Three Stories Marat Mooret I. HELEN Colorado, 1914 I remember Chicago it must have been 1910 when hot ash burned off my father's hair like dry brush, leaving his head naked and scarred. In the hospital bed he swore off the steel mills, he swore in Slavic while my mother moved heavy in pregnancy, ironing and washing for strangers. Her name was Angelina. I was young then, only three. My father's mustache grew back when we moved to the Colorado coal camp on the southern prairie. When he joined the union, we moved again to a strike colony called Ludlow, where rows of white tents fluttered like flags. We lived thousands together, Greek and Italian and Irish and Hungarian and Slav. In our tent, which seemed spacious with its two rooms and wood floor, I slept snug with three sisters, with our beloved Princess and her puppy at our feet. t Marat Moore has worked as an underground coal miner, journalist, photographer, and on the staff of the United Mine Workers of America. She is currently working on a book documenting the experiences of women miners in the United States. These poems are based on the oral history narratives of coalfield women who reflect on their experience of class and gender in America. At the Conference Feminism in the 90s: Bridging the Gap Between Theory and Practice, Ms. Moore spoke on the panel Broadening the Definition of Feminism. Copyright 0 1991 by Marat Moore Yale Journal of Law and Feminism [Vol. 4: 39 We were happy there. In many tongues we spoke the music of our common language. We danced to the accordion and the mandolin to celebrate the birth of my brother, the colony's first-born child. I played tent tag with our Italian neighbor's son, and made faces when he licked hot lard off his bread. Then the brown-uniformed soldiers came and set up camp on the hill. They stayed away, and watched us from a distance through field glasses. Every day the scabs drove by and barked at us like dogs. We hated them and sang our union songs while the brown-uniformed soldiers watched. Then they grew bold, walked into camp smiling and followed the older girls. Go with your sister Pearl, my mother said. I obeyed, but did not understand. I was young then, only seven. Fearing the guns some men dug pits under the tent floorboards. Father refused and argued with our Italian neighbor, saying, but what if the tents are burned? The man threw up his hands. She is pregnant, she cannot run if they fire the guns, he said and kept digging. As more soldiers came we sang louder and held more dances and one night at the big meeting tent a sweet-faced old woman faced us and when she spoke, her voice was like canon firing and I couldn't breathe, just 1991] Three Stories clapped till my hands reddened and stung. Later she handed out clothes and gave me a pair of leather shoes. They were too big, but I cried for happiness because she was our leader, Mother Jones. Mother and Father sat up late at night whispering by lamplight. Still we celebrated twice for Easter, both Protestant and Orthodox. We ate barbeque with the Greeks and I wore a lace dress that whipped my legs like froth. The sun melted the snow patches and the women played baseball in white blouses and black pants that billowed like skirts. The white ball floated across the sky and the crowd cheered while the brown-uniformed soldiers rode up on their horses with their guns propped on their saddles and watched. I loved that lace dress and wore it again the next morning when the shooting started, a crackle of machine guns from nowhere. My father ran to join the men, but I grabbed the dark cloth of his trousers, my little fist like iron. I loved him. No! my sister screamed and grabbed my hair by the roots. We ran to a water tank sunk deep in the ground Princess ran after us barking they shot her shot the puppy one boy ran to get water for his mother who had fainted Yale Journal of Law and Feminism [Vol. 4: 39 they shot him through the head he was older than me, maybe ten. The rock ledge was ringed with children where mothers nursed to keep the babies quiet. Gunfire was the only sound. Mother shushed us and nursed Ludlow's first-born. Above us an Irish couple shot at soldiers from a toilet while their two redheads sat with us, below. When the train came, we ran behind the cars and down a creek bed. My foot hit something soft, a wounded man. He cried out and I was so afraid that I ran through barbed wire that ripped my lace dress. I dragged the barbed wire behind me, still running. Finally we made it to a farm where a woman fed us boiled eggs and tea. We wrapped up in blankets on the floor and my mother nursed my brother and started to cry. Later in the day the soldiers moved in with brooms dipped in oil, and touched flame to canvas. In the pits below, women and children screamed, choked and burned. We lost our good neighbors, and many more. Then the soldiers moved in again and raped the survivors. People don't know that but it happened, some were our good friends. I was young then, only seven I'm ten times that now but I remember. 1991] Three Stories II. ELLA West Virginia, 1983 I was a welfare kid in a company town after my dad's luck ran out. He lost a leg in the mines and then had a car wreck and died. I always thought that things might have been different if he'd lived but he didn't. In fifth grade the teacher said, "Everybody on welfare stand up!" There was just one boy and me. I hung my head, walked home and dug fence posts because I wasn't considered good enough to work in a store, not in that town. When my brother opened a coal seam with some other boys, I hefted a six-foot auger, and hand-dug and loaded coal, then pushed it home in a wheelbarrow. I was 12. We worked every Saturday until my brother ran off. Then I worked alone, two years with a pick and shovel but it kept my mother warm and that felt good to me. In high school teachers were surprised when I won awards. You're bright, they said, you could make a doctor or lawyer. But brains couldn't take me to my graduation, since I didn't have the dollar and a quarter it cost, and was too proud to ask for help. When I got the chance to leave I did, and took my mother with me Yale Journal of Law and Feminism [Vol. 4: 39 but then I married a paratrooper who'd been a narc for three years in Vietnam. He busted his buddies for dope, and was honored for his contribution. I don't honor him . for what he did to me coming at me like I was Viet Cong with our little girl standing there. He got 5 to 18 years for hurting me while I got tumors that kept growing from the scar tissue inside. Half my intestines and half my stomach are gone, and every year I lose more to the surgeon's knife. He cries and says he loves me but I know he'd come after me again. So I take precautions. Every room in this house is stocked with food and water and ammunition. He caught us once unprepared but it won't happen again. Things were going bad between us when I went to the mine office weighing 89 pounds and praying to God for that job. I got it, but lost the respect of my neighbors who said, "She's screwing around down there. Ain't it awful?" My first day in the mine the boss said, "Don't worry about rubber boots. This mine is dry." So I wore leather. When bad roof forced us through a waterhole where a high-voltage line had slipped I got knocked twenty feet in the air and then slammed into the tunnel wall. The boss was fine. His boots were rubber. That's when I thought, maybe 1991] Three Stories I should do something else for a living. I've never been hurt bad just little things, like burst kneecaps pulled muscles broken fingers electrical burns and a couple of hits from falling rock but no lost-time accidents and nothing to compare with what I got at home My lungs are a different story. I thought I'd die at the clinic having to breathe in medicine that's supposed to break up the coal in your lungs until you spit black phlegm. I jerked like a killed chicken and the doctor shook his head and said, let's try something else next time. I'm 36 I feel 60 I started bossing because this old body can't stand much more hard labor. My first shift as a boss I ran more coal than any man there because I wouldn't ask anyone to do what I wouldn't do myself. And we pray. Every shift the preacher on our crew asks God to protect us inside and protect our families on the outside because you never know, they are vulnerable too.