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Inside My Enemy by Donna Hinman 3 Spray paint to Rembrandt. Leather leggings to lace stockings. Bass guitar to violin. Rita and Diana were as different as Wonder Bread and croissants. Could they ever reconcile their views? Rachael Myllymaki: Roughrider by Jeannie McCabe 8 Ride 'em, cowgirl! The little lady from the Big Sky state has enough rodeo drive to keep her riding circles around the competition. Cool Aid by Luan Miller 14 Snowbody does it better—even 007 could take lessons from these heros of the slopes. Like lifeguards, National Ski Patrol members bring first-aid care under lift and over mogul to skiers in trouble. LSD: The Trip to Skip by Jolene L. Roehlkepartain 18 If Freddy Krueger drove a yellow school bus down Elm Street, would you get on? LSD makes Freddy look like a blue-haired old lady behind the steering wheel. Before it totals your mind and body, remember—this is one time when it's better to miss the bus. You Are Mah-velous! by Mary Ann Jefferies 22 Billy Crystal said it, we believe it, and here's how you can make it true. A little time, a bit of practice—presto! In seven days, a new view of you!

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Ask a Friend How Can I Break My Childhood Drug Habit? 12 Plugging In Helping Kids Whose Parents Have Drug Problems 13 Graffiti Seventeen 25 Kitchen Sink INXS, Steve Winwood, and Def Leppard 26 Puzzles Indian Powwow 27 Listen Up! River Phoenix and Save the Frogs 28

One Last Note Nailing Down Your New Year 30 18 Poster Character Architects 31

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"Never judge a man until you've walked a mile in his moccasins," an old saying goes. When Rita stepped out of her metal-toed black boots and into Diana's pink Pappagallo flats one New Year's Eve, she only had to walk across a stage to see inside the girl she'd always hated. Donna Hinman

I arrived at the gym Sunday—the day of the New shoulders. He eased me onto a folding chair Year's Eve dance—full of energy, all set to prove inside the gym. "It hit me the same way," he said. Diana Frey wasn't the only girl in the school who "Jail!" I repeated, trying to pull my wits knew how to run a dance. I, Rita Palermo, could together. "Maybe—maybe we can raise bail—" do just as well, even if I didn't have fluffy blond Slowly Jonny shook his head. "Rita, he knifed a curls and enough cash to wear a different Laura cop. The judge won't grant bail." He paced back Ashley original every day. and forth like a wolf in a cage far too small. "He Honestly, sometimes I thought I was the only was doing crack, can you believe it? Crack! And I person who could see through that girl. Sure, she voted for him. We could've gotten Swidersky, did was gorgeous, smart, rich, you name it. That I ever tell you that? The music is what really didn't make her Wonder Woman. The way they matters, right? Dan sings better than Swid ever all followed her—like roadies around a rock will. He swore he was clean, said he'd learned his star—even when my ideas were much better. . . . lesson, begged us for another chance—and I I took up punk because it was cheap, but I voted for him!" stuck with it because it was fun. The day I shaved My head throbbed, and I gulped for air around half my hair off and combed the other half down a searing tightness in my chest. "What are we across my face, pulled on a rarely washed Sid going to do?" Vicious T-shirt, and painted my teeth with "Do?" Jonny's lips tightened to a thin, white fluorescent nail polish was the day my peers line. "I'll tell you what I'm going to do. I'm going stopped dumping pity on me. Pity is toxic waste. to hock my keyboard so I can give you your Who needs it? deposit back. And then I'm going to find a job Diana and her roadies were waiting outside that'll pay enough so I can get my keyboard back. the gym in the freezing Chicago air when I got In the meantime, I'm going to look for a new lead there. As I unlocked the door, Jonny (keyboards singer." He scraped a fingernail down the zipper and general manager for Bloody Farce) came up. of his leather jacket. "I don't know what you're I greeted him with a quick hug. "Hey, man, going to do. That's your problem." come to check up on us?" "Yes, that's our problem," Diana said. Her eyes Jonny smoothed back his mohawk with a hand burned with icy fire in her white, gold-framed that trembled. I had never seen him look so face. haggard, not even after jamming all night at the I wanted to crash somewhere and die. "Our Blind Faith. "Rita, Dan's in jail. We can't play problem? My problem. I'm the chairman this tonight." year, remember?" Everyone gasped. She waved my words away like flies. "Rita, The world grayed out around me. I came back don't be childish." into focus with Jonny gripping me hard by the "Listen to Wonder Woman," I said bitterly. "I January 1990 • LISTEN • 3 11 XL 91700 07/30/91 7int71 A9150 CPB ICI .r14

planned everything around a live punk band. "Oh yes I can. They owe me one." Diana Records and a deejay will ruin everything!" pulled me up out of the folding chair. "Look, "Then don't use them," Diana snapped. "I'm Rita, you've got a choice. Maybe The Spinners can going to call The Spinners." save the dance. If you use records, you'll wreck "Are you out of your mind?" I shrieked. "They everything. Which do you prefer?" don't play anything but Carpenters and Muzak! Diana had manipulated me into a corner yet Even if they did, you can't get them on New again. She was right; if I said No, I'd wreck Year's Eve." I glanced at the clock. "Especially everything. If I said Yes, my dance might with only seven hours' notice!" succeed—but Diana would get all the credit. It

