Mother's Agenda Vol. V 1964 Translated from French Institut de Recherches Evolutives This book was first published in France under the title L'Agenda de Mère — 1964 © Institut de Recherches Évolutives, Paris, 1979. Rendered into English under the direction of Satprem This Agenda... is my gift to those who love me MOTHER Table of Contents January Undated, 1964 January 4, 1964 January 8, 1964 January 15, 1964 January 18, 1964 January 22, 1964 January 25, 1964 January 28, 1964 January 29, 1964 January 31, 1964 February February 5, 1964 February 13, 1964 February 15, 1964 February 22, 1964 February 26, 1964 March March 4, 1964 March 7, 1964 March 11, 1964 March 14, 1964 March 18, 1964 March 21, 1964 March 25, 1964 March 28, 1964 March 29, 1964 March 31, 1964 April-June April 4, 1964 April 8, 1964 April 14, 1964 April 19, 1964 April 23, 1964 April 25, 1964 April 29, 1964 May 2, 1964 May 14, 1964 May 15, 1964 May 17, 1964 May 21, 1964 May 28, 1964 June 4, 1964 June 27, 1964 June 28, 1964 July 4, 1964 July July 13, 1964 July 15, 1964 July 18, 1964 July 22, 1964 July 25, 1964 July 28, 1964 July 31, 1964 August August 5, 1964 August 8, 1964 August 11, 1964 August 14, 1964 August 15, 1964 August 19, 1964 August 22, 1964 August 26, 1964 August 29, 1964 September September 2, 1964 September 12, 1964 September 16, 1964 September 18, 1964 September 23, 1964 September 26, 1964 September 30, 1964 October October 7, 1964 October 10, 1964 October 14, 1964 October 17, 1964 October 21, 1964 October 24, 1964 October 28, 1964 October 30, 1964 November November 4, 1964 November 7, 1964 November 12, 1964 November 14, 1964 November 21, 1964 November 25, 1964 November 28, 1964 December December 2, 1964 December 7, 1964 December 10, 1964 December 23, 1964 End of December, 1964 Mother Balcony Darshan 29.02.1964 January Undated, 1964 (Note from Mother to Satprem) The old dreams of the past will turn into meaningful realities. January 4, 1964 (Regarding the Tantric guru's visit) There has been an interesting phenomenon. I had X told about a rather interesting encounter of mine with Ganapati1 (quite a few years ago), and how he had promised to give me whatever I needed and actually gave it for quite a long time, certainly more than ten years, and generously so. Then everything changed in the Ashram. It was after the war, the children came and we spilled over; we became much more complex, much larger, and began to be in touch with foreign countries, particularly America. And I continued to be in contact with Ganapati; I can't say I used to do a puja to him (!), but every morning I would put a flower in front of his image. Then one morning I asked him, "Why have you stopped doing what you had been doing for such a long time?" I listened, and he clearly replied, "Your need has grown too large." I didn't quite understand, because he has at his disposal fortunes larger than what I needed. But then, some time afterwards, I had this told to X, who answered me from the height of his "punditism," "Let her not be concerned with the gods, I will look after that!" It was needlessly insolent. Then I turned to Ganapati and asked him, "What does all that mean?" And I clearly saw (it wasn't he who answered, it was Sri Aurobindo), I clearly saw that Ganapati has power only over those who have faith in him, which means it's limited to India, while I needed money from America, France, England, Africa... and that he has no power there, so he couldn't help. It became very clear, I was at peace, I understood: "Very well, he did his best, that's all." And it's true that I keep receiving from India, though not sufficiently; especially as since 1Ganapati, or Ganesh: the son of the supreme Mother, god of material knowledge and wealth. He is represented with an elephant's head. Independence half of India has been ruined, and all those who used to give me a lot of money no longer do, because they no longer can – it isn't that they no longer want to, but that they no longer can. For instance, M. was greatly interested in my story about Ganapati, and I saw that there was a connection between him and Ganapati, so I told him, "But turn to him and he will give you the right inspiration." And since then M. has been perfect, really; all that he can do he does to the utmost of his ability. So all this is very good. But there is a considerable difference between the real fact, that is, what this body [Mother's body] represents, and X's conception. He has always remained all the way down. This is what, in fact, had ruined his health for a time. And the odd thing is that every time he was ill and CONSENTED to inform me, he was instantly cured – he KNOWS this, but still his first instinct is always to turn to the gods with his ordinary puja. It was the same thing with you – I saw that. He regards you like this (gesture of looking down on Satprem), and then, you're not a pundit (!), you haven't had the religious education of the country – he regards you as a beginner, he isn't at all conscious of where your mind is, of where your mind can reach. I told him, but even that he doesn't quite understand. But once, I saw (it was at the time when I was giving him meditations downstairs), he had made a remark that was quite preposterous on the fact that people here meditated with eyes closed and that I, too, had my eyes closed when I meditated. It was reported to me. That was long ago, years ago. He was going to come and see me the next morning, so I said, "Wait, my friend, I'll show you!" And the next day, I meditated with my eyes open (Mother laughs) – the poor man! When he went downstairs, he said, "Mother meditated with her eyes open, she was like a lion!" That's it, you understand, there's a gap. He is a very good man, but very ignorant – it seems funny to say that about a pundit, a great pundit who knows Sanskrit better than the head of the Maths [monasteries] of the South, but I say that he lacks this: the opening up above. He has a connection in a straight line (gesture tapering off to a point above), and indeed it's very high up, but it's a pinpoint – a sharp point that gives him an experience which is his ALONE: he cannot pass it on to others. You understand, it isn't an immensity rising upward: it's a pinpoint. Last time, when he came to meditate, just before he came upstairs, all of a sudden I felt the Lord coming (He has a particular way of becoming concrete when He wants me to do something), and He became concrete with the will that I should take advantage of this man's goodwill to widen his consciousness. It was very clear. And He became concrete with a Power, you know, one of those overwhelming Powers... and a wonderful Love. It came like that, and he was caught in the Movement – what he was conscious of, I cannot say. But when he left the room, he said he had had an experience. And this time, he was quite sincere, spontaneous, natural, not trying to... to make a show.2 It was very good. No, you might have gained something [with X], but it's a something you would have found quite small; if you had felt it, you would have thought, "Oh, really, that was it!?" (silence) But he has given W a new mantra – a mantra to Kali, with the sound of Kali! Yet W isn't on Kali's side,3 not in the least! It's things of this sort that I don't understand in X. Whereas I know so well the kind of force, the quality of power that not only influences but can be manifested by one person or 2Italics indicate words or sentences spoken by Mother in English. another, here or there.... X seems to do it according to tradition: you must first turn to this divinity, then to that one, then... regardless of the individual's quality. He doesn't seem to have a very great psychological insight into individuals. When I sent him D. (you know, she is always ready to believe in any miraculous power), she went to him in good faith. He made outwardly every blunder that was needed to make her withdraw! So she withdrew. Anyway, it doesn't matter. Now, let's hope you will... But still, for years now he has been making me go round in circles. Will I eventually get hold of a little something? But of course, it's traditional, mon petit! That's the way of tradition: you must always have people go round in concentric circles, and there are times when you must drive them FAR AWAY to increase their aspiration. That's what tradition is all about – I don't believe in it. It's erudition, that's how it's passed down from guru to chela [disciple], indefinitely.