------Date: 2005-10-25 12:17:00 Subject: You may say that you're my hero

        Rosa Parks, whose refusal to give up her bus seat to a white man sparked the modern civil rights movement, died Monday evening. She was 92. Mrs. Parks died at her home during the evening of natural causes, with close friends by her side.

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------and while we learned in later years there was more of a plan behind it that simply being tired one day, that didn't change the fact that she was willing to be the one to risk everything... netter ------"I'm not moving."

        three words that changed a world.

        is that not amazing?

        Matthew ------a true hero

        ------Date: 2005-10-26 09:37:00 Subject: Why 2K?

        WHERE HAVE ALL THE FLOWERS GONE - words and music by Pete Seeger

        Where have all the flowers gone?

        Long time passing

        Where have all the flowers gone?

        Long time ago

        Where have all the flowers gone?

        Girls have picked them every one

        When will they ever learn? When will they ever learn?

        Where have all the young girls gone?

        Long time passing

        Where have all the young girls gone?

        Long time ago

        Where have all the young girls gone?

        Taken husbands every one

        When will they ever learn?

        When will they ever learn?

        Where have all the young men gone?

        Long time passing

        Where have all the young men gone?

        Long time ago

        Where have all the young men gone?

        Gone for soldiers every one

        When will they ever learn?

        When will they ever learn?

        Where have all the soldiers gone?

        Long time passing

        Where have all the soldiers gone?

        Long time ago

        Where have all the soldiers gone?

        Gone to graveyards every one

        When will they ever learn?

        When will they ever learn? Where have all the graveyards gone?

        Long time passing

        Where have all the graveyards gone?

        Long time ago

        Where have all the graveyards gone?

        Covered with flowers every one

        When will we ever learn?

        When will we ever learn?

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------It's a sad milestone.

        Matthew ------One of the great songs of all time. Pete Seeger often gets overlooked, but the man wrote some really beautiful songs, that went on to get played by other artists.

        ------Date: 2005-11-03 09:14:00 Subject: 28 years ago today...

        ...a star was born! Happy Birthday, Matthew!!! ILY!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------a star wars nerd was born. :-)

        Thanks, Mom. You're the greatest.

        ------Date: 2005-11-09 10:05:00 Subject: My sabbatical begins on Friday!

        Friday will be my last day here at my current contracting/consulting job. What started out as a 2- week assignment back in August of 2004, has turned into a 15 month assignment. My boss wanted more of me, and last week asked me to commit to another year here. My "honesty" gene was working overtime and I let her know that given my personal situation (Sherry's death, Mother's hip/leg fracture, and my strong desire to re-locate to the DC area) I just couldn't do that. So she pulled my contract early (I was supposed to be here at least until Dec 22nd.) Oh well. Such is life.

        I really have enjoyed this job, but to tell you the truth, I'm ready for a break. I have boxes to pack and stuff to throw away and decisions to make.

        Something tells me this sabbatical is going to be busy and go by fast!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Can't wait to see you! :-)

        Katieg ------Wow! Exciting!

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Congratulations?! Enjoy your freedom and I hope we'll hear about all kinds of new things blossoming in this time of fallow ground.

        ------Date: 2005-11-09 11:08:00 Subject: The Best Ex-Husband You Could Ever Ask For

        Poem: "The Best Ex-Husband You Could Ever Ask For" by Elizabeth W. Garber from Listening Inside the Dance: A Life in Maine Infused with Tango.© The Illuminated Sea Press, 2005. Reprinted with permission.

        Traveling with my Ex, we take our daughter and her friend to New York City.

        Since we were traveling the same way, it only made sense.

        We settle into an old comfort, the familiarity of all the years of car trips with our children, as the girls chatter away in the backseat.

        We worry about our sleep-deprived son at college, and share our amazement at his last paper he'd emailed both of us for our editing comments.

        It's been six years of unwinding the knotted battles, until they've mostly vanished, forgotten.

        What were those battles all about, when it felt like I was fighting for my life?

        He talks of his girlfriend, of living without making plans.

        I gently hold him at a distance, as he continues to vaguely court me. as he, perhaps, vaguely courts all women.

        We drive, facing our unknown lives ahead, wondering about what still waits to be lived.

        Mid trip, my mind goes blank with his talk in all the old familiar ways.

        This used to feel like dying, again and again.

        Today it's like being a tourist at a historic battleground.

        Grass has grown over all the bloodshed.

        We settle into the easy silence of long married couples, smiling as we overhear the conversations from the backseat.

        It is good to find peace.

        No furious expectations haunt us, no heartbreaking slights, no land-mined conversations.

        We are thoughtful about simple things.

        Thank you for driving, for packing food, for trading off on paying tolls, for finding this great Salsa club in Soho for our teenaged daughter.

        We sit together, the parents, smiling and slightly anxious as a man asks our daughter to dance.

        We stand up as well, but tentatively, following a rhythm and steps we don't know, dancing like chaste old friends.

        We are careful, discovering this new dance.

        ------Date: 2005-11-14 11:33:00 Subject: Unemployment begins

        So I started the day by sleeping in (til 8:30) and then paying bills (while I still can) and then by listening to C-span (right now, John Bolton, the controversial appointed US Ambassador to the UN [got milk?] is on so I'll be turning it off soon) and getting showered and ready for a visit with mother.

        Oh before that, I'll file for unemployment online.

        Another day, another $1.98 (or maybe not).

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------Here's to a brief sojourn in the land of the Tex. Dept. of Human Resources.

        Mamala ------Matthew-you're so clever! Matthew ------The apple fell upwards to the tree.

        ------Date: 2005-11-14 19:22:00 Subject: Hell-thcare

        Can I just say that I'm as frustrated right now as I've ever been about the US healthcare system? I'm fantasizing about some good old fashioned socialized medicine right about now!

        I went to visit my mother today in the nursing home that her insurance company has *allowed* her to go to while she's recovering from a broken hip and femur. I was gone all weekend and when I walked in I was expecting to see her, at the very least, in a wheelchair. But no. She'd been in her bed since Friday evening when I last saw her. Her hair was greasy and needed washing, but no, she couldn't have a shower until her stitches were removed, maybe "in one week" according to one nurse, maybe "now" according to another.

        The physical therapist came in while I was there and was glad to see me there, as she wanted to know why RHD (her previous hospital) had outfitted her with a brace for her left calf and foot. OK, I know I'm smart but do I look like a Doctor????

        You know, I was willing to give the staff at RHD all kinds of breaks when I'd approach them at the nurses station and they were all busy with forms and notebooks on each patient. Maybe that's why they couldn't respond to my mother's calls for help right away, as they needed to keep an accurate record of what they were doing with her.

        But when the PT tells me that she's read her records from beginning to end and still doesn't know why she got this brace, and then asks me the reason for it, I just want to scream!

        So I tell her that I don't know and if all they are going to do is keep her in bed in diapers, then she might as well go home as any of us can do that for her, she apologizes for another "ball" that has been dropped and promises to do better.

        They'll test mother tomorrow (or someday soon) to make sure she doesn't have a blod clot in her leg, and then proceed with her PT.

        After dealing with the healthcare community BIGTIME since my sister entered hospice care on July 26th, all I can say is if this (the US) is the best healthcare in the world, I'm saddened and sick about this tonight!

        User Comments: NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------I've spent the better part of my last two months negotiating the healthcare system, specifically the Medicare system, for three folks. Arbitrary, uncaring, totally dependent upon a doctor agreeing to be insistent...and don't get me started about the Veteran's Administration healthcare system. And Medicare D will cause my parents' annual drug expenses to go UP as their current supplemental plans are made illegal. I stand behind my governor's statements that he will continue to buy our Medicaid drugs from Canada and double dog dare the Feds to sue illinois, since we can provide almost 200% more coverage buying them that way. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Whoever said ours was the best? I can't imagine.

        R had a perfectly routine physical about two months ago. We have paid $50 so far for this physical; today we received a bill for another $150. It is beyond me why we are having to pay ANYTHING for this since the doc was in network and he hadn't had a physical in two years or so. And so we're paying $200? What on earth is the point of insurance?

        ------Date: 2005-12-05 22:01:00 Subject: I've sold my condo!

        How cool is this?

        Monday, a week ago, I put a sign in the laundry room here that I had a condo for sale.

        Nothing happened for a week, but yesterday I started receiving calls from a Vietnamese guy with a young wife and a small child who was *very* interested.

        Tonight he came by, with his wife and his brother, and I have a deposit check and a deal!

        I'm so pleased...not only that I sold this condo so quickly, but also to an Asian couple. What wonderful people they appear to be! They took their shoes off before they entered my place. They were *so* appreciative and excited about getting my place.

        With all the *stuff* going on these past few months, I must say that I feel really, really good about this and know that I will smile when I think that my condo is inhabited by this really nice Asian family!

        User Comments:

        Luke ------"He was speaking another language. I think it was...Asian"

        Matthew ------gotta love those asians!

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Wow, that is cool! This is all very exciting, even if it does make Mr. Cloudy drizzle.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Awesome! Let us know what we can do to help!

        ------Date: 2005-12-11 03:36:00 Subject: Life: Part 2 (or whatever) begins

        I'm here in VA and have all my worldly goods and my VW in a truck outside.

        I've never done this before. Gone to a place I don't have a job, a new place, one with no connections other than a strong desire to be near at least one of my children, and near at least one of my grandchildren, and far away from the door of my sweet sister, who, on the inside was heroically battling ovarian cancer (which laughed at her optimism of getting better and eventually, it was the victor) and my sweet brothers and, of course, my mother who needs me now more than ever.

        Oh, what to do?

        My answer to that was "do it for me"...how selfish can I be, but on the other hand, if not now, when?

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy ------Perhaps there is a witness in both the willingness to be wrong and the willingness to be right. The willingness to fall into the unknown. And perhaps what seems selfish one moment will also seem selfless in another -- a new kind of giving yourself away, to mystery itself.

        ------Date: 2005-12-15 01:52:00 Subject: Geographic Cure

        When I was actively in the AA/Alanon program in Houston in the late 70s and early 80s, they used to talk alot about "geographic cures" and how they were not advisable as steps to take to quit drinking or obsessing about the drinker. They defined a geographic cure as a move, a new job, a new partner, any major new life change really. With this in my background, I really had to examine my decision to move from Dallas to the DC area after Sherry's death. Although I had lately (over the past few years) grown weary of living in Dallas, I was fully aware that I was making this move, in part, specifically to have a geographic cure.

        Now I know that it doesn't matter where I live in this world...I'm still going to grieve for and miss my sister.

        But on the other hand, I also know that people who have been able to pick up and move without a plan (job and permanent place to live) have always inspired me and I've admired them.

        I had never made such a bold step, and if not now, when?

        So far, I'm not looking back at my decision at all. Of course, I could be at the honeymoon phase of my plan (what plan?).

        But on the other hand, as I sat on the couch with my 3 grandchildren tonight and watched an animated Christmas show with them and saw the magical looks on their faces, I couldn't help think that I was in the right place.

        And as I heard just before bed from my son-in-law R that my daughter's "water broke" (she's 9 months pregnant with #2) this afternoon so it'll be any time now that she'll give birth, it just seems right to be where I am, geographic cure or not.

        User Comments:

        Mamala ------RM-I'm crazy...I know it.

        I don't know where I got this idea (about your water breaking), except you might read my next post and see, that in reality, or rather symbolically, "my water broke"... reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------My water didn't break! We're all intact here.

        ------Date: 2005-12-15 02:06:00 Subject: Over the Rainbow

        My granddaughter J is slightly obsessed (in a good way) with "The Wizard of OZ" and lately wants to watch the movie when she's with me.

        Now, I've seen that movie more times than probably any other movie in my life, but I still find something wonderful and magical about it.

        Tonight, as I sat between J and her brother J, and we were watching this movie, I found my eyes filling with tears as I listened to Dorothy sing "Over the Rainbow".

        Two obvious reasons caused this outburst of emotion:

        1. I was so happy as I sat between 2 of my grandchildren, all cozy under the comforter, our arms and hands entwined, enjoying just being with them and listening to their interpretations and questions about the movie.

        2. I was so sad as I listened to this song as it was the song they played the instrumental version of in the pre-surgical waiting room prior to Sherry's first surgery some 2 years ago that ultimately gave us the really bad news of her fatal illness. I remember that she was so nervous about her surgery and all, and when she heard that song, she just broke down and cried and held my hand as they were injecting her with pre-surgery Valium. As the drug took hold of her and the song played on, I remember her asking me to take her back to Kansas.

        Eyes welling up again....

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I was moved reading this. I'm glad this memory now includes the loving presence of your grandchildren.

        Ted http://www.livejournal.com/users/ripvansabre/ ------What a bittersweet moment...the joy of the shared experience with your J & J and the sorrow of the loss of our sister. It's been more than 8 years since we lost Dad and I still have moments like that for him as well. When they first happened I found them somewhat unwelcome. Now when one happens I marvel at how the emotions last after the physical presence has faded, and I've come to feel that those moments are proof that life ends but love does not.

        ------Date: 2005-12-16 23:06:00 Subject: Active Labor

        Eventually, the contractions that you have been experiencing will become stronger and more intense. You will also find that as time progresses the contractions are getting closer together and lasting longer. When this happens, you will have moved into active labor.

        When I was pregnant with each of my four children, I was focused on the end result (having that baby in my arms) and not so much on how they would come to me, hoping only that they would be healthy, that I wouldn't have to experience much pain, and they would just be born.

        For most women, active labor is the longest part of their labor.

        Isn't this the truth in all things for women? Laboring, longest?

        You will find that as active labor progresses, you will become more serious or "focused" during your contractions. You may find yourself slowly moving from not talking during the peak of a contraction - to not talking during a contraction - to barely talking even between contractions. You may also find that your movements become slower and more deliberate as you progress through active labor. Eventually you may even be at the point that moving between contractions is uncomfortable and difficult to manage.

        My oldest granddaughter J is experiencing some really grown up emotions now. Sometimes she'll just cry out...other times, I see her just not wanting to focus on much around her. I have no doubt that she'll grow into an acceptance of some disappointments and into a maturity that knows that most things around her are good and true.

        These are normal physical reactions to labor. As your body works harder to contract the uterus, you will naturally spend less energy on "non-labor" activities such as moving and talking. You will also find that your hunger naturally disappears so your body will not waste energy trying to digest food. For most women, the increased focus it takes to labor also prevents them from being concerned with societal norms leading to a decrease in modesty and the pleasantries of conversation. My sister Sherry in her end days just plain quit eating. She quit drinking. She laid oblivious to things around her as she died, with me trying my darndest to make her last days OK for her. The night before she died, all she wanted to do was get out of bed and go home. I said "no".

        During active labor, mothers find that changing their activity and position as desired helps them to remain comfortable.

        Little C accompanied her parents to a Christmas party tonight. I'm pretty sure she had a really, really great time, but arriving at home really late, she found that just the usual acts of brushing her teeth and going potty before bed were almost more than she could bear.

        Although the desire for food disappears during labor, it is important to stay well hydrated.

        My mother, in the hospital recovering from a broken hip and femur, is finding it hard to work up an appetite for any of the food they are giving her. Now, I've tried it and find it's pretty darn tasty. Just yesterday, she complained that even the KFC chicken sandwich my sister-in-law brought her was "dry" and "over-cooked".

        During active labor, some women find that making noise, called vocalization, with contractions helps to keep them relaxed during the contractions. Many women also find that tuning out the world around them, sometimes called "going inside yourself," helps them to stay relaxed and handle contractions more effectively.

        Being in a different place, other than my comfortably quiet condo in Dallas, has forced me to abandon the stuff that helped me turn on, tune in, drop out. I've had to deal...I'm tearing up (as in crying tears) more now than I've ever done. Just reading the contents of one of those form Christmas letters from a dear one is an emotional event. Lately, I've just taken to opening the envelope and putting it aside for a day when I can handle the sentiment effectively.

        Most women will develop some form of pattern or ritual during active labor. This means that she will repeat the same responses to contractions for several contractions in a row.

        My pregnant daughter (9 months-almost full term), just the other night appeared at the dinner table, long after dinnertime, in a long sleeved, flannel nightgown, reading the latest New Yorker magazine, with a facial mask, while eating a homemade (just that day by her and her daughter C) candy sucker while experiencing contractions, marking the beginning of new life to be born soon. As you see these behaviors build (vocalization, tuning out and using rituals), you will know that labor is progressing. By keeping track of the behaviors the physical signs (loss of hunger, loss of modesty and deliberate movement), and the emotional signs (focusing, decreasing talkativeness, decreasing humor) you can get a pretty good estimate of "how far" into labor the mother is.

        My female Bichon, Marina, is adjusting well (much better than her brother Jack) to the foster home that she'll inhabit for the next month or so, until I find a home for us all. She's come quite a long way, as always before, having entered my household 7 months after her half brother Jack, she felt like an intruder to an already established household.

        It is important to note though, that not every mother will respond in the same way or with the same behaviors and signs.

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Just as Aunt Sherry wanted to get up and go home, the same thing often happens during transition in labor--the woman will want to climb out of bed, say "I'm done" and ask to go home.

        It's a clear sign that the process is almost complete.

        ------Date: 2005-12-19 09:54:00 Subject: It's my party and I'll cry if I want to

        Lately, since arriving in DC last week, I have often had periods of strong emotions. I can never really tell what's going to set them off. Sometimes it's the obvious - hearing Silent Night, watching a sappy movie, thoughts of friends and family who are no longer with us in this world. At other times, it's not so obvious. Take yesterday, for example.

        I decided to go to Reverend Mother's church to hear her deliver the children's sermon instead of setting off to search for a Unitarian church to call my new "home". All was fine until I walked toward the door of the church and I just had the strongest feeling that I needed to be "alone". In the crowd forming at the entrance to the church, I quickly moved away from R & C and headed to the very last row (almost) of the church and sat anonymously by myself. I closed my eyes as the flutes and pianos began to play and concentrated on the music. Many times during the service, and not at the obvious ones, I found myself feeling very sad, very lonely, very joyful, very overwhelmed, very, very, very.

        Don't get me wrong. I look at this as a good thing. I think for over 2 years now (maybe almost 3 years as it probably began with the sudden passing of my children's father) I have not allowed myself to feel much. Now with this new place and new beginning, I'm dealing with all these emotions.

        I've become a snivelling idiot!

        User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Although I hate that you have to go through this, I am glad to hear that it is happening. My one fear with you moving was that it was to avoid dealing with all of this (even though I would understand the desire to escape!). I am just glad that, as you work through the pain, you will have the kids nearby to bring the smile back to your face.

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Sniveling? Possibly. Idiot? Never.

        I wish you traveling mercies as you journey down such paths, to wherever they lead. Thanks for continuing to share the journey. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Sounds like a positive thing to me!

        ------Date: 2005-12-21 09:25:00 Subject: Good (great) things come in small packages

        I just got back from spending a wonderful 24 hours with J & J in their RV, parked about 30 minutes from where I'm temporarily staying until I find a place to settle.

        How fun it was to see how they "live" in this small space!

        RVs are full of cabinets and neat hiding spaces that convert into something else. J & J are experts at what's behind each door and know the in's and out's of how to do what with what.

        We had a great mac and cheese supper, since the Redskins Pizza special (you get free toppings depending on how the Redskins do in their last game and this week it was really a special, special since they *really* beat the Cowboys last Sunday, grrrrr)[I'm not a huge pro-sports fan at all, but I do have to say that I've lived in the Dallas area long enough to be at least a little disconcerted to see so much Redskin stuff on *everything* here in Northern VA] would have taken way over 45 minutes to even be ready for pick up. Then, J & J's parents took off for shopping and we decorated Christmas cookies and watched The Polar Express. Then it was off to bed. But before that, they showed me how to work the potty (you have to decide beforehand what you're going to do in there because depending on what you're going to do, you either add water or not), how they decorated an area with a hand-drawn fireplace that they hung their stockings nearby, the mochlum angel (complete with Barbie dress and wings) that topped their small Christmas tree, and they proudly showed off their sleeping/play area.

        Now I'm not sure that as J & J grow, they'll want to continue to live in such a small space with their Mom and Dad. It seems eventually female J will need some space from male J. But for now, I think they are building some really wonderful, close-knit memories of their time together in this small space.

        It's obvious to me that for them, it's all the space they need.

        ------Date: 2005-12-22 08:25:00 Subject: Of Virgin Births, Caves, and Infants

        "We are all born as animals and live the life that animals live: We sleep, eat, reproduce, and fight. There is, however, another order of living, which the animals do not know, that of awe before the mystery of being, the mysterium tremendum et fascinans, that can be the root and the branch of the spiritual sense of one's days. That is the birth -- the Virgin Birth -- in the heart of a properly human, spiritual life.

        "The motif of birth in a cave is also very ancient. This symbol is associated particularly with the winter solstice, when the sun has traveled to its farthest point away from the tilted earth and the light is in the nadir of the abyss...

        "The cave has always been the scene of initiation, where the birth of the light takes place. Here as well is found the whole idea of the cave of the heart, the dark chamber of the heart, where the light of the divine first appears. This image is also associated with the emergence of light in the beginning, out of the abyss of the early chaos, so that one senses the deep resonations of this theme.

        "We have then the story and image of the birth of this wondrous child in a richly evocative setting. Let us look at other aspects of it. That there was no room in the inn is also an old story. So, too, is that of the infant in exile as the new world is born outside of the province of the old...

        "What it evokes...is the birth of a new King somewhere else, outside of the sphere of the powers that be, and the ultimate overcoming of these powers by this new King." from Thou Art That: Transforming Religious Metaphor

        by Joseph Campbell

        pages 29, 65, and 67

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------I love Campbell...his incredible sense of the power of myth and its place in life and faith...nevertheless, sometimes he can so dissect a story that its real power as narrative is neutered...but these are awesome quotes.

        ------Date: 2005-12-26 22:16:00 Subject: I'm where I need (want) to be

        I've been in the DC area just a couple of short weeks now. I love the climate...the trees shedding their leaves...the squirrels in MA & Robt's yard...playing with C as her mom has labor pains, then not, then labor pains again...shopping for apts on Craigslist...imagining that I can take a train to my next work location...imagining that I can actually *live* without a car...knowing that I may live in a "red state" but it's damn close to blue...and just so much more.

        I needed, and am glad for, this new direction in my life.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Very glad to hear it! Sounds lovely.

        ------Date: 2005-12-27 20:31:00 Subject: The Divine Miss M

        I'm in love...granddaughter #3, grandchild #4, was born this beautiful, glorious day!

        It just doesn't get any better than this!!!!!!!!

        User Comments:

        Uncle Matthew ------MUST...GET...MORE...PICTURES!

        haha Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Congratulations! What exciting times. Sounds like new birth is in the air up there.

        ------Date: 2006-01-02 00:54:00 Subject: Happy New Year!

        And I'm sure it will be a happy one!

        I've rented a place in DC near Dupont Circle...a small apartment, but an updated 1920s building that is all the space I need. I'll take possession of it on the 15th of this month, but probably actually move in around the 1st of February.

        This is exciting...for so long now I've said I wanted to live in a downtown area, near where all the action is. And now that dream is a reality.

        Woohoo!!

        User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------I'm finally catching up on blogs! I guess I should have known about your new apartment after all. Congrats!

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Awesome!

        Ted http://www.livejournal.com/users/ripvansabre/ ------That is great! Does "all the space I need" include crash space for wayward brothers?

        ------Date: 2006-01-02 01:07:00 Subject: Deja vu all over again

        Recently, I had the neat experience of seeing my oldest daughter (9 months pregnant) at a table at a fast food place with her almost 3 year old daughter and my other 2 grandkids (ages 8 and 5).

        Looking at that scene, I realized that that was probably what I looked like, oh so many years ago, as I was waiting for my fourth and final child to be delivered and had 3 young ones myself, about the same age as those in this recent scene.

        From 50+ eyes and mindset, I just shook my head and said to myself "wow...how did I ever manage?" But then, manage I did and what a wonderful time it was!!

        ------Date: 2006-01-02 01:11:00 Subject: East coast time

        I love being on the east coast. It's after one here in DC, and I'm still awake and thinking it's really just early as it's only just after midnight in Dallas.

        Last night, as the ball fell at midnight in Times Square, I enjoyed seeing the New Year come to the US in real time.

        User Comments:

        Mamala ------hey now...

        Luke ------Correction: Mom's been an East Coast elitist...

        Matthew ------Mom's turning into an East Coast elitist. ;-)

        Ted http://www.livejournal.com/users/ripvansabre/ ------Since returning from London, I've been an early riser - yesterday 4am, today 5am. It's fun to play 'timezone mind games', isn't it?

        ------Date: 2006-01-05 00:42:00 Subject: Hook em horns!

        What a great game...I haven't watched a football game since I don't know when, but this was one for the history books!

        Go Texas! National Champs! Hook 'em horns and Matthew McConaughey is sooooo hot!~

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------You can take the person out of Texas, but you can't take the Texas out of the person. Right Katie and Reverendmother? :-) Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------So there's still a little Texan in ya?

        ------Date: 2006-01-08 08:55:00 Subject: MaDear's Cereal

        That's the strange concoction of mostly healthy cereals that I mixed all together into one of those HUGE Sam's containers when I moved last month. It's pretty tasty to me, but then, anyone who knows me, knows that I'm not that picky and I've been known to not throw anything away, no matter how old or what the expiration date says.

        Thankfully, this stuff is pretty fresh, but there's not a Cocoa Puff, a Captain Crunch, a Fruit Loop, or Frosted Flake among it. No, instead you'll find almonds and pumpkin seeds and other seeds, oat bran flakes, raisins and dried blueberries, and chunks of oats. And C, my granddaughter, just loves it! Without exception, she asks for it when I ask her the question "what would you like for breakfast?" She says joyfully, "MaDear's cereal!"

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------That healthy cereal sounds tasty. Sounds like something I'd enjoy as well.

        Katieg: You can tell J and J that Pop Tarts and Donuts are Uncle Matt's cereal.

        Mr. Cloudy ------Ok. It's ok to share the cereal, but not the 2 1/2 week old carryout box from Chili's!

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Hmmm... Caroline gets the healthy cereal, and when my kids are there they usually get donuts, pop tarts, or some other unhealthy concoction! :-)

        Ted http://www.livejournal.com/users/ripvansabre/ ------I love it - this is EXACTLY the kind of think I was hoping you'd get to experience when you moved! How could you have the same thing happen when you're 'just visiting'?

        ------Date: 2006-01-08 23:38:00 Subject: Dallas S.W.A.T.

        A friend of mine from Carrollton PD sent me a link regarding this new TV show. I just had to TiVo it and watched the first episode this evening. I really relate to it since I worked for Carrollton and have a brother who was actually a SWAT officer with Dallas. Some of his good buddies are now stars of the show. I liked it, as I have an affinity for police officers, especially Dallas area ones, but it had it's cheesy parts too with all the personal relationship stuff. I'm thinking these guys (the stars of the show) are getting all kinds of grief these days from their brothers in law enforcement.

        But I have to admit, they are hunks!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Where'd you go?

        Luke ------There's that word again... "hunk"...

        *shudders*

        ------Date: 2006-01-21 22:34:00 Subject: "I want to call my Aunt Sherry"

        That's what C said this morning as I placed my sweatshirt and my cell phone on the bench at the playground in the park.

        I was delighted that, of all the people C knows, that she picked my sister, Aunt Sherry, to *want* to call on my cellphone.

        I told C that Aunt Sherry was in heaven watching us play, and that she didn't need a call.

        But it was wonderful that she (C) wanted to call her!

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------that's adorable. she has jedi powers. ;-) reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I had no idea! That's so sweet! ------Date: 2006-01-31 23:39:00 Subject: Sirens in DC

        So why does it feel really, really good when I hear the faint sounds of sirens at night in DC, while I'm putting stuff away and finding a home for all my worldly possessions, that I smile a little about hearing sirens?

        I watch the State of the Union and think, "it's going on just a few short blocks away from me" - how cool is that?

        I drive to the Virginia suburbs..hey, I don't even need to get on a plane, and I hold my granddaughter and just smell her wonderful baby breath and feel her sweet newborn skin! And then, I get to walk to pick up C and see her delight that I have my doggies nearby.

        So I come home, and spend some time unpacking just a few more boxes. And then, I think, this is the best time of my life.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------This made me very happy. I'm so glad -- glad to have seen the dream in your eyes, glad to have seen you choose to embrace it at the right time, and so glad to see it come true. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Aw, yay!

        Ted http://www.livejournal.com/users/ripvansabre/ ------I got goosebumps when I read your journal tonight...as I read your words, I thought "She's home. D.C. feels like home to her". I punch up "Feels Like Home" (the Bonnie Raitt version, of course) on iTunes and listen. As the song plays I hear the line "And a siren wails in the night" at the same moment that I noticed your entry's title.

        ------Date: 2006-02-03 00:25:00 Subject: It's worth the read

        Bono, on C-span, at the National Prayer Breakfast

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        Jill ------Better yet, don't read it, watch it from the link on C- Span's home page. ------Date: 2006-02-04 12:17:00 Subject: I'm so much into settling in my new place in DC...

        ...that when I read this headline " IAEA Reports Iran to U.N. Security Council", I read it as IKEA Reports Iran to U.N. Security Council.

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------The swedish meatballs are reconstituted depleted uranium.

        Jill ------hee-hee..I love you both!

        Matthew ------the hot dogs they sell at IKEA are made of enriched uranium. anya ------yeah, iran called ikea to try and find out how to flat-pack some nukes for easy transport. ikea couldn't take that lying down!

        (i got nothin')

        ------Date: 2006-02-08 20:47:00 Subject: Musical orgasm

        Mary J Blige and U2 singing "One" at the 2006 Grammy Awards...pay for it and download it here.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------Yeah. Go figure that the one year I don't watch the Grammy's is the one year I *should* have watched the Grammy's.

        Jill Susan ------Liar...liar...pants on fire.... Record of the Year - U2, How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb

        Jill Susan ------I lied...one more...

        Record of the year... Green Day, Boulevard of Broken Dreams.

        Jill Susan ------Okay, one more...

        Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own by U2 - Song of the Year

        Jill ------Okay, another one...

        Paul McCartney singing "Helter Skelter"

        ------Date: 2006-02-11 09:47:00 Subject: I tested them and they passed the test...

        ...the residents of my building here in DC, that is.

        You see, I had just spent a wonderful evening with my 2 DC area granddaughters while their mom and dad had their "first date" as parents of two. So you know I was as sober as they come, drinking in only the sheer delight of M's soft baby skin, C's request for an additional hug and kiss at bedtime, and just the wonderful-ness that I didn't have to spend hours on a plane to get here. When the evening was over and as I headed toward DC, I delighted in my situation. So, yes, maybe I was "drunk" with delight. But oh well...

        Anyway, arriving at home, I walked Jack and Marina and settled in for a short check of email and weather.com as they are predicting major snow for the northeast today.

        Sleeping soundly and waking peacefully, I dressed quickly and prepared to take Jack and Marina out for their morning walk, but where were my keys?

        [short pause here for you to reflect when/if this ever happened to you]

        So I looked around in the usual spots and then said "uh-oh" to myself and found them at last, in my door, hanging their "shouting" for all to see, that entry to my apartment was easy and no-fuss.

        Now, I have to admit that I've done this before back in Dallas, but then I lived in a second story condo in safe Farmers Branch, and anyone that wanted to discover this, would have had to walk up stairs. Here, in DC, it's another story.

        First, it *is* DC, one of the crime capitals of America. Second, I live in a building with 28 apartments. 28 residents may have passed by my door as I'm the first one you pass by as you enter the building. They passed the test.

        Now, I hope that I'll not do this again, but it's nice to know that this time, when I did, it was OK.

        User Comments:

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Luke - you are TERRIBLE!!!! lukey ------unless though someone took your keys out and made a copy of them and now they are just lurking in the safe distance, noting your patterns so they know when you are gone and they can come in at their leisure and steal all your stuff....

        MUAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAH!!!!

        No really, I am kidding of course!

        ------Date: 2006-02-11 10:12:00 Subject: It's the subtle things

        Last night, the Olympic games opened in Turin, Italy. I didn't watch the ceremonies, but just knowing that they were going on made me think about, and miss, my sister. Sherry always made a big deal about the opening ceremonies of the Olympics. She'd watch them and tape them every time. She also loved the Kentucky Derby. And many times, I'd go to see her and she'd have a golf game on, or a basketball game, or a football game. I'd always ask her "Are you watching that?".

        Sherry, I'd like to think that you were very "present" last night in Turin, and that you had the best seat in the house...

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------It's amazing what little things can bind people deeply together. Because of past stories you've told, I always think of you and Sherry now whenever I hear Somewhere Over the Rainbow.

        Matthew ------Yeah. Someone on American Idol auditioned to that song. He was only sixteen, but he was astoundingly good. It choked me up, no doubt.

        Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------Yesterday we were at a restaurant and they played that song from her funeral (the Ovarian cancer anthem... I don't know the name of the song). It was the first time I had heard it since her funeral. It definitely choked me up to hear it again.

        ------Date: 2006-02-11 22:02:00 Subject: Why did I wait so long to get here?

        All I can say is that it's snowing, and I went to Whole Foods to stock up (along with the rest of NW DC) and when walking my dogs other dog owners are fun to talk to, as our dogs sniff each other...yes, why did I wait so long to get here?

        User Comments:

        NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------As wonderful as it is for you being there...You'd love it in Chicago too...Of this I'm certain... reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Oh, good. I was worried you were thinking Why the heck did I move here?

        ------Date: 2006-02-19 11:53:00 Subject: Party in my dorm room

        Dorm room-that's what I'm calling my place in DC now. I look at it's small-ness and the fact that I have crammed all my worldly possessions into it and think, I've seen this before. But where? ... everytime I've visited a dorm... MA and R and C & M brought my birthday party to me last night. They ordered a yummy Chicago style pizza (MA was saying that they asked her if she wanted thick or thin crust when she placed the order - huh? It was kind of like when I ordered a Ceasar salad once and they asked me what kind of dressing I wanted) to be delivered to my door and brought along a yummy chocolate brownie cake, with chocolate frosting. C and I walked to the corner 7/11 to purchase ice cream to top it off.

        It was a fun evening and I was glad to see that my dorm room can hold guests, at least for a couple of hours. I'm waiting now for the rest of my family to visit.

        Word of warning...be prepared to take home "parting gifts" when you visit. I'm dedicated to the task of simplifying and will never again move all the stuff I've accumulated over my 57 years! My son-in-law D is smiling right now, I imagine, upon hearing this.

        User Comments:

        Mamala ------K, M & L-I promise I'll save some stuff for you, and of course, the JJs.

        Katieg ------Now just because MA is closer doesn't mean she gets all of the good stuff!! reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Excellent, Uncle Ted!

        R is so excited about the cookbooks. He says he wants to cook you one dish out of each of them--that should take some time!

        In fact I woke up this morning to the smell of bread dough rising on the counter.

        Ted http://www.livejournal.com/users/ripvansabre/ ------Jill opened a pandora's box with: I'm waiting now for the rest of my family to visit.

        Last week - in fact almost exactly one week ago at this moment - as we were considering how to get back to Texas from Blizzard '06 one of the ideas I explored was to get to D.C. to see your 'dorm room' and then fly home from there.

        I can guarantee you that you will see me before the summer is over.

        ------Date: 2006-02-21 00:39:00 Subject: Take me for a ride in your car-car

        After 34 years of owning a car, I no longer do.

        I sold my blue 2003 VW to Carmax today. I took the Metro home, just a block away from the Rockville Carmax location.

        How convenient is that?

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------I wouldn't see it as "selling your car." You should see it more as "detoxing your oil addiction." Let me know when your cold shivers start.

        ------Date: 2006-02-21 00:42:00 Subject: Adoption Day

        Jack and Marina are in a new home tonight. They went to live in Manassas VA with Elizabeth (Elisa) and her hubby and kids, Tony and Isa (pronounced "eeesa", short for Isabel).

        This was a tough day for me, made easier, by Elisa's great attitude and demeanor (I could see myself in her-30 years ago) and J & M's eagerness to devour her pet treats, and follow her kiddos around soon after we arrived.

        Dalai and Dharma are wondering where their dog friends are tonight, and I'm just thinking, I'm beginning to have now what I can handle.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Blessings on them and both their new and their former owners.

        Matthew ------Sad to hear that, but glad they're in a good home. ------Date: 2006-03-02 17:42:00 Subject: What state do you live in?

        Since moving to DC, I've found the most confusing thing for anyone (especially off-shore people) that I talk to about my new address is my answer to their question "What state do you live in?". When I tell them I don't live in a state, they get really confused and then say something like, "Do you live in Washington state?" When I answer them and say again that I don't live in a state, they again, get really confused. At this point I ask them if they don't have a website where I can enter my own change of address info (of course, I've already checked this out as I'd lots rather do this online than talk to most 'customer service' people) so that I don't have to go through this again and again with them.

        Today, I was changing my address with The Gap and "Richard" (more accurately Chandrak or Rajat) asked me "What county I lived in?"

        Oh, good question. What county is DC in?

        Looking it up, I live in an independent city. No county. How cool is that? So the next time I'm asked that question, I'm prepared.

        And the next time I'm asked what state I live in, I'll probably just say "you're tap-dancing on my last nerve state of mind"!!!

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Never thought about this. I don't think I've ever made out an address in D.C., and I certainly wouldn't know how to without looking it up somewhere. It's funny that computer systems aren't programmed to recognize D.C. for address changes.

        ------Date: 2006-03-10 18:57:00 Subject: Pulling the Trigger

        It wasn't my move to DC that did it.

        It wasn't the death of my high school friend's brother recently (too premature and too unfair) that did it.

        It wasn't even seeing the picture I hung of her (when she was a wee one) near the place where my grandchildren will find toys to play with when they come to visit that did it. What did it was getting things ready for the accountant who would file her last tax return.

        Asking my brothers about practical matters - what is taxable and what is not - brought on a well of tears.

        You could be funny and say we all cry when we think about paying taxes.

        But that's not what did it.

        It was thinking of her, all those months and years, watching her investments grow so that maybe, someday, she could retire and live again in the land of Oz, her Kansas, but only after she took care of all of us first.

        It'd be easier (but probably not as effective) if I could predict when this horrible sadness would show up in me. Instead, like a shot in the stillnes of the night, I'm wounded unexpectedly.

        I'll recover. I just won't be quite the same.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------((hugs))

        Matthew ------Who's to say that she's not in Kansas right now? :-)

        ------Date: 2006-03-14 13:40:00 Subject: Amusing ourselves to death

        From Democracy Rising comes this...

        What's your pleasure?

        • Watching the NBA? Spring Training?
        • Late night movies on cable?
        • A day at the mall?

        The great thing about America is there are endless opportunities for amusement. Hundreds of cable channels. Amusement parks. Shopping malls galore.

        But are we amusing ourselves to death?

        "Amusing Ourselves to Death" is the name of Neil Postman's 1985 classic that weighed in on the debate between Aldous Huxley and George Orwell.

        Here's Postman:

        What Orwell feared were those who would ban books.

        What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one.

        Orwell feared those who would deprive us of information.

        Huxley feared those who would give us so much that we would be reduced to passivity and egoism.

        Orwell feared that the truth would be concealed from us.

        Huxley feared the truth would be drowned in a sea of irrelevance.

        Orwell feared we would become a captive culture.

        Huxley feared we would become a trivial culture, preoccupied with some equivalent of the feelies, the orgy porgy, and the centrifugal bumblepuppy.

        Something to think about, eh?

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------VERY interesting!

        ------Date: 2006-03-20 21:20:00 Subject: Happy Days Are Here Again!

        Praise the lord...finally, yes really finally, Verizon has connected my DSL and I'm cookin' with speed again, internet wise.

        Oh, I'm still having to deal without TiVo and satellite. There's just something incestuous and bad about Comcast cable TV to me. Not sure why, but I'm dealing...

        But the "hell" that I've been through over the past week with a multitude of customer service reps at Verizon is something that I just don't want to repeat any time soon. If I have to call that 800# again, give them my phone number again, tell them I want to talk with tech support again, listen to their "helpful hints" about powering down my modem, etc. again, I'm just going to scream.

        On the other hand, I'm grateful and glad that I'm capable of that scream.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Ah, yes. Back in the modern world. Sort of like going without a shower for a week not to have a fast connection.

        Katieg ------Yeah! Can you imagine that we used to live without internet?

        ------Date: 2006-03-21 18:33:00 Subject: Guest blogger - Grandchild #1

        I love getting emails like this.... "Hi we loved scince. We lerned about the human body.It was GROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

        That is all.

        Bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

        Love, J"

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Could she use any more exclamation points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

        Matthew ------i LOVE those e-mails!

        ------Date: 2006-03-22 08:58:00 Subject: World Water Day

        Did you know that around the world, 1 billion people – 20% of the population – don’t have clean drinking water? Wednesday is World Water Day, so on your way to the water fountain at school or work, take ONE minute to learn more about the global water crisis and how you can get involved.

        User Comments:

        Matthew ------I read the other day that China is in major trouble. Approximately 90% of the people in China get water from highly polluted sources and that they could be facing a major demographic challenge in the coming years. There are some villages where 75 to 85% of people live with some form of cancer. It was pretty scary.

        ------Date: 2006-03-29 13:15:00 Subject: Guinea Pig

        I'm part of a research study at GWU, as of today.

        A couple of weeks ago, I answered an ad in the WaPo Express about participating in a research study re: GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder). I'm certainly not an extreme case, but I do worry more that I need to about all kinds of things.

        Today I went for my health screening. They did an EKG, a blood and urine test, and just a general health check. I spent an hour with "Dr. Kenny," a really nice guy, who asked me tons of questions about me and my 'condition' to make sure I qualified for the study. Turns out, either fortunately or unfortunately, however one wants to look at it, that I do qualify.

        I will go back in a couple of weeks (as soon as the last remnants of Paxil have left my body) to be given this new drug or a placebo to take for the next 12 weeks.

        I'm not getting paid for the study, but they do re-imburse my travel expenses each time, with $25 cash/money. Seeing as I only spent $1.35 on the metro to get there, I will pocket a little cash.

        This should be interesting.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I'll be interested in how this goes. I am certain that I have Social Anxiety Disorder as I feel very different around people when I'm on Paxil. Please keep us posted.

        Matthew ------random trivia:

        Robert Rodriguez got his big directing break from a movie he made, funded completely off of a medical experiment. He raised the ~7,500 dollars necessary for "El Mariachi" from a Cholesterol study that he participated in for about half a year. nerd moment over...

        Luke ------It's kinda funny how them doing all of those tests on you might increase your anxiety.

        ------Date: 2006-03-31 19:46:00 Subject: This doesn't make any sense

        From Instapundit comes this....

        A PRAYER STUDY shows no benefit:

        In the largest study of its kind, researchers found that having people pray for heart bypass surgery patients had no effect on their recovery. In fact, patients who knew they were being prayed for had a slightly higher rate of complications.

        Researchers emphasized that their work can't address whether God exists or answers prayers made on another's behalf. The study can only look for an effect from prayers offered as part of the research, they said.

        They also said they had no explanation for the higher complication rate in patients who knew they were being prayed for, in comparison to patients who only knew it was possible prayers were being said for them.

        Hmm. What's the prayer equivalent of a placebo? Scott Ott, meanwhile, offers an alternative take.

        ------Date: 2006-04-02 23:31:00 Subject: Strike a pose with FDR

        I spent the better part of the day with daughter #1 and her hubby and girls as we took in the Cherry Blossom Festival in DC. First, can I just say that nature's beauty beats any manufactured beauty in the world! The blossoms were absolutely gorgeous!!

        I love getting out and doing things like this in my new home. Being the people watcher that I am, it only gets better and better to have a huge crowd of blossom-loving people to feast my curious eyes on. One of the best parts of the day was seeing the amateur photographers posing their family members among the blossoms. You wouldn't believe the far out measures some took to record this moment for posterity.

        Speaking of poses, what is the appropriate pose one should take when posing in front of DC's more serious and sometimes sad, somber memorials and monuments?

        Now I've seen people standing in front of the Vietnam Memorial Wall, just smiling away as they are getting their picture taken. That just seems wierd.

        Today, we also took in the FDR memorial and many people would hug the statue of FDR sitting in his wheelchair and smile, or they would stand at the end of the statue with people in the depression era food line, smiling away...they looked really wierd, with their goofy smiles, as the statue figures in that food line looked anything but happy.

        Before you think I'm just a totally judgemental snob, I will have to say that I hoisted my granddaughter C up on FDR's knee so that her daddy could take a picture of her, smiling away. Of course, in this case, it didn't seem strange at all! ;-)

        ------Date: 2006-04-03 09:54:00 Subject: Cold Turkey

        I've been attempting to withdraw from Paxil so that I can participate in a study at GWU , starting next week. The doctor told me a week ago, when I went for my initial evaluation, that I had to be off the drug for at least 2 weeks, so here I am, in the middle of my withdrawal period. All I can say is that, for the most part, it's been hell.

        Internet sites everywhere warn against getting off the drug cold turkey, but given my situation, it seems the only option. I'm experiencing the typical symptoms that sites such as this one say I'll have. I woke up Saturday morning in the throes of the "paxil withdrawal flu", but by mid-afternoon, felt good enough to visit my DC granddaughters. The rest of the weekend was good, until I got home late in the afternoon yesterday and decided that I had enough energy to go grocery shopping, throw away 6 files boxes of Texas Association of Mediator files, and then completely re-organize my closets (packing away all my winter clothes for storage). Even with all this activity, I rationalized that this would make me even more tired and I would be able to sleep like a baby, ready to hit the ground running on Monday and put in a productive week at work.

        That didn't happen.

        As I tossed and turned until at least 4:30 AM, my body totally exhausted and every muscle and joint hurting like crazy, I finally fell asleep giving me maybe 2 good hours of sleep to start the week.

        I keep reading that by next week at this time, I'll feel alot better. I'm hoping so.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I hope you feel better quick. I guess I'm twisted somehow, cause I've always been able to quit it without a blip, but I have heard it can be trouble for many. And I hope this study medicine is much gentler on you.

        ------Date: 2006-04-04 10:19:00 Subject: Nerd alert

        From Andrew Sullivan, comes this...

          A reader informs me that on Wednesday of [this] week, at two minutes and three seconds after 1:00 in the morning, the time and date will be 01:02:03 04/05/06. It will not happen again for a [hundred] years. Be there, or be square.

        User Comments:

        Lukalicious ------Yeah, it certainly is a "nerd alert", but it's pretty cool anyway!

        ------Date: 2006-04-04 22:40:00 Subject: The last box

        When I moved to DC, I had tons and tons of boxes. Ok, that's a big exaggeration. I had a lot of boxes, all filled to the brim with my stuff.

        It's taken me until today to actually move/relocate/go through/discard/organize/find a place for each and every box. But tonight, just a few minutes ago, I completed this task.

        The last box was the hardest. I knew it would be. It was a legal size file box that I had initially marked with a post-it "Jill's stuff". I remember exactly when I marked it this way. It was when I was going through my sister's things. It was a box that I put photos, knick-knacks, things I just couldn't part with at the moment, things I just didn't have time to think about. I knew at the time that I didn't want to throw the things inside this box away. I also knew that the contents of this box weren't appropriate for the Salvation Army that would come a few days later to cart off the rest of her things that hadn't already been divvied up. Until tonight, it's been on a shelf in my bathroom. When I placed it there months ago, I re-labeled it from the outside with a simple marking "SLS".

        But tonight, I took it down off that shelf and went through it. It had photos of her with her grand nieces and nephew, her at a better time when she was healthy. It had the reunion genealogy book that she worked on so diligently. Candles, lots of candles. Her "ovarian cancer" bracelet. Keys to my condo that she probably used over and over again to help me out by walking Jack and Marina. A pedometer that was brand new, still in the box. A couple of New Testaments, one from 1966, one from 1953. A deck of cards with a cancer drug logo on them. A couple of blank VCR tapes, and one that was the last show I recorded for her, the series "Into the West" that she loved watching - as her health and energy faded, she just couldn't seem to gather enough energy to watch the final episode. A canvas bag with "The Cure" emblazoned on the front of it [if only it had contained that for her]. Her TJ yearbook. And other things.

        I took all the items out, and gently put them all back in this last box, and placed it back again on the shelf in the bathroom with "SLS" on it.

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Agree.

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Very moving.

        Luke ------This is beautiful mom.

        ------Date: 2006-04-07 13:39:00 Subject: Which brings us to tonight's word...

        THONGS
        I was talking to my mother last night, wishing her a very Happy 80th Birthday, when she told me about her recent shopping trip. She said she bought a couple of new pairs of pants and a couple of new shirts and some thongs. In the background of our conversation, I could hear my sister-in- law correcting my mother saying "flip-flops".

        Of course, I knew exactly what mother meant when she told me she bought some thongs, as that's what "flip-flops" were initially called so very long ago. And recently, in a conversation, I used the word thongs with the same meaning as my mother and was corrected with the word "flip-flops" too.

        Now, I can see why thong-makers hijacked the word 'thong' from unsuspecting "flip-flop" makers as when you think of the design of each (one splitting the big toe from the next biggest toe and the other splitting...well, you get my point). But couldn't the faux-thong people come up with another word for their invention without stealing a perfectly good word from "flip-flop" makers? I mean, they could have made up a new word, couldn't they? How about calling them "binders" or "rider-uppers" or "splitters"?

        I think we need some imagination here! Quit stealing perfectly good words from unsuspecting flimsy-shoe manufacturing cobblers?

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Ha!!!!!!

        How about butt-floss?

        Ted http://www.livejournal.com/users/ripvansabre/ ------I suggest "finishing garment"

        http://ripvansabre.livejournal.com/2006/04/06/

        ------Date: 2006-04-09 10:23:00 Subject: Visiting "Home"

        I made a quick trip to Dallas this weekend to visit with my brothers and their families and especially my mother who celebrated her 80th birthday this past week. It's a trip that's been in the works for several weeks now and one that I knew I should make. But I also knew with all the positive parts of my visit here would be one huge negative part...my sister would not be part of the visit.

        Oh sure, I'm going to take some flowers to Restland to put at the site of her marker and ashes. But it's not the same as it's always been, when I would fly back to Dallas from business or personal trips and she would almost greet me at the door of my car, wanting to give me a report on how Jack and Marina got along during my time away, or wanting me to report on the latest goings-on of one or more of my 4 children (and their children). Those were special times looking back.

        Many times I would get home so extremely tired from these trips that the only thing I wanted to do was just head directly to my home and fall into bed. But seeing the excitement in Sherry's eyes about the latest accomplishment of JJ & C (sadly she never got to meet the Divine Miss M) would energize me and I'd realized how lucky I was to have kids and grandkids, but also just how extremely lucky I was to have a sister that shared in my life and theirs so enthusiastically and lovingly.

        I told my brother yesterday when he picked me up at the airport that although I was glad to see everyone with this visit, as it got closer and closer to the time that I'd leave DC and get on the plane to come to Dallas, I was filled with a real dread of the visit here as well. I'm feeling again the tremendous loss and with my visit "home" it's impossible for me to pretend that the loss isn't real. I have to remember...

          Remember

          Remember me when I am gone away,

          Gone far away into the silent land;

          When you can no more hold me by the hand,

          Nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay.

          Remember me when no more day by day

          You tell me of our future that you plann'd:

          Only remember me; you understand

          It will be late to counsel then or pray.

          Yet if you should forget me for a while

          And afterwards remember, do not grieve:

          For if the darkness and corruption leave A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,

          Better by far you should forget and smile

          Than that you should remember and be sad.

        From: Goblin Market, The Prince's Progress and Other Poems. Christina Rosetti. London: Macmillan 1879.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I'm mourning with you. A very beautiful poem. The tender heart that can neither hold on nor let go. Peace be with you.

        ------Date: 2006-04-10 23:23:00 Subject: We are America

        Well, this is what it's like to live in the heart of DC.

        Tonight, it took me more than twice the time it usually takes to get home from work on the Metro. Can commuter trains have traffic jams? I don't know, but it seemed so, as the immigrant march on the capital was underway and it slowed the commute down tremendously, but that's OK. I'm happy to be delayed while people are exercising their first amendment rights.

        When I finally did arrive at my stop and started walking toward my place, I saw many people with smiles on their faces, carrying AMERICAN flags, and chanting "Si Se Puede!" -- Spanish for "Yes, we can!". They included families pushing strollers with their children and ice cream vendors who placed American flags on their carts. Many wore white clothing to symbolize peace.

        I've still not totally formulated my opinion on this issue (it's really complicated the more I learn) but on first glance, most of the people I saw today would make great Americans, if they aren't already.

        ------Date: 2006-04-11 12:22:00 Subject: Tax time

        Actor James Dean with his accountant, 1955

        Can I just say that I absolutely detest getting my information together to prepare my yearly tax return? And this year, it's been "prep on steroids" as I've dealt with not only my return, but both my sister's returns (pre- and post- Sept. 5, 2005) and two CPAs!

        One of the CPAs doesn't want anything to do with her estate stuff and the other is just trying to keep me out of an audit as I've got lots going on (a move, unemployment, 1099s from my non- profits who just this year decided they needed to declare my "income" with them, big deposits in my checking account, etc., etc., etc.). In the meantime, I have 3 1099-OMBs, whatever those are, that neither CPA wants to deal with. I swear, if someone ran for office today supporting a flat tax, s(he'd) have my vote.

        I have spent many hours getting all the information gathered for the filings. Last night, I actually completed the task and have just now FedEx'ed a packet to the Dallas CPA who will file Sherry's pre-Sept. 5th tax and the other CPA here in DC is telling me that he is mailing my return to me today so, although it will be close, I should be able to mail all returns next Monday to fall within the deadline.

        It shouldn't be this painful, but then last night I was reminded that our tax system is not the only screwed up system in this country. To locate some of the records I needed, I had to go through a box of Sherry's records with a fine tooth comb and ran across her huge 5" 3-ring binder which contained all her medical records from the past 2 years. Within that binder were copies of letters/faxes/emails that she sent to healthcare providers and insurance companies to try to get her claims paid. It made me so angry seeing all this stuff, as I just thought how unfair it was that my sister, who only had a limited time left on this earth when she was diagnosed with cancer two years ago, had to spend even one precious second on this kind of crap! Knowing how meticulous she was with money and savings, I'm sure this caused her more stress than she needed to deal with in her final days.

        Yes, indeed, tax time is taxing.

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Read the Hendrik Hertzberg piece on health care in the latest New Yorker (Talk of the Town). Grrrr....

        AEF ------Amen! Ours went off today. Blah!!

        ------Date: 2006-04-13 20:57:00 Subject: I'm fascinated by this story

        Judas saves.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I was fascinated too. Seems it highlights the likelihood that the orthodox are merely the group whose interpretation won out. netter ------it will be most interesting to see how this impacts today's christianity.

        to be honest, logic has no place there. no matter how much it makes sense, fundamentalists, conservatives and most right-wing religious groups will denounce this as heresy. it won't make any difference that it's authenticated, true, or logical.

        sad, that. but yes, totally fascinating.

        ------Date: 2006-04-13 22:12:00 Subject: Censoring South Park

        From blogland comes this...


        nomohammed
        First, The Catholics came for South Park and I did not speak out because my head was in the sand.
        Then, the Scientologists came for South Park and did not speak out because my head was in the sand.
        Then, the Muslims came for South Park and I did not speak out because my head was in the sand.
        Then, when I pulled my head out of the sand and turned on Comedy Central to watch South Park and it was gone.
        After watching last night's South Park, it was unclear whether or not the image of Mohammed was censored, or whether it was part of the gag. Well, it turns out that it was the network who censored the image. Malkin has a complete rundown complete with news links to other bloggers and how you can contact the network. The most ironic aspect of this is that Mohammed is depicted in their episode "Super Best Friends" which makes fun of David Blaine. In fact, the clip of Mohammed is part of the opening credits. Don't you just love the inconsistency of censorship.

        Perhaps Cartman is right that this will spell the end of Family Guy South Park. He argued that once one "offended" group gets an episode censored, then each new group that gets offended will also demand their episode also gets pulled. First it was the Catholics, then it was the Scientologists, and now it is the Muslims. I don't see South Park having much of a future in these circumstances. In fact, we are seeing a twisted version of Pastor Martin Niemöller's, "First They Came for the Jews". (see above) However, in this version, the victim is free speech.

        While I would certainly miss the show, I am more fearful at how successful extremists are becoming at squelching free speech. Granted, it's not technically "censorship" since it is not a government ban on speech. However, this private form of censorship is much more insidious and sadly is more effective.

      User Comments:

      Matthew ------SP is an awesome guilty pleasure to have. They really have some insightful things to say about political and social happenings. And I like that they skewer both sides of the political aisle.

      Mamala ------For all you "shocked" children of mine, I've just recently started watching SP...it's one of my guilty pleasures. Most of my TV diet now consists of C-Span and Public TV for the main dish and Colbert/Stewart/SP/Simpsons for dessert.

      Matthew ------haha I had a similar feeling when I was reading this post. I kept looking at the web address to confirm that it really *was* mamala's journal.

      I really think that Wednesday's SP was probably one of the all time great political statements any show has ever made.

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------I opened your entry from my e-mail account and I didn't really pay attention to whose blog it was. It wasn't until I opened the comments that I realized it was Mom's (I thought it was Luke's). I just thought that was funny.

      Although I don't watch South Park, I think it is great that Mom has slowly come over to the "dark side" of her kids... Simpsons, South Park, etc. If only we could convert her into a Star Wars fanatic. I guess that will be the responsibility of JJCM.

      Matthew ------I didn't know you watched "South Park." I thought last night's episode of SP was probably one of their top five episodes of all time.

      ------Date: 2006-04-14 19:40:00 Subject: Thought for the day

      Only 4% of the world's population owns a computer (or at least that's what I just heard on C- Span...prove me wrong).

      User Comments:

      Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------That sounded a little low to me at first, but if it is per capita, then it seems about right. For example, we have a computer and a family of 4, so that is 1 in 4 per capita (or 25%). So if the average computer owning household had 4 people, then 4% (1 of 25) per capita might be closer to 16% (1 of 6.25) per household. But obviously I'm just guessing here.

      Matthew ------This doesn't surprise me, considering ~2 Billion (about one third of the US population) lives in the poorest parts of India and China, and also considering that not even everyone in the United States owns a computer yet.

      ------Date: 2006-04-16 21:03:00 Subject: I'm a poet and don't know it

      The Washington Post dedicated their whole Book Section on Poetry today...on the cover: "It is difficult to get the news from poems yet men [and women] die miserably every day for lack of what is found there." - William Carlos Williams

      Of course, they misspoke a little in their issue. In listing the top 10 poets,

      (1. Langston Hughes

      2. Emily Dickinson

      3. Robert Frost

      4. Walt Whitman

      5. E.E. Cummings

      6. Sylvia Plath

      7. Maya Angelou

      8. Dylan Thomas

      9. Shel Silverstein

      10. William Carlos Williams)

      they totally didn't mention the Reverend Mother.

      User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Ha!

      ------Date: 2006-04-17 16:54:00 Subject: U2 Eucharists

      Now this seems like a simply great idea to me!

      Bono has declared that he is not a man of the cloth, "unless that cloth is leather". But the words of the charismatic U2 front man are nevertheless ringing out from pulpits across the United States. The Irish rock band's songs and lyrics are being used by the Episcopal Church in so-called "U2 Eucharists" as a means of attracting young people who relate to the group's social activism.

      "If the sound's an issue, we do have earplugs available," he said. Ushers handed out complementary ear plugs and fluorescent glow sticks for this "U2 Eucharist," a communion service punctuated by the Irish band's rock music. In Episcopal parishes from California to Maine, believers are weaving U2's Biblically laced music into the denomination's traditionally formal liturgy.

      ------Date: 2006-04-17 17:07:00 Subject: I made the right decision

      Dallas: Mostly sunny, with a high near 97.

      DC: Partly cloudy, with a high around 59.

      User Comments:

      Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Well, that's the one and only way I'll ever be called "hot." So maybe I'd better give thanks. ;^) Besides, they say we may top out below 80 today!!

      Jill ------Sorry, Mr. Cloudy. You're right. But I'm less mean now than I would be right now if this hormonally-challenged woman was sweating in 100 degree heat in Big D. I miss you "hot" guys though!

      Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------You are mean. I read this just after hearing we'll hit 100 for the second day in a row.

      Mamala ------Maybe when my body fat percentage is as low as yours (in my dreams), the heat will be wonderful for me as well. But until then, or hell freezes over, I will seek cooler climates whenever I can, no matter what coast they are on.

      Matthew ------I call North East Coast bias. ;-)

      I like the Texas heat. It makes me mentally and physically tough. Plus, you can only truly enjoy Tex-Mex when the weather outside matches what's going in your stomach.

      ------Date: 2006-04-17 22:42:00 Subject: OK, I get it now

      I blogged previously about the prayer study and titled my blog "This doesn't make any sense." Leave it to the pastor of my Unitarian church in Dallas to make sense of it for me.

      From the Senior Minister - Dr. Laurel Hallman

      The newspaper heading read, “Power of Prayer Doubted.†The article (in the March 28 edition of The Dallas Morning News) went on to say that “prayers offered by strangers had no effect on the recovery of people who were undergoing heart surgery, a large and long-awaited study has found.â€

      The study began almost a decade ago and involved more than 1,800 patients. It was funded largely by the John Templeton Foundation, a reputable institution which funds scientific studies of religious claims.

      The article went on to say, “Patients who knew they were being prayed for had a higher rate of postoperative complications . . . perhaps because of the expectations the prayers created, the researchers suggested.†I for one am glad that there is research that refutes belief in a small god who moves at our bidding.

      Some have questioned why, then, our ministers pray during worship on Sundays, apparently asking God for the very requests that are discounted in this study. My simple answer is this: The study didn’t say anything about the effect of prayer on the congregation doing the praying. I know such prayers change those of us in the Sanctuary, making us conscious at a deep level of how bound together we are.

      When we pray we are not arranging our words to influence an absent-minded God, or to point Him/Her in the direction of our need. We’re praying because we are humans who need to bow to the mystery and love one another, and our prayers help us do that. We’re praying because we need to give voice to our hope.

      The study got it partly right: Prayer can dash expectations which are too literal. (How many people have lost their faith when their prayers haven’t been answered as they were expected to be?) Any future studies need to measure the effect on people who are giving voice to human need without expectation. That might come to something.

      User Comments:

      Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I'm right there with you on this. And I think anyone who believes because their prayer list has all checkmarks for answered prayer, just isn't praying for big enough things -- like ending world hunger.

      ------Date: 2006-04-18 09:39:00 Subject: Keeping my legs under the desk

      Navy blue knee socks look like black knee socks until exposed to flourescent lights (or daylight).

      ------Date: 2006-04-21 09:38:00 Subject: Not ready to make nice

      The Dixie Chicks' new album is being released sometime in May, but you can go to their website and hear the single "Not Ready to Make Nice" right now. I like the song (I paid I-Tunes 99 cents for my download already), but some of the words disturb me, as being the peacemaker that I strive to be, lines like "It’s too late to make it right - I probably wouldn’t if I could" bother me in so many ways. However, yesterday's "interruption" of the Chinese president by the Falun Gong protester at the White House, got me thinking that good change comes from people "not ready to make nice."

      This whole week, protesters of the Chinese government's cruelty to members of the Falun Gong, a peaceful, spiritual practice without any formal organization, property or membership, have lined the streets of DC handing out literature and urging people to contact their congressional representatives and the President to call for an investigation into the concentration camp charges, and to demand that the government of the People's Republic of China cease its persecution of Falun Gong immediately, and release all Falun Gong prisoners of conscience. [As background, Chinese President Jiang Zemin banned the practice in China on July 20th, 1999. What has followed over the last five years is the violent persecution of millions of Chinese citizens.]

      In the meantime, Hu Jintao and Bush sat down with top business leaders in our country for a nice lunch.

      Guess they were ready to make nice.

      User Comments:

      Luke ------This was a great post and made greater by the comments! my family is the coolest!

      Oh yeah, and the largest practice of the Fallon Gong in the United States is right here in Houston Texas

      Mamala ------You've got that right, Matthew. She is far from being a heckler. And while listening to C-Span this morning, a person called in very familiar with this issue and said that if she has any family or maybe even friends left in China, that they were probably arrested and put in jail before you can say "we don't care what China does as far as human rights are concerned...they buy American products!"

      Matthew ------It sucks how the mainstream press has labelled her a "heckler" instead of a "protester." A heckler is someone who interrupts a comedy show, not someone who risks arrest for their political beliefs.

      ------Date: 2006-04-24 16:18:00 Subject: If Jesus had not existed From Andrew Sullivan comes this...

