One Hundred to One (Second Edition)
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ONE HUNDRED TO ONE (SECOND EDITION) SIMON RACKHAM COPYRIGHT © SIMON RACKHAM 2000 A BIG THING IS BETTER UNDISPUTEDLY SO NO EVERY THING IS DISPUTABLE YES THAT MUCH I GIVE ME SO SOON INTRODUCED NEVER TOO EARLY IN MY BOOK NOT THAT THIS IS BUT WHO IS IT OR WHO ARE THOSE WHO MAKE UP THE RULES THE RULERS OR THEM THEM WHO LOVE TO BE RULED NOT THAT THERES A DIFFERENCE ANY WAY IS OK BY ME OK VERY STRANGE ANY WAY ANYHOW ONE AND ONE STILL EQUALS TWO WHATEVER YOU OR THOSE HAVE TO SAY OF IT DONT BE SO SURE SONNY JIM FACTION IS WEIRDER THAN EVEN THEY CAN IMAGINE OR THINK OF WHO EVER THEY BE THEM ALL THE REST OF YOUS LOT PUT TOGETHER YES THAT INCLUDES YOU TOO AND YOUR TYPE IVE SEEN EM ALL SPARKLY BIG BIRD EYES AND ALL THE REST TO BOOT DONT THINK I DIDNT NOTICE CAUSE I DID SEE I SAW NOW BETTER THAN NEVER SO WHAT AND WHO DO I REALLY THINK CARES NOT THAT IT MATTERS A JOT WHAT ANYONE OR EVERYONE ELSE THINKS OR EVEN WANTS WHY WORRY NOT MY PROBLEM THEIRS NO NOT EVEN NOBODIES EXCEPT POSSIBLY BUSY BODIES AND THEY CAN GO JUMP IN A LAKE OR ELSE FORGET IT HERE IS THE CORRECTION THE MISSING PAGE WHERE THINGS ARE AS THEY ARE AND WILL BE NOT BETTERED NO NOT BOTHERED YES BETTER IT COULD HAVE BEEN BUT WHATS THE POINT I ASK YOU ON AND ON AGAIN RAMBLING DOWNWARD DROPPING MY DS IN THE DARK GETTING PROGRESSIVELY SMALLER BIT BY BIT SLOWLY DISAPPEARING NEVER NOT GONE TOO QUICK OR COMPLETELY TIL NOTHING BUT A MUSH IM GUESSING CAUSE I REALLY DONT NO YET AND WONT TIL I GET WHERE IVE SET OUT TO BE BUT BY GOLLY ILL SWIFTA**E MY WAY THERE SOONER OR LATER ALL IN GOOD TIME WITH A HEY AND A HO ILL GET WHERE I CHOOSE TO GO LIKE WATER DRIP DRIPPING AWAY BUT THE OPPOSITE IN A WAY MORE AND MORE NEEDED TO FILL THE SAME SPACE MORE WORDY INK BLOTS TO DO THE SAME JOB MORE OR LESS INK I REALLY CANT SAY AND PROBABLY WOULDNT IF I EVEN COULD ITS A SHAME ALL THIS WORK WONT PRODUCE SOMETHING NICER A PRETTY PICTURE OR SOME NICE SMUDGY PAINTING OF A CHUBBY NUDE LADY OR BETTER A BOTTLE OR APPLE AS IF THERE WERE SOME KIND OF DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THINGS LIKE THEM ALL IS ALIKE LIKE IT OR NOT NOT THAT YOUD NOTICE UNLESS YOUD THOUGHT ABOUT IT OR TRIED IT ON FOR SIZE FOR SURE THE ONLY DIFFERENCE IS THE NAME OR THE LOOK OF IT THESE WORDS DECREASING BEFORE YOU ARE AS GOOD AS ILL MANAGE AT THE MOMENT IM WELL OUT OF PRACTICE OF COURSE IT TAKES TIME TO GET BACK TO FULLY FULL