T Kill Him: the Story of My Life with Bhagwan Rajneesh' by Ma Anand Sheela
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Research Journal of English Language and Literature (RJELAL) A Peer Reviewed (Refereed) International Journal Vol.8.Issue 3. 2020 Impact Factor 6.8992 (ICI) http://www.rjelal.com; (July-Sept) Email:[email protected] ISSN:2395-2636 (P); 2321-3108(O) RESEARCH ARTICLE ‘DON’T KILL HIM: THE STORY OF MY LIFE WITH BHAGWAN RAJNEESH’ BY MA ANAND SHEELA: CRITICAL ASSESSMENT JASLEEN KAUR Student, Rajiv Gandhi National University of Law, Patiala-147001, Punjab. Email:[email protected];[email protected] Abstract Ma Anand Sheela is one of the most controversial women in the history of USA and India, causing one of the biggest bio-terror attacks in America. She helped Bhagwan Osho build an empire and etched her name in world history. The book ‘Don’t Kill Him!” is a memoir of her life with Bhagwan Osho, as her personal secretary. She Article Received:20/06/2020 explains her every rebellious act that she performed as the empress of her reign. This Article Accepted: 29/07/2020 paper tries to critically assess her views, in her memoir. A comparison is also made Published online:04/08/2020 to her recent interview for the OTT platform series called the ‘Wild Wild Country’. DOI: 10.33329/rjelal.8.3.134 Keywords: Bhagwan Rajneesh, Bio-terror attack, Ma Anand Sheela, Osho, Sannyasins, Wild Wild Country ‘Don’t Kill Him: The Story of my Life with Bhagwan Ranch’, Oregon, USA (64,0000-acres) during the Rajneesh’ unfavourable conditions for the Ashram in Mrs Gandhi’s government. Sheela was the woman who ‘Don’t kill him’ is the controversial memoir by took her love, Bhagwan, from being the god of Slum- one of the most controversial women in the history dogs to the god of millionaires and then began of America and India; ‘tough titties’ as she liked to Osho’s Oregon experiment; ‘Rajneeshpuram’. call herself: Ma Anand Sheela. She was the ex- leader, spokesperson of religious cult famously The memoir focuses on Ma Anand Sheela’s known as the ‘Rajneeshees’, and was also the private life as a shadow of Bhagwan Rajneesh and the secretary to their religious guru: Bhagwan Shree aftermath of the controversial Oregon incident. The Rajneesh, a.k.a. Osho. book is translated from German to English by Ma Anand Anupamo (Christel Hahn), who had also been Born as Sheela Ambalal Patel on December an immanent part of the religious cult of the 28, 1949, Ma Anand Sheela moved to the USA for Rajneeshees. In this book, Ma Anand Sheela has higher studies. She moved to India, with her dying tried to put her perspective, of the events that first husband, Mr. Silverman, in search of spirituality followed in Oregon, into the picture. After being in 1972 and became disciples of Bhagwan Shree accused of attempted murder, bio-terror, Rajneesh. Sheela describes when she first saw corruption, immigration fraud, assault, Rajneesh as ‘love at first sight’ like that of a mismanagement, by her beloved, Osho, himself, and schoolgirl and also describes being aw-struck by his the 39 month term in prison, it had become charming personality. Soon she took the position of necessary for her to clear the filthy speck on her Bhagwan’s then secretary and then ultimately image; and the result was this book. Even after being decided to move the Ashram to ‘The Big Muddy rewarded with the infamous image, she requests 134 JASLEEN KAUR Research Journal of English Language and Literature (RJELAL) A Peer Reviewed (Refereed) International Journal Vol.8.Issue 3. 2020 Impact Factor 6.8992 (ICI) http://www.rjelal.com; (July-Sept) Email:[email protected] ISSN:2395-2636 (P); 2321-3108(O) Rajneeshees to keep Bhagwan’s legacy, his truth while the Ashram was still in Pune. Bhagwan going about the ‘beautiful Oregon experiment’ going Rajneesh renamed Sheela as ‘Ma Anand Sheela’ and and to not let it die. The controversy took off once Mr Silverman as ‘Chinmaya’, as per the tradition of again with the launch of Netflix Original the spiritual (at that point of time) cult. The name Documentary called the ‘Wild Wild Country’ in 2018. changing ceremony, symbolized leaving behind one’s past, family and begin once again with a new ‘Don’t Kill Him’ departs from most of the family of ‘Sannyasins’. All of them were also memoirs written in the sense it is biographical as instructed to wear only shades of red, as they were well as auto-biographical. This memoir captures the the colours of the sunset, the most peaceful time of rise and fall of a ‘NeverLand’, a dreamy empire. The the day for meditating. The ‘Sannyasins’ also wore a book and the incidents