LISTEN (ISSN 0024-435X). Published monthly by Narcotics Education, Inc., 12501 Old Columbia Pike, Silver Spring, MD 20904, U.S.A. For the U.S.A.: one- year subscription $16.95 (U.S.). Second-class postage paid at Nampa, ID. POSTMASTER: Send address changes to LISTEN, P.O. Box 7000, Boise, ID 83707. 4 • LISTEN • January 1990 ILLUSTRATION BY MARY RUMFORD wasn't fair. This was my dance! My showpiece! "Yeah, Diana told Rita what to do, and—" My—"Call The Spinners." "I think Rita could teach Diana a thing or two "Good." She tossed me a handkerchief. "Go about parties!" ahead and cry. It might make you feel better." "Rita nothing! If Diana hadn't rescued the Real people use tissues. Only our local Princess whole thing—" Di would carry genuine Irish linen with The rumors got wilder and wilder. I heard one handmade lace and the initials D. F. mono- girl tell her boyfriend I had pocketed the advance grammed in the corner. While she phoned, I money and hadn't hired a band at all. Another shredded that handkerchief to a small pile of lint said I'd been arrested for pushing crack, and and let it flutter through my fingers to the floor. Bloody Farce used up their advance money for "It's all fixed," Diana cried. She flung her arms my bail. And someone said Diana personally around me in an exuberant hug. The other girls scrubbed out every inch of the gym with her own let out a ragged cheer. lily-white hands, while I stood in the corner "All right, what are you waiting for?" I roared. smashing people's records. Stoned, no doubt. But "We've got a gym to decorate. Get busting!" the last straw, the one that really hurt, was when I Diana gave them all her most sugary smile. "I heard a girl tell her boyfriend Diana had planned can't tell you how grateful I am that you all the whole dance and let me pretend to be in showed up to help us," she told them. "This charge to make me look good. dance won't be Rita's or mine—it'll be all of ours. Diana appeared at my side. "Want a lei?" Let's make it perfect!" "What?" I frowned at her. She was wearing a She winked at me on the sly. I felt ill. velvet swallowtail tuxedo with a Hawaiian shirt I had to admit that Diana's roadies got the gym and about 40 leis. She pulled off a loop of decorated in record time. That night it looked turquoise flowers and flicked it neatly around my even better than I had planned. neck, where it swore at my purple feather boa. People's punk outfits ranged from the sheepish She collapsed in a chair and dropped her purse to the bizarre, but they milled around and beside mine. "Great party, no?" laughed at the strange decorations. They "Thanks to you," I said, fighting back particularly like the chaperons' table, which bitterness. didn't have a leg to stand on, and the New Year Diana looked distressed. "Don't say that. You Princess's throne—a battered old toilet spray did all the planning and most of the work. I just painted fluorescent. My date (my cousin Mike, a gave you a little push when things got"—she real sweetheart even if we aren't in love or flapped her hand—"all crazy." anything) brought me a cup of punch. We sat The principal's voice boomed over the P.A. "It down on some folding chairs to wait out The is now my great pleasure to introduce the New Spinner's saccharine rendition of "We've Only Year Princess. In all my years as principal, I have Just Begun." never seen any one girl receive such It didn't happen. I don't know how Ellen overwhelming support from the entire student Spinner did it, but she turned that song inside body as this year's winner. Our New Year out. She sang about a confused couple trying to Princess for 1990 is—Diana Frey!" keep their relationship going through a string of Diana flinched. Her eyes darted around, conflicting daydreams—without changing a word strained and desperate. "I begged them to take of the original song. We laughed ourselves silly. my name off the list," she whispered. Then she "I've waited 15 years for the chance to sing it bent down to pick up her purse. When she like that," Ellen told us. We roared our approval. straightened up, she was herself again, so radiant "Hey, guys, if you like what we're doing, prove that I wondered if I had imagined her haunted it. Get up and dance!" expression a few seconds before. She smiled and After a few minutes, I started to overhear the waved as she swaggered up to the throne. conversations I'd been expecting. "Great dance! My nose itched. I scrabbled around in my Rita did wonders." purse, trying to find some tissues. My hands "Well, actually it was Diana—" closed on several spool-sized objects that "This party has last year's beat!" certainly hadn't been there earlier that evening. b.

I heard one girl tell her boyfriend I had pocketed the advance money and hadn't hired a band at all. Another said I'd been arrested for pushing crack, and Bloody Farce used up their advance money for my bail. They were medicine bottles. wouldn't listen. Eventually, they went away. I "Librium," I whispered. Now that I looked, I decided cleaning up could wait until tomorrow— could see that Diana had taken my purse up to especially since my committee of volunteers had the stage instead of her own. "Librium, Diana already left like everybody else. I turned out the Frey, no refills. Valium, Diana Frey, no refills." lights and locked up. In grim silence, Mike and I I dug deeper. There were diet pills, stimulants, walked through the snow to his battered Saab. antihistamines, diuretics—nothing illegal, but it When we got to my driveway, we found that didn't take a genius to realize no honest doctor my dad had smashed the car into a fencepost and would prescribe diet pills, tranquilizers, and then passed out behind the wheel. He wasn't stimulants all at once. hurt, but the whole yard stank like a brewery. "And now," the principal announced, "I'd like Mike's silence was eloquent. to call up Rita Palermo, chairman of the dance Choking down shame, I set my dad's parking committee, to crown the reigning princess." brake and turned off the headlights. "Maybe this Princess Diana has a dirty little secret, I accident will embarrass him enough to join AA thought. Well, not for long. Like someone and get help," I said. sleepwalking, I moved to the microphone. "I "Might work. Nothing else has," Mike replied. can't do that," I said. "Not unless the school has "'Night, Rita." changed its policy of zero tolerance toward drug I shook Dad until he came to and told him to abuse." One by one, I read the labels on the come in so he wouldn't freeze. In the living room, bottles out loud. the TV was blasting out It's a Wonderful Life at An ashen silence descended upon the crowd. rock-concert volume. My mother, glassy-eyed Diana sobbed. Covering her face with both hands, and semiconscious, lolled over the shot glass in she stumbled offstage. her clenched fist. Everyone began talking at once. Out of the "Am too watchin'," she mumbled, gesturing at corner of my eye, I saw the principal beg The the screen image of Jimmy Stewart. "Unnerstan' Spinners to play something, anything. They were ev'r word." probably freaked out themselves by what I didn't argue with her. Turning off the set and happened, but I still think "I Can't Get No the lights, I went to toss and turn in my own bed Satisfaction" was a bad choice under the for the rest of the night. circumstances. The next afternoon when I got to the gym, I "You've done it now," Mike told me. found the doors open and the place already "What do you mean?" I cried. "All I did was immaculate. follow school policy." "Who—what?" I stammered. My big, comfortable cousin was silent for a Diana's groupies, Heather and Carrie, long moment. "Rita, you were right in a way that emerged. "Diana asked us to," Heather said did more harm than good. I'd like to leave now, if distantly. you don't mind." "I wouldn't lift a finger for you, you creep, but "Leave?" I whimpered. "I can't leave now; I Diana said she didn't want anyone to act petty. have to pay the band." Here, want to help?" Carrie stuffed a handful of "That's true," Mike admitted reluctantly. "I'll squashed paper cups down my sweatshirt. stick around for tonight, but not tomorrow. You If I thought about the rage that possessed me, I created this mess; you dig yourself out of it." might have killed someone. My anger felt far too I picked up the whole row of medicine bottles large for my body—bigger than the school, bigger and smashed them, one by one, against a concrete than Lake Michigan. So I put my anger aside and buttress. Where could I turn, if even Mike let me contemplated a poster across the hall instead, down? because it happened to catch my eye. Everybody deserted the gym by ten o'clock— It was a yellow poster, with the letters A-L-A- long before time for "Auld Lang Syne." I paid the T-E-E-N highlighted in green glitter. It gave the band full price, though; it wasn't their fault they address of a Methodist church nearby and said, hadn't played until midnight. The principal and "If somebody else's drinking bothers you, this several of the chaperons tried to talk to me, but I meeting is for you!"

