lifestyle TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 17, 2015 Gossip Katona mourning marriage erry Katona feels like “there has been a death” in who has kids Molly, 14, Lilly, 12, Heidi, eight, and Max, rassed and ashamed” at the end of her marriage and is her family following the breakdown of her third seven, from past relationships and 19-month-old particularly uncomfortable that it has been so public. Kmarriage. The Atomic Kitten singer recently Dylan-Jorge with George - will “always love” her She told the new issue of OK! magazine: “I feel com- called time on her marriage to George Kay - who was estranged husband but thinks it’s for the best their pletely embarrassed and ashamed. “It’s so hard. I just charged with assault by beating and unlawful posses- marriage is over. She said: “I think there will always be wanted the marriage to work... “I wish it wasn’t so pub- sion of a stun gun last month - and is in mourning but a part of me that will love George. I think the hardest lic. I know I’m sat here doing an interview but I wish it feels responsible for the end of their union. She said: “I thing is walking away from somebody you love so wasn’t so out in the open.” am heartbroken... George was with me 24/7. It’s like much, but it’s the right thing to do... “I have worked somebody has died. He was my best friend. “I just feel hard to get my life back on track. I really wanted our like there’s been a death and I feel like it’s my fault. marriage to work. I miss him every day but I know it’s Like I’ve done something wrong.” The 35-year-old star - not healthy.” The ‘Whole Again’ singer feels “embar- Chris Hemsworth Disick’s son feels like he upsEt by split has six kids cott Disick’s son worried his dad was “gone for the whole wide world”. The 32-year-old star split from he ‘Thor’ actor - who has daughter India, three, and long-term partner Kourtney Kardashian - with twin sons Tristan and Sasha, 19 months, with wife S whom he has kids Mason, five, Penelope, three, and TElsa Pataky - admits raising “three under three” means Reign, 11 months - earlier this year and his children are life is incredibly hectic but has finally taught him the “full finding the situation tough. Kourtney’s sister, Kim gamut” of emotions. He explained to Australia’s Daily Life Kardashian West told her mother Kris Jenner than Mason newspaper: “It feels like I have six. They’re non-stop, active had asked her: “Is [dad] ever coming home? Is he gone for kids. The biggest thing I’ve learned by having kids is that the whole wide world?” Though Kourtney insisted she is now I know what love is. I know what frustration is. I know “so done” with Scott and his wild partying, she vowed he the full gamut of emotions, good and bad. I feel I had just would always be around for the sake of their children. scratched the surface prior... “Each time you add one, it Speaking on the premiere of the new season of ‘Keeping feels like three more.” The 32-year-old actor and his 39- Up With the Kardashians’, she said: “We’re trying to be the year-old wife keep their family out of the spotlight by liv- best that we can to be a team living apart.. “He’s going to ing in Byron Bay, Australia and appreciate being able to be in our lives. We have three kids together.” But the 36- have a “very normal” existence where people are happy to year-old beauty admitted there is “nothing” she can do to leave them alone. He said: “We have a very normal exis- help Scott, who is currently undergoing treatment in tence. “Here, if someone recognizes you, it doesn’t tend to rehab. She said: “This is what he wants to be doing, so be as big a deal. People are like, ‘Oh yeah, cool,’ then there’s nothing I can do at this point. “I just want to care onward with the day. “If you are living in Hollywood, peo- for my kids.” And Kourtney is trying her best to embrace ple have travelled from around the world to see people in the positive side of single life. She quipped: “Let’s look on the entertainment business and they’ve got the cameras the bright side. Now I have a huge closet... “There’s actual- Kris Jenner ready and a bigger deal is made of it. “Here, we have a very ly a lot of bright sides. The closet is number one.” normal existence, people are very respectful, and that was why we chose to come here.” explains ESPY absence ris Jenner didn’t support Caitlyn Jenner at the ESPY Awards because it would have been “awkward”. The K60-year-old matriarch decided against joining her five daughters at the awards show - where her former Hudson speaks to dead mother spouse picked up the Arthur Ashe Courage Award - earlier this summer because she didn’t want their first meeting since the ‘I Am Cait’ star’s transition from Bruce to take ennifer Hudson speaks to her dead mother “all the place at such a high-profile event. She explained: “I haven’t time”. The 34-year-old singer was left devastated in met Caitlyn yet and I think it would be so awkward to meet J2008 when her mom Darnell Donaldson, brother her under these circumstances.” And the situation was also Jason and seven-year-old nephew Julian King were tough on Kim Kardashian West, Khloe and Kourtney murdered by her sister’s estranged husband William Kardashian, and Kendall and Kylie Jenner but they felt their Balfour, but she still tries to retain a connection to her loyalties were divided. As a compromise, the sisters agreed late family members. Asked in an interview by CBS to attend the ESPYs but not the dinner afterwards, opting News if she ever has conversations with her mother in to take Kris out instead. Kim explained on the premiere her head, she said: “All the time. And my brother, if he episode of the new season of ‘Keeping Up With the was here, if I was sitting up crying, he’ll say, ‘Jenny, Kardashians’: “We want to go to the ESPYS. We want to knock it off. Knock it off!’” Jennifer - who has six-year- support her. “I also am really sensitive to my mom, though, old son David Jr. with fiance David Otunga - testified because Caitlyn just did a Vanity Fair article that wasn’t so during the murder trial, and attended every day of the nice to my mom. But I just have to balance out both peo- case, though she admits it was the “toughest thing ple so they both feel supported.” And though Kris was ever”. However, the ‘Spotlight’ singer had the strength happy with the decision, Caitlyn wasn’t so impressed. to attend court because God “came to her” and told her Kendall told Kim and Kourtney: “Dad and Mom put me and to “keep going”. She said: “I remember God came to me, Kylie into this weird position of choosing between them. like, right when everything happened, because I was “Dad wouldn’t talk to me.” Meanwhile, Khloe has admitted like, ‘What do I do?!’ And He said, ‘I want you to get up she had a “hard time” processing the news of Caitlyn’s tran- and keep going.’ “And you don’t question God. I said, sition because she only learned while filming the reality ‘Okay, let’s go.’ “ And the Grammy Award-winning star show what her stepfather was planning to do. She told talk has learned to accept waves of grief when they come show host Ellen DeGeneres: “I had a hard time because I along. She said: “It’s one of those things where it comes found out on camera like while we were filming and I felt in flashes.” “I try to allow myself to let it do, be, bring like we kept asking him, ‘Bruce, like what’s going on? We’re whatever it brings. Because it’s too much. And when it’s hearing all these rumours.’ “And he kept telling us one more than one person, you don’t know who to grieve thing, but really he knew he was transitioning and for first, or how. So when it comes, it comes.” wouldn’t be honest with us. “So we felt like we were kind of the last to know so that was hard for us. Especially me.” Miranda Kerr: I change Bieber wins HALO my fashion depending Hall of Fame Award ustin Bieber was the inaugural winner of the HALO Hall of Fame Award on on the city I’m in Saturday. The 21-year-old singer was honored at the Nickelodeon HALO JAwards in New York, where he used his acceptance speech to pay tribute to iranda Kerr changes her fashion depending on the city she is in. The the victims of the Paris attacks on Friday, in which 129 people died. He said: Australian model has revealed she loves wearing winter clothing in “There’s been some sad things happening in the world right now, and I think MNew York, but in Malibu and at home in Sydney, her style is so much that we should all honor that and just take one moment of silence for that, if more “relaxed”.