Mother's Agenda Vol. X 1969 Translated from French Institut de Recherches Evolutives This book was first published in France under the title L'Agenda de Mère — 1969 © Institut de Recherches Évolutives, Paris. 1981 Rendered into English under the direction of Satprem This Agenda... is my gift to those who love me MOTHER Table of Contents January January 1, 1969 January 4, 1969 January 8, 1969 January 15, 1969 January 18, 1969 January 22, 1969 January 25, 1969 January 29, 1969 February February 1, 1969 February 5, 1969 February 8, 1969 February 12, 1969 February 15, 1969 February 19, 1969 February 22, 1969 February 26, 1969 March March 1, 1969 March 8, 1969 March 12, 1969 March 15, 1969 March 19, 1969 March 22, 1969 March 26, 1969 March 29, 1969 April April 2, 1969 April 5, 1969 April 9, 1969 April 12, 1969 April 16, 1969 April 19, 1969 April 23, 1969 April 26, 1969 April 30, 1969 May May 3, 1969 May 7, 1969 May 10, 1969 May 14, 1969 May 17, 1969 May 21, 1969 May 24, 1969 May 28, 1969 May 31, 1969 June June 4, 1969 June 11, 1969 June 25, 1969 June 28, 1969 July July 2, 1969 July 5, 1969 July 12, 1969 July 19, 1969 July 23, 1969 July 26, 1969 July 30, 1969 August August 2, 1969 August 6, 1969 August 9, 1969 August 16, 1969 August 20, 1969 August 23, 1969 August 27, 1969 August 30, 1969 September September 3, 1969 September 6, 1969 September 10, 1969 September 13, 1969 September 17, 1969 September 20, 1969 September 24, 1969 September 27, 1969 October October 1, 1969 October 8, 1969 October 11, 1969 October 12, 1969 October 15, 1969 October 18, 1969 October 22, 1969 October 25, 1969 October 29, 1969 November November 1, 1969 November 5, 1969 November 8, 1969 November 12, 1969 November 15, 1969 November 19, 1969 November 22, 1969 November 26, 1969 November 29, 1969 December December 3, 1969 December 6, 1969 December 10, 1969 December 13, 1969 December 17, 1969 December 20, 1969 December 24, 1969 December 27, 1969 December 31, 1969 January January 1, 1969 There’s a frightful crush! And even as it is, I don’t see half of the people who’ve asked to see me. I started at 8 this morning... without stop. That’s not too good! It’s certainly less than half of what I’ve been asked. But naturally, there has to be a limit, otherwise it would start all over again as it was before. There was a time when I had only two hours for sleep and when I pretended to eat... but... One can do that for a time, but not for too long. It’s not the physical work that tires, it’s what people add. With some, after five minutes you feel as if everything is about to break apart; with others it’s fine. With most people, I must say, what’s tiring is above all an “ignorant solicitude”: people who have all this thought that they “shouldn’t tire,” shouldn’t do this, shouldn’t do that – that’s quite oppressive. But otherwise, when they are tranquil and receptive, it’s not tiring at all, not at all. But the medical atmosphere is dangerous. It’s VERY dangerous. (silence) Do you have any news of P.L.?1 He wrote that he was abruptly leaving for [such and such a country]. What time is it? Quarter past eleven. Shall we be quiet for ten minutes? (meditation) Last time, I told you about that “morbid imagination” the body had – completely gone, finished, cleaned out! The moment the body reacted by saying, “No, it’s disgusting, what’s that!” – gone. That’s what is so remarkable with this body: in the vital, in the mind, you have to do things over and over again for the experience to be established; the body is less prompt in opening itself, but once it has understood or has had the right experience, it’s over, the thing is established. That’s what is remarkable. And it’s very tranquil. So then, when certain things tried to come back (even when they were some distance away, just on the periphery), it said, “Ah, no! I no longer want that, it belongs to the past.” 1The disciple of the Roman Curia (see Agenda IX). Certainly, according to the present experience, the majority – the vast majority – of illnesses and bodily disorganizations come from the vital and the mind, from their influence. (silence) Recently, I got a letter, I forget from whom or where, but it was from someone in Europe, someone who saw my vital being, and someone else who saw my mental being. You know that they have been sent away (they