SPRING ISSUE APRIL 2018 FOR SERVICE USERS ● BY SERVICE USERS PAGE 2 SPRING ISSUE World Autism Awareness Week Review 3 Poets’ House 4 - 5 Tesco Take Two 6 Bus Assessment 6 SPRING Question Me 7 The Big Blockbuster Kneesworth Quiz 8 - 9 My Road To Recovery 10 Vegetarianism: For & Against 10 Things I Am Grateful For 10 My Running Journey 11 My Continued Life At Kneesworth 12 Welcome to the SPRING edition of Look Up. Once again Props Piece 12 both the Tuesday morning and Wednesday afternoon Book Review 13 Magazine Groups have been hard at work writing and Songs Of My Life 13 designing this edition. Film Reviews 14 You don’t have to attend the Look Up sessions to contribute Computer Games Reviews 15 though - we always welcome your contributions to help keep the magazine a good read! Takeaway Review & Recipe 15 PS4 Reviews 16 We are on the look out for: Anger 16 Your stories Your reviews Why I Love To Read 17 Your thoughts and musings Your poems The Future 17 Your artwork and photography Anything else! Pure Essence: My Review 17 Please write into us with your entries via the internal mail Breath Control 17 addressed to ‘Look Up magazine, EVOS’ or you can pass Memes Of The Month 18 them on to your ward OT/OTA. Comedy Corner 19 Service User Artwork: Tesla In Space 20 Front cover artwork by DH FOOTSTEPS TOP TEN MENTAL Here we go. New beginnings, new surroundings. Finally the time has come HEALTH TIPS where I can move on out of Kneesworth House. Such a good and positive move. A new life and a fresh start. Meeting new 1. Take your meds daily, the correct dose and at people. Doing exciting things in my life, finally being able to get freedom. the right times every day. Freedom is what we all long for, and all deserve, but we have to work hard 2. Don’t take illegal drugs. to get there. For some it can be hard, as moving on can be hard at first but 3. Do 90 minutes of exercise every week. my saying is many of us did it when we came here. 4. Go for a 30 minute walk when possible. For me it means settling down, seeing my partner a lot more than I do 5. Eat healthy. now, and doing the things that I so desire to do. 6. Speak to staff, family and friends when you My aim is to do some voluntary work with Justice 4 Women. Helping and need to. supporting women with what I myself went through. Giving a little something back to the community and doing what studying I need to do. 7. Use helpful helplines. Being able to put a smile on someone’s face. ZF 8. Don’t drink too much alcohol and never take meds with alcohol. 9. Try and get enough sleep each night and try and get into a healthy sleep pattern. SAYING NOT THIS 10. Try and do one positive thing a day or more. Saying not this, to your mind I find helps with negative thoughts and hearing voices. DJH So why not try this exercise and see if it works? TD FOR SERVICE USERS ● BY SERVICE USERS SPRING ISSUE PAGE 3 WORLD AUTISM AWARENESS WEEK. MARCH 26 - 29. The 2018 World Autism Awareness Week ran smoothly and After the presentation, Dylan, Henry, JRW and I performed as according to plan. From 26th – 29th March 2018 the whole of ‘Jetstorm’ (a tribute act to Latvian band Brainstorm) and sung ‘A Kneesworth House Hospital supported all the events that had Day Before Tomorrow’ and ‘Weekends Are Not My Happy Days’. happened, to raise funds for the UK’s leading autism charity, The After we sang two songs as a band, JRW sang four songs with guitar National Autistic Society. Awareness was raised about 700,000 and lastly, I sang three Eurovision entries; people in the UK living with autism, including me. Here are the • Adio (Goodbye) – Knez from Montenegro 2015 highlights of what happened over the past week linking to #WAAW2018. • Kedvesem (Sweetheart) – Bye Alex from Hungary 2013 On 26th March, JA and I baked cakes alongside Henry (OT) and • Loin d’ici (Far from here) – Zoe from Austria 2016 Laura (OTA) in time for the next day’s presentation and gig at the I was happy and the people gave me a round of applause! Social Club. We made at least 20 cupcakes, vanilla and chocolate, Then, on 28th March, we had a five-a-side football match between decorated with pink and purple icing, to be sold for World Autism captains Dylan (in bibs) and Lewis (no bibs). When I came on as a Awareness Week 2018. In terms of my culinary skills, it was my best sub I went on to score a goal. I was happy with my goal scoring day that I ever did. The cakes were sold at the Social Club and the performance! Despite losing, it was not just the winning, it’s just leftovers were sold at Teasworth Café and Southview. taking part. On the final day of World Autism Awareness Week 2018, I ran at least 10km and went on to break my one hour mark with a time of 58mins 44secs. At the end of my run, it was a great pleasure that my pageant