The InsIde RepoRt APRIL 2020 Breaking News From Behind the Walls VOLUME 1 ISSUE 1 Healing Through VOD

By DOUGLAS L. BAKER / FCF

Close your eyes and begin to visualize someone hurting you. Imagine losing the innocence that life once ofered you. Imagine the loss of property, safety, or even the life of a loved one. Immerse yourself in the emotional, physical, fnancial, and spiritual pain brought about by someone else’s misdeeds. Now, ask yourself, “What would healing look like, sound like, feel like? Could I ever truly start to heal?” In 1970, a juvenile probation ofcer thought so. He had a magnifcent idea about how healing can begin. How something so simple, yet commonly discounted by many, can afect both those who have been hurt, and those who have hurt people. Healing can begin with the most natural and simplest of human endowments - words. The Victim Ofender Dialogue (VOD), or as it was called in its initial inception Victim Ofender Mediation, began as an experiment in Kitchener, Ontario (Canada). A probation ofcer convinced a judge that two adolescents convicted RF2 Box 999 event participants / FCF of vandalism should meet the victims of their crimes. After the meetings, the judge ordered the two juveniles to pay restitution as a condition Redemption Through the Wire of probation. Thus, the VOD had its origins as a probation-based, post-conviction, sentencing Article And photos By ERIC DAVIS / FMCC into a new type of CrossFit community, many of which are alternative inspired by a probation ofcer’s belief springing to life in prisons around the state. Instant bonds that victim-ofender meetings could be helpful To say that the day’s Redemption Road Fitness were formed as a large group hit the Infnity Rig together, to both parties. The frst United States program Foundation competition was unprecedented would be only comparing pull-up techniques; while another group attacked was launched in Elkhart, Indiana in 1978. From a slight overstatement. It was a new event for Fremont the jump-boxes; and still others glared menacingly at the Continued on 16 Correctional Facility, but simply an extension of the bumper-plates and bars that were set up on the tennis and burgeoning collaboration between CrossFit communities shufeboard courts. beyond the perimeter fences, and those in numerous After fve to eight minutes of meet and greet, Trevor Colorado Department of Corrections facilities. Jones—original RF2 member—gathered everyone around to Fit For Release At 3:50 p.m. on a sunny October afternoon, 60 residents outline the day’s schedule. Trevor is also on The Inside Report of Fremont—all members of RF2—began pouring from editorial team. He transferred to Fremont to participate in By MICHAEL J. MCCARTHY / SCF the gym into Fremont’s upper yard. Awaiting them by the Juveniles Convicted as Adults Program. His enthusiasm the newly-mounted Rogue Infnity Rig were 15 men and for RF2 is evident immediately. He possesses an ability to Imagine if the majority of prisoners morphed women volunteers from various Front-Range CrossFit grab everyone’s attention while ofering a motivating vibe into successful members of society prior to gyms. There wasn’t a moment of hesitation as these groups that washed over the group as he spoke. This is one of his their release. A new pilot program introduced began sharing their enthusiasm for CrossFit. This mass of many qualities that were instrumental in bringing RF2 to life in the Colorado Department of Corrections people was no longer a bunch of prisoners and a group of at Fremont. It was as if everyone could feel his deeply-held (CDOC) may soon make this a reality. volunteers from outside these walls. Instead, they morphed Continued on 10 Three prisoners from Limon Correctional Facility are paving the way for thousands of incarcerated men and women to take a second look at what it means to be human. FEATURED ARTIST One Flew Over Erik Jensen, Brandin Kreuzer, and the Cuckoo’s Masks Jonathan Willis are improving prisoners’ mental, physical, and spiritual well-being. Jerry Martinez Nest In unprecedented fashion, they visited A long-time Resident & JCAP Participant By ANONYMOUS VOLUNTEER By MAX THOMAS / FCF Sterling Correctional Facility (SCF) for fve days to introduce a program that prepares In the DWCF gym on September Letting go of the masks we wear long-term ofenders to be “proven leaders” and 12th, a doctor in a white coat holds a can be exceptionally hard to do. Many upstanding citizens. clipboard, and a man in scrubs greets of us chose these personas as sixth For decades, prison administrators have us. Behind them is a screen. Is this graders and we’ve been locked into known that long-term ofenders (those medical team trying to reassure us them ever since. We’ve hurt people, serving 10-plus years) have the lowest rate of volunteers, as well as prison staf, wrecked our families, poisoned our recidivism once released. The statistics are before we walk around the screen communities, blown up our own lives. telling, while 57 percent of Colorado-released to see a radical performance? After All to uphold identities we hoped prisoners are rearrested within three years, less all, “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s would protect us from a cruel world. than 20 percent of parolees serving 10 or more Nest” portrays a topsy-turvy But we were only making it crueler. years reofend. madhouse where the inmates show Now that we’re stuck here, the Presently, the CDOC’s annual budget more common sense and compassion predatory prison environment seems is nearly $1 billion. It costs approximately than the crazy staf does. like the last place we could ever open $40,000 a year to house a single Colorado state Soon, I’m chatting with a man in up, be vulnerable and try to make a prisoner. That fgure is derived by taking the scrubs who tells me he comes from change. So we cling even tighter to CDOC budget and dividing it by the number Sterling, and he is Cheswick—or the exact masks that got us here. The of inmates in general population (including Continued on 15 Continued on 4 Continued on 17

TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 1 4/2/2020 11:04:39 AM A Lost Connection Impeachment An Interview with

By JOHN RED CLOUD / CC have to say. Why Does It Matter to Me Dr. Ashley One of the beautiful things By SHAWN MCCLUNE / FORMER RESIDENT I have often refected on my about being human is our many Hamilton upbringing on the Pine Ridge imperfections, and the ways we In past histories of governments, the way Indian Reservation. Consciously, I have either embraced them to better in which leaders were often removed was by By ERIC DAVIS / FMCC was aware I belonged to something ourselves as a whole, or succumbed a treasonous act or civil war. Prior to 1776, our greater than myself. Subconsciously, to them, yet still were able to fnd forefathers were subject to a tyrannical form of Could you explain how you developed the I was unaware that each step I success in a failure. That is what government that robbed them of a voice or any mindset that led to the establishment of DU PAI? took, my ancestors were counting has inspired, and continues to form of self-governance. In 1776, the founding I have been working in arts and education in on me to keep writing our story. inspire some of the most innovative fathers of the United States of America created prison for almost a decade now. I started my work As humans, we have that unique minds and advances our species has a Constitution that gave the people of this great inside prisons in New York City when I was quite ability to reason, or so we think ever known. I have not lost faith in nation the power and a voice, which is greater young. I had moved to New York to be an actress we are the only ones. There is no the human experience because I than the sword, to ensure that we don’t fall prey and was restless, and serendipitously found my way possible way the earth was created can’t accurately quantify what our to a tyrannical system. They created a system to working inside. At frst I had little sense of what I for bufalo, or magpies, or impala. It potential is as a species. I only know of checks and balances to protect us from was doing — But, I knew immediately that I loved was created for the almighty Man. that I want it to be a better place for ourselves by implementing the three branches it. In the very frst prison class I ever taught one of We have to be the reason. I want to my children, and their children’s of government Executive, Legislative, and the students said of the theatre workshop “this is the feel like I am chiefy responsible for children. Now I ask myself if I am Judicial. One of the powers is the power of only place where I forget where I am” — and I was what Tunkasila has allowed me to doing enough to afect change, no impeachment by the Houses of Congress that so curious about that, I decided to go back to school experience on this earth, whether matter how slight. falls under the Legislative branch to remove so I could create theatre and art inside to the best of that be alone with my thoughts, or I lie awake some nights feeling publicly elected ofcials that commit treason, my ability. I went to graduate school at New York sharing a common experience with the weight of my ancestors as bribery, and high crimes or misdemeanors University and got my Masters and PhD — where others. seen through the future footsteps that threaten our form of government. For the I focused on prison education and the arts. During We still have a lot to ofer each of my descendants. How much past 243 years, we the people have expressed my graduate work, I started teaching and creating other in the way of developing our responsibility can I realistically be our will and exercised our collective power art inside as well as teaching for four diferent consciousness. The problem is, too expected to take credit for, if this ensuring that our great nation stays true and prison education programs — teaching college many of us do not see the value in my generation’s time? Time for honest; it takes the people, including you, to courses inside in facilities of all kinds — across the devoting time and efort to this very what? What can I do to consciously help keep those who represent us representing state of New York. I trained under one of the longest important aspect of our lives. At make a diference without actively us. standing prison arts programs in the country — this point in my life, I would like trying to efect meaningful change? So what exactly is an impeachment and Rehabilitation through the Arts, under whom I to think I still have more tomorrows How am I supposed to know when what does that mean? Impeachment comes wrote my dissertation. By the time I fnished my than yesterdays. How much of the I have achieved any measurable from British constitutional history. The PhD I was going into prison four to fve days a time that I have had have I spent success? Perhaps the answers will process evolved from the 14th century as week for various jobs and projects and I knew I had consciously trying to connect with reveal themselves to me upon a way for Parliament to hold the king’s found my calling. I wanted to be inside as much as my inner self? Not enough. Much intentional introspection. There are ministers accountable for their public actions. possible. When I fnished my PhD I was ofered my can be said for being in the moment. answers. They have always been Our founding fathers, fearing the potential job at the University of Denver (I am on the faculty When I talk to people, I try and there. The problem is that maybe I for abuse of executive power, considered there), and I told them I wanted to accept but I had listen to what they are saying, (or we as a species) am not ready for impeachment so important that they made to start my own prison arts program — they were instead of simply waiting for them the answers. it part of the Constitution even before they thrilled. Thank goodness! to stop talking so I can say what I Continued on 5 Continued on 5 Continued on 6

The Yard CDOC Approved No Place for Drama

Mentor Program By TAYLOR DOUCET / SCF sure progression is being made no matter the environment. They’re starting a trend that Limon Correctional Facility is in the midst seems to be spreading fast. Here at Limon, a Administrative Regulations 900-02 of some monumental changes that I’m proud to new Powerlifting class that continues to thrive say I’m part of. If you are someone who wants today at Fremont. It not only helps students to be a part of positive change, then look no with learning safety and technique to unleash further. The frst program I want to highlight is their full potential, but also a healthy lifestyle By RICHARD JOHNSON / FCF Redemption Road. It is a life changing program that takes place outside of the weight pile. At that has had a huge ripple efect on DOC. the end of the six-month class we will have an If you are in the Department of Former and ex-ofenders are The new Executive open weight meet for the Corrections, or if a loved one of eligible to be mentors to those still Director of prisons whole facility and then yours is, then you should check incarcerated. has made it clear start a new six-month out AR 900-02. The new AR went Approved mentors will be added that this program is class shortly afterwards into efect September 1, 2019, to the visiting list of the mentee. working wonders to get ready for the next and it has a goal of promoting The administration at each in people’s lives. meet. Prison yards are reintegration into the community, facility will have fnal approval of As Limon’s afliate no longer a place for with the help of a mentor-mentee the mentor(s). continues to grow, drama and problems relationship. According to AR An ofender wishing to get a Fremont has just with the help of men 900-02, “It is the policy of the mentor must be within 180 days of launched their own who are desperate for a Department of Corrections to a release to community or parole. afliate this year, change. Now they will provide a mentoring program for As stated before, if this sounds which is running continue to grow into ofenders releasing from DOC… like a program that you or extremely smooth for a place of progression, by providing a continuum of care someone you know could beneft it being so new. Major not stagnation. If you and programs to incarcerated from, please apply. You could read props to the CFL-1’s want the same thing that ofenders in preparation for the entire AR in your library or and CFL-2’s that are you have received your re-entry into the community.” request an application from your making this possible. whole life, continue to There are guidelines and case manager or the program Sterling and Arkansas act exactly as you have. criteria that must be met. And for coordinator. For those of you in the Valley are not far If you want to be part of the entire list, go to your library community that wish to support behind on getting something bigger than and read the AR yourself. A few an ofender and be a mentor, reach their programs of the yourself, the time is now of them are: out to the program coordinator, or ground with a little to act on it. The mentor will be the same the administration of any DOC help from Limon’s EDITOR’S NOTE: Since gender as the mentee. facility or at headquarters. The trainers. It’s amazing the writing of this article Relatives of current DOC application process is not much, what can happen Mr. Docuet has relocated ofenders may be accepted based but the diference it will make will when men who have to SCF to participate in on potential positive infuence. be great. the calling to be world GO-MAP. changing leaders stop at nothing to make Taylor Doucet / SCF