MENTAL HEALTHINESS LIKE WITH ANYTHING YOUVE GOTTA KEEP YOUR HAND IN PRACTICE YOUR SCALES AND ARPEGGIOS IF YOU WANT TO BLOW YOUR OWN TRUMPET LOUD AND CLEAR AS A BELL RING OUT THE GOOD NEWS THE GOSPEL ACCORDING TO THIS FINGERER FUMBLING ON BUMBLING BADLY INTO THE SHRINKING AVAILABLE EMPTINESS THIS MUST BE PAGE FORTY ONE NOT THAT MANY LEFT BUT ONLY BEGINNING ONLY BEGUN ONLY SCRATCHING THE SURFACE BUT ALREADY BORED OF THE GAME AFTER ALL I THINK I KNOW HOW IT ENDS AS EVERYTHING ELSE ENDS A BIG JUICY FULL STOP AND THEN NOTHING NO THINKING OR EVEN BEING OR HAVING BEEN NO NOT EVEN NOTHING TOO MUCH TO HOPE FOR FOR THE WORD IS THE THING THAT ITS PRETENDING NOT TO BE THE SOILED PAGE IS THE EVIDENT REMNANT OF THOUGHT THE SLIME OF THE SNAIL THAT HAS GONE WHIZZING INTO THE FUTURE BUMPING ITS NOSE ON THE EDGE OF TIME AS WE ALL DO EVERY DAY WITHOUT FEELING OR THINKING EXCEPT MAYBE WHEN DREAMING THE CONSCIOUSNESS OF THE SLEEPER SUSPENDED IN HIS OR HER HEAVEN OR HELL OR HALF WAY BETWEEN GOOD AND BAD THE BRAIN RUNNING THE SHOW CONTROLLING THE BREATH AND THE BLOOD AND THE REST OF IT EVERYTHING THAT CONSTITUTES THE STUFF OF THE BODY THE RED AND THE YELLOW THE BLACK AND THE BROWN AS THE MIND FLOATS FREE OR IMAGINES IT DOES CAUSE FREEDOM IS ONLY REAL IN THE IMAGINATION OF ONE WHO IS REAL THE VOID IN THE GLASS OR THE SPACE BETWEEN WORDS THE IMAGINARY SILENCE OF THE DEAD BRAIN GNAWED BY THE NEXT GENERATION THOSE FISHING BAIT TYPES WHO HATCH OUT IN THE MINDS OF THE GONE OR THE HAS BEENS OR WERE WHATEVER ANYWAY NOW IM HERE EXACTLY HALF WAY BETWEEN THE BIGGEST AND SMALLEST HOW I GOT HERE IS OF NO INTEREST ANYMORE ITS OVER AND DONE WITH FINISHED AND GONE A PREVIOUS PAGE OF EXISTENCE NOW STRETCHES BEFORE ME THE GREAT UNKNOWN AND UNKNOWABLE THE DESERTED LANDSCAPE OF POSSIBILITY ALL THAT MAY POSSIBLY BE ALL I NEED DO IS CONTINUE THE SAME AS BEFORE EXACTLY THE SAME BUT MUCH MORE OF IT LITTLE BY LITTLE STEPPING OVER THE HORIZON WITH WHATS PAST RECEDING UNSEEN BEHIND ME INCHING MY IMPERIAL WAYWARD WAY DAY BY DAY DOWN TO ONE OF POSSIBLE BILLIONS OF ENDS EVERY CHOICE FROZEN BY HAVING BEEN CHOSEN UNABLE TO CHANGE WHAT HAS ALREADY BEEN AND UNABLE TO PREDICT WHAT WILL BE NO NEWTONIAN NONSENSE CAN HELP IN THIS VIRTUAL WORD WORLD THIS REALM OF THE SENTENCES SLOWLY EACH LETTER FALLS INTO PLACE A NEW BRICK THE GLASS WALL IM BUILDING IN FRONT OF ME LIKE SOME OLD TELEGRAPHER AIMLESSLY TAPPING OUT THE RHYTHM OF A BADLY REMEMBERED MUSIC HALL DITTY NEVER MIND EVEN BAD