PRO SE IN PO O R TA STE
Editors
Ben John Smith ~ Arthur Graham Copyright © 2017 by Horror Sleaze Trash ISB N -13: 978-1975745523 IS B N -1 0 : 19 7 5 7 4 5 5 2 3 /is book is a work of 3ction. Names, characters, business organizations, places, events, and incidents either are the product of the authors’ im agination or are used 3ctitiously. /e use of nam es of actual persons (living or dead), places, and characters is incidental to the purposes of the plot, and is not intended to change the entirely 3c tio n a l c h a ra c te r o f th e w o rk . No part of this work may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system , o r tran sm itted b y an y m ean s w ith o u t the w ritten perm ission of the authors or publisher, with the exception of short excerpts used in articles and critical review s.
Foreword
HST isn’t run w ith any real sense of consistency or urgency. O r professionalism for that fucking m atter. It’s run from the oddity-crow ded spare room in a house in W estmeadow s, M elbourne. It’s ran w ith a scream ing one year old running dow n the hallw ay banging on a pot lid with a wooden spoon. It’s ran in conjunction w ith a full-tim e job as a sandblaster w ith a m ortgage. It’s patched together w ith saliva and claret. It’s ran b y all th e afo rem en tio n ed th in g s an d th en it’s not. /e reasons why HST has had its longevity, credibility, and staunch loyal supporters is because of th e q u ality o f its co n trib u to rs. It’s really fu eled b y th e read ers an d th e w riters o f th e literary frin g e. It’s said often am ong w anky com m unity types that a team is like “fam ily.” H ST is a fam ily, but its parents are divorced, none of the kids talk to each other, its aunties and uncles are cult leaders living in bunkers wearing tinfoil hats, and the cousins are all queers, queens, and com m unists. It’s a b ro k en fam ily – b u t it su re ro ck s a m ean fu ck in g online zine, am irite? HST is a pure facilitation of freedom. Write what you w ant, how you w ant – and H ST w ill put that motherfuckin’ sh it o u t th e re . I’ve had people contact m e saying, “thanks for accepting m y w ork, it m eans a great deal to m e,” and I appreciate that kind of feedback, but... are you fu ck in g k id d in g m e? /anks for fucking sending me this shit! /anks for thinking highly enough of our little fucking broken fam ily to w ant your shit on our site! D on ’t th an k u s, the pleasure is O U R S. T oo m any w ebsites and publication com panies got the w hole fucking ballgam e wrong if you’re ask in g m e. I d o n ’t see how anyone has the right to tell anyone th eir w o rk isn ’t w o rth y o f p u b licatio n , isn ’t w o rth y o f having an audience. FU C K TH E M PE O PLE . Make the press work for you. YOU are the only fucking reason our press survives. SPIT AND BLEED INTO TH E FUCKING KEYBOARD. H ST IS NOT A PLACE FOR TH E FUCKING FAINT OF HEART, AND IT NEVER WILL BE. So, w ith all m y bursting black heart – m y m ost sin cerest ad m iratio n , ap p reciatio n , an d gratitu d e to all th e w o n d erfu l w riters w h o h ave sen t in th eir w o rk over the years. K eep it com ing thick and fast; you guys are fucking rock and roll.
Editor in Unison, Ben John Smith In trod u ction
When I 3rst started editingHST Quarterly, o u r ongoing poetry zine, I rem em ber thinking, “M an, wouldn’t it b e n ice if w e co u ld d o th e sam e sh it w ith all the prose that’s been posted over the years?” B ut th e task alw ays seem ed to o d au n tin g ; th ere w as sim p ly to o m u ch of it to w ad e th ro u g h . Now, after months and months of reading and editing, narrow ing dow n m y selections from nearly ONE THOUSAND PAGES worth of material, I can see w h y I w as initially put oM by the task. S till, looking back, I’m glad I saw things through to fru itio n , as th is is o n e h ell o f a co llectio n yo u are n o w holding in your hands. To echo Ben’s sentiments, HST has always been and will always be for the mis3ts. It has always been a place for the w riters and the stories shunned by publishers of the bland and inoMensive. Just because your w ork doesn’t sell in airports or big-box stores, or just because it gets rejected by “serious” journals or out3ts in desperate need of their ad revenue, that doesn’t m ean it isn’t any good, or that there’s no audience for it out there. All it means is that you need to start sending more of your shit our w ay, because w e fucking love it. /ere’s a lot of good variety to be found between these covers, including various shades or horror, sleaze, an d trash , b u t as p ro m ised b y th e su b title, I’d say it all falls u n d er th e b ro ad er categ o ry o f “P ro se in Poor Taste”. Seven years worth of it, to boot. In m ost cases, I’ve tried to keep m y edits to a minimum. Should you happen to be a contributor and should you happen to disagree, I’ll either buy you a drink or let you punch m e in the face if w e ever ch ance to m eet, perh aps even both if I think you’re sexy oM-p ap er as w ell. Enjoy!
