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Cicada's Song: a Memoir Luz Hernandez University of Texas at El Paso, Hernandezluz1122@Gmail.Com University of Texas at El Paso DigitalCommons@UTEP Open Access Theses & Dissertations 2019-01-01 Cicada's Song: A Memoir Luz Hernandez University of Texas at El Paso, [email protected] Follow this and additional works at: https://digitalcommons.utep.edu/open_etd Part of the English Language and Literature Commons Recommended Citation Hernandez, Luz, "Cicada's Song: A Memoir" (2019). Open Access Theses & Dissertations. 82. https://digitalcommons.utep.edu/open_etd/82 This is brought to you for free and open access by DigitalCommons@UTEP. It has been accepted for inclusion in Open Access Theses & Dissertations by an authorized administrator of DigitalCommons@UTEP. For more information, please contact [email protected]. CICADA’S SONG: A MEMOIR LUZ HERNANDEZ Masters Program in Creative Writing APPROVED: Sylvia Aguilar Zeleny, MFA, Chair José De Piérola, Ph.D. Laurie Ann Guerrero, MFA Charles Ambler, Ph.D. Dean of the Graduate School Copyright © by Luz Hernández 2019 Dedication For my daughters, whose light draws me along CICADA’S SONG: A MEMOIR by LUZ HERNANDEZ, M.A. THESIS Presented to the Faculty of the Graduate School of The University of Texas at El Paso in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirements for the Degree of MASTER OF FINE ARTS Department of Creative Writing THE UNIVERSITY OF TEXAS AT EL PASO May 2019 Acknowledgements I am grateful to all who have impacted my life. v Abstract Cicada’s Song is a true account of my coming-of-age as a first-generation Colombian-American girl growing up as the only child of two loving parents—one of whom abused me sexually for eleven years, while the other stood by without intervening. Yet the story is not one of resentment, blame, or self-pity. Rather, it is one of identity, self-reliance, survival, forgiveness, and love. Through a series of memories, essays, statements, and poems, the memoir invites the reader on a voyage through my childhood and youth, with stops in my both present-day and recent past, in the hopes that he will see the world—and the individuals in it, including himself—from a different perspective. It seeks to illustrate the point that we all have a past that shapes us but does not define us, that each of us is on our own, individual journey, and that it is up to us to choose our destination. vi Table of Contents Acknowledgements .............................................................................................................................. v Abstract ................................................................................................................................................ vi Table of Contents ............................................................................................................................... vii Preface ................................................................................................................................................... x PART ONE ........................................................................................................................................... 1 Chapter 1 ............................................................................................................................................... 1 Chapter 2 ............................................................................................................................................... 7 Chapter 3 ............................................................................................................................................... 8 Chapter 4 ............................................................................................................................................. 13 Chapter 5 ............................................................................................................................................. 16 Chapter 6 ............................................................................................................................................. 20 PART TWO ........................................................................................................................................ 26 Matter .................................................................................................................................................. 26 Chapter 7 ............................................................................................................................................. 27 Chapter 8 ............................................................................................................................................. 28 Chapter 9 ............................................................................................................................................. 32 Chapter 10 ........................................................................................................................................... 35 Chapter 11 ........................................................................................................................................... 38 Chapter 12 ........................................................................................................................................... 41 PART THREE .................................................................................................................................... 44 Chapter 13 ........................................................................................................................................... 44 Chapter 14 ........................................................................................................................................... 48 Chapter 15 ........................................................................................................................................... 54 Salt Water ............................................................................................................................................ 55 vii Chapter 16 ........................................................................................................................................... 56 I Do .................................................................................................................................................... 59 Chapter 17 ........................................................................................................................................... 60 Chapter 18 ........................................................................................................................................... 64 Chapter 19 ........................................................................................................................................... 68 Chapter 20 ........................................................................................................................................... 70 Chapter 21 ........................................................................................................................................... 72 Chapter 22 ........................................................................................................................................... 77 Chapter 23 ........................................................................................................................................... 80 Chapter 24 ........................................................................................................................................... 83 PART FOUR ...................................................................................................................................... 85 Chapter 25 ........................................................................................................................................... 85 Avalanche ........................................................................................................................................... 92 Chapter 26 ........................................................................................................................................... 93 Chapter 27 ........................................................................................................................................... 96 Chapter 28 ........................................................................................................................................... 97 Chapter 29 ......................................................................................................................................... 101 Chapter 30 ......................................................................................................................................... 108 PART FIVE ...................................................................................................................................... 113 Chapter 31 ......................................................................................................................................... 113 Chapter 32 ......................................................................................................................................... 118 Chapter 33 ......................................................................................................................................... 121 Chapter 34 ......................................................................................................................................... 124 Chapter 35 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