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By JULIE RADA / DU PAI Black & Pink for LGBTQIA prisoners have been creating forums on the outside for writers and readers inside for many One of my favorite things to do is sit with a cup of cofee years. Editor-In-Chief Anthony Valdez and pore over the Sunday New York Times. It is a simple and Prison journalists have been submitting stories to papers Senior Editor Michael Martinez singular pleasure. I don’t always agree with what I read or the on the outside since print journalism in the United States Managing Editor Douglas Baker values expressed in the paper, but I nonetheless revel in the became the primary way folks got their news. An iconic Assistant Managing Editor Mark Horton challenge to my preconceived ideas, the knowledge I gain, example of how folks behind bars used print journalism Image/Photo Editor Travis Haynes and the connection to the world I glean from simple text on to make their voices heard is Martin Luther King Jr.’s Joseph T. McGill a page. I possess insatiable curiosity and a good newspaper “Letter from Birmingham Jail” which was written in his Associate Editor Evan Lawlor feeds my appetite to learn. Spending my days working in momentary incarceration in Alabama and published in The prisons, I am struck by a paradox. People in prison, to some Atlantic magazine in 1963 and a number of newspapers Staf Writer Andrew M. Kachik degree, are just like people on the streets. I have encountered across the country and represented a shift in the public’s Richard M. Medina people in prisons that reminded me in their appearance or sympathy for the Civil Rights Movement. Indisputably, print Journalist Eric Davis mannerisms of friends, coworkers, or loved ones. People in journalism is and has been a powerful vehicle for anyone Lysander B. Harvey prison have hobbies, jobs, friendships, daily rituals, faith with something to say to make their voice known and all Richard Johnson practices, and all the things that make life full and dimensional it requires is pen, paper, thoughtfulness, and gumption. Trevor Jones on the outside. On the other hand, people in prison are I was asked by the team of The Inside Report to write an Brandon Moss diferent than free people. As an outsider, I come and go as I editorial for the frst issue describing why newspapers by and wish, make my own schedule, adjust my creature comforts to for incarcerated writers and readers is important. To me, with Bureau Chief Monsel Dungen / BVCF allow for the best quality of life and a host of other material my love of reading and learning, the signifcance of such an Matthew LaBonte / SCF and psychological diferences I experience that I know that endeavor is self - evident. Distilled to its essence, a newspaper Andrew McClay / CTCF people who are incarcerated do not experience or experience is a commons of ideas - a site of communication. A newspaper Hayley Mill / FMCC diferently. Prison has its own culture as well, in terms of can take faraway worlds and bring them into focus, unlocking Christine Nye / DWCF how groups form and relate to one another. This means that understanding and empathy for those diferent from us. A working inside prisons is a kind of cross- cultural practice. newspaper can refect the world around us - our daily lives Christopher Taylor / DRDC The work we do at University of Denver Prison Arts - giving us a sense of community and belonging, helping us Sydney White / LVCF Initiative (DU PAI) lives at the intersection of inside and to see ourselves anew and to recognize that others share in George Woldt / LCF outside worlds. We engage in this cross-cultural practice. It our experience. What could be more necessary in a prison? Executive Editor Ashley Hamilton has been such a joy to work for the past several months with Out on the streets, folks representing a range of political Julie Rada the newspaper team at Fremont Correctional Facility and perspectives and lived experiences complain of an increasingly with my DU PAI colleagues, Ashley Hamilton and Karen polarized world. No doubt, the public conversation has Karen Lausa Levi-Lausa, as we have created a newspaper ofce, complete become increasingly vitriolic. With more than seven years Liaison Captain Quattlebaum / FCF with buckets of cofee and stacks of paper. CDOC’s support of experience working alongside incarcerated artists in Ms. Joyce / FMCC, ACC, SCC and the staf at Fremont have been instrumental in building prisons in three states with a range of populations, I know Ms. Malebranche / LVCF up the infrastructure to make it all possible. Imagine the early that polarization inside is nothing new. Unfortunately, prison Ms. Williams / CTCF days of The Washington Post or The Wall Street Journal, as a is mired in binary thinking, a politics of “us and them.” Now Ms. Adams / TCF small group of journalists and editors hashed out the details is a special time for the Colorado Department of Corrections, of masthead design, submission requirements, layout, paper however. Visionaries incarcerated inside Colorado’s prisons, Ms. Gagliardi / BVCF quality, and any number of ethical and practical decisions staf working at all levels of CDOC - uniformed ofcers to Captain Williams / YOS made at the onset of any business or media organization. executive - level - and initiatives like DU PAI and others from Ms. Hayes / AVCF We have been doing that at Fremont. We have mimicked the the streets are forging alliances to dream up a better approach Lt. Gabriel / DWCF practices of the outside world as much as possible, in spite to incarceration. This approach is based on normalization, of the constraints of the prison environment. In all work, compassion, and working across divides to build something Lt. Contes / DRDC we hope to build sustainable communities. In the case of that provides material beneft to all. The Inside Report is a Captain Hawkins / LCF The Inside Report, we hope to also build a business and a standard bearer for this new way of thinking; it represents the Ms. Fustini / CCF sustainable organization. coming together, with good intent, of varying stakeholders Mr. Fevinger / CSP While at times a barrier, the specifcity of the prison context at all levels of investment in the CDOC with the hope that has also fed our work. Prison journalism is not new and folks it ofers a glimpse into what, I believe, we all want: the Mr. Horton / RCC inside have plenty to say. We have looked to the San Quentin possibility of better ways of being together as human beings. Ms. Fritchman / DCC News, a paper with a storied history of over four decades Perhaps the newspaper crew at Fremont Correctional Facility Mr. Allen / SCCF and a worldwide readership as our beacon. The Angolite out and the contributors and readers of The Inside Report can Mr. Clare / SCF of Angola Prison in Louisiana, Iowa’s Presidio, Charisse teach the rest of us in the free world a little something about Shumate’s The Fire Inside from the California Coalition for discourse, where ideas can be fostered and challenged with Mr. Brown / BCCF Women Prisons (CCWP), and most recently, The Marshall respect and intelligence. Mr. Long / CMRC Project’s News Inside have also led the way. Here in Colorado, The act of reading a newspaper is a quiet act, an act of Printing Arkansas Valley Publishing Co. I’ve heard that Colorado Territorial Correctional Facility had the everyday, an act of normalcy. 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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 3 4/2/2020 11:04:41 AM few times. At 16, I stabbed a guy in a big 18-year-old, closeted gay kid. I had doomed caused. I’ve learned trying to push him out Masks house party fght. I was sent to Lookout myself to life in prison. I know I deserved of my head only sends me spinning back Mountain, a Colorado juvenile joint. A it. But I didn’t know how I could possibly into the same old trap. It’s just running. So I wild place. Everything predicated on gangs live it. strive to keep him right in front of my mind. From page 1 and violence. Any sign of weakness was Except, I did know. I doubled down I stay with these, and all the other feelings viciously attacked. And, of course, being on the same façade that brought me here. I’d rather not feel. tough guy, the gang guy, the dope fend gay would’ve been deemed the weakest The crazy kid who’d explode over any Buddhism has taught me we were made “don’t give a damn about living or dying” sign of all. provocation. I fought with sticks and for facing things. It may feel easier to hide guy. Deep inside we know these façades are After a year in Lookout, I was released. knives. I attacked any perceived threat. I behind our masks. From reality. From our crippling us. But a lot of us have convinced I had totally bought into juvie prison’s dove headlong into the penitentiary race past. From our present. From the things ourselves it’s too late to change now. It’s warped value system. It had only reinforced gang culture. I relentlessly chased the dope about ourselves we wish weren’t true. But never too late. everything I already thought I knew. I had to sack. I abused medication every single day. evasion never works. Whatever we run from I’m gay. So simple to say these days. But be anybody but myself to survive. I had to I drank hooch every chance I got. Anything only grows stronger, while we sink weaker. for most of my 49 years alive, I would’ve stay engulfed in anger, ready to explode into to mufe the pain. I was utterly hopeless. It’s a hard, but simple truth. We have to be rather died than speak those words. I violence. I had to barricade myself even My frst 15 years were one long fall. real to heal. It’s the only way to change. couldn’t even think them. Growing up in deeper behind the mask. But, as I got a little older, I began to grow I wish I could say it gets easier. But it Texas, I was in total denial. Of course, the I had a girlfriend who’d stuck with me tired of the box I’d locked myself into as doesn’t. That’s growing up though. Doing truth would cave in on me at times. But I’d through all kinds of hell. But after only a 13-year-old. Tired of always choosing what needs to be done. Especially when it’s push it away and seal it of as quickly as I a few months back on the street, I fnally weakness over strength. I was drawn to not easy. And hard as it is, there’s a lot of could. With booze. With dope. With fghting drove her away with my ever expanding Buddhism. And through that practice, I solace in fnally growing up some. and raging against everyone in my path. rage. Without her anchoring infuence, I learned to stop running. To sit still and face There’s also solace in service. In being As a kid, I was always prone to anxiety quickly spun out of control. I drank all all the feelings I could never stand to have. there for others as they work their own way and depression. And just like my sexuality, day, every day. I shot meth. I carried a gun Little by little, I learned to open my heart back towards hope. these were emotions I found deeply wherever I went. I set the stage for tragedy. and let the mask fade. The Colorado system is currently unacceptable. So I buried them away and In March of 1989, I spontaneously In 2004, I fnally came out as gay and undergoing a tremendous wave of change. told myself they didn’t even exist. robbed a man behind a bar. It spiraled into a stepped entirely away from the gang life and It’s clear Governor Polis and Director Looking back, I see I was trapped in a kidnapping. Ultimately, I shot him to death all the prison politics. Progress. But the real Williams are genuinely determined to state of perpetual panic. Always racing to and burned his body in his car to destroy work was just getting started. Turns out, a transform this system into an environment stay one step ahead of myself. Hooked on evidence. He was 32 years old. He would lifetime of drug and alcohol abuse was a lot that promotes growth and positive change. anger as the only antidote. At least anger have had a long life ahead of him. But I harder to shake than the closet. Turns out, There’s an excitement in the air. New blocked out my panic for a little while. At had stolen it. He was white. It wasn’t a hate facing the waves of anxiety and depression, programs are popping up all over the state, least it cut through the confusion. At least it crime, but it might as well have been. It was with no haze to hide in, was an even rougher ofering more and more paths to being hid how I really felt. just as senseless. ride than I had imagined. Turns out, facing part of something bigger than ourselves. So I raged. And I ran. At 13, I ran away I can’t claim to know much about him. pain without anger as a safety net left me New opportunities to help heal the world from home. I lived on the street, slept in But I know he had a mother, a brother, and with no net at all. around us-our prison communities, and by abandoned buildings. I stole to eat. I hufed a girlfriend. People who loved him. People And then there’s my crime. No matter extension, the free-world communities that paint. I drank Thunderbird—just like the who needed him. I knew I had caused a how much damage I try to repair, I know I most of us will eventually return to. New rest of the winos. I pinballed from city to massive amount of pain. I knew I had done can never undo what I did that night. Facing ways of working together to create a place city. Dallas, Austin, Houston. Flailing for something despicable. The shame was that stark reality stone sober is an everyday for change. any identity to clutch onto. overwhelming. But I wasn’t done running. grind. Thoughts of my crime can sneak up A safer, saner, kinder place, where people At 14, I became a skinhead. Like a lot Not even close. and steal the air out of even the lightest of won’t feel so compelled to cling to gangs of us, I was easy pickins for older gang Like every other unwanted emotion, I was moments. They can make me feel worthless and hardened personas. A place to focus on members. A confused kid who’d do anything unwilling to deal with the guilt from what I all over again. Like it’s too late to change. education and recovery. A place where we to prove I was worthy. In my desperate had done. I had always used any excuse to Like it’s pointless to even try. Like I should give and get the support we need to face mind, living this ridiculous lie made perfect hide. And prison provided me with the best dive back into hiding. Dope and fatalistic into our issues, take responsibility for our sense. Skinheads hated “fags”. And so did I. excuse I could’ve ever asked for. thinking always being the easiest mask to choices and to begin making amends. A I hated myself. Nowadays, the joint is still a rough place slip back into. place to open our hearts. And fnally let go The spiral continued. More booze. to be. But thirty years ago, it was like But I’m done running. It took a while, but of the masks. More dope. More running of every clif I getting dropped into a war. It was Lookout eventually I was able to stay sober. came across. I stumbled through Denver a times ten thousand. I was this bone skinny, Every day I meditate on the sufering I My SOTMP Experience Closing The Door On Selfishness By Opening The Door On Honesty

By RICHARD JOHNSON / FCF great son, a great friend, a great member our crimes. Everyone has a Pretend Sex History of society, and maybe just maybe a great Normal, the portrayal of what we want Allow me to begin by saying that there husband again. It is with the confdence people to see and think about us, but it is Here we dig into our past and disclose is no easy way to say this…I am in prison of my faith and the hard work that I have dangerous if we live in the phase and we the actions that led up to our present day. because of the poor choices that I made in done in treatment that I am able to put never address the reasons that we don’t Where many could feel this is intrusive and my life. I strived to be the best teacher, the these words on paper. I am thankful for want others to see our true selves. We then not necessary, it gives us a chance to once best coach, the best friend and the best son the challenges and the change that I went get triggered into our Build Up, where we again truly explore what our interests are I could be. But I failed miserably in many through to get to this point. For that reason, now play out scenarios in our heads and and be open about what led to our assaultive areas of my life, and one of them was being I am supremely thankful for Sex Ofender give our assaultive thoughts life. It is this behaviors. It is essential in growth. a husband. I chose to put my ego, my needs Therapeutic Management Program and the cycle that shows us these phases and allows and my embarrassment in front of my therapists that did not push me from behind us to stop them before they start and exit the RMP relationship. I chose to not communicate to get to this point, but rather they walked cycle safely without creating any victims. with my wife, I chose to not speak to my beside me – with me, to get me to this If we don’t we, move into the Acting Out This is the fnal paper, which shows parents, ultimately I chose to not speak to point. Thanks! phase, where people are getting hurt and the ultimate growth in what our high risk myself openly and honestly. I have made a victimized. And after this phase, most of behaviors are and what life looked like in goal of never again lying to myself when Introduction us choose to Justify our actions and move the past in dealing with them, and how we it comes to what it is that I want, and who back into Pretend Normal. Being able to can now live life in the future in a healthy it is that I want it from. I am a man that This is the frst opportunity that we truly stop this cycle is key – but is not possible if manner dealing with them. This only works is worthy of good things, and I am a man have to take responsibility for our past and we are not honest with ourselves. if we trust the process and are open. that chooses what labels I choose to accept. to no longer make excuses or minimize My identity is not dictated by what people what it is that we did. It is essential that think of me, not by who likes me, and not we take ownership of all the actions and WAYS I HAVE GROWN even by what career I choose. I choose my behaviors that we were involved in. It is at identity, and for that reason I am going to this point where we are then able to begin I recognize the distorted core beliefs that led to my poor choices. put aside my fear of rejection and choose see the impact that we have had on the to speak honestly about my thoughts and victim(s), by seeing how we go to the point I know I am not the most important person in the world, BUT my opinions, my passions. I look now to the future and of creating a victim in the frst place. feelings and wants do matter. the man that I am - and who I can be to make positive change for those around Ofense Cycle I found out that it was not until I was able to recognize my faults, that I became able to begin building my strengths in a healthy manner. me. I may never get another shot at being a great teacher or coach, and if I do it will This is single handedly the most I am now able to TRUST others and see there are lots of ways to get help, look completely diferent than it did before, important project to be completed. Here but the choice to do so is mine. and I am excited about that. Regardless of we get to see what we were like in all four that point I get a second shot at being a phases of our past that led to committing