Editor in Unison, Arthur Graham
Acknowledgements
“S u p erm an ” o rig in a lly p u b lish e d b y B a re B a c k P re ss
“G o t M e a D ate w ith an U p to w n G irl” origin ally published by /ree M inute Plastic
“C h arlie’s C hunky M unching M eat” o rig in a lly published by Grivante Press
“/e Case of the Already-Solved Case” originally published by Bizarro Central
All others, to the best of the editors’ k n o w le d g e , originally published by H orror Sleaze Trash
Table of Contents
Slow est Drink at the Saddest Bar Steven Storrie 1
An Observational Piece of Flash Fiction I Will Probably Never Publish JeM O ’Brien 8
Buttons Alfonso Mango 10
A Boykiss Drip Misty Rampart 12
Turkey Buzzards Matthew Borczon 13 Dan Tells Me a Story at 4 a.m. While We Wait for Our Cabs Mather Schneider 16
Tarzan and Jane Discuss Identity Politics Melanie Brown 19
My /erapist Brian Rosenberger 20
Skywalker Steven Eggleton 22
I A w o ke W ith M y F ace in th e D irt Ju d so n M ich ael A g la 27
Family AMairs Ben John Smith 29
Mother’s Day Arthur Graham 34 Do Not Feed the Animals Paul Heatley 37
Motherfucking Zombies Jim m y B eard 40
Skin Flakes Tami Richardson 44
Superhero W ith a Bad Back Adam Hazell 46
All Rotten Apple Pie and Diseased Howdy Doody Kurt Eisenlohr 48
5/1/2017 Elliot Ross 53
Why Not? Sam J. Drane 55 Charley Matt Hutchison 58
Universal /emes Anyone Can Relate To Chelsea Martin 62
/e Owner’s R o o m Andrew Hilbert 64
Pretty Girls Mathias Nelson 72
Sexless Relationship Jen n y C atlin 77
Crimson & Chrome A. Lynn Blumer 79
No Contest Leo X. Robertson 87 Euphemistic Solipsistic Arthur Graham 88
/e Wasteland Motel Bud Smith 91
Screw Job Jo sep h F arley 99
/e Delivery Jo h n D . R o b in so n 107
Fairytales for Hard Men Tom Leins 111
Superman Karina Bush 116
Retreat Ben John Smith 118 Got Me a Date With an Uptown Girl Douglas Hackle 120
My Kind Of Justice Cal Marcius 127
Charlie’s Chunky Munching Meat Stephen M cQ uiggan 130
Tits, Cheapskates & Some Very Bad Poems Brenton Booth 138
Casual Sex At Narcotics Anonymous Michael Marrotti 143
Just M e and M y M icropenis Frank Greasestain 152
In ap p ro p riate R elation sh ip Robert Vogt 157 /e Metaphor of Poundcake Jo n K o n rath 162
/e Ugly Duckling (I’m a Fucking Swan) Brendon Lampe 173
Love At First Sight Tyler Gates 176
Excuse Me, But Did You Know Your Boobs are Made of Magic? Shawn Berman 178
/e Wilted Hipster Michael Marrotti 184
Household /ings David P. Bates 188
Im p o rted from A d d is A b ab a Ben Newell 191 /ere are No More New Art Forms, /ere are No More Summer Lifeguard Jobs Steven Storrie 198
/e Great Zima Heist Arthur Graham 203
/e Midnight Call Paul Heatley 205
Grimbolatron Ju stin G rim b o l 215
Adult Movies & /e Atlantic Monthly Brenton Booth 218
/ey All Want to Piss on You Fiona Helmsley 222
Som ething About Sunshine Ben John Smith 225 Daddy, Daddy, Candy Eater Tim Tobin 227
/e Lucky Ones Christine Stoddard 229
Requiem for an Ass Zoltan Komor 232
Apt. C Arthur Graham 235
/e Woman Who Loved Floppy Hats Jo h n D . R o b in so n 237
Condom-Leeches Zoltan Komor 243
It C am e F rom th e G arage Ken Alexopoulos 246 A Man of the Cloth Steve Slavin 248
Bring Me the Head of F.W. Murnau Alex S. Johnson 252
It’s A lrigh t Arthur Graham 257
State of the Union Ted DeCalb and Leonard Cockshut 259
/e Last Shot Steven Storrie 264
/e Perfect Neighbor Kurt Nimmo 266
