PSALMS for MOTHER EMANUEL E L E G Y F R O M P I T T S B U R G H T O C H a R L E S T O N
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PSALMS FOR MOTHER EMANUEL ELEGY FROM PITTSBURGH TO CHARLESTON the pittsburgh foundation | 2016 FOREWORD All things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. — ROMANS 8:28 It requires a lot of faith to practice Romans 8:28. On June 17, 2015, a gunman walked into Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal (A.M.E.) Church and opened fire on women, men and children concluding a Bible Study while their eyes were closed, “watching God.” The nine people killed were armed with Bibles and the Holy Spirit. My childhood friend and ministerial colleague, Rev. Clementa Pinckney, was killed. Our text message stream is still in my cellphone; I will not erase it. Waltrinia Middleton, a college friend, and her aunt, Rev. DePayne Middleton-Doctor, were killed. These personal relationships made the tragedy sink in even more. On July 10, 2015, the Confederate flag was removed from the South Carolina State House. Many in my state and across the nation began having more serious conversations about race. I tremble thinking what it cost us to get there. Emanuel A.M.E. Church is one of the most historic African- American churches in the nation. And Charleston is dubbed the “Holy City” for the plethora of churches that make up its landscape. Every corner of Charleston reminds us of past prejudices, recent hates and an optimistic future. There is a beauty in the city that is majestic. The nation saw it in the outpouring of love after June 17. The Book of Psalms was the hymnbook of ancient Israel. The Book of Psalms in the Hebrew Bible was written by several authors; the most noteworthy were David and Solomon. David wrote mostly when in danger, on the run, after he sinned and when his heart was shattered. David wrote when he was worshipping and praising G-d or when he was seeking comfort from YHWH. The Emanuel Massacre broke my heart and the hearts of many people. The Pittsburgh community felt the depth of this tragedy and offered these psalms, laments, poems for us. In times like these we need various forms of comfort that will spark introspection and help us come together as a human family to be better than we were yesterday. REV. CAREY A. GRADY | Reid Chapel AME Church, Columbia, S.C. INTRODUCTION The Pittsburgh Foundation commissioned Psalms for Mother Emanuel: Elegy from Pittsburgh to Charleston to help spur our collective reflection on the meaning of the nine lives lost in the Charleston Massacre and the persistence of racial animus in our national life. The 10 commissioned artists share works that evoke community, the significance and burden of place, and the injustice that institutional racism has scripted for African American lives. But these artists also summon hope in the face of trial and suffering, the blue sky above the blues in our throats. Collectively they provide a clarion call for the region and the nation to grapple with the requirements of a future truly free of racism. We hope they provide a spark for continued reflection, dialogue and action. Sincerely, TAMEKA CAGE CONLEY | contributing co-editor YONA C. HARVEY | contributing co-editor GERMAINE WILLIAMS | senior program officer for arts and culture VANESSA GERMAN UNTITLED (CHARLESTON CHURCH KILLINGS SERIES) 7 LIBERTY FERDA AND WHAT DID WATCHING BIRDS SING WHEN YOU GATHERED Ghosts of ancestors line Charleston’s shore And what did watching birds sing when you gathered hair coiling to dredlocked fists again, gathered strong as steel they’d break hands outside the church their backs to make up north one day backs to black and yellow caution or sweetgrass weaved so tight tape cautioning too late? no water could escape Surely this: Beware prayers of earth’s meek heirs Behind them seagulls soar and dip black banded in the cross beaks as if to warn of coming loss hairs of cowards’ aim they rise mothers, uncles, strong and sonorous as ancient conch pastors, cousins, sisters. calling forbears on shore bound for suffering, so much What, then, of your bell tower birds suffering at the moment of massacre beneath them— survival bequeathed by blood did they rush the steeple, dark and the scandal of forgiving vast feather teardrops down white as ocean white-tipped stucco, or abide in dwelling and free. witness to sunrise years of laughing lace, pearls and spit-shined shoes gleaming foreheads wet with glory boys bound for Sunday School, bowties