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Old Dominion University ODU Digital Commons English Theses & Dissertations English Spring 2018 Your Favorite Place Christina Marable Old Dominion University Follow this and additional works at: https://digitalcommons.odu.edu/english_etds Part of the Creative Writing Commons Recommended Citation Marable, Christina. "Your Favorite Place" (2018). Master of Fine Arts (MFA), thesis, English, Old Dominion University, DOI: 10.25777/36hr-fg12 https://digitalcommons.odu.edu/english_etds/73 This Thesis is brought to you for free and open access by the English at ODU Digital Commons. It has been accepted for inclusion in English Theses & Dissertations by an authorized administrator of ODU Digital Commons. For more information, please contact [email protected]. YOUR FAVORITE PLACE by CHRISTINA MARABLE B.A., SEPTEMBER 2007, UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA, RIVERSIDE A Thesis Submitted to the Faculty of Old Dominion University in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirements for the Degree of MASTER OF FINE ARTS ENGLISH OLD DOMINION UNIVERSITY MAY 2018 Approved by: John McManus (Advisor) Farideh Goldin (Member) Dr. Luisa Igloria (Member) ABSTRACT YOUR FAVORITE PLACE Christina Marable Old Dominion University, 2018 Director: Prof. John McManus My thesis is a collection of composite novel, which is a collection of short stories that can be read as a novel, with travel a common theme among the characters. Some of the characters know each other, while others know another character peripherally. All are struggling with family, love, technology, and what they want out of life. It’s like Catcher in the Rye if the characters lived abroad. iii TABLE OF CONTENTS Chapter Page Way Honest………………………………………………………………………………………….1 Yours.......................................................................................................................................................................47 Hanseyo..................................................................................................................................................................73 Night and Day.....................................................................................................................................................100 Belonging..............................................................................................................................................................167 The Believers.......................................................................................................................................................203 An Irreplaceable Love........................................................................................................................................220 VITA………………………………………………………………………………………………246 1 Way Honest Sadie was the good daughter in the family, the cautious one with an education and a solid job, which drove her sister Lia to model in Europe and created a distance between them larger than the Atlantic Ocean. Sadie didn't want this nature that she'd inherited from her parents, but they were fearful for her safety after they lost James, Sadie's older brother who she'd never meet because he died in an accident years before she was born. The loss of James ruined her parents for a time. A good Rockwood churchgoing couple, they were devastated when James was hit by a car the moment they turned their back on him playing to get a drink from their house. Guilt wracked them. They went to their pastor as a spiritual counselor for help. How could they move on with life? Their pastor, a large man who carried a napkin for his sweaty forehead, urged them with practical advice. "You are still young. Have another child. Then have another one. God replenished Job when he lost his wives and children. That way, if something happens to another one, you will be safe." Sadie's parents did that. First, there was Sadie, a curly brown haired child like her father. A few years later they had Lia, beautiful with wavy blond hair like their mother. Despite her parents' insistence they had moved on from James and were a happy family unit of four, Sadie's older brother's presence still lingered in the house. Her parents still kept yellowing pictures of his golden haired youth on the mantel along with Lia and Sadie, as if he were a ghost still present. And there was his favorite small battered baseball. With that potential snuffed out, they poured their energy into making Sadie the model child, and she succeeded. She graduated with honors from middle and high school, went on to 2 UT Knoxville and returned home for the weekends for Sunday dinners as good daughters did. While Sadie exceeded at living their ideal version of life, Lia was allowed to make mistakes, to fail and fall, so she could master any of life's expectations. It was why Sadie was pulled from ice skating after falling once, while Lia became a successful ice skater after falling several times. It was why her parents pressured Sadie to stay inside on the weekends