"The way they rig things so it always goes wrong and it's always my fault—that's the problem. The way you always have to pretend things are fine when they're really unbearable—that's the problem." As I stared at the poster, I became conscious of a prescriptions with me last night, but when I got thin trickle of anger. It was a manageable anger, home, she was unconscious, with a bunch of unlike my fury over the disastrous dance. "The empty bottles beside her." drinking isn't the problem," I said aloud. "The lies Diana took a deep breath before continuing. are the problem. The way they rig things so it "I'm so sick of being a heroine! Yesterday I always goes wrong and it's always my fault— rescued a dance for another girl, then took my that's the problem. The way you always have to mother to the hospital to get her stomach pretend things are fine when they're really pumped. And I had to be perfect the entire time. unbearable—that's the problem." And I hate it! I've always hated it!" It was almost time for the Alateen meeting to Our eyes met for a single frozen second. start. I didn't feel like going home to confront my "Last night," she went on, "a girl showed the parents' hangovers, so I thought I might as well go whole school the prescriptions I'd been trying to set these Alateens straight. hide. They're going to crucify her for it, but I I found the church and the room. The place was want her to know I'm grateful. I can't pretend jammed even though it was New Year's Day. 'Tis everything's perfect anymore." the season, I guess. "Thank you, Diana. We're glad you came," the "Let's start," said the young man at the head of young man said. He smiled at me. "Would you the table. "Is this anybody's first meeting?" rather talk, or just listen today?" I raised my hand. The girl across from me did "Talk," I said. My mouth was dry. "I'm Rita. likewise. It was Diana. I—" I barely heard the chorus of welcomes. Diana My voice stuck. My mind stuck. Yesterday I'd looked horrible, white and gaunt, in the same done something right that was wrong that was rumpled tuxedo she'd been wearing last night. right after all. I'd known all along that Diana's The young man said something about sharing perfection was just a lie, like my punk bravado our reasons for coming. I was so rattled that I was a lie. I'd known . . . blanked out altogether. "The lies are the whole problem," I said, Diana's eyes darted around the room like bursting into tears. hunted mice. "I'm Diana," she said. "My mother's I hadn't cried since I was nine years old. It took addicted to alcohol and prescription drugs." a lot of salt water to wash away my frustration "But your mother's name is DeeDee!" I blurted and outrage. out, visualizing the name on the medicine bottles. After a while, I felt someone put something "My mother's name is Diana. Everybody calls soft in my hand. It was an Irish linen her DeeDee except her doctors. Dozens and handkerchief trimmed in handmade lace with the dozens of doctors." She gave a mirthless chuckle. initials D. F. monogrammed in the corner. "She's too smart for me. I thought I took all her This time, I kept it. TA

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She may sit small in the saddle---at 12 she was the youngest rider to compete in the National Finals—but this Montana miss is princess of the reins in rodeo barrel racing. Spraying dirt in all directions, Rachael Myllymaki and her gray mare, Page, plunge through the rodeo-arena gate toward the first barrel. Three times they close in, executing a tight, dramatic turn around the barrels that form a triangle in the arena. Then they gallop at break- neck speed back through the gate. Their time, measured in seconds, usually registers in the top three. Thirteen-year-old Rachael is the youngest barrel racer in the world of professional rodeo ever to compete in the National Finals, rodeo's equivalent of the Super Bowl. When she earned a berth at the 1988 National Finals Rodeo in Las Vegas, she came to win. Though she didn't place in the final standings, she did win the hearts of 18,000 cheering fans every time she burst through the gate. What she lacked in depth and experience, she made up for with sheer guts and a fearless determination to do her best. Rachael came out on top in preliminary competition with a blistering performance and a time of 14.35 seconds that had fans urging her on from the first barrel. The crowd was astounded to see the tiny figure cutting dangerous turns with such balance and precision. "When I hear the roar, it makes me want to go even faster," she explains impishly. "I just try to keep my concentration and do my best." Rachael's cheerful intensity is evident as she rushes to care for her horses and as she visits with "people I've always wanted to meet, like Charmayne James-Rodman Jeannie McCabe

January 1990 • LISTEN • 9 and Marlene Eddleman"—older way," Rachael says. Rachael's birth family "came professionals who are her idols The Myllymaki family hails under extremely hard times," in the sport of women's rodeo. from Arlee, Montana, a town of according to Judy, and could no Rachael describes her 400 people situated 30 miles longer keep Rachael. Gene winning attitude: "I need to be north of Missoula, right up Myllymaki was a distant right, and on top of things, Highway 93. The endless relative. Would he and his wife before my horse can translate. I Montana sky contrasts sharply consider taking Rachael? The have to be in the best possible with the bright lights of the answer was a resounding Yes. condition for each rodeo. My cities where she competes. Rachael moved from her horse listens through my feet "It's been a little home in South Carolina and was and hands." overwhelming," says Judy formally adopted by the Nothing addictive, nothing Myllymaki, her mom. "But we Myllymakis. With Judy and that could alter the chemistry come to the towns to barrel race. Gene's help, she remains in between her and her horse will Rachael thinks on her feet and contact with her natural family, ever be a part of Rachael's has very good concentration." especially her grandmother, lifestyle—not alcohol, nicotine, Rachael's a natural at barrel who Rachael describes as "very or any other drug. "Being on racing. For the straight-A Arlee special." Rachael flies to South drugs would ruin my Elementary School student, the Carolina twice a year to visit, performance. My mind sport is "just fun." but home is Arlee, Montana. wouldn't be right, so my horse At age five, Rachael was She seems comfortable and wouldn't feel what I'm feeling, adopted by Judy and Gene secure as she speaks of her two the way he does now. We Myllymaki, a childless couple families. She feels loved by couldn't be a team. I won't let who ranched and trained barrel many people who care about anything like that get in my horses in western Montana. her future.

10 • LISTEN • January 1990 PHOTO BY LOUIS BENCZE "What her birth family did "I don't want "We didn't think she would was out of love," Judy explains. maintain in the standings, but When Rachael arrived in anything to inter- she did, so we decided to go to Montana, she'd never been on a the Cow Palace, a prestigious horse. Gene and Judy intro- fere with the California rodeo," say her duced her to riding gradually, communication parents. but it was apparent right from From there, Rachael went to the first that Rachael had a between my the 1988 National Finals Rodeo talent for it. horse and me, in Las Vegas, where she won the She spent the first year in hearts of so many fans. Montana learning to ride, and and our strategy." Returning home after the the next four years learning to National Finals, she won the barrel race. Then Judy championship for her circuit of Myllymaki's father died. likes better ground." Six-year- several states, including "I had a hard time getting old Page doesn't run as well Montana. over his death," Judy says. "We when the ground is torn up Traveling the circuit gave decided to take a trip to help me from many horses running in Rachael the chance to see a lot of get my head straight." So the front of her. The more Page the U.S. and Canada. Among family went on the rodeo circuit, runs, the better she gets. other places, she visited the taking two horses, Jules The sorrel gelding, Julie, is Alamo, Mount Rushmore, and Lightning (Julie), a sorrel leased from a friend. He's more "nearly every water slide west gelding, and Page, the mare. temperamental, but will run of the Mississippi." In competition, Rachael just through any ground. Several What does the future hold for "caught fire." By the end of the years older than Page, Julie has Rachael? "We've got to think trip, she was in the top 15. The a touch of arthritis in one foot about it," she answers. family decided to test the water that must be closely watched. "I'll drive as long as she's a little more. Gene stayed on the "We like taking two horses," winning," Judy adds. ranch while Rachael and Judy says Judy. "It's an awfully long Part of Rachael's winnings go hit the road. In May they went way to travel with all your eggs toward college. She wants to be up to Canada but didn't fare too in one basket." a veterinarian because she loves well. Then Rachael switched "Yes," Rachael agrees. animals. "I don't like to see from Julie to Page and won four "Sometimes one or the other them suffer at all," Rachael says. races in a row. gets hurt or tired." Rachael "I just have a heart for them." After that, they switched back admits that she gets tired too. One of her best friends is Jody and forth between the two When she does, they just back Peterson from Three Forks, horses. The mare came up a off until she wants to go again. Montana. The two girls often little lame after one rodeo, so She knows it's important to stay barrel race together, and Jody's Rachael went back to the rested and strong. family does a lot of roping. gelding and had a fantastic "I don't want anything to Rachael has been spending time Fourth of July. interfere with the communica- with Jody, learning breakaway Rachael devotes a lot of time tion between my horse and me, roping, goat tying, and pole and attention to her horses. She and our strategy." bending. She intends to go to a has a special eight-year-old While on the road, Rachael rodeo-oriented high school and mare at home that she's training reads, rests, and catches up on perhaps win a college scholar- to go on the road next season. homework. But her parents ship. Rachael knows that it's best to drive. Judy stuck with it until Rachael's top priority is allow horses time to rest if August, then called Gene for staying in excellent mental and they're injured or stressed from help. physical condition. This will travel. Hauling two horses has "I was seeing two and three allow her to make tough worked for her. This allows the white lines down the middle of decisions and communicate animals to have their quirks and the road," laughs Judy. "I with her horse in the arena, and their off days without ruining understand what it means to maintain her schoolwork and her chance of winning a race. burn out." social life outside of competi- Rachael describes the gelding Gene took over for four trips tion. and mare she uses now as while Judy stayed home. When "I want to see just how tough unique, with very different school started, the family settled I can be," Rachael says. She styles. "Page is my horse. I use in at the ranch once again. doesn't plan to follow in anyone her when I'm coming out early Rachael was sixth in the national else's bootprints as she takes her in the competition because she standings. steps in rodeo history.

