Sounds of Collective Black Girlhood
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Syracuse University SURFACE Dissertations - ALL SURFACE August 2019 Cruising, Crossings & Care: Sounds of Collective Black Girlhood Blair Ebony Smith Syracuse University Follow this and additional works at: https://surface.syr.edu/etd Part of the Education Commons Recommended Citation Smith, Blair Ebony, "Cruising, Crossings & Care: Sounds of Collective Black Girlhood" (2019). Dissertations - ALL. 1095. https://surface.syr.edu/etd/1095 This Dissertation is brought to you for free and open access by the SURFACE at SURFACE. It has been accepted for inclusion in Dissertations - ALL by an authorized administrator of SURFACE. For more information, please contact [email protected]. Abstract This dissertation is an autoethnography of my three-year and ongoing participation in Saving Our Lives Hear Our Truths (SOLHOT), a creative organizing collective that focuses on envisioning and creating spaces within the local community that celebrates the complex lived experiences of Black girls with Black girls. In this project, I argue sounds of collective Black girlhood, created in SOLHOT, reveal the importance of collective music-making practices in Black girlhood studies and girl programming. Cruising, Crossings and care, as sounds of collective Black girlhood created in SOLHOT, resound us towards 1) being with Black girls and women across difference in deep love, trust and care 2) remembering Black feminist/women and artists love and care for each other as critical to how we celebrate and organize Black girlhood, together. I begin with a review of literature of Black feminism, Black girlhood studies, performance studies and sound studies to locate and define the range of research that center Black girls and women’s lived experience and power made together, particularly as it relates to organizing a Black girl sound. Treating SOLHOT visual and material archives, Black feminist poetic texts, as well as the digital music productions, art and performances that come from being in intentional relationship and sociality with Black women and girls as primary sources and usable truths. My analysis theorizes from sound and music created in SOLHOT, Black feminist poetic texts, and experiences of being an artist with the collective. This work addresses sounds and songs that come from doing Black girlhood celebration and function as a way to document, analyze, interrogate and make space for complex Black girlhood in service of creating a better now and future that get us away from "programming" youth and more into making space/power for us to be fully human, together, across generations and differences. Making a specific contribution to Black girlhood studies, SOLHOT, art education and feminist theory, this study expands how we creatively engage Black girls, Black feminist organizing genealogies and practices, where music-making, poetry and sound serve as ways to remember our relational work and envision spaces and worlds to live out our full humanity. CRUISING, CROSSINGS & CARE: SOUNDS OF COLLECTIVE BLACK GIRLHOOD by Blair Ebony Smith B.S., The College of William and Mary, 2011 C.A.S., Syracuse University, 2014 Dissertation Submitted in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the degree of Doctor of Philosophy in Cultural Foundations of Education Syracuse University August 2019 Copyright Blair Ebony Smith 2019 All Rights Reserved Acknowledgements Universal forces, Gods, ancestors, thank you for holding me through this process, larger than us and within us all, you carry me and those who love me across many mountains. To my mother and father Beverly Boyd Smith and Clarence Orlando Smith for all the poems/words you encouraged me to write art to make freedom songs to sing jazz funk mixes to make home(s) to belong to and people to love I love you Don’t ever forget it To my amazing big sister, LaTonia Denise Smith Cokley, I love you so much. I am so proud of you. You are the best big sister a Black girl could ask for. You believe in me, support me, and love me fiercely. This writing is for you, us. For mom and dad. We did it and we are doing it. We are here living and loving like I know they would want us to. To my beautiful family, it has been a pleasure to keep to know you more closely and deeply during a very important part of my life, writing process and organizing with SOLHOT. Your love, support, time, cooked meals, rides, money, tears shared and struggles are the reason I am here able and willing to be, write, love, organize, breathe, live. Your love has healed me. The way you see my parents in me and through me and pray for me is the reason I am here. This is for us. To my brother in law, Conroy Cokley, you are my big brother. Your love for my sister is shared, seen and never forgotten. Your love and support of us during some of the most painful times will always be remembered. I hope that you know I wouldn’t be able to write this with you either. I hope that I am able to repay you for all of your support. I hope that you know this is for you, too! Cuzzo! For you, I have to find the words to explain how much I love you and how proud I am of you. I see you. Your support and getting to know me in the last two years, living closer to you, has been a dream come true. It has not been easy by a long shot and I wouldn’t change anything that I have learned with you. You teach me how to live and love more than you know. Your heart is SO BIG. You deserve the world and we need you here with your big heart, amazing worth ethic, and just you for you. Keep going, cuz! To Saving Our Lives Hear Our Truths, in analog, in digital, in intentionality this piece of writing is only the beginning and a hopeful contribution to the ways we do Black girlhood with Black girls. I am indebted to us as a people together ready to make power, make space, make love, and speak truths, laugh, cry, dream and so much more. v Dr. Ruth Nicole Brown, mentor, friend, bandbae, and the ultimate teacher, I love you, forever and ever. I am so grateful for you grace, patience and believing in me and what you know I have to give to SOLHOT and to this world. Thank you for challenging me and asking me important questions that push me to think deeply and to let it all go. Thank you for welcoming me into your home and family. I know that I can and will always be trying to come back home. I know Champaign, IL as home, as a political and organizing choosing of home that I will forever be apart of. Thank you for holding my contradictions and never running away. Dr. Porshé Renee Garner, I remember the first day I met you. You pulled up to Willard ready to serve a stranger. You teach me about true service to the people. You teach me how to grieve a parent, organize a union, and finish a dissertation. I wish I could name all the things you teach me here. I do want you to know that I love you with my whole heart that I am super proud of you and that this dissertation is for you and for us. I am learning how to do SOLHOT with and through you and this writing would not be possible without your dedication, time and commitment to SOLHOT and to what you know I/we have to contribute to crafting a better world. We will continue to pray and dream and organize and sing ourselves into a world we want to see. I am so excited about our futures. Jessica Lauren Robinson, I am forever thankful for my time with you as a partner and face-to- face. Our love has taught me so much about myself and I am so happy to still be here, learning, living, loving and doing SOLHOT with you. You drove all the way from Syracuse to Illinois with Ru and I and I won’t ever forget all the space you made for me and for letting me go and dream and be. I cannot wait to meet you in person as a mother and baby girl. I am so proud of you as a mother and as an artist/human. I pray for you and your family’s wellness every chance I get. I am so grateful to have learned and still be learning about SOLHOT with and through you. I am excited for all the things you will continue to create, make and contribute to the world. Dr. Seth E. Davis aka the baddest. Wow, look at where we are. I am so proud of you. I am also so grateful for you especially the time I was able to spend getting to know you while living in Syracuse. We used to cry, laugh, theorize and create anywhere we could, especially during those long winters. You teach me how to be a fierce lover. I cannot wait to see what we continue to do and create. I love you. Dr’s Dom, Durell, Chamara—You three have walked paths before us it does not go unnoticed. I am so proud of the work you and excited for the work we will continue to do individually and collectively. Denise Maurice, D! Wow! You have seen me grow over the years. You held my hand and me when my mother died. One of the greatest friends I could ask for. I remember telling you what I needed most was a true friend and you have never wavered on your dedication no matter the distance.