        Matthew Parris, an old friend I caught up with last week, writes in this week's London Spectator (sub req):

        If Jesus Christ had not existed, it would almost certainly not have been necessary for the Church to invent someone like him. What does the Church want with a man who plainly despised ritual? Can you imagine the man who rode into Jerusalem on a donkey wanting anything to do with bells and smells and frocks, with gilt and silver and semi-idolatry, and repetitive chants and chorused inanities? The man who said he had come to break up families being paraded as a paradigm of family values? The man who had absolutely no interest in politics or administration and preached forgiveness, not 'the rule of law', wanting anything to do with the Conservative party or the Third Way? ...

        When we consider all those painfully counter-intuitive sayings and parables - the Prodigal Son, the idea that it is no good restraining your actions if your thoughts are bad, the impatience with good works ('the poor always ye have with you') except as a means for personal purification - and when we consider how Jesus keeps saying ... the wrong thing, it becomes even clearer that he must have been real: if Jesus had been a hoax, the Church could have invented someone so much more convenient.

      User Comments:

      Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Very interesting! And I think pretty appropriate to the Jesus we encounter in the text. Thanks for posting this.

      ------Date: 2006-04-25 16:57:00 Subject: I hope this comes to a theater near me

      I'll probably pass on the movie "United 93" as I don't think my stress level can take it. But this is a movie that I hope I'll be able to see...

      "Saint of 9/11," a feature-length documentary about Father Mychal Judge, will have its world premiere at the Tribeca Film Festival on Thursday, April 27, at 9:15 p.m. at Center for the Arts in lower Manhattan.

      Father Mychal Judge was a beloved chaplain of the Fire Department of New York, who lost his life on September 11, 2001. The news photograph of his body being carried from the World Trade Center became an iconic image of heroism and sacrifice. "Saint of 9/11" tells the story of Father Mychal's life through those deeply touched by his ministry, from the powerless to the dispossessed. The film reveals Father Mychal as complex, intense, humble and deeply loved, through interviews of friends and colleagues and narration of Father Mychal's own words by legendary actor Sir Ian McKellen.

      "Saint of 9/11" is directed by Glenn Holsten, executive produced by Malcolm Lazin, and produced by Equality Forum, a national nonprofit GLBT civil rights organization. Holsten, Lazin and Equality Forum also collaborated on the documentary films "JIM IN BOLD" and "Gay Pioneers." The film's original music score is by Michael Aharon.

      ------Date: 2006-04-26 08:50:00 Subject: I have to look the other way now

      On my way to work, while I'm on the shuttle from the Pentagon City Metro stop to my office in Alexandria, we pass by Arlington Cemetery. Now that spring is here and the trees are in full bloom, it's more difficult to see the rows and rows of tombstones lined up endlessly on the rolling hills of northern Virginia, but they are there. The markers I see look like they are facing toward the Pentagon and I'm forever hopeful that the generals there pay attention to them. Once we get past the cemetery, we see a golf course, tucked close by in the same rolling hills of northern Virginia. For some reason, seeing this golf course so close to such hallowed ground, just really, really bothers me.

      User Comments:

      JillSusan ------Mr. Cloudy, as if I could...you know I detested golf then too!

      Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------It probably doesn't help that you worked inside the golf industry. Or have you blotted that out of your mind! reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I remember touring the Pentagon one time and there were all these signs over the water fountains--"Please don't dump your coffee grounds into the water fountain." They were semi- permenant bronze plaques, and I realized, these are the people who decide when and how we go to war.

      ------Date: 2006-04-27 09:58:00 Subject: I scored 28074, how 'bout you?

      Can You Ace the Carbon Quiz?

      ------Date: 2006-04-27 10:23:00 Subject: My Life, My Card You've probably all seen the American Express ads where famous people fill out the following questionaire:

      • My name
      • Childhood ambition
      • Fondest memory
      • Soundtrack
      • Retreat
      • Wildest dream
      • Proudest moment
      • Biggest challenge
      • Alarm clock
      • Perfect day
      • First job
      • Indulgence
      • Last purchase
      • Favorite movie
      • Inspiration
      • My life
      • My card

      Well, I'm not famous, but here's mine...

      • My name-JillSusan
      • Childhood ambition-to be a wife and mother
      • Fondest memory-the births of my grandchildren
      • Soundtrack-The Big Chill
      • Retreat-anywhere where there are tall trees, sunshine, nature paths, mountains, a body of water
      • Wildest dream-to be a travelling food critic
      • Proudest moment-watching any of my kids make adult life decisions
      • Biggest challenge-staying focused on anything
      • Alarm clock-small bladder
      • Perfect day-any time spent with family
      • First job-cashier at Hancock Fabric Outlets in Dallas
      • Indulgence-it took me too long to think of an answer for this, only proving that I don't indulge enough
      • Last purchase-Joe Klein's new book "Politics Lost : How American Democracy Was Trivialized By People Who Think You're Stupid" and a 3-year membership to Politics and Prose bookstore
      • Favorite movie-West Side Story
      • Inspiration-the latest is Wenyi Wang
      • My life-is precious to me, and something, since the death of my sister, that I don't take for granted
      • My card-OK, I have 3 American Express cards (Optima, Blue and Gold)

      ------Date: 2006-04-28 17:04:00 Subject: Hand-me-downs

      To her, they were just clothes in her closet, some still with the price tags on them, unworn, but the plan was that she would be well one day and she'd have a new outfit to wear to celebrate in.

      To me, they are memories of her. I couldn't keep all of them, but I kept enough. There's the aqua sweater with an ovarian cancer pin on it. There's the jacket that matches almost everything I own (she was a "winter" too). Everything that has a pocket has a small, clean kleenex in it. Some even smell like her perfume.

      When I want to be close to her, I carefully pick one out of my closet to wear, and inevitably, I get a compliment..."that color looks good on you."

      To her, they were just clothes in her closet. To me, they are her clothes in my closet.

      ------Date: 2006-04-29 23:23:00 Subject: White House Correspondents Dinner

      OK, I was really looking forward to this event. I spent the afternoon at the DC Arboretum with RM and her family and then caught a movie before coming home. On the way home, at about 7:30 PM, I was forbidden to take my usual route home by DC cops as you-know-who was leaving his humble abode at 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue and hooking it to the DC Hilton for the annual correspondents dinner event. It had all the trappings of what, for me, was a star-studded gala.

      But you really don't want to see some of these people away from their press podiums and in really bad eveningwear. I'm sorry, but I've never seen such horrible evening gowns on the ladies and let's face it, if you have fat, flabby upper arms (like me), use your better judgement and buy a gown with sleeves. I know this sounds shallow, but come on...

      The highlights:

    • Seeing Scalia carry his Corona and find a place at the table
    • Madeline Albright in her red dress
    • The Marine Corp band and color guard
    • George Clooney - que hombre
    • George W's alter ego
    • The lowlight(s):

    • I hate to say it, but Stephen Colbert was a HUGE disappointment...I love this guy, but he fell way flat tonight.
    • The compensation (to make me end the evening with a real laugh):

    • Saturday Night Live Fun House
    • User Comments:

      Luke ------Well, you should also know who you invite over.

      Mamala ------I don't know. To me, it's kind of like inviting company to your house and having them spit in the soup.

      Luke ------I finally read ths blog. I agree with Matt. While it was harsh, I think he needed to hear it. We need more people in the media to stand up to the people in charge.

      Not to mention, why did they hire him anyway? Had they not done their research? I take what he did any day other than when people like Jay Leno spit their one liners.

      Matthew ------I don't know. This president has been less receptive to criticism than any president I can remember. Whether it's not allowing dissenters into his staged "town hall meetings," or cutting off reporters when they ask tough questions, this president has consistently NOT been criticized to his face. And I think since he has a Congress and Supreme Court that won't do the job either (like they did to Clinton) I thought Colbert did the right thing.

      If not that venue, what venue would it have been okay for him to do that?

      Jill ------I agree with you, Matthew, that there was much truth in SC's words. The problem was the venue.

      The fact that SC's better judgement didn't take over and say to him "I'm going to look like a jerk hitting the president hard" after he's just won over the audience with his pretty funny "alter ego" routine was telling. I expected better of him.

      I think the audience, probably mostly anti-Bush, felt the same way...it was kind of like kicking a man when he's down. SC allowed Bush to gain their sympathy and for that, I'm again, surprised that he didn't see that (the uncomfortable audience response) coming.

      Matthew ------Oh man, just watched Colbert at the Press Dinner. He didn't kill the audience, but I think his schtick was utterly brilliant. I've never in my life see someone take it to a president like that. It was greatness.

      Matthew ------Scalia drinks Corona??? Yikes.

      Glad you enjoyed the show. I'll have to catch a repeat showing of it sometime.

      I didn't catch Colbert at the dinner, but I did catch him on SNL's TV Funhouse. That was one of the funnier episodes of SNL that I'd seen in a long time.

      ------Date: 2006-05-02 11:08:00 Subject: Quote of the Day

      If you can't comfort the afflicted, then afflict the comfortable. - John Kenneth Galbraith, 1908-2006

      User Comments:

      Luke ------Great quote!

      ------Date: 2006-05-02 14:10:00 Subject: About Saturday Night

      This article explains it better than I can...

        ABOUT SATURDAY NIGHT...:

        I'm a big Stephen Colbert fan, a huge Bush detractor, and I think the White House press corps has been out to lunch for much of the last five years. (Though, unlike many in the blogosphere, I don't think that's because White House reporters are lazy or stupid.) That should have made me the ideal audience-member for Colbert's performance at this weekend's White House Correspondents' Dinner (WHCD). As it happens, though, I laughed out loud maybe twice during Colbert's entire 20-odd minute routine. Colbert's problem, blogosphere conspiracy theories notwithstanding, is that he just wasn't very entertaining. Most of the funny lines had been recycled from his show; the new material was all pretty tired--including a way-too-long video presentation whose big joke was that ... Helen Thomas is old and batty. (Stop me if you've heard that one.)

        Various aggrieved bloggers have suggested the audience wasn't laughing because Colbert was too tough on the president and the press corps. I dunno. I didn't find Colbert appreciably harder on either of them than, say, Jay Leno was two years ago--though Leno did take shots at John Kerry, too, which maybe took some of his edge off. In any case, it wasn't just journalists who didn't find Colbert amusing. I was sitting about ten feet from Ed Helms, Colbert's former "Daily Show" colleague, and kept glancing over to check his reaction. He cracked some smiles here and there. But I never saw him doubled over with laughter, not even close. My sense is that the blogosphere response is more evidence of a new Stalinist aesthetic on the left--until recently more common on the right--wherein the political content of a performance or work of art is actually more important than its entertainment value. Jon Stewart often says he hates when his audience cheers; he wants them to laugh. My sense is that, had most of the bloggers complaining about the WHCD been around Saturday night, there would have been lots of cheering but not much more laughing.

        --Noam Scheiber

        UPDATE: As if to prove my point, Atrios chides me for misunderstanding the Helen Thomas video. I'm guessing he thought the video was funny because Thomas has been one of the White House press corps' most outspoken war skeptics (and therefore a hero to antiwar bloggers). Watching the White House press secretary (played by Colbert) run away from her must have had him in stitches. But to the extent that the routine works as comedy rather than agitprop--and for the sake of argument let's say it works as comedy--it's because Thomas is, indeed, old and batty. Try imagining the same sketch with, say, Katrina Vanden Heuvel in the stalker role and you see what I mean.

        Also, before you write in complaining that I'm a war-mongering Bush apologist because I don't think Helen Thomas is some kind of hero, please note that I also thought the Iraq war was a bad idea from the get-go.

      User Comments:

      Luke ------Great article! Thanks for posting it!

      JillSusan/Mamala ------OK, I can be persuaded.

      My sons, and this article , did just that.

        Why Stephen Colbert didn't bomb in D.C.

        By Troy Patterson So, I'm sitting there watching the online video of Stephen Colbert's performance at Saturday night's White House Correspondents' Association dinner. Colbert looked excellent in his tux, and he was doing his usual shtick—playing a know-it-all know-nothing of the Bill O'Reilly school—with the usual aplomb. And just as Colbert is making his segue into a pre-taped skit documenting his "audition" for Tony Snow's new job—"I think I would have made a fabulous press secretary. I have nothing but contempt for these people"—there's an audience shot capturing the face of my ex-girlfriend. She's a D.C. lawyer who loves the silliness of Monty Python, who used to read the Nation in the bath, and who, I think, named her new dog after Howard Dean. In other words, she ought to have been cracking up at Colbert's absurdist satire and meaningful snark. Instead, as the comedian aimed vicious blows at the president, I mostly read nervous concern in her eyes. The air in that room must have had a weird and very rare charge.

        The night's best reaction shots confirmed this. Here's a jiggling Justice Scalia giggling like a schoolgirl. Here's a military man not quite disciplined enough to stifle his grin at a crack—decent but not first-rate—on the Secretary of Defense: "See who we've got here tonight. Gen. Moseley, Air Force Chief of Staff. Gen. Peter Pace, Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff. They still support Rumsfeld. Right, you guys aren't retired yet, right?" In the immediate wake of Colbert's most brutal line ("I stand by this man. I stand by this man because he stands for things. Not only for things, he stands on things. Things like aircraft carriers and rubble and recently flooded city squares."), the president of the United States wore, on his peeved lips, an expression that you usually see only in the instant before a bar fight. But half a minute later, when the topic turned to the First Marriage ("Obviously loves his wife, calls her his better half. And polls show America does, too"), the president had regained his composure and was the picture of jolliness. Not so the trio of Washington wives the camera next cut to. Their faces showed varying degrees of disgust, and it looked like all three of them were trying to hide under their shawls.

        Who did they think they were getting, Mark Russell? (Actually, they may not have known who they were getting; the emcee was clueless enough, when introducing the headliner, to pronounce the final T in The Colbert Report. Square.) You hire a good political satirist, you get good political satire, which is necessarily dangerous. So, when the Washington Post's "Reliable Source" column speaks of the "consensus" that the routine "fell flat" and New York Daily News gossip— and "Reliable Source" alumnus—Lloyd Grove writes that Colbert "bombed badly," they are offering meaningless reportage. Pop Dadaist that he is, Colbert wasn't bombing so much as freaking his audience out for his own enjoyment.

        Colbert deserves to be judged on his own terms: He shouldn't haven't stolen one good joke from his own show ("Next time, look it up in your gut") and another from Jon Stewart's Oscar intro ("McClellan, of course, eager to retire. Really felt like he needed to spend more time with Andrew Card's children."). The "audition tape" segment was at least 90 seconds too long, although the Colbert rapport with Helen Thomas was good enough that the two ought to be considering a sitcom. In general, though, he was brilliant—perfectly daffy and gutsy, as in the line that earned what seemed to be the crowd's biggest laugh. Colbert spoke of interviewing Jesse Jackson: "You can ask him anything, but he's going to say what he wants, at the pace that he wants. It's like boxing a glacier. Enjoy that metaphor, by the way, because your grandchildren will have no idea what a glacier is."

        Troy Patterson is Slate's television critic.

      Matthew ------First off, I'd like to say that when you invite a wolf over to your house, you shouldn't be surprised when it eats your children. Colbert is Colbert. His political schtick has been pretty consistent from the Daily Show to The Colbert Report to everything in between. If people are upset about what he said, they shouldn't have invited him. His performance Saturday Night was largely consistent with what he's been saying on his show for the past year.

      I think more people were laughing than has been reported. But yes, there were some rather uncomfortable silences in the crowd. This is probably because a) the crowd is uptight b) some of his jokes fell flat c) his jokes (like Jon Stewart's jokes at the Oscars) may not be as effective outside the confines of their studio as he might like, and d)they were politically driven.

      I think his jokes were smart, dripping in political irony, and ultimately very funny. And having the brilliant mind that he does, I think he saw Saturday's performance as a once in a lifetime deal. He probably said to himself, this is going to be my one and only opportunity to say to Bush's face what no one else has the opportunity to do.

      Colbert, like the rest of us, has had to put up with 6 years of pre-staged-Republican only town hall meetings, a President who will rudely cut off reporters when they ask the toughest of questions ("Can I finish?"), a President who took his narrow margins of victory in both elections as a sign to take this country to the far right as possible, and a News Agency that shouts down guests by "cutting their mic." And I think he took his opportunity to snipe them when they had no other option but to sit there and take it, because I've NEVER seen a satyrist "take it to the man" right in front of "the man."

      So yes, there was an element of agitprop to his material. Actually, there was a large element of agitprop to what he was saying. I don't see that as Stalinist in any way. I don't see how an artist making a statement against someone can be seen as "a Stalinist aesthetic." Something can only be seen as Stalinist if the government itself is the one performing this act. Examples of Stalinism would be a government produced piece of media touting a program it's forwarding, not being open to political dissent, keeping secret prisons, outing people in the government who disagree with what the government's doing, etc...I swear, this all seems so familiar.

      But on a different level, Bush's routine was largely recycled material as well. Bush has been making fun of his speech screw ups and his pronounciation of "nukular" for years now.

      Luke ------The skit did go on too long, but that was the point. He was showing how far the white house would go to avoid questions. At first it got annoying, but then I realized the genius of it.

      ------Date: 2006-05-02 19:47:00 Subject: Jumped the shark

      So Bush has jumped the shark, according to many who read this blog. It's very hard for me to be down on someone...rather, I'd like to be up on someone else. Help me out here...

      Who are you supporting to replace him in '08?

      User Comments:

      General Zod ------VOTE FOR ME, PUNY EARTHLINGS!

      http://www.zod2008.com/

      Mamala ------Hmmm, RM, interesting...

      I was going to suggest that ticket but have it Stewart/Colbert...

      Maybe they could have a co-presidency! OK, I'm still depressed, because, let's face it, as Jon Stewart says, "it's basic cable!" reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Colbert/Stewart in 08.

      Really.

      Luke ------For obvious reasons, I am just barely keeping up with anything that is going on in the world...

      I do hope this changes soon!

      JillSusan/Mamala ------Thanks Matthew for your comment. I was all prepared to post [sound of crickets chirping] if you hadn't spoken up.

      What about the rest of you out there? and you may ask why I'm asking. I don't know of any particular person right now that would garner my support. I've had it up to here with all the criticism, but have yet to find someone that I can get behind or a plan that I can back to make things better. It's very depressing.

      Matthew ------I'm in the anyone but Hillary camp at the moment. She's just too damned Senatorial in her speech and demeanor. There are a lot of bad Democrat candidates out there. If I had to pick someone right now, I think I'd go with Biden. Everytime I see him on tv (especially Bill Maher) he impresses me.

      But honestly, I think the Dems and Reps are going to nominate yet another lackluster presidential candidate. We'll see...

      ------Date: 2006-05-03 11:14:00 Subject: Dylan Radio Just finished listening to the first installment of XM Radio's Deep Tracks' show "Theme Time Radio Hour" with Bob Dylan as DJ . I enjoyed it and will tune in again next week. My only disappointment was that he didn't play any of his own tunes, but then, I guess this would go against the humble Mr. Dylan's persona.

      The theme today was "the weather" and he played everything from Judy Garland, The Staple Singers, Jimi Hendrix, Frank Sinatra and Stevie Wonder singing the Spanish version of "A Place in the Sun" (¡SÃ, Se Puede!). He introduced each song with a little vignette and I was able to learn a little more about the legend and the music that has influenced his genius.

      With news today that both XM Radio and Sirius radio had record 1st quarter losses, I, for one, am willing to pay my 10 bucks or so a month to listen to stuff like this.

      User Comments:

      Mamala ------When you're here, I'll gladly give you my XM radio as I have another one that I'm not using. I know...'consume, I am'!!!!

      Luke ------Shows like that make the most compelling case for satellite radio. I am very tempted to get it myself, and I think that someday I will. Certainly if I didn't live in a city with a station like KTRU, I would.

      But yeah, I am not surprised that he didn't play his own stuff. In fact, you would be hard pressed to fine any real artist who would do that!

      ------Date: 2006-05-04 17:01:00 Subject: Manifesto: The Mad Farmer Liberation Front

      Manifesto: The Mad Farmer Liberation Front by Wendell Berry

      Love the quick profit, the annual raise, vacation with pay. Want more of everything ready-made. Be afraid to know your neighbors and to die.

      And you will have a window in your head. Not even your future will be a mystery any more. Your mind will be punched in a card and shut away in a little drawer.

      When they want you to buy something they will call you. When they want you to die for profit they will let you know.

      So, friends, every day do something that won't compute. Love the Lord.

      Love the world. Work for nothing.

      Take all that you have and be poor.

      Love someone who does not deserve it.

      Denounce the government and embrace the flag. Hope to live in that free republic for which it stands.

      Give your approval to all you cannot understand. Praise ignorance, for what man has not encountered he has not destroyed.

      Ask the questions that have no answers.

      Invest in the millenium. Plant sequoias.

      Say that your main crop is the forest that you did not plant, that you will not live to harvest.

      Say that the leaves are harvested when they have rotted into the mold.

      Call that profit. Prophesy such returns.

      Put your faith in the two inches of humus that will build under the trees every thousand years.

      Listen to carrion - put your ear close, and hear the faint chattering of the songs that are to come.

      Expect the end of the world. Laugh.

      Laughter is immeasurable. Be joyful though you have considered all the facts.

      So long as women do not go cheap for power, please women more than men.

      Ask yourself: Will this satisfy a woman satisfied to bear a child?

      Will this disturb the sleep of a woman near to giving birth?

      Go with your love to the fields.

      Lie down in the shade. Rest your head in her lap. Swear allegiance to what is nighest your thoughts.

      As soon as the generals and the politicos can predict the motions of your mind, lose it. Leave it as a sign to mark the false trail, the way you didn't go. Be like the fox who makes more tracks than necessary, some in the wrong direction.

      Practice resurrection.

      User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I've always loved that poem.

      ------Date: 2006-05-04 22:03:00 Subject: JK Rowling...watch your back!

      Guest blogger: #1 Granddaughter

        Hi MaDear how are you? Did I mention I'm a pin pal! My friend Maddie is going too make a book! And i'm going too help her! The book is called The Traveling friend's. I am making my character's name Mally Smith. The first part is when the bad guy catches the grass on fire and makes a huge fire that catches their house on fire and the girls in the story scream. Then they get in the car and drive away. But Mally is so nervous that she hits the gas petal and crashes in to another car and both friend's run away. They both go different directions. They ran into a dark woods and when they were running on the paths it went in a circle and they both bumped into each other. They both said "sorry" and wanted to be friends and travel together. So they did. Then they saw a bird who got hurt so they helped it. They got a bandage and wrapped it around the birds arm so he would feel better. Then they were wondering what to name it. Then they thought of a perfect name Pecker - cause it was a woodpecker. Then they wanted to make sure they other animals were OK. So Mally went east and Angel went west. Angel is Mattie's character's name. But where were we. Yes. When Mally was going east she saw a fox who had a brooken neck. "We have to get you home and fix you up so you feel much better. Then when they got there her friend said too hurry up cause a broken neck can kill you. So she hurried up so he would be OK.

        Like the book so far? We are going to try too publish it to book stores and librarys so everybody can read it. And after we make the first book we will make the second book. I want too try to make nine or ten books and try too become very popular. Are nicknames for books are J.M.G**st and M.D.Sparrow. Like those nick names? I do. But we have just started so don't be heading for the book store yet.

        But how are you? Have you visited C and M recently? I wish I could visit them every day because I miss them a lot. They are so cute. I like little cute baby's too because they are always sleeping so cute. And C I think she is cute when she talks. Like when she said "My mommy or my daddy." But they are cute no matter what. I love it if you send me back. But in a few hours I'm going to drama so I better go. I love you. Bye. Here's one joke before I go. Why did the lady put make up on her head? To make up her mind

        Love,

        J

      User Comments: Luke ------The email itself should be published! Bravo J!

      JillSusan/MaDear ------Correction to this line in my initial post:

      Guest blogger: #1 Granddaughter

      It should have read:

      Guest blogger: Granddaughter #1

      All three of my granddaughers are #1! But you all probably knew what I meant, right?

      Matthew ------No, it's in the genes. If there was any doubt before, Jessie put the final nail in the coffin. Both my grandfathers were/are good writers. My dad was a good writer. My mom is a good writer. All of my siblings are good writers. I think I'm a good writer. And now a new generation is picking it up.

      How cool is this? I remember when I wrote my first long piece. It's such a cool thing. And anyone who reads my blog knows that I've yet to outgrow it. haha

      JK Rowling better watch her back, indeed. There's a new kid in town.

      NotShyChiRev/ChicagoRev http://journalscape.com/notshychirev ------clearly writing is in the genes....or will this be another nature vs nurture argument...:-)

      Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------She was very, very proud of her e-mail. She kept coming in to me (with a big smile on her face), saying that she was writing the longest e-mail ever to MaDear. "Have you ever written an e-mail this long before, Mommy?"

      My favorite part... "But where were we. Yes." reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------That is just about the most wonderful thing I've ever read.

      This is what we have to look forward to, right?

      ------Date: 2006-05-07 18:20:00 Subject: If you think he got off easy, check this out

      When I heard the verdict this week - life - for Moussaoui, I almost cheered from my cubicle in northern Virginia. I refrained, but was proud of the jury that decided this way.

      Then comes this from Andrew Sullivan today...

      I think I'd prefer death to a true life sentence in the Supermax prison...go there to see what awaits him.

      User Comments:

      Luke ------It looks like he has been sentenced to death. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------couldn't agree more

      ------Date: 2006-05-07 18:28:00 Subject: I think I agree with him

      No to Hillary in '08

      User Comments:

      Luke ------I wonder sometimes about the "is the average American ready to vote into office a woman for president". But then i also think, if not now, when? I am not necessarily a supporter of Hillary Clinton, but it would be great to have a female president!

      ------Date: 2006-05-07 19:59:00 Subject: 9/11's gay hero

      The Bingham Cup

      06 May 2006 07:57 pm

      Mark_steelers_1


      Over the upcoming Memorial Day weekend, over forty rugby teams will converge on Randall's Island in New York City to compete for the Bingham Cup, named after Mark Bingham, one of the heroes of United Flight 93. Bingham's 36th birthday would be this May 23, if religious fanatics had not hijacked his plane and tried, in vain, to turn it into a missile against Washington, D.C. Why not honor his memory by going to the games? Full info is here. A brief history of the tournament can be found here. The website for the host team, Gotham Rugdy Football Club, is here. I suppose one way to commemorate a rugby player is to beat the crap out of each other on a muddy field for an hour and a half. There will be plenty of beer afterwards, as well.

      Thanks, Andrew Sullivan

      ------Date: 2006-05-07 20:06:00 Subject: Never again

      Never Again by the Editors of The New Republic

      Never again? What nonsense. Again and again is more like it. In Darfur, we are witnessing a genocide again, and again we are witnessing ourselves witnessing it and doing nothing to stop it. Even people who wish to know about the problem do not wish to know about the solution. They prefer the raising of consciousnesses to the raising of troops. Just as Rwanda made a bleak mockery of the lessons of Bosnia, Darfur is making a bleak mockery of the lessons of Rwanda. Some lessons, it seems, are gladly and regularly unlearned. Except, of course, by the perpetrators of this evil, who learn the only really enduring lessons about genocide in our time: that the Western response to it is late in coming, or is not coming at all....

      ------Date: 2006-05-07 20:24:00 Subject: Draft Hollywood

      Draft Hollywood

        THERE HAS NEVER been an age without war, not ever. Mass violence is a continual aspect of the human condition. Peace, like good weather, is always local and temporary — and what is peace anyway but the result of past victories in war and the effective threat of future war against would-be aggressors?

        We play with our children, read books, go to work and enjoy recreations only because people with guns stand ready, willing and able to kill other people with guns who would kill us if they could.

        It's sweet to forget this and therefore difficult to keep it in mind. "It is hard for those who live near a Police Station to believe in the triumph of violence," as T.S. Eliot wrote. That's us — we Americans, protected by a mighty military that by and large obeys the rules of our republic — safe enough, and keeping much of the world safe enough, so that we find it hard to believe in what would happen if that protection failed.

        But these fighters do keep us safe. And because keeping us safe is harsh, dangerous work, we should glorify them, exalt them in story and song by way of appreciation.

        "United 93" — the film celebrating the heroic civilian attempt to retake a hijacked plane on 9/11 â €” opened last week. That's great. Well done and about time. But now, let's have some war movies.

        We need some films celebrating the war against Islamo-fascism in Afghanistan and Iraq — and in Iran as well, if and when that becomes necessary. We need films like those that were made during World War II, films such as 1943's "Sahara" and "Action in the North Atlantic," or "The Fighting Seabees" and "Thirty Seconds Over Tokyo," which were released in 1944.

        Not all of these were great films, or even good ones, but their patriotic tributes to our fighting forces inspired the nation. More than that, they reminded the country what exactly it was that those forces were fighting to defend. Though many of these pictures now seem almost hilariously free with racist tirades against "sauerkrauts," and "eyeties" and "Tojo and his bug-eyed monkeys," they were also carefully constructed to display American life at its open-minded and inclusive best.

        Every roll call of Hollywood's U.S. troops seems to include a Ragazzi and a Donovan, a Hellenopolis, a Novasky, and a wisecracking Roth. "Sahara" even throws in the black "Mohammedan" Tabul, a Sudanese ally. This may have been corny, but it was also more or less realistic, and it depicted the war as a conflict between our lovably mongrel melting pot and the despicable Axis ideal of racial purity.

        For all their epithets and stereotypes, then, these pictures sent the distinctly American message that it's not bloodlines but national creeds that make a people, and that while even so great a creed as ours can't guarantee the decency of individuals, evil creeds surely sweep them up into destructive madness and therefore must be opposed.

        Today we face an enemy in the grip of a belief system just as evil, just as destructive in its intent, as the system we fought back then. We were attacked at home in this war as we were in World War II. The outcome of the struggle is just as much in doubt. Worse, because Islamic fundamentalism supersedes nationhood, the danger it poses is more protean and diffuse. It's easier to pretend it isn't there, more tempting for the war-weary and the fatally foolish to waver and sound retreat.

        In short, we need war movies now even more than in the '40s. So why aren't we getting them? One reason surely is that, in the years since World War II, our self-assurance as a nation, the self-assurance necessary for the waging of war, has been shaken, and Hollywood reflects that. The change occurred against the backdrop of postwar history, but I believe it has as much to do with our cultural values, their uses and misuses, as it does with events. The Western ethos, with its Christian roots, demands that we look to our own sins before judging the sins of others. It's amazing how quickly, after the war ended, Hollywood began to examine the ways in which Americans shared the moral failings of the Axis.

        As early as 1947, we had "Crossfire," about an American GI who commits an anti-Semitic murder. In 1949, "Home of the Brave" depicted a heroic African American soldier dealing with prejudice. And by 1955, there was the classic "Bad Day at Black Rock," in which a veteran uncovers homicidal anti-Japanese bigotry when he tries to deliver a medal to the father of a Japanese American killed on the battlefields of Italy.

        Such self-examination and reform are part of the measure of our greatness. But there's a difference between a humble nation confessing its sins and a country of flagellants whipping themselves for every impure thought. Since the '60s, we have had, it seems, an endless string of war movies, from "Dr. Strangelove" to "Syriana," in which the United States is depicted as wildly aggressive and endlessly corrupt — which, in fact, it's not; which, in fact, it never has been.

        In taking our self-examining ethos to these extremes, we have lost a kind of wisdom, wisdom that acknowledges the complexity of human life but can move through it to find the simple truth again. While assessing the intricate failings of our moral history, many of us have lost sight of the simple truth that the system that shapes us is, in fact, a great one, that it has moved us inexorably to do better and that it's well worth defending against every aggressor and certainly against as shabby and vicious an aggressor as we face today.

        Not only have we lost this kind of wisdom, but I think that a handful of elites — really only a handful of academics, journalists and artists — has raised up a golden counterfeit in its stead. With this counterfeit wisdom, they imagine themselves above the need for patriotism; they fantasize they grasp a truth beyond good and evil, and they preen themselves on a higher calling than the protection of our way of life. And all the while they forget that they imagine and fantasize and preen only by the grace of those who fight and die and stand guard to secure those freedoms that our system alone guarantees.

        When war comes, as it always will, and when it is justified, as it is now, some nuances and shades of gray have to be set aside. It is time, instead, for faith and for ferocity. Our enemies have these weapons, after all. Our movies should inspire us to have them too.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------I disagree. But it was an interesting read.

        I feel that times of war are times when it is most necessary to have active dissent.

        ------Date: 2006-05-07 20:32:00 Subject: Cardinal Wants Da Vinci Code Legally Suppressed

        In the latest Vatican broadside against "The Da Vinci Code", a leading cardinal says Christians should respond to the book and film with legal action because both offend Christ and the Church he founded. Cardinal Francis Arinze, a Nigerian who was considered a candidate for pope last year, made his strong comments in a documentary called "The Da Vinci Code -- A Masterful Deception." ...

        "Christians must not just sit back and say it is enough for us to forgive and to forget," Arinze said in the documentary made by Rome film maker Mario Biasetti for Rome Reports, a Catholic film agency specializing in religious affairs. "Sometimes it is our duty to do something practical. So it is not I who will tell all Christians what to do but some know legal means which can be taken in order to get the other person to respect the rights of others," Arinze said.

        "This is one of the fundamental human rights: that we should be respected, our religious beliefs respected, and our founder Jesus Christ respected," he said, without elaborating on what legal means he had in mind....

        I had hoped that the Catholic Church had learned that it's wrong to try to use legal coercion to suppress religious views that one disapproves of -- and that no religion should have a legal right to be free from criticism or disagreement (or for that matter novels it dislikes). I'm sorry to see that at least one leading cardinal takes a different view. Those of us who condemned Moslem leaders who called for legal suppression of the Mohammed cartoons (not just those who called for violence, but also those who called for government action) should condemn this Catholic leader's call as well.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------This is sadly not very much of a surprise. Another example of history repeating itself.

        ------Date: 2006-05-07 21:32:00 Subject: Pajamas Media

        After posting/linking 6 times in one day, I'm declaring myself a member of the Pajamas Media.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------I finally have some pajamas, so i guess I can join.

        ------Date: 2006-05-08 15:54:00 Subject: The Euston Manifesto

        The “Euston Manifesto†keeps it simple. It prefers democratic pluralism, at any price, to theocracy. It raises an eyebrow at the enslavement of the female half of the population and the burial alive of homosexuals. It has its reservations about the United States, but knows that if anything is ever done about (say) Darfur, it will be Washington that receives the UN mandate to do the heavy lifting.

        It prefers those who vote in Iraq and Afghanistan to those who put bombs in mosques and schools and hospitals. It does not conceive of arguments that make excuses for suicide murderers. It affirms the right of democratic nations and open societies to defend themselves, both from theocratic states abroad and from theocratic gangsters at home. This is probably the most "conservative" document I've ever signed. Although I don't agree with every single word, I like the change of direction it suggests for progressives/liberals.

        WHAT IS IT?

          In May last year about 20 disgruntled leftists met in a pub near Euston station in London. Journalists, academics, bloggers and students, they were united in feeling at odds with the anti- war movement and the blanket anti-American/anti-Blair sentiments it inspired. They felt that the left had lost touch with its core values, its muddled sympathies now falling in with terrorists in its rush to condemn its own government

        WHAT IS THE POINT OF IT?

          The manifesto appeared on the internet, arguing the time has come for “egalitarian liberals†to reassess their behaviour and allegiances. Members include Norman Geras, Nick Cohen and Brian Brivati

        POINTS INCLUDED:

      • A rejection of the idea that the left should “indulgently ‘understand’ reactionary regimes and movements for which democracy is a hated enemyâ€
      • That members will condemn any abuse of human rights, and not see Guantanamo or rendition as being somehow worse than equivalent actions by non-democracies
      • That without incitement, people should be free to criticise others’ religious beliefs
      • That the duty of the left is to concentrate on seeing democracy triumph in Iraq and not ceaselessly to harp on about the justice of the initial intervention
      • WHY DOES IT MATTER?

        Because, its authors believe, it will lead to a return to common sense and put an end to so-called liberals supporting gruesome regimes for political gain back home.

        It has won support from John Lloyd, Paul Berman, Anthony Julius and Francis Wheen. There are now more than 200,000 mentions of it online

        User Comments:

        Luke ------"its muddled sympathies now falling in with terrorists in its rush to condemn its own government"

        What? This hasn't been my experience with most "extreme leftists".

        Sometimes I think it's the "radicals" of today that are tomorrow's heroes.

        This is interesting though, thanks for posting!

        ------Date: 2006-05-09 12:10:00 Subject: Doh!

          Moussaoui Fails in Bid to Withdraw 9/11 Guilty Plea

          By Jerry Markon, Washington Post Staff Writer, Tuesday, May 9, 2006;

          Facing transfer to the nation's toughest federal prison, Zacarias Moussaoui served up what may be his final legal surprise yesterday: The al-Qaeda conspirator said he was not involved in the Sept. 11, 2001, terror plot after all and wants a new trial to prove it.

          His efforts were immediately rejected by a federal judge.

          In a motion in U.S. District Court in Alexandria, Moussaoui sought to withdraw his guilty plea and be granted a new trial "to prove my innocence of the Sept. 11 plot.'' The filing came four days after he was sentenced to life in prison, a punishment determined by a jury that heard Moussaoui testify during a seven-week sentencing trial that he had planned to fly a fifth hijacked airplane into the White House on Sept. 11.

          Now, the French citizen says that testimony was "a complete fabrication.'' In an affidavit accompanying the motion, Moussaoui said he never met lead hijacker Mohamed Atta, didn't know the other 18 hijackers "or anything about their operation" and was taking flying lessons in the United States only to train for a second wave of attacks.

          He also offered measured praise for the U.S. legal system he has spent the past four years attacking. Moussaoui said he lied on the stand because he assumed he would be executed "based on the emotions and anger toward me for the deaths on Sept. 11.'' But he was "extremely surprised" at the jury's verdict, he said, and now believes "it is possible I can receive a fair trial even with Americans as jurors.''

          U.S. District Judge Leonie M. Brinkema summarily rejected Moussaoui's motion late yesterday, saying federal rules prohibit a defendant from withdrawing a guilty plea after being sentenced. "Because defendant was sentenced on May 4, 2006, his motion is too late and must be denied on this basis alone,'' Brinkema wrote.

          Moussaoui can appeal her ruling to the U.S. Court of Appeals for the 4th Circuit in Richmond, but legal experts said such appeals are rarely granted and would probably require a grievous legal error by the judge.

        User Comments:

        Jill ------RM-you've got that right....

        Guess his claims after the life verdict ["America, you lost," Moussaoui taunted, clapping his hands as he left the courtroom. "I won."] are ringing a little hollow these days for the man who will spend the rest of his life in a 7X12' cell. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Clearly he was gunning to be a martyr. Kudos to the jury for denying him that opportunity. Instead he will rot in prison--a humiliation he seems to deserve.

        Luke ------Ummm....

        ?

        ------Date: 2006-05-10 14:39:00 Subject: Memory ask me to tell how it feels remembering your mother's face turned to water under the white words of the man at the shoe store. ask me, though she tells it better than i do, not because of her charm but because it never happened she says, no bully salesman swaggering, no rage, no shame, none of it ever happened. i only remember buying you your first grown up shoes she smiles. ask me how it feels.

        -Lucille Clifton, who grew up Black in the Jim Crow South

        User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------LOVE Clifton's stuff.

        Luke ------beautiful

        ------Date: 2006-05-11 09:17:00 Subject: Googling Sex

        From Andrew Sullivan comes this...

          Google has a new feature called Google Trends . It tracks the number of searches for various topics online, and also gives you some regional analysis of where those searches are taking place. A reader clued me in. And here's a somewhat revealing discovery. Who's looking for "sex" the most? The countries with the most searches for that word is - surprise! - Pakistan, followed by Egypt, Iran, India, Indonesia, Saudi Arabia and Turkey. Hmmm. It couldn't have anything to do with all that Muslim repression, could it? Arabic is the most popular language for "sex" searches. Islamism, like Christianism, doesn't conquer sex; it just fetishizes it and forces it underground. The most sex-obsessed Christian country? Poland. Congrats to the Vatican. Sex searching also seems to peak around Christmas and New Year. Yes, I can understand that.

          Of course, I do realize i just ruined productivity today in a few offices across America. Oh, well. Enjoy. And if you come across something particularly interesting or amusing, let me know.

        ------Date: 2006-05-11 10:02:00 Subject: Popularity

        From Eschaton comes this, which is really no surprise to me since I can't think of a candidate in 2008 that I could back right now.

        Voters don't seem to like anybody very much these days. Here are the ranked approval favorability scores of various national figures from the NYT poll (.pdf):

        • Hillary Clinton - 34%
        • John McCain - 31%
        • George W Bush - 31%
        • Al Gore - 28%
        • John Kerry - 26%

        User Comments:

        Luke ------Dang! That's low!

        ------Date: 2006-05-11 10:11:00 Subject: You're either with them or against them

        Howard Dean says, on the 700 Club, that the Democratic Party believes marriage is between a man and a woman.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------Dang...

        ------Date: 2006-05-12 09:42:00 Subject: I try to be good

        I've never stolen any music from anyone. I pay my 99 cents to Itunes whenever I want a new song. But I really, really wanted the Traveling Wilbury's CD, volume 1 & 3, and couldn't find it on Amazon or Itunes. So what did I do? I googled it and ordered from the first 'sponsored link' on the page...what could be wrong with that?

        My first clue came when I got a note in my mailbox that I needed to pick up a certified/registered package at the main PO in Dc, next to the White House. The only indication of who sent this package to me was a note at the top of the notice "Russia."

        When I handed the note to the postal worker, she promptly (at least promptly for the post office) went to the back to get it for me. A few minutes later, she came back apologizing for the delay and said she needed to get someone to open the safe. Wow...the safe?!?

        I got the package and quickly retreated, watching my back as the FBI Building is not too far from this post office. The CD looks great, but I imagine it's an illegal copy. I hope not, but again, I tried to be good.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------I agree with Matt. If you ever need anything that you CAN'T find anywhere else, as far as I'm concerned it's fine to download seeing as that it may be the only legitimate way to get it. Let me know and I got you covered.

        Matthew ------There are only 3 surviving members of that band left, and they're too stoned to care if you're getting their music illegally. haha

        ------Date: 2006-05-12 09:55:00 Subject: What, me worry?

        Let's see...

      • CVS knows every drug I take.
      • Safeway knows every food I eat.
      • The IRS knows what I make and what charitable organizations I spend my money on.
      • The Social Security Administration knows when I turn 65.
      • Pepco knows my electric usage.
      • My employer knows if I take drugs or not (mandatory, random drug testing).
      • My health insurance company knows that I refilled a prescription for Lipitor this week and that I have borderline high cholesterol.
      • My doctor has seen the film of the inside of my colon.
      • When I google my name, the first 5 entries are me!
      • My landlord has access to my apartment at any time he wants.
      • Amazon sends me recommendations of new stuff I might like, based on every book and CD I've ordered from them since they've been in business.
      • and so on, and so on, and so on.
      • The fact that the NSA now has a record of who I call and who calls me, which, btw, they got from the phone company who has this stuff in their "Jill file of phone calls" will not cause me to lose any sleep tonight.

        User Comments:

        LisaMarie http://www.journalscape.com/lisamarie ------I am angry that it is yet ANOTHER thing this administration is doing that I don't like, and there is something fundamentally wrong about it, but I am not going to lose sleep over it either.

        It's ok that NSA knows how frequently I call my mother. I will accept that. I should but a call into congress or the whitehouse or something, just in hopes of making a "special" file. :)

        Ted ------I'm not losing any sleep either, but I wish the Congress was more of a check and balance than they have been on this administration. The latest poll says 2 out of 3 people say it is justified - when I heard that, all I could think of was Martin Niemoller http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/First_they_came... reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------You have made the choice to share your information with CVS and Safeway.

        Everyone else on that list has a good reason for that information, with the possible exception of the charitable contributions, your employer with the drug testing... and the NSA. Does the government have probable cause to suspect you as a terrorist? I'm not losing sleep either, which is probably the sad thing. This wanker administration fails to surprise me anymore.

        ------Date: 2006-05-12 10:09:00 Subject: I should have kept my Texas Voter Registration Card

        MUSICIAN and mystery writer Kinky Friedman brought his long-shot bid to become governor of Texas a little closer to reality yesterday when he turned in 169,574 signatures to get on the November ballot - more than 31/2 times the number needed. Friedman, clad in his trademark black cowboy hat and Western clothes, stood on the steps of the Texas secretary of state's office and quipped, "Thank God for bars and dance halls. Every signature counts, whether it came from a country club or homeless shelter."

        User Comments:

        Luke ------:)

        ------Date: 2006-05-12 10:46:00 Subject: Behind the scenes

        The making of a Mother's Day video...

        User Comments:

        Mamala ------Matthew---you got it!

        I was going to preface this post with "which one's Matthew, which one's Luke?" but guess I didn't have to be so obvious for you smart ones!! ;-)

        Matthew ------damn...i was going to send you this on mother's day! :-) haha

        Oh well.

        ------Date: 2006-05-14 15:30:00 Subject: I'm the new member with tears streaming down her face

        I signed the membership book and joined All Souls Church, Unitarian in DC today. It's a great church with a rich history. I'm happy to be a member there.

        After attending a 3-hour introductory class yesterday about the history of the church, along with a tour of the building including a 8-story trek up the bell tower, we had the opportunity to make the decision to become members. I was glad to continue my over 4 year relationship with UUism with this wonderful church.

        Today, we were honored in the service, but just before we were presented to the church body, a soloist sang the song "Wind Beneath My Wings." I thought I was prepared for it. I read the order of service prior to the start of church and said, under my breath, "oh no" as I realized that this solo was placed just immediately ahead of our getting up from our comfortable seats and standing before the congregation.

        Now I kept thinking, mind over matter. I'll just pretend I don't hear the words, I'll just "mentally" stick my fingers in my ears and shout "I can't hear you, I can't hear you" while the song was being sung. But none of these tricks worked and I just cried.

        I'm sure the song was picked to honor our mothers, as today's Mother's Day. But while she was singing it, all I could think of was my sister Sherry.

        Many times now, when I attend church, or spiritual events (12 step meetings/an image and poetry class/my granddaughter C's pre-school program honoring her mother/etc.) I find myself getting a lump in my throat, my eyes tearing up.

        I realize that now that I'm finally settled in my new home and all my boxes are unpacked, the emotional baggage of the loss of my sister is waiting to be opened up and dealt with. There's no escaping it now; it's just the way it is. I have a feeling though that it'll not be as easy finding a home for the contents of this heartfelt grief.

        Wind Beneath My Wings

          It must have been cold there in my shadow, to never have sunlight on your face.

          You were content to let me shine, that's your way.

          You always walked a step behind. So I was the one with all the glory, while you were the one with all the strength.

          A beautiful face without a name for so long.

          A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

          Did you ever know that you're my hero, and everything I would like to be?

          I can fly higher than an eagle, for you are the wind beneath my wings.

          It might have appeared to go unnoticed, but I've got it all here in my heart.

          I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.

          I would be nothing without you.

          Did you ever know that you're my hero?

          You're everything I wish I could be.

          I could fly higher than an eagle, for you are the wind beneath my wings.

          Did I ever tell you you're my hero?

          You're everything, everything I wish I could be.

          Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle, for you are the wind beneath my wings,

          'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

          Oh, the wind beneath my wings. You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.

          Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.

          Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

          Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

          Fly, fly, fly high against the sky, so high I almost touch the sky.

          Thank you, thank you, thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I'm glad you connected with this church. Hopefully it will be one of those safe places to unpack the heart.

        Luke ------Yes, that can real tough. It's those unexpected times that can be the worst.

        We are all here for you!

        ------Date: 2006-05-15 13:04:00 Subject: Please don't remain calm

        Please Don't Remain Calm

        Instinctual response in the wake of crises like 9/11.

        By Michael Kinsley, Posted Friday, May 12, 2006, at 6:18 AM ET

        The story of United Flight 93, more than any other tale—true or fable—of our lifetime, makes you wonder about yourself. These were not young soldiers in battle. This was not the culmination of some long crisis with time to ruminate and firm up your resolve. These were ordinary, middle- class and (mostly) middle-aged Americans going about their everyday lives, when—bang!— they faced the ultimate test. And passed. "Once to every man and nation comes the moment to decide," goes the old hymn. But usually it's not literally just a moment. These people were not just courageous. They were instinctually courageous.

        I think I'd flunk. Oh, perhaps optimistically, I give myself a 50-50 chance of having the courage to rise from my seat and join a charge toward the cockpit (once I'd concluded I was almost certainly going to die anyway). What I find harder to imagine is disobeying the instructions from authority figures—flight attendants, anonymous voices over the public-address system, telling me to stay seated and remain calm.

        In retrospect, this was bad advice. Similar instructions were even worse advice at the World Trade Center, where people who called 911 were told to remain at their desks. Many ignored or didn't wait for this advice, fled anyway, made it partway down the emergency stairs, and then were told to go back to their desks, or to wait at assembly points in the doomed buildings. Hundreds did as they were told and died as a result. Other hundreds defied authority, proceeded out of the buildings, and went about the rest of their lives.

        So, what's the lesson? Is it to defy authority and follow your own instincts in an emergency? If so, we haven't learned it. For a while after 9/11 there was talk of changing the official policy regarding hijackings and to start encouraging the passengers to whack the hijackers with their pillows, and so on. An urban myth sprouted about an airplane captain who gave the passengers detailed instructions in guerilla warfare at 30,000 feet. But today, airline passengers are still told at the start of every flight that in an emergency they should remain calm and follow instructions from anyone in a uniform or—in the case of United—even inanimate objects ("lighted signs and placards").

        Poking around the Web, I stumbled across the official "Hijacking Survival Guidelines" for employees of the U.S. Department of Agriculture. They say, "Stay calm and encourage others around you to do the same. Do not challenge the hijackers physically or verbally. Comply with their instructions. Do not struggle. … Blend in with the other airline passengers." (There's no telling, I suppose, how an emotionally volatile hijacker might react to the discovery that there is an Agriculture Department employee on board.)

        So the U.S. government is kicking in millions of dollars for a memorial to the heroes of United 93. But meanwhile it is officially encouraging people not to do what these heroes did, should the occasion arise. "Don't try this at home" might be a sensible policy if the United 93 passengers had been specially selected or trained. But they were an utterly random collection of Americans, just like you or me or the employees of the Ag Department. If they are heroes, why are we being told not to do what they did?

        It is the nature of authorities to assert authority, and its hard to imagine officials of anything urging people to pay no attention to official instructions. But there is also some logic here. The policies followed by police and fire officials at the World Trade Center (at the cost of their own lives as well as others') seem very wrong in hindsight. But these rules themselves were the product of hindsight. During the first World Trade Center bombing, back in 1993, rescue attempts and fire control were frustrated by the anarchy of thousands fleeing unnecessarily down narrow emergency stairs. Emergency planners are like generals—always fighting the last war. But what other choice do they have? Let he who anticipated that the next four hijacked planes would be pointed at major office buildings cast the first stone.

        With convenient symmetry, it also seems to be the nature of most people, most of the time, to obey authority. The famous Stanley Milgram experiments at Yale in 1961 demonstrated that it is frighteningly easy to induce ordinary people—good people—to inflict pain on others, when ordered to do so by some authority figure. Sept. 11 demonstrated that most people will sit tight and obey orders even unto their own deaths. The defiance of authority is a big reason the United 93 story is so thrilling. This was heroism, American-style. Dissing the Man on your way out the door. These folks were cowboys. John Wayne and Clint Eastwood don't have time for the rules, and neither did they.

        But instinct aside, people who choose to obey authority in crises may do so because of a conscious and rational decision that it is the right thing to do. If, in an airplane emergency, the flight attendant told me to remain in my seat with my seat belt buckled high across my waist and my seat back and tray table in the full upright and locked position, I would be strongly inclined to assume that a trained flight attendant knew more about what was going on, and the best way of dealing with it, than I did. She, far better than I, could assess the ever-present danger of items shifting in the overhead bins. The incantatory power of these familiar phrases no doubt enhances their persuasiveness. As a fairly enthusiastic fan of the rule of law generally—in a democratic society, that is—I would probably regard being caught in the middle of a crisis like 9/11 as a test of my principles in extremis. And I would be inclined, even for high-minded reasons, to do as told.

        And sometimes obeying authority is the counsel of courage while defying it is the counsel of cowardice. It probably took more courage to climb back up to your office in the World Trade Center than it did to proceed down and out of the building. Foolish courage, as it turns out, but you never know. I suspect that many emergencies are what game theorists call a "prisoner's dilemma" situation, where everybody is best off if most people obey the rules, but the few that disobey are even better off—as long as they're only a few. In a situation like the World Trade Center, for example, the most lives might be saved by an orderly evacuation, but your best shot at saving your own life is to escape before order collapses because everyone else is doing what you do.

        Courage and cowardice, obeying instructions and defying them, are all unreliable guides in an unimaginable crisis like 9/11. In a way, that's comforting. You can't really get it wrong. You're in the hands of fate (or faith, if you've got it). We celebrate the passengers who rebelled on United 93 for their choice, but we surely don't, or shouldn't, blame any of the folks on any of those planes for arriving at a different decision, or none at all.

        ------

        Sidebar from Kinsley--

        The closest I've come to such a crisis was a big earthquake in Seattle a few years ago. I was at a meeting in a ground-floor conference room at Microsoft when the tremors started. People shouted, "Don't run outside, don't run outside"—that being the one piece of official advice everybody remembers. Then, after a very long two or three seconds, everybody ran outside. Including me. That's not courage, and it may not be wisdom. But it's instinct and it's irresistible. I'd do it again, whatever they may say.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------I also wonder if a reason why the official line is to remain calm is because, say a flight attendant were to organize a "rebellion" but the rebellion failed, the airline might be held liable for any lives lost as a result of said "rebellion".

        That might not be true, but in such an "insured" world, I bet this has at least a small part of why they tell us to remain in our seats.

        ------Date: 2006-05-16 17:05:00 Subject: notes from my checkbook register

        September 2003 - drop in appetite loss of weight in neck and arms lower chest look good on ct scan lymph nodes enlarged uterus enlarged 3 times normal size lymph nodes around aorta to left kidney are enlarged liver ok can't promise to get out lymph nodes a sarcoma of uterus or ovarian abnormality game plan-take out as much as can safely get many possibilities really innovative things now very worrisome things may need to take out part of colon every week for 7 weeks in a row no hair loss nausea kidney function can affect blood counts no steroids colon resection

        7/13/04 - chemo chart, coming along well, it looks good

        CA125 - 52 repeat ct-scan after next week comparison of lymph nodes pelvis clean as a whistle finish this round may change protocol

        11/11/04 - Good news!

        Evidence good de-bulked 90% dead bowel/dead kidney left kidney encased scar tissue none show extreme drug resistance no interferon one more week chemo sensitivity - all will treat

        7/26/05 - make decision

        9/5/05 -

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Peace be with you, my friend.

        Luke ------:(

        This is hard stuff to work through. Can't wait to give you a hug!

        ------Date: 2006-05-17 17:04:00 Subject: Just heard the news

        Paul McCartney has separated from his wife....

        Hey Paul, look over here, I'm available and I've loved you since I was 14!

        User Comments:

        Luke ------Wow. Having a step father who was once a Beatle would be SOOOOO rad!

        ------Date: 2006-05-20 08:22:00 Subject: Optimism

        Optimism - Setting the alarm clock for 8:00 AM when grandkids sleepover.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------WORD!

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Made me giggle. ;^)

        ------Date: 2006-05-23 08:45:00 Subject: My Fab Four

        This past weekend was one of the most wonderful weekends of my life! Being with my adult children and seeing them interact with each other is a joy and I feel so blessed.

        It really, really doesn't get any better than this!

        User Comments:

        Luke ------Yeah, it was a blast and a half. Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------It was great. I'm already looking forward to the one next year!

        Matthew ------I agree. It was a great weekend. It's one that I'll remember for a long time to come.

        ------Date: 2006-05-25 09:36:00 Subject: Good for you, Bill Press

        Let's throw the bum out.

        ------Date: 2006-05-26 09:23:00 Subject: The Great Deluge

        I attended Douglas Brinkley's talk about his new book about New Orleans and the Gulf Coast and Katrina last night at Politics and Prose bookstore. I love these events and attend them regularly.

        First of all, P & Prose is a great bookstore! I always feel alot smarter after my visits there. It's neat to hang around like-minded people. And it makes me glad that people still buy books there and that it's still around.

        It's also a great walk, as the area is beautiful on upper Connecticut Avenue.

        Yes, this is definitely one of the better places in DC!

        Oh, and I thanked Mr. Brinkley for dedicating his book to the wonderfully warm people of Houston for opening their arms to evacuees during this terrible time. I agree, Houston's a great place!

        User Comments:

        Luke ------Can't wait til you visit this great place. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Great dedication!

        ------Date: 2006-05-26 10:04:00 Subject: AmeriCorps I met a young man last night at Politics and Prose that was serving his third and final year in AmeriCorp, helping homeless people. He had a backpack full of energy bars, information about helpful resources, and bars of soap, etc.

        I thanked him for his service to his country and then he said, "yeah, I wish I could do this the rest of my life, but they (I'm assuming the bureaucrats here in W, DC) limit AmeriCorp service to 3 years."

        Now, why in a country where one can be career military and serve 20 or 30 years or more, do we limit someone's service to AmeriCorp to 3 years?

        Something's definitely wrong here...

        User Comments:

        Luke ------Right, I agree. I think some people will hate us regardless, but yeah, spending a billion dollars a day on the peace corps would go a LONG way!

        Jill ------Now I'm not saying that there aren't some radical islamo-fascists out there that would hate us Americans no matter what we do, but can you imagine how different life would be if we placed as much importance on the Peace Corp and AmeriCorp as we do on the military?

        Luke ------That is a good point... It might be something I would do. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Things that make you go hmm...

        Or not. If that kind of service were a priority to us, we'd find a way to allow people to continue.

        ------Date: 2006-05-26 19:30:00 Subject: Good for you, Bush/Blair

        QUESTION: Mr. President, you spoke about missteps and mistakes in Iraq. Could I ask both of you which missteps and mistakes of your own you most regret?

        PRESIDENT BUSH: Sounds like kind of a familiar refrain here -- saying "bring it on," kind of tough talk, you know, that sent the wrong signal to people. I learned some lessons about expressing myself maybe in a little more sophisticated manner -- you know, "wanted dead or alive," that kind of talk. I think in certain parts of the world it was misinterpreted, and so I learned from that. And I think the biggest mistake that's happened so far, at least from our country's involvement in Iraq is Abu Ghraib. We've been paying for that for a long period of time. And it's -- unlike Iraq, however, under Saddam, the people who committed those acts were brought to justice. They've been given a fair trial and tried and convicted.

        PRIME MINISTER BLAIR: I think inevitably some of the things that we thought were going to be the biggest challenge proved not to be, and some of the things we didn't expect to be challenges at all proved to be immense. I think that probably in retrospect -- though at the time it was very difficult to argue this -- we could have done the de-Baathification in a more differentiated way than we did.

        I think that the most difficult thing, however, has been the determination of people to move against the democratic process in Iraq in a way that I think -- as I was saying a moment or two ago -- indicates our opponents' very clear view from a very early stage that they have to stop the democratic process working. And I think it's easy to go back over mistakes that we may have made, but the biggest reason why Iraq has been difficult is the determination of our opponents to defeat us. And I don't think we should be surprised at that.

        Maybe in retrospect, when we look back, it should have been very obvious to us, and is obvious still in Afghanistan that for them, it is very clear. You know, they can't afford to have these countries turned round, and I think that probably, there was a whole series of things in Iraq that were bound to come out once you got al Qaeda and other groups operating in there to cause maximum destruction and damage. And therefore, I'm afraid in the end, we're always going to have to be prepared for the fall of Saddam not to be the rise of democratic Iraq, that it was going to be a more difficult process.

        ------Date: 2006-05-26 19:52:00 Subject: Stuff Happens

        Three Iraqis - members of the national tennis team - have just been summarily executed on the streets for wearing shorts. They were violating a religious edict enforced by armed Taliban- style terrorists.

        ------Date: 2006-05-26 20:05:00 Subject: A beginning

        [The following is the text of my (Norm Geras) talk at last night's Euston Manifesto launch.]


        By one of those coincidences that don't mean anything, 70 years ago today - and I mean to the very day - the poet T.S. Eliot paid a visit to a small hamlet in Cambridgeshire. He took the name of this place as the title for the fourth of his Four Quartets - 'Little Gidding'. What has that got to do with the Euston Manifesto? Nothing, really.

        But in the way of these things, I went back to the poem just to have a look, in case (you never know) I might find some other connection than merely the date. What I came back to there were these lines:

        And to make an end is to make a beginning.

        The end is where we start from...

        There you go – that gives me somewhere to start from this evening. Because I want to talk about ends and beginnings in both a public and a personal sense.

        The first of these: 9/11 - September 11, 2001. It is a day imprinted on the public memory - indelibly - because the crime committed in New York and Washington DC announced a terrible willingness, of which few previously had been aware: a willingness to use terror without limit for political ends; a terrorism, that is to say, unconstrained by any concern about the numbers of the innocent dead. That day was both an end and a beginning because it showed, and to many of us in an instant, that the world was now different, dangerously so, and in a way not amenable to simple-minded responses.

        This brings me to a second end and beginning, and if I may get your indulgence for this, I will frame it in more personal terms. It happened in the days immediately following 9/11. Not just simple-minded, but cold, shameful, appalling responses to the crime that had been perpetrated, parading across the pages of the liberal and left press. You know the terms of it: blowback; comeuppance; yes, a crime of course but... But what? But a crime to be contextualized immediately, just in case you might be unaware that it wasn't the first or the worst crime in human history.

        This kind of stuff, I regret to say, was coming principally from a part of the left. And in those few days, 12, 13, 14 September 2001, it became clear to me that this part of the left wasn't a part one should have anything - or anything more, depending on where you were at the time - to do with if the left was to have a worthwhile future and merit anybody's support.

        Anyone who's ever belonged to anything, as we all have - a family, a group, a club, a movement - will know that this involves having some quarrels. If you're part of the left then you have your quarrels; and having been a part of the left all my adult life, I've had my share. But some things you quarrel about. About other things you draw a line. Over 9/11 I decided the time had come to draw a line. A left truly committed to democratic values doesn't make excuses for terrorism, not at all, not ever. Terrorism is murder. There is no context that makes it OK. This is a simple principle - that you do not wantonly kill the innocent - embodied in the most basic moral codes of civilized existence, embodied in the rules of warfare and in international humanitarian law.

        The left paid a heavy price for its fellow-travelling with - its justification and apologetics for - the mass crimes of the Soviet Union in the twentieth century. For another generation to put its foot upon a similar path is not something any of us should look upon with indulgence. It's the place to draw a line. You make an end and, if necessary, another beginning. The left has to be better than that.

        OK, now push the clock forward. It's 2003. A number of people are blogging about the Iraq war. In my own case this starts in the summer of 2003, but others have already been going a while, and more others are getting into the conversation with each month that passes. There are bloggers of the left who support the war. How's that possible? Support the war? From the left? Well, it's possible because Saddam Hussein's regime is a murderous tyranny - as it has been said, a torture chamber above ground, a mass grave below - responsible for the deaths of hundreds of thousands of people of that long suffering country.

        Of course, it was also possible to oppose the war, even while knowing this - as did a number of the supporters of the Euston Manifesto. There were weighty considerations on both sides, and reasonable people could reasonably disagree about the prospects and the dangers, how things were likely to turn out, as well as about the alternatives to war and their likely consequences and dangers.

        But there has been another discourse of opposition to the Iraq war, starting with the banners and slogans for that Saturday on 15 February 2003, from which one would never have known what kind of a place Saddam's Iraq was. It has been a discourse of denial, evidenced by the numbers of those on the left unwilling to allow, or even comprehend, why others of us on the left supported the war; by a rancorous hostility towards the pro-war left; and, most seriously of all, by the lack of interest in initiatives of solidarity with the forces in Iraq battling for a democratic transformation of their country, itself part of a wider lack of enthusiasm for the success of this enterprise.

        To those who now say that such criticisms levelled by the Euston Manifesto at a large part of the anti-war left are misdirected, applying only to a small number of people on the far left, I have two answers. (1) Not true. (There's a more forceful way of putting that, but it violates the rules of public civility.) (2) That it isn't true has been documented at length.

        In any event, this takes us back to those shameful responses to 9/11 from which I started - because some of the themes of what I'm calling the discourse of denial in argument about the Iraq war are for their part shameful too: a tendency to go silent about, or at least to minimize, the horrors of Baathist Iraq; a manner of distributing blame for everything that has gone wrong in that country in such a way that the daily killing of civilians by so-called insurgents figures only as one of the lamentable consequences of coalition failure, and barely at all as the result of the actions of those who are directly responsible - as if they were merely a hive of bees stirred up and not people making choices; only the most grudging acknowledgement - if that - that millions of Iraqis voting for a different kind of future for themselves was a matter of some significance.