January 1990 • LISTEN • 11 since addict and/or alcoholic thought at one time. o{ beer You've taken the first big step toward recovery by admitting you have a serious rn 15 yeats oXd and %laveasp.tarted been tiSiC104 tax0g skipsCiNgS problem and deciding that you want to %AWN X' co using COCOle stop drug use. I usually advise teens who want to quit drinking or doing drugs to .°4 ias'inithe AXitbX can qv get ad Xt% don't 1.%101k I'M an addict, lather' s O go to their parents, tell them the truth, jost cant seero to doand Xt. don't My Nrbut amy lot 01 till WOO are. X Want tolot 40. aod get and get them to help with the problem. from et go to When cane But your parents sound as if they them- life, ut selves are too involved in substance 1oXY‘s ate no IleXp.Itiel both &OK a abuse to be of much help. on Withcouch attent‘on to NtibatX do.VItieve beiove s too \ate? This makes things harder on you If ot.i ve been nsing, alcohol and othevmy dvnss a'a addict.since in several ways. Since you're a minor, P 10 ov 11 ye ale old, avid have yvosvessedof &cuss to you'll probably need your parents' get help use any at permission to get professional help, usingNNeve cocaie yon ave alMost as well as their financial support if NI 0Ax Ten and adolescents Who you choose to get therapy or need .40A can. become addicted \levy sinclaytbelieve • Viost itlads will Who even iv, fool avonsid wittx dvxisshav eheav d about addicts and to be in a rehabilitation program . V4 ()Pe somewhere. Most rehab pro- rat3.CILI oot happenaddiction to to then.. dvii.ss,but -0(yevimentins 0.01 With digs is grams for adolescents require a can. set yonsself lot of parental involvement. dansevonsAddiction ,lont means being, y on, addicted hav e a isyvoblevvi. that Willbe 05 You have other options, ov e tivne--thinIansticiaty on though. I assume you're still withleaned. y on tovont the and vest so of stvailit, yollt hie but teve' s always the in school. Go to the school M counselor and ask for a list .11 01 tevnytationor1. ttaNkWithlots so back to WI to it ofact-tially one adnIts WINO "nsiv4' ave vecovTevinsasain. addicts. of places where you can get sely help. Narcotics Anony- They all tell me they have nvses to set fix.to evenit y aftev 01 vs oi not doing, dviiss ov dvivl6sis. veallie at mous (NA), a program „I t have a sivnyle yvoblem to similar to Alcoholics and Anonymous (AA), yeato )i.i.st Written. May deyvessaoi- yon.1 offers help and support- solve. It'. Xrecovering addict. Il Have a question about friendships, family relations, drugs and health, or other teenage concerns? Ask a friend—Jack Anders, parent, counselor, and social worker. Address your questions to "Ask a Friend," LISTEN Magazine, 12501 Old Columbia Pike, Silver Spring, MD 20904. Jack is sorry that he cannot answer letters individually. Ideas for Drug-free Clubs Some kids in our group have parents with alcohol and other drug problems. I mean big- time. What can we do to help?

This is a difficult situation to deal with. For family members who are alcoholics or drug some specific advice about parental alcoholism addicts. Millions of kids grow up in an environ- and drug use, see "Ask a Friend," LISTEN, ment like this. Psychologists and child- November 1989, page 14. development specialists are just beginning to As far as your group goes, the following figure out the impact this has on teenagers and program ideas could help all of your members, younger children. not just the kids whose parents have problems. By being a friend, you can help kids realize Ask your school counselor about Al-Anon that they aren't to blame for their parents' and Alateen. These are groups for children and drinking or drug use. You can also urge them to other family members of alcoholics and talk to a school counselor, minister, priest, rabbi, other drug users. They help kids deal with the or other trusted adult about their family confusing feelings of growing up in a home situation. That adult can then help the teenager where alcohol and/or other drugs are used. decide what action to take concerning the Ask a speaker from one of the groups to come parents. The important thing is to reassure the talk to your members about its program and person with the tough home life that he or she resources. While your school counselor may be isn't alone. able to tell you about these programs, inviting Your group probably has a bigger impact an outsider to talk to your group might have than you realize on kids in these situations. more impact than hearing it from someone you You're showing them how to have fun without see in the hall every day. alcohol and other drugs. Many kids whose Also, find out what resources your own parents party with alcohol or other drugs think school district offers. More and more counsel- being drunk or high is the only way to have fun. ing centers and schools sponsor campus You also help them realize that using drugs to support groups for children of alcoholics. Make escape problems or avoid reality doesn't help in sure your members know about this help that daily life. might be available right at school. The combination of special guest speakers Beyond this, you need to be careful. you bring in, activities you offer, and friendship Remember, you are a prevention group. Your you provide is a real plus for kids who struggle function is to help kids say No to alcohol and with parents who drink or use other drugs. Be other drugs. Don't feel like you have to be sure to address this issue during the school counselors too. year. As with most things, simply talking about You personally can be a tremendous it and getting it out in the open are the first encouragement to friends with parents or steps toward healing and hope.

A m y C. Baker

HEADLINE TYPOGRAPHY AND ARTWORK BY CONSUELO UDAVE January 1990 • LISTEN • 13 Snowbody does it better—even 007 could take lessons from these heroes of the slopes. Like lifeguards, National Ski Patrol members bring first-aid care under lift and over mogul to skiers in trouble.

