By Elder Jeffrey R. Holland and wept with Him, and on the night Of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles of that horrible ending, no one wept more bitterly than I. But that is over. He has finished His work, and He has risen from the tomb. He has worked out His salvation and ours. So you ask, ‘What The First Great do we do now?’ I don’t know more to tell you than to return to your former life, rejoicing. I intend to ‘go a fishing.’” Commandment And at least six of the ten other remain- ing Apostles said in agreement, “We also go with thee.” John, who was one We have a life of devoted discipleship to give in of them, writes, “They went forth, and demonstrating our love of the Lord. entered into a ship immediately.” 3 But, alas, the fishing wasn’t very good. Their first night back on the lake, they caught nothing—not a single here is almost no group in history delivered into the hands of men, and fish. With the first rays of dawn, they for whom I have more sympathy they shall kill him; and after that he is disappointedly turned toward the shore, Tthan I have for the eleven remain- killed, he shall rise the third day. where they saw in the distance a figure ing Apostles immediately following the “But they understood not that say- who called out to them, “Children, have death of the Savior of the world. I think ing, and were afraid to ask him.” 2 you caught anything?” Glumly these we sometimes forget just how inexpe- Then, after such a short time to Apostles-turned-again-fishermen gave rienced they still were and how totally learn and even less time to prepare, the answer no fisherman wants to give. dependent upon Jesus they had of the unthinkable happened, the “We have caught nothing,” they mut- necessity been. To them He had said, unbelievable was true. Their Lord tered, and to add insult to injury, they “Have I been so long time with you, and Master, their Counselor and King, were being called “children.” 4 and yet hast thou not known me . ?” 1 was crucified. His mortal ministry was “Cast the net on the right side But, of course, to them He hadn’t over, and the struggling little Church of the ship, and ye shall find,” 5 the been with them nearly long enough. He had established seemed doomed stranger calls out—and with those Three years isn’t long to call an entire to scorn and destined for extinction. simple words, recognition begins to Quorum of Twelve Apostles from a His Apostles did witness Him in His flood over them. Just three years ear- handful of new converts, purge from resurrected state, but that only added lier these very men had been fishing them the error of old ways, teach to their bewilderment. As they surely on this very sea. On that occasion too them the wonders of the gospel of must have wondered, “What do we they had “toiled all the night, and [had] Jesus Christ, and then leave them to do now?” they turned for an answer taken nothing,” 6 the scripture says. But carry on the work until they too were to Peter, the senior Apostle. a fellow Galilean on the shore had killed. Quite a staggering prospect for Here I ask your indulgence as I called out to them to let down their a group of newly ordained elders. take some nonscriptural liberty in my nets, and they drew “a great multitude Especially the part about being left portrayal of this exchange. In effect, of fishes,” 7 enough that their nets alone. Repeatedly Jesus had tried to Peter said to his associates: “Brethren, it broke, the catch filling two boats so tell them He was not going to remain has been a glorious three years. None heavily they had begun to sink. physically present with them, but they of us could have imagined such a few Now it was happening again. either could not or would not com- short months ago the miracles we have These “children,” as they were rightly prehend such a wrenching thought. seen and the divinity we have enjoyed. called, eagerly lowered their net, and Mark writes: We have talked with, prayed with, “they were not able to draw it for the “He taught his disciples, and and labored with the very Son of God multitude of fishes.” 8 John said the said unto them, The Son of man is Himself. We have walked with Him obvious: “It is the Lord.” 9 And over November 2012 83 the edge of the boat, the irrepressible by these same nets, having this same the cross and the nails and the tomb Peter leaped. conversation? Wasn’t it obvious then were the end of it all and each could After a joyful reunion with the res- and isn’t it obvious now that if I want blissfully go back to being whatever urrected Jesus, Peter had an exchange fish, I can get fish? What I need, Peter, you were before? Children, did not with the Savior that I consider the cru- are disciples—and I need them forever. my life and my love touch your hearts cial turning point of the apostolic min- I need someone to feed my sheep more deeply than this?” istry generally and certainly for Peter and save my lambs. I need someone My beloved brothers and sisters, I personally, moving this great rock of to preach my gospel and defend my am not certain just what our experi- a man to a majestic life of devoted faith. I need someone who loves me, ence will be on Judgment Day, but I service and leadership. Looking at truly, truly loves me, and loves what our will be very surprised if at some point their battered little boats, their frayed Father in Heaven has commissioned me in that conversation, God does not ask nets, and a stunning pile of 153 fish, to do. Ours is not a feeble message. It is us exactly what Christ asked Peter: “Did Jesus said to His senior Apostle, “Peter, not a fleeting task. It is not hapless; it is you love me?” I think He will want to do you love me more than you love not hopeless; it is not to be consigned know if in our very mortal, very inade- all this?” Peter said, “Yea, Lord; thou to the ash heap of history. It is the work quate, and sometimes childish grasp of knowest that I love thee.” 10 of Almighty God, and it is to change things, did we at least understand one The Savior responds to that reply the world. So, Peter, for the second and commandment, the first and greatest but continues to look into the eyes of presumably the last time, I am asking commandment of them all—“Thou His disciple and says again, “Peter, do you to leave all this and to go teach and shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy you love me?” Undoubtedly confused testify, labor and serve loyally until the heart, and with all thy soul, and with all a bit by the repetition of the question, day in which they will do to you exactly thy strength, and with all thy mind.” 13 the great fisherman answers a second what they did to me.” And if at such a moment we can stam- time, “Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I Then, turning to all the Apostles, mer out, “Yea, Lord, thou knowest that love thee.” 11 He might well have said something I love thee,” then He may remind us The Savior again gives a brief like: “Were you as foolhardy as the that the crowning characteristic of love response, but with relentless scrutiny scribes and Pharisees? As Herod and is always loyalty. He asks for the third time, “Peter, do Pilate? Did you, like they, think that “If ye love me, keep my command- you love me?” By now surely Peter is this work could be killed simply by ments,” 14 Jesus said. So we have neigh- feeling truly uncomfortable. Perhaps killing me? Did you, like they, think bors to bless, children to protect, the there is in his heart the memory of only a few days earlier when he had been asked another question three times and he had answered equally emphatically—but in the negative. Or perhaps he began to wonder if he misunderstood the Master Teacher’s question. Or perhaps he was search- ing his heart, seeking honest confir- mation of the answer he had given so readily, almost automatically. Whatever his feelings, Peter said for the third time, “Lord, . thou knowest that I love thee.” 12 To which Jesus responded (and here again I acknowledge my nonscriptural elaboration), perhaps saying something like: “Then Peter, why are you here? Why are we back on this same shore, 84 faithfulness every returned mission- ary who ever stood in a baptismal font and with arm to the square said, “Having been commissioned of Jesus Christ.” 16 That commission was to have changed your convert forever, but it was surely supposed to have changed you forever as well. To the youth of the Church rising up to missions and temples and marriage, we say: “Love God and remain clean from the blood and sins of this gener- ation. You have a monumental work to do, underscored by that marvelous announcement President Thomas S. Monson made yesterday morning.