CONDEMNED BY MILLIONS MARLENE AGUILAR You cannot defeat the power or my pain. - Marlene Aguilar aka She Dragon First Edition 2013 Produced and published by Jamayco Publishing House © 2013 Marlene Aguilar All rights reserved. Author: Marlene Aguilar Editors: Josephine Queipo Design and layout: Alexander Pascual, www.alexdesigns.ph Typeset by Rainbow Graphics and Printing Co. Ltd. Printed and bound by Paramount Printing Co. First edition Address book orders to Jamayco Publishing House Fax: +632 ###-#### Website: www.marleneaguilar.com E-mail address: [email protected] No part of this publication may be reproduced in any form or by any means nor may any part of this publication be stored in a database or other electronic retrieval system without the prior written consent of the publisher. The publisher assumes no responsibility for any errors or omissions contained in this publication. vi Contents Chapter 1. Beautiful Pain ..................................................................... 1 Ian Simon ..................................................................................... 38 Chi .............................................................................................. 46 Chapter 2. Of Wants and Needs ......................................................... 61 In the Name of Freedom ............................................................... 100 Oh Virgin Man ............................................................................ 105 When I Think of Love .................................................................. 119 Wolves ........................................................................................ 121 Oh Venus ..................................................................................... 126 Chapter 3. Honor ............................................................................ 127 Green Beret .................................................................................. 160 Chapter 4. Grand Turk .................................................................... 184 Chapter 5. UFO ............................................................................... 252 Philippine High Society ................................................................... 278 The Fiery Serpents.......................................................................... 282 To A Wounded Warrior, From a Kindred Traveler .................................... 273 Chapter 6. Dark Horse .................................................................... 319 Acknowledgements .......................................................................... 400 Photos .............................................................................................. 401 Books by Marlene Aguilar ................................................................ 411 Non-Fiction Books by Marlene Aguilar ............................................ 412 vii My country, the Philippines, was born out of deceit, murder, rape, theft, slavery and other human rights violations; all gruesome crimes committed by Spain. But America, America was born out of genocide and it is determined to continue the same throughout the rest of the world. I fear that the US is removing its strong military presence in Iraq only to enforce its evil wrath upon Afghanistan. Who is going to prevent America from inflicting more harm on the earth and mankind? I can’t. But I know that the forces of heaven and earth will. I know I am considered a loose cannon on deck that is potentially dangerous to the existing system, as one of our previous presidential advisers has put it. But dear god, I despise the leaders of America just as much as I loathe the leaders of my own country. Marlene Aguilar ix Chapter 1 Beautiful Pain Through the malicious campaign of the government and the media, an ugly image of me as a mother was portrayed to the public. I was crucified as the worst mother in the world for supposedly hiding my son in my home. All over the tri-media, I was branded as the bad mother. And most other people followed as the blind must follow; people such as the brainless guests on the Boy Abunda show called”Bottomline,” who condemned me on national TV during my live appearance there in 2010. What do they know? A US Ranger will deal with his enemies using his own tactics. That’s the only way. But then again, most dumb Filipinos, whether they are officials of the government or members of the media, or the public, have absolutely no clue that a US Army Ranger is one of the best soldiers the world could ever produce. Today is Sunday, May 13, 2012. It is Mother’s Day, and greetings are pouring in on my FB wall from my supporters. Since Jason has been in jail awaiting trial, I have adopted thousands of soul children who come to me for counseling in cyberspace. And I believe that I’ve done my best to answer their questions and their messages with sincerity. 1 MARLENE AGUILAR I would like to share with you a few of the Mother’s Day greetings that have come from my beloved soul children. I will start with the youngest, Aimee Rivadillo, who is in her early teens, a brave girl gifted with exceptional mind. She has read Warriors of Heaven. And she’s reading it now for the second time. I tell her that she’s my little scorpion because she’s small but fierce. I call her Scorpie. She wrote: “My third mother -When sadness was the sea, you taught me to swim. Because of you, I found myself. My soul mother Marlene Aguilar - the word proud doesn’t do justice here, but I am so proud of you. And I owe you so much. You taught me so much, and you showed me a world of things that I could have NEVER experienced without you. You have no idea how thankful and blessed I am to have someone like you in my life. I’ll always be here for you. I love you from here to eternity, more than words could ever express. Happy mother’s day! :-) ª” On another post, she sent me the video she created for me using the song Dear Mama by Tupac Shakur. Then she wrote: “Happy mother’s day to the best mother in the whole universe ª I love you to no end. Thank you for everything. ~ 911-scorpiekins! ª” I’ve also named Aimee, 911-scorpiekins because every time I need assistance in cyberspace, I dial her number immediately. Then I whine to her and say,”Aimee! Help!” In the early days on Jsin’s fan page, one of the supporters posted a question asking what the young nation should call Jason Ivler’s allies. Many came up with different ideas and names, but Aimee came up with a suggestion that stood out among the rest, Jsin’s 2 CONDEMNED BY MILLIONS Army. That’s how Jsin’s Army came into being. Yesterday, May 12, 12, Pia Mureeh Coronel wrote: “A lot of baby dragons will surely greet you tomorrow, so I’m posting mine now. HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY, Mom! I always tell you that you’re an inspiration to us, to me, to everyone! I wish you all the love and happiness in the world! :)))) We’re all lucky to have you! YOU’RE THE BEST, MOMMY SHE DRAGON! :* I LOVE YOUUUUU !!!! :)))” Here’s another from Mary Kayl Ocampo Esguerra: “Mommy, Happy Mothers Day. We are so blessed to have you as our soul mother, She Dragon. We’re proud to say our mother has tattoos. Stay sweet, as you are Mommy. WE LOVE YOU! We know words aren’t enough to describe how thankful we are to have you in our lives. We love you always.” Nuni Slim dedicated the song I Turn To You by Christina Aguilera to me, by posting its music video on my wall, with the words: “You are my solace... You are my light...! Happy Mother’s Day! I love you! Big hug and kiss!” Finally, here is Pinky P. Caseñas’s message to me: “You whom we only see and read about in this networking site – you are no stranger to us, because through your words and your beautiful thoughts, we found a soul Mom in you. Happy Mama’s day! I love you Mom. You deserve our love and respect. You don’t know how you’ve touched me with the wholeness of your being. You’re an inspiration. 3 MARLENE AGUILAR I’ll be seeing you soon. I’ll bring the native bayong (handwoven bag) for you and Tita Rebecca Padilla, as promised. Muah!” Going back to Aimee, she has three mothers. Her natural mother is Mom #1; her adopted mother is Mom #2. And her soul mother that is I, her Mom #3. One early morning, last year, she called me very upset. She had run away from home after her adopted mother had beaten her. She said she left home at two o’clock in the morning and had gone to a friend’s house. She asked if it would be okay to see me, so I told her to take a taxi, and that I would have one of my staffs waiting for her in front of my home to pay for the cab fare. When she arrived, we had a long talk. She discussed her violent home with me. So I told her about my vicious childhood, telling her that it was my hurtful past that has given me strength, substance and character. I told her that I wished she could stay with me, but that wasn’t possible because she’s a minor. Plus her Mom has legal custody over her. I offered to help her report her Mom #2 to the authorities, so we could file charges. She said no. Later that day, and before evening fell, I called her sister-in law and explained to her, Aimee’s sad predicament. Immediately, she took a cab and picked her up. Below is Scorpie’s Mother’s Day message to her adopted Mom which she posted on her FB wall and which she also sent to me as a private message. Our conversation follows. Her narrative is in Italics. “My 2nd mother: I greeted you by text but I will greet you again here! Although, no days pass without us fighting, although your mouth is like that of a machine gun blazing with no end, even though we never get along, even though you didn’t bring me into this world, even though you possess almost everything in a person I could possibly dislike, and even though you’re the most miserable 4 CONDEMNED BY MILLIONS human being I’ve ever known, I love you so much, you know that. ª I may not be able to make you feel loved by me or I may not be able to express my love for you constantly, but I do love you.