while they laughed when Lia stuck her hands in dog poo, only stopping to wipe her hands with a wet nap. Perhaps her parents were too afraid of a second accident, or letting Sadie out of their sight and she'd become a misfortunate accident, another child taken away because of carelessness. With Sadie's insurance as the right daughter, Lia could afford to be careless, wild, reckless and adventurous. Sadie envied Lia's bold nature in some ways and disliked it in others. Lia's classroom disruption, willful attitude and refusal to complete her high school assignments meant they had to attend extra conferences about her performance, sit with her after dinner to help her complete her papers, and give her extra allowance money to assure that she graduated. The only attractive attention Sadie received from her parents were the occasional pictures they took whenever she got an award for honor roll or student of the month, or when she was cheering for the football team during autumn Thursday and Friday evenings. It was Lia who the boys desired because of her wavy blond hair and svelte model like figure, while Sadie was often left out for school dance and prom dates, because she was too much of a goody goody for boys. Perhaps it was their parents’ assumption that Sadie was the first born which they had to look out for, while Lia was the second daughter which they could let roam free, which led to their emotional distance. Perhaps Sadie and Lia’s relationship was predetermined before they were born, fit into molds like cookie cutters which would ensure that they’d never see themselves as equals in the same house. Or maybe it was James’s their parents’ beloved son snuffed out senselessly, whose death haunted their hearts. After all, his pictures were still in the upstairs mantel next to Sadie’s and 3 Lia’s school pictures, the girls’ blossoming into maturity while he remained the same little boy. Since Sadie was the first born, she got James’s rom while Lia had her own room that no one else had occupied. Sadie studied on Friday nights while Lia went out, and when she was stuck in her room, she’d see a thumbtack or a corner and wonder if a reminder of James had been taken down just for her. Because of James, Sadie kept a meticulously clean room while Lia kept a messy room, dirty clothes mixed with clean, open CDs and books strewn about, as though Lia was learning through osmosis. Sadie hated this about Lia, and expressed it. She was tired of her parents’ complaints about Lia’s room, the complaints about why couldn’t she keep it clean. During Sadie’s sophomore year when Lia was heading out for a Friday night movie, presumably with a friend, but to sneak out with a boy, Sadie pulled her earphones off and glanced at Lia. “Clean your room,” Sadie said. Lia rolled her eyes. “It’s been messy for weeks. Mom complains about it all the time.” “You can’t tell me what to do.” “What if I told mom about where you’re going?” “Why do you care so much about this? It’s not your room. You act like you’re always right. That’s why you don’t have friends,” Lia snapped. She slammed the door on her way out. Throughout high school, the sisters didn't evolve into a sibling rivalry. Instead, they had a sibling submission, where Sadie covered for Lia's absences so they could sit on their porch swing, and Lia could share her tales of sneaking out with boys, skinny dipping at the lake and trying weed for the first time. Despite his toys shrined in the living room, Sadie and Lia couldn't be honest about the loss of James, this boy whose exit dictated how their parents reacted to them, and instead focused on what could bring them together: boys. Wandering and exploring, getting into trouble by breaking windows and staying out past curfew. In those moments Sadie 4 felt that Lia's attention was a sign of love. Through her role of listener and confidant, Sadie felt that Lia was at most herself. Because boys didn't like Sadie, she lived vicariously through Lia, who was reckless enough to sleep with a boy on the football field at dawn, but careful enough to sneak birth control and never become pregnant. Sadie thought that she could be satisfied with this life, of her living the right way while Lia lived the lively way, until a summer evening when she returned home from college and sat under the porch with Lia, who stopped the swing with a single lavender painted toe. "Don't you want to get out of here? Because I'm leaving this place as soon as I get the money," Lia said. "Don't say that," Sadie replied. "Don't believe me? That I'm going someplace interesting? Because I am." Sadie believed her, but didn't want to think of her sister saving up money and then leaving to try her luck at modeling in Italy, relegating their relationship to a series of emails. Lia wrote about trying foie gras in France, bike rides and cocaine trips in the Netherlands, and wine tasting in Tuscany. Sadie tried to keep these emails close to her as she started her career as a legal secretary in a high stress real estate office, with a boss so uptight that she had to assist him down to the minute.