It's a bright, cold midwinter weekdays; adult volunteers runs—skiing each one, Sunday morning in south- who donate their weekends and checking for lost or injured western Idaho. Sixteen-year-old evenings; and junior members, persons, and turning the closed Mike Howell snaps his skis into ages 15 to 18. signs. In between these the car's ski rack and heads up For all three groups, the goal assignments, patrol members the mountain to Bogus Basin is safe skiing conditions. are free to ski or relax as long as Ski Area in Idaho for his shift as Surprisingly, a beautiful winter they stay within their assigned a junior member of the day like today may mean more sector of the mountain. National Ski Patrol. By 8:30 work for patrol members than a But being part of the patrol is a.m. he has checked in at the foggy, snowy one. more than lazy afternoons ski-patrol office, gotten his "If we've had fresh snow and schussing down the slopes. It schedule, and started preparing the weekend is clear, watch takes time, training, and the emergency-care packs for out," says Robert Sox, a first- stamina. "As a patrol member, I the day. year patrol member. "We pick probably spend five to seven Mike, who began skiing at up more accidents on a day like hours skiing while on duty," age three, was one of the "ski today simply because there are says Mike. "I'm up here every babies" that older skiers hate to more people out on the slopes. weekend plus Wednesday see whipping by them on the And fresh snow, even on nights." slopes. "I joined the patrol groomed runs, is more difficult A junior member since 1987, because I like to ski, and I know to ski." Joe Morrow, now 18, has a lot of people on the patrol become a member of the adult because my dad was a On Patrol patrol. "Two years ago the member," he says. A typical day for patrol national junior seminar was Organized in the late 1930s, members is divided into three held here at Bogus," he says. "I the National Ski Patrol System, assigned responsibilities. was up skiing that day and got of which Bogus Basin is a Morning duties might include to talk with junior patrollers member, promotes safe skiing shoveling snow off the from all over the U.S., even and provides local patrol walkways, checking oxygen from other countries. That members trained in cold- tanks and emergency-aid packs, weekend the ski patrol had weather emergency care and or skiing the runs before their skiing tryouts, and I off-slope rescue. Members also opening to check for potential decided to see if I could do it. visit school and club meetings, hazards. Another responsibility "Being a patroller is kind of a putting on programs that is taking a one-hour turn at the status thing," Joe admits. "Kids emphasize safety on the slopes. "hideout," a lookout hut at the at school ask me what they The National Ski Patrol is made top of the mountain. Evening need to do to try out. But up of professionals who are activities consist of closing the you've got to be responsible full-time, paid employees, and go through the training; covering the ski area during Luan Miller you can't just do it halfway. If 14 • LISTEN • January 1990 Above left: Denise Cohen, left, assesses a skier's ability, then points out good runs and powder locations on Bogus Basin's ski map. Above: Richard Buxton and Wendy Heaton dig out a "ski ambulance." Scat- tered over the mountain, these toboggans must be ready for immediate emergency use. On heavy snow days, they might be dug out several times—here, snow is falling at a rate of two inches an hour. Left: Mike Howell and Scott Peralla get on-the-mountain emergency-care practice. Howell plays victim while Peralla gives first aid. Denise Cohen and Wendy Heaton guide the toboggan. there's an emergency, you want National Ski Patrol at Bogus. responsible skiers, not flashy ) to have someone who can help. "They're a hazard to them- ones." I'd hate to see a patroller come selves and other skiers because After passing the ski test, on duty knowing only half the they lose all sense of judgment junior candidates go through an job." and coordination. They're no interview process with half a During his assigned time at fun for anyone; we get them off dozen other patrollers. "They the hideout, between 12:00 and the hill immediately." Today asked us what we thought the 1:00 p.m., Robert monitors the the erratic skiers are just care- patrol was, what we thought radio. Every ski-patrol member less, too busy showing off to we'd be doing on the patrol," carries a small "handie-talkie" notice that they're bothering says Joe. "They also want to to keep in touch with the others. know if you're outgoing and hideout and each other. In case can get along with people. They of a problem, Robert can No Hotdoggers Please want kids who are willing to go contact patrol members for Candidates chosen for patrol out there, meet the people, and assistance. go through extensive training do what needs to be done." From his lookout, Robert to prepare them for the wide Afterward, all candidates spots a couple of skiers moving variety of responsibilities begin an intensive eight-week, erratically and getting in the they'll face while on duty. "A twice-a-week first-aid class. way of other skiers. He radios patrol member must be able to Here they learn how to identify to a patroller in the sector, ski well on any kind of snow, in and treat hypothermia and giving the location. any kind of weather," Bob frostbite, how to administer "We can usually tell when a explains. "You don't have to be CPR, and how to assess and skier is drunk or on drugs," a racer, but you have to be a handle injuries in less than says Bob Sellars, director of the strong skier. We need ideal winter conditions. )... PHOTOS BY ROBERT SOX January 1990 • LISTEN • 15 • .-isek, Above: How to learn empathy—play the victim. Steve Blakesley pretends "injuries" while Scott Peralla and senior trainer Beth Comigore bind up his "wounds" at the scene of the "accident." Above right: Denise Cohen and Wendy Heaton practice taking the toboggan down the slopes. Right: Brian Edgar and Scott Peralla take time out from giving first aid and patrolling the slopes to enjoy the view that rewards those who make it to the top.

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"When an accident or other the first snowfall, patrollers are Junior members take the injury confronts a patroller, he ready for practical rescue work same training and tests as other must be able to evaluate the on the slopes and are the first members. "As ski-patrol situation quickly and make a skiers out, learning the runs members, juniors carry full decision about what to do. inch by inch. As part of their responsibility on the job," says Someone's life may depend on training, candidates may be Bob. "The only things they it," Bob tells candidates. required to handle an off- can't do without supervision Earlier this year a skier left mountain rescue, including a are administer first aid on the the ski park at closing and predetermined accident with slope or toboggan in an injury started driving down the fake injuries. Candidates are alone. Otherwise, they're mountain. Partway down, he expected to assess the situation, expected to live up to the same became ill and turned back to administer necessary first aid, standards as senior members." the patrol offices for help. He and sometimes ski the "victim" "There's a standard they collapsed at the door. down on a toboggan—an want you to follow while on The patroller dispatched to experience probably more patrol," says Joe. "Being the scene realized that the man harrowing to the victim than to responsible is the main thing— was having a massive heart the would-be patroller. coming in when you're needed attack. Other ski-patrol "The training is really good," and helping out. That's the only members preparing to leave for says Robert. "They train you way you'll learn, and you'll the day were called back to until your response is almost discover that the other clear a landing pad for the automatic. And there's always patrollers are all there to help rescue helicopter that flew the experienced backup help if you you if you need it." man to a hospital in Boise, need it. When you do encounter Idaho. Quick diagnosis and an accident, it's different from All Work—Lots of Play response saved the man's life. training because it's real; there's At 2:30 p.m., one of the In the autumn, candidates somebody in pain. That's when chairlifts derails near the first and members alike go through you really appreciate the tower. While management a refresher course and exam. By training." determines the amount of