Shanty W hore J.M . M u rp h y 269 Falling Down Drunk at the Poetry On Fire Detroit Gig Kurt Nimmo 270
Porn-Fugitives Zoltan Komor 279
God Shines Brightest on the Highest Man Kyle Kouri 283
/e Case of the Already-Solved Case Douglas Hackle 294
Death By Committee Ian Sh earer 302
/e Happy Ending Jo sep h Jam es C aw ein 307
Slowest Drink at the Saddest Bar Steven Storrie
It w as F riday aftern o o n , th e late side o f lun ch tim e, and I w as drinking the last drop from m y ⇡nal beer in a sem i-crow ded bar. I h ad dran k it slow ly as I co u ld, trying to m ak e it last. I couldn’t a ord another one and couldn’t yet face going back outside. D rinking slow ly isn’t an easy th in g to d o w h en yo u ’ve train ed yo u rself all th ese years to drink fast and drink hard and do it often. Now my ⇡nal bottle was ⇡nished. I had about 5 good minutes left before they got suspicious and came to ask if I’d like another, a further tw o m inutes after I’d declined before they asked m e to leave. It isn’t good for business to have som eone sitting there w ithout a drink in front of him, especially when he’s drinking alone. O dd enough as it is, that you’re by yourself. I sat th ere in m y b lue w ork sh irt w ith th e sleeves rolled up, looking dow n at the tattoos on m y arm s and w ondering exactly w hen it w as that tattoos becam e fashionable again. It probably didn’t m atter. %ere weren’t many people left in life that I knew who didn’t have tattoos. I loo ked at th e girls cro w d ing ro u n d th e bar, all do lled up in short skirts and high heels and heavy m akeup and fake nails, giggling and drinking w ine. %ey had tatto o s. HORROR SLEAZE TRASH
I stared at them for a w hile, w ondering w hat other tattoos they had, ones in hidden places and not on public display. O nes that only bland, square jaw ed men with hair products and stomach muscles and bullshit pickup lines would ever get to see. I im agined what tattoos these women had. I imagined what they looked like naked, w ho w as shaved and w ho w as w ild, who screamed when they got fucked and who groaned. W hat was their dem eanour when they had a piss and w hat did their assholes look like? It w as pretty obvious I w asn’t going back to w ork, and I sigh ed at th e th o u g h t of th e on slau g h t ah ead . Eventually I rose to leave. %e place was getting crow ded w ith people w ho had ⇡nished their w ork early and w ere getting a head start on F riday night. Men came in with perfectly manicured beards and reeking of aftershave. %ey w ere w earing their best clothes and had their gam e plan all m apped out. I watched them all jostling at the bar, jostling to be seen , to be served , to be n o ticed . %ey were trying to employ all their little ‘moves’ to get served quickly, cheap things like standing up tall and straight to look com m anding and im portant, or leaning forw ard w ith a tw enty note betw een their ⇡ngers so they looked ready to go. I had been a barm an once before, and I knew none of these tricks ever w orked. %e good ones serve w ho th ey w an t to fu ck ⇡rst, the best ones keep score and serve in ord er. When you stand back and look at it from a safe distance, society is a ridiculous and childish, pointless th in g . N o b o d y w o u ld jo in it if th ey d id n ’t h ave to , and everyone w ould opt out if they could. I shook m y head and headed out to the white pick-up truck ready to b rave th e d ay.
