THE GREAT ESCAPE The Family That Preys – Escaping My Narcissistic Family Cult -Perfecting Waves of Contrast 03-08- 21 MUSIC-VIDEO MEMOIR BLOG Musical Emotional Narrative. Music Lyrics Narrate the Story and My Emotions. How I Deal & Healing from Lifetime of Abuse & Trauma. How I Created A Career Doing So, While Helping Others Do the Same. I CREATED MY OWN Miracle in The Mourning to Escape My Narcissistic Family Cult & Being Targeted by Corrupt Cops, In Order to Create Balance & Stability in my Life. AKA Perfecting Waves of Contrast. Dedicated & DESIGNED SPECIAL FOR THE GOON SQUAD My Mom, Dad, & My Husband. DESIGNED SPECIAL by ME, Your (EX) DAUGHTER AND (EX) WIFE- MY LIFE MATTERS!!! Escaping My Narcissistic Family Cult & Abusive Controlling Emotional Predator Sociopath Ex-Husband. Playing the Family Scapegoat in my Narcissistic Family Cult Became Extremely Dangerous Once My Mother Teamed Up with My Charming Master Manipulator Covert Sociopath Husband. They Thought It Would Be Easy & They Would Win in Their Battle to Destroy My Whole Life, 7-8 Years of Sabotage, Slowly Over Time, Years of Careful Planning They Never Thought It Was Possible They Wouldn’t Be Victorious. ………HAHAHA UNDERESTIMATING ME = HUGE MISTAKE TARTING NEW TREND… #ALLIVESMATTER. DEMANDING HIGHER STANDARDS FOR RAISING CHILDREN I’m Married to The Music, For Better or For Worse PART ONE – WHO AM I? Chapter 1- Who Am I? ...I See Stars I'm living breathing proof! I'm living breathing proof! I feel it leaving me The earth starts to Fade The liFe inside oF me I find myself doing all the wrong things For all the right reasons I hear the words you say loud and clear I just don't give a fuck! I'm living breathing prooF That you can turn oFF your conscious I'll show you the worst oF me You have me asking Who am I? I'm a whole lot different that I look on the outside Let me go Take me back to the place I know Will I ever be the person I'm supposed to be? I will never let go I'm living breathing proof! I'm living breathing proof! (Who am I?) It's safe to say there are many days I live with no regrets How do you sleep at night? When I'm a living nightmare? I feel it leaving me The liFe inside oF me! How do you sleep at night? When I am a living nightmare I am living nightmare Who am I? I'm a whole lot different that I look on the outside Let me go Take me back to the place I know Will I ever be the person I'm supposed to be? I will never let go Will I ever be the person I'm supposed to be? I will never let go (I'm living breathing proof) Chapter 2- Bound for the Floor ...Local H Born to be down I've learned all my lessons before now Born to be down I think you'll get used to it And you just don't get it You keep it copacetic And you learn to accept it You know it's so pathetic Born to be down I think that I've said this before now Born to be down What good is confidence? And you just don't get it You keep it copacetic And you learn to accept it You know it's so pathetic And you don't Chapter 3- Incubus Vitamin I'm born I'm alive I breathe In a moment or two I realize, That the sphere upon which I reside, Is asleep on its feet. Should I go back to sleep? I'm born I'm alive I breathe In a moment or two I realize, That the sphere upon which I reside, Is asleep on its feet. Should I go back to sleep? You stare at me like a vitamin On the surface you hate, But you know you need me. I'll come dressed as any pill you deem fit. Whatever helps you swallow truth All the more easily. We orbit the sun I grow up My open eyes see A zombified, somnambulist society. Leaving us as vitamins For the hibernating human animal. Do you see what I mean? You stare at me like a vitamin On the surface you hate, But you know you need me. I'll come dressed as any pill you deem fit. Whatever helps you swallow truth All the more easily. And I wonder, will you digest me? Into the sleep machine I won't plug in, In fact I'd rather die before I will comply. To you, my friend, I write the reason I still live, cause in my mind it's set the vitamin is ripe to give Coming closer to another 2000 years You and I will pry The closed eye of the sleep machine You stare at me like a vitamin On the surface you hate, But you know you need me. I'll come dressed as any pill you deem fit. Whatever helps you swallow truth All the more easily. Chapter 4- Wait Earshot Something's wrong, Trying to conquer these fears I thought were gone. And it's been so long, I'm dying to live in a world I don't belong I can't wait for someone to hear me, And wait for someone to touch me. And wait forever to be told, I'm forever alone. I can't wait for someone to feel me, And wait for someone to heal me. And wait forever to be told, I'm forever alone. On my own, I'll show myself what it means to be alone. And the tears I cry are