Reborn in Adversity - Memoir Excerpt and Review of Resiliency Research: Risks and Traits Alina Patterson [email protected]
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Rollins College Rollins Scholarship Online Master of Liberal Studies Theses 2013 Reborn in Adversity - Memoir Excerpt and Review of Resiliency Research: Risks and Traits Alina Patterson [email protected] Follow this and additional works at: http://scholarship.rollins.edu/mls Part of the Child Psychology Commons, and the Nonfiction Commons Recommended Citation Patterson, Alina, "Reborn in Adversity - Memoir Excerpt and Review of Resiliency Research: Risks and Traits" (2013). Master of Liberal Studies Theses. 43. http://scholarship.rollins.edu/mls/43 This Open Access is brought to you for free and open access by Rollins Scholarship Online. It has been accepted for inclusion in Master of Liberal Studies Theses by an authorized administrator of Rollins Scholarship Online. For more information, please contact [email protected]. Reborn in Adversity A Project Submitted in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirements for the Degree of Master of Liberal Studies by Alina Patterson May, 2013 Mentor: Dr. Sharon Carnahan Reader: Dr. Patricia Lancaster Rollins College Hamilton Holt School Master of Liberal Studies Program Winter Park, Florida Reborn in Adversity By Alina Patterson May, 2013 Project Approved: ________________________________________ Mentor ________________________________________ Reader ________________________________________ Director, Master of Liberal Studies Program ________________________________________ Dean, Hamilton Holt School Rollins College Abstract: Resiliency Memoirs (Idiographic Approach) Reborn in Adversity describes the journey one young girl makes as she seeks to self-actualize amidst multiple risk factors or packages. Raised in an abusive, hypocritical, and assaultive family, the author is faced with crisis after crises along each milestone of life. Once she leaves her abusive family, the risks and crises multiply in magnitude and number. In this journey she exhibits multiple resiliency traits that allow at risk children to rebound from adversity. She does more than rebound, as she is convinced that she has become a “better person” than she would have been had she not been tested and tried at so many levels in so many ways. With the assistance of surrogates, mentors, spirituality, education, and more she learns to adapt to the crises and grow from them. Her life story is an example of thriving in adversity, and it provides insights into how she was able to resist succumbing to risk and be true to her self. Lyrics: Independent Study Island Child Album Lyrics Song 1: Won’t Obey -- This song is about a child who refuses to let abuse kill her spirit. Song 2: Come to Me -- Dreaming about real love Song 3: Follow the Signs -- When all the doors are closed, what is one to do? Song 4: Can’t Hear a Word --I can’t hear a word you say, your actions speak so loudly. Song 5: Celebrate Life -- Celebrate the bounty of life! Song 6: Legacy -- You live on in me and you are part of me. Song 7: Island Child -- We are your guardians and you are not alone. Song 8: Where?-- Where have all my grandchildren gone? Song 9: Charisonic Forces -- I found the power to live through supernatural elements. Abstract: Resiliency Memoirs (Nomothetic Approach) This review accompanies an autobiography, Reborn in Adversity , which was completed as a creative work in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the Master of Liberal Studies Degree at Rollins College. In the “Review of Resiliency Research: Risks and Traits,” I provide a nomothetic approach, summarizing work on risk and resilience across the research field, looking for areas of agreement on definitions, causes, and treatments. This Thesis Submission includes Three Parts: Part I: The first 51 pages of the memoir “Reborn in Adversity” including the table of contents for the entire book. Copyright © Charison Inc., 2013 Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs License Inquiries for the rest of the book may be directed to [email protected] . Part II: Appendix A of “Reborn in Adversity” which includes the song lyrics to the album Island Child scheduled for release by Charison Inc. in 2013. Copyright © Charison Inc., 2013 Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs License Part II also includes an excerpt of Appendix B: Discussion Questions. The questions related to the first 51 pages of the memoir are provided. Part III: “Review of Resiliency Research: Risks and Traits” PART I of THESIS SUBMISSION The first 51 pages of the memoir “Reborn in Adversity” Copyright © Charison Inc., 2013 Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs License ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS Somewhere along my life, I lost my