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 4 4/2/2020 11:04:41 AM Senate, by managers, who in this case 212 to impeach on the obstruction of know just how and why our founding Impeachment will represent the articles of impeachment justice. The Senate acquitted him in fathers put the impeachment process into sent to the Senate by the House of 1999. History tells us that this was more our Constitution. Through impeachment, Representatives. Under Article 1, Section politically motivated as there were no our founding fathers designed a From page 2 3, Clause 6, the Senate has the sole power actual articles of impeachment based government that protects itself from to try and judge all impeachments. The of of corrupt policies. President Nixon itself while giving the citizens a voice defned the contours of the presidency. Senate may acquit or with a two-thirds resigned on August 9th, 1974 due to the that’s more powerful than the sword. Our Massachusetts’ Elbridge Gerry said majority vote can convict. If the Senate Watergate scandal before the House of government protects its citizens from impeachment was a way to keep the acquits, they will then fnish their term; Representatives were able to vote on their own government because it is of the executive in check: “A good magistrate if found guilty they will be removed articles of impeachment, the then Vice people, by the people, and for the people. will not fear (impeachment). A bad from ofce and also be disqualifed from President, Gerald Ford, was sworn in as I feel that it matters because, left one ought to be kept in fear of them.” holding future ofce. Fines and potential President where he then gave Richard unchecked, the government can become The crimes, according to our founding jail time for crimes committed while in Nixon a full pardon of all Federal crimes corrupted and then abuse the power and fathers, were obviously treason and ofce are left to civil courts. committed in ofce. authority given to it by the people. We bribery but didn’t include a large number As of 2019, the House of Representatives As this article was being written, we are a country that is self-governed, a of punishable ofenses against the has initiated the impeachment of 64 have the third President who is currently government that is of the people, by the state, so Mason (1725-1792, American elected ofcials, and the House of going through the impeachment process. people, and for the people. To form that statesman and revolutionary) added high Representatives has only impeached three On December 18, 2019 the House of more perfect union that our founding crimes and misdemeanors, which was a presidents, with one president “at the time Representatives passed two Articles by fathers stated, we as a people, a nation, technical term that denoted crimes by of this writing” in the Senate; Donald J. voting 230 to 197 to impeach on Abuse and as individuals must stand for life, public ofcials against the government. Trump. One president resigned before of Power and 229 to 198 to impeach on liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Impeachment is the formal way in which the House of Representatives could vote Obstruction of Congress. Both articles It matters because we have not only the all civil ofcers up to, and including, the on the impeachment, Richard Nixon. As were passed primarily along party lines right, but a duty to protect ourselves and President can be removed from ofce of today, no president has been removed and President Trump became the third those for whom we love from tyranny before their term is over in a peaceful from ofce due to being impeached. The President to be impeached. that would be imposed upon us, both manner as provided in the Constitution Senate has held formal impeachment Now to be truly objective in this we foreign and domestic. As a nation we are under article one. The impeachment hearings for 19 ofcials, of which eight must also be aware that this impeachment a beacon to the world, where it’s citizens process is designed to protect the people were convicted and removed from ofce. is ongoing and currently there are two are not beholden to its government, and its government from those who All eight were Federal judges. trains of thought. The frst thought is but its government is beholden to its would abuse the power given to them by The frst president that we impeached the Constitution gives the House of citizens, the very citizens from which has the people who voted them into ofce. was Andrew Johnson, the 17th President. Representative the power to impeach sworn an oath to protect and defend the How does it work? All impeachments On February 24th, 1868, the House and they did so by passing the resolution Constitution. begin in the House of Representatives; of Representatives voted 126 to 47 to of impeachment to the Senate. The they act as the prosecutor in this case. impeach on 11 articles. Three of them Constitution separates the impeachment Tell Us About the Educational & They will present all evidence that is were the corrupt use of the veto power process so that it takes both houses of derived through investigations and and interference of elections (violation Congress to remove someone from ofce. Vocational Programming at Your witness testimonials to the committees of the Tenure of Ofce Act). History tells The founding fathers did this so that one Facility within the House of Representatives. us that in the backdrop of the times there political party may not impeach or remove Then the House of Representatives will was a bitter diference of opinion about any ofcial due to partisan disagreement. The Inside Report wants to hear from present the charges which are then turned the proper treatment of the South after Since the impeachment process has yet to you about... into articles to be presented to the foor the Civil War. Johnson favored a milder be completed, there is no legal precedent Any new, exciting or ongoing of the House of Representatives, and at policy than the one proposed by a strong to fall on. The House of Representatives opportunities in educational this point the full House must vote. In group in the House of Representatives. has never impeached someone and held programing where you reside. the House of Representatives, a simple The Senate acquitted him later that same the resolution of impeachment from We want to highlight successful completions, valued teachers, majority is all that is needed to impeach year. the Senate. In other words, it’s like a excelling students, and state of the art and move forward the articles to the The second one was President Bill prosecutor charging someone with a programs that represent the shifting nd Senate for trial. Under Article 1, Section Clinton, the 42 President. In 1998, crime and wanting to put them in jail, and attitude toward moving forward in 2, Clause 5, the House of Representatives he was impeached for a variety of not giving them their due process, day in life. has the sole authority to impeach. things. The two major accusations were court, to defend themselves. Now that the House of Representatives perjury and obstruction of justice; the Our leaders are elected, not born into have voted to move the impeachment House of Representatives voted 228 to ofce. We the people give our government forward, it will be presented to the 206 to impeach on perjury, and 221 to its power and authority. It’s important to

uncomfortable to be the frst one to do and tried to fgure out if I knew what my motivation is proft, or greed actually. A Lost the right thing. Remember those dances purpose is on this planet. What am I meant Messing with the perfection of nature so in middle school? Change is sometimes to do as a human? Am I doing it? Even if a person can’t produce. “Take that Johnny Connection uncomfortable, and may even come along I were doing it, would I know that I was Appleseed!” with some growing pains. What it is about doing it? If I am not fulflling my role, As a history scholar, I constantly look From page 2 getting in touch with our inner self that what is keeping me from realizing that? towards achievements; as well as failures, we fnd so uncomfortable? We hardly ever What sort of defciency is keeping me to see what we have learned as a people. The time and place for continued make purposeful eforts to really delve into from reaching the conclusion that I have What ideas or concepts are continually evolution of our consciousness is now. Each our subconscious. I guess we do not have not reached where I am supposed to be? being reinforced? It seems like as long as day as I make my way to work, I notice the enough time. Of all existing resources, It reminds me of Lewis Carroll’s classic, we feel like we are masters of the universe, rush we are all in to get somewhere. No time is arguably the most precious of them Alice in Wonderland. Alice frst meets the then we have carte blanche to “innovate” matter the destination, we all feel like the all, because no matter what we do we can Cheshire Cat at a fork in the road. She in the name of humanity. We are capable of place we are going is more important than never get time back. All we are left with is is lost, and asks him which was she is such good, yet we mar those achievements the next person’s. It is hard to think about a collection of memories that continue to supposed to go. He asks her where she is by destruction and chaos. What are the most what our responsibility is supposed to be erode over the years. trying to go. She responds that she doesn’t memorable events in our history? Think for the next generation. Our inadvertent, Our senses as a human being paint a know. He then proceeds to tell her that it history textbooks. How many chapters collective disregard for our responsibility picture for our memory bank to store doesn’t matter which way she goes if she are devoted to wars, conficts, death, of earth is not entirely our fault. Look at for future retrieval. I still remember doesn’t know where she is going. dying, despots, etc.? Peace time is boring. the way society places so many demands participating in a retreat in college. One Here we are in our warped wonderland. What can be learned from tranquility? on our time. Does it make us feel that we of our group activities was to do a sunrise Do we know which we to go? There may My take on consciousness will continue to are important when we see a pop-up ad hike to the peak of a mountain. Why do be some unrealized beneft from aimless evolve. I would like help in understanding that is supposedly tailored to our needs I still remember that event so vividly? I wandering. Sometimes it’s necessary to it. There are not enough opportunities or our buying patterns? Blindly accepting remember it because it was one of the few go through a struggle in order to come to devoted to consciousness or contact. Take terms of use and cookies ensures the times in life where I was completely, and certain conclusions. Is that what a midlife the opportunities that do arise and really all-powerful Google remains incredibly intentionally unplugged from the hustle crisis is? This could be the point of where dedicate yourself to them. It is said that intuitive. Maybe its intuitiveness is a little and bustle of life. No cell phone. No tablet. our struggle is as a species. Honestly, I am wisdom is where you fnd it. That means on the spooky side. Thanks auto-fll! No technology whatsoever. Just me and a little concerned about the direction we wisdom is everywhere. Our connection to I would like to believe there is a the winds. I was nothing more than a wind are hurtling towards. Case in point: the our past is our decoder to the future. Our redeeming quality we all have as humans. block on top of that mountain. It didn’t federal government pays some farmers to spirits need nourishment. Luckily those All of us are capable of such goodness, yet matter what was in my inbox, or what my not plant crops so prices can be artifcially precious spiritual seeds of growth haven’t we never reach our full potential. Why is calendar looked like for those precious high. Or, better yet, some plants are been genetically modifed for sterility… that? Are we counting on the person next few moments. genetically engineered to be the botanical not yet anyway. Find your connection, to us to make the move frst? Maybe it’s I cleared my mind as much as I could, reproduction equivalent of a mule. The even if it means disconnecting.

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 5 4/2/2020 11:04:42 AM I think that at the foundation of it all, I believe that the arts are one of the best vehicles we have to create spaces for transformation — in and outside of prison. What better tool do we have to understand prison Shifting the World and to shift it? Dr. Ashley Hamilton

By ERIC DAVIS / FMCC in Philosophy at The Steinhart Tuesday July 9, 2019, two CDOC shift in the air. PAI. When asked to recall his School of Culture, Education residents—Andrew Draper and Another improbable example most memorable moment from The University of Denver and Human Development at New Denise Presson—along with of DU PAI walking through the production, Dr. Hammoor Prison Arts Initiative has sprung York University, Dr. Hamilton Dr. Hamilton, hosted a podcast prison walls, was the theatrical relayed a story about the woman to life inside the Colorado submitted her dissertation in inside “The Vault” at the Denver production of One Flew Over who played the part of Jacob Department of Corrections. As August 2017. It was titled: Devised Complex Correctional Facility. the Cuckoo’s Nest. A cast and Marley. He explained that she DU PAI grows, it has awoken Theatre as Liminal Transformer In the inaugural With(in) episode, crew comprised of Sterling met her grandfather for the frst the spirits of hundreds—if not in a Women’s Maximum Security they spoke with CDOC Executive Correctional Facility residents time at the Sterling Correctional thousands—of the men and Prison. There she said that, “No Director Dean Williams. became the frst prison play Facility performance. The event women residing in CDOC. This matter the specifc curriculum During that discussion they in the United States to go on also gained national attention, program is at the forefront of an I was asked to follow, or spent signifcant time exploring tour. Yes, they went on tour. with Dr. Hamilton appearing as a innovative approach reaching created as the lead facilitator, Director Williams’ vision of a The entire production travelled guest on Fox News Channel’s The out to even the hardest of those I began to notice, through my “shift” in the Colorado prison to both the Limon and Denver Daily Briefng. Host Dana Perino residents, encouraging them observation and through the system. Womens Facilities to perform seemed genuinely interested to to shift their own thoughts and participant’s self-reporting, that An example of this shift for those residents. Some notable hear about the positive efects attitudes toward a value-based, something transformative was reveals itself upon closer attendees included members the arts are having in CDOC sincerely rehabilitative mindset. able to happen when artistic examination of the With(in) crew. of Colorado Governor Polis’ residents’ lives. Ms. Perino DU PAI’s Founder and Director, and expressive opportunities Male residents housed in the cabinet, and his executive staf. conveyed that her mother had Dr. Ashley Hamilton has a were brought into these prison Sterling Correctional Facility Although, for many of the actors attended one of the performances deeply-held belief that exposing spaces.” are transported to the Denver and crew, the performance for and was equally impressed by prisoners to the arts provides an In 2017, Dr. Hamilton Complex to work side by side family and friends was the most the women’s presentation of a opening for positive inspiration persuaded CDOC to take a with their female counterparts meaningful of all. Shifts happen classic. Fox News Channel doing in their lives. She is committed to chance on a program that who are housed at the Denver in stages. an optimistic piece on convicted ofering some of society’s most was unfamiliar to Colorado’s Womens Correctional Facility. Mere days before Christmas of felons transforming their lives desperate and overlooked people prison system. As I spoke with This team functions as one to 2019, one of the most astonishing through arts. A shift in views. the opportunity to immerse our her about this initial foray achieve the goal of producing undertakings I’ve witnessed in On Saturday January 11, 2020, minds in a wide variety of artistic into CDOC, she revealed how the podcast series. CDOC is my 33 years of incarceration open auditions were held at the endeavors, which may ultimately difcult it really was. Creating airing all of the With(in) episodes went of without a hitch. A cast Fremont Correctional Facility for provide a foothold, allowing us a prison art initiative inside of on every state prison’s internal and crew comprised of residents an upcoming production of Jesus to begin the long climb out of the system that had little appetite for broadcast system. The episodes housed in the Denver Womens Christ Superstar. Approximately holes we have dug for ourselves. “outsiders” wasn’t always easy. are also available to the public Facility were transported to 30 people auditioned for the Dr. Hamilton is convinced that That era of thinking has passed. online at ThisisWith(in).com. The University of Denver—to chance to show of their acting rehabilitation through art can The University recently signed a Director Williams believes it perform for the public—their chops. We will follow their happen when it encompasses historic contract with CDOC to is crucial for CDOC residents production of A Christmas progress. The script has shifted. experiences that undo the bring their arts curriculum into to maintain a connection with Carol. Over a span of two days, DU PAI is coming to your traumatic and negative impacts every one of the State’s prisons the community beyond prison there were three performances prison, if it isn’t already there. of day to day life in prison, over the next three years. walls. Having the ability to use at the Newman Center for the Take advantage of this opening and allows for opportunities of As DU PAI expanded, an storytelling, via the podcast, Performing Arts. The play and step into a space beyond the personal transformation. assortment of opportunities assists in the nurturing of these was directed by Dr. Clare one you’ve been in. The world is While pursuing her Doctorate appeared in unexpected ways. On connections. There defnitely is a Hammoor & Jamie Law of DU shifting.

and growing — this Fall we will be in 12! went well — it went perfectly. I am so proud particular, I have to thank Director Hansen Interview But, over the next three years we will be in of bringing One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s who has supported DU PAI and advocated every facility in the state in some capacity. Nest from Sterling, on tour to other facilities. for us since day one. From page 2 Pretty incredible… I am so proud of our podcast With(in) that Of course The Inside Report is also a part What has been the biggest obstacle we create across facilities, and the very of DU PAI’s collaboration with CDOC. Could you elaborate on why you believe you’ve encountered in relation to DU PAI? important conversations we have on it. I am How important do you believe speaking exposure to the arts is so important to And what has helped you to overcome so proud of this newspaper — I am so proud the truth, through the newspaper, is in people confned in prison? those obstacles? of our workshops. But, I think the greatest prison? This is a really hard question for me to The start of DU PAI was incredibly rocky. achievement has been the getting to be a I think it’s incredibly important, but also answer briefy. I — and my team — have overcome so many part of the large level culture shift that I see incredibly complicated. We are so proud of I think that at the foundation of it all, I obstacles. Of course there are people who happening in CDOC. I’d never claim that is The Inside Report and even more proud of believe that the arts are one of the best vehicles don’t think that the arts (or other programs) because DU PAI — I think it is because of our team of students that are bring it to life. I we have to create spaces for transformation have a place in prison — and I can understand thousands of people and dozens of programs, think that “the shift” that we keep referencing — in and outside of prison. For anyone who that perspective. However, I think when but I think we might be helping to support relies on truth. It relies on us telling the truth has ever been involved in the arts (inside or most people see what we do — and how we it — and I am most proud of that. I am proud to ourselves and to each other. And, it relies not) you know how powerful it can be to be do it — they don’t feel that way anymore. So, to be part of the shift. And, I am proud of on storytelling and community building involved with a community that is creating when I hear that opinion I ask to talk about watching my students choose compassion, — all of which are deeply ingrained in this and sharing stories of meaning. The arts, it and I invite those people to come closer. hard work and community — which is newspaper. This is one more tool we have since the beginning of time, have been one of I invite them into the community too. But, creating the shift. to shift culture and understanding of prison the main ways we attempt to understand what honestly, I think the largest obstacle we face What is your grand vision of DU PAI? and who is in prison (incarcerated people and it means to be human. What better tool do we is just the incredible need. It feels endless at My grand vision is that everyone is prison staf). have to understand prison and to shift it? I times. There is so much work to be done— in Colorado (and the country, let’s be honest) Has anything really surprised you since am very interested in beautiful, complex art and I often want to be everywhere at once has access to the arts, as a tool for personal you began DU PAI? being created inside but I am actually more and do as much as humanly possible. So, that and community growth, if they want it. My I have said several times over the past interested in the ways that the arts can create can feel daunting at times. Also, the travel. vision is that DU PAI helps to create a major year, “I didn’t dream THIS big.” And, I was a culture shift in prison — for incarcerated The reality is that prisons are generally far and lasting shift in the culture of prison and dreaming big — trust me. The reality is — people, their loved ones, staf and the public. away — I drive on average thousand miles a also the way people see prison and who is when the right moment opens up in time The arts in many ways, are “palatable,” they week and am in prison 6-7 days a week in all in the system. My grand vision is that DU and space, and you have a calling, and you aren’t hard for people to experience (most kinds of weather. And, I wish I could do even PAI helps to change the way we think about listen to it — anything can be possible. And, of the time) so they can act as this space for more. But, luckily I have an amazing team prison. I am surprised by how hard people can work really incredible growth, connection and who run the program with me so we can do How has the recent “shift” that CDOC when they deeply care about something — I change to happen. I could keep going… as much as possible. Executive Director Dean Williams has often work 12-14 hours a day but because I In what year, and in what facility was What do you feel has been your greatest implemented afected DU PAI? know I was born to do this. I am in the world the frst DU PAI program? achievement with DU PAI? DU PAI is what it is because of Director to be doing this work. And, I know so many I launched DU PAI (before we had that That is a really hard question for me to Williams and his team. He has allowed us to others who feel the same way. There are so name) in late 2017 at DRDC with a class answer. I am so incredibly proud of the grow into what we are growing into, and not many people working to shift the system. of six men and I taught the class ON THE program and our students. We have achieved only just allowed it but deeply supported us. But, more than surprised, I am just deeply UNIT. You can imagine how well that more than I could have dreamed of. I am so Our visions are very much parallel and not grateful to be in this position. I am so lucky. went… proud that we brought A Christmas Carol only that — Mr. Williams is an artist himself, Is there anything else you’d like to speak How many facilities is DU PAI presently (with 30 of our incarcerated cast and crew so he understands the power of what we are on before we close? in? from DWCF) to the University of Denver to doing. None of this would be happening I am so grateful you’ve given me the space We are currently in 10 prisons in the state perform for thousand people and it not only without him and his executive team — in to share, thank you!