2 PRO SE IN PO O R TA STE
On the street I almost bumped in to Ernie, the local garbage m an. H e began telling m e som e w ild story about a prostitute that ran by here last night w ith half an ear sliced o and one shoe on. “O h m an you really m issed it” he groaned, “should have been there”. I tell him I wished I’d been there to and w as sorry I m issed it. He asks me if I’m going back to work and can he get a lift? I tell him I’m ⇡nished for the day and am going the other w ay. W ell, that’s just about half true at least. If I told him I’d quit w ork he’d o er m e a job dow n at the garbage yard. E xcept he never really o ered you a job so m uch as positively insist you took it. O n and on he’d go about how great it w as and all the perks you got and how all the guys back slapped and looked out for one another. I couldn’t be bothered w ith it, not now . I had a slight beer buzz and the sun w as up and I w anted to ride around a while. I told Ernie goodbye and see ya later. He seem ed happy enough w ith that. I d idn ’t kn o w yet exactly w h ere I w an ted to d rive to , and that felt good in itself. P eople alw ays have som e place to be, and wherever they are they generally wish th ey w ere som eplace else. I w as as guilty as th e rest on th at co u n t, b u t m o stly I m ad e m y o w n , slu g g ish w ay about the w orld. I got everything done on tim e, but it was my time that I got it done on. To hell with some manager telling you what the deadline was. Some manager in a cheap suit with an ugly wife and two fat kids and a granddaughter going the sam e way. W hat the fuck did he know ? W hat m ade his life such a roaring, shining success? A nd w hat did it m atter whether I stood on the near or far side of the conveyor, or w hether the letter w as sent before or after 12pm ? O r even the day after that. It didn’t. None of it did. It was all a big con. I’d known that in stin c tiv e ly sin c e th e a g e o f ⇡v e .
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So there I w as driving slow ly around in m y w hite pickup when I was m eant to have been punching the clock in som e dreary factory, slaving aw ay w ith another 4 and a half hours to go before I’d be free. I h ad b rie 4 PRO SE IN PO O R TA STE Two weeks ago, I had had a writing student shadow me at work. It was part of him getting some education, apparently. A ll his class w as out som e place doing it. H ell, the only education he was getting around here w as not to end up here perm anently, not to be stuck in here 8 hours a day for shit pay, m aybe chaperoning som e young punk w ho had bad acne and couldn’t get the sh rink w rapping o his dick. And he wanted to be a writer? “Y es sir, very m u ch so .” “W ell w h y th e h ell are yo u p ayin g fo r so m eo n e to tell you how to do it?” %at bit genuinely confused the sh it ou t of m e. It alw ays d id . “W ell... so I’ll be go o d at it.” Jesus C h rist! %ere w as no hope for this dirtbag. H e was never gonna make it as a writer, I could tell that much right away. He may as well hand over his money to me, and maybe I’d give him his education. “K id , to b e go o d at it yo u h ave to go o u t th ere, in to the w orld. G et your nose and spirit broken and have your balls gnaw ed on. I m ean, really gnaw ed on. A ll you have to do is m ake som ething happen, then w rite about it.” “M y teach er said ...” “L o o k ” I b ro k e in , th is geek w as begin n in g to p iss m e o , “don’t you think if you’re teacher w as a good writer he’d actually be a writer instead of teaching you how to do it? Your teacher is a hustler and a thief and a degenerate. T ell him that M onday w hen you go back to class. %at’s your ⇡rst lesson. D o that and you may yet make it.” “%an k yo u sir” h e said , fu riou sly scribb lin g in to h is notepad. I clipped him around the head with the back of m y hand. “Y o u ’re w elco m e” I said . 