History As an Anecdote
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eric B shumwayShlimway in the first place thejournalthebhe journal is a product of a literary adolescent mormon pacific historical society conference talk saturday april 10 1982 who wrote most of it after he had been totally immersed in the tongan culture thinking and speaking only tongan for over two years the document is full HISTORY AS AN ANECDOTE of secondsecondlanguagelanguage interference what offends is more a lack of rhetorical my purpose today is toco discuss some experiences and events during aymy restraint than of truthful intent there is the twisted grammar the bloated mission in tonga 195919621959 1962 which from the perspective now of two decades style in which every noun is accompanied by a heavy adjective the unidimen- constituted certain rights of passage in my growth as a human being and a sional point of view in which the missionary seems to be the chief figure latterlatterdayday saint my material is taken largely from my missimissionaryonaryconary journal1 in a drama whose other characters stand vaguely in the wings coming to life typically what happened to me in tonga by way of an elevation of consciousness only when his oversized shadow passes over them there is too much interpreting and spiritual maturity is duplicated repeatedly in every mission of the church and not enough telling the irritating author intrusion on the subject the but perhaps there are some insights and aberrations which may interest a victimizing of true poignancy by overwrought description overlooking these church history in the pacific buff and which may offer up a footnote here matters of style one can find in the journal the cumulative testimony of or an anecdote there to validate a larger more compelling story and deep gratitude for the sustaining force of a heavenly fathers love at the outset I1 want to comment briefly 0onn my lovehatelove hate relationship there is proof that the weak things of god are made useful for his purposes with my missionary journal june 22 of this year marks the 20th anniversary and are blessed of my return from my mission to the tongan islands on three or four occasions my arrival in tonga was a rude and painful awakening to thespecialtheehe special as I1 recall during these two decades I1 have opened my journal each time requirements of a missionary in the tongan mission in myraymay minds eye tonga I1 have hastily closed the journal with feelings of chagrin and embarrassment wastwestwas someexoticsome exotic paradise inhabited by a sweet simple people As the old these negative feelings I1 suspect had something to do with my formal education passenger boat the tafuatofua glided cautiously toward the nukualofanukulalofa wharf in english literature and language since my mission I1 totemote my first response to the tongan islands 1 I thrill at the beauty with the opportunity to address this conference on the subject of my of this place we are passing many small islands close enough to see the missionary experiences I1 determined to read the journal straight through beaches and the palm trees silhouetted against the morning sky two or three without stopping to be critical or derogatoryderagatory I1 determined to suppress sailboats are scurrying afar to some island in ththecheechainchainchein 11 what peace any inclination to find fault with the writing and hold a straight face at little what serenity and what a change of point of view as just a few minutes later juvenile attempts to fathom the obvious this exercise has been valuable elder helquist my traveling companion and I1 were being jostled down the for I1 believe I1 have discovered the real value of this record as well as gangplank into a dock milling with a dark gibberishgibberishspeakingspeaking multitude the reasons why my critical sensibilities have been offended by it the suffocating stench of the wharf and the seeming indifference of the dock 4 3 of culturalculturalshockshock identitycrisisidentity crisis insufferable homesickness and despair workers the overwhelming humidity and a total communicabilitynoncommunicabilitynonnoncommunicabi lityilcy of the my emotional survival seemed so tentative that I1 had to be on my guard constantly tongan language made a deep and frightening impression on me to avoid reminders of how far away from home I1 was even the sight of a it was several minutes before we noticed a short pudgy manroanmoan in his early church magazine a be honest with yourself poster a church hewsnews could conjure 7037019dressed7019 dressed meticulously in white trousers and a greycoatgraycoatgrey coat dark glasses up feelings of hopelessness swinging an umbrella walking toward us As I1 recall president coombs was the tongans were very friendly but in my condition their friendship more business than warmth he announced to elder helquist that he would was frequently misinterpreted I1 was invited to a luau in HaahaiaheiahaapulouhalapulouHalahea pulou translated be the mission secretary for his entire mission it was a terrible disappoint clan of the shroud which featured bats baked whole in coconut milk and ment to elder helquist I1 was somewhat disappointed in not being given that wrapped in taro leaf I1 shall never forget opening the little bundle and assignment myself as palpable fears began to come over me as I1 contemplated staring at the grinning skull of a large bat known as the flying fox endless proselyting in such a primitive place my fears were exacerbateexacerbatedd by president streams of visitors came in unannounced to our missionary quarters of course coombs blunt announcement to me elder shumway you will be going out to they would want to practice their english it was several months before the bush early tomorrow you will be stationed out at mua and will be in I1 realized the tongans felt that the cure for homesickness is to be constantly charge at first of eight tongan missionaries dont stick your head in liahonaliaLlahona in the presence of friends for them there is no comfort in privacy many and dont you come down here toco nukualofanukulalofa until you can speak tongan weve of these visitors were tongans who had finished their ownmissionsown missions they not got room for you here were full of stories of the heroic exploits of former missionaries from zion no suddenly the hostility of the environment was exceededbyexceedexceedededbyby the hostility one will ever match john groberg or ah if only you could speak tongan of the mission president and there was no comfort in his declaration that likeelderlikeilke eldereider banks this constant praising of previous elders was hardly there were no tongan missionary lessons and no materials for learning the the appropriate antidote for a despairing elder consumed by the fear of failure language except the bible and the book of mormon I1 felt the first wave I1 attended my first public meeting with the saints two days after I1 of intense homesickness very similar to that disease elder W 0 faser described arrived As I1 sat in theche meeting looking at them they looking at me I1 in his journal after he arrived in tonga in 1906 when you get that kind asked myself why do they stare at me so without even smiling how will of homesickness you wish your mother hadnt had you I1 learn this nestmost impossible language and teach these stupid staring people the november ath9th entry in the journal concluded with tommorowTommorow I1 hit and missionaries I1 can see no romantic tropical beauty at all in my situa- the bush with my native companion vakapuna the language seems impossible tion ironically as I1 wept on the standfromstand from despair the people watching and never have I1 felt more need for the lord the next journal entry was weme wept because as several commented later they saw that I1 was touched made over three months later february 25 1960 by the spirit of the meeting the experiences of the first fburf6urebur weeks were described in the journal to make matters worse I1 was plagued by the insufferable smell of body toward the close of niymy mission in march 1962 they are full of typical instances 5 6 on legs and arms and by the constant oil which tonpanstongans apply liberally their little sermon far exceededmyexceedexceedededmymy deserts but ffromraftromm then on the tongan people make capa the whole village was one pounding of the mulberrymalberry bark to tapa cloth never failedf A lied to reward with praise and expressions of appreciation every made my for days I1 heard fn my huge percussion section that ears ring it stumbling efeffortfortforc I1 made to speak the language I1 gave that samsemsame talk every sleep sunday and many times in between adding a line here and a new exarexprexpressionessionassion tongan people were immensely friendly again to their creditcredic the there my spirit fed anon the compliments blaueoiaueolaue okulokucoku vave ene poto the me from beginning but they had no they hadahad a great dealofdealoedealdeai of love for the lesleaiea fakaaaka tonga my how fast he is learning to speak tongan unfortunately would make no relationship I1 was thether one pity they concessions in our whatwaswhalwhat was nourishing food to my wounded spirit in the beginning of my mission who ce behavior on my part was not tolerated had to change for them etaincertain became on occasion a dangerous indulgence of my vanity later on example the time I1 to wash mmy own clothes outside of our for first tried the triumphant little talk anon the first sunday did not cure my depression quarters I1 received a sharp reprimand from ana malohlfooumalohifolou the wife of the what