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 6 4/2/2020 11:04:42 AM Malala Yousafzai; Pakistani activist for women’s education, Nobel Prize Laureate, painted by Roohallah Mobarez / Former Resident

Like A Girl ...similar dialogue, has been very commonplace throughout history due to the belief that women were inferior to men. By EVAN LAWLOR / FCF

I think it’s safe to say that a majority testament to how far women have come on rights, started to take shape in the 1800s community empowerment, also came into of us have heard the phrase, “You [fll in their path to gain empowerment, respect, with the frst of four major movements. focus. the blank] like a girl!” Some of us may and equality. And, although there’s still This frst movement focused on breaking The last, and latest, of the four major have even been on the receiving end of a long way to go, the strides made to this down barriers that pertained to the movements, is the #METOO movement, that comment. Now, I can see how maybe point are very encouraging. education, property rights, and voting which focuses solely on the sexual ffty or more years ago, that could’ve been rights for women. While progress was mistreatment of women and men, hurtful; and it’s probably still used as an Un-Happy Homemaker made for education and property rights, it alike. Though dredging up painful, and insult today. But how much of an insult is wasn’t until 1920, with the passing of the sometimes traumatic, memories, this it, really? Let’s try it. Wife: “Honey, I’m thinking about 19th Amendment, that American women movement also exemplifed the courage getting a job.” were granted the right to vote. and strength it took for people to come “You throw like a girl!” Husband: “A job? What are you talking The second of these movements – and forward and take a stand against such about? Your job’s here at home, cooking, by far the most productive – came about abuse. Like Mo’ne Davis, the groundbreaking cleaning, and raising the babies. Now, stop in the 1960’s when women began to really pitcher, who led her team to the Little being silly and go make me a sandwich.” examine their lives and their status in Light on the Horizon League World Series? Okay. society. With this came the discovery This, and similar dialogue, has been of workplace discrimination, i.e. lower Regardless of a particular group’s “You run like a girl!” very commonplace throughout history wages and fewer promotions. Difculties agenda or motivation, women’s movements due to the belief that women were inferior for women trying to attain political ofce, have inspired cultural changes and created Like Florence Grifth-Joyner, who ran to men. As warped as it was, this way along with higher academic achievement an overall new perspective on the roles her way to 3 gold, and 2 silver medals of thinking was generally based on the for female students, were also realized. of women and men. There’s a growing, during her Olympic career? Or, like natural diferences between the sexes: This led to the forming of many women’s and notable, equality between the sexes. Hillary Clinton, who ran for President of Only women give birth and nurse, so they rights groups, including the National We have more women in positions of the United States of America? should be responsible for raising children; Organization for Women NOW, which power than ever before. Women can voice and women, on average, are smaller and was headed by feminist leader, Betty their ideas and opinions without them “You act like a girl!” not as physically strong as men, so the Friedan. It was groups like NOW. that automatically being dismissed as ‘silly harder, more difcult jobs should be left fought against sexual discrimination and talk’. The ceiling for women and girls, to Like, literally? Like Julia Roberts, or to their male counterparts. And, while paved the way for the passing of several achieve their goals and dreams, has never Meryl Streep, who are both Academy the development of birth control and laws, between the 1960s and 1970s, that been higher; and it’s only possible because Award winning actresses? Or, fguratively? machinery should’ve countered those were aimed at providing equal rights for of the brave women (and some men) who Like the countless women who’ve notions, it was still difcult to shake the women. blazed that path for them. Now, while struggled, fought, and grinded to make idea that women were weaker than, and The third wave of women’s movements the journey is far from over, March—as their status, and the status of others, as dependent on, men. came in the 1990s and showed a signifcant National Women’s History Month—gave women, a symbol of power and strength? increase in male involvement. A majority us the chance to celebrate women – past, When you look at it from that Moving Mountains of the groups involved continued to work present, and future. And you can say what perspective, they’re not really insults, for the securement of equal rights, but you will, but if I [fll in the blank] like any are they? Unh-unh. Instead, they’re a The fght for equality, and women’s other goals, such as nonviolence and of these girls, I’m cool with that.

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 7 4/2/2020 11:04:43 AM By Travis Haynes / FCF

Do You Know Me By MONSÉL DUNGEN / BVCF The Forced Poem

You cannot Love Me if you do not know me. and had to wash my own clothes in buckets. And I By ANTHONY LUCERO / FCF have obeyed capo I didn’t want to obey. There are If you do not know why my hands are calloused and scars upon my mind and bruises on my soul. Mostly I This forced poem cuts deeper my feet are bruised and I smell of terror, and not of try to forget, but when I remember I am ofen violent an oil bath. If you do not know why my head is bald, when called upon… Than razor-wire – Bleeding and my eyes are a natural brownish black, instead of words pregnant with sound. hazel. If you think you want to Love Me, you must know what turns me on. Why I cook for myself, live by Slinging, finging ink No, you cannot Love Me. myself, and look to At 1600 Pennsylvania You see, no mater how myself for strength. much I tan, I stll remain a Why I need to see you into images of golden brown, and I have smile, and why some- skinheads at a mosh-pit no need to enhance my tmes I do not need stomping, stomping looks. Besides that, I take to see you at all. You no pleasure in stcking my must understand that stomping black words pinkie out while drinking this outer image is into white sheets. tea, and if you cannot but a proper disguise understand that, then you while I preserve and cannot Love Me... conserve the real me Well-heeled folks I try to deal with certain inside. I am a Man, yell in agreement to and in the privacy of customs so as not to seem the smug man with the strange, but I really do the private chambers prefer a woman over girls. of my mind, in the DILLIGAF grin. I’m not mult-colored and intmacy of the int- Migrating families yanked apart. I’d rather leave the small mate corridors of my gaps between my teeth soul, when the doors A child cries, “Quiero a mi mama!” unchanged… to western civilizaton “Quiero a mi papa!” are shut – I open the It is uterly important that doors to myself… “I want my momma!” you know these things before you dive of into some “I want my papa!” My name is Monsél Lameson “Zales” Dungen. You fantasy of what I might be – only to be shocked at That’s what the truth sounds like. what I am. I must tell you that I have dug ditches, cannot Love Me if you do not know me, “Do you chopped wood, shoveled snow, I have busted suds, know Me?”

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 8 4/2/2020 11:04:44 AM By ROBERT ZEIGLER / FCF By JOSEPH TAYLOR MCGILL / FCF

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 9 4/2/2020 11:04:51 AM scholarships by CrossFit. The seminar was scheduled for April Through the Wire 17-18, 2018. Two longtime members of CrossFit’s company, Eric O’Connor and Jason McDonald, led the seminar. McDonald found it challenging to fnd the right mindset. He was a retired UFC fghter, and had been an employee of Canadian Federal Corrections for 11 years. For fve of those years he was a leader of the Emergency Response Team. His concerns were soon replaced with how impressed he was by the Limon guys’ dedication and preparation. “The prisoners’ familiarity with the Level 1 Training Guide was unparalled. They knew the manual inside out better than any seminar and any participants I’ve ever taught. From an instructor standpoint, there couldn’t be anything better than having your students well prepared and super invested in what you were teaching them.” (Building Community Behind Bars by Andréa Maria Cecil, originally published 2018 in The CrossFit Journal) Once the men at Limon passed RF2 / Box999 volunteer team in front of FCF their CF-L1, CDOC began to view the program in a diferent From page 1 had followed these CrossFit-style who would not only teach the hand, opens doors and creates light. They recognized that it routines since 2016. Not only correct techniques, but were a the sense of community the was quickly becoming a positive, belief of a road to redemption did the event take place, it was daily representation of positive moment you step in. This sense forward-thinking program available through participation extremely well-received by the living at Limon. The character and of community instantly draws bringing people together who in CrossFit. I would be remiss 40+ participants. This success virtue of these men were crucial. you in, encouraging you help the hadn’t normally “hung out”. if I did not mention the rousing inspired Kreuzer to pitch his big As we all know, convicts are next person to succeed. That type Trevor relayed his thoughts ovation that erupted as he fnished dream—a CrossFit-style class— fantastic at ruining opportunities of thinking is not commonplace about how this has afected him, speaking. to the Limon Management Team for ourselves. Kreuzer had in the joint. Experiencing the way expressing how the experience has The Redemption Road Fitness via Programs Major Jef Long long believed that people in a this approach afects people calls been an emotionally rewarding Foundation inception saga is (now currently Warden at SCF) community can positively afect to mind a quote from CrossFit’s time in his life, and an enormous destined for legendary status in and Captain Pleiman. Kreuzer had each other, as well as the world, Founder, Greg Glassman, “The step forward in CDOC. “I am still both the CrossFit community and been speaking with a friend of his if that community’s foundation is magic is in the community.” dumbfounded and humbled about CDOC lore. It just makes no sense dad who owned a CrossFit box in established in the right mindset. It rarely feels like something these things” he said. that a group of guys housed in Denver. This friend—Sgt. Aaron He had just the men in mind to take magical is happening inside the This spirit was unmistakable as the Limon Correctional Facility, Brill—is a member of the Denver up this task—Arguello, Trevor, cage. This day it did. Nick—another event volunteer— and a Sergeant with the Denver Police Department. With the Juan Velasquez, and Jon Willis. In late October 2017, Sgt. Brill refected on the day’s event. “It’s a Police Department, came together enthusiastic support of Sgt. Brill, Unfortunately, due to unforeseen contacted CrossFit’s Training community…we’re cheering each on the common ground that is the Limon Management Team circumstances, Velasquez had to Department. He wanted to set up other on. Because it’s universal, CrossFit. Any of us who’ve spent granted the request—allowing 30 step aside. In his place came Chris a CrossFit Level 1 Certifcation right?” he said time confned in this system know participants, an hour-and-a-half Harris. seminar for the guys at Limon. This sense of community the usual response to outlandish class, three days a week. CrossFit encourages a profound Eventually his email reached radiated throughout the day. proposals by inmates often lands As Sgt. Brill recalled during spirit of community. This concept Dave Castro, retired Navy SEAL Earlier, Chris Dong—the lead somewhere between “no chance” the RF2 event at Fremont, “I had is historically absent in prison. and Co-Director of Training for volunteer of the RF2 group at and “you’ve got to be dreamin’ a concern, as a police ofcer, Upon entering prison, we don’t CrossFit. His reply to Sgt. Brill’s Fremont—revealed a moment son”. One of these answers was were these guys wanting to be trust anyone, nor have we earned request was simple, “We can do that likely resonates with all of right on the money. Brandin bigger, stronger, faster criminals? any trust with the other residents it.” (Building Community Behind us, “When I came in here… I Kreuzer was in fact dreaming, I could see right of the bat, or staf. There are so many Bars by Andréa Maria Cecil, didn’t know how this was gonna and he was dreaming big. good-hearted guys. They wanted obstacles, barriers and excuses originally published 2018 in The go. But when I stepped in I In 2017, Kreuzer and Damian the community. They wanted the for why we don’t engage in here. CrossFit Journal) felt immediately welcomed.” Arguello—residents at Limon— accountability. They wanted the We create myriad of reasons to The commitment required It’s doubtful that many felt created a proposal requesting that rehabilitation aspect that this can become walled-of from each to achieve CF-L1 cannot be immediately welcomed on that the Limon recreation department provide. That was all there right other—whether it’s politics of gang exaggerated. Once the guys at frst prison yard they stepped host an open, moderately- from the go.” afliation; types of criminal cases; Limon realized they had this into. Chris then said something informal event, using various Kreuzer selected fve men religion; race; or any number opportunity, they encountered profound, “I’d say that when I left Workouts Of the Day that guys to help with the organization, of other divides we arbitrarily another obstacle… the cost. Eight the frst time, I just felt a great had received from the streets. teaching and leadership of the place between us to justify the of the men each raised the $1,000 feeling of hope. Which is kinda There was a group of guys who class. He chose men of integrity, separation. CrossFit on the other required, while two were granted weird I would say—coming out of prison.” Chris, who is a Captain in The United States Air Force, has certainly accomplished much in life. Yet, the sense of community in CrossFit is so strong, that he regularly makes the trip from Colorado Springs to Fremont to workout with the RF2 guys. In addition, he coordinates the growing number of volunteers making regular trips to the newest fully-recognized CrossFit afliate, Redemption Road CrossFit 999. This is the second CrossFit box in CDOC. RF2 at Limon being the frst. A CrossFit box, in “The Box”, encouraging guys to step Michael Beebe RF2 / Box999 CF-L1 Certifed Trainer detailing the day’s event outside of the boxes they keep

