The Awakened Heart of the Mindful Teacher: a Contemplative
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View metadata, citation and similar papers at core.ac.uk brought to you by CORE provided by D-Scholarship@Pitt THE AWAKENED HEART OF THE MINDFUL TEACHER: A CONTEMPLATIVE EXPLORATION by Stephanie Maietta Romero Bachelor of Arts, Arizona State University, 1991 Master of Arts, University of Pittsburgh, 1996 Submitted to the Graduate Faculty of School of Education in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the degree of Doctor of Education University of Pittsburgh 2016 UNIVERSITY OF PITTSBURGH SCHOOL OF EDUCATION This dissertation was presented by Stephanie Maietta Romero It was defended on October 4, 2016 and approved by Dr. Noreen Garman, Professor, Administrative and Policy Studies Dr. Michael Gunzenhauser, Associate Professor, Administrative and Policy Studies Dr. Andrea Hyde, Associate Professor, Educational Studies, Western Illinois University Thesis Director/Dissertation Advisor: Dr. Cynthia Tananis, Associate Professor, Administrative and Policy Studies ii Copyright © by Stephanie Maietta Romero 2016 iii THE AWAKENED HEART OF THE MINDFUL TEACHER: A CONTEMPLATIVE EXPLORATION Stephanie Maietta Romero, EdD University of Pittsburgh, 2016 This dissertation is a contemplative narration of my lived experience of bringing mindfulness into my teaching. The dissertation first portrays the process of entering into the dialogic space of mindfulness as a Buddhist concept intersecting with the scientific, educational, and public domains. I then describe the contemplative reflection process I used to explore my incorporation of mindfulness into my teaching praxis. From this, I wrote contemplative reflections during a year and half. In this way, I tried to embody mindfulness in my methodology. I used the same process to contemplate these reflections to deepen my understanding and identify themes. The two main themes I arrived at are an openhearted quality (bodhichitta) and a newfound openness that resulted from bringing mindfulness to my professional spaces. I illustrate these themes through six contemplative narratives that portray my heightened consciousness of how my embodiment of mindfulness has influenced my classroom presence and opened my heart. Each contemplative reflection narrates the quality of open awareness towards my own and others’ emotions – good and bad. Each narrative also includes a reflective aspect that explores the themes that emerged. My contemplative reflections illustrate how mindfulness helped me stay open to both the joy and the pain of teaching. Mindfulness practices also provided me with the social and emotional awareness and tools to confront the highly iv emotional and sometimes volatile space of public schools. My contemplative reflections depict the lived experience of mindfully working through the positive and negative experiences of daily life in public school. Coming from the place of an open heart makes teaching much more rich and full of joy, but at the same time also makes the painful parts of teaching and working in a public, bureaucratic institution more palpable. However, by using my mindfulness practices to delve into that pain, I felt my connection to others, which brought about compassion and a desire to help. v TABLE OF CONTENTS DEDICATION.............................................................................................................................. X PREFACE .................................................................................................................................... XI 1.0 INTRODUCTION: THE PROCESS OF COMING TO THE DISSERTATION . 1 2.0 BEGINNING THE JOURNEY ................................................................................... 9 2.1 MY EXPEREINCE OF MINDFUL AWARENESS IN THE CASSROOM AND PERSONAL TRANSFORMATION ........................................................................................... 9 2.2 MY MEDITATION PRACTICE ............................................................................. 14 2.3 JOINING THE SACRED AND THE SECULAR................................................... 18 2.4 A NONDUALISTIC APPROACH ........................................................................... 21 2.5 DESCRIBING THE INEFFABLE ........................................................................... 24 3.0 SEARCHING FOR UNDERSTANDING ................................................................ 27 3.1 ORIGINS OF MINDFULNESS ................................................................................ 28 3.1.1 Theravada Buddhism in the U.S. ................................................................. 33 3.1.2 The Introduction of Zen to the U.S. ............................................................. 35 3.1.3 Tibetan Buddhism’s Introduction to the West ........................................... 