16 • LISTEN • January 1990 PHOTOS BY ROBERT SOX

myself, do I really want to do the job," Mike says, "is cleaning damage, the ski-patrol captain up the building at the end of dispatches two patrollers to ski this? But I decided, 'What would it hurt to stick with it the day. We ski each run, alongside the broken lift and turning the signs as we go. As reassure skiers. and give it a try?' And now I've been a member for three years. we come down, we call out, Meanwhile, other patrol letting skiers know that the run members stand by in case an Yeah, it was worth it." As dusk settles on the is closing, and we make sure evacuation of the chairlift we're the last ones down." becomes necessary. This would mountain, patrol members begin wrapping up their Then the evening patrol crew involve using a large metal checks in. hook that is fastened to the assigned duties. Some ski the runs to close them for the night, "What's it like out there right towline. Attached by heavy now?" asks one patroller. nylon rope is what looks like a while others fill out reports and log sheets. "The skiing's great!" comes boatswain's chair—a small T- the answer. Fl shaped seat with a crossbar. "One of the duller parts of The chair is carefully lined up next to the lift and a stranded skier slips the seat between his legs and secures himself to the Have You Got What It Takes? crossbar. When the person is Like to ski? I mean secure, the seat gets lowered to really ski? Becoming a member of the the ground. The tedious National Ski Patrol may give you the chance to finally do all process has to be repeated for the skiing you've ever wanted. With a plus. everyone on the lift. Patrol "Becoming a junior ski-patrol member adds a new members breathe a sigh of dimension to skiing," says Beau Parent, a former training relief when word comes that officer at Bogus Basin Ski Patrol in Idaho. "Rather than just going out and playing, you're now playing and the lift has been repaired. service to the public." providing a "Some days it's all skiing; some days it's all work," sighs Junior members must be 15 to 18 years of age and good, what strong skiers. "Someone who can handle himself on just about Robert. "You never know any kind of snow," says Beau. the day will bring." "Some days are really easy," Ski tests for new candidates are usually held in early agrees Joe. "And then there are spring. Ask at any ski patrol office located in the ski area nearest you. If no Junior Ski Patrol program exists yet, maybe the days when it's stormy, the you can help start one. wind is blowing, it's cold, you have to take your gloves off to The number of junior candidates selected each season is work, and you've forgotten intentionally kept small so they get quality experience and your goggles—it's really training. Junior members take the same first-aid and ski miserable." training as regular members. Patrol directors try to get a complete picture of the junior candidates beyond their ability So why do hundreds of to ski. teens and adults across the U.S. "We look for high-school students who are making at least and Canada donate their free passing grades. The ski patrol time each winter to be a ski- does take a lot of time—up to 80 hours of first-aid training, hours of night training getting patrol member? "Skiing!" Mike says quickly. ready for the season, and then the season itself." "Skiing and helping people. All in all, a patroller may spend 200 hours or more on the It's also a good way to meet snow each year. If you're going to be on the patrol team, you girls," he adds. may have to give up some other outside activities. Eddie "Yeah, the skiing is probably Orbea, a member of the team at Bogus Basin and one of only the biggest reason," says Joe. seven of the original members who started with the National Ski Patrol in 1938, gives these final tips: "My skiing ability has advanced a lot, and you get to "Get your act together. We need sharp individuals, ski some of the best places on knowledgeable and sympathetic. When you're a ski patroller, people look up to you; you've got to be in shape mentally and the mountain. Patrol members physically. know where the best powder is. "If you think, 'I'm going to be a patroller and ski for free "When I was going through and impress the gang,' forget it. You'll never make it. Being a patroller isn't just something you the process of the ski test, do; it takes a special kind of person. It takes a combination of skill, common sense, and interview, first-aid classes, all sympathy." that training, I would ask •

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If Freddy Krueger drove a yellow school bus down Elm Street, would you get on? LSD makes Freddy look like a blue-haired old lady behind the steering wheel. Before it totals your mind and body, remember— this is one time when it's better to miss the bus.

Taste the color. See the sound. Messiah and therefore wouldn't with this mind-altering drug. Hear the flavor. get hurt. Police officers in San These sentences illustrate the Francisco, California, say that confusion of a voyage on the The Flashback Drug LSD is becoming more popular LSD express. When describing LSD, which stands for in their area, and they're an LSD trip, users talk about lysergic acid diethylamide, concerned. They know that tasting the color green or seeing attracted a great deal of most of the LSD in the U.S. is the sounds of Beethoven's Fifth attention in the 1960s because manufactured in San Francisco. Symphony. Others say they of its widespread use on college Other states across the nation hear voices when they're high. campuses. But its popularity report increases in LSD use. These hallucinations may faded as users discovered the According to Controlling Drug sound funny, but they can be drug's unpredictable, life- Abuse: A Status Report, a special deadly. One guy says he heard threatening effects. bulletin from the comptroller someone tell him to commit Through the 1970s and early general of the U.S., 691 people suicide, which prompted him 1980s, use of this hallucinogen required emergency-room to break some glass and rip his declined among teenagers. But treatment for LSD use during arm and throat with the jagged researchers Lloyd D. Johnston, the first six months of 1986. edge. He then grabbed a pencil Patrick M. O'Malley, and Jerald That's a marked increase from and tried to stab himself. G. Bachman, at the University the annual total of 805 in 1985 Another teenager ran in front of of Michigan in Ann Arbor, note and 666 in 1984. oncoming traffic. Later he said that recently teenagers have "I was surprised at the he had thought he was the begun dabbling once again number of students who talk