washed away. All the scars are my disguise. I can't wait for someone to hear me, And wait for someone to touch me. And wait forever to be told, I'm forever alone. I can't wait for someone to feel me, And wait for someone to heal me. And wait forever to be told, I'm forever alone. I'm forever alone. I'm forever alone. I'm forever alone. I, I'm not waiting here this time. I can't wait for someone to hear me. And wait for someone to touch me And wait forever to be told, I'm forever alone. I can't wait for someone to feel me And wait for someone to heal me And wait forever to be told I'm forever alone. Chapter 5- Limits Bad Omens You set me up as the villain But you never mentioned the root of the problem Took what you wanted and flipped it But you won't be dragging my name to the bottom So much unsaid, left me for dead I won't forget, and now you're next Well, everyone's listening, and they know the difference You're not failing our senses If you're throwing me to the lions You should know I'm not scared of dying I wouldn't take back one thing I did, one word I said But I'm going to make you wish you did Jump to conclusions, they fall for illusions But you wouldn't dare try to stop them You're going low at the end of the road But that won't be the path that I follow So much unsaid, left me for dead I won't forget, you're on my list Well, everyone's listening, and they know the difference You're not failing our senses If you're throwing me to the lions You should know I'm not scared of dying I wouldn't take back one thing I did, one word I said But I'm going to make you wish you did I'm holding on to this until the scale's untitled Well, everyone's listening And they know the difference You're not failing our senses But you're pushing my limits If you're throwing me to the lions You should know I'm not scared of dying I wouldn't take back one thing I did, one word I said Whoa If you're throwing me to the lions You should know I'm not scared of dying I wouldn't take back one thing I did, one word I said Chapter 6- Wolves Big Sean Uh Yeah, uh, that's right, uh, yeah Yeah, uh I was raised by the wolves (I was raised by) I was raised by the wolves (I was raised by) I was raised by the wolves, ate 'til they full (I was raised by) Run through the night, playing with ya life Go against the pack, that's risking ya life (I was raised by) Better play it right, yeah, you better play it right I got loyalty and blood, I do anything for love And everything for us, doing everything like everything ain't been too much You know my favorite time to come through for ya is the clutch, last second, what a rush Look, I'm the type to talk to the stars (I look up) Straight up, these ain't tattoos these are scars My young dogs will tear you and the witnesses apart (straight up) They care about starving more than they do about a charge (whoa, whoa, whoa) Me, I can't break a commitment (no) I done seen people fuck up the whole team 'cause they couldn't play they position Talking about they didn't mean it, bitch You know the road to hell was paved with good intentions I see myself in my nemesis, I contemplated forgiveness, I think I lost all my innocence Ho, my life depend on this, this ain't no simple sucka shit Try and steal and you get bit, that's what you mothafucking get I feel safer taking risks and I can't eat this on my own life Put my back against the wall just to see how much I've grown, dawg I was raised by the wolves, ate 'til they full (I was raised by) Run through the night, playing with ya life Go against the pack, that's risking ya life (I was raised by) Better play it right, better play it right I was raised by the wolves, ate 'til they full Run through the night, playing with ya life Go against the pack, that's risking ya life Better play it right, yeah, you better play it right I was raised by the wolves, paid all my dues Always in the game and never played by the rules Try to make me leave, fell down to my knees Picked myself up and turned my back to the breeze Oh, oh-oh Spent a milli on a milli, mama look at me With all these diamond chokers, man, it's getting hard to breathe Now that you are family, cut some branches off my tree But if you in my circle, know I'll always be around Don't let me down, you said you'd die for me, well, there's the ground Ice on my wrist, ice in my veins But it's a cold, cold world, and you can be predator, you can be prey I was raised by the wolves, ate 'til they full Run through the night, playing with ya life Go against the pack, that's risking ya life Better play it right, better play it right 'Cause I was raised by the wolves, ate 'til they full ('til they full) Run through the night, playing with ya life (with ya life) Go against the pack, that's risking ya life (risking ya life) Better play