        One has to draw a line. This is not the authentic voice of the left, and it is not a voice which any self-respecting liberal should be willing to own. It is a disgrace to the best aspirations of the progressive and democratic tradition.

        So, some people - bloggers, the owners of other websites, trade unionists, other kinds of activists - come together last May. We know there are others out there who share our sense of non- belonging to the left-liberal consensus on such issues. We know because of the feedback we get. 'Thank goodness, I found your blog. Thank goodness I'm not the only one who feels that this left doesn't speak for me.'

        We decide to produce a document setting out some general principles, some common positions. The Euston Manifesto steps out into the world. What it says I hope many of you now know, and I won't try to rehearse it here.

        But thank you all for coming this evening. We need to insist that there is a different tradition which socialists and democrats and liberals can speak out for. There's been quite a chorus of voices these past few weeks saying that the Euston Manifesto is of no account - though a lot of those saying so seem rather animated about it. Well, we make no extravagant claims. It's a beginning, that's all.

          And from Andrew Sullivan comes this...

          And so parts of the left - including Peter Beinart's upcoming book - refuse to be bystanders on the war against Islamist terror. If the Democrats are smart, they will follow their lead. We have real enemies out there; and they need to be uncovered, fought and killed before they kill us. And the primary victims of our enemies - ordinary Muslims across the Middle East - need our democratic support now as much as they ever have.

        and more...

          Bush, Blair, Iraq

          They were different men last night - for the first time dropping all pretense that their occupation of Iraq has gone in any way according to non- existent plan. And in a strange way, that helps them. They both have expiration dates marked on their heads; they share this legacy; they remain committed to it, because they have no other realistic option. But their acknowledgment of the "ghastly" violence, their ownership of past mistakes, and the clear interest we all have in seeing the project succeed makes things in some ways less fraught. They get it now: bravado is not strength; realism is. I'm with Tom Friedman on this one. We're three years in. Remember the Kurds? They were effectively liberated fifteen years ago. They experienced a brutal civil war before their society was able to gain some semblance of pluralist normality. The violence in Iraq was preventable - but it may also, in a horrifying way, have been a way to purge the society of the terrible grievances and divides that are the consequences of several decades of brutal dictatorship. Iraq is still the lever for real, profound change in the Middle East. It is our only real brake on Iran. It is the front line against Jihadism. Our job will not be finished in two more years; maybe not in twenty. But this is America. It can be done. Bringing the Arab and Muslim world into the new millennium is a pre- requisite for our own security and the world's. We must finish the job.

        I agree! ~ JillSusan

        ------Date: 2006-05-29 18:54:00 Subject: The Returning Dead

          Each night I make a drink and wait for them

          They have become the day's concluding news,

          Installments from a world without anthems

          Or children, unfocusing eyes

          A question that repeatedly rejects

          My easy terms. They are ones who believed

          And acted in the narrow and select

          Ways handed them, while ordinary lives

          Ran on without interruption

          Or bad pictures, as though nothing had changed

          Change is the one unanswerable question

          Of these faces. The world can rearrange Itself repeatedly, but these remain

          The same, silent in everything they lack;

          That's what they've come to, in places with names

          Like Afghanistan, Iraq,

          And this is the way it happens: the words

          Are old - mother, father, home - and will catch

          Surrounding currents in the slow absurd

          Descending will of any river etched

          Out of a landscape history refines

          To myth. The TV blanks between

          Segments, but every static face defines

          Itself, holds stubbornly its private scene

          Fixed, publicly, as we are led

          Back to that little negative whose lack

          Is each of us, staring the staring dead,

          Leaning, sometimes like grief itself; then straightening back.

        -Wyatt Prunty

        ------Date: 2006-05-29 22:19:00 Subject: Scooby(s)

        Grandkids Scooby

        User Comments: Ted ------Yes!!!! Pictures!!!!

        Bravo!!!

        More!!! More!!!!

        ------Date: 2006-05-30 17:00:00 Subject: Everything is relative

        Ever since I arrived in DC, I have been remarking to anyone that cares how much I love the weather here. We have had an unusually cool, dry spring according to some.

        With our Memorial Weekend temperatures hitting the upper 80s/low 90s, I'm hearing more and more, "just wait until August!" Then I respond, "I'm prepared for August...I'm from Texas...surely it can't be that bad" and that's when they assure me, "oh yes, it is!"

        So I did some research.

        DC Temperatures
        JuneJulyAugust
        Average Temperature757978
        Average High848886
        Average Low657069

        Dallas Temperatures
        JuneJulyAugust
        Average Temperature818585
        Average High929696
        Average Low7175 74

        Bottom line, I think I'll survive!

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Somehow, I'm thinking you'll survive. And it's not like you haven't lived in some humid parts as well as high temp. So I'm betting on you to brave the extremes up there. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Yeah, the last couple days R has been worried that we'd gotten you here under false pretenses... it's SO *&^%! hot up here right now.

        Luke ------Yeah, the weather was so gorgeous up there. When I landed back in Houston, it had the familiar "warm blanket" feel that you just can't shake.

        BUt yeah, I does get pretty dang hot up there too!

        ------Date: 2006-05-30 22:15:00 Subject: It doesn't get any better than this!

        Guest blogger - Granddaughter #1, aka the new and improved JK Rowling

        J's MaDear Story

        One day a grandma who was named MaDear went on a vacation. She went to Orlando Florida and visited her grand children. The kids  had a secret. They were taking her to Disney world. They told her after they went to the park. She was so surprised after they told her. She said "Wow this is cool and with my grand children even cooler". The next morning they woke up at 5:00 am. They were the first people their. They rode all the rides and even the Haunted Mansion. At the end of the day they saw the fire works. The next day they woke up at the same time. They went to MGM studio's next. They rode almost every ride. MaDear only didn't ride The Tower of Terror and the Rocking roller coaster. At night they saw Fantasmic. The next day they woke up at the same time again. They went to Epcot. They rode every ride their. Then at night they saw the fire works. The next day it was the same time. They went to animal kingdom. They rode almost every ride. They just didn't go on the spinning roller coaster. At the end of the day they left. They said "Good Bye" to  MaDear As she got in the airport. They never will forget this fun journey.   The End.

        User Comments:

        Luke ------Magnificent!

        ------Date: 2006-05-31 09:28:00 Subject: Imagine he doesn't know the words

        From Salon's Video Dog comes this...

        OK, we haven't been able to stop watching this one, and no, it's not at all like the Bush " Imagine" mash-up. This video, shot at a gala celebration for Shimon Peres' 80th birthday and starring Liel, a 16-year-old Israeli singer, leaves us with one serious, overriding question: What sort of non-inhaling boomer doesn't know the lyrics to "Imagine"? Still, you have to love the chutzpah required to stand in front of thousands and warble out a song you barely know.

        ------Date: 2006-06-01 15:04:00 Subject: War, what is it good for?

        What with the latest possible news about yet another war “atrocity†at Haditha (which, btw, I think is an anomaly...I still believe that most people, yes that includes our soldiers, are good...you may say that I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one) and was just now listening to Ebert/Roeper’s latest review on my Ipod and they mentioned war movies (since it was their review prior to Memorial Day), I'm wondering, what are your thoughts on war movies?

        I'll start you off...

        1. War movie that made me want to enlist

        2. War movie that best showed the realism of war

        3. War movie that glamorized war 4. War movie that peaceniks would love

        5. War movie that made me proud/glad I'm an American

        or you can just wing it...I'm sure your answers will be better than mine, as I don't get out much!

        Here are my answers:

        1. War movie that made me want to enlist

        M.A.S.H.

        2. War movie that best showed the realism of war

        Platoon

        3. War movie that glamorized war

        Star Wars

        4. War movie that peaceniks would love

        Tie - Coming Home and Born on the 4th of July

        5. War movie that made me proud/glad I'm an American

        Band of Brothers

        User Comments:

        Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I've wondered often about the glamorization of war. Even a movie I love -- Lord of the Rings -- which definitely shows some of the toll of war, ends on notes that make the war seem worth it regardless of the cost. There is, it seems, something primal about seeing one's enemies defeated. But in real life it is so much harder to identify the real enemy at any given time.

        Luke ------1. War movie that made me want to enlist.

        Seriously none.

        2. War movie that best showed the realism of war.

        I would imagine saving private ryan.

        3. War movie that glamorized war

        Hmmm, Rambo

        4. War movie that peaceniks would love

        PLatoon

        5. War movie that made me proud/glad I'm an American

        While not a true "war movie", I would have to say Schindlers List

        ------Date: 2006-06-02 09:34:00 Subject: Seems a little too late for this

        I walked into my office building today and the big organization that occupies most of the building had a billboard outside their front door announcing their seminar for the day entitled "Managing Civil Strife and Avoiding Civil War in Iraq"...I hope they come up with some answers, but it seems like it would have been much better to hold this conference, say, maybe in January or February of 2003! ------Date: 2006-06-02 12:36:00 Subject: I remember how lousy I felt...

        I remember how lousy I felt when I was a young child and someone in my class at school would do something "wrong" and the whole class would be punished because of it.

        From blogland, comes this...

        The breaking of the will

        Daniel Henninger's Wall Street Journal Wonder Land column is the column of the day: "Ir aq syndrome has finally arrived." Henninger writes:

        The Vietnam Syndrome, a loss of confidence in the efficacy of American military engagement, was mainly a failure of U.S. elites. But it's different this time. This presidency has been steadfast in war. No matter. In a piece this week on the White House's efforts to rally the nation to the idea of defeating terrorism abroad to thwart another attack on the U.S., the AP's Nedra Pickler wrote: "But that hasn't kept the violence and unrest out of the headlines every day." This time the despondency looks to be penetrating the general population. And the issue isn't just body counts; it's more than that.

        The missions in Iraq and Afghanistan grew from the moral outrage of September 11. U.S. troops, the best this country has yet produced, went overseas to defend us against repeating that day. Now it isn't just that the war on terror has proven hard; the men and women fighting for us, the magnificent 99%, are being soiled in a repetitive, public way that is unbearable.

        The greatest danger at this moment is that the American public will decide it wants to pull back because it has concluded that when the U.S. goes in, it always gets hung out to dry.

        Two major military reports will come out soon on the Haditha incident, and no one will gainsay justice if that is required. But the atmosphere around this event is going to get uncontrollably manic, and that will feed the dark, inward-turning sentiments already poisoning the country's mood over issues like the immigration debate.

        Good for Democrats? Don't count on it. After this, the public appetite for a Democratic president's "humanitarian" military intervention in a Darfur or East Timor will be close to zero.

        One suspects that U.S. troops were party to some awful events in the Pacific and European theaters of World War II, all gone in the mists of history and the enemy's defeat. Not now. Gen. Chiarelli's magnificent "99.9%" notwithstanding, it's the phenomenon of the so-very-public 0.01%--at Abu Ghraib, on an Afghan street, at Haditha--that is breaking America's will this time.

        ------Date: 2006-06-02 15:16:00 Subject: Gurlz Rawk!

        'Ursprache' beats 'weltschmerz' to win American spelling bee

        ------Date: 2006-06-05 00:34:00 Subject: American Airlines...

        ...you're way past on notice...you're dead to me!

        So I was delayed leaving Houston tonight for my connection through DFW back to DC. They (American Airlines/AA) made arrangements for me to stay at a DFW hotel and gave me a voucher for a $10 dinner and a $5 breakfast. Of course, the hotel they booked me at does not offer food service (and I'm sure AA knows this) so it was pointless.

        As we sat on the runway waiting to leave Houston in this teeny, tiny prop airline, we could see out the window Southwest Airlines jet after jet taking off, probably most of them on time! And to top it off, we had a pilot that couldn't even maneuver the plane away from the gate without almost running the left wing into the jetway, so we had to wait for the ground crew to come and push us back to the gate so he could back the plane correctly this time to get in line to take off. The landing was even more fun, as you would have thought we had ice on the runway, the way he skidded the plane to and fro.

        What should have been a 35-45 minutes flight took us well over 1 hour and 10 minutes airtime! Then they had the nerve to continue the lie to passengers hoping to make connections in other DFW terminals with less than 30 minutes to make those connections. I'm sure they arrived at their gates panting and sweating to only be told that they too would have to stay at this same luxury hotel (with no food service, although they would probably get the same meal tickets I received).

        And then, they too, would get to wait over an hour for the hotel shuttle to arrive, the bus unairconditioned and full of unruly and extremely pissed off passengers who had gotten the same runaround I had from American. (Also noticed that there were no AA crew members on the shuttle...could it be that they actually put them up at a nice hotel WITH FOOD SERVICE!??!!! and a van that comes on time and is air conditioned?)

        Upon arrival at DFW, I asked the baggage claim people where my luggage was. Of course, this was after landing at the gate in A terminal and taking the skylink to B terminal where they said my luggage was waiting for me. Upon arrival at B terminal I was informed that no, my luggage was at A. So I waited for the bus to come to take me back to A. Upon arrival there, I was informed that I would not be able to get my luggage, as it was locked up downstairs, awaiting my early morning flight to DC. Of course, it didn't matter that I asked the gate agent in Houston 3 TIMES if I would be able to get my luggage in DFW for my quick overnight stay here and he assured me 3 TIMES that I would be able to get my luggage, as he said smarty-pants to me "where else would your luggage go, except that you'd be able to get it in Dallas?"

        Long ago, my smart brother Ted relayed a somewhat similar incident about American and I, at the time, couldn't identify.

        Now, of course, I know exactly what he's talking about and I will do all I can to never, ever take another American Airlines flight unless I just have to! What a way NOT to run an airline. I, for one, hope they go under, and quickly!

        As my kids say "Uncle Ted is always right!"

        User Comments:

        Dalia ------We LOVED the visit with you and HATE that AA put a bad ending on it. I try to fly Continental or SW and I always try to fly non-stop - I too have learned a hard lesson along the way.

        We have a couple of friends who work at AA (they are in it for the benefits) - I'll be glad to share your official complaint with them if you send me an email copy.

        Jill ------Well, I'm home (or rather at my office) safe and sound and I guess that's the really important thing.

        Oh, and I need to make amends for the line about them "going under" as I know there are alot of really wonderful people that would be hurting big time if that happened, but really, I'm composing a huge complaint letter to their customer relations department anyway, not that I'm too optimistic about it doing any good.

        Things I've learned that I from my last several flight experiences:

        • Just because the flight is cheaper doesn't mean it's really cheaper. (I lost 5.5 hours of work and more sleep than I want to think about with this bargain fare...it would have been better to spend the extra 50 bucks and book a direct, non-stop flight).
        • Flying out of BWI (although this wasn't the case this time) is not always the best option, especially if you have to factor in a hotel room at the airport so that you make your early morning/late night connections.
        • Always, always, always carry-on the stuff you really, really need. I made the mistake of carrying on the stuff I purchased at Bobbie & Dalia's Christmas store and checking my toietries, power cord for my laptop, my house keys!, a change of clothes, and clean underwear. When I was at the DFW Comfort Inn last night (and I use the term Comfort loosely as the coolest I could get my room with the A/C full blast was 78 degrees), it sure would have been wonderful to have a toothbrush instead of assorted Christmas gifts for assorted special people in my life, but oh well.
        • Never, ever, ever trust anything that anyone at American Airlines tells you about baggage, including which carousel you'll find your luggage on, and in which terminal.
        • Always assume that if you do have a connection at DFW, you'll have to take the Skylink to another one of AA's 4 terminals to make your connection...allow one hour, at least, and if you don't have it, just have them re-book you, as you'll waste total time trying to think they'll accomodate you and "hold the flight" for you.
        • If you do have to book a flight that involves a DFW to Houston leg, or a DFW to Austin leg or vice versa, TAKE SOUTHWEST AIRLINES!
        • Don't depend on American to "give" you anything but a ice-filled cup of soda, which works itself out to be about 1/2 cup of soda, after all. Their bottom line must really be hurting, as they don't even give you the tiny bag of pretzels anymore.
        • Keep a sense of humor, which I was actually able to do, as I found myself with a group of people that had experienced the same kind of wrath I felt at the hands of "America's" airline! Misery loves company, I guess, and we were all able to laugh at the incompetence.
        • If you see that you'll be on an AA plane with propellors, know that they may or may not know how to back the thing out of the gate...as the co-pilot told us "sorry folks, we're not used to backing out this Saab from the gate and we cut it a little close...we're waiting on ground crew to help us out" (what confidence we all had in the pilots after this announcement and this is even before they took off!)
        • When you do get held over and AA does have to book you at a hotel and they give you a $10 dinner voucher and a $5 breakfast voucher (good only at the hotel they book you at, which I'm sure they know does not have either dinner service or breakfast service), laugh politely, tear the vouchers up in front of the agent that thinks you think he is accomodating you, and then say "I wasn't born yesterday" or something to that effect.
        • Don't expect anything to come out of your complaint letter to aa.com/customerrelations. No one is listening!
          • Luke ------Wow! Sorry you had such a crummy experience. Guess you shoulda stayed in Houston!

            Matthew ------Yeah. I have to say that our experience with AA is moderately similar. We had a really sarcastic ticket agent in Austin that managed to piss off an entire line of people, as well as that adventurous landing in the DFW airport, complete with emergency vehicles lining the runway.

            Ted ------As soon as I saw the title of your post in my rss reader, I *knew* what happened. I felt a tremor in the force last night but couldn't explain it. As soon as I saw "American Airlines..." I knew....

            It must be a corporate policy that they will *not* level with passengers when things go poorly. Hey, sounds like the BUSH ADMINISTRATION!!!

            ------Date: 2006-06-05 00:55:00 Subject: BTW

            Despite the previous post, I had a wonderful weekend in Houston and am all smiles about the great conversation and good times I had with Luke (et al) and Bayless & Stokes! And definitely I will be a lucky girl if my previous post is the worst I have to complain about ever!

            User Comments:

            Luke ------It was rad seeing you too! Nadia and I enjoyed your visit!

            ------Date: 2006-06-08 07:03:00 Subject: Mission re-Accomplished

            Now it's time to declare victory, ONCE AGAIN, and bring our troops home!

            ------Date: 2006-06-08 22:50:00 Subject: Go Mavericks!

            So I was all prepared not to care about this...after all, rich NBA babies and all, but tonight when I was talking with my dear sweet mother, she was sitting there in her living room, waiting for the game to start, so I thought, I better get into this. I have to admit that I watched the first half, not the game, but Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, Las Vegas and then switched over to the game.

            I was all prepared to really hate the Heat, (yes all that know me really know how much I hate Heat!) and then I saw him...Pat Riley, coaching the Heat...wahhhh? you know, I've always loved Pat Riley, so now I'm conflicted.

            But I've seen the feminine side of Mark Cuban on Charlie Rose so I love him too!

            What to do???

            Oh, of course, I'm pulling for the Mavericks! Go team!

            User Comments:

            Jill ------All Right! tWO dOWN!

            Matthew ------I'm watching too, but it's a little more bitter sweet for me. I felt that whomever won the Spurs/Mavericks series would probably win the whole thing. And now that it appears that Dallas is in the driver's seat, it's a little bitter knowing that the Spurs were literally a couple seconds away from beating the Mavericks.

            But I can't hold a grudge, so I'm definitely going to cheer for the Mavericks. But only for this series. And then next year, it's back to the Rockets and Spurs for me.

            Pat Riley is awesome, no doubt. The hair, the Armani suits, and the basketball know how. You can't beat that.

            Ted ------All the "Fulmer women" are into basketball this year. I came in to the bedroom tonight to find CBF cheering during the last two minutes of game one. Guess I better start paying attention....

            Jill ------All Right! oNE dOWN!

            ------Date: 2006-06-12 09:08:00 Subject: Healing in Iraq

            From Andrew Sullivan, comes this...

            Healing in Iraq

            12 Jun 2006 03:42 am

            I've often concentrated on some of the horrendous consequences of the Bush administration's abandonment of the Geneva Conventions in this war. I make no apologies for this; and I'll keep it up. But perspective also matters. And, as I've blogged again and again, the vast majority of the young men and women defending civilization in Iraq are doing great good in extraordinarily difficult circumstances, facing fear that we will never know, displaying courage that we will never be able to imitate. Here's a piece by one of them, a military physician in Iraq, giving medical care to human beings who have tried to kill innocents and her fellow soldiers. There is an inverse analogue to Abu Ghraib - far, far more common than abuse - that represents the core morality of most soldiers, let down by their civilian leadership. Read this piece . Money quote:

            A new patient has arrived, lying with his chest exposed and his vital signs electronically monitored. He is ill, and we are taking care of him, but he is different from most of our patients. He lies in bed with a bandanna covering his eyes, not a bandage. At the foot of the bed are two young American soldiers with weapons in hand.

            They look at me as I look at our patient, a 'bad guy' for sure, as our Iraqi interpreter calls them. He is an insurgent.

            My blood pressure rises a bit. I ask, 'What did he do?' The answer: 'He made IEDs.'

            IEDs are improvised explosive devices, bombs that are hidden to explode on the unsuspecting. This man is a terrorist, an evil, mean man who plots to kill our folks, other Iraqis, even innocent young children.

            My blood pressure rises even more. Something inside me wants to walk up to this guy, blindfolded or not, and just clobber him. Perhaps I will remove the bandanna, so he can see it coming. People certainly do not see the IEDs coming before they explode, destroying life, injuring arms, legs and bodies.

            I look down at this insurgent, an elderly, overweight man. I wonder how we can love our enemies and how we can pray for those who spitefully use us. I have lived a life with no real enemies. Here is a man who would take my life if he could. Hate and anger raged in me for a time.

            Other soldiers who see these men without the bandannas tell me that there is often no light in their eyes, no hope, no goodness that you can see. They are filled with a vile fluid that cannot be easily drained. They are cold; given the chance, these men would do us harm.

            And yet she heals him, and cares for him, and forgives him. This too is America - and its real heart and soul. And this is now our calling in Iraq. We broke it; we own it. We must now stay for as long as it takes to help heal it; and in so doing, do our part to help heal the world.

            User Comments:

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Thanks for these reflections. Very moving. I really like how you put all of this.

            ------Date: 2006-06-12 09:15:00 Subject: Gay Pride and Prejudice

            From the Sunday Post comes good news!

              Anyone keeping track of public opinion surveys of American attitudes was probably not surprised last week when the Senate voted down a constitutional amendment, supported by President Bush, that would have banned same-sex marriage. Although a majority of Americans still oppose such unions, there has been a dramatic shift over the past three decades toward greater acceptance of gay men and lesbians, and their rights in society. Driving the change may be that more people now say they know someone -- or are willing to say they know someone -- who is gay.

              -- Karlyn Bowman American Enterprise Institute

              Oppose allowing gays to marry legally

              1996 65% 2006 51%

              Source: Pew Research Center

              The proportion of Americans describing same-sex relations as "always wrong" has declined since the 1970s. In contrast, the proportion describing extramarital relations as "always wrong" increased from 70 percent to 80 percent over the same period.

              Same-sex relations are always wrong:

              1973 73%

              2004 58%

              Source: National Opinion Research Center

              Views about hiring homosexuals for different occupations have liberalized over the years. For example, most Americans now say they should be hired as elementary school teachers, a previously more controversial position.

              Homosexuals should be hired as elementary

              school teachers

              1977 27%

              2005 54%

              Source: The Gallup Organization

              Have a friend or close acquaintance who is gay 1985 22%

              2000 56%

              Source: Princeton Survey Research Associates/Newsweek

              Favor gay adoption

              1977 14%

              2006 49%

              Source: (1977) The Gallup

              Organization; (2006) ABC News/Time

            User Comments:

            Luke ------The times they are a-changin' reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------But I thought that evil activist judges were subverting the clear will of the people!!!!!!

            ------Date: 2006-06-12 20:49:00 Subject: Quote of the Day

            Let each one examine his thoughts, and he will find them all occupied with the past and the future. We scarcely ever think of the present; and if we think of it, it is only to take light from it to arrange the future. The present is never our end. The past and the present are our means; the future alone is our end. So we never live; and, as we are always preparing to be happy, it is inevitable we should never be so," - Pascal, Pensees.

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------Great quote.

            ------Date: 2006-06-14 12:49:00 Subject: SoaP

            The last 10 minutes of OnPoint today featured a story about this.

            I'm probably, as usual, late to the party, but this story just gave me a real giggle!

            If Snakes on a Plane turns out to be a blockbuster, the producers ought to pay the blogosphere, since I'm pretty sure at this point they've put in more effort than the person(s) who developed the plot. The so-bad-it's-good-or-so-we-expect film isn't out until August, but already they've got a parody: Snakes on an Elevator. Rated R for language, but if you can handle a four-syllable word or two go right on ahead.

            This is hilarious! and to think that the blogosphere is having this much impact!

              In March 2006 New Line Cinema, due to massive fan interest on the Internet, allowed for a 5 day reshoot to film new scenes to take the movie from PG-13 to a R-rated film (originally the film wrapped principal photography in September 2005). Among these additions is the Jackson character's line, "I want these motherfucking snakes off this motherfucking plane," a line that originated in an anticipatory internet parody of the movie.

            Now, it's even part of the language.

            I'll probably get fired for spending so much time on stuff like this at work...oh well, snakes on a plane...

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------as are we in the chuy'slovershousehold.

            When it comes to viral marketing, this movie puts "The Blair Witch Project" to shame. I really hope the movie delivers, at least as a campy B movie.

            I think it could be lots of fun.

            Check out this link. It's a hilarious video.

            http://www.ebaumsworld.com/videos/snakes_on_a_plane.html reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------We are all abuzz in the reverendhousehold over this movie.

            ------Date: 2006-06-14 20:40:00 Subject: We give thanks this day by

            O. Eugene Pickett

            For the expanding grandeur of Creation, worlds known and unknown, galaxies beyond galaxies, filling us with awe and challenging our imaginations:

            We give thanks this day.

            For this fragile planet earth, its times and tides, its sunsets and seasons:

            We give thanks this day. For the joy of human life, its wonders and surprises, its hopes and achievements:

            We give thanks this day.

            For our human community, our common past and future hope, our oneness transcending all separation, our capacity to work for peace and justice in the midst of hostility and oppression:

            We give thanks this day.

            For high hopes and noble causes, for faith without fanaticism, for understanding of views not shared:

            We give thanks this day.

            For all who have labored and suffered for a fairer world, who have lived so that others might live in dignity and freedom:

            We give thanks this day.

            For human liberty and sacred rites; for opportunities to change and grow, to affirm and choose:

            We give thanks this day.

            We pray that we may live not by our fears but by our hopes, not by our words but by our deeds.

            User Comments:

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Amen. The line about "understanding views not shared" grabbed me for some reason - that really is something to be grateful for.

            ------Date: 2006-06-14 22:05:00 Subject: AFI

            I always love those AFI specials...tonight's special is about 100 Years...100 Cheers .

            I really, really, really need to make more time in my life for movies.

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------I always miss these shows. Oh well. Hopefully I'll catch a rerun of it somewhere.

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I love these lists too. I'm going to post on the absence of LOTR from the list.

            Matthew ------DO IT!!!

            Luke ------Yeah, I know that feeling!

            ------Date: 2006-06-15 20:16:00 Subject: I like the way this sounds

            "Let us resolve to deal with the world as it is but never to accept that we are powerless to make it better than it is - not perfect, but better. America will lead the cause of freedom in our world not because we think ourselves perfect. To the contrary, we cherish democracy and champion its ideals because we know we are not perfect," - secretary of state Condi Rice, to the Southern Baptist Association.

            ------Date: 2006-06-15 20:26:00 Subject: What 2 party system?

            The Senate rejected a call for the withdrawal of U.S. combat forces from Iraq by year's end on Thursday as Congress erupted in impassioned, election-year debate over a conflict that now has claimed the lives of 2,500 American troops.

            The vote was 93-6 to shelve the proposal, which would have allowed "only forces that are critical to completing the mission of standing up Iraqi security forces" to remain in 2007. 93-6. Again, I ask, what 2 party system?

            ------Date: 2006-06-15 21:55:00 Subject: **Straight clergy, make your point!

            **Straight clergy (mostly, if not all, straight) who go on TV shows and tell us why gay marriage is bad or against Jesus or not sanctioned by the bible or the eleventh commandment, blah, blah, blah who sound absolutely non-loving, non-tolerant, non-welcoming up against any of the people they are debating on the other side.

            I watched the panel tonight on Larry King Live and the gay members of the panel made such strong, wonderful points, only to be NOT answered by the straight clergy on the other side.

            This debate just doesn't make sense to me, seeing as the gay side is so right and the others are just grasping...

            I'm wondering in the end, who is winning over the non-believers who are watching...I'm placing my money on the gay side that just wants to love and commit to another person (is that so wrong?)

            User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Well, you will get no argument from me there, all I'm saying is that I'm sure they find their position to be very consistent internally, and in fact probably see themselves as quite counter-cultural.

            There's more to say, but gotta sermon to write...

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------RM said They are not motivated by what's culturally popular, they are defending what they believe to be the truth. "The Bible says it" sounds very shabby to many, but when the Bible is your truth, it's all you need, and you don't care if others don't buy it.

            My experience suggests that no one believes all of the Bible applies, no matter how true it might be. And this is the inexcusable part for me. The conservatives really do believe what is culturally popular -- it is just that their culture is myopic and theologically inbred to the point they can't admit that what they find in the Bible is the reflection of their own faces. No one should dare be so certain they know what God thinks. This is the great divide in theology to me. The greatest atrocities of the world have been committed by peole who were certain. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------If I hear "Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve" one more time...

            And incidentally, by that argument we really should *require* people to marry, since it's Adam and Eve, not "just Adam" or "just Eve." If it's God's intention that we live as one man and one woman, then single people are living outside God's intention. I'll let my single clergy friend know as she prepares to adopt an unwanted child from Guatemala...

            Also we should probably sanction polygamy, because it's not "Jacob and Rachel," it's "Jacob and Rachel and Leah and Bilhah and Zilpah"...

            However, I must defend my conservative brethren and sistren on one point. They are not motivated by what's culturally popular, they are defending what they believe to be the truth. "The Bible says it" sounds very shabby to many, but when the Bible is your truth, it's all you need, and you don't care if others don't buy it. And they are not willing to sacrifice the truth for "winning non- believers."

            In that sense I agree with them, although we come to different conclusions. In my case, I think Jesus' teachings on money and the poor (which outnumber the verses Jesus talks about gays by a couple thousand to zero) are incredibly unpopular. I'm still working out what they mean in my life of course, because I want to live a congruent life with what I believe, but I keep preaching and teaching about them, and I don't think in good conscience I should stop doing so just because they are unpopular.

            I do ultimately believe that Jesus preached a gospel of radical inclusion and "agape" love, which is self-giving love, but it bothers me sometimes when Jesus gets portrayed as a blissed-out hippy guy whose dominant characteristic is being Nice. I don't think you were doing that... I just never miss an opportunity to jump on that particular soapbox ;-)

            ------Date: 2006-06-16 13:09:00 Subject: Giving your 2 year notice

            You know you're important when you have to give a 2 year notice to your company!

              Microsoft's Gates to Leave Daily Role

              Microsoft Corp. said after the bell Thursday that Chairman Bill Gates will transition out of a day- to-day role in the company to spend more time on his global health and education work at the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation.

              The company announced a two-year transition process to ensure that there is a smooth and orderly transfer of Gates' daily responsibilities, and said that after July 2008 Gates would continue to serve as the company's chairman and an adviser on key development projects.

              Microsoft said Chief Technical Officer Ray Ozzie will immediately assume the title of chief software architect and begin working with Gates on all technical architecture and product oversight responsibilities, to ensure a smooth transition.

              Similarly, Chief Technical Officer Craig Mundie will immediately take the new title of chief research and strategy officer and will work with Gates to responsibility for the company's research and incubation efforts; Mundie also will partner with general counsel Brad Smith to guide Microsoft's intellectual property and technology policy efforts.

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------Maybe I should apply for his job.

            ------Date: 2006-06-16 19:58:00 Subject: A box of letters

            My father's been dead for 9 years now, and I miss him. I remember him with love and affection.

            But I know for some, the father-daughter/son relationship is complicated. This

            (audio file) touched me.

            User Comments:

            Lady Esq. http://www.journalscape.com/shennanigans ------

            I lost my father in 1984; I will never stop missing him - especially when I walk down the aisle on the arm of my brother.

            Thank you for the clip - it is a new perspective for me entirely since I did the opposite, erasing all the bad.

            ------Date: 2006-06-19 17:07:00 Subject: Memories of time with MaDear

            C came for a sleepover this past weekend. Many parts of the time with her reminded me alot of the sleepovers that I have had with her cousins, J & J. Although I really like these times together, I always realize after they get to my place, that I haven't thought out the activities or the meals that we'll share in our short time together.

            This past weekend was a good example. When C got to my place, it was dinnertime. Most of the food in my place is high fiber, alot of Amy's Organic and Vegetarian ethnic dinners, and not really kid food. Now C's got a great cook for a dad and she's used to a large variety of foods, but the Indian Mattar Paneer or Samosa Wraps just didn't seem appropriate and got a response from her "I want chicken nuggets."

            I learned quickly that although I know where the closest Caribou Coffee place is to my house, I haven't got a clue where the closest McDonald's is to my house. Plan B was a quick trip to the 7/11 around the corner to buy frozen chicken nuggets, frozen mac & cheese and a can of green beans...there, dinner for 2! (Of course, I *did* have the Ben & Jerry's Phish Food for dessert, so I was somewhat prepared -- at least that was my justification when buying it "hey, you never know when I'll have grandkids over and they'll *need* this ice cream, to make them happy").

            Anyway, after dinner the play began. C found the dental floss that I keep close by and the first fun she chose to have was flossing her teeth. Then it was on to more fun things as she decided to get out the kitty nail clippers (kept near the dental floss) and started to examine the bits of kitty nails that I lazily had placed in the container that houses the clippers.

            It got better from here, as it was time to paint our own nails (toes and fingers), but the stash of polish that I had to offer contained 8 bottles of 'ho-house' red polish and only one bottle of a color suitable for C to paint her own nails with and to lavishly apply to mine.

            Feeling at this point like I'm just not the MaDear that I want to be, I asked C if she didn't want to go out and do something fun. She just smiled and said "I like it here...let's just stay here." Even my offer to get MaDear's Toy Box out with a treasure trove of toys purchased at the dollar store didn't seem to interest her much, but she did enjoy exploring the things once she decided that she'd exhausted all the fun things from my own stash of stuff.

            It was then time for bed and I got her "comfy bed" all ready for her, and placed it near my own bed. She pleaded with me to watch the Golf channel (she'd learned this from her cousin J) or the Weather channel (she's learned this from her other cousin J). Instead we decided to read a book (I do have a pretty good assortment of children's books--thank you Amazon!) and we ended the evening with that instead.

            As we were falling off to sleep, she looked at me and said, "I love you MaDear." This was about the same time I was thinking that I really needed to plan more, buy more, do more when my grandkids come to visit.

            These sweet words brought me back to visits with my own grandmothers and the things I remember about them. It was Grandma F, carrying around that dish towel wherever she went and dusting off any surface that was in sight...it was Gannie sweeping up piles of hair off the floor in the beauty shop that she owned and how proud she was that she owned her own business (a female entrepreneur of the 50s), it was the quarter that Kay gave me to spend "any way that I want" in the 5 and Dime...it was the pride in their voices and the happy look on their face when they introduced me to their friends - - "this is my granddaughter Jill."

            I'll never get the grandma of the year award, but I've got a feeling that maybe their memories of time with me will be unique in their own special way.

            User Comments:

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I think in my own memories that there was just a simplicity in the relationship with my grandparents. A simplicity that doesn't exist so readily in parent-child relationships. Maybe it's a kind of abundance that is felt. When they spend time with you it is usually all about just you and them somehow.

            Bess ------Those are the best kind of memories! Some of my best memorites growing up are of Dad's (ripvansabre) office- I had more fun coloring with highlighters, eating snacks from the machine, and rolling marbles down the stairs!

            Katieg ------Jessie and Joey are freaking out that I just posted that entry, so they want me to let you know that it was a joke.

            Katieg ------Jessie and Joey said it was OK if we skip Disney this weekend and you just bring some dental floss and cat nail clippings to play with.

            Matthew ------You win the grandma of the year every year you're up for it. You're the Tiger Woods of grandmas. :) reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------"I'll never get the grandma of the year award"

            The hell you say!

            Thanks for this window into your time with C. Sounds just great. She doesn't need much, just time and attention make her happy.

            ------Date: 2006-06-20 13:04:00 Subject: You go, girl

            From Andrews Sullivan comes this...

            Iran's Rosa Parks

            Bihejab

            It's a simple picture of a woman on a bus. But she's wearing no headdress or veil and a Western haircut in Iran. It's just one of several photos you can find here of the resistance to the theocratic tyranny in Tehran over the past year. The MSM does not provide enough glimpses into the struggle of Iranians against their dictators. We need to remember that we still have allies and friends in the Muslim world. And we must stand by, help finance and support them.

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------amen to that. ------Date: 2006-06-21 14:11:00 Subject: Maverick Mourning

            "I packed one suit, one shirt, one tie" - Pat Riley, coach of the Miami Heat, 2006 NBA Champs, on Tuesday, June 20th in Dallas.

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------Congrats to the MAVS on a great season. They'll be back next year, no doubt. Unless, of course, the Spurs get there first.

            ------Date: 2006-06-22 21:06:00 Subject: Some one rat him out!

            Osama's Poll Numbers

            Osamapoll

            Good news, at long last. Al Qaeda is losing popularity in the Muslim world, according to the new Pew poll. A shift against suicide bombing as a tactic has occurred dramatically among Muslims in Jordan, Pakistan, and Indonesia. Europe's Muslims seem to be moderating in their views as well. Osama's approval ratings in Jordan have gone from 60 percent to 24 percent in one year. Good going, Zarqawi. And most Westerners believe democracy can work in the Muslim world. Interestingly, more Brits and French believe this than Americans. There's mixed results in the report as well, but, as TPM notes, there's good reason to look on the bright side as well.

            User Comments:

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Interesting stuff. Thanks for posting it.

            Luke ------word!

            ------Date: 2006-06-26 20:31:00 Subject: I'm beginning to think...

            ...that my road home is just not to be smooth sailing.

            I posted recently about my rocky trip home from Houston, thanks to American Airlines.

            So I switched to US Airlines when I booked my trip to Orlando this past weekend to visit K, D and JJ. All went well on the way out, but coming back last night...well, not so much. They dropped me off before 5:30 PM for my 6:30 flight back to DC. All went well, security was fast and efficient. The 6:30 flight was delayed until almost 8 PM but you wouldn't know it if you looked at the board at the gate. I guess US Air thinks if they don't post the delay, no one will notice that the flight is actually delayed.

            Anyway, when we finally did take off, all went well. That is, until we got near DC. I could tell we were stalling near landing, trying to find a window in the horrendous weather that DC has been having. Soon enough, the captain decided to go for it, until he decided not to go for it, and we ended up in Richmond VA. "Welcome to Richmond" the flight attendant said, as most of us on the plane just laughed at this remark which was, I guess, supposed to make us forget that our original destination was DC. Anyway, as we sat on the plane, we wondered, maybe Richmond was not welcoming us.

            Finally they decided to come back on the PA to say we were going back to DC, when the weather cleared. At about 2 AM, the captain came back on and said we were going for it.

            OK, great, I'll be home before you know it....not so fast.

            We arrived in DC about 2 AM and upon de-planing, I stopped by the ATM to get cabfare...I could almost feel the nice bed I'd soon hop into.

            Not so fast...so did about 500 to 1000 other people who had been diverted and then re-routed back to DC.

            So I spent the night, or at least until 5 AM, on the floor next to the Metro stop at Washington Reagan National Airport.

            I can honestly say that I'm a DC-ite now!

            I walked into my apartment at 6 AM, about 13 hours after I left Orlando. Oh, the joys of fast, lightning speed air travel!

            After a few hours sleep, I got up, showered and headed off to work. I'd make it there so I'd only have to miss about 3 hours, easily made up the rest of the week. Not so fast...the trains were running really crazily today. One didn't know which track carried which trains and when they would come...a Metro "expert" said that if it was her, she'd just go to the place in between the 2 tracks and watch which trains go where and then run-like-hell to make the connection...thanks for your input, dear lady!

            I finally got to work about 12:30 PM, only to find a note on the door posted "due to inclement weather, this building has no power until 6 PM today"....oh the joy of it all.

            All I could do at this point was laugh!

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------the latter :-)

            Luke ------My goodness! Does this mean you should never leave, or does it mean that upon leaving you should never return?

            Katieg http://www.journalscape.com/katieg/ ------That sounds miserable. You definitely could have driven there in that time period!

            Matthew ------holy cow, that may be one of the most miserable travel experiences i've ever read about.

            ------Date: 2006-07-04 22:16:00 Subject: 1st 4th

            Today's my first fourth of July in DC...my thoughts....

            sirens early couch potato afternoon showers people on stoops successful space shuttle launch a Capital Fourth reminds me of Sherry firework stands in VA a walk down 14th pot smoking (not me) across from the White House

            BIG BANGS AND PRETTY COLORS cell calls from loved ones sparklers on my block more sirens

            God blessed America...take care of the rest of the world now life is good

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------no doubt!

            Luke ------Great post!

            ------Date: 2006-07-05 19:04:00 Subject: The Devil Wears Prada

            Go see it. David Denby liked it. I feel justified in liking it too.

            ------Date: 2006-07-05 20:19:00 Subject: Numb

            England's World Cup agony - choreographed to the Pet Shop Boys' track, Numb, from their new album, Fundamental.

            ------Date: 2006-07-09 22:19:00 Subject: Bathtime with M & C

            One of the things MA said when they returned from Maine was that C & M needed baths...desperately...since there was only one bathroom, and a shower at that, for the past week. M woke from her nap and I took her directly to the bathtub. I love her sweet 2 toofy smile, but it really, really gets big when you put her in water. C, on the other hand, has had lots of experience with baths over her 3 years on this earth. But even C, when you convince her how fun it will be, enjoys the bath like no one you've ever seen. Let her wash her own hair, let her make the decision when to pull the plug, and she's with you all the way.

            I love bathtime!

            User Comments:

            Bess ------So... will you come out and wash L? :)

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Such moments to remember. I'm glad you have the eyes and the heart to see them unfold.

            ------Date: 2006-07-10 20:50:00 Subject: Regretting the No's

            Was listening to my Ipod on the way home from working out and heard an interview with Ricky Gervais on Charlie Rose.

            In it, he said that people, especially at the end of their life, regret the no's of their life, more than the yes's of their life.

            I think he's onto something.

            User Comments:

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Well, I didn't mean to emphasize the holes necessarily, as much as relate to the whole question. I guess the "nos" do seem to set boundaries. And there is some part of me deep down that wants to say yes to everything, to something all-inclusive. And maybe that's the part of me that is still some sort of theist, that wants to affirm life in the fullest way. And then I'd like to say no only when to say yes would deny this larger affirmation.

            But I don't think that makes any sense. Of course, maybe the heart never does.

            Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yes, there are probably holes all over this thought. You're right, MC. Saying yes to one thing is usually saying no to another. And really, at the end of your life, hopefully you won't have too many regrets if you've strived to live life to the fullest. So of course, the no's are going to generate the biggest regret, because, as much as we'd like to, we can't have it all.

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Interesting thought. Does that mean I should say yes to that half gallon of ice cream calling my name?

            I think what's difficult for me is that it is hard in the moment to know whether you are saying yes or no. Maybe you say yes to something but later realize your yes was really a no to a larger, more compelling something. Or vice versa. Or you think you're doing something for reason x and later find out it was for reason y.

            ------Date: 2006-07-12 16:13:00 Subject: Repackaging

            Wouldn't it be nice if we could re-package ourselves, or stuff that we have or had, say maybe 10 to 15 years ago, and make money from it? Most of my stuff is old and worn out long before that and recently, during my move to DC, I even had the Salvation Army reject some of my stuff.

            I just got sucked in and ordered Pink Floyd's Pulse DVD from Amazon. It's a DVD of the video shot during Pink Floyd's two-week stint at London's Earls Court Exhibition Centre in October 1994 from Floyd's Division Bell tour.

            Recently, when I saw my last movie in a theater, they were advertising a Phish concert to be shown in the theater soon of a concert they did back in 2004. It's also due out on DVD soon.

            Now I'm not a Phish fan, but I'm a huge PF fan so, like I said, I was sucked in.

            But I wonder, wouldn't it be nice to have stuff laying around that I could re-package and have people ready, willing and able to buy...just because it came from me?

            User Comments:

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------I don't know, maybe "Jill's Greatest Training PDFs" would find a market if you set up the web site. Maybe this is one of the reasons grandchildren are so important to many. During parenthood we are still trying to find our own selves, to carve out some image, but when the second chance comes along there is somehow the affirmation that we were beautiful and full of treasures all along.

            Katieg ------If you package Phish in a Ben & Jerry's carton, I am all there!!!

            ------Date: 2006-07-13 14:09:00 Subject: Digital Bubble Wrap!

            Online bliss

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------ewwww

            Mamala ------You got that right, rm! Wow, great minds work alike...I was thinking the same thing when I posted this! reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------All you need's an online sunburn peel and you'll be set Mamala!

            ------Date: 2006-07-16 22:44:00 Subject: Dodging bullets

            The Washington Post says there have been 14 homicides in 13 days in DC this month of July. Do I feel unsafe? No, not really, but I'm not hanging out on the way home at night from the Metro to my apartment either.

            ------Date: 2006-07-16 23:00:00 Subject: Gay Marriage, Again

            From Andrew Sullivan,

            Glenn Reynolds airs many of the important points and calmly keeps asking the right questions, it seems to me. His responses are among the sanest I have read on the topic. I agree with him that this issue emerged before many people were ready to deal with it. But, having watched this close up from the beginning, I know this was not a decision made by the leading gay groups. At the beginning and throughout the 1990s, the gay establishment fought marriage rights passionately and treated marriage advocates as cranks. HRC did all it could to prevent this issue from dominating the discourse. They did the polling, like all principled Democrats, and wanted to play to their strengths. No gay group agreed to take the first real marriage suit in Hawaii. It took a straight guy from the ACLU to handle it. The Human Rights Campaign's leadership refused to speak of the matter for years, and only included the m-word in their literature in the last few years. Major Democratic donors also refused - and Bill Clinton talked them out of it, when necessary.

            The trouble was: gay spouses found themselves barred from each others' hospital rooms in the 1980s and 1990s during the AIDS crisis, lesbian mothers had their children taken away from them, long-standing de facto marriages had family members rescind their inheritance rights, and gay consciousness evolved to the point where such scond class status rankled deeper and deeper. It was ordinary people, ordinary couples who pioneered this movement. This push emerged organically as society changed. Such pushes are always "before their time" - all social change is premature at some point. The key is to stay rational, engage the debate, see what the courts, legislatures and governors do, and let federalism do its work. I'm grateful - and so are many gay people and their families - to sane straight guys like Reynolds for standing up for this.

            ------Date: 2006-07-18 22:48:00 Subject: Why I love my new home

            So the past few days have been hot...I mean Dallas Hot! But everyone around here acts like its a real anomaly. And tonight, after a couple of days that started out in the mid- to upper- 70s and ended up with a heat index of over 100, we had rain and when I walked to my neighborhood store for a couple of items, it was downright pleasant.

            And the guy in the store acted like I was his new best friend. We've built a relationship of sorts, kind of like charging my groceries at JMH in West U in Houston. Small-town friendliness in the nation's capital...yes, it can happen!

            User Comments:

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Can you send that evening rain down this way?

            Matthew ------That's great. You can't beat nice weather after a good rain. Can't wait to read more about your new buddy.

            ------Date: 2006-07-26 09:38:00 Subject: "Mother's Maiden Name"

            ~By Martha Greenwald Understand the terms, dearest customer:

            Before beginning any transaction, we must

            Margin your debt with memory. Calculate

            3.3% of a snow day, the house sour-sweet,

            Vermouth eluding the dark, mildewed ducts.

            Upon approval, wander up to their bedroom.

            Check the street. Father has veered downhill

            To examine a patient's ice-scratched cornea,

            His fishtail tracks already filled. For balance

            Transfers, open the emerald-lined lingerie

            Drawer of her teak bureau—garter buckles,

            Hippie beads, packets of envelopes addressed

            To her childhood Queens address. Restrictions

            May apply but extract the letters, deciphering

            The varied crabbed hands of college boyfriends ...

            Rosenberg Rosenberg what you read is lewd.

            From his Bangladesh cubicle, an account rep,

            Skewing a New York idiom, makes you spell,

            Pronounce, spell, so the name becomes its own

            Unknown language. Omit your guarded jokes;

            Bad habits and insolvency always fail to amuse.

            You are the sole beneficiary to White Shoulders

            Rising from the boning of a long-line brassiere. Please note: at dusk, all grace periods expire;

            Thus, winter interest fees will continue to accrue.

            ------Date: 2006-07-28 12:09:00 Subject: Emptiness

            “A VISION OF THE FRESHNESS AND BEAUTY OF PARTICULARS . . .†to which emptiness opens the door, as illustrated in the world famous â €œfrog haiku†poem by Matsuo Basho, 1644-1694.

            First, phonetically, in Japanese:

            Furu-ike ya

            Kawazu tobikomu

            Mizu no oto.

             

            Here translated by Daniel C. Buchanan:

            Into the old pond

            A frog suddenly plunges.

            The sound of water.

             

            And this by Robert Hass:

            The old pond—

            A frog jumps in,
            sound of water.

             

            And by Sam Hamill:

            At the ancient pond
            a frog plunges into
            the sound of water.

             

            And anonymously:
            old pond,
            frog jumps in

            —splash

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------I like these.

            ------Date: 2006-07-28 12:10:00 Subject: Alice/Me

            "She generally gave herself very good advice (though she very seldom followed it)."

            ~Lewis Carroll

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------Alice/Mom/Me

            ------Date: 2006-07-28 13:33:00 Subject: My new "foreign" home

            A civics lesson for one and all...

            User Comments:

            Matthew ------That may have been his best interview of a Congressperson. This one and the one he did with Robert Wexler have him on quite the hitting streak.

            ------Date: 2006-07-29 12:47:00 Subject: hot hot hot friday five

            From reverendmother

            1. What's the high temperature today where you are?

            They're saying 90 degrees...I'm loving this for the end of July!

            2. Favorite way(s) to beat the heat.

            Window unit on 75 degrees, a ceiling fan, an oscillating fan, not oscillating but blowing directly on me...heaven!

            3. "It's not the heat, it's the humidity." Evaluate this statement.

            Humid is better, imo. After living 15 years in Houston and now in humid (summer) DC, it's definitely better for my body! Generally I've found the humid places are near bodies of water, which just naturally generate a little breeze in the summer. I remember living in Houston in 1985 and my brother Kirk visited (a triathlete). I had just started running that year and during his visit, he went to do his daily run. After about a block or so, he came back dripping wet and said he couldn't do it and asked how I did. It "pumped up my tennis shoes" to say the least!

            4. Discuss one or more of the following: sauna, hot tub, sweat lodge, warm-stone massage.

            The only one of these I've done is the hot tub and I'd say it depends on who's in it with you. Definitely do not like it if it's filled with strangers.

            I'll add one to the list - Hot Yoga, a series of yoga poses done in a heated room. The room is usually maintained at a temperature of 95-100 degrees. As you can imagine, a vigorous yoga session at this temperature promotes profuse sweating which rids the body of toxins. It also makes the body very warm, and therefore more flexible.

            I can't imagine anything worse...that has to be hell on earth!

            5. Hottest you've ever been in your life I spend so much of my life being hot, but I'll have to say that there was a summer day in July when 4 year old ReverendMother and 1 year old sister K and Aunt Sherry and I went to see their Aunt Kathleen play soccer. There was not a tree in site and it was so hot that I think K suffered somewhat of a heatstroke. She hasn't like hot temps since then!

            Non-temperature related bonus: In your opinion... who's hot?

            Edward Norton

            Liam Neeson

            William Hurt

            George Chakiris

            Paul McCartney

            British intellectuals

            James Hetfield

            Brad Bird

            Matt Stone

            Stephen Colbert

            Daniel Mendelsohn

            Malcolm Gladwell

            Usually a guy in a uniform

            User Comments:

            Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------When it comes to humidity, Just Say NO!

            Colbert hot? Huh?

            Matthew ------On a whim, I looked at the current temperature in San Diego. They're forecasting a high of 76 DEGREES!!! THIS ISN'T FAIR!!! It sucks that my time in San Diego was doing Marine stuff, because I would have loved enjoying the nice weather out there.

            ------Date: 2006-07-31 15:40:00 Subject: What Bob Dylan taught me

            I've really been enjoying Dylan's XM radio show and although some of the songs he plays are not my cup of tea, his banter between songs is generally interesting and informative. Just this past week he mentioned this -

              Bette Nesmith Graham (23 March 1924 - 12 May 1980) was a typist, commercial artist, the inventor of Liquid Paper, and mother of musician and producer Michael Nesmith of the Monkees.

              Graham was born in Dallas, Texas. She married Warren Nesmith before he left for war, but they divorced in 1946. To support herself as a single mother, she worked as a secretary at a bank, eventually rising to the executive secretary (the highest position open to women in the industry).

              It was very difficult to erase mistakes made by early electric typewriters, which caused problems for Graham. In order to make extra money, she used her talent for painting to do holiday windows at the bank. She realized, as she said, "with lettering, an artist never corrects by erasing, but always paints over the error. So I decided to use what artists use. I put some tempera water-base paint in a bottle and took my watercolor brush to the office. And I used that to correct my mistakes."

              Graham secretly used her white correction paint for five years. Some bosses admonished her against using it, but her coworkers frequently sought her paint out. She eventually began marketing her typewriter correction fluid as "Mistake Out" in 1956.

              In 1979 she sold "Liquid Paper" to the Gillette Corporation for USD$47.5 million. At the time, her company employed 200 people and made 25 million bottles of Liquid Paper per year.

              Bette Nesmith's son, former Monkees member Michael Nesmith, inherited the $50+ million estate of Liquid Paper upon her death on 12 May 1980. Bette Nesmith was 56 years of age.

            Although my brother has a recent journal entry entitled I *really* wish I'd thought this up...", I REALLY wished I'd thought that white-out thing up!

            ------Date: 2006-08-02 08:47:00 Subject: The little UN that is my work team Having come from my last contracting job in Dallas for a big firm headquartered in Richardson and made up of mostly WASPs from Iowa that transferred there during the time my father handled the ReLo for Ebby, I am struck now by the wonderful diversity of my work team.

            Here's a rundown of my team:

            Co-worker A - A native Virginian, WASP, father of 2, George Mason grad, soon moving into a new home that he had built pre-fab

            Co-worker B - A Cambodian Frenchman, who shares my love for a cup of hot tea, mid-afternoon

            Co-worker C - A fully scarfed Muslim young woman who likes to wear headphones over that scarf and "rock out" during her testing and QA processes

            CO-worker D - A crazy DBA from New Mexico that will stop by my cube and give me some random fact about something in far left field, but he does keep life interesting

            Co-worker E - An African-American woman who's boyfriend is serving in Afghanistan and who used to be a ballerina and now drives a Mercedes and wears nothing but designer clothes

            Co-worker F - An India "Indian" who has never been to India, but was born and raised in the UK

            Co-worker G - A guy named "familiar American name" who is Chinese but rather than have us struggle with first names/last names/which one is which, changed his name to "familiar American name"

            Co-worker H - Young, just graduated from popular NYC college WASP, who's the social director of the group, always promoting lunches out and activities for the group

            Co-worker I - A Canadian who just happens to have parents born and raised in India

            Yesterday, as we were taken to lunch at a really nice restaurant to celebrate the team's good performance during a recent In Process Review for our customer, I just sat there and marvelled about the diversity of this group. While I'm not thrilled about working for the military industrial complex that is my life with this Navy contractor, I have to say that beyond that, I've never enjoyed a work team more!

            [UPDATE: After I hit the "save" button this morning, I knew I just needed to add that I really, really enjoyed D & D's friendship at CCA, but the boss from hell was a true downside AND my times with CPD were usually just the best too, as cops, especially Carrollton cops (and one DPD one - brother Kirk, and I'm in love with the SWAT guys too, thanks to Bravo TV!) are my heroes!]

            User Comments:

            Jill ------[UPDATE: After I hit the "save" button this morning, I knew I just needed to add that I really, really enjoyed D & D's friendship at CCA, but the boss from hell was a true downside AND my times with CPD were usually just the best too, as cops, especially Carrollton cops (and one DPD one - brother Kirk, and I'm "in love" with the SWAT guys too, thanks to Bravo TV!) are my heroes!]

            Jill/Mamala ------Sorry, Katieg, that's database administrator. I'm all into acronyms as that's life in the DoD (Department of Defense). I think they figure if they use enough acronyms, people's heads spin and they just walk away and let them do whatever they darn well please!

            Katieg ------Very cool.

            I know I am going to feel stupid when I hear the answer, but what is DBA? reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------That's very cool.

            Ted ------I am glad you've got a diverse team of good co-workers. If you're less than thrilled with the military aspect of the work, maybe it would help to focus on how your work might help the enlisted men.

            ------Date: 2006-08-04 13:08:00 Subject: Musical Friday Five

            Courtesy of NotShyChiRev...

            1. Describe the last play or musical you saw. (At least provide the what, when, where, and why). What was your opinion of it? Crowns at the Dallas Theater Center in the fall of 2005. It was really, really fun and energetic!

            2. All time favorite play? Musical?

            a). Favorite play- Wit (although I didn't enjoy seeing my sister live it several years after I saw it at the DTC) b). Favorite musical- West Side Story (I'm a sucker for forbidden love themes)

            3. “The Producers,†“The Philadelphia Story,†“Hairspray,†“The Wedding Singer†…all were movies before they were musicals (okay “The Philadelphia Story†was a play and then a movie, and they changed its name when it became a musical, but whatever). What non-musical movie do you think should next get the musical treatment?

            How about "An Inconvenient Truth"...the more ways this message can get out, the better!

            4. Favorite song from a musical? Why?

            Come Back With The Same Look In Your Eyes (from Song and Dance, Andrew Lloyd Webber)...as to why, see 2b parentheses above

            5. The most recent trend in Broadway musical revues is to construct a show around the oeuvre of a particular super-group or composer, where existing songs are woven together with some kind of through story. The most successful of these (“Jersey Boys†(The Four Seasons), “Mamma Mia†(ABBA), “Movin’ Out†(Billy Joel)) have made a mint, but many (“All Shook Up†(Elvis), “Hot Feet†(Earth, Wind and Fire)) have bombed. What great pop/rock singer/composer or super-group should be the next to be featured, and what might the story-line be for such a show?

            How about the tragic, true life story of (take your pick): Whitney Houston

            Michael Jackson

            User Comments:

            Luke ------Wow.

            I couldn't even fill out this survey.... THat's how little I am into musicals!

            It was great reading your answers though! Although it's amazing how much longer the questions are than the answers.

            ------Date: 2006-08-06 23:06:00 Subject: Do you remember any of these?

            Blackjack & Beeman's gum

            Powerhouse candy bars

            Licorice records

            Wax teeth, lips, and mustaches

            Wax Coke-shaped bottles with colored sugar water

            Candy lipstick

            Candy cigarettes

            Fizzies

            Soda pop machines that dispense glass bottles

            Pull tabs that snap off soda cans

            Home milk delivery in glass bottles with cardboard stoppers

            Movie preceded by cartoons and newsreels

            Party lines

            Rotary phones

            Sock hops

            Winter rubber boots with metal latches Coonskin hats

            P.F. Flyers

            Bouffant hairdos

            Spoolies

            Hair dryers with plastic caps

            Butch wax

            Tin-can telephones peashooters

            Cork popguns

            Roll of cap-gun caps

            Howdy Doody puppets

            Beanie & Cecil dolls

            Two-bladed ice skates that clip onto shoes

            Roller skates that clip onto shoes

            Roller skate keys

            S & H Green Stamps and Plaid Stamps

            Metal lunchboxes

            Winky Dink kits for drawing on the TV screen

            Crystal radios

            Console hi-fis for 78s

            45-rpm records

            Hand-crank wringers on tub washing machines

            Slide rules

            Levered metal ice trays

            Mimeograph paper

            Carbon paper

            Flashbulbs

            Eight-track tape decks Home movie cameras

            Dick & Jane readers

            If you remember any or all of these, you must have been born between the years 1946-1964.

            Hi Boomer!

            User Comments:

            NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/NotShyChiRev/ ------I just made it in under the wire! :-)

            As for the one's I remember most...

            Green Stamps

            My Dad's slide rule

            The smell of mimeograph paper coming out of the machine

            My Mom's bouffant wigs.

            Carnation's Milk at the back door. Wax teeth and wax pop bottles. (See I used the word "pop"...I'm a midwesterner now. LOL

            Candy cigarettes

            Having to pull really hard to get the Coke bottle out of the vending machine at the Gulf station down the road from my grandparents' farm.

            ------Date: 2006-08-08 08:59:00 Subject: Conflicted

            The Yin and Yang that is my life in the military industrial complex...

            I walk into my building today to see the meeting posted "MCO-1 (**)Wargames", listening to the Dixie Chicks' version of a Presley song (written by Tom Jans) "Loving Arms" on my Ipod.

            (**-These are my asterisks added...when did it become ok to combine these 2 words - war & games?)

              If you could see me now

              The one who said that she'd rather roam

              The one who said she'd rather be alone

              If you could only see me now

              If I could hold you now

              Just for a moment if I could

              Really make you mine

              Just for a while turn back the

              Hands of time

              If I could only hold you now

              I've been too long in the wind Too long in the rain

              Taking any comfort that I can

              Looking back and longing for the freedom from my chains

              Lying in your loving arms again

              If you could hear me now singing somewhere through

              The lonely nights

              Dreaming of the arms that held me tight

              If you could only hear me now

              I've been too long in the wind

              Too long in the rain

              Taking any comfort that I can

              Looking back and longing for the freedom from my chains

              Lying in your loving arms again

              I've been too long in the wind

              Too long in the rain

              Taking any comfort that I can

              Looking back and longing for the freedom from my chains

              Lying in your loving arms again

              I can almost feel your loving arms again

              I say we just put these military people in a room and let them listen to this song for a good 8 hours instead of participating in their wargames. Who knows...maybe a change would come.

              User Comments:

              Luke ------Yes!

              Cucu's healed neck ------I love this song & haven't heard it in so long! Matthew ------Amen to that.

              ------Date: 2006-08-11 09:34:00 Subject: Nice try, MI5

              But I'm on to you. I know what this is really all about and you're not fooling me.

              It's no secret that airlines, except for a few renegade ones like Southwest and Jet Blue, are losing money year after year and many will go broke soon. We all know that. This latest scam yesterday is but just another attempt to get poor innocent citizens like me to carry your weight.

              Mark my words...you'll see this happening soon. You'll be on a flight and of course, thanks to this latest scam, you've not been able to carry on any beverages. About a half hour into the trip, they'll kick the A/C up a notch in the summer or the heat up a notch in the winter and serve you complimentary pretzels and peanuts (extra salt added) and their typical 4 oz. serving of the beverage of your choice (this time, not iced) but the glasses will be smaller so you'll think you're getting more. The movie they'll show will be "Lawrence of Arabia" or possibly "The English Patient" or maybe even "Viva Las Vegas" (you get my drift, it'll be set in a dry, desert area). About a half hour after that, the happy flight attendants will stroll down the aisle with a cart full of chilled, frosty beverages and you'll happily pay the $5.00 to $10.00 charge for a cool one and thank them very much.

              Bottom line, this additional income will save the airlines and we'll all pay for it! And all of this, because of the scam initiated by the Brits and their "intelligence" agencies yesterday, making us think that there are actual some Middle Eastern Islamic Fascists that want us to die. But I wasn't born yesterday, and I'm not falling for it.

              User Comments:

              Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Exactly. After all, they've now "lost" the moon landing videos, like they ever had them ...

              Ted ------I'm willing to go along...how about this:

              First they came for the nail clippers, but I did not complain for I do not cut my finger nails. Now they've come for the shampoo bottles, but I did not complain for I do not wash my hair.

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Now, if you think this post is nutty, you should have been listening to C-Span this morning, as every conspiracy theorist in the world was calling in and giving their own theory on the illegitimacy of this latest, quite smart and brave prevention of mass death and destruction by British Intelligence officials!

              ------Date: 2006-08-11 12:37:00 Subject: It's going to be a loooooooonnnnnnnggggggg Fall

              This came across in the bottom of an email from a co-worker...

              “Hail to the Redskins, Hail victory!”

              User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I'll be by this weekend with your Redskins innoculation.

              Really. R and I are oblivious to that stuff now.