voice, my most precious inner self. Although I want to thank all the people who helped me in my life, and especially thank God for being ever present, I must start out with the people who helped me speak. First most, there is Rollins Writing Coach Linda Hargreaves. An expert English instructor, she has not only helped coach me in expressing myself, but she has given me priceless emotional and spiritual support to finally tell my story. She believes in me and that can’t ever be minimized. Thank you. Secondly, Dr. Patricia Lancaster encouraged me to write my memoir as part of my thesis. She saw value in my story. Because of her prompting, I took many classes and began to aim towards writing this work. She graciously helped me fine tune the story as my second reader. Along the journey several professors helped ignite my spirit as I began to express myself: Dr. Joseph Siry, Dr. Patrick Powers, Dr. Robert Smither, and most importantly, Dr. Sharon Carnahan. Thank God for her patience, great wisdom, and guidance. The first class I took from her she commented that I was one of “those kids.” I didn’t know what that meant, but I came to learn that I belong to a group of children who are considered resilient. Suddenly all my suffering, life lessons, and behaviors had a framework that helped me cognitively restructure my memories. A light bulb didn’t go off: It was more of a supernova. I studied about “those kids” and came to understand myself. I also came to understand how to tell my story, because although I have been victimized, I am not a “victim.” So thank you Dr. Carnahan and all my Rollins professors. You are treasures of great worth. Deepest in my spirit lies my musical voice. It has been hidden over the years because of abuse and the negativity of others. One day I dared venture over to the music building at Rollins and plead to join some of the classes. As a non-music major, their interest in helping me was thrilling and life changing. Professor Daniel Flick taught me song writing, and he is the best stage brother a woman could hope for. He tells me that I can do it. He encourages me, picks me up, dusts me off, and encourages me some more. My vocal coaches have been equally wonderful, and they have had to endure watching me cry with tears of release as I have broken through so much of the past. My current Rollins vocal coach Christina Carter of Carter Vocal Studio has never failed to indulge me for just a moment and then press me further with twinkling eyes and smile. Then my piano instructor, Dr. Heather Mitchell! She is so full of life and enthusiasm it intoxicates me and fosters the passion I have for music. Together these three, Professor Flick, Christina, and Dr. Mitchell have helped me write and develop an album of musical memoirs. This album is filled with key themes along my journey. The album includes a song that says a person’s actions speak so loudly I can’t hear a word, and another song that thanks my surrogates. All nine songs are available on an album called Island Child due to be released in 2013 by Charison Inc., and the lyrics are included in Appendix A of this book. I have so many more to acknowledge besides my Rollins College professors, but I shall not name them all to protect all my surrogates and friends. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I love you Laila, Sobhi, Rita, Issam, Seenu, Venilla, Linda, Tarran, Augustine and so many others. My surrogates are from all over the world and that is the island where I live, an island in the cosmos: earth. I also thank my three children. Without you I would not have tried so hard and found a way to a better life. I love you all so much. I have no favorites amongst you because you are all special in your own ways. I share the legacy of the best surrogates I could find and continue to invest that in your lives. Let the love keep flowing and let’s all rise above the pain. Love, Mom. CONTENTS ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS FORWARD Sharon Carnahan, Ph.D. i GUIDES FOR DISCUSSION ii Resiliency Traits iii INTRODUCTION v CHRONOLOGY TABLE xii PART ONE: SOUL CRIES FROM THE ABYSS 1 1. Buried Alive Age: 34, Tallahassee, FL (1994) 1 PART TWO: DARKNESS ENVELOPS THE WORLD 4 2. The Power of Revenge Age: 39, (Jail) Tallahassee, FL (1999) 4 3. Raised in Darkness Ages: 0-2, Olympia, WA (1960-62) 12 PART THREE: THE WILL TO FLY 20 4. “Foolish” Resolve Age: 39, (Jail) Tallahassee, FL (1999) 20 5. Downy Wings Age: 9, Salem, OR (1969) 28 6. Hide and Seek Age: 9, Salem, OR (1969) 32 7. A Heavenly Wind Ages: 9-13, Salem, OR (1969-73) 35 8. A Question of Parenting Ages: 9-10, Salem, OR (1969-70) 40 9. Too Many Secrets to Keep Age: 9, Salem, OR (1969) 48 10. Learning to Face Challenges Ages: 6-13, Salem, OR (1966-73) 51 PART FOUR: IMPRINTING and INSTINCT 55 11. Life in Maximum Security Age: 39, (Jail) Tallahassee, FL (1999) 55 12.