When he was five years old, Clifford Felder’s doctor told his parents he’d never finish school. But the boy-genius hampered by debilitating social handicaps clawed his way through, rising to prominence as a crackerjack chemist and breaking through his invisible barriers to become a well-loved member of a very special community BY Binyamin Rose PHOTOS Family Archives FormulaF riendship 50 MISHPACHA 10 Av 5773 | July 17, 2013 MISHPACHA 51 “I don’t think he ever had a friend BENEATH THE SURFACE Chaim until he came here, but something Tzvi was tortured by his classmates, but his parents knew there was a diamond special happened in Rehovot inside the sometimes awkward exterior. Chaim Tzvi (Clifford), age 5 (right), with his 3-year-old brother Lloyd. “We were in the way he and the kehillah determined not to let him sink” came together” The next year, as my mazel would have schoolmates taunted and teased him it, my turn came up again on Parshas mercilessly. Va’eira. This time I agreed to keep my As an adult, his condition often caused However, Chaim Tzvi became far more than the sum total of his profession- turn only if someone would agree to sit him to act more as a curious child than al accomplishments. He had an indomitable spirit, thanks in large part to the next to Chaim Tzvi and restrain him. Dr. Chaim Tzvi Felder, the top research devotion of his parents and a handful of teachers and friends along the way Rather than find someone else to read chemist at Rehovot’s Weizmann Insti- who were able to peer past the veneer of his social awkwardness, and discov- last minute, one congregant picked up tute. His handshake lasted a bit too long, ered his genius and his Jewish soul. Putting it all together, they found a special the gauntlet. That year, only one “whoa” he would shuckle even in normal conver- human being totally devoid of deceit and hypocrisy. came from Chaim Tzvi’s direction. sation, and ending that conversation of- Chaim Tzvi flourished in Rehovot. Thekehillah embraced him and loved, I thought I was doing the right thing ten required an act of diplomacy. All this not pitied him. by standing up for the shul’s decorum. despite the fact that Chaim Tzvi was bril- “I know this is a beautiful community but I assumed their relationship with When I made aliyah to Rehovot 20 Until 19 years later, when I heard about liant and his insights thought-provoking. Chaim Tzvi was all chesed,” said Carol Marlin, Chaim Tzvi’s aunt, on her re- years ago, the gabbaim in the shul I joined the hesped Rabbi Zev Leff delivered at Yet it was that childlike innocence that cent visit to Rehovot for the unveiling of his tombstone. “But everybody here immediately brought me into their rota- Beit Chatam for Chaim Tzvi, who was people who knew him best, and others assured me that it wasn’t chesed. It was true affection. I don’t think he ever tion of baalei korei to read the Torah on niftar this year at age 59. who befriended him, found engaging. had a friend until he came here, but something special happened in Rehovot Shabbos mornings. Rabbi Leff, who lectures regularly at Those who took the time to become his in the way he and the kehillah came together.” WOne of my turns fell on the Shabbos of Beit Chatam, recalled a shiur he once friend felt richly rewarded by the expe- Parshas Va’eira, which contains seven of gave regarding the deaths of Rabi Akiva’s rience and miss him terribly. Never say Never Carol became close to Chaim Tzvi, who grew up in the ten plagues. 24,000 students. Suddenly, a cry of “oy “There is no person I’ve ever known Fall River, Massachusetts, when the Felders moved into her home while As I read each new plague, one con- vey” came from the audience. “I looked who maximized his potential as much their house was being refurbished. Chaim Tzvi’s parents belonged to a gregant would interrupt, shouting out over and saw it was Chaim Tzvi,” said as Chaim Tzvi,” said his cousin Adam conservative synagogue, kept a kosher home, and his mother lit Shabbos “whoa!” Everyone would turn around Rabbi Leff. “I thought, Here I am giving Marlin, a Monsey resident. Marlin says candles. and chuckle a bit. Except for me. The this shiur and I’m not crying, but he’s say- he can count members of Congress and It was already apparent in his infancy that something was wrong. Most ba- other congregants at Beit Chatam — a ing ‘oy vey’ because the deaths of these other highly accomplished professionals bies cry when they want attention and stop when picked up, but Chaim Tzvi shul founded and frequented by native 24,000 talmidim actually