About 24 hours after the accident, I removed the website from our servers and replaces all the pages with black... Date: Sun Nov 14, 2004 8:41:54 PM Subject: Re: [coil] threshold house Tribute to ODB? or hopefully the Dublin download? anyone know what the black page is about at threshold house? Pete Planning on living forever - so far, so good Date: Sun Nov 14, 2004 8:40:49 PM Subject: RE: [coil] threshold house Peter having fun with GoLive ? "I don't ever want to be alone. With all my darkest dreaming. Hold me close. The sky is breaking." At about 9,15am the next day I put up the first announcement.... Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 9:27:57 AM Subject: [coil] Balance dead? Please say it aint so... Oh, man if true this really sucks. Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 9:37:21 AM Subject: This is a sad day. Learned the bad news coming back from work. I'll just go to bed and pretend it was a dream. All my deepest condolences to Jhonn's family, he was a great individual and i am sure you all know it. Take good care, there will be a lot of people mourning with you. Sandrine. Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 9:41:51 AM Subject: Re: [coil] condolences accepted I... no words... Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 9:49:00 AM Subject: Re: [coil] condolences accepted I count among the most miraculous experiences of my life seeing Jhonn Balance perform with COIL in New York City on August 18, 2001, which coincidentally (?) fell on the day of my 23rd birthday. An incredible, inexplicable psychic connection was forged between performer & audience in so strong a way as I have never witnessed before or since. Jhonn Balance was an incredible poet, a singular visionary, a beautiful crystalline soul, a crackling arc of mutant psychotic energy that sparked with an intelligence, passion and fury rarely glimpsed in this world or the next. His madness shone bright. The death of your father, the death of your mother, is something you prepare for all your life, but you can never adequately prepare for the death of an artist who has marked all of his fans so deeply, in such profound and challenging ways. -Jonathan Dean 11.15.04 Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 9:53:30 AM Subject: Mourning on a sunny day I'd like to cross the thresholdhouse to give you my most deep and sincere condoleances to you guys and to John's folks. Death's not the end for sure but it'll be a great loss, as an artist of course, but as a human being and a friend for all of you. To drown a rose won't keep to watch her beauty shine. Honour the dead From France Marco www.gutsofdarkness.com Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 9:54:05 AM Subject: although we never met, you knew the part of me that needing knowing most. After Throbbing Gristle ruined music for me, John Ballanced saved it, he also saved my faith that the world may one day be beautifull and changed as he was. He was proof of fallen angels, fallen so that we may have with us a peice of the sky and the moon. ! - Justice Michael Emge. Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:02:58 AM Subject: Re: [coil] Balance dead? Please say it aint so... Hello all Thiz is a sick joke? someone hacked the treshold site? plz let it be something elze. -- 'Nick Cave, Moon in the Gutter, my favourite of his solo songs Much better then In the Ghetto The true crooner of his age The poet man who is almost the male Lydia Lunch Nick Cave understands the true torture of his soul A beautiful, beautiful, sad song IT MOVES ME' Gavin Friday after listening to The Moon is in the Gutter Maarten Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:06:40 AM Subject: Jhonn I'm so very sorry for your loss. I would like to contribute to the Book of Condolence, but I don't know how, exactly, at this moment. I know these are just words from a stranger on the internet, but I wish you all strength, love and security. -Jairus Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:07:01 AM For over half of my life, Geff has touched me in one way or another. He was at first a mystery, then an obsession, then an idol, then an inspiration, and finally a friend. The reality of his departure has not set in, but then again, with him, reality was always questionable. I'll never forget one time while Sleaz was away, Geff called me from the house. He had visions and images and stories about past lives. He had told me that he sees Ireland in me - as if I had a past life there. "Do you have Irish ancestry?" he asked, but alas, I have none. Then he went on to describe past lives of other friends and associates and I forget who went where but when he got to David Tibet he stopped and said, "Tibet has no past life." Somehow I expect that if anybody figures out how to use a phone from beyond the material world, he will. I am eternally grateful for the years of magick, for opening new worlds and his world to me, and he will remain forever in my heart and memories. with undying love, jon whitney Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:09:02 AM Subject: Re: [coil] Balance dead? .... I can barely type.... it is true..... balance has died in an accident at home. Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:14:54 AM Subject: for Jhonn... a fleeting spirit grazed my face then touched the sky flying high he danced with the sun resting now in the solar lodge we'll meet again in other worlds rest in peace. thru Coil I discovered that being who and what I am is NORMAL, nay RIGHT. the world is more than what your told it is. the boy in the suitcase follows you from place to place. though we never met you meant something to me in my life- I saw your image and fell in love- music and influences all those years ago helped me to discover for myself who & what I am- that people like myself exist in the world. Coil opened the door ~ I followed the path. Thank you. we love you- gregg Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:17:12 AM Subject: Jhonn Balance Hello Peter, ! I am becoming an older man of 41 years too but!since the eighties I always liked your work and your attitude. After 20 years Coil is part of my life: so!I will miss him too ... ! Luc De Boeck ! ! Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:25:41 AM Subject: I heard about that sad new this morning. It's hard finding words in these moments. Just thinking to his family, friends and fans. Listening to Coil's music may now take complete different sense and taste. PY > Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:27:01 AM Subject: Re: [coil] condolences accepted: fuck words impossible i have been sitting here in a state of that sadness on the waves for quite a while, unbelief but you know that you are now awake and your despair is the end, and yet you feel more alive and free to your choices then ever. i don't know what to say. balance changed my life, and opened everything up for me. i want to cry, i hope i will. i have been drinking all night, and now i want to drink more. i know i never knew balance personally but from the incredibly real and maplike dreams that first brought me to a copy scatology seven years ago to the myriad changes in me since, there was never a point in existence whence i forgot his, and with him, coil's, effect on me. sadly enough it seems as now I will and can, and surely other's, achieve what we should have could have years ago, if only now because of the empty void, very wide, deep, that balance has left here on earth. now with that emptiness in ourselves as well, myself for sure, the ability to act is so much easier, if only because now i know there is something great missing in this world, something i once knew, and was once there for me, to guide me, enlighten me. balance you changed me, opened me to myself, and for that i can never say or do enough, but you and what you were apart of did this for not only me but so many others, and for, if not all, then many more to come. fucking gravity. mortals of us all, with my head in hands eyes open the closed, joseph marcure. love, abyss, endless, blue and green On Monday 15 November 2004 01:30 am, Jon Whitney wrote: Date: Mon Nov 15, 2004 10:35:49 AM Subject: My greatest gratitude........R.I.P. Eternally. Dear Peter, ! ! My name is the Distorted Poet, Michael G. Stone. From the San Francisco bay area in California (U.S.A.)! I hope you are doing well in this time. Actually I know youre not doing well. Please dont go anywhere besides in the music. Jhon brought a joy into my life that can never really be described. I've had many self voyages while listening to coil since I was in highschool.