stated in it portray a painful necklace around their neck, made of beads with a truth of a person who was always enjoyed the picture of their Master. spotlight, was loved as much Bhagwan himself and was suddenly made the villain of the ‘Neverland’. It Everything went well in the Ashram, Pune, captures an account of the incidents that most until the tax scam came in limelight. Osho wanted to ‘Sannyasins’ refuse to put in the life story of their move the Ashram from Pune. The master had given, Master. Ma Anand Sheela in her memoir explains his the secretary, Laxmi the task of finding other various events of her life in no particular order, the suitable land to make an Ashram. The time of Mrs story line moves back and forth. Gandhi’s and later Morarji Desai’s government had become quite challenging for the ‘Sannyasins’ that Ma Anand Sheela begins the book by ‘My were already a part of the community and who were Khidr Had Spoken’, it actually begins when she is fed moving to India to seek refuge in their Master’s up of being the lieutenant and the in charge of the arms. Sheela, in 1981 became Bhagwan’s personal commune that was now, no more limited to a secretary by replacing Laxmi, and was able to religious group. She claims that she was the heart of convince Bhagwan to move to America, for the the commune and Bhagwan was the soul and they survival of the community and his own self, for she were a team: inseparable. She writes in the memoir, felt that Bhagwan was really unsafe in Pune, India. that at that point of time (1985) “He has lost interest Sheela bought a 64,000 acre Big Muddy Ranch in in us as a community… Moreover, I no more wanted Wasco County, Oregon. Sheela also became the to deal with his constant, crazy demands.”i president of ‘Rajneesh Foundation International’ Ma Anand Sheela was born as Sheela Ambalal Soon, the experiment of a big commune, Patel on 28 December 1949. She went to the United Rajneeshpuram, started. States to study arts in a small college in Montclair in The Master was not only a spiritual leader, New Jersey, where she fell in love and married a but also a master-mind. He knew how to regulate young man named, Marc Silverman. Mr Silverman money within the commune. When the Ashram was was suffering from cancer of lymphatic system, soon in Pune, the Master always gave non-Indian the disease became fatal and they moved to India in ‘Sannyasins’, particularly who came from Europe or 1972, to pursue spiritual studies, the time when she the USA, more attention as they bought more met Bhagwan. She describes her first meeting with money, making the economy of the Ashram even Bhagwan very vividly, like a fairy-tale, not missing stronger. When the Ashram was in the USA, and the out a single detail, which is sufficient to understand Master needed money for the ranch, for his Rolexes, her passionate love for Bhagwan. She describes her his Rolls Royce , he would declare a few ‘Sannyasins’, first experience as, “I let myself fall into his arms, full enlightened so they renounced all their riches in of joy…It seemed like an eternity.”ii She describes favour of the Ashram. In my opinion, it was hoax. being drowned in his eyes like some magic had been Sheela has admitted about the con in the book as cast on her and love at first site. It was the time, well as in an interview with BBCiii. Now the question when she herself and her husband became more is was she a part of the hoax or a victim to it? actively involved in the activities of the Ashram, 135 JASLEEN KAUR Research Journal of English Language and Literature (RJELAL) A Peer Reviewed (Refereed) International Journal Vol.8.Issue 3. 2020 Impact Factor 6.8992 (ICI) http://www.rjelal.com; (July-Sept) Email:[email protected] ISSN:2395-2636 (P); 2321-3108(O) It can be deduced from Sheela’s book that of them, willing went on for selling their ranches. It she was in a sense of regret, exploiting all these was a huge win for Sheela against the residents. The innocent ‘Sannyasins’, who saw nothing, but only town of Antelope was ultimately in the commune’s their Master: Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh Osho. Sheela control and they renamed it as ‘Rajneeshpuram’. She many a times wrote letter Bhagwan that she is no also wrote a book ‘the book of Rajneeshism’, she was longer able to continue with it, her shoulder couldn’t the one who made Bhagwan an international bear more, but Rajneesh always took advantage of phenomena. She preached love, the sense of her emotional vulnerabilities. She had no option left, community, she was a leader of this huge commune, she always stood by Bhagwan’s side like a soldier.