Jolene L. Roehlkepartain

ILLUSTRATION BY KEVIN BEILFUSS January 1990 • LISTEN • 19 about the popularity and like having dreams while the drug to jump out of relative cheapness of that you're awake," says Dr. windows or end up in psychedelic of the 1960s, LSD," Francesco Di Leo, an assistant psychiatric wards. says Chris Lutes. He recently clinical professor of psychiatry LSD causes drug interviewed thousands of at the University of Maryland. dependency even though it teenagers across the nation The National Institute on doesn't produce physical about drug use, and published Drug Abuse warns that LSD withdrawal symptoms. It traps his findings in the book What distorts judgment and reality. It Teenagers Are Saying About causes confusion and panic, Drugs and Alcohol. resulting in strange and violent behaviors. A Powerful Drug LSD is consistently Unlike other drugs, only a unpredictable. Medical small amount of LSD gets a researchers admit they don't user high. Twenty-five completely understand the micrograms—a dose smaller drug and its effects. They do than the size of a pinhead—can know, however, that no two launch an LSD trip. According LSD users will experience the to Midwest Challenge, a drug- same effects while high on the rehabilitation center in drug, because the effect Minneapolis, Minnesota, less depends on the amount taken, than two pounds of pure LSD the user's personality, and the could send the entire user's surroundings. population of New York City LSD trips usually last from 6 tripping. to 12 hours, and not all are Basically, LSD changes pleasant. Some inspire terror, people into thinking they can't sensations. "The net effect is literally causing people high on live without it. As users crave more and more, they take higher doses, dramatically escalating the cost of their addiction. Teenage LSD users generally don't start their drug habit with LSD. Most likely they begin with gateway drugs such as marijuana. That's how Jeff Andrews* of Colorado got into LSD. Sixteen-year-old Jeff no longer takes drugs, but he says he smoked his first marijuana joint at age five, when the brother of a neighborhood friend offered it to him. Jeff didn't smoke marijuana often until he got to sixth grade. Then he started using both marijuana and alcohol regularly. By seventh grade, Jeff says, he "got into just about every drug there was." He took LSD, speed, and cocaine. When Jeff turned 15, he was taking LSD every day. To support his expensive habit, Jeff sold LSD. His weekly $800 in 20 • LISTEN • January 1990 sales all went into buying the drug for himself. A Trip You Don't Want to Take The Attraction When you take LSD, you may find yourself on a road you Today's teens seem unaware didn't want to travel. A bad trip on LSD may dump you off of LSD's dangerous effects, at these destinations: which were well publicized in • Nausea. People using LSD may feel sick to their the 1960s. One out of 10 high- stomachs and get chills. Blood pressure and heart rate school seniors surveyed by the increase, and loss of appetite often occurs. University of Michigan's • Rapid mood swings. A person high on LSD can laugh, Institute for Social Research sob, and fly into a rage within a few seconds. These rapid doesn't know whether the drug mood swings are scary, say young people who have is harmful or not. watched friends high on LSD, because users may become LSD attracts teens because it's suddenly uncontrollable. relatively cheap—a dot can cost • Flashbacks. Users who haven't taken LSD for weeks or about $2.50. Colorless and months may experience recurrences of earlier LSD highs. odorless, it's also easy to One girl says she stopped using LSD after having a conceal. flashback. "It scares you to know that the acid can come Teenagers give three major back and give you a bad trip." Flashbacks can be reasons for taking LSD: to dangerous, especially if you happen to be driving a car at experiment, to get high, and to the time. have a good time with friends. Seventeen-year-old Rob • Suicide. Some people high on LSD say they have felt a Jackson* from North Dakota strong urge to commit suicide. Others jump to their deaths says he started dropping acid in because the drug makes them think they can fly. order to be accepted by his older brother's friends. But after a while, Rob began taking the drug alone and found himself Students who use LSD tend double the first offender's traveling a path to destruction. to be older. In a study of more prison term and fines. "At times I was suicidal," he than 200,000 sixth- to twelfth- Those caught with the drug says. "There were times when I graders, researchers at the at school find themselves with was really reckless. I'd steal Parents' Resource Institute for extra trouble. In Hyattsville, cars. I didn't care if I lived or Drug Education (PRIDE) found Maryland, two 17-year-old died." that three times more teenagers seniors selling LSD on school Rob's initial experience of in senior high have tried property were expelled one taking LSD with friends is hallucinogens than teenagers in month before graduation. common. Young people who junior high. Rob from North Dakota was use LSD rarely do so alone. arrested for LSD possession According to the University of A Bad Ticket and sent to a drug- Michigan survey, only 20 With LSD's growing rehabilitation center. Rob says percent of high-school seniors popularity, states are enforcing he stopped taking drugs and who have used LSD have taken tough penalties for those now has a 3.0 grade-point it when they were by caught with the drug in their average in school. themselves. In comparison, 77 possession. First-time offenders What is Rob's advice to percent have taken the drug can be fined as much as $5,000 teenagers thinking of trying with one or two other people, and thrown in prison for up to LSD? "I would tell them what and 60 percent have used LSD a year. Those arrested a second this drug can do—the harmful at a party. time can be slapped with effects. I'd tell them what I went through, and how I don't think it's cool anymore. I think it's bad." Despite its growing "It scares you to know that the acid can popularity, LSD is still a dangerous, misunderstood come back and give you a bad trip." drug. This hallucinogen may be Flashbacks can be dangerous, especially if a cheap ticket, but the trip isn't worth taking. you happen to be driving a car at the time. * Name has been changed.

January 1990 • LISTEN • 21 Billy Crystal said it, we believe it, and here's how you can make it true. A little time, a bit of practice—presto! In seven days, a new view of you!

Becky held her breath. She more effort. Extend the week by These activities will help you wiped her moist palms on the a few days if you need more get in touch with yourself as a folds of her new skirt. The time. You may want to repeat person. Whether or not you audience stilled, the lights the entire plan several times. A find any family resemblances, dimmed, and she rose from her week of tips can turn into a it's important to see that you're seat to address the whole lifetime of good, confidence- a special, one-of-a-kind person. school with her winning essay building habits. Ready? Even if you're an identical twin, on the city's water-purification Day One: Today you'll learn you own features and system. Would she trip going to to like yourself. That may sound characteristics that are yours the microphone? Would she silly, but what you think of only. "Self-esteem goes up," forget what to say? Would her yourself is very important. Dr. Rudolph says, "when you feel mouth dry out like a desert? Anne Rudolph, a special." Would she drop her note cards? psychotherapist, family Now tell yourself out loud, Becky longed for more con- counselor, and Harvard "I'm a wonderful, worthwhile, fidence. lecturer from upstate New unique person, and I like me!" Tom pretended to feel ill. He York, says, "Self-esteem is the Say this several times aloud thought that skipping reputation you have with and silently throughout the basketball tryouts would be yourself." You can't like day. better than suffering the yourself until you know Day Two: Approve of yourself. humiliation of not making the yourself, so start by spending at Make a "Yes" list by folding a team. least 10 minutes in front of a piece of paper in thirds. Head Kim plodded home from large mirror. the first column "Things I'm school, grabbed a bag of Use a bathroom or bedroom Good At," and list any sports or chocolate-chip cookies, and where you can close the door musical instruments you play, turned on the TV as usual. Shy for privacy. Look at yourself hobbies you enjoy, and talents and somewhat overweight, she full-face and smile your biggest you have. Be honest, but found this routine easier than smile. Turn your head to the remember that you don't have reaching out toward new left and to the right, so you can to be an award winner to add friends and experiences. see how you look from something to your list. Do you ever feel low, a little different angles. Gently smooth Label the second column unsure of yourself? Do you your hands over your cheeks; "Personal Traits," and list all wish it were easier to make touch your eyelashes. Get to the good points of your friends, do better in school, know what you feel like. Is personality. For instance, do have more confidence? If so, your hair glossy, kinky, you have a sense of humor? Are follow this simple, day-by-day smooth? Look into your eyes. you reliable as a baby sitter or plan for feeling better about Are there flecks of green or pet sitter? Are you kind and yourself and your life. gold or white? Are they like caring to family members and Start with Day One and work your mom's? Do you have your friends? This activity might on one tip at a time in the order grandfather's chin? take a while because maybe given. Some tips will seem like you've never thought about fun, and others will require Mary Ann Jefferies what kind of person you are. 22 • LISTEN • January 1990 In the third column, the job, work a little harder, be Psychology. Each time a "Physical Characteristics," a little friendlier to the custo- challenge leads to success, write down all your pleasing mers, show more respect to you'll feel great about yourself. features, such as clear eyes, your boss. In your neighbor- You may even make a new broad shoulders, straight teeth. hood, help an elderly person, friend, and you'll have some- Again, leave out anything mow a lawn, take time to chat thing to add to your "Yes" list. negative. Today we look only at with someone who is lonely, or If today doesn't turn out too positives. Read this "Yes" list offer to baby-sit so a busy well, don't be discouraged. Just several times today and often in mother can have some time to try again tomorrow. the future. Add to it whenever herself. Day Four: Enhance yourself. you like, and always keep it in One of the best ways to feel Today think about improving a safe, private place. good about yourself is to reach your appearance and your use Day Three: Challenge yourself. out to others. "Self-esteem is of time. When you studied Today you'll open yourself to a high when you feel you have a yourself in the mirror on Day new experience at school, on purpose in life," Dr. Rudolph One, you concentrated on your the job, or in your neighbor- explains. positive features. But there are hood. At school, try out for Challenging yourself probably some things about band, debating team, drama involves taking risks. You may yourself you'd like to change. club, track, or any activity fail or feel you'll make a fool of If you're overweight, make you've secretly been longing to yourself. But teens "need to an appointment with your join. Go out of your way to talk know that effort and progress doctor to discuss starting a to a new student, raise your are far more important than sensible weight-loss program. If hand in a class you don't results," says Sandy Moliere, a you lack energy, join an participate in much, or try a certified school counselor with exercise class or start walking new food in the cafeteria. On an M.S. in Educational before school or work every