5 HORROR SLEAZE TRASH Later that night I went back to my motel room with a brow n bag ⇡lled w ith groceries and a bottle of whiskey for the slog ahead. I hadn’t found any heroes on the road. I ⇡gured they w ere probably all driving around looking for m e, and that w e’d bum p into one another soon enough. I tu rn ed o n th e b all gam e an d set th e w h isk ey d ow n by the TV before putting the groceries aw ay. %en I went to take a piss. %e bathroom was still in a savage mess from last night. I had brought a friend back that I h ad fu cked o n ce b efore. H er h air w as b lon d e b ack then. N ow it w as pink but the fuck w as basically the sam e. A great lay. W e had done it on the bed ⇡rst th en ag ain later in th e b ath ro o m . She w as bent over the basin, gripping it w ith her hands as I fucked her from behind, w atching m y funny little self in th e m irror. If you’ve ever w atch ed yourself fuck then you know how pathetic and oddly rid icu lo u s yo u lo o k . W e all d o , n o w ay aro u n d it. It’s an odd ritual to do, at the nut of it, thrusting back and forth, in and out and in and out of som eone. B ut it’s still the best and m ost sim ple ritual w e have, the only thing unchanged for m illions of years, relatively untouched by technology and taxes. It’s the only thing le ft th e b a sta rd s h a v e n ’t ⇡g u re d o u t h o w to ru in . So we had fucked in the bathroom and trashed the place. W atching m y cock ⇡ll her hole and seeing her spine protruding as I forced her further dow n and gave it to her harder w as a great thing to behold. I knew where all her tattoos were. %inking about it as I sat on the bed and unscrewed th e cap o the w hiskey w as m aking m e hard, but there w ould be nobody to play w ith tonight. Instead it w a s 9 in n in g s o f b a se b a ll a n d a m ic ro w a v e m e a l. %at’s the way it went some days, in life as in Friday nights. Som etimes you got lucky and som etimes you didn’t. And som etimes you didn’t care which it was. 6 PRO SE IN PO O R TA STE So I sipped m y drink and cooked m y m eal, watched the 3rd basem an ground out to third as I bit into m y burger with the warm , chew y bun. %en I put som e paper into the typew riter. And then I wrote this. 7 HORROR SLEAZE TRASH An Observational Piece of Flash Fiction I W ill Probably N ever Pu blish Je O 'B rien It w as just as the m uscular, tank-topped guy nam ed Bradley began regaling his friends about the chick he’d fucked six w ays to Sunday last night w hen he noticed tw o n ew p atro n s en ter th e cig ar b ar. Both were well dressed and ⇡nely groomed. Neither had a single hair out of place, and one of them was wearing a pink dress shirt. Bradley’s ⇡rst thought was that these two were obviously queers, so what the fuck were they doing in his favorite establishm ent? And since when did homos even smoke cigars? Resuming his story of the prior night’s events, describing how this chick had deep-throated his massive cock like she was trying to give herself an endoscopy, he couldn’t help but be distracted by how close the new com ers w ere now sitting at the bar. Great, h e th o u g h t, not only are they fags, but they have to a u n t it, too. He continued his tale seemingly undaunted, going on to describe how he’d next throw n this bitch dow n on her back, dem olishing her pussy like his gargantuan dick was Exxon-M obil and fracking her cunt like it was the Saudi Arabian Ghawar oil ⇡eld. 8 PRO SE IN PO O R TA STE From the corner of his eye, he saw one of the poofs lean over and give the other a kiss on the cheek. %is deliberate display of gayness was com pletely uncalled fo r, b u t h e d id n ’t let it h in d er h im fro m resu m in g th e story that had his buddies w rapt in anticipation, wondering what would happen next. With extra careful attention to detail, he explained how her tight little slit w as barely able to accom m odate his m ighty trouser python, so in an altruistic act of kindness, he titty-fucked the shit out of her for a while instead. A s he did so, he heard the tw o fairies give the w aitress their order, w hich consisted of a raspberry vodka tonic and an am aretto so u r. T o m ak e m atters even m o re u n b earab le, th e tw o queens had begun holding hands as the waitress went to g et th eir d rin k s. Bradley was visibly irritated by this point, but proceeded on nonetheless to explain how the tit-bang got boring, so he bent her over and gauged out her sh it lock er lik e h is tu rg id h o g leg w as th e g o p h er fro m Caddyshack burrow ing the depths beneath the golf course. Finally, he concluded his saga with a retelling of how the chick had begged him to grab her by the hair and spray her face like it w as a canvas and his exploding cock w as Jackson Pollock. Upon the tale’s completion, Bradley and his bros found they had little else to talk about, and so they just ordered another round of beers and stogies in ste a d . “Y a know ,” B radley began, nonchalantly eyeing the gays who were now quietly puJng on their cigars, “if th ey w an n a b e g ay th at’s ⇡n e. B u t w h y d o th ey g o tta 9 HORROR SLEAZE TRASH Buttons Alfonso Mango Buttons. Yeah buttons. It’s all just a bunch of buttons. %at’s right. We’ve moved millennia through time and shit-show space just to create a bunch of dam n buttons. I w ake up and hit the snooze button. T en m inutes la te r, sn o o z e b u tto n a g a in . %en again and again. %en I hit some more buttons and I check my condensed virtual social life. S ocializing is im portant you know . %en I hit a few more buttons and some %ai food show s up at m y door. M y m other calls and I hit a button that says I’m busy. M y ex-w ife calls and it’s all to o co n ven ien t; I ju st h it th e b u tto n ag ain . 