Helen Donnelly Goehring 1100 University St., Apt. 13B Seattle, WA 98101
[email protected] GAUZE It is 4:00 o’clock on a January morning. It begins with gauze. Every important thing begins with something like gauze. The nurses and technicians clamp my head to the mammoth steel table at Swedish Hospital like a lid on a pot. Not to make me miserable, but to keep my head still. The surgeon will drill three holes in my scull and attach a glass drain to collect the blood pressing against my brain. Extricate all the blood you want, but not the rosary in my left fist. Pope Francis blessed this rosary at an audience my daughter, Katy, and I attended on a raw November day in Vatican Square six weeks before I ended up in the Swedish Hospital operating room. We’d been standing for hours, Katy pirouetting on a rickety chair with her iPad. I looked up at her and pulled my wool muffler tighter around my neck. “I am too old for this. No wonder only young people are here!” The crowd roared as if it was opening day at Cubs Park at Wrigley Field: my old Chicago neighborhood. Tightening the muffler, I glimpsed Pope Francis, blessing all 35,000 of us! “Viva il Papa!” I waved the yellow pom-poms that the children in my aisle had given me. “Viva il Papa,” I shouted with them, clasping my rosary in the other hand, hoping he’d bless it again. Francis had already blessed this rosary that Katy collected at the Visitors’ Office at The North American Pontifical College.