friend, Miss England 2017 1st runner up and Miss On 27th March it was a crucial day. Gary Stobbs, Dr Horgan, the Hertfordshire, Rachel Pitman, awarded my medal, which was a psychologists, service users (in particular, from Orwell) and nursing great honour. staff, alongside Henry, Dylan, Dex, Laura, Judyta and Alice, attended a combined presentation/gig to raise autism awareness. On the first part, Amber (the autistic-friendly psychologist) and I talked about what autism is, and what the challenges and strengths are. People game me a huge standing ovation. I would like to say a massive thank you to Dr Horgan, OTs Henry and Alice, Dylan, Dex, Judyta and Laura for making it a special event to remember. I would also like to say a massive thank you for organising this wonderful event to raise autism awareness and to educate people about autism. A big thank you also to Miss Hertfordshire 2017, Rachel Pitman, for coming along on your final Dylan also asked me what the running order was for the 1992 appearance as Miss Hertfordshire, to award the medal to me. Thank Eurovision Song Contest, which I recited from memory. you all of you! JOf FOR SERVICE USERS ● BY SERVICE USERS PAGE 4 SPRING ISSUE SMOKE THROUGH YOUR FINGERS Pure Morning Pure Morning New cut day New cut day Watch yesterdays fade away Watch yesterdays fade away POETS’ Pure morning Pure morning HOUSE New cut day New cut day Watch yesterdays like smoke through your fingers drift away Watch yesterdays like smoke through your fingers drift away The goldfish were piranhas In my deepest dreams The weed dispatched their souls I see a boy he cries The sergeant hit me square in the jaw For all the bitterness SINGLE LIFE Glowing like burning coals All the shittiness I am an Aspie The prince killed the prince one awkward night The delusions and the lies Not nasty Cold razor took his sleep If I know I’m crazy Try to find ladies but no The queen shed no tear and her face it was queer The problem is half solved No one knows Watching her maidens weep Lying here don’t phase me I am single Still waiting to evolve And they took me away, yeah they took me away Never mingle To the marble slippery walls In a house with unlocked doors I play and dance alone As I turned away I could still hear you say I see an open corridor Somebody talk on the phone “I’ll catch you where-ever you fall” Leading me away from you Never fear In a house with unlocked doors Pure Morning I am all here I see an open corridor New cut day JOf Leading me to pastures new Watch yesterdays fade away JRW Pure morning New cut day MACCIE D’s Watch yesterdays like smoke through your fingers drift away McDonalds sounds like it’s by Donald Trump The division bell is ringing And if you eat your French fries too quickly Lonely beggars hears its toll You might find your throat full of lump KEEP RIGHT ON While I lead in drunken singing And the Big Macs are so good I support Birmingham City Taking the easy role You might say “Holy Cow!” Sometimes I think what a pity There’s a part of me that hates you But if I were you My team are nicknamed the blues Wants to see you rot I’d stop eating it right now! We usually lose For all the roads you’ve wandered TD If we ever score a goal Chances you’ve squandered Hopefully we can get on to a good roll Squats you have forgot When we win The Cup And they took me away FOOD I’ll be on an up Yeah they took me away The food in here is not so great I’ll support Birmingham forever To the castle with no ladders And most of the time it’s so flipping late I can only hope we’ll get much better They insisted I stay It doesn’t leave my stomach feeling so great DJH They insisted I stay I’d rather eat my own and then meditate As I went from mad to madder TD FOR SERVICE USERS ● BY SERVICE USERS SPRING ISSUE PAGE 5 THE SONG CHECK OUT Forget political and tactical votes Am I selling out for Nikey? Does my designer label or From all over Europe and Australia plus Brexit Am I letting designers define me? My character define who I am? Too much battles in terms of the song Because if the Devil wears Prada The more I’m being targeted Primadonnas moaning like Wogan and Norton did Then who’s wearing Versace? The more I desire Eastern European countries broke up Can I change who I am? The more I purchase Yugoslavia, Czechoslovakia and the Soviet Union With Paco Rabane and Armani The more I require Relationships came to an end Am I really a better person The hunger of the soul But the Benelux, Greece and Cyprus Because I’m driving a Ferrari? That I buy goods to satisfy Traditionally love each other very much! Am I being sold fools gold? Does it really make me happy? As we contribute monies to the EBU In this consumer society Or am I being sold a lie? Alongside our French, German, Italian and Spanish allies Is the