3:30 rolls around. I hit the show er and hit som e buttons and the water is hot. I wash aw ay all m y sins. I w atch as it all p ou rs d o w n th e d rain. %e d irt, th e whiskey, little shooter bottles, cigarette butts, a ham ster. All goes right dow n the drain. I eat th e %ai food in the show er. I drink a show er beer. I pray to Jesus. Praying is im portant you know . I alw ays hit the 'like' button on those Jesus posts, you know the ones on Facebook. H it this or go to H ell. Better safe than sorry. I loo k in th e m irro r an d I’m fat. %ere’s n o b u tto n to ch ange that. I throw on som e B erm udas and a button up and I walk m y fat ass to the liquor store. I ⇡gure if I kill m y sto m ach , I’ll be th inn er. 10 PRO SE IN PO O R TA STE I buy a carton of cigarettes. %e h oly cash ier h its a bunch of buttons and m agic green num bers show up on the screen. I put m y card in the reader. W e sit silen tly, w e d o n ’t talk. I h it a few b u tto n s an d I’m o n my merry way. I stop by Sam ’s T ow n. I hit the A T M buttons and tak e m y last fo rty b u ck s o u t. I p u t m y last fo rty b u ck s in the penny slots. It disappears. %e colors are pretty th o u g h . I literally to o k fo rty b u ck s o u t o f a m ach in e, paid six dollars to do so, then fed that forty dollars to another m achine. %is is how my life has been. Maybe I’m the button. Maybe the Big Guy is pushing me. Testing me. Hit th is o r g o to H ell. I get h o m e an d d rink m o re. H it th e rem o te b u tton s, watch the dancing girls dance. W atch the jewelry ch annel. I stop w atching. I stare at the ceiling and I sin k in to th e co u ch . O n e m illio n m iles d eep . A ll th e way down to Chinatown. Before I disappear completely, I hit the alarm button on for the m orning, so tom orrow I can hit these here buttons once again. 11 HORROR SLEAZE TRASH A Boykiss Drip Misty Rampart Heaven must’ve forgotten me. I’m badly done up in makeup, and my wardrobe consists of only man-made colors and animal prints. Tits–maybe too big, but I’ve never fo u n d a boy th at w o u ldn ’t m ak e go od use of th em . Once in a while I gag (consider myself lucky), but it’s ok; I’ve sucked o such a string of tyrants you wouldn’t believe. My pretty eyes will gladly grant you membership in my mouth. Join m y joy luck spit club and joyfully I w ill receive your long, hard revelation. And you’ll thinkthat pink m isty, now there’s a pretty pussyyou could alm ost w ive. N obody ever goes th ro u g h w ith it, th o u g h . Praise! And pray, let the heraldry of your trum pets call its bursting on m y cheek, a boykiss drip! B ut until th en , yo u b etter resp ect m y h eels, m y th ig h s b o th welcoming and sending you away. “I’m going to com e on your fucking face!” you say... there are no w ords to defend against it. I’ll never get you out of th ese la sh e s. Will need to begin again. Later I will contemplate it, discovering that spit is som ehow a spiritual thing, so o th in g th e friction of love. 12 PRO SE IN PO O R TA STE Turkey Buzzards Matthew Borczon It had on ly tak en tw o years fo r his w ife to leave him . She’d grow n sick of the sm all tow n, the sm ell of shit on his boots, and the fact that E than was just angry all the tim e. H e could not blam e her for w anting to leave, but he also did not follow her or try to m ake her stay. Som ewhere along the line, E than had started drinking in the mornings. No one was around, so no one ever noticed. Booze made the work easier, or so he thought, but the truth was it just made it easier for him to ignore all the farm w ork he’d been putting o . It started w h en th e ⇡rst co w d ied . E th an left it in th e ⇡eld for w eeks rotting in the sum m er sun, and it would’ve stayed there had the neighbors not com plained about the sm ell. A s the turkey buzzards began to crow d the ⇡elds, his m other com plained to him as well, ⇡nally paying som e local college kids to scrap e th e ro ttin g carcass o th e gro u n d . Ethan kept drinking and ignored the world around him, fantasies of going back to Chicago and his wife