The Heat of It All: a Collection of Fiction, Poetry, and Nonfiction Shane David Griffin Iowa State University
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Iowa State University Capstones, Theses and Graduate Theses and Dissertations Dissertations 2018 The heat of it all: A collection of fiction, poetry, and nonfiction Shane David Griffin Iowa State University Follow this and additional works at: https://lib.dr.iastate.edu/etd Part of the Creative Writing Commons Recommended Citation Griffin,h S ane David, "The heat of it all: A collection of fiction, poetry, and nonfiction" (2018). Graduate Theses and Dissertations. 16812. https://lib.dr.iastate.edu/etd/16812 This Thesis is brought to you for free and open access by the Iowa State University Capstones, Theses and Dissertations at Iowa State University Digital Repository. It has been accepted for inclusion in Graduate Theses and Dissertations by an authorized administrator of Iowa State University Digital Repository. For more information, please contact [email protected]. The heat of it all: A collection of fiction, poetry, and nonfiction by Shane Griffin A thesis submitted to the graduate faculty in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the degree of MASTER OF FINE ARTS Major: Creative Writing and Environment Program of Study Committee: K. L. Cook, Major Professor Sebastian Braun Matthew Sivils David Zimmerman The student author, whose presentation of the scholarship herein was approved by the program of study committee, is solely responsible for the content of this thesis. The Graduate College will ensure this thesis is globally accessible and will not permit alterations after a degree is conferred. Iowa State University Ames, Iowa 2018 Copyright © Shane Griffin, 2018. All rights reserved. ii DEDICATION I would like to dedicate this thesis to my wife Stephanie and my daughters, Alexandra, Catherine, and Emma without whose support I would not have been able to complete this work. I would like to thank the many other people who have influenced my work and have been there with me along the way. There are too many of you to mention here. You are not forgotten. And to the many soldiers, sailors, and Marines still fighting battles on the ground, at home, and in your minds and hearts: Take one day at a time. Every day is worth living. Trust me. iii TABLE OF CONTENTS Page ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS ........................................................................................ v ABSTRACT .............................................................................................................. vii INTRODUCTION: THE HEAT OF IT ALL ............................................................. 1 PART I: BURN ........................................................................................................... 1 Fire ......................................................................................................................... 2 The Heat of it All ................................................................................................. 12 Eclipse ................................................................................................................. 14 The Burning ......................................................................................................... 15 Obtunded ............................................................................................................. 27 My Alpha ............................................................................................................. 29 Questions of Life and Light ................................................................................. 33 PART II: HEAT ........................................................................................................ 34 At the Recruiter’s Office ..................................................................................... 35 39,999 .................................................................................................................. 36 Rumors of Saddam .............................................................................................. 44 ROE ..................................................................................................................... 45 Chappell, Nebraska .............................................................................................. 46 Juba ...................................................................................................................... 65 Abandoned Kiddie Pool ....................................................................................... 66 The Ghost of Baghdad ......................................................................................... 67 PART III: SMOLDER .............................................................................................. 68 The Divide ........................................................................................................... 69 Anhydrous Ammonia .......................................................................................... 81 Abandoned ........................................................................................................... 92 Trespassing in Rural Iowa ................................................................................... 93 Forever Young Tattoo ......................................................................................... 96 After Her Funeral ................................................................................................. 97 iv PART IV: ASH ......................................................................................................... 98 Alberta Clipper, 1982 .......................................................................................... 99 Cumulonimbus ................................................................................................... 119 Killer Foot .......................................................................................................... 120 Red Beta ............................................................................................................ 121 Dandelions ......................................................................................................... 124 Silence ............................................................................................................... 135 Memorial Day Parade, 2006 .............................................................................. 136 Accidental American ......................................................................................... 137 BIBLIOGRAPHY ................................................................................................... 151 v ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS I would like to thank the entire Iowa State University of Master of Fine Arts in Creative Writing and Environment, as well as the English Department for taking a chance on accepting me into the program and your unending support and dedication to me and to every student. You are all amazing. I especially want to thank my major professor, Kenny Cook. Your guidance and support has helped me to develop into the writer I am today. In addition, I would like to thank my committee members, Dr. Sebastian Braun, Dr. Matthew Sivils, and Professor David Zimmerman for their guidance and support. My deepest gratitude to the following contests and publications for which my work has appeared or is forthcoming: “Memorial Day Parade, 2006.” George Mason University’s 2017 Heroes’ Voices National Poetry Contest. Fourth place award. “Trespassing in Rural Iowa.” Hippocampus Magazine. September 2017 “Abandoned Kiddie Pool.” Baltimore Review. Fall 2017. “Red Beta.” Sky Island Journal. Issue 3, 2018. “39,999.” After Happy Hour Review. May 2018. “At the Recruiter’s Office.” Collateral. Issue 3.1, 2018. “At the Recruiter’s Office.” Volume 29, 2018. “The Heat of it All.” Sky Island Journal. Issue 4, Spring 2018. “Dandelions.” Merrimack Review. Issue VIV, Spring 2018. vi “Accidental American.” Proud to Be: Writing by American Warriors. Volume 7, November 1, 2018. “Anhydrous Ammonia.” Santa Clara Review. Forthcoming Spring 2019 “Forever Young Tattoo.” Badlands Literary Journal. Forthcoming Spring 2019. vii ABSTRACT The Heat of it All is a thematically organized collection of fiction, nonfiction, and poetry, drawing upon the author’s experiences as a war combatant, firefighter/paramedic, and farmer, as well as a son, husband, father, and grandfather. The book examines emotional, ethical, and metaphorical heat: the fires of temptation, desire and fear, the ongoing chemical burn of trauma and its aftermath, and the healing warmth of family love. In particular, the author explores and challenges traditional notions of masculinity and heroism, inspired not only by his own ambivalence about these notions and his experiences in traditionally heroic occupations, but also by classic and contemporary writers, who use their writing to not just record but investigate their own and their characters’ deep ambivalence about what it means to live a life of duty and service to others, what it means to be a contemporary American male. INTRODUCTION: THE HEAT OF IT ALL The Heat of it All is a thematically organized collection of my fiction, nonfiction, and poetry, written during my time in the MFA Program in Creative Writing and Environment at Iowa State University. The book draws upon my experiences as a war combatant, firefighter/paramedic, and farmer, as well as a son, husband, father, and now grandfather. In these stories, poems, and essays, I investigate the literal heat of battle (I served two tours of duty as a Marine and solider in Iraq and Kuwait) and fighting fires (I have been