THINGS HAVE THEIR DAY AS OLD DOGS HAVE HAD THEIRS THE PROCESS IS THE ONLY EXCUSE WORTH THE NAME THE FACT OF THE DOING THE RESULT OF THE RACE SO MANY HUMAN HOURS HAVE BEEN SQUANDERED THESE WAYS IF I HADNT DONE IT THEN 1 MAYBE IT WOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN AND EVERYTHING THAT IS NEEDS TO BE I CANT COPE WITH THE IMPLICATIONS OF THOUGHTS ITS NOT MY JOB THIS IS APPARENTLY AS IS ITS OPPOSITE YES DELETING IS EQUALLY CREATIVE NOT A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THEM THE ACTIONS THE SAME FROM A DISTANCE ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO CHOOSE ONE FROM ONE ONLY ONE WORD STANDS OUT WHEN YOU LOOK AT THE SEA TRUTH IS NOT IMPORTANT IN THIS ACTION IS REVEALING NEW NUMBERS FIRST ONE AND THEN TWO THEN TWO SUPERSEDED BY THREE AD INFINITUM TIL NUMBERS RUN OUT OR THE UNIVERSE RUNS OUT OF PEOPLE TO COUNT THEM THEM DONT BE SILLY THEM AS IF THEY WERE THINGS YES THEY CAN BE A TEN CAN BE HELD IN THE PALM OF YOUR HAND OR LIFTED AND STUCK TO THE CEILING THE NUMBER OF TENS IS EQUALLY INFINITE NO I CANT ACCEPT THAT THAT PROFOUNDLY HUMAN CONCEPTION OF FOREVER FOREVER STOPS AT THE END AS DOES THE BEGINNING NO CIRCLES OR METAPHYSICS FOR ME AND THAT MEANS FOR EVERYONE STOP CHANGE COURSE I DONT WANT TO RUN AGROUND IN THE SHALLOW WATERS OF REASON FULL SAIL SOUTHWARD OR WHICHEVER WAY THE WIND WHISTLES LOUDEST TACKING OUT OF TROUBLE OR AWAY FROM THE ROAR OF THE STORM HEADING FOR HOME IN THE ONLY AVAILABLE DIRECTION FOLLOWING THE PATH OF LEAST RESISTANCE LIKE ANY GOOD DROPLET WORTH ITS SALT A TEAR DRYING ON THE CHEEK OR DRIPPING TO THE FLOOR TO BE SUCKED INTO THE DUST THE DUST OF THIS ROOM FOR EXAMPLE HOW MANY WEEPING WOMEN WOULD BE NEEDED TO CLEAN THESE WINDOWS WHAT COULD INSPIRE ENOUGH GRIEF TO MOP UP THESE LAYERS OF HISTORY THAT SURROUND ME THAT ARE STILL PARTLY ME ME AS I USED TO BE OH HOW IVE CHANGED HOW MANY CUSHIONS COULD HAVE BEEN STUFFED WITH THE HAIR THAT IVE WASTED HAS ANYONE EVER HAD THE FORESIGHT TO KEEP EVERYTHING OF THEMSELVES THAT ITS POSSIBLE TO KEEP OF COURSE YOUR PARENTS ARE THE ONES TO BLAME IF THEY DIDNT START HOARDING THE REMAINS OF YOU FROM THE START HOW MANY SACKS OF SKIN COULD YOU HAVE NOW TO ADMIRE HOW MANY METRES OF CURLED UP NAIL TRIMMINGS NOT TO MENTION MOUNTAINS AND RIVERS OF WASTE OH WELL ITS TO LATE TO SPILL MILK ON BUT IT MAKES YOU THINK DOESNT IT NOT THAT ANYONE REQUIRES A REASON TO DO THAT THAT CANNOT BE NOT DONE NEVER MIND ONE THOUSAND THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DONE AND HOWEVER MANY IS NEEDED TO GO DONT YOU KNOW TRA LA LA HEAD DOWN AND PRESS ON LITTLER AND LITTLER ALL ONE WAY TRAFFIC HARDLY NOTICEABLE UNLESS YOU COMPARE ONE WITH TWENTY OR TWENTY WITH THIS ONE FOR EXAMPLE OR THE FIRST WITH THE LAST BUT TO BE HONEST AT THE MOMENT THIS IS THE LAST AS THE LAST WAS THE LAST BEFORE THIS ONE WAS FOLLOWING ON LOGICALLY METHODICALLY TREADING A NEW PATH THROUGH THE CRISP LIGHT OF BLANK EMPTINESS ALWAYS THE SAME THING SAID SLIGHTLY DIFFERENTLY ENDLESS PERMUTATIONS OF WORDY ARRANGEMENTS I LOVE YOU BYE BYE ETC STAPLE DIET OF MEANING ALWAYS SEEMING THE SAME BUT NEVER COMPLETELY UNDERSTOOD UNDERSTANDING CONSTANTLY VARIABLE DEPENDING HOW YOUR SOFT MACHINES WORKING OR WHAT TIME OF DAY OR ANY AND EVERY OTHER CONCEIVABLE VARIANT HARDLY PERCEPTIBLE MINUTE NUANCES REGISTERED UNAWARE THEN TRANSLATED THROUGH CHEMICAL MAGIC TO FEELING HOLD ON SOMETHING SEEMS NOT QUITE RIGHT HERE SEEMS IS THE WORD THOUGH SEEMS DOESNT NECESSARILY MEAN IS THOUGH USUALLY DOES CAUSE THE GREY MATTER IS SMARTER THAN EVEN THE WILL TO CONTROL IT IT WILL NOT BE CONTROLLED AS IT IS THE CONTROLLER TAUTOLOGICALLY SPEAKING AS EVERYONE MUST BECAUSE ITS ALL BEEN SAID NO THAT CANT BE RIGHT NOT EVERYTHING CAN HAVE BEEN SAID ONLY THE WORDS THAT ALREADY EXIST HAVE BEEN SAID ALL THE OTHERS REMAIN UNMENTIONED AND UNKNOWN AND THEREFORE UNSAID THE WORLD WAS A DIFFERENT PLACE BACK AT THE TIME BEFORE WORDS WERE THE GOOD OLD DAYS BEFORE IMAGINATION WAS EVEN IMAGINED AND THEN WHEN IT WAS HOW LONG MUST HAVE PASSED BEFORE SOME BRIGHT SPARK THOUGHT OF CALLING IT SOMETHING AND PUTTING A NOOSE ROUND THE FUTURE OF THOUGHT IS IT POSSIBLE TO THINK OF IT BEING ANOTHER WAY DEVELOPING DIFFERENTLY YES POSSIBLE TO THINK OF IT BUT NOT TO CHANGE IT YES POSSIBLY EVEN THAT WHAT WITH EVERYTHING BEING RELATED TO EVERYTHING ELSE SO TO CHANGE HISTORY TOO I DONT SEE WHY NOT NO IT CANT BE BECAUSE SOMETHINGS CANNOT BE CHANGED BUT SOMETHINGS CAN SO WHY NOT EVERYTHING POSSIBLY EVERYTHING CAN NOW IM DIZZY FROM TWISTING AND POINTLESSLY TURNING AND ID RATHER RETURN TO A MORE INTERESTING BIT BACK THERE WHERE IS IT OH YES NOW I SEE DEVELOPING DIFFERENTLY MAYBE NOT TAKING THE YOKE OF IT AND PROUDLY WEARING IT TIL WE GOT CHOKED BY IT BUT USING IT BETTER WITHOUT ALL THE BAGGAGE ACCOMPANYING SO INSTEAD OF SPEAKING WE WERE SAY FOR EXAMPLE WHISTLING WELL WHY NOT WE WOULD STILL HAVE EVOLVED IT MORE SOPHISTICATEDLY OR MORE LIKELY IT WOULD HAVE