drifting through the haze inside his head. H e knew he’d never go, but the idea allow ed him to believe he had a plan. 13 HORROR SLEAZE TRASH Five more cows would die within the next year, and each tim e E than w ould ignore their bodies until the neighbors brought the law out to talk to him. In the end, he w ould hire som eone to do the w ork and he would continue with his drinking, and the farm continued to lim p along like a horse that had just th ro w n a sh o e. Eventually, Ethan and his mother stopped talking altogether. She grew tired of the argum ents and disappointed in the son she raised, so they took to haunting opposite sides of the house. She lost herself in m ourning her dead husband and w ore her sorrow s lik e a n o ld d re ssin g g o w n . %e morning Ethan found her hung from a rafter in the hay barn, he realized that he hadn’t know n his mother at all. For the ⇡rst few days, Ethan ignored the barn entirely, telling him self he needed to ⇡nd the note she was sure to have left. He searched her room and the rest o f th e h o u se b u t fo u n d n o th in g . An envelope of money under her mattress distracted Ethan for a few more days, as he ⇡nally had the means to drink like he’d always wanted to. %ree days later and staggering drunk, he had ⇡nally w orked up th e n erve to w alk in to th e b arn . %e smell and the fact that she was covered in her ow n excrem ent convinced E than it w ould be best to leave her h anging for a spell, at least until he’d hosed her dow n. It took about an hour, but once he’d cleaned her up, E than decided to go back into the house and grab som e fresh clothes for her, so she’d be dressed w hen he cut her dow n and called the authorities. 14 PRO SE IN PO O R TA STE %e feeling of control Ethan felt as he picked out her dress and sipped on her panties was nothing short of electric. A fter he’d ⇡nished dressing her, he w ent back to the house to get his m other’s m akeup kit and sp en t th e aftern o o n co m b in g h er h air. One week later, it was the smell once again which prom pted the neighbors to sum m on the police. %eir visits to the farm were becoming fairly routine by this point, but no one was prepared for the sight of Ethan drunk and doing a slow waltz with his mother’s corpse, still dangling from the rafters. For the ⇡rst time in years, Ethan looked like a man contented. In his m ind, he w as back hom e in Chicago, his old life ⇡nally restored. In reality, how ever, he’d ⇡nally lost everything but his herd of sick an d starvin g cattle. %e trees were ⇡lled with turkey buzzards, and only th ey seem ed to k n o w h o w th is w as all g o in g to en d . 15 HORROR SLEAZE TRASH Dan Tells Me a Story at 4 a.m. While We Wait for Our Cabs Mather Schneider So I’m up in the fucking foothills and I get a call over th e co m p u ter, th at little b eep co m es o n to tell m e a fare is in m y area. W e never know w hat w e’re getting into, do w e, just th e gen eral area of th e call, th at’s it. Could be fucking Charles Manson for all we know. Still, naturally I accept it; there’s just not enough calls to reject o n e, yo u k n o w th at. Y o u accep t th em an d you take your chances. %e address is way out in zone 584, which isn’t where I’m at at all, I’m in fu cking zo n e 45 7 ! Y o u kn o w h o w th e d isp atch system d o es th is so m etim es, th ese mistakes, but I ⇡gure what the hell, I go for it. Takes me 25 minutes to get there, and I can’t ⇡nd the place at ⇡rst, m y G P S system takes m e straight at a brick wall and insists I go through it. %at female computer voice of the G P S navigator is alw ays sending m e dow n dead ends. Rem inds m e of m y ex wife, ha ha. %ey might as well program that voice to say, “Turn right in a half m ile on G rant R oad, you w orthless idiot.” H a ha. A nyw ay, I ⇡nd a w ay around it and ⇡nd the other part of the road and ⇡nd the right address. It’s a fancy house like all th e houses up th ere, th ose rich fu ck s an d th eir fan cy h o u ses, b u t th e ⇡rst th in g I notice is a burrito laying in the yard. It’s just laying th ere h alf o p en , ch ick en it lo o k s lik e. 16 PRO SE IN PO O R TA STE %en I notice other things in the yard: lettuce, carrots, so m eth in g th at loo k s lik e o atm eal, a freezer p izza, all just throw n about. W hat the fuck? I think. I try to call the num ber but of course there’s no answ er. So I get out of the cab and head for the door, I m ean, hell, I drove all the w ay up there. A s I’m w alking to the door I see other things in the yard: a pile of Tum s, beans, rice, a broken bag of