              ------Date: 2006-08-13 09:46:00 Subject: Something that I haven't done all of my life

              ...that would be opening my windows and turning off the A/C during the month of August. Can I just say that on a scale of 1-10, the summer here in DC has been a pleasant and mild 3? or maybe even less than that.

              User Comments:

              Mr. Cloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy ------Hey now, don't rub it in!

              Ted ------31 days above 100 so far this summer....last night the low was 82...today it will be 105 and we're at least a week away from the next POSSIBILITY of a weather change.

              (provided just to make you feel even better about your move :)

              Luke ------That's wonderful. The light bills will enjoy this.

              Katieg ------I think this is once again proof that "Northeasterners" live in their own isolated bubble... unaware of the rest of the country.

              I remember locals telling you... "It is so hot in DC in August. You just won't believe it. It's the worst!"

              Little do they know what the potential could be. :-)

              I'm glad you are enjoying it!

              ------Date: 2006-08-17 23:21:00 Subject: My first online DC meet-up

              I met a few DC members of this group tonight at Politics and Prose over coffee and needless to say, to a political junkie like me, the conversation was stimulating and I think I'll do it again, given the opportunity.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------This is awesome. I'm glad you're involved in a group like this.

              ------Date: 2006-08-21 22:16:00 Subject: Storm Warnings

              July 25, 2005

              Good Morning. Well, I feel 99% better this morning! The Kytril seems to be working. I even feel like trying to eat something when I finish this! I weighed myself and have only lost 2-5 lbs. I do not have a fever. Thanks for your love and concern as usual. Love, Sherry

              July 27, 2005

              Our thoughts and prayers are with her through this difficult time. What courage and strength she has shown. July 28, 2005

              When she and I had lunch a few weeks back it was the first time that I had seen her in a long while, and though she was full of plans for vacation and looking forward to your trip, I sensed that she somehow knew it would not likely happen.

              August 1, 2005

              Each life is a blessing. We are all a part of each other in an inexplicable way.

              August 2, 2005

              Just to keep you updated, Sherry had a good weekend this past weekend. She had a lot of family and friends visit and she seemed to really enjoy this. She's not eating very much at all, and has occasional bouts of nausea, but for the most part, she's resting comfortably. Sherry has sold her business and that is a big relief to her. One more note, Sherry asked that I tell anyone that may be considering sending gifts or flowers either now or after she's gone to make a donation in her name to either one of the following two charities: National Ovarian Cancer Coalition | DFW Division or Gilda's Club North Texas.

              August 2, 2005

              (I need a box of Kleenex....) I am going to miss her so much.

              August 2, 2005

              The company of her beloved nieces and nephews (and great-nephew and great-nieces) over these last few days was THE best medicine she could get. Since yesterday (Monday evening) I've visited her each day just after work and although the house is quiet now, the echoes of your visit linger. Tonight as she and I talked she mentioned how wonderful it was to see J, J, L & C playing together so sweetly, and to listen to you all as you visited with each other and with her over the time of your visit.

              August 7, 2005

              Sherry is resting comfortably at my mother's home. She sleeps probably 99% of the day now. She's not in pain, but still has occasional bouts of nausea. In one of her awake moments yesterday, she flashed her wonderful smile at something that was said. She's showing us all grace in parting....

              August 7, 2005 Sherry has taught us all a lot throughout her illness...God bless Sherry.

              August 8, 2005

              ...... from "Intimations of Immortality from Recollections of Early Childhood" by William Wordsworth

              Our birth is but a sleep and a forgetting:

              The Soul that rises with us, our life's Star,

              Hath had elsewhere its setting,

              And cometh from afar:

              Not in entire forgetfulness,

              And not in utter nakedness,

              But trailing clouds of glory do we come

              From God, who is our home:

              Heaven lies about us in our infancy!

              August 9, 2005

              Before she started sleeping most of the time, I had wanted to write Sherry a note to tell her what an incredible affect she was having on her friends. She was always semi quiet and reserved when she was healthy, but she has shaken a few people up with her resolve to face the end of this life with as much grace as humanly possible. She is also touching people with her assurances for the next life...She has exhibited great courage. I hope that when it is my time, that I can do even a fraction as well. She is truly amazing.

              August 10, 2005

              Sherry, you are wonderfully amazing. This cannot be easy for you yet you still show us your courage. I want you to know that you inspire me. You have shown me the strength which enables me to truly live my life. Not in fear, but for happiness and the betterment of those I touch. I will always feel blessed to know you.

              August 11, 2005

              Sherry, you commented when I visited that you appreciated my calm visit.

              What had a lot of staying power for me -- was thought provoking ---and I appreciated... • was listening to you talk about selling your business but still concerned about how it would carry on...

              • was listening to you talk about wanting to be fair and yet generous with your personal possessions..

              • was listening to you talk about visiting with your family, what fun you had with your cousins and siblings and family.

              After I left I pondered that you leave quite a legacy of humor, dignity, caring, and love. You may have had cancer, but it never had you.

              August 11, 2005

              I wish there was something I could do to help.

              August 13, 2005

              She is always in my thoughts and prayers. Sherry has touched a lot of people in her life with her thoughtfulness, sense of humor and positive outlook. She will be missed by us all but we will have memories that make us smile......

              August 17, 2005

              Sherry is doing "ok" and by that I mean that she's resting comfortably at my mother's home. She sleeps probably 95% of the day and is not in any pain (except for slight back pain due to inactivity/kidney failure) but it's not been bad enough to warrant morphine. She still is able to sometimes walk to the bathroom, but mostly we're using the wheelchair now as she's very weak. She's also using oxygen for a small part of the day, hoping this will relieve some of her nausea and weakened state. I helped her with a quick shower and hair shampoo the other day and it really was refreshing for her, but wore her out. She continues to drink fluids daily, but hasn't had more than a couple of spoonfuls of food daily since she entered hospice care 3 weeks ago. She's not taking any meds at all, as they didn't seem to help with nausea or her high blood pressure anyway and they seemed hard for her body to process.

              We're all grateful for every day we have with her.

              August 17, 2005

              Okay please tell Sherry I'm sending "virtual flowers".....and I'll donate to Gilda's house. Let's all stop and smell virtual roses. Ahh......

              I have a hummingbird at my patio feeder again this year as of yesterday. what a joy.

              August 23, 2005 Tropical Depression Twelve formed over the southeastern Bahamas at 5:00 PM EDT.

              August 24, 2005

              At 11:00 AM EDT (1500 UTC), Tropical Depression Twelve was upgraded to Tropical Storm Katrina.

              August 25, 2005

              By 5:00 PM EDT (2100 UTC), Tropical Storm Katrina is upgraded to Hurricane Katrina.

              August 25, 2005

              At 6:30 PM EDT, Katrina made its first landfall in Florida as a Category 1 hurricane.

              August 26, 2005

              Just a quick, brief note to let you know that it's been 4 weeks since Sherry went under hospice care. We are thankful that we have had this time with her, but her condition is now deteriorating and she is beginning to experience pain. Last night, although she has been delaying this option, she agreed to begin morphine doses for her pain. We're hopeful that it will relieve her suffering.

              August 26, 2005

              Sherry is truly brave...Sherry has certainly gone through this strength and grace. I am so glad to have known her.

              August 26, 2005

              At 1:00 AM EDT, maximum sustained winds had decreased to 70 mph and Katrina was again downgraded to a tropical storm. By 11:00 PM EDT, the National Hurricane Center predicted that Hurricane Katrina would strike the town of Buras-Triumph, Louisiana, 66 miles southeast of New Orleans.

              August 27, 2005

              By 5:00 AM EDT (0900 UTC), Hurricane Katrina reached Category 3 intensity.

              August 28, 2005 Just after midnight, at 12:40 AM CDT, Hurricane Katrina reached Category 4 intensity with 145 mph winds.

              August 29, 2005

              At 6:10 AM CDT, Hurricane Katrina made its second landfall as a Category 3 hurricane near Buras-Triumph, Louisiana, with sustained winds of more than 125 mph. Katrina also made landfall in St. Bernard parish and St. Tammany parish for a total of three landfalls in Louisiana. By 8:00 AM CDT, in New Orleans, water was seen rising water on both sides of the Industrial Canal. At approximately 8:14 AM CDT, the New Orleans office of the National Weather Service issues a Flash Flood Warning for Orleans Parish and St Bernard Parish, citing a levee breach at the Industrial Canal. By 9:00 AM CDT, there was 6-8 feet of water in the Lower Ninth Ward.

              August 30, 2005

              My sister woke today saying she thought that she was "dying today". I just couldn't leave her.

              August 30, 2005

              At 12:00 PM CDT, Homeland Security Secretary Michael Chertoff became aware that the New Orleans levee breaches could not be plugged.

              August 31, 2005

              At 10:00 PM CDT, Mayor Ray Nagin announced that the planned sandbagging of the 17th Street Canal levee breach had failed. At the time, 80% of the city was underwater.

              September 1, 2005

              Conditions at the Superdome, as well as the Ernest N. Morial Convention Center, continued to deteriorate.

              September 2, 2005

              President George W. Bush ordered active duty forces to the region.

              September 3, 2005

              I hope these weeks are peaceful as Sherry goes on this journey. September 4, 2005

              The evacuation of the Superdome has been completed.

              September 5, 2005

              The 17th Street Canal levee breach was closed with truckloads of rock and sandbags. The canal reopened so that it could be used to pump water out of city.

              September 5, 2005

              Sherry passed away tonight (9/5/05 Labor Day) at about

              6 PM. She died in her sleep, peacefully and with her family around her. We played music all day for her and the last song we played for her before she died was "God Bless America".

              September 5, 2005

              We both loved and thought so much of Sherry, and will miss her. She fought the bravest fight with such dignity. We will remember her always for that. I am so sorry that Sherry had to suffer even one hour with this insidious disease. She was so positive and strong - a wonderful example to us all. Her family has been blessed to be with her through her valiant battle. Cancer is absolutely evil. She was quite a girl. She had such a wonderful spirit and optimism. God welcomed her to his arms. Your Dad was waiting for her and she is happy that she is with him now. She is now at peace. She certainly epitomized "fighting the good fight " with incredible grace and dignity and the Lord has welcomed an amazing new angel. I always admired Sherry for her genuineness and will always remember her as a fine lady. I really loved Sherry. I believe that Sherry is the only person I knew who I remember always happily & with a smile on my face.

              User Comments:

              Luke ------powerful

              ------Date: 2006-08-22 20:55:00 Subject: I agree

              From Instapundit...

              FINALLY, A FATWA I CAN GET BEHIND: "Death to CAPS LOCK."

              User Comments: Luke ------Um, I agree that caps lock might be overused, but why the energy to try to get hardware makers to stop using it?

              Seems like a waste of energy to me.

              ------Date: 2006-08-25 22:31:00 Subject: Secrecy

              Secrecy flows through you, a different kind of blood.

              It's as if you've eaten it like a bad candy, taken it into your mouth, let it melt sweetly on your tongue, then allowed it to slide down your thoat like the reverse of uttering, a word dissolved into its glottals and sibilants, a slow intake of breath --

              And now it's in you, secrecy.

              Ancient and vicious, luscious as dark velvet.

              It blooms in you, a poppy made of ink.

              You can think of nothing else.

              Once you have it, you want more.

              What power it gives you! Power of knowing without being known, power of the stone door, power of the iron veil, power of the crushed fingers, power of the drowned bones crying out from the bottom of the well.

              --Margaret Atwood

              ------Date: 2006-08-29 11:10:00 Subject: Too soon

              Why was it "too soon" for the release of "United 93" and "World Trade Center" 5 years after 9/11/2001, but yet after only one year after Hurricane Katrina, we've been inundated with non- stop media coverage (and a movie by Spike Lee) of last year's disaster over and over and over again for the past week (at least), and no one's shouted "too soon" about that...I don't get it.

              User Comments:

              Luke ------good points, the both of you...

              Matthew ------but ultimately, people will say "too soon" once Hollywood starts offering fictionalized accounts of events, instead of the documentary or news coverage it's getting now.

              Matthew ------race?

              ------Date: 2006-08-30 11:53:00 Subject: Dylan's Modern Times

              I agree with this review...best line of it below...

                Modern Times will amply reward the solitary Dylanologist, poring over its runes for clues to the eternal mystery of Bob and the universe. But this is an album best experienced with a loved one; I hate to break it to Justin Timberlake, but a wheezy old man has recorded the best make-out songs of 2006. Put Modern Times in the CD player, pull your sweetheart close, and—as a young man advised a lifetime or so ago—shut the light, shut the shade.

              ~Jill, the solitary Dylanologist

              ------Date: 2006-08-30 19:40:00 Subject: Some sweet words

              "a cold front is on its way"...I actually got a chill tonight walking home from the Metro. Yes!

              ------Date: 2006-08-30 20:42:00 Subject: Emmy's best moment

              User Comments:

              NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/NotShyChiRev/ ------I still preferred these guys to Conan...who was game, but sometimes just didn't do it for me.

              Mamala ------Matthew...you are correct also.

              Matthew ------I have to say that the best moment was anytime Conan was on screen. netter ------i agree. this was beyond hysterical.

              :)

              ------Date: 2006-09-04 21:00:00 Subject: Exhausted, but in a good way

              I just had 3 of the best days of my life. I spent these days with 3/4 of my grandchildren, and 1/4 of my children.

              Totally, unbiased, but they are all wonderfully exceptional in every way! I was meant to be who-I-am and grateful that they are who-they-are.

              User Comments:

              Luke ------Sounds like you had a great one. We are all lucky to have you in our life.

              ------Date: 2006-09-04 21:03:00 Subject: Retail therapy

              What I should have done...

            • Laundry
            • Unpack
            • Website updates
            • Finish the TAM newsletter
            • Pay bills
            • Plan the week ahead
            • Grocery shop
            • Rest
            • What I did...

            • Walked all 4 floors of Pentagon City Mall
            • Had a venti half-caf at Starbucks
            • Bought books at Barnes & Noble
            • Walked miles and miles in my new home town, enjoying the almost "fall-like" temps
            • Found the best movie theater ever (Landmark E Street) and saw (and enjoyed thoroughly) The Illusionist
            • Ate a whole box of Milk Duds
            • Cried with my mother on the phone about her daughter/my sister's death, one year ago tomorrow
            • User Comments:

              Luke ------I love you!

              Mr. Cloudy ------I'll be thinking of you especially tomorrow. Peace. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Sounds like a fruitful day.

              I'm glad you're getting to know the hometown too.

              ------Date: 2006-09-04 22:50:00 Subject: Pretty flower

              User Comments:

              Luke ------wow..

              ------Date: 2006-09-06 22:49:00 Subject: Black and blue

              September 5
              September 6
               

              User Comments:

              Mr. Cloudy ------Thinking of you. Hugs.

              Jill ------I'm trying more and more to wipe the bad memories of her last days out of my head and heart and focusing on just what you imagine her doing in the afterlife, Matthew.

              Matthew ------Aunt Sherry was one of a kind. I miss her a lot.

              I like to imagaine that she's in the afterlife, hanging out with Grandpa, Ganny, and all of the other family she loved.

              ------Date: 2006-09-09 13:15:00 Subject: We've got to carry each other

              thanks, Luke and all...

              User Comments: nadi ------yes this is AWESOME and inspiring and I LOVE IT!!

              One love~ ps- i love how he says "we GET to.."

              Luke ------awesome

              ------Date: 2006-09-11 11:09:00 Subject: Solidarity

              Our first duty is to stand together against bin Ladenism.

              BY CHRISTOPHER HITCHENS

              Monday, September 11, 2006 12:01 a.m.

              Never mind where I was standing or what I was doing this time five years ago. (Because really, what could be less pertinent?) Except that I do remember wondering, with apparent irrelevance, how soon I would be hearing one familiar cliché. And that I do remember hearing, with annoyance, one other observation that I believe started the whole post-9/11 epoch on the wrong foot.

              The cliché, from which we have been generally but not completely spared, was the one about American "loss of innocence." Nobody, or nobody serious, thought that this store-bought phrase would quite rise to the occasion of the incineration of downtown Manhattan and 3,000 of its workers. It might have done for the Kennedy assassination or Watergate, but partly for that very reason it was redundant or pathetic by mid-day on September 11, 2001. Indeed, I believe that the expression, with its concomitant naïve self-regard, may have become superseded for all time. If so, good. The beginning of wisdom is to recognize that the United States was assaulted for what it really is, and what it understands as the center of modernity, and not for its unworldliness.

              But here I am, writing that it was "the United States" that was assaulted. And there was the president, and most of the media, speaking about "an attack on America." True as this was and is, it is not quite the truth. I deliberately declined, for example, an invitation to attend a memorial for the many hundreds of my fellow-Englishmen who had perished in the inferno. I could have done the same if I was Armenian or Zanzibari--more than 80 nationalities could count their dead on that day. It would have been far better if President Bush had characterized the atrocity as an attack on civilization itself, and it would be preferable if we observed the anniversary in the same spirit.

              In the past five years, I have either registered or witnessed or protested at or simply "observed" the following:

              (1) The reopening of a restaurant in Bali, where several dozen Australian holidaymakers and many Indonesian civilians had earlier been torn to shreds. (2) The explosion of a bomb at a Tube station in London which is regularly used by two of my children. (3) The murder of a senior Shiite cleric outside his place of worship in Iraq. (4) The attempt to destroy the Danish economy--and to torch Danish embassies and civilians--as a consequence of the publication of a few caricatures in the Danish press. (5) The murder of the U.N. envoy to Baghdad: a heroic Brazilian named Sergio Vieira de Mello, as vengeance (according to his murderers) for his role in shepherding East Timor to independence. (6) The near-successful attempt to blow up the Indian parliament in New Delhi, and two successful attempts to disrupt the commerce and society of Mumbai. (7) The destruction of the Golden Dome in Samara: a place of aesthetic as well as devotional importance. (8) The bombing of ancient synagogues in Tunisia, Turkey and Morocco. (9) The evisceration in the street of a Dutch filmmaker, Theo van Gogh, and the lethal threats that drove his Somali-born colleague, a duly elected member of the Dutch parliament, into hiding and then exile. (10) The ritual slaughter on video of a Jewish reporter for this newspaper.

              This list is not exhaustive or in any special order, and it does not include any of the depredations undertaken by the votaries of the Iranian version of Islamic fundamentalism. I shall just say that I have stood, alone or in company, with Hindus, Jews, Shiites and secularists (my own non- sectarian group) in the face of a cult of death that worships suicide and exalts murder and desecration. This has not dimmed, for me, the importance of what happened in New York and Washington and Pennsylvania. But it has made me slightly bored with those who continue to wonder, fruitlessly so far, in what fashion "we" should commemorate it.

              The time for commemoration lies very far in the future. War memorials are erected when the war is won. At the moment, anyone who insists on the primacy of September 11, 2001, is very likely to be accused--not just overseas but in this country also--of making or at least of implying a "partisan" point. I debate with the "antiwar" types almost every day, either in print or on the air or on the podium, and I can tell you that they have been "war-weary" ever since the sun first set on the wreckage of the World Trade Center and the Pentagon and on the noble debris of United Airlines 93. These clever critics are waiting, some of them gleefully, for the moment that is not far off: the moment when the number of American casualties in Afghanistan and Iraq will match or exceed the number of civilians of all nationalities who were slaughtered five years ago today. But to the bored, cynical neutrals, it also comes naturally to say that it is "the war" that has taken, and is taking, the lives of tens of thousands of other civilians. In other words, homicidal nihilism is produced only by the resistance to it! If these hacks were honest, and conceded the simple truth that it is the forces of the Taliban and of al Qaeda in Mesopotamia that are conducting a Saturnalia of murder and destruction, they would have to hide their faces and admit that they were not "antiwar" at all.

              One must have a blunt answer to the banal chat-show and op-ed question: What have we learned? (The answer ought not to be that we have learned how to bully and harass citizens who try to take shampoo on flights on which they have lawfully booked passage. Yet incompetent collective punishment of the innocent, and absurd color-coding of the "threat level," is the way in which most Americans actually experience the "war on terror.") Anyone who lost their "innocence" on September 11 was too naïve by far, or too stupid to begin with. On that day, we learned what we ought to have known already, which is that clerical fanaticism means to fight a war which can only have one victor. Afghans, Kurds, Kashmiris, Timorese and many others could have told us this from experience, and for nothing (and did warn us, especially in the person of Ahmad Shah Massoud, leader of Afghanistan's Northern Alliance). Does anyone suppose that an ideology that slaughters and enslaves them will ever be amenable to "us"? The first duty, therefore, is one of solidarity with bin-Ladenism's other victims and targets, from India to Kurdistan. The second point makes me queasy, but cannot be ducked. "We"--and our allies--simply have to become more ruthless and more experienced. An unspoken advantage of the current awful strife in Iraq and Afghanistan is that it is training tens of thousands of our young officers and soldiers to fight on the worst imaginable terrain, and gradually to learn how to confront, infiltrate, "turn," isolate and kill the worst imaginable enemy. These are faculties that we shall be needing in the future. It is a shame that we have to expend our talent in this way, but it was far worse five years and one day ago, when the enemy knew that there was a war in progress, and was giggling at how easy the attacks would be, and "we" did not even know that hostilities had commenced. Come to think of it, perhaps we were a bit "innocent" after all.

              ------Date: 2006-09-11 12:10:00 Subject: For the Falling Man

              Poem: "For the Falling Man" by Annie Farnsworth from Bodies of Water, Bodies of Light.

              For the Falling Man

              I see you again and again tumbling out of the sky, in your slate-grey suit and pressed white shirt.

              At first I thought you were debris from the explosion, maybe gray plaster wall or fuselage but then I realized that people were leaping.

              I know who you are, I know there's more to you than just this image on the news, this ragdoll plummeting—

              I know you were someone's lover, husband, daddy. Last night you read stories to your children, tucked them in, then curled into sleep next to your wife. Perhaps there was small sleepy talk of the future. Then, before your morning coffee had cooled you'd come to this; a choice between fire or falling. How feeble these words, billowing in this aftermath, how ineffectual this utterance of sorrow. We can see plainly it's hopeless, even as the words trail from our mouths

              —but we can't help ourselves—how I wish we could trade them for something that could really have caught you.

              User Comments:

              Luke ------This symbolizes the true horror of that day.

              Jill ------Ted/RM-You're both right. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------haunting

              Ted ------This was the poem today during "The Writer's Almanac" podcast this a.m. Very moving.

              ------Date: 2006-09-14 14:42:00 Subject: 'Survivor' Segregates

              According to USA Today,

                Survivor kicks off its 13th season tonight on CBS (8 ET/PT) amid controversy over dividing the four tribes into blacks, whites, Asians and Hispanics.

                The NAACP, in a statement this week, did not condemn the show but used the topic to focus on the lack of minorities in the entertainment industry as a whole.

                "Whether we like the concept or not — and, for the record, we do not — it is premature to judge the show purely on conjecture. We will judge the show on what we see, and we will monitor the public response." As for advertisers pulling out, CBS spokesman Chris Ender says: "Reports of advertiser defection have been greatly exaggerated and erroneously reported. The show has a full roster of advertisers."

                David Lyle, general manager of Fox Reality cable channel, says this is a mere Survivor tempest that will do no long-term damage.

                "The real problem is when the stunt swamps the show. And this stunt, regardless of what you think of it in socio-responsible terms, will only last for a few weeks before the tribes are melded," he says. "The device won't get in the way of the structure of the show. It could be inflammatory, but you can bet that all the players will be interesting characters who will get down to playing the game. And then it'll be business as usual."

                So will this season of Survivor turn out to be a big publicity brouhaha that does no more than briefly boost ratings? Or will this stunt become a seriously offensive move that elevates Survivor into the ranks of Reality's Worst Ideas.

              Now I never, ever watched this show, except when I would stop by my sister's place in the evening to give her her shot of anti-cancer drugs and she had it on, but she was glued to the TV whenever it was on and I know millions love it.

              But truthfully, in a way that I can't even understand or put in writing, I have a problem with the concept of this one.

              Help me out here...what do you think?

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------I was kind of hoping that they'd stay integrated for the entire season. In some ways, I almost respect the cajones it takes for CBS to try something like this. I really like the social experiment aspect of this. That's one of the great things about reality television; if they want to try something, it's relatively easy to pull off, whereas a scripted show has to rely on strong writing.

              But if we're talking about social experiments and islands, there's only one show for me, and that's "LOST." *surprise surprise*

              Jill ------KatieG-you speak the truth, sweetie! I miss her too!

              Katieg ------I am a casual fan of Survivor over the years. I agree that it did have a "not right" feel to it when I first heard about this.

              In tonight's episode, though, it played off no differently than when they divide by age or gender (or just a random split). And based on the way this show is usually structured, the race-based tribes will be dissolved within 1-2 episodes, making the whole thing pretty much irrelevant.

              I always think of Aunt Sherry now when I watch Survivor. It makes me smile and sad at the same time. I miss her!

              Jill ------Good point, netter...if indeed it doesn't reinforce stereotypes, that may be eye opening to many viewers.

              Dialogue is good too. netter ------they have billed it as a "social experiment" and i'm hoping it blows away the typical stereotypes and not reinforce them.

              however, i fail to see how this is any different than separating people according to gender or age.

              i've been a fan of "Survivor" since the first season. and it's true, once the game kicks in all else seems to pale in comparison. it's more about survival, relationships and what people will do for a million dollars. at the very least, it will spark dialogue. that's not a bad thing.

              ------Date: 2006-09-17 23:19:00 Subject: My kids, that are my heroes

              MA-(and her R) have an 8 month old child that eats pesto pasta with gusto!

              KT- (and her D) have given up alot of life's trappings and truly live the simple life in an RV in FL

              Son M & L- have just spent a weekend together, when a couple of summers ago, I wasn't even sure that they could be in the same city without seismic shifts

              It just doesn't get any better than this (and who they are)

              I bow down before you, my sweet Fab 4~

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Luke and I were talking this weekend about you being one of our heroes, so consider the feeling mutual.

              Katieg ------Hmmm... it must be something genetic. :-)

              ------Date: 2006-09-18 22:51:00 Subject: The Path to 9/11

              You just have to read this.

              ------Date: 2006-09-19 12:24:00 Subject: Two Poems

              To a Terrorist, by Stephen Dunn

                For the historical ache, the ache passed down which finds its circumstance and becomes the present ache, I offer this poem

                without hope, knowing there's nothing, not even revenge, which alleviates a life like yours. I offer it as one

                might offer his father's ashes to the wind, a gesture when there's nothing else to do.

                Still, I must say to you:

                I hate your good reasons.

                I hate the hatefulness that makes you fall

                in love with death, your own included.

                Perhaps you're hating me now,

                I who own my own house

                and live in a country so muscular, so smug, it thinks its terror is meant only to mean well, and to protect.

                Christ turned his singular cheek, one man's holiness another's absurdity.

                Like you, the rest of us obey the sting,

                the surge. I'm just speaking out loud to cancel my silence. Consider it an old impulse, doomed to become mere words.

                The first poet probably spoke to thunder and, for a while, believed thunder had an ear and a choice.

              September Twelfth, 2001, by X.J. Kennedy

                Two caught on film who hurtle from the eighty-second floor, choosing between a fireball and to jump holding hands,

                aren't us. I wake beside you, stretch, scratch, taste the air, the incredible joy of coffee and the morning light.

                Alive, we open eyelids on our pitiful share of time, we bubbles rising and bursting in a boiling pot.

              ------Date: 2006-09-21 21:45:00 Subject: Hovering helicopters

              You always know when someone important is maneuvering around DC. You hear those helipcopters.

              Tonight, when I was doing my walk, alot of black SUVs were congregating outside the White House and the DC police were urging all of us to "move on" and he-who-is would soon be going to wherever it was he was going.

              I love my new town. It's very Hollywood, in a political sort of way!

              User Comments:

              Luke ------An intresting analogy, DC to Hollywood...

              ------Date: 2006-09-22 10:45:00 Subject: Friday Five--boo-boos

              1) Are you a baby about small injuries?

              No, definitely not. I have small bruises that pop up all over my body and I don't have a clue as to how they got there. It's that Mid-West stiff upper lip instilled upon me, I guess.

              2) What's the silliest way you have ever hurt yourself?

              I used to walk my dogs around my apartment complex, while, at the same time, reading my New Yorker magazine. On more than one occasion, I would walk right into the big dumpsters that were in my path...didn't really hurt, just felt like a total fool and hoped that no one was watching me.

              3) Who took care of your boo-boos when you were a child?

              Definitely my Mother...Daddys didn't do those kind of things in the 50s.

              4) Are you a good nurse when others have boo-boos?

              I never thought so, but during my sister's illness, I found myself doing things I thought I'd never do and handling more bodily fluids than I ever want to think about again!

              5) What's the worst accidental injury you've suffered? Did it require a trip to the Emergency Room? The only things that have sent me to the emergency room have to do with my anxiety...the body is strong, but the mind is weak.

              User Comments:

              Luke ------1) Are you a baby about small injuries?

              Definitely with you on this one. I don't sweat the small stuff at all.

              2) What's the silliest way you have ever hurt yourself?

              Probably running my cousin to the corner store, tripping while running up a cement hill, then promptly "hamming it up" and saying "I'm okay" only to require stitches..

              3) Who took care of your boo-boos when you were a child?

              Whatever parent was around. Sometimes I would do it myself too.

              4) Are you a good nurse when others have boo-boos?

              Yeah, definitely. Maybe one day I will be a nurse? 5) What's the worst accidental injury you've suffered? Did it require a trip to the Emergency Room?

              Hmm, it would be quite a question if it asked about "intentional" injuries.. Odd. Anyway, it would probably be my first motorcycle wreck. And yeah, ER for sure.

              ------Date: 2006-10-01 23:26:00 Subject: First NFL Church

              So RM drops me off at the Metro and calls me soon thereafter...

              "Just passed a church and their billboard said 'Love your neighbor, even if they are a Cowboys fan'

              OK, the next time I gloat BIGTIME when the Cowboys beat the Redskins.

              It just doesn't get any worse than this!

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Any team that has a racist term as their mascot isn't worth the time of day.

              The Cowboys are clearly god's team. That's why there's a hole in Texas stadium. So God can look down and watch the Cowboys play.

              Luke ------Dang!

              ------Date: 2006-10-05 22:36:00 Subject: Jury duty

              I've been in DC a little over 9 months and received a jury summons a couple of weeks ago..today was the day for me to report. Long story short, I was released about 12:00 PM and allowed to go back to work. YAY!

              Really, when I don't have a trip planned for the weekend, I'd like to serve some time.

              But for today, I'll have to say that I was surprisingly amazed by the efficiency of the DC court system.

              Life is good!

              User Comments:

              Luke ------Yeah, you would be someone who actually would like to do serve on a jury. Me too, actually!

              ------Date: 2006-10-07 00:54:00 Subject: What A Long Strange Trip It's Been

              A great day!

              Took Amtrak to NYC and it was WONDERFUL! Spent most of the time looking out the window and as we went further north, I saw more oranges/yellows/golds and reds on the trees. Lovely. And Amtrak kicks the airlines butts on this jaunt. They have plugs available for laptop computers, you can actually take on food and toothpaste, the seats are comfy with plenty of leg room and it was just 3 short hours from DC to NYC.

              My hotel is right near Times Square and very convenient to everything. I have a teeny, tiny room but it's clean and looks safe so that's good.

              Saw a wonderful panel tonight on "Islam and the West" with my heroine Ayaan Hirsi Ali and then on to more fun stuff with Jonathan Safran Foer and Edward P. Jones reading bits and pieces from their novels and short stories. It was at a great venue in Chelsea and I enjoyed walking around that part of the city...it's very DC like.

              Now to bed...tomorrows a full day!

              User Comments: Matthew ------Sounds like fun.

              Luke ------Yeah, me too! Maybe next year I will come to the new yorker fest with you again.

              Katieg ------I'm glad you are having a great time!

              ------Date: 2006-10-07 18:21:00 Subject: Edward Norton

              I was less than 5 feet away from him during his (and others) talk about "Fiction into Film"...can I just say, he didn't disappoint!

              This afternoon, it was Anthony Lane (hilarious) and then the discussion about Fake News with representatives from The Onion, The Daily Show, The Colbert Report and Andy Borowitz...again hilarious.

              Tonight, it gets more serious with Lawrence Wright (The Looming Towers - My trip to Al Qaeda) and then ends with music - Randy Newman.

              I'm having a great, egghead, nerdy weekend in NYC. Had a "slice" of pizza for lunch and have done a lot of people watching. New Yorkers are good people!

              User Comments:

              Mamala ------OK, yes, Reverend Mother asked me what my favorite event was, and I couldn't identify the best one yet, but definitely, Randy Newman was my least favorite...he was an afterthought. Needed something to do at the close of the day, and hey, they were giving out free Grey Goose martinis! (of course, I got there too late for the freebie and I'm too cheap to pay for "good" vodka!)

              Luke ------Ha ha! Randy Newman!

              "Left foot! Right foot!"

              ------Date: 2006-10-08 19:29:00 Subject: Lunch with Nora

              After attending the All Souls Church here in NYC (a great service btw, I ran down to lower Manhattan (literally) and had a wonderful afternoon while Nora Ephron cooked me lunch! Yes it was delightful and my dish from now on will be her Key Lime Pie whenever I need to bring a dish to anything! It's as easy (and tasty) as pie, npi (no pun intended).

              Then it was on to hear Zadie Smith on her thoughts on writing...can I just say that next year (hopefully) I'll be joined by some or better yet all of my children as they really needed to be here this weekend with me!

              You all are on notice...start thinking NYC in October of 2007...we need to make it a yearly event, or at least next year anyway! I want to share this joyful weekend with you next year.

              OK, gotta run...I'm headed back down south on Amtrak.

              Goodbye NYC! Until next year...ILY, and don't ever change, stay the same as you are and peace and safety to you in this day and age!

              User Comments:

              Mamala ------I'm soooo holding you to this Luke!

              Luke ------Count me in for next year. For real.

              ------Date: 2006-10-09 00:56:00 Subject: Coming Home

              This was just such a surreal moment.

              After spending the weekend in NYC, arriving back in DC I felt like I was coming home to a small town. The Metro seemed quaint and small, the walk home was quiet, uncrowded, and fast, with no people to dodge. My kitties were waiting for me and there wasn't a hair ball or other pet intestinal distress to be found.

              Life continues to be good. User Comments:

              Bess ------Next time you go to the city, maybe we can come and meet you for lunch-- it is a short train ride for us too!

              Bess, YECN

              Matthew ------Sounds like a fulfilling weekend. Glad you had fun.

              Luke ------Glad you had a good time!

              ------Date: 2006-10-10 23:00:00 Subject: Do you realize...

              Do You Realize ...

              ... that everyone you know some day will die ... ? (Flaming Lips).

              From the final minutes of "Six Feet Under" (spoiler alert if you're planning on Netflixing it):

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------I stopped after 5 seconds. That is one of my favorite songs, however.

              Luke ------MATT! DO NOT WATCH THIS!!!

              ------Date: 2006-10-22 00:11:00 Subject: She brushes her tongue

              It's no secret that I think that all 4 of my grandchildren are geniuses, but having spent the last day with my VA grandchildren, I continue to be convinced.

              C is an adult in a 37 pound-3 year old package. Baby M gets it in so many ways. She responds to peek-a-boo and knows when she needs help as she reaches up to me when she feels like she may need a "higher" power - npi (no pun intended).

              Can I just say that life with grandchildren, for me, is where it's at these days.

              J & J, you're so on notice as I'm headed your way in early November! Let the games begin!!

              Oh, and it's no secret how they got this way. My #1 and #2 daughters are great mothers (and their choices of husbands so totally rock!)

              I'm glad to be MaDear.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Imagine how cool one of his Sunday School sessions would be. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Yes, I've said before that after listening to Colbert's interview on KQED--"He had me at 'I teach Sunday School.'"

              Jill ------Yes, RM, you've got it!

              And one more reason for you to love Stephen...I was watching the book channel this morning and heard David Kuo, author of Tempting Faith talking about his experience on the Colbert Report. He said that Stephen talked to him in the green room and explained his character on the show and that David's job was to make him look even more like an idiot. After the interview, David said that indeed, Stephen was a comic genius, but also said "he teaches Sunday School" which pleased him (and I imagine you, RM). reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Are you saying baby M is an "it-getter"? And C is one of the "heroes"?

              Stephen Colbert would be so proud.

              Mr. Cloudy ------Sounds delightful. I'm so glad you can be near them in these precious times.

              ------Date: 2006-10-26 11:02:00 Subject: What the Doctor Said

              What The Doctor Said

              -by Raymond Carver

              He said it doesn't look good he said it looks bad in fact real bad he said I counted thirty-two of them on one lung before

              I quit counting them

              I said I'm glad I wouldn't want to know about any more being there than that he said are you a religious man do you kneel down in forest groves and let yourself ask for help when you come to a waterfall mist blowing against your face and arms do you stop and ask for understanding at those moments

              I said not yet but I intend to start today he said I'm real sorry he said

              I wish I had some other kind of news to give you

              I said Amen and he said something else

              I didn't catch and not knowing what else to do and not wanting him to have to repeat it and me to have to fully digest it

              I just looked at him for a minute and he looked back it was then

              I jumped up and shook hands with this man who'd just given me something no one else on earth had ever given me

              I may have even thanked him habit being so strong

              ------Date: 2006-10-27 10:19:00 Subject: The Gift of Sight

              I ride the shuttle from the Metro stop to my office every work day and many days, he's on the same shuttle with me. He's obviously got some physical disabilities. He's somewhat smaller than most men and although he's not apparently Down's Syndrome, he has a similar look. He wears bottle-thick glasses and in the middle of each of those bottle thick lenses is a small circle with, for lack of a better description, a magnifying glass. Everyday, he's reading...sometimes the New Yorker, sometimes the Washington Post Sunday Magazine...always something serious. But to achieve this, he has to look through a magnifying glass (just like the one my co-worker used at CPD to study fingerprints) and he places it on the page with his glasses resting on it, his nose about 4 inches from the printed page.

              Probably one of the greatest gifts I've received from giving up my car and taking public transportation is seeing one brave person after another, refusing to let life's circumstances defeat them and getting on with their life. I'm grateful I share a ride with this guy. Maybe some day, I'll work up enough courage to tell him so.

              User Comments: nadsy ------loved this post!...my momma would too

              Katieg ------That is great. Very inspriational. Thanks for sharing it!

              ------Date: 2006-10-27 12:08:00 Subject: Ghoulish Friday Five From RM's Blog

              1. Do you enjoy a good fright?

              Not really, just walking across the street in DC is challenging enough for me these days, or reading the paper, or listening to news, or thinking about the "evil-doers"

              2. Scariest movie you've ever seen

              I'm with RM on this one "Wait Until Dark," although "Psycho" still has me buying transparent shower curtains

              3. Bobbing for apples: choose one and discuss: a) Nothing scary about that! Good wholesome fun. b) Are you *kidding* me?!? The germs, the germs!

              In all my years, I can happily say I've never played

              4. Real-life phobia

              Rodents, although living in the big city, I'm trying to convince myself that they are my friends, kind of like C's Cinderella's Jaq and Gus

              5. Favorite "ghost story"

              I kinda like the Snipe Hunt that we engaged in when my daughters were Girl Scouts, although at the time, I didn't know it was considered "hazing" as Wikipedia says, or maybe I wouldn't have enjoyed it so much. It seemed like good clean fun at the time.

              ------Date: 2006-10-31 22:48:00 Subject: Halloween On this holiday, as I read my children's blogs about how they celebrated the day (Luke, what's up?), I think back to when they were children. I was the one that stayed home and gave out the candy and their dad went with them trick or treating.

              Now, as they enjoy this time with their own children (at least my daughters, that is), I think I should have just left the bowl of candy on the front porch and accompanied them on their trick or treat adventure. Now that I'm a grandmother, I definitely would do that!

              Why did it take me so long to give myself permission?

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Next year, you can put out the bowl of candy and go to Sixth Street with all of the crazy Austinites. :-)

              Mamala/Jill ------yes, of course, you were the cutest little anti-KKK ever!

              Luke ------You were too busy making me anti-KKK constumes...

              'member that one?!

              ------Date: 2006-11-01 15:04:00 Subject: The troops respond from Instapundit

              AN AMUSING PHOTO FROM IRAQ. Heh.

              Message to John Kerry

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------I think this whole Kerry thing is getting more press than the fact that the American death toll just passed the 2800 mark. I applaud their sense of humor, yet knowing the staunch Republican partisanship that exists in the military, this is a bit disheartening to me. How the troops can still support Bush after all he's done is beyond me.

              Ted ------You just have to love those guys....in harm's way but still have a sense of humor.

              ------Date: 2006-11-07 22:41:00 Subject: What are you [wearing] watching? so I ask my sweet #1 daughter how she'll watch the election returns...I just couldn't bear to watch the shout-outs from either side of the MSM...instead, I wanted a quieter/gentler punditry.

              So I started out with C-span, but that was just not to my liking, so I switched over to Fox and sure enough, it's where I'll stay. They are so totally low-key, and if you didn't know better, you would swear they all just lost their best friends (maybe they did).

              User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Oops, I knew that.

              Vermont was on my mind because they went from one independent senator to another--a self- proclaimed socialist, no less! Gotta love Vermont!

              Ted ------RM wrote: I feel bad for Lincoln Chafee--a decent guy and popular senator, but lost his seat because he was in the wrong party. If I were a Vermont voter I'd feel pretty gipped if I'd voted against Chafee and the Senate *still* ends up not flipping to Dem.

              Vermont, Rhode Island, somewhere in New England... :)

              If only Chafee had *lost* the primary, he could have run as an Independent like Joe L did in CT.

              Katieg ------I have to admit that I have watched the returns less and less with each election over the last few years. Things are so close now-a-days, that I figure it is not worth the time until things are decided the next morning (or week.. or month...). Dan flipped between Fox and Headline News and kept me informed of any developments as I watched my Seinfeld reruns. :-) reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Who did we watch? That's a no-brainer: Stewart/Colbert... while refreshing the state election board website on the laptop.

              It's so weird, the site has Allen up, but everybody else has Webb up.

              I feel bad for Lincoln Chafee--a decent guy and popular senator, but lost his seat because he was in the wrong party. If I were a Vermont voter I'd feel pretty gipped if I'd voted against Chafee and the Senate *still* ends up not flipping to Dem.

              AEF ------We gave Katie Curic a chance to see what she could do with the election results! I envy you, you live in a very interesting town!!! Our #1 daughter got to shake Barak Obama's hand on Monday- it was like meeting a rock star for her!

              ------Date: 2006-11-08 08:02:00 Subject: Happy Days Are Here Again!

              So the Dems did it! Democracy prevailed. Now, more than anything, I hope they all drop the tools of the fight and get down to the business of the people who put them there.

              User Comments:

              Luke ------Yeah I was thinking about that as I stood in line voting.

              I don't watch a lot of TV so I didn't see a whole lot of the negative ads, but those that I saw were really bad. Like, REALLY bad.

              Negative ads seem to be the things that, in all actuality, everyone hates. Strange how they keep going. Anyway, I realized as I stood in line for 40 minutes in the gymnasium of the local high school here, that it all comes to this. I love how the act of voting and standing in line with at least 100 other people really does have a leveling effect. To me, election day is ironically a "cease fire" of sorts. It's all up in the air at that point, just a matter of casting your vote and waiting.

              Civics reflection over!

              ------Date: 2006-11-08 08:33:00 Subject: Virginia's the new Florida

              With a recount ahead (Webb/Allen), is anyone but me dreading the next week or so? {hanging chad shivers}

              User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Funny--last night I had a very lucid dream that we moved to Austin.

              Lukee ------TEXAS! TEXAS! TEXAS!

              Jill/Mamala ------I may have been pre-mature with this comment. Actually, I think the margin of difference was in the thousands, not hundreds, so we may all be spared from the hanging chads this time.

              And yes, my dream would be for all of my kids to be in one state, at least!

              Katieg ------Gee... I guess I should have moved to Virginia instead of Florida.

              ------Date: 2006-11-08 16:54:00 Subject: Image of the Day from Andrew Sullivan...

              Valor

              From the AP: "Pearl Harbor survivor Houston James of Dallas embraced Marine Staff Sgt. Mark Graunke Jr during a Veterans Day commemoration in Dallas. Graunke lost a hand, a leg and an eye when he defused a bomb in Iraq last year."

              We are still at war. And this election result should require all of us to lay aside partisanship and figure out how best to honor those serving us and how best to secure the least worst option in Iraq.

              User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------That's a great photo.

              Lukee ------I AGREE!!!

              for many reasons I feel really good today. And no, I don't think it's all because "the dems won" so much, though that helps, but I seem to have a renewed faith in humanity that I haven't felt in a long time.

              This picture illustrates that. We are all humans, and just as humans are doing our part to make this planet a violent one, we are also the ONLY creatures capable of saving it.

              God bless humanity!

              ------Date: 2006-11-11 09:35:00 Subject: What I Would Take on the Mayflower by #1 Grandson J (6 years old, written in his own handwriting and used by permission)

              1. 2 Puppets

              2. Plug 3. A thing you plug in

              4. A tv

              5. A computer

              6. Video games

              7. Coloring books

              8. Colors

              9. Food and drink

              10. Toothbrush and Toothpaste

              11. Clothes

              12. Swimsuit

              13. Pole (as in Swimming pool)

              14. Wood

              15. Tools

              16. Toylet

              17. Ms. Blanca (J's 16 year old student teacher "girlfriend")

              18. Brandon (a friend in J's class)

              19. Family

              20. Badderys

              User Comments:

              Ted ------This is the best thing I've read in a long time. Go JOEY!!!!

              Luke ------Gotta love those badderys!

              Also, I love how he said he'd bring wood. Never know when one is going to need to build a chair or a table whilst out at sea!

              ------Date: 2006-11-13 00:51:00 Subject: #1 granddaughter I remember the day exactly. My #2 daugther told me she was going to have a baby...yes, my first grandchild. Me, being the baby boomer that I was, and brought up never trusting anyone over 30, now, yes now, I was going to be really way over 30 and a grandmother....oh my.

              Of course I was thrilled, but there was a little part of me that said that I wasn't ready for the grey hair and the rocking chair.

              Over the next few months, I tried hard to digest the news and learned to love it.

              That was easy! A new baby..of course, I'd be OK. And I soon found a "grandma" name that I could live with "MaDear"

              OK, I was set. Set for a drive to Tulsa on Nov. 13th. When I walked into the room, my sweet K was smiling and saying "this childbirth thing is no big deal"

              Needless to say, later on in the day, after Pitocin and labor and no real dilation, and back labor (YUCK!), the no big deal became a really big deal.

              So, a C-section was decided on and I just waited. Soon, SHE arrived, gulping a big first breath that facilitated her spending a few days in NICU...a long 3 days!

              I turned into Aurora Greenway (Shirley MacLaine's role in Terms of Endearment) when late in day 2, they were keeping my daughter from seeing her firstborn "It's past ten. My daughter is in pain. I don't understand why she has to have this pain. All she has to do is hold out until ten, and IT'S PAST TEN! My daughter is in pain, can't you understand that! GIVE MY DAUGHTER THE SHOT!" or rather, "she will go to where her daughter is now!"

              She did, and the rest was good.

              Now, my sweet J is 9 years old...She struts when she shops for clothes. She sings and does the movements of High School Musical. She has a strong desire to get her ears pierced, but is still waiting to decide that desire is stronger than the fear of how much it will hurt. She clings to her little brother J who, in some cases, shows her the way (he just got up and walked right over to the lady behind the counter at the food court who could give him a refill on his Sprite, and she followed soon thereafter, seeing that'd it be OK). How is it possible you're 9? Can I stop time? No, not at all.

              In the meantime, or rather mean time, I'm going to love the transition you make over the next few years, from that baby and little girl, to the young woman that you'll be someday, way too soon.

              Happy 9th Birthday, my sweet J!

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------I really need to get a calendar. I so thought that J's birthday was TODAY! :-(

              Expect a call today, Katie G.

              Matthew ------Great post. Although, I completely misread this beginning of this post and thought that it read "my number one grand daughter said...," and I was thinking, WTF?????

              You're a great Grandma!

              Luke ------I never knew that you got anxious about the title of grandma!

              Great post! reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------This is a great post.

              I remember thinking "how can my baby sister be 'lapping' me?!?"

              ------Date: 2006-11-13 01:17:00 Subject: Coming Home I've just completed a 4th travel to destinations I love in the last month.

              But when arriving home this evening, I realized, if I didn't already know it, that even though I loved the people I saw in the places I travelled, this arrival home was really an arrival at my home. I love it here!

              Yellow leaves that had fallen from the trees lining the sidewalk, a cool chill that kept me "sweat- free" from my walk from the Metro to my place, my kitties welcoming me at the door, the quiet at my place, and the unpacking, knowing where *I* wanted everything to be.

              OK, I'm probably the type to be happy wherever I'm planted, but for now, I'm really happy to be planted in this wonderfully complicated, noisy, stressful, WONDERFUL city!~

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Great post. I'm glad that you've found "home," in both the literal and figurative sense of the word.

              NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/NotShyChiRev/ ------And what a great city...what a way to live at the epicenter of the pulse of a nation....other than Hollywood of course...not)...:-) reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------We REALLY missed you!!!

              We have put any thoughts of "where to move next" on hold because the greatness of having MaDear nearby was driven home to us once again!

              ------Date: 2006-11-14 22:44:00 Subject: Forgiveness

              Goodnight, Willie Lee, I'll See You in the Morning

              -by Alice Walker

              Looking down into my father's dead face for the last time my mother said without tears, without smiles without regrets but with civility

              "Goodnight, Willie Lee, I'll see you in the morning."

              And it was then I knew that the healing of all our wounds is forgiveness that permits a promise of our return at the end.

              ------Date: 2006-11-15 09:18:00 Subject: Let it go

              In Blackwater Woods

              -by Mary Oliver

              Look, the trees are turning their own bodies into pillars

              of light, are giving off the rich fragrance of cinnamon and fulfillment,

              the long tapers of cattails are bursting and floating away over the blue shoulders

              of the ponds, and every pond, no matter what its name is, is

              nameless now.

              Every year everything

              I have ever learned

              in my lifetime leads back to this: the fires and the black river of loss whose other side

              is salvation, whose meaning none of us will ever know.

              To live in this world

              you must be able to do three things: to love what is mortal; to hold it

              against your bones knowing your own life depends on it; and, when the time comes to let it go, to let it go.

              User Comments:

              Jill ------Really both. I'm in a class at my church here in DC and we read and journaled about this post last night. I still am prompted to mostly write about Sherry. I miss her so.

              Ted ------Was this post prompted by the season? ...or something else?

              ------Date: 2006-11-15 14:09:00 Subject: If (yeah, right) he did it from the wires...O.J. Simpson to Discuss Killings

                Fox plans to broadcast an interview with O.J. Simpson in which the former football star discusses "how he would have committed" the slayings of his ex-wife and her friend, for which he was acquitted, the network said.

                The two-part interview, titled "O.J. Simpson: If I Did It, Here's How It Happened," will air Nov. 27 and Nov. 29, the TV network said.

                Simpson has agreed to an "unrestricted" interview with book publisher Judith Regan, Fox said.

                "O.J. Simpson, in his own words, tells for the first time how he would have committed the murders if he were the one responsible for the crimes," the network said in a statement. "In the two-part event, Simpson describes how he would have carried out the murders he has vehemently denied committing for over a decade."

              Don't watch it...don't buy it (the story he'll tell or the book)!

              User Comments: Matthew ------on a huge pile of dirty cash, that's how.

              Ted ------More and more I think about the producers of these things and wonder "How do they sleep at night?" reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Where are we all going, and what are we doing in this handbasket?

              Matthew ------Ridiculous indeed. Fox News Corps, or some other Fox subsidiary, owns the publishing company that's releasing his book.

              Lukee ------Oh my god this is ridiculous!

              LisaMarie http://www.journalscape.com/LisaMarie/ ------Amen to that!

              ------Date: 2006-11-19 09:28:00 Subject: Shut Up and Sing

              I saw this documentary film last night and really enjoyed it. The movie theater was packed (and somewhat vocal, with their cheers and jeers) and it was fun to see it with a "blue" crowd in the district. I thought it was a very even-handed film and I'm sure seeing it in a red state would be just as enjoyable, albeit the cheers and jeers would come at different places during the film.

              User Comments:

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------The Dixie Chicks controversy that started on the eve of the war in Iraq when the lead singer Natalie Maines said at a concert in London "Just so you know, we're ashamed the President of the United States is from Texas" and the fallout thereafter.

              Matthew ------What's it about?

              ------Date: 2006-11-20 15:00:00 Subject: Scary Movie

              Happy Feet

              PG Parental guidance suggested

              Some material may not be suitable for children.

              Contains ominous themes of environmental destruction to the planet.

              User Comments:

              Luke ------No way?!

              ------Date: 2006-11-20 15:08:00 Subject: Iraq the Vote

              Web Survey

              User Comments:

              Shestopstraffic http://www.journalscape.com/shestopstraffic/ ------i'm new to journal scape and i'm checking out the community's journals. discovered two cool things at your journal already...that the bridge to terabitha is going to be coming out on film and there is a place for free polls like the one you posted here. yay!

              NotShyChiRev http://www.journalscape.com/NotShyChiRev/ ------indeed...I think the only way out is to go big for no more than 3-4 months, PERIOD, then go home...

              Luke ------A strange poll!

              ------Date: 2006-11-25 00:35:00 Subject: Bridge to Terabithia

              this is the movie I was trying to recall for you over the past few days K, M, and RM, et al.

              ------Date: 2006-11-27 16:44:00 Subject: No "J" in "DC"

              While walking to and from the Metro each day, I often wonder why the streets, neatly and orderly lettered, go from "I" to "K" with no "J" street. According to Snopes,

                So, what DID happen to J Street? Was it simply skipped over by accident?

                The most plausible explanation is that J Street was omitted because the letters I and J were often indistinguishable from each other (especially when handwritten), and in 18th century English they were still largely interchangeable. (The 1740 "New General English Dictionary" published in London had a single section for I and J, and the standard identification Thomas Jefferson used on his personal possessions was "T.I.") Having both an "I" and a "J" street would have been redundant at best and confusing at worst, so "J" ended up as the odd man out.

              Guess that makes me JJLL or IILL! ;-)

              User Comments:

              Luke ------XD reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I think I would have gone with J rather than I--I is confusing, people think it's a 1, or that it's spelled "Eye." Which I have seen people do.

              ------Date: 2006-12-05 11:18:00 Subject: Obamania

              From Andrew Sullivan, "Obama Happens"

              This Arianna smackdown of Hillary made me smile.

              And more kudos from a Republican,...Mark McKinnon, who was a top adviser to President Bush in his White House runs and who is a senior adviser to Sen. John McCain: “I think Barack Obama is the most interesting persona to appear on the political radar screen in decades. … He’s a walking, talking hope machine, and he may reshape American politics.â€

              User Comments:

              Jill McKibben ------Matthew, you're not the only one that has thought about that...I shudder to think...

              Matthew ------Somewhere across the US, a sniper is readying his rifle. Hate to be a downer, but everytime a politician comes around using the "h" word, they end up...damn, I forgot to take my meds.

              ;-)

              Mr. Cloudy ------Wouldn't it be crazy if the American people actually found hope through a politician?

              Matt ------Amen to that. I think he should run. If he does, I promise to volunteer on his campaign. :-)

              ------Date: 2006-12-07 09:41:00 Subject: The Logic of Prejudice

              Another gem from Sullivan...

              A reader writes:

              Robert Knight describes Mary Cheney's child as being conceived "With the express purpose of denying it a father"?

              MARY CHENEY:  So would you like to have a child?

              HEATHER POE:  No, not really.

              MC:  Neither would I.

              They continue watching Seinfeld. Mary's Partner frowns.

              HP:  Wait, I just thought of something.

              MC:  What? HP:  If we did have a child, we could deny it a father.

              MC:  Wow, I never thought of it that way before. What should we name it?

              User Comments: reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Teehee...

              I wonder if that guy would say the same thing about my single (straight) friend who is adopting a baby girl from Guatemala?

              Probably.

              ------Date: 2006-12-07 23:09:00 Subject: A perfect evening (or close to it)

              -Out of the office by 4:10 PM

              -On site south of the White House to see the Christmas Tree lights go on

              -Starbucks venti half-caf with a shot of Hazlenut and cream

              -Free premier of Edward Norton's latest flick "The Painted Veil" at my favorite movie house, with the Washington Press corps and like minded indy film lovers in the audience

              -A walk home, experiencing DC's first snowfall of this winter season

              -A glass of wine, kitties on my lap and flannel pj's, getting cozy

              -Downloading "Fallen" from I-Tunes

              User Comments:

              Jill/Mamala ------Well, really, RM, it was just a tiny bit of snowfall...little flakes that didn't stick, but it was snow nonetheless, and I caught some of it on my tongue, like a child....wonderful! reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Snowfall?!?!? How the bleep did I miss that?

              Outtamyhead http://www.journalscape.com/outtamyhead/ ------can we trade your evening for mine??? that does sound pretty doggone perfect (or close to it)!!!!! beautiful, really.

              Lukee ------:)

              ------Date: 2006-12-10 19:05:00 Subject: Watching them, not her

              I was lucky enough to be in ReverendMother's church this morning to hear yet another wonderful sermon. The woman amazes me in so many ways and it's hard to take my eyes off of her, but today, I forced myself to look at the large congregation she was preaching to. I studied them and their expressions, their simple 2 or 3 word exchanges during her sermon ("She sings well," "let's go see that movie [she mentioned "Stranger than Fiction" during her sermon], "etc.," "etc.") The Impact Singers (teenagers all) paid attention and laughed at the funny parts. The "sleepers" did a little less sleeping. All age groups and ethnic groups and colors, shapes and sizes seemed to cling to her words, spoken, they were sure, directly to them.

              She has a great gift, and we all receive a part of it on the Sundays when she preaches.

              As her mother, all I can say is "WOW"

              User Comments:

              Sue http://innerdorothy.blogspot.com ------Aaawww...this is so lovely! reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Aw, thanks.

              And I meant what I said during the joys.

              ------Date: 2006-12-12 20:57:00 Subject: Simplifying So today marks the beginning of my second year in DC. And although I'm planning on signing a one year lease on my place, my goal and resolution for 2007 is to continue to get rid of stuff. All I need to do is find worthy, good causes of where to send all my extra possessions to.

              Oh sure, I'll keep some of the stuff and use some of it as the year progresses (I burn candles nightly, not waiting for the "right" time). I'd also like to trim down and know that if the mood hits me and I want to re-locate, I'm not overwhelmed by the thought of packing/moving/settling in a new place.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Getting rid of stuff can be really fun. Let me know if you ever rid yourself of any books or movies. I'm always on the lookout for good ones.

              Mamala ------maybe we'll end up in the same place...that'd be cool!

              Mamala ------you bet!

              Lukee ------"I'd also like to trim down and know that if the mood hits me and I want to re-locate, I'm not overwhelmed by the thought of packing/moving/settling in a new place."

              One of the joys of being single, huh?

              ------Date: 2006-12-14 14:53:00 Subject: the year in review

              Because ReverendMother did it and she's a rock star.

              The first line from the first post of each month this year:

            • And I'm sure it will be a happy one!
            • Bono, on C-span, at the National Prayer Breakfast [hyperlink]
            • Since moving to DC, I've found the most confusing thing for anyone (especially off-shore people) that I talk to about my new address is my answer to their question "What state do you live in?"
            • I spent the better part of the day with daughter #1 and her hubby and girls as we took in the Cherry Blossom Festival in DC.
            • If you can't comfort the afflicted, then afflict the comfortable.
            • What with the latest possible news about yet another war “atrocity†at Haditha (which, btw, I think is an anomaly...I still believe that most people, yes that includes our soldiers, are good...you may say that I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one) and was just now listening to Ebert/Roeper’s latest review on my Ipod and they mentioned war movies (since it was their review prior to Memorial Day), I'm wondering, what are your thoughts on war movies?
            • Today's my first fourth of July in DC...my thoughts....
            • Having come from my last contracting job in Dallas for a big firm headquartered in Richardson and made up of mostly WASPs from Iowa that transferred there during the time my father handled the ReLo for Ebby, I am struck now by the wonderful diversity of my work team.
            • I just had 3 of the best days of my life. I spent these days with 3/4 of my grandchildren, and 1/4 of my children.
            • So RM drops me off at the Metro and calls me soon thereafter... "Just passed a church and their billboard said 'Love your neighbor, even if they are a Cowboys fan'"
            • from Instapundit, AN AMUSING PHOTO FROM IRAQ. [hyperlink]
            • From Andrew Sullivan, "Obama Happens" [hyperlink]
            • Analysis: I'm in the right place.

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------It really is! reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------It's a great snapshot of the year, eh?

              ------Date: 2006-12-17 22:32:00 Subject: Time Magazine's getting lazy

              Person of the Year

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------superman

              Matthew ------I disagree. I think their choice this year was inspired. Who else should have gotten it? reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Agreed

              Lukee ------Lame! It's almost like at the end of a bad movie when a character comes out and spells out the moral of the story.

              This and their "Top 100 albums of all time" was just awful.

              ------Date: 2006-12-17 22:35:00 Subject: 10 things I like about America

              From Sullivan's guest blogger, Daniel:

                Over the next few days, alongside all the other stuff, I hope to introduce you to some of the best things on the British blogging and journalism scene. But if I'm going to do that it seems only fair if I start with 10 things I love about America:

                1. Loaded potato skins

                2. The Constitution and the Bill of Rights

                3. Walt Disney

                4. The fact that almost everyone you meet in America is incredibly polite

                5. The fact that almost everyone you meet in New York isn't

                6. The West Wing

                7. Martin Luther King

                8. The steaks at Morton's

                9. The Manhattan Institute

                10. The fact that you send your children across the world to risk their lives for liberty and spend billions of your dollars on it, even though the people whose liberty you are saving, including my fellow Europeans, don't say thank you properly

              Here are mine: 1. The melting pot

              2. Religious freedom

              3. Washington DC

              4. Women's rights

              5. Bloggers, and the freedom to blog

              6. The rule of law

              7. Public TV and Radio

              8. Independent Book Stores

              9. Travelling state to state without a passport

              10. America's version of Mexican, Italian, Thai, Indian, Chinese, etc. etc. food

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Hmmm

              1.) Great music: Blues, Rock & Roll, Hip Hop, etc

              2.) Hollywood. I am including TV in this. While American TV and movies can be utterly horrible, when Hollywood is good, it is REALLY good)

              3.) The American Dream. While it isn't true for many, it's nice to at least have an ideal to strive for.

              4.) Food. Americans have some awesome food.

              5.) Candy and sweets. Even better than food, we have awesome candy. Dr Pepper is from here!

              6.) Natural beauty. We have mountains, beaches, deserts, forests.. We have it all.

              7.) Political will. Even in times of seemingly universal apathy, we are a country that believes in self governance. 8.) Protest. We are ALL ABOUT speaking our minds when we feel wronged. Almost to a deficit!

              9.) Charity. Overall, Americans are a very charitable and hospitable group.

              10.) Hope. Americans are a very hopeful people. Again, sometimes to a deficit, but America is a land that embodies the phrase "Where there's a will, there's a way".

              ------Date: 2006-12-19 23:43:00 Subject: Add your own captions

              User Comments:

              Katieg ------I totally agree. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------And see, I think L looks a lot like the divine miss m.

              Jill/Mamala ------Katie, you're right! 1980 it was! I had to LOL at the comments you all have made (and I was in a business meeting when I first read them...doh!)

              Katieg ------My guess would be that this was taken December of 1980.

              Matthew ------I'm sure that with a higher resolution camera, you'd be able to see drool on Luke's chin.

              I think I remember that shirt. It looks like a shirt I'd still wear.

              I agree that K and I look alike, though I really can see a lot of Joey and Aunt Sherry coming through. A case can me made that Luke and MA look pretty similar as well. What *are* you looking at, MA? ;-)

              Lukee ------Wow.

              Santa looks like he is under the influence of a controlled substance. Or exhausted. It's the latter I am sure.

              Matt kinda looks stunned by the camera.

              I look like I am pretending to be a dinosaur.

              Katie looks like she would rather be, well, doing just about anything else!

              Maryann looks like she is making a very witty observation to herself.

              The overall picture is VERY cute. Oh, and I really think Katie and Matt look a lot alike in this photo! How old were we?

              Matthew ------haha

              1. Place bowl on top of head.

              2. Cut excess hair sticking out from bottom of bowl. 3. Remove bowl.

              Katieg ------This is great! The only thing I can think of...

              "Why does Mom give us all the exact same haircut?" reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------That?

              Was hilarious.

              I can't top that, except I have to wonder why K and MA did not take their coats off.

              Matthew ------Here are mine:

              MRM: "This guy smells like the AA meeting I went to last night with Dad, only the cigarette smell is more pungent."

