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From Dudley Lynch, President, Brain Technologies, Inc. "I consider Zen to be one of those superlative examples of what the human brain can store and serve up in unique and appealing ways at will on most any occasion or assignment. To say his range of knowledge and interests are "eclectic" is engaging in understatement. And this is what makes his services as a "possibilities coagulator" for his clients so valuable and exciting. Smart fellow! Great ally!" This book is a pseudo autobiography, all events are true, with some added thoughts about life, our reality and how we might better understand our form, fit and function through expanding our scope and vision regarding self-awareness and harmony among people and planet. The scope of finding purpose within my Theory of Everything drives my life. StuBBing My T.O.E. On Purpose A Seminal View of Consciousness, Cosmology and the Congruence of Science and Spirituality Bruce ‘Zen’ Benefiel An orphan’s journey to find identity, purpose and truth in and beyond this world; reconciling encounters with extraterrestrials, psychiatrists, scientists, spiritual beings and more... This is my goal: To make this work relevant to you. If you find something that helps you grow – fantastic! If you find something that challenges you – even better! If you find something that stirs you to take an evo-leap in your own life – Congratulations! Yes, the title eludes references to Tom Campbell’s My Big TOE. His work infiltrated my life during the last few years of my writing this. The more I peered, the greater respect I had. I was surprise that in his younger years his introduction to ‘consciousness’ was nearly identical to mine. I want to acknowledge our spooky action at a distance, for now. I’m sure it will get closer as the future unfolds. If you aren’t familiar with non-linear and non-local you might want to consider that my writing will at least be tangential at times, little stories within stories. It may be interesting, or not. I think little things are important, but not everyone does. A great deal of what I am today is an assimilation of various people I have known across various professional, religious and spiritual environments. It also includes books read and experiences of inner and outer situations. Each has affected the way I think and act, often prompting the possibility of deeper discovery and understanding of the matter, nature and function of reality as we know it and more. The feeling of awe-inspired inquiry continually assists the experience of the kid in the candy store, ecstatic and driven toward the soon to be discovered treats. You will find some here as well, so long as you are able to bear with my stream of consciousness and threads of discussion. You will be stretched. In the face of developing nomenclature for the ‘new generations’ of planetary pioneers (least of all potentially being one) I would offer yet another label; that of ‘assimilationist,’ as we harvest our past on the way to the future, hopefully avoiding any catastrophic occurrences that would destroy ourselves and our planet in the process. I intend to take you on a transdimensional journey, full of trials and tribulations, leading toward a comprehension of the components of consciousness. It is already appearing in your inner theater on a growing scale I presume. My guess is you wouldn’t be reading this otherwise. As an orphan and adoptee with no biological records I have pondered many identities in the process of self-awareness and self-actualization, often finding that at the deepest levels of consciousness identity is a moot point. I’ve met many challenges in this and other worlds; the greatest of which has been my own quest for identity and purpose in this world. Now in the throes of planetary challenges and a US administration of change there is new opportunity for many to consider how to proceed in personal and professional endeavors. Maybe there is a thread of consciousness that unites our hearts in a wonderful union toward harmony. I believe that to be a potential of Christ Consciousness within each one of us, born of our celestial heritage, cosmic consciousness, and nurtured by our desire to know truth. Religious dogma and superstition have come under scientific scrutiny now. I hope to share some deep quandaries and a consideration of realities far greater than our current awareness. Quantum physicists are just beginning to discover what mystics have known for millennia, only now this scientific mirror is opening a door for many to consider possibilities once only offered by spiritual studies or religious pathways. Our world views are changing dramatically. I’ve been gifted with great intelligence and a plethora of experience, some directly with Jesus. That alone is enough to handle as one seeks to understand abandonment juxtaposed with unconditional love and find harmony within oneself in the dance of life. Perhaps I am able to bring a new view of old patterns and how a new world order is evolving, regardless of those who fear it. It is that part of me, Zendor, the ‘door to what is’..ness of aligning spirituality and science with the harmony of people and planet and the mechanisms Christ Consciousness, multiple dimensions and quantum realities through direct experience. I hope your curiosity gets the best of you as you read further. I’ll no doubt confront your previous belief systems as we seek congruency between inner and outer worlds. Finding harmony within the two worlds, inner and outer, has been and will continue to be a lifelong experience for all of us I am sure. I’ve held council with many beings and persons and I will share those throughout this story. My desire within this work is to present possibilities of how things may work as natural processes in our collective progression of the evolution of consciousness, through the vulnerability of my own observation and understanding in the matter of spiritual explorations and direct experience. It is a near-impossible task to make sense of everything, yet it is within infinite intelligence that all things are connected somehow according to both mystics and physicists now, so climb aboard the logic train and let’s take a trip around the world, inner space and outer space. We are all relation in ‘God’s Kingdom’… All That Is – Here Now. I believe it is time we recognized the truth as One and learn how to get along. Although this book is all about my life’s insights, it is written in an attempt to remove the spotlight and offer a consideration for acquiring intelligence that reflects Nature and the Universe in new ways. Obviously my ego is involved or I wouldn’t be writing. I love to share and I agree with an old friend; there is no ego without wego. However, the ego is neither good nor bad, absent nor all- powerful and if I’m good, I’ll present more questions than answers. If I’m lucky, you’ll find similar questions in your own contemplation of reality. God willing, we’ll grow together as a body. I encourage you to continue to seek your own answers with renewed exuberance and investigative opportunities. My influences include a plethora of prolific pontificators throughout history. From ancient texts and mystery schools to modern-day mystics and scientists, I’ve hedged the edge of consciousness and physical reality in my quest for congruence of truth as it becomes known. I’ve sought the understanding of how humans are evolving toward self-regulation and a new world order of responsible leadership – a new millennial mindset based on spiritual principles and a testimony of Jesus Christ, or perhaps from some other spiritual icon. Hopefully, our shared considerations may lead us toward a new living awareness of collaborative energy in motion, what some may call pure shareable energy; limitless oscillating vibrational energy…LOVE. I believe in John Lennon’s hopes… and the world will live as ONE. Don’t believe a thing, but you’ll find some interesting points to ponder as you continue. Let us explore the cosmic conundrum: “Who am I and what am I here to do?” The answers consume a lifetime of learning. Are you curious about your own relationship with the Universe? It’s a far more worthy cause and testimony of the truth within us all. I certainly don’t have all the answers. I do have a lot of questions, many of which you will find herein. I go places most don’t or won’t with a fearless attitude and willingness to test the truth with my life, if need be. You’ll find out what them means inside. This book is dedicated to orphans and adoptees everywhere. Every question has an answer. May we all find self in the midst of others. Special thanks to my parents, Bob and Lou, who adopted, loved and nurtured the desire to grow and learn within me. I owe them my life and I’m still their little boy who just wants to make them proud. To Beth, Krystal, Katie, Ian and Aura… You are always in my heart of hearts as mother and children; gifts for my transcendence and understanding of life and love. To Robin, who put up with me while writing the majority of this work and her insistence on making it real. To my love, Luba, my dream made real. You’ve inspired me like no other, accepted me like no other and love me like no other.