Damien Spiteri & Ryan Mercieca Malta Am I Gozitan? What does that mean? An exploration of the identities of Gozitan young people who have lived abroad The study will focus on the perspectives of Gozitan young people who have a dual citizenship and who lived both in Malta and in the US. It will analyse how they negotiate their identity as Gozitans, particularly since, as EU citizens, they can live and work in different parts of the EU. The study will be focused on people in their 20s and 30s who have lived in both the US and Malta, and will also explore if/how they see accessing different countries as influencing their future life plans. Gozo as home. The life-plans of Gozitan young people with dual US citizenship When addressing a convention which is aimed at Maltese people living abroad, it is inevitable that we expect that the experiences of different categories of people to feature. There are those who have lived abroad and only come to Malta sparsely, seeing themselves as having left Malta permenantly. Others would be those who live abroad and come to Malta every so often, and yet, somehow, identify more with being Maltese than with their host country. Yet others are those who have lived abroad for some time, returned to Malta, and, particularly because they live here, see themselves as Maltese. While I am sure that these categories are not set in stone, and there may be people who identify with perhaps more than one category simultaneously, I am going to focus my address on the experiences of young people who fall into the third category, who however, see themselves more as Gozitans than Maltese, even though, whe outside of Malta and asked where they come from, usually they refer to CMLA 2015 – Damien Spiteri and Ryan Mercieca (Malta): Am I Gozitan? What does that mean? An exploration of the identities of Gozitan young people who have lived abroad themselves as Maltese rather than Gozitan. Before I start, however, I would like to give a brief history about where this paper originates from. It is the work of two authors. There is Dr. Damian Spiteri, who is from Malta, and who like many other Maltese, says that he says Gozo as a holiday place, associating it, with, in his younger days, such experiences as going to parties at La Grotta in Xlendi and then going, with other Maltese friends for pastizzi in the morning in ir-Rabat, and in today's days, with occassional weekend visits with his family, and retreats with Fr Paul Chetcuti of the Society of Jesus, at Manresa Retreat House, at Munxar. And then, there is myself, who is Gozitan, who has many childhood experiences in Gozo, who has attended school and sixth form in Gozo, whose roots are essentially Gozitan, and even when at University, commuted regularly between the islands, since, like many other Gozitans, I see Gozo as home. Prof. Godfrey Baldacchino (2007, p. 165) who has studied islands describes them "as a contradiction between openness and closure, between roots and routes, which islanders must continually negotiate." Let us focus on these two contradictions. Let us start off by reflecting about Gozo's openness or about Gozo as an open space. One can ask how many Gozitan islanders travel elsewhere are then return - bringing back outside experiences and practises with them. Perhaps, one may not go that far, and think of the social sites that can lead to the creation and/or enhancement of relationships with people in lands afar. As a matter of fact, one of the participants had said that, in today's day and age, if one is to go into facebook, it is as if one has gone to the village square and met up with friends so as to socialise and have a drink [illum il-ġurnata, tidħol fil-facebook, qisek tmur il-pjazza, tieħu drink). Does this make Gozo open? Now let us look at things the other way round and think of Gozo as a closed space. One can ask is there such a thing as a Gozitan identity. If so, how does it come about, If one were to ask, for instance, what the Maltese think about the Gozitans, would one be closer at arriving to an answer to such a question? Let us now move onto the second contradiction, the one about the roots. This relates to where one is coming from. Now, let us change subject for a while, and, talk about the routes. These are the means through which one travels in order to reach one's many evolving destinations in life. Very often roots and routes travel hand in hand, in psycholoanalytic theory, for instance, we learn that through the route of marriage, we often end up finding a partner that reminds us of someone or something in our roots. Can we say the same thing applies in the case of people who move out of Gozo and live in the US, but yet want to bring up their children here, and leave the US, with its promise of plentiful opportunities, for this small island. Of course, one CMLA 2015 – Damien Spiteri and Ryan Mercieca (Malta): Am I Gozitan? What does that mean? An exploration of the identities of Gozitan young people who have lived abroad must also ask what happens in the case of emigrants who want to return to their native home land but are unable to for a host of reasons, including a desire not to interrupt their children’s' schooling, or other social or familial commitments. What feelings do they experience? Dr. Baldacchino discusses very powerful and emotion centered contradictions. I have decided to focus on them since they feature prominently in the narratives of a group of young people who Dr. Spiteri and I interviewed, so as to address the convention on Maltese living abroad with updated data about the impact, particularly on an emotional level, that migration has on people. The study which Dr. Spiteri and I carried out was focused on ten interviewees who I knew. The study is thereby not based on a representative sample and the insights that it generates cannot be generalized to a larger population. However, the study contributes to our understanding of transitions from the perspective of young people who have lived for some time in the US and come back. It has to be pointed out further that these young people had no say in either going or coming, they simply did what their parents did. Their parents took them to the US when emigrating there. Their parents brought them with them on eventually relocating to Gozo. All the interviewees are in their late teens and early 20s, and most attend the University of Malta. When in the USA, most lived in New York. They stayed there for periods ranging from three months to five years. All had been taken there by their relatives, and in each case, their relatives had decided to return. While, as can be resonably expected, those who went for shorter time periods do not believe that the period that they spent in the USA was influential, others who spent some of their primary or secondary school years there believed that the USA had an influence on them, and said that had they not succeed in getting into the University of Malta, they would have pursued a college education in the USA. However, even amongst these young people, there were differences. Some went and came back without revisiting Gozo when they were gone. Others revisited from time to time, and recall fondly memories of having meals with their cousins in Gozo at the grandmother's home, hence we are talking of family roots within the broad overall context of the routes that they were taking. Some, particularly those who went abroad for relatively shorter periods, went with a clear intent of returning to Gozo, eventually, even though one of the participants noted that his parents had cut the period of time short, on encountering previously unforseen employment problems in the US. Another of the participants, who had lived in the US, described having been told of his parents' desire to return to Gozo as something that came completely out of the CMLA 2015 – Damien Spiteri and Ryan Mercieca (Malta): Am I Gozitan? What does that mean? An exploration of the identities of Gozitan young people who have lived abroad blue, it was a complete shock to him (niftakar li kien xokk kbir għalija, meta kienu qaluli li ser immorru noqgħodu Għawdex għal dejjem). The contradiction between routes and roots can be expressed in different ways. Two of the participants said that their parents had blocks of flats in Gozo. One said that his parents had built a block of flats in Astoria, in New York, something that they have held onto, even though they are now living in Gozo, as it serves as a source of income, since they rent them out, and thereby benefit from their rental income. Another of the participants said that he knew someone, who likewise also had a block of flats in New York, who had sold it, prior to returning to Gozo, saying that he did not want to have ties with immovables outside of Gozo. It is almost as if some people believe in a total attachment to their roots, an almost here or there mentality, as if owning flats in the US precludes them from being Gozitan, or if not that, somehow interferes with the way they perceive themselves as Gozitans.