Experiential Storytelling with Criminalized Indian Women
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View metadata, citation and similar papers at core.ac.uk brought to you by CORE provided by University of Saskatchewan's Research Archive They Stole my ThunderWarriors Who Were Behind the Walls: Experiential Storytelling with Criminalized Indian Women A Thesis Submitted to the College of Graduate Studies and Research in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirements for the Degree of Doctor of Philosophy in the Department of Community and Epidemiology University of Saskatchewan, Saskatoon by Sharon Leslie Acoose Kiishiibii-biizuu Kinew Ikwe “Circling Eagle Woman” © Copyright Sharon Leslie Acoose, September 28, 2012. All rights reserved. Permission to Use In presenting this thesis in partial fulfillment of the requirements for a postgraduate degree from the University of Saskatchewan, I agree that the Libraries of this University may make if freely available for inspection. I further agree that permission for copying of this thesis in any manner, in whole or in part, for scholarly purposes may be granted by the professors who supervised my thesis work, or in their absence, by the Head of the Department or the Dean of the College in which my thesis work was done. It is understood that any copying or publication or use of this thesis or parts thereof for financial gain shall not be allowed without my written permission. It is also understood that due recognition shall be given to me and to the University of Saskatchewan in any scholarly use which may be made of any materials in my thesis. Requests for permission to copy or make other use of material in this thesis in whole or in part should be addressed to: Head of Community Health & Epidemiology University of Saskatchewan Saskatoon, Saskatchewan S7N-5E5 i Abstract This thesis is an exploration of the meaning of reintegration as understood through the lives of four criminalized Indian women, myself included, using life history methodology. These women’s stories were told through a series of Sharing Circles, which I organized and ran. During these circles, we shared and discussed at length the factors that we felt made us end up behind bars. We then went on to construct Medicine Wheels, which are a traditional way of directing our paths towards lifelong healing. Finally, I interviewed each of the women individually and also recounted my own life story. Through sharing our stories, the women and I became remarkably stronger, and together we found peace of mind and purpose in life. Many clear patterns emerged from this research. Each woman grew up and lived in extreme violence, suffered childhood sexual abuse, and became involved in street life at one point or another. Drugs and alcohol also became detriments to the women’s physical, emotional, spiritual, and mental well-being. The lack of positive influences or resources that could show them another way of life, whether through family, school, or friends, was equally striking. During the research, the women were asked to answer three questions about how they understand their own reintegration. The resulting consensus is that in order for criminalized Indian women to successfully live prison-free, they must first begin by healing from the pain they have experienced throughout their lives. Only then will they be able to build happier, healthier lives for themselves. I conclude this thesis with several policy recommendations for Correctional Services Canada (CSC). I recommend that CSC develop and consistently deliver culturally appropriate programs that not only place criminalized Indian women’s experiences at their center but that also address the specific needs of these women. I also propose that Sharing Circles like the one conducted for this research be implemented behind prison walls, and that such Circles continue once women are released. Finally, I suggest that ceremony and tradition can contribute greatly to criminalized Indian women’s healing and reintegration, and that further research into this area is sorely needed. ii Acknowledgements First and foremost, I would like to acknowledge a Creator of my understanding. With this important belief system my PhD journey was made successful. And my Creator has given me the strength to stay clean and sober for the past twenty-two years, mikwec! I would like to acknowledge my brother Gerald Acoose and his wife Lynda Acoose. It is with their never-ending support that I have been able to sustain my life. They have walked with me in my moccasins. I love you both. I would like to acknowledge my nephews, my nieces, my great- nephews, and my great-nieces—this one is for you, I love you. And, I would like to acknowledge and honour my deceased brother Joey Acoose and my deceased sister Gloria Williams (Acoose). I love and miss you both. I