38 3.1.4 Other Sources of Mindfulness ...................................................................... 40 3.2 SECULARIZATION AND MEDICALIZATION OF MINDFULNESS ............. 42 3.2.1 The Relaxation Response .............................................................................. 43 vi 3.2.2 Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction ........................................................... 44 3.2.3 Secularized Mindfulness in Public Schools ................................................. 48 3.3 SCIENTIFIC RESEARCH ON MINDFULNESS .................................................. 52 3.3.1 Physiological and Psychological Mechanisms of Meditation ..................... 57 3.4 RESEARCH ON MINDFULNESS IN K-12 SETTINGS ...................................... 62 3.4.1 Rationale behind Mindfulness Programs for Educators ........................... 64 3.4.2 Research on the Effects of Mindfulness for Teachers ................................ 66 3.5 THE COMMODIFICATION AND COMMERCIALIZATION OF MINDFULNESS ......................................................................................................................... 75 4.0 BRINGING MINDFULNESS TO MY SCHOOL .................................................. 81 4.1 CONVERSATION WITH A TEACHER ................................................................ 83 4.2 BRINGING MINDFULNESS TO THE STUDENT BODY .................................. 85 4.3 ISOLATION ............................................................................................................... 90 5.0 EXPLORING PRACTICE IN PRAXIS .................................................................. 93 5.1 THEORETICAL PERSPECTIVE ........................................................................... 94 5.2 EXPLORING HOW TO BRING MINDFULNESS TO INQUIRY ...................... 95 5.3 CONTEMPLATIVE EXPLORATION ................................................................. 101 5.4 CONTEMPLATIVE INTERPRETATIONS ........................................................ 103 5.5 PREVENTING SOLIPSISM THROUGH COMMUNITY ................................. 105 6.0 MAKING MEANING OF EXPERIENCE ............................................................ 107 6.1 REFLECTION #1: BRENNAN .............................................................................. 109 6.2 REFLECTION #2: NADINE .................................................................................. 114 6.3 REFLECTION #3: THE SCREAMING TEACHER .......................................... 118 vii 6.4 REFLECTIONS #4 & 5: THE EDUCATION SYSTEM ..................................... 122 6.4.1 Reflection #4 -- Do you give up on a child? ............................................... 122 6.4.2 Reflection #5 – Do we give up on ourselves? ............................................. 123 6.5 REFLECTION #6: MANAGING NEGATIVITY ............................................... 125 6.6 REFLECTIONS ON MINDFUL TEACHING ..................................................... 131 7.0 UNITY OF PRACTICE AND PRAXIS ................................................................. 134 7.1 THE MANURE OF EXPERIENCE ...................................................................... 137 7.2 IMPLICATIONS FOR PRACTICE, POLICY, AND INQUIRY ....................... 140 7.3 MORE QUESTIONS THAN ANSWERS .............................................................. 141 APPENDIX A ............................................................................................................................ 143 BIBLIOGRAPHY ..................................................................................................................... 144 viii LIST OF FIGURES Figure 1: Mindfulness Journal Publication by Year 1980-2015 .................................................. 53 ix DEDICATION When I finished my Masters in Linguistics, the woman who was my advisor, my mentor, and my boss asked to speak to me. Dr. Christina Bratt Paulston welcomed me into her office and showed me her analysis of my transcripts and coursework. She had figured out what courses I would need to complete to get my doctorate. She explained to me how much confidence she had in my intellect and work ethic and wanted to support me. My position in the English Language Institute, of which she was director, offered me tuition benefits. She convinced me to enter into the program and work towards my doctorate. I did not finish the doctorate in linguistics. I did, however, stay in close contact with Christina, who became a friend of our family. She continued to support and encourage me when I decided to seek my doctorate in education. Unfortunately, Christina passed away a week and a half before my defense of this dissertation. I therefore thought it would be fitting to dedicate this work to her. Christina, you