PHOTO COURTESY OF NBC January 1990 • LISTEN • 23 day. Having a trim, toned, emotions, but to understand Day Six: Be yourself. This healthy body is one of the best what you are feeling and then week you've learned a great ways to feel confident. to take some action to change deal about yourself—your Sometimes a change in hairstyle how you feel. When you physical features, strengths, does wonders for your self- control your emotions rather and weaknesses. You've image. If you get an allowance than let them control you, expanded your outlook and or have a part-time job, start you'll feel great about spent time alone exploring putting money aside for yourself." feelings. Liking yourself and personal grooming. Decide today to root knowing yourself are neces- How do you spend your destructive habits, attitudes, sary to truly being yourself. spare time? Are you in a rut, and feelings out of your life. We Sometimes the pressure to doing the same thing all the can't change others, but we can fit in and be accepted by peers time? Today, after you've change ourselves. It's a difficult can smother the uniqueness of decided how to enhance your task, so start slowly. Set your personality. School appearance, think about how realistic goals and stick with counselor Greg Slyford advises you can make better use of your them. You may need the help of his students, "Don't be afraid time. Turn off the TV and read a professional, your guidance to be yourselves. Cut out role- more. Try a part-time job. Some counselor, minister, priest, playing and be brave enough young people find great rabbi, family doctor, or other to sort out your own likes and satisfaction in volunteering to caring adult. Never feel that dislikes. Reevaluate as you go help illiterate people, or acting you're alone. along, and try not to be mirror as a Big Brother or Big Sister to images of each other at the a lonely child. Dr. Rudolph says expense of your own identity." that self-respect increases Respect Yourself All of us grow up with "when you are significant to family, social, even religious someone who is significant to 1. Like and approve of values that shape our ideas you." Many people need your yourself. Appreciating and choices. Dr. Rudolph time and talents. those qualities and maintains that "when you feel Day Five: Change yourself. characteristics that secure in forming and imple- You've made a "Yes" list and make you special and menting your goals within gained some confidence this unique will give you your own value and belief week. Perhaps you feel brave confidence. system, your self-esteem will enough now to make a "No" 2. Enhance your appear- be high." Wear clothing that list. Write down two or three ance in order to boost suits your style, coloring, and areas in which you need your self-image. body type. Use your talents improvement. Be honest but 3. Make better use of and gifts. Don't hide yourself don't be too hard on yourself— your time for increased in a crowd. nobody's perfect. Maybe you feelings of self-worth. Day Seven: Reward yourself. have a bad habit like 4. Eliminate bad habits, You've completed a overeating, arguing, nail biting, attitudes, and feelings. demanding week, so be good sulking, or smoking. Maybe You can't change to yourself. Go on a special you have a poor attitude about others, but you can outing with a friend, take a a certain person or situation. change yourself into a nature walk, or have a hot Are you holding a grudge or better person. fudge sundae. According to being deliberately selfish or 5. Keep your mind open Dr. Rudolph, you're a special stubborn? to new ideas and person who deserves special "Take time alone," suggests experiences. Chal- treatment. Rewarding yourself Glenda Baker, writer and lenges help us grow. can help you learn to identify creator of a women's workshop 6. Get help from and satisfy some of your own called "Creating Your Own professionals and other needs—a big step toward Self-Esteem." caring adults when life independence and maturity. She says, "Ask yourself gets tough; you're This week of simple tips can 'What am I really feeling?' You never alone. turn into a lifetime plan for may realize that you are sad, 7. Reward yourself self-confidence and positive guilty, angry, jealous, or occasionally—you'll thinking. Find a balance anxious. Your emotions directly learn to identify and between seeking who you will influence the image you have of satisfy some of your become and trusting in who yourself. The important thing is own needs. you already are. That's the key not to deny or repress your to growing up successfully. ! 24 • LISTEN • January 1990 EIA "11-;_ _ (; . : •

r. "14 Starting is the hardest; Once you made her, Once the misery begins it never ends. Now you must leave her. The hill is steep, and it gets steeper. Two young people forgot to stop and Finding strength you burst ahead think with a blast of energy. that the cry in the nursery Moving up becomes harder. would stop needing them. Your heart beats faster. That a cry would stop meaning they Your body perspires. had to go running. Helplessly losing hope you stop, She is not an extension of you Beginning again at your own pace! like a third hand that —Tania Rinaldi automatically carries out what Toronto, Ontario it is signaled to do in your brain. She is a different person, who did not ask for life VAskier but was granted it. A gift cannot be given and held onto *sow ? simultaneously. What are words? Once you made her, Letters of no meaning, now you must leave her. forming on a liar's lips. —Lorette C. Thiessen What are words? Niagara on the Lake, Ontario One man's promise, Another man's deception. What are words? A voice that has the power to make or break one's soul. Each month, LISTEN magazine looks for What are words? short, well-written, thought-provoking manuscripts from teenage writers. The Nothing! subject may be anything that interests Words are nothing. teenagers. Limited space lets us print only a Words mean nothing. few of the best entries, but if we print your poem (no longer than 20 lines, please), you'll Words feel nothing. receive a $10 prize. The author of a printed Words explain nothing. story or essay (300-500 words) is awarded $15 Nothing! to $20. Address your submissions to . . . Except what you make them. "Graffiti," LISTEN Magazine, 12501 Old Columbia Pike, Silver Spring, MD 20904. Be —Rachel S. Lacow sure to tell us your age, and always include a Kennesaw, Georgia self-addressed, stamped envelope.

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