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- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - INTRAUTERINE MEMORIES OF TWINSHIP EXPERIENCES by John A. Speyrer - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Ever since I began the primal process, almost 30 years ago, I kept reading about other's regressions, which I felt had aspects, which were improbable or most likely impossible. But then, thinking about my frame of mind before I began my own regressions in therapy, I realize that I would not have believed it possible to access some of the material I have felt in primal therapy. For example, having visions of my mother's bathrobe with its complicated design, and having other remarkable very early visions would have seemed impossible to me. Even after I began regressions in therapy, I felt that I would not re-live my own birth traumas since my mother and other family members had assured me that I had had a normal birth. But since I have been reliving my birth traumas for the past 29 years, my perception of my birth process was very different from that of my close relatives. Accordingly, I have become less doctrinaire about the limits of primal regressions into and beyond the intrauterine period and ultimately to one's very beginnings. For a number of decades, I had been hearing and reading that inutero twins "know" that they have a partner with them. After I myself had experienced both physical and emotional intrauterine primals, I became more open to the possibility that returning to the womb was possible. Later, I attended primal workshops near New Orleans and witnessed such early twin regressions in others. Last week, a local newspaper interviewed a woman who was a twin but had lost her twin soon before birth. The twin sister had died inutero 10 days before the surviving twin was born. She mentioned how the very early loss of her sister had affected her life. She often felt an overwhelming loneliness and sadness as a result of the loss and mentioned that when she met other surviving twins she felt a deep affinity with them. She ended the interview saying that it is very important that the survivor be told that they had lost a twin sibling. Thanks to her discovery of an organization http://twinlesstwins.org she has received support for the loss, which has impacted her life. According to the founder of the organization, it was learned “ ... through regressive hypnotic therapy, that bonding (of twins) begins to appear by eight weeks ... Twins from stillbirth, immediate separation by medical needs or adoptions exhibit the same frustrations and loneliness which later twin-death causes."1 I checked out the website and found a mention of hypnotherapy as a treatment of this early trauma, but found that this website was primarily a support group rather than a source of therapy information. I had witnessed a number of regressions by workshop attendees who also were seriously impacted by the inutero loss of a twin. In particular, they had problems in relationships with those of the same sex as their lost twin. There is a small but Twinless Twins Support Group International www.twinlesstwins.org growing body of information about this subject in the primal literature, so I decided to write this article pointing to sources of information about the subject. Leah Lagoy, the author of An Imprint For Life, has made the psychotherapy of very early traumatic imprints her specialty. She wrote, "From conception on through pregnancy to labor and birth, the trauma an infant experiences, including the early loss of a twin in utero and birth, has a direct relationship and effect on bonding and attachment."2 In a book review of Dr. Arthur Janov's, The Biology of Love, I wrote: Regression therapists around the world have been observing for decades that the fetus sometimes recognizes that it has an inutero twin. If the twin dies and is absorbed (remarkably common) or is lost through abortion, many believe that the surviving twin has knowledge of this and, as a result, may suffer depression in the womb, in infancy and in adulthood. Such therapists claim that the surviving twin may spend a lifetime in a symbolic search for the dead twin. As far as I know, Dr. Arthur Janov, the discoverer of primal therapy, has not acknowledged that psychological reactions to inutero twin-loss are possible.However, the "lost-twin" syndrome arises frequently in the practices of other primal-oriented therapists. 3 Other therapists who have stressed the importance of traumas or hurts on the period from conception to birth are Shelia, Dennis and Fr. Matthew Linn, S.J. With Dr. William Emerson as a co-author, they have written that twin conceptions are extremely common. The authors of Remembering Our Home report that embryologists believe between 30 and 80 percent of us were originally twins. Unresolved grief due to an unconsciously known twin loss is a remarkably common occurrence. They devote an entire chapter of their book to Healing Twin Loss, Abortion, Miscarriage and Stillbirth. 