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 10 4/2/2020 11:04:52 AM themselves in. certifed CrossFit Level 1 trainers. Fremont resident Michael Not only did they transport them Beebe gathered the entire group once, they brought them back into a large circle encompassing to Fremont that night, returning both tennis courts. There, he them to Limon the following day began the ofcial stretch and to complete the seminar. This warm-up for all 75 participants. is another example of the shift After a few minutes he brought happening in CDOC. Unheard them into a much tighter group of programs and events such as to apprise everyone about the podcasts, traveling plays, The diferent stations, in addition to University of Denver Prison Arts the day’s scoring system. The Initiative, and this newspaper— RF2 members were divided into are cropping up from one end of 10 teams. The volunteers were Colorado’s prison system to the encouraged to “shop around” other. to fnd the team they felt most Everyone at the event was comfortable with. Once again, thrilled to discover that these there was no hesitation. They men, (Beebe, Michael Clark, Aaron Brill RF2 Executive Board Member immediately began choppin’ it Evan Lawlor, Leroy Gatrell, and up with the RF2 guys. This was Glen Worley) had taken this giant another story for another day. Throughout the day’s competition, discussion, Major Caleb Moore— well-thought-out strategy. It step. Everyone later learned they This story showcases the instant participants from both sides of the Head of the Fremont Furniture encouraged the volunteers to fnd camaraderie developing between fence voiced their appreciation for Shop—contributed countless the RF2 guys they felt most at groups who were gearing up to this opportunity. It was evident hours strategizing to bring RF2 ease with. By not directing them There are so many compete against one another. As how thankful everyone was, as to Fremont. His open-minded to one team or the other—the they approached the courts, the they experienced life in this newly approach to the concept was earlier-developed connections, obstacles, barriers RF2 guys continued to explain the discovered way. refreshing. Major Stephanie and how life just works things and excuses for planners’ visions for this station. Following the completion of the Sandoval may have been the out—was allowed to fourish. why we do not A bullhorn from lower on Fremont event, everyone gathered most instrumental individual Once everyone had their teams the yard barked a countdown to congratulate each other on the when it came to the ultimate set, a healthy competitiveness engage in here. 3…2…1…GO! Instantly the day’s successes. Wherever you approval of RF2 at Fremont. began to take hold of the crowd. groups gathered at the handball looked, people were grouped As the Security Major, she had It was clear everyone was ready to courts began sprinting to the together recounting moments of the power to veto the program’s 3…2…1…GO! all had passed! It also seemed to west end of the soccer feld. triumph from the day. implementation at every turn. The strength of RF2’s motivate everyone to “get after” Simultaneously, two more groups Mike, who owns a CrossFit She did not veto it. Instead, she community arose again. The their own workout just that bit came bounding across the softball box in Centennial, revealed that actively engaged with trouble- organization of those who more. When this accomplishment outfeld and up The Hill from it was his frst time in prison. shooting the security concerns developed the event was obvious. was mentioned to Liz, another their previous station at the tennis He conveyed his thoughts on certain to arise as the program Every step was well-planned and of the volunteers—who happens courts. At that moment 10 groups what CrossFit can do for guys in came to fruition. In addition, easy to follow. More importantly, to be a doctor—she beamed were running from one station to prison? “I think movement cures Captain Quattlebaum played an the RF2 guys were highlighting with pride for these guys. “I’m the next. a lot of things for a lot of people… enormous role throughout the the best approaches to tackling so impressed they’ve done that.” Watching the groups arrive not just physically, but mentally establishment of RF2 at Fremont. some of Fremont unique obstacles She relayed that Chris Dong had from the tennis courts, it was more than anything” he said. In Her enthusiasm and dedication like “The Hill”. The teams all posted online to see if anybody in clear they were winded, but ready. addition, he ofered his view on has been crucial to RF2’s success. proceeded to their frst stations. the CrossFit community wanted As if mirroring the previous guys coming out of prison and It can be said with certainty that groups, the RF2 guys ofered their reaching out to him at his box. He without her guidance, this event insights regarding the task ahead. was one hundred percent in favor may not have taken place. Ofcer Witnessing the collaboration and of guys coming to his box to work Campbell and Ofcer Lessar mix of strategies come together out, and they could even apply for were also there that day, and have was inspiring. Another bullhorn a job as a trainer if they have the signifcantly supported RF2 from call sounded and the weights rose proper certifcations. its inception. All of Fremont’s from the deck. Teams of people Audrey—another frst-time Recreation and Programs who had only met 30 minutes volunteer—conveyed her personnel—with a special shout earlier instantly became one, thoughts on the event, “It was so out to Sergeants Simpson and striving to achieve the best number welcoming, and it was just a good Taylor—have contributed time, possible. The thrill of competition strong community—it was really positive suggestions, and uplifting was afoot. Once again, the sense nice to be here.” attitudes as RF2 has grown. of community within CrossFit Late in the afternoon, Sgt. Following the event at Fremont, was shining through. Another Brill encapsulated the day as while speaking with Trevor about bullhorn countdown echoed well as anyone “Like I said, I am the future of RF2 in CDOC, he across the yard, and all 10 groups humbled to be a part of all this. To explained that there are three were of again from one station to see these guys doing what they’re new afliates of RF2 in the works next. doing with the barriers in place, at the Arkansas Valley, Denver In the ensuing 35-40 minutes, but working to make themselves Women’s, and Sterling facilities. people reached deep into better—it makes me want to be a There has undeniably been a Chris Dong RF2 / Box999 afliate lead themselves to fnd another level, better person. Everybody comes “shift” within CDOC. RF2 is determined to propel their team up and thanks me for this—and at the leading-edge of this shift, There were total of fve stations to come and participate. She further up the standings. Hearing I’m repaid a hundred-fold.” quickly becoming one of the most scattered around the yard. Since further expressed her enthusiasm team members from such varied There are numerous Fremont participated-in programs inside there were 10 teams, this meant that about making the trip, “because walks of life—as they elevated, staf that were indispensable in Colorado’s prison system. One two teams would simultaneously CrossFit is all about community. cheered and urged each other to the creation and nurturing of that’s leading the way to a better compete at each station— And what better way than to bring succeed—was simply remarkable. RF2. Beginning with the frst path in life. dead-lifts on the handball courts; community to everyone? That’s medicine ball-throw at the west what CrossFit is all about, people end of the soccer feld; weighted and community and I love it.” she box step-over on the basketball said. At the end of the day she court; pull-ups on the Rogue recounted what a great workout Infnity Rig; and clean & jerk on she had. All the RF2 guys at the the tennis courts. It was apparent event were equally impressed to everyone that there was some by Liz, who would be taking her running between stations. More MDCF-L1 test that following work, more dedication, more weekend. She passed, of course! sweat… CrossFit! As the Fremont event Earlier in the week, fve continued, two groups made their residents traveled from the way to the handball courts. Many confnes of Fremont to Limon for residents scattered across the a CF-L1 seminar. Yes, you read CDOC archipelago and readers that correctly. CDOC transported of this piece, can attest to the these men to another facility fact that I “ran” various handball simply to participate in a seminar, courts—in numerous facilities— Liz RF2 / Box999 afliate volunteer with FCF residents as they attempted to become in the last three decades. But that’s

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 11 4/2/2020 11:04:55 AM Workout of the Month By BRANDON MOSS / FCF Restorative Justice This column will be a monthly workout routine that can be posted or “Challenged” by a member of our IR community (staf or resident). Each workout will have the ability to gather times and scores so that we can feature top contenders around the CDOC community in From the Inside upcoming issues. This is your “Workout of the Month.”

Look for the WOM emoji “Swolie,” and feel free to give responses, By ALAN YERKEY/ FCF upholding a strictly punitive attitude towards feedback, and opinions. Most important of all submit your crime. This does not excuse nor minimize the “challenges” on workouts and nutrition. Over the past year, there has been an increasing harms perpetrated, but recognizes and respects amount of talk surrounding the issues of restorative the needs of all the parties involved. justice and the normalization process. Many do On our part, there is a responsibility we hold to not see these as separate topics however, but rather our victims, to ourselves, and to society, which is view them as a symbolic whole where one cannot key in creating both a community and peace that exist in true efectiveness without the other. is benefcial to all. The frst step is in our acting What is restorative justice? Restorative justice with integrity in accepting responsibility to take is a framework of principles and values which upon ourselves whatever is necessary to help those one lives by and encourages within others in we have harmed. Here, we are no longer simply order to not simply build community, but to do an ofender guilty of a crime, but one part the so even from the darkest wounds sufered by it. responsible party to help bring in a form of resolve. It is as personal as it is often as inclusive of the For some, this is harder than others, especially in Here’s the frst challenge…Good Luck! environment in which it is found as it seeks to cases of extreme violence or murder. However, the create a safer, healthier community for all. It is not principles and the purpose sought after, under the a one cure solution, but an ever evolving resource auspice of restorative justice, and the tools learned no wait-no weight that acts as a guide in not simply fnding what and applied in seeking to rehabilitate and integrate works best in a given situation, but which leaves ourselves back into society, are a necessary step in BY RICHARD JOHNSON room for criticism and change for what doesn’t. fnding both meaning and purpose. In my own experience, restorative justice is These help to mend the wounds we are † 5 ROUNDS FOR TIME † 25 MINUTE TIME LIMIT † TOTAL NUMBER OF REPS COMPLETED IF NOT FINISHED WITHIN TIME LIMIT It is when they feel safe and are encouraged by being † REQUIRED EQUIPMENT (PLYO-BOX, PULL UP BAR, AB-MAT) treated with compassion and recognized as a human, † IF NO PLYO-BOX AVAILABLE - REPLACE WITH BURPEES † IF NO AB-MAT - REPLACE WITH in spite of their failings, that allows them to better work NORMAL SITUPS/CRUNCHES † 5 - PULL-UPS towards success in the change necessary. † 10 - BOX JUMPS (OR BURPEES) † 15 - HAND RELEASE PUSH-UPS † 20 - LUNGES † 25 - BODY SQUATS the cornerstone of what is meant as a responsible responsible for creating. † 30 - AB-MAT SITUPS (OR SITUPS/CRUNCHES) party to take accountability for my actions, as How this unites with the principles A COMPLETED ROUND = 105 TOTAL REPS! much that it is possible that I may do so. It is of normalization is in recognizing that seeking for my victims the justice that I would accountability, or the willingness one has to act seek for myself. This is not in speaking of either accountable for a wrong, best occurs when people vengeance or revenge; but that which is practical live in a supportive and normative environment. and achievable; in being of beneft for the good It is not when one is demoralized or demeaned, and welfare of the soul. It is meant as justice which being treated as anything less than human, that a Who is going to be this year’s softball champion on your yard? leads to resolution and healing, helping to enable person guilty of a crime or is that of an addict, is Who are your best handball players? some form of peace to be had for all. able to better themselves and take responsibility Who is lifting the most weight? In principle, restorative justice is empathy, for their actions. It is when they feel safe and are Who is the Pinochle champion? compassion, humility, understanding, support and encouraged by being treated with compassion and The Inside Report wants to know who holds the bragging rights at your love towards the hurt and sufering party; it is a recognized as a human, in spite of their failings, facility. We want every yard to rep their elite. hand of action in helping to heal the harms caused that allows them to better work towards success in Contact your Bureau Chief or facility Liaison to send us your stats... as defned by the sufering party themselves. the change necessary. names of champions, etc. This begins with four basic questions: Who My hope in this and the articles to follow is to Unless you ain’t proud of that title, can’t climb the leader’s board, or was hurt? What happened? What do they need? provide more than a technical viewpoint. It is to you’re old like Eric Davis... a.k.a. Mr. 50 & Over. And, who is responsible to meet this need? In give one that is more personal and impactful. My this way, restorative justice is a victim-driven intent is to equally speak to the concerns of the approach at justice; yet it neither ignores the needs masses and to spur us all into action in an open of the ofender (responsible party) nor that of the dialogue of fnding a healthier and more benefcial community at large. It focuses upon seeking the way in meeting the needs of crime victims and in healing of the harms to all, rather than simply rehabilitating the responsible party. Each month, the champs will be posted!

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 12 4/2/2020 11:04:58 AM Nothing is as Fast as A Blue/Green Book Review The Speed of Trust Connecting Across the Spectrum of Humanity by Stephen M.R. Covey Through Books

By MARK HORTON / FCF Trust is like the air we breathe. When it’s present, no one notices it. When it’s absent, everyone notices. —Warren I believe the connection that forms recommended a book for me to read and between two people over a book is the rapport developed between us (a DOC Bufett stronger than the divisions between them. resident and a DOC employee) over the I envision this column, A Blue/Green Book love of reading. Have you established a By JOSEPH TAYLOR MCGILL / FCF Review, to showcase the connection that connection with someone who isn’t in forms when two people share an affinity your circle over a book? We want to hear How incredible is it to feel trusted increase the trust that we have with for the same book. This was inspired from the both of you. Mark Horton, FCF, by someone that you look up to, or others, with the key of being consis- when Correctional Officer L. Lightfoot Assistant Managing Editor by a family member after a painful tent in our behaviors. The behaviors event that destroyed the relationship? that Covey chose — talk straight, What about the feeling of trust being demonstrate respect, right wrongs, A Court of Thorns and Roses developed between you and someone and listen frst, to list a few — are all Book 1 of 4 By Sarah J. Maas that you just met? Or even the feel- ones that we can change. Behaviors ing of being able to trust someone that, when changed or grown upon, else? The sad part is that many of us can produce an astonishing result in are so scared of trust that when the all of our relationships. Even in those opportunity to be trusted presents it- that have been damaged “beyond” self, we ruin it; or when we have the repair. opportunity to give trust to someone The last three waves, Organi- else, we hold it back in fear of being zational Trust, Market Trust, and let down or hurt. In “The Speed of Societal Trust, are about our align- Trust,” Stephen M.R. Covey shares ment, reputation, and contribution. easily relatable life experiences to These three are built of of the frst show that we, as ordinary people, two by using the tools that are given who make mistakes daily, can re- to maximize infuence. Showing that store, develop, and extend trust with who you are and what you do will those around us through The Five greatly infuence the community that Waves of Trust, starting from the in- you live in. side and working out, and that it can This book is a mandatory read be done faster than you think. for anybody that wants to develop, In the frst wave, Self Trust, we or needs to repair, a relationship, see how our four cores, integrity which means everybody. And while (Are you congruent?), intent (What it may take longer to restore trust in is your agenda?), capabilities (Are a broken relationship, nothing moves you relevant?), and results (What is as fast as the speed of trust. In the your track record?) lead to credibil- end, just remember that, “You can’t ity, or how much we trust ourselves talk yourself out of a problem you’ve and inspire trust in others. behaved yourself into.” ~Stephen R. Reviewed by Mark Horton, FCF The second wave, Relationship Covey (author of The 7- Habits of One day, a few months back after a shakedown, CO Lightfoot commented on a David Baldacci Trust, is about how to establish and Highly Efective People) book that I had in my cell. “Do you like Baldacci?”, he asked? “I actually haven’t read him before, a friend recommended him.” “Well if you like that one, check out his Will Robbie series. It starts with The Innocent. It is a really great series!” So I did, and once I started the series I couldn’t stop! Some time passed and then one night Mr. Lightfoot said, “If you liked that series, check out A The Inside Report encourAges residents, Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas.” So the next time I was at the library I looked it up. custody stAff, volunteers And others outside A story about magic, fairies, and magical lands? I was skeptical; I wasn’t a “fantasy” guy. I love the institution to suBmit Articles. Harry Potter, but that was as I was willing to sojourn in the world of wizards, warlocks, and such. SuBmissions will Become property of The Inside But Lightfoot’s frst recommendation was golden so I gave it a shot… Report. WOW! What a great series! Maas creates a fantastic (pun intended) world between humans and fairies (she spells it diferently). The main character leaves the human realm and journeys into the PleAse use the following criteriA when enemy territory of the fairy world to protect her family. Once in their world of magic and wonder, suBmitting: her strength of character transforms her. Transformed, she becomes a badass of epic proportions and the books portray her journey from Limit your Articles to 300 to 1500 words. a nobody to a somebody. There’s love and hate, marriage and war, good becomes bad and bad FeAtured Artist’s Bio’s keep word count 100 to becomes good. The twists and turns of the journey kept me reading, wanting to turn each page to 150 words. fnd out what happens next but hating that with each page turned, I was getting nearer to the end. This series opened up an entire new genre to me. If you are a fantasy fan, you’ll love it. If you were Articles will Be edited for content And length. like me, a fantasy skeptic, try it out, you might just discover a whole new world. The Inside Report will not Be used As A medium to file grievAnces. Reviewed by Correctional Ofcer L. Lightfoot, FCF We encourAge suBmitting Articles thAt Are Sarah takes you into a world of magic, mystery, love, and war. The story surrounds a young, newsworthy And encompAss issues thAt will human female by the name of Feyre [pronounced like fre], who is not well-educated but is versed hAve An impAct on the prison populAce. in hunting and survival skills. She will also do anything for her family. Feyre lives a lonely life as the sole provider for her family; this comes after their misfortune in which they went from a lavish Poems And Artwork (cArtoons And drAwings) lifestyle to barely getting by. Are welcomed. In the beginning, we fnd her hunting in the woods, in the dead of winter to ensure her family’s The Inside Report does not return originAl survival. After killing a wolf, and in a twist of fate, Feyre is taken from her home and tossed into works, pleAse contAct your fAcility LiAison a world we all wish existed but never dreamt that we would visit. But, after all, isn’t that one on the procedure to suBmit copies of originAl of the reasons why we read books? The story continues with Feyre trying and failing to accept works. her position in this magical world. There are a lot of colorful and scary characters. Feyre later discovers the secrets her companions and friends have been living with for so many years, and she may be the only one who can save them. She later puts her life on the line to save those she loves and cares about. This book grabs a hold of you and won’t let go, and you fnd yourself wanting more and more, and guess what? You get it. And yeah! There is also some romance. And if you thought A Court of Thorns and Roses was good, wait until you get your hands on the second book in the series, A Court of Mist and Fury. Feyre’s story continues in the most unpredictable way, prying into her fears, relationships, and battles, even all-out war. This is a book that I would defnitely read a second time.