              LTM: "Is there a way I can fall of his lap and scare my siblings?"

              KJM: "Someday, I'm going to have a son who looks just like me."

              MAM: "I'd look at the camera, but my huge glasses are obstructing my view." Santa: "I hate it when the McKibbens come in."

              Mamala ------Here are mine...

              MRM-"why are you making me do this?"

              LTM-"I'm too young to be scared"

              MAM-"I want to be anywhere but here"

              KJM-"I'm going to die in my room if you make me do this again!"

              ------Date: 2006-12-22 10:45:00 Subject: Just smile

              Within less than 24 hours I've had two complete strangers say to me "I like your smile" which has made me think #1. I *have* been doing alot of smiling lately and #2. Is a smile such a rare thing these days that when someone sees it, it's a remarkable event (or an event to be remarked on)?

              User Comments:

              Gram ------I have a good smile too! (this was written by Jill while training Gram on journalscape)

              Jillsusan/Mamala ------aw shucks...thanks for the good words

              Matthew ------Oh Mom. I have no doubt that people don't smile as much up in DC, but even if we lived in Happy Land, where people smiled all day every day, you'd still have people coming up to you and saying, "I like your smile." Your smile is warm and sweet like freshly baked cookies. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------You both have great ones.

              It's rare here, where people take themselves too seriously.

              Ted ------I get that all the time :)

              Actually I think smiling is way too rare these days, and is to be encouraged. Keep up the good work!

              ------Date: 2006-12-26 13:43:00 Subject: test for training gram this is a test to train gram about journalscape

              User Comments:

              Gram ------this is a test comment

              ------Date: 2006-12-31 10:15:00 Subject: A good resolution for 2007

              GOING GREEN IN 2007

              Excerpts from Ten Simple Things You Can Do to Go Green

              December 27, 2006 — By Della De Lafuente, Associated Press

              Laurie David, who produced Al Gore's documentary about global warming, "An Inconvenient Truth," says saving the planet isn't about everyone doing everything.

              "It's about everyone doing something," said David, who is also the author of "Stop Global Warming: The Solution is You" and founder of the StopGlobalWarming.org Web site. "The impact of small actions by millions of people will be huge."


              Here are 10 things you can do in the new year to do your part for the environment, including some "go green" tips from David's Web site, http://www.StopGlobalWarming.org.


              - Use compact fluorescent bulbs. Replace three frequently used light bulbs with compact fluorescent bulbs and save 300 pounds of carbon dioxide and about $60 a year. The Council on the Environment and Jewish Life is organizing a campaign called "How Many Jews Does It Take To Change A Light Bulb?" to encourage synagogues and other Jewish groups to replace conventional bulbs with compact fluorescent bulbs, which last four times longer but use 25 percent of the energy.


              - Save the water bottle. Sick of watching your recycle bin fill up with water bottles? Time to buy a reusable water bottle. REI, the outdoor equipment store, carries a 16-ounce Nalgene bottle, $7.95, in five colors, made from polycarbonate plastic; it has a wide mouth and is easily washed. Eastern Mountain Sports carries SIGG bottles from Switzerland, including an 0.6-liter lightweight stainless steel model that is a replica of a 1941 Swiss Army bottle, $20, in blue or red.


              - Pull the plug on electronics and chargers. Mobile phones, BlackBerry devices, iPods, digital cameras and other electronics use energy, even if they are turned off, if the charger is still going.


              - Take shorter showers.  Water for bathing accounts for two-thirds of all water-heating costs.


              - Buy a hybrid car. Hollywood actors Leonardo DiCaprio and Cameron Diaz have glamorized them; David even convinced her husband's HBO comedy series to have his character drive one on the show.


              - Create idle-free zones. Schools, churches, synagogues, libraries, shopping malls and anywhere that accommodates a large number of vehicles are prime spots for signs requiring vehicle engines to be turned off to help cut fuel emissions and improve air quality. David helped institute a no-idle rule in the parking lot of her children's school in Southern California to cut down on the "carbon dioxide haze" created by parents' idling vehicles. "You can do the same at your school, temple or church, " David said. "Ask that a sign be posted outside that says, 'Turn off your vehicle.'"


              - Buy local food products. You may pay a bit more in the grocery store, but buying locally grown products helps the earth because less fuel is required to transport your products to market. Additionally, buying goods that require less packaging may help reduce your garbage.


              - Bring cloth bags to the market. Tote your own cloth bags to the store instead of plastic and paper bags, reducing waste and requiring no additional energy. David also suggests carrying your own garment bag to the drycleaners to avoid bringing home plastic bags and wire hangers.


              - Put on a sweater instead of turning up the heat in your home.


              - Use recycled paper. Switch your home and business paper products to 100 percent post-consumer recycled paper, saving countless trees and five pounds of carbon dioxide per ream of paper.

              User Comments:

              Outtamyhead http://www.journalscape.com/outtamyhead/ ------me too. these are some great ideas. we do most of these things already, altho there's always room for improvement.

              Matthew ------Thanks for posting this. I just found my New Year's resolution(s).

              ------Date: 2007-01-01 10:20:00 Subject: Odd - Numbered Years

              I've always had a problem with odd-numbers...1-3-5-7-9-etc. etc. and that extends to odd- numbered years. Oh sure, I was born in an odd-numbered year and 3/4 of my children and 3/4 of my grandchildren were too. That in itself should tell me that really good things happen associated with odd-numbers.

              But I've been told that my lucky number is 4 and I kind of cancelled the odd-numbered year of my birth out by being born on 2/14. The fact remains, though, that those odd-numbered school years were killers (first, third, fifth, seventh, ninth, eleventh grades)...I can tell you more yucky stories about each of those grades than the calm and soothing second, fourth, sixth, eighth, tenth, and twelfth grades combined.

              So I enter this new year 2007 with some trepidation. It feels just slightly off-balance so far. It's a rainy day here in DC and the plans I'd made for the day are slightly askew, alerting me to the fact that my desire for even-ness and balance in all things is merely just a dream and not reality and that I just need to deal with it.

              On the other hand, I'm an eternal optimist and with the arrival of January 1st of each year, I remain genuinely grateful for this new day in this new year.

              User Comments:

              Jill/Mamala ------Lukee-I love that you are all smiles...what a difference a year makes!

              Jill/Mamala ------RM-Didn't really have anything planned for today (which can be a good thing) but the prospect of spending time with 3 of my favorite people turned out to be a much better thing! reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Lucky 7, right?

              I don't know what you had planned for today, but I am SO eternally grateful to you for helping us make the transition from harried airport to peaceful home. I coulda done it without you, but it woulda been ugly. I could tell I was losing patience with the day and the girls and it was good for them to have you there so it wasn't just them and Mommy the Ogre!

              Lukee ------I am all smiles about 2007. It's gonna be a great year!

              ------Date: 2007-01-01 23:38:00 Subject: One of the best TV moments of 2006

              User Comments: Ted ------I had missed that on TDS - what a great segment. Anyhoooo.....

              ------Date: 2007-01-01 23:56:00 Subject: The Laziest Son - A Rumination by Scott Horton (from Andrew Sullivan's blog)

                A man on his deathbed left instructions

                For dividing up his goods among his three sons.

                He had devoted his entire spirit to those sons.

                They stood like cypress trees around him,

                Quiet and strong.

                He told the town judge,

                "Whichever of my sons is laziest,

                Give him all the inheritance."

                Then he died, and the judge turned to the three,

                "Each of you must give some account of your laziness, so I can understand just how you are lazy."

                Mystics are experts in laziness. They rely on it,

                Because they continuously see God working all around them.

                The harvest keeps coming in, yet they

                Never even did the plowing!

                "Come on. Say something about the ways you are lazy."

                Every spoken word is a covering for the inner self.

                A little curtain-flick no wider than a slice Of roast meat can reveal hundreds of exploding suns.

                Even if what is being said is trivial and wrong,

                The listener hears the source. One breeze comes

                From across a garden. Another from across the ash-heap.

                Think how different the voices of the fox

                And the lion, and what they tell you!

                Hearing someone is lifting the lid off the cooking pot.

                You learn what's for supper. Though some people

                Can know just by the smell, a sweet stew

                From a sour soup cooked with vinegar.

                A man taps a clay pot before he buys it

                To know by the sound if it has a crack.

                The eldest of the three brothers told the judge,

                "I can know a man by his voice, and if he won't speak,

                I wait three days, and then I know him intuitively."

                The second brother, "I know him when he speaks,

                And if he won't talk, I strike up a conversation."

                "But what if he knows that trick?" asked the judge.

                Which reminds me of the mother who tells her child

                "When you're walking through the graveyard at night and you see a boogeyman, run at it, and it will go away."

                "But what," replies the child, "if the boogeyman's

                Mother has told it to do the same thing?

                Boogeymen have mothers too."

                The second brother had no answer.

                "I sit in front of him in silence,

                And set up a ladder made of patience,

                And if in his presence a language from beyond joy

                And beyond grief begins to pour from my chest,

                I know that his soul is as deep and bright

                As the star Canopus rising over Yemen.

                And so when I start speaking a powerful right arm

                Of words sweeping down, I know him from what I say,

                And how I say it, because there's a window open

                Between us, mixing the night air of our beings."

                The youngest was, obviously,

                The laziest. He won.

              - - -

              Not Christian or Jew or Muslim, not Hindu,

              Buddhist, sufi, or zen. Not any religion

              Or cultural system. I am not from the East

              Or the West, not out of the ocean or up From the ground, not natural or ethereal, not

              Composed of elements at all. I do not exist,

              Am not an entity in this world or the next,

              Did not descend from Adam and Eve or any

              Origin story. My place is placeless, a trace

              Of the traceless. Neither body nor soul.

              I belong to the beloved, have seen the two

              Worlds as one and that one call to and know,

              First, last, outer, inner, only that

              Breath breathing human being.

              There is a way between voice and presence

              Where information flows.

              In disciplined silence it opens,

              With wandering talk it closes.

              - Mawlana Jalal ad-Din Muhammad Balkhi (Rumi), Masnavi-ye Manavi (ca. 1265)(Coleman Barks transl.)

              If we had to craft a list of the ten greatest poets of human history, then certainly this thirteenth- century Muslim theologian, who began his life in modern day Afghanistan and ended it in what later became Turkey, would have an assured position on the list. And as for universality – what better measure than the fact that in 2004, Rumi ranked in surveys as the best read poet in Turkey, Iran, Afghanistan and, thanks to the brilliant translations of Coleman Barks, the United States. As with any Rumi poem, this one has many layers of meaning to it. But here's my understanding.

              Like Boccaccio's ring story in the Decameron (the third from the cycle of the first day) or Lessing's parable from Nathan the Wise (act 3, scene 4)– this choice of virtue among three sons should be immediately understood (and certainly would have been understood by a contemporary of Rumi's) this way: which of the three faiths "of the Book" is the true faith? The father is, of course, the God of the Book, and the sons, "tall like Cypresses," are Islam, Christianity and Judaism. Rumi echoes that in the follow-on ("Not Christian, Jew or Muslim…") And to this question Rumi offers several answers, mostly laden with irony. He tells us that professed belief counts for little, particularly if not sincerely held. "I can know a man by his voice," says the eldest son, who is promptly ejected from the contest. (But compare this with the wiser man – as Rumi reminds us, the clay pot must be tapped to test for a crack; the buyer who relies on the outward appearance alone is a fool). And, like Boccaccio and Lessing, he says that it is our conduct that matters and must ultimately provide the basis for a judgment.

              But on this point the irony of a Sufi mystic kicks in. For conduct, Rumi takes "laziness," for which here I see the introspective process of truth-seeking that is Rumi's hallmark, and that of the Mevlevi Brotherhood which he helped define. It involves discipline and rigor ("disciplined silence"), but to the uninitiated it must, of course, seem nothing but "laziness." ("Mystics are experts in laziness.") Can you hear the laughter? Rumi mocks himself, or at least, shows that he has a sense of humor.

              Importantly, Rumi warns us against demonization of the outsider, of the nonbeliever (the "boogeyman," who, he reminds us through the voice of a child, "has a mother, too.")

              But back to our question. Who is the chosen son? In the end we learn that it is "the youngest son," and the youngest of the three faiths is, of course, Islam. But this is not Rumi's ultimate meaning. The true answer is to point to the false premise of the question. The answer lies in what unites, not in what divides humankind – what ties humans one to another and to the world in which they live. A Sufi faithful would know this as the doctrine of the oneness of God, tauhid. Hence, the right answer: "there's a window open/ Between us, mixing the night air of our beings." Those who are driven by differentiation and false pride for their religious choice – whatever the religious choice - have failed the test in the most miserable way.

              And on this point, Rumi, Boccaccio and Lessing – the Muslim, the Catholic, and the Protestant who launched the drive for the emancipation of Europe's Jews - see things very much eye-to-eye. But their message is a vital one for our day. We live in an age in which thoughts of crusaders and caliphates have been resurrected for shameful and blood-drenched purposes. This must be overcome with urgency.

              So for the New Year, I wish what Rumi wishes – not a rejection of faith, but a faith more profound, based on tolerance, compassion and respect for the ties that bind humankind. I wish that the land where Rumi once walked – from his native city of Balkh in Afghanistan to his final home in Anatolian Konya - would know his thoughts and hopes again, and the peace that they promise. But I wish the same thing for my fellow citizens at home in the United States, where the poison of religious bigotry seeps ever closer to the groundwater. I hope we all can find that way "between voice and presence" of which Rumi writes. We need it badly. "With disciplined silence it opens/ With wandering talk it closes." So here's a resolve for the New Year: Let us find the tools to keep that window open. There is nothing that humanity requires more urgently than this.

              ------Date: 2007-01-02 20:27:00 Subject: Happy Birthday Daughter #1

              User Comments:

              Mamala ------RM-You dare to question my even-handedness? Even steven-ness? my "you are talented and so are your siblings, just the same?" reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Don't you mean #1 Daughter????

              Judy http://www.journalscape.com/judy ------Awwwww!!!

              Matthew ------DAMN!!! Check out the candle on that cake! Good picture!

              Happy Birthday, Reverendmother.

              ------Date: 2007-01-02 23:08:00 Subject: I'm such a cut-up

              The destruction/salvation/filing of my things begins. Tonight, I spent the better part of an hour destroying old medical records of mine going back to 1998 or so.

              My biggest resolution of this new year was to clean up my act, both physically and materially, as, by the end of this year, I want to be more portable, both physically and materially, so I can just go to wherever, whenever the urge hits, without a lot of extra baggage.

              So far, it's very liberating!

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Yes! Being free of excess stuff can be the best feeling in the world!

              ------Date: 2007-01-03 15:54:00 Subject: Some Day My Prince Will Come

              What's Wrong With Cinderella?

              By PEGGY ORENSTEIN

              The New York Times - 12/26/2006

              [JillSusan's Note: posted lovingly for my daughters and granddaughters]

              I finally came unhinged in the dentist's office — one of those ritzy pediatric practices tricked out with comic books, DVDs and arcade games — where I'd taken my 3-year-old daughter for her first exam. Until then, I'd held my tongue. I'd smiled politely every time the supermarket-checkout clerk greeted her with "Hi, Princess"; ignored the waitress at our local breakfast joint who called the funny-face pancakes she ordered her "princess meal"; made no comment when the lady at Longs Drugs said, "I bet I know your favorite color" and handed her a pink balloon rather than letting her choose for herself. Maybe it was the dentist's Betty Boop inflection that got to me, but when she pointed to the exam chair and said, "Would you like to sit in my special princess throne so I can sparkle your teeth?" I lost it.

              "Oh, for God's sake," I snapped. "Do you have a princess drill, too?"

              She stared at me as if I were an evil stepmother.

              "Come on!" I continued, my voice rising. "It's 2006, not 1950. This is Berkeley, Calif. Does every little girl really have to be a princess?"

              My daughter, who was reaching for a Cinderella sticker, looked back and forth between us. "Why are you so mad, Mama?" she asked. "What's wrong with princesses?"

              Diana may be dead and Masako disgraced, but here in America, we are in the midst of a royal moment. To call princesses a "trend" among girls is like calling Harry Potter a book. Sales at Disney Consumer Products, which started the craze six years ago by packaging nine of its female characters under one royal rubric, have shot up to $3 billion, globally, this year, from $300 million in 2001. There are now more than 25,000 Disney Princess items. "Princess," as some Disney execs call it, is not only the fastest-growing brand the company has ever created; they say it is on its way to becoming the largest girls' franchise on the planet. Meanwhile in 2001, Mattel brought out its own "world of girl" line of princess Barbie dolls, DVDs, toys, clothing, home décor and myriad other products. At a time when Barbie sales were declining domestically, they became instant best sellers. Shortly before that, Mary Drolet, a Chicago-area mother and former Claire's and Montgomery Ward executive, opened Club Libby Lu, now a chain of mall stores based largely in the suburbs in which girls ages 4 to 12 can shop for "Princess Phones" covered in faux fur and attend "Princess-Makeover Birthday Parties." Saks bought Club Libby Lu in 2003 for $12 million and has since expanded it to 87 outlets; by 2005, with only scant local advertising, revenues hovered around the $46 million mark, a 53 percent jump from the previous year. Pink, it seems, is the new gold.

              Even Dora the Explorer, the intrepid, dirty-kneed adventurer, has ascended to the throne: in 2004, after a two-part episode in which she turns into a "true princess," the Nickelodeon and Viacom consumer-products division released a satin-gowned "Magic Hair Fairytale Dora," with hair that grows or shortens when her crown is touched. Among other phrases the bilingual doll utters: "Vámonos! Let's go to fairy-tale land!" and "Will you brush my hair?"

              As a feminist mother — not to mention a nostalgic product of the Grranimals era — I have been taken by surprise by the princess craze and the girlie-girl culture that has risen around it. What happened to William wanting a doll and not dressing your cat in an apron? Whither Marlo Thomas? I watch my fellow mothers, women who once swore they'd never be dependent on a man, smile indulgently at daughters who warble "So This Is Love" or insist on being called Snow White. I wonder if they'd concede so readily to sons who begged for combat fatigues and mock AK-47s.

              More to the point, when my own girl makes her daily beeline for the dress-up corner of her preschool classroom — something I'm convinced she does largely to torture me — I worry about what playing Little Mermaid is teaching her. I've spent much of my career writing about experiences that undermine girls' well-being, warning parents that a preoccupation with body and beauty (encouraged by films, TV, magazines and, yes, toys) is perilous to their daughters' mental and physical health. Am I now supposed to shrug and forget all that? If trafficking in stereotypes doesn't matter at 3, when does it matter? At 6? Eight? Thirteen?

              On the other hand, maybe I'm still surfing a washed-out second wave of feminism in a third-wave world. Maybe princesses are in fact a sign of progress, an indication that girls can embrace their predilection for pink without compromising strength or ambition; that, at long last, they can "have it all." Or maybe it is even less complex than that: to mangle Freud, maybe a princess is sometimes just a princess. And, as my daughter wants to know, what's wrong with that?

              The rise of the Disney princesses reads like a fairy tale itself, with Andy Mooney, a former Nike executive, playing the part of prince, riding into the company on a metaphoric white horse in January 2000 to save a consumer-products division whose sales were dropping by as much as 30 percent a year. Both overstretched and underfocused, the division had triggered price wars by granting multiple licenses for core products (say, Winnie-the-Pooh undies) while ignoring the potential of new media. What's more, Disney films like "A Bug's Life" in 1998 had yielded few merchandising opportunities — what child wants to snuggle up with an ant? It was about a month after Mooney's arrival that the magic struck. That's when he flew to Phoenix to check out his first "Disney on Ice" show. "Standing in line in the arena, I was surrounded by little girls dressed head to toe as princesses," he told me last summer in his palatial office, then located in Burbank, and speaking in a rolling Scottish burr. "They weren't even Disney products. They were generic princess products they'd appended to a Halloween costume. And the light bulb went off. Clearly there was latent demand here. So the next morning I said to my team, 'O.K., let's establish standards and a color palette and talk to licensees and get as much product out there as we possibly can that allows these girls to do what they're doing anyway: projecting themselves into the characters from the classic movies.' "

              Mooney picked a mix of old and new heroines to wear the Pantone pink No. 241 corona: Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Snow White, Ariel, Belle, Jasmine, Mulan and Pocahontas. It was the first time Disney marketed characters separately from a film's release, let alone lumped together those from different stories. To ensure the sanctity of what Mooney called their individual "mythologies," the princesses never make eye contact when they're grouped: each stares off in a slightly different direction as if unaware of the others' presence.

              It is also worth noting that not all of the ladies are of royal extraction. Part of the genius of "Princess" is that its meaning is so broadly constructed that it actually has no meaning. Even Tinker Bell was originally a Princess, though her reign didn't last. "We'd always debate over whether she was really a part of the Princess mythology," Mooney recalled. "She really wasn't." Likewise, Mulan and Pocahontas, arguably the most resourceful of the bunch, are rarely depicted on Princess merchandise, though for a different reason. Their rustic garb has less bling potential than that of old-school heroines like Sleeping Beauty. (When Mulan does appear, she is typically in the kimonolike hanfu, which makes her miserable in the movie, rather than her liberated warrior's gear.)

              The first Princess items, released with no marketing plan, no focus groups, no advertising, sold as if blessed by a fairy godmother. To this day, Disney conducts little market research on the Princess line, relying instead on the power of its legacy among mothers as well as the instant- read sales barometer of the theme parks and Disney Stores. "We simply gave girls what they wanted," Mooney said of the line's success, "although I don't think any of us grasped how much they wanted this. I wish I could sit here and take credit for having some grand scheme to develop this, but all we did was envision a little girl's room and think about how she could live out the princess fantasy. The counsel we gave to licensees was: What type of bedding would a princess want to sleep in? What kind of alarm clock would a princess want to wake up to? What type of television would a princess like to see? It's a rare case where you find a girl who has every aspect of her room bedecked in Princess, but if she ends up with three or four of these items, well, then you have a very healthy business."

              Every reporter Mooney talks to asks some version of my next question: Aren't the Princesses, who are interested only in clothes, jewelry and cadging the handsome prince, somewhat retrograde role models?

              "Look," he said, "I have friends whose son went through the Power Rangers phase who castigated themselves over what they must've done wrong. Then they talked to other parents whose kids had gone through it. The boy passes through. The girl passes through. I see girls expanding their imagination through visualizing themselves as princesses, and then they pass through that phase and end up becoming lawyers, doctors, mothers or princesses, whatever the case may be."

              Mooney has a point: There are no studies proving that playing princess directly damages girls' self-esteem or dampens other aspirations. On the other hand, there is evidence that young women who hold the most conventionally feminine beliefs — who avoid conflict and think they should be perpetually nice and pretty — are more likely to be depressed than others and less likely to use contraception. What's more, the 23 percent decline in girls' participation in sports and other vigorous activity between middle and high school has been linked to their sense that athletics is unfeminine. And in a survey released last October by Girls Inc., school-age girls overwhelmingly reported a paralyzing pressure to be "perfect": not only to get straight A's and be the student-body president, editor of the newspaper and captain of the swim team but also to be "kind and caring," "please everyone, be very thin and dress right." Give those girls a pumpkin and a glass slipper and they'd be in business.

              At the grocery store one day, my daughter noticed a little girl sporting a Cinderella backpack. "There's that princess you don't like, Mama!" she shouted.

              "Um, yeah," I said, trying not to meet the other mother's hostile gaze.

              "Don't you like her blue dress, Mama?"

              I had to admit, I did.

              She thought about this. "Then don't you like her face?"

              "Her face is all right," I said, noncommittally, though I'm not thrilled to have my Japanese-Jewish child in thrall to those Aryan features. (And what the heck are those blue things covering her ears?) "It's just, honey, Cinderella doesn't really do anything."

              Over the next 45 minutes, we ran through that conversation, verbatim, approximately 37 million times, as my daughter pointed out Disney Princess Band-Aids, Disney Princess paper cups, Disney Princess lip balm, Disney Princess pens, Disney Princess crayons and Disney Princess notebooks — all cleverly displayed at the eye level of a 3-year-old trapped in a shopping cart — as well as a bouquet of Disney Princess balloons bobbing over the checkout line. The repetition was excessive, even for a preschooler. What was it about my answers that confounded her? What if, instead of realizing: Aha! Cinderella is a symbol of the patriarchal oppression of all women, another example of corporate mind control and power-to-the-people! my 3-year-old was thinking, Mommy doesn't want me to be a girl? According to theories of gender constancy, until they're about 6 or 7, children don't realize that the sex they were born with is immutable. They believe that they have a choice: they can grow up to be either a mommy or a daddy. Some psychologists say that until permanency sets in kids embrace whatever stereotypes our culture presents, whether it's piling on the most spangles or attacking one another with light sabers. What better way to assure that they'll always remain themselves? If that's the case, score one for Mooney. By not buying the Princess Pull-Ups, I may be inadvertently communicating that being female (to the extent that my daughter is able to understand it) is a bad thing.

              Anyway, you have to give girls some credit. It's true that, according to Mattel, one of the most popular games young girls play is "bride," but Disney found that a groom or prince is incidental to that fantasy, a regrettable necessity at best. Although they keep him around for the climactic kiss, he is otherwise relegated to the bottom of the toy box, which is why you don't see him prominently displayed in stores.

              What's more, just because they wear the tulle doesn't mean they've drunk the Kool-Aid. Plenty of girls stray from the script, say, by playing basketball in their finery, or casting themselves as the powerful evil stepsister bossing around the sniveling Cinderella. I recall a headline-grabbing 2005 British study that revealed that girls enjoy torturing, decapitating and microwaving their Barbies nearly as much as they like to dress them up for dates. There is spice along with that sugar after all, though why this was news is beyond me: anyone who ever played with the doll knows there's nothing more satisfying than hacking off all her hair and holding her underwater in the bathtub. Princesses can even be a boon to exasperated parents: in our house, for instance, royalty never whines and uses the potty every single time.

              "Playing princess is not the issue," argues Lyn Mikel Brown, an author, with Sharon Lamb, of "Packaging Girlhood: Rescuing Our Daughters From Marketers' Schemes." "The issue is 25,000 Princess products," says Brown, a professor of education and human development at Colby College. "When one thing is so dominant, then it's no longer a choice: it's a mandate, cannibalizing all other forms of play. There's the illusion of more choices out there for girls, but if you look around, you'll see their choices are steadily narrowing."

              It's hard to imagine that girls' options could truly be shrinking when they dominate the honor roll and outnumber boys in college. Then again, have you taken a stroll through a children's store lately? A year ago, when we shopped for "big girl" bedding at Pottery Barn Kids, we found the "girls" side awash in flowers, hearts and hula dancers; not a soccer player or sailboat in sight. Across the no-fly zone, the "boys" territory was all about sports, trains, planes and automobiles. Meanwhile, Baby GAP's boys' onesies were emblazoned with "Big Man on Campus" and the girls' with "Social Butterfly"; guess whose matching shoes were decorated on the soles with hearts and whose sported a "No. 1" logo? And at Toys "R" Us, aisles of pink baby dolls, kitchens, shopping carts and princesses unfurl a safe distance from the "Star Wars" figures, GeoTrax and tool chests. The relentless resegregation of childhood appears to have sneaked up without any further discussion about sex roles, about what it now means to be a boy or to be a girl. Or maybe it has happened in lieu of such discussion because it's easier this way. Easier, that is, unless you want to buy your daughter something that isn't pink. Girls' obsession with that color may seem like something they're born with, like the ability to breathe or talk on the phone for hours on end. But according to Jo Paoletti, an associate professor of American studies at the University of Maryland, it ain't so. When colors were first introduced to the nursery in the early part of the 20th century, pink was considered the more masculine hue, a pastel version of red. Blue, with its intimations of the Virgin Mary, constancy and faithfulness, was thought to be dainty. Why or when that switched is not clear, but as late as the 1930s a significant percentage of adults in one national survey held to that split. Perhaps that's why so many early Disney heroines — Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Wendy, Alice-in-Wonderland — are swathed in varying shades of azure. (Purple, incidentally, may be the next color to swap teams: once the realm of kings and N.F.L. players, it is fast becoming the bolder girl's version of pink.)

              It wasn't until the mid-1980s, when amplifying age and sex differences became a key strategy of children's marketing (recall the emergence of " 'tween"), that pink became seemingly innate to girls, part of what defined them as female, at least for the first few years. That was also the time that the first of the generation raised during the unisex phase of feminism — ah, hither Marlo! â €” became parents. "The kids who grew up in the 1970s wanted sharp definitions for their own kids," Paoletti told me. "I can understand that, because the unisex thing denied everything — you couldn't be this, you couldn't be that, you had to be a neutral nothing."

              The infatuation with the girlie girl certainly could, at least in part, be a reaction against the so- called second wave of the women's movement of the 1960s and '70s (the first wave was the fight for suffrage), which fought for reproductive rights and economic, social and legal equality. If nothing else, pink and Princess have resuscitated the fantasy of romance that that era of feminism threatened, the privileges that traditional femininity conferred on women despite its costs — doors magically opened, dinner checks picked up, Manolo Blahniks. Frippery. Fun. Why should we give up the perks of our sex until we're sure of what we'll get in exchange? Why should we give them up at all? Or maybe it's deeper than that: the freedoms feminism bestowed came with an undercurrent of fear among women themselves — flowing through "Ally McBeal," "Bridget Jones's Diary," "Sex and the City" — of losing male love, of never marrying, of not having children, of being deprived of something that felt essentially and exclusively female.

              I mulled that over while flipping through "The Paper Bag Princess," a 1980 picture book hailed as an antidote to Disney. The heroine outwits a dragon who has kidnapped her prince, but not before the beast's fiery breath frizzles her hair and destroys her dress, forcing her to don a paper bag. The ungrateful prince rejects her, telling her to come back when she is "dressed like a real princess." She dumps him and skips off into the sunset, happily ever after, alone.

              There you have it, "Thelma and Louise" all over again. Step out of line, and you end up solo or, worse, sailing crazily over a cliff to your doom. Alternatives like those might send you skittering right back to the castle. And I get that: the fact is, though I want my daughter to do and be whatever she wants as an adult, I still hope she'll find her Prince Charming and have babies, just as I have. I don't want her to be a fish without a bicycle; I want her to be a fish with another fish. Preferably, one who loves and respects her and also does the dishes and half the child care.

              There had to be a middle ground between compliant and defiant, between petticoats and paper bags. I remembered a video on YouTube, an ad for a Nintendo game called Super Princess Peach. It showed a pack of girls in tiaras, gowns and elbow-length white gloves sliding down a zip line on parasols, navigating an obstacle course of tires in their stilettos, slithering on their bellies under barbed wire, then using their telekinetic powers to make a climbing wall burst into flames. "If you can stand up to really mean people," an announcer intoned, "maybe you have what it takes to be a princess."

              Now here were some girls who had grit as well as grace. I loved Princess Peach even as I recognized that there was no way she could run in those heels, that her peachiness did nothing to upset the apple cart of expectation: she may have been athletic, smart and strong, but she was also adorable. Maybe she's what those once-unisex, postfeminist parents are shooting for: the melding of old and new standards. And perhaps that's a good thing, the ideal solution. But what to make, then, of the young women in the Girls Inc. survey? It doesn't seem to be "having it all" that's getting to them; it's the pressure to be it all. In telling our girls they can be anything, we have inadvertently demanded that they be everything. To everyone. All the time. No wonder the report was titled "The Supergirl Dilemma."

              The princess as superhero is not irrelevant. Some scholars I spoke with say that given its post- 9/11 timing, princess mania is a response to a newly dangerous world. "Historically, princess worship has emerged during periods of uncertainty and profound social change," observes Miriam Forman-Brunell, a historian at the University of Missouri-Kansas City. Francis Hodgson Burnett's original"Little Princess" was published at a time of rapid urbanization, immigration and poverty; Shirley Temple's film version was a hit during the Great Depression. "The original folk tales themselves," Forman-Brunell says, "spring from medieval and early modern European culture that faced all kinds of economic and demographic and social upheaval — famine, war, disease, terror of wolves. Girls play savior during times of economic crisis and instability." That's a heavy burden for little shoulders. Perhaps that's why the magic wand has become an essential part of the princess get-up. In the original stories — even the Disney versions of them — it's not the girl herself who's magic; it's the fairy godmother. Now if Forman-Brunell is right, we adults have become the cursed creatures whom girls have the thaumaturgic power to transform.

              In the 1990s, third-wave feminists rebelled against their dour big sisters, "reclaiming" sexual objectification as a woman's right — provided, of course, that it was on her own terms, that she was the one choosing to strip or wear a shirt that said "Porn Star" or make out with her best friend at a frat-house bash. They embraced words like "bitch" and "slut" as terms of affection and empowerment. That is, when used by the right people, with the right dash of playful irony. But how can you assure that? As Madonna gave way to Britney, whatever self-determination that message contained was watered down and commodified until all that was left was a gaggle of 6- year-old girls in belly-baring T-shirts (which I'm guessing they don't wear as cultural critique). It is no wonder that parents, faced with thongs for 8-year-olds and Bratz dolls' "passion for fashion," fill their daughters' closets with pink sateen; the innocence of Princess feels like a reprieve.

              "But what does that mean?" asks Sharon Lamb, a psychology professor at Saint Michael's College. "There are other ways to express 'innocence' — girls could play ladybug or caterpillar. What you're really talking about is sexual purity. And there's a trap at the end of that rainbow, because the natural progression from pale, innocent pink is not to other colors. It's to hot, sexy pink — exactly the kind of sexualization parents are trying to avoid." Lamb suggested that to see for myself how "Someday My Prince Will Come" morphs into "Oops! I Did It Again," I visit Club Libby Lu, the mall shop dedicated to the "Very Important Princess."

              Walking into one of the newest links in the store's chain, in Natick, Mass., last summer, I had to tip my tiara to the founder, Mary Drolet: Libby Lu's design was flawless. Unlike Disney, Drolet depended on focus groups to choose the logo (a crown-topped heart) and the colors (pink, pink, purple and more pink). The displays were scaled to the size of a 10-year-old, though most of the shoppers I saw were several years younger than that. The decals on the walls and dressing rooms — "I Love Your Hair," "Hip Chick," "Spoiled" — were written in "girlfriend language." The young sales clerks at this "special secret club for superfabulous girls" are called "club counselors" and come off like your coolest baby sitter, the one who used to let you brush her hair. The malls themselves are chosen based on a company formula called the G.P.I., or "Girl Power Index," which predicts potential sales revenues. Talk about newspeak: "Girl Power" has gone from a riot grrrrl anthem to "I Am Woman, Watch Me Shop."

              Inside, the store was divided into several glittery "shopping zones" called "experiences": Libby's Laboratory, now called Sparkle Spa, where girls concoct their own cosmetics and bath products; Libby's Room; Ear Piercing; Pooch Parlor (where divas in training can pamper stuffed poodles, pugs and Chihuahuas); and the Style Studio, offering "Libby Du" makeover choices, including 'Tween Idol, Rock Star, Pop Star and, of course, Priceless Princess. Each look includes hairstyle, makeup, nail polish and sparkly tattoos.

              As I browsed, I noticed a mother standing in the center of the store holding a price list for makeover birthday parties — $22.50 to $35 per child. Her name was Anne McAuliffe; her daughters — Stephanie, 4, and 7-year-old twins Rory and Sarah — were dashing giddily up and down the aisles.

              "They've been begging to come to this store for three weeks," McAuliffe said. "I'd never heard of it. So I said they could, but they'd have to spend their own money if they bought anything." She looked around. "Some of this stuff is innocuous," she observed, then leaned toward me, eyes wide and stage-whispered: "But ... a lot of it is horrible. It makes them look like little prostitutes. It's crazy. They're babies!"

              As we debated the line between frivolous fun and JonBenét, McAuliffe's daughter Rory came dashing up, pigtails haphazard, glasses askew. "They have the best pocketbooks here," she said breathlessly, brandishing a clutch with the words "Girlie Girl" stamped on it. "Please, can I have one? It has sequins!"

              "You see that?" McAuliffe asked, gesturing at the bag. "What am I supposed to say?"

              On my way out of the mall, I popped into the " 'tween" mecca Hot Topic, where a display of Tinker Bell items caught my eye. Tinker Bell, whose image racks up an annual $400 million in retail sales with no particular effort on Disney's part, is poised to wreak vengeance on the Princess line that once expelled her. Last winter, the first chapter book designed to introduce girls to Tink and her Pixie Hollow pals spent 18 weeks on The New York Times children's best-seller list. In a direct-to-DVD now under production, she will speak for the first time, voiced by the actress Brittany Murphy. Next year, Disney Fairies will be rolled out in earnest. Aimed at 6- to 9-year-old girls, the line will catch them just as they outgrow Princess. Their colors will be lavender, green, turquoise — anything but the Princess's soon-to-be-babyish pink.

              To appeal to that older child, Disney executives said, the Fairies will have more "attitude" and "sass" than the Princesses. What, I wondered, did that entail? I'd seen some of the Tinker Bell merchandise that Disney sells at its theme parks: T-shirts reading, "Spoiled to Perfection," "Mood Subject to Change Without Notice" and "Tinker Bell: Prettier Than a Princess." At Hot Topic, that edge was even sharper: magnets, clocks, light-switch plates and panties featured "Dark Tink," described as "the bad girl side of Miss Bell that Walt never saw."

              Girl power, indeed.

              A few days later, I picked my daughter up from preschool. She came tearing over in a full-skirted frock with a gold bodice, a beaded crown perched sideways on her head. "Look, Mommy, I'm Ariel!" she crowed. referring to Disney's Little Mermaid. Then she stopped and furrowed her brow. "Mommy, do you like Ariel?"

              I considered her for a moment. Maybe Princess is the first salvo in what will become a lifelong struggle over her body image, a Hundred Years' War of dieting, plucking, painting and perpetual dissatisfaction with the results. Or maybe it isn't. I'll never really know. In the end, it's not the Princesses that really bother me anyway. They're just a trigger for the bigger question of how, over the years, I can help my daughter with the contradictions she will inevitably face as a girl, the dissonance that is as endemic as ever to growing up female. Maybe the best I can hope for is that her generation will get a little further with the solutions than we did.

              For now, I kneeled down on the floor and gave my daughter a hug.

              She smiled happily. "But, Mommy?" she added. "When I grow up, I'm still going to be a fireman."

              User Comments:

              Sherry http://www.journalscape.com/sherry/ ------Yup, It is a slippery slope from Mary Poppins to Marilyn Manson.

              It seems like yesterday that I swore that if I had to see Chim-chimeny one. more. time. I would scream.

              And then two days ago that same sweet Poppins fan was trying to convince me that Marilyn Manson is really a great artist!!

              Lukee ------high school musical.

              that is all. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------Well, and J is 9. Apparently there are four year olds having birthday parties there. That just ain't right.

              Matthew ------Oh I don't know about that. I think your grand daughters are on a slippery slope. One day it's Mary Poppins and Cinderella, the next it's Marilyn Manson and Nine Inch Nails. ;-)

              Mamala ------OTOH, Jessie enjoyed a few hours at Libby Lu over the holidays and it did seem like good clean fun, given that her parents are good at keeping things in perspective. I think that's the key.

              I'm confident all 3 of my granddaughters will be just fine, given their good parentage. reverendmother www.journalscape.com/reverendmother ------I liked the article and agreed with most of it.

              The most important point was that it's a matter of degree. The princess stuff is everywhere. We've bought her very little (if any?) princess stuff and yet she has managed to collect tons of it. I don't intend to ban it from the house, I've chilled out about my issues with it, but, I do hope her birthday gifts will go beyond the princess thing. Just to balance things out. It's the ultimate in hubris to make sweeping pronouncements--a person's just begging to be taken off her high horse by saying "never"--but I'm as confident as I can be in saying that there is NO WAY my child will ever go to a Club Libby Lu event on my watch.

              Finally, after watching The Little Mermaid mumblemumble times with C, I can say that she shows bravery and a sense of adventure. She wants to be a human WAY before meeting Prince Eric.

              Ahem.

              Maggie http://www.journalscape.com/maggie/ ------Such a fascinating read. Thanks for posting this.

              ------Date: 2007-01-06 16:37:00 Subject: Perspective

              C- "MaDear, are you getting old?"

              MaDear- "Yes, are you getting old, C?"

              C- "No, I'm not getting old, I'm growing up."

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------great post!

              ------Date: 2007-01-09 14:41:00 Subject: I want one

              IPhone

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------The hands were generated by Pixar.

              Lukee ------Everyone is waiting for Apple to stumble (same with pixar) but so far neither company has. And about my original comment, what IS with those creappy "perfect hands" they have in those ads?!?!

              Matthew ------Nice!

              1. Wonder what the battery life is like.

              2. I'm really intrigued by the new iTV that they unveiled yesterday.

              3. Anya's dream of a widescreen iPod is almost fully realized. If I remember reading correctly, the iPod screen on this is in widescreen, right?

              4. I wonder how sleek and shiny these buttons are going to look after pressed against a sweaty cheeked phone talker.

              Lukee ------nice!

              Mamala ------Lukee-you mean "i-hand"?

              Lukee ------a hand?

              ------Date: 2007-01-10 11:25:00 Subject: The Political Compass

              Try it yourself Here's my score:

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------My blood runs red like a Communist flag. haha reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------Good lord!

              Matthew ------Your political compass

              Economic Left/Right: -8.88

              Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -6.41 reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------Your political compass

              Economic Left/Right: -6.50

              Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -5.44

              Interesting!

              Lukee ------Your political compass

              Economic Left/Right: -5.00

              Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -7.03

              ------Date: 2007-01-17 15:05:00 Subject: The Appeal for Redress

              All these Democrats do is talk, talk, talk Wednesday, January 17th, 2007 - by Mike Lupica

              Talk today about Sgt. Liam Madden, a kid from Vermont who joined the Marines after high school and ended up in Anbar Province, who says that you can be a good Marine and a good American and still want our war in Iraq to stop.

              Talk proudly about Madden of the 31st Marine Expeditionary Unit, who took a petition, signed by more than 1,000 just like him, to Congress yesterday, who just by walking up the steps of the Cannon House Office Building did more than big Democrats such as Sens. Hillary Clinton (D- N.Y.) and Barack Obama (D-Ill.) are doing these days.

              Clinton would rather be photographed with soldiers than do anything for them. The other day on "Face the Nation," Obama looked like he wanted to hide under the desk when Bob Schieffer asked him if he backed Sen. Edward Kennedy's bill that would require congressional approval to fund the troop increases that this President has planned. Obama started talking about a "phased withdrawal" and sounded like somebody trying to explain cricket.

              One of the reasons Kennedy (D-Mass.) can do what he does at this stage of his career is because he has nothing to lose. Clinton and Obama are different. They are the headliners of the party in power now, but all they do is talk and talk but say nothing meaningful about Iraq. It tells you everything about how much both of them want to be President, no matter what kind of mess they would inherit in Baghdad.

              This isn't about ideals with them as much as ambition. Maybe they can explain to the people on the ground now how important it is for them to find a safe place in this debate.

              "I'd tell you that the Democrats are talking a good game, but they're not even doing that," Madden says. "Everybody in Congress has to understand something: If they continue to fund this war, it's not just the President who owns it. They own it, too."

              The Appeal for Redress, as yesterday's document is officially called, was signed by active military members and National Guardsmen and reservists. There were 1,034 names on it yesterday when Madden and the others took it up the steps to the Cannon Terrace. And this was not partisan dissent that came from the President's political opponents. This came from soldiers brave enough to speak out, even at the possible cost of their careers, and makes them braver than the people who represent them.

              Their Appeal for Redress ended this way: "The timing of the beginning of the war was a choice, and the timing of the ending will be a choice. If President Bush does not choose to end the war, then Congress must by cutting off funds."

              At least Kennedy tries to do something. The best the rest of them can do is talk about some kind of nonbinding resolution. That ought to scare off Bush and Vice President Cheney.

              It is as if Clinton and Obama in particular are terrified of being Swift-boated by the Republicans all over again, made out to be weaklings and cowards if they don't want to continue sending U.S. soldiers over to Iraq to die in a civil war the United Nations now says killed more than 34,000 Iraqi civilians in the last year alone. "This isn't us against the military," Madden says. "It's us against this policy."

              Madden joined the Marines at 18 because, he says, he needed purpose in his life. He thought that in the last four years of his contract, he could get himself a college education. Now he is not so sure, even though he was told on his way into service for his country that he would be called back from inactive duty only for a "national emergency."

              "They keep changing the rules," he says

              So he puts his name on the Appeal for Redress. And then listens to Cheney, who goes on television Sunday and says that if we withdraw U.S. forces from Iraq, we "revalidate the strategy that Osama Bin Laden has been following from day one, that if you kill enough Americans, you can force them to quit,that we don't have the stomach forthe fight."

              This is the same Cheney who has only ever picked up a gun in his life to shoot birds or lawyers.

              "It's the same old stuff," Madden says. "If we're not blind in our loyalty to their beliefs, then Osama wins. But that doesn't work anymore, and the election should have told everybody that. The American people aren't idiots."

              Just treated that way by this administration. On one hand, the President calls this the most important ideological battle of our time. Then, practically in the next breath, he says that this country's commitment in Iraq is not "open-ended." So even with the most important ideological battle of our time, he has the meter running.

              Some soldiers, ones who have put themselves on the line in Iraq, spoke out against this lunacy yesterday. It is the best they can do for now. It is their elected officials who have to do better, starting with the Democratic front-runners, Clinton and Barack. They can start by saying they will vote against further funding of this war the first chance they get. You fund this war, you own it. ------Date: 2007-01-19 17:48:00 Subject: Epitaph

              "I was asked once what I would like as my epitaph. In the 1960s, I had this terrible old jacket, which I loved. You know, one of those adored rags you never want to part with. And I came back and I had been covered with mud and blood and honey. I still chuckle now remembering it. It had this thing pinned to it - Sycamore Cleaners - 'It distresses us to return work which is not perfect.'

              I want that on my tombstone, please"

              -Peter O'Toole on The Charlie Rose Show, January 17, 2007

              ------Date: 2007-01-20 11:17:00 Subject: Surge Protector

              I agree with Krauthammer...

                We need to find a redeployment strategy that maintains as much latent American strength as possible, but with minimal exposure. We say to Maliki: Let us down, and we dismantle the Green Zone, leave Baghdad and let you fend for yourself; we keep the airport and certain strategic bases in the area; we redeploy most of our forces to Kurdistan; we maintain a significant presence in Anbar province, where we are having success in our one-front war against al-Qaeda and the Baathists. Then we watch. You can have your Baghdad civil war without us. We will be around to pick up the pieces as best we can.

              ------Date: 2007-01-20 11:22:00 Subject: Obama's experience

              An answer to anyone who says that Obama lacks experience... remind them of the vast experience of Cheney and Rumsfeld and where that got us.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------Like Uncle Ted said on a sig, or in a post... amateurs built the ark. Professionals built the Titanic. lukee ------Yeah, if there is anything we do need it's new ideas.

              ------Date: 2007-01-21 22:24:00 Subject: Hillary '08?

              ------Date: 2007-01-23 10:29:00 Subject: Snow's gone

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Brilliant! lukee ------Great cartoon! It's one I actually understand!

              ------Date: 2007-01-29 16:50:00 Subject: Kibbles and Bits

              User Comments:

              Katieg ------Not me. People just couldn't pronounce our last name, so it didn't get morphed to much for me.

              Mamala ------Wow...I've never heard that before...so far, people I've known have been kind, although our last name is easy to massacre. lukee ------Yeah, I got it too.

              Matthew ------I'm not sure if my siblings ever experienced this, but I used to get teased with McKibbles and Bits. It could have been worse, so I'm not complaining, but your title made me chuckle a little.

              ------Date: 2007-01-30 15:11:00 Subject: Friends Forever!

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Or friends for never? reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------LOL! I was thinking "BFF!" (best friends forever)

              ------Date: 2007-02-04 08:19:00 Subject: Merry Super, Happy Bowl!

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------I had a weird football related dream last night. I wonder if it's because of the superbowl.

              ------Date: 2007-02-09 11:15:00 Subject: 10 and a half hours of movies

              I just purchased a ticket to view all 5 Oscar nominated movies for Best Movie in one day at one of the cinema-plexes here in the area. I'll go the day before the Oscars, and if I can handle sitting through all 5, I'll really have a favorite to cheer for the following night...should be fun!

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------That's very fun.

              I think we're going to host an Oscar party---you need to come!

              Mamala ------Check it out!

              Matthew ------Awesome! How do I get in on this?

              Lukee ------That's a lot of hours of movies. Should be a good time. I don't even know what's been nominated! I feel so hermit-like.

              ------Date: 2007-02-12 14:53:00 Subject: The Grammys

              The Grammys delivered, as I was rooting for the Dixie Chicks and they were 5 for 5. I especially liked The Police opening, but wished they'd picked another song...Roxanne's not my favorite. Other highlights for me included the medley with Corinne Bailey Rae, John Legend and John Mayer, anything sung by Mary J. Blige, the Red Hot Chili Peppers closing number and their plea to the youth of America "We need more rock bands!" but by far, the best number of the night was Christina Aguilera's as she delivered a memorable, perhaps legendary, performance of James Brown's "It's A Man's World."

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Wow.

              Aguilera sang *that*?

              Pop culture just hit a speed bump.

              ------Date: 2007-02-13 20:36:00 Subject: The Heart of the Buddha

              "The heart of the Buddha is in each of us. When we are mindful, the Buddha is there. . . . We need to take care of the healthy seeds that are in us by watering them every day through the practice of mindful breathing, mindful walking, mindfully doing everything. We need to touch the Buddha within us. We need to enter our own heart, which means to enter the heart of the Buddha. To enter the heart of the Buddha means to be present for ourselves, our suffering, our joys, and for many others. . . . I am confident that you can do it."

              -- Thich Nhat Hanh

              ------Date: 2007-02-13 23:04:00 Subject: Westminster Dog Show

              This is just wrong...

              But then, it didn't win. James, the English Springer Spaniel did.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------I really don't like poodles. They're good dogs and all, but I wish people would stop poofing up their hair like that.

              Lukee ------That woman's knees look like the cocker spaniel's stomach!

              ------Date: 2007-02-18 09:58:00 Subject: The Divine's Evening at MaDear's

              Little She-Who-Is and the Divine Miss M came over to my place for pizza and ice cream last night while their mom and dad had a dinner out in the District. Although little "She" has been here many times and knows about all of my wonderful little things (the night lights, the flash lights, the stool that she sits on to have dinner, the nuggets, the kitty brush, MaDear's toy box, etc) the "Divine" had her own discoveries to make.

              She was overjoyed to find that all of MaDear's cabinet doors and drawers open all the way, without locks. She loved being able to climb up on the chair and turn the computer monitor switch on and off without having to scale the gate that surrounds her Daddy's home office. And since I have a relatively simple TV and video system she was allowed to push all the buttons on both my remotes without discouragement. The best part for her was being able to have a "picnic" during dinner as I don't have a table or even a tv tray to set up for her but rather, the 3 of us just sat on the floor and as she explored one corner or another, she'd come back to this spot for another bite of pizza or spoonful of yogurt. She was in heaven not being confined to a high chair. And you've not known the expression of being overjoyed until you've seen it on the "Divine's" sweet face!

              User Comments:

              Mr. Cloudy ------Hi my friend. I believe that your house is a place it is easy to be overjoyed -- a place like your heart, with room for everyone, and time for exploring and discovering. You are a gift to your family and your friends.

              Lukee ------I am going to start calling her "da divine"

              Judy http://www.journalscape.com/lb ------You just gotta love watching those little ones explore and discover! Your wonder at it just about matches theirs. Enjoy it!! reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------So true!

              Ted ------You were in heaven and so were they....what a great evening for you all!

              ------Date: 2007-02-18 11:15:00 Subject: Coping with New Technology

              An amusing video.

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Ha! Let's hear it for intuitive interface!

              ------Date: 2007-02-19 21:58:00 Subject: Just get over it!

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------This one really made me laugh yesterday.

              Lukee ------Ha! Wow, this is quite a comic!

              ------Date: 2007-02-25 01:07:00 Subject: And the Oscar goes to...

              My picks:

              Best Picture - Babel

              Best Actor - All 4 Hunky Actors in The Departed (Matt Damon, Leonardo DiCaprio, Mark Wahlberg & Jack Nicholson, yes, Jack Nicholson)- [This won't happen as none of them were nominated in this category, but wow...]

              Best Actress - Meryl Streep in The Devil Wears Prada ( was great and I haven't seen the rest of the movies with the nominees in this category, but Meryl nailed this character) [side note: 3 of the 5 nominees in this category are over 50] Best Original Screenplay - Letters from Iwo Jima

              Best Adapted Screenplay - I only saw The Departed in this category and kept thinking that although this was a good flick, haven't I seen this before?...think L.A. Confidential-ish

              Best Supporting Actor - Mark Wahlberg (again, he's the only one I saw in this category so I'll pull for him)

              Best Supporting Actress - a tie - Adriana Barraza and Rinko Kikuchi for Babel

              Best Director - Although I'd love to see Scorsese get it (FINALLY) The Departed was very much a "guy" movie (although I endured all the blood and guts because of the tremendous acting of all the actors in this movie...did I mention Martin Sheen's excellence? Even Alec Baldwin was perfect in this movie!). However, I'm pulling for Paul Greengrass for United 93. I mean, he took unknown actors and some real life characters and molded them into the most powerful movie of the year (for me).

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------:-)

              Jill Susan ------OK, I missed on most all counts but I know my Short Action flicks like the back of my hand!

              ------Date: 2007-03-01 10:39:00 Subject: An Inconvenient Truth

              The Express (Washington Post's free paper for Metro riders and others) has a poll every day where people can go online and vote. They emphasize that "the results reflect the votes of those who choose to participate. They are not derived from a scientific random sample." However, I feel like the poll results generally reflect the mood of the city.

              This recent poll astounded me, though, as the question was "Would you pay a tax to cut down on greenhouse gases?" and the poll results showed an emphatic 75% No and 25% Yes. Kind of depressing if even the very blue District doesn't want to make a sacrifice to help the environment. Or maybe I can look at it more positively. Maybe everyone knows and their experience has been that a tax and another government program would not help the situation (FEMA, I'm looking in your direction).

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Yeah, people DO NOT like taxes. Maybe we should call them kisses or something.

              Rambler http://www.journalscape.com/Rambler/ ------I suspect your last statement is true. No one wants more taxes (I say as I'm finishing my mom's taxes, and getting mine done by the accountant and being astonished by the fact that she got significantly less income last year and has to pay more, and also by the dollar amount that I've already paid in...). Many people think that the amount we're already paying should be sufficient to accomplish stuff like this. I bet anyone with an ounce of mathematical sense could eliminate billions from the money already being spent without affecting very many people, and find money for such a program. I think people also think that industries should step up (yeah, like that'll happen) and then some aren't convinced - is it emissions or land use? (I've seen compelling studies that suggest the latter...) reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------True, though I wonder if the results would have been different if they had asked it another way, like, "Would you favor cutting-edge new public programs to [do X,Y,Z] to cut greenhouse gases?"

              My guess is that people would. But I'd probably answer no to the poll as stated too. Tax or no tax? I'll take no tax.

              But on the other hand, I think programs that would actually work on the problem are worth the investment. It's all in how you ask it. And that's what Republicans are masterful at, and Democrats suck at.

              ------Date: 2007-03-01 10:58:00 Subject: Twinkies, Deconstructed

                As Steve Ettlinger dropped down a Wyoming mine shaft, plummeting 1,600 feet in an open- mesh cage, he wondered how many other food writers had ever donned hard hats and emergency breathing equipment in pursuit of a story. But it was too late to turn back. He'd promised his editor a book tracing the ingredients in a Hostess Twinkie to their origins—and one of them was down this shaft. At the bottom, he and his hosts climbed into an open Jeep and hurtled for 30 terrifying minutes through pitch-black tunnels. Their destination: the site where a mineral called trona—the raw ingredient of baking soda—was being clawed out of a rock face by giant machines. "To say that this does not suggest Twinkies or any other food product would be an understatement," observes Ettlinger. "There you are at an open rock face, wondering why they do all this for the sake of a little snack cake."

              Read the whole story

              Twinkies contain actual flour, sugar, salt, baking soda, water and a trace of egg. But the rest of the 39 ingredients are not generally what you find in your pantry. A sampling:

              THE FILLING

              * Shortening (in the form of partially hydrogenated vegetable oil and/or beef fat) is the main ingredient.

              * Polysorbate 60 is a gooey substance that helps replace cream and eggs at a fraction of the cost. It's derived from corn, palm oil and petroleum.

              * Cellulose gum gives the crème filling a smooth, slippery feel.

              * Artificial vanillin is synthesized in petrochemical plants. The real thing comes from finicky tropical orchids that are pollinated by hand on the one day they bloom.

              THE CAKE

              * Lecithin is an emulsifier made from soy. It's also used in paint to keep pigments evenly dispersed.

              * Diacetyl mimics the taste of butter, since the real stuff would go rancid on a store shelf.

              * Cornstarch is a common thickener. But it's more often used to make cardboard and packing peanuts.

              * Yellow No. 5, Red No. 40 give the cake the golden look of eggs.

              * Sorbic acid, the only actual preservative in Twinkies, comes from petroleum.

              TWINKIE FACTS

              * Calories: 145 each

              * Shelf life: 25 days—not years, as urban legend would have it * History: In 1930, James Dewar found a way to use idle baking pans. He named the cakes after seeing an ad for "Twinkle-Toe" shoes. Shelf life was just two to three days.

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Ah shucks, this is what I needed to help with my no processed sugar diet. Thanks!

              Matthew ------Oh, and that picture is total BS; Twinkies have nowhere near that much inside goodiness. You're lucky to get one drop of filling in each twinkie.

              Matthew ------I've never been more convinced that Twinkies have a half-life.

              Maggie http://www.journalscape.com/maggie/ ------Back in the mid-nineties, when I was in college, I thought I needed a sugar rush, so I bought a package of Tiger Tails. (Twinkies with coconut and raspberry.) The expiration was for something like May 27, 2027.

              I have witnesses, and we still laugh about the snack cake that was supposed to last for thirty years.

              ------Date: 2007-03-01 11:45:00 Subject: Theater in Da 'Hood

              Last year, when searching for a place to live in the District, my son-in-law gave me a tour of the city, but before that, he drew a demarcation line on a map and basically told me that the northwest section of the city was the best, safest place for me to find a home. I listened and followed his advice. However, after being here a year now, I'm starting to venture out more and explore my new home town. I've found a great website that offers half-price tickets to area happenings. For instance, on Sunday I'll hit one of the Smithsonians and find out how to capture the contents of it on my digital camera, while listening to a tour guide walk me through the place and point out the highlights. I've gone to plays at little obscure theaters in churches and universities nearby.

              Last night I attended "Kiss Me Kate," a musical which is part of Washington DC's Shakespeare Festival at the Atlas Theater in the unexplored (by me) NE section of the city. When I booked the evening, I figured that I could safely take a Metrobus from my stop at McPherson Square to the heart of H street. Seemed safe enough. However, last night was such a nice evening and I'd been in training for 2 whole days so I decided to walk the 20 blocks or so instead. There was plenty of street traffic and the walk was well lit and I felt pretty safe, but wondered as I got nearer the theater what I was in store for as it seemed the only establishments I passed on the way were liquor stores and check cashing places and an occasional Subway sandwich place with burglar bars covering its doors and windows. Upon my arrival, I was pleased to find a beautifully decorated and updated theater, a sort of pearl amongst the oysters, so to speak. The musical featured a full orchestra and probably 30 or so cast members. Although they weren't Broadway quality, they certainly gave me my money's worth as I sat in my front row seat.

              The play didn't end until almost 11, and as I left, I realized that I better be smart and remember my son-in-law's advice so I stuck with a group of people as they walked down the street. My bus, the X2, headed the opposite direction of where I wanted to go, was headed my way and I quickly jumped on it, glad to be off the streets and "safe." We ended up at the Minnesota Station that looked as deserted and bleak and "scary" as could be, so I got back on the bus and waited for it to head back to my part of town.

              Needless to say, I made it home safely and thought about the evening and whether or not I had taken needless chances. I decided that my choices had been valid and good ones. Living in the city, I know that the mere density of the population exposes me to dangers that I may not have otherwise. Just the other night while walking home at my normal 6 o'clock time period, a man passed by me as he was running toward an alley between the CVS Pharmacy and the adjacent building. As I looked at him, a bottle (looked like a shampoo bottle) dropped from his pocket and it was then that I realized he was a fleeing shoplifter. Taking a step further, I was met head-on, almost, as a CVS clerk chased after him.

              But on the other hand, it also exposes me to really pleasant experiences as well. Just this morning as I walked to my dentist's office, I took a different street headed west and noticed a bunch of places that I want to visit and come back to. I love life in the city!

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Cities can be scary places. I am glad you found some cool new places to explore! I think trusting your intuition is the best bet to staying safe.

              I can't believe the CVS clerk ran after a guy who shoplifted shampoo... Wow. That minimum wage must be killer.

              ------Date: 2007-03-01 15:14:00 Subject: Secret Agent Jill

              Just heard from the Facilities Security Officer here at work that I have my "Secret" clearance from the DoD...bow down before me, or not. ;-)

              User Comments: Lukee ------Licensed to Jill.

              ------Date: 2007-03-02 13:34:00 Subject: The Feel Good Story of the Day

              Bond Between Teammates

              ------Date: 2007-03-06 10:18:00 Subject: Another Bookmark Added

              I've recently found a wonderful new sight filled with stimulating and thoughtful articles and links and I've added it to my daily reading. If you're looking for something new, check it out.

              ------Date: 2007-03-12 22:36:00 Subject: The Terminator meets Jesus

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Nice, indeed.

              Lukee ------NICE!

              All Eyes Are on Me (sara) http://www.journalscape.com/beautiful_brown_eyes ------OMG I HAVE WATCH THAT LIKE A MILLION TIMES AND I LOVE IT

              ------Date: 2007-03-23 11:55:00 Subject: Writing is like driving at night in the fog

              From Wordyard...

              While we're on the subject, I can't resist repeating a quotation about writing that Cory Doctorow recently posted on BoingBoing. It's by E.L. Doctorow, and, well, it's just the truth:

                Planning to write is not writing. Outlining, researching, talking to people about what you're doing, none of that is writing. Writing is writing. . . . Writing is like driving at night in the fog. You can only see as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Yeah, I don't know if I totally agree with this. It's true that "writers write" and that "writing" is the most important part of, well, "writing". But I think that outlining and researching are part of writing. Talking to other people about what you are doing, well, that might not be unless you are genuinely getting ideas from them, but I do think that arranging your thoughts is part of writing.

              Of course, if all you do is outline and you never get around to actually writing anything (which outlining is actually a process of writing down ideas) then that isn't writing, but otherwise...

              Anyway, I can see what Doctorow means but I don't totally agree.

              ------Date: 2007-03-23 11:58:00 Subject: Letting go

              "every single thing that I have let go of has my claw marks on it" - Anne Lamott

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Wow. What an intresting quote!

              ------Date: 2007-04-02 19:42:00 Subject: It's April already and I'm no fool

              So, my baby is growing up. Yesterday was the first April Fool's Day in some years that I haven't received an April Fool's Day phone call from him with a very successful April Fool's joke on me.

              User Comments:

              Mattee ------So did I.

              April fools.

              Lukee ------I got back with Jamie.

              April Fools!

              ------Date: 2007-04-02 21:53:00 Subject: Three faiths, one god

              Everyone should watch this show ... it explains alot and promotes understanding and tolerance.

              User Comments:

              East Coast Neice ------I just finished this book. It was fantastic... and interesting....

              http://www.amazon.com/Religious-Literacy-American-Know- Doesnt/dp/0060846704/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/102-7056068-5249737?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid= 1175653842&sr=1-1 luki ------I just don't understand tolerance.

              ------Date: 2007-04-04 22:33:00 Subject: Obama

              I absolutely hate the fact that it all boils down to dollars, but I'm loving this

              He actually beat her in primary dollars. That's a big deal.

              User Comments:

              Matt ------It'll be interesting to see if the United States gets behind someone named Barack Hussein Obama.

              Lukee ------I wonder how much race will impact the race.

              (I said it)

              Matt ------It's going to be an interesting race, methinks.

              Lukee ------yeah it's somethin else idn't it?

              ------Date: 2007-04-10 21:17:00 Subject: Stranger Than Fiction...

              ...is a really good movie.

              Netflix it, if you haven't already.

              User Comments:

              Woodstock http://www.journalscape.com/woodstock/ ------I just finished watching it this afternoon, and I agree, it's very good indeed. I am a voracious reader, and a tax accountant - There were several very sly pokes in the superimposed graphics as Farrell's character arrived at his office for the first time in the movie - hats off to the director and screenwriters to crack a joke only a few people would get and do it in a way which didn't detract from other viewers' understanding.

              A movie about a book, and not only that, a movie about the power of the written word.

