Understanding the Experiences of Recruitment from African American Males Within Master's Level Counseling Programs: a Narrative Inquiry
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University of Tennessee, Knoxville TRACE: Tennessee Research and Creative Exchange Doctoral Dissertations Graduate School 12-2019 Understanding the experiences of recruitment from African American males within master's level counseling programs: A narrative inquiry Marlon Johnson University of Tennessee, [email protected] Follow this and additional works at: https://trace.tennessee.edu/utk_graddiss Recommended Citation Johnson, Marlon, "Understanding the experiences of recruitment from African American males within master's level counseling programs: A narrative inquiry. " PhD diss., University of Tennessee, 2019. https://trace.tennessee.edu/utk_graddiss/5635 This Dissertation is brought to you for free and open access by the Graduate School at TRACE: Tennessee Research and Creative Exchange. It has been accepted for inclusion in Doctoral Dissertations by an authorized administrator of TRACE: Tennessee Research and Creative Exchange. For more information, please contact [email protected]. To the Graduate Council: I am submitting herewith a dissertation written by Marlon Johnson entitled "Understanding the experiences of recruitment from African American males within master's level counseling programs: A narrative inquiry." I have examined the final electronic copy of this dissertation for form and content and recommend that it be accepted in partial fulfillment of the equirr ements for the degree of Doctor of Philosophy, with a major in Counselor Education. Shawn Spurgeon, Major Professor We have read this dissertation and recommend its acceptance: Casey Barrio-Minton, Dorian McCoy, Mitsunori Misawa Accepted for the Council: Dixie L. Thompson Vice Provost and Dean of the Graduate School (Original signatures are on file with official studentecor r ds.) i “We Have to Feel Like We Belong”: A Narrative Inquiry on the Recruitment Experiences of African American Men within Master’s-Level Counseling Programs A Dissertation Presented for the Doctor of Philosophy Degree The University of Tennessee, Knoxville Marlon Chadwick Johnson December 2019 ii Dedication This dissertation is for Manson and Bristow, the patriarchs of my family line who demonstrated the importance of family, gentleness, masculinity, and leadership in my earlier years. It is for Mom, Dad, Rajvi, and Alisha, who loved me well as I wrestled with the softness and strength of the child I was and the man I am becoming. Above all, I dedicate this dissertation to Madison, Skylar, and our third little nugget on the way. You are beautiful. You are strong. You are the future and the now. You inspire me to imagine and to play. You encourage me, without knowing, to be a better uncle and a better man in this world. For that reason, I dedicate this work to you. iii Acknowledgements “Finally, beloved, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.” (Philippians 4:8, NRSV) Dissertations are said to be one of the loneliest academic experiences of your life. You are pushed to dream, to write, to research, to prove, to defend, and to complete what feels like a gargantuan document. While there were many lonely moments that tested my strength and resilience, I was far from alone in this process. For this reason, I want to celebrate my tribe. I would like to acknowledge the countless number of hours spent at the many coffee shops in Knoxville. Thank you to everyone at Honeybee South and West. The oscillation of artwork and innovative music inspired me to take new perspective into my writing and research. Thank you to the baristas of Remedy Coffee. You always provided such funny and awkward conversations which reminded me of a world outside of my own in academia. And of course, thank you to the baristas and the regulars of WildLove Bakehouse. You have come my second home right around the corner from my home. You stayed open late for me when I was in the groove of writing or completing an assignment. You not-so-gently encouraged me to try different flavors of espresso and coffee which…refined my pallet? But most importantly, you became my friends and loved me well in my most anxious moments. You will forever be my five-star favorites. There were several faith communities who journeyed with me through this process. To St. Mark UMC of Sumter, SC: thank you for believing in me. The voices of those calling me “professor” or “doctor” or “little pastor” never ceased to resonate within my heart. You all developed the foundation of my faith and my family. I will forever be grateful for that. I also iv must acknowledge my godmother, Gloria Jean Solomon, who passed away right before my defense. Your rich love throughout my life inspired me to never forget who I was or where I came from. I thank you for all your love. Your sweet memory pools like waves over the crags of my spiritual foundation. I love you and will do so all the days of my life. To the board, members, and pastors of the UTK Wesley Foundation: thank you for your laughs, love, and meals throughout the dissertation process. At times, I refused to slow down, fearing that a loss of momentum meant I would lose my place in the greater graduate universe. Your kind words, gentle reminders of purpose, and spontaneous calls for adventure pressed me to see the impeccable power and peace of God that rests within each of us. To Lane and Anne Glaze and the Glaze family: thank you for always welcoming me with such love and intentionality. Lane, I am grateful that you saw that biochemistry might not be my forever academic home. Truly, your “Lane grenades” guided me to the perfect path of care and mental wellness for all. For the members and leadership of Central UMC: thank you for loving me so well. You intercepted me in the midst of my final year in my doctoral program and never doubted my ability to bring the process to completion. Your prayers, music, and hugs helped me to believe in myself and to see the heart of God in my work. To the small group and leadership of Hope Fellowship, my joy is full and vast in you. Many of you never ceased to call me Doc or Doctor Johnson far before the title was given. I am honored that you are a part of my story and journey here in Knoxville. May you grow and love and serve this community in culturally meaningful ministry. v Zach Smith, you are a brother and a friend. Thank you for praying with me and helping me flesh out the ideas of this story while working with your students. Also, be sure to thank your mother for the many meals and loaves of zucchini bread. Cassie and Lauren Green. You wondrous queens of conversation and love. There is not enough space to acknowledge your impact in this journey of mine. I am deeply grateful for the work that you do to better provide space for mental wellness and queer community in Knoxville. I am grateful for every moment you welcomed me into your home. I find joy in you letting me play with your puppers (neither of whom are little puppies anymore!). You are a deep well of joy within my heart of Knoxville. Christopher and Justin. Life is simply more fun and adventurous with the two of you. Thank you for reminding me to hold true to my gaggle. Our late-night conversations and processing group chats always gave way to belly laughs and shady statements. You have become my brothers and lifelong friends. May the stars always shine brightly on the path that leads to our next adventure. To my most recent roommates (Jordan, Alan, Nathan, Evan, Willie and sometimes MacLean): Thank you five. Late night adventures to the movies, deep conversations on the couch, and unusual pyrotechnics remain solidified moments of grandeur in this whole process. You were the family that I needed throughout this entire year. You are my hilarious brothers with good hearts and steady heads. Continue to pursue all of your dreams. I look forward to celebrating each of YOU as you also finish your newest adventures. Travis and Kendall, you, too have become brother and sister compatriots along that journey. Thank you for the cookouts, smoked meats, and delicious desserts that helped me get through the long weekends of studying and proofreading. You welcomed me into your family so vi well. I am forever grateful of your love and support. Looking forward to the next time we can sit and watch all the sportsball with the kids. Elliott DeVore and Raul Sanchez: Your intellect and sass stand out among the rest. When I needed a late-night run or a process moment in my stuckness of research, you were there. Thank you for reminding me time and again to be myself and to trust the work that I am doing. Jeddah and Curtis: Your willingness to ask me the hard questions about blind spots and roadblocks helped me to persist to the finish line. Thank you for the phone calls, the sweet treats, the teatime, the dog walks, and the gentle reminders to “write the paper and get the papers signed”. They are simple words, but their resonance is deep and meaningful. Sallie and David and the whole Ware clan: You too have called me family throughout this process. Thank you for answering the phone call when I have driven through Nashville needing a place to rest and write for the weekend. I am ever amazed at the gentleness and joyfulness in which you bring into each and every conversation.