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 13 4/2/2020 11:04:59 AM A 12th Chance Inspirational testimonies about Getting Started By CAMERON LUNDSTROM / FORMER RESIDENT the hard, beautiful, and emotional It was a bright morning as I stepped into the My next challenge: securing communications. experiences trying to rebuild a light. Outside the fence without shackles for Everything in this modern world revolves around the frst time in many years, I was both excited the cell phone, so I called upon our old friend marriage, and parent from within. and nervous. The drive through the canyon was Peter Kim. Even though he was busy at work in glorious, the company magnifcent. I truly felt like a conference meeting, he found the time for me. By DOUGLAS L. BAKER / FCF a new man ready to engage life. I think my parole He got me set up with a free smartphone and on ofcer felt the optimism and our frst meeting went a pre-pay plan with two months already paid. He Do you ever wish that when events, both good and bad, that well. I got all dialed in on my ISP, and what was also got me dialed in with a bus pass and connected you got to Denver prison transpire. I want to be an active to be expected of me while on it. I was also glad to the 72-hour fund from Doing His Time, where complex the ofcers would’ve husband and father albeit from to learn there was a weekly orientation available I obtained work boots and clothes. Peter also put provided you with a book titled, prison. for the reintegration programs now being ofered. me in contact with Scott Gutches who now works “The Dummies Guide to How to In the spirit of wishing there By then it was late afternoon in the at Mile High Workshop where those who face Sustain Your Marriage and be a was a book for dummies when Denver metro area and I was beginning to be employment difculties (like ex-cons) can get Father to Your Children While I came to prison, this column overwhelmed easily. You know how when you training and part-time employment while doing in Prison?” will feature my family and I give too many commands to a computer and it it. Blessings surround us friends, just stay open Inside would be chapters in our most recent endeavors. I runs real slow and herky-jerky? That’s how I felt. and honest and good things will follow. outlining, in detail, how to will captivate you with some of Even simple tasks became great adventures as I I spent Friday setting up my EBT (food stamps) survive life’s wonderfully, the history behind the situations tried to coordinate all the extra stimuli. Trying and Medicaid accounts. Both applications amazing, and pleasant that I write about. I will divulge to recall old substance abuse habits at the TASC had been submitted before I left the back gate. experiences in prison. Chapters how I helped in those situations, ofce was like wading through molasses. I spent As some of you know, I still have a battery of like: “How to work through and sometimes made them much of the rest of the day in the same mode but medical appointments and tests to do, but today the fnancial difculties when worse. The events will be real enjoyed every minute of it. I was home again after I am cancer-free and I am confdent that I won’t there is not enough money for and my reactions, parenting all these years and it was a full but comfortable be left hanging now that I’m a free man. I still the bills, and it’s all you fault and marriage skills, and the house. It was the simple things I found most have the same doctor at Rocky Mountain Cancer because you’re in prison”; or outcomes will be put out there pleasant, having family around me, good food, Center and my healthcare has not skipped a “Separation in your marriage, whether they worked or not. and a soft bed. beat, everyone involved is behind us. At every you’re not at home, in prison for In the end, I believe we want It turned out to just be a warm-up for what lay appointment I went to I was greeted with welcome many years, and she still has a the same thing — to be better ahead on day two. Having been given a direct home and smiles. life to live”; maybe one about husbands, wives, mothers, and order to report to Geo Inc. monitoring services Brothers, the truth is that I’ve been in and out “How to regain your children’s fathers. In my mind there is in downtown Denver, and with my brother at of prison four times in 25 years and it has never trust, and what to do when no better way, to grow as one work, it was up to me to brave the wonders of been like this before. Things are changing in you go from Dad, to your frst people than to take someone the Metro mass transit system alone. Within every way. All around me, in my relationships, name”; and fnally “How to who has a really amazing and only a few minutes, I felt like I was exploring in my professional and social interactions. The improve yourself, rebuild those unique situation and learn from the far reaches of another continent. Luckily, I diference really is me, I changed and when that family relationships, and then their rights and wrongs, ups met many fellow travelers and after I explained happened not only did my view of everyone else prove to your wife and kids that and downs, and talk about it. my situation they were helpful and polite, often change but their view of me as well. Even people you really have changed for the Events and situations like the turning into tour guides for all the new sights and I had never met before. It sounds so simple but we twelfth time.” time I was told that my oldest sounds downtown. Everything went of without a know it is not easy. But I promise you it is worth Unfortunately, they don’t son wants to become a rapper. hitch and I am now the proud owner of a global it. I committed early on this time and it has made do that, hence the reason I’ve How I had to look inside myself, positioning system, currently attached to my all the diference. The time to start is now, not created this monthly marriage go to therapy, and realize that ankle. when you are walking out the back gate. and parenting advice column this is his dream. I want to truly to help those in prison learn support his choices and not from my successes, and most immediately judge him. Today I importantly, my classic failures. immerse myself the best I can in I’ve been in prison for almost his dream. Choose Normal nine years and I can fnally see Then there’s the time my the light at the end of the tunnel, teenage daughter, with the help By BRADLEY ERICKSON / CTCF generally done subconsciously. DU PAI has created which is going home to my of the internet, tried to meet up another safe place to explore what we hide from family a changed man. I have with boys, and the conversation For those of us that were around in the 80s, most behind those walls: our vulnerability. DU PAI an amazingly beautiful wife of I had with her trying to parent of us can remember President Reagan’s famous reconnects us with areas of the brain that have 19 years, who has been beyond from prison; my middle boy’s phrase, telling Mikhail Gorbachev to “Tear down atrophied and gone numb by using the therapeutic understanding and patient. She trouble in school, getting this wall.” That wall, at the time, imprisoned eastern qualities of art. has blessed both of us with kicked out, not wanting to Germans from the west. Normalization, what a refreshing concept. I’ve six wonderful and unique, talk about it, and how I’m still If you think about it, we are living in the midst of personally been involved in many talks about children together. We are the wishing one day he will open a political movement here in CDOC. It’s safe to say what normalization means. It difers dramatically, Hispanic-American version of up to me; reigniting the fame that, with the change in the political climate, prison depending on who you talk to. I’ve heard ideas as the Brady Bunch. (If the Brady with my wife, rebuilding our reform is fnally here. Coming along with our new simple as owning a plant, wearing jeans, and being Bunch was ghetto, poor, Puerto relationship, and asking her to Executive Director, Dean Williams, are his great able to go to the chow hall in sweats all the way to Rican-American with attitudes, tear down the walls that she ideas and normalization concepts. We should also some as ambitious as having a job on the streets and lived in Florida, and are mildly created, asking her for another give some credit and consideration to a couple of returning to prison at night. We all have our own difcult at times, to say the chance, and also asking her for programs that are a part of this movement. perspective on the meaning of normal. least.) the most precious thing she has Restorative Justice is a community-based As for myself, if I were to ask for something from Now if I left you at that, on to ofer, her love and trust. program which, with hard work, has unimaginable DOC, it would be ways to normalize my family the surface, life for the most Life is not easy, and anyone gifts of insight to ofer. There are many diferent dynamic. However, after immersing myself in part would look like a blessing. who says it is should be evaluated facets of Restorative Justice. Considering that “hurt Restorative Justice and DU PAI, normalization has Normal, spicy, and pleasantly for potential neurological people, hurt people,” every facet focuses on healing an even deeper meaning. I’ve come to believe that entertaining. I’m not saying it’s damage to their prefrontal lobe, victims. By design, these circles of healing are a greater part of it is actually up to the individual not, but my family and our life, the part of the brain that deals formed and created to give us a safe place to relive and not DOC. Don’t get me wrong, wearing some is unique in and of itself. My with mature rational decision trauma from our past. This process allows us to jeans can go a long way. It’s a step toward normal, wife has advance stage multiple making. Marriage, parenting, better empathize and gain compassion for those we especially if that’s what normalization means to sclerosis. I want to do one of the children, fnances, trust, have harmed. Through gaining these life changing you. I’m just asking that you search even deeper. most difcult things in the world communication, love, intimacy, insights, it is the goal of the worldwide Restorative As President Reagan asked Gorbachev to “Tear and become a neurologist. Our heartache, disappointments, Justice community that you choose to not create any down this wall,” I’m asking you to tear down all children are a mix of boys and disagreements, and those hard more victims, therefore making the world a better the walls you’ve built around your heart. Choose to girls ranging from ages eight to to forget, horribly unfortunate place for us all. restore yourself to dignity by allowing yourself to eighteen, each with their own situations are all components The University of Denver Prison Arts Initiative is feel. Allow yourself pain. Allow yourself love. Allow unique personality. They all live of life and just have to be dealt also a community-based program. It has values that yourself happiness and sadness. Allow yourself 1,800-plus miles away. Oh, and with. I don’t believe now, if parallel Restorative Justice. I believe that taking to remember both the good and the bad. Most before I forget, yes their father, life were easy, I would cherish part in DU PAI would be a great way to prepare importantly, allow yourself forgiveness. I ask you me, is still in prison it as much as I do. I want life. yourself for the intense, hard work of Restorative all to make the choice to take back your birthright as Our lives still go on, and I I want my life, and I want a Justice. Most of us can agree that prison in itself a human being and restore your humanity. Let that want to be in theirs as much as twelfth chance. Come join me, is a traumatic experience. As a means to survival, be the thread that ties us all together. Together, we I can. I want to be involved in and together we will see how it humans unknowingly build walls around our can form the foundation for normalization with one all the amazing situations, and goes. hearts. We do this as a natural defense mechanism, common ingredient: our humanity.

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consecutive rides would be needed to out? Of course. But in this case, that’s like By BRANDON MOSS / FCF Looking at this make the ride less exciting for you, the getting on a roller coaster thinking about participant perspective would be your best how great it would be to go through the like it’s a game choice. triple corkscrew loop but never getting Burn Notice focuses on engaging The roller coaster metaphor can be very to it because you’re thrown out on the conversations. Ask us questions is a set up for helpful in managing day-to-day stress frst turn due to lack of a proper safety regarding burning topics and simply because of how it frames your harness. A cussing “tough guy” cop who have those questions answered stress. thinking. For instance, when it comes to writes reports and calls frst responders with blazing truth by the editorial dealing with a difcult person, rather than when convicts react in-kind is like a roller team and its affiliates. This thinking of it as a game that you will win coaster that sends people fying of it into platform is made for your voice to be heard in debate, feedback, or lose, thinking of it as a roller coaster a concrete wall before they get to the fun and statement form on topics in Mindful Practice portion of AVCF’s allows you to ask yourself, “Do I really part. and outside of the Department Health and Wellness Program. want to take this ride?” Taking on a purely From an observer’s point of view, you’ll of Corrections. Vent, speak, and Imagine you’re visiting an amusement observer’s perspective, as the difcult probably realize that’s not a ride you want follow the movement. This is your park with a large roller coaster. There are person continues being difcult, allows to take, not because you’re soft, or weak, Burn Notice. three ways you can experience the ride: you to ask, “How does this ride work?” or scared, but because it’s a crap ride that Staying on the ground, of to the side and, “Is this ride safe?” doesn’t deliver what it promises. We would like to hear your watching others ride it. Say there is some cop who talks crazy The roller coaster observer’s perspective opinion on the following Getting on the ride and paying attention to people in green, cussing and invading not only allows you to tell yourself, “I’m not topics: The Mask, My SOTMP Experience, Impeachment. to how it afects others and you. their space as he sends clear “I’m going taking this ride,” it enables you to tell anyone Feedback and opinions may be Getting on the ride and only paying to beat your ass” messages. But every trying to cable you into going of, “I’m not published in an upcoming issue. attention to how it afects you. time someone cusses back he writes taking that ride with you and I really ain’t These are examples of three diferent them up for verbal abuse and every time taking it for you.” Learning to intentionally Here’s the burn conversation starter perspectives on immediate experience. someone responds to this tough guy act shift to the observer’s perspective will help for Issue 1: Observer (just watching). saying, “Take of your badge,” he calls frst you learn to set boundaries with others Observer-participant (watching and responders. as well as in your own mind, boundaries A staff member wonders why riding). Looking at this like it’s a game is a that will help you prevent yourself from a resident has a tablet, video Participant (just riding). set up for stress. Why? Because you are becoming an observer-participant or games, ice cream, and cable TV. “You guys live better than I do No one perspective is superior to the automatically taking on the participant’s participant in experiences that can have a and you don’t even have to work others and most people switch from one perspective and from this you will instantly negative impact on you. Similarly, learning for it.” perspective to another throughout the day. think in terms of winning and losing. to intentionally shift perspectives will One of the points of mindfulness is to learn You’ll start strategizing how to proceed. allow you to fully enjoy moments you want Any takers? to intentionally shift between perspectives You’ll keep pushing to win. to share with others from the observer- so that you can use one that will work best On the other hand, if you view it as a participant perspective and those you want We anxiously await your voice on this topic. for you in any given situation. roller coaster, you can stand back, watch, to experience yourself from the participant Please refer to “Volume 1 Issue 1 - Burn For example, if your goal is to fgure out and get an idea of how it operates. perspective. Notice Reply” as the title of your response to how the roller coaster’s platform and rails Would it be fun to get into a cussing For more on the observer’s perspective, Brandon Moss 167442 at FCF. are constructed, it would be best to take the competition with a cop where you say exercises, and other mindful practices observer perspective. If you were asked to something so crazy about his mom that check out “In This Moment” by Kirk D. Not hot enough? Bring it-we want to know what’s lightin’ the fre on your yard. identify which turn is most likely to make it leaves him speechless and makes him Strosahl and Patricia J. Robinson or write you scream along with everyone else, the decide to never talk to you again? Sure. AVCF. Programs Major Stangier and observer-participant would be required. If Is it natural to respond to tough guy talk request a copy of the Health and Wellness you were asked to determine how many by entertaining ideas of calling the person Program workbook.

Cuckoo’s Nest

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does he say Martini or Scanlon? He looks me in the eye, welcomes me, and seems eager for me to see the play. It dawns on me that he’s not a medical person. Rather, he’s incarcerated at Sterling, as are the other white-coated greeters. They are giving us a whif of the roles they will soon perform. Next, I’m seated across from incarcerated women. The audience quiets, and we all watch a statuesque man. He proclaims his Native American heritage and speaks in a voice drenched in sad truths. Suddenly the action switches to the mundane, and the Native American Sterling residents performing at the Denver Women’s Correctional Facility. Courtesy of Stephanie Daniel / KUNC is sweeping the foor as orderlies mock him as “Chief Broom.” A new man saunters into the ward. He commands the of—“Awwwww,” they murmur. audience is silent. Can freedom beckon various checkpoints before electronic room-- grinning, gambling McMurphy! The year is 1959, and the “Sterling any one of the men who experience the gates leading to the lobby. Praise for the Extending a hand to each man in the ward, Ward” is a state-run mental institution. As horror in their ward? Chief Bromden? performance sounds like a melancholic he keeps grinning when one of the inmates Nurse Ratchet enunciates every vowel of As if hearing the felled McMurphy, he echo of something real. blurts out the F-word, and another stands the rules, it’s clear that she holds the keys describes him as BIG like his Papa, now The audience fles out, some to their motionless, his arms splayed as if nailed to freedom—or to electroshock treatment the Chief feels his own “bigness,” and cells, some to the parking lot to drive home. to a cross. or lobotomies. She brands McMurphy a strides toward it. In the moonlit darkness of the parking lot, DWCF women seated across from me manipulator even as she terrifes Billy After the production, during a I looked back at the glistening barbed wire seem to blend onto the stage which is a by threatening to tell “everything” to his Q&A, a DWCF woman asks the cast for atop the fences. A rabbit darted among few feet from their chairs. Among the mother if Billy doesn’t do what she wants suggestions for an upcoming production the shadows in the grass. So… “One Flew women sits the DWCF warden, and he him to do. of “A Christmas Carol.” Actor-to-actor, Over the Cuckoo’s Nest.” What now? grins as McMurphy announces that he’s The play is mesmerizing, like an advice is ofered: “Become your character; Prison still imprisons. Yet, for a few gonna be the “bull-goose looney” in the exhilarating breeze. But not everyone in open your heart; listen—really listen—to hours, performers and audience members ward. The women in the audience laugh the audience is captivated. Some frown your fellow players.” felt a refreshing, bracing breeze. Even now, at the slapstick humor of the madmen and or look away, a few whisper critiques and Now we all must return to “real life.” do we not breathe the same air? Inside and orderlies; at one point they sympathize jeer. Suddenly, tragedy and travesty stalk Those in prison stay in prison. Volunteers, out? What’s that sound? Everybody look with the stutterer Billy as he stalks onstage and bring relentless horror. The DOC staf, and other visitors cluster at what’s goin’ round! Can it be … freedom?

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 15 4/2/2020 11:05:00 AM what worked in those dialogues, able to truly see how they have VOD as well as what did not. Her impacted their victim/survivor. work with that organization was The role playing that takes place From page 1 instrumental in establishing the is where the ofender takes on the fundamental values of Colorado’s position of the victim/survivor. there it has spread throughout the VOD program, maintaining The ofender then works through U.S. with an estimated 400 VOD integrity, and creating a safe space diferent aspects of the impact and programs in existence today, and for the dialogue process. “Our ripple efect of violent crime in an has fourished in Europe with main intent is to help the victim/ attempt to gain a more meaningful similar numbers.† survivor(s) become the best understanding of what it is like to The VOD was created and version of themselves; to assist be hurt, and start to heal. established to help those who have them in moving forward and help The dialogue does not end after been impacted by violent crime, them in their healing journey,” the initial meeting. Post-dialogue both physically and mentally, stated Ms. Chambers. follow-up sessions are available to advance the process of healing. The VOD program is beautiful both parties, should they choose to For those who have harmed and and simplistic in concept. It engage in them. “Part of our intent stripped the life of innocence from focuses on the human aspect, as facilitators is to make sure humanity, it’s a chance to evolve, not the law that was broken. It everyone has a support network edify, and become accountable for provides the opportunity for the throughout the entire process,” their actions. victim/survivor of the crime to be stated Ms. Chambers. I ventured This was the grand vision for face-to-face with the perpetrator out to ask Alfredo Montano what a future program in the State of of the crime, allow them to talk advice he would ofer to future Colorado, put into action by the late with one another, and support the dialogue participants. These are Executive Director of Corrections, opportunity for healing to begin. his words: “To the ofenders, Mr. Tom Clements, then State Initiated in 2011, the VOD had you need to be open, honest, and House of Representatives Pete Lee its frst dialogue on May 23, 2012 accountable for what you’ve done. and his wife Lynn, and victim/ between Ms. Sharletta Evans and I went into the dialogue thinking survivor Ms. Sharletta Evans. In Raymond Johnson. Raymond I was not going to cry, and I’m the search for the right person to was convicted of murdering Ms. going to be tough. I was wrong. govern such a notable program, Evans’ son in 1995. Nineteen Alfred Montano / FCF Resident during interview with Monica Chambers To the victim/survivor, you should none were more qualifed than Ms. dialogues have been successfully know that there is no question that Monica Chambers, Coordinator completed since then. In February is of limits to any of us when it for the CDOC. Victim Services 2019, Alfred Montano participated there, Ms. Chambers contacts the comes to the VOD program.” Unit, VOD Program, and in a VOD process with a victim/ warden of the facility where the The program, unfortunately, D.O.C Representative for survivor. Alfred held, at gun point, “To the ofender is housed. “I only let the is not readily available to all the State Restorative Justice a retail store clerk while robbing warden know I’m coming, and ofenders. Currently, only violent Coordinating Council. In the money from the register. Since ofenders, why. This is so I can see if the crime ofenders are permitted coming months, Ms. Chambers 2012, there have been 18 VOD’s, ofender is genuine, remorseful to dialogue. Sexual assault and will be transitioning into a new with crimes ranging from murder you need for their actions, and if they are domestic violence cases are not position as the Restorative Justice to violent robberies. Most recently, amenable to the program.” Ms. being considered at this time, Coordinator for D.O.C. In July a dialogue was conducted at the La to be open, Chambers explains the intricacies based on resources. Other states of 2019, I sat down with Ms. Vista Women’s Facility in July of involved and the experiences the have dialogues with these types of Chambers, Raymond Johnson, this year. honest, and program has to ofer, the fact that it ofenses, and this is an avenue that the very frst VOD ofender The VOD is a one-time is voluntary, and the intentions of CDOC. is evaluating and possibly participant, and Alfred Montano, experience that comprises accountable the victim/survivor. At that point, implementing in the future. For a recent VOD ofender participant. numerous variables and trained facilitators assist her, the those ofenders who are not able Ms. Chambers’ background months of preparation. There for what victim/survivor, and the ofender to participate in the VOD program spans 22 plus years in CDOC, is no fnancial burden to the through the process of preparing and want to be a part of an amazing from that of a Corrections victim/survivor. Financials are you’ve for the dialogue. They are also experience, there are currently Ofcer, to Executive Ofces secured through Ms. Chambers’ present during the dialogue, and events and programs available to Administrator, to her newly position as the coordinator done...” conduct post-dialogue follow-ups. the population, under the umbrella appointed departmental position. for the program. Funding is The ofender and the victim/ of Restorative Justice. This She was the chairperson of arranged by Senator Pete Lee survivor are paired with one or includes a 12-week Restorative a national organization that and many others that occupied more facilitators, beginning a Justice Education group program consisted of individuals who have seats in the State Government ‘Long Bill’ that provides for journey of analyzing the layers of and an apology/accountability been dialoguing since the 1990s. at that time. It is obtained from the payment of expenses of emotions that will come up in the letter bank. Restorative Justice There, she developed a deeper the Restorative Justice Fund, the executive, legislative, and dialogue. They learn to navigate workshops will be developed and resolve and understanding of which in turn is funded by the judicial departments of the State through those emotions in a conducted after Ms. Chambers of Colorado, and of its agencies healthy way, helping both parties transitions into her new role. For and institutions. Ofenders are not communicate in an efective more information, or to submit able to initiate the dialogue. The manner. “It taught me how to be a proposal for your idea on how dialogue must be initiated by the empathic to individuals; how to be to help ofenders become more victim/survivor, whether they are sensitive to not just their feelings involved in the Restorative Justice the person harmed directly, or a but my feelings. You have to programs, contact Ms. Chambers secondary victim such as a family take full responsibility for your at CDOC. Headquarters in member. actions, and it helped me fnd the Colorado Springs. No postage Once a request has been made, reasons for my actions. It assisted is necessary. You can also have the process begins by evaluating me in correcting that behavior. It your case manager forward your what the victim/survivor hopes helped me convey to the survivors correspondence to Ms. Chambers. to gain from this experience. what happened, and why. Nobody Finally, I ended my visit with Ms. Chambers stated, “Working wants to admit they are an abuser, Monica Chambers asking her why with the victim/survivor and but once you take on that role and she cares and invests so much understanding their needs, go in to that mindset, you’re able of herself into the concept of meeting them where they are, to see it and explain it to them,” Restorative Justice. Ms. Chambers understanding what they need stated Raymond, when asked gave these lasting words of from this program and what their about the preparation sessions encouragement to end with: “I intentions are, is instrumental to and homework assignments think what I see in the philosophy having a successful dialogue.” She that are provided. Raymond of Restorative Justice is that it’s then continued by stating, “I also Johnson and Alfred Montano about the people and the humanity. conduct research on the ofender, both acknowledged that the That’s what it’s really about. If fnding out everything possible facilitators and the homework people become better individuals I can to help me efectively helped them with the process and I can witness that, help that, orchestrate the dialogue, using of analyzing and understanding and give someone healing from a variety of tools: Pre-Sentence their criminal behavior and the either direction… I want to do that, Investigation Reports (PSI), suppression of their emotions. and I think that has been a piece Institutional Behavioral Reports By engaging in activities like of the criminal justice system that (Write-Ups), and Ofender writing an apology letter and role has been lacking for a long time.” Chronology (Chrons).” From playing, both individuals were Raymond Johnson / JCAP participant during interview with Monica Chambers Editor’s Note: Restorative Justice is the concept which encompasses multiple programs designed to aid in the healing process for the victim / survivor; while drawing focus of the impact of the crime to the ofender. VOD is but one of those programs.

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out of who will be a success upon release. or other destructive lifestyles. The “carrot Quick to ofer sound advice, Willis Fit for Release Participants will accrue documented at the end of the stick” is freedom and demonstrated a proper full-seated squat track records as proven leaders capable of learning and skill sets to be happy, and the importance of CrossFit trainers From page 1 handling the rigors of the free world. productive members of society. getting the little things right. Willis can Erik Jensen, an articulate, intelligent, GO-MAP is still in the development walk comfortably into a room that would private facilities). To actually recognize and well-spoken man entered the CDOC at stage. One of the things being worked out make the average man quickly look for an savings, the system not only needs to age 17, a juvenile tried as an adult and given is how to get prisoners on board. The hook exit. However, in a prison environment, reduce the prison population, it must close life without parole for complicity to murder may be CrossFit. Willis’s bravado plays an integral role in prisons. Moreover, ending Colorado’s in Douglas County in 1998. In recent Erik Jensen, Brandin Kreuzer, and their recruiting objectives. reliance on private prison contracts years, changes in juvenile sentencing laws Jonathan Willis are all CrossFit Level 2 Willis remarks on CrossFit’s website: should be its focus. It is an insanely provides Jensen the opportunity to parole. trainers. Brandin Kreuzer is the president, “The ultimate purpose of CrossFit is to wasteful expenditure. Funds spent For the public this is good news: and Founder, of Redemption Road instill value to other human beings… when over-incarcerating long-term ofenders prisoners already with a statistical low-rate CrossFit at Limon Correctional Facility. someone instills value in themselves… could be utilized in more vital areas of of recidivism will enter back into society They have over 100 members which you’re part of the solution rather than the government, such as: K-12 education, road with a guarantee of sorts – a proven track includes prisoners, correctional staf, problem.” repair, and healthcare. record of achievement. and community volunteers. Redemption Brandin Kreuzer said, “Those ridiculous Why aren’t we paroling institutionally- Today, Jensen would easily blend into Road CrossFit is focused around CrossFit shows on television about prison are not compliant, long-term ofenders at frst any company’s boardroom, or could be training, membership, shared sufering, the whole story. What folks don’t see opportunity? a motivational speaker for a product or and teamwork. are the amazing transformations taking The answer to that question is service – essentially what he does. At Redemption Road Fitness, its place. Spending time around men in our complicated. Most of these ofenders Jensen said, “When designing this members use CrossFit to promote a healthy program absolutely changed my life. had serious ofenses, many of them program, Director Dean Williams, and environment that helps hold each other They mentored me. They are some of the violent, some of them heinous. Hence, Assistant Director Matthew Hansen wanted accountable and carry over to all aspects kindest, most honorable, and humble men their long sentences to begin with. Fear, us to ensure public safety and accountability, of their lives. to know. That’s why the mentorship part of warranted or not, plays into the decision above all else. And we’ve done just Kreuzer penned in the Redemption CrossFit and GO-MAP go hand-in-hand.” making process. Parole board members’ that. Individual freedoms are extended Road Fitness vision and mission statement, Willis, Jensen, and Kreuzer laid out personal whims, and victims’ unforgiving only after documented track records “We believe that healthy habits promote a under the stars in the garden of the recommendations often ofset otherwise worthy of such privilege are achieved. healthy life, and prison is an opportunity U.S. Military Veteran’s Unit at Sterling unblemished prison records and set back The program Graduate-Oriented Mentor for people who made signifcant mistakes Correctional Facility. This is something prisoners to serve more time. It defes logic Accountability Program (GO-MAP). to reform whose bad habits.” they haven’t done in over a decade. Kreuzer given the low-rate of recidivism and the GO-MAP is a mentor-led program for Brandin Kreuzer has served 11 years noted a meteor-shower; Jensen nibbled costs of incarceration. long-term ofenders. Its mission statement of a 50-year sentence for robbery and on some squash; Willis hashed over the Prison advocacy groups would argue asserts: GO-MAP is designed to make second-degree assault. He is currently day’s events. All three were savoring the that holding back deserving prisoners from world-changing leaders who make world- 30-years-old. Brandin is not only ft, he is moment at 10:30 pm, long past lock down parole is the point where justice served changing leaders. an excellent writer, leader, organizer, and a at Limon. becomes an injustice. But what if there GO-MAP induces safer prisons and bit of a philosopher. Kreuzer writes on CrossFit’s website: was a way to quantify that prisoners will communities, improves correctional staf/ Jonathan Willis, Brandin’s fellow “Human beings are created to be together, prosper and fourish upon release? This is inmate relations, reduces recidivism, and CrossFit Level 2 training partner, and the heart is not meant to be alone… where these traveling prisoners enter the drives down prison costs. One of the strong commented, “Brandin is our proposal Sometimes people believe that, as inmates, story. points of GO-MAP is how the program writer extraordinaire. If something we we should sit in a corner, stare at a wall, CDOC Director Dean Williams, integrates prisoners with the community propose gets shot-down, Brandin adjusts and have no liberties whatsoever…” Assistant Director Matthew Hansen, they will be paroling to prior to their the proposal until everyone is satisfed. He But that evening, these fallen men were and Pendulum Foundation Founder Curt release. Ideally, long-term ofenders would is very tenacious.” chasing stars and dreams. (Since this Jensen, whose son, Erik Jensen, is a lifer at have huge savings, a job, and a place to live Jonathan Willis is the soul of this trio article was written Erik Jensen has been Limon Correctional Facility, devised a pilot when they parole. on a mission. Willis has served 14 years of awarded clemency, and has left prison. program of measurable accountability and GO-MAP is a voluntary program with a life sentence for murder. He is devoted Jonathan Willis and Brandin Kreuzer have active progress that generates seasoned a hefty commitment. Participants must to a Christian lifestyle and helping other joined GO-MAP at SCF and have left leaders and productive members of choose self-improvement, healthy-living, prisoners. He is able to talk to hardened LCF.) society. The idea is to take the guess work and education over gangs, drugs, violence men and ofer them a viable alternative.