              I liked it very much.

              Matt ------I agree. I think Will Ferrell and Emma Thompson were great. I have slight issue with certain things about the ending, but nowhere near enough of a gripe for it to have lessend how good I thought the movie was.

              ------Date: 2007-04-17 21:10:00 Subject: for the UTD ALUMNI

                Dear UT Dallas Family,

                Our thoughts and prayers are with the Virginia Tech community as its members face an unimaginable burden of shock and grief in the wake of the tragic events of April 16, 2007. We are saddened and troubled by the waste of human potential in this senseless act of violence, and many of us find ourselves looking for explanation or reason where none exists.

                No one can anticipate when and how such situations may develop. There is no formula for responding to the unimaginable. But we can and do continuously examine our own security procedures and share information. In that spirit, I want to respond to the questions many of you have asked about preparedness for emergencies on our own campus.

                In the event of an emergency, we have a number of channels of communication available to us that will allow swift, accurate communication with faculty, staff and students. They include:

                * An e-mail channel that, when activated, would send a priority electronic message to every e- mail box on campus. This is separate from our “bounce†system, and cannot be filtered or blocked by the recipient.

                * A reverse 911 system that allows voice mail broadcast to every hard-wired telephone on campus. * An advisory telephone number that was recently created in anticipation of any event that might require the closure of campus. This number carries an announcement regarding campus operations at all times, and would be used to advise of any campus closure. You are encouraged to try it out at 972-883-7669, and to add this number to your cell phone’s directory.

                * Mobile Campus, a service the university and Student Government are involved in implementing. Mobile Campus enables text messages to be sent to cell phones of every member of the campus community that has opted into the service. For more information about this service, click on http://www.mobilecampus.com/. To opt into the service, go to http://www.mobilecampus.com/universitySites.aspx, and click on “University of Texas at Dallas.â€

                * And, of course, emergency information would be posted on the UT Dallas Web site home page, www.utdallas.edu.

                Beyond communication, the university has mechanisms in place to deal with emergencies. Among these are:

                * Plans to “shelter in place,†or lockdown, affected facilities.

                * A 50-member response team of university personnel who have been trained to assist in the evacuation of buildings.

                * Mutual aid pacts with the City of Richardson Police Department, the Texas Department of Public Safety and other area law enforcement agencies, with whom we have prearranged plans regarding rapid response to campus emergencies. Our own police force, which is sworn and fully certified, has received training specifically for emergency response.

                No one is immune to crisis. The university has taken a prudent, comprehensive approach to anticipating emergencies, laying groundwork and committing resources to deal with whatever may arise.

                We live in turbulent times. As we go about our business, we must stay aware and alert to the possibility of an emergency. But we can’t and won’t let fear prevent us from pursuing our mission of teaching and learning and advancing knowledge.

                Sincerely, David E. Daniel

                President

              It sucks that schools now-a-days need to put out memos such as this...

              I remember (fondly) the only thing we practiced when I was in school were drills to cover our head and hide under our desks, in the event that the "russians" would send a nuke our way...really, was that going to save us, but, oh well...

              ------Date: 2007-04-17 22:37:00 Subject: Hero at Virginia Tech

              From Instapundit...

              A HERO AT VIRGINIA TECH:

              Professor Liviu Librescu, 76, threw himself in front of the shooter when the man attempted to enter his classroom. The Israeli mechanics and engineering lecturer was shot to death, "but all the students lived - because of him," Virginia Tech student Asael Arad - also an Israeli - told Army Radio.

              Read the whole thing. More thoughts here.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------I heard about him on NPR yesterday. He was a hero indeed.

              ------Date: 2007-04-20 14:41:00 Subject: Spiral Staircases

              A friend of mine and I were talking about a neat apartment in NYC that a friend of hers had remodeled from an old warehouse shell. As she was describing it, she mentioned that it had two or three spiral staircases to maneuver between floors.

              I shuddered, and recalled that in almost every bad dream that I have ever had, I'm stuck somewhere or trapped and can't escape fast enough because there's at least one spiral staircase that I just can't quite seem to navigate fast enough.

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------Wow, what an interesting reoccurring dream theme.

              Matthew ------Not to mention getting dizzy and throwing up due to an inherited motion sickness gene.

              ------Date: 2007-04-22 22:54:00 Subject: "no adult in his life he could talk to"

              That's what they said about Cho and other sick, lonely school yard murderers.

              Please god, let me be there for the next one.

              User Comments: sherry ------Having seen some of the kids with this potential, it still has to be "an adult in his life he Would talk to".

              Sometimes I have to hope that it is enough to have tried to be there for them, even when they refused it.

              Lukee ------Amen.

              ------Date: 2007-04-26 16:28:00 Subject: Amazon Marketplace

              Although I give a lot of books that I've purchased and read to ReverendMother for her church library, I decided to try out Amazon Marketplace for a change on this book as some of the "lusty" scenes may be a little too racy for church ladies (I'd read "We Need to Talk About Kevin" from the same author and was captivated by it, so I was anxious to read her new novel.)

              In less than an hour, I'd sold it and now have a cool 10 bucks in my account...not bad for a few mouse clicks! User Comments:

              Shennanigans http://www.journalscape.com/Shennanigans/ ------

              Can I just say that "We Need To Talk About Kevin" is one of the most amazing, heart- wrenching, kick in the gut books I have ever read! I wept my way through to the end. If I may suggest another - try a non-fiction memoir titled "The Burn Journals". Wow.

              What made me stop by was your title, and, yes, Amazon is an incredible way to unload all sorts of things!!! I prefer it to EBay for some types of things, yet remain with EBay for others. So, head on out into the cyber-sales world and have yourself a ball! = P

              ------Date: 2007-05-01 13:46:00 Subject: The World From Your Window

              From Andrew Sullivan's blog...

                It's noon on May 1. When better to launch a new blog-page? A little over a year ago, I had the idea of simply asking Dish readers to send in photographs of what they see from their own windows every day. This blog is more of a collective effort than it might seem. Hundreds of emails pour in each day, with tips and arguments and ideas and differing perspectives from all over the world and from every point of view. I get to read them (or at least as many as physically possible). You don't, and I tried to think of a way to better convey the global reach of the Dish readership, and to remind people that the web is not that technological or abstract. It's actually human beings with bodies and souls and homes and gardens and windows. I've been posting a window view almost every day since, but received many more than I could possibly post. So what to do?

                Some of you suggested a gallery or a coffee table book. But Shaun Raviv, a particularly gifted colleague at the Atlantic, came up with something much more elegant. It's a map of the world in flash animation, with almost 700 window views embedded. As you move your cursor over the map, you can zoom in on hundreds of places on earth, and travel the globe through the living rooms and offices and cars and bedrooms of other Dish readers. If you sent in a window view and it was never published in the Dish, it may well be now in "The World From Your Window". We still have more in the hopper to add, and we'll be adding more and more as they appear in the Dish. So keep sending them in to [email protected]. Be sure to include a place and a time of day. (No pets or rainbows are allowed - and it should be from your window, preferably with some frame of the window in shot.) But here's the page as it is now. The first time you look at it, be patient. It takes a little while for all the pictures to load. But soon, it should load quickly.

                In my opinion, it's the coolest thing I've ever produced on this blog, and I owe it to Shaun, the Atlantic, but most of all, you. This is your blog as well as mine; and this is the world you live in. Enjoy.

              ------Date: 2007-05-06 15:52:00 Subject: Out of the mouths of babes...

              So I'm walking down 14th Street today with the Divine Miss M in the stroller and She-Who-Is keeping pace not only with her steps but her constant conversation about the smells, the sites, and the city she calls "her city."

              She asks me about a quarter of the way to the Metro station we are headed to if she can have some gum. I, of course, think we should charge on and not stop, and tell her I'll answer her request when we get to the station. She sees an opening in an upcoming red light on a street we'll have to cross and negotiates with me to stop and give her the gum now. Thinking like a grandparent and not a parent (yes, I would have stuck to my guns with my own children way back when and they would have just had to wait) it made sense what she was proposing and we stopped, I dug in my purse for the desired sugar-free Trident Mint gum that she enjoys so much (over the Pink Bubble Gum flavor I might add...go figure...one of the few times she turns down "pink") and handed it to her. She put it in her mouth and began to chew it, handed me the wrapper which elicits the same exact response from me every time "do I look like the trash can?" and she smiles and my heart sings, and we continued on our way.

              We hadn't walked a half block more before she stopped me and said "MaDear, I can walk and chew gum at the same time."

              I. Kid. You. Not.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Awesome!

              Matthew ------Ha! Too funny.

              Walking and chewing gum at the same time; an all too underrated skill, IMO.

              ------Date: 2007-05-07 22:49:00 Subject: my own god

              ... what God would you be? Try here My results:

              Which God or Goddess are you like?
              Your Result: Budha
               

              You are Budha. You are a very peaceful person, you love all who love you. You are a cheerful personality, and you have a great sense of humor. Congratulations!! You are Budha!!

              Jesus
               
              The Christian God
               
              You are your own God or Goddess
               
              Goddess Bast
               
              Goddess Sekhemet
               
              God Zeus
               
              Satan
               
              Which God or Goddess are you like? Make Your Own Quiz

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Since when is Satan considered a "god?" That chump is a fallen angel.

              Lukee ------No, I worship lukifer. JillSusan/Mamala ------Lukee, would that make you a Luktheron?

              Lukee ------is that good?

              Lukee ------Which God or Goddess are you like?

              Your Result: You are your own God or Goddess
               

              Sorry to say, i have no answer that fits you. You are your very own person, and you like to do things your own way. You have stumped me this time, but i will soon make a quiz that will have your answer, just you wait...

              Goddess Sekhemet
               
              Goddess Bast
               
              Satan
               
              Budha
               
              God Zeus
               
              Jesus
               
              The Christian God
               
              Which God or Goddess are you like? Make Your Own Quiz

              ------Date: 2007-05-28 14:29:00 Subject: Trying to Understand C-Span Programming on Memorial Day

              Having spent the last couple of weekends and some weekdays out of town, and the 2 previous nights and days with my nearby granddaughters, I decided to veg today in front of the TV and try to be mindful of all those who have died defending our country and fighting for freedom and justice the world over. What better way to do this than to tune into C-Span, as they'd be sure to cover all the events? Sure enough, they re-played the Rolling Thunder events that little She-Who- Is and I attended yesterday. Then came the president and other dignitaries at Arlington. Then the following events replayed:

            • Arlington National Cemetery Wreath Laying Ceremonies
            • 25th Anniversary of Vietnam Veterans Memorial
            • The Vietnam Veterans Memorial and the National Mall
            • Congressional Gold Medal Ceremony for the Tuskegee Airmen
            • Interview with Howard Schultz, President and CEO of Starbucks Coffee Company at Bloomberg Offices in New York
            • OK, I get all the events listed but someone please tell me how an interview with the CEO of Starbucks works into any programmer's mind there at C-Span HQ for Memorial Day. What's next? A live opening of the next, newest Walmart store? Or maybe a profile of the person who invented the new Coke with vitamins?

              Just didn't seem right to me...kind of like that golf course they built next to Arlington cemetery...

              User Comments:

              Mamala/Jill ------Yes, sad but true...

              Matthew ------There's a golf course next to Arlington National Cemetary? :-(

              ------Date: 2007-05-28 14:37:00 Subject: Rolling Thunder

              Several years before I moved to DC, I watched Rolling Thunder ride into Washington on Memorial weekend and vowed to myself that I'd attend that event someday. Yesterday, I made the rather tough choice to forego hearing Daughter #1 preach and instead, head down to the Mall and enjoy the atmosphere that comes when hundreds, perhaps thousands, of motocycles descend on our nation's capitol.

              It was truly a neat and fun time. I'm a huge people watcher and yesterday, that need in me was fulfilled hundred-fold. Little She-Who-Is was somewhat skeptical of how much fun it was, but finding a Popsickle for her on an almost 90-degree day seemed to soothe any boredom she felt by it all and she was pretty happy for most of the day to accompany me.

              Some thoughts I had:

            • Some of the bikes had "handicap" license plates on them...didn't know there was such a thing...handicapped riders
            • There were quite a few 3 wheeled (trike) bikes
            • There are more really overweight bike riders than I even imagined
            • It must be neat to be a part of a group that comes to this event year after year, seeing old friends again and again
            • How much would I have to pay one of the riders that didn't have someone riding with them to ride with them in next year's event?
            • I think many/most of the riders were from my generation and many of them Vietnam Vets, who, shamefully, never got the welcome home parade they deserved at the time...glad they have this moment in the sun now!
            • User Comments:

              Mamala/Jill ------Sweet!

              Matthew ------Maybe I'll get a bike and take you there myself. :)

              Ted ------Jill wrote:

              How much would I have to pay one of the riders that didn't have someone riding with them to ride with them in next year's event?

              Ted replies - well first of all, that answers a question Mom and I had yesterday. We saw a group of riders heading out together and I wondered aloud if JJM had gotten his Harley while you two were married would you have ridden along....guess so.

              As to your question - I'll bet you'd have them fighting over you, and they wouldn't take your money. The only question is how to make contact with one of them for next year...I have confidence you'll figure that out. :)

              ------Date: 2007-05-28 17:00:00 Subject: For my granddaughters

              Take this pledge now (or as soon as you can). MaDear's orders...love yourself (all of yourself) always!

              ------Date: 2007-05-28 17:53:00 Subject: One that didn't get torn up

              User Comments: Jill/Mamala ------Actually it was our house in Carrollton, but yes, chocolate goodness!

              Matthew ------Chocolate goodness. That must be Gram's house, right? lukee ------Oh I LOVE it!

              ------Date: 2007-05-30 16:43:00 Subject: This could be scary! or embarrassing!

              GOOGLE MAPS SHOW 'FACES' ON STREETS...

              ALSO LICENSE PLATES...

              User Comments:

              Jill ------Update:

              UPDATE: 'OUTSIDE OF A STRIP CLUB AND CAUGHT ON GOOGLE?'...

              ADULT BOOK STORE?


              SEE STEVE JOBS HOUSE... lukee ------was this intentional?

              ------Date: 2007-06-12 12:04:00 Subject: The U.S. vs. John Lennon

              I rented this documentary the other night and enjoyed it thoroughly. It brought back many memories and some sadness as John's no longer with us. What a talent he was!

              Today, Amnesty International released Instant Karma/Save Darfur with U2, R.E.M, and a rather wild assortment of artists singing Lennon's songs. An interesting collection that, for the most part, I'm enjoying as I plod on at work.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------I've heard good things about this movie. I can't believe I haven't seen it yet. *sigh* I'm a bad Beatles fan, aren't I?

              ------Date: 2007-06-19 22:53:00 Subject: Summer's here

              I saw lightning bugs on my walk home from the Y tonight

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Summer is here (Austin version)

              What Luke and Katie said.

              Katie ------Summer is here (Orlando version).

              ... What Luke said lukee ------Summer is here (Houston version).

              It's f*cking hot! reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Wonderful, aren't they!

              ------Date: 2007-06-21 16:32:00 Subject: SiCKO

              I have sinned.

              I downloaded a copy off the *internets* and felt guilty about it until Michael Moore himself told me it was ok.

                "I don't agree with copyright laws, and I don't have a problem with people downloading the movie and sharing it ... as long as they're not trying to make a profit off my labor," Moore said in a recent interview. "I make these movies and books and TV shows because I want things to change, and so the more people who get to see them, the better."

              I watched it on my flight back from Flat and Hot, TX this past weekend. I'll have to say that he has me ready to pull up and move to England, France or Canada as he makes their healthcare systems sound like the next best thing since sliced bread. And that's what I have against his flick (s).

              Shouldn't a true documentary show both sides? Or is there not a downside to their healthcare systems?

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------That's a great quote.

              I have a love/hate relationship with MM. It is clear by this point that he is a muckraker; you have to take him in that spirit.

              Matthew ------There's a downside to everything. To paraphrase Michael Moore "when people in Canada say there are downsides to their health care system and that I only show how bad the US system is, I ask if they'd like to trade systems and they always stand there silently."

              ------Date: 2007-06-21 16:42:00 Subject: I'm never complaining about air travel again!

              The flight from hell....

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------As unpleasant as that would have been... what did he want, a parachute? It seems like the airline did the best they could, compensating the passengers and so forth.

              But yeah, it puts all my travel annoyances in perspective.

              ------Date: 2007-06-21 17:35:00 Subject: One week and one day

              I still want one...The iPhone approacheth. With sideburns:

              User Comments: lukee ------Is it really being reviewed as being a subpar cell phone?

              ------Date: 2007-06-26 21:55:00 Subject: Top Beatles Albums

              I'm watching Paul and Ringo and George's and John's widows on Larry King Live tonight...what memories it brings back!

              So, they did a poll...rate the top Beatles album.

              Results: 1. Abbey Road

              2. Sgt. Pepper

              3. The White Album

              Discuss....

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------My top Beatles album picks often depend on what kind of mood I'm in. But usually, it's:

              1) Abbey Road

              2) White Album

              3) Sgt. Pepper

              Liked the interview, though I wish it had been Charlie Rose instead of Larry King.

              Rambler http://www.journalscape.com/Rambler/ ------Revolver and Rubber Soul would have to be in the top 5, Magical Mystery Tour not too far off either. It's hard to rank them. Abbey Road probably stays on top for me. Sgt. Pepper's is probably a bit further down than 2.

              Maggie http://www.journalscape.com/maggie/ ------What about Revolver? What about...

              ------Date: 2007-06-29 11:51:00 Subject: Hype Smackdown: iPhone v. Paris Hilton

              From 10 Zen Monkeys comes this...

              iPhone v. Paris Hilton



              It's a battle of pop culture titans as two empires -- one high-tech, one high-rise -- clash in explosive PR fury. Since these two heavyweight memes have climbed into the competitive media ring of their own volition, we thought we'd size them up for you. As Stephen Colbert would say: "Pick a side -- we're at war!"



              iPhone: Simple to use.

              Paris Hilton: Simple.



              iPhone: Questionable protection against viruses.

              Paris Hilton: Has herpes.



              iPhone: Critics complained battery life too short.

              Paris Hilton: Critics complained prison life too short.



              iPhone: Provides driving directions.

              Paris Hilton: Knows how to drive. (Sort of.)



              iPhone: Responds to touch from multiple fingers at once.

              Paris Hilton: Responds to touch from multiple fingers at once.



              iPhone: Wants to be held by everyone.

              Paris Hilton: Wants to be held by her mother.



              iPhone: Sexy footage leaked onto the net.

              Paris Hilton: Sexy footage leaked onto the net.



              iPhone: Appeared in multi-million ad campaign.
              Paris Hilton: Appeared in "House of Wax."



              iPhone: Everyone wants what's in the box.

              Paris Hilton: Everyone knows what's in the box.



              Feel free to make your own comparisons in the comments...

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------I heard an estimate that Apple may end up selling 100 million iPhones. That's friggin incredible!!!

              Jill/Mamala ------Very well played, Lukee! lukee ------i-phone: a sign of things to come paris hilton: a sign of things to come

              ------Date: 2007-07-01 00:33:00 Subject: "I'm smarter than you"

              That's what my granddaughter #2 said to me tonight. Me, of course, thinking this 4 year old needs to be put in her place said, "OK, how many inches are in a foot?" and she promptly responded "12"...ok, that was a lucky guess, I thought. So I proceeded, "how many feet are in a yard?" (something I'm sure I still have to think about hard...where's the metric system when you need it?) and she quickly responded "3".

              Damn, busted, she *is* smarter than me! :-)

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------ha!

              ------Date: 2007-07-01 21:24:00 Subject: Better than sliced bread

              Yes, that's what my new Iphone is...yes, I gave in to the media hype/marketing/whatever and purchased an Iphone (one of the last) from the Apple store at Pentagon City. The guy I stood in line with had just come back from taking his wife to "minor" surgery and was impatient that it kept him away from the store for longer than anticipated...btw, the docs that performed the surgery said they wished they were not on duty as they wanted to go buy the Iphone~

              Never, have I ever, bought something so user friendly...activating was a breeze! Playing with it was even breezier!

              I love it...call me!~

              My son, third born, was the first to call me and break it in. So be it.

              User Comments:

              Derekjames http://www.journalscape.com/derekjames/ ------Sorry I haven't dropped in in a while.

              And how did I know you'd be first in line for an IPhone...?

              Ted ------All right! I wondered how long it would take you to make the leap. I expect a detail user report after you've had a chance to use it for 48 hours or so. Pictures would be nice but I'm more interested in your experience. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------You did seem rather hasty when it came time to leave... :-) lukee ------Good for you! I cant wait to see it in person!

              ------Date: 2007-07-16 17:39:00 Subject: Best Movie Line Ever

              From Andrew Sullivan...

              "Well, let's play chess." -Blazing Saddles.

              User Comments: lukee ------nice!

              ------Date: 2007-07-18 16:19:00 Subject: then and now

              THE 1983 Apple Phone.

              Can I just say that 18 days in to using my iPhone, I'm still really, really loving it! I agree with this eval

              User Comments: lukee ------dang! that old apple phone is wicked cool!

              ------Date: 2007-07-27 11:20:00 Subject: What to Remember When Waking

              In that first hardly noticed moment in which you wake, coming back to this life from the other more secret, moveable and frighteningly honest world where everything began, there is a small opening into the new day which closes the moment you begin your plans.

              What you can plan is too small for you to live.

              What you can live wholeheartedly will make plans enough for the vitality hidden in your sleep.

              To be human is to become visible while carrying what is hidden as a gift to others. To remember the other world in this world is to live in your true inheritance.

              You are not a troubled guest on this earth, you are not an accident amidst other accidents you were invited from another and greater night than the one from which you have just emerged.

              Now, looking through the slanting light of the morning window toward the mountain presence of everything that can be what urgency calls you to your one love?

              What shape waits in the seed of you to grow and spread its branches against a future sky?

              Is it waiting in the fertile sea?

              In the trees beyond the house?

              In the life you can imagine for yourself?

              In the open and lovely white page on the waiting desk?

              -by David Whyte (1999 Many Rivers Press)

              ------Date: 2007-07-29 21:25:00 Subject: Art, Culture and The Simpsons

              A great day today...woke up slowly, read The Post, then time to shop at the Farmer's Market. After that, I rushed to the National Portrait Gallery to view the Britons, the Cold War and photos of The Beatles and more by Harry Benson. I ran over to Chinatown to have a quick beef & broccoli dish, and finished my day off at the cinema with a full house viewing of The Simpsons movie.

              A good time was had by all (me). User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Sounds like you're making the most of your location! Yay!

              Mamala ------very good...the movie was good lukee ------sounds great! how was the movie?

              ------Date: 2007-08-02 10:24:00 Subject: "The internet is destroying good music" or so says Elton John...

                He adds "[it's] stopping people from going out and being with each other, creating stuff." He laments the way that the internet and the emerging industry of digital music has created a cold and impersonal world for artists to create new music in.

              Can you say, old school?

              Need proof? Go here.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Yeah. Elton hasn't made a solid record since the 70's. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------"locked into waiting for the next Elton John release"

              Which sounds like one of Dante's Circles of Hell, actually.

              Rambler http://www.journalscape.com/Rambler/ ------I'd say it's given millions the means to expose their music to the masses (which, as Lukee pointed out may not always be good music, but it IS, imo, a good THING). No longer are we locked into waiting for the next Elton John release...

              Lukee ------:)

              Yes, I agree. Technology historically has been the best friend of expression.

              While I would agree that music and the way it's being made is changing, to say that "the internet is destroying music" is way off the mark. I am not yet prepared to say that the internet is "improving" music, but at the very least it is granting access to people who before wouldn't even stand a chance.

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------amen, brother!

              Ted ------Surely there is no better sign of old age than complaining about something that is new.

              ------Date: 2007-08-04 10:12:00 Subject: tastes like chicken...

              OK, I normally wouldn't post something like this, but it was on NPR this morning.

              Now, I'm as game as anyone to attend a festival (can you say Woodstock '99?) but this one just seems so wrong....poor bull, pure bull.

              So even if you can't attend, and a dear friend of yours served up a big plate of "Rocky Mountain Oysters" would you try one (or two)?

              For me, the answer would be a polite "no thank you."

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Wouldn't be the first time I had balls in my mouth. ... I got nuthin'.

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Brave, you both are! reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------I'll try most anything!

              Woodstock http://www.journalscape.com/woodstock/ ------Well, I live in Colorado, where tasting them at least once is sort of a rite of passage. They are very mild, almost without any flavor at all, and often served with a spicy breading, deep fried, with a chili-boosted sauce to dip them into.

              Often garnished with green chili heavy on the jalapenos, in which case the nickname is "great balls of fire."

              They don't make me gag, but I wouldn't mind if others ate my share. Truly a take them or leave them kind of food.

              ------Date: 2007-08-06 11:40:00 Subject: When you have an hour or two...

              ...it may be fun to go back in time.

              User Comments: lukee ------Ha ha! Wow, some of those bring back some SERIOUS memories. Gosh.

              Some of the ones I really wanted to see were taken down... shucks. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Must... Resist... Clicking... on... Time-sucking... Link!

              </Shatner voice>

              ------Date: 2007-08-06 17:44:00 Subject: A good Monday cartoon

              User Comments:

              Lukee ------I feel both smarter and dumber when I look at comics like this.

              ------Date: 2007-08-07 11:18:00 Subject: It's full of head-y goodness

              Video: Man finds human head in hamburger

              User Comments:

              Mamala/JillSusan http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yeah, I know what you mean...although I find that the headlines are the funniest of all in the written Onion...see below:

              "Final Harry Potter Book Blasted for Containing Spoilers"

              "Adults Have Misclassified Me as a Handful" (subtitled "Am I a child who is sometimes difficult? Yes. Am I a difficult child? No.")

              "Makers Unprepared to Be Met"

              ...these are just a few...

              Lukee ------I think the Onion videos have been funny, but I think I will always prefer reading the articles!

              ------Date: 2007-08-08 13:13:00 Subject: Guitar Moment of the Day

              From Andrew Sullivan...

              User Comments: lukee ------wow!!!!!!

              ------Date: 2007-08-11 12:03:00 Subject: Kid's play

              Watching the grandkids play is a delight...thoughts below:

              C presented me with two floral leis (the plastic variety) and I told her that normally when you present someone with a lei you should kiss them first. She hesitated, then took them off my neck and went away...no kiss for you, MaDear.

              J (the male one) is the POTUS and J (the female one) is his secretary (ok, I'm not posting anything about stereotyping here...it's play, after all). C started out being the president's "chef" but now she has transitioned to the Princess of Russia.

              Pooltime was a delight last night. It's easy when 2 out of the 3 can swim like fish and the other one wore borrowed "googles" that covered most of her face so splashes were not a problem.

              There's more to come but we're off to the mall and then to the water park! Then Disney fireworks at Fort Wilderness. for more kid's play...

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Sounds fun! lukee ------Sounds great! ------Date: 2007-08-12 22:28:00 Subject: Jet Blues

              It was the worst of times...it was the best of times....

              Thursday's flight from hell was answered by Sunday's flight from heaven. C & I got to the airport just in time to move through security, get a Happy Meal at McD's in the airport (right next to our gate), board the plane - this airline really does have great leg room and comfortable seats! - and TOOK OFF ON TIME!

              We arrived at Dulles 25 minutes early!

              You've got to love air travel when it all works!

              ------Date: 2007-08-13 09:44:00 Subject: August - Let's Get Rid of It!

              -By David Plotz

              August is the Mississippi of the calendar. It's beastly hot and muggy. It has a dismal history. Nothing good ever happens in it. And the United States would be better off without it.

              August is when the atomic bombs dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki, when Anne Frank was arrested, when the first income tax was collected, when Elvis Presley and Marilyn Monroe died. Wings and Jefferson Airplane were formed in August. The Sonny and Cher Comedy Hour debuted in August. (No August, no Sonny and Cher!)

              August is the time when thugs and dictators think they can get away with it. World War I started in August 1914. The Nazis and Soviets signed their nonaggression pact in August 1939. Iraq invaded Kuwait Aug. 2, 1990. August is a popular month for coups and violent crime. Why August? Perhaps the villains assume we'll be too distracted by vacations or humidity to notice.

              August is the vast sandy wasteland of American culture. Publishers stop releasing books. Movie theaters are clogged with the egregious action movies that studios wouldn't dare release in June. Television is all reruns (or worse—new episodes of Sex and the City). The sports pages wither into nothingness. Pre-pennant-race baseball—if that can even be called a sport—is all that remains. We have to feign interest in NFL training camps. Newspapers are thin in August, but not thin enough. They still print ghastly vacation columns: David Broder musing on world peace from his summer home on Lake Michigan? Even Martha Stewart (born Aug. 3) can't think of anything to do in August. Her Martha Stewart Living calendar, usually so sprightly, overflows with ennui. Aug. 14: "If it rains, organize basement." Aug. 16: "Reseed bare patches in lawn." Aug. 27: "Change batteries in smoke and heat detectors."

              You can't get a day off from August, because it is the only month without a real holiday. Instead, the other months have shunted onto this weak sister all the lame celebrations they didn't want. Air Conditioning Appreciation Week, Certified Registered Nurse Anesthetist Week, National Religious Software Week, Carpenter Ant Awareness Week: All these grand American celebrations belong to August. Is it any accident that National Lazy Day, Relaxation Day, Deadwood Day, and Failures Day are commemorated in August?

              August is the month of vagueness. October is the 10th month, March is the third month. What's August—bet you can't remember. Does it have 30 days or 31? You have to recite the rhyme to figure that one out. The great writers of history forget August: It rates three mentions in Bartlett's Quotations, compared with a dozen for December and two dozen for March.

              The people with August birthdays are a sorry bunch. Sure, Lyndon Johnson and Bill Clinton* were born in August, but the other presidential Augustans are Herbert Hoover and Benjamin Harrison. Film is represented by Robert Redford and Robert De Niro—but also by John Holmes and Harry Reems. Third-raters populate August: George Hamilton, Danny Bonaduce, Rick Springfield, and Frank and Kathie Lee Gifford were born then. August gave us Fidel Castro and Yasser Arafat. In art, August offers Leni Riefenstahl, Michael Jackson, and Danielle Steele. (To be sure, not everything that happens in August is so terrible. Raoul Wallenberg, Alfred Hitchcock, Herman Melville, and Mae West were born in August. Richard Nixon resigned in August. MTV launched in August. And Jerry Garcia died in August.)

              August can't even master the things it is supposed to do well. Despite its slothful reputation, it is not the top vacation month, July is. Nor is August the hottest month (on the East Coast, at least). That crown, too, is July's. August is when the garden starts to wither, and when the long summer days cruelly vanish.

              We should rage, rage against the dying of the light. The United States desperately needs August Reform. Purists will insist that we shouldn't tinker with the months, that August should be left alone because it has done workmanlike service for 2,000 years. That's nonsense. Calendars are always fluxing. August itself was a whimsical invention. In 46 B.C., as part of a broad calendar change, Julius Caesar added two days to Sextilis, an old 29-day month. In the reign of his successor, Augustus Caesar, the Senate voted to change Sextilis' name to "Augustus" (as the Senate under Julius Caesar had renamed the month before, "Quintilis," "Julius").

              August was created by politics, and it can be undone by politics. For too long, bureaucrats in Washington have been telling you how you must divide up your calendar. But these are your months, and you should be able to do with them what you like. Genuine August Reform will be hard. It will require tough compromises to protect the special interests of September and July. (And who better to sponsor this revolution, incidentally, than Sen. John McCain—birthday Aug. 29?)

              Here is a framework for compromise. Cede the first 10 days of August back to July, thus extending holiday revelry for more than a week. September would claim the last 10 days of August, mollifying the folks who can't wait to get back to serious work. Labor Day would come 10 days earlier, the school year would run longer, and the rush of fall activity could get jump-started. August itself will keep 10 days. That is just enough: Every summer we'll be able to toot happily, "Gosh, August went by so quickly this year!"

              And as for the 31st day, it will be designated a holiday independent from any month. It will fall after the 10th and last day of August, and it will celebrate the end of that most useless month.

              Note: Despite my agreement with this author about the uselessness of August, I'm thankful it gave the world "Mr. ReverendMother" and Parker's mom!

              User Comments:

              T ------Funny. Only Sex and the City has been in reruns for years. No new ones.

              ------Date: 2007-08-15 12:50:00 Subject: It sounded like a good idea at the time

              Duct Tape Bandit

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Famous last words.

              Lukee ------I heard about this guy.

              What a moron.

              ------Date: 2007-08-15 14:42:00 Subject: "Don't ask me why but I thought about you!"...

              ...or so says my daughter #1

              The Worriers' Guild

              Today there is a meeting of the

              Worriers' Guild, and I'll be there.

              The problems of Earth are

              to be discussed

              at length

              end to end

              for five days

              end to end

              with 1100 countries represented

              all with an equal voice

              some wearing turbans and smocks

              and all the men will speak

              and the women

              with or without notes

              in 38 languages

              and nine different species of logic.

              Outside in the autumn

              the squirrels will be

              chattering and scampering

              directionless throughout the town

              because they aren't organized yet. Poem: "The Worriers' Guild" by Philip F. Deaver, from How Men Pray ©. Anhinga Press. Reprinted with permission.

              ...guess I need to work on this -- she's right.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Like mother, like son.

              ------Date: 2007-08-17 10:35:00 Subject: Following a soldier onto the train

              DC's full of military people and the fact that I take the Metro each work day to the stop across the street from the Pentagon allows me to come in contact with more of them than the average American citizen.

              Since I've sold my car and depend totally on public transportation (with an occasional cab ride thrown in) to get me to where I need/want to be, I've pretty much put the downsides of public transportation ("crazy" people/"sick" people/the thought that it would be really a coup for some terrorist organization to blow up the DC Metro system/etc.) out of my mind.

              To mitigate these risks, however, I will generally sit or stand within the general vicinity of a person in uniform. I figure if bad stuff does happen, maybe I'm next to someone who's been trained to handle it.

              It makes the ride a lot smoother for me in some "security blanket" sort of way.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Unless the soldier in question's in the band. You'd be on your own. ;-) lukee ------Yeah, that totally makes sense.

              Wish we had a metro rail system here like y'all got up there in the "north". :)

              ------Date: 2007-08-17 22:54:00 Subject: Reefer Madness

              It's so much fun to be within walking distance (about a block and 1/2) of live theater. And what makes it even better is being able to purchase 1/2 price tickets for most events.

              Tonight was a fun, farce of a play starring some really talented performers. It was the kind of performance that, halfway through it, I was thinking "I wish [fill in the blank] could see this...they'd really like it!"

              A good time was had by all.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------ha! lukee ------who were you thinking?

              ------Date: 2007-08-28 09:53:00 Subject: "Sentence Vick in dog years"

              ...that's what Dennis Miller said on his radio show yesterday. I agree.

              If he gets 2 years, that's 14 in dog years, right?

              This is hellish...

                The cold brutality described in the indictment hardly props up any fashionably roguish images. The 52 pit bulls found on Vick's estate were mostly emaciated, authorities said, kept ravenously hungry so that they would eagerly assail the flesh of the dogs they met in the ring. The losing animals, the indictment said, were sometimes executed if they didn't die in the fight. One dog, the grand jury reported, was hosed down after a loss and then electrocuted.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------This is pretty sick stuff.

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Oh, and one more word of wisdom from Miller...the one remaining truth for Vick is that every person in the world may shun him. If he ever gets back in sports, his teammates/opponents (being dog lovers) may hit him slightly harder and below the belt, but when all is said and done and he's alone and needs a friend, most any dog in the whole world would sit by his side, wag their tail when he arrives home and be loyal to him in his remaining days.

              Jill/Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------Dennis also had a comment about that "finding Jesus" thing...he's thinking maybe even Jesus needs a grace period on this one. That sure, he'll take him in, but maybe he needs a serious time out...go to your room and think about what you've done. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------If I were a decent, honest athlete in pro sports (there still are some, aren't they?) I would be so disgusted by how sick tickets like Vick have just ruined it for everyone.

              Actually I'm disgusted, period. There is something pathologically wrong here.

              Of course guys like Vick are the minority, right? The problem is that the behavior of the minority these days is SO beyond the pale.

              Of course he says he's found Jesus. I hope that's true, because Jesus had some fiery words about how we treat "the least of these."

              ------Date: 2007-09-03 14:36:00 Subject: iCar

              I'll probably have to buy one of these too.

              User Comments: lukee ------I heard this car is going to sneeze for you.

              Matthew ------I bet the gas mileage is going to be good.

              ------Date: 2007-09-04 17:51:00 Subject: Pointless, incessant barking

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------I resemble that! lukee ------Ah! How true this is..

              ------Date: 2007-09-05 17:48:00 Subject: Great Aunt Sherry

              Hello. My name is Matthew McKibben, and I am Sherry’s nephew. I am here, like all of you, to celebrate Sherry Fulmer Strait’s life.

              We all knew Sherry through different relational ties. To my grandparents, she was a daughter. To my mom and my uncles and aunts, she was a big sister. To some here, she was a business associate, or a friend, a fellow Republican, or a friendly neighbor.

              But to me, my cousins, and my siblings, she was Aunt Sherry. But as with all words, names, and titles we attribute to family members, the words seem small and inadequate for those they’re attached to. It’s as if the word “aunt†could ever begin to accurately describe all the wonderful things that my aunt was.

              I mean, my cousin’s and sister’s children hit the nail more on the head. To my nephews and nieces, Sherry was a “great aunt.†Great Aunt Sherry. To me, that seems infinitely more accurate of a title. My nephews and nieces had by title, what everyone already knew. She was, and will continue to be, a GREAT aunt.

              But luckily, I knew Aunt Sherry through a different title. She was not only my aunt, but she was my godmother. And not only was she my godmother, she was, as “great†aunt Sherry and I liked to say, my fairy godmother. Since “aunt†seems like such a small word when talking about the importance Sherry had to my life, I can think of no more appropriate title for “greatâ € aunt Sherry than “godmother.â€

              Taken individually, the word godmother becomes “God†and “Mother.â€

              First take the word God: God, more than anything, is Love. God is an unconditional love so deep that even the world’s greatest poets and writers have yet to accurately detail this love in print, despite thousands of years worth of attempts, and millions of words of practice.

              Secondly, take the word “Mother.†A mother isn’t necessarily the person who carries you in their womb, but is more the person who carries you in their heart. Putting both words together: “god†“mother†becomes “godmother,†which translates to “the mother who carries you in their heart through love.†Taken all that has been said in the above paragraphs, she was a great aunt who gave me the nurturing equal to any mother through the goodness of her immense love.

              One of the things that I’ve noticed throughout my life is the presence of ghosts. Ghosts exist. They exist everywhere. But I’m not talking about the types of ghosts that haunt houses, or walk through the pages of an Edgar Allen Poe short story, but the ghosts that appear through the energies of our memories.

              In my grandmother’s house, there is a spot, a corner actually, next to the kitchen and the dining room table where my Great Grandmother, nicknamed Ganny used to sit and watch over her family. And every time I visit my grandmother’s house, that spot calls to mind the wonderful spirit that my Grandmother carried.

              In that same house, there is a chair in the far corner of the living room where my grandfather used to sit and watch over his family like a proud lion watching over its pride. Every time I took a step into my grandparent’s house, he’d rise from that chair and greet me as if I were the most important person in the room. And I’m sure that’s how he viewed each person that came through his door. Now, every time I see that chair, and that spot of the living room, I instantly recall memories of that great man.

              These types of ghosts exist in happy memories, but they also exist in the void left opened by their earthly departure. With Great Aunt Sherry, I can already tell you where that ghost will exist. The great memory of my great aunt, will reside in the numerous “family gatherings†that my family has throughout the year.

              It is my sincere hope that each person here at one time or another, has experienced the type of familiar bonds and love that my family experiences on a daily basis, but is especially able to feel the immense love and happiness experienced when my family has one of our monthly “family gatherings.†My family gathers at least once a month, usually to honor someone’s birthday or major accomplishment. At these gatherings, we eat, laugh, eat some more, laugh a little bit more, tell family stories, eat some more, occasionally talk politics, eat some more, and when it’s all said and done, we head for the desert.

              But life being the way it is, sometimes different family members would have a major event that would pull them away from the monthly gathering. Or sometimes, someone would be out of town. Sometimes, school would get in the way of someone’s attendance to the family gathering.

              But the one constant for every single family gathering was my great Aunt Sherry. I mean, she was at every single one. It got to the point, that whomever would be in charge of planning the family gathering would not even check with Aunt Sherry to see if she could be there, it was just understood that she would.

              If there was a family gathering somewhere, well, Aunt Sherry was darn sure going to be there. And not only was she going to be there, she was going to be there with FOOD. As you may or may not know, my family likes to eat. And in my family of great cooks, there was none greater than my Great Aunt Sherry. Man, just thinking about those delicious casseroles, and those delicious pies…why, they’re making my mouth water just thinking about them. She was such a great cook she could even make a salad taste GREAT.

              When it was announced that a family gathering was taking place, it was assumed by my family that while we scoured the newspapers at night in search of all the hot topics of national and world news, and while some of us slaved over homework and school assignments, my Great Aunt Sherry waded through page after page of her prized possessions, her cook books. You see, for not only did my Great Aunt Sherry want to find a recipe for her family, she wanted to find a recipe that would equal in greatness the amount of love she had in her heart for her beloved family. The thing about it is that we never requested that she do so. She considered cooking and providing delicious food to her family not as a chore, like I would, but considered it to be her gift to the family she loved dearly. It has been said that the way to a person’s heart is through their stomach. Great Aunt Sherry knew this statement to be a philosophical Truth.

              As I’ve come to realize, death is a lot harder on those of us who are left behind to sort out the pieces. For those who pass on, why they have the easy part. I mean, can’t you just sit here and imagine what Aunt Sherry is doing right now? Can you imagine what this person, who loved family more than self, is doing with the countless generations of family that have come before? While we sit here, and feel sad that our beloved Aunt is no longer with us, she is reunited with her father. As we sit here and embrace one another, she now sits and feels the warm embrace of her grandparents, and her great-grandparents, and her great-great grandparents. How can we not feel happy for Sherry, who is probably right now as we speak, cooking up some heavenly pie for those in her family with her, and consequently, with us all.

              But let us not forget, that while we still struggle to come to grips with an illness that attacked silently, she is illness free. I feel nothing but happy just saying those words. She is illness free. Let it never be said, or even thought, that cancer took my Great Aunt Sherry. I mean, what is cancer really? Cancer is nothing more than an overgrowth of cells. That’s it. That’s all. Let it never be said that an overgrowth of cells took my Great Aunt. It may have made her sick. It may have taken her hair. It may have taken her physical energy. But it did not, it could not, no matter how deep and dark it got…it could not take her spirit or her soul. That was hers and hers alone. And no overgrowth of cells was going to take that from her. If these last few weeks have proven anything, they’ve proven that my Great Aunt Sherry was a fighter. She was tough. As her favorite president would say, her resolve was strong. Her resolve was so strong in fact, that the last time I saw her, only about a week and a half before she passed from this realm to the next, it was at times really hard to even tell that she was sick. I swear, her smile could lighten even the darkest of rooms.

              So as I leave this chapel today, I carry with me the warm memories of my Great Aunt Sherry. Although she won’t physically be with me anymore, I’m positive that she will always be there. Just like Ganny sits at the bar stool next to the kitchen, and just like my grandfather sits in his comfy living room recliner, so too does my Aunt Sherry stay with us every moment of everyday. I love you Great Great GREAT Aunt Sherry. We’ll see you at the next family gathering.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Amen!

              Matthew ------She was a great woman and is sorely missed.

              ------Date: 2007-09-10 22:06:00 Subject: Showering Parker

              I've just arrived home after a wonderful weekend "showering Parker."

              Things I know more than ever tonight:

              1. Air travel is exhausting.

              2. It takes a village to raise a child.

              3. My Mother knows who Kanye West is.

              4. My "Orlando" daughter is my heart and soul. 5. Cousin Ann is the next best thing to my sister Sherry.

              6. Seeing Dallas Cowboys fans in their blue jerseys are a far better sight than seeing Washington Redskin fans in their whatever-the-hell-that-color-is jerseys.

              7. Returning to the city does my heart good.

              8. DC mass transit rocks!

              9. Calling in "sick" is easier than legitimately asking for a day off with my a-hole boss.

              10. I have the best brothers in the whole, wide world!

              And there's probably a little more, but that'll do it for now.

              User Comments: lukee ------more blogs like this, please.

              Jill/Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------What Katie said!!! ;-)

              Katieg ------Matthew... you crack me up.

              Matthew ------11. Babies don't need IBS medication. :-)

              YECN http://www.thegradlifect.blogspot.com/ ------I wish that I could have been there... I am glad that you had a great time...

              YECN reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Yay!

              ------Date: 2007-09-14 17:02:00 Subject: Human Tetris

              User Comments: lukee ------That looks so fun!

              YECN http://www.gradlifect.blogger.com ------I just want to know why that water is so yellow.....

              ------Date: 2007-09-18 10:04:00 Subject: Blogosphere 1, NYT 0

              From Andrew Sullivan:

                The NYT reverses one of the dumbest moves in the history of online journalism. This is not the benefit of hindsight. It was obvious at the time that this kind of gambit would never work for online opinion, and anyone with a pulse and a modem could see that, including many of the columnists themselves. In some ways, it was less a business decision, it seems to me, than a sheer assertion, by slightly desperate men, that somehow Times opiners merited a fee in a way no one else did - least of all those - shudder - bloggers. Two years ago, they could still assert that with a straight face, even if the rest of us were snickering. No longer. The NYT has some great columnists and some unreadable ones. But they are not a class apart. They are merely part of a much larger and better conversation than any Sulzberger could ever own. Welcome to the blogosphere, guys. It's free.

              Happy days are here again!

              User Comments:

              Mamala/Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------UPDATE:

              Blogosphere 2, NYT 0, WSJ 0 Headline: WSJ May Follow NYT's Lead, Drop Online Subscription Fees

              Mamala/Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Before this week, you had to pay to be a member of "Times Select" to view columns such as Maureen Dowd and David Brooks...now they are free! lukee ------so what actually happened?

              ------Date: 2007-09-18 10:17:00 Subject: The Emmy Clip-Off

              Again, from The Daily Dish...

              Comedy-writers from Colbert, Stewart, Conan, Letterman and Maher all got to produce clips introducing their staff at the Emmys last night. Pretty damn hilarious. I'd say my friends at Real Time won what they call the "clip-off", although the award went to Conan's peeps.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------That was my favorite part of the show. I thought Jon Stewart's clip and Bill Maher's clips were the most original.

              ------Date: 2007-09-19 09:16:00 Subject: :-) turns 25

              Happy Birthday to you!

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------:-) lukee ------:-) ------Date: 2007-09-19 14:46:00 Subject: Is America ready for a woman president?

              User Comments: lukee ------The ending is quite brill. "Is a woman president ready for america?".

              Matthew ------Greatness. lukee ------Ha ha!

              ------Date: 2007-09-20 13:04:00 Subject: Let's party!

              Urban cup holder clamps onto street posts

              The Urban Cup Holder is a plastic clamp that attaches to street-posts, letting you set up impromptu street-parties on the sidewalk.

              User Comments: lukee ------see, i find it disarmingly satisfying.. i will take them both, please.

              Mamala/Jill ------You're right...this was funny, although I don't like them any better with their mouths shut. lukee ------this seems like something you would like!

              lukee ------um....

              ------Date: 2007-09-20 22:32:00 Subject: Thursday night's the new Friday night

              I was walking home this evening from my favorite bookstore and noticed almost every restaurant along the way was packed full of partying 20 and 30 somethings (ok, there may have been a few boomers too). When did Thursday night become the new Friday night?

              Now the weather here has been wonderful so it's bringing out lots of people in general. But I think it's also a good trend that people are finding an additional evening to gather with friends for a drink and dinner.

              I recently negotiated a 4 day work week (10 hour days) so maybe I'll soon be able to partake of the new Friday night that is Thursday night.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------We had those at my first company. They were called 9/80s. Work 80 hours over 9 days. I liked it, but yes, the 8 hour day is a bit of an idol in our culture.

              Mamala/Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------The government (and their contractors) here in DC are working with a 5 day/9 hour schedule the first week and a 35 hour week the second week so you get at least every other Friday off.

              That's do-able, and I like the idea of it, although I'm still wondering where it's written that an 8 hour work day is god?

              Matthew ------I've wondered the same thing. Are three day weekends a thing to look forward to? lukee ------such a "mom" post, i love it.

              mother, i really like it when you write blogs about what you do. please keep doing so!

              ------Date: 2007-09-23 01:47:00 Subject: A guy and a guitar Is there anything better than that?

              You had me at the first strum.

              User Comments: lukee ------who??

              ------Date: 2007-09-23 23:36:00 Subject: 3 and 0, gee it's hard not to gloat!

              So I'm riding home on the Metro this evening and as Redskin fans arrive and depart, I don't even have to ask "who won" as I know that they didn't.

              I get home in time to watch Dallas beat up on 'da Bears. How sweet it is.

              As I've said many times, I love my new home here on the east coast, but the blue and silver team with the star will always have my heart over those pesky Redskins. I continually get the idea that they really are, and think of themselves as, the unloved stepchild of the NFL, always having to come in second to their superior big bro' (the Cowboys of Dallas).

              And to think, when I was in Dallas, I really wasn't that big of a fan past the Troy, Emmitt and Michael years. Guess this is just comfort sports for me now.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------That game was fun. They're looking pretty good these days. Let's hope it lasts.

              Outtamyhead http://www.journalscape.com/outtamyhead/ ------i know how ya feel. our U of K football team has blown for so many years, and now we're 4 and 0 - i don't think that's happened since bear bryant was here.

              we're gloating a bit ourselves these days.

              ------Date: 2007-09-29 14:33:00 Subject: Buying donuts in Northern Virginia Both girls were up early this morning and M had a croupy cough so it was off to the weekend walk-in clinic for the 3 of us before we passed go, before we collected $200.

              We got to the Dr's office promptly at 8 AM only to find that they didn't open until 9 AM so we headed off to find donuts. Now I know I passed at least 10 strip shopping centers before I turned around and no donut shop appeared. C suggested I go to the grocery store, which I should have done, but I had my heart set on Dunkin' Donuts after she mentioned that was her favorite kind (besides Krispy Kremes, but knew they wouldn't have those out in the burbs).

              It was getting close to 9 so we headed back toward the Dr's office and I decided to stop in the Whole Foods across the street thinking they'd surely have donuts (probably whole wheat ones with no trans fat, but still...).

              Nope, wrong again. I tried to talk the girls into a muffin but they both eyed the huge chocolate chip cookies and wanted those instead. Losing all desire to negotiate, I gave in.

              We sat in the Dr's waiting room (the sick child side) and both girls ate their cookies for breakfast.

              I didn't make eye contact with any of the other parents, but I'm sure they were all thinking "no wonder they are sick...look what she feeds them for breakfast!"

              Oh, the humility!

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------ha. I took Jay to Shipley's yesterday and purchased 12 donuts. It wasn't until I got home that I looked at the ingredients. Sheesh. The healthiest ingregient (sugar) was 5th on the list. If anything, getting them a cookie was the healthier choice. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------The girls were well cared for, and that's all that matters. Bless your heart for taking on more than any of us realized this weekend! To be honest, I'm not as concerned about them as I am about you---they are resilient and bounce back fast, but I hope you're not too wiped out!

              Because I want you to enjoy your trip to the NYF, and the weekend after too. You've 'earned' them. Not that you need to earn them... you deserve it! lukee ------Ha! That's highlarious. Altho, at most hospitals I have been in they have mcdonalds and candy machines close by, so don't feel too bad!

              YECN http://www.gradlifect.blogger.com ------you don't know how many times similar things have happened to me with L. (When she runs across the bookstore to point out the picture of Bart Simpson, when she knows all the words to "Stacey's Mom", when she says she wants to be Barbie when she grows-up...)

              ------Date: 2007-10-17 10:47:00 Subject: Ritual

              Again and again, I practice to make perfect a time when I can be present to my presence.

              The need is there always, but the time is not given to it.

              Rather, it's wasted on the "to do" list that is my imperfect life.

              User Comments: lukee ------I have been finding more and more contentment in imperfection.

              ------Date: 2007-10-23 14:58:00 Subject: Artichokes and Grown-up Mashed Potatoes

              I remember when my kids were young, their dad and I splurged one day and purchased fresh artichokes to enjoy for dinner. Being a little more pricy than the usual vegetable, we bought only enough for the both of us to share. As we began our meal, all four kiddos looked at us curiously as we enjoyed the "delicacy" and each, in their own way, asked for a taste. (Of course, the melted butter that we dipped the petal tips in didn't hurt entice the young ones either.) Even though we assured them that they wouldn't like them, we ended up sharing what little we had with them and they were a big hit. They couldn't get enough of them!

              Just this past Sunday night, my son-in-law R cooked a delicious meal of grilled salmon, brussel sprouts and "grown up" mashed potatoes. As I began to spoon some of them on my granddaughters' plates, R said that he had cooked some broccoli for the girls and that they probably wouldn't like the potatoes (or something to that effect) since he had added smoked gouda and other flavorings to make them wonderfully delicious!

              That didn't stop M though, as after she'd cleaned her plate of the salmon and broccoli, she was still hungry and begged some potatoes from her dad. Of course, she loved them and couldn't get enough of them.

              Note to self: if you want a kid to eat something, tell them a. they won't like it, or b. it's just for grown ups!

              User Comments: lukee ------Ah man, I really want some grown up mashed potatoes right now. Does that make me a kid?

              Matthew ------taking notes

              ------Date: 2007-10-29 17:44:00 Subject: 310 steps

              I've been meaning to count the steps from my front door to my new job's front door and today (my first day on the job) I did it on the way home...310 steps (one and one-half blocks). I can't tell you how I truly feel right now, although it seems a little like I'm dreaming and if I talk about it, I'll wake up and it will all be taken away from me. Of course, I'm in the honeymoon period with this new job right now, but the amount of stress I escape from working 2.5 less hours a week (we work a 37.5 hour work week and get paid for 40) and another 2 hours without a commute each day have suddenly given me time in my day to do the things I've never made time for - mainly to nurture my soul. The gods are smiling on me today, and I'm so grateful.

              User Comments: lukee ------Yay!

              You deserve it.

              Mamala ------You all are right! I did earn/deserve it!

              Katieg ------Yay! You deserve i.... err, I mean, you've earned it!

              Matthew ------Oops. I didn't even see that RM had written the same thing. :-) Matthew ------Yay! You deserve it. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Yay!

              You deserve it.

              ------Date: 2007-11-06 11:52:00 Subject: A letter to Parker

              Come out, come out, where ever you are!

              Seriously, I think it's very cool that you let your dad celebrate his (30th!!) birthday without your very much anticipated appearance overshadowing his big event. But now, we await your arrival. It's really very cool if you decide to come any day now. We're all ready to welcome you to the family!

              I can't wait to meet you. I already have in my mind what you are going to look like. First of all, you'll be beautiful, just like your mom and dad. And you'll be smart 'cause your mom is in grad school and I'm sure you've absorbed some of the stuff she's learning. You'll be a huge sports fan and I look forward to the day when you and your dad watch the Spurs, the Cowboys, the Rockets and the Astros together and you both high-five each other when these teams win. I'm hoping your hair is strawberry blonde or red like your mom's and the auburn tones of your dad's beard. That would be very cool! If not, though, later in your life, you can ask your MaDear (that's me) what shade of L'Oreal (because you'll definitely be worth it!) she uses to cover her grey with her auburn tones. We can play hairdresser together!

              We've all decided it would be cool if you were born on 11/7/07 or 11/11/07 as those numbers are lucky.

              I'm just thinking any day that you pick will be the very best, most magnificent day ever!

              So come on out and meet your world, sweetie.

              I love you, MaDear

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------It won't be long now. From the TMI department, we saw some evidence that Anya's mucous plug is breaking up, which is usually a sign that labor is around the corner. We think that we also saw some "bloody show," which is another sign.

              Either way, won't be long now. lukee ------i vote 11/7/07.

              Come on parker!

              ------Date: 2007-11-07 09:37:00 Subject: 2 Trees

              2 Trees

              I first saw them from the bus window.

              I didn't know what to think at first so I walked near them for a closer look.

              They were touching at their base, then spread apart as if to deny the attraction they felt.

              Having spent time alone, they joined again, from which two independent trees now grow.

              That time together was their strength.

              That time apart will weaken them against the strong winds that blow.

              Until then though, their sacred space will provide shelter for the smallest of nature, an open womb to protect its inhabitants from the lonely world.

              User Comments:

              Mr. Cloudy ------Hey friend. I was moved by this. I'm seeing it in sepia tones, and feeling like I've entered a safe space myself. lukee ------Its great! Mamala/JillSusan http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yes, I wrote it last night...thanks for the good words.

              Matthew ------I like it! reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Did you write this? Wow.

              ------Date: 2007-11-08 11:49:00 Subject: Emotionally ambiguous...

              ...songs for the holidays.

              ------Date: 2007-11-12 12:09:00 Subject: I put my suitcase away

              Well, my marathon traveling schedule is complete. Since the first of September through this past weekend, I've spent a total of 8 out of 11 weekends out of town, or at least away from my apartment (Suburban Presbyterian Church Retreat, Dallas, "Suburbia" VA, NYC, Houston, Dallas, Austin, Orlando).

              I have to give a real shout-out to my kitties as they are no worse for the wear and have not displayed any weird behavior (knock on wood) in retaliation for being left alone to fend for themselves during my travel absences. And I'm very grateful for my strong constitution and the travel gods that I was able to survive this aggressive travel schedule without any illnesses or major travel delays.

              It also occurred to me this morning that I will, for the first time in some time, be working a 5-day work week this week (thank god, T-giving is right around the corner as I'm sure I'll need a 4-day weekend after this grueling 37.5 hour/5-day work week! ;-) )

              Today, just thinking about my travels fills me with some really warm thoughts and good memories. The weekends spent with my children and grandchildren are at the top of my gratitude list. I still have to wonder how I got so lucky to have such wonderful kids and grandkids. Everyone needs to be me!!!

              And the NYC trip was a regular delight as I experienced the pages of The New Yorker magazine come to life during their yearly festival (I know, I'm a geek!).

              Seeing high school chums after 40 years, was, well, a surreal experience as we all lied to each other and assured each other that "we hadn't changed a bit!" (at which point, I wanted to respond, "yeah, we all looked like 58 year olds in high school").

              So how do I go on today, knowing that I won't be using my suitcase for a whole month, you ask?

              Well, I'm anxiously looking forward to my trip to Austin in December to meet PCG-M, I'll plan another trip to Orlando for New Year's weekend or mid-January, and then there's always the phone call from my VA daughter telling me that her first son/my second grandson is on his way!

              I'm very, very blessed!

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Great recap!

              ------Date: 2007-11-12 12:20:00 Subject: Mickey, carved out of soap

              How do you explain a bar of soap? Or Yellow Pages? And isn't it a sign of the times and generations that we'd even have to?

              We were walking through Downtown Disney this past weekend, when we came upon a soap carving of Mickey Mouse. As Florida daugther and her hubby and I marvelled at the talent and effort and detail of the rather large carved sculpture, my grandson seemed confused, wondering how the only soap he's known in his life (the liquid variety, dispensed from a pump) could be carved to look like a giant Mickey Mouse.

              Continuing the generational divide, upon arrival back at their condo, a set of actual hard-copy, paper Yellow Pages had been delivered outside their front door. Granddaughter #1 asked why anyone would actually use this method of finding things when there's Google.

              It reminded me of the time I explained a "record album" to them or the Christmas when my brothers were gifting each other with "CDs" and I actually thought they were exchanging Certificates of Deposit.

              The times they are a-changin'!

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Weird. I've never thought about bar soap going away.

              ------Date: 2007-11-16 14:34:00 Subject: For Parker Chloe

              Birth Day

              -by Elise Paschen

              Armored in red, her voice commands every corner. Bells gong on squares, in steeples, answering the prayers.

              Bright tulips crown the boulevards.

              Pulled from the womb she imitates that mythic kick from some god's head.

              She roars, and we are conquered.

              Her legs, set free, combat the air.

              Naked warrior: she is our own.

              Entire empires are overthrown.

              ------Date: 2007-11-16 16:09:00 Subject: You've got that right

              ------Date: 2007-11-19 11:59:00 Subject: Mood Swings

              Mood Swings

              Routine

              It's that time of year again.

              Go get the test, pass it, do it again next year.

              Wash, rinse, repeat.

              Surprised, Scared, Confident

              The letter comes.

              "The test shows inconsistencies. Schedule another appointment for more detailed views."

              I've been down this road before and found the final destination uneventful.

              Cocky, Fearful, Grim Develop sound, calm expectations.

              They ignore my expectations and zero in on "the problem."

              Wait for the doctor in a room with only 2 chairs, no windows, no pictures, no hope.

              Don't Tell Me/Tell Me, Relieved, Thankful

              This really can't be happening!

              "We'll see you in a year. There is no suspicious change and no radiologic evidence of malignancy."

              Breathing is restored; smile muscles are exercised; angels are thanked.

              User Comments:

              Mr. Cloudy ------ Don't tell me/Tell me

              So much of being human in those few words.

              Matthew ------Yay! What a roller coaster indeed. Thank those Angels. In fact, I'm holding one of them now. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Yay, but what a roller coaster!

              It's sad that women often have to have this relationship with their bodies. Like they are the enemy.

              ------Date: 2007-11-21 09:23:00 Subject: Spirit of Life

              Preach the gospel at all times. If necessary, use words.

              ~St. Francis of Assisi Gospel - good news - joy - hope - salvation - future - peace - health - safety - shelter - happiness - calm - quiet - respite - friendship - family - steadiness - sleep - comfortably numb - home - nature - autumn - spring - summer - winter - light - sabbatical - fallow time - feast - harvest - laughter - smiles - hands to hold - roots hold me close - wings set me free - melody - [fill in the blank]

              User Comments: lukee ------effortless

              ------Date: 2007-11-26 00:15:00 Subject: Homeless at Krispy Kremes

              Was with my Virginia granddaughters this weekend at the Krispy Kreme store the day after T- giving.

              As we were enjoying the Snowman donuts, the sprinkle ones, the pumpkin spice variety, I saw him outside the store window, downing the last of his bottle which was covered by a brown paper bag. He laid the bag (and bottle) down just outside the store even though there was a perfectly good trash can less than 5 feet away (probably taking way too much effort to discard it properly when your life is on the street).

              Having imbibed the liquid part of his breakfast, he entered the store where we were and spoke a few words to the clerk behind the counter. She wrapped a single donut in a tissue and handed it to him, no payment required.

              There, but for the grace of god...

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Can I just say that Krispy Kreme's free donut rule is the best thing ever?

              ------Date: 2007-12-04 09:16:00 Subject: Winter's here

              Snow flurries in DC! Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

              User Comments:

              Mr. Cloudy ------As long as there's a fireplace nearby, I'm in. Here it's just cold and wet. Amazing how a few degrees can change your perspective.

              Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------Actually, it stopped as soon as it started but it was fun while it lasted...more to come for sure. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Aw man, not in Suburban Sheol (yet)! lukee ------Ah, I bet that is lovely!

              ------Date: 2007-12-05 11:12:00 Subject: For the Divine Miss M (and her mother, for that matter)

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Ha!

              We try to keep them separate, though I can't promise that her bday gift won't be wrapped in Christmas paper...

              ------Date: 2007-12-12 08:58:00 Subject: A Christmas Song

              I'm really enjoying the Christmas season this year but I hope I can remember the people that find that this is the hardest time of year...

              from Andrew Sullivan's blog:

              A Christmas Song

              - by Wendy Cope

              Why is the baby crying On this, his special day,

              When we have brought him lovely gifts

              And laid them on the hay?

              He’s crying for the people

              Who greet this day with dread

              Because somebody dear to them

              Is far away or dead,

              For all the men and women

              Whose love affairs went wrong,

              Who try their best at merriment

              When Christmas comes along,

              For separated parents

              Whose turn it is to grieve

              While children hang their stockings up

              Elsewhere on Christmas Eve,

              For everyone whose burden

              Carried through the year,

              Is heavier at Christmastime,

              The season of good cheer.

              That’s why the baby’s crying

              There in the cattle stall:

              He’s crying for those people.

              He’s crying for them all.

              User Comments: Mr. Cloudy ------I love that this song actually let's the baby cry instead of "the little lord Jesus no crying he makes." Oh, I still like Away in a Manger, but I think this is a wonderful turn on the baby imagery, and the naturalness of crying, and of caring. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------I was just reading recently about "Blue Christmas" services that some churches have on December 21, the darkest day of the year, for people who have a hard time during the holidays. I think that's a good idea.

              ------Date: 2007-12-18 12:59:00 Subject: How dare he?

              From the Daily Dish...