go on working, seeing people, going and coming...). So that person saw it as I myself know it (which surprised me, because generally people change the appearance according to their own conception). She saw me, she knew it was me, and it was a tall warrior – a very tall warrior with an ancient costume, holding a halberd. It’s the first time. Yes, I know who it is. She told me her vision, I met her. She is an Italian who has visions of you that are extraordinary. She often tells me extraordinary things. She lives in you in a manner that... I’ve never seen anyone live in you like that. Oh!... Is she still here? She arrived two weeks ago. Her name is F. Oh, F.... For a while she couldn’t see anymore physically, so that has developed the inner vision. A diamond warrior, she said. Yes, that’s it. Oh, it has an extraordinary power on the vital atmosphere. I have seen it since I was quite small – I noticed it before knowing anything outwardly, before anyone explained it to me. And I saw it LEFT TO ITSELF, that is to say, without the intervention of all ideas and all that.... Strange. And invincible... (how should I put it?), it cannot be affected in any way: it doesn’t receive from outside, it receives only from the psychic consciousness, or directly from the supreme Consciousness. And now it’s going about here and there! (Mother laughs) These two, the vital and the mind, care very little – very little – for the body’s well-being: it’s merely an instrument meant to be used, and it just has to obey But the body feels much freer than before. That’s one of the reasons why they were sent away, it’s not merely to go faster – we said it was for the speed of the work, but it’s not merely that, it’s because the body left to itself has so much more practical common sense.... I don’t know how to explain. An extraordinary STABILITY. The only thing in it that was a little morbid was this physical mind, the body-mind, which Sri Aurobindo regarded as impossible to change – it was very stubborn, but you see, it’s the one that has done the work, it has worked out the change. It had that habit of imagination, but it’s over, I mean it’s now like this (Mother brings down her hands in a gesture of authority), it’s the master. It has interesting possibilities.... Very patient, very patient. Very steady.2 (the clock strikes) Oh, there would be mountains of things to say, but we’ll see later (Mother peers at the clock hidden by 2Italics denote words spoken or written by Mother in English. a stack of letters on top of which she has placed two flowers called “Prosperity”). Now, see, the “prosperity” hides the time from me! So... (Mother laughs) So, a happy new year, mon petit! (Satprem lays his forehead on Mother’s knees) Yes, there was... It came slowly in the night, and this morning when I woke up, there was a golden Dawn, as it were, and the atmosphere was very light. The body felt, “Oh, it’s really... truly new.” A light, golden Light and... benevolent. Benevolent in the sense of a certitude – a harmonious certitude.3 It was new. So there. When I say “Happy new year” to people, that’s what I pass on to them. And this morning, I’ve spent my time like that, spontaneously saying, “Happy new year, happy new year....” So... January 4, 1969 (Mother gives roses to Satprem, then breathes in the smell of a bunch of small yellow flowers4 near her.) It smells nice! It’s for my own satisfaction. These, and the “New Birth,”5 oh, these two fragrances are so clean.... (Pointing to the bunch of daisies) This is “Simple Sincerity” You know, a sincerity that doesn’t make any fuss! So what are you bringing me? Nothing, Mother. Nothing... 3Strangely, this year 1969 will be simultaneously marked by a general appeasement in international relations (few years have been so “peaceful” since World War II) and by the surfacing, around Mother, of a general wave of bad will and darkness. As though the safety valve were there. This is the year when the “haste [in the disciples] for it to be over” Mother will soon mention will begin to manifest. Nineteen sixty-nine is the dark turning point... and luminous at the same time. 4Hymenantherum, small yellow daisies. 5Origanum vulgare, marjoram. On the 1st, something really strange took place.... And I wasn’t the only one to feel it, a few people felt it too.