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 17 4/2/2020 11:05:01 AM The Comfort Zone By BRANDON MOSS / FCF

Prison can be looked at in many diferent ways, through a lot of diferent lens. Some people may have the “lock them up and throw away the key” opinion, where we as convicted felons, should rot away from the rest of society. Others may have a skewed idea of prison which is neither negative or positive, it’s just simply ignorant to the realities of how we as inmates actually live. Whether as a result of TV or internet, family ties to prisons, or no idea what to expect, there are a number of individuals who seem to have fgured that rehabilitation is the JCAP participants and instructors on meal day true path to restoration for us convicts. This is why the CDOC about adulthood? Are we truly the coming weeks. Now take that The reason I felt that this was come into your life after many is implementing programs that ready for that? The Juveniles same 80s movie school scene, so interesting was because this calendars and spend a few more allow residents of the state prison Convicted as Adults Program and integrate the technology of type of communication style teaching you things like time system to be reintegrated into was designed to help address today. There is an ofce extension allows for future curriculum to and money management, dating society with a second chance at that question. Juvenile residents, where the two Samsung Galaxy be implemented efectively. In and cooking skills. (See JCAP living a normal life in the free some sentenced to life without S6 phones are stored, and layman’s terms, use what works Timeline for a more in depth world. Growing up, I was never parole, have been given the music is played on surround and take everything else to the breakdown of what is taught and taught the basics of adulthood. I opportunity to become citizens sound speakers for all to enjoy. lab to dissect and improve it. learned) and all of a sudden they was left alone for days at home once again, and contribute to Opposite the ofce, is a wall If it continues to fail, abort. So are gone. Now what? with my younger siblings with society as adults. From the lined with driving simulators unselfsh of this group of men These teachers re-enact what little food, local channels and foundation stage in 2017, fve that allow you to practice and women to set aside what all of us were supposed to or did an imagination of what life was male, and two female inmates driving, (or wrecking if you’re they want as the “frst” group of learn from a parent! So I pose like outside my resident solitude. were originally selected to start me). In the back of the room participants and instead prepare the questions: How can I allow Several people in positions of the program. After three years, sit computers and an opening for the next group’s success. All an individual to take on this role authority can attest to the fact this frst group will be placed to the kitchen, equipped with the while, I felt a moment of déjà while still being in an inmate/ that they know someone or in front of the parole board with a full range stove/oven combo, vu come upon me as I noticed a staf relationship? How can I either themselves, have been a tools necessary to reenter into a double- decker sink, fully group of inmates cooking and hide human nature? How can part of a situation where they too the community after 20-plus stocked pantry, and a refrigerator speaking on the conversation at we just kick each other out of could have ended up in prison. years in prison. In a joint efort full of food aimed to please. You hand. “Where have I seen this our lives and not feel some way A 20-year-old, on a path to to stabilize the program with Ms. see, Fridays are important in before?” I asked myself. When about it? Easy. Because it is what destruction, surrounded by men Brubaker, JCAP Administrator, the JCAP community. On these it hit me, the symmetry was it is, right? who also grew up inside these Ms. Jenkins, JCAP Educator, un–recognized holidays, meals simple: a family at home after Meet Eric Davis, a 33-year-old walls. But what way did I grow and Mr. Seifkert, JCAP Social are prepared by the inmates and a long day, some watching TV, inmate, not by age but by length up? Personally, I have a high Worker, this curriculum is set served in a makeshift restaurant some cooking dinner, conversing of stay, and a JCAP participant school diploma, a job in CCI to be a success. Immersed into setting. The tables and chairs are on many topics. Whether you who also happens to be a fellow which has taught me various the scene of what I thought shifted and place-mats are set. grew up that way or watched journalist for The Inside Report. skills, and a background in the was the most important and Along with silverware, glasses, it on TV and movies, life has a He was happy to lead the way in army before my sentence. All awe-inspiring classroom setting, plates and bowls are simulated way of coming full circle, and at helping make this day a reality of these things, along with the I sat and watched as the students with their plastic counterparts that moment I saw a family, one for me and also made me feel maturity I have experienced in fled into their respective areas and the aroma of the day’s menu that genuinely cared about each very comfortable during my here, have equipped me to better and prepared for a day like no item flls the entire education other and that could be mirrored venture. We talked about his my chance for success upon other in prison. You would have building. on the outside. I immediately felt journey in doing time and the release; or so I thought. The thought the governor himself As I took my seat and hope for every man and woman people he has met, and I asked program that I was able to be a was going to sit in on this day, watched from the back of coming through the JCAP him about his thoughts on Ms. part of for a day quickly showed and even though I was there as the classroom, I noticed an program, and with that, a feeling Brubaker and the separation me that I may not be as ready as a rep for the newspaper, it was immediate open and honest of love for the teachers who that was about to take place I once believed I was. as unscripted as an episode of style of communication between cared enough to do what they do. between them after so many An interesting development in “Who’s Line Is It Anyway?” the teachers and students. I had many opportunities to years. He simply said “Well the CDOC has surfaced recently. Allow me to paint a picture: The topic of conversation was talk with a few people about honestly, I haven’t thought about Many who comes into prison imagine your favorite school evidence-based practices, and their relationships with the it much, but I am sure I will feel may not be ready to leave, even scene from an 80s movie and it was a bit intriguing because staf and about how I processed an emptiness when she is out of though their sentence says they splash every wall with an it showed how selfess and what I saw, and I was pleased my life.” Adam Drake is a quiet, are. Drug and alcohol, TC, 7 inspirational quote. The room giving everybody was. The root to know that I was not alone secluded young man, and JCAP Habits, and anger management is flled with tables and chairs of evidence-based practices in my thinking. Here’s my participant who praises Mr. helps us deal with the crimes we pointing to the front of the room, is a simple conversation. One thing: you come into prison as Seifkert’s approach on mental committed, and even helps us where one of the three staf stand that allows feedback from the a young man or woman, but in health. “He’s a therapist… fgure out things about ourselves in front of a white board flled students for teachers to better reality you are still a child in so we know that, so we try and that we didn’t know, but what with to-do’s and scheduling for understand the programs efects. many ways. A couple of people analyze him and help him to

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 18 4/2/2020 11:05:02 AM better understand us, while we really had real “legal” fun out safe, responsible and happy.” meal. Ok, so I just want to say, the world outside of these walls. better understand him…he’s there before we came to prison. “Education is what is most Andrew Salas, Nathan Lucero, Whether you are an inmate, staf like that uncle everyone has.” How about travel, mountain important to me and I want that and Robby Valenzuela are member, volunteer, supporter, His thoughts on Mr. Seifkert climbing, or amusement parks? for them.” amazing cooks. On the menu family member, parolee or even were as close as you were going Things like that are what Leroy At that very moment, Ms. was cream of mushroom soup, a politician, you are a part of the to get to the truth on a man who looks forward to once he can Brubaker and Mr. Seifkert grilled cheese and jalapeno CDOC web. In some way we are let very little interaction become get his feet wet and establish walked over and you could see sandwiches, and a side of corn connected, whether you like it or personal at frst, but with time, himself comfortably. Robby the resignation on their faces as on the cob. They did such an not. In order to make this easier many people in the program Valanzuela, also a JCAP they agreed with Ms. Jenkins’ amazing job and three bowls of on everyone involved, on behalf agreed that he was “warming member, had an interesting statements. “The fact of the soup later, I was a very happy of all residents, we are not just up” to them. Naturally, I assume. take on comfort as well. “The matter is, this is our job, and we man. Thanks again! a number or a job. In the same Davis and Drake have showed a thing I like most is how open are ok knowing that they will While eating, I was re-taught breath, I would like to challenge compassion and a thankfulness and easy it is to converse with have all of the tools for success.” basic manners like keeping my my fellow inmates to respect that for what these people have done the opposite sex. Decades pass “We are looking for ways that elbows of of the table and not mother, father, sister, brother, and because they are human, by and you expect me to get out we can check up on them in the speaking with my mouth full. son, or daughter who is a part can’t just throw them away and and act normal around people, future.” Ms. Brubaker had that It was a humbling experience to of the web, but not as an inmate. out of their lives as they move not be creepy around a woman to say when asked about how say the least. Without this class, We can co-exist, walking that forward in the program. So what after being around nothing but she felt about being separated those who are not provided the line together. Evidence-based is next? Eventually, nine of them men for 30 years, these teachers from her students. As you can opportunity to take this class will practice is clear cut and it works. who are in a deeper phase will help us with that. How many tell, there is a human aspect to surely be behind in some areas of Let’s follow the lead of the JCAP of you feel that? The realness their relationships with respect life. All three teachers agree that community. I want to thank of that statement is proven in to their jobs. Truth is, whether this class should be ofered to the Ms. Brubaker, Ms. Jenkins and the curriculum, showing that you leave here or not, there is masses and I encourage CDOC Mr. Seifkert for allowing me, “I feel like this relationships and marriage are an impression left with every to read this with intent to look on behalf of The Inside Report, a part of everyday life, and for relationship, including the ones into a class on “living life.” The to step into their bubble. Thank program should some of us, dating and sex will with staf. evidence will be in the success you and good luck to all of the prove to be challenging because As the interviews were of the frst JCAP participants JCAP participants now and be offered to we have been “out of the game” sporadically coming together, and the belief and tools instilled future. Shout out to the CDOC every single for so long. Good thing the I enjoyed a few selfes, in them by their three amazing for giving these guys a chance class teaches it. Gardenhire and some driving lessons and a teachers who I know root for and inspiring all of us to do be a person in prison, Valenzuela speak volumes on few educational courses on them and us inmates as a whole. better version of ourselves with comfort and how much easier it a Chromebook with “Mr. At the end of the day, I was each passing day. With that, I we cover will be because of these three CrossFit,” Trevor Jones. Before left with a few thoughts on want to leave every reader with everything teachers. I knew it, the food was ready, normalization and the push to this quote from Michael John Ms. Jenkins, the JCAP and I helped set the tables with live easier as a prison community, Bobak; “All progress takes place about educator, has a bubbly, joyful placemats and chairs for a big while always preparing to reenter outside the comfort zone.” personality mixed with a genuine becoming a love for her job and, in my man ...” opinion, a love for her students. We talked awhile about her short CDOC background that includes only the year she has been with leave to Four Mile and then to JCAP, and the few comments CMRC to see parole, but without she made were enough for me to these very important “parental understand the stance she takes fgures” or their ofcial titles, on life, forgiveness, and success. DOC-employed teachers. One of the questions I asked was Leroy Gardenhire, who was in relation to my curiosity on the recently sighted wearing virtual separation of CDOC employees reality goggles after 28 years in and the “parent fgure” they prison, said a lot about success. seem to resemble. She had He highlighted the elements this to say, “People don’t care of the curriculum and how it how much you know until they already has made him feel more know how much you care.” comfortable with going out The statement was so powerful into the world and becoming a because it was the truth. Why functional member of society. would I listen to someone who “I feel like this program should doesn’t care? I wouldn’t. With be ofered to every single person that, she followed it with a in prison, we cover everything confdent and matter of fact, “I about becoming a man who have belief, hope in these guys.” can provide for himself and his I then asked her to elaborate family, while maintaining a more on how that separates her job and still having good, legal roles and she responded, “Let me fun.” I thought the legal part was make this clear for the record, Brandon Moss enjoying grilled cheese and cream of mushroom soup made by JCAP participants funny because most of us never in this order, I want them to be

PHASE I JCAP TIMELINE Money, Taxes and Credit 3-6 Weeks

Diet, Factors in Food Choices, Consumer Decision Making 4-8 Weeks

Confict Management, Professional Communication, Positive 4-8 Weeks Relationships

Keyboarding, Virtual Reality, Driving Simulator, Chrome Books, 4 Weeks Computer Software Kitchen Skills, Foodborne Illness, Nutrition Labeling, Groceries 101 4 Weeks

PHASE II JCAP TIMELINE

Business Ethics, Employee Benefts, Financial Literacy 3-6 Weeks

Family Life Cycle, Health, Beauty of Marriage and Dating, Relationship 4-8 Weeks Management Technology In Depth, Microsoft Ofce, Presentation Strategies 4-8 Weeks

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TheInsideReport-vol1_issue1 New2.indd 19 4/2/2020 11:05:03 AM FEATURED ARTIST Jerry Martinez / FMCC

Artist Bio:

How old are you? Age: 40

Where did you grow up? I was born and raised in Denver, Colorado.

How long have you been creating art? From the tme I was old enough to hold a pencil in my hand, I was scribbling on paper. I would go around my house and draw everything I saw. Then I discovered comic books and that changed my outlook on art. It opened a diferent world for me. One where the impossible was possible. From those early days I was being creatve; was it truly art? That is up for speculaton. By the tme I was 19–20 years old, I was creatng what most people would consider art. But for me it was just an evoluton into a diferent medium, oil paintng. I have worked in many mediums, but oils remain my number one love of the art world.

Artist Statement: What inspired these pieces? For me, it is like the air we breathe. I can’t live without it, but it will go on long afer I am gone. Art is creaton. I have given life to these paintngs and drawings with the hope that when released into the wild, someone will fnd them and see something in them and love them as much as I do.

What techniques did you use? I am a self-taught artst. But I tend to work in a slight impressionistc style. I want to give a dream-like quality. I remember when I was younger, I always wanted to draw and paint photo realistc. But over the years I learned that a paintng needs to fow, from tght to loose. For me, this gives the art life.

Any tips you’d like to share with our readers? The frst is, never a day without a line. Draw daily, even if it’s only a line. The second is, work on the foundaton of art. If you get the foundaton down, you can build a masterpiece.

In what ways, if any, is creating art soothing for you? The creation of art is life.

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