starched and blue outspread arms tilt this way and that ready for ascent? In the day of trouble He will keep me safe in His dwelling 8 9 TAMEKA CAGE CONLEY JOY KMT THE DOORS OF MOTHER EMANUEL ARE OPEN LUKE 19:40 to Felicia Sanders When the preacher says, the doors of the church are open, he does not mean to tell you what you already know: you can walk into any open door love is insane. you please. grief — a wild thing the polite don’t No. know. the rocks testify — He telling you about your soul. And eternal. Life. relentlessly in their place. You can’t make it without God. the basement unravels — the bedrooms are empty Your body took place. In. Your body heavy with what it knew. Your body the people still smile and new in this holy place. Your body and your piece. Your body and its heat. the days still Your body hears open songs of worship, high as doves, and the beating turn. of your heart. Your body is. A broken song, singing. Your body is not. Hallelujah. Not sacrifice. Your body scrape. Your body hollow. Your body mother of bone and memory, ground. Unholy. Your body ain’t nothing new. Your body hooded. And holed. Your body foreign. And white. we are what god makes us And welcome. and we are — unmade Christ whooped the merchants from the temple. His body ran with sweat grief like it would soon run with blood. Can you beat it? The sinners’ skins set broken moonlight ablaze by God? But when the devil in the sanctuary, and you do not know, slice an empty bedroom how do you defend yourself? winding like the wind in a graveyard — waking the dead But somebody felt it. In the bone. Something bout that boy didn’t. Look right. Didn’t. Feel right. Didn’t go inside, though the doors opened. And mama, i don’t know stayed open. Somebody shook their head. Closed their mouth. Shook why the sun shines their head. Lifted their hands. Shook their head and lowered. Their head. like nothing ain’t Sucked their teeth. Felt spit. Felt water around the heart. Heavy, heavy, ever happen heavy as blood. Lifted their soul. Saw light. Said, Behold, Lord, thy servant. before They feared the Lord, a flaming, holy fear. And treated that boy with love. love — is insane When the door opened, the bodies laid down/The bodies were laid down/ a rolling rock When the door opened/The door opened as doors are made/To open/And an open mouth with a name all the bodies laid down concealed — copper under the bitten Jesus said, No one can take my life from me. Power. I have the authority to tongue lay it down, to take it up again. Power. waiting to wail — at dusk’s end. All nine. Jesus. Sang. Jesus. When called. Jesus. They came. Jesus. Said a wild thing– yes. Jesus. And yes. Jesus. When he came. Jesus. And took. Jesus. Wasn’t what god makes us– nothing. Jesus. To take. Jesus. They was already. Jesus. Laid down. Jesus. Already. Jesus. Surrendered. Jesus. Already. Jesus. Yours. Jesus. Already. Jesus. With you. — Selah. 10 11 TERRANCE HAYES THREE SORROWS I. To murder. I am lonely enough to hate After the deaths of the black men, women, and children, Everything in my face. After I wanted to sing the song I’d heard once about a man killing A black bird is stoned in a field, A poor old horse in a tanners yard except I wanted to make The black bird lies next to the stone The horse a small black bird and the man a white child, Like a lover with her arms thrown open, With her small mouth opened, And I wanted to sing it to you. After I tried to imagine myself, Like you, Jesus, dead for a little while and singing to the stone And out of which springs a song A boy cannot decipher. Of forgiveness, after I sang with fear or some adjacent feeling Inside the Mother Emanuel African Of the small black bird beneath the stone the small white boy Methodist Episcopal Church Slammed down in the field beyond his house, my voice cracked. Nine beautiful niggers pray in the pews I hummed black lives matter because I was afraid to sing it Like birds. And I say, Jesus Fucking Christ Out loud. Does it matter whether it is a poor old horse To myself and my gun is heavier Or a blackbird? Inside each man is a boy whose father was too kind Than the weight of a life. Or cruel or absent; inside each boy is a mother with a song When I was young I found a black She did not sing often enough to him. I remember singing Who cares Bird with a broken wing in a field. What was inside him after a white boy in the north turned his gun And as I stoned the bird I imagined On a roomful of children and then upon himself.