              Lee Stranahan channels the Clintons' amazement that anyone could be so uppity as to stand in the way of Hillary Clinton's manifest destiny. Enjoy:

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------God. I see that HRC's ahead again in New Hampshire. I swear, if she gets the nomination, I'm considering voting third party. lukee ------This is awesome!

              ------Date: 2007-12-19 09:15:00 Subject: Ok, and the winner is...

              ...you can quit holding your breath.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------An interesting but obvious choice. lukee ------An odd choice. Frankly I don't know who I would choose.

              ------Date: 2007-12-19 17:27:00 Subject: Shine a Light

              User Comments: lukee ------Looks like it's about as much about Scorcece as it is about the Stones!

              ------Date: 2007-12-21 11:02:00 Subject: The Beatles Do Stairway

              From the Daily Dish...

              User Comments:

              Rambler http://www.journalscape.com/Rambler/ ------That was a riot! I want to be in a band that does Stairway THAT way!

              Matthew ------HA! I love it.

              The original "Stairway to Heaven" was written after George Harrison criticized Led Zeppelin for not being able to write a ballad.

              ------Date: 2007-12-23 17:24:00 Subject: Busted!

              ------Date: 2007-12-23 17:56:00 Subject: Not a creature was stirrring

              Is it possible that I'm the only one in this big house? I'm in a 4-story condo with 27 other apartments and I swear I've been here all day and haven't heard a sound or soul...kinda nice...kinda scary, but a good scary. I've got my attack-cats if anyone messes with me! ;-)

              User Comments: kuke ------Comb over? I can hardly see the relevance of that.. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------COME OVER!! :-D

              ------Date: 2007-12-25 23:49:00 Subject: God bless us every one

              Is it trite or true to say that this has been the best Christmas ever? For me, it's true.

              Oh sure, it could have been better if I could somehow be in four places at once (Suburban VA, 2 miles from DisneyWorld, close to the Riverwalk, and the great city that was the birthplace of my Fab Four).

              But being only in one place, this was a pretty good place to be. We had mashed potato cinnamon rolls (reminding me of my baby bro' Ted) and the gift exchange would have been "Sherry- approved" as each one of us watched patiently as each of us around the tree unwrapped each gift singly and wonderfully.

              Then, a gourmet dinner courtesy of my son-in-law #1 and his father.

              I delighted in giving my 6th grandchild a bath! Then watching his sisters fall asleep, exhausted, the visions of sugar plums had danced the final dance not only in their heads, but in reality.

              Walking home tonight, a complete stranger wished me "Happy Holidays" as the streets were as deserted as I'd ever seen them in our nation's capitol, my home.

              Yes, God bless us every one.

              ------Date: 2007-12-26 10:29:00 Subject: Most Admired

              This was shocking to me given that his approval ratings hover around 30% and her negatives hover around 50%.

              ------Date: 2007-12-26 13:09:00 Subject: Happy Boxing Day!

              For more info about Boxing Day, click here.

              On a day when Canadians are knocking each other over and spending, spending, spending, I want to be more like this guy!

              ------Date: 2007-12-27 09:11:00 Subject: How would you like to live across the street from this guy?

              User Comments: lukee ------I would think that the aliens from Close Encounters of the Third Kind were about to land.

              ------Date: 2007-12-27 12:39:00 Subject: Like being punched in the stomach...

              User Comments:

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------"If it means sacrificing our lives, if it means sacrificing our liberties to save Pakistan, then we are prepared to risk our lives and we are prepared to risk our liberties, but we are not prepared to surrender our great nation to the militants," - Benazir Bhutto.

              ------Date: 2007-12-28 14:00:00 Subject: The Friday Thirteen

              1. How and when did you first discover blogging?

              On November 17, 2002 I felt the need to re-print a rather upbeat article about the Green Party, so I blogged it on Journalscape. The rest is history.

              2. In how many towns/countries have you lived?

              Six towns/cities (one country)

              3. Did you grow up in a politically-active family?

              I always knew my father was a Republican, but my mother kept us guessing, never telling anyone who she voted for.

              4. Speaking as a pesky voter, what is your #1 election issue for 2008?

              Healthcare

              5. Which politician most closely comes to your idea of the perfect Democrat?

              Barack Obama

              6. Finish this sentence: In the kitchen I make a mean...

              Haven't cooked in a long while, but my Mashed Potato Cinnamon Rolls went over pretty well on Christmas morning. 7. What is the country you'd like to visit most?

              Australia

              8. What do you do for fun when you're not blogging?

              Read, listen to music, hold grandchildren

              9. The one book that everyone must read NOW is...

              "Born Standing Up" by Steve Martin

              10. No waffling here: dogs or cats?

              Cats fit my lifestyle but dogs make me smile when I see them on the streets of DC (ok, so I waffled).

              11. If you could snap your fingers and have one Republican removed from the House or the Senate, who would it be?

              Sen. Larry ("I am not gay") Craig

              12. What are your favorite blogs besides JillSusan.com?

              Any of my children's or family member's blogs

              13. How do you want your epitaph to read?

              Imagine all the people, Living life in peace ------Date: 2007-12-28 14:30:00 Subject: A Blog Review of 2007

              Because ReverendMother did it (in 2006) and she's a rock star...

              The first line from the first post of each month this year:

              [Odd - Numbered Years] I've always had a problem with odd-numbers...1-3-5-7-9-etc. etc. and that extends to odd-numbered years.

              [Merry Super, Happy Bowl!]

              [An Inconvenient Truth] The Express (Washington Post's free paper for Metro riders and others) has a poll every day where people can go online and vote.

              [It's April already and I'm no fool] So, my baby is growing up.

              [The World From Your Window] From Andrew Sullivan's blog...It's noon on May 1.

              [The U.S. vs. John Lennon] I rented this documentary the other night and enjoyed it thoroughly.

              ["I'm smarter than you"] That's what my granddaughter #2 said to me tonight.

              ["The internet is destroying good music"] or so says Elton John...

              [iCar] I'll probably have to buy one of these too.

              [Ritual] Again and again, I practice to make perfect a time when I can be present to my presence. [A letter to Parker] Come out, come out, where ever you are!

              [Winter's here] Snow flurries in DC!

              Analysis: I've got A.A.D.D.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Ooh, thanks for reminding me!

              ------Date: 2008-01-01 22:21:00 Subject: Oh Happy Day, Oh Happy New Year!

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------beautiful family lukee ------great picture!

              ------Date: 2008-01-02 09:59:00 Subject: We're all crooks

              From Talking Points Memo comes this...

              The recording industry now says it's a crime for you to copy songs from your own CDs onto your own personal computer.

              Oh brother!

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Ha! Laughable. The RIAA needs to pull its head out of its ass. ------Date: 2008-01-02 15:05:00 Subject: Iowa, are you listening?

              User Comments: lukee ------What a cool video!

              Ted ------I so much enjoyed hearing that speech again. I *really* wish I lived in Iowa today.

              ------Date: 2008-01-03 21:38:00 Subject: It doesn't get any better than this

              Obama wins Iowa!

              If you add Edwards and Obama voters, they totally overshadow Hillary in numbers and that's a very good thing!

              User Comments:

              Jill ------listen to his acceptance speech...I love this man!

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------From the Huffington Post...yes! reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Ssssssssssweet!

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Juan Williams just said this is historic. Iowa is 95% white...the idea that he won this state is astounding!!! Amen!

              ------Date: 2008-01-04 08:47:00 Subject: New Year's Friday Five

              1. Do you make New Year resolutions?

              Yes, but I've already broken most of them, par for the course. It was a nice dream while it lasted.

              2. Is this something you take seriously, or is it a bit of fun?

              Guess I don't take them seriously enough. I do much better with "for today, I'll [fill in the blank]"

              3. Share one goal for 2008.

              Save money more aggressively

              4. Money is no barrier, share one wild/ impossible dream for 2008

              Have a week with my kids and their SOs and my grandkids in the mountains/by the sea/[fill in the blank]

              5. Someone wants to publish a story of your year in 2008, what will the title of that book be?

              The Audacity of Hope

              ------Date: 2008-01-08 08:54:00 Subject: It's my party and I'll cry if I want to

              Does anyone but me find this, I don't know, less than genuine?...that the first time we see HRC cry in public is not when her husband was caught with an intern, or NYC was attacked and thousands lost their lives, or many of the other tragic events that have happened during her public life, but when she is LOSING the election to Obama?

              User Comments:

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Hillary’s Winter of Discontent

              By the Editors of NRO

              Hillary Clinton cried on the campaign trail Monday, leading immediately to ridicule and cynical interpretations of why she had chosen this moment to get emotional. We’ll leave that to others, and simply extend her some sympathy. Heaven knows, she has a lot to try to cry about.

              Clinton could be watching her presidential campaign — despite all the money and organization and years of ambitious strategizing and maneuvering — be destroyed by the inspirational insurgency of Barack Obama. It looks as though he could win big in New Hampshire tonight, and after that, he could be very hard to stop.

              Why has Hillary fallen so hard? This time around the Clintons have been admonishing audiences to stop thinking about tomorrow — instead harkening back to Hillary’s stint as First Lady when she hung with Benazir Bhutto, took on the big bad insurance industry, and delivered health care to New Hampshire national guardsmen. Such experience was expected to trump change. But experience is a two-way street. Voters have had lots of experience with the Clintons — and not all of it has been happy. Moreover, she made her experience case with an off-putting air of entitlement.

              Within the Democratic party, the Clintons always benefited from their enemies: stick with Bill and Hillary or the nasty Newt Gingrich will prevail; Hillary was going to vanquish the hated Rudy Giuliani; Hillary will deliver us from the criminal Bush Republicans. Their enemies helped make them possible, but this time the alternative to the Clintons is Obama, a gifted politician loved by most of the left. Why would liberals compromise again with the Clintons when they can have the sweet uplift of Barack Obama and his non-triangulating leftism? On Monday, Bill Clinton said of Hillary's troubles: “We can’t be a new story, I’m sorry. I can’t make her younger, taller, male.” Or black? It was a statement in keeping with Bill’s often strange and unhelpful performance on the campaign trail in this, Hillary’s winter of discontent. He made her? And now there’s only so much he can do to change her?

              Of course, she would be better off if she has his talents. A gifted politician like Bill could make the party put up with him, and his relatively centrist politics — they liked him. She has always been the enforcer, he the lovable and undisciplined softie. He, like Obama, is a natural, while she has to work at it. If Obama is poetry, she is an extra-credit essay — dutiful, competent, dull. It is looking like it will take more than that for people to want to embark on a full 28 years of Bush- Clinton-Bush-Clinton.

              All year long Democrats probably saw Hillary as inevitable, though not necessarily electable. Once her inevitability collapsed in Iowa, she was left only with the electability problem, which will loom even larger if she continues to lose early states. It’s a volatile election season, and the current dynamic could change, either because Obama stumbles or Hillary finds some effective new tack against him. But the political terrain is looking forboding for her.

              There is unquestionably an anti-establishment mood in the electorate. After spending their youths attacking the establishment and then climbing within it, the Clintons now are the establishment — just when the kids, and many other Democratic voters, want nothing more than to reject it. It’s enough to make you want to reach for the Kleenex.

              Ted ------I found the whole scenario hard to fathom. She spends an hour in a coffee shop with 16 undecided women and several dozen press, and then as the event is wrapping up gets asked "How, did you get out the door every day? I mean, as a woman, I know how hard it is to get out of the house and get ready. Who does your hair?"

              And that question prompted her response? Please.... reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Just sent you EJ Dionne's WaPo article... he nails it

              ------Date: 2008-01-08 09:33:00 Subject: Don't iPod Me, Bro! from The Daily Dish by Andrew Sullivan

              The gadget we've all been waiting for:

                Today at CES, Taser International introduced the Taser MPH -- the first combination hand- held music player and Taser. The player, which has a 1-GB capacity that can hold about 150 songs, is embedded in a holster that slips on your belt. Feel the need to zap someone and you can unholster the Taser, use the built-in laser pointer to aim, and blam -- a couple of darts carrying 50,000 volts hits your victim.

              ------Date: 2008-01-08 22:51:00 Subject: What's the Matter With New Hampshire?

              You are *so* dead to me!

              User Comments:

              Matt ------Was a very frustrating election night. I really hate the way we hold primaries in this country. If it were up to me, Iowa, NH, Nevada, and SC would all be ok the same night.

              Ted ------As RM says, it will be good for the eventual winner if they have to earn it. My worry is "Will the Clinton machine do so much damage that it ends up helping the Rs in November?"

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yeah, you're right. Between Obama, Edwards and Richardson, they took 61% of the Democratic votes and I can't think Edwards and Richardson supporters will go to Clinton when they leave the race (please leave the race guys!).

              I was embarrassed for McCain last night...I mean, come on, can't you say thank you without reading it off notes? reverendmother ------Take heart--I think this will be good for Obama in the long run. Keeps his campaign from getting complacent. People still need to find out who he is. And who knows how the Edwards voters would have gone (though I hope he fights on). He didn't lose by much.

              McCain v Obama could be tough. Mac has the experience in spades, but what a snoozer of a speech last night.

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------OK, you're not dead, but you're definitely on notice!

              ------Date: 2008-01-09 23:01:00 Subject: Yes we can

              So Hillary says "I have found my voice" and we should all rejoice.

              Contrast that to Obama's "Yes we can" where we are all in this together.

              'nuff said .

              ------Date: 2008-01-10 10:11:00 Subject: To Love January

              January has always been my second least favorite month (August being my least favorite month) of the year. This beautiful poem, however, has provided me a different perspective to love January.

              To Love January

              -Davi Walders

              I clasp January to me giddy with hope for its newborn cry that clears away the worn out year like so much tinsel carted off to storage. I love

              January's uncluttered room, its freshly laundered calendar innocent and white beneath a pure blue sky

              grazed by bone-clean trees. To love

              January is an acquired taste, like learning to let the tongue curl around the slow, sweet burn

              of Tuaca's golden fire.

              I do not want to wait for April to fall in love, July to run with a salty sea, October to be crowned

              in color. I want to drink it all in now when everything is possible and I and the world are infants again babbling, listening for birdsong.

              ------Date: 2008-01-10 10:18:00 Subject: Quote for the Day

              The future is shaped in the present. What is important is not the fulfillment of all one's dreams, but the stubborn determination to continue dreaming. -Gioconda Belli

              ------Date: 2008-01-10 12:45:00 Subject: The latest political quiz

              From Thinking as a Hobby, comes this...

              the electoral compass Here are my results:

              The pencil shows where I fall on the political spectrum.

              Guess I'm supporting the right guy! Yes we can, Obama!

              ------Date: 2008-01-10 13:14:00 Subject: Your Lost Number

              What is your Lost number?
              4
              8
              15
              16
              23
              42
                
              pollcode.com free polls

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------23 - Only prime numbers for me. Oh, and wait til you see room 23 in season 3. It's trippy as hell.

              ------Date: 2008-01-11 10:21:00 Subject: Poll Question of the Day

              Based on what you've heard this week about the performance of pollsters in New Hampshire, are you somewhat likely, quite likely, or very likely to ignore political surveys for the foreseeable future?

              My answer: VERY LIKELY TO IGNORE

              User Comments: Shennanigans http://www.journalscape.com/Shennanigans/ ------

              I generally look at them to get an idea of what the media WANTS us to believe - based on the few people willing to be polled, and to do so honestly; alas, yes, I will continue to do so, and do it with the grain of salt I always have on hand for such occasions.

              Matthew ------I'm still going to take polls into account. I'm just not going to place too much emphasis on them.

              Most polls are right often enough that I don't think we need to discredit them based off of one bad showing, but I think that we should be leery of placing too much emphasis on what they mean.

              ------Date: 2008-01-13 17:25:00 Subject: Children learn what they live-a MaDear confession

              So I buy a cookie for both M and C at Whole Foods. M is sound asleep in the stroller and C eats her cookie as we head toward the Metro. By the time we arrive, C has eaten her cookie and M has just woken up hungry. As we wait for the train, I hand M her cookie and at that point C says "you're not supposed to eat on the Metro."

              I mumbled some rationalization and let M proceed with her cookie, feeling slightly guilty.

              Later, for some reason, C said "Go Redskins!" at which point I said the Redskins weren't in the playoffs and wouldn't be playing today. C asked "why" and I responded that they didn't win enough games, that they had had some tough breaks as one of their players died during the season. After some talk about crime and punishment, I felt even guiltier for setting the example for C that you could break "little" laws but not big ones.

              I'll try to do better.

              User Comments:

              Mamala/Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------yeah, I don't think we tapped into the box or anything, but when we cancelled the cable and we still continued to receive it, we didn't call them and complain about it, but instead enjoyed the "free" ride.

              Matthew ------i too remember that. Katieg ------I vaguely remember living in fear that you and Dad would end up in jail for getting "free" cable. Or did I dream that?

              Mamala/Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yeah, that may be the biggest side issue to this blog. ;-)

              Matthew ------GO REDSKINS????

              We need to get her down to Texas for some re-education. ;-)

              ------Date: 2008-01-15 15:24:00 Subject: This is insane!

              World's thinnest, coolest laptop...Macbook Air

              No, I'm not buying one (yet). ;-)

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------ha!

              emphasis on "yet."

              ------Date: 2008-01-16 12:53:00 Subject: Rush makes some good points sometimes

              So if presidents are just as important as visionaries, as Hillary says, why aren't we commemorating LBJ Day next Monday?

              User Comments: reverendmother ------Rush said that? Hey, a broken clock is right twice a day...

              I do think LBJ's actions were courageous in their own way... however, I do agree with the point. lukee ------Ah. Yeah I see that. I was confused by the original quote.

              Mamala/Jill ------No, not at all. HRC recently discounted the role of MLK in the civil rights movement by saying that it took a president (LBJ) to sign the legislation into law.

              Rush was disputing this with his remark and I think most of the US, if not the world, agrees that MLK played a much greater role in the movement than LBJ.

              That's what he meant by this comment. lukee ------Is he trying to say that we should have an LBJ celebration on MLK day?

              Mamala/Jill ------Luke-I thought the one I posted from him was pretty good...tell me where I'm wrong. lukee ------Well, I am waiting for this good point.

              ------Date: 2008-01-17 08:41:00 Subject: What I See When I Open My Desktop and it always makes me smile...

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------What I see when I open my desktop: Melting Ice Caps. Makes me smile everytime. ;-) Photobucket

              Cute pictures all around. :-D lukee ------So cute!

              ------Date: 2008-01-22 08:54:00 Subject: Dreams don't always come true

              I went here with my FL grandkids this weekend and watching the presentation as they introduced all 43 presidents and seeing them all on stage (all white males) made me wish, oh how I wish!, there was a female candidate for president I could enthusiastically vote for.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------@ Reverendmother: I think more people should be talking about that stat.

              Lukee ------@reverendmother: honestly, this is my main reason why I won't vote for her. I think there should be an ammendment to the constitution against people in the same immediate fambly being president.

              Ted ------Amen. This popped up on my google page today:

              I get a lot of cracks about my hair, mostly from men who don't have any.

              - Ann Richards And I thought - "Oh I wish Hillary was more like Ann." reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Patience... such a woman will emerge, someday.

              I agree. The more I think about it the more I don't like it. Two families. In the Oval Office or Vice Presidency for 32, 36 years? I don't care who those families are or what they stand for, that just seems downright unAmerican to me.

              Matthew ------*sigh*

              Yeah. HRC's performance in last night's debate made me dislike the Clinton's all the more. The things they'll do to win...

              ------Date: 2008-01-24 16:01:00 Subject: Still hurtin' about the Cowboys

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------HA!

              Lukee ------Man, that hitler scene works in so many scenarios.

              ------Date: 2008-01-25 08:29:00 Subject: Fired up and ready to go (to SC)

              I'm headed to SC today after work in a carpool with other DC for Obama supporters to GOTV for our guy! This is something I've never done before so I'm excited, but a little apprehensive at the same time. We'll be staying at the YMCA in Columbia and I've never been there before so that will be neat to see that part of the US of A. Watch for me at the victory celebration on Saturday night!

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------CNN was funny tonight. We flipped the channel to CNN at 5:59 (6:59 est) and they had a countdown clock to the "closing of the SC polls."

              10

              9

              8

              7

              6

              5

              4

              3

              2

              1

              "And CNN calls it for Obama."

              Talk about not wasting any time. Matthew ------Yay! I'm so glad that you're doing this. I'm proud of you.

              How great is it that 40 years ago, people were driving to South Carolina to help with the Civil Rights movement and now people are driving to SC to help an African American presidential candidate win a primary? I know we still have a long way to go on race relations in this country, but wow...what a country!!!

              ------Date: 2008-01-25 12:43:00 Subject: Joe Klein gets it right

              Are You Kidding Me?

              Posted by Joe Klein, January 24, 2008

                Let me get this straight: Obama wins Iowa. In a desperate move--unprecedented for an ex- President in American politics--Bill Clinton decides to impede Obama's momentum by inserting himself into the campaign. He attacks Obama on an almost daily basis, sometimes falsely. He makes a spectacle of himself. And then he blames the press for not covering the substance of the campaign?

                "This is what you live for," he told CNN reporter Jessica Yellin.. "They just spin you up on this and you happily go along," Clinton said. As aides steered him away, he scolded: "Shame on you."

                I can't believe that Hillary Clinton wants the world to think that whenever she gets into political trouble, she's going to have her husband come roaring about, breaking furniture, sucking up oxygen, spewing carbon dioxide. My impression is that she's strong enough to defend herself-- she certainly showed that in the recent Democratic debate. But apparently she's not strong enough to control Mr. Bill...and if that's the case, any sane voter would have to think twice before enabling this sort of circus act in the White House.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------The Dems have perfected the circular firing squad once again.

              Matthew ------Is it me or does the Democratic Party seem to be splintering over this nomination fight? I know people on both sides who have vowed to not vote for whomever the nominee is. I'm one of them. ------Date: 2008-01-28 11:15:00 Subject: What God Saw

              The Bible According to Google Earth

              User Comments: lukee ------thats just wicked

              ------Date: 2008-01-28 16:57:00 Subject: The beginning of my journey into Obama politics

              Getting out the vote in South Carolina, January 25-27, 2008

              My trip started as I met up with the rest of the group going to SC from DC for Obama (a 20-yr old American University International Studies white male, 2 25-year old white females working in DC, and Tricia, the group organizer who is a black female who worked for Jesse Jackson's campaigns in '84 and '88) at a parking garage not far from my office and home last Friday at 3:30 PM.

              Ryan and Tricia, 2 of my carpoolers!

              We settled into the rental car and began the 8 hour trek to Columbia, SC. We arrived at the Obama HQs at 11:30 PM and learned what we'd be doing the next day and sent to the YMCA to settle in for the night. Upon arrival at the Y, we were directed to the gymnasium and told to find a place to stretch out our sleeping bags and get as much rest as we could (it was already 1 AM). The vans would be back for us Saturday morning at about 7 AM. The hard wooden gym floor was not bad as I found an exercise mat to rest my sleeping bag on and looking around the room, we had about 30 or so other Obama supporters sharing our space.

              I was keyed up, but managed to go to sleep pretty quickly, only to be awakened again at 5 AM as the latest busload of supporters arrived.

              Looking out at the room I realized that the population had grown considerably throughout the night as carpools and busloads arrived and now we had about 200 people "fired up and ready to go" and ready to work for Obama.

              We arrived at HQs and were told that we needed to rush to the capitol building at the State House and provide visibility (mainly cheer and wave signs) for The Today Show cameras.

              Lester Holt was the host and he's amazing...so handsome and articulate and nice. He had his picture taken with anyone who wanted that during the breaks in shooting.

              After doing this for about 1 and 1/2 hours, we headed back to HQs and were told to provide visibility on particular busy intersections in Columbia. I couldn't believe that I was actually standing in the middle of the street, waving my Obama sign and smiling at the South Carolinians that drove by and urging them to go vote (for Obama). I did this for the next few hours until about 1 PM when I returned back to HQs for the next assignment. As an aside, I did an informal "honk" poll and decided that Obama supporters honked their car horns or gave me a thumbs up about 3 times the rate of the Hillary or Edwards people, which, as it turned out, was actually more reliable than Zogby or Rasmussen have been lately).

              South Carolina Primary Results:

              Barack Obama 295,091

              Hillary Rodham Clinton 141,128

              John Edwards 93,552

              At HQs, I made the mistake of sitting down and realized how tired I already was and decided to take a rest for the next hour and a half.

              Watching the mostly young, cell-phoned Obama organizers frantically sending volunteers, walking down the halls of the building engaged in conversations Aaron Sorkin-style, I was able to re-energize myself pretty quickly and was sent out to canvass a neighborhood, which involves knocking on doors and urging people to go vote, if they hadn't already. We (1 guy from DC, another from PA, and a girl who will enter the Peace Corp in a couple of month from NYC) were assigned a neighborhood and GOTV. The neighborhood was mostly a black neighborhood with new, well-mannered, middle-class homes and the reception we received was great! Everyone, except one lady who supported Hillary, was an Obama supporter and their enthusiasm for his candidacy just energized us even more.

              We finished canvassing and returned back to HQs at 6:30 PM (the SC polls closed at 7 PM) so I headed over to the Convention Center where the doors were opening at 7:30 PM for Obama's victory celebration. I had separated myself from the people I came with earlier in the day and decided maybe I would hook up with them at the Convention Center. Upon arrival, I found 3 lines (one for the press, one for the Super-Volunteers who had been working for weeks and the rest of us). Since I'd arrived pretty early, I was pretty sure I'd make it inside so I got in line and made some "friends" with the people around me...an Edwards supporter from Atlanta (who voted for Obama since her guy is out of the running, really), a young Yuppie couple from Columbia, and many, many young people full of energy and all smiles as we waited to get in to the rally.

              At 7:01, a huge cheer went up and I wasn't sure why until my son Matthew telephoned me to say that CNN had just called the primary for Obama.

              Needless to say, the atmosphere was electric from that moment on. While I continued to wait to get into the rally, I saw my friends from the DC car ride walk past me to the line for people with tickets and I had to laugh to myself that I still have things to learn about this "politics" thing! But I was having a great time with the line and crowd outside as we waited to get in to the rally to celebrate our candidate and our own hard work.

              At about 8 PM, I entered the doors of the Convention Center and TSA employees were there checking our bags and coat pockets. Inside the rally, there was a high school band playing and we were also entertained by a huge TV monitor showing CNN's election coverage. Each time the numbers would change, the crowd went wild. CNN had their usual analysts there talking about the black vote and what it meant for the outcome.

              The crowd spontaneously erupted into a chant "Race doesn't matter!" as they/we defiantly raised our fists toward the CNN pundits!

              The back of the room was filled with media! Earlier in the day, I gave interviews to the German press and a Thailand radio station about why I supported Obama. The press was everywhere and it was fun to listen in on their interviews with people at Obama HQ while I rested earlier in the day.

              Obama's lead continued to grow over the other 2 candidates and the crowd continued to get more pumped up. CNN showed Bill Clinton giving a speech in Missouri and the crowd, again, spontaneously broke into collective "boos" for the ex-president. Person after person I spoke with during the weekend expressed their disallusionment for the Clintons after their campaign antics turned on Obama. I had more than one close supporter of the Clintons tell me they had literally shed tears about this and how they felt hurt and angry over the reality they were now seeing from the ex-first-couple. It was heartbreaking for me to see so many people let down, but I'm just glad they have a young, fresh, inspiring candidate to turn to with their support.

              Nestor, a disappointed ex-supporter of the Clintons

              The crowd continued to grow as they let more and more people into the rally and finally they closed the doors and Obama was introduced to the crowd by a young Iraq war veteran, Pete Skidmore, who welcomed him on stage as “the person I expect to be the next commander-in- chief.†U2's "It's a Beautifle Day" blasted over the speaker system and the crowd went crazy, waving signs and shouting "Obama" as Obama and his wife, Michelle, entered the arena. As the two of them stood before me (I had managed to be pretty close to the podium so I had a good vantage point), I just kept thinking "I want to see the 2 of them do an inaugural dance" next January! What a great-looking couple they are!

              Obama delivered a tremendous speech and was interrupted after almost every line with applause and cheers.

              At about 9:30 PM, the rally ended and I headed to the doors realizing that I hadn't had a real meal since the McDonald's breakfast earlier that day. I walked around downtown Columbia and found an Oyster Bar and went in and had a glass of wine and a half-dozen oysters. I was surrounded by Hillary supporters drowning their sorrows and loss, but met up with a couple who were in town to attend a funeral of a distant relative so we talked politics, business, and family matters, and shared some funny stories.

              After about an hour, I decided to walk back to the Y and get some sleep before we headed back to DC at 8 AM on Sunday. Passing by an IHOP, though, I realized that I was still hungry, so I stopped in and found a huge crowd of Obama supporters sharing good times. I had breakfast with them and we continued the celebration of our victory with high-fives and big smiles.

              The Y was almost deserted as many of the volunteers left right after the rally to return to their homes or head to the states to support Obama in the Super Tuesday states. (By the way, the SC Obama campaign expected about 800 volunteers to come in for the primary vote but instead got about 2700 volunteers!...now that's enthusiasm!!) The trip home was uneventful and I arrived safely back to DC at about 4:30 PM Sunday. I was exhausted but it was a good exhausted. I placed my "Obama '08" lucky sign that I had waved all day in Columbia SC in my front window and went to sleep, happy and tired.

              I don't know whether Obama will be the Democratic candidate or not, but I sure hope that he is. Nevertheless, the weekend that I spent in SC, working for Obama, is one of the highlights of my life.

              Finally, a few random thoughts:

              Here are a few details about Obama's victory in South Carolina. According to the official results and CNN exit polls, Barack won:

              * 55% of the total vote, more than twice as many votes as any other candidate

              * 57% of voters who had never voted in a primary

              * 66% of voters who had never voted before at all

              * Every type of community -- urban, suburban, and rural

              * 58% of voters between ages 18 and 64

              * 67% of voters between ages 18 and 29 (Ba-rack the Vote!)

              The clear lesson from South Carolina is that voters are ready to bring this country together and solve the problems that matter to ordinary Americans.

              This election isn't about race or gender, income level or education level.

              It's about the past and the future.

              And one more thing...

                Is Barack the one we have been waiting for? Or is it the other way around? Are we the people we have been waiting for? Barack Obama is giving voice and space to an awakening beyond his wildest expectations, a social force that may lead him far beyond his modest policy agenda. Such movements in the past led the Kennedys and Franklin Roosevelt to achievements they never contemplated. [As Gandhi once said of India's liberation movement, "There go my people. I must follow them, for I am their leader."]

                We are in a precious moment where caution must yield to courage. It is better to fail at the quest for greatness than to accept our planet's future as only a reliving of the past.

                So I endorse the movement that Barack Obama has inspired and will support his candidacy in the inevitable storms ahead.- Tom Hayden

              User Comments:

              Rambler http://www.journalscape.com/Rambler/ ------Just curious, we obviously sorta like Obama here in Illinois, I was wondering about the volunteers who are working for him...

              Matthew ------By way of Kansas. Don't forget Kansas, Mom. ;-) jill ------no rambler, Texas and now DC

              Rambler ------Are you from Illinois by chance?

              Matthew ------It sounds like you had a wonderful time. I'm glad we got to talk a couple of times on that day.

              Fired up, ready to go!

              ------Date: 2008-01-29 14:45:00 Subject: Hillary's Word

              From the New Hampshire-Union Leader comes this:

                Hillary's word: It's worth nothing COURTING VOTERS in Iowa and New Hampshire, last August Sen. Hillary Clinton signed a pledge not to "campaign or participate" in the Michigan or Florida Democratic primaries. She participated in both primaries and is campaigning in Florida. Which proves, again, that Hillary Clinton is a liar.

                Clinton kept her name on the Michigan ballot when others removed theirs, she campaigned this past weekend in Florida, and she is pushing to seat Michigan and Florida delegates at the Democratic National Convention. The party stripped those states of delegates as punishment for moving up their primary dates.

                "I will try to persuade my delegates to seat the delegates from Michigan and Florida," Clinton said last week, after the New Hampshire primaries and Iowa caucuses were safely over.

                Clinton coldly and knowingly lied to New Hampshire and Iowa. Her promise was not a vague statement. It was a signed pledge with a clear and unequivocal meaning.

                She signed it thinking that keeping the other candidates out of Michigan and Florida was to her advantage, but knowing she would break it if that proved beneficial later on. It did, and she did.

                New Hampshire voters, you were played for suckers.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------To me it would be like playing a round of poker with everyone agreeing not to place bets, then winning and saying, "Pay up!"

              That is to say... Hell to the No.

              Lukee ------Ah! I see now. This was really what was at the root of my initial comment of "is it really this simple?".

              I *think* I understand now. I am certainly no HRC supporter. Go obama!

              Mamala/Jill http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------The agreement was made to make the SC/Iowa/New Hampshire/Nevada primaries the first primaries for the Dem party. All candidates agreed to this and agreed to not campaign in FL and MI, who moved up their primaries against DNC guidelines. This was punishment to FL and MI (although I think it's stupid!). Anyway, the thrust of it is that an agreement was made and HRC broke it out of total disregard for her agreement and the DNC rules (when it benefitted her-she thought it would look good to the uneducated if she "won" these states and appeared on TV as the winner). It's patently dishonest of her! lukee ------I guess my question is, why would people agree to not campaign in those states anyway?

              Matthew ------As far as I can tell, she campaigned there because she's going to try and reactivate the delegates at the convention.

              This is where it gets tricky. If HRC or Barack is the clear cut nominee, then it's not a big deal and the nominee will get the delegates from Michigan and Florida. But let's say Barack's ahead by a marginal amount and appears to be headed towards being the nominee...if the delegates are reactivated, it could turn the nomination to her.

              It's the more disgusting side of politics and the type of thing that makes me recoil. I think their votes should count, but I also think that she should have stuck to her original agreement to not campaign in those states. So on this one, I'm not sure where I stand. lukee ------Well if winning and losing doesn't make any difference in those states, why did she campaign?

              I am asking out of ignorance. I know little of these things.

              Matthew ------Money and time. And because winning or losing makes no difference in the delegate race. lukee ------True. There is much I don't know. Why would the candidates not campaign in those states anyway?

              Matthew ------It was a classic Clinton move on their part. They'll do whatever it takes. :-(

              Mamala/Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------I don't like the name calling either, but when there's a legitimate issue the candidates should be called on it.

              This is one of the main reasons why I don't want the Clintons back in the White House. They are more self-centered than what's good for the country or the Democratic party. Hillary joined the other candidates to not campaign in FL or MI and signed a pledge not to do so. She went to both states prior to each primary and when she "won" in each state, she declared victory even though she won the same amount of delegates in each state as Obama - ZERO!

              This is dishonest and she needs to be called on it. Is it name calling? I don't think so. lukee ------Well, I don't even know, it's just all the name calling in politics. It's annoying. More like a rhetorical question I guess.

              Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------Lukee-expound on your question.

              Lukee ------Is it really this simple?

              ------Date: 2008-02-01 12:51:00 Subject: Super Bowl or Super Tuesday

              Super Bowl or Super Tuesday?
              Super Bowl
              Super Tuesday
                
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              (ABC News) - Call it the nerds against the jocks

              It's Super Tuesday vs. the Super Bowl, two huge events on the political and sports calendars coming down the pike just a few days apart. And while each has its own brand of devotee, it turns out that the two are almost equally anticipated by the American public.

              Asked which they're more excited about, 40 percent in this ABC News/Washington Post poll cite the Super Bowl, which kicks off this Sunday at 6:17 p.m. But in a near-upset, very nearly as many, 37 percent, say they're more keyed up about Super Tuesday.

              Each is unique this year: A New England Patriots victory over the New York Giants would produce the first undefeated record for an NFL team in 36 years. On Super Tuesday, an unprecedented 24 states are holding presidential nominating contests. Both events promise chills, thrills and smackdowns; the presidential candidates may not have the crowd-pleasing benefit of cheerleaders, but their contact sport is played without pads.

              Fandom has a lot to do with it: Half of Americans describe themselves as football fans, and 63 percent of fans are more excited about the championship game than about the upcoming primaries. But among the half of Americans who aren't fans, Super Tuesday holds greater interest by more than a 30-point margin, 48-17 percent.

              Men (who are likelier to be fans) are more interested in Sunday's game, but by a smaller gap than you might expect, 48 percent to 34 percent. And women are more apt to be excited by Super Tuesday than by the Super Bowl, 40 to 32 percent.

              The most influential factor in the split is level of education. Among college graduates, 53 percent are more excited by Super Tuesday than by the ball game, while 33 percent pick the game a 20-point tilt in favor of the political battlefield. Meanwhile, among those who haven't gone beyond high school, the Super Bowl's of greater interest by nearly as wide a margin, 45-28 percent.

              There's only a little regional bias, despite it being an all-Northeast football game this year. Northeasterners and Southerners alike are a little more likely to be excited by the game than by the political primaries. Midwesterners and Westerners divide more evenly. Democrats, who've been particularly engaged in politics this year, are more interested in Super Tuesday than in the Super Bowl by an 8-point margin. Republicans divide about evenly, and independents who tend to be less engaged in politics are more excited about the game, by a 10-point spread.

              WATCH Six in 10 Americans say they plan to watch the big game Sunday 72 percent of men versus half of women. Intended viewing is higher among younger and better-off adults, two groups highly prized by advertisers.

              Hype around Super Bowl commercials is so great that, perhaps surprisingly, 15 percent of intended viewers say they'll be watching more for the advertisements than for the game itself. Still, three-quarters say they're tuning in for the football, thank you very much.

              WINNERS In another surprise result, while nearly eight in 10 fans think the Patriots will cap off their perfect season with another win, that's not the preferred outcome: By 52-43 percent, fans say they'd rather see the Giants win.

              METHODOLOGY This ABC News/Washington Post poll was conducted by telephone Jan. 25- 29, 2008, among a random national sample of 1,019 adults. The results have a 3-point error margin. Field work by ICR-International Communications Research of Media, Pa.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Super Tuesday, no doubt.

              ------Date: 2008-02-02 17:44:00 Subject: Happy Groundhog Day

              6 more weeks of winter

              ------Date: 2008-02-03 15:43:00 Subject: Ba-rack the Vote!

              User Comments:

              Jill http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------

              Matthew ------Gah! I'm ready for the results to start coming in.

              Matthew ------I just love that people are actually getting involved. I think it'd be a shame if we didn't nomination Barack. He's inspiring people to get involved and I think that's amazing in and of itself. lukee ------Yes, We Can.

              ------Date: 2008-02-06 09:10:00 Subject: Spinning Super Tuesday

              I really, really wanted Obama to win California and bummed that he didn't but on the other hand, the delegate count differential between him and Clinton is only 76.

              I have to remember that months ago, the Clintons were planning a coronation and Obama was a distant challenger. So I'm still hopeful.

              User Comments:

              Jill http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------TOTAL VOTES CAST

              Clinton: 50.2% (7,347,971)

              Obama: 49.8% (7,294,851)

              Really, could it have been any closer?

              Matthew ------Barack has won 13 states and is in the lead in New Mexico with 92% of precincts reporting. I'm not sure how that state will go, but that'll factor in to this whole puzzle.

              He won more states, won more delegates, and appears poised to win a lot of upcoming contests.

              I'm not so distraught over California because he did make it closer than it had been. I think losing Massachusetts was the bigger deal, honestly.

              I think last nigh was essentially a tie. But I like what the future holds for Barack.

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Rick Moran (a staunch conservative) at Pajamas Media says Obama Wins, No Matter What. Some good lines include the following:

                Within Obama’s lifetime, a black man in Georgia has gone from being prevented from exercising his right to vote to capturing a near majority of the sons and grandsons of his former oppressors in a run for the highest office in the land.

                Obama has won 12 primaries of the 22 contested races. He won in the west, the south, the north the east, and the Midwest. He won in big states and small states. He was much more competitive in states like New Jersey and Massachusetts than could have been imagined a few short weeks ago.

                He has transcended party and ideology, attracting droves of young people and those who have never participated in the political process to his banner. And he has excited Democrats and elicited admiration from Republicans as no other candidate in recent memory. And now he stands as a candidate with as good a chance of winning the presidential nomination as Hillary Clinton – a politician perhaps not as gifted but the inheritor of the most efficient and professional political machine in modern political history. No matter what happens from here on out, Obama’s place in history is secure.

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------and John Dickerson at Slate puts more positive spin on this:

                By several measures, Obama was the victor: He picked up 13 states to Clinton's eight, and he won more pledged delegates. This gives him additional momentum going into some promising-looking primaries over the next couple of weeks. The contests in the next two weeks in Virginia, Maryland, and Washington, D.C., on Feb. 12 followed by Wisconsin and Hawaii on Feb. 19 all favor him. His $32 million fund-raising record in January shows that he will have more money than Clinton to wage a protracted campaign. Obama will also have time to become better known—particularly for the March 4 primaries in Ohio and Texas—than he did in the 22 states in which he competed today.

              This is encouraging! reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------"I just left India and London. This is the campaign of the century. I've not seen this much excitement since Mandela was released from jail."

              --Jesse Jackson reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Ooh, the word verification was 42PUS! 42nd President of the United States! Eerie... reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------The longer he stays in it, the better he does. He shows no sign of plateauing, whereas Clinton's numbers have been pretty constant (according to the graph Uncle T posted yesterday).

              The next few weeks will make or break him. I think he'll do well because it will just be a few states at a time, and when he's able to get in front of people, he can win them over. And he's got tons of $$$.

              I wish I had babysitting for SBJ this Tuesday because I would love to help out. What can I do from home?

              Bill Clinton called him a fairy tale. The fairy tale is thinking that Hillary has any chance of winning. She cannot win over Republicans. She cannot win over independents.

              ------Date: 2008-02-06 10:39:00 Subject: Don't Play Me Small

              “Don’t play me small…I’m voting for Barack Obama not because he’s Black, Iâ €™m voting for Barack Obama because he’s BRILLIANT.†-

              I recently had a conversation with an African-American male about my age while riding the Metro. He noticed my "Obama" button and asked me why, as a white female, I was supporting Obama instead of Clinton. During our 30-minute ride together, I don't think I convinced him that his choice (Hillary) was wrong but I wished I'd had this post to back me up.

              Feminist Ultimatums: Not In Our Name

              by Kimberle Crenshaw and Eve Ensler

              The rubble that was once the World Trade Center was still smoldering when President Bush issued an ultimatum that marked our foolhardy and tragic descent into war: Laying down the law, he declared, "Every nation, in every region, now has a decision to make. Either you are with us, or you are with the terrorists."

              Progressives, feminists, civil libertarians, compassionate conservatives and independent thinkers alike denounced the president's rant as a simplistic but frightening attempt to hijack the outpouring of grief felt world wide to serve his pro-war agenda. Thousands refused to be held hostage to this friend or foe logic in the face of considerable doubt and genuine disagreement about how to respond to the tragedy of 9/11. It was in those early moments of our national trauma that progressive New Yorkers came together to say no to war and to refuse to lend our name to the intimidation and sabre-rattling that President Bush's "with us or a'gin us" rhetoric represented. It is thus a sad irony that years later, as our nation faces an opportunity to confront and perhaps end the human misery we have inflicted in Iraq and Afghanistan, a new iteration of the "with us or with them" rhetoric has emerged.

              In seeking to corral wayward souls into the Hillary Clinton camp, the new players of this troubling game are no longer the hawkish Republicans but "either/or" feminists determined to see to it that a woman occupies the Oval Office. Drawing their feminist boundaries in the sand, they interrogate, chastise, second-guess and even denounce those who escape their encampment and find themselves on Obama terrain. In their hands feminism, like patriotism, is the all- encompassing prism that eliminates discussion, doubt and difference about whom to vote for and why. Armed with indignant exasperation, this "either/or" camp converts the undeniable misogyny of the media into an imperative to vote for Clinton. The balanced reflections and gentle warnings that were voiced months ago have been jettisoned for a one-sided brief about why voting for Clinton is the only sensible thing for women to do. Perhaps because there is a viable opponent who carries a competing claim to breakthrough status, the "either/or" rhetoric has become particularly fierce. While denying any intention to square off racism against sexism, the "either/or" feminists nonetheless remind us that the Black (man) got the vote before the (white) woman, that gender barriers are more rigid than racial barriers, that sexism is everywhere and racism is not, that a female Obama wouldn't get nearly as far as a Barack Obama, and that a woman's vote for Clinton is scrutinized while a male vote for Obama is not. Never mind of course that real suffrage for African Americans wasn't realized until the 1960s, that there are any number of advantages that white women have in business, politics and culture that people of color do not; that all around the world women's route to political leadership is through family dynasty which is virtually closed to marginalized groups, and that the double standard of stigmatizing Obama's Black voters as racially motivated while whitewashing Clinton's white voters as "just voters" constitutes the exact same double standard that the "either/or feminists" bemoan. The "either/or" crowd surprisingly claims that the two Democratic candidates are more alike than different, yet those who gravitate to Obama find their motives questioned and their loyalties on trial. Even long standing allies of the women's movement have been unable to escape the label of "traitor" for opting to support Barack Obama instead of Hillary Clinton.

              Because we believe that feminism can be expressed by a broader range of choices than this "either/or" proposition entails, we again find ourselves compelled to say "no"--this time to a brand of feminism that betrays its inclusive and global commitments. We believe we stand in unity with many feminists who will say, "Not in Our Name" will this feminism be deployed.

              Young feminists have been vocal and strong in critiquing the claim that a vote for Obama represents some form of youthful naiveté, a desire to win the approval of men, or a belief that sexism no longer factors into their lives. While paying respect to those women who carried the banner for so many years, these young women have reminded us that feminism is not static but evolutionary, changing in content, scope and tenor as new generations elevate their concerns and aspirations. And while we agree that this "either/or" brand of feminism fails to capture the imagination and hopes of countless numbers of women who refuse to entrust this capital into the hands of a candidate just because she is a woman, we think it important to add that this is not simply an intergenerational difference at work here. At issue is a profound difference in seeing feminism as intersectional and global rather than essentialist and insular. Women have grappled with these questions in every feminist wave, struggling to see feminism as something other than a "me too" bid for power whether it be in the family, the party, the race or the state. For many of us, feminism is not separate from the struggle against violence, war, racism and economic injustice. Gender hierarchy and race hierarchy are not separate and parallel dynamics. The empowerment of women is contingent upon all these things. Despite the fact that we know that identity does not equal politics--especially an antiwar, social equity and global justice politics--we are led to believe that having a woman in power is the penultimate accomplishment. And even when the "either/or" feminists back off this claim in general, we are told, it is true in the case of the particular, Hillary Clinton. Experience and judgment go hand in hand, we are told, but one has to wonder how is it that so many ordinary citizens who were outside the beltway instinctively sensed what would come with the war, but the female candidate running for President did not?

              For us, the choice at hand is actually quite simple. It is not about the woman candidate vs. the Black male candidate. It is about the candidate who works to dismantle the bomb, rather than drop it; the candidate who works to abolish the old paradigm of power, rather than covet and rise to its highest point; the candidate who seeks solutions and dialogue rather than retaliation and punishment.

              As feminists our freedoms have been hard won and we'd like to think that we have learned from our mistakes along the way. The feminism we fought so hard for and benefited from was not to make us blind to the complexity, but to help us see beyond simple formulas and body politics.

              User Comments: lukee ------bush-clinton-bush-clinton.

              it's as simple as that, really.

              we live in a far too big a world then for two families to have that much influence.

              plus, has he SEEN obama speak?

              ------Date: 2008-02-06 13:26:00 Subject: The Natural

              The Natural

              User Comments:

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------

              Jill http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------

              Matthew ------Great article.

              ------Date: 2008-02-06 16:28:00 Subject: The Un-Natural

              User Comments:

              Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------

              Matthew ------Ha. The ending of that was great.

              ------Date: 2008-02-06 22:26:00 Subject: No he didn't just say that!

              "We are very frustrated because we have a Supreme Court that seems determined to say that the wealthier have more right to free speech than the rest of us. For example, they say you couldn’t stop me from spending all the money I’ve saved over the last five years on Hillary's campaign if I wanted to, even though it would clearly violate the spirit of campaign finance reform," - Bill Clinton, December 24, 2007

              Oops!

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------This race had better not come down to super delegates. A contradiction between won delegates and super delegates would be a disaster for the party.

              ------Date: 2008-02-08 15:14:00 Subject: "I want the man to hope all over me."

              Joel Stein is both embarrassed and seduced by Obamania.

              He's got Obamaphilia

              It's embarrassing to be among the fanatics of a relatively mainstream presidential candidate.

              Joel Stein

              February 8, 2008

              You are embarrassing yourselves. With your "Yes We Can" , your "Fired Up, Ready to Go" song, your endless chatter about how he's the first one to inspire you, to make you really feel something -- it's as if you're tacking photos of Barack Obama to your locker, secretly slipping him little notes that read, "Do you like me? Check yes or no." Some of you even cry at his speeches. If I were Obama, and you voted for me, I would so never call you again.

              Obamaphilia has gotten creepy. I couldn't figure out if the two canvassers who came to my door Sunday had taken Ecstasy or were just fantasizing about an Obama presidency, but I feared they were going to hug me. Scarlett Johansson called me twice, asking me to vote for him. She'd never even called me once about anything else. Not even to see "The Island."

              What the Cult of Obama doesn't realize is that he's a politician. Not a brave one taking risky positions like Ron Paul or Dennis Kucinich, but a mainstream one. He has not been firing up the Senate with stirring Cross-of-Gold-type speeches to end the war. He's a politician so soft and safe, Oprah likes him. There's talk about his charisma and good looks, but I know a nerd when I see one. The dude is Urkel with a better tailor. All of this is clear to me, and yet I have fallen victim. I was at an Obama rally in Las Vegas last month, hanging at the rope line afterward in the cold night desert air, just to see him up close, to make sure he was real. I'd never heard a politician talk so bluntly, calling U.S. immigration policy "scapegoating" and "demagoguery." I'd never had even a history teacher argue that our nation's history is a series of brave people changing others' minds when things were on the verge of collapse. I want the man to hope all over me.

              Still, I can't help but feel incredibly embarrassed about my feelings. In the "Yes We Can" music video that will.i.am made of Obama's Jan. 8 speech, I spotted Eric Christian Olsen, a very smart actor I know. (His line is "Yes we can.") I called to see if he had gone all bobby-soxer for Obama, or if he was just shrewdly taking a part in a project that upped his Q rating.

              Turns out Olsen not only contributed money, he volunteered in Iowa and California and made hundreds of calls. He also sent out a mass e-mail to his friends that contained these lines: "Nothing is more fundamentally powerful than how I felt when I met him. I stood, my hand embraced in his, and ... I felt something ... something that I can only describe as an overpowering sense of Hope." That's the gayest e-mail I've ever read, and I get notes from guys who've seen me on E!

              When I started to make fun of Olsen, he said: "I get that it's a movement. But it's not like a movement for Nickelback. For the first time, we should feel justified in our passion. You don't have to feel embarrassed about it, buddy." It was a convincing argument until he told me he cried during an Obama speech. That did not help me feel less lame.

              So to de-Romeo-ize, I called someone immune to Obama's hottie dreaminess: a white suburban feminist baby boomer. To get two things done at once, I called my mother.

              My mom, a passionate Hillary Clinton supporter, immediately attacked Obamamania. "Some part of me wants to say, 'People wake up. He has no plans.' I get frustrated listening to his speeches after awhile," she said. She also said that the new vacation house in Key West is really great and her vertigo hasn't been acting up.

              I started to feel a little more grounded again. Did I want to be some dreamer hippie loser, or a person who understands that change emerges from hard work and conflict? "People are projecting an awful lot onto him," Mom said. "Almost like what was that movie with, oh, the movie, oh God. That English actor, he practically said nothing. Oh shoot. He was the butler and everybody loved him and what he was thinking and feeling. Do you know the movie I'm talking about? You don't." Hers, of course, is the demographic most likely to vote.

              But she's right. Obama is Peter Sellers in "Being There." As a therapist, she's seen the danger of ungrounded expectations. "You feel young again. You feel like everything is possible. He helps you feel that way and you want to feel that way; it's a great marriage. Unfortunately, the divorce will happen very quickly." Mom is the kind of realistic tough-talker who isn't afraid to make divorce analogies to a child of divorce.

              "We want what he represents," she said. "A young, idealistic person who really believes it. And he believes it. He believes he can change the world. I just don't think he can."

              Thing is, I've watched too many movies and read too many novels; I can't root against a person who believes he can change the world. The best we Obamaphiles can do is to refrain from embarrassing ourselves. And I do believe that we can resist making more "We Are the World"- type videos. We can resist crying jags. We can resist, in every dinner argument and every e-mail, the word "inspiration." Yes, we can.

              [email protected]

              User Comments:

              Matt ------Good post. Am writing this on my iphone so I'll make this short.

              I am aware that we may be writing political checks for Obama that the man may or may not be able to cash. But as RM said, I can't vote against someone who has the auspiciousness and ability to change the world.

              And I think we should get past the line of thinking that there isn't much substance behind Barack's political stances and that he's getting by on style. His website is detailed and he does give specifics in his stump speeches. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------This is funny!

              My friend Jay and I have been having this exact conversation.

              "I can't root against a person who believes he can change the world." Me either.

              ------Date: 2008-02-10 21:56:00 Subject: Coming at me

              "you're house is really small" - my granddaughter C

              "Thanks for wearing the Obama buttons and supporting Obama" - an African American male's comment to me at the food court at Pentagon City

              "Yay, Maine!!! Here's to hoping that Virginia, Maryland, and DC end up well!" - a text message from my Austin son.

              "Remember, early on in the campaign, the complaint about me was that I was too professorial. That I would go through these town hall meetings and, you know, go into great detail about this and that and the other. And you know, wondering what ever happened to that inspiring guy who spoke at the Democratic…convention. Yeah. And now that I'm inspiring people and saying, 'Hey, you know, where is the specifics?' And so, you know, if there are issues that you want to cover right now, I'm happy to," Obama said (on 60 Minutes). "So why don't we work those through?"

              "no one, no one, no one, getting in the way of what I feel for you" - at the Grammy's

              WASHINGTON (AP) - Democratic Sen. Hillary Rodham Clinton replaced campaign manager Patti Solis Doyle with longtime aide Maggie Williams on Sunday, engineering a shake-up in a presidential campaign struggling to overcome rival Sen. Barack Obama's financial and political strengths. - Breitbart.com

              Unsolicited kisses from the divine Miss M throughout the last 2 days.

              "I almost feel sorry for her (HRC)" - Daughter #1, but I did a quick intervention and she's back on the Obama track (not that she really took the other option seriously).

              "Kennedy, like Obama, was one of those extraordinary individuals who was completely authentic, at home with himself and in his skin," said (Ted) Sorensen (JFK's speech writer). "He knew who he was, unlike so many in politics who are putting on an act all the time." A kitty on my lap, along with my laptop.

              BILL CLINTON: Obama's white half won Maine. “I told you he won South Carolina because he’s black, like Jesse Jackson. So, to be consistent, I’d have to say he won Maine because he’s white like Michael Dukakis.â€

              In 1988, Super Delegates (ignoring the popular vote and the primaries and caucuses) supported Dukakis (the established candidate) overwhelmingly over Gary Hart- remind me, once again, how did that work out for you?

              User Comments: reverendmother ------Heh, read my comment at Matthew's. I finally figured out what it is about her. If I can articulate it in a post I will.

              Bill said that? I must admit, I think it's a funny line. Self deprecating but still a zinger against Obama. No way is Obama in the same category as Dukakis, and WJC knows it, which is what makes it funny. The man is good.

              ------Date: 2008-02-11 12:33:00 Subject: On the other hand

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------HA! HA! I think this shows why McCain is a sitting duck, no matter who the Dems run.

              Jill http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------and there's more:

              ------Date: 2008-02-12 10:30:00 Subject: The Crab Cake Primaries

              Today's the day I get to pull the lever for Obama along with my neighbors in MD and VA. I'm hoping it's a home run, or rather, 3 strikes and HRC's out! And if anyone is feeling sorry for her because of this and tempted to vote for her because you're feeling sorry for her, don't.

              Remember the words of Kate Michelman:

                I haven't abandoned my commitment to the women's movement -- and anyone who knows me understands I never will. My endorsement of Barack Obama is actually a celebration of that commitment, and an honest reflection of what I have been fighting for for over 40 years.

                The women's movement is about free choice, self-determination and challenging a status quo that fails a lot of Americans, not just women. And it is not about going along. It's about transcending, about having the freedom to follow one's heart, about creating and pursuing new opportunities, and about the American dream being for all Americans.

                As a woman I don't have some biological obligation to unreservedly support whatever woman is running -- this is exactly the sentiment I faced when I first started working for a woman's right to choose. If women who vote for men are traitors, then are men who vote for women also traitors? What about African-Americans who vote for whites? Or whites who vote for African-Americans?

                Laying this guilt trip, this hypocrisy, on women -- saying that those women who don't vote for other women are turncoats -- is tantamount to saying that women who exercise independent thought haven't the right to do that either. Could there be a more anti-feminist contention?

                When a presidential candidate's core values are unity, equality, opportunity and creating an atmosphere of respect and harmony, both nationally and internationally, then that candidate's vision aligns with the best hopes and dreams of the women's movement. And that is precisely Barack Obama's vision. For me, the choice between supporting Barack or Hillary was the choice between supporting someone who I know would be very good, Hillary Clinton, or supporting someone who I know could be truly great. And right now, on those causes that define me and millions of other women, we shouldn't settle -- and I won't settle -- for anything less than "great."

              User Comments:

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------I celebrated the great win tonight by donating another $25 and joining Texans For Obama.

              Texas, you can make history. Stop HRC in her tracks and get on the change band wagon.

              Yes, we can, y'all!

              ------Date: 2008-02-14 15:18:00 Subject: Imagine (and it's not a good thing, like the John Lennon lyrics)

              OUT FOR THEMSELVES

              The New York Times reports:

                With every delegate precious, Mrs. Clinton’s advisers also made it clear that they were prepared to take a number of potentially incendiary steps to build up Mrs. Clinton’s count. Top among these, her aides said, is pressing for Democrats to seat the disputed delegations from Florida and Michigan, who held their primaries in January in defiance of Democratic Party rules.

              Put another way: If Hillary Clinton does not win delegates out of a majority of contested primaries and caucuses, her aides are willing to rip the party apart to secure the nomination, to cheat in a way that will rend the Democratic coalition and probably destroy Clinton's chances in the general election. Imagine the fury in the African-American community if Barack Obama leads in delegates but is denied the nomination because the Clinton campaign is able to change the rules to seat delegates from Michigan, where no other candidates were even on the ballot, and from Florida, where no one campaigned. Imagine the anger among the young voters Obama brought into the process, and was making into Democratic voters. Imagine the feeling of betrayal among his supporters more generally, and the disgust among independents watching the battle take place on the convention floor. Imagine how statesmanlike John McCain will look in comparison, how orderly and focused the Republican convention will appear.

              This demonstrates not only a gross ruthlessness on the part of Clinton's campaign, but an astonishingly cavalier attitude towards the preservation of the progressive coalition. To be willing to blithely rip it to shreds in order to wrest a nomination that's not been fairly earned is not only low, but a demonstration of deeply pernicious priorities -- namely, it's an explicit statement that the campaign puts its own political success above the health of the party and the pursuit of progressive goals, and one can't but help assume that's exactly the attitude they would take towards governance, too.

              ------Date: 2008-02-14 15:42:00 Subject: Yep, It's Valentine's Day

              Barack Obama Favorited Your Photo

              ------Date: 2008-02-15 12:53:00 Subject: Obamamatopoeia

              The English language, Obamafied.

              It's hard to imagine that Barack Obama would be as big of a phenomenon if his name were, say, Tom Smith. As numerous fans, detractors, reporters, and bloggers have demonstrated, it's a name that lends itself to neologisms—everything from Barackstar to Obamania to Omentum.

              I present the unabridged Encyclopedia Baracktannica, a list of words that have been Obamafied by Slate.

              Click the "more" button to generate random definitions from the Encyclopedia Baracktannica.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Ooh, Obamazon, I like that too. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------I am probably too old to be a Barackette. So, I'm an Obama Mama.

              ------Date: 2008-02-18 01:40:00 Subject: Just words

              Had a great day in Austin...Sweet P, a visit to the Obama HQs in Austin (a big shout-out to Daughter #2 for indulging me) and then helping a friend in grief, and now this, sent from daughter #1...

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------If this is the worst we have to deal with on the Obama side, I'll take that any day.

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Of course we now learn that this speech was a victim of plagiarization.

              Puh-leeze, give me a break. If this is the best the Clintons can come up with, they are really scraping the bottom of the barrell.

              And where were all these "drink the kool-aid" "cult follower" comments when conservatives knelt at the feet of Ronald Reagan and clung to his every word? and continue to say he (alone) saved the free world? reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------This whole thing of comparing Obama's supporters to cult followers or the Manson family... I really don't understand how people can think that insulting millions of potential voters is a winning strategy.

              Matthew ------Damn. What a speech!

              ------Date: 2008-02-19 14:52:00 Subject: When Plagiarism Isn't Plagiarism

              19 Feb 2008 08:21 am

              Our political conversation is not subject to a copyright, thank goodness, and the controversy over whether Barack Obama borrowed a phrase or two from his friend, the governor of Massachusetts, is silly. (It was silly and unfair to Joe Biden in 1988, too. History, and John Sasso, have wronged Mr. Biden here.)

              Using the standard that finds an objection in what Obama did, every politician owes residuals to the corps of political pollsters who created the library of platitudinous phrases that so often comprise the average stump speech. "In the end, it's about the children." "This election is about the future, not the past."

              The best speakers tend to appropriate and expand; Obama's speeches pay tribute to the entire Kennedy family (and to the Sorensenian/Shrumian influences on their rhetoric); to Martin Luther King and to Barbara Jordan, ("Are we to be one people bound together by common spirit, sharing in a common endeavor; or will we become a divided nation?"), to Calvinist preachers; to Jesse Jackson, to Cicero and Aristotle.

              Nonetheless, Obama's speeches are more original, more authorial, more persuasive than any of his competitors.

              User Comments: lukee ------Huh?

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Maybe Obama does plagiarise...

              ------Date: 2008-02-20 15:37:00 Subject: She's earned that glass of wine

              What Mrs. Clinton has that Mr. Obama does not have, Mr. Obama can get. What Mr. Obama has that Mrs. Clinton does not have, she can never get.-Alec Baldwin

              User Comments:

              Mamala/Jill ------That's OK, Matthew. Feel sorry for her. With a wife and daughter, I'm kind of happy that you are so sensitive to the "fairer" sex. And I know you won't let your thoughts cloud your judgement and vote HRC instead of Obama, so it's OK.

              Matthew ------The picture is of her holding a glass of wine.

              I bet the second after this picture was taken, she crushed the glass with her hand.

              I know you hate hearing this mom, but I do feel a little bad for her. Maybe it's really patronizing of me to feel sorry for her, since I don't feel the same level of empathy for John Edwards et al. I wonder if there's some kind of sexism at play in my feeling sorry for her.

              Hmm...

              Jill http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------From the Daily Kos:

              So let's see how February ended up looking (for Barack Obama), post-Super Tuesday:

              Louisiana: +21

              Nebraska: +36 Washington: +37

              Maine: +19

              Virgin Islands: +82

              DC: +51

              Maryland: +23

              Virginia: +29

              Wisconsin: +17

              Hawaii: +52

              Look at those numbers. We've got white states, we've got "black" states. We've got southern states. We've got western states. We've got northern states. We've got cheeseheads. We've got caucuses. We've got primaries. We've got rich states. We've got working class states. We've got Blue states. We have Red States. (We've got the start of a Doctor Seuss rhyme here...)

              Jill http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------From Instapundit:

              HAWAIIANS AND THEIR FAVORITE SON. From The Plank: "Hawaii caucus turnout has never been above 5,000. The Obama camp's pie-in-the-sky prediction was 18,000. Final tally? 37,247.

              ------Date: 2008-02-21 23:30:00 Subject: That Line

              Agreed with most about the debate...Obama won, as there was no knockout punch and he's the front runner. Actually, I thought he won hands down, but I may have lost all objectivity.

              From Talking Points Memo by By Josh Marshall

                I mentioned at the end of my debate blog that the pivot of Hillary's powerful concluding remarks came from Bill Clinton's 92 campaign. Clinton had various permutations to it back then. But TPM Reader CG found one example in this November 1992 article by Anna Quindlen ...

                Clinton, 92: "The hits that I took in this election are nothing compared to the hits the people of this state and this country have been taking for a long time."

                Hillary Clinton, tonight: "You know, the hits I’ve taken in life are nothing compared to what goes on every single day in the lives of people across our country."

                Just to be 100% clear, there's nothing in the least wrong with this. And it's a great line. But I think it shows the silliness of the 'plagiarism' charges based on a few borrowed lines. Politicians borrow good lines and catch-phrases. Happens all the time. There's nothing wrong with it.

