Personal Time by Xanthe
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Personal Time by Xanthe http://www.xanthe.org/personal-time/ Story Notes: Posted: 23rd December 2001 Don't ever do this to me again," Doggett said as he frantically continued rubbing the towel over Skinner's cold flesh. "...Are you listening to me? Huh?" He stopped his frenzied movements and took Skinner's face between his hands. "Whatever is going on inside that thick skull of yours, this is no way to deal with it. We have to find a better way. D'you understand that? I'm not going to let you do this to yourself. Even if you don't give a damn, I do." Skinner's dark, glazed eyes suddenly focussed on Doggett as if those words had penetrated his foggy mind. "I mean it," Doggett said. He pulled Skinner against him, wrapped his arms around the big man's shoulders and held him tight against his body to share his own warmth, all the time running his hands over Skinner's back as he rocked him to and fro, still trying to rub some life back into the listless, shaking man. Skinner's bald head was pressed into his shoulder and the big man seemed to be drawing some kind of comfort from the contact as he slowly came to. "Hold on. Just keep holding on, Walter, because I'm not going to let you fall, I'm not going to let them destroy you…just keeping hanging on in there." 1. Part One by Xanthe 2. Part Two by Xanthe 3. Part Three by Xanthe 4. Part Four by Xanthe Part One by Xanthe Author's Notes: Pic by Sergeeva Posted: December 23, 2001 Posted: December 23, 2001 Author's Notes: As you know, I'm a Skinner-with-anyone girl. I've written him with Mulder, Scully, Krycek, Twin Peaks's Dale Cooper, my original male character, Geri Warner (Crush), and even Obi- Wan Kenobi! (Life-force) So, I thought I should try my hand at Skinner/Doggett - and this story, Personal Time, grew and grew and grew, so hope you'll give it a try. It's very angsty, with lots of sex (of course!!!), a spanking or two (ditto!) but most of all it's a romance, with lots of emotional connection, because that's what 1013 rarely give us. It's my first ambitious, long story in quite a while, so I hope you enjoy it :-) Because it's a very long story I think it should have very long author's notes to go with it, so there's more below 1.) Doggett: Doggett...hmmm. I know some people have a problem with him, and it's certainly true that while I liked the character well enough onscreen I didn't feel moved to write fanfic about him for a long time. Then I had a dream...and to cut a long story short started to think that *maybe*, if I had the time and could be bothered, I might be able to write something about him. Then dot began talking enthusiastically about honest John and how he seemed like a good partner for Walter, and we had a long discussion about Dom/sub relationships and who would be the top Then Sergeeva wrote her wonderful Mistress Xanthe and the Good Boys Club and I was finally convinced enough to write my own exploration of this pairing. Still, I didn't have much time and wasn't sure I was able to produce anything and then dot started the Skinner/Doggett list and I fished out what I'd started and looked at it again and thought maybe I could work it up into a little something for dot's list and 60,000 or so words later...here it is! 2.) Skinner: Skinner's personality is very different now to how he came across in the early seasons. I tend to think of Season 2's more severe and strict personality as Discipline!Skinner but as the years have passed and he's come under more and more pressure, he's changed and developed and now shows a much softer, even hesitant side. Whatever you may think of Season 8 and 9 Skinner (and I do have some problems with the way they've portrayed him of late, particularly in the way he's treated by the other characters, to say nothing of his fluctuating intelligence level) he's clearly a man at the end of his tether. If 1013 won't explore the emotional and psychological reasons behind their recent characterisation of the man, then I'm just going to have to do it for them, aren't I? And in as slashy a way as possible! So, here is my first Skinner/Doggett fic. It's heavy on the angstorama and features a loving, consensual Dom/sub relationship between the two men as Doggett tries desperately to haul Skinner back from the brink of self-destruction. This is less about BDSM and more about romance with some Dom/sub dynamics thrown in (a slightly different emphasis than other portrayals of BDSM on my site and I don't really view it as a BDSM story). Dedication: This fic is dedicated to all the girls in the Walterzone for being such great friends, and encouraging, supportive and feedbacking readers. Special thanks to Phoebe for the intelligent beta and for knowing all those obscure little details! To dot for starting the Skinner/Doggett list and getting me inspired again after a long dry spell, to Sergeeva whose wonderful Mistress Xanthe and the Good Boys Club made me resurrect this story, and to Kristen for being so encouraging and supportive :-) The linked image cannot be displayed. The file may have been moved, renamed, or deleted. Verify that the link points to the co… Doggett took the final 8 stairs to the 5th floor two at a time, and sauntered along the corridor to the AD's office, scarcely out of breath after having jogged all the way up from the basement. He was whistling cheerfully to himself, a newspaper tucked under one arm as he burst through the door to Skinner's secretary's office. "Hi, Kim, is he free? Can I go straight in?" Doggett was halfway towards the door to his superior's office by the time Kim replied. "Agent Doggett, I'm sorry. Did you have an appointment with him?" She asked, glancing at a burgundy leather diary on her desk. "It isn't in his appointments book – I've cancelled all the ones that were marked." "Cancelled…?" Doggett paused, his hand on the handle of the door leading to Skinner's office. "No, I don't have an appointment…I just…" He stopped short, puzzled. While he didn't have a formal appointment with the Assistant Director, he had taken to stopping by at lunch-time to see if the big man was free to visit the small Italian restaurant just around the corner from the Hoover Building. More often than not Skinner was free for lunch and they walked to the restaurant together and consumed a tasty meal while reading their respective newspapers, pausing occasionally to read out a particularly interesting – or outrageous – article. Doggett had been delighted to discover that his boss was as much a news junkie as himself. It gave them a lot to talk about and he had come to enjoy their lunches so he was non-plussed when he pushed open the door to Skinner's office and found it empty. He stood, considering the matter for a moment. It wasn't important – their lunching together had been more of a casual arrangement than a formal one after all, but usually Skinner mentioned when he was going to be in a meeting or out of town, and on those occasions Doggett grabbed a sandwich and ate it at his desk. Somehow it wasn't the same going to the Italian restaurant without Skinner. "Agent Doggett? Can I leave a message for the Assistant Director?" Kim asked. "Hell, no, it isn't important. I'll catch up with him tomorrow." Doggett smiled and turned on his heel. "Agent Doggett?" Her voice stopped him mid-stride again. "I'm afraid the Assistant Director won't be in the office tomorrow. He's…" She hesitated, a catch in her voice. "He's booked some personal time. He'll be away for two weeks." "Personal time?" Doggett turned back to gaze at her quizzically. "Yes, Agent." She nodded, closing the diary and replacing it on the side of her desk. Personal time. Doggett pondered that for a moment. He had seen Skinner just last week and the big man hadn't mentioned anything about taking personal time – and something about that phrase was bothering him. He nodded to Kim and walked slowly back to the stairs, chewing it over thoughtfully. Personal time…not vacation…personal time. What the hell did that mean? Doggett was queuing to pay for his sandwich in the cafeteria when he suddenly realised why the phrase 'personal time' was eating at him so much. 'Personal time' was the euphemism Skinner had given for Scully's disappearance for a couple of days, early in her pregnancy. Doggett had later discovered, purely by chance, that Scully had been in the hospital undergoing tests during those missing days. Was that where Skinner was right now? And if so, then why? Last time Doggett had seen him, his superior had been looking fine. True, Skinner still seemed shaken by the events leading up to the birth of Scully's baby, some of which he refused to talk about - including how Alex Krycek had ended up on the floor of the parking garage with a couple of bullet wounds in his body and a hole in his head, but Doggett hadn't pushed the big man on that subject.