affected him.” among his friends and acquaintances, was the opposite. “If you picked him up he would cry and when you put him English-speakers — were already used Chaim Tzvi Felder was a man with a but none compare to Chaim Tzvi in the down he would stop,” says Mrs. Marlin. “He was also a rocker and would bang to this sometimes “disruptive” congre- sensitive soul, at least partly shaped by way he profoundly impacted his com- his head against his crib.” gant, Chaim Tzvi (Clifford) Felder, and his own personal suffering. He had a con- munity, his chosen profession of science, “I remember going into his bedroom one time when he was baby and see- suffered his interruptions with amuse- dition that medical science today might and his family. ing his crib covered in blood,” says his mother, Louise Felder. “It was scary.” ment and tolerance. call Asperger’s, but as a child of the ’60s, Chaim Tzvi developed a model for the When the nursery school Chaim Tzvi attended sent him home for biting, his I found this to be a bit disconcerting. his symptoms defied diagnosis — with study of protein chemistry while working parents determined it was time to take him to a medical specialist in Boston Any baal korei will tell you that after the the exception of the doctor who told his at the Weizmann Institute that is fol- for tests. The doctor’s evaluation was grim. hours of preparation it takes to read a parents that their five-year-old son would lowed in major universities and research “He told us we had to accept the fact that, at best, he would never finish high parshah properly, any distraction can never finish high school. labs worldwide. The Institute valued him school and that we should institutionalize him,” recalls Mrs. Felder. She and throw off the concentration of even the Observing social norms was a ma- so highly it broke all of its time-honored her late husband, David, refused to accept the pessimistic diagnosis, recalling best-prepared reader. jor challenge for Chaim Tzvi, and his rules to grant tenure to this boy-genius. one of their first conversations after receiving the bad news. 52 MISHPACHA 10 Av 5773 | July 17, 2013 MISHPACHA 53 Friendship Formula and graduated summa cum laude. Accept- Schuster. Once he discovered Chaim Tzvi was ed to the PhD programs at both Brandeis staying in a hotel in East Jerusalem, Rabbi and Iowa State, he chose Iowa State, mainly Schuster said, “no way, you’re coming back “In the early ’60s no one had because one of the professors he met during home with me!” tolerance for people with these types the interview process took a strong liking After an inspiring Shabbos in Jerusalem’s to this budding chemistry genius. Chaim Mattersdorf neighborhood, Chaim Tzvi re- of afflictions, and the public schools Tzvi was one step closer to his dream of the turned to the Kosel on Sunday for touring, Weizmann Institute. which he found to be a moving, even “exhila- didn’t want to deal with him” rating” experience. From Cloud Nine to Earth In “I felt as if [I was] on ‘cloud nine’ for weeks his autobiographical writings, which his afterwards, until I finally came back to myself. cousin Adam Marlin shared with Mish- Even my friends noticed the change,” he wrote. pacha , Chaim Tzvi mentions that he first Dramatic as this experience was, he was not “We said it’s not true,” said Mrs. Felder. “We knew he was very bright.” became interested in Israel during the ready to take the plunge toward observance, Mrs. Felder discovered just how bright on her second trip to the Boston specialist, Six Day War, when he was 14. nor did he find the environment at Iowa State when she got lost. “The doctor’s practice was at some little house on a side street. “I remember well, how the entire Jewish conducive to religious observance. I couldn’t remember how to get there, but without saying any words, Clifford di- community where I lived was glued to their That all changed during the summer of 1979, rected me. We were only there once before, but he remembered.” television sets day and night throughout the when Chaim Tzvi made his second trip to Is- Chaim Tzvi didn’t speak until he was five, but his mother says she knew he under- crisis. It was impossible to ignore it. The ex- rael, this time, to take that giant leap toward stood everything. Once he learned how to read, he became a bit of bookworm, says perience made a deep impression on me, an his lifelong dream of working at the Weizmann his brother Fred, who at 12 years his junior, recalls Chaim Tzvi as being “studious.” impression which was reinforced significant- Institute.