4 However, Richard Morrock, a primal therapist, in a review of Elizabeth Noble's Primal Connections wrote that he believes that the memory of a lost twin is purely a "fantasy."5 The subtitle of Elizabeth Noble's book is "How our experiences from conception to birth influence our emotions, behavior, and health." Noble writes that Alessandra Piontelli "... has studied twins using ultrasound and confirmed that they interact in myriad ways clearly expressing their own identity and responding in different ways to their respective positions in the uterus." The entire process, "conception, implantation and birth present survival issues that are more of a challenge to twins than to singletons." Noble writes, Loss of a twin at any time is tragedy; the powerful imprint of this experience in early pregnancy is sometimes more profound that the loss at birth or later. One reason may be the phenomenon of survivor guilt. Survivors of a twin pregnancy, unlike a plane crash or freeway accident, feel that something they did ("took all of nutrients or space") enabled them to live but caused their twin to die. Other dimensions of self-doubt include feeling the less deserving or the less wanted one (i.e., wrong gender.) (ibid., p. 220) Twinless Twins Support Group International www.twinlesstwins.org One twin described the problem as follows, For me the physical sensations I relived in regression were very familiar and not frightening. My twin above me was a heavyweight; there was no room for me. Today I need a large house with high ceilings and glass. I also see how as a result of my intrauterine experiences I set up a victim relationship with men. (ibid., p. 213) Graham Farrant, an Australian psychiatrist and primal therapist believed that the vanishing twin syndrome was becoming a better known psychiatric condition. In Primal Connections he recalls a client who was not aware of her "vanished" twin would often buy two items of clothing. Another of his clients bought a duplex house, so that the other unit could be kept empty. The survivors, as children, often have make-believe friends, sometimes dream of a twin and some actually set the dinner table for the nonexistent twin (ibid. p. 221). Through therapeutic regressions to the womb, one gains insight into how that environment affects future relationships. See Birth & Relationships: How your Birth Affects your Relationships by Sondra Ray and Bob Mandel. Both practice rebirthing therapy. Dr. Stephen Khamsi, a primal therapist, wrote: Some came to feel, understand, and accept themselves inclusive of their birth experience. and things seemed less "mysterious" or to "fall into place." Hillery, a twin, claimed that birth reexperiences helped her understand current feelings in terms of her birth; these feelings then seemed less mysterious and frightening. "You know, like of having no space," she recalled. "Well of course I didn't have any space in the womb. And feeling pushed around and crowded a lot - it was my sister that was pushing me around."6 On the internet, see Dr. William R. Emerson's article on birth psychology which includes references to inutero twin consciousness, The Vulnerable Prenate. The Birth Psychology website, where this article is located, contains much relevant information. Emerson has made the treatment of infants and children in regression therapy for birth and intrau-uterine trauma his particular interest and specialty. In his doctoral dissertation, Stephen M. Maret analyzed The Maternal-Fetal Distress Syndrome of Frank Lake, M.D., a British psychiatrist who has written that the intrauterine period may encompass a feeling of, "(c)osmic unity, a sort of paradise. But equally well some people would go into disturbances of this intra-uterine life. A realistic recollection of a bad womb experience of fetal crisis, diseases, and emotional upheavals in the mother, twin situation, (and) attempted abortion." (Lake, "Perinatal Events and Origins of Religious Symbols, of Symptoms and Character Problems: he Possibility of Reliving Birth and Its Effects"). In the early 1950s Dr. Lake used LSD to trigger the regressive experience. Later, after primal therapy was discovered by Janov in the late 1960s, he discontinued the use of LSD and used primal regressions instead. 7 Dr. Lake describes how the intrauterine period can have strongly negative effects on the fetus. He is quoted in Maret's dissertation in describing maternal distress affecting the developing fetus: It may be due to her marriage, to her husband's withdrawal rather than more intimate supporting when he is asked urgently for more than his personality can Twinless Twins Support Group International www.twinlesstwins.org easily give. It may be due to the family's economic or social distress in a distressed neighborhood ... if she is grieving the loss of, or nursing a still dying parent, the sorrow overwhelms her and overwhelms her fetus.