would like to acknowledge my daughters Starla, Jolene, and Stephanie, and my son Joseph. I would like to acknowledge my eleven grandchildren and my two great-grandchildren: you all unknowingly kept the fire in my soul burning, I love you. I would like to acknowledge the three amazing Indian women who participated in this research: Donna Gamble, Jasmine, and Sandy. You made this research possible with your beautiful stories of healing, I love you. I would like to acknowledge and honour Dr. Leonard Tan who was instrumental in assisting me in the doctoral application process. Because of his support I was accepted into the Department of Community Health & Epidemiology in the College of Medicine at the University of Saskatchewan to do my PhD. Mikwec! I would like to acknowledge Elder Danny Musqua, Elder Mary Lee, Elders Walter & Maria Linklater. I would also like to acknowledge my good friends Ron and Nancy. I am so grateful to you for showing me the importance of culture, tradition, and ceremony. I love you all very much. I would like to acknowledge Louise McCallum (my transcriber), Miriam McNab, Tania Lafontaine, Jason Albert, and my Indian grandmother Joan Sanderson. My heart is yours, I love you. I would like to acknowledge the Sakimay First Nation Chief and Council, as well as Wanda Sangwais who was my post-secondary counselor. Thank you for your monetary support in these last eight years. Mikwec! I would like to acknowledge all my students: you all have a piece of my heart, and you have made my teaching experience exciting and rich. And remember that when you are in a bind and stressed, clean it up one room at a time. I love you. I would like to acknowledge Darlene W, Sarah L, Debra A, Doreen L, Emma M, Bea C, and Lana F. These women have seen me at my worst and my best, and I love them for it. I know there are many more women in my life, and you are all special, trust me. I would like to acknowledge all my friends past, present, and future. Thanks for being in my life. iii I would like to acknowledge my editors Suzanne Gallant and Andreas Krebs for all their wonderful advice in putting my dissertation together and for helping me make it beautiful, mikwec! I would like to acknowledge my PhD committee. Special thanks to Dr. Bonnie Janzen who was my supervisor and mentor over the years. She had this undying faith in me and she gave me the drive I needed to never ever give up. I would like to acknowledge Dr. Lori Hanson, Dr. Sylvia Abonyi and Dr. Ann Leis for all their amazing support as they walked with me through my educational journey. I will forever be grateful to my committee, mikwec. And to my External Reviewer, Dr. J. Gary Knowles who just made my heart sing mikwec. Dr. Knowles made my Defense experience one that I will not be forgetting anytime soon. I would also like to acknowledge Dr. Colleen Dell because without her knowledge and support, I would have not gained such strong research skills and abilities. She also gave me the strength to be a good researcher, and I gained confidence because she was always there for me. Really, I had the best possible PhD committee, Editor(s) and External Reviewer that any woman could ever ask for and I will forever be grateful, mikwec. I know there are many others in the academic world I might have forgotten, but you know who you are, and I thank you. Mikwec! iv Dedication This PhD is dedicated to my parents Joe and Olive Acoose. Every day I have walked on Mother Earth I have missed you in my heart and soul. You gave me life, and for that I am grateful. I will share this with you in spirit. You are my ceremony; you are my dreams, hopes, and aspirations to always strive for excellence. Mikwec! v They Stole (my) Our Thunder It was dark; Their hands were cold and calloused. Their smell and taste would be most heinous; My child spirit would run and hide. They Stole my Thunder. Years of abuse, pain, and misery, Alcohol, drugs and men, It was all I had to comfort my body, mind, and soul. Years in prison and life on the street took hold, they Stole my Thunder. It was dark; Death was near and looming; The years have taken its toll but my inner strength would persevere, I would surrender and I would rise from the ashes! I would find my Thunder! The dark would turn to light, I would learn to live and love again; My child spirit would be reborn better and stronger than ever before. Yes, they may have Stolen my Thunder, but I would find it! Our (my) successful reintegration would be fierce, The Creator is with me! Hiy! Hiy! by Sharon Leslie Acoose January 18, 2012 vi Table of Contents PERMISSION TO USE I ABSTRACT II ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS III DEDICATION V THEY STOLE (MY) OUR THUNDER VI TABLE OF CONTENTS VII LIST OF IMAGES XI PART ONE 1 CHAPTER 1: INTRODUCTION 2 1.1) RESEARCH GOALS AND APPROACH 5 1.2) OVERVIEW OF CHAPTERS 6 CHAPTER 2: