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Profits for "Prophets"

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Welcome to the second issue, this year, of Wavelength. The front cover TABLE OF CONTENTS photo was taken by Stephanie Romanos: and the back cover photo was taken by ARTICLES Stephanie Womak. Our photo contest has been can- celled due to a lack of response.

We are in need of people to write ar- Roxbury Community College By Rick Bowers 2 ticles, fiction stories, poetry, and con- Community Action By Donna Neal 4 tribute art work. Please contact, or visit Tangvik our office. Our office is located in Cults in Boston By Ken 8 Building I, sixth floor, room 91, and our QuePasa By Nelson Azocar 14 extension is 2609.

Fifty Ways to Avoid Your Professor By Anonymous 15

Women's Studies By Karen MacDonald ,20 Arts Editor Faculty Page By Mary Shaner 23 Tony Rubino Center J. Canada Disabled Student By and J Hoppe 26 Copy Editors In Memory of Jim Sweeney By B Crossley and M Shaner 39 Joe McLellan Maris Nichols FICTION Literary Editors

Beth Bagley Suzanne Her Studio By Maura D. Silverstein 18 Reed Managing Editor The Paperbacks, the Photographs and the Dust By Ali Lang 29 Donna Neal Untided By W. Kevin Wells 34 News Editor POETRY Al McNeil I Photo Editor Billionth American By Jennifer Stotts-Drmola -j 8 Stephanie Romanos When Love in Not Enough By John G. Hall 16 Change By S.E.R 1 g Staff: Cynthia Alvillar, Rick Bowers, Jim Canada, John Dumas, Joy Hoppe, Rune:For a Dancer I once knew By Stephen Strempek 17 JoAnn Kenney, Estelle Leo, Karen Mac- ForADancer Donald, Laura Montgomery, Rebecca Powers-Petrie, Ken Tangvik The Living, the Dead and the Still Wounded By David Connolly .33

Hooky By Ed Winbourne 33 Contributors: Nelson Azocar, Robert Crossley, Janet Diamond, Jeff Green, Untitled By Norma Reppucci 36 Mary Shaner, Eric Stanway, Kent Wor- Furnished Room no. The 27 Gary Evans 36 cester

ANumber Peter McGaffey 40 Special Thanks: Pam Annas, Century Publishing, English Department, Mass Media, Point Press, The Pub Club, and Campus Controversy Romanos vs. Worcester .6 The SAC. Opinion Page By Janet Diamond 24 Printed by Charles River Publishing 45 Landsdowne Street, Cambridge, Ma 02139 " Roxbury Community College Fights for a Home

"The facilities in which RCC is forced to operate are a disgrace. On the day of my visit huge chunks of plaster had recently fallen from the ceiling.../ was appalled by the condition of the bookstore, a dark, dank unhealthy basement. The Dean of Academic Affairs enters his office through an old bathroom in which a

sink is still standing... These are third class surroundings for what many consider to be second class citizens.

Chancellor Laura Clausen Board of Higher Ed.

By Rick Bowers the obvious barriers that exist. In large

Roxbury Community College is a 700 part, the motivation behind the student institution located in the heart educational process at Roxbury's of Boston's most beleaguered neigh- struggling college is the hope that the borhood, and is often referred to as the school may soon move to better stepchild of higher education in facilities. Massachusetts. In recent months RCC officials have

Since its inception nearly a decade been pleading their case to the state ago, RCC has been torn by years of legislature. The school's top ad- internal division and plagued by a ministrators and its State House ad- history of official neglect. More than any vocates are seeking thirty million dollars other college in the Commonwealth, to build a long awaited college campus RCC has faced insurmountable political in the Roxbury area. and economic obstacles in the path of Earlier this year, the legislature in- thirty its academic growth and vitality. cluded the million dollar appropriation in the Capital Outlay Currently, the school is housed in 1981 cramped quarters in a run down section Budget. The budget was later signed by of Roxbury. But the administrators, Governor Edward J. King, who pledged professors, and students continue to President Haskins of to improve conditions at the troubled College pursue their educational goals, despite Roxbury Community college. The appropriation, and the King Roxbury Community College pledge, were viewed by RCC officials as community stood on the verge of violent permitted to continue." in is forced the final victory in the college's fight for reaction. Many speculated that a refusal "The facilities which RCC disgrace," Clausen a permanent home. by King to fund the college, which black to operate are a However, two months have passed civic leaders had been fighting for for stated after a recent inspection of the since the signing and no action has been almost a decade, would push tensions college. "On the day of my visit huge taken by the King administration. The past the breaking point. chunks of plaster had recently fallen

of from the ceiling. ..I was appalled by the bonds needed to begin construction a Third Class Surroundings new building or to allow the college to condition of the bookstore, a dark, dank move to an improved site have not been unhealthy basement. The Dean of issued and at this time RCC supporters Today Roxbury Community College is Academics enters his office through an are beginning to question the governor's housed in a once condemned nursing old bathroom in which a sink is still intentions. home at 424 Dudley Street. There is little standing. ..These are third class Currently, several construction debate that the exhausted three-floor surroundings for what many consider to projects approved by the legislature and structure is inadequate as a college be second class citizens." signed by King are in limbo because no campus. The building lacks a central "I think you'll find that the college is state bonds have been issued. heating system and in the winter in very bad condition," added Senator

King endorsed the thirty million dollar months temperatures often vary as Owens, "To those who doubt, I suggest appropriation in the midst of great much as twenty degrees from one they go and walk through the place and media, political and social pressure. The classroom to another. RCC also lacks see first hand what it is like." Boston Globe featured three editorials the cafeteria, auditorium, and athletic calling for the funding of a new Roxbury facilities usually taken for granted at Even before the college admitted its Community College. Senate President other community colleges in the state. first student, plans were underway to

William Bulger, Speaker of the House The school is bulging at the seams. construct a new campus. While Rox- Thomas McGee and the entire Black Admissions have been increasing at bury Community College's sister in- Caucus had urged the Governor to back RCC and faculty lounges and some stitution, Bunker Hill Community the measure. And Boston Mayor Kevin offices have been transformed into College, expanded programs in a newly-

White actually held a press conference classrooms. One office at RCC is shared built Charlestown campus in the 1970's, on the steps of the State House in an by eight professors! RCC's growth was blocked by a series effort to raise the RCC debate. Laura Clausen, Chancellor of the of obstacles linked to its location and to But more importantly, fourteen-year- Massachusetts Board of Higher ts unique status as the state's only old Levi Hart had been killed by a shot Education, recently called the situation a predominantly minority college.

from a Boston Police officer's gun the "disgrace," and said that the "in- to page 35 week before, and the city's minority tolerable conditions should not be By Donna Neal Community Action

The Student Activities Committee is responsible for funding a variety of programs. Some of the more visible ones are the Film Series, Ticket Series, Learning Outside WUMB, Mass Media, Wavelength, and the ever-famous Beer Blasts. But the SAC also funds other, less visible, yet equally important programs. One of these is Community Action. significant when measured against the tremendously upon dedicated work- The SAC sub-committee on Com- experience gained in their work. But the study student staff. Several of these munity Action, under the direction of time is fast approaching when even the programs such as the Roxbury Boys chairperson Ginger Southern, allocates few UMass students actively involved in Club, Little House, Hand to Hand, and money to nine programs located in these programs will have a difficult time the Little House Health Center are at a Roxbury, Chinatown, Columbia Point, gaining practical experience in field virtual standstill because they have not South Boston, and Dorchester. The work been able to find work-study students to

money given to these individual Mary Nee of the South Boston fill their openings. This year's decrease programs goes towards either Neighborhood House and Sandra in UMass student involvement has operational expenses, or for hiring work- Albright of Little House echoed the prevented many youngsters from study or special funded (03) UMass concerns of other program directors receiving the educational help they student-staff. Working in a community when they spoke of the shrinking supply need, and many are unable to find program can be a very rewarding ex- of available funding for community alternate sources of help. Ginger perience. Students learn to expand programs. The cries of angry, over- Southern has stated that although her upon the skills they develop in a burdened taxpayers have caused both committee prefers that the sponsored classroom setting. federal and state governments to programs hire work-study students,

The exposure to the daily running of reevaluate spending habits and all social there are a limited number of 03 social services can be overwhelming for service agencies will be hard pressed to positions available. Students who are the uninitated college student. Students provide even their existing services if interested in these programs should encounter problems with funding, and when the anticipated cutbacks contact her at the SAC offices in tutoring, and counselling that can be come. On the University level, recent building 020. awesome, but they also help sharpen cutbacks in grants and work-study Each of the following programs receives interpersonal, communication, and allocations have already caused a gap some funding from the SAC and needs managerial skills. Many of the students between the number of work-study student involvement. already involved in community work students and the great number of work- admitted that the monetary com- study jobs available. All the community Hand to Hand: The Asian pensation they received was in- programs supported by SAC rely American Society

This program is affiliated with the UMass Asian-American Society which

is a registered student organization (RSO) at the Harbor Campus. The

program is located in Chinatown and encompasses a health center, the Chinese-American Citizens Alliance, resource workshop in historical and cultural expression, photography, lectures, films, day care and tutoring. Presently this program: needs at least

two students as bi-lingual workers on its staff which includes areas of legal referral, job placement, daycare, health, recreation and tutoring.

Big Sister and Big Brother Program

Children's playground at Columbia Point This program, under the direction of

Bernie Sneed, a UMass student, is

located at Columbia Point. It involves The Little House is a separate organization from the health center and offers programs primarily for youth and teens, although adults and senior

citizens are also involved in programs. The Little House runs an alternative the Classroom High School that presently has twenty-

two students enrolled inclasses. It has a Senior Aid Outreach Program where senior citizens visit other senior citizens who are unable to get out and help them with a variety of tasks from shopping to

letter writing. There is also a mental

health program which is staffed by three full-time social workers. For teens there

is a drop-in center, along with sex, drug, and alcohol education program.

Thursday nights there is a recreational program for retarded young adults at the house. The SAC money going to

this organization, which is also being

funded for the first time, will be used for tutoring youngsters. The South Boston Neighborhood House

The South Boston Neighborhood House offers a variety of programs for hoxbury boys Club, center ofUjima tutoring program. all ages. These programs include a teen center, adult art, seniors, counselling,

and youth recreation. Julie McClusker is a UMass student from C.P.C.S. who has working with boys and girls between the adult medicine, pediatrics, obstetrics been involved with the center for five ages of six and twelve. A UMass student and gynecological services as well as years. She is working in the after-school involved in this program spends a typical screening programs for sight, hearing, program, in which children participate in week working with a child helping and blood pressure problems. It is af- a number of structured activities ranging him her develop recreational, social, filiated with several Boston area from cooking, to art and music. SAC and educational skills. hospitals including Carney, New funds go toward a cultural and ethnic England Medical Center, and St. awareness program. This program Ujima African American Margaret's. These hospitals provide the exposes children to cultures other than Society medical staff, and the Federated their own. Two UMass students are Dorchester Neighborhood Houses presently giving instruction in art and This program, located at the Roxbury provide the mental health staff through music. Boys Club, is strictly a tutorial program. the Little House. On a monthly basis Over the past three years the Ujima RSO there are 1400 visits to the center. The Student Activities College has expanded the program to include center is open five days and two Prep program girls. It helps youngsters who are having evenings weekly. This is the first year difficulties with school work. The that SAC Community Action has This program is located at the Harbor program also attempts to broaden the funded the program. The resources Campus and involves seventy-five cultural and social spectrum for urban from UMass are for students to work in Boston High School students per youth. clerical positions. Director of the semester. The students explore program, Geraldine Dunn, stated that, possibilities for academic, cultural, and

"our problem right now is that nobody social success. It provides extensive Little House Health Center has applied for these positions and we classes in Math, English, Biology, need the help." Spanish, French and other subjects. The The Little House Health Center is a program also includes monthly lectures multi-service health center which has which provide career information. served the Dorchester area for the past Little House 37 seven and a half years. They provide to page Campus Controversy

Should military

recruiters

be allowed on

campus ?

Stephanie Romanos Kent Worcester YES NO

When U Mass/Boston students go to the polls in the In 1972, in a vote supervised by the Student-Faculty spring they will exercise a unique democratic right. The SAC Assembly, some 70% of students on this campus voted to has magnanimously offered the campus community the ban military recruitment from U Mass-Boston. In a cam- opportunity to vote to subvert the First Amendment of paign led by Vietnam veterans, the main argument used the Constitution. against the recruiters was that there was no way this school Those of us who have taken the time to read the Con- should participate in the debacle known as the war in In-

stitution may be a little confused. But, a student represen- doChina.

titive to the SAC has assured us that such a referendum is It was self-evident at many colleges and universities in "one of the more democratic means of deciding any issue". those years that the issue involved was not free speech. Interesting. Does this mean that South Boston residents are The military dominated the federal budget (three times entitiles to vote on whether or not Blacks and Hispanics more money was spent on the military than on health and

ought to be allowed to live in that community? education combined), they'd had recruiting offices in every It is a valid analogy. We cannot permit such a vote on this town, and they had at their disposal vast sums for ad- campus without condoning similar referenda elsewhere. vertising which falsely offered job training and good The South Boston example illustrates the absurdity of such prospects. a notion. Although the referendum may well be strictly The issued involved, rather, was the nature of the armed

defined as democratic, in it as much as is a vote by the forces; the active role the military played in protecting people, it is certainly not sanctioned under our Constitution. business investments around the world. The military had in- The argument to ban military recruiters from our campus tervened against popularly chosen governments (Iran in carries great emotional force. the So did argument to 1953, Lebanon in 1958, Dominican Republic in 1965) the prohibit the Nazis from marching in Skokie, Illinois in 1977. military had intervened at home against protestors (Kent It is often difficult to accept the fact that in order to protect State in 1970, Wounded Knee in 1973), and the military was our own freedom of speech we must necessarily protect the keeping in power the Thieu regime that the U.S. govern- right of others to express their opinions, regardless of how ment had installed only a few years earlier. offensive those opinions may be. Over 2,000 members of Inside the military no one was allowed to question their the American Civil Liberties Union resigned in disgust over officers, organize in any fashion, or agitate against the war.

the ACLU's defense of the Nazi's right to march. Ap- Clearly, the military wasn't interested in free speech for its parently, they had misunderstood the intent of the First own ranks or for anyone else, and students across the coun- Amendment, the text of which is printed on the back of try consequently moved recruiters off campus. every membership card. The ban on military recruitment is still university policy There is another disturbing aspect of the arguments em- (albeit ignored last year). The recent assembly ban on ployed by the anti-recruitment forces. It is their big brother discrimination, practiced by the military against gay people, attitude toward those students they see as too feeble to only strengthens this policy. The real question is why fend for themselves. This attitude exposes a belief that the should this policy be changed? Yes, the U.S. government is

6 masses of students are either too ignorant to see through no longer involved in Vietnam, but the armed forces may the promises of the military recruiters or too helpless to soon be asked to intervene in a war over Middle Eastern oil

resist their advances. This reasoning is as unsound as it is we claim as our own. The government seems still unable to condescending. Nothing can scare away a potential recruit recognize the right of different countries to develop their as quickly as the connivance and obvious insincerity of a own form of society and their own foreign relations. military recruiter. Futhermore, our well-intentioned protec- Such an involvement would cost thousands of lives and tors are completely ignoring those students who may sin- millions of dollars and would make a nuclear holocaust all for cerely wish to enlist. the more likely. The damage the Ku Klux Klan , example, is in comparision. are far more willing Finally, the recruitment issue is a moot point. If those op- does minimal Yet we posed to the presence of military recruitmers at UMass to keep the Klan from setting up a table in Building 020. By voiced similar concern with other incidents of recruitment excluding certain groups, such as the Klan, aren't we on campus then their arguments might be more persuasive. already choosing which ideas we find acceptable? Recruitment implies an attempt to enlist someone's ser- "All right," ONE MIGHT CONCEDE, "the military may vices or to enroll someone in a program. Are the anti- have made mistakes, or may even be a negative thing. But recruitment forces opposed to the presence of recruiters for isn't it a necessary evil that we need to defend our shores business, religious, anti-racism, and anti-nuclear power against Russian invasion?" Such an invasion seems unlikely groups on campus? Generally, they are not. And when there given the large military capability this country has; the ad- is opposition to an individual group's recruitment efforts on vanced missile and submarine systems, the retaliatory campus, it is characterized by an insidious selectivity which capabilities. The Soviets have no reason to wage a war that only serves to invalidate the very argument expounded. no one would win. A far more urgent issue is the question Opposition to the military recruiters reeks of anti-military of why the great majority of U.S. citizens have so little input sentiment, and nothing else. Whether or not this sentiment into the political and military decisions made on a daily basis

- - concern should not be towards is justified and as a veteran I believe much of it is is not at in this country. Our issue. The application of the First Amendment cannot be imagined troubles abroad, but real problems here at home. ago, UMass-Boston students concluded that dictated according to the sensibilities of a particular state, Ten years the military too large a scale form of legal crime to be city, neighborhood, or college campus. Enforcement of the was allowed on campus. It is more important in 1980 to counter First Amendment would then be left to mob rule. It's a great the recruiter's promises than it was in 1 970, because fewer way to start a revolution; but when they tear up the Con- the potential danger of another Vietnam. stitution, where does that leave the rest of us? people recognize In the final analysis, it is far better to oppose the military now the recruiters, the registration, the possible draft, the increased spending than to find ourselves in another needless war which holds the possibility of world destruc- tion.

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Profits for Prophets

Cults in Boston

By Ken Tangvik

Boston, a city dominated by a

student population, is a prime recruiting area for various international religious As one member of the Unification Church stated, cults. Every day, many young people "This great country, America is being destroyed by come into contact with cult recruiters.

This contact is likely to occur on the feminists, homosexuals, and communists.

main streets, on the subway, or in the Boston Common area. Some cults have established themselves on campuses and have offered free "rides" to Florida. During last year's student occupation at UMB a local cult member started several

fist fights during the demonstrations, which had to be broken up by campus police. Organized cults have also held large social functions at the UMB Harbor campus. An open-minded, adventurous,

curious, or naive person is often enticed to visit a particular cult, and many of these people become "converted" very quickly after undergoing a harsh, intense

process in which various mind-control

techniques are used. Sometimes it takes

only a week-end to become fully indoctrinated into a cult. Traditionally, after a person joins a cult there are three options: he will remain a cult member and give up everything else; quit the cult, often after being deprogrammed; or spend time in a mental institution. During the past month, Wavelength reporters have researched and visited two of the more successful and dangerous cults in Boston; The Unification Church (Moonies) founded by Reverend Sun Myung Moon, and the

Church of Scientology founded by L.

Ron Hubbard. In this article I will describe my personal experiences when

I encountered these cults, and I will also provide some background history of both the Unification Church and the Church of Scientology. Many of the facts concerning the Moonies were obtained from former members. Moon's $400,000 mansion on Beacon Hill. After dinner, my two friends invited had also been invited to dinner. of history and me to attend a "special" lecture that was Using bits and pieces Visit to the Moonies he came to the being held in the house on this particular twisted biblical quotes, the evening. A man named Aidan Barry, ultimate conclusion that the Moonies path to and that Since the Moonies are highly visible director of the Unification Church of were the only true God speaking on "The Reverend Moon was a Christ-like figure throughout the city, I had no problem Boston, was to be With my curiosity in- sent by God to fulfill Christ's mission. meeting them. I was sitting by myself Divine Principle." the offer to Despite Barry's skilled delivery and his reading in the Boston Common when a creasing, I could only accept his lecture was young man and woman walked by and stay. intellectual appearance, in- is young, handsome, full of dogma and contradictions. For asked if they could sit down with me. I Aidan Barry a per- stance, at the beginning of his talk he politely replied that it would be fine and energetic Irishman who is a very no such thing as a they began to ask me simple, friendly suasive and dramatic speaker. He spoke stated that there was stated that sin- questions such as "What are you for approximately 90 minutes to an "miracle," but later on he the Unification Church, he reading?", "Where do you go to audience of only eight people. I later ce he joined school?", and "What do you study?" realized the lecture was being staged for had witnessed a series of "miracles" in They then began to compliment me by myself and one other non-member who his life. saying that I had a good heart, was friendly, and that I had beautiful eye's. Precisely what they were doing was Quotes FROM REV. MOON trying their best to inflate my ego. The woman, who spoke with a German ac- The Master Speaks cent, continued to stare into my eyes as she invited me to take a touf of their "I am the thinker, I am your brain." home, which she said they shared with other philosophy students from around Telling a lie becomes a sin if you tell it the world. to take advantage of a person, but if you

I agreed to visit their home and was tell a lie to do a good thing for him, that astonished to find that they lived in an is not a sin." elegant mansion formerly owned by the Jordan Marsh family. Brilliant chan- "In restoring man from evil sovereignty, '^Sun My^ deliers hung from 30 foot ceilings and we must cheat." every room had detailed wood-work on "All the male beings are in the position the walls. Wall-to-wall carpeting covered "I think we will get on campuses and be of the Lord, while the female position is the floors. There were ballrooms, music successful there first. Once we can parents to our children, whom God can rooms, and also recreation rooms that control two or three universities, then love." had new pool and ping-pong tables. we will be on the way to controlling the They did not show me the bedrooms reins of certification for the major "What we have been enjoying in the that consisted of dozens of sleeping professions in the U.S." Satanic world must be discarded by us bags on the floor; only their director is and returned to God. So, we must deny allowed a bed to sleep on. "We will influence the whole of the U.S. ourselves, our parents, our family our My two friends gave me a complete by influencing the intellectuals first. We friends, and everything else to return to of the $400,000 mansion and then in- are going to use them as the basis for God." vited me to join eight other "friends" the political world." who were casually eating dinner. After "You are in a position more elevated seeing all the food, I quickly accepted "If we can turn three states of the U.S. than Jesus." the offer and began to eat a hearty meal around, or if we can turn seven states of consisting of salad, a casserole, the U.S. to our side, then the whole U.S. "Unification Church members must be vegetables, and coffee. The topic of con- will turn. Let's say there are 500 sons prepared even to marry the highest versation during dinner was how the and daughters like you in each state. Communist staff members in the future.

Unification Church has been persecuted Then we could control the govern- That is, we must be ready to marry even by unfair media coverage. My two ment." an enemy." original friends sat close by and watched intently as they became aware that I "Every South Korean Embassy in the "I want to train you in such a way that knew I was having dinner with the world will become the headquarters for iyou can be mobilized any time, day or an expeditionary force for the kingdom Moonies. In order to appear like a poten- night, whenever I call. I may not feed of heaven." tial convert, I assured the group that I you properly or give you proper sleep. had heard some bad things about the Even then, you cannot afford to

Moonies, but that I had an open mind "We must forge a path toward in- complain." and was willing to check them out for fluencing and ultimately controlling

myself. This made everybody breathe a American campuses." "Everything I do is to train you." sigh of relief. Everyone smiled.

9 After the lecture, my Moonie friends Moonies also believe that the salvation Korea's President Park, and Korean CIA

invited me to stay for the week-end, but I of the female can only come through leader Kim Jdng Pil. According to declined the offer and scurried out the marriage. The day after my con- Congressional investigations, Kim told

front door while they tried un- versations with the Moonies, I noticed the CIA in 1963 that he had "organized"

successfully to get my phone number. several of them attending an anti-draft the Unification Church and was using it

I later found out that periodically, march and rally. During the march, they as a political tool to solidify Park's power. week-end retreats were held at another constantly screamed slogans such as As head of the Korean CIA, and later as

Moonie mansion in Marblehead. It is "You people are following Satan," and Prime Minister under Park, Kim provided during these week-end retreats that they did their best during the rally to in- aid to many of Moon's financial and

many new members are indoctrinated in- terrupt speakers with shouts about Com- political projects both in Korea and to the cult. The retreats consist of a munism. Also, I have recently noticed Washington. Moon's group was the only series of four-hour lectures and Moonies energetically campaigning for "Christian" group in Korea that did not workshops held continually in a carefully Ronald Reagan at the Park St. Station. suffer from former President Park's controlled environment. Each person is subjected over and over again to the dogma of the church. Every minute of the week-end is structured and visitors are allowed four hours of sleep per night at most. Anyone questioning the chur- Moon's Unification Church was a major political base ch's dogma is quickly and effectively that was used to suppress the anti-Vietnam War subdued and separated from other non- members. Group hugs, otherwise known movement in the U.S. Moon ran several full page ads as love-bombing are constantly used to in the Washington Post defending military aid to promote "brotherhood" and to em-

phasize that "we are all one." At the end Cambodia. Unification Church members from all over of the week-end, visitors are put under the country lobbied in defense of Nixon's invasion of extreme pressure to stay, and former members have reported that at times Cambodia. they were physically restrained. One former Moonie reported that the Boston director, Aidan Barry, choked her in order to prevent her from escaping the church. If visitors are persuaded to stay after Background of Unification the week-end, they spend several weeks brutal suppression of free speech and being programmed into the church's Church civil liberties. In 1975, Moon sponsored system of thought. One former member According to Allen Tate Wood, a for- and organized a pro-government rally in informed me that part of her training in- mer leader in the Unification Church, South Korea in which 1 ,200,000 people cluding taking cold showers every 20 "Sun Myung Moon, a 55 year old Korean participated. minutes for several hours and kneeling industrialist; owner of an air rifle factory, Moon's Unification Church was a for 40 consecutive hours under a tree. a titanium plant, a ginseng refining plant, major political base that was used to op- Church members are trained to have and successful real estate entrepreneur pose the anti-Vietnam War movement in complete trust in Reverend Moon. One in the U.S., is also the increasingly well- the U.S. Moon ran several full page ads young Moonie stated, "I have 100 per- know creator of the alleged "messiah" in The Washington Star and The cent trust in Reverend Moon. I would do of the Unification Church. Moon foun- Washington Post defending military aid anything he said, without questioning ded the Church in Seoul, Korea, in 1954. to Cambodia. Unification Church mem- why." Since Moon is considered to be Today the Church claims more than one bers from all over the country lobbied in

God's only messenger, members spend half million members in 50 countries. In defense of Nixon's invasion of Cam- several hours per week praying directly the state of New York in the last three bodia. The South Vietnamese govern- to Moon for salvation. years, Moon purchased over nine million ment paid round-trip fare to Vietnam for During my conversations with the dollars worth of real estate. Under the several Moonies with the explicit un-

in- Moonies, I became aware that the group banner of the second coming. Moon derstanding that they would use the has a definite set of politics. They clearly commands the allegiance of thousands formation they gathered in Vietnam to favor Ronald Reagan for President and of young people. They finance and fight the peace movement on U.S. cam- adhere to the policies of Jerry Falwell's operate a network of front groups whose puses and to generate support for the right-wing Moral Majority. As one male sole purpose is to catapult Moon into a war. The Moonies also visited Cambodia member of the Unification Church position of prominence and eventually of and were portrayed by Walter Cronkite stated, "This great country, America, is absolute power in American politics." on CBS national television as a group of being destroyed by feminists, Further testimonies have also repor- young Americans who had gone to homosexuals, and communists." The ted that Moon had close ties with South Southeast Asia to "find the facts." In

10 front of cameras the Moonies begged for

"more military aid for Cambodia in its struggle against Communist aggression." During the Vietnam War, Moon, with Quotes from Former Moonies the Japanese Unification Church, sponsored the World anti-Communist

League's fourth conference that included a rally of 25,000 people in Tokyo. They will try to build intense, warm Senator Strom Thurmond attended the "History is teeming with men whose bonds with you and the peer pressure conference and the chairman of the con- desire for reform has led them to accept will be subtle beyond understanding. ference was a man named Saskawa. the superhuman philosophy of men like Each night while the recruits sleep, the Saskawa was a facist youth leader in the Hitler and Moon." leaders review what they've learned and "If in 1930's was instrumental in the Moon's movement America about each, where his/her doubts and Hitler-Tojo pact. He was convicted a continues unchecked, soon he will be weak points are. Believe us, behavior Class criminal at able to directly influence A the end of World War the outcomes modification works. After just ten days II and spent several years in jail. of elections." Today of this you're so confused, guilty, he has close ties with "They will start out mildly enough. Reverend Moon exhausted, and eager for their sense of and is the will befriend president of thirteen major They you and give you lots certainty that whatever world view they of Japanese corporations, including the ego reinforcement. Flattering you offer becomes the absolute truth." largest ship-building company in Japan. about your intelligence and 'good spirit'- Reverend they'll invite to a to get Moon was an avid moral you chance "Rebel and they will squeeze your and financial supporter of Richard 'deeper' understanding and continue Nixon. heart and mind till you collapse in tears The Unification Church held a rally of urging you to come. They will use a and beg forgiveness. You may go on over method called 'love-bombing'- only 20,000 people in New York sup- to this way for years torn between leaving porting Nixon during the war, and gain control of you. Once you've begun Moon and staying. 'With God there is personally fasted for their seminars they discover all your Nixon. Moon was everything' they will say, 'and without photographed being kissed doubts and weaknesses through your by Tricia God there is nothing.' So you stay Nixon after Nixon's daily reflections and they split you wide resignation, and he because you've been convinced that publicly that declared that God had in- open so you have no defenses to God is only in the Moonies." structed him to forgive President Nixon. use your own will. After their 120 day Today, the will sign Unification Church has workshops you be asked to an "With a degree in psychology, I was considerable political oath, then you are a Moonie, selling influence. Ac- able to see some of the manipulation cording to candy, flowers, soliciting only The Nation, several female and to used during the process of brainwashing Moonies have infiltrated bring honor to the totalitarian dictator senatorial staffs and the use of mind control. But that did in Washington Reverend Moon." D.C. by volunteering in not stop me from losing more and more the offices and eventually being offered of my decision-making ability.. ..In his full-time "Cut off from the world, you're jobs. U.S. House member own words, Moon discloses the Donald Fraser, led bombarded with attention, excitement, who a Congressional method, 'You must know the knack of investigation into the Unification marathon lectures on great changes Church holding and possessing the listener's had his house burnt down a coming in the world, singing, athletics - few months hearts. If there appears a prack in the after the hearings. The all of it nonstop, with never enough time Moonies also man's personality, you wedge in a chisel initiated to slow collect a smear campaign against down and your thoughts. and split the person apart." Fraser in his home state of Michigan which ended his political career. Presen- tly the Church prints a daily newspaper in New York City with a large, city-wide day on a diet of peanut-butter and jelly circulation. Visit to Church sandwiches. We would work three shif- of One reason for Moon's success has ts, 24 hours a day for 40 days and Scientology been his ability to raise millions of provided 200,000 candles for the effort." dollars. Church members are brain- Here in Gloucester, Massachusetts, washed and forced into Moon has a kind of slavery made several investments in- In order to stay undercover, I slowly to raise funds that support the church's cluding the Cardinal Cushing Villa for walked down Massachusetts Avenue in elite. The following testimony of $1,127,000, a lobster-packing plant a for- for Central Square and set myself up to be mer member sheds light on $330,000 and a marina for how their $650,000. The approached. A smiling young man with money is made. "In August, the entire Church has also cornered the fishing a clipboard stepped in front of me, American Unification Church market in Gloucester. began to Moon recently an- blocking my path as he burst out, "Hi, raise nounced $294,000.00 for the down payment that he plans to spend $200 I'm Mark, how are you? Nice day, hey!" I on an $800,000.00 million to build a estate in New York. Sun Myung Moon stopped, said hello as he stood very This money was raised by young people University system headquartered in close to me and excitedly asked if I wan- selling candies and flowers 16 hours Korea with branches around the a world. ted to take a free personality test. He en- n Left- Scientologists in Central Square quickly assess personality of Wavelength

photographer then make bee-line for Cambridge Headquarters

couraged me by saying, "It's great. You peted office that was filled with shelves

can learn all about yourself," adding that of books. I quickly noticed that every

it just involved a few questions and book in the room had been written by L. would only take about ten minutes to Ron Hubbard. Tom, the director, tried complete. unsuccessfully to make me feel com-

I consented to try out the test fortable by asking general questions and thinking we could conduct the affair on then began to focus on my test scores. the sidewalk, but he led me down a side "Ken," he dramatically stated as he street into a small building that had a stared into my eyes, "These test results sign on it saying, "Church of Scien- are incredible. You have tremendous tology." While we walked towards the potential." The Scientology minister church he quickly fired several questions continued to raise my spirits making me at me, leaving me no time to think about feel like I was the greatest living soul sin-

what I was doing.

"lf a man really wants to make a million dollars, the best way would be to start his own religion"— L Ron Hubbard, founder of the Church of Scientology.

Once inside, I was welcomed by a ce Christ, however he was merely fixing

robot-like secretary and was given in- me up for the kill.

structions on how to fill out the test. I After building me up to a God-like began to answer over 200 questions that level, the director quickly brought me were printed on one page and had to back down to an earthly-level by ex-

strain my eyes severly to read them. The plaining to me that, although I had ex- questions seemed like normal per- tremely high potentials, there were sonality test questions and were set up several obstacles that had to be sur- in multiple choice form. About one hour mounted. These obstacles included:

later I finished the exam, feeling mentally nervousness, anxiety, fear, and an and emotionally exhausted. unwillingness to enter into deep relation-

The bleary-eyed secretary jumped ships. After I had heard this bleak report,

up, gave me a pat on the back and han- he raised my hopes once again by in- ded me a book entitled Dianetics, written forming me that the Church of Scien-

by L. Ron Hubbard, the founder of the tology had special courses designed to Church of Scientology, and told me that eliminate obstacles such as the ones that she would put my test results on a were holding me back from reaching my graph. Within minutes she had graphed potential. With the skill and smoothness my results, and said that after a short of a life-insurance salesman, the director

wait, I could have my test results in- then cleverly conned me into signing a terpreted by Tom, who was the director contract where I agreed to pay $35.00 for

of this particular church. While I their first mini-course that would start on passively waited, the secretary spent a the following Monday. The crafty direc- considerable amount of time trying to tor then stood up, took my hand, and convince to buy Dianetics. me assured me in a fatherly tone that Scien- Finally, my big chance came. The tology techniques would cure me of all director was ready to see me. The

my problems. Of course, I signed a false mysterious questions of my soul were to name and quickly exited the building. be answered. I walked into his plush car-

12 hooked before they realize what is tested that the Clearwater organization Background on Church of " happening . alone last year was grossing as high as Scientology Hubbard continually adds new $1 million per week. Perhaps the best way to understand grades and levels to his method. The There are many different theories the motivation for the growth of the "clearing" course costs approximately about why young people are being at- Church of Scientology would be to $3,800, but to obtain the highest level, a tracted toward extremist cults such as quote its founder L Ron Hubbard. the Moonies and Scientology. Many member has to spend about $14,000. I During the late 1940's Hubbard, then a have a personal acquaintance, a former believe that the Unification Church, with science-fiction writer, declared, "Writing member of the Church who worked two its rigid moral codes and demanding for a penny a word is ridiculous. If a man full-time jobs for three years to finance conduct, seems to offer consistency and really wants to make a million dollars, the his auditing in Boston. authenticity to young people in search of start his best way would be to own in a climate Although he is very clever, Hubbard commitment. Accordingly, religion." The truth of this statement is has not been without serious problems. of permissiveness such as exists in our proved by the fact that presently the Last August, in Portland, Oregon, a jury society, young people often seek models Church of Scientology is grossing an found the Church of Scientology so of authority in ordinary everyday life. estimated million year $100 a world- cults product of a fraudulent that it awarded a 17-year-old Many view as a wide. that thrusts former member over $2 million in decadent, alienated society In published 1950 Hubbard Dianetics, sear- damages. In Florida, The St. Petersburg people onto distorted paths as they The Modern Science of Mental Health, In this very Times has documented a series of at- ch for meaning and values. and by 1954 he had founded the first demanding and confusing world that we Church of Scientology in Washington tacks by Scientologists on reporters and live in, cults offer an ideal - demanding D.C. By 1978 the church claimed to have others who have questioned the chur- total committment of an individual. The 38 U.S. churches with 41 more abroad ch's operation in Clearwater. Included in Unification Church and Church of Scien- and 172 missions that consisted of 5 these attacks were smear campaigns tology each offer an island of certainty in million followers. Reasonable estimates, against reporters, linking them with such an ocean of troubles, and this can be however, are that the U.S. Church of groups as the CIA, the FBI, and the Com- tempting to an alienated individual. Scientology employs 3,000 full-time staf- munist Party. Through these extreme cults, young fers, and that there are 30,000 followers. Scientologists also staged a fake hit- people are given a sense of importance Since 1950 Hubbard has published a and-run accident with a car that was tran- and destiny. Experts agree that any per- huge collection of books, articles, and sporting Clearwater Mayor Gabriel son is capable of being indoctrinated into tape-recordings that have been Cazares, who had openly criticized the a cult under the influence of brain- distributed internationally. Church. In 1976 the IRS turned up $2.86 washing techniques. Whatever the million in cash aboard Hubbard's 320 Hubbard claims that his method can reasons may be for the existence of foot yacht. free a person from human misery. He cults, one fact remains clear: that the Despite these problems, the church says that our earthly troubles are caused elite hierarchy and financers of these 's revenues have been consistently high. by mental images which he calls cults are continuing to make hundreds of The church has bought $8 million worth engrams. Engrams are the recordings of millions of dollars in profits at the of properties in Clearwater, Florida. A painful experiences either in this life or expense of their followers. from a former incarnation which prevent recent defector from the church has at- human beings from reaching their highest goals and potentials. Open 11 A.M. To detect these engrams, Hubbard MEXICAN created a galvanometer with a needle To 10 P.M. CONCANNON a SENNETT dial. A Scientology minister "audits" a GENEVIEVE subject by having the person hold on to MORGAN the galvanometer and answer detailed questions about his/her "present or past" lives. The gyrations of the needle supposedly detect the engrams. ROOAA Through forcing the subject to confront ONE OF NEW ENGLAND'S EXCLUSIVE the engrams, the Scientologists claim to clear the person's memory bin, thus raising both body and mind to a super- FOOD • DRINK & • Tacos • Enchiladas human state of total freedom. • Chili • Many COCKTAIL LOUNGE Toastados experts in the field of mind control and Con Frijoles Etc. brain-washing believe that the techniques used by Scientology ministers are very dangerous. Margaret Thaler Singer, 1430 Commonwealth Ave a University of California psychologist 566-8590 who has interviewed over 400 former BRIGHTON cult members states, "These routines can split the personality into a severe, dissociated state and the recruits are 13 I Que Pasa ?

By Nelson Azocar

Ha sido un placer para nosotros, el que fue declarada por las Autoridades 3. Asegurar a reafirmar los Programas saber que esta columna tiene un im- Locales del Estado de Massachusetts. de Accion Afirmativa, para que se pacto positivo dentro y fuera de la La fiesta "Bienvenidos con Salsa" se cumpla con los Acuerdos que la Ley Comunidad Hispana de la Universidad. destaco por la magnifica actuacion de estipula. Nos alegramos al escuchar los "Rady Montero y su Orquesta", a este diferentes comentarios que nos han grupo tambien se le conoce con el 4. Hacer publicaciones en conjunto traido ideas frescas y nuevas per- nombre de "Elegua" en el mundo ar- que informen y den a conocer las ex- spectivas para el future tistico del Jazz. Esta orquesta esta for- periencias y problemas comunes que mada en su mayoria por ex-integrantes nos afectan. Estas publicaciones Les paso a informar que actualmente de "Los Bravos" y "Mango Santamaria". ayudaran a desarrollar un mejor en- estamos organizando un Concurso tendimiento entre grupos.

Literario en Espanol, el que se dividira en El grupo actualmente ha sido elegido el tres categorias: mejor representante de musica latina en 5. Alentar a miembros de la Facultad y Boston. Esto lo destacaron grandes Administracion en el proceso de recrutar 1. Cuento corto 2. Poesia 3. Articulos diarios como The Boston Globe, The y retener las minorias en las Escuelas, politicos Real Paper y The Phoenix. Como Colegios y Universidades. Para asi poder pueden adivinar la fiesta fue un exito crear y desarrollar una red de in- Se puede escribir sobre cualquier total. telectuales que puedan influenciar en las tema, y tambien participar en las tres deciciones educacionales y sociales, categorias antes mencionadas. A lost Esperamos que en un futuro no muy dentro y fuera de la Universidad. finalistas se les notificara con an- diarios como "The Boston Globe, The ticipacion por escrito y los temas Universidad que tanta falta le hace, y asi, Como pueden apreciar el TWC es una ganadores saldran publicados en las dar a conocer una buena parte de organizacion que presenta y afronta proximas ediciones de esta revista. nuestra cultura a otros estudiantes y a problemas comunes que afectan a las

Tambien a estos se le hara entrega de la Comunidad. minorias. Esperamos de la participacion Certificados y premios. de mas estudiantes hispanos. Otro evento importante, ha sido la Me despido deseandoles buena suerte La fecha final de entrega de trabajos, formacion en esta Universidad de una a todos los participantes en el Concurso esta fijada para el dia 12 de Diciembre. El coalicion de minorias, que se conoce Literatio y recordandoles que el dia final concurso esta abierto a todos los con el nombre the "Third World de entrega es 30-1-81 en la Oficina de estudiantes de U.M.B. Caucus" (TWC) que cuenta con la Wavelength Magazine Edificio 010 6th participacion de grupos como: Imani, Piso salon 091 ext. 2609. Esperamos, que nuestros talentos Ujima, African Student Union, Asian locales aprovechen esta oportunidad American Society, y la Union de Animense a escribir y participar en el para dar a conocer sus virtudes que son Estudiantes Hispanos. concurso companeros (as) estudiantes! muchas, pero, que muchas veces son negadas por la falta de publicaciones en Esta es una idea que todos los Nota: Se hara un recrutamiento para la Espanol. estudiantes debemos acoger, apoyar, Union de Estudiantes Hispanos y el participar y ayudar en todos los PRSU. Se encarece la registracion para IHermano (a) da a conocer tu inventiva, proyectos de esta organizacion. La idea estas organizaciones. tu pasion y tus conocimientos! principal y trabajo del TWC es: IHastala proximal IPARTICIPA! Nelson Azocar

1. Juntar grupos que historicamente H.S.U. Tambien quiero darles a conocer que sufren de una realidad comun, como, se organizo y se llevo a cabo el dia racismo, descriminacion e isolacion por

Viernes 30 de Enero de 1981 la mejor el lenguaje u otras causas. fiesta hispana que se haya dado en la

Universidad en los untimos anos. Esta se 2. Establecer bases de unidad, para asi celebro con motivo de la Semana de la cristalizar las aspiraciones y demandas Herencia Hispana (12 al 18 de Octubre) de los estudiantes del TWC. B

14 If only there were fifty foolproof always a challenge. In fact, the physical virtual prisoners on campus. A majority ways to avoid inopportune encounters and emotional demands met by the most of students claim that they would con- with a professor, many students would artful dodger are often extreme. Many sider plastic surgery if the costs were not be able to avoid a lot of unnecessary students find themselves ill-prepared to prohibitive. An overwhelming number of trauma in their academic lives. Teacher- execute successfully even the most students has stopped using campus dodging is the last of the great taboos; routine manoeuvres. elevators at all because of exit restric- everybody's doing it, but nobody will ad- In Boston, a sophomore student fell tions. One frustrated French major at mit it. In fact, the success of a TD really four stories to his death on Com- Wellesley College enrolled in a Racine depends on the optimum stealth of the monwealth Avenue. The student, who seminar under an assumed name, and student; this secrecy is crucial. was later revealed to have been skipping sported a pair of dark glasses and a wig

The art of professor avoidance is as an American Romanticism class, lost his to class for the entire semester. The old as education itself. Recent studies, footing on a window ledge in the College stratagem worked perfectly with one however, show that as educators have of Liberal Arts at Boston University. minor flaw; she was never able to get become more permissive, the rate of Boston Police investigation produced credit for the course. dodging has skyrocketed. Statistics for evidence indicating that the young man Reaction from professors has been the academic year 1979-1980 reveal that had been trying to avoid an unan- mixed. Some believe that the results of an estimated three out of every four ticipated encounter with his English these studies will force educators to re- students enrolled at accredited colleges professor. examine their policies concerning in- and universities in the United States The rate of accidents directly related completes and related academic issues. have admitted dodging at least one to teacher-dodging has been increasing The majority of professors, however, professor during their academic career. each year at an alarming rate. Although refuses to accept responsibility for what

Furthermore, a startling 66 per cent con- the mortality rate is still very low, it too is they perceive as a student's lack of fess to having dodged two or more on the upswing. The figures suggest that motivation and inability to discipline him- professors. today's student is employing more self. They see this traumatic period as a

Fifty Ways to Avoid Your Professor

The explanations for dodging are as dangerous methods in his efforts to varied as the methods employed. The avoid confrontations with professors. two most common reasons are the skip- This fact indicates a general panic which ped class and the incomplete. The can be attributed to the student's chronic dodger has skipped literally inability to accept an active and decisive dozens of classes. A casual dodger may role in his own discipline. skip an occasional class and never fall far At Bennington College, three studen- enough behind to suffer an incomplete. ts suffered severe frostbite last winter

Statistics suggest, though, that con- when they lost their way in the woods tinued random skipping does lead to in- surrounding the Vermont campus. The completes. students spent two nights in sub-zero Authorities believe that the current degree weather before local police One UMB student claims to spend trend of gross indulgence at most managed to track them down. The time in trash barrels than in classes American colleges and universities is students, who were all history majors, more directly responsible for this epidemic. At- explained that they had run into the necessary stage in the student's tendance is rarely taken after the first woods in order to avoid a history depart- development, and they vehemently week of classes: weekly quizzes are vir- ment meeting which had just recessed in op- the application of the 'blaming the tually non-existent; errant behavior is an adjacent building. pose seldom even noticed; and incompletes Students on campuses throughout victim' theory to this issue. Many agree with the professor of at are often accepted with an attitude of ut- the country are subjecting themselves sociology kids ter nonchalance by both students and daily to severe physical as well as UMass/Boston who stated: "These should have learned how to study long faculty. emotional abuse in efforts to dodge their before they got here. There's no babysit- Academic transcripts ultimately suf- teachers. Most students still refuse to ting clause in my contract." fer from this lack of discipline. But what put their lives on the line. As one Bran- about the side effects? The response of deis coed explained: "I don't mind get- The author's name has been the student frequently manifests itself in ting caught in a stall in the men's room, withheld in order to protect her professor avoidance. Teacher-dodging is but I won't jump out any windows." identity. an art that is sometimes effective, but Technique varies. Many students are 15 Billionth American Waves swell high falling to lick the beach kiss the feet of the foreigner, a bowing silhouette of a humbled man. Pride became an acorn, and withered genius a fragile whip... he found avast grave for his talents and the bottle

to ease miserable thoughts.

The moon bereft of romance, with a broken harp string

on its thin curved bow, provides no solace. The newcomer retraces his steps flicking sand lowly, waves running to embrace the tears

blindly left behind. By Jennifer Stotts-Drmola

,ove Is Not Enough

How lovely are the stars out tonight But they are no concern of mine for I curse the stars and all their worth as they shine down so brightly, laughingly Change to penetrate the darkness and the silence with a billion jeering eyes that haunt me Windblown leaves scatter My mind into memories as if they knew, as if they knew Firey red, my secret so well kept warm rust, mellow gold. Directionless turns If only I had the power I would cast Wandering, the stars, the moon, all bright thoughts green forever into oblivion Pondering the and turn the night completely black While crackling and lit up Into smoke. ' By John G.Hall

By S.E.R.

16 Rune: for a Dancer I once knew

I believe in a god of reverie, With a breathless heart of ruby.

I believe in a god of reverie With recondite eyes of sapphire.

I believe in a god of reverie, With an imagination of emerald.

I believe in a god of reverie, With a rune of precious stones. his shoulder, and in the silhousette of the street lights she saw gentle, distant landscapes rise out of the undulations of the supple musculature of his back. She decided to make a bust of him first-but she had no wet closet and this heat was dangerous-however Jason Her helped her construct the armature and not needing him to pose for the beginning work she soon got started. After the baby went to sleep and the kitchen was cleaned she worked from 10

to 1 p.m. enjoying the feel of the earth, not like a farmer, she thought, whose

whole body stands on it and belongs Studio with it; her relationship with this earth was more removed yet more focused. The small pellets she applied to the areas that needed building flattened into tiny discs at the lightest pressure of her thumb, constant transformation- -Maura D. Silverstein molecular excitement. When she felt sculpture emerged as endless curtains close to the image she wanted she

and crocheting projects. She would sit hardly noticed the crackly dryness of her The walls are the color of unbleached in the evenings waiting for Jason to hands, but when she did-it was time to cotton, a rich, clean creamy hue. The arrive home later, tired and hungry. In stop. She draped the sculture with wet windows are painted a scarcely darker those quiet times she thought of her paper towels and wrapped it in plastic to color with just a hint of peach that baby and the love they had brought keep it from drying out. Jason posed for warms to sunlight in a golden gentle forth in her-the wonder in her gray-blue her as he did his paper work sitting way. The curtains are old lace with eyes, the smell of her skin, and-all the opposite her at the table, and only 20 patterns of stylized leaves and flowers things she'd need to buy tomorrow. days after she had started she was close that attempt to be both, and so are Sometimes she would stop in at the to finished and very happy with it. She neither one. The drafting table is oc- art supply store and after much sear- had to find a place to get it fired of cupied by magazines, a scented candle, ching she would, buy herself a pen of course, but she'd work that out. a basket holding pans, and an old colored ink. Her early attempt at Sunday was excruciatingly hot, linoleum printing block-still unfinished- sculptural endeavors were most always ninety degrees and above. They took a reminder. Watercolor paper, mat thwarted by the constant interruptions; their pink smiling baby and went to the boards, and old paintings are scattered the resulting frustration led her to beach. Little Amanda ate some sand along the floor. For the first time in her unconsciously but forcibly try to kill and was unhappy for ten minutes, but life her art projects will not have to be those parts of herself that were the Lauren gave her a piggy-back ride at the cleared off the table because it's dinner artist. One hot summer she had edge of the wave, and the day ended time or because company is coming or received as a gift from an old friend a 50- with a beautiful sunset. After all were for a thousand other lesser reasons. Her Ib. can of terracotta. The can sat in the bathed, fed, and feeling snug, Lauren new room and large table exist for those corner of the kitchen for three whole uncovered the sculpture to find a huge purposes she will put it to and no others. weeks. Lauren would stare at it during crack on the inside that could not be A room of her own. dinner, and fear would overcome her. repaired. She had been afraid of this,

Lauren liked knowing just where her She knew that with this much clay she why had she allowed herself to believe it tools were. There seemed to be no could work on a bust close to lifesize. would work out? There was nothing she system in their arrangement on the Jason would be a good handy model; could have done to protect the sculpture shelves, but there was one-her system. besides, she had so often wanted to any further. The outside was wet and

She was comforted by the disorderly work on the long clean sweep of his the inside had been drying all along. pile of work in progress at the far end of cheekbones to the chin, the deeply set With swelling pains of rage and the table. God, how many years she had eyes, the eyebrows set on the high disappointment, she took the bust, waited for this. She didn't dare count sturdy forehead. Maybe she could walked outside and smashed it in the them. Feeling hopeful and strong, now sculpt just part of the figure— then she'd trashcan. Walking back into the house she allowed the memory to come. use Jason's back. She loved the feel of she cried and reproached herself for She had funneled her creative urges his back, his skin soft, smooth and being an immature child. She could from art and theatre to marriage and giving under her hands. Often as he lay have reconditioned the clay and started children till painting turned into new in bed at night on his stomach, she'd over, but somehow sandwiched bet- colors for the kitchen walls and snuggle up close and rest her head on ween the urgencies of raising a child and

18 making monetary ends meet, her art here she was looking absolutely ancient. the look on his face when the child was work seemed often a mere indulgence- She looked older than any of the old finally born was something she'd never

"art cannot exist till our bellies are full" folks she had ever seen. Lauren forget. In all respects this birth had been she remembered having read. imagined how Karen would say that this so much happier an experience than Lauren sat now in the quiet of her baby looked so ancient because she had with Amanda-why was this to be her studio filled with the knowledge that she lived many other lives before. She last? had tried to kill a precious part of herself, chuckled at the thought. The small fists Ill but it had fought back slowly and opened and closed in disorganized fits After all these years Lauren still ruthlessly. of movement. Her skin was so new, couldn't decide if that moment had been

II Lauren noticed, that it peeled near the one of premonition, or one of simple She opened her eyes after a deep, nails and eyebrows as if her outer layer decision. She supposed now that she long sleep. Her mind was slow yet clear, hadn't yet found its resting place. had come to the end of a cycle-she had completed her personal journey with the bearing of children. She had no notion at the time of repercussions this would have in her relationship with Jason. He accepted her return to an occasional art class as he enjoyed the

sporadic midnight picnics in bed, finished off with ridiculous smoked oyster-walnut desserts and served on cucumber boats. But then came her odd jobs and finally his own return to school full time. The exchange of roles bolstered her confidence, but un-

dermined Jason's, and he smouldered in

pools of gratefulness and guilt. . His •/ patient plodding and reliable approach / to problems was replaced by spurts of nervous irritability and weekends of long, drawn-out debates over household chores and lack of money. Yet neither one wanted to turn back. A sense of mutual distrust crept into their relationship, and the odd idiosyncrasies that were family jokes became crucial character deficiencies and manifestations of how badly suited they were to each other. How could she spend three hours in a museum, when they could have been home together? but her body under the blankets was so Uncontrollable waves of pride and Why did he not go with her now and inert she felt detached from it. She thankfulness overwhelmed her and then so they could be together? He brought her arms out from under the poured out in gentle tears that fell on the couldn't stand her "artsy-craftsy" covers and decided she wasn't going to baby's face and she flinched. As Lauren friends--they were all phoneys. His disturb the pleasant deadness of the rest wiped the baby's face with her fingers friends bored her speechless. And so on of her. She couldn't feel the stitches she thought. "This is my last baby"; she and soon

and that was fine with her. repeated out loud, "This is the last time I Lauren's first reaction to his leaving The pale, winter-light sunlight was will give birth to a baby." Her heart was one of relief. She could think again. making itself comfortable on the edge of raced and she could hear her own The nights were hard. The sounds that the water pitcher, the side of her bed breathing-where did this feeling come alerted her now she had never even and the pale green wall behind her when from? She asked herself and couldn't heard when Jason was next to her. She the nurse came in with the baby and told answer. She just knew it somehow. surrounded herself with pillows so the

Lauren she had a fine healthy little girl. The pregnancy had been normal, it bed wouldn't seem so empty... but she

Lauren stared at her baby and thanked lasted too long, but they all do in the had adjusted and so had her daughters. the nurse. They hadn't decided on a final month. She and Jason had at- They had soothed each other's fears, name, mostly because Jason objected tended lamaz natural childbirth classes. she couldn't have made it through that to the ones that pleased Lauren-they He had been just great during the birth, time without them... hot tears streamed both thought it would come to them helping her breathe properly, holding down her face and struck the edge of when the new person appeared. Well, her hand, being right there with her, and the table.

19 Women's Studies Women's & Third World Programs Work Together

By Karen Mac Donald

The Women's Movement has often been labeled "a white women's" movement; and to the same extent Women's Studies has often been viewed as the study of white women.

Today there is a great deal of work being done to change this. The main focus of both the New England Women's Studies Conference, which will be held at Sim- mons College, and the National Women's Studies Conference, which will be held at the University of Con- necticut at Storrs, will be on women responding to and working to overcome racism.

There are also several changes in the works in the UMass Women's Studies Program, including the development of a new curriculum on the contribution, culture and history of women of color. The Women's Studies Program will also Director of Women's Studies, Ann Froines be co-sponsoring with the Black Studies Program, a Black Women Artists Film Series next semester. One recent ac- complishment of a work-study student in pie of covert institutional racism which portant goal of our efforts is to provide

Women's Studies Resource Center is a goes unnoticed." They continued, "this workshops and discussions where white ten-page bibliography on women of conference is committed not only to this women can talk about white racism- It's color. recognition, but to actively work against our problem, and we must deal with it fir-

"A Working Conference on Racism racism on a personal level and in in- st by examining, together, our own per- in New England" is the topic of the New stitutions." sonal beliefs and feelings, however

England Women's Studies Conference All conference participants will join in negative they may be." which will be held on February 7, 1981. small workshops in the morning to ex- The conference is being planned by In a recent press release, the working plore racism in their lives. Numerous faculty and students of area colleges and members of this group expressed their sessions are being organized on topics of universties together with feminist ac- concerns this way, "While all members particular concern to women of color tivists. In addition to Ann Froines, Bar- of our community must join the battle also. The afternoon will deal with the bara Smith of the Women's Studies against racism, in the women's educational process and racism, Program, Suzanne Relyea of the French movement we have a particular need to strategies for community organizing, Department, and Mary Helen confront and combat racism, which is a panel discussions on research, projects Washington, new associate professor of barrier to organizing around the issues of concerning racism, and the lives of the English Department, are contributing concern to all women." They explained women of color. to the planning of this conference. Ann the difference between overt and covert "We're hoping that a substantial Froines commented, "We plan to racism:"When Darryl Williams was shot number of Third-World women will par- promote this conference widely and and paralyzed while participating in a ticipate in this conference," said Ann hope many students and community ac- high school football practice in Froines, Director of Women's Studies at tivists will also attend." The registration

Charlestown, that was an act of overt in- UMass, who is involved in the planning fee will be approximately $5.00 for dividual racism which was deplored by of the Conference. "And we are per- students. most people. But when scores of black sonally contacting organizations in the The National Women's Studies Con- babies die each year because of Black and Hispanic communities with in- ference will be held at the University of inadequate medical care, this is an exam- formation. At the same time, an im- Connecticut at Storrs from May 31 to 20 if this is the June 4, 1981 . The title of the conference She concluded, "This class will undoubt- ment, but they are not sure is "Women Respond to Racism." Many edly make a case for Third World femi- way to do it. if the vast majority of of the same issues of the New England nism as a means of struggling against the class is comprised of Third World or

Conference will be dealt with here, plus these systems of oppression." black students, it is possible to conduct critiques on existing research or policy Furthermore, Mary Helen the class in a certain way that would be related to women of color, as well as Washington, who has edited two an- somewhat different if the class was half new concepts and curriculum develop- thologies of writings by black women, white. Each are equally valid, ment in all areas of education to ensure will be teaching a course on black educationally, but are not the same. the inclusion of knowledge about the women writers through the English That's why it is institutionally important lives of women of color. Again Ms. Department next semester. "This will be for us to promote activities that are Froines expressed her hopes that many the first time that our university will have working to involve students of different students will go to this conference: "We two courses with an exclusive focus on races so that these questions can be financial are going to try and make either the accomplishments, culture, and discussed together. And this often arrangements for students to go since it perspectives of minority women or on requires a team-taught course among will be more expensive. We might do sexism and racism in our society and in blacks and whites, or a program spon- fund-raising activities, but we would like the women's movement," commented sored by Women's Studies and Black to know how many people are interested Ann Froines. Studies so that each part can contribute in going and then plan accordingly,- and not through purely altruistic means." please contact the Women's Studies **%, BIBLIOGRAPHY OF WOMEN OF Department at the beginning of the COLOR spring semester. CHANGES IN THE UMASS Doreen Drury, a Women's Studies WOMEN'S DEPARTMENT Department work-study student, com- piled a ten-page bibliography on women

"I understand why minority women of color in the United States this sum- don't sign up for Women's Studies cour- mer. It includes materials on Black, ses in larger numbers. There is a notion Hispanic, Asian, and Native American that women's liberation is for white women. Doreen explains in a letter to the women only. There are fears and faculty some of the purposes of the stereotypes both ways," Ann Froines bibliography;"We are interested in commented. "If we can all begin to con- familiarizing the faculty, especially those front these stereotypes, we wilj get the connected with the Women's Studies message across that the Women's Program with the available literature. We

Studies program is for all women." hope the bibliography will facilitate the "In the past we have hired faculty to further incorporation of material by and teach our introductory course, 'Women about women of color into courses. We and Society,' to include a substantial also have a particularly strong interest in segment on Minority Women's Studies educating ourselves and others who are and from the perspective of a minority Doreen Drury non-Third World people about our woman," Ms. Froines continued. racism, as blatant or subtle as it may be.

(Minority Women's Studies is used here Thus we feel the need to share with to refer to the study of Afro-American, Next semester Black Studies and everyone interested the channels we Asian-American, Hispanic, and Native Women's Studies will be co-sponsoring find the most useful when sincerely at- American women.) "We are now a series of films on black women artists. tempting to get in touch with the dif- recruiting for a full-time person to teach Beverly Smith, a black feminst writer, ferences and similarities between our Minority Women's Studies. This person has packaged a series of films using a lives as white women and the lives of our will be asked to develop courses for the federal grant; for the purpose of Third World sisters." program on minority women as well as promoting a better cooperative relation- As a result, the Women's Studies on sexism and racism in our society." ship between the two courses of study. Department will be publicizing this

This year Barbara Smith, a visiting in- The subjects of the films will be black bibliography outside the University so structor, is doing some of this work. She women artists involved in poetry, the that faculty from other institutions will be will be teaching a course next semester visual arts, and dance. They will be able to use this information. entitled "Sexism and Racism" at the shown once every two weeks during the With the work that is earnestly being Park Square campus on Tuesday free period, and the university com done, we hope to see the elimination of evenings. Ms Smith explained, "The munity is cordially invited to view them. stereotypical notions about Women's focus of the course will be on Third Expressing her views on the co- Studies. Remember to look for futher World women with examples of how sponsoring of the film series, Ann publicity on the events and courses men- racism, sexism, plus class and Froines said, "We need to explore ways tioned here. It is important to homophobia affect the lives of real that we can cooperate more with Black acknowledge and support the work that

people. It will show how these systems Studies and demonstrate in a real way is being done to combat racism. So of oppression intersect each other." that we don't see Women's Studies in show your support and plan to attend competition with Black Studies Depart- these events. Memorandum For UMass Community

The Issue ofSexual Harassment

In recent months, considerable national attention has been focused on the issue of sexual harassment of employees and students.

A university, with its traditional concern for values and for the worth of every individual, has a particular responsibility to provide

an environment which is fair, humane, and responsible. I wish to make it clear that this University will not tolerate sexual harassment of either students or employees.

Sexual harassment consists of unwelcome sexual advances, request for sexual favors, or other verbal and/or physical conduct of

a sexual nature. It is the policy of this campus that no agent or supervisory personnel of the University shall exercise his/her respon-

sibilities in such a manner as to make submission to such conduct either explicitly or implicitly a term or condition of employment, admission, advancement or reward within the University.

Neither shall any agent or supervisory personnel of the University retaliate against any person for refusing to submit to or registering objection to explicit or implicit sexual harassment. It is important to note that sexual harassment can include sexually explicit derogatory statements or sexually discriminatory remarks which are offensive to the recipient or which cause the recipient discomfort or humiliation.

This more subtle form of sexual harassment works to subvert our policy of equal opportunity in learning and in work situations..

This more subtle form of sexual harassment works to subvert our policy of equai opportunity in learning and in work situations. The University will exercise appropriate sanctions against any employees involved in proven instances of sexual harassment, particularly when such conduct has the effect of substantially interfering with an individual's employment or status as a student or when such conduct creates an intimidating, hostile or offensive environment.

Two University groups are now at work establishing procedures for dealing with instances of sexual harassment. Robert John- son, Director of Affirmative Action, and the Affirmative Action Grievance Hearing Board are available to deal with any conduct which appears to violate this policy, particularly that affecting the work environment. In addition, an ad hoc Assembly Governance Committee, the Sexual Harassment Grievance Committee, has been established to recommend a specific policy statement, to develop educational materials on the issue for the University community and to recommend appropriate grievance procedures to the Assembly, with particular reference to the situation of students.

Therefore, all employees who feel that they have been aggrieved by a violation of this policy should consult with Mr. Johnson. Upon receipt of a complaint, Mr. Johnson shall initiate an investigation and make appropriate recommendations to either the Af- firmative Action Grievance Hearing Board or to me. In all cases in which a violation has been determined, immediate and appropriate corrective action will be taken by the University.

At present, students who feel they have been subjected to sexual harassment have three options. They may consult with Mr. Johnson, they may bring the matter to the attention of the Office of the Dean and the relevant College, or they may use normal student grievance procedures (information available from the Governance Office, extension 2268). In all instances, individuals' privacy will be protected and the charge will be carefully investigated before any violation is determined.

I look forward to specific Assembly action on grievance procedures for students during the present semester. It is my belief that the widespread publicity of a governance policy formally endorsed by the faculty, staff and students will have a major effect in lessening the problem. In the meantime, it is crucial that we all seek to establish a working and learning environment which is free of unwarranted intimidation, discomfort, or coercion. Any conduct to the contrary of this goal is deplorable as an abuse of authority and of basic human dignity. Whenever an instance of sexual harassment has been proved, it is my in intention to see that prompt and remedial action is taken.

Robert A. Corrigan Chancellor

22 Faculty Page

Studying on Nantucket

The Wavelength Faculty page offers when you know what it is. If they have tucket, has a remarkable, indeed, a for- thefaculty at UMass a chance to write on chosen to research the decline of the midable knowledge of the history of the any topic they wish, whether it be whaling industry, they can then return to Island and of how and where to find out chemistry, bioligy, history, anthropology the Peter Foulger Museum in which their what you want to know. Mrs. Louise Mussey, tne noranan ot tne museum, is etc. Each issue approximately 2-3 classes are held, and look up accounts of magazine pages (8-10 typewritten double the various ways the nineteenth-century thoroughly knowledgable of the documents in the museum collection, spaced pages) will be reserved so that a Nantucketers tried to combat the Bar and is of incomparable assistance if one professor may contribute an article which (some of them very ingenious; all essen- is dealing with whaling or genealogy. Dr. she/he feels will be of interest to the tially ineffectual). Or they might go to the environment, history, architecture, art, Wesley N. Tiffney, Director of the college community. Please send to, or creative writing, marine crafts, editing, UMass Biological Field Station, teaches drop offarticles at our office - 1/6/91. biography, sociology, and social history. the course on Nantucket Environments, Each of them had an adviser back at the and gladly shares his knowledge of the By Mary Shaner main campus with whom they were to natural history, flora and fauna of the

The Nantucket Semester is for most stay in touch by telephone or mail. Island with those whose projects relate students a period of almost total im- The resources for such research on to such matters. And his assistant, Clint mersion in a unique and marvelously the Island are remarkable. The Peter Andrews, is a marvelous source of lore preserved culture. Students live on the Foulger Historical Museum has a won- about marine life in the waters of the Island, just as Edith Andrews, Clint's Island for the semester and at the begin- derful collection of whaling logs and jour- wife, is the local expert on ornithology. ning take two six-week courses, one of nals, as well as diaries, scrapbooks, and Other museums on the Island-the the history and culture of Nantucket, the other interesting papers. But the most Whaling Museum, the Maria Mitchell other on Nantucket's physical en- remarkable of Nantucket's resources has and the Life-Saving vironment. always been its people, and that is true in Museum, Museum — all are generous about Each student must engage in resear- the matter of research as well. allowing UMass/Boston students access ch on a Nantucket-related topic, and The Historical Museum's curator, to their materials. Indeed, the Nantucket must write a paper (usual minimum: 30 Edouard A. Stackpole, who teaches the Atheneum, the public library, and study Historical Association itself has been a pages) on their findings. They also take a in the old records of the town generous and indispensable contributor Seminar in Interdisciplinary Research newspaper, to the Nantucket Semester. Methods throughout the semester, The Inquirer and Mirror, the month-by-month economic decline of At the end of the 1980 semester, which is intended to aid the students in the Island, and then the gradual rise several students independently told me pursuing their research and producing of tourism as the Island's primary industry. that it had been the most significant their papers. The object of the Nantucket semester of their lives. Their reasons These courses have been carefully Semester is not, of course, to turn were all different-after all, their lives are planned, and complement one another students into Nantucketers, but rather to all different. But clearly the Nantucket well. One result is that the students, for teach them how history, environment Semester has something important to of- perhaps the first time in their lives, find and culture interact and inter-relate, and fer to the student who comes prepared that everything they do is inter-related. to give them tools for the study of to work and to learn in a very unusual en- For instance, in the history course, they cultures which can be utilized in other vironment. Just what that something is, learn how the development of the sand- settings, even those far distant from is hard to define; but previous students bar across the mouth of the harbor con- Nantucket. Important among these tools in the Program have thought it un- tributed to the demise of the whaling in- are research methods. commonly well worth having. dustry; in their next class, they learn of the ways wind and tide built the bar. The students in the 1980 Nantucket Any student interested in learning

When they leave class, they can go Semester represented a wide range of in- more about the Nantucket Semester up on the cliffs at the east end of town terests and majors. Their research is invited to call Prof. Mary Shaner, and, looking northwest, see the sinister projects were not always directly related extension 2641, or to drop by her of- ruffling of the ocean that marks Nan- to their major fields. They did projects in fice, 010-06-071. Hours: Tu.Th. 9-10; tucket Bar, so pretty-and so frightening course in the History and Culture of Nan- Wed. 9-12.

23 Opinion

Closing Out the Poor on Columbia Point

the project has been abandoned since wants to tear it down and move

the University moved out to the Point. everyone out? Let us get rid of it. It was

The Wavelength Opinion page offers The number of red boards on the a bad idea, so let us start all over. UMass students an opportunity to ex- windows of unoccupied apartments has Fine. Except for one thing: people press a point of view on important issues increased yearly, a quiet testimony to live there. and events. In each issue students may the Project's wasting away. Let us erase for one moment the use the Opinion page to develop an in- The Project has been the butt of barrier .between the insider and the depth argument on the topic of their uneasy and unkind jokes. Known as a outsider, the resident and the obsdrver. choice. Drop off submissions at the dumping ground for the city's poorest, Imagine this: You live in the Columbia

Wavelength office, 1-6-91. most needy residents, the Project is an Point Project. isolated blotch of color; an island of You have lived there for years. You Black and Hispanic people blocked off have had to cope with rats and rocahes. on one side by a hostile white com- The elevators are always broken so you munity and on the other by the ocean. must climb many flights of stairs to By Janet Diamond The idea of the Project is inhumane. reach your apartment. If you need to go

A neighborhood dies and the muffled It is an insult to those who live there. It grocery shopping you must travel miles cries of its inhabitants go unnoticed by is used by the city as a prison for the each way on buses. You would take a all but a few. poor, a place to stick people with whom cab, but cabs will not go there and

If that neighborhood is poor, if it is the city does not want to deal. anyway you can not afford it. isolated, if it has been sick and dying for Why then, the outsider asks, should There is no place to work near by and a long time, those that notice may anyone, most of all the residents of when you apply for a job elsewhere and wonder why the cries of anger and grief Columbia Point, mind it if the city now you give your address to a prospective exist at all. "We thought you would be glad to leave this miserable place."

Columbia Point Housing Project lies across an empty, ugly field from U Mass/Boston. Until the J.F.K.

Library came, it was the only other inhabitant of this projection of land which juts out into Dorchester Bay. Yet for those who come to the Harbor Campus, the Project might just as well be part of a backdrop painting fixed against the sky. The only link between the University and the Project has been a vague paranoia that something bad is over there that should stay over there and not encroach on the safety and well-being of the University community. Plans to dismantle Columbia Point Project are underway. Residents of Boston have known for a long time that it was not working. The Bayside Mall at the entrance to the only access road to

24 employer, he becomes uncomfortable. just because they are poor. Rather, one is too important to them for foolish He knows about that place. He does not might say that poor people are gestures to be enough. The uprooting hire you because he thinks you will be a resourceful, inventive and amazingly of an established community must not bad employee: you will not come to tolerant because they find ways to grow betaken lightly. work regularly, you wilhsteal from the and survive under the most adverse On another level, the elimination of company. circumstances. Columbia Point Housing Project must But you have friends and family The residents of Columbia Point be critically examined. Boston is in the nearby. These connections are strong. Housing Project are not pleased with the midst of a severe housing shortage, yet

They have to be. Day to day survival is city's plan to evacuate their community housing units continuie to be boarded difficult here, so you depend on each and turn the area into mixed income up while the number of homeless other a lot. You watch each other's dwellings. And they are joined by families increases. Stories of families kids, help carry bags of groceries up residents of other projects in Greater living on the streets fill the newsppaers those stairs, and bitch to each other Boston such as the Washington Elms weekly and a spokeswoman from the about the frustrations in your lives. It is Project in Cambridge, another project United Way has stated that the problem not easy but you have managed to make sited for total "modernization." They of homelessness has increased a home for yourself. You have painted are unhappy because bureaucrats in dramatically this year and may well hit the walls and decorated your apartment. some far removed corner of the city epidemic proportions if the economy The hallways may be a mess, but inside have once again decided what is best for continiues in its present direction. In this your apartment it is as nice as you can them and most convenient for the city. context can we allow the number of make it. You did not ask to be here, but They are expected to comply; cheerfully available housing units to decrease? Can you have to make the best of it. You and even gratefully. They are not we afford to tear down houses have little control over your life, but that seriously consulted because it is while people go homeless?

little control you have you prize dearly. assumed that they do not know what is The fate of Columbia Point Housing Project Then one day you get a notice in the good for them and because taking them can still be determined. As mail: you have to move. into account will impede the efficient citizens of Boston and neighbors of the A lot of myths exist about public fiow of administrative traffic. Project, the University community has housing tenants. They are thought to But people can not be moved like an obligation to become involved. When UMass first be lazy, slovenly destructive and boxes of freight and ought not to be moved to Columbia Point, it criminal. The conditions of their en- treated as such. What they want is promised to provide service to the ad- vironment are thought to be entirely of simple enough: they want to be a real jacent community. Aside from a few their own making, except when those part of planning which affects their lives. tutoring programs, that promise has conditions are good. They are thought This does not mean token surveys of been largely ignored. Now, when the area to be anti-social, having neither positive their needs conducted by some uneasy is in crisis, it is time to reach across family nor community ties. social worker in an afternoon. And this the peninsula to our neighbors, the Myths like these breed and thrive does not mean a superficial gesture in residents of Columbia Point, and join when people have little or no contact the general direction of some citizen's them in their efforts to seize some con- with those being mythologized. And advisory board. The impact of this plan trol of their lives. these Myths are not only destructive because they are incorporated into the The College of Arts psyches of those victims of the myths, t they are destructive because entire social service programs are based on the and Sciences assumed truth of these myths. ! As long as these myths go unexamined, it matters little whether the now has a program in controlling administrative people are liberal or conservative. The solutions to the "Problems" of these people will dif- fer according to the political persuasion ; Technical Writing Qf the administration. But the solutions will always be damaging as long as the basic assumptions about the nature of (Computer Science) the target population go untested. Programs designed to "help the poor" have a miserable track record and t for further information, call will continue to as long as the poor are the assumed to be deficient human beings. { English Department, 6th floor, Poverty is problematical; it is destructive to people. But the people themselves Bldg. 1 are not problematical and destructive »

25 By Jim Canada and Joy Hoppe Inside The

"We deal with a lot of hidden disabilities around here that aren't visible to others. In a sense everyone is disabled in one Disabled form or another... it is Just a matter of interaction and acceptance."

Bill Pollard, Assistant at Disabled Student Center Student

In 1971, Lillian Ross noticed that blind students, like herself, were having Center trouble at school, and dropping out because there was not a proper support service. She immediately recognized the need for a center for the blind and handicapped students at U Mass/Boston; a center to help them get hold of resources; books, readers for the blind, and other things necessary to disabled persons. Lillian wrote the proposal for and founded what is now the Disabled Student Center. When- it was instituted she became the first work-study student there and continued her devoted service throughout her undergraduate career. After graduating, she became the first full-time director of the Resource and Counselling Center for Blind Students. The center was a revolutionary idea. At the time few schools in the nation had anything similar to it, as its inception was prior to the Rehabilitation Act of 1973- an act which requires colleges to provide equal opportunity and accessibility for handicapped students. The Park Square building was reasonably accessible, and plans were Interview made to provide the same accessibility with Andrea at the Harbor Campus. Schein injuries to multiple sclerosis to muscular The center was a success at the dystrophy... Disabilities come in other

UMass Harbor Campus, and it became Wavelength: Can you tell us who categories also. There are those very popular. More and more disabled uses the Center? students who just can't walk for some students began to utilize the facility and Andrea: The program, when it began, reason or another, and then there are the services it offered. Lillian Ross, the serviced four blind students and has people with what are known as invisible founder and guiding force behind the grown into a community of about one or developmental disabilities. .People UMass Disabled Student Center, hundred students. Their handicaps with invisible disabilities don't look directed the center for two years, during have not been statistically set down yet, handicapped; for instance, someone which time the program continuied to but there are an estimated ten to twelve with epilepsy. expand. After a maternity leave, she blind or partially blind students, one We serve people who come to us. If decided that she would rather just profoundly deaf student, and a couple people need help with something they counsel and so resigned her post. who are hard of hearing.^ There are at come in. I'm sure there are many people Andrea Schein, the current director, least twenty-four wheelchair students here on campus with invisible disabilities then took over. with disabilities ranging from spinal cord that we don't know.

26 "

People just come in to see us if they We really have a lot of education to the Massachusetts State Constitution. need help. Perhaps they might need do in terms of letting the faculty here It will assure equal opportunity for the

It some help with Mass. Rehab, or other know more about learning disabilities. handicapped in the Commonwealth. I

funding agencies. Others might have is one of the things we have to do think it will pass. We've got buttons

problems talking to their teachers, or because it is very hard to understand. and posters and stuff all over the place some others might have academic There's also another group we're trying to encourage people to vote for

problems. They also come in for addressing this semester. One of the 'Question 1.' My personal bent is

counselling around issues related to students who is an alcoholic came in towards advocacy.

felt it In UMass. Some of the most common one day and she really necessary the community, I think what disabilities around here are learning that we have Alcoholics Anonymous discriminates most against disabled

disabilities. meetings here during the day: she said people is not their disabilities but the

Wavelength: Are you involved in that that school can get really frustrating... inaccessible environments. It's not to start too.? So we're going AA meetings being able to use the building they're in. It's the transportation system, the housing system, the education system; the barriers are the handicaps-- not "In the community, I think what discriminates most their disabilities.

against disabled people is not their disabilities but the Wavelength: Do you feel that the inaccessible environments. facilities at UMass are adequate for the disabled students? Andrea Schein Andrea: We do not have a van. Since we don't provide wheelchair transportation, there are several vans that come here and pick up students. The

van that says "The Ride" on it is provided by the MBTA. "The Ride"

does not serve all the people. "The Ride" serves areas of Boston; Brighton, Back Bay, Allston, Fenway, and

Cambridge and places like that. It does

not serve Roxbury. It does not serve

Dorchester, except for this little island.

It's a very restricted service. It's very good for people who can use the van

but it doesn't really solve the problem. People who use "The Ride" have to pay about a dollar each way... People who have to use private transporation companies, the other vans, find their

expenses outrageous: it's something like fifteen to twenty dollars each way.

Fortunately, it is usually paid by Mass. Rehab. We will eventually have to get our own van because we don't have accessible buses to and from Park

Square. Trnasportation is one of the things we will be talking about soon. Wavelength: How does the faculty relate to the students? Are there many problems ?

Andrea: We're working on it. It three days a week. Alcoholics Andrea: The general feeling around depends on what the learning disability Anonymous people, who are students, the Center is that the faculty around is. Some people have such severe will be running them. here is fantastic. I think over the past learning disabilities that they really can't Wavelength: What is the Center's view five years I can only recall maybe five or read. We set them up with readers and on advocacy? six instances where the faculty was tapes, and hook them up with people Andrea: I think advocacy is very having trouble figuring out what to do. who will work with them on their important. We do a lot of work in the The faculty understands that disabled papers. If it is a lesser disability, then we community related to advocacy. I'm students have the right to attend classes work together with Academic Support very involved in it right now. There's a just like everybody else. They really try and try to figure out the best way to deal question on the ballot in November that to understand and figure out the right with it. insures an amendment will be added to thing to do.

27 I think that a lot of times for an individual it's sort of a personal sturggle to

figure out what is fair and how to be a good teacher. Just talking to the faculty, I can see where a lot of them have gone through that personal sturggle... Sometimes they call me up and they speak of uncertainties about

certain situations. Usually I am not too

sure about what to do myself, but I feel

good about their honest approach. I know of other schools where people are

critical of the faculty in this area. I don't feel that way about the faculty here and

I have a lot of faith and trust in them... they've always come through. Wavelength: What about the attitude of the administration?

Andrea: There's a good feeling here. I

have the feeling that the whole thing is Members of the Boston wheelchair basketball team playing the k no big deal. At other colleges a whole lot of people say,"We're getting someone of out place," Jean states, "People out and feels that it is a "definite necessity in a wheelchair? What are we going to there don't want to hear it or listen to it on campus because of the number of do? How are we going to keep them because it reminds them of their own disabled students." He adds, "The safe? How are we going to help them vulnerabilities and they don't want to atmosphere around the center is good

out? Basically, it's not a big deal. If think about that." for me because it helps me to un-

the place is accessible, then people are Bill Pollard joined the staff in derstand the students and their feelings

independent and they can do what they September of 1979 as a clerk, though about their disabilities, and I get to know want and are treated like human today his duties and activities extend far about other disabilities."

beings... I think this university does not beyond this title. He is a psycology major Regina Hickey volunteered at the

treat disabilities as a big deal, and that is and hopes to graduate in January Disabled Student Center for two years,

why there is not a whole ot of publicity and is now one of the work-study

about us. The real big deal here is that Agreeing with Jean, Bill says, "A lot students at the center. all are treated fairly, and for the most part of people are afraid to step over the Gina, a "walkee" in center ter-

that is the big deal. threshold, and it's understandable. I can minology, says that some of her friends

relate to that and I think look at her funny when they find out The Staff most disabled people can; because most disabled that she works there, but that she gets

Jean Gillespie is a combination people were not disabled all of their "satisfaction out of helping people help

Assistant Director and councellor at the lives. It's a transition that is real hard to themselves." She feels the cneter is a

Disabled Student Center, and has been make, but it also leaves an un- fun place and that the students who since August 1979. She came to UMass derstanding for those kinds of feelings." utilize the facility are independent.

after acquiring a Master's degree in Ex- He adds, "This is a place that can offer "People here know their capabilities; pressive Therapy from Wellesley some kinds of support services, some they don't let anyone hold them back," College. laughs, some opportunities to get in- saysRegina.

Jean feels there are a lot of people volved in some issues or campus life; Peter Cronis is one of the students

not connected with the center who it's a place to hang out. It's just like who come to the center, and he is

think of it as a depressing place to be. most other centers here at the perhaps "the most vocal. Of the center

"That's just not ture," she says, "but I university, whether it be the Women's Peter says, "Discrimination! The table is

realize where it is coming from; it's a Center, or whatever. It's just a place to too high!" (Although Peter uses a

sociological thing- the stereotype that come and have a cup of coffee if that is wheelchair, his is substantially lower

people have about disabled people and all you want." than the other students' for whom the

the feeling that all they do is moan and table was raised.) Students and Volunteers groan about being disabled..." Not that Despite this, Peter likes the center. It

disabled people do not feel sorry for Roger Suprenant is a freshman at helps a lot of people, as it did him when

themselves at times, but that it is only a UMass. He voluhteers his time doing a he needed an admissions interview. The part of their lives and not a constant variety of jobs. He tapes for the blind, staff also keeps the disabled students thinking process., "A palce like this gets lunches and does other things for informed of their rights: Peter states gives the students somewhere to come blind as well as other handicapped they have "Great demonstrations!" and talk about those tings without students. Members of the center have picketed feeling uncomfortable, without feeling Roger enjoys the center very much the MBTA and a restaurant, T.G.I.

to page 32 28 29 THE PAPERBACKS, behind in the dust of their departure. upon the wall.

THE PHOTOGRAPHS, Playing out the role of the river - feeling The seasons passed too quickly after AND THE DUST... the wounds from the stones they threw that - and a son was born. Weaving at their own images in her eyes. Lizabeth through some carefully spinning web, By AH Lang accepted all that as Fate - until her own together woman-child and infant endurance depended on the secret they staggered on -struggling through day af-

all shared - those who'd gone ahead - ter day of someone else's lies - and her The trees most beautiful - just before who'd gotten beyond. own mistakes. And Lizabeth got so very winter falls into place. Baked to the And so she tried to follow - follow the tired after a while. Not for sleep - but colors of frozen gold. Tall. Proud of fading tracks of one who was sure to only to let go. To stop all the hunger that having endured. But now most brittle - have the answers - must always have was eating away at the core of whatever most vulnerable to winter winds and known that secret of survival. beliefs she still held on to. She needed a nights - empty of shelter. If they, too, And lost in the following - she had rest - the comfort of arms -(any arms). had that choice, that ability to uproot been freed. For someone to hold her. To let go and themselves - to flee, then would they op- ...Winter came late to the city that cry - for just a little while. To cry. tion for some other than our cruel nor- year. Or was it really not at all? Just as Suddenly all that mattered going theastern climate? Would they make was the last leaves fell heavy from back - to retrace all those subtle steps that decision to add to our deprivation - whispering black trees, the first, faint that had brought her to where she was. our absolute isolation - by denying us signs of spring came melting through - Lizabeth tried to go back - back to find their mere existence that is, somehow, fighting for rebirth like a soldier woun- out if there really ever had been such a our only sure reminder of the spring that ded - whispering false hopes through place as Home. Yet what she couldn't must surely come again? cracked, parched lips - and still no sign of know - wouldn't admit - refused to Would they leave us who are too a reprieve in sight. And somewhere in recognize as truth - was that home was long left alone? the middle of it all, the man went away - what she'd spent these long years run- We all take flight - avoid the cir- taking with him those ragged army ning from. Home was the hand that cumstances we cannot control. Always boots, and that look of flight still behind could never heal the wounds that hand to fail. Always with the sick, sweet sense his eyes - afraid Lizabeth might find out inflicted. of our inabilities still intact. All are gone what it was he tried so often not to Home was a worn-out photograph in now. All have fied to avoid the inn- reveal. Afraid, too, of being trapped a room at the end of a hall than on one pending winter of their souls. Lizabeth within the limits of a thousand lies he even entered anymore - a room that, af- alone remained behind - baked by the never meant to live. And when those ter all these years, still reeked of stale colors of the sunset - with all the warmth last, soiled leaves of freedom fell tobacco. And home had become the of frozen gold. Like the trees - brittle now helplessly from the blackness of com- woman who denied the role of Mother after too many years of decay and im- - mitments he never thought she heard, because of the sacrifices it would mean perfection - exposed at least to the limits Lizabeth could hear her own faint whim- her world curved perpetually around the of her damnation: perings - like the sound of a wounded bottle that she knew would never save He'd had so many imagined lives to soldier - hanging on to nothing more her - breathing in always the distasteful lose track of himself in. Lizabeth had been living with too many losses at than old and dusty air - as she gave him stench of her own lies. Convinced from once, and she could recall - when back his carelessly lent truths - and she the beginning that her apathy would - ever necessary - photographed memo set the man free. somehow - be Lizabeth's salvation. Let- ...And he was somewhere in Pen- ting the little girl go to stumble through ries of past selves that someone else nsylvania by the time Lizabeth thought the ancient ruins of her own childhood had hung upon the wall. So she and of the one thing that might have made nightmares - never knowing that there the man came together to him stay - riding the hot roads back to a might have been a better way to teach decide that nothing about them was way of life he never had been free of. the child what it meant to be alive - or at absolute, and no one else could ever And Lizabeth spent a long tinie - drawing least to want to be. quite define them. And they, each of crazy patterns from the creakings in the And here - one more time - like the them, turned to acknowledge the re- floor that started up where their own grim stalker of somebody's yesterday's flection in their own separate mirror creakings ended - with the sundown and leftovers - standing there with eyes - each becoming the image of the cigarette-smoky room the only ex- downcast and arms outstretched - something the other could never cuse for the tears she never admitted caught up in the wornout need for a quite recognize, and therefore recog were her own. Like a stray cat, she mother as her own child needed her nized only too well. And while the howled at the places he'd once touched - now, Lizabeth cried. Cried for the sound man demanded her knowledge of him, then sent out clumsy, regretting clouds - of a long-dead family's laughter - for the she track of herself. somehow lost too late to smother the sounds she comfort of arms she'd long-forgotten - or hoped no one else would overhear. And never felt - for the musty odor of winter's

it hurt for a long time - living with the stale tobacco, and a father so long dead, Rooted to a life not of her choosing. swollen belly - filled with the child she she'd learned to love a photographed Reaching out to those who'd learned to "realized too late that the man would image only. Lizabeth cried. Aching with run. Grasping only the shadows they left never know of. the hunger for something she knew - And one more photograph was hung even then - she'd never found at home -

30 - and never would. And for the first time, wandered aimlessly past that winter have chosen for herself. Yet Lizabeth Lizabeth began to focus on the shattered and desperately Lizabeth searched went on believing in it anyway. And she fragments of what turned out to be her- within it for some shred of truth to hold went on reshaping it, regardless of the self. These were not the remnants of her on to - waiting from moment to struggle. Realizing now how much she mother's childhood nightmares any breathless moment for the screech of could gain in dealing with the losses. longer. They were her own. the mockingbirds to end. There was a need - not to prove any And she was falling. How easily now, And in the midst of the fear and the longer - but to understand the limits,

belief in in It she began to see it all: cynicism, Lizabeth lost her own even choices. does take courage to Lizabeth was of the dark-eyed worth, and gave up the struggle against let go of the familiar. She was ready to

generation - of stained-glass windows an existence she could now no longer accept that she could never change the

meant to keep the truth from seeping in. acknowledge as her own. course of their beginnings. The man had There were secrets that her mother Suddenly it was her own hand - blazed a trail - thinking she'd follow. And

never wanted her to know - dark-eyed throwing destructive pebbles at the now, long after he'd disappeared, she secrets of worthless love and deep, un- stranger's face staring back at her from was choosing to stay behind - hoping to

spoken, (unadmitted) hatred - of catholic the shadowed image reflected in the find a semblance of the peace he

lies and sacrifice. Empty-handed and river's distorted mirror. claimed to have found along the way.

numb now - never having been taught And one last photograph was left Trying so hard to make the man see - that she must prepare herself for the suf- hanging on the wall when it was over... what she'd probably known all along fering. Numb from failing to get through that she'd never find her freedom in his

the ruins alone - or knowing she must. Three years passed - locked up in the eyes. She never thought of looking for it Desperately needing not to admit to the room with photographs and the dust - there.

years of avoiding those dark eyes - dam- more real than any tomorrow. Yet in the Yet he stood there now condemning ning her own. end, long past any promise of begin- Lizabeth for the truth he'd helped her to And in the moment of nings, Lizabeth survived. She came to find - that going back would never get

acknowledging all failures, Lizabeth learn how to focus on the infinite par- her to the other side of tomorrow. reached for an end. ticles - the crystal-clear beginning of a Standing there still by that door - held

Living in a world that is laughed at by self. And from almost every nightmare, open only by the foot she's kept there to

its own regrets. Reeling in the discovery she was free now. She'd closed the door hold the door ajar (if only by a crack). of words that make no sense. Deceiving on all those faces who never quite un- And Lizabeth could either stay there, or

herself with the safety of righteous in- derstood that she needed to see her own she could recognize the foot at last as dignation and an attempt to feel nothing - or wanted her to. her own. She could turn the handle and

- nothing at all. Lost. Crawling back Yet the wind still seeped through close the door - and take that first step in down into the roots of her aloneness - some unseen crack and - struggling with unison with the clicking of the lock. And with a child she needed so much to save fingers clumsy from misuse - she tried to if she stayed, beating her weight and her

- from it all - knowing from the beginning deny the man his right of entry then, wounds against the forces she chose on- he could never save her. Never getting foolishly realized it was her own foot that ce to separate her from the laughter of a close enough to hurt him with her own held the door ajar. And off in the distan- child she still reached out to and still pain. Never quite far enough away to ce the man stood there - offering her cried out for in the night - then tomorrow mistake the hunger and confusion she back the child at the price of herself. And would be always be on the other side of found reflected in his eyes. the look in his eyes made her understand reaching. But there was still the

And so she had to let the child go - let what had made them lovers (and possibility of surviving the life with one him go to be safe from the deluge she therefore losers) from the start. foot always pressed against today. The could now no longer ward off with false His roots had been so long stationary door itself was capable of changing hopes. Lizabeth had acknowledged the - so deeply implanted into the brown ear- nothing - only Lizabeth's foot in the crack

- - worst of it - had reached the limits of en- th, nothing not concrete not even could make the difference.

durance - and even beyond. And she time's promise of change - could shake It never mattered until that now had to deny the part that most true his so carefully planned foundations (or moment.. .it never made sense - that the

to herself - that kept her yet intact. set him free of them). And Lizabeth had man had sought his freedom long ago

Lizabeth had to let the child go. been uprooted from what little corner of because Lizabeth never sought her own

And it was almost over then. earth she now saw had never been there behind his eyes - that he wanted Has anyone ever tried to account for to grow from. Aware beyond endurance Lizabeth from a past he once helped to their own hunger? Or demanded each of now-known responsibilities. Suspen- create - but only free enough to see it pain be justified? Has anyone ever lived ded in time - through struggling minutes was he who stood there - playing the role to understand the explanation of the - to create (or accept) new earth (old of her savior. Yet remembering now seasons? Those endless and repeated decay). Sealed inside the here and after - what the touch of him felt like - no mat- tales of childhood - now exposed the somewhere to protect the blood from all ter how gently he tried to remodel her words as mere illusion. And mother except the slightest rustling of the choices - she was choosing to never let made a mockery out of Lizabeth's belief unleashed fury - the unnecessary pain. A happen again. And she would never in the worth of her world. What became piecemeal reawakening from the un- wholly understand why the loss of her of the trees' promise of survival? Or the dead. child was the price she'd come to pay for river's rage against the storm? Autumn Still it was not the life she would having said 'no.'

31 from page 28 already members of the team. (They are Friday's; If Lizabeth had been hopelessly both organizations blatantly also trying to arrange other programs for romantic, then she might have seen the violate the equal access laws. the disabled, such as weight lifting.) huttings as well as the pleasures of her They would especially enjoy getting The Disabled Student Center is life as the things that fulfill - the com- more of the student body involved- at located on the first floor of College II in plete, sensational proof that she was in- least in scorekeeping or managing these room 401 . It is staffed from 8:30 to 6:00 events. Bill optimistically, "I think deed, alive. If she was a total romantic, Says daily, and is open evenings for those each leaving would have promised new it will be good for the university. It will who want a comfortable, quiet place to beginnings. But not this time, for never open up a whole new area and hopefully relax. would she fully transcend a life with the attract more students to this school." The center if not just for handicapped They are not asking people to loss of her child. If she was they mystic make students; it is for the entire university the man always saw her as being, then friends with a disabled student or have a community to use. It is a place where joyously disabled student to dinner. All they are she would not have loved as as the handicapped students can come and a romantic, but with the grace and aksing for is acceptance and for people get help, but is also a place where serenity, perhaps, emittina from the not to turn their heads away. Do not be ablebodied people can meet, and get to awareness of a love beyond - even them, afraid if a disabled student says "hi" to know and appreciate one another. The still, Lizabeth was neither. And worse - say"hello" back. It would be nice for key words for the center are interaction both. So her loving, and therefore her able bodies students to come in, look and acceptance. life - had been neither sensational, nor around, and make their own "A lot of exciting things are hap- comforting. She had been romantic judgements. Bill adds, "We are not enough once to hope - mystic enougn to pening around here;" proclaims Bill babysitters here. Once you come here Pollard. classes, the hurt - and enough - at very long "Sign language woman you do not have to live here, or be rebirth of club," last - to that she the AA and the the are know had earned obligated to get involved." of the activities, he says. The right to walk alone - and still have some away There are a lot of people out there center also hopes to print a newlsetter; herself. who can contribute something; whether and the treasurer, Paul Gentile, At last she'd come to recognize her RSO's it be knowledge, experience, or even says the forty members are presently own photograph on the wall. time to make the center a better place. of trying to organize a party with live The yellow, faded pages a paper- You can make a better life for yourself music, which would be open to the back she read once, when she was still just by getting involved, and you can entire too young to understand the word 'sur- campus. have a good time doing it too! But in One of the big projects they are vive' now suddenly remembered and un- order to enjoy the positive benefits of working on is trying to put together a derstood - as the last traces of past the Disabled Student Center people "school supported" wheelchair selves float past disappearance around a must first get involved, for there can be basketball team. Roger and Bill are peaceful river's bend. And resurfacina no acceptance without interaction. out of the ripples at her feet from the pebbles gently peeling off the layers of her sould were the crystal-clear reflections of the people and the places she was ready to leave behind - slowly marching forward now to take their proper dwelling places there before her eyes - as she set herself free.

At last she could put her head in her hands and cry for the first and the last time. Rejoicing in her fidelity to a choice now - not a need. A truth - not a creation.

A poet - not a poem. A person - not a salvation.

Lizabeth was a surety at last. She was a survivor of the paperbacks, the photographs, and the dust.

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It was early April warm Hooky hint spring. The Living, the Dead, the first real of Breakfast was taken and the Still Wounded at a Cambridge French cafe Herbal tea The despair engulfed you, held you, smothered you Tanzanian coffee as the darkness did the night. in a glass melniour with The thought never left you; "Why should I make it? yogurt fruit " cream cheese. I'll get it in the next fight. bagels and A bright stolen day was theirs. We picked through too many piles of bodies we'd made Seven years of marriage looking for a frie n two tow-headed kids to even toy with the foolish idea one major crisis that we 'd live to see the end. and now a work day that wasn't For her the brought Too many nights spent dispatching death day relief with the coming spring. to wraiths that we'd never see, The warmth blurred too many ambushes sprung on and still with you the focus on bitter years to think that your soul could be free. of melancholy marital aloneness and recent questioning; We can spot each other in crowds, in bars, is this what she wants? we of the entwined fates, Set to who shared so much that can't be explained one side and locked away the to one who stayed in the States. for day in her subconscious was the secretly longed for The pieces of friends stuffed into a bag, singleness. blown, not laid to their rest. The yet unproven promise Trying to breathe your life into another of better tomorrows assuaged while his bubbled out of his chest. the emptiness of lost years the pursuit the waning beauty youth. We all have to wonder; "Will I blow it someday, of of brothers as some of my have done?" Forgotten for the day were the Dragged down from a roof or out of a graveyard, missed opportunity and the nagging of still haunted by their days with a gun. too many wrong directions. In their place came casual gentle touching "They" won't help us, unlike our fathers; a hectic charge through we didn 't win our war. clothes racks But don't make the mistake of voicing the query, book stacks "What in the hell did I go for?" street noise and. the security of a day's unexpected togetherness It no longer matters, if it ever did, with lunch outdoors the reasons why you went. at the Harvest We have to help the "walking wounded"; and a luxuriant nap too lives were foolishly spent. many in the reborn sun.

Hooky wasn't new to him - We'll never convince them most fought with honor. doing it together was. Don 't bother. Just let it slide. For too many long days and nights But don't let them call you coward or junkie, he too had known the emptiness of those who weren 't still have their pride. their marriage. His misplaced priorities had built We made it. We're home. We're safe, a mounting storm of unfamiliarity but some still live with the dread that broke with a late summer's vengeance that they are not worthy of the same honor and violently wasted away his illusions. given to those who are dead. Now in the fragrant first breezes of spring the decision to rebuild "They" made a mistake. "They" made us the scapegoat, took form. after making sure we couldn 't have won. He could listen to her meaning, The young have seen this. They don't think as we did. enjoy the unprovoked ease the day Who will "They" get to fight the next one? of and see his shadow of insecurity David V. Connolly By fade in the new year's sun. By Ed Winbourne

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Untitled

"No goodsir." people. I am thrust into a space of

Assorted voices were emerging from sacred brilliance. I hear voices and By W. Kevin Wells beneath the now graying masks. How singing. Thousands of people

odd that I could hear their voices but I singing. ..Julia... I hear her and after a Dark gray-into light. Slowly awakening, could not see them speak-just pieces of moment I see her. She is bathed in the growing lighter. The dawn of my faintly moving cloth. Gray again. The glow of the singing. She is singing also. mind growing light. Crashglaring stir of voices and sound, slowly fading... I reach for her, but suddenly an electric white. White cloth. White tile. White I can't see any more. I hear and feel only shock rips through my mind. Searing faces, peering through white masks. my heart. It thuds mercilessly through white heat, and all is black once again.... Anxiety, in etched lines around eyes my body, getting gradually slower but All is silent. The black is slowly fading dart which nervously one to another, loud, still very loud. into gray again. My heart is again exchanging meaning unknown to me. julia. . . julia I need you, julia. . . What beating as if to announce my entry into

I could see it all very clearly for a mom? no, this fading land of gray. I hear voices

moment-shiny steel instruments lying I can't find it.. .call miss west.. .don't again. ..the white people. "He's back— on a tray deviously winking at me from worry dad, don't worry... My thoughts we got him." My eyes are open and I brilliant under the coldly illumination. rushed through my mind-disheveled see masks and eyes. It hurts. Red cloth hurriedly memories soaked strewn in connected-reviewing my life After a while, the masks become made piles on a table. White smocks- like faded pictures in a family album. fewer, and the smocks gradually leave. flecked with tiny droplets of shiny Grayer. Satisfied masks discuss my life with I'm crimson. slipping. My inner eyes see detached tones— "Good job." blackness. "Where am I" I tried to speak but ..julia, julia. ..My heart has 'Thanks."

throat felt it in a vise. stopped. I my as though was realize that the blackness has "Too bad about the girl."

It arrived, rushing became gray again. Fading. . through the gray, "Yeah, really." enveloping In "He regained partial conciousness for a me. the black, I see a light left alone with the faint hum of moving few seconds Doctor." toward me at an incredible machinery... and my life. ..julia

"I see, what about the girls?" speed. I hear voices but not of the white

34 from page 3

The appropriation, which has yet to 18 and 24 it's better than 35 percent. On "We always hear that we should pull be issued, provides for the construction average, our people are three years ourselves up by the bootstraps," said of a 3000-student facility in the South- behind the rest of the city in terms of Senator William Owens (D-Mattapan), west Corridor of Boston, between education. We are in a situation where "but for the past ten years we've been Roxbury Crossing and Jamaica Plain. we can improve things by creating a asking for the college that will allow us The funds will also allow the college to college that people don't feel in- to do just that and the state's response move to an improved, temporary site timidated to go to." has always been no." until the new Southwest Corridor Crucial to the legislative success of Charlene Cozzler an RCC graduate building is complete. the measure was the support of Speaker now enrolled at Harvard University, Roxbury Community College officials of the House Thomas McGee and faced a Senate Panel and issued a grim claim that the South-West Corridor site Chairman of the Senate Ways and warning. "Any attempt to strip Roxbury will become an ideal educational Means Committee Chester G. Atkins. of its educational heritage and its only in- complex. The school, if funds are Both legislators acted as point men in stitution of higher learning is to be released, will be bounded by Boston the debate. McGee assured passage in viewed as an open act of aggression," English High School on one side and the House by speaking for the proposal she said. Latin High School on the other. In himself and Atkins kept the thirty million However, since King signed the addition, the Humphrey Occupational dollar appropriation in the budget, Capital Outlay Budget, included which Center and three institutions of higher throughout the deliberations in the funding for a new campus, the clamor of education are located in this area. Ways and Means Committee. public opinion has quieted. "I think that this could be the finest Meanwhile, RCC remains in a multi-racial, multi-ethnic, multi-cultural Programmed to Fail crumbling, overcrowded building. No educational facility in the country," said Controversy is not new to Roxbury indication as to when, or if, the bonds Rep. Mel King, who also fought hard for Community College. its very will be released has been made by the funding. At beginning, when the school was King's office, and the future of the In the legislative debate over funding. scheduled state's only predominantly Black and King, Bunte, and Cambridge to be an arm of Mass. Bay Community College, split Hispanic college remains uncertain. Representative Saundra Graham played a developed between the Regional Board of Com- munity Colleges and the local Roxbury Advisory Council. According to Rep. "We always hear we should pull ourselves up by the Mel King and Boston School Com- mitteeman John O'Bryant, both bootstraps but for the past ten years we've been veterans of those early clashes, "The asking for a college that will allow us to do just that RBCC programmed the college to fail." " and the state's response has always been no. The appointment of RCC's first president, Lawrence Johnson, had been

opposed by the advisory council, in- Senator Bill Owens tensifying the split between the community and the all-white board. Johnson, lacking the support of his own constituency, was fired three months School's Supporters important parts in gaining support in the into the college's first semester, and for House. Their effort peaked just as the the remainder of the year RCC floun- "Never Recognized" 1980 session came to a close, and law dered with a temporary president at the "The history of the effort to have a makers anxious to adjourn decided to helm. new campus placed in Roxbury is a long back the measure. For two years RCC limped along interesting one," and said Rep. Doris Senator Bill Owens initially raised the without a permanent president. The Bunte, one of the school's visible most issue on the floor of the Senate. By school moved from its original location supporters in the State House, "I think instituting a series of parliamentary on Blue Hill Avenue, a former the reason that this campus has never procedures, Owens tabled a number of automobile showroom, to its present

been built is because we that support it motions under debate in the Senate, site on Dudley Street. In 1974, the have never been recognized by the thus forcing the RCC issue to the college's second president, Walter powers that be." forefront. Smith took office, but he to failed to Bunte, together with other members "I think it opened up dialogue and stabilize the school. After only two years of the Black Legislative Caucus, increased communication, and without Smith left for a job at Florida A&M and president of the Senate William Bulger that I don't believe passage was another interim president took over. and Speaker of the House Thomas possible," Owens said. But in 1976, with the school still McGee, were key figures in steering the "The unemployment rate in our area staggered from a series of crises in thirty million dollar appropriation is up 16 percent across the board," leadership, the college faced its most through the House and Senate. Owens added. "Among males between divisive fight. Just as it appeared that

35 the long-awaited construction of a new J. King proved to be yet another campus would become a reality, a stumbling block in the path of RCC's schism in the college community growth. Shortly after taking office, King

developed over whether the new suspended all new construction on campus should be located in Roxbury or college campuses across the state in an Untitled Mattapan. For over a year the conflict attempt to save money in the higher divided the college, threatening its very education system. The funds ap- Every February propriated existence and stunting its growth. under Dukakis were frozen I pass the days Finally, the Regional Board voted to by King, dashing hope for immediate as if I were waking construct construction of the a new 3000 student facility in Southwest Corridor in a strange room. the Southwest Corridor. campus. Memories of sweet green plums, Following the board's decision, things Since that time the issue and the Puerto Rican rum began to future of the state's only college move. Two and a half million and touches in the dark, dollars was appropriated by the dedicated to the education of minority ft icker across the wall legislature and the and Third Dukakis World Students has remained of my winter morning. Administration clouded. to begin planning and I mindlessly burn toast, developing the site. Today stands ready to new The college RCC move forget to turn the gas up hired Haskins as president. His im- ahead. The once crippling divisions in under the coffe pot, mediate task was not easy. the college community have been He was I smell the rich Columbian coffee expected to pull the school together mended, the legislature and Governor and you used to make, close my eyes prepare for have approved funding for the move to the Southwest a new and recall the scene Corridor. campus and a competent president is of your curling black hair. Haskins, a former faculty determined to build a first class college member at While all the world the Harvard Graduate in Roxbury. But without the bonds School of lies numbly, you sprout Education to begin construction, which the and former Superintendent of needed like a fresh bud within me. Schools in Washington D.C., was in- Governor's Office can withhold instrumental in unifying the divisions that definitely, a new Roxbury Community gleam in the eyes of J once split the college community dnd college remains a By Norma Reppucci united its different factions behind the those who support the college. move to the Southwest Corridor.

But the election of Governor Edward J

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from page 5 Mary began her relationship with the "When you work in a community SBNH during her freshman year at agency that has a lot of direct service in 1973-74. After working an Student Veterans Union UMass as programs going on, even if you're not assistant gym instructor for one year, directly involved with each program,

The Student Veterans Union is a she began to coordinate all female gym you see what is going on and you registered student organization at the activities. Eventually Mary moved into become stimulated," states Mary. She

Harbor Campus. The money it receives the social service area doing some adds that, "you have to realize that you

from the SAC is used for its yearly Toys counselling and outreach work. "I was are never going to make a fortune in for Tots drive. The Toys for Tots pro- involved at UMass with the Student social service. You sometimes feel you

gram is activated each Christmas holiday Urban Social Service Program (SUSS) are working twenty-four hours a day. season in order to help provide toys for which was for sociology majors. In the When you are responsible for people, needy children. program we had to give fifteen hours you don't check out at five p.m. and

forget about it. If someone in the neighborhood has a family problem or death

or there is a crisis you are responsible to

look at it and respond. Sometimes you

wonder if it's all worth it and then, say, a school or parent calls to say that the help their children are receiving has worked and they are doing better in

school, that makes it rewarding. It gives you the drive to go on." Mary Nee also stated that work-study students are very important to the functioning of her organization. "Quite honestly without work-study, without Community Action, without a number of these things a lot of our programs just

would not run. If it weren't for the work- study students we couldn't do as much

as we do. They really are essential. It is a

lot more than just cheap labor. I don't

look at it in financial terms at all, that's not the whole ball of wax. When Mary Nee, Assistant director of the Waiting for the after schoolprogram to begin. working with youngsters, college South Boston Neighborhood House. students become role models in their eyes. They are not their parents or teachers, and they feel comfortable return college per week in social service work. I did my working with them. In West Broadway Multi- work here running two adolescent students gain exposure to social ser- discussion groups for girls. The field vices. They learn how to deal with Service Center work I did for the Sociology Department people and get practical teaching ex-

This program is a youth service agency gave me the experience and credibility perience." Mary Nee is one person for teenagers: It provides a wide range that persuaded people to give me jobs in whose work in community programs on of services including court advocacy the field." the college level has proved to be in- employment help, counselling, educational services and cultural enrich-

ment programs. Student workers in this program are funded by the SAC and fill "Ifit weren't for the work-study students we couldn't a variety of positions such as coaching athletics, informal counselling and do as much as we do. They really are essential. tutoring. UMass student involvement is a vital Mary Nee part of all of these programs, and often the experience gained can lead to permanent careers in social service. One

UMB graduate whose committment to Presently, Mary Nee is the Assistant valuable in her career field. UMass community work has lead to a full-time Director of the South Boston Neigh- students are currently gaining ex- job is Mary Nee of the South Boston borhood House, a job which includes perience in the field. One of them is Neighborhood House (S.B.N.H.). much more than adminstrative work. Ginger Southern.

37 Even under the limited money honor of UMass students was going to conditions SAC works with Ginger feels be a way of thanking them for reaching that Community Action has an im- out into the communities and doing

portant place at UMass. "If only ten service work. I found out that often students go out and give their time and students give much more time than they

effort it serves to make the whole are actually paid for. And when students UMass student body look well in the give that much effort and commitment

eyes of the surrounding communities. It the rest of us at UMass should respond shows we are putting something into to what they have done and say thank the communities, that we are not you. It's what they do out there that makes the rest of us look here. I'm forgetting where we came from. I think good still hoping to have the dinner. I'm that if we didn't go there, if we turn our Man looking into the possibilities of fund- "tfhen God Created backs on the community, we are defeating the whole purpose of having a raising events to get the money to put it Only Js ...She Was working-class oriented university at this all together." I Kidding" end of the city. What is .the sense of In the final analysis, it appears that

being able to take advantage of all the the SAC funded Community Action Ginger Southern, opportunities here, if we can't go back Program is both a way of reaffirming the SAC Community Action Chairperson. out there and teach someone else that a University's commitment to the city of

higher education is within their reach, Boston and allowing students to gain

Ginger Southern is a member of the that it can be done?" practical experience that helps them

Student Activities Committee. She is market their skills once they leave also the Community Action sub- committee chairperson. Ginger stated that she asked to work on the Com- "It shows we are putting something into the community Action sub-committee because munities, that we are not forgetting where we came as she puts it, "when I lived in Dor-

) chester, which was all my life until the from." „ , Ginger Southern past few months, I was very involved in

community work. I helped tackle a number of problems ranging from gangs Ginger Southern notes that her work UMass. All sides agree that these in the streets to setting up day care on this committee is very time- programs serve very real needs, but

I all programs. felt that I could best serve consuming, but as worth while a faced with cutbacks from fronts the the students that elected me by using learning experience as sitting in a future of these programs and UMass's skills in this is indeed in my area." Ginger Southern classroom. "I've had to write when I commitment to them feels that her efforts to expand the haven't wanted to. I've had to run question. Only time will tell whether Community Action Program Action remains an integral have been meetings when I am unsure of my Community

made easier through the work of last abilities to run them adequately and it's part of campus life through the 1980's. year's chairperson Barbara Joyce. all been to my advantage to develop "Barbara Joyce is responsible for these skills." The only regret that Ginger getting many of these programs funded spoke about with her work in Com- and underway from our end. She fought munity Action is that her planned very hard in SAC for Community Action Recognition Dinner for program and I really believe she is responsible for directors and UMass student com- the solid foundation I'm working on. munity workers may not happen this She lot deserves a of credit and thanks." year. "This proposal for a dinner in S

l/ravelettgtji In Memory of Jim Sweeney

By Bob Crossley and Mary Shaner ce. We do not, therefore, list posts he I did not dream then that those great held, honors he won, or services he per- lines about the helplessness of frien- James Sweeney was a member of formed for the University, although he dship in the face of death would the English department from the time was a member of the original someday be more than poetry to me. UMass/Boston was founded in 1965. He UMass/Boston faculty, and his record One day at the Park Square campus, I was an authentic Bostonian and, in many here is a long and honorable one, a sort was chatting with a bright student from ways, a prototype of the sort of student of history in piccolo of this school. my medieval period course, and learned this university was specifically designed Rather, we speak of him as we knew that the boy, a junior, had previously to serve. He was raised in South Boston him, a warm, witty, intelligent man, a been a student at Northeastern. "Why and belonged to the first generation in dedicated teacher, a loyal friend, a did you transfer here?" I asked. his family to complete high school barely

devout Catholic. "Because I heard that Jim Sweeney was twenty years old he fought on Jim and I were neighbors on Beacon a fabulous teacher, and there sure wasn't Guadalcanal in World War II and found Hill when I first came to Boston ten years anybody like that at Northeastern," the resources to go to college, and even- ago. I had never lived in a large city replied the student. That answer may tually graduate school on the G.I. Bill. In before, and I found almost everything well have been a slander on Nor- the early sixties he was on the faculty at about Boston frightening-the crowds, theastern, but it was certainly the ab- UMass - Amherst, but transferred to the the noise, the characters on the odd solute truth about Jim as a teacher, as I Boston campus at the first opportunity. It common. Jim loved Boston much the have since heard many testify, and it was a homecoming. He once said of same way Samuel Johnson loved Lon- illustrates the way Jim's reputation as a Amherst, "Any place without sidewalks don, and, walking to and from the Park teacher spread abroad among the is immoral, "and he cherished the vitality Square campus, he told me about the college students of Boston. Bob and humanity of the city. On campus he city as he had known it from boyhood, Crossley tells a similar story. I happened had a durable reputation as a teacher some of the ex- and I began to catch on a shopping expedition Bob's first and,, for many alumni, the Shakespeare citement of the place and to see why he Christmas in Boston. These are Bob's courses in particular persist in memory found it beautiful. The panhandlers, the words: as occasions of great feeling andjoy. winos, the shopping bag ladies, the "I wrote a check at Jordan Marsh On October 3 friends, colleagues, recruiters in Scientology the public Gar- and gave it to a cashier along with my students, and alumni gathered for a den -all of whom I found rather alarming UMass faculty I.D. card. The memorial service of music, poetry, and - past Jim clearly enjoyed, sweeping saleswoman looked at it and me and dramatic speech to commemorate Jim them with panache, rebuffing most with asked rather doubtfully if I was in the Sweeney's contributions to the life of good humor, but the shopping bag same department as Jim Sweeney. I was U. Mass.-Boston. Chance/lor Robert ladies with gentleness and the Scien- startled; this was the first time I'd heard a Corrigan provided an initial grant of $500 tologists with caustic wit. Clearly, to him member of my faculty mentioned by to start the James G. Sweeney Memorial as to Auden, "The crowds upon the name outside the University's boun- Fund whose purpose will be to build a were fields of harvest wheat," pavement daries. 'I took a course with him once,' permanent collection of Shakespeare and the nature of the harvest provided she said. 'He was the best teacher I ever films for use in the classroom. The fund him with food for endless speculation. had.' I had seen Jim Sweeney in an of- honors both Jim Sweeney's extraordin- loved books and music, and was He fice just down the hall from mine, but I ary service as a teacher of Shakespear not an English professor whose tastes had niver guessed that he was famous. and his personal love of theatrical were narrowly limited by his field of "Famous" is not an overstatement. performance. Individuals among the specialization. In music, his knowledge During my nine years here I've heard his student body, alumni associations, so far exceeded mine that I could only name mentioned more often outside faculty, staff, and administration who listen to him with admiration, but about UMass than that of any other member ol wish to make a tax-deductible contribu- books we had many tastes in common, the faculty." tion to this memorial may send a check for the mysteries of Edmund Crispin to to the English department made out to the odes of Horace. I remember one par- Bob goes on to say, "Students the University of Massachusetts— ticular conversation when I learned that remain fiercely loyal to him; he used Sweenev Fund. Jim, like me, admired A. E. Housman's sometimes to sigh and roll his eyes over The following is the text of the in old-fashioned but pleasing translation of the number of odd and peculiar students memoriam address written and delivered Diffugere Nives, especially the last stan- who attached themselves to him and by Prof. Mary Shaner of October 3: used him for consolation and support; he We have come today to remember Jim za: combined the roles of priest and Sweeney, our colleague, teacher, and Night holds Hippolytus the pure of stain, therapist for numbers of students who friend, who died on August 12th of this Diana steads him nothing, he must stay. And Theseus leaves Pirithous in seemed to find his effective sympathy, year. Bob Crossley and I, with the help of the unfailing good humor, and patience sour- many of Jim's friends, have written this chain ces of stability. Several years ago a in memoriam from personar reminiscen- The love of comrades cannot take away.

39 cestry. Jim stopped me firmly. "Mary,"

student who threatened suicide and a receptionist if she had some in- he said, "You can talk about the issues

posed a danger to himself and others on formation about patient James all you like, but you can't insult that man

it campus proved intractable to any help or Sweeney. She gave to me, paused, to me. He is a friend of mine." I loved

intervention. and then asked: "Is that by any chance Jim for that remark as much as I had

Finally, he was asked if there was the Mr. Sweeney who teaches English at ever loved him for the many good things

anybody on campus whom he would UMass/Boston?" I shouldn't have been he did for me. I knew that he would allow to talk to him. He said there was surprised; his students were everywhere. protect me from insult and malice just as

only Prof. Sweeney. This was during But I was too surprised to do more than he was protecting that other person, for I Jim's sabbatical. He was called at home, just nod my head. And then she added, was his friend, too.

remembered having taught the student a in her wonderful Boston idiom, 'I had No memory of Jim Sweeney could couple of years earlier in freshman com- him for a teacher once. He was great.' In- be complete without mention of his position, and immediately called a taxi deed, he was." brilliant wit. He could send classes into and came to campus. The student But as Jim's teaching was special, so stitches, break up dull committee trusted him and gave up his knife. Not was his friendship. He was the one per- meetings, or add sparkle to a gray day,

that Jim should be thought of as having son I have ever known who consistently with a single sentence, sometimes dry, had a special ministry to troubled studen- obeyed St. Paul's admonition to "rejoice sometimes whimsical, but always

ts. A great many perfectly ordinary with them that do rejoice, and weep with authentically witty. Nor was it ever for- students signed up for his courses in them that weep." He was quick to put ced. His humor was natural and easy, composition and drama and aside his own pleasure and respond with completely a part of himself. He was a in Shakespeare and became converts. (He compassion when a friend was sad or born raconteur, and I remember dozens

always aimed to convert— whether trouble; and he was as happy over good of amusing stories he told me that I shall

students to Shakespeare, colleagues to fortune come to one of us as if it had probably be re-telling less well, until I die.

the ranks of non-smokers, or fallen-away been his own. Although I am sure Jim wouldn't Catholics to the true fold— and the He brought his own intransigent in- mind that our memories of him in-

proselytizing was always done with such tegrity to friendship, as I learned. One termingle mirth and sorrow, we have

a disarming lack of pretension, such day I walked back from a College II found those stories just too funny to tell needling wit and grace, that one was faculty meeting with Jim. A faculty on this occasion, and so will only remind

always charmed and delighted, if not at member from another department had ourselves that, of the many things he

last converted.) made me angry in the meeting, and I gave us, laughter was his great g\H. Earth last visits to tne During one of my was remarking forcibly on the man's lie lightly upon him. God rest his loving,

hospital to check on his condition I asked views, probable morality, and likely an- laughing soul.

A Number

It would come to us if I would let it come for all the world to be our wedding since we are the dreams of their televisions in the mornings when our breakfast presumes their porches and your soft beige fleece of underthings drifts like snow around their bathrooms All this I can know now since our nightingales have taught their children to sing— as I would only know my own death-wish. I think you can see now the debt they must owe us.

Boats on backs of dolphins I used to pray that you would like to be with me return each evening, full of fish, that you would let only me explain all the vast forest scandals songs of outlaws outfly the hungry tiger and whenever you wanted to above the eaves fly above the forest roof; that you would want to fly only with me I, myself, and I dreamed of explaining which mushrooms were friendly rest and watch the underground oceans come and go and which ones would make you old and lonely. in tides across the drawbridge below as a million ages grow in my eyes and nerves But I know now and I wait until the world will finally learn that you heard only other voices it has become allright soft mimicking gods that you kept very strange to me to return to us our one-time wedding. who bargained for your virginity with cold practical sense and insured your immunity from my despised need By Peter McGaffery until you returned to them without me.

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