Fragmented Lens of War a Thesis Submitted in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirements for the Degree of Master of Fine Arts at George Mason University
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Fragmented Lens of War A Thesis submitted in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the degree of Master of Fine Arts at George Mason University by Kevin P. Wallace Bachelor of Arts Florida International University, 2018 Bachelor of Arts Thomas Edison State University, 2016 Director: Gail Scott White, Professor Fall Semester 2020 George Mason University Fairfax, VA Copyright 2020 Kevin P. Wallace All Rights Reserved ii DEDICATION To combat-wounded veterans, and all traumatized people, many of whom are still suffering in silence. Let suicide or self-harm never be your answer, and instead find healing in arts, creativity, science, sports or recreation, nature, or whatever you must cling to as you work to heal. Your life is precious to me! iii ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS I would like to thank Professor Gail Scott White for seeing potential in me, and helping me transition through this challenging program. Thank you to Professor Heather Streckfus-Green for the motivation, guidance and clarity you provided as a mentor. Thank you to Professor Edgar Endress for challenging me mentally and emotionally, and forcing me to evaluate myself deeply as an artist. And to Professors Paula Crawford and Ben Ashworth, thank you for openhandedly sharing your unique perspectives and expertise, and for inspiring my work. Also, thank you to Jill Brickey Hottel, Katie Correa and the other team of Marine Biologists, Conservationists and Graduate Student Researchers at the Central Caribbean Marine Institute; while caring for our oceans and coral reefs has always been near to my heart and a large part of my journey to overcome Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), your selfless dedication to this planet and its underwater inhabitants has greatly inspired my art practice; it will continue to be the foundation of my work for years to come. Finally, thank you to David Hart and the countless other combat veterans and Gold Star Families I consider close friends. You have inspired m as a veteran advocate and public speaker working to build empathy for PTSD and suicide. Also, though you may not have realized it, you all have influenced my growth as an artist in many ways for which I am grateful. iv TABLE OF CONTENTS Page List of Figures ..................................................................................................................... vi List of Abbreviations and/or Symbols .............................................................................. vii Abstract ............................................................................................................................ viii I. INTRODUCTION ........................................................................................................... 1 II. THE GENESIS .............................................................................................................. 3 II. DISCOVERING U-352 ............................................................................................... 13 III. HISTORY INVADES MY MIND ............................................................................. 23 IV. FRAGMENTED LENS OF WAR IS BORN ............................................................ 31 References ......................................................................................................................... 43 v LIST OF FIGURES Figure Page Figure 1 MRI scan lungs ................................................................................................... 5 Figure 2 Excerpt from medical records. ............................................................................. 7 Figure 3 Biopsy photos of lungs ......................................................................................... 9 Figure 4 A barracuda swimming over wreck ................................................................... 10 Figure 5 A jellyfish near the dive boat. ............................................................................ 12 Figure 6 A shark swimming near the wreck ..................................................................... 12 Figure 7 A jellyfish ........................................................................................................... 15 Figure 8 The POWs from U-352 ...................................................................................... 17 Figure 9 Blueprint of German U-Boat .............................................................................. 21 Figure 10 U-352 POW officers ........................................................................................ 26 Figure 11 A U.S. Marine 1st Lt. helps ............................................................................. 28 Figure 12 A U.S. Navy sailor butters a cracker ................................................................ 29 Figure 13 U-352 Torpedo Configurations from German blueprint. ................................. 30 Figure 14 Fragmented Lens of War exhibit homepage. ................................................... 32 Figure 15 The Art section of the Fragmented Lens of War exhibit.. ............................... 33 Figure 16 The Art section of the Fragmented Lens of War exhibit.. ............................... 34 Figure 17 The History section of the Fragmented Lens of War exhibit. .......................... 35 Figure 18 The History section of the Fragmented Lens of War exhibit ........................... 36 Figure 19 The Secrets section of the Fragmented Lens of War exhibit. .......................... 37 Figure 20 The Secrets section of the Fragmented Lens of War exhibit ........................... 38 Figure 21 The Secrets section of the Fragmented Lens of War exhibit. .......................... 39 vi LIST OF ABBREVIATIONS Department of Defense……………………………………………………………….DOD District of Columbia………………………………………………….……………….D.C. Improvised Explosive Device…………………………………………………………IED Operation Enduring Freedom…………………………………………………………OEF Prisoner of War……………………………...……………………………………….POW Rocket-Propelled Grenade…………………………………………………………....RPG Traumatic Brain Injury……………………….………………………………………..TBI Veterans’ Affairs……………………………………………………………………….VA World War II………………………………….……………………………………..WWII vii ABSTRACT FRAGMENTED LENS OF WAR Kevin P. Wallace, MFA George Mason University, 2020 Thesis Director: Gail Scott White Fragmented Lens of War is a visual and poetic exploration of the trauma of war. Looking both below the surface of the ocean and the surface of my own mind, this thesis searches out invisible wounds and the resilience needed to overcome them. The challenge is to look beyond appearances, and examine the fragmented spaces of war – the fighters and victims – the survivors and the suffering – the tormentors and refugees – the politics and environment – and observe the spaces where they all intersect and diverge. This thesis follows the exhibit Fragmented Lens of War, and investigates the spaces of conflict and the people in them through an exploration of the German U-boat U-352. viii I. INTRODUCTION Like many, I was prepared to lay down my life for my country each time I shipped off to war. There were a few times when I genuinely believed the cost would be my life, but, sadly, it has turned out to be much more. The sacrifices paid in combat cannot be quantified in dollars or time, but they are counted in tears shed by those who love and support us while we are downrange or healing back at home. They are calculated by the pain felt for the senseless loss of so many brothers and sisters, foreign ideologists and those bystanders caught in the fray. I am a wounded warrior, a Purple Heart recipient, have earned a Bronze Star with Valor for extreme heroism, and I am not ashamed to admit this. But on some of my worst days, I saw such extreme evil, brutality and cruelty that my moral scope is forever damaged. On the outside I look just like any other person, and relish that. However, I am typically withdrawn and often emotionally numb. Fragmented Lens of War is an exhibition born out of a quest for self-discovery. While seeking understanding of what fine art, the environmental state of the oceans, and healing meant to me, I volunteered to work with the Central Caribbean Marine Institute (CCMI) in Little Cayman. For a number of years I had been creating art myself, and also attending weekly art therapy sessions, and exploring their overlaps. However, through propaganda: 1 scuba diving and environmental volunteerism, I discovered an amazing world filled with remarkable creatures, far from the deafening din of Washington D.C. politics. I began creating photos and videos of the underwater spaces, but part of me still remained stuck. Violence continued to plague both my unconscious and conscious mind. As hard as I tried not to notice, violence existed underwater, just as it does up here, but it is purposeful and necessary down there, unlike the extreme evil I witnessed at war. Despite the juxtaposition between violence in the oceans and that on the front lines of war being unsteady, I sought to capture large ocean predators, in attempt to appease whatever was subconsciously plaguing my dreams. Before revealing the Fragmented Lens of War exhibition, it is pertinent to understand the roots to my desire to explore art. Unlike the Deleuze and Guattari rhizome (Deleuze, Guattari, & Massumi, 2013)i, the extraction of my art practice better resembles a mighty oak; patriotism is the core, but the limbs fragment into so many passions. Sometimes these limbs are difficult to describe through vocabulary, and attempting to do so has been handicapped by multiple