TEX HAS HORSES AND PLENTY OF AIR
By Nat Fillmore
A Thesis
Submitted in Partial Fulfillment
of the Requirements for the Degree of
Master of Fine Arts
in Creative Writing
Northern Arizona University
May 2018
Approved:
Jane Armstrong, Ph.D., Chair
Ann Cummins, Ph.D., Chair
Lawrence Lenhart, MFA, Chair ABSTRACT
TEX HAS HORSES AND PLENTY OF AIR
By Nat Fillmore
Tex Has Horses and Plenty of Air is a selection of a larger work of memoir, based on my experience on the Camino de Santiago in the fall of 2011. Making up approximately the first half of the memoir, these chapters track the narrator from his arrival in Paris, across the French
Pyrenees and west though northern Spain. As the narrator navigates internal and external challenges, driven by his need to rid himself of a panic disorder, he questions the relationship between actual identity and performance. To distance himself from his panic, his problems, his past and present, the narrator invents a series of new identities to try out along the busy pilgrimage route and in the process comes to appreciate his experience and the anxiety he carries.
The earliest version of this memoir took shape in 2012, shortly after I returned to the US.
It then continued to crop up here and there, in disjointed flashes and drafts, for the next five years. Finally, after two years in the MFA program writing almost exclusively memoir, in August of 2017, I decided to shelve the thesis I’d written about my teenage misadventures and focus instead on putting together a definitive, novel-length Camino saga. I’m relieved and pleased things took this turn. Spain was a far nicer place to revisit than R. L. Paschal High School.