              User Comments: lukee ------WABBIT SEASON!

              Matthew ------That xerox comment was the worst thing she could have said last night. It just sounded like one of her advisors had slipped her that line, thinking that it would be one of those "gotcha" debate moments. Once again, her campaign advisors are failing her. reverendmother ------They're spinning her final answer as a moment like the New Hampshire emotion she showed. I think it's too little too late.

              On the upside, I hope the fact that she used BC's *and* John Edwards's words puts this plagiarism issue to rest. It is silly season.

              ------Date: 2008-02-26 09:53:00 Subject: Here's my answer: Stop campaigning.

              February 26, 2008

              Hillary's Diminishing Returns

              By Richard Cohen There is dissension in the Hillary Clinton camp. Top aides have been in arguments, shouting back and forth about differences in strategy. Should Clinton come on strong? Should she go negative? Should she be upbeat and positive? Here's my answer: Stop campaigning.

              The evidence is overwhelming that since Super Tuesday, the minute Clinton steps foot in a state, her numbers start to plummet. Of course, Barack Obama has something to do with it. He's a phenomenon, a political version of Roy Hobbs, "The Natural" of Bernard Malamud's wonderful novel, whose physical repose is TV perfect and who will, when the time comes, provide a jarring visual contrast to the much older John McCain. Obama is nearly as good as he thinks he is.

              So it could be that Clinton would have lost the Democrat nomination even if she was a gifted politician. But she has no such gift. Her smile is strained. She is contained. She seems unknowable and for all but women like herself, there is that melancholy Billie Holiday air about her -- all those songs about a suffering woman. Most of us would prefer Fleetwood Mac's "Don't Stop Thinking About Tomorrow," the upbeat theme of Bill Clinton's first presidential campaign.

              It might seem surprising that Clinton has turned out to be something other than a brilliant campaigner. But consider her record. Back in 1999, she entered the New York Senate race in the manner of Marie Antoinette entering France -- to be ultimately crowned queen. When Clinton announced an interest in running, every other Democratic candidate -- Andrew Cuomo, Rep. Carolyn Maloney, even Al Sharpton -- took it as an order to vanish. The strongest of these, Rep. Nita Lowey, graciously stepped aside, as if Clinton was the real McCoy and a six-term member of Congress was an undeserving interloper.

              Back then, I wrote that there was "something wacky" about what was happening. Clinton, you might recall, was hardly a New Yorker. No matter. She had never won an election in her adult life. No matter. She was virtually inexperienced on her own. No matter. She was first and foremost the wife of Bill and for party leaders and hypocritical feminists -- Lowey was a woman, too, for crying out loud -- she just had to be The One.

              With the Democratic senatorial nomination in hand, Clinton was set to go up against Rudy Giuliani. This would have been the great matchup between two suits inflated with little but name recognition, but it never came to pass. Giuliani withdrew on account of prostate cancer and Clinton wound up facing ... can you remember? It was Rick Lazio. Even so, Clinton did not win really big -- 55.3 percent of the vote. Not a landslide.

              Six years later, Clinton ran for re-election. Once again, she had no Democratic opponent and in the general, she faced a Republican named John Spencer. He was little known before the election, hardly known during it and so forgotten afterward that I expect a segment of the show "Lost" to be devoted to him. Clinton won in a landslide, 67 percent of the vote. But just two years earlier, Sen. Charles Schumer (D) had gotten 71 percent of the vote -- and no one ever mentions him as a presidential candidate. In many ways, Clinton's a remarkable woman but she is not proving to be a remarkable politician. Big-money Democrats have been on the phone of late and their conversations have been on how to get Clinton out of the race. Some of these Democrats were tepid Clinton backers to begin with, wishing to go with the presumed winner or responding to the soft extortion of Bill Clinton and his allies. But others were sincerely committed and now fear that the Clintons, she and he, will not know how to lose -- and take the Democratic Party down with them.

              Politics can be ugly, not to mention sad. Broken dreams are strewn across the American landscape. Fred Thompson resigned from "Law & Order." Chris Dodd moved his family from Connecticut to Iowa just for the caucuses. Mitt Romney blew through a fortune. John Edwards campaigned through personal pain. The difference between a presidential candidate and a fool in love is only a matter of Secret Service protection.

              For Hillary Clinton, a loss has to be particularly tough. The presidency is not just the ultimate honor for her. It is, as others have suggested, a justification for all she has put up with.

              My cards are already on the table. I don't think that Clinton can win the nomination but even if she does, I don't think she will win the general election. That would become apparent as she starts to campaign in states that have yet to see her. The harder she works, the worse she does.

              ------Date: 2008-02-26 16:24:00 Subject: The First Woman President?

              Obama's campaign bends gender conventions - By Martin Linsky

              It has been a rarity in modern political life: a wide-open race for the nomination of both parties. But whatever happens from here on out, this campaign will always be remembered for the emergence of the first serious woman candidate for president: Barack Obama.

              Obama is a female candidate for president in the same way that Bill Clinton was the first black president.

              It was Toni Morrison who first had the insight. In a 1988 essay in the New Yorker, the Nobel Prize-winning author described Bill Clinton as "the first black president," commenting on his saxophone playing and his displaying "almost every trope of blackness."

              Obama doesn't play the sax. But he is pushing against conventional—and political party nominating convention—wisdom in five important ways, with approaches that are usually thought of as qualities and values that women bring to organizational life: a commitment to inclusiveness in problem solving, deep optimism, modesty about knowing all the answers, the courage to deliver uncomfortable news, not taking on all the work alone, and a willingness to air dirty linen. Hillary Clinton, on the other hand, is taking a more traditional (and male?) authoritarian approach.

              Read the whole thing.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------It's a metaphor. lukee ------I haven't read the full article, but what I get from the gist is offensive.

              Bill Clinton was not the first "Black President" because he is not Black.

              Barak Obama would not be the first "Woman President" because he is not a woman.

              Doesn't making claims like that minimize what Black people and women have gone through? A white man playing the sax makes him a black man? A black man who is optimistic is a woman?

              Ugh.

              ------Date: 2008-02-28 11:33:00 Subject: Yesterday's News Spoiler alert!


              Diebold Accidentally Leaks Results Of 2008 Election Early

              ------Date: 2008-03-03 08:57:00 Subject: Obama! Obama!

              User Comments:

              Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------From Andrew Sullivan...

              Hillary's 3:02 AM commercial:

              ------Date: 2008-03-06 13:26:00 Subject: The press is harder on Hillary...yeah, right The Only Unvetted Candidate

              Release the Tax Returns!

              Nafta-gate Update

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------And this one

              ------Date: 2008-03-07 00:17:00 Subject: Curb her enthusiasm

              Larry David gets it right

              ------Date: 2008-03-07 14:53:00 Subject: Why didn't I think of this?

              Padded Lampposts Tested in London to Prevent Cell Phone Texting Injuries

              People who have been injured while walking and texting on their cell phones may be in luck.

              A London street is experimenting with padded lampposts to protect those not paying attention from banging into them, ITN reports.

              A study conducted by 118 118, a phone directory service, found that one in 10 people has been hurt while focusing on their cell phone instead of where they were walking, ITN reports.

              The test lampposts will be given a trial run in London’s East End on Brick Lane. If the trial is successful it will be rolled out in Birmingham, Manchester and Liverpool.

              User Comments:

              JIll http://www.jillsusan.com ------I actually needed something like this back when I lived at Tara Place and was reading the New Yorker while walking my dogs...ran into more than one dumpster...Bop! Ouch!

              ------Date: 2008-03-07 15:13:00 Subject: The Whole World is Watching

              Will Someone With Power Please Make Them Stop?

              ------Date: 2008-03-10 16:55:00 Subject: Grand Central Station-ary

              ------Date: 2008-03-10 20:06:00 Subject: With all due respect...

              User Comments:

              Jill ------a reader of the Daily Dish writes:

              If I hear one more time about this Dream Ticket, I may get violent. The level of condescension and arrogance is just mind-boggling. He has 700,000 more votes, a 100-delegate lead and has won far more states, and they act as if they'd be doing the country a great service to pick him as their VP?

              Do they honestly think they can steal Obama's genuine following with this naked and pathetic ploy? Combine this with Ed Rendell saying over and over that he's not sure white Americans will vote for a black candidate -- despite the fact that it has already happened in more than half the states -- and it's impossible not to view the Clintons as utterly manipulative racists. If I am furious about this as a white guy, I can't even IMAGINE the rage that must be felt by black Americans at the complete and utter lack of respect the Clinton's have shown for Obama and his supporters of all races.

              ------Date: 2008-03-10 22:06:00 Subject: Obama won Texas!

              User Comments:

              Jill http://www.journalscape.com/jillsusan/ ------Even Clinton's most devoted surrogate -- her husband, Bill Clinton -- acknowledged the do-or-die stakes on Wednesday in Beaumont, Texas, conceding that a loss in Texas or Ohio would likely doom her candidacy.

              Bill Clinton: Texas or Bust for Hillary"If she wins Texas and Ohio I think she will be the nominee. If you don't deliver for her, I don't think she can be. It's all on you," the former president told the audience at the beginning of his speech.

              Guess it depended on what the meaning of the word "win" is.

              ------Date: 2008-03-12 12:24:00 Subject: Semper Fi (just not in Berkeley)

              ------Date: 2008-03-12 16:38:00 Subject: The Tale of 2 Magazine Covers

              One gave me the willies; the other was a welcome site.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Looks like a Mad Magazine cover fold-in or something...you know those back cover sheets that you fold and it makes another picture altogether.

              Mamala/Jill http://www.jillsusan.com ------Lukee- I agree. It made me actually sick to my stomach when I saw it in my mailbox yesterday.

              Lukee ------That New Yorker cover is just terrible. It seems they would have higher standards than to print that.

              ------Date: 2008-03-13 22:06:00 Subject: Women of My Generation Have Clearly Lost Their Minds

              Women of my generation have clearly lost their minds. Not that I can blame them, apparently being invisible and all. Now with Geraldine Ferraro making outrageous nut- jobber remarks she doesn't even seem to understand, and realizing our tragic generation was once proud of her as a "pioneer," you can see how deluded we are as well. Worse, only this week, a heroine of mine, Tina Brown, got it utterly wrong in Newsweek, saying all boomer women had to be for Hillary. Tina drank the victim Kool Aid.

              So I want my peers to meet an original (begged for him to run) pro-Barack boomer 50-something careerist woman, who chose Barack above and beyond -- hear me, Geraldine, you utter moron -- from the best field of Democratic candidates we've had for years, many of whom I've been big fans of forever, for their various courageous stands on Central America (Dodd,) Iraq (Biden, Richardson and Kucinich.)

              But Hillary? Never liked her. Many of my best friends and favorite women have always felt the same. Something unsettling about her. A feminist? Maybe. But a compromised one, having risen to fame as the victim of Monica and having been famously on bimbo eruptions in her White House patrol. She was the destroyer of Paula Jones and Gennifer Flowers, the very blue collar ladies she is now being saved by. Kind of yucky, really. And hanging in there, through all the humiliation, and that making her a star. Left a bad taste in my mouth. Moving on.

              What about my generation's desperation that there will never be another female candidate? Why? Is our gender about to die out? Do you all know something I don't? I can understand the 80-year-olds, I guess. But to me, Hillary Clinton is merely the first credible candidate, and the most flawed. And the only one not to rise on her own coattails, which is the real reason she doesn't appeal to both me and many young, yes, in their own way, feminists. And what about Claire McCaskill? She's great! And she just emerged this year! Why do we act like Hillary is our last great chance? How damaged and pathetic. I see fantastic women in their 30s all the time. To wit, Chelsea's undamaged generation. Not polarizing, like us ceiling crashers. I can sympathize, I am, too.

              Another issue is, you don't know what she really thinks. Did she vote that way on the war because it would make her look tough? Or is she really such a hawk? I know a lot of women who really believe she's a peacenik, but votes like a hawk because she has to look tough to men. I am not so sure. I think she's a hawk. But none of us know for sure. This is a problem for boomer Barack women like me, and young women, too.

              And another thing. And I am not even going to get into how nutty her relationship is, and no, I don't want two for one. Al Gore didn't then, and I don't now. And it looked pretty ugly on the campaign trail so far. Anyway. This whole thing about being vetted: what's the hold up on her White House transcripts? Why withhold tax records, info on fundraising at the presidential library? Somehow I fear something lurking there in the bushes, pardon.

              I hate when women identify as victims, act like victims, and love victims. And Hillary, as strong as she is, wins as a victim. That is the trajectory of her career. I am a victim. Punch. So why are women whining and the identifying with being the victim again? This is so un-Tina! Hillary was the victim of an oppressive media? Of being asked the first question? Poor baby. All that good coverage on Obama was about being the victor of 11 primaries in a row -- excuse us! And is Barack playing the victim of a real calumny? On Clinton's answer to the known question: "Are you a Muslim?" "Not as far as I know?" Are you not ashamed?

              What are you talking about, unfair treatment? Compared to what?

              And one last thing. What I saw that ugly week with Tex/Ohio, was a woman yelling, shrieking, mocking, changing her strategy every day. I can understand the desperation, but I can't understand smart women mistaking that for strength. When she said shame on you, I was ashamed. Does that make me a sexist? Since I am her peer and a woman? No, I wanted her to be strong but consistent, not lose her cool at 3 a.m. The way Senator Obama had behaved all week.

              And now she is the killer of Hope. (It was just too delusional to manage). We are not that multi- racial post-oppression society that shocked the world and for a moment was its wonder. We are, thanks to Hillary's kitchen sink and staff, the same old America they thought we were. The racially charged, fractured America Bush & Rush left us with that Obama has the prescription to heal. The one that attracted us original believers during his miraculous 2004 convention speech then swept 11 primaries in a row and apparently had to be stopped (thanks, SNL). We are the broken polarized America she wants to rule, will to anything to rule.

              That we have learned can't be ruled.

              Which is why I was an original Barack Boomer Woman in the first place.

              ------Date: 2008-03-16 20:40:00 Subject: Black is the new president, b**ch!

              User Comments: lukee ------Finally had a chance to check this. Hilarible!

              Matthew ------Awesome! reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Nice.

              ------Date: 2008-03-18 12:41:00 Subject: "I just wish I could live to be 60"

              "I just wish I could live to be 60" ... words Sherry said in her final days.

              Today would have been her 60th birthday.

              Happy Birthday Sherry.

              User Comments: lukee ------Happy Birthda aunt Sherry! We miss you and love you! Matthew ------No doubt! reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------She loved and was loved by many. Still is.

              ------Date: 2008-03-19 12:18:00 Subject: Face of the Day

              Tears flow down the face of supporter Marty Nesbitt as Democratic presidential hopeful Sen. Barack Obama D-Ill., speaks about race during a news conference in Philadelphia, Tuesday, March 18, 2008.

              User Comments:

              Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------Yes, you do! lukee ------I need to do myself a favor and listen to that speech, don't I?

              ------Date: 2008-03-21 22:08:00 Subject: The "Barack" Bell Curve

              My Last Word on Obama, I Promise. [Charles Murray]

              To all my friends and people I admire who have completely befuddled me with their reaction to Obama’s speech: Speaking or writing about difficult race problems is different from speaking or writing about any other public policy issue. If you take a position on the Iraq war or health care, you will attract reaction from people who say you’re crazy, but they will be responding to what you actually said and, more or less, to how you actually meant it. The same is not true of race. Text that deals with a difficult racial issue is like a Rorschach ink blot. People project onto that text—project their own experiences, anxieties, angers; all the emotions that go into thinking about race, which means all the emotions that exist. You can weigh every word of your text. You can rewrite it until you think there is absolutely no way that a fair-minded person can fail to understand what you said. And they will not only fail to understand it, they will accuse you of saying exactly the opposite of what you said.

              “Murray just has hurt feelings about The Bell Curve,†I hear from the bleachers. Well, yeah. But the problem generalizes to everyone who tries to be honest about race, and now it has happened to Barack Obama. Take, for example, the treatment of his reference to his white grandmother. Of course you can go after him in all the ways that people have gone after him—if what you want to do is go after him. But suppose you approach Obama’s text under the twin assumptions that (a) he is trying to communicate with you, and, (b) your obligation is to make a good-faith effort to understand his meaning. I read what he said about his grandmother, and his words left me in no doubt about two things: He really loves his grandmother, and he was saying something important about race that I recognized from my own experience. I bet many of the people who have slammed him recognize it from their own experience too. The guy was being honest, and he was being right. What the hell more do you want?

              Ah, but he was trashing his grandmother for political purposes, he was equating what she said with the much more terrible things that Rev. Wright said, blah, blah, blah. Yes—if you insist on interpreting what he said purely as an exercise in political positioning. No, if you go to his text with the intention of trying to understand what Obama thinks about race.

              I understand how naïve it is to read a presidential candidate’s speech as if it were anything except political positioning, but that leads me to my final point: It’s about time that people who disagree with Obama’s politics recognize that he is genuinely different. When he talks, he sounds like a real human being, not a politician. I’m not referring to the speechifying, but to the way he comes across all the time. We’ve had lots of charming politicians. I cannot think of another politician in my lifetime who conveys so much sense of talking to individuals, and talking to them in ways that he sees as one side of a dialogue. Conservatives who insist that heâ €™s nothing but an even slicker Bill Clinton are missing a reality about him, and at their peril.

              I can’t vote for him. He is an honest-to-God lefty. He apparently has learned nothing from the 1960s. His Supreme Court nominees would be disasters. And maybe he is too green and has lived too much of his adult life in a politically correct bubble. But the other day he talked about race in ways that no other major politician has tried to do, with a level of honesty that no other major politician has dared, and with more insight than any other major politician possesses. Not bad.

              03/21 10:36 AM

              User Comments:

              Mamala/Jill ------RM-EXACTLY! You got it and I did too...why can't others see this?

              It unnerves me when people say he threw his grandma off the boat...come on! She's so smiling whenever she hears the words coming from his mouth, whatever they are! reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------People who compare Wright and Obama's grandmother are totally missing the point. He wasn't comparing the relative outrageousness of their statements, he was comparing the relationship. Christians are bound to one another through their baptism. Period. It is our fundamental identity and what makes us the body of Christ. So when Obama says he can't turn his back on his pastor, it's not because his statement wasn't that bad. He is saying he can't turn his back on him because Wright is his brother in Christ. It thrills me that Obama is modeling true Christian unity but saddens me that some people seem congenitally unable to wrap their heads around this. ------Date: 2008-03-28 09:23:00 Subject: Our future first lady challenges us

              From Instapundit comes this fair assessment:

                SOME PEOPLE ARE MAKING A LOT OUT OF THIS MICHELLE OBAMA VIDEO, but this time I don't really see it. Yeah, she talks about ignorance and comfort zones in America, but she's talking to what appears to be a largely black audience, and I think she's challenging them to get out of their comfort zone. So I'm just not seeing this clip as anti-American, anti-white, or whatever. I think she's trying to get people together.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Smell the desperation.

              ------Date: 2008-04-10 22:42:00 Subject: What is good about America

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------God, Sean Hannity is a clown. Just a jackass idiot.

              ------Date: 2008-04-16 12:26:00 Subject: There are good people everywhere

              This clip was a feel good moment for me today.

              ------Date: 2008-04-17 08:56:00 Subject: The "inevitable" ground zero

              Great. As if the debate last night wasn't depressing enough, I wake up to find this...

              (I've starred where I live.)

              For more info about the "inevitable" attack, go here.

              User Comments:

              Robert ------Must be election time... they're trying to scare us again. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Meanwhile the people who are interviewing to be Leader of the Free World are asked about... lapel pins.

              ------Date: 2008-04-19 09:43:00 Subject: Revering Antiques

              The head honcho at my place of work gave the whole office a half-day off yesterday. The good news came in the form of an email at about 10 AM. I'll have to admit, it's been hard for all of us to work this week, as the weather in DC has been picture perfect...clear, blue skies, mid-70s, and flowers blooming everywhere!

              I decided to spend the rest of the day at the new Newseum. It's a great place for a news junkie like me and a trip back in time for me as a boomer who has lived a lot of the "history" that is on display...the introduction of TV in the US, the Civil Rights movement, the wars in Viet Nam, Iraq 1 and 2, the OJ trial, the Nixon and Clinton impeachments, the walk on the moon, 9/11, etc. It pays tribute to the print media too, and that part of the place has a lot more of the older artifacts...old cameras, telephones, typewriters (do my grandchildren even know what a typewriter is?).

              It's full of glitz and glamour with huge flat screen monitors everywhere and a bunch of small theaters showing documentaries about one thing or another. It had a Times Square-ish, ticker- type news thread that circles the interior with the latest news. Many of the interactive screens give even more insights. You can even pretend to be a newscaster, with backdrops of the White House, the Capitol, etc. The outside view from the top of the building gives a great view of the sites along Pennsylvania Avenue. It's well worth the 20 dollar entry fee and I'll go back.

              After the Newseum closed at 5 PM, I took the metro to a stop that I haven't spent much time at...Cleveland Park. I purchased my tickets for the 7 PM show of the Rolling Stones documentary "Shine A Light" at one of the, I'm sure, oldest movie theaters in DC. The place had a huge ground floor theater, with non-stadium seating. A curtain covered the screen which opened just prior to the movie starting. Once the show began, it was obvious that it had an updated sound system. And the mostly boomer audience enjoyed the show, including a lady on my row who was probably closer to 70 than 60, who leaned forward in her seat the whole time and applauded after each number. She made me smile bigtime! Now seeing 60-something Mick, Keith, Charlie and Ron on the big screen is not a totally pretty site, but the energy of the film made up for the over-abundance of wrinkles on display. I really enjoyed the numbers "Loving Cup" with Jack White and "Champagne and Reefer" with Buddy Guy. The Stones are a phenomenon and Scorsese, I think, has another good flick under his belt.

              User Comments:

              Katieg ------Sounds like fun!

              Woodstock http://www.journalscape.com/woodstock/ ------the Stones film is available in our area - I'm going to try to get over to see it soon. Thanks for the recommendation. Your fellow movie goer was in her teens when Elvis and Bill Haley hit the big time - she's had rock and roll as part of her experience for nearly her entire life. I'm glad she enjoyed it, but I'm not surprised at her reaction!

              ------Date: 2008-04-20 21:40:00 Subject: Just the Black Notes

              ------Date: 2008-04-24 13:21:00 Subject: One of the better words in the English language

              Benign.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------hell yeah

              Ted ------As we hoped!

              ------Date: 2008-04-27 14:25:00 Subject: Pretty Straightforward

              How to use a telephone:

              ------Date: 2008-05-01 15:11:00 Subject: Grief

              I'm trying to read the poetry and fiction in The New Yorker these days, along with their tremendous non-fiction articles.

              I love this poem.

              [Note: I changed the gender-specific pronouns as it spoke to me better this way.]

              Grief by Matthew Dickman

              When grief comes to you as a purple gorilla you must count yourself lucky.

              You must offer him what’s left of your dinner, the book you were trying to finish you must put aside, and make him a place to sit at the foot of your bed, his eyes moving from the clock to the television and back again.

              I am not afraid. He has been here before and now I can recognize his gait as he approaches the house.

              Some nights, when I know he’s coming,

              I unlock the door, lie down on my back, and count his steps from the street to the porch.

              Tonight he brings a pencil and a ream of paper, tells me to write down everyone I have ever known, and we separate them between the living and the dead so he can pick each name at random.

              I play his favorite Willie Nelson album because he misses Texas but I don’t ask why.

              He hums a little, the way my brother does when he gardens.

              We sit for an hour while he tells me how unreasonable I’ve been, crying in the checkout line, refusing to eat, refusing to shower, all the smoking and all the drinking.

              Eventually he puts one of his heavy purple arms around me, leans his head against mine, and all of a sudden things are feeling romantic.

              So I tell him, things are feeling romantic.

              He pulls another name, this time from the dead, and turns to me in that way that parents do so you feel embarrassed or ashamed of something.

              Romantic? he says, reading the name out loud, slowly, so I am aware of each syllable, each vowel wrapping around the bones like new muscle, the sound of that person’s body and how reckless it is, how careless that her name is in one pile and not the other.

              User Comments: lukee ------beautiful..

              ------Date: 2008-05-06 16:10:00 Subject: If it's Tuesday....

              The Primary Day Ritual: Open Thread

              By Al Giordano

              Today marks the 47th and 48th primaries or caucuses for the Democratic presidential nomination. More than 90 percent of the delegates will have been chosen by tonight. By now, we all ought to know the drill.

              The day begins with the Clinton campaign “leaking†something to the Drudge Report to set expectations for the day. That then gets repeated on political blogs and cable news, where Clinton surrogate Terry McAuliffe elaborates. Today’s “expectation†: That the Clinton campaign expects a “15 point†defeat in North Carolina. Clinton’s yapping puppies in the news media repeat the manufactured expectation all day long, in which the bar is supposedly now that if Clinton comes within 15 points in that state that she has somehow “won†with a 14 point (or 6 point) defeat.

              Around 4 p.m. rumors of exit polls begin circulating on the Internet. Around 5:30 p.m. AP and other news organizations leak minor data from the exit polls that explains almost nothing of value. Sometime after 6 p.m. Drudge posts raw numbers from exit polls that - if past is prologue - show Obama doing an average of seven percentage points better than he actually does.

              Obama supporters then get prematurely jubilant and after polls close (tonight at 7 p.m. ET in Indiana and 7:30 p.m. ET in North Carolina) the real results start to come in and reveal Clinton then doing “better than expected†(at least better than the new expectations promoted during the day).

              The media talking heads then ask aloud why Obama can’t “close the deal†(in Clinton’s own words) and what is numerically a defeat for Clinton (because the results, even in her recent wins, bring her objectively farther from the nomination in the context of the smaller number of delegates then available) gets spun as a Clinton victory. Clinton takes to the stage, claims “unexpected†victory, gives out her web site address and pleads for elder women on fixed incomes to send more money to the $109 millionaire. The following day they claim that $10 million rolled in, only to be disproved more than a month later when the actual FEC filing is due. Obama’s FEC filing simultaneously reveals that he raised much, much more, from more small donors, and the Clinton campaign plays the victim card over being outspent.

              The Chicken Littles among Obama supporters then proceed to agonize across the Internet for days on end, seemingly oblivious to the fact that their candidate has just moved closer to the nomination, and Clinton was pushed farther away from it.

              Most undeclared superdelegates duck behind all the media-generated confusion to continue to keep quiet, although a few courageous ones a day come dribbling out, more for Obama than for Clinton, also moving Obama closer to the nomination and Clinton farther away.

              Meanwhile, the media then looks to the next state - this time it will be West Virginia, the best state demographically for Clinton, who is 30 points ahead there - and proclaims that it’s “do or die†and begin anew with the spin cycle about white Appalachian voters being the only voters that matter.

              Around that point in the process, the Clinton campaign holds a conference call to move the goalposts again, as Keith Olbermann so masterfully explained last night:

              Consider this an open thread. We all want to hear especially from folks on the ground in North Carolina and Indiana today about what you’re seeing and hearing.

              ------Date: 2008-05-25 17:54:00 Subject: Hallelujah

              ------Date: 2008-05-26 11:04:00 Subject: Is Barack Obama Muslim?

              At last a website comes along to ask: Is Barack Obama Muslim?

              As the site says, the answer is no. I hope if we all link, the Google ranking will go up.

              User Comments:

              Jill ------and if you think that we don't need this fact spread around, go here.

              ------Date: 2008-06-01 19:38:00 Subject: SATC

              So, I'll probably need to spend a few hours reading heavy non-fiction to rejuvenate the brain cells lost in watching the Sex and the City movie, but, for serious, political minded me, this movie was the break I needed today.

              It was totally a fun experience. First of all, I sat next to 2 gay guys that held hands throughout the movie and enjoyed it thoroughly. This added to my experience.

              When it was over, I noticed what a huge crowd of women attended, reminding me once again that if we ever get a really decent female candidate for POTUS, she'll so get the job!

              Finally, it had happy endings for all 4 girls and in a world where happy endings are sometimes hard to find, this was fun. Yes, my granddaughters do believe that dreams come true and although I'm realistic and hardened, this movie proved that a good fantasy is hard to beat.

              ------Date: 2008-06-03 15:24:00 Subject: Happy Days are Here Again!

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------:-) Happy Days indeed. lukee ------:)))

              ------Date: 2008-06-07 09:40:00 Subject: Got Nukes?

              Riding the Metro yesterday evening, I saw an Air Force military guy with this patch on his cammies...

              I find this very surprising that this is officially allowed, as it's in very bad taste, I think, given the potential for human devastation that nuclear weapons bring.

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------I think the "got milk" people would be pretty unhappy too... lukee ------agreed.

              ------Date: 2008-06-26 14:20:00 Subject: Barack'isms

              ------Date: 2008-07-15 09:17:00 Subject: Web head shots

              This article prompted me to "Google Image" search my name to see what came up. I'm happy (I guess) to say that through 4 or 5 page views, I didn't appear in any of the images so I guess I'm not as open- sourced as I thought I was.

              My daughter # 2 is like me...no images to be found. But daughter #1 displays 3 great images of her on page 1, son # 1 has a cute mug on page 1, and son # 2 showed 2 rather old UNT shots of him which was surprising, given he's all over the social networks with more updated photos.

              Update: This site was fun! Here's my Botticelli image.

              User Comments: lukee ------its a terrible picture of me too. reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------On the upside, you no longer get to my blog by googling my name! Woo-hoo!

              ------Date: 2008-07-20 22:43:00 Subject: Finding my imagination

              I've never thought of myself as very imaginative. But when pressed by my grandchildren to tell them "one more story" after the lights are out while tucking them in, I'm finding that it's getting easier and easier for me to come up with something that pleases them.

              Tonight, I told the tale of Prince J, whose wicked stepmother was trying to feed him dangerous hard candy, when all of a sudden, Princesses M & C appeared with their magic wands and as soon as "bibbity-bobbity-boo" was uttered, the bad, hard candy turned into applesauce.

              They squealed with delight! at this happy ending.

              User Comments:

              AEF ------I just want to know why do stepmothers get such a bad rap!?! Good story and empowering for the young women! reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------They were still excited about the story this morning--told me the whole thing!

              I know it's a lot of mental effort--it's easier to read a book--but the payoff is greater.

              One of my goals/hopes for my kids is that when they're grown they will be able to say that the adults in their life told them lots of lots of stories---stories about themselves and their families, real ones and made-up ones. In some ways I value it more than reading--partly because I already know they'll be readers, partly because oral storytelling is such an ancient medium. And it's how the stories of faith were passed from person to person before they were written down. Thanks for this!

              ------Date: 2008-07-22 09:45:00 Subject: Love after Love

              I want to remember this poem and RM posted a beautiful picture along with it (but sorry for the sad occasion that prompted it).

              ------Date: 2008-07-22 09:46:00 Subject: PB & J

              What's For Lunch?, 22 Jul 2008 12:37 am, by hilzoy

              Ezra Klein points out this startling fact from the PB&J Campaign:

                Each time you have a plant-based lunch like a PB&J you'll reduce your carbon footprint by the equivalent of 2.5 pounds of carbon dioxide emissions over an average animal-based lunch like a hamburger, a tuna sandwich, grilled cheese, or chicken nuggets. For dinner you save 2.8 pounds and for breakfast 2.0 pounds of emissions.

                Those 2.5 pounds of emissions at lunch are about forty percent of the greenhouse gas emissions you'd save driving around for the day in a hybrid instead of a standard sedan.

                If you have a PB&J instead of a red-meat lunch like a ham sandwich or a hamburger, you shrink your carbon footprint by almost 3.5 pounds of greenhouse gas emissions.

              As they note, you'll also conserve 133 gallons of water, and save 24 square feet of land from deforestation. In addition, you won't be contributing to the moral and environmental nightmare that is factory farming, or contributing needlessly to the world's food shortage.

              And that's just lunch. Reducing your consumption of meat doesn't have to involve becoming a complete vegetarian, any more than reducing your consumption of fuel has to mean selling your car. Every little bit helps.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------MMM HMMMM

              This article makes me want to eat PBJ more often. :-)

              ------Date: 2008-07-23 10:35:00 Subject: Gray hairs unite!

              I'm cropping up gray

              ------Date: 2008-07-24 22:42:00 Subject: Live From The Obama Mosh Pit In Berlin!

              Berlin-based journalist A.J. Goldmann, who has written for The New York Times and The Wall Street Journal, sent us this dispatch from Obama's speech today

              ------Date: 2008-07-29 12:01:00 Subject: "Active Granny " vote

              and my vote's going for the younger man, you betcha!

              ------Date: 2008-07-29 22:14:00 Subject: Baby Brothers

              Everyone should spend a good evening of sharing secrets with their baby brother every once in awhile.

              User Comments: lukee ------is that how it is, brutha?

              Matthew ------I thought this post was going to say "suck." ;-)

              Jill ------well for one thing, we discussed this video, but it wasn't one of the secrets...

              http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvKgnkIN8C8

              Ted ------Hmmm.....what an interesting post. Siblings sharing secrets.

              Consider my curiosity officially peaked.

              :) lukee ------I would if I could, but I have no baby brother.

              But I AM the baby brother so maybe this is how this will work?

              ------Date: 2008-08-12 16:39:00 Subject: Summertime, and the livin' (should be) is easy

              User Comments: lukee ------Love it!

              ------Date: 2008-08-26 10:36:00 Subject: Seeing What Matters

              User Comments: reverendmother http://www.journalscape.com/reverendmother/ ------Juan Williams has been a tool at times, but that was a pretty cool moment.

              ------Date: 2008-08-28 11:32:00 Subject: I have a dream

              User Comments:

              Mrcloudy http://www.journalscape.com/mrcloudy/ ------Jill,

              It is hard for me to describe the combination of gratitude and sadness that watching this invoked in me. It feels we are still so far away these many years later from justice, compassion and peace that the speech could be given almost verbatim today, almost 50 years later.

              Thanks for posting it. (I owe you an email - coming soon)

              ------Date: 2008-09-19 14:59:00 Subject: DFW-RIP

              David Foster Wallace by Deborah Treisman September 29, 2008

              David Foster Wallace, who died on September 12th, at the age of forty-six, was in many ways a writer of his time. “Infinite Jest,†a 1,079-page literary manifesto that was also a piercingly funny, inventive, and deeply moving novel about tennis, film theory, Alcoholics Anonymous, Québécois separatism, and differential calculus, made him a cause célèbre when it was published, in 1996, and spawned whole schools of fiction writers eager to emulate his dense, footnote-and-endnote-riddled, riffing, colloquial style. But Wallace was also a throwback to another time—when the romantic vision of the writer was of a recluse, living far from the capital, struggling through his manuscript in the privacy of his own study, and emerging years later with a masterpiece. He was a private person, modest and genuinely self-deprecating. (He signed his letters with smiley faces long before emoticons existed.) Of one of the manuscripts he sent to this magazine, he wrote, “I cut it heavily twice, for the basic reason that what I want here is the appearance or impression of brutality without actually being brutal or painful to read (you should have seen the last draft…), but it’s still hard on the cortex.†Wallace, a self-proclaimed Midwesterner, who grew up in central Illinois and taught for ten years at Illinois State University, liked to use words like “neat†and “gooey,†and was, for years, inseparable from his bandanna, and yet—educated at Amherst and, for a time, a graduate student in philosophy at Harvard—he could also title a story “Yet Another Example of the Porousness of Certain Borders (VI),†write a technical text on the history of infinity in mathematics, and thread his take-downs of pop culture with metaphysics.

              Wallace’s talent was a generous one—each book or story or piece of journalism seemed to overflow with words. He had much to say, many ways in which to say it, and many ways of commenting on what he had just said. He also had a determination and a confidence in his work that extended to every comma and conjunction. In his fiction, he aimed at capturing the authentic rhythms of speech and thought, even when doing so meant breaking the rules of writing (rules that Wallace, an obsessive reader of dictionaries and guides to grammar, was extremely familiar with). He loathed by-the-book copyediting, and on his manuscripts he sometimes added the note “**N.B.: ALL NONSTANDARD SYNTAX IS INTENTIONAL.**†While going over proofs of his last published story, “Good People,†which appeared in this magazine in 2007, he wrote, “I have ended up taking more of your changes . . . than I thought at first I would. But in some cases I’ve ‘taken’ them in a sort of oblique way that’s entailed further small changes around the recommended change—most often, this has taken the form of clarifying or declumsifying a phrase or passage you’d suggested, but then finding other, more innocuous ways to clumsify or ‘voice up’ that part.â€

              Great literature, Wallace once said, made him feel “unalone—intellectually, emotionally, spiritually.†He was one of the few satirists able to avoid meanness; he was moral without being judgmental. He took on the absurdities of modern life in an attempt to understand or to parse them, not to mock them. Debating the tone of the title of “Good People,†he noted, â €œMy own terror of appearing sentimental is so strong that I’ve decided to fight against it, some; but the terror is still there. . . . Do you identify with a distaste/fear about sentimentality? Do you agree that, past a certain line, such distaste can turn everything arch and sneering and too ironic? Or do you have your own set of abstract questions to drive yourself nuts with?†Gleefully compacted as his language could be, it was designed to be unwrapped—and there was always a gift inside for those who took the trouble. Wallace, who had moved to California in 2002, purposely stayed away from the noise of New York City publishing, but, even in his absence, he had a definite, gracious presence in the world of letters. This new absence will be far harder to bear

              Transcription of the 2005 Kenyon Commencement Address - May 21, 2005

              (If anybody feels like perspiring [cough], I'd advise you to go ahead, because I'm sure going to. In fact I'm gonna [mumbles while pulling up his gown and taking out a handkerchief from his pocket].) Greetings ["parents"?] and congratulations to Kenyon's graduating class of 2005. There are these two young fish swimming along and they happen to meet an older fish swimming the other way, who nods at them and says "Morning, boys. How's the water?" And the two young fish swim on for a bit, and then eventually one of them looks over at the other and goes "What the hell is water?"

              This is a standard requirement of US commencement speeches, the deployment of didactic little parable-ish stories. The story ["thing"] turns out to be one of the better, less bullshitty conventions of the genre, but if you're worried that I plan to present myself here as the wise, older fish explaining what water is to you younger fish, please don't be. I am not the wise old fish. The point of the fish story is merely that the most obvious, important realities are often the ones that are hardest to see and talk about. Stated as an English sentence, of course, this is just a banal platitude, but the fact is that in the day to day trenches of adult existence, banal platitudes can have a life or death importance, or so I wish to suggest to you on this dry and lovely morning.

              Of course the main requirement of speeches like this is that I'm supposed to talk about your liberal arts education's meaning, to try to explain why the degree you are about to receive has actual human value instead of just a material payoff. So let's talk about the single most pervasive cliché in the commencement speech genre, which is that a liberal arts education is not so much about filling you up with knowledge as it is about quote teaching you how to think. If you're like me as a student, you've never liked hearing this, and you tend to feel a bit insulted by the claim that you needed anybody to teach you how to think, since the fact that you even got admitted to a college this good seems like proof that you already know how to think. But I'm going to posit to you that the liberal arts cliché turns out not to be insulting at all, because the really significant education in thinking that we're supposed to get in a place like this isn't really about the capacity to think, but rather about the choice of what to think about. If your total freedom of choice regarding what to think about seems too obvious to waste time discussing, I'd ask you to think about fish and water, and to bracket for just a few minutes your skepticism about the value of the totally obvious.

              Here's another didactic little story. There are these two guys sitting together in a bar in the remote Alaskan wilderness. One of the guys is religious, the other is an atheist, and the two are arguing about the existence of God with that special intensity that comes after about the fourth beer. And the atheist says: "Look, it's not like I don't have actual reasons for not believing in God. It's not like I haven't ever experimented with the whole God and prayer thing. Just last month I got caught away from the camp in that terrible blizzard, and I was totally lost and I couldn't see a thing, and it was fifty below, and so I tried it: I fell to my knees in the snow and cried out 'Oh, God, if there is a God, I'm lost in this blizzard, and I'm gonna die if you don't help me.'" And now, in the bar, the religious guy looks at the atheist all puzzled. "Well then you must believe now," he says, "After all, here you are, alive." The atheist just rolls his eyes. "No, man, all that was was a couple Eskimos happened to come wandering by and showed me the way back to camp."

              It's easy to run this story through kind of a standard liberal arts analysis: the exact same experience can mean two totally different things to two different people, given those people's two different belief templates and two different ways of constructing meaning from experience. Because we prize tolerance and diversity of belief, nowhere in our liberal arts analysis do we want to claim that one guy's interpretation is true and the other guy's is false or bad. Which is fine, except we also never end up talking about just where these individual templates and beliefs come from. Meaning, where they come from INSIDE the two guys. As if a person's most basic orientation toward the world, and the meaning of his experience were somehow just hard-wired, like height or shoe-size; or automatically absorbed from the culture, like language. As if how we construct meaning were not actually a matter of personal, intentional choice. Plus, there's the whole matter of arrogance. The nonreligious guy is so totally certain in his dismissal of the possibility that the passing Eskimos had anything to do with his prayer for help. True, there are plenty of religious people who seem arrogant and certain of their own interpretations, too. They're probably even more repulsive than atheists, at least to most of us. But religious dogmatists' problem is exactly the same as the story's unbeliever: blind certainty, a close-mindedness that amounts to an imprisonment so total that the prisoner doesn't even know he's locked up.

              The point here is that I think this is one part of what teaching me how to think is really supposed to mean. To be just a little less arrogant. To have just a little critical awareness about myself and my certainties. Because a huge percentage of the stuff that I tend to be automatically certain of is, it turns out, totally wrong and deluded. I have learned this the hard way, as I predict you graduates will, too.

              Here is just one example of the total wrongness of something I tend to be automatically sure of: everything in my own immediate experience supports my deep belief that I am the absolute center of the universe; the realest, most vivid and important person in existence. We rarely think about this sort of natural, basic self-centeredness because it's so socially repulsive. But it's pretty much the same for all of us. It is our default setting, hard-wired into our boards at birth. Think about it: there is no experience you have had that you are not the absolute center of. The world as you experience it is there in front of YOU or behind YOU, to the left or right of YOU, on YOUR TV or YOUR monitor. And so on. Other people's thoughts and feelings have to be communicated to you somehow, but your own are so immediate, urgent, real.

              Please don't worry that I'm getting ready to lecture you about compassion or other-directedness or all the so-called virtues. This is not a matter of virtue. It's a matter of my choosing to do the work of somehow altering or getting free of my natural, hard-wired default setting which is to be deeply and literally self-centered and to see and interpret everything through this lens of self. People who can adjust their natural default setting this way are often described as being "well- adjusted", which I suggest to you is not an accidental term.

              Given the triumphant academic setting here, an obvious question is how much of this work of adjusting our default setting involves actual knowledge or intellect. This question gets very tricky. Probably the most dangerous thing about an academic education -- least in my own case -- is that it enables my tendency to over-intellectualize stuff, to get lost in abstract argument inside my head, instead of simply paying attention to what is going on right in front of me, paying attention to what is going on inside me.

              As I'm sure you guys know by now, it is extremely difficult to stay alert and attentive, instead of getting hypnotized by the constant monologue inside your own head (may be happening right now). Twenty years after my own graduation, I have come gradually to understand that the liberal arts cliché about teaching you how to think is actually shorthand for a much deeper, more serious idea: learning how to think really means learning how to exercise some control over how and what you think. It means being conscious and aware enough to choose what you pay attention to and to choose how you construct meaning from experience. Because if you cannot exercise this kind of choice in adult life, you will be totally hosed. Think of the old cliché about quote the mind being an excellent servant but a terrible master.

              This, like many clichés, so lame and unexciting on the surface, actually expresses a great and terrible truth. It is not the least bit coincidental that adults who commit suicide with firearms almost always shoot themselves in: the head. They shoot the terrible master. And the truth is that most of these suicides are actually dead long before they pull the trigger.

              And I submit that this is what the real, no bullshit value of your liberal arts education is supposed to be about: how to keep from going through your comfortable, prosperous, respectable adult life dead, unconscious, a slave to your head and to your natural default setting of being uniquely, completely, imperially alone day in and day out. That may sound like hyperbole, or abstract nonsense. Let's get concrete. The plain fact is that you graduating seniors do not yet have any clue what "day in day out" really means. There happen to be whole, large parts of adult American life that nobody talks about in commencement speeches. One such part involves boredom, routine, and petty frustration. The parents and older folks here will know all too well what I'm talking about.

              By way of example, let's say it's an average adult day, and you get up in the morning, go to your challenging, white-collar, college-graduate job, and you work hard for eight or ten hours, and at the end of the day you're tired and somewhat stressed and all you want is to go home and have a good supper and maybe unwind for an hour, and then hit the sack early because, of course, you have to get up the next day and do it all again. But then you remember there's no food at home. You haven't had time to shop this week because of your challenging job, and so now after work you have to get in your car and drive to the supermarket. It's the end of the work day and the traffic is apt to be: very bad. So getting to the store takes way longer than it should, and when you finally get there, the supermarket is very crowded, because of course it's the time of day when all the other people with jobs also try to squeeze in some grocery shopping. And the store is hideously lit and infused with soul-killing muzak or corporate pop and it's pretty much the last place you want to be but you can't just get in and quickly out; you have to wander all over the huge, over-lit store's confusing aisles to find the stuff you want and you have to maneuver your junky cart through all these other tired, hurried people with carts (et cetera, et cetera, cutting stuff out because this is a long ceremony) and eventually you get all your supper supplies, except now it turns out there aren't enough check-out lanes open even though it's the end-of-the-day rush. So the checkout line is incredibly long, which is stupid and infuriating. But you can't take your frustration out on the frantic lady working the register, who is overworked at a job whose daily tedium and meaninglessness surpasses the imagination of any of us here at a prestigious college. But anyway, you finally get to the checkout line's front, and you pay for your food, and you get told to "Have a nice day" in a voice that is the absolute voice of death. Then you have to take your creepy, flimsy, plastic bags of groceries in your cart with the one crazy wheel that pulls maddeningly to the left, all the way out through the crowded, bumpy, littery parking lot, and then you have to drive all the way home through slow, heavy, SUV-intensive, rush-hour traffic, et cetera et cetera.

              Everyone here has done this, of course. But it hasn't yet been part of you graduates' actual life routine, day after week after month after year.

              But it will be. And many more dreary, annoying, seemingly meaningless routines besides. But that is not the point. The point is that petty, frustrating crap like this is exactly where the work of choosing is gonna come in. Because the traffic jams and crowded aisles and long checkout lines give me time to think, and if I don't make a conscious decision about how to think and what to pay attention to, I'm gonna be pissed and miserable every time I have to shop. Because my natural default setting is the certainty that situations like this are really all about me. About MY hungriness and MY fatigue and MY desire to just get home, and it's going to seem for all the world like everybody else is just in my way. And who are all these people in my way? And look at how repulsive most of them are, and how stupid and cow-like and dead-eyed and nonhuman they seem in the checkout line, or at how annoying and rude it is that people are talking loudly on cell phones in the middle of the line. And look at how deeply and personally unfair this is.

              Or, of course, if I'm in a more socially conscious liberal arts form of my default setting, I can spend time in the end-of-the-day traffic being disgusted about all the huge, stupid, lane-blocking SUV's and Hummers and V-12 pickup trucks, burning their wasteful, selfish, forty-gallon tanks of gas, and I can dwell on the fact that the patriotic or religious bumper-stickers always seem to be on the biggest, most disgustingly selfish vehicles, driven by the ugliest [responding here to loud applause] (this is an example of how NOT to think, though) most disgustingly selfish vehicles, driven by the ugliest, most inconsiderate and aggressive drivers. And I can think about how our children's children will despise us for wasting all the future's fuel, and probably screwing up the climate, and how spoiled and stupid and selfish and disgusting we all are, and how modern consumer society just sucks, and so forth and so on.

              You get the idea.

              If I choose to think this way in a store and on the freeway, fine. Lots of us do. Except thinking this way tends to be so easy and automatic that it doesn't have to be a choice. It is my natural default setting. It's the automatic way that I experience the boring, frustrating, crowded parts of adult life when I'm operating on the automatic, unconscious belief that I am the center of the world, and that my immediate needs and feelings are what should determine the world's priorities.

              The thing is that, of course, there are totally different ways to think about these kinds of situations. In this traffic, all these vehicles stopped and idling in my way, it's not impossible that some of these people in SUV's have been in horrible auto accidents in the past, and now find driving so terrifying that their therapist has all but ordered them to get a huge, heavy SUV so they can feel safe enough to drive. Or that the Hummer that just cut me off is maybe being driven by a father whose little child is hurt or sick in the seat next to him, and he's trying to get this kid to the hospital, and he's in a bigger, more legitimate hurry than I am: it is actually I who am in HIS way. Or I can choose to force myself to consider the likelihood that everyone else in the supermarket's checkout line is just as bored and frustrated as I am, and that some of these people probably have harder, more tedious and painful lives than I do.

              Again, please don't think that I'm giving you moral advice, or that I'm saying you are supposed to think this way, or that anyone expects you to just automatically do it. Because it's hard. It takes will and effort, and if you are like me, some days you won't be able to do it, or you just flat out won't want to.

              But most days, if you're aware enough to give yourself a choice, you can choose to look differently at this fat, dead-eyed, over-made-up lady who just screamed at her kid in the checkout line. Maybe she's not usually like this. Maybe she's been up three straight nights holding the hand of a husband who is dying of bone cancer. Or maybe this very lady is the low-wage clerk at the motor vehicle department, who just yesterday helped your spouse resolve a horrific, infuriating, red-tape problem through some small act of bureaucratic kindness. Of course, none of this is likely, but it's also not impossible. It just depends what you what to consider. If you're automatically sure that you know what reality is, and you are operating on your default setting, then you, like me, probably won't consider possibilities that aren't annoying and miserable. But if you really learn how to pay attention, then you will know there are other options. It will actually be within your power to experience a crowded, hot, slow, consumer-hell type situation as not only meaningful, but sacred, on fire with the same force that made the stars: love, fellowship, the mystical oneness of all things deep down.

              Not that that mystical stuff is necessarily true. The only thing that's capital-T True is that you get to decide how you're gonna try to see it.

              This, I submit, is the freedom of a real education, of learning how to be well-adjusted. You get to consciously decide what has meaning and what doesn't. You get to decide what to worship.

              Because here's something else that's weird but true: in the day-to day trenches of adult life, there is actually no such thing as atheism. There is no such thing as not worshipping. Everybody worships. The only choice we get is what to worship. And the compelling reason for maybe choosing some sort of god or spiritual-type thing to worship -- be it JC or Allah, bet it YHWH or the Wiccan Mother Goddess, or the Four Noble Truths, or some inviolable set of ethical principles -- is that pretty much anything else you worship will eat you alive. If you worship money and things, if they are where you tap real meaning in life, then you will never have enough, never feel you have enough. It's the truth. Worship your body and beauty and sexual allure and you will always feel ugly. And when time and age start showing, you will die a million deaths before they finally grieve you. On one level, we all know this stuff already. It's been codified as myths, proverbs, clichés, epigrams, parables; the skeleton of every great story. The whole trick is keeping the truth up front in daily consciousness.

              Worship power, you will end up feeling weak and afraid, and you will need ever more power over others to numb you to your own fear. Worship your intellect, being seen as smart, you will end up feeling stupid, a fraud, always on the verge of being found out. But the insidious thing about these forms of worship is not that they're evil or sinful, it's that they're unconscious. They are default settings.

              They're the kind of worship you just gradually slip into, day after day, getting more and more selective about what you see and how you measure value without ever being fully aware that that's what you're doing.

              And the so-called real world will not discourage you from operating on your default settings, because the so-called real world of men and money and power hums merrily along in a pool of fear and anger and frustration and craving and worship of self. Our own present culture has harnessed these forces in ways that have yielded extraordinary wealth and comfort and personal freedom. The freedom all to be lords of our tiny skull-sized kingdoms, alone at the center of all creation. This kind of freedom has much to recommend it. But of course there are all different kinds of freedom, and the kind that is most precious you will not hear much talk about much in the great outside world of wanting and achieving and [unintelligible -- sounds like "displayal"]. The really important kind of freedom involves attention and awareness and discipline, and being able truly to care about other people and to sacrifice for them over and over in myriad petty, unsexy ways every day.

              That is real freedom. That is being educated, and understanding how to think. The alternative is unconsciousness, the default setting, the rat race, the constant gnawing sense of having had, and lost, some infinite thing.

              I know that this stuff probably doesn't sound fun and breezy or grandly inspirational the way a commencement speech is supposed to sound. What it is, as far as I can see, is the capital-T Truth, with a whole lot of rhetorical niceties stripped away. You are, of course, free to think of it whatever you wish. But please don't just dismiss it as just some finger-wagging Dr. Laura sermon. None of this stuff is really about morality or religion or dogma or big fancy questions of life after death.

              The capital-T Truth is about life BEFORE death.

              It is about the real value of a real education, which has almost nothing to do with knowledge, and everything to do with simple awareness; awareness of what is so real and essential, so hidden in plain sight all around us, all the time, that we have to keep reminding ourselves over and over:

              "This is water."

              "This is water."

              It is unimaginably hard to do this, to stay conscious and alive in the adult world day in and day out. Which means yet another grand cliché turns out to be true: your education really IS the job of a lifetime. And it commences: now. I wish you way more than luck.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Okay, I'm an idiot. I don't know that I had even heard of David Foster Wallace before he passed away. Can someone fill me in?

              Jill ------"A huge percentage of the stuff that I tend to be automatically certain of is, it turns out, totally wrong and deluded. Here's one example of the utter wrongness of something I tend to be automatically sure of: Everything in my own immediate experience supports my deep belief that I am the absolute center of the universe, the realest, most vivid and important person in existence. We rarely talk about this sort of natural, basic self-centeredness, because it's so socially repulsive, but it's pretty much the same for all of us, deep down. It is our default-setting, hard- wired into our boards at birth. Think about it: There is no experience you've had that you were not at the absolute center of. The world as you experience it is right there in front of you, or behind you, to the left or right of you, on your TV, or your monitor, or whatever. Other people's thoughts and feelings have to be communicated to you somehow, but your own are so immediate, urgent, real -- you get the idea. But please don't worry that I'm getting ready to preach to you about compassion or other-directedness or the so-called "virtues." This is not a matter of virtue -- it's a matter of my choosing to do the work of somehow altering or getting free of my natural, hard- wired default-setting, which is to be deeply and literally self-centered, and to see and interpret everything through this lens of self.

              People who can adjust their natural default-setting this way are often described as being "well adjusted," which I suggest to you is not an accidental term," - David Foster Wallace.

              ------Date: 2008-10-08 18:05:00 Subject: Octob-ulous

              I can't believe I only found time to post one blog in the month of September...pitiful. I've neglected you, dear journal. I'll try to do better in October, but don't get your hopes up too high. What with travels and travails and an election to win, I don't have a lot of spare time to spend with you.

              On the other hand, I know you'll always be here for me, not that I'm taking you for granted or anything.

              You're the best!

              User Comments: lukee ------No, YOU'RE the best!!! ------Date: 2008-11-03 08:44:00 Subject: A November to Remember

              That's what I'm hoping for anyway. It's off to a good start. My first born son turns 31, all the pundits and polls say the hopey-change guy will win the election, and darn if I didn't enjoy that extra hour this weekend.

              I'm hoping my life will simplify some after the polls close tomorrow night but I'm not totally counting on it. What with the holidays and 4 more out-of-town trips planned before the end of the year, I've about decided this is my lot in life...to be a busy bee.

              Anyway, November is a wonderfully beautiful orange-yellow-red-leaf-falling month and I love Fall!

              User Comments:

              Matthewmckibben http://www.journalscape.com/matthewmckibben/ ------Me too. lukee ------Fall is great. Glad november is here!

              ------Date: 2008-11-05 09:09:00 Subject: I'm excited about my new neighbors...

              ...who will be moving in soon...the Obama family!

              User Comments: lukee ------So awesome.

              Matt ------So cool.

              ------Date: 2008-11-08 10:52:00 Subject: Words overheard from grandson #1 while getting ready for his sister's birthday party - "mommy, can I help you with anything?"...they've raised him well!

              ------Date: 2008-11-24 09:16:00 Subject: Nurturing

              Yesterday, after the CROP Walk, we all gathered in a church for refreshments and music. I was on the floor near the "band" with all three VA grandkids and their G-mommy was rushing back and forth from the food table to the small plate she had placed in front of them with cookies, pretzels and grapes. SBJ loves grapes but he's still young enough for them to be a choking hazard so I, without a knife, bit them in half and shared the half I didn't consume with him. Several times, while we were sitting there, She-Who-Is leaned over and hugged or kissed him. That's a pretty usual site for me to see.

              But sitting a little further away from him, I saw the Divine Miss M place a grape in her mouth, bite it in two and hand the other half to SBJ several times.

              It was a sweet scene.

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Awww. That's really cute. reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------Thanks--I didn't know about this!

              ------Date: 2008-12-10 09:53:00 Subject: The ABCs of JillSusan

              ABCs

              A - Available: for most anything

              A - Age: no longer middle age

              A - Annoyance: rude people

              B - Braces: yes, thank god!

              B - Birthday: V-day

              C - Crush: I've had a couple

              C - Car: don't have one, but if I did it'd be a VW

              C - Cat(s): 2, Dalai and Dharma

              D - Dead Pets Name: Don't want to think about this D - Dads Name: Henry, but he liked to be called Hank or H. L.

              D - Drinks: Coffee in the morning, Tea in the afternoon, a glass of Merlot in the evening

              E - Easiest Person to talk to: My friend Donna

              E - Email: Of course!

              E - Envy: Not so much

              F - Favorite Color: Purple

              F - Food: Tex-Mex

              F - Foreign slang: ???

              G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Bears

              G - Good Times: Any time with my family, kids and grandkids

              H - Hair Color: Natural

              H - Height: 5'7"

              H - Happy: but of course!

              H- How you want to be remembered: Mother, Daughter, Sister, MaDear, Great MaDear, Aunt, Cousin, Friend

              I - Ice Cream: Ben & Jerry's Phish Food

              I - Instrument: Tie: Violin/Guitar

              I - Idol: Not so much

              J - Jewelry: my Metallica necklace

              J - Job: survived the layoffs yesterday

              J - Jokes: need to hear at least one a day K - Kids: are my greatest blessing

              K - Karate: yes, and what about it?

              K - Kung Fu: yes, and what about it?

              L - Longest Car Ride: Dallas to Virginia, with Dan and all my belongings in a U-Haul and 4 pets in the front seat

              L - Longest shower?: in too big of a hurry for that

              L - Love: is all you need

              M - Milk Flavor: Not much of a milk drinker

              M - Mothers Name: Elizabeth (Betty)

              M - Movie Last Watched: Role Models

              N - Number of Siblings: 3

              N - Northern or Southern: Northern

              N - Name: Jill/Mamala/MaDear

              O - One Wish: Whirled Peas

              O - One Phobia: Dying alone

              O- Obnoxious: Selfish people

              P - Part of your appearance you like best: my smile

              P - Passion: Books

              P- Pissed off: at unfairness

              Q - Quote: You must be the change you wish to see in the world

              Q - Quick or Slow: Quick

              R - Reason to smile: Life R - Reality TV Show: are easy to "watch" while you're doing something meaningful

              R - Regrets: are useless

              S - Song you last heard: Workingman's Blues #2 - Bob Dylan

              S - Season: Autumn

              S - Sex: Don't remember... :-(

              T- Time you woke up: 7:45 AM

              T - Time Now: 9:37 AM

              T - Time for bed: 11:00-11:30 PM

              U - Unknown Fact About Me: My life's an open book

              U - Unicorns: are weird

              U - Unpleasant: humidity

              V - Vegetable you hate: Never met a veggie I didn't love

              V - Vegetable you love: Tie: Corn/Potatoes

              V - View on Politics: Moderate Liberal, HUGE OBAMA SUPPORTER!

              W - Worst Habits: Consuming junk food

              W - Where are you going to travel next: Orlando

              W - Watchful: of people around me

              X - X-Ray: My most recent one was of my fingers and my left wrist that I broke in June

              X - X-tra special someone: I'm taking the 5th

              X - X-ams: I have test anxiety always

              Y - Year you were born: 1949 Y - Year it is now: 2008

              Y - Yellow: is the color of sunflowers, which I really like

              Z - Zoo Animal: Giraffes

              Z - Zodiac: Aquarius

              User Comments:

              Matthew ------Awesome! Are you sure you're a huge Obama supporter? ;-) reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------Your phobia will not come to pass if I have anything to say about it.

              ------Date: 2008-12-11 10:50:00 Subject: Proust Questionnaire

              (from the back page of Vanity Fair magazine)

              What is your idea of perfect happiness?

              Being with my children and grandchildren anywhere in the world

              What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?

              Procrastination

              What is the trait you most deplore in others?

              Selfishness

              What is your greatest extravagance?

              Books What is your current state of mind?

              Comfortably numb

              What do you consider the most overrated virtue?

              Humility

              On what occasion do you lie?

              When the truth would hurt someone else

              What do you dislike about your appearance?

              The lack of color

              What is the quality you most like in a man?

              His feminine side

              What is the quality you most like in a woman?

              Her feminine side

              Which living person do you most admire?

              Barack Obama Which words or phrases do you most overuse?

              Shoulda, woulda, coulda

              What or who is the greatest love of your life?

              My children and grandchildren

              When and where were you happiest?

              Recently, in Orlando with my chidren and grandchildren

              Which talent would you most like to have?

              Play a musical instrument really well, either a guitar or violin, or both

              If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

              My age...life is going too fast

              What do you consider your greatest achievement?

              Bouncing back

              If you were to die and come back as a person or thing, what do you think it would be?

              Some very wealthy person's pet Where would you like to live?

              Washington DC

              What is your most treasured possession?

              My sister's diamond necklace

              What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?

              Watching a loved one die of cancer, followed closed by Alzheimer's disease, either having it or loving someone who has it

              What is your most marked characteristic?

              My optimism

              Who are your favorite writers?

              Most anything by Malcolm Gladwell, Daniel Mendelsohn, Christopher Hitchens, Zadie Smith, Maureen Dowd, Anythony Lane, Jim Lehrer, Jonathan Safran Foer, Bob Woodward, PJ O'Rourke, Tom Wolfe, Ellen Goodman, David Foster Wallace, Christopher Buckley and many more too numerous to name

              Who is your favorite hero of fiction?

              Aurora Greenway in Terms of Endearment: "It's past ten. My daughter is in pain. I don't understand why she has to have this pain. All she has to do is hold out until ten, and IT'S PAST TEN! My daughter is in pain, can't you understand that! GIVE MY DAUGHTER THE SHOT!"

              Which historical figure do you most identify with? Rosa Parks

              Who are you heroes in real life?

              Police Officers, Fire Fighters and my sister Sherry

              What is your greatest regret?

              That I didn't put 2 & 2 together when my sister Sherry first started having symptoms and insisted that she go to the doctor

              How would you like to die?

              Quick and painless, and not alone

              What is your motto?

              Everything everywhere is all right already.

              User Comments:

              Mamala http://www.jillsusan.com ------I wish that people were more self cheerleaders. Think we'd need fewer shrinks and anti- depressants and there would probably be fewer suicides.

              Matthew ------Why "humility?"

              ------Date: 2008-12-17 06:37:00 Subject: Person of the year

              If Time Magazine's Person of the Year is not Barack Obama, I'll eat the iPhone I posted this blog with.

              User Comments: lukee ------I think I should get it. reverendmother http://www.reverendmother.org ------There was never a doubt.

              ------Date: 2008-12-31 21:34:00 Subject: A New Year's Eve Blog Review of 2008

              Because ReverendMother did it (in 2006) and she's a rock star...

              The first line from the first post of each month this year:

              January - Oh Happy Day! Oh Happy New Year!

              February - It's Super Tuesday vs. the Super Bowl, two huge events on the political and sports calendars coming down the pike just a few days apart.

              March -

              April -

              May - I'm trying to read the poetry and fiction in The New Yorker these days, along with their tremendous non-fiction articles.

              June - So, I'll probably need to spend a few hours reading heavy non-fiction to rejuvenate the brain cells lost in watching the Sex and the City movie, but, for serious, political minded me, this movie was the break I needed today.

              July - This article prompted me to "Google Image" search my name to see what came up.

              August -

              September -

              October - I can't believe I only found time to post one blog in the month of September...pitiful. I've neglected you, dear journal.

              November - That's what I'm hoping for anyway.

              December - A - Available: for most anything

              ------Date: 2009-01-22 15:27:00 Subject: My new home

              Just to let the few of you out there who read this blog know, I've moved to www.jillsusan.com.

              Journalscape has served me well, and Kenny is absolutely the best, but I wanted a little more control